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mattodore · 2 months ago

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birthday boy 🎂

#river dipping #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #a burning house to live in #echthroi #ts4 #ts4 edit #simblr #ts4 screenshots #theo i hope you're having the most insane birthday sex rn i hope it's ******** and ***** and ***'** **** *** **** ***** :)<3 #sorry i put off making your birthday edit for so long that i had to pivot and post this edit instead of the one i wanted </3 #...very funny how similar this is to that LAST render i posted... well so WHAT!! if i think matthias looming is sexy!!#this is based on a photo that everyone was drawing their ocs as so really it's not MY fault he's back there clinging and being a freak #actually if y'all want this pose lmk... i'll share it but fyi it's only meant to be seen from the waist up and idk how it'd look #on a sim that doesn't have the same muscle mass and like. bulk. that matthias has......................................#just got rock hard after typing that... anyway.#HAPPY BIRTHDAY THEO <333333333 LOVE YOU SO MUCH I PROMISE I'M GONNA KEEP WORKING ON THE //ACTUAL// BIRTHDAY EDIT!! like .#posted abt this on the sideblog but the real edit i have planned for him is making me lose my fucking gourd #and it'll probably take me :))) a few more days to figure out #expect a depressing theo-as-a-teenager edit eventually tho. with writing!! accompanying it!!#matthias's face has changed again btw 😭 i redid it almost immediately after i posted that first render attempt so he looks DIFFERENT!!#i posted screenshots of him in cas just the other day on my other acc and he looks so good in them i might post them here too #oh and!! this edit looks massively different than my last because this screenshot was taken with a new preset i made specifically for #the real birthday edit i'm working on... it's a hallway scene so i figured out depth and density to get this really cool fog effect #i'm really excited for it!! in my head the way it looks makes me crazy but idk if i can pull it off properly. but like i WAS SAYING!!#new preset is sooo sexy after i post this i'll reblog with the before and after to show you how good it looks even w/o any editing #like. the colors....... literally have always wanted a preset like this i'm so glad i spent yesterday fucking around with it #ALSO!! i've been doing those oc/ship dynamic templates for fun recently so i might post a few of them here soon #realize i'm rambling so much in these tags bc i haven't been here in forever kfjnkfjhn ummmmm. let me stop.#EVERYONE WISH THEO HAPPY BIRTHDAY RIGHT NOW 🫵‼

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thekittyokat · 7 months ago

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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again #the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys #saw #well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand #know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows #your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn #thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down #something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness #the transformation of a man into a monster #and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption #sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this #do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore #it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating #fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn #i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him #until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else #well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God #where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium #anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus #maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man #i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed #if only he hadn't been weaponized first #god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already #but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there #rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts #ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly #cat chat

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rickybaby · 5 months ago

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Genuine question as I am curious — I know it’s pretty obvious with his expressions/ body language that Daniel seemed shy/insecure(?) about having his braces, but has he ever outright said anything about feeling that way with them? Just out of curiosity as I am new around here!

“I feel very different in terms of looks. Fortunately, experience also bought me better looks. I’m not really too fond of showing people photos of me when I was younger”

#well he doesn’t exactly say he was self-conscious of his braces but he was definitely very self-conscious about how he looked #it’s always very interesting to me the way Daniel talks about his younger self #it’s so different from how other f1 drivers talk about their early days #he’s so self-critical of younger him that I wish he was a bit more forgiving of younger him #the way he’s admitted he was never a standout talent during his karting days #that he was so hesitant to get involved in battles that his dad got mad at him #the way on the gypsy tales podcast he talks about Motocross riders being fearless and how he doesn’t have that until jase interrupts him -#to say how how mad he is because just a few days ago he was throwing a car around on a street circuit at some 300kph #the way in this video with will he describes himself walking into the paddock like a ‘headless chick’#the way he has said so many times he was scared to move away from home. how uncertain he was he would ever succeed #and then that one video towards the end of 2022 when he says ‘I was just Daniel then’ in reference to his younger self #like he has such a distinct way of looking at his younger self. like he views that part of him almost as a separate entity from the him now #and I guess that’s because it took a lot of work and years to build that confidence of becoming Daniel ricciardo #a confidence he got as he managed to survive the shark tank of the red bull junior academy #a confidence he got from beating his 4x wdc teammate. from winning the most insane races #and that confidence then getting completely decimated in the space of a few months in 2022 #and even now the more he says he is confident you can still see that tiny hesitancy #how every time he gets a good result you see how he yearns to lean back into his confident Daniel schtick #and he may just completely embrace it soon anyway <3 #daniel ricciardo #anon ask

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daincrediblegg · 9 months ago

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Nothing wrong with me

#behold: the sowed seeds of my upped vitamin d dose #just would like to say that part of this is sponsored by a couple of very kind inboxers who reached out and said that they DID want to know #more about lady terror and which really helped reinvigor my motivations #and I WILL be answering those asks soon enough #(harder to do until I have my laptop back. like I’m sorry y’all I literally wish I knew what I was on in 2019 when I was writing all my #joker headcanon fics on my phone but I cannot replicate that and I dare not even try #)… but regardless it will happen #but also yeah so this is a 6 page chapter summary for the fic and I’ve just started on chapter 2 and this will help a lot when #I get my computer back I think I’ve cleared my head a lot about this fic while not having it #but anyway #yeah uh…#egg’s wip’s #moral of the story is telling people you wanna hear about their oc’s that they’ve been working on for a whole year works #also went down a classical music rabbit hole about it today if that’s of interest to anyone but… me #bc one of my students did a presentation on poe’s impact on music theory and danse macabre which incited me to get familliar with composers #and pieces that would have actively been known in the 1840’s and have wanted to do since that bit about schubert on crozier’s hand organ #got dropped in the scripts #I think they’re going to feud on classical music tastes #average beethoven and chopin stan vs schubert enjoyer FIGHT #(except the serenade. that song was actually written about lady terror I’ve decided)#also thinking about lady terror and poe bc he’s said himself music is the highest art. they are concert buddies for sure #I bet that mf liked beethoven. poe is a big bass guy if I’ve ever seen one #it’s the drama you see

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danielnelsen · 8 months ago

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there’s so much i wanna do this week/month/etc but i’m just too sick, i have no energy, i can’t sleep, i’m constantly nauseous and headachey and on the verge of a migraine, i’m stressed and irritable and impatient and panicky…….how tf did i survive nearly 5 years of high school untreated if i can’t even manage this when i don’t have any major obligations rn

#at least i finally got my meds so hopefully i feel a little better soon #although i’m now on 20 pills per day which is Just Great #whenever i’m in remission it’s nice to just. forget sometimes that this can happen at any time #kinda wish i had the typical kinda chronic illness that people talk about with ‘flares’#or at least triggers that i can plan around #the other times have all had an easily identifiable stressor tho tbf. idk what caused this one #the first time was whooping cough and the next few were all very major life stressors like my cat dying right after i started uni #and i think also towards the end of my honours thesis?#but this…….there’s no major stress right now. nothing wildly beyond normal #i’m a little concerned about my joints tho. they’ve been so much worse than normal the last few months #so i’m kinda worried i’m developing rheumatoid arthritis (also an autoimmune disease and it runs in the family specifically)#so if that’s happening then it could set my thyroid off? probably should get to the doctor at some point #obv i’m seeing my endo for thyroid stuff. but i should see my gp and get her to run all the autoimmune blood tests again #i’ve done that before but it’s been a few years and my ankles and knees are so painful i can’t even walk properly a lot of the time #BUT I JUST WANNA DO THINGS I ENJOY AND I CANT AND I WILL CONTINUE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT IT #‘oh you’re so lucky you don’t have as many obligations because you’re chronically ill’ ha ha ha please swap lives with me immediately #personal #but seriously. i wasn’t diagnosed until i was nearly 17 and we can trace it back to whooping cough when i was 12 #so it was the last half of year 6 and then all of years 7-10 and the start of year 11 of just being. uh. ‘very lazy and complaining a lot’#and TEACHERS joking about me and my sister (who was dealing with an arguably more severe undiagnosed disease) missing so many classes #wow so funny pdhpe teacher who’s supposed to be teaching is about health #and the thing with being a mentally ill teenager is that hyperthyroidism can just look like a very severe anxiety disorder #so i didn’t go to the dr until i was too sick to go to school at all. and luckily had a good dr who did a blood test #i’m just rambling now because i can’t sleep and i don’t wanna lie here doing nothing #might go play pvz or something. that’s been keeping me entertained

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kyouka-supremacy · 9 months ago

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Mmmhh...

#(Basically rant on my last two posts)#I know I've said it before and sorry for coming off as annoying–#but I really wish we still had a central bsd blog on Tumblr like fy-bungoustraydogs or bsd-central or things of the kind.#I think now everyone rushes to post news first. And although there's merit to it in knowing news as soon as they happen‚#in the long run the death of this kind of central official content ***fan*** blogs is such a huge loss of fandom spaces‚#especially for the archiving purposes they solved. Especially today that T/witter and G/oogle have basically become unusable.#Literally. Literally. I've been doing official content archiving since I was 11 #(because that's the very specific kind of mental illness I have)#and let me tell you that the quality of web search and especially reverse image search only got worse–#in a way that is very evident and noticeable. Which is crazy tbh and not how things should work.#If anyone would like to start a bsd-central kind of blog I'll be the first one to follow.#Actually if anyone actually wants to establish it feel free to contact me and I'll be more than happy to share the resources I have!!!!#It just needs to be something multi-modded for a series of reasons I won't get into right now #I just can't personally do it (not as main admin at least) because that would be modding my FIFTH active bsd blog–#and that's a little too much even for me.#On top of some ethical concerns I have regarding whether it'd be fair for me to mod a fandom central bsd blog–#when I feel like I can't genuinely share the same amount of love for the franchise other fans share #On top of. You know. Getting a degree eventually hopefully.#Then years after the blog has been solidly enstablished and aquired enough credibility it could even open a free donations found to invest–#in buying and scanning and releasing bsd content that hasn't been shared yet like the guidebooks or illustration books or everything else–#for everyone to see...#The dream. (Is realistically never going to happen) (Won't stop me from daydreaming about it every day)#((Still salty I couldn't afford the guidebooks only due to the shipment prices. I *would* have scanned and uploaded them.))#That was a long and idealistic rant. Kyotag out #Edit: *Modding my SIXTH bsd blog #Apparently I mod so many blogs I lost count of them

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nomairuins · 2 days ago

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i think itis funny in the past when i would list my interests as if i post abt them i donot post abt the shit im into rly Mainly bc im not rly Into Into anything anymore i occasionally watch or read or play something but i dont do fandom stuff rly much.... just sometimes i get brainworms

#do i still list my interests somewhere i dont knowwww #i just stopped rly being into fandom a few years ago combination depression antipathy + bad experiences in fandom spaces #but idk. me listing my interests didnt rly accomplish anything for anyone bc it was just like anddd just so you know i was crazy abt this #video game for a rly long time it probably wont ever come up again but it might maybe one day. yk. ig its just sharing info Which is one #supposes the point of all of this but idk #its not that im cagey abt my interests except that one which i cant talk abt publically bc its a triple a game and im embarassed abt it. no #anything bad im just embarrassed . its not anything any of my oomfies have ever posted abt either so its just for me. and lamp . and when #the third game comes out i might post very very very vaguely abt it ......... possibly.#but ya its like. idk i think you guys have to find out abt my plague tale obsession on your own through lived experience. aka just me seein #like the word king and randomly collapsing to the floor and going KING HUGO 😭😭😭😭😭 oh god hugo guys oh god . please play plague tale #i wish i had finished that tw thing i started making but then i got too focused on the color palette and making it look nice and i stopped.#umm tw child death animal death The plague some gorey stuff theres some cult things in the second game ummm. yeah ..... its rly special to #me tho i love those games PLAY PLAGUE TALE!!! and if u need more indepth tws ill give them to you even if i have to replay both games to #refresh my memory... lamp wont play plaguetale with me (not their speed) so im all alone </3 but i miss it i might replay soon... i wish i #was in like discord servers so i could play it on call w ppl or something <- is in discord servers but is shy and Also i feel like playing #game on call is like a level like 2 friendship thing and i cant even do level 1 friendship things like i feel i need to at least be talking #regularly in a server b4 i like try to do Calls in the server esp for plague tale bc its like a 1p game so wed need a rapport to like have #shit to talk abt and etc ..... i could just infodump abt the game but again i feel doing that to like strangers/oomfies would b weird. ik i #come on here and talk abt whatever i want but its like you guys dont Have to read this and its not like a server where Yeah im not talking #to one person but im still like Oh well ive sent a message and its in the channel and everybody just has to look at it and whatever.#but on here i post i nobody cares and it just gets pushed down and its Fine bc its not like anybody has to feel obliged to respond #which is fine. you know.. i just hate being like a nuisance i hate . idk how to phrase. imposing myself on others ig.. which is dumb bc the #i turn around and whine abt how i have no friends and its like Maybe that is bc you donot talk to anyone bc yr scared they will be annoyed #with you and you dont leave the house and have no interests to bond with ppl and etc. but basically the difference is ive written all this #and you guys can just not read it or you can just read it and ignore it and its different. even tho i am like addressing you and i do have #like. weird parasocial thing with My followers or whatever where i talk directly to you YES YOU! reading this. IDKK im rambling so much i #dont know what im talking abt anymore. i proooooobably need to go to sleep im hungry tho but im not but i am. but i think my sleep is getti #off schedule again i had trouble sleeping yesterday too... ugh

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ryr-art · 1 year ago

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Some fanart for @whatislifewithoutangst and their fic 'double life' that I've been munching on like a life line this last two weeks!

#sw dogma #star wars dogma #commander thorn #did my facecanons for them cause motivation is a picky bitch lol #if dogma doesnt get more lemon time i swear to everything-#LEMON IS THE STRILL. I REPEAR THE STRILL.#not THAT kind of lemon lmfao #also my headcanon on how strills look cause i got beef to pick with canon versions ive seen lol #last chap ending got me :')#dogma was having a good time until the pudding 😭#also very messy on this one cause i did it in one sitting since i know i wont have time to finish anytime soon if i dont rip #myart #sw #dogma my beloved i wish to burrito you up some where safe.

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icewindandboringhorror · 27 days ago

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Recent imageys

#photo diary #clouds of course.. always taking pictures of clouds lol. And a beautiful son going outside in his little box lol #he likes to sit in the sun. I don't like to take him out since he runs around trying to eat plants usually. But if I give him a box or some #specific spot to sit in then he'll usually just lay there and not be as antsy. Though still has to be constantly supervised. if I look away #for even a moment he instantly sees a Plant Eating Opportunity. Which he'll PRETEND he's just going to sniff it at first but as soon as #it's close enough to his face he's like 'HA! tricked you.. B I T E !!' =_=#also large strawberry. large dandelion. and heart shaped spinach leaf. All of these photo diary type images are thrown into one large #folder and I thought it was just an interesting occurence that there were three seperate similar looking pictures of me holding things #so why not also put them all next to each other. AND CHEESEHWEELS!!! The first time I've ever seen a large real cheesehweel #in real life... it's like meeting a celebrity... (< context is that i like to use cheesewheel imagery for certain things and in games I #always take screenshots anytime there's a cheesewheel. like I collected the cheesehweels in skyrim and had a basement full of #hundreds of them (not spawned with cheats. genuinely collected). and I name some of my game player characters 'cheesewheel' often (my mii #on the wii is named that. etc. etc.)). so truly exciting times indeed.... oh how I wish I wouldnt get in trouble with grocery store staff #if I were to pick one up off the counter and roll it around (I probably couldn't.. I tried to lift a corner of one and they seemed very #heavy). hrmm #Then also these little purple flowers I found growing wildly and thought they were very cute #And some pastrie type things from a bakery... which weren't that good actually. Only one of them was. but alas..#It was from a family event sort of thing so I didn't pay for them lol. still fancy LOOKing at least. even if not actually Good #Still have just been trying to write.. but I got my updated covid shot so I've been weird feeling and just resting grrrrghhh #Trying to get back to doing a few things.#giant cheesewheel give me strength and power...

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crybaby-bkg · 5 months ago

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getting another tattoo today and im so anxious omg 😭😭😭

#mind you I have six already AJSHDKDJFJF #I get all nervous and then when I get it done I’m like #wow. very uncomfortable bc of my sensory issues. so hurry up pls #last time I asked my artist if he was almost done as soon as he got started and he laughed so hard at me sksjdjd #I hope I get him again he was so nice 😭#I also designed my own tattoo which I’m so proud about!!!#wish me luck :)#—in store chit chat! 🍫

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sysig · 11 months ago

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Big day for the Sims 2

#WPVG #WPTS2 #The Sims #The Sims 2 #Things accomplished: Made ZEX and DAX and had them fall in love <3 #Then moved in the Captain :3c For shenanigans #He looks like pirate fic!Captain lol #Made a set of I BELIEVE classic green alien boxers (lol)#And upgraded the Vargases' church so there is now a place to pee #And also the confessional booths are prettier - curtains! - and there's a little play area for kids and toddlers #I was gonna add a balcony but the windows got in the way :( Next time - in the real town when I actually move them in #I've also been working on the Vargases' clothes in the background - I am actively choosing to be very extra about Scriabin's coat lol #Does it even count if it doesn't have the wrist and waist ties tho - I think no #Which means hopefully! Soon!! I will actually have the correct clothes to move them into my actual real town!!#I went ahead and put their lots down hehe #Also planning on doing a Whole Thing with Squee - I've heard there's a way of setting up specific adoptions by timing CPS visits?#I haven't tried it myself and I'll make sure to save a version of him separately just in case but like #I think if I have his parents neglect him and he gets seized and then I have the Vargases call to adopt him he'll be like - queued first?#I think that's how that works... I wish it was like pet adoption where you could pick them out lol #I'm thinking about pulling a couple of the families I have set up there for now since I haven't been in the fandom for a while :P #I am absolutely planning to have ZEX ahem ''crossover'' with a few different households lol - definitely gunning for TSP Narrator lol #Also I gave him smile lines and aghfdsjahfa he's so cute I'm love #DAX just got a furrowed brow hehe <3 Their specific expression wrinkles! ♥#The Captain is so smooth-faced by comparison haha #The Sims 2 truly does emulsify my brain uou #SCII #Vargas

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cuteniaarts · 8 months ago

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Fanny, my sweet, beautiful girl

17.11.2012 – 14.04.2019

#my art #artists on tumblr #I cannot accept that it has been 5 years already #I know covid messed with everyone’s sense of time but it simultaneously feels so much longer and so much shorter than that #exactly five years ago I was holding onto my mom for dear life and sobbing as we watched lilo and stitch together #not the best movie to watch when you’ve just lost your first ever pet you know #and then I cried myself to sleep at the next morning we never mentioned her again #I know it’s because it was way too painful for everyone involved. but I do wish I was allowed to process that grief properly #instead of bottling it up and pretending everything was okay until I was reminded of her #feeling like my heart was being shattered over and over again every single time #well anyway. enough of that. I’ve allowed myself a nice long cry today and got most of it out of my system #and once I was feeling okay I decided to draw her #and I can count the number of times I’ve drawn animals on one hand so.. I’m not too sure about the result #but it felt like to commemorate her in some way.#so yeah. here she is. my dear girl. the best dog in existence. she was always so affectionate and kind #which I didn’t always appreciate bc of how young I was. when you’re a kid it feels like pets will live forever #never barked. never bit anyone. her only crime was chewing on my mlp and lps toys that I left out on the floor #but I’m grateful she did that. it taught me not to leave my toys lying around and to clean up after myself #she really was taken from me way too soon. ideally she could still be alive right now. but I’ve been down the road of guilt and regret #there was nothing I could do. I was a child. I can only hope that she knew she was loved right until the very end #even if I didn’t know how to show it properly. and great. now I’m tearing up again #I suppose it’s unavoidable. April 12th will always be a melancholy day. and maybe that’s not such a bad thing #it’s good to have a day when I can freely remember her and cry if I need to. it’s healthy. it’s better than crying every day #she never liked it much when I cried. always tried to comfort me. that’s the kind of dog she was. I miss her so much #when I move apartments and get a dog of my own I’m getting a spaniel. just like she was #well. maybe a different colour so I don’t end up sobbing every time I look at it. but spaniels really are the perfect breed #I mean. cavaliers especially were bred for love and warmth. that’s just what I need. it will be nice to have someone waiting for me at home #and while I don’t necessarily believe in the afterlife… I do hope that Fanny’s watching over me #spiritually comforting me when I feel all alone in the world. it’s a nice thought for sure #and hopefully she won’t mind me getting another spaniel too much. it will be done in her honour after all. to make up for my past mistakes

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sunrise-on-the-shore · 9 months ago

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temporarily back with one post. i am not ready to fully come back.

all the stuff you need to know about the future of this blog are in the tags.

#sunrise thoughts #after i thought a lot i made multiple choices #i am still going to post about dsmp #i am still going to post about cwilbur #dsmp has been my biggest special interest ever #and i cannot move on from cwilbur in a day or week #i obviously won't talk about the cc anymore duh and to me the cc and c are extremely disconnected from each other #i will do all my screaming and kicking and nasty emotional stuff in private #i got fucking blasted by the consequences of forming a parasocial relationship!! ouagh!!!!#if you're uncomfortable following me for my dsmp posting you can obviously unfollow me i completely understand<3 #i will be tagging everything with my usual tags and you can filter them all you want if you decide to stay for other things! and uh—#i am so proud of shelby for speaking about something so terrifying and painful and i wish them the absolute best #i hope they will find a wonderful support system and get all the help they need and want and recover in a good safe environment.#(now back to blog related things haha!!)#i will try to be more multi fandom #you will still see from me a lot of minecraft smp silliness!!!#uhhh i'm talking qsmp life series and hermitcraft stuff!! (i'm gonna check season 10 very soon!)#as for non related minecraft things uhhh idk yet!!!#(btw don't expect me to reblog posts about the situation because the subject itself is so fucking uncomfortable for me)#(i am myself a victim of abuse [very different type but yeagh] + i am a mess atm for many different reasons)#(remember to always believe victims and such. [you probably heard the whole talk from people who are so much better at words than me #so i won't repeat things in a badly worded way]#anyway #(i am so sorry that this whole thing is messily written and in a bad order i am writing everything at like past 4 am)#(and i really really don't want to go back and rewrite tags in the right order)#(but yeah. erm.)#this is all you will hear from me for a while #take care everyone

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canichangemyblogname · 1 year ago

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Do y’all know anyone who doesn’t actually know how to have a conversation, all they know is how to interrupt or derail a conversation? Like they keep talking over you to tell you their opinion on something (often unrelated), even though the conversation doesn’t call for an opinion. There was no, “What do y’all think,” but they still gotta interrupt, speak very loudly over you and tell you some very wrong opinion. Or you’ll be talking and then they just start up a different topic. And when you call them out on that the response is, “I’m not interested in that.”

#My mother fr #She called me up and ask me how work was last week #And as soon as I started talking about this really neat tour we got to take of a supportive housing facility #She interrupted the story to ask an innocuous question: ‘What is that?’#But I didn’t get more than a few words into the explanation before she had an opinion about what I was saying #Her: ‘Oh. I think that’s quite useless.’#Me: ‘Actually. It’s very useful and a very helpful housing program.’#Her: ‘I don’t see why they can’t just rent any ol’ apartment.’#Me: ‘This provides them disability services or addiction services or behavioral health help so they can keep a roof over their heads.’#Her: ‘That seems like a little too much. I never got that kind of help.’#I WISH YOU FUCKING HAD #And then I ignored her comment and tried to continue talking about my tour #ONLY FOR HER TO INTERRUPT TO TELL ME ABOUT THIS NEW BREWERY SHE DISCOVERED IN THE SUBURBS #She and my father hardly need more fucking alcohol #Oh my fuck. She drives me up a wall #And then she asked me if I know what ‘asexual’ means because my sister ‘refused’ to explain it to her #And I got only a few words into my answer before she INTERRUPTED ME just to be aphobic #Which is why I never told her that I thought I was on the aro/ace spectrum back when I identified as aromantic #She only seems to know how to push my buttons #IDK why I even try to converse with her

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theheroand · 1 year ago

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:(((

#Vents 🌧️#sorry in advance for venting on here. I just... sort of want a kind person to listen to me #and you all are quite nice to me #I don't think my friends at school care about me very much #I mean. of course they find me annoying #because there's only so much time you can spend with me before I become so grating you have to take breaks from me #everyone at school finds me annoying. that's just how it is #but I feel like it's been getting worse #they're hiding things from me now... they're making plans without me and won't tell me about them #I'm not stupid I know they're setting up time together #I guess they didn't want me to know so I can't insert myself into it #I think they're going to leave me soon.#this is how it always happens. we start out and we click and I get comfortable around them and I stop masking as much #and then I watch as their liking for me diminishes #I know I've got my friends online but I wish I could get a hug from a friend who really actually wants to hug me #oh #<- they thought about a hug from one of their f/os and started tearing up #sometimes I worry that my f/os wouldn't really want me around #I know they're not real and I can do whatever I want with them but sometimes it's hard to picture them loving me as myself #I never think about myself unmasked around my f/os. I only think about them with the perfect version of me #maybe it's because I'm scared they wouldn't like the real me. like everybody else #I wish I could hear them tell me that.

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victorluvsalice · 1 year ago

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And Smiler, meanwhile, made a new friend -- Leila Illes! Mostly because a) Smiler is the most charismatic and likable Sim in existence at this point, and makes new friends just by saying "hi" to people, and b) Smiler needed a proper drink of plasma and -- with Victor already tired -- needed to butter someone up to get their fix. XD Fortunately, after a little bit of chatting and doing impressions and exchanging pronouns (Leila is she/her), Leila was happy to extend her wrist, and Smiler got their drink. :) I love it when a plan comes together... They then laid down for a little while to soak up some sun while Alice used the facilities and Victor woke up from his nap -- and then, after a round of Scruberoos to make sure everyone was clean --

PICTURE TIME! Yup, I forgot to buy Alice her own tripod (must remember to do that!), so I plopped one on the beach in a nice scenic location that they could use. :) I forced myself to keep it to just the initial ten pictures that you get from using the tripod this time, and made sure to get a variety of sizes -- a handful of little and medium ones, and a couple of big ones. Unfortunately, most of the screenshot versions ended up with that stupid "bloom" effect over them, so you get probably the most staid poses I had them try out of the bunch. *sigh* Ah well -- they still look like they're having fun, at least!

But we couldn't just stop at tripod pictures, no -- I also needed "dual seflies" for the photo collage behind the bubble blower back home! So once the tripod ten were done, I had each of them whip out their phone to get some shots with the others -- Smiler with Victor, Alice with Smiler, and Victor with Alice. Got some very cute and fun shots -- and of course I had to do Smiler kissing Victor on the cheek. Honeymoon and all! :) Ahh, I do love taking in-game pictures of my trio. It gives me all the good feels. :)

#sims 4 #the lazy save #victor van dort #alice liddell #smiler always #yes one of the main reasons Smiler makes friends now is to get a drink #those plasma fruits and packs just aren't very filling #and Victor just isn't always available to lend a wrist #it's not like Smiler doesn't talk to them again afterward!#though as you will soon learn Leila got a liiittle clingy really fast #and yes picture time :D #now that I know about the tripod I must use the tripod #I totally meant to have Alice get her own before the trip #but then I got caught up in making sure the greenhouse was properly harvested first #and just totally forgot #fortunate that just leaving them out in the world is an option!#and I think I chose a very nice scenic backdrop for the trio #wish I could have shown you some of the other shots but #stupid bloom effect #you'll see them later up on the walls anyway #and gotta have the selfies #wish there were a few more poses but still loads of fun :)#another scramble for wall space after this one! XD #queued

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