#i wont forgive her

[heavenly-kazee]

I feel this quite a lot.

Anger, resentment, malice, sadness, loneliness, neglected and spiritually taken away from faith.

It hurts a lot. I've watch my mother slowly ripping my relationship away from God.

They were my freedom and that inner child of mine was taken away.

I forgotten to act like a child again.

For the first time in my life, after I turned 18 years old, I finally ended my words with a simple answer:

"I wish my mom died, my love for education and learning wouldn't be this detrimental."

Three Years Lost to Depersonalization— a eulogy.

All these years.. I've let You bury ME

I watched as You possessed ME

You stole MY mind, MY body

You took ME

Made ME weak, made ME small enough to fit inside Your cage

and then You threw away the key.

I'm sure You thought it was easy…

Truth is, it was.

Not because You were stronger, but because I let You…

I was tired of fighting.

How was I to know You'd be such a fucking bitch?

You turned me into someone I hate.

You tortured ME.

Drowned ME in shame... guilt… disgust

You filled MY life with such putrid misery, and enjoyed every second of it.

But guess what?

All those years, I was sharpening my teeth.

Leathering MY skin.

Breaking MY bones—

turning them into weapons.

Planning Your execution.

You thought You had won

But I was never fully gone. You never fully had ME.

It just took ME a while to catch MY breath.

So... I hope You had fun while it lasted…

Cause now?

Now… You die

I’M the monster You thought You were.

I’M the one to fear.

[iooiu]

the ginger ever and her trashcan best friend

[a-dauntless-daffodil]

@val-the-bun hits me with a padded sledge hammer in the feels with the wereharpy vaggie au thanks for that once again i inflict this ask on others as a coping mechanism >:C

val-the-bun asked:

Charlie can see the claw marks on Vaggie's side, golden blood, *angel* blood, dripping onto the floor... Her grip on the spear is shaking.

'Did you ever believe in me, Vaggie?'

Another shriek, weak and *crackling* is her only answer. Vaggie's talons fall, and she almost *leans* into the point of the spear. She can see the tears streaming down Vaggie's face.

The spear slips out of charlie's fingers. Her hands are shaking too much. She grabs Vaggie by the feathers, glaring up at her.

'Do you?'

Vaggie is *shaking*, taloned hands curling around Charlie with a *whimper*.

Charlie is clinging to Vaggie as the monster *buckles* around her. She lets out another whimper, nuzzling against her face. She cant keep her tail from curling around Vaggie, burying her face in those feathers she knows so well.

'Oh Vaggie...'

I am picturing a lot of comfort after this

Like just

Vaggie all bandaged up

And just curled up with Charlie in the lobby. And she's just gently brushing Vaggie's feathers.

'So uh, does anybody wanna explain why Vaggie Tales is doin' a heavenly werebird in hell?'

'I... I dont know. Maybe this is just... Maybe this is what happens if an exorcist stays down here?'

Eventually Vaggie starts changing back. Which, ya know, yay!

Aaaand also oh shit. Because uh. *She kind of shredded her outfit in her transformation*. And her spare one is back in what's left of the room she was holed up in.

'Oh, fuck. Uh. Blanket? Quick? PLEASE???'

Queue a very embarrassed and kind of ashamed Vaggie curled up in a *huge* blanket. But...Charlie's holding her. Vaggie may not think she deserves it, but she is.

'Please tell me I didnt try to eat anybody...'

'Oh, no my dear. Shreading on the other hand!'

Charlie gives Alastor a glare that surprisingly shuts him up. Meanwhile Vaggie has basically disappeared into the blanket, save the barest hint of white hair.

'Dont worry about it Vags, your aim was pretty shit.'

Queue a jab in the side from Husk.

'What! It's true! She missed!'

(Aaand that's all i got for this for now. Might do more in the future. Might write a fic. Who knows!)

[fairycrowbar]

the transfem tavros thing is great and intriguing and I'm so glad to see Homestuck^2 actually going somewhere with its story for what feels like the first time ever. And I'm just gonna say it now. I will forgive the new Homestuck^2 team entirely of the sins of the past Homestuck^2 team if it means seeing her again

[xxplastic-cubexx]

chat ima blow up i think i need him

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[moeblob]

Right and his work menaces (Brent and Karen).

I don't remember last I mentioned it but apart from crude nicknames to people (except Chris), he also just puts them in his phone really weird (except Chris, who is literally in his phone as Chris). And I bring this up because in Right's phone, Karen is saved as "Lawful Obligation".

[angelthemanspanker]

The way some people characterise Buffy in fics like you described genuinely put me off Buffy fandom for years, it was absolutely everywhere, in Spuffy fics, in faith/buffy fics, it felt like I couldn't read a fic without the obligatory 'Buffy apologises to whoever the fuck for being so mean' and I just stopped, it was so baffling

For real its so weirdly pervasive. It genuinely blows my mind bc I totally get the urge to use your fic to call out a character/plot point you don't like, more power to you. Like I'm constantly imagining rewrites of the scenes where Xander is at his most insufferable but no one in-show is verbalising obvious holes in his bullshit (my big one is that besides a one off line from Buffy that everyone in the show ignores and a DELETED line from Giles is that NO ONE calls him on his absolutely infuriating "I was jealous of Angel being with the girl I like and I'm gonna have the gall to pretend it was bc I saw him turning evil coming" BULLSHIT)

But like. Buffy? You came out of this show and the person you had beef with and want to call out is BUFFY? THE VAMPIRE SLAYER? The protagonist of all time? Bc she's mean sometimes :( people try to apologise for trying to kill her and she's so unsympathetic :( she carries out her responsibility as the Slayer whether she wants to or not even if the person she's targeting is a character I like :( why won't she apologise. why won't she apologise. why does she insist on taking up space. why can't she just be nice all the time. yes my ao3 tag is princessspuffy why do you ask. yeah I know their relationship is abusive but I think Spike would forgive her :)

[theprinceandthewitch]

I'm pretty much done with TOH lol.

A braver and more energetic soul can try giving this show a constructive critique... because I will actually, wholeheartedly lose my humanity while writing out the script.

There is like... a problem this show has that permeates the whole thing: It says its going to do one thing, but then does something completely different. Like how the first two episodes of the series make you believe Luz is going to learn how her inability to separate fantasy from reality is actually inhibiting her growth as a person... only to make her a chosen one and to give her everything she ever wanted without Luz changing the way she treats people.

[angelstrawbabie420]

SEASON 5 OF HOUSE IS SO FUCKING CRAZY

[acey-deer]

I saw an image of Barbara with a skyward gun and it made me laugh since I built my Barbara to be dps since she was one of the only characters I liked the attack style of and I didn't understand what a dps or support was.

this is the original image

[dukeofthomas]

"He hurts you because he loves you" classic excuse for abuse, not an interesting angle to go at a story with, boring, annoying, makes me hate anyone who says this shit. "He loves you but he still hurt you" beautiful, amazing, empowering. Love is not a pure, good, flawless emotion, actions matter more than intent, and caring for someone doesn't mean you can't or won't hurt them, and in my opinion, it makes hurting them worse.

[queenboimler]

here's the thing about shannon diaz

she shouldnt have died because she didnt deserve that but i still dont like her

sure eddie said he did the same thing as she did by running to join the military but...were they same?

its not like eddie left in the middle of the night with only a note left behind and then just...didnt contact them for like 2 years! I mean, we saw him facetiming as much as he could in an active warzone and we know he did everything to get back to chris!

but here's the thing: shannon did! she left without any word in the middle of the night!

i think its fine that she left eddie, in fact good for her for leaving his ass because i just know he never stood up for her to his overbearing parents and she 100% deserved better

But its the way she left christopher with only a note for when he was older and then went zero contact for however long and i firmly believe if eddie hadn't reached out to her first she would never have tried to contact christopher and that's just unforgivable to me

you can, and should, leave your spouse if it isnt working out, but to leave your kid completely behind without a word? thats horrifying to me

[mimiruku]

I WAS WAITING 🥳🥳🥳😈😈😈 QUESTIONS FOR MIRUKU!!

All under Catmint - Ferocity, Courage and Quarrelsomeness!!

█   𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐁𝐀𝐋 𝐎𝐂 𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒 ⸻ ( ⚝ )

Here we go again with my ridiculously late answers, but thank you for always humoring me and sending questions in, Melon! I hope your day is going well !

╰┈┈➤   𝑪𝒂𝒕𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒕 - 𝑭𝒆𝒓𝒐𝒄𝒊𝒕𝒚, 𝑪𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒂𝒈𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑸𝒖𝒂𝒓𝒓𝒆𝒍𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔.

───  01.  How quick is your OC to anger? Can they fly into a fury, seemingly out of nowhere? Or does it gradually build like a gathering storm? Infrequent & quick to relinquish. By default, Miruku is not an angry person nor does he have the capacity to hold onto anger. It's an emotion that is more often than not replaced by dejection and despondency, he's more likely to express disappointment and sadness rather than anger. He also values his comfort enough to not gather and bottle most negative emotions he comes across, this side of him helps relieves his displeasures.

However, person as he is, some disturbances cannot be avoided, the handful of times he had been truly angered were moments that debilitated him wholly physically. It is a foreign emotion he does not really know how to handle, it makes him physically ill as a result.

───  02. What motivates your OC to be courageous? A sense of honour or duty? A need to maintain a reputation for fearlessness? A bloody-minded refusal to be pushed around? A wish to protect the vulnerable? The need to win against all odds?

Miruku is not a courageous individual, though at first glance he may seem bold and fearless, his truth is stranger than fiction ! His fear response is thoroughly impaired, unable to properly react to danger cues. He could be aware that something or someone is dangerous but fear is alarmingly dulled, fortunately he was taught to curate his well-being and safety first and foremost.

This affliction, while worrisome to his love ones, had proven to be quite helpful in navigating the underbelly of the mafia system. This is likely why, in spite of being a civilian, Miruku was able to wedge himself into crime and violence, though because this is not at all normal or healthy, he ends up suffering else where.

───  03.  What subject is your OC most likely to argue about? And who are they most likely to argue about it with?

Miruku Osashima does not argue, he simply MANSPLAIN people into submission. He has this horrible way of completely ignoring what people are saying, talking over them without much of an 'anyway' to change subject. He knows what he is doing and he does not want to acknowledge your opinion whatsoever ; the subject ? Anything. ( He does this often to Momina, some kind of bullying tactic. He finds her frustrations cute. )

───  04. Does your OC often bicker with others? Do they complain frequently? Is this due to genuine dissatisfaction or anger? Or is it done in a slightly tongue in cheek fashion?

He is pedantic without a cost, but Miruku would never claim he bickers. He banters albeit viciously in frustrating and ridiculous extent, he doesn't need to be right nor does he care to win, he only bickers and complain only to tease. He does it often enough that you'll get use to his misconduct, though admittedly if you're particularly sensitive, you'll likely feel like you're being tyrannize by a school yard bully, in some ways he is but the bully likes you a lot and things is sweet when you whine and cry.

His TORMENTOR LITE hobby however, will eventually blow up in his face. In his adulthood, this schemes hardly works with the three men that keeps him in check... Reborn, Takeshi and Dino has a special way of forcing him to behave, it's almost believable when he starts whining about how they don't actually love him and that they're sick and twisted for whatever totally reasonable thing they've put upon him. Suddenly, he knows how to bite his tongue.

───  05. When was your OC the most angry they have ever been? What about this situation made them so angry? Was it the person who provoked them? The injustice of the situation? Or their own powerlessness in the face of circumstance?

It had been when Yuni returned with Byakuran, he didn't think he could have ever hated anyone more than he hated Yuni in that moment. Byakuran is a very unique pain that he could not begin to commiserate with. Yuni forgave Byakuran in their stead, as if she has authority to revoke the harm he had done.

His outrage will eventually melt into special ache. Yuni had made Miruku deeply and irrevocably heartbroken. He looks at her pained, but as he let goes of Byakuran, so does he with her.

[appl3l0v3r4lif3]

Vent

I'm so tired, like I'm tired emotionally, like not physically, I can run around and have fun and stuff but the millisecond I'm alone or no one is listening to me it's like I've never slept before and I've just worked a double, like I feel like I'm faking my mental issues because I don't have any diagnosiss and I don't know what they could be but I know they're there I know I'm not normal normal people don't cut themselves,normal people don't wish to die and normal people definitely don't lay in their bed unable to get up to piss because they're mindlessly scrolling through social media praying for their friend to actually respond to them with words other than 'oh','sigma' or 'im too busy'

I miss the girl who would run around the field with me talking about gacha life and LGBTQ, I miss the girl who would talk to me daily and joke with me and would giggle and tell me I'm sigma

I miss Stevie

I think I'm gonna throw myself off a bridge or Infront of a train, but first I need to see Stevie so I can give her my money, I don't want my family to have it, I want Stevie to

Her family doesn't have as much money as mine, like we're middle class but not like, posh middle class and we aren't like poor middle class we're just.... In the middle?

But hers is lower middle class and she loves being outside and hanging out with people and having fun and if she wants to have fun because of the capitalist hellscape we live in, she needs money, so I want her to have it so she can be happy when I'm gone.

I love Stevie more than she'll ever fucking know.

[edwardskhakipants]

"He gets no points for all that?" No lol. Washing dishes and calling him sir, that's nothing compared to (in his eyes) torpedoing his little girl's life to the point where she's constantly hospitalized, traumatized, or missing. It might even make things worse, that Edward is so nice to his face but then hurting Bella every time he turns his back. No wonder he tries to supervise them so much. Can't run off to Italy when you're stuck on the couch watching the game...

I mean it's safe to say that this conversation will never go anywhere because you clearly like Charlie and I never will.

I will never understand the obsession with him. He's a classic aloof YA parent. He's an okay father who had a few funny one-liners in the movies and 3 good moments in the books. He never improved, never experienced growth. He let Bella cook his meals and clean his house until she moved out.

""charlie deserves better"" I hear that all over the fandom. Over and over.

You know what? They're right. He did deserve better. Charlie deserved the chance to see that his and Renee's terrible parenting thrust their daughter into the arms of a vampire because he noticed her and put her first for the first time in her life and offered her a chance to hang onto the childhood she never had. Charlie deserved the opportunity to apologize.

But he didn't get that chance. He remained stagnant and boring and lame.

Edward grew as a character. He deserved his happy ending because he apologized, and learned from his wrongs, and worked to understand how to make Bella happy.

[nie7027]

WAIT WHAT HOW DID WHISPERS FOUND OUT ABOUT WOLFGANG?? HE WAS THE ONE WHO HAD SHOWED THE LEAST TO HAVE SENSATE CONNECTIONS!!

will Riley and Nomi were obviously found out by the bpo and known to be connected (although I don't remember how whispers learnt about Nomi and Will being connected)

sun was probably the easiest to find out that was related to them since Nomi did a lot of hacking to help her which is something Sun couldn't have done on her own (and while the point of hacking is to leave not trace of you behind every person has its own style and no doubt the obp would be on the lockout for any hacking activity that smelled like something Nomi would do)

After that Capheus and Lito would be next in that order. Both showed out of the blue extraordinary capabilities that didn't make sense they knew and clearly marked them as sensates(just no way to know who they were connected to) just like the people visiting Capheus said. The only difference was that Capheus acts were widely known while Lito only had Dani and Joaquin as witness.

And finally Wolfgang mad Kala who showed it the less. In fact they didn't show it at all.

Kala with her perfect idyllic life never needed to make use of the others abilities (besides that one time will helped her defend herself at the temple).

And Wolfgang although did use the others abilities and pulled of amazing feats thanks to them all of those instances were stuff that would be credible he did on his own because they were in line with the type of person Wolfang is and what he's capable.

So yeah... HOW THE FUCK WAS HE FOUND OUT? While it made sense Lila would tell the obp about him she also said that the Cannibal was specifically looking for him!

So how???

Ugggh it really goes way too fastpaced in the last episodes and it doesn't make sense... the Wachowski sisters would never leave such a big pothole...

I know they had to skip a lot of explanations but...

Dammit netlix