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#i wish that i grew up with close friends#i want the classic small town friend group that you see in tv and book and shit#people that i can be real with#im so fucking lonely right now and it sucks#i feel like the only thing i do is yearn#i dont want to be defined by my want#but its one of the only real things i feel on a daily basis#its something that pierces through this endless fucking fog that i live in#i just want a true friend#how pathetic huh#and i have to keep this shit bottled up#i cant be real with anyone at all#it grates on me so fucking much#and i missed out on e v e r y t h i n g it feels like#i think i just want to be a child again. but like a girl this time#i hate being alone#i want to be held#i want hands running through my hair and i want to snuggle up to someone#and isnt it fucked up that this is all me?#theres no fucking outside factors i dont think#i was just born fucked up. a mistake#uselss good for nothing waste#i wish i wasnt such a fucking coward so i could vent in other ways. sorry any moots who sees this#yeah whatever. goodnight tumblr
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For a while Iâve thought that people hated Leo/need and More More Jump and I think the Enstars collab and Twitter prove it.
Enstars collab prove that people care more about the men than the girls (who make up 75% of the game), ignoring Haru5âs event, comm, and even going as far as saying they just purposefully do this
Leo/need only JUST STARTED getting maybe just a teeny bit more popular than it was before all because of the âdown to play bassâ meme that has been trending on Twitter. But other than that theyâre basically ignored as well since none of their comms or events get the recognition that it needs (LITTERALLY ANY HONAMI COMM *cough*)
Both groups are just as interesting but no, all hail the men, all hail the obviously depressed, I encourage everyone to please read and listen to Leo/need and More More Jump comms/events -đ
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#pjsk#project sekai#prsk#đ anon#mod confession: when i started out i didnt really like l/n and mmj either#i was pretty indifferent and my fav was wxs bc a friend i looked up to liked wxs and didnt rly like ln#i regret it tbh like ln and mmj grew on me a lot actually!#im not a story reader and i mainly play for the fun of it#but i do really like all the units equally now and i wish ppl paid more attention to ln and mmj#ln comms may not always be my type of music#but i like how together and close they are and how it shows through their cards and mvs#and mmj comms are SUCH BANGERS OMG#đĽ | fandom take#anywyas sorry for yapping
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We all know Timmy is Wandaâs mamaâs boy but we need to keep in mind heâs still Cosmoâs kid too and that Cosmo would love him just as vehemently as Wanda

#fairly oddparents#not that anyone has portrayed him different#certainly not distance he loves Timmy he probably says it the most in the show and in fanon#but still- watching New Wish there felt like there was a disconnect with Cosmos character-like he wasnât as well defined as he was in OG#thatâs in part due to them toning him down from being an idiot plain and simple but I feel like it wasnât fitted with something else it was#simply taken away#just to say he didnât have as much of a presence to me in New Wish as Wanda did and I crave spinning Cosmo around in my brain#I want to see Poof being his Dadâs Boy yknow and I want to see cosmo doting and I want to see when he gets like. parental rage for the sake#of his kids#yknow? Yknow? part of him feeling detached in a new wish has translated into him not wanting to get as close to Hazel as he did Timmy-#to try and play it more like godparents are supposed to- just a presence for a couple months#but also because like. he got SO attached to Timmy and heâll never regret it and heâd never do anything different#but idk. if it were me I wouldnât have the capacity to go through losing my godkid again after becoming that attached#thatâs not even mentioning that they donât HAVE to be in hazelâs life the same way they were in Timmyâs because Timmy was going through#neglect and Hazel has loving family and friends all around her at all times- her blocks are mental#in that way cosmo and Wanda just have to do the Typical Godparent Job of aiding her- not becoming people she desperately needs in life#which also bleeds into why I think Peri was having such a. difficult time#godparents arenât supposed to be attached the way his family was to Timmy and that how he learned it#but his first godkid is Not Easy and lends immediately to the issues Timmy was having where he HAS parents he HAS things (though . Timmy#was not rich and would sometimes not be fed⌠devâs dad also forgets to feed him but dev is still able to eat you know)#and how he grew up with his parents as godparents and how heâs been taught are conflicting and itâs nature vs doing a good job quoteunquote#I didnât mean to ramble so damn much in the tags Iâm really sorry#told myself if I had more to say Iâd write it down and post it later but I must be heard.
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going to assume you voted for that human shit stain if you post that corny ass "dont ruin friendships over politics" shit
#unfriended five people blocked two. please keep outing your idiotic selves.#the last three elections ive come to find out that people i grew up. considered close friends. family members. voted for or support a man#that hates me and everything about me. ive distanced myself from so many people irl that i dont really have anyone anymore :/#just hate it so much bad i wish i lived in a better place here.#persephone rambles#hate it so much* idk why that bads there đ
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REALIZED SOMETHING CRAZY ABOUT MYSELFâŚ
#so fun fact about me: i really donât give a fuck about having friends like that#I mean I do mostly in the form of my cousins who Iâve grown up with#and a handful of people Iâm friends with either through my sisters or that I have miraculously befriended myself#but in general Iâm someone who rarely tries to maintain a close relationship with them#like if we drifted off and never spoke to each other again I donât think I would gaf#which I know sounds psychotic but hear me out#ok since I was in elementary school Iâve had a series of weird friendships#in middle school there was this girl named patty who was my friend but the moment they called me their best friend I got freaked out#and was relieved when the friendship started to weaken naturally#and looking back Iâm not sure why I was freaked out but I was#and then I also had my friend Alicia who I was genuinely besties with like we used to text everyday in the seventh grade#and then in eighth grade despite nothing changing we just grew apart and stopped talking to each other#oddly I donât even know why#and even when we would hang out it wasnât the same I wish I knew why#and in 8th grade I somehow became friends with a girl I used to despise đ#she who shall not be named was âpopularâ I guess and honestly a huge fucking mean girl#but I think I liked the fact that she was nice to me cause it was pretty rare that she would be to anyone else#and we became friends but we very often butted heads#I mean what I liked was that she was kind and protective at times#and then other times a flat out mean and jealous psycho#anyways once high school was over I âď¸ her off like there was no tomorrow#like I had no interest in being her friend after that because I was just fed up with her#and yeah since my school days I have always just been okay with drifting apart#and donât even bother to have a friendship breakup#like it doesnât even make me sad to see a relationship fade away when it does#Iâm just like good times :D but who gaf#and sometimes I disengage before the friendship has even broken up#like Iâm also scared of the feeling of abandonment that Iâve already coached myself to be okay with the thought of losing them#AND I DONT KNOW WHERE THIS BEHAVIOR CAME FROM???
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damn it's been a while since i've been on tumblr
#đ.rambles#hi ><#one of my cets is soon so i've been busy aaaa#after that tho ! gna get a lot more done#wna return here honestly#make a proper spam bcs i end up rambling too much on my twt priv oops n#hmmm. i've being doing better tho! esp compared to last year. kinda weird but i'm doing alright rn#only have like a week left. more like less than a week now bcs i'm gna rest on friday#saturday's my exam day. haven't had exams in a while. ever since the pandemic#haven't had to take any entrance exams for so long too bcs i've been in the same school ever since grade school#weird how in just a few months i'll be in my last year of high school#i'll make the most of it ! i'm v excited for college tho >.>#stressed tho abt the upcoming exam bcs for the past few months i haven't been properly reviewing#i understand n learn well but 𼚠still nervous honestly#i really want to get in.#n then growing older is just. yeah odd. i'm closer to being 17 than being 16#16 has admittedly been rather uneventful n uh kinda 'sad' actually but#17 is too close to 18. i want to do a lot more before that time comes#i always wished that. yk when i'm older i'll still be close w ppl i grew up with. esp during my teen years#drifting apart from the person that used to be my best friend back then hurts. we're different people now.#n other stuff too w other ppl that i think i'll just have to keep a secret for eternity#i've been keeping to myself a lil too much lately. but i've been doing mostly well lately#just a bit emotional rn. it's nearly midnight#ah.. my family's asleep rn n i'll sleep soon too but. oh fuck having this moment finally to myself n being properly alone#makes me finally just. feel it all. n it hurts. it's really lonely.. w the exception of my family#it's really lonely but i'll never say that while the sun's up. i just. want to#cry in someone's arms? i love my family but i just.. want someone else right now. but no i'm fine. it'll be fine#i'll focus on myself. i have my family n i'll reconnect w some friends after the exam#i'll do my best n study. i really need to get in. i want to do this for myself. but if i don't get in then i'll eventually make my peace#with that too. n i'll play video games n read n write n go out. catch up on a lot of stuff. yeah
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@thejoyousjester
can i come over and implant false memories of us being childhood friends?
#friends#friendship#childhood#memories#nostalgia#so glad I have siblings#and two childhood friends who remain best friends for life#but oh how I wish I grew up with some of the dear people I've become close with later in life#I'm just glad i know them now
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i've always known - satoru gojo





[ satoru gojo - f!reader ]
⧠summary: you'd known each other since childhood, growing as close as two people could grow. there was not anything you didn't do together. but life doesn't always cooperate, creating hurdles even for the most tightknit relations ⧠cw: [MDNI] childhood best friends, afab!reader, college au, fluff!!, ofc some angst sprinkled in here, mentions of underage drinking, swearing, arguing, slightly ooc satoru maybe you be the judge, jealousy, poorly written eventual smut (be patient), fingering, p in v, unprotected sex, pet names, no use or y/n ⧠word count: 17.0k (yikes sorry)
ââË・â
You were six years old when you met him for the first time.
âBe nice and say hi, sweetie,â your mom spoke softly, only making you squeeze her hand harder and hide behind her.
âHi,â you said more quiet than a whisper, if that was even possible, looking at the two strangers that had made themselves known.
But it wasnât the unknown woman that had you so nervous, she seemed kind enough. It was the little boy next to her, a mop of crystal white hair hanging above his piercing blue eyes that were staring directly at you. With his hands stuffed into the pocket of his hoodie, he flashed you a toothless grin.
âHello, Iâm Satoru,â his tone chipper, almost like the line was rehearsed. You only stared at him with eyes big as globes before turning towards your mom again.
âMooom,â you nagged, pulling at her sleeve. âCan we go back inside?â
âIn a minute,â she reassured you before turning towards the strangers. âIâm sorry, the moving has been a lot for her,â she chuckled nervously, but the unknown lady only smiled at her.
âOh, donât worry about it,â she laughed kindly before turning to you. âIâm sure weâll get to know each other with time.â She shot you a friendly wink, but you only shrunk further being your momâs leg. Instinctively, she began to rub comforting circles on your back.
âWe have no doubt,â she answered for you.
Still feeling Satoruâs eyes on you, you turned to him again. Instantly your eyebrows narrowed in annoyance, not understanding why he was still staring at you, like you were some kind of weirdo.
âI really came by to invite your family over for dinner tomorrow. Wish you welcome to the neighbourhood.â Your mother instantly beamed at the request.
âThatâs so nice. Weâd love too, right honey?â Shifting the focus to you again. You only shrugged, not daring to look away from the strange boy.
âGreat. Just drop by anytime after five and weâll be home.â The genuine smile only amplified the womanâs already gorgeous face.
Your mom broke the intense staring competition you had with Satoru with a slight shake of the hand. âWhy donât you tell them your name?â
Looking between the two strangers standing on your porch, you shyly mumbled your name, earning you another smile from the boy. What was his deal?
ââË・â
âWhy donât you show her your room, Satoru?â The man you assumed to be his dad had said nearly the second your family had stepped into their home.
Youâd given your parents a pleading look, begging them to come to your rescue seeing as you were already attending the dinner against your will. With stern glares, you knew you had no choice but to follow Satoru.
With a safe distance behind him, you reluctantly followed him up the stairs, which lead to a door at the end of the long hallway. He was clearly a well mannered kid, surprising you as he actually held the door open for you to enter first.
Small steps lead you into his bedroom and your eyes instantly grew big in awe at the sight of the huge bedroom. It was probably twice the size of yours, filled with all the toys you could imagine. Strengthening your envy was the queen sized bed in the corner of his room, because you had always been told that big beds like that were for grown ups only.
But what captured your full attention was the bookshelves in the opposite side of the room filled with manga from the floor to the ceiling. Shuffling over to them, you let your eyes travel over the familiar titles, spotting all your favourite stories.
âAre all of these yours?â You asked, turning to see him already looking at you with his hands in his pockets. He simply nodded, a proud smile plastered on his face to reveal deep dimples on each side of his face.
Unfair, you thought to yourself. What you would give to have stacked shelves like that, so youâd be able to pick up a new manga the second youâd finished another one.
âHow old are you?â The random question made you turn to look at him again, his pride shifted into curiosity with his head tilted.
âSix.â He instantly scrunched his nose, seriously unhappy with your answer.
âHmm,â he scoffed, looking down at his feet. His reaction couldnât help but offend you, crossing your arms over your chest and sticking your bottom lip out in a dramatic pout. ââS not fair,â he mumbled as he kicked his feet.
âWhat isnât fair?â You whined, drawing his eyes back to you.
âWell, Iâm eight,â he complained, but that alone didnât explain his tone. âSo why are you taller than me?â Blinking at him in surprise, a small giggle began to take over your grumpiness. âItâs not funny!â
If your parents had seen you giggle in response to someone clearly upset, you would have earned yourself a strict scowl and a lesson when you got home. Lucky for you, they were downstairs mingling with their new neighbours, so the childish giggle came bursting out of you, causing your to slap both your hands over your mouth to contain yourself.
He knew you were teasing him, but he found himself enjoying the sound of your laugh a little too much to stay upset, his shoulders sinking and eyebrows raising in delight. A subtle blush dusted over his cheeks when he began to think he might just be a little smitten by you already.
Nonetheless, it was the start of your friendship. Throughout the dinner, the two of you held a never ending conversation, which surprised your parents considering how hostile youâd been to even the idea of getting to know the young boy next door.
Both of you put up a fight when it was time for you to leave once the clock had passed nine on a school night. You eventually had to settle for seeing each other again tomorrow. Still so excited to have a new friend, you couldnât help but tell your parents everything you and Satoru had talked about.
âAnd he even said I could borrow his mangas if I wanted to!â
âThatâs great, honey, but you really have to go to bed now!â Your mom chuckled as she followed you into the bedroom and tucked you in. âWhy donât you tell me the rest tomorrow, hm?â You nodded eagerly, before she placed a sweet kiss on your cheek and wishing you good night before leaving your bedroom with the door slightly ajar.
You wanted to drift into sleep, but you couldnât find it in your body to rest. So like so many other nights, you walked over to your shelves to find something to read. You didnât manage to get that far, when something outside your window caught your eye. Curiously making your way over, you climbed up on the stool, only to be staring right at Satoru standing in his own window directly across from yours.
It didnât take long for him to spot you, instantly waving at you with his entire arm. With the same toothless grin youâd been greeted with the previous day, you waved back at him immediately before climbing back into bed more than satisfied.
ââË・â
You were ten years old the first time he got grounded because of you.
Over the years, youâd just grown closer and closer for each time you hung out, which was pretty much every day. It was just a given that you would see each other at one point or another throughout the day. And if, for some odd reason, you hadnât gotten the chance to meet up, you would catch up in the evening from your windows.
There was not a doubt that you two had become best friends. His house felt like a second home, nearly spending more time there than your own home.
Sadly, Satoruâs classmates didnât think it was cool for him to hang out with someone who was ten. Unlike them, you were a child⌠and a girl, which meant you brought cooties
âWaiting for your boyfriend,â a taunting voice cooed as it gradually came closer, capturing your attention to meet three boys you recognised from Satoruâs class.
âNot my boyfriend,â you mumbled to yourself, not wanting to give them the attention they so desperately wanted. Turning away from them, you tried to ignore their rapid approach. But before you knew it, they had you surrounded.
âYou know, he doesnât really like hanging out with you.â Glaring daggers at the boy standing right in front of you, you chewed the inside of your cheek in an attempt not to let him get to you. âHeâs got better things to do than hang out with stupid girls.â
You tried to cling onto the advice your mother had told you time and time again; if you donât have anything nice to say, donât say anything at all. But in this moment, that seemed like the worst possible advice. Why should you just stand there and take it when they were throwing all these mean words at you?
âYouâre just upset you canât get anyone to talk to you!â Your voice was venomous, but it didnât seem to have any affect on him as they only snickered in response.
âThink youâre funny?â
âJust leave me alone!â You fired back, challenging his patronising look at you. For a few seconds, he held your stare before he launched forward and yanked your manga right out of your tiny hands. âHey! Give it back!â Despite being as tall as the dumb boy, he managed to keep it just out of your reach, no matter how far you tried to stretch for it.
âIâm just having a look,â he laughed as he began to recklessly flip through the pages. From each side of you, you could hear both of his friends laugh to egg him on.
Panting and whining, you tried to reach for your book, but froze in place when you heard the sound of paper ripping. Staring at the manga in his hands, you saw how he had started to tear crumbled pages from the spine. With fake sincerity, he squeaked a small âopsâ and continued to laugh. Unable to peer your eyes away from your favourite manga in pieces, the tears began to well up in the corner of your eyes. âAwe, are you crying?â
The tears didnât have time to fall, when a familiar figure came zooming in front of you and crashing into your bully, instantly knocking him to the ground, causing him to scrape his knee. While he kept squirming on the ground, Satoru instantly snatched the book from his hands.
âI told you to leave her alone,â Satoru growled at the boy as he stumbled back on his feet, blood steaming through his torn jeans. His brows were narrowed in pure anger, telling you he was about to retaliate towards your friend, but Satoru sported a stern posture and a look that one would be stupid to defy.
Soon enough, it seemed like the pain set in after a few seconds, and the anger in his eyes turned glossy, trying to hide the fact that his bottom lip was quivering and his nostrils were flaring like he was about to cry.
Satoru shot an ugly glare at the two other boys, who didnât seem sure what to do with themselves. âYou want to taste the gravel as well?â Satoru threatened, the three boys sharing a worrying look. It didnât take long before they decided to scatter with their tail between their legs. The boy whoâd ruined your book, trying to conceal a limp but failing terribly.
The second they had their backs turned to you, Satoru turned his full attention to you with a softened expression, genuinely worried. âYou okay?â He hurried to ask, scanning you from top to toe to see if there were any visible injuries. However it was only your pride, and your manga, that was wounded.
Looking down at his hands, the tears came back right away at the scene of the mangled book.
âIâm fine,â you said under your breath, eyes still glued to the manga. Struggling to find the right words to comfort you, his eyes jumped between your glistening eyes and the torn book in his hands.
âI have this one at home! You can have mine, I never liked it anyway,â he rambled as he began to wave the book around, growing more uncomfortable as he saw the small tears roll down your red and puffy cheeks. âAnd donât worry about them! Theyâre just stupid! And jealous. And, and-â his frantic words stopped in his throat, forming into a nervous lump when you flicked your eyes up to meet his.
Despite the redness in them and the sniffling of your nose, he couldnât help but think you looked pretty. Which only made him feel even worse, that someone could be so cruel to you.
You shrugged your shoulders slightly, wiping away the snot and tears from your face. âThank you for stopping them.â In defeat, you grabbed the manga out of his hands and stuffed it into your backpack, not caring if you ruined it any further.
âCâmon, letâs go home.â He placed a friendly hand on your shoulder, and you began to walk home like usual.
The walk home was mostly quiet, Satoru not daring to say anything, not knowing what to say. He wanted to help, make you feel better, but all the things that popped into his head just felt like it wouldn't be enough. So when you reached your house, you simply waved him goodbye before disappearing.
Once he entered his own home, his parents were on his neck instantly. They were furious, because theyâd received an angry phone call from a distraught parent explaining how Satoru had purposely attacked their son.
Satoru had tried to explain the situation and defend himself, saying he couldnât just let them pick on you like that. Somehow, the heroic gesture didnât seem to outweigh when the kid had walked home with a bloody knee, bawling his eyes out.
âYou never resort to violence, Satoru,â his father had yelled at him, before they told him he was grounded for a week. Satoru was speechless. He had never been grounded before, and he didnât understand why he was being punished when he firmly believed he had done the right thing.
Unable to defend himself further, he stomped to his room and started his homework like he had been told to do. He didnât get much work done though, as he mostly moped the entire evening, neurotically tapping his pen against the textbook.
You, much like Satoru, spent the entire evening in your bedroom. For the first two hours, you just laid in your bed, sulking. Eventually you wanted to talk to someone â not just someone, Satoru. You made your way to the windowsill, waiting for him to show. And you waited. And waited. And waited some more.
It wasnât until you were about to head to bed you saw his silhouette cracking open the window slowly. Jumping up, you opened your window immediately. âIâve been waiting all afternoon!â
âShhh, you gotta keep it down,â he said softly, barely able to hear him. âIâm not allowed to talk to you right now.â
You raised an eyebrow in confusion. âWhat? Why?â Leaning forward in the window frame, resting your head on your forearms.
âIâm grounded,â he shrugged, checking over his shoulder every now and then to make sure no one came to check in on him.
âFor what?â
âBecause I shoved him. He ran like a crybaby, making it seem worse than it was.â He rolled his eyes dramatically, so incredibly frustrated by the outcome.
âReally? I can explain what happened to your parents-â he waved his hands out the window to stop you.
âI tried. They were quite upset. But itâs no big deal. Itâs just a week.â
âSo, I wonât be able to see you for a week?â You complained, to which he only looked at you with big eyes. It hadnât really hit him that he wouldnât be able to hang out with you while he was grounded, which only made this terrible situation even worse.
Pursing his lips in thought, he opened his mouth again to speak. âGuess weâll just have to be sneaky with window meetings at night,â he laughed, making you laugh along as well.
âI guess so.â
âI gotta go to bed before mom and dad finds me talking to you,â he sighed. âSo, guess Iâll talk to you tomorrow night.â Before he managed to shut his window, you called his name again.
âHey, Satoru?â Looking back at you with big eyes, you swallowed the lump in your throat. âThank you for today. It really meant a lot!â
Looking at your glowing gratitude, he did not regret his actions for a single second. He even knew, should the opportunity arise, he would not hesitate to defend you again. Heâd risk all the punishment in the world if it meant having you looking at him like that again.
âGood night, âToru,â you smiled sweetly, his heart doing a small flip at the sound of his new nickname.
ââË・â
You were fifteen years old when Satoru finally grew passed you.
And once he passed you, it seemed like he never stopped. It wasnât just you he passed, it was all his peers as well. And as he grew, so did his ego to match it. Of course, this also resulted in him endlessly teasing you.
âImagine you used to be taller than me,â he laughed and placed his hand on top of your head.
âYeah, and youâre the only one who cares,â you sighed, swiftly removing his hand from your head.
This all happened about the time you started high school, something Satoru had looked forward to since he himself first started high school. It finally gave you a chance to hang out during school hours, as youâd mostly been restricted to your classrooms in lower grades. He was also excited to introduce you to the small life he had there, which previously had been separated from you.
There was no doubt that Satoru Gojo, along with his small crew, were insanely popular. They basically ruled the school and they all welcomed you with open arms.
So, by association, you too became popular.
You fitted into his group perfectly, getting along with both Shoko and Suguru pretty much right of the bat. So he shouldnât really have been complaining â except for the unforeseen circumstances that came with other people finally noticing you.
Ever since you were young, you hadnât made a huge number of yourself, remaining somewhat anonymous, happy doing your only thing. Satoru had basically been your only friend. He knew he could never mention it to anyone, but he really enjoyed having you all to himself.
So when he noticed all the lingering looks you received just walking down the hall, some unfamiliar anger began to take shape in him.
Pretty much from your first day, he was bombarded with questions from his classmates. Whoâs your friend? Is she single? Why arenât you dating her? Will you introduce me? It got old real fast, and Satoru only found himself growing more and more frustrated by it, coming up with silly excuses to lead them in the opposite direction.
âYeah, no, sheâs- uhm, sheâs single but her dad promised her a car if she doesnât date âtil sheâs eighteen.â
They all gave him the same weird look. âIf youâre seeing her, just say so.â
âNo! Weâre just friends!â He always rushed to defend himself, which always earned him a roll of their eyes before they shrugged off his weird behaviour. Lucky for him, his reputation saved him from anyone pushing it any further.
Despite his best efforts to keep guys at bay, there were still a few headstrong individuals who didnât care about Satoruâs lame excuses or status, they still tried to pursue you. So to fend them off, he had other ways to make you seem unapproachable; excessive physical touch.
You never thought twice about it, as he had never been a stranger to physical touch. It wasnât unusual for him to throw his arm over your shoulders when walking, or fidget with your fingers when he needed something to stimulate his agitation. Youâd gotten so used to it over the years, that youâd simply grown accustomed to it.
After a while, most of the guys in school seemed to get the message that you were off limits. The hassle of his consistent protection for you combined with his position in the school, it just wasnât worth it â that was ignoring some of the most persistent seniors, but he only found their attempts amusing as you so obviously found them disgusting.
Nonetheless, with time he could deem himself satisfied with the lack of male attention you received.
âSo youâre joining us this weekend right?â Suguru, one of Satoruâs close friends, asked during lunch. You only narrowed your eyebrows at him in confusion. What you didnât notice, was Satoru sitting beside you, furiously trying to stop Suguru from explaining further, glaring at him and waving his hands like a maniac.
âWhatâs this weekend?â
âSatoru didnât tell you about the party?â A taunting smirk danced on his lips as he completely ignored Satoruâs disappointed glare. When you turned to question him, he immediately wiped off his disappointment and flashed you a shy smile.
âParty?â
âYeah, I wasnât really planning on going so,â he shrugged nonchalantly, trying to regain his âcoolâ act.
âThatâs not what you told us yesterday,â Shoko scoffed, a smirk matching Suguruâs plastered on her face.
It was in moments like these, you became incredibly aware of the age difference between the two of you. Sure, it was only two years, which youâd never thought much of â until you started high school. His interests and desires skewed in a more mature direction, which you werenât necessarily ready for. It had become a lot more usual for him to go out with his friends during weekends. Even though he usually returned home early and met you at the window, it still sucked.
Did you want to go to the party? No, not really. But if you were being honest, you were absolutely terrified of Satoru slipping away from you if you werenât able to keep up with him. Besides, you only felt guilt at the thought that he might have changed his mind about going because of you. So what harm could it do to attend, even if it was for just an hour?
âI mean, if you want to go,â you trailed off, wanting so much to seem natural about it all. âI donât wanna stop you.â With a small shrug, you were almost certain to managed to seem casual.
âSo thatâs a yes?â Shoko cheered quietly from the opposite side of the table.
âI guess so,â a small chuckle leaving your lips.
Satoru, on the other hand, wasnât as excited about you joining them as his friends. Nervously bouncing his leg under the table, he began to imagine all the things that could happen. He tried to tell himself the main reason he was so upset about the whole thing was that he was concerned something bad might happen, but in reality, he hated the idea of an arena for random dudes to hang over you all night.
You interrupted his spiralling when you suddenly raised from the table. âI have to run by the library before class,â you sighed before you rushed off, Satoruâs eyes never leaving you until youâd left the cafeteria.
âWhat is your deal?â Shoko laughed, drawing his attention back to the table. âSince when do you turn down a party, even if you leave after an hour?â
âI donât know, just donât think itâll be her scene, thatâs all,â he excused himself, picking at his food, suddenly not having an appetite anymore.
âI know you two, like, grew up together or whatever, and you have this strange need to protect her, but sheâs able to take care of herself. Youâve seen how she talks to Fushiguro,â she laughed again.
âItâs not that,â he sighed, avoiding making eye contact with his friends.
âYou remember what it was like to be a freshman. Things like these are exciting,â Suguru shot in. Satoru simply shrugged at his comment. âLook, weâll all keep an eye on her. And you donât drink anyways, so youâll be more than sober enough to make sure sheâs okay.â
âYeah, whatever,â Satoru mumbled and stood up from his seat, still not looking at them. âIâll see you guys later.â
And before you knew it, the weekend came rolling in and you found yourself clutching onto Satoruâs arm for dear life, scared youâd lose him in the crowd.
âWe can leave if you want to,â he leaned down to say nearly the second youâd entered the house.
âNo, no. Itâs fine. Letâs just⌠find Shoko and Suguru.â
It was a lot to take in. People singing and dancing, chugging drink after drink. But your nerves calmed down when you felt Satoruâs strong hands squeeze yours in reassurance. And once you found the others, your body just felt a lot more at ease. It didnât take long for you to actually enjoy yourself, even though you decided to stay away from the alcohol, at least for this time.
What wasnât as enjoyable, was all the female attention Satoru received throughout the evening. It was no secret he was a popular guy, girls lining up to talk to him. But when it came to the girls at school, they mostly just gawked and giggled while he innocently entertained their interests. No, these girls were different. They had clear intentions of taking it further, giving him looks you did not appreciate.
And it bothered you. Oh lord, how it bothered you.
Sitting so close to you, his leg pressed up against yours, you sadly got a front row view of when the girls leaned over and batted their long eyelashes at him, flashing him seductive smiles. You were beyond uncomfortable, trying to look anywhere but scene taking place mere inches from you.
You had no reason to be upset â you were only friends and youâd only ever been friends. Never had the idea of anything else crossed your mind, but you hadnât ever witnessed ladies glue themselves to him like this before.
âHey, you okay?â Satoru interrupted your thoughts, turning over to see he was focused on you, the girl at his side quirking an eyebrow.
ââM fine,â you mumbled, a small smile drawing at your lips. He scanned your face, taking a deep sigh in thought, reading you so clearly.
Out of nowhere, Satoru jumped up from his seat, holding his hand out for you to grab. He wore that award winning smile of his as he opened his mouth, âcome on.â
A smile grew on your face to match his as you eagerly let him pull you off the couch before he playfully threw his arm over your shoulder, leading you out the living room. As you walked, you swore you could hear the girl he talked to earlier scoff.
âHow does ice cream sound to you?â Looking down at you as he shielded out the tight crowd as he lead you out the door.
And as the two of you left the party, there was laughter on your lips and a genuine, special joy in your eyes you seemed to have reserved only for each other. Shoko and Suguru, however, kept a confused eye on you as you exited the house.
âIâll never understand them,â Shoko shook her head, before turning to look at her friend who seemed just as frustrated by you and Satoru as she was. âI mean, theyâre clearly into each other, right?â
Suguru exhaled sharply through his nose in what sounded like it was supposed to be a chuckle. âItâs weird if they arenât.â
âWhen he talked about her before, I just figured they were best friends, like he said. But after meeting her and seeing them together-â
âNo, I agree,â Suguru laughed before she was able to finish her sentence. âIâve never seen âbest friendsâ act like they do.â Shoko nudged his side with her elbow to bring his attention to the girl Satoru had flirted with seconds before he had just stranded her alone on the couch, to see she was pouting, arms crossed over her chest as she stared at the door like she was waiting for him to return.
âNeither has she,â she laughed.
ââË・â
You were seventeen years old the first time you had your heart broken. Really broken.
Standing outside your boyfriend â no scratch that. Standing outside what was now your ex boyfriendâs front door, you tried to wrap your head around what had just happened, silent tears falling slowly down your face.
It had come out of no where. Yesterday, everything had seemed fine, and now he had suddenly come to the conclusion that you were no longer a good match? It made no sense.
Shaking your head as you took a deep breath, you knew there was only one person who might be able to help you feel a little better. Not to mention, he was probably the only person in the universe right now you could stand to see at all.
The fifteen minute walk from where youâd just had your heart stomped on to your neighbourhood had never felt longer. The silence that filled the dark and abandoned streets was numbing, leaving more room for the self deprecating thoughts to fill your mind. What had you done wrong? What could you have done differently? Was there someone else, someone prettier and funnier than you? Had you not been dedicated enough?
Despite the insane sadness that filled you, you thought if it were to happen, this weekend was probably the best timing, seeing as you wouldnât have been able seek comfort had it happened any other time. Having taken a gap year after high school to earn money, Satoru worked a lot but he had for once gotten a weekend off. And his parents were out of town on some conference, meaning there was no risk of either of them opening the door to greet your grief struck face.
Soon enough you found yourself in front of the familiar front door, a tiny lump forming in your throat as you placed three soft knocks on the door. Before you knew it, Satoru stood right in front of you, his initial reaction of joy melting away once he processed you were upset.
âWhat happened?â His voice was so soft, eyes filled with worry.
âCan I come in?â Your voice was barely louder than a whisper.
âYeah! Of course.â He stepped aside, letting you pass him and enter his home. âYou want anything? Is this like an ice cream kinda situation, because I think we have some cookie dough flavoured in the freezer.â
A broken chuckle slipped out of you, followed by a sob. âNo, thank you, Iâm fine. Just needed to see you,â you sniffled furiously.
âYeah, sure.â Without saying another word, you simply helped yourself up the stairs and to his bedroom. His eyes never left you as you carefully sat down on his bed and he sat down on his desk chair.
Uncomfortable wasnât necessarily the word heâd use for seeing you like this, because it had happened before â just not very often. Youâd always been a quiet charmer, if there was a way to describe it. Out of the two of you, heâd always been the loud and outgoing one, but he definitely saw you as the one who spread the most joy to those around you, a natural sense of cheerfulness radiating from you. Not to mention you were usually the one who stood for the comforting and advice, meaning he was at a loss on what to do.
âWhat happened?â He asked carefully.
âWe broke up.â The words left you so quickly and easily, Satoru had to blink a few times to realise what youâd just said. âOr he broke up with me is probably more correct.â You avoided his gaze, staring directly at your hands tucked between your thighs, the tears leaving dark circles on your jeans.
âI thought things were going well.â
âSo did I.â You wiped your nose with the back of your hand, still sniffling like crazy. âI know you never liked him and didnât get along with him but I really liked him, y'know?â
A pang of guilt came crashing in over Satoru. He hadnât been subtle about his dislike for your boyfriend, and it started before the two of you even became official. He did not miss the opportunity to throw a snide comment about him when you brought him up or constantly quarrel on the few occasions they were in the same room. But he couldnât help it.
Satoru had been so focused on all the guys lining up for you in school, he hadnât even thought of the boys that might find their way to you from elsewhere.
He still remembered the evening you came home from work at the coffeehouse, such a sweet smile on your face and a blush across your nose when heâd met you at the window that night. So giddy over this cute boy whoâd chatted you up and ended up getting your number. Had Satoru known then heâd break your heart this badly, heâd tried harder to shut it down.
âI know I gave him a hard time, but I know you liked him,â he tried to comfort you. âAnd Iâm certain he cared for you too. Itâs hard not to.â
âUrgh, Iâm such an idiot,â you cracked, hiding your face in your hands as the sobs just tumbled out in one steady stream.
âHey,â Satoru said, rushing out of his chair to crouch in front of you. Tenderly he grabbed ahold of your wrists to remove them from your face, carefully trying to dry the tears away. âYouâre not an idiot, okay?â
A small scoff made its way out of you between the sobs. âIâm not even sure he ever cared about me.â
When your name rolled off his tongue with more compassion than youâd ever heard from him before, your eyes snapped up to meet his. âListen to me! I am certain he did. I know what you dedicated to that relationship, and heâd be crazy not to care for you. Not just crazy, but a damn magician as well because itâs genuinely impossible. Believe me, I know.â A small smile grew on his lips when he heard he was able to draw a small chuckle out of you. âYouâre not an idiot. You just have a big heart. And heâs the idiot if he thinks he should let it go.â
He dried what seemed to be one of your last tears with his thumb, before tucking some of your hair behind your ear. His caring gaze traveled your face, taking in every detail he could when the memory from when you were kids popped into his mind. Just like that time, looking at you all red and puffy, he again found himself thinking you were pretty. Not just pretty â beautiful.
âThank you, âToru,â you whispered.
âAny time.â
âCan I stay here tonight?â
âScandalous,â he said dramatically, earning him another shy smile from you. Both of you knew you didnât have to ask, having slept over hundreds of time throughout the years.
âWho knew you were so good at this,â you smiled weakly as he stood up to go get the extra duvet he had in his closet, which was basically just an extra duvet for you.
âPfft, I am Satoru Gojo after all. Is there anything I canât do?â He flashed you a proud grin, instantly rolling your eyes at him.
âYouâre not the greatest cook last time I che-â before you were able to finish your sentence, a pillow came crashing into your face. A lighthearted giggle escaped you, and again Satoru felt his heart flutter a little, so pleased heâd managed to brighten your terrible evening a little bit.
âWatch it, sweetheart, or Iâll have you sleep on the floor.â
âYou would never,â you smiled before grabbing one of Satoruâs t-shirts, like you always did, and headed for the bathroom.
Once you met your reflection in the mirror, your eyes grew as all the signs of tonightâs sorrow was incredibly visible on your face. And to think Satoru had seen you like this, knowing heâd tease you endlessly about it once things settled down and you could laugh about it all.
Your eyes were swollen from all the crying, mascara lines down your puffy cheeks. Still sniffling, you cleaned your face, dabbing a hot cloth in hopes you might redeem some of your dignity as you washed away your heartbreak. Looking in the mirror, a sigh left you knowing that this was probably as good as it was going to get. At least you didnât have makeup smeared all over your face anymore.
Shuffling back into his bedroom, wearing his t-shirt nonetheless, a small lump formed in his throat at the sight of you as he had to fight the urge to let his eyes indulge in your entire figure. What was going on? A million times had you spent the night, and a million times had you gone to bed wearing his shirt, yet tonight felt different. He felt there was something in the air that had shifted, but it went unsaid. So without another word, he simply made his way passed you and to the bathroom. You, on the other hand, paid no attention to his odd behaviour, simply laying down on the bed on the side closest to the wall, your side.
Despite not picking up on his averted gaze, you too sensed there was something in the atmosphere that seemed different than usual, but you couldnât quite put your finger on what. You could easily just blame the breakup, which was definitely lingering in the air, but you knew that wasnât quite it either. There was something in the tension that you felt were directly connected to Satoru.
When you felt his weight press down on the bed next to you, you reactively turned to look at him, surprised to see he was already laying on his side looking right back at you. Staring deeply into your eyes, you felt as if he was trying to tell you something but you couldnât make it out.
Same went for Satoru, as he felt it deep down that there was something he needed to tell you but he had no idea what it was, only that it weighed heavier on him now that the evening had been so emotional and raw.
ââToru?â
âHm?â
âWhat was it about him you didnât like?â Satoru couldnât help but smirk somewhat shamefully.
âItâs not important,â a slight chuckle slipping out of him.
âWith a smile like that, you have to tell me.â Satoru readjusted his head on the pillow, ending up even closer to your face than intended but neither of you pulled away.
âWell, I like it best when I have you to myself.â
âPlease,â you scoffed, tucking one of your hands under your cheek, carefully tilting forward a little. âThatâs ridiculous, even for you.â
âNo, Iâm serious,â he gave you a sweet smile. âWeâve been so close for so long, itâs weird suddenly having to share you.â
You took a deep sigh, your heart skipping a small beat at his answer. âWell, I had to share you first.â
His eyebrows instantly pinched together into a frown, a humorous smirk on his lips. âExcuse me?â
âSo youâve forgotten when you first started high school? It was always âSuguru thisâ and âShoko thatâ.â
âThatâs not the same,â he mocked you.
âHowâs that not the same?â Offended at his disregard for your experience of him suddenly having a bigger social circle, you knew it was all in a playful manner.
âBecause-â was all he managed to get out before you noticed his eyes betraying him as they quickly glanced down at your lips, before looking back into your eyes. Drawing a sharp breath, you swore you might be able to spot a strong blush heat his face, but it was too dark to tell for sure.
He exhaled a shaky breath, which you felt brush against your face making you realise just how close you were to each other.
All the hairs on your body stood up when you felt his light touch brush against your arm that was resting between you. Was this weird? You didnât know. It wasnât like it was the first time heâd touched you like this, so what was making tonight so different?
One slight movement and your noses would grace against each other. He could do it, he could just tilt his head forward and his lips would connect with yours and he was certain it would be delicious. Your eyes had captured his gaze, and he felt as if he could stare into them forever-
No, stop!
You flinched at his sudden movements when he pulled away to turn around, with his back facing you.
His heart sunk into his stomach, mentally cursing himself now that he wasnât facing you anymore. He couldnât believe he had actually wanted to kiss you, his best friend. It wouldnât be right, especially not tonight when you were as vulnerable as you were. Heâd be a complete asshole to take advantage of that. Not to mention how embarrassed he would have been in the morning when you werenât trapped under the haze of heartbreak and would have realised how much of a mistake it had been.
âGood night,â he said in his usual, cheerful tone and the curse was broken.
The next morning, youâd woken up to an empty bed, much like you always did when you spent the night. What was out of the ordinary, was seeing him in the kitchen in full swing serving pancakes and ice cream calling it âthe breakfast for breakupsâ.
You couldnât tell if you were hurt or not by how he was acting, as if last night never happened. Was he not going to mention how close the two of you had been to locking lip? He simply went about the morning, just as happy as he always was.
And never brought it up.
ââË・â
You were eighteen years old when you and Satoru fell apart.
Satoru had left for college, and at first youâd been so lost on what to do. For the first time since you were six, he wasnât immediately at your side.
You remembered the day he left so clearly, clinging on around his neck, refusing to let go because you didnât want him to get in his car and drive off, unsure when youâd see him again. When the two of you eventually managed to break the hug, you heard a not so subtle sniffle and spotted faint redness around his eyes.
âDonât tell me youâre crying, âToru,â you teased in between your own sniffles.
âYou got me there,â he said with a sad chuckle slipping out, surprising you that he didnât even attempt to fire back, just surrendering to his emotions. âGonna miss you.â
âGonna miss you too,â you whispered in response. Not much more was spoken before he drove off, like it all was just too much for either of you to talk about.
The first few days you didnât do much else than lay in bed and wait for him to call, like he promised he would. And exactly at 8 pm, your phone lit up with his name where he told you all about how hectic his days were â and he wasnât sure if heâd be able to have daily calls anymore once the semester started for real.
âNo, of course. I mean, I go back to school soon too so.â
And as the time went on, the calls got more and more rare. From every day, to three times a week, once a week, until you were lucky it happened every fourteen days.
Even though you hated it, you couldnât blame him. Of course he was busy, he had an entirely new everyday life filled with classes and new people. And when he did make time for the phone call, you couldnât help but feel genuine happiness when you heard how excited he was about all of it. But you knew you couldnât keep sitting around sulking as you waited for his call. You decided you had to be okay without him.
It was your senior year after all â it was your time to shine, and you were still with the popular crowd even though Satoru wasnât there anymore. Now you finally had the opportunity to get to know them better.
Turned out you had more in common with them than you thought, getting particularly close with the girls of the group. And it was refreshing to have girl friends, who seemed to match some of your interests in a way Satoru never managed to. Your horizons just expanded, your schedule packed nearly from morning until night. Not to mention your weekends were also busy. The parties you and Satoru usually left early or skipped all together, had become fun.
This weekend was no different. Sitting at your vanity doing your makeup for the evening when you heard your momâs voice yell from downstairs. âThereâs someone here to see you.â
âJust send her up,â you yelled back. But when you turned around to face who you thought was your friend who was coming to get ready with you, your jaw dropped at the sight of the tall figure standing there instead.
âHer? Not the last time I checked,â Satoru smiled.
âOh, my god, âToru!â You squealed in excitement, running at him as you threw your arms around him in a tight hug, smiling even harder when he hugged you back just as firmly.
When he let you down, your eyes was instantly drawn to his. Itâs been so long since youâd been able to stare into those captivating, blue eyes, and now you melted having them look down on you for the first time in months. Now that you were finally able to see him again, to touch him again, it hit you like a semi truck just how much you had missed him. You even found yourself getting a little emotional, blinking away the wetness in your eyes.
âGod, donât wanna ruin my makeup,â you laughed.
âI was just about to say, you look great,â he said, unable to peer his eyes off you, because âgreatâ was an understatement.
âWhy, thank you,â you beamed at him, a smile stretching from one ear to another.
âGoing somewhere?â His eyebrows narrowed, letting his chipper composure slip for just a second but he quickly tried to shake it off.
âYeah, thereâs a party tonight. The groupâs going, but I can cancel if-â
âNo, of course not. Iâm home all weekend.â There was a slight twinge in your heart, disappointed that he didnât have the guts to accept your offer. There was not a single ounce of doubt that youâd drop the party for him in a heartbeat â you had after all longed for him to come home to visit since the second his car had driven out of view the day he left.
âWell, maybe you could come along?â You suggested, grabbing his hands in yours.
âI just think Iâm going to stay home with my parents tonight,â he swallowed, giving you a weak smile.
He knew he should have just taken you up in the offer to ditch the party, but he didnât have the heart to, especially when you were all dolled up for the evening already.
All heâd looked forward to was come home and hang with you and catch up all night, never falling asleep because he had missed your voice so much. But he knew that eventually, the guilt would eat him up, hogging you for the night when you were supposed to be somewhere else.
Now he had to sit at home, alone and bored, because he had lied when he told you about his parents, seeing as they werenât back in town until tomorrow. He knew he would spend the night miserable, but it would beat having to tag along at your heels to a party he didnât want to attend in the first place and witness how close youâd gotten to all your new friends while heâd been away, still preferring to have you to himself.
âWill you at least stay until I leave? And then Iâm all yours for the whole of tomorrow?â For the time being, he managed to let his blues slip away, especially when you gawked at him with a sparkle in your eyes and an infectious smile.
âOf course.â His eyes followed your cheerful walk back to your vanity as he sat down on your bed. Once seated, your conversation flowed like normal, as if no time had passed at all since the last time you saw each other. He told you about classes and how much more difficult it was now, especially seeing as he wasnât the biggest fan of studying.
And he knew he should be excited when you told him everything about your new life. How youâd finally taken the time to get the know the rest of the group and how great they all were, how fun you had it with all of them with all the stuff you guys did in your spare time, but heâd be lying if he said it didnât sting. He felt as if he was missing everything, losing the spot he used to have with you, replaced by his old friends. He knew it was unfair to think that way, but but there was no stopping his doomed spiralling.
âOh, and thatâs probably her coming now!â You perked up when footsteps could be heard coming up the stairs. The next second, a girl he knew used to be in his friend group stood in the doorway.
âSatoru? What a pleasant surprise,â she beamed at him, and guilt hit him when he couldnât even remember her name.
âYeah, just home for the weekend,â he smirked at her.
She flashed him another smile before turning to you. âYou ready?â
âJust about,â you sighed. Quickly, you grabbed your purse and skipped over to Satoru. âSee you tomorrow, okay?â You said cheerfully as you placed a quick peck on his cheek before running out, leaving him standing alone in your bedroom.
He stared dumbfounded at the empty space you occupied just seconds ago, still surprised by the kiss as it was something completely new. Was that something youâd picked up from the group? Did that mean you went around kissing everyoneâs cheeks? His mind ran crazy with questions, all making him equally jealous.
ââË・â
âPick up, pick up, pick up,â you whispered into the phone still ringing. It was the third time you had tried to call Satoru and he still hadnât picked up, which was incredibly unlike him. He always picked up almost immediately, especially when you were calling.
âHey,â you finally heard him sigh on the other end of the line.
âThank god you answered,â you said, teeth chattering in the freezing cold. âCould you please, please, please pick me up?â
âYou okay?â There was a hint of worry in his voice, but you had a sneaking suspicion he was trying to conceal it.
âNo. Or yes. Or I donât know, but Iâm cold and I need to go home!â Another sigh.
âWhere are you?â
âYouâre my angel,â you breathed before giving him the address.
âIâll be there in fifteen.â Before you managed to say goodbye, Satoru had already hung up. You stared blankly at the phone for a few seconds in shock of his abrupt ending, but right now, you were too cold to ponder any further on his behaviour. Tightly having folded your arms around yourself and rubbing your legs together, you desperately tried to get some heat in your body.
Finally, you saw the familiar car pull up in front of you, a sigh of relief leaving your body once you were greeted by the hot air as you sat down in the passenger seat.
âYouâre really a life saver,â you spoke as you leaned your head back on the headrest, waiting to meet his eyes but he never turned to look at you. His eyes were glued to the road, a tight grip on the steering wheel as he kept chewing on the inside of his cheek. âYou okay, âToru?â
ââM just fine,â he answered simply, still fixated on the road.
âThen why wonât you look at me?â You snorted, which made him quickly turn his head to give you a cold glare before looking at the road again.
âHow come you were standing out in the cold all alone?â When he didnât acknowledge your question further, you just fell back into your seat again and decided not to take it any further.
âYou donât wanna know,â you sighed, staring out the window.
âNo, Iâm curious.â If his tone told you anything, it was that he was pissed. You just hoped it wasnât directed at you.
âI was kicked out.â
âWhat, too drunk to be in the house?â His comment caught you off guard at it seemed nothing but spiteful. You flipped your head to look at him again, only to see he was still unwilling to look at you.
âDo I seem too drunk to you?â He only shrugged, knowing the answer was ânoâ. âIf you wanna know, I-â you stopped yourself from finishing, too embarrassed to utter the words.
âDonât get shy on my behalf.â
âI was about to sleep with someone, but after we undressed, something came over him and he just threw me out,â you complained, crossing your arms and staring at the road like he had earlier.
âYou what?â Satoru exclaimed, and now he finally decided to shoot you a glare. âWho?â
âDoes it matter?â You shrugged, avoiding his gaze which you knew was just purely judgemental. It seemed he was more upset about the part where you were going to sleep with someone than the fact that you were literally thrown out, which only ended up fuelling your own anger.
âWho was it?â He repeated sternly.
âJust some guy I met there, I donât know,â you shrugged, and instantly a loud huff left Satoru.
âWow,â he said in utter disbelief. âSo this is who you are now.â Finally turning to look at him again, your face hot with anger, you saw his eyebrows were raised in frustration and his tongue was poking the inside of his cheek.
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
âNever knew you to be someone who just spread your legs for anyone.â You gaped at him, not believing the words coming out of his mouth.
âStop the car,â you managed to force out somewhat calmly through gritted teeth.
âIâm not stopping-â
âStop the fucking car, Satoru,â you practically yelled at him, startled when he suddenly slammed the breaks. Once the car had stopped, you didnât hesitate to unbuckle your seatbelt and scramble out of the car, hearing him call your name before you slammed the door shut after you.
With your arms wrapped around yourself, you started to walk down the street in the direction of your house, knowing you were still pretty far from home. But you knew you were too furious to get back in the car with Satoru.
âCome on, get back in the car,â Satoruâs voice complained down the street.
âSo you can slut shame me some more? Think Iâll pass,â you shouted back. It took only a second until you heard the car engine shut off before hurried footsteps against the wet pavement made its way over to you, Satoru positioning himself right in front of you.
âFine, sorry, please get back in the car,â he said disingenuous, scowling down at you with his hands in his pockets.
âYou expect me to accept that apology?â You scowled right back at him.
âStop acting like a brat and just-â
âBrat? Really?â You interrupted him, raising your eyebrows at him. He opened his mouth to say something, but closed it just as quickly with a deep sigh. âThought so.â Keeping your mean glare at him, you tried to walk past him, but he surprised you by taking a strong grip of your arm.
âSo is this like a weekly occurrence now?â You forcefully pulled out of his grip.
You simply shrugged while trying to find the right answer, wanting to keep your own anger in check even though you felt you were close to boiling over. âI mean, thereâs something happening every weekend but that doesnât mean I always participate.â He only scoffed, turning away from you and looking around the street. âWhat?â
âSo now youâre just this crazy party girl that sleeps with anyone thatâs available?â
You truly couldnât believe it was Satoru saying these words to you, your best friend in the entire world. The person youâd known most your life, who knew your every deepest, darkest secret and had never judged you in the slightest â suddenly throwing mean words right to your face like you were just some nobody.
âLike youâre one to talk! You flirt with any girl that has a pulse, and not just in school. Remember, you went to parties too and enjoyed wallowing in the attention of anyone whoâd give it to you!â
âI never liked going to parties. I still donât,â he sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose.
âGlad to see some things hasnât changed, unlike the fact that youâve turned into an asshole,â you spat at him, trying to walk away again, but he yanked a hold of you once more.
âWell, Iâm not the only one who has changed,â he said in a low voice, giving you a stern look through his eyebrows.
A light laugh of disbelief escaped you, the tears quickly starting to well up in your eyes. Was this really the same person youâd physically been unable to let go off five months ago? The one person you believed could never intentionally hurt you the way he was now?
âThatâs what this is about, isnât it?â Flickering between his eyes, you knew youâd caught on. âDid you really think I was going to sit around and wait for you?â
âI certainly didnât expect you to go and replace me the first chance you got.â
âReplace you?!â You exclaimed before the entire sentence had left his lips.
âYes, replace me!â He fired back, his tone more angry than he wanted it to be, because sadness was all he truly felt.
âSo you havenât gotten any new friends at university?â
âThatâs different-â
âOh my god, Satoru,â you moaned in frustration, your hands rubbing your face. âI am so tired of you saying it is different for you! Youâve done that for years.â
Satoru had his hands deeply tucked in his pockets, his shoulders up to his ears with tension. He was already filled with guilt for talking to you this way, something heâd never done before. Then again, he couldnât remember having this many negative feelings regarding you running wild in him.
âItâs baffling to me that youâre actually saying all these things to me, like it isnât you that keep postponing our phone calls.â You said, your tone transformed from anger into the sorrow that had taken residence in you instead.
He breathed your name, almost like he seemed disappointed in a way. âClasses are riding my ass.â
âYou donât think I know that?â You fired back immediately, your tone remaining calm as you continued to hold back the tears. âBut truth is, it has caused you to not make time for the phone calls.â
âYou canât expect me to be able to make time-â
What seemed to be the mix of a sob and a scoff parted your lips, cutting him off. It was like talking to a brick wall, because it felt like nothing you said reached him.
Had he always been like this? Too wrapped up with his own idea of being right that he took no regards for your opinion? If so, how had the two of you managed to go all those years without you properly realising it?
âIf you havenât been paying attention, itâs not me thatâs had too many expectations, but you!â
His head fell back, retrieving his hands from his pockets to fold them over his chest. As his entire posture turned loose, you couldnât bare to look at him when the first tear fell. He just seemed to be so sick of this conversation â sick of you â an idea that made you want to throw up on the spot.
âYouâre being unreasonable,â he said in a low voice, as if he knew he was in the wrong but too stubborn to back down. Heâd already been so cruel, a part of him feeling like he had already gone too far to double down now.
âIâm being unreasonable?!â You snapped, walking right up to him, now close enough to feel the heat radiate off him. âYouâve got to be fucking kidding with me?â
Never in a million years could you have predicted your favourite person in the universe to speak to you this way, biting your head off for simply living your life. But it went deeper than being upset about you going to some random party. It seemed like he truly disliked the person you were right now, and nothing had ever hurt you as much.
âFor the record, I did wait. So many nights I just sat in my room, staring at the damn phone, waiting for you to call.â You were sobbing now, all restraints of your tears out the window. âBut I think youâre not half as busy with your studies as you claim to be, but very busy making new friends, which is why itâs nothing but cruel of you to go at me like this!â
âYou always do that!â He snapped, causing your sobs to halt for a second, eyebrows quirking up in surprise. âYou always assume these things about me, paint me out to be this specific person without having all the facts.â
âI know you better than I know myself, for fucks sake! You hate to work, avoid it for all that itâs worth, and now youâre trying to tell me you work so hard?â Silence. âAnd youâve always loved attention. You feed on it, and every single living person on this planet canât help but just give it to you! Iâm willing to bet my last dime youâre surrounded with all sorts of people just fighting for your time!â
Without stuttering, you fired shot after shot, feeling bad even though every last word of it was true.
The reality of the fight washed over you, knowing youâd never fought like this before. A friendship spanning twelve years was doomed to have some disagreements along the way. And with both you and Satoru having such strong personalities, there had been quite a few. But never had either of you ever turned mean, like right now, no matter how serious the argument had been.
âDespite what you might think, Iâm not one of your silly school girls who just follow you around to stroke your ego. Iâm my own person, always have been. And Iâm sorry youâre pissy about the fact that Iâm doing fine without you here and Iâm sorry that the image you had of me is finally shattering.â
You felt youâd gotten what you had on your mind off your chest, and all that fell out of you now were uncontrollable sobs. Not only were you absolutely devastated, but you were scared. The person that stood before you didnât feel like someone you knew, meaning you had no idea what might come out of his mouth next.
âThink I see you clearer than ever.â
Sucking your bottom lip in between your teeth, you tried to choke back your sobs, not feeling he was worthy of hearing the affect he had on you right now. You slowly began to nod your head, looking about for a few seconds before you simply began to walk away without saying another word. And this time you didnât feel his hand grab your arm.
The second your head had hit the pillow after youâd gotten home, you erupted into loud, unruly sobs, that even managed to wake your parents. They stormed into your room, beyond scared something was terribly wrong, and your mom managed to pull your head into her lap, stroking your hair in an attempt to get you to calm down so youâd be able to tell them what had happened, but to no prevail. While she desperately tried to hum you to peace, your dad stood watching in anguish as he had no clue what to do in order to help.
Eventually, the sobs wore you out to the point where you fell asleep in her lap.
Waking up the next morning, youâd felt like it had all been just a horrible nightmare, and in just a few minutes, Satoru would stand at your door, so excited to just do absolutely nothing with you like you had planned.
But you sat in your bed and stared at the door, waiting for him to show up but he never did. When you became restless, you paced around the room, daring to glance out the window in hopes youâd spot him sitting by his windowsill. But here too, you were left disappointed. No Satoru shaped silhouette made himself known, and at some point during the day, he had shut the blinds without you noticing.
Two days later, your mom came into your room and asked why Satoru had left to go back to university already when you guys hadnât hung out yet.
ââË・â
You were twenty years old when you started university.
After a therapeutic gap year of working and travelling, you were finally ready to go back to school, excited to see what the life of a university student was all about.
So far it all seemed to go as smoothly as one could hope for â moving in and setting up in your small dormitory, putting in a lot of effort to make it a space where you could feel at home. Signing up for classes and getting all the books you needed was easier than expected, some kindhearted strangers more than willing to help you get it all right. And lastly, finding your way around campus wasnât nearly the issue you thought it would be. You easily manoeuvred your way around the grounds, quickly coming across spots you could picture yourself just hanging out.
You were more than prepared by the time the first class rolled around, entering the huge auditorium, nervously walking down the stairs and sitting down in an available seat in one of the rows closer to the front.
Suddenly it began to dawn on you that you were actually in university, working your way to a future career like youâd always talked about. All your hard work in school, your academic achievements, finally paying off, letting you be in environment of equally dedicated individuals.
However, even though your peers seemed to be on the same level as you academically, you got the impression they had excelled passed you socially already. As you let your eyes roam the crowd, you noticed how people had already made friends and even formed groups, greeting each other with warm smiles as they sat down together.
You didnât have the chance to brood about it for too long, as a roaring voice spoke up from the front of the classroom, drawing everyoneâs attention to him, the chatter quickly quieting down. The assertive figure introduced himself before heading straight into the plans for the semester, asking if anyone had any questions. While a few students raised their voice, you just desperately wrote down everything being said, just in case it might be useful somewhere down the line.
âI look forward to teach you this introductory class in education. Iâm sure youâll make great teachers one day,â he smiled. âBefore we get started, thereâs someone Iâd like to introduce. I have the privilege of being assigned a TA this semester â come on up.â
Everyoneâs eyes followed the professors gesture towards the person whoâd just gotten up from his chair by the exit. All the air was immediately sucked out of your lungs when your eyes landed on the one person you hadnât expected to see.
âGood morning everyone,â he said in his characteristically suave voice, hearing the girls in the auditorium instantly begin to whisper amongst them at the sight of him. âIâm Satoru Gojo, Iâll be the professors teacher assistant this semester. Any questions you might-â
The words instantly died in his throat when his gaze landed on you, tensed up in your seat. He could almost see you shiver under his intense glare.
Nearly two years had passed since the last time he saw you, and not a day had gone by where he hadnât cursed himself for how he treated you that night. He regretted it all, but hadnât been able to bring himself to face you and apologise, even though you more than deserved it.
Eventually, the days just passed him by and it felt like an injustice for him to just jump into your life again so he decided not to, which resulted in the most miserable two years of his life.
You wanted to look away, but the shock of seeing him again had taken over your body, holding your attention hostage under his drilling blue eyes.
Heâd let his hair grow a little longer, which suited him, even though he didnât need it to improve his looks. It also seemed to have bulked up a little. Not much, just enough for you to notice as his navy, button up shirt hugged his arms in a way his clothes never had before.
âMr. Gojo?â The professorâs voice broke his stare, bringing him back to real world and acknowledging all the faces staring at him.
âYeah, sorry-â he cleared his throat. âAny questions you might have, donât hesitate to come to me,â he stuttered over his sentence, shooting you quick glance even though he tried to keep his attention on the crowd.
With a shy smile, he made his way back to his seat, his eyes once again finding you as he was seated. You shrunk in your seat, your entire body on fire from having his eyes observe you for the first time in so long, sure youâre heart might actually stop from the stress.
Throughout the entire lecture, you both kept stealing glances from one another, an unspoken sensation filling the air between you, like you both could feel how badly youâd missed and craved the other the period youâd been separated.
His eyes carried the same weight they always did when looking at you, uncomfortably restless in your seat, fidgeting with the paper of your notebook and trying to keep the tapping of your foot to a minimum. When your eyes werenât automatically drawn to Satoru, you peeked at the clock hanging above the whiteboard, begging for time to pass so you could storm out of the classroom and finally be able to breath properly again.
You were sure the seconds lasted longer now than normal, but the lecture finally ended and you instantly began to gather your things, shoving them in your bag as quickly as possible. Daring to shoot Satoru another look, you were glad to see heâd been surrounded by students (mostly girls), hindering him from making his way to you â or so you thought.
âI have a meeting to get to,â Satoru lied, looking at you packing up your stuff before rushing up the stairs towards the auditorium exit. âBut hereâs my email. Just⌠send whatever questions you might have and Iâll answer as soon as I have the time.â It didnât seem like anyone picked up on the fact that he was lying through his teeth, but they all wore a disappointed expression when he began to push his way through the crowd, sprinting up the stairs to catch up with you.
You stopped dead in your tracks, even though you wanted to just keep moving, when you heard that silky smooth voice speak your name. You reluctantly turned around to face him, still only managing to let out shallow breaths.
âI- Uhm.â Now that he finally had your full attention, his mind ran blank and his mouth dry, in awe at your familiar eyes staring up at him, lips pressed together in a tight line. âHi.â
âHi,â you tried to reply, but barely a sound could be heard. His eyes shot to your feet, as you kept shifting your weight from one foot to the other, clearly not at ease seeing him again.
âYou look- I mean I didnât know you wanted to become a teacher,â he stumbled over his words, his hand coming up to rub the nape of his neck.
âMe neither,â it slipped out of you, instantly pinching your eyes shut when you reflected on what had left your lips. âWhat I mean is I only decided recently.â
He groaned softly, feeling like nothing he wanted to say would be enough. âYou finding university alright?â
It hurt. Holy hell, how it hurt, not to have the conversation flow as natural. Every atom in your body tried to convince you to just lean into what you were used to, resurrect the friendship just like that.
You nodded frantically at his question. âYeah, much to see.â
Clearing his throat, he gathered up the courage to ask what had roamed his mind since he spotted you at the start of the lecture. âIf youâre ever available, Iâd love for us to grab a coffee or something,â he said it so quickly you were barely able to decode what he even suggested, but once it registered, you drew another sharp breath.
âSure.â
âReally?â Narrowing his eyebrows at you, he hadnât expected you to accept so willingly. He hadnât really expected you to accept at all, if he was honest.
You didnât know if you regretted accepting his invitation so quickly, but if there was a chance heâd apologise, you wanted to hear it simply because you deserved it. Or maybe that was the excuse you told yourself because you so desperately wanted to hang out with him.
âYou havenât changed your number, right?â You shook your head. âIâll just text you.â The faintest smile grew on your lips as you simply nodded, a light blush spreading across Satoruâs face at the delightful sight.
âSee you around, âToru,â you said out if habit, quickly turning around and walking away so he wouldnât be able to see that you too were blushing, regretting the use of his old nickname.
It didnât even take two hours before your phone dinged with a text from him, where he suggested a time and place.
toru <3: how about next friday after the lecture? thereâs this great coffeehouse five minutes from campus
you: sounds good :)
It seemed Friday couldnât come quick enough, your anxiousness building up every lecture you had together. Despite feeling like the worst of the shock had passed as you simply flashed each other a friendly smile and a small wave when you saw each other, your mind would never get peace until everything was out in the open.
And now you finally sat opposite him, a strong grip on your mug to put your nerves somewhere. Satoru was scared you might shatter it, your knuckles turning white by how hard you were clutching at it.
âIâm really glad you decided to join,â he started awkwardly.
In all the years youâd known him, youâd never had the satisfaction of witnessing him awkward. It seemed like his default setting was mr. smooth talker, always able to find the right words in order to get what he wanted no matter how unlikely it seemed. But all that was out the window, staring at you with a sense of embarrassment, looking like a scared, young boy forced to face his stupid crush, waiting to get rejected after a sorry attempt at asking for a date.
âMe too.â
âYou look really pretty- I mean, you look great. Youâve turned out pretty. Not that you were ugly before, youâve never been ugly. In fact-â
His clumsy attempt at talking to you was cute, which was all it took to start chipping away at your cold exterior, the corner of your lips betraying you as it curled up in a small smirk.
âThank you,â you said softly, his shoulders instantly relaxing.
Something about you was definitely different, but the tone in your voice made him realise it was actually you that was sitting in front of him; his best friend. There was no reason he shouldnât be anything but comfortable around you. Especially now when heâd been offered the opportunity to maybe make amends, he couldnât throw it away.
âIâm sorry,â he said genuinely. âI donât want to give you any dumb excuses, because there arenât any. Iâm sorry and you didnât deserve any of what I said to you that night.â
His voice had turned steady now, taking back the assertiveness you were so used to hearing. âIâm sorry too.â
He instantly snorted, much to your surprise. âYou have absolutely nothing to be sorry about.â He seemed to hold back a chuckle.
âWell, duh, but thought it was polite thing to say.â You were surprised by your own words, mirroring his humoured and shocked expression. Maybe he didnât deserved to have you resort to playful banter already, but it just fell out of you so naturally. âYou look great too, by the way.â
âHeavy is the head that wears the crown,â he smirked smugly, while you rolled your eyes at him.
âUneasy is the head that wears the crown,â you corrected him, trying to suppress the smile tugging at your lips.
âOkay, nerd.â
Your lips pursed together, unable to fight it anymore, a sweet smile hiding under the annoyed facade â and he noticed, his heart doing a full flip at finally being able to see it in person again. Heâd only been able to dream of it in the time apart, and a hope began to spring in him that finally he might get you back in his life.
And this was just the first coffee of many. It started as a weekly thing, in the beginning consisting of airing it all out in order to establish the trust again. But it didnât take long until you both fell into an old and familiar pattern.
It started with tagging along to lectures. Next thing, Satoru suggested you ordered dinner while studying, however not much studying was done. The evening was spent sitting on the floor of your dorm, stuffing your faces with take out and reminiscing of your days back in high school, talking about all the gossip and drama that went down.
There was a mutual understanding that you both had to make up for the lost time, both sad youâd wasted so long not being in contact when it could all have been resolved if youâd both been mature enough to just reach out.
But despite both of you resorting to old habits, quickly acting as close as you were back then, things had escalated.
Before, heâd simply thrown his arm lazily across your shoulders without a single thought. Now his muscular arm held a more possessive grip on you like he was preventing another outcome of you slipping away. And unlike before, you matched his energy, letting your arm slide along his back and grab tightly ahold of his waist to secure him close to you.
When he subconsciously began to fidget with your fingers, you eventually let your fingers glide between his to interlock your hands, where both of you just let them rest, his thumb softly stroking you.
And when he was gentleman enough to open the door for you every chance he got, he gawked at you with pure affection in his eyes and he sneakily let his hand rest on the small of your back as you passed him.
Neither of you ever mentioned it. You gladly just let it happen, both leaning into it, getting more and more touchy as time went on. And it didnât go unnoticed by your fellow students, ugly glares in your direction as they wondered how youâd gotten so close to the incredibly hot TA in the matter of weeks, also considering how many people he had throwing themselves at his feet.
You couldnât care less however. You were simply living in the joyful bliss of having your best friend back.
ââË・â
His jaw dropped to the floor when you stepped out of the bathroom, not even noticing his lingering gaze on you, simply walking over to your purse to get your lipgloss.
The sinfully short dress hugged your curves just right, leaving little to the imagination. His eyes darted to the knee high, leather boots that elongated your enticing legs before letting his eyes indulge up your body, tracing your exposed collarbones-
âSatoru?â Drawing his attention to your face, which genuinely left him stunned having enhanced your already beautiful features, hair tucked up messily by a claw clip. âYou look like youâve seen a ghost.â
More like an angel, he thought, trying to snap out of the haze you had him under as he slowly began to approach you.
What was happening?
There was a hunger in his eyes youâd never seen before, at least not looking at you. It was like he moved in slow motion, your heart quickly picking up the pace the closer he got. âSatoru?â You asked again, but a tremble in your voice exposed your nerves. âWhat are you doing?â
A confident, on brand smirk made its way onto his face, revealing his infamous dimples as he let his hand slip to your cheek, sliding it to the side of your throat and letting his thumb draw graciously soft lines along your jaw.
âI should have kissed you that night.â
His quiet confession filled the room, having your sole focus be his eyes, those beautiful, heavenly eyes that always saw right through you. The night in question had often played in your mind, fantasising about what could have happened if either of you had decided to cross the line.
âWould you have kissed me back?â The dominance in his voice had a weird influence on you, causing your eyes to flicker away from his eyes to travel across the attractive line of his curved lips.
âWithout hesitation.â His grin widened, his thumb now moving to stroke your bottom lip. Much like that god forsaken night, he leaned forward, but this time he let his nose brush against yours, his breath brushing against your lips.
âWeâre skipping the party,â he whispered.
âDidnât wanna go anyways,â you huffed before finally being the one to engage the kiss, crashing into his lips, just as soft as youâd always imagined them to be.
Hungrily tying you arms around his neck in order to help deepen the passionate kiss, you felt his tongue slide along your bottom lip as if he was asking for you to open your mouth, to which you happily obliged.
His firm hands slid down your waist before stopping at your thighs, squeezing slightly into your plush flesh. Without breaking the kiss, you jumped into his arms with ease, wrapping your legs around his slim waist as he placed his hands on your ass, not an ounce of fear in you that heâd ever drop you.
Your hands found their way to his soft hair, instantly drawing out a soft moan from him, causing you to smile into the kiss.
âThatâs what you like, huh?â You teased, pulling away from him order to get a look at his face.
âShut up,â he chuckled before reconnecting your lips when you felt he began to walk in the direction of your bedroom.
Since rekindling your friendship, everything had moved at the speed of light. As it all had happened, youâd noticed the increased intimacy, both physically and mentally, but you hadnât wanted to assume it was anything more than just a result of missing each other.
Youâd experienced a new sensation of yearning for Satoru, one that had previously only passed you by in random split seconds which youâd always suppressed to the back of your mind. Never had you wanted to jeopardise your friendship for anything, especially for what you thought was just innocent lust that naturally washed over anyone that was in the close vicinity of Satoru.
But clearly you were wrong. Maybe there had always been a stronger desire to explore him in a different way that had just been buried because it seemed illegal. Not to forget the fact that it was being reciprocated, his strong hands exploring your body with an urgency you had never experienced with anyone before.
The meaningful and deep history only appeared to fuel the hunger you felt for one another, behaving as if neither of you had experienced the phenomenon of another personâs touch in a lifetime â and it was only specifically each other who could satisfy the need.
Still with a tight grip, he hesitatingly let you down, his hands sliding up your body to hoist your dress so it gathered around your lower abdomen. âThis dress need to come off, baby,â he breathed into your mouth as he continued to pull it up your body.
You simply lifted your arms to let him twist the dress over your head, his eyes instantly locking to your perky tits as if they were calling his name. Before he had the chance to give into the temptation of fondling them, playing with your nipples, you tugged at the bottom of his sweater. No way you were going to stand in all your glory while his clothes served as a hindrance to your desire.
Again his alluring smirk greeted you, more than willingly pulling it over his head to reveal his chiselled torso, confirming your theory that he had gotten bulkier, because you would definitely have remembered if he looked like that before.
âIs this crazy?â You asked shakily after having removed your shoes and reaching for his belt buckle. Noticing the slight jitters hiding between your excitement, he snatched ahold of your chin to force you to look at his face.
âNot crazier than the fact that I should have done this ages ago.â
Pulling your face towards him, he had you standing on your tip toes in order to dedicate as much of yourself to the kiss as humanly possible.
Once the pants were off him, your hand found his chest, fighting the urge to dig your nails into his toned pecks, guiding him backwards to sit down on your bed. With glee you straddled him, embarrassment flushed your cheeks as a needy whimper just fell from your lips when his huge bulge ended up pressing against your clothed core, an amused eyebrow quirking up on Satoruâs face.
âDamn, calm down,â he teased, your nose scrunching up to conceal the playful smile that was taking over.
âIdiot.â Grabbing his face, you let your open mouth graze against his when one of his hands palmed your clothed pussy, pulling another moan from your lips.
Without warning, he pulled your black laced panties aside, his thumb rubbing small circles on your clit. You bit your lip to choke back yet another moan. Knowing Satoru, you knew heâd forever hold it against you â how he managed to withdraw those lewd sounds from you so easily.
âSo wet for me already, sweetheart,â he panted, enjoying the view of your scrunched up face of pleasure. âCanât wait to feel you around me.â
ââToru, I-â you forced out when you felt him slip two lengthy digests inside you as he traced soft, little pecks along your collarbone that he had admired earlier. Hearing you barely able to utter his nickname mixed with the low squelching of your pussy, basically drenched already, was something he had only been able to imagine before. And god, was the real thing ten times better than his fantasy.
âGetting shy around me, pretty? Thatâs unlike you.â Again you wanted to roll your eyes at him, because he was even more cheeky when having you at his mercy than normal. But the consistent pressure on your sensitive nub along with the movement of his fingers were too much to even give that a try.
Fingertips clawing at his shoulders, slowly starting to rock your hips as you were being drawn closer and closer to the edge.
His smooth motion had you seeing stars behind your eyelids, the tingle of orgasm bubbling up inside you when he had you gasp in disappointment when you were deprived of his skilled touch.
Motherfucker.
âWhat-â your eyes fluttered open in confusion before you were thrown off his lap, landing softly on your back, sinking into the mattress. Next thing, his boxers hit the floor, exposing his already rock hard dick. Eyeing the size, his cocky personality suddenly made a whole lot of sense.
Hovering over you, he swiftly tilted your head to the side to place a series of open mouthed kisses as he used his leg to spread your legs apart, setting himself up between them, feeling his tip slightly touch your entrance as it twitched.
âI need you,â it vibrated against your skin, one arm wrapping around his back in a desperate need to feel every inch of him, while the other traveled south to lace around his dick. It was your turn to draw sounds from him, a small, satisfied giggle ringing in his ear as a reaction to hearing his pathetic whimper.
âSorry,â your giggle trailed off when he lifted his head to look down at you, the ghost of a smile on his face telling you he enjoyed the small banter during it all.
You gave him a few slow pumps, using your thumb to rub some of his precum across his tip, aligning him with the opening of your cunt as he punished you with a rough kiss on the lips.
Thatâs when you finally let go, your hand finding his back again to prepare yourself to be filled with his dick. He didnât wait to slide into you with ease, gasping softly as you involuntarily clenched around his size, trying to get used to it.
âYou okay?â He mumbled as he rested his forehead against yours. You only nodded before pulling him in for another kiss, reassuring him that you were alright and more than ready.
The line was officially crossed â no going back now. You could never go back to being just best friends, but maybe that was for the best, that maybe youâd always meant to be more. Every fibre of his being had for a long time ached to have you like this, spread out and desperate for him and only him.
At first he moved in a slow and sensual pace, wanting to be entirely sure you could take it. Eyeing your expression in awe, finally being able to be the one to make you grimace with pleasure.
âWanted this for so long,â he murmured, being driven to lose all control hearing all your sweet whimpers, occasionally mumbling his name, which had him buck his hips faster and deeper, desperate to push you to climax.
Taking every inch of him over and over, stretching around him, he glanced down to get a look of the beautiful sight, his cock moving in and out, in and out, like you were made for him.
Your nails burrowed into his back before dragging down, too dazed in the bliss of Satoruâs cock stuffed in you to care about the red lines you knew youâd created, marking him as yours. Your toes curled as he kept feeding you horny affirmations and heartfelt compliments.
âFuck fuck fuck, look at that.â
âGod youâre so beautiful.â
âTaking me so good baby.â
âFuck, should have done this ages ago. Look so pretty around me.â
âHngh, âToru,â you mewled. âIâm gonna c-cum,â you begged, squeezing your eyes shut and arching closer to him to chase your high.
âAs you wish.â Something snapped in him, slamming into you at an unbearable speed, balls smacking your ass as he kept shoving into you. You tried to make out words to tell him you were about to reach your limit, but you were too fucked out to form anything coherent, just a string of cute sounds of pleasure leaving your pretty mouth. âCum fâme.â
His simple command had you nearly scream as the sweet release washed over you, head pushing back into your pillow as he gave you the most intense orgasm you could remember. He fucked you through your high, feeling your body pressed against his until he too reached his climax, filling you with cum, a loud groan left him before his thrusts became lazy and sloppy.
He pulled out, collapsing on the bed beside you. You both turned to look at each other, instantly making eye contact. Whatever flashed between you caused you both to break into a calm laughter. Once it died down, your flipped to lay on your side and rested your chin on his shoulders.
âShould have known youâre quite a talker during sex, it adds up.â
âIs this complaining I hear?â He taunted, pinching his eyebrows together to challenge your statement. âBecause the way you just moaned my name like a slut-â
âOkay, fine, Iâll sush,â you laughed before hiding your face in the crook of his neck in embarrassment. Carefully he nudged his shoulder to have you look at him again, needing to take in your flushed face after it all, eyes roaming every part of it. âSo what happens now?â You breathed softly as your finger began to trace weak circles on his still damp chest.
Without thinking, he tilted your head up and placed an affectionate kiss on your forehead. âI know I donât wanna waste anymore time not being with you.â
âWe really screwed up there, huh?â As his secure arms wrapped around you to have you as close to him as possible, his chest vibrated with a low chuckle.
âNot my fault you were out and about, throwing your phone number at your customers.â
âOh alright, if you wanna blame previous conquests, then thereâs-â he instantly placed his large hand over your mouth to muffle the list of girl names you could remember him being with.
âStill such a brat-â you interrupted his insult by defending yourself the only way you could, sticking out your tongue to lick all over his palm. Before you even had the chance to understand what was going on, it backfired when he instantly rubbed his hand all over your face, smearing your spit.
âSatoru,â you squealed before you both fell into a fit of laughter again.
Well into the night, you just talked and laughed. Sharing every single moment from your friendship that might have been pent of feelings for each other, realising this was how it always should have been. Neither of you had to hold back on the affection or affirmation anymore in fear of jeopardising what you already had. If anything, the relation you already shared only seemed to further ignite what would come to be.
For the first time, you fell asleep in his arms, being his.
ââË・â
You were twenty-seven years old when life was just perfect.
âBut pretty please!â Nobara complained, hands pressed together in prayer, close to falling to her knees to beg you to do her this small favour. It earned her an offended frown from both her classmates standing on each side of her. âItâs a testosterone nightmare.â
Before you were able to give her any form of response, two lean arms came lurking around your waist to spin you around, drawing bubbly giggles from your lips.
âMy god, Satoru, weâre at work!â You managed to force out between your joy, eventually feeling your feet planted safely on the ground again. He lazily rested his arm across your shoulders, towering over the group with a content smile on his face.
âSorry, just got excited.â He placed a small peck on the crown of your head, sprinkling a tint of pretty pink on your cheeks.
Over and over youâd told him to keep his devotion to you on the down-low in public, especially in front of the students but he never managed to follow the simple request, having the two of you act like love sick teenagers. And as much as you pretended not to, you melted as much at his antics now as you did way back when, rarely putting up much of a fight to actually tone down his behaviour.
Looking at the three first years in front of you, both Nobara and Megumi had a hint of disgust at the sight of how mushy Satoru got with you, always having a desire to be in contact with you one way or another. Yuji, on the other hand, always admired the sheer transparency of the relationship.
âSo whatâd I miss?â
âNobara want me to give her private lessons because sheâs sick of you boys.â
âYoung miss Kugisaki, dare I say Iâm disappointed?â Satoru said, acting overly dramatic, sporting pinched eyebrows to have them believe he was actually hurt.
âGojo-sensei, I have reason to believe Iâll learn even more having a female teacher,â she pouted.
âOuch,â he breathed in response.
âYouâll tough it out,â you chuckled, a small thank you whispered from the tall man pressed against your side before you opened your mouth again. âI mean, think about how I have it. At least youâre only linked to him during school hours while I live with the guy. I can never catch a break-â
A grunt escaped you as the arm draped around you tensed up, pulling you into a strong headlock. Endless laughter leaving you as you so desperately tried to pull out of his grip but to to prevail, cheek smushed against his ribs.
âCan you guys believe it?â Satoru gasped before carefully pulling up his blindfolds slightly to reveal one of his eyes to look directly down at you. âMy own wife?â
ââToru!â He just smiled down at you at the happy sounds from your beautiful mouth, also amused by your weak attempt to break free from his hold on you, messing up your hair as you desperately tried to pull your head back.
âYouâre both insufferable,â Megumi rolled his eyes, just wanting to go on with his day.
âAll Iâve done for you over the years, and still you find it in you to talk to me like that,â shaking his head in faux disappointment. You were finally able to pop your head out from his grip, not at all due to the fact that he intentionally loosened his hold on you a little. A low chuckle rumbling at the sight of your pouty lip hidden behind your bristly hair.
Pushing it out of your eyes, you clicked your tongue as you turned your attention to his students again. âDonât listen to a word he says.â
âIâll have you know, Iâm their favourite teacher,â he said proudly, shoving his hands in his pockets, leaning forward a little to me on the same level as you.
âIsnât much competition when youâre their only teacher.â
âYouâre feisty today. Get up in the wrong side of the bed this morning?â
âNo, I think it might have something to do with you hogging the covers all night.â
The bickering continued, bickering only possible to come from two people whoâd been best friends for decades, eventually causing the three friends to walk away with either of you noticing.
âWipe of that grin, sir, or youâre sleeping on the couch,â you threatened, nothing but pure amusement in your tone. His fingers found your face, squeezing your soft cheeks together, causing your sweet lips to stick forward looking more than inviting. A low giggle once again harboured deep in your throat, trying your best not to let them spill.
His face came closer â oh how he still managed to have the butterflies go crazy inside after all these years never seized to amaze you, feeling the alluring look through his blindfolds.
âWe both know youâd come crawling into my arms after an a hour,â he teased, close enough to your puckered lips for you to feel his warm breath.
âNuh uh-â was all you were able to muffle out between his fingers.
âDamn, I love you,â he spoke softly before planting a kiss on your mouth, unable to hold back the smirk that grew when his grip changed to a tender cup of your cheek.
Sometimes it baffled you how you both managed to be so incredibly, deeply and stupidly in love with each other. Youâd think after all those years with so much devotion and admiration shared, you would have grown tired of each other by now.
But you guessed it helped to be best friends with the person youâd chosen to be with for the rest of your life.
ââË・â
a/n hehe this is long... this is basically a love letter to gojo after 261, where i had my heart absolutely shattered like most of us yk. ive been super motivated to write it tho so just last week i had 30 hours screentime on my notes app lol... now, ive said it before and ill say it again, i am NOT a smut writer (clearly). personally, thats the part here i like the least bc i just feel like i cant get it to flow naturally... besides that hope you guys like this
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One thing I wish was understood a bit better about Twisted Wonderland.
Everyone in this game has trauma or personal struggles and it's NOT a competition of who has it worse. Honestly, sometimes I wish everyone's traumas were discussed more in depth in the game like we get with each person who Overblots, but we don't have time for it. With the Overblot boys, their trauma is shoved directly into the spotlight and we hear exactly how their situations make them feel. But the rest of the cast, ALL of them, have personal struggles and/or trauma. This is just a small list of some of the issues each non Overblot student has.
Ace masks the fear he feels in a lot of situations, and he's got an inferiority complex on some level. Notice how he bullied the player and Grim in our first interaction? That is a sign of someone who is looking to feel better by pushing someone else down because they don't feel good about themselves.
Deuce grew up with a single mother who had to work multiple jobs to make ends meet, which causes him to worry about her, and he was a delinquent in middle school, which made his mom, the one person he worries over, cry. He lives with those regrets, but he's still got those old habits and he agonizes over the fact he's not academically where he'd like to be and his behavior regresses when in heated situations.
Trey has severe trauma at being screamed at for FIVE HOURS over giving Riddle ONE slice of tart, so much that his vitals are severely affected at the thought of Mrs. Rosehearts and he's heavily conflict avoidant.
Cater has had to move all the time and as a defense mechanism, refuses to be honest or get close to people because he doesn't want to get attached only to be ripped away from them.
Ruggie lives in EXTREME poverty when not at school. He struggles to make ends meet and he has to work so hard in a system that is DESIGNED to keep him in poverty, because many beastmen still prefer segregation in the Sunset Savannah.
Jack has one of the healthier mindsets, but he still struggles with being open and honest about his feelings, which makes it hard to have friends, and he struggled with watching Leona, someone he's idolized, fall short of what he believed of Leona.
Jade and Floyd are implied to have grown up in some form of crime family and both seem to have handled the fact their lives could be in constant danger differently. Both like things being interesting, but Jade seems to prefer seclusion and control, while Floyd enjoys scaring people off and having as much fun as he can before he goes.
Kalim is someone who has had multiple assassination attempts on his life, even from his own family. He masks behind a smile, but he's afraid to trust people, and when he DOES TRY to talk about it, it gets brushed off because he has money. Also, he has to deal with the fact Jamil has been undermining his ability to progress by not treating him as if he's capable at all.
Epel has been teased and bullied on how he looked to the point where he started instigating fights to ensure he wouldn't be teased. He also has to fall in line with what Vil wants because he made the error of picking a fight with Vil and getting his butt HANDED to him. To further add, Vil is NOT NICE about it when Epel resists, with one example being Vil grabbing him by the ear and pulling hard as a form of punishment.
Rook has deal with the fact that for being someone who is super perceptive and can notice details, he didn't realize Vil's feelings around Neige, likely because he was blinded by his own admiration for both of them and that's a bitter pill to swallow.
Ortho has to deal with being basically created as a replacement for dead Ortho Shroud, trying to figure out if he's just really a robot made by Idia with really good AI or more than that, and dealing with the fact he loves his brother so much, but his brother doesn't take care of himself and it's disheartening to watch Idia's self-destruction.
Lilia has so much war trauma, losing his loved ones, having been exiled, and so much other crap. Even so, he forced himself to put the war and his trauma about it in the past, where it belonged for the sake of his two sons who both lost so much to war, which is something Baur/Baul could NOT do which was to Sebek's detriment.
Silver has had to live with the idea that his adoptive father would likely outlive him, then is faced with the fact that his father is basically abandoning everything about their life in Briar Valley before he learns that his biological parents were the enemies of the person he serves and cares about, Malleus, and the only father he's ever known.
Sebek has grown up with internalized racism/speciesism against humans thanks to his upbringing and he basically rejects half of his heritage with how he treats his father. He does not even realize how hurtful his comments are until he's faced with those remarks being directed at him by a younger version of his grandfather.
And this isn't everything each student has to face. This is just broad strokes. Yana Toboso wrote a story about flawed people who all have gone through really hard and difficult things because that's the point. As Toboso said in a 2023 interview:
âHappy endings in Disney works come from righteous actions and love, but I believe that the villains are characters who do not get saved during the story. That is why, through this game, I want to portray the message that even if you get beat up all the way to a bad ending, you can grow from it and live your life without feeling discouraged.
Acting lame, obstinate, without hesitation, being open and honestâitâs not as bad as it sounds.Â
I would like to paint a positive picture of living honestly with yourself and not worrying about others.
In todayâs society there are so many people who live in fear of failure and are always walking on eggshells, but nobodyâs flawless. It is exhausting to try to live your life so that no one will hate you.â
Everyone, even people you don't know or do not like, have gone through things that shaped who they are. Sometimes, how we've adapted to handle the bad things that happen will force us to hit rock bottom. But you don't have to die when you hit rock bottom.
You can have terrible things happen to you and have maladaptive strategies to handle your experiences, but you aren't stuck that way forever. You can learn how to change your habits, learn to be okay with yourself, and work at being better than you were the day before.
Human growth is not linear. It's a bunch of taking steps forward and backsliding and learning and making mistakes over and over again and accepting failure, not as a testament to your character, but as part of the process of growth... and that's something all the students have to learn, not just the Overblot boys. Because all of them, every single one, are handling their own personal issues, even if it isn't shoved right in our faces.
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Curly Mouthwashing headcannons
Romantic
Pre-crash Curly:
He is just so sweet
Curly is a very nice guy, but with you it's just deadly how nice he is
He's not one for PDA. Captain and all, gotta keep a professional look, y'know?
But whenever you two are alone, I like to think he likes to have his arms loosely wrapped around your hips and his head resting on your stomach
His favorite places to rest his head are on your stomach and chest
Yes ladies, gentlemen, and lades, he doesn't mind those weird noises everyone's stomach makes. And he doesn't mind hearing your heartbeat hammer out of your chest
But I imagine that Curly has a big thing for smells
The captain woke up with a groan, sighing and taking his first conscious breath of the day. His senses are flooded with the smell of you all around him, making his brain numb as he smiled and leaned further into you to drown in the smell.
Smell like vanilla and this can will literally die
He seems like he loves smells like vanilla and lemon
But he loves the way you practically swallow him while with your eyes
The way you look at him with such love and adoration, and not just because he's the captain
It makes him swoon every time
Fantasizes about marrying you and starting a family, but wouldn't push for it first. He wants to wait for you to be ready
You're his sweetheart and he loves you so much
Post-crash curly:
He wishes you didn't have to see him like this.
He feels like the shell of who he once was
Not the strong captain you loved, but rather a failure who can't do anything to help anyone. Not even himself.
Whenever you come and spend time with him, his eye looks to you in yearning
He yearns to hold you like he once did. Yearns to talk to you like he once did
He wants nothing more than to call you beautiful and compliment the same outfit you wear every day
He wants to lay against your stomach or your chest
The only sense of familiarity in your dynamic is your scent flooding his senses and your eyes.
How can you still look at him that way??
How could you see a man and not a monster?
He was partially to blame for this, after all. He failed everyone and was paying the consequences.
But you looked at him with such love..
It killed him when he saw you at that table.
Platonic
Pre-crash Curly:
Kind smiles and fist bumps all day long
He offers help whenever he can, wanting to make sure you were comfortable. You were friends after all and his responsibility
You got a problem? Hes there to listen
He just.. can't do anything about it
He doesn't have much of a backbone, and you learn that quick.
You two grew close. Maybe even closer than him and Jimmy were
But after what happened with Anya..
You couldn't even look at him anymore due to his negligence
Looking at him made you sick. He was a good friend but a horrible captain
"look, I just- I don't know what you expect me to do about this." He says with a tired sigh, exhausted from the work of a captain and the never ending piling issues. He watched as your eyes narrowed in his direction as if he was as awful as Jimmy, but before he could speak, you walked off with a scoff.
Post-crash curly:
He feels humiliated, same as with romantic
But your eyes don't feel welcoming.
He feels nothing but pity but a sense of the feeling that he deserved this in your eyes
Every time you see him, you're quiet
He wishes he could talk to break the ice
He always was the ice breaker.. but not anymore. Not unless you counted the noises of choking and gargling on your own blood and vomit.
But he always felt a sense of emptiness when you finally left
He failed you. And he failed everybody else.
He just hoped you would forgive him
And that this wouldn't hurt
Thanks for reading!!
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The way that I would love to write about these two in a fanwork? I would love to ramble about them whenever given the chance! đ
*Casually inserts some vintage World War II-era romance between Muriel and Eustace in the tags*

I recently watched some Courage which inspired me to doodle young versions of Eustace and Muriel. Probably in their 20's or something.
#reblog#courage the cowardly dog#muriel bagge#eustace bagge#cartoon network#reblogging because this has been on my mind for a little bit#i like to think that eustace was a world war ii veteran who had a rough childhood initially#eustace apparently joined with the friends he did have in order to manifest a sense of self purpose#eustace grew up not having much also#eustace felt immense jealousy after having his family prefer his older brother over him#and that jealousy was carried with him into adulthood#fast forward after the events of wwii#murielâs working at a small cozy cafe where she is trying to make ends meet#eustace sees muriel upset probably because of war related circumstances or she had lost someone close#muriel takes note of eustace trying to provide company in some way and she is everso greatful#eustace tells muriel about the war and what all he had been through with losing his childhood friends who enlisted with him together#muriel tells him about the things she had been through while struggling to make ends meet with cooking and running her cafe#the two talk for a bit and muriel takes the first move with romance involved#eustace is reluctant but would do anything for muriel as a result of her being the only one who was and still is kind to him#in short: eustace had been through a lot with family issues and grievances#muriel is there to help him#muriel also does not have a mean bone in her body so she is willing to treat anyone with the warmth and hospitality she had given eustace#i love these two sm#i really like the fan work made for them btw! i wish there was more lol#oops i rambled again#josh.txt
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Star Rail and Genshin men: Giving them the silent treatment
Characters: Boothill, Diluc, Jing Yuan, Lyney, Moze, Neuvillette, Sunday, Venti, Wriothesley, Yanqing
Notes: female reader, blood, injury, creepy guy in Diluc's, jealousy, drinking, Moze being Moze
Author notes: FINALLY FREE OF FINALS!!! Prepare for more posts in the future hehe. Comment if you want a pt 2 (let us know what men you want!)

Boothill

Boothill is all kinds of confused right now. After that damn profnana messed with his head, now you avoiding and not talking him has his brain in overdrive.Â
He doesnât fully know what changed. March 7th told him what profnana tried to make him do to you. He really wishes he could shoot that forkin thing in the head after the shirtbag tried to make him shoot you. March 7th also said he talked about his past but heâs fine with that. So he really doesnât get what is up with you.
Youâre sitting in one of the open sitting areas Boothill has on his ship thinking about all that has happened. You met Boothill early into your journey as a galaxy ranger and were always really close with him. He helped you so much and liked being around you so he asked you to join him.Â
You two only grew even closer as time passed and everyone knew you were more than friends. You two only got together before the whole trip to Penacony so the relationship is still fresh. But that isnât whatâs bothering you or has you upset.Â
Itâs about Boothillâs past. It broke your heart hearing a young Boothill talk instead of the raspy voice youâre so used to and love. As you listened to that little soft voice talk about his past, you couldnât stop your heart from breaking. It also made you realize you donât know much about him. You know he wants revenge on the IPC for what they did to his planet but you didnât know what happened.
Did he not trust you as much as you thought he did? Did he only see this arrangement as convenient to help reach his goal? Does he actually have feelings for you? You donât know and donât know how to talk to him about it. You feel the ship go into cruise mode indicating Boothill planned the next planet and you two have time before you get there.Â
You canât help but get frustrated at yourself because all you want to do is to talk to him but you donât know how. You start to tear up while thinking about a plan when you hear him walking into the room.
Boothill was quick to set the ship to cruise so he can figure out whatâs going on. Once heâs got everything lined up, he makes his way to where you are.
He sees you with your head down and your hands clenching at your pants. He instantly knows something is wrong. Boothill makes quick strides over to where youâre sitting to start figuring this out.Â
He stays standing and tilts your head up to see your red eyes and tear stained face. Boothill rarely gets shot but seeing you like this feels like heâs got shot hundreds of times. He lets go of your face and sits next to you and pull you into his lap. Boothill tucks your head into his neck then says, âI canât help ya, if ya donât tell me whatâs wrong.âÂ
Youâll pull yourself from his neck to look at him. He reaches one of his hands up to wipe your tears which makes you let out a shaky breath. You lean your forehead again his and quietly ask, âBoothill, do you not trust me? Am I a bad girlfriend?â
Boothill eyes are wide open now as he stumbles out, âWait whaddya mean? Of course I do. I trust ya with my life. And youâre not a bad girlfriend at all. Why would you ask that?âÂ
You look down not being able to look him in the eyes anymore and start to play with the zipper on his shirt, âWhen you talked about your past with that soft voice my heart broke. But it also made me realize I never got to know you.â You start to cry again but you continue to talk, âI want to know you more. I want to help you. I want you to count on me so I donât have to hear that soft little boys voice be in pain again.âÂ
Boothill tilts your head back up to face him. He wipes your tears then kisses your cheeks, âBaby I want nothinâ more than to share everythinâ with you. Iâm sorry thatâs the way you had to find everythinâ out. From now on Iâll be more open with ya. But you also gotta promise you wonât shut yourself out from me and doubt yourself. Okay? I love you.âÂ
You look him in the eyes and respond, âI promise Boothill. I love you too.â Then you go to give him a tight hug burying yourself in his neck again. Boothill quickly returns the hug holding you tightly to him and pressing a soft kiss on your forehead.Â
Diluc

Diluc didnât think he could meet anyone as stubborn as Kaeya, that was before you decided to give him the silent treatment. It has been two days since your guys argument.Â
It all started at Angelâs Share. You asked Diluc to teach you how to make drinks so you can help him and Charles when times got busy. After a while you started working there. You love your job and everyone you get to meet. Well most people.Â
You love the regulars like Venti, Kaeya, and Rosaria. You also love when Lisa drags Jean here or when you meet new faces from or outside of Mondstadt. But there are a good amount of men who have been creepy towards you. You keep your work outfit simple with a white blouse and a black skirt (and sometimes Dilucâs jacket when you get cold). Whenever a man gets too creepy or tries to touch you Diluc is quick to stop the situation and kick the man out.Â
Your outfit isnât that revealing. You made sure to keep the skirt at a medium length so no perverts could try to see something they shouldnât. You also keep your chest covered so again no perverts could be weird. But sadly itâs only been getting worse lately and itâs making you stressed.Â
One night Diluc couldnât get to Angelâs Share until later in the evening due to a meeting he had to be at. You are perfectly fine working with Charles and love talking to him when times are slow. Tonight is pretty slow but a couple groups needed refills so you offered to do it so Charles can stay behind the bar and continue his conversation with Kaeya.
You walk over to the group in the far back corner and see all the men drunk. You roll your eyes before tending to them. You ask if they would like anymore drinks but all they respond with is that they want you to warm them up. You ask again if they want DRINKS but none of them say yes so you begin to walk away. As you do one of the sleazy guys grabs your wrist and pulls you back. He starts to say something but that is before you see a tanned hand grabbing the guys wrist. You look up to see Kaeya glaring at the man.Â
âLet go of her now and get the hell out of here.â The men quickly follow Kaeyaâs order and he follows them out making sure they donât try to come back in. When heâs outside he sees Diluc walking towards him and says a little hello. Diluc quickly asks what happened and Kaeya relays the story. Diluc gets visibly mad and stomps inside to go find you. Once he does he grabs your hand and has you follow him to a spare room upstairs.
He gives you his jacket and asks if you are okay and if the guy did anything to you. You say youâre okay and that he didnât do anything. Diluc shakes his head and tells you to stop working here and that you donât have to work because he can fully support the both of you. You argue back saying youâre going to continue working here whether or not he likes it or not. Then march out of the bar leaving him behind.Â
Diluc then quickly follows you after telling Charles heâs got to go. He also turns to Kaeya and begrudgingly thanks him and leaves. Kaeya knows you two got into an argument but he definitely knows you arenât too mad because you left still wearing his jacket.Â
After you thought about it for two days you realized you overreacted. You barely let him explain why he thought about you stopping now you feel bad because you havenât spoke to him in three days. So you sat down in front of the fire waiting for him to get back from his Dark Knight Hero patrol.Â
Diluc walks into his mansion expecting it to be pitch black but he sees you sitting in front of a fire. He sets his sword by the entrance then makes his way over to you.Â
He kneels in front of you and breaks the silence, âHey, everything okay? Did you have a nightmare, is that why youâre down here?âÂ
Oh this man even when youâre giving him the silent treatment he is still asking if youâre okay. You shake your head and respond, âNo I was waiting for you to apologize.â You brush his bangs out of his eyes, âIâm sorry Diluc. I overreacted and didnât let you explain why you wanted me to stop. I just want to help you and not sit around here all day. Plus working at the bar with you is so fun. I get to see you in a whole different light and I love it. I donât want to let go of that.âÂ
Diluc gives you a smile and reaches for your hand and gives it a tight squeeze, âNo pretty girl itâs me who should be apologizing. Iâm sorry for getting so mad, I just hate seeing you get harassed. It also didnât help Kaeya was the one to help you and not me. But you donât have to stop. Just every time you work I want to be there so I can stop it or prevent it.â
You smile down at him and squeeze his hand, âThat is perfectly okay with me. I have more fun working with you anyways, sorry Charles. I love you Diluc.â
Diluc smiles and brings your hand to his lips to give your knuckles a soft kiss and replies without hesitation, âI love you too.âÂ
Jing Yuan

You thought you believed the phrase âwisdom comes with ageâ because that is Jing Yuan in his entirety. But now? You are starting to doubt that very much, because itâs not very wise to have wise to have an old friend spear you to take out an enemy now is it?Â
While you do understand that everyone was ready to defeat Phantylia at any cost, you really didnât think that Jing Yuan would try to sacrifice himself in the process. Did he even think at all during that moment? Let alone think about how heâd leave you behind? Youâve already been left behind by so many people, and Jing Yuan knows all about how thatâs affected you. So why would he try to leave you behind too?
When Jing Yuan first comes back after the fight was over, his first priority was to see you. He wanted to make sure you were okay, and he wanted to make sure that you didnât find out about his little stunt against the Lord Ravager. He didnât want you to worry about him. But unfortunately for him, March 7th found you first and told you all about the fight, including Dan Heng hurling his spear through him.
To say you were upset and fuming might have been the understatement of the century, because as soon as he came into your line of sight you were glaring daggers at him. Yanqing had been right next to you when Jing Yuan came up to you and he could feel the anger coming off of you so he turned around and ran off before he got caught in the middle of a âloverâs quarrelâ as the General called them.
âGOOD LUCK GENERAL DONâT DIE!â Yanqing gave his best regards to the General before scampering off to avoid your rage. Jing Yuan tilted his head amusedly before fully looking at your expression. âNow what could have you this angry, my dear?â If it was even possible you narrowed your eyes even further and harshly grabbed his wrist and dragged him to your shared home.Â
The entire time you were dragging him tears were burning in your eyes because even though you are behind thrilled that Jing Yuan is safe and sound you canât help but think that he wanted to leave you behind too, just like everyone else. âMy dear, can I request that you be a little less harsh, your grip is beginning to hurt my wrist? Also, may I know what is troubling you so much? You know you can confide in my right my dear?â
When he said that you had reached his room and you dragged him to the nearest chair and shoved him in it, while also being careful not to aggravate his glaringly obvious injury. When you lift up his shirt to take a look at the injury and once you see the blood seeping through the bandages, you take a minute to take a deep breath before finally talking to him.Â
âJing Yuan, tell me were you really trying to leave me behind too? Why would you ever think that having your old friend throw his spear through you to defeat an enemy is alright?! Donât you always teach Yanqing to not be reckless?? What you did goes against those teachings donât you think?! Please, Iâm begging you, tell me why you thought that was the best course of action? Did you even think at all? Let alone about leaving me behind, like everyone else has?!âÂ
Jing Yuanâs eyes widen in alarm before heâs trying to get up to comfort you. âDonât you even think about getting up Jing Yuan! Do you want to make your injury worse?â At that he say right back down and responded sitting down. âMy dear let it be known that what I did was the only option that we had to defeat that Lord Ravager, lest I become a Mara Struck. That, my dear, wouldâve been much worse a fate than I would ever allow you to witness. I am deeply sorry for worrying you, know this, I will never leave you behind, not if I can help it. Though as an Arbiter General you just realize that I cannot choose my death as freely as others can.âÂ
You turn around after he finishes and he realizes that you had been crying this entire time. âI know that Jing Yuanâs, I knew that the second I got into this relationship with you that your life as an Arbiter General was not going to lead to a pretty death, but sacrificing yourself like you did is beyond me! What would the Luofu do without you? What would I do without you?? Please just donât leave me behind, I canât take anyone else leaving me.â
Jing Yuanâs eyes soften and he beckons you to come closer to him. As soon as you reach him heâs standing up and wrapping his arms round you and kissing your forehead. âMy dear I will never leave you, not of my own accord and that I swear on my life. I am deeply sorry for any pain I have caused during this time. When I am fully healed I intend to make this up to you to the best of my abilities.â You gently wrap your arms around him and place your head on his chest. âI will hold you to that my darling, I love you so much.â He smiles softly down at you before leaning his head on top on your head. âAnd I love you so much more dearest.â
The next day Yanqing giggled and smiled smugly before remarking with hand gestures and all. âI see the General lived through yet another âloverâs quarrelâ. Nice job General, Iâm impressed, can I have a few pointers?â Jing Yuan looked at him with the most deadpan expression before smiling softly and telling Yanqing to get back to training.
Lyney

A magicianâs charm is like no other, that is the first thing you learned when you met Lyney. And it became even more prominent when you got into a relationship with him. His charm is his best quality and it attracts so many people, including unwanted gazes of new assistants of his.
As his popularity as a magician was increasing, Lyney decided that he should get a few more assistants to make his shows run more smoothly. And you are perfectly fine with him getting more assistants, after all that thatâs how you two met. But this new assistant he chose is getting in every last one on your nerves, because who is she to flirt nonstop and try to get to get with your magician, when it is incredibly obvious that you two are together?
While you are helping prep for Lyneyâs next show, it seems that the new assistant, Louise as youâve unfortunately come to learn, is yet again all over Lyney. Instead of actually preparing the necessary materials for the show, Louise is clinging to Lyneyâs and asking about a million questions about completely random topics. Everyone in the room can see that Louise has the hots for Lyney, his magicianâs charm seems to work wonders, must to your dismay.Â
Even though he has a show to prep for and he has a girlfriend, Lyney doesnât try to stop Louise and her antics at all, he even answers all of her random questions. Itâs quite disheartening to see your boyfriend have another girl all over him and him not stop any of those advances, it makes it look like he doesnât have a girlfriend when he actually does.Â
âOh Lyney! What are you going to have for dinner after this? Do you want to go get dinner together? Iâd love to have dinner with you!â You had to walk away to keep yourself from gagging at her horrible flirting. Though you stopped when you heard Lyneyâs chuckle in response. âOh my dear, what a most generous offer that is indeed! I have yet to make plans for dinner, but I will get back to you on my thoughts on dinner after this show, so wait for me alright?âÂ
When you heard him say that your heart broke and you couldnât help but let the tears fall from your eyes. Was he really going to have dinner with another girl, when having dinner with you, Lynette, and Freminet, has been your tradition since you guys were in your âcourting stageâ as Lyney loved to call it.Â
Lynette, who saw the whole interaction, was also very stunned that Lyney was entertaining the thought of having dinner with someone else. She walked up to Lyney and told him that the show was starting soon and that he needed to get on stage and then immediately went to find you. When she found you, you were sitting on one of the boxes that was backstage hugging your knees to your chest and your head buried on top of them. Lynette could tell that you had heard what Lyney said and walked up to you.
âHey, I heard what that idiot said, just try not to take it to heart I guess. Heâs not one to let people know theyâre bothering him. If I had to guess heâs, probably, going to turn her down after the show. If itâs any consolation, I am also mad that he would ditch us for that idiot of a girl.â You look up at Lynette while she talks and silently nod your head in agreement.Â
After the show ended, the first thing Lyney did was look for you because you were always waiting backstage with a hug and a kiss for him. When he didnât immediately see you when he walked off stage, he was very confused because you had never missed your routine hug and kiss, itâs become a tradition for you two. While he is looking for you, Louise clings onto his arm and begins questioning him about dinner again. He looks down at her and says that heâs looking for you and that he canât talk right now. Louise letâs go at that and walks away.
Once Lyney finds you, he realizes that you havenât moved since the show began. âHello there, my dove! Let us go home now shall we?â You look up at him silently and get off the box you were sitting on and begin walking out. Lyneyâs eyes widen in alarm once he sees the dried streaks of tears on your face and when you start walking he rushes to grab your hand.Â
âOh my dearest dove, what could have you crying?â You shake your head and continue walking, because you canât handle talking to him right now. Not after him basically accepting to eat dinner with another girl. He decides to leave it alone until you get home because that is the best place to discuss what happened. Once you two get to your home, you fumble with the key to unlock the door and more tears begin to fall out of your eyes in frustration.Â
Lyney sees this and gently grabs the key out of your hand and unlocks the door. He grabs your hand and pulls you to your shared room, so that you two can sort all of this out in private. Once you reach your room you let go of his hand and sit on the bed and pull your knees to your chest again and look away from Lyney. His eyes soften and he walks around to the other side of the bed and wraps his arms around you.
âMy dove, what is it thatâs troubling you? Please talk to me, I want to help you but I canât do that if you donât tell me what the problem is.â You shake your head and mumble âitâs nothing, just go have dinner with Louise.â His eyes widen again before he realizes that you mustâve hear him and Louise talking about dinner before the show.Â
âOh my dearest dove, I was never going to entertain her and have dinner with her. I just didnât want to create animosity before the show, though you have my deepest apologies for even saying that I could have dinner with her. I will never have dinner with anyone but you, Lynette, and Freminet. You have my word on that, I promise. So please forgive me for making you cry.âÂ
You look up at him and swiftly wrap your arms around him and bury your head in his chest. âPlease never do that again, I donât think my heart could take it. I love you too much for you to do that.â He lightly kisses the top of your head before responding, âmy dearest I love you more than you could possibly know.â
Letâs just say that he got an earful from Lynette when it was time for dinner, because no way was he ever eating with anyone eot on her watch.
Moze

Birthday presents are surprises. At least thatâs how theyâre supposed to be. Moze does not seem to understand this, not at all. Mozeâs birthday was coming up and you wanted to surprise him, but could he let that happen? No apparently he could not, and he just had to spoil your surprise.
His birthday was coming up and you wanted to surprise him and get him a new custom dagger, you thought he would really like it. So when you decided what to get him, you got up extra early that morning and slipped out of your shared bed to go to the blacksmith. You made sure you were extra quiet so you didnât wake Moze up and spoil your surprise.Â
When you finally made it to the blacksmith and made your order you decided to walk around and get some food. The dagger wouldnât be ready until later that week so you had a lot of time on your hands. You decided to bring some food back for Moze and when you got back to your shared home he appeared out of nowhere and nearly gave you a heart attack.
âMoze seriously you got to stop appearing out of nowhere like that, youâre going to give me a heart attack one day.â He softly laughs and wraps his arms around you. âWhereâd you run off to this early in the morning my love? You never get up this early.â You panic internally for a moment before you remember that you got food too, so you donât have to worry about spoiling his surprise. âI went and got some food for us for breakfast, I woke up early and couldnât fall back asleep, so I thought why not get some food?â He takes that answer and leave it at that.
Later that week you had to go pick up the dagger again, conveniently it was the day of Mozeâs birthday. That day you got up early once more and snuck out of bed to go pick up his present. Though little did you know that when Moze woke up not long after he was surprised to not find you in bed once again, 2 times in one week? Thatâs suspicious, so he wanted to make sure you were okay, so he decided to go look for you.Â
He was looking all around the Yaoqing and he found you outside a blacksmith holding and admiring a dagger. What could you possibly need with a dagger? He decided to walk up to you to ask you about it and once he was in front of you, you about jumped out of your skin. âMoze! I swear please stop appearing out of nowhere!â You also realize that you have the dagger on full display so you quickly hide it behind your back.Â
âNow why are you hiding a dagger behind your back my love? Thatâs dangerous you know.â You then realize that he caught you red handed and quickly put the dagger in the bag you had along with the little card you made inside and shove it in his hands and run off. He stands there stunned at the fact that you just ran away, but before following you he looked inside the bag that you had given him. It held the dagger and a cute little note that said âHappy Birthday Moze! I love youâ with a little heart next to it. He then realized that today was indeed his birthday and he came to the realization that he spoiled your gift for him.
When he finds you after he looked at your gift, you are in your shared room on the bed with your head between your knees silently crying, though he could still hear it, it is Moze after all. He quickly puts the bag on the nightstand and gets on the bed and pulls you into his lap. âMy dearest love you have my deepest apologies for spoiling your gift for me. I wanted to make sure you were okay since you left so early but that does not excuse me from spoiling your surprise. Please forgive me my love.â
You look up at him teary eyed and bury your face in his neck. âYou really donât get the point of surprises do you, please try not to be so nosy around your birthday next year. I love you too much to have your birthday surprise spoiled.â He laughs softly before gently taking your head out of his neck and softly kissing your lips. âAnd I love you, Iâll try not to be so nosy next year, though I did forget it was my birthday in all fairness.â Your jaw drops at that and you realize that you have a new story to tell Jiaoqiu and Feixiao.
Letâs just say you three did not let him live down forgetting his own birthday, but you did it by giving him the best birthdays ever. Though when you told Jiaoqiu and Feixiao about all of this, Moze was lectured for hours on how to not ruin a surprise.
Neuvillette
Neuvillette is stressed. He doesnât completely get âthe silent treatmentâ. Why is it even a thing? Donât humans love communicating? So why do they do this to themselves?Â
Furina watches in amusement seeing all the gears in Neuvilletteâs turn trying to figure out why youâre giving him the silent treatment. You went to her to talk about how much heâs been working and it feels like he doesnât even try to make time for you two anymore. She told you to talk to him about it because thatâs the only way itâs ever going to get fixed. Little did she know it was going to make everything worse.Â
You went to talk to Neuvillette about it that night after you talked with Furina and he completely brushed it off. All he said was âWhat do you mean? Arenât we spending time together now? We do this every night, get ready together and go to bed. Thatâs spending time together.âÂ
You try to explain that you want to do more than that. You want to go on a date with him, you want to go on a walk, or even just stay in and cuddle. All he said back was âAs the Iudex I am quite busy and you know that.â Then went to bed. Since then youâve been ignoring him and going to bed before he gets home so now his routine is thrown off and he hates it.Â
Furina speaks up, âMy dear Iudex what is troubling you?âÂ
Neuvillette looks up at Furina and asks âWhy am I getting the silent treatment? I donât get itâÂ
âWell Neuvillette, do you make time for her? Do you take her on dates? Do you get her flowers? Do you show her you love her?â
Neuvillette clears his throat and looks away, âUm⌠noâŚâ
âHere lies your problem. Itâs like how you make time every week to have a tea party with me and relax. Or catch up with Sigewinne. Youâre not making time for your girlfriend you claim to love.â
Neuvillette sits there and reflects on this. He looks at Furina and says, âI must go. I have to fix this.âÂ
Furina smiles and dismisses him as he walks out she calls out to him, âThereâs no cases today so take the rest of the day off. But you have to start planning this stuff on your own.â Neuvillette shakes his head and leaves his office.Â
He stops on his way back home to get you flowers and some baked goods. Neuvillette arrives home and looks for you. He sees you and walks towards where youâre sitting in the bay window.Â
Youâre shocked when you see Neuvillette home so early and then you see whatâs in his hands. He has flowers and baked treats.Â
Neuvillette reaches you and begins to ramble, âMy love I am so sorry. I didnât put into perspective your feelings and how you want to spend more time with me. Which you 100% deserve because we are in a relationship and as a good boyfriend I must be present and make time for you. So after today I am going to make more time for you. I mean well it starts today as well because I am taking you out for dinner tonight. But in the mean time enjoy these flowers and treats I got you. I promise I wonât ever do this again. I love you so much.âÂ
You watch and Neuvillette catches his breath after that long declaration but it makes you smile. You scoot over and make room for him to sit next to you. You pat the cushion and he is quick to listen and sit next to you. You grab the flowers and treats and put them to the other side of you.Â
You turn to give your full attention to Neuvillette. You reach out your hands and cup his face, âThank you Neuvillette, that means a lot to me. I canât wait for the date tonight and for many other moments together. I love you so much.â You go to give him a kiss which he quickly returns and pulls you closer to him.Â
Once you two break apart you stare lovingly at each other. Neuvillette vows to himself he will never have this happen again because he HATES the silent treatment.Â
Sunday

Youâve known Sunday and Robin since you were kids. The three of you were always playing together and created some unforgettable memories. Robin could tell yours and Sundayâs feelings grew into something stronger as you three got older. She made it her mission to get you two together before she left Penacony which she was successful with.Â
You laugh at her determination now but it also breaks your heart. You are Sundayâs girlfriend but you never knew what he was planning and what he was going through. You canât help but blame yourself a little bit with not being able to stop him. But youâve heard heâs out of confinement and planning on leaving. Is he really leaving you behind again? Can he not say goodbye? You look at the stars and wonder what will happen.Â
You hear a cautious hello behind you which makes you turn around. You see a young man with gray hair and a girl with pink and blue hair. You recognize them being the nameless that helped Penacony. âWhy hello you two. Iâm sorry I donât remember your names could you remind me?â
The girl introduced herself as March 7th and the young man introduced himself as Caelus. March then asks, âMiss youâre Sundayâs girlfriend right?âÂ
You smile at her, âYes I am. I am sorry for all the trouble Sunday has caused you. Only if I knew I could have tried to stop him. But if youâre here to ask where he is, I donât know. I just know heâs leaving and he could have left.âÂ
March quick responds, âOh we arenât looking for him. We were curious if you would like to come with us? Like back to the Astral Express? We want to invite you to become a Nameless if you would want to.âÂ
You think about the offer and quickly agree because you donât exactly have a purpose right now. This can give you what youâre looking for.Â
March and Caelus took you back to the express where they showed you around and introduced you to Himeko, Dan Heng, and Pom Pom. Himeko tells you everyone has agreed to make you a Namless and that Welt is bringing someone else back to see if the Express wants them as a Nameless. To kill time you sit with March and Caelus.Â
You hear the door open and you see Welt and someone walking behind him. The person feels so familiar. March and Caelus stand up and walk over which you follow them. You stand behind them listening to Welt catch everyone up. Then you see him walk out from behind Welt. The man you dreamed of seeing since this whole disaster started.Â
Everyone begins to vote and say yes. Sunday looks happy but Pom Pom is quick to say, âWell we havenât heard from our other new recruit. What do you think?â You step out from Caelus and March and make eye contact with Sunday and he sucks in a breath. âYes I agree. He should become a Namless.â Everyone smiles and cheers for Sunday but he is frozen in place.Â
As soon as you and Sunday recite the creed you quickly go off ignoring Sunday. He tries to reach out for you but he realizes itâs futile. He knows he messed up. Welt comes up behind him and places a hand on his shoulder, âDonât give up so fast. Youâre on a new journey, donât you want her on it? Go and talk to her.âÂ
Sunday quickly follows where he saw you go and sees you looking at the stars. He takes a deep breath and walks over to stand next to you, âArenât they beautiful? Theyâre real and not fake ones. Iâve grown to learn that someday we will wake up from our dreams and have to face reality. I know that better than anyone now. After saying goodbye to Penacony and Robin I realized that I must start a new path. I regret not finding you first. Youâve always been in my path, dreams, future, anything really. I am lucky the Nameless are giving me this chance to fix everything. My angel I am so sorry. I should have went to you first, but I just thought about how I shouldnât. You shouldnât have to deal with a criminal and someone that went on the wrong path.â He starts to tear up, âAeons I cannot imagine a life without you. I want you in my life and I want to take this next step with you. I am truly and deeply sorry for all I have caused. I love you so much. I understand if you donât want to be with me anymore but just know if you give me another chance Iâll do everything in my power to prove to you I will change.âÂ
You turn to face him and start to cry looking at his tears. You dive right into his chest and hold onto him tight. He quickly wraps his arms around you and cries with you. You missed this, you missed him. Sundayâs familiar scent is home to you.Â
You hiccup, âSunday, Sundayâ you grip him tighter. âI donât care if youâre criminal. I donât care if you walked the wrong path. I want you. Yes it hurt that you didnât say goodbye but I know that it isnât necessary because anywhere you go, Iâll follow. Iâll always be right with you because I love you so much. I want nothing more than to continue this Nameless journey with you.âÂ
Sunday takes a deep breath and buries his face in your neck and plants light kisses on your neck. Between kisses he thanks you and promises you it will always be you and him.Â
Venti

When youâve been alive as long as Venti has, you tend to not forget things you find precious or important. At least thatâs what you had come to think. But now you are starting to doubt that. Because why else would you be sitting in front of Windrise for hours all by yourself, with all the picnic essentials, and no sign of your lovely bard showing up, if he didnât forget?
When it started to get dark you decided that you had waited long enough for Venti to show up and made your way back to the city. When you walked through the gates you run into Rosaria, which was a pleasant surprise because you only really see her when you go to Angelâs Share with Venti.Â
âOh, hey there Rosaria! How are you doing tonight?â She tilts her head at you and looks at you a little confusedly, âhuh Iâm surprised you arenât at Angelâs Share with that bard tonight. Heâs never there without you anymore, something happen between you two?â Now itâs your turn to look at her confused because what does she mean Venti is at Angelâs Share tonight?
âRosaria, what do you mean? Heâs at Angelâs Share right now?â You then mumble to yourself âthat would explain why he didnât come to Windrise for our picnic date then I guess.â Her eyes widen just a fraction before she narrows them. âYouâre telling me he skipped out on your date to go drinking with Kaeya, what a lousy guy.â
You let that all sink in before tears start forming in your eyes at the realization that you were in fact ditched by your beloved. You let your head fall before you quietly tell Rosaria that youâre going to go home now.
When you get to yours and Ventiâs shared home you place the picnic basket on the counter and you immediately go to your shared room. You change out of your clothes and hop into your bed, and it doesnât take long for the tears to pour out of your eyes. Next thing you know you hear Venti walk into the room, and you donât even want to know how long itâs been but youâre awake now but facing away from the door.Â
When he gets into bed you realize that you are now facing him and you will yourself to go back to sleep, because you donât want to cry anymore tonight. When he fully settles into bed he softly looks at you and notices that youâre awake and softly whispers to you.
âWell hello there my windblume, what has you up at this hour? Sleep is important you know.â He reaches to cup your face and when he rubs his finger across your cheek he realizes that itâs kinda of wet. âOh my windblume, whatever could have you crying?â He pulls you into his chest, and you immediately try to pull out of his hold and turn around.Â
He looks at you quizzically because you have never pulled away from him before. Did he upset you in some way? âMy dearest, please talk to me, I wish to know what is upsetting you. Allow me to be the one you confide in my windblume.â You sigh before whispering softly, because thatâs all you can manage without crying again.
âVenti do you remember what we planned to do today? Am I really that forgettable? That you would stand me up on our picnic date that weâve been planning for weeks? Was drinking with Kaeya really more important than our picnic?â Ventiâs face pales at what you said because he realizes that he totally forgot about your guysâ date.Â
âOh my dearest windblume, no apology could ever be worth your forgiveness and tears. But please allow me to apologize all the same, I have no excuse for forgetting our date. Please allow me to make it up to you in any way possible, Iâd even do the impossible for you because that is what you are worth. I hope you can find it within your heart to forgive me for this transgression but I know that an apology alone will not suffice. My beloved I am truly sorry.âÂ
Venti then wraps his arms around your waist and gently kisses the top of your head. You sigh softly and turn around in his embrace, hug him tightly, and bury your head in his chest. âPlease never forget about me again my beloved bard, I couldnât stand it ever again.â He takes one hand from around your waist and brings it to tilt your head up towards him and he gently kisses your lips. âNever again my beloved muse, I will never forget you again.â
Letâs just say from that point on you guys were practically glued to each other, you could never find one of you without the other, and thatâs just how everyone came to know and love Venti the bard and his muse.
Wriothesley

The strong and formidable Duke is passionate in his job. Maybe sometimes a little too much for your liking. Which is why you are shocked to hear from a guard that a big brawl broke out and your boyfriend was in the middle of it and didnât leave unscathed.Â
You went up to the surface to get some quick refills of some supplies you and Sigewinne needed before the bigger supply would come to the fortress. After hearing the news you quickly run to the fortress to see the wounded and you can tell the guys that were on the receiving end of your boyfriend. But you donât see the man in question here.Â
Sigewinne sees you come in and walks to meet you. âIf youâre wondering where His Grace is, he isnât here. I think he went to his office after the brawl. Go to him and Iâll stay here.â You nod and tell her to send a guard if she needs your help.Â
You walk to his office and smile at the guards and tell them not to come in. You hear grunts coming from upstairs knowing he is in pain. You head up the stairs and see him on his chair. You walk to one of the cabinets and grab the mini first aid kit you kept in here for situations like these. It only makes your blood boil now.Â
You got the kit and walk over to Wriothesley. You take a good look at his bruised face, split lip, blood dripping from his eyebrows, and scraped up knuckles. You see his nicely done hair flattened against his forehead and his nice dress clothes out of place. Then you see his bright blue eyes staring right at you. Wriothesley smirks at you, âIt was a rough one wasnât it haha.âÂ
You glare at him and unbutton his bloodied gray vest so he isnât wearing bloodied clothes, âOhhh so thatâs what you want. You wanna have some fun sweetheart?âÂ
You glare at him again and take off the vest. Then grab the kit and start working on his face. You clean up the blood and put some bandages on his face then some ointment on his split lip. âHey leave some scars, gotta scare the prisoners somehow.âÂ
Once again you sent him a glare, âWow thatâs a death glare. Wait why arenât you talking?â What a real funny question, he promised you last time he wouldnât take on a big brawl again. But he obviously didnât keep that promise. It makes you angry and upset. You just want him to stay safe, is that too much to ask?Â
You reach for his left hand start to clean and bandage it. You then switch to his right hand and canât stop the tears that fall. Which fall right onto his knuckle which makes his freak. âHey wait why are you crying? Sweetheart come on please look at me.â He grabs your chin and sees your tear stained eyes. âTalk to me please. I canât help if you donât tell me whatâs wrong.âÂ
You sniffle and let more tears fall, âYou broke your promise. You told me you wouldnât take on a brawl by yourself again. Wriothesley I get youâre the Duke but seriously hold yourself in a higher regard. You are still a person and donât deserve to be beaten up to stop a fight. You have people that can help you break it up. Itâs not your burden to carry all by yourself. Donât you care about your body? Because I do. I care SO much. I donât want to see your beautiful face beaten up and your nice clothes ripped and bloodied. It breaks my heart and I canât keep seeing you like this.âÂ
Wriothesley stops, wait were you breaking up with him? âSweetheart please donât break up with me. I know I promise, and Iâm very sorry I broke it. Iâm the Duke and I want to send a message and not have my men get hurt over stuff I can handle on my own. I truly promise from now on Iâll go into these situations better. Iâll bring extra men just archons donât break up with me. I love you so much it hurts.âÂ
You think he misinterpreted the last thing you said but at least this promise seems like one he wonât break. You smile at him, âIâm not breaking up with you handsome. You misunderstood.â You brush your hands through his hair, âI just donât like seeing you hurt. I like seeing your handsome face free of blood and bruises. I love you so much too Wriothesley.âÂ
Wriothesley smiles up at you and pulls you toward him and slots his lips with yours. You feel like with this kiss heâs sealing your promise.Â
Yanqing

Yanqing is not only recovering from his little run in with Blade and Dan Heng but is now having a crisis because youâre ignoring him for some reason?? He tried to ask Jing Yuan why you were avoiding him, but he was like âI donât know Yanqing, I think you need to solve your little loverâs quarrel by yourself.âÂ
To say he was bewildered might have been an understatement. All he wanted to do after he was thoroughly beat up by an infamous Stellaron Hunter and the previous High Elder was to just be in your presence and have you tend to his wounds because you always did it better than he ever could.Â
So here you sit, all by yourself, in the Exalting Sanctum, trying to calm yourself down. You just canât believe that Yanqing would try to recapture one of the Stellaron Hunters, when he knows just how dangerous they are, and all by himself on top of that.Â
When you had first heard that Yanqing had gone off on his own accord to try to recapture Blade, it wasnât even from Yanqing himself, rather from the seat of Divine Foresight himself. To say you were bewildered and just plain terrified was probably an understatement, because Blade is a very dangerous criminal with a high bounty on his head. Why would Yanqing try to go after him by himself for starters and without an order from Jing Yuan??
When he first got back after Jing Yuan told him to take his leave, he finds you sitting in Exalting Sanctum all by yourself looking quite upset. His first thought is that someone bothered you but when he reached where you were sitting all he got was a very harsh glare.Â
âHey there my dear, whatâs got you so upset? Did someone bother you?â You glare at him even harder once you see his injuries and stand up and huff before grabbing his hand and dragging him to your home. Yanqing can tell that you are very clearly upset but he canât seem to figure out why, because you have never been this mad before. You drag him to your room where you kept your medical supplies and push him to sit on your bed, and you were not that gentle with it.
He winces at the sting it causes his injuries when you push him and you glare harder at the floor. You grab your little medical kit that you have, for times just like this, and begin on working tending to his injuries. He looks at you quizzically, because by now you would have said something, anything at all in response to him, and he is growing more confused and nervous by the second, because was it something he did?
The silence between you two lasts for a little longer until he speaks up and asks âhey, did I do something wrong? Did I upset you somehow? Please just talk to me?â You look up and glare at him again before silently getting back to his injuries, and you donât know if itâs because youâre angry or because you were so nervous for his safety, but you realize that your hands are shaking.Â
Yanqing soon realizes this too and his eyes widen in alarm. âWait, why are you shaking? Please tell me whatâs wrong and Iâll do all I can to fix it, please, please just talk to me!â You begin to fumble with the last of his bandages and as soon as he sees that he grabs your hands with one of his and your face with the other. You look up at him and it doesnât take long for you to break, tears start forming in your eyes before youâre spilling whatâs bothering you.Â
âYanqing how could you think that going after a Stellaron Hunter all by yourself was a good idea?? Do you have any idea how worried I was when Jing Yuan told me that you went off on your own with no orders?? Blade is such a dangerous person and you thought that the best course of action was to go off on your own and try to recapture him?? You couldâve avoided getting these injuries, donât you know that?? It hurts me every time that I have to tend to your injuries because I know youâre out there getting hurt everyday and thereâs nothing I can do about it! Thatâs why Iâm upset Yanqing because I hate seeing you hurt!â
To say Yanqing was stunned was an understatement, because he was the reason you were upset? How could he have let that happen? âWait, Iâm so sorry my dear I never meant to upset you. I just wanted to prove myself and recapture the Stellaron Hunter after he escaped, I know heâs dangerous but I thought I could do it. Iâm sorry for overlooking your feelings when I get hurt, please forgive me.âÂ
Your eyes soften before you take your hands gently out of his and wrap your arms around him. âI forgive you Yanqing, please just stop being reckless alright?â His arms immediately come to wrap around you before he buries his head into your stomach. âI promise Iâll try to be less reckless, my dear.âÂ
Letâs just say that from that point on Jing Yuan was impressed when he noticed that Yanqing got just a little less reckless, and he mentally thanked you for that.Â
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Bitty birb in the nest is worth...? Part 19
Masterpost This is going to have many typos and spelling issues, but it currently feels like I've got an ice pick in my temple and my skin hurts so there's no rereading happening atm. Sorry!
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Danny looked up as Tim Drake-Wayne strode into the lab and closed the door quietly behind himself.
âTim?â
âMm-hum?â Tim hummed as he sat down his thermos before he shed his messenger bag, coat, and school jacket onto an open part of desk.
Danny watched on with bemusement. The kid looked half asleep. âNot that it isnât great to see you again, but what are you doing here, honey?â
âBruce is on a call running Luthor in circles and then has to talk to legal about some stuff because Luthor is always an ass. Weâre supposed to go run an errand and then to dinner together, so Iâm stuck here until heâs ready to leave for the day.â
âIâm sorry,â Danny said honestly.
âItâs okay, at least Bruce wonât forget, not likeââ Tim shut his mouth with a snap, seemingly suddenly thinking about what he was saying.
âItâs okay, I get it,â Danny said, because he did. âYou need somewhere to hide out then?â
âYeah, itâs⌠calm here.â
âOkay. Sit wherever you want thatâs clear. If you need to move something, let me know first, okay?â
âThanks,â Tim said, shoulders finally losing some of their tension.
âOf course, whenever you need.â
Not wanting to push Tim in any way, Danny kept a subtle eye on the boy as Tim absently wandered around Dannyâs office. To Timâs credit, he did try to touch anything or move things around, even as he obviously grew increasingly tired.
It would be a lot, Danny supposed, to be a teen ager trying to live up to the legacy of two important families in the area, learn the business, go to school, and (hopefully) also spend time with friends. Danny knew how hard it had been only having Phantom as an obligation.
While, sure, Danny wished Tim had made chosen a less neck cramping spot, he was happy to see Tim finally settle down and seemingly fall asleep⌠under one of Dannyâs work benches. Danny couldnât fuss too much, heâd done that plenty in grad school himself. Once Tim seemed properly asleep, Danny got up to fetch his cardigan from the hook by the door and took it to drape over the sleeping kid. Tim let a little huffed breath of air before he snuggled further into the cardigan and settled back into sleep.
It made Dannyâs heart melt in a way that he didnât want to think too hard about.
It really was no surprise when about forty-five minutes later one Bruce Wayne poked his head into Dannyâs office. The door was hardly open when Danny had his finger up and over his mouth in the universal sign of âshushâ.
Bruce titled his head curiously. Danny gave a little nod of his head towards the workbench that Tim was sleeping under. Silently, Bruce moved to the work bench and crouched down next to it. There was a soft, amused sound before Bruce reached out to brush his hand over Timâs forehead, as if habitually checking for a fever.
When Bruce returned to where Danny was working, he asked softly, âHow long has he been asleep?â
âA little over a half hour. It took him about ten minutes to settle in,â Danny answered, voice equally quiet.
âThen do you mind if I let him keep resting for another fifteen minutes or so? Heâs likely to wake up on his own then.â
Danny shook his head. âNope, let the kid rest. He seems like he needs it.â
Bruce glanced at Tim, his expression that soft sort of worried only parents seemed to get. âHe does. He works too hard at⌠everything. Heâs always trying to prove himself even when he doesnât need to anymore.â
Danny made a little questioning noise as he got back to fiddling with the annoyingly tiny screws.
âHis parents were⌠demanding. They had very exacting ideas of what proper high society behavior was,â Bruce explained. âIâm sadly not the best suited at dismantling those ideas either.â
âAh⌠well, what do you do that encourages him to be a kid?â Danny asked.
âHe skateboards, actually. And he enjoys photography, but even that became a goal what with art competitions at school.â
âMaybe take him and Damian on a mini art vacation? Somewhere pretty. Somewhere where itâs not about judges,â Danny suggested. He finally got the last screw seated so he glanced up at Bruceâs thoughtful face.
âThatâs a good idea,â Bruce said. âIâll start looking at what might work. Thank you.â
âSure, ideas are kinda what I do,â Danny said and motioned to the office around him with the screwdriver.
Bruceâs answering chuckle was low and warm. âI suppose it is. I hope youâre also not overworking yourself.â
âIâm doing much better,â Danny assured Bruce. âI just needed some rest.â
âWhich my children made sure you got. Iâm still sorry that they kept you so long on Friday.â
It was Dannyâs turn to laugh. âHonestly, I donât think you really have much control over what they do.â
âNo, I really donât,â Bruce admitted. âBut I wouldnât have them any other way.â
âThatâs good; theyâre a pretty amazing family,â Danny said with a soft smile. âAnd if I donât get to be sorry about falling asleep, you donât get to be sorry about making me rest.â
âYou drive a hard bargain, but deal.â
âI am a master business man,â Danny teased and ducked his head to hide his smile.
âIâll have to watch for corporate take overs. Keep an eye on the stocks and papers.â
âMaybe. Oh, speaking of⌠Well, not speaking of but sort of related? You know, I was joking about us making the papers.â
Bruce hummed curiously so Danny set aside his tools to pull up the story that several coworkers had sent him on his table. He spun it to face Bruce. The picture of them in the box was big on the screen. They were pressed almost chest to chest with Bruceâs arms around Danny. It certainly looked incriminating.
âWell shit,â Bruce said with a sigh. He picked up the tablet to scan through the article. There wasnât anything in it, of course, just wild speculation. âI hope you havenât been harassed about this by anyone.â
âI donât think anyone knows who I am to harass me,â Danny said honestly. âSome coworkers have sent me it, but apparently itâs just my luck to have both randomly run into a Wayne and be invited to an event and have one of my âspellsâ when Iâm around them.â
Bruce looked at him with one well manicured brow raised. âYou have interesting luck.â
âYep. Itâs been quite a life so far. I was pretty much born into interesting luck and life has really lived up to that luck and died by it,â Danny said with a little chuckle as he took his tablet back.
âI feel concerned by that last part.â
Danny hummed in question, distracted by pulling his notes back up.
âThe having died by the luck part.â
âOh.â Danny smiled, but he knew that expression was less than a happy one. âI think I mentioned that there was an accident when I was a kid?â
Bruce nodded and lean his elbows on the work bench and crosses his arms. âYou did. One that is apparently still affecting your pulse to this day.â
âYes, well,â Danny glanced away from Bruce. Why was it still so hard to talk about. âWhen I was fourteen, I was electrocuted at at an⌠industrial level of voltage. Unsurprisingly it killed me. And hey, obviously I came back! But that sort of thing sticks around.â
âIâm sorry.â
Danny looked back at Bruce, honestly startled. In all this time, Danny wasnât sure if heâd ever heard a âIâm sorryâ about his accident, not without strings attached. His lips quirked into a smile again. This one felt more pleasant. âThanks. Trust me though, Iâm grateful that life has, had been calmer.â
Whatever Bruce was going to say to that was cut off by a loud yawn, the sound of someone shifting around, and then the unmistakable bang of a limb against the metal legs of one of the workbenches.
Quiet cussing followed a moment later.
âYou okay there, Tim?â Danny asked.
âFine,â Tim hissed back.
âIâm sure I have an instant icepack in my office. We can grab one before we leave,â Bruce said.
âB?â Tim asked, voice noticeably brighter. A moment later he appeared out from under the desk.
âHi, sweetheart, sorry that I had to take that call,â Bruce said as he stepped over to Tim. He reached out to brush the teenâs hair a little straighter.
âItâs fine, itâs Lex, I get it.â
âI know you get it, but that doesnât mean it has to be fine.â
Tim just shrugged. The action made him notice the the cardigan draped over his shoulders. A little blush rose on his cheeks as he took it off and handed it back to Danny. âSorry.â
âNothing to be sorry for Tim, you werenât any problem,â Danny assured him. âYouâre welcome in my office whenever.â
âYouâre going to regret that,â Tim said.
Danny just shrugged with a smile.
âCome on, chum, letâs go find that icepack. Weâll still get to your store before it closes,â Bruce said and started to guide Tim out by the shoulder.
Bruce glanced behind him and Danny gave a little wave to the retreating Waynes.
His luck indeed.
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âWhat happened in Dannyâs office thatâs bothering you?â Tim asked. He had the icepack pressed against his elbow and was sitting almost sideways so that he could take in all of Bruceâs expression.
Bruce was doing that thing where he was feeling big, complicated emotions and wishing he wasnât. Tim could read it in the way that Bruceâs shoulders were set, that little bit of tightening under his eyes, and the way he was very purposefully not frowning.
âB,â Tim pressed.
Bruce sighed, the sound all of his air. âI think we should leave Danny alone, both as Waynes and as Bats.â
Tim jolted and scrambled to sit up further. âWait, what? Bruce, what happened?â
âNothing bad,â Bruce assured Tim. âNothing bad happened. Vicky got a picture of Danny and I at the ballet. We spoke some about it and Danny talked about how he had interesting luck. He said he was grateful that life has been calmer; he had to change that to had.â
ââŚoh.â
âItâs just thatââ
âNo, youâre right. Iâll try to talk to the others about it because you know they wonât listen to you about it.â
âIâm sorry, Tim.â
âItâs fine, I get it.â
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the waiting game ;
tsukishima kei x reader
reader is childhood friends with tsukki, and has an ongoing bit where she'll ask him out periodically. she's grown used to him saying no, and doesn't expect it when he actually says yes.
You would easily consider Tsukishima Kei your closest friend. You grew up on the same street, went to the same schools, and were in the same class on multiple occasions, so your frequent proximity had forced the two of you to become very familiar with one another. Though he had a personality that others may find sour, knowing him for so long meant that you had seen every version of him, and knew that there was more to him than the reputation that he had gained. Sure, he was arrogant and standoffish a vast majority of the time, but you knew that he was also kind and considerate towards those he cared about.Â
You didn't think that it was possible to gain feelings for a friend so close to you, but over the years you couldn't help but find yourself growing more and more intrigued with the idea of being in a relationship with your best friend. You cherished the friendship that the two of you had, but you couldn't help but wish that it could blossom into something more. Even as a child, you knew you wanted to make a move, but were held back by the fear that he would take it negatively, and you would lose a friend that meant the world to you. Sure, you both had other friends outside of each other, but a life without Tsukishima Kei by your side was not something you wanted to risk.Â
The first time you asked him out was a joke to test the waters. The situation had been perfectly laid out for you, so you figured you might as well give it an attempt.Â
At twelve years old, you, Tsukki, and your deskmates sat chatting about how White Day was approaching, with some members of the conversation more enthusiastic than others. One boy excitedly announced that he had started dating another girl in the class, and was planning on surprising her with candy on the special day. One by one, each of the boys rattled off who they wanted to give a present on the holiday, while the girls helped pitch ideas on how they could make their surprises even better.Â
"Who are you getting a present for, Tsukishima?" a voice sounded next to you, a bright eyed girl addressing the one member of the circle who had not made a contribution.Â
Tsukki stared blankly at her, before shaking his head, "No one, I don't have a girlfriend."Â
The boy seated next to him accusingly pointed a finger in his direction. "There's gotta be someone you want to get a gift for. It's White Day, this is your chance to get one!"Â
Your best friend scoffed, folding his arms in defiance. "It's a made up holiday, and a girlfriend right now would be a waste of time and money. Why would I buy chocolates for someone I don't have any interest in?"Â
Sounds of protest came from everyone sitting at the table. Upon hearing his thoughts, you supposed that should have been a clear enough answer to whether or not he had an interest in anyone, but you couldn't help but think that he was only staying quiet because you were present at the table. While somewhat disappointed, you knew that this was your chance to prod him further and get a more concrete answer.
"Date me, I'm your best friend and I'll gladly take the chocolates," you half-joked, trying to play it off as cool as a twelve year old possibly could.
Your answer came quickly, not in the form of an answer, but in the ease of him brushing you off, not even considering the possibility that you could genuinely mean what you had just said.Â
"I'm not getting anything for anyone, find someone else to buy your chocolates."Â
Following that conversation, it had been a whole year before you took another chance at proposing the idea of a relationship, fearing that you would be shot down once again. It was a similar situation; the environment had given you the chance to casually slide the idea into the conversation, and you couldn't give up the opportunity.Â
You and now-thirteen-year-old Tsukishima Kei stood in a convenience store on your way home from school, picking out snacks after you had spent a long day with your clubs at school. You were in the art club and had to take home a painting that you had done on a disproportionately large canvas. As you decided you wanted a barbecue pork bun, Tsukki picked yours up on your behalf, seeing as your hands were fully occupied with your artwork. Standing at the till, he gave the payment to the store owner, an elderly man with a strong gaze, and took the bag that was handed to him in return.Â
"Young man, why don't you give the food to your girlfriend and carry that massive painting for her instead?" the elderly man chimed as the two of you began to pull away from the counter.Â
Both your eyes widened, and you could see that the taller boy's cheeks had gone slightly red at being criticized by the man before you, along with the realization that you had been incorrectly identified as his girlfriend. He opened his mouth in protest, but the store owner gave him a pointed look, forcing him to place the bag back on the counter and take the painting from your arms. A large grin broke out on your face as you picked up the buns and gave the man a toothy smile while the two of you gave him a small bow before exiting the store.Â
"That's more like it," you heard the owner's voice carry from behind you as the doors to exit the store chimed while you walked into the evening air.Â
The second you were out of earshot of the man, you broke out into laughter, immediately turning to the boy who had turned an even deeper shade of red.Â
"Hear that Kei? Carry the massive painting for your girlfriend," you mocked, taking your bun out of the bag and taking a bite, ensuring to make a grand show of the amount of freedom your arms had in that moment.Â
"Tsk," was the only response heard from the boy as he turned his face away from you to try and hide the red that was slowly disappearing from his cheeks.Â
"I say we should start dating so that you can become my personal artwork carrier," you quipped as you skipped ahead of him along your path.Â
"Never going to happen," his voice sounded from behind you, unamused.Â
"Go out with me!" you called back, continuing to skip ahead of him.Â
"No."Â
That incident had begun the joke that ran between the two of you. You would ask him out, and he would respond with some form of deadpan denial. Your friends had grown accustomed to it, expecting you to make the joke from time to time. On the days you spent with both Tsukishima and Yamaguchi, the shorter boy would even occasionally play along.Â
"What in the world is that poster for?" you asked one day, noting an obnoxiously coloured poster stuck to a pole near the corner where you and Tsukishima split off from Yamaguchi on your paths home.Â
"A couples dancing competition," the green haired boy read off with a laugh.Â
"I wonder what the turnout would be, based on how ugly that poster is," your best friend commented, leaning forward to get a better look at the image before the three of you.Â
"The two of you should sign up," Yamaguchi responded jokingly, matching the smile that was growing across your face, "It would be a sight."Â
"You're so right, both of our incredibly above average dancing skills would blow the competition away," you joked, "the only thing we're missing is being an actual couple."Â
"I'm not going out with you."Â
"It was worth a shot."Â
As you grew older, the two of you continued to remain best friends. You had shared sentiments over schoolwork, had jokes shared between each other, and you knew the ins-and-outs of each others' lives. You were closer than ever, but the fact that you two had only grown closer meant that it hurt even more that the two of you wouldn't be anything more than friends. As far as you were concerned, he only thought of you as a cherished friend, and all the times you had asked him out were nothing more than a gimmick resulting from a comfort level obtained from your level of friendship. You loved having him as a friend, but as you grew older and more mature, your feelings grew with you, and your childhood crush developed into infatuation with the boy living down the street.Â
When high school came around, you both joined Karasuno together, acknowledging that it made sense for you to attend the same school once again. After the incident when you were thirteen, he had formed a habit of helping you carry your larger paintings on the walk home, and in turn you feigned some interest in the volleyball club, hearing what he and Yamaguchi had to say about their matches.Â
When the boys volleyball team qualified for the finals of their tournament, you joined your school in supporting your two friends as they faced the top school in the prefecture. You were one of many loud voices cheering the boys on, though you liked to believe that amongst them all, you were cheering the loudest. When Tsukishima made the first block against the opposing ace, you felt a burning pride to see the boy you liked finally begin to show some emotion on the court, your excitement visible from the stands.Â
Though you didn't understand the game well, it had you on your toes; everything that took place was crucial to the boys' success in the game. So encapsulated by the gameplay, and cheering on the series of blocks that Tsukki had done only moments before, you were confused when murmurs started to pass through the crowd and the players began to crowd around the tall blonde. It took a few seconds for you to realize that he was injured and was gripping his hand while the others spoke to him. Concerned, you left your spot amongst your classmates and approached his brother, who had a matching look of concern etched upon his face.Â
"Akiteru, did you see what happened? Is Kei injured?" you questioned, standing next to the older Tsukishima brother.Â
"I hope not," he muttered back, eyes carefully watching what was going on below.Â
You both watched intently as your friend wrapped a towel around his hand and began to walk towards the gymnasium exit.
"C'mon, let's go see what happened," he stated, as you both left the stands along with the first-year Karasuno manager to go meet his younger brother. Walking down the steps you could feel the anxious energy radiating off of all of you, and you tried to shake it off so that the injured boy would not sense it too. The three of you met him outside the doors of the gym.Â
"Kei, are you okay?" you asked, somewhat redundantly; of course he wasn't 'okay' if he was leaving the game because of an injury.Â
"I'm fine," he quipped back, trying to act more nonchalant than you could tell he felt inside. You observed your friend as he had a back and forth with his brother over his physical state. He commented on how it was nice to rest after all the sets- you could tell that there was some truth to the statement, but you could also see that he had finally found his groove, and really wanted to be back in the game. As he began to walk away, you could see the frustration emanating from his stance, and you and his brother decided to follow him and the older manager to the infirmary.
You ran up to catch him, and walked alongside Tsukki, Kiyoko and Akiteru. You walked in silence, knowing that the middle blocker was busy ruminating on the events of the game, and could only think of getting back on the court, despite his efforts to pretend otherwise. As the four of you arrived at the infirmary, you sat beside him and the two others stood near the door behind you while the nurse took a look at his hand. You could tell that he was scared that the nurse would announce his hand was too severely injured and he would have to sit out the remainder of the match.Â
To try and ease some of the nerves that he would be feeling, you grabbed his non-injured hand and gave it a small squeeze.Â
"I'm sure it's fine and you'll be back soon," you whispered so that only he could clearly hear, "and once you get back, you'll win the game and go to nationals."Â
You gave him a small encouraging smile, finally meeting his eyes, and for a few moments the boy did nothing but stare back at you.Â
After a short pause he finally responded with a nod, "I hope so," before dropping his eyes as the nurse analyzed and dressed his wounds. The remainder of the visit, you four sat in silence, the volleyball player evidently deep in thought over what he would do when he returned to the match, however his eyes occasionally fluttered away, as if something were distracting him.
Soon, his finger had been wrapped and immobilized, and the nurse announced that he would be allowed to return to the game. The four of you sprung up, and began jogging back to the gym, Tsukki slightly out-pacing the rest of you. You and Akiteru stood by the doors as the other two ran to the coach to explain his condition and request that he be put back in the game. You and the other Tsukishima brother ran back up to the stands to watch upon seeing him take a seat on the bench, the substitution card in his hand.Â
You watched as the remainder of the match unfolded, Tsukki back on the floor, knowing that he was still in pain though he tried to hide it. You didn't think it was possible, but you were even more captivated by the game in front of you, every movement drawing you closer and closer to the edge of your seat, more and more in awe of your best friendâs tenacity. When the final point was scored and Karasuno were announced as the winners, you jumped out of your seat, cheers and hollers all around you as your entire section cheered on the victory of your school's team.Â
The victory party had begun, with Karasuno staff and students overjoyed alike, excitement filling the air. The team bowed to your cheering section, and you let out more cheers to your two friends before you. You first made eye contact with Yamaguchi, who had found you in the crowd sooner and you gave him a smile and a thumbs up to show your congratulations. Noticing his teammate's line of vision, your best friend found you as well and you beamed even more, changing your thumbs up into a heart that you made with both your hands. You could almost hear the half-laugh, half-scoff that came from the boy as he immediately turned away from your antics. You couldn't help but laugh as well when you turned away from your seat and started to join the crowd that had begun to trickle out of the stands.Â
When everyone had finished mingling in the lobby, you excused yourself from your other friends to go greet the volleyball players who were dispersed outside the gym. You easily spotted the blond head of hair that stood taller and slightly apart from his teammates, the green-haired boy nowhere in sight.Â
You decided that the best course of action to get his attention was to launch yourself at his back. So you did, and he let out a yelp as he caught you behind him, a small exasperated laugh being let out. You let go of him and gave him a proper hug, but from the front, despite his protests.Â
"What did I say, go back soon, win the game, go to nationals," you said matter-of-factly, pointing a joking finger in his face once you had finally freed him of the hug, "I think I can see the future."
"I mean we were already so close to winning, the prediction was right in your face," the boy responded sassily, obviously trying to get back at your outrageous remark.Â
"I don't know, I think I have a gift," you continued joking, "I'll show up to all of the nationals games and start predicting who's going to win, just you wait and see."Â
"There are too many games going on, you'd never go to them all," the boy responded, trying to shut down your new aspirations.Â
"No, I'll do it, just you wait and see. I'll go to all of yours too, up until you win it all."Â
"You'd look like a stalker, the crazy fan of Karasuno who won't leave us alone."Â
"Hmm... no," you responded back, "The best course of action is for us to start dating because then I would no longer be a crazed fan and instead a loyal girlfriend there to support my boyfriend."Â
"Mhm okay."Â
"And then if anyone asks I could just say that I... wait did you just say okay?"Â
You had continued on your rambling, so focused on the dumb situation that you had thought up, that you had completely failed to notice the boy's response, or the way that he had been looking at you since the moment you had met him outside the gym.Â
He now stood, smiling smugly at you, and you realized that while you had been going on and on, he had been looking down at you, a newfound admiration on his face. You couldn't say when exactly the change had been made, but you realized now that he was looking at you in a way that he had never once before, and you began to feel the butterflies in your stomach.Â
"I did say okay," he stated plainly, placing a hand on the top of your head, making light of the fact that he towered over you.Â
You were speechless and could do nothing but stare back at him in confusion.Â
"After all this time, did you want me to say no again?" he asked, when almost a whole minute passed without a response from you.Â
"NO, no not at all," you said finally, accepting that he wasn't just messing with you and actually meant it, "it just caught me off guard."Â
The boy removed his hand from your head and smiled once again, less smug this time.Â
"Okay, so now I'm expecting you to show up to all our games at nationals and be the supportive girlfriend cheering me on constantly."Â
"Girlfriend already?" you retorted, once again taking his non-injured hand in yours, the difference being that now he held it as well, the feelings no longer one sided, "What happened to taking a girl out on a few dates before claiming that title?"Â
"Did you really ask me out all those times just to not even want to be called my girlfriend?" he asked back, eyes narrowing in disbelief at the comment that you just made.Â
"Nevermind, girlfriend it is."Â
Bonus:
A week had passed since the volleyball team had won the game against Shiratorizawa. The boys had been busy following the win, so you finally had a moment to treat both your friends to a congratulatory dinner. The three of you walked in the direction of the restaurant on a Sunday, with you standing in between your two friends. You passed a hideous poster, identical to the one that the three of you had previously joked about.Â
"Now that we've mastered volleyball, I think it's time for you two to take up dancing seriously," Yamaguchi smiled, recalling the previous joke that you had made over the poster.Â
"I wholeheartedly agree," you said back, "this time we even meet the couple criteria."Â
Yamaguchi stopped walking, turning to look at the two of you. You innocently looped your arm into Tsukki's, though your boyfriend stood still, no reaction evident on his face or through his body language.Â
A few seconds passed before Yamaguchi unfroze and continued walking, a smile now plastered on his face.Â
"Congratulations," was all he said at first, before he finished his train of thought, "but it was really about time."Â
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OFF TO THE RACES.
ellie williams, abby anderson x fem! reader.
part one of to lie and love like you do.
SUMMARY | you are in a poly relationship with new yorkâs elite women, ellie williams and abby anderson, but living in the world of power, money, and lust possesses each one of you as the dynamic amongst you three becomes more volatile and violent.
WARNINGS | adult language. graphic violence. polyamorous relationship. abby calls reader âbunny,â ellie calls reader, âlittle lamb.â mentions of alcohol consumption and drug usage. possessive and obsessive behaviors. dark content: graphic details of t*rture and m*rder, men being pigs, controlling behavior. adult content: sub!reader x doms!ellabs, doing it in a confessional booth, god kink, fingering, degradation, overstimulation, edging, ball gag, strap-ons, face smacking, mommy and daddy kink, knife play w/ branding, double penetration.
NOTES | so brief explanation: this is my fic, off to the races. it used to be on my original, old account that fell under the user âangvlitaâ but unfortunately i deactivated that account so the fic no longer exists. anyways, all rights are reserved to me for this, and i do not want it published anywhere else. with that being said, please take into caution all the tags and warnings because this isnât meant to be taken lightly whatsoever. ellie and abby are mean and cruel in here. thank you, and enjoy.
If Los Angeles was the city of Angels, then New York was home for all Hellbound.
You grew up in such a glistening city, where peopleâs facades werenât as hidden, illicit affairs took place, and a fifteen year old was trying cocaine for the first time. It held beauty just like Lucifer, having greater cruelty and an ominous essence lingering beneath its soul.
You wish you didnât get caught up in a reckless lifestyle, that you didnât become so corrupted that you were a girlfriend to your two best friends.
Ellie Williams, daughter to architect and businessman Joel Miller, and Abby Anderson, daughter to a famous renowned surgeon Jerry Anderson. The two had great power, control, and wealth â they fucking lived off of it. They were cruel and vicious to everyone.
Ellie was a venomous scorpion, Abby personified as such a nefarious viper. The two together were threatening, and it all surprised you when they wanted you in their circle in the early start of Junior Year, easily befriending you.
You remembered it clear as day.
You were sitting at a table, reading Jane Eyre. It was your free period, and you had not much to do, finished with any assignments.
The silence you enjoyed was interrupted when two figures sat themselves down at the table, gaining your attention as you peered up at the book, and noticed elite scholars Ellie Williams, and Abby Anderson.
They were grinning at you, eyeing you like a predator did with their prey, a cascade of goosebumps running over your skin.
âCan I help you?â You asked, bookmarking your spot before closing the book, and setting it down.
You knew it came off rude and too sharp, but their appearance made you uncomfortable, and weirded out.
âWeâve been keepinâ an eye on you,â Ellie said, and your heart sank, not knowing exactly what that mean. âWe arenât here to ruin your life, if thatâs what youâre thinking.â
âI mean, I donât know,â you chuckled nervously, fidgeting with your Cartier bracelet. âYou have quite the reputation.â
âSo you know us?â Abby asked, and you shrugged, unsure of what else to say.
âWe want to invite you out,â Ellie added, and your brows knitted together, utterly confused. How could you not be? It was a random invitation, and you didnât have any prior interactions with them.
You just had Fine Arts Honors with Ellie, and English Literature with Abby â though, you never made any conversations with them, and you didnât see the need to.
âWhy? This is new, no?â You questioned, eyeing them back and forth in the moment the duo looked at one another, words kindling behind their eyes.
âSomethinâ about you is sweet⌠special,â Abby confessed, and a smile threatened to curl onto your lips. âYou interest us.â
âMarrona, at 8PM,â Ellie stated, getting up with the blonde by her side. âJust come by, and if you still donât like us, youâre free to go.â
âYouâre trusting a stranger? Interesting,â you lightly joked, smiling to yourself. âThe world must be ending, then.â
They smiled with you, a rare expression anyone could come across.
It was an unforgettable night that you thought of for a week before either of you approached each other again.
Many of your friends told you to not fall for it, that youâd be a laughing stock, and would only be ruined. You didnât know how ruined you would become, and you simply wanted to know what it would be like to sit in their company.
You were sure it was because of your status â your mother was an heiress, and your father was a CEO of an advanced technology business. You were humble about your life, yet knew you had a higher position in money and glory than them. You were sure they wouldnât just let anyone in, that they were more intelligent to let a random classmate of theirs be brought into their social circle.
The deeper you fell into their rabbit hole, you had become tainted, and cruel as them. You were their rotten apple, something they possessed and prized so admirably as you were theirs only. Before the relationship was even thought of, you werenât allowed to talk to anyone else besides them, leaving you to drop all your closest friends, and submit only to the two girls.
Yet, they took care of you like no one else did â expensive gifts, abrupt trips to Europe, fancy dinners, and the sex they gave you.
God, the fucking sex.
It was them at the same time, or one coming to your place to claim you entirely. You didnât mind it, no, you had become so immune to being theirs, you would please them.
You donât exactly remember how the polyamory relationship came to be; you were getting closer with Abby, Ellie didnât like it, and the two had come to the idea of sharing you, right before twelfth grade. You werenât opposed to it, but hated the twisted repercussions that tied into it.
During all of Senior Year, you werenât allowed to go out without them by your side, or at least one of your bodyguards. You couldnât get drunk, only at home, and thatâs it; they had this monologue about how dangerous the world is, and how they wouldnât be able to forgive themselves if something happened to you.
You had no privacy, they always had a guy watching you from a distance if you went out with family, and tracked your location. Your only friends were whoever else was in their group, which wasnât much whatsoever, so you were practically without anything.
When you all graduated, and you were planning to attend Columbia, you hoped some leniency would be kicked in from their part, but no â the two only got more dominant about everything, to the point they refused to let you share a dorm room with a girl.
âOh my fucking god, Iâm not going to fuck her!â You yelled. âYouâre being dramatic; it is better for me to live on campus so I donât deal with traffic every morning.â
âWhat if she tries something?â Ellie asked, sitting down on her couch with a glass of bourbon in her hand. âYou know we are just trying to look out for you.â
âNo, youâre being insane,â you stated, and she scoffed, eyeing Abby. âBoth of you have really got to stop this shit. I need to make a career for myself, be my own person without your crazy bullshit jeopardizing it all.â
Abby got up, now towering over you as she grinned. âSuch a brat you are,â she mocked, and you shivered, glaring at her. âAfter all this time, we hoped you would start being appreciative.â
âI⌠Iâm more than grateful for the both of you,â you assured softly, frowning. âBut please, I'd rather be in a dorm room than some penthouse where youâre being insufferable.â
âThe fuck did you just say?â Ellie asked, hastily standing up, and before you could speak, she grabbed your jaw. âInsufferable, huh?â
You whimpered, the grasp tightening, and worried she might crack a bone. âNo⌠no,â you whispered, and the pair mockingly cooed at your panic.
Ellie shoved you into Abbyâs arms. âDeal with her, Iâm in a good mood today.â
Abby held onto your wrist, seating herself down, and bent you over her lap. âGotta keep training you, âspecially after all this time,â she mumbled, flipping up your skirt. âStarting to think we should just replace your ball with some soap, maybe raise up the punishments.â
âNo, no,â you pleaded, peeking up at her. âI didnât mean to sayââ
âDonât fuckinâ stare at me,â Abby spat, and you whined, looking away as you could feel her hands massage your ass. âYouâre lucky itâs me being lenient, not her.â
Abby wasnât wrong there â Ellie was more harsh with her punishment, would leave you in a puddle of tears, and it would be Abby that had to reel her back into reality. You recalled the moment when Ellie had you bent over the edge of the kitchen table, hitting your ass while she kept her thick rings on, and you were in tears by the end.
You didnât talk to her for at least two weeks, but she repeatedly apologized, and was no longer able to strike you with no more than seven slaps, and if she did, Abby had to put her in check.
You never knew why you liked being punished like this, like a ragdoll of some sort, or why you let consequences happen to you. You were human, but something about these two keeping you in check was pleasuring, and comforting in a way.
The first hit made you squeal, kicking your feet in reaction. âFuck!â
âCount, bunny,â she said, the nickname made your stomach turn. âI know you can do it.â
âOneâŚâ you shuddered, another strike coming after it. âFuckâ two!â
âOnly doing five today, itâs okay,â she assured, kissing the back of your neck, and your ass was met with the third strike.
âThree!â
Another one.
âFour!â
And the last one.
âFive,â you moaned, your ass burning. âI fucking hated that.â
âMe too, bun,â Abby said, picking you up, and let you sit on her lap. âLet me look at my girl.â
She took your face into her hands, fingers brushing past your ears, and grinned. âThereâs my bunny, are you okay?â She wondered sincerely, a frown tugged on her lips.
ââM fine,â you muttered, resting your head on her shoulder as she held you. âIs Ellie mad at me?â
âYou know how she is,â she reminded, and you huffed, nodding. âWe love you, more than youâll ever know. We wouldnât be able to live if someone hurt you, or something horrible happened.â
âI know, didnât mean to be rude,â you mumbled, and she sighed, kissing the side of your head. âI just feel like both your lives should be more than just me.â
âOh, baby,â she sighed, bringing your head back up, and gazed at you with immense endearment, you could faint from it. âYou are our life. Our religion, our air, everything we want and need.â
You grinned. âYou mean that?â
âOf course. Now, letâs go see Ellie, yeah?â Abby suggested, and you agreed, trailing in front of her as you walked to Ellie's bedroom in her penthouse.
âEllie,â you sang out, pouting. âAre you still mad?â You opened the bedroom door, finding her sitting on her desk chair with an electric guitar in her hands.
Ellie looked up at you the second you were in her presence, and she sighed, sitting the instrument aside of her. âHey, little one,â she greeted, opening her arms for you. You rushed to her, perching yourself on her lap, and wrapped your arms around her neck.
âSorry for being rude,â you mumbled into the crook of her neck. âI love you and Abby both.â
âSweetheart, I know,â she rested her hand on the back of your head, her thumb caressing it. âWe know whatâs best for you, thatâs why we take care of you unlike anyone else.â
Ellie wasnât wrong there, and that saddened you. Your parents had always be mentally and emotionally distant; they were there physically, but always focused on their own issues. It was either your mother was caught up in her pill addiction, or your father having a new mistress.
There never really was time for you â you raised yourself for as long as you could remember.
Many would say you had no reason to hate your life when you have this trust fund, nepotism lifestyle, but you would trade all of that just for parental affection and care. Yet, that never came, and the only people who tended to your needs were Ellie and Abby.
They came into your life when you needed them the most.
âOur parents want a gathering tonight,â Abby walked into the room, clearly irritated. âFirst stop is church.â
âChurch?â Ellie laughed. âOh baby, itâs your parents that want that.â
You never understood why your parents went to church. They may have grown up religious, but the things you witnessed them doing led them to earning a one way ticket to Hell.
âWe could have our fun,â Abby assured, grinning. âIsnât being selfish and ungrateful a sin?â
Ellie picked your head up off her shoulder, forcing you to look at her. âYeah⌠it is,â she smirked at your protesting whines, and patted your bottom. âGet home, and get changed.â
You walked inside the cathedral by your parents side, searching around for your girls. âAh, thereâs Jerry!â Your father pointed out, taking you and your mother to Abbyâs dad. âJerry!â
Jerry turned around, grinning at him, both hugging one another. You hopped to Abbyâs side, smiling up at her. âHi,â you whispered.
âHey, baby,â she mumbled, gently pinching your arm. âEllie is in the confessional booth.â
âWhat?â You asked. âWhy?â
âYou sinned,â Abby reminded, and you swallowed thickly as she leaned into your ear. âAnd you need to repent.â
Your parents were caught in conversation with Jerry, and you sighed heavily, rolling your eyes. You knew they wouldnât pay much mind if you were gone for a bit.
âDonât fuckinâ roll your eyes,â she spat, tightly seizing your wrists, and tugged you away with her. To your unfortunate luck, the confessional booth had its own room in the cathedral, and gradually spacious, giving you more than enough privacy.
âLet the fuck go of my wrist!â You shouted, and she halted her footsteps, turning around. âI can follow, yaâknow? Iâm not dumb.â
Abby ignored you, suddenly tossing you over her shoulder as you screeched, furiously kicking your feet. âEllieâs going to love hearing this,â she taunted, and you zipped your mouth, giving up all protest.
Abby twisted open up the door to the room, putting you down on your feet, and slammed the door shut.
Ellie was leaning against the wall, joint in her mouth, and was wearing a black suit, a bralette underneath her fine blazer. âThereâs our girl,â she beamed, yet her bright expression toned down when she took notice of Abby's unsatisfied attitude. âWhat did she do?â
âRolled her eyes, being a brat,â Abby said, and you looked down in shame, not knowing why you kept digging a hole for yourself. âDonât know why she keeps doing this. Maybe weâve been too nice.â
Ellie hummed, burning her joint out on the windowsill before leading herself into the stall, her legs spreading as she sat down. âWeâll take our turns. Kneel before God.â
You only stood still, gazing up at her.
Abbyâs hand curled around the back of your neck, getting a whine out of you. âThe fuck is your problem today? Want to be ignored instead?â She wondered, and you shook your head. âIt sure seems like that, bunny.â
âBring her over here,â Ellie beckoned, and Abby guided you over to the auburn-haired girl, forcing you down to your knees. âWearinâ such a pretty dress today. All for us, hm?â
You looked at her, hands resting on your thighs as you nodded. âCourse I did. Wanted to be pretty for you both.â
âHmm. Roll up your dress,â Ellie said, and you froze, not moving. She inched closer to your face, tilting her head. âSomething wrong, honey?â
âNo, âcourse not,â you muttered, fingers fiddling with the ending hem of your babydoll dress.
âThen listen,â Abby added in, and your breath shuddered as you bunched the skirt to your waist, exposing your bare cunt. âWonât you look at that? She thought she was gonna get something.â
âDid you think that?â Ellie asked, and you hesitantly nodded, her cruel laugh ringing in your ears. âAfter how youâve been acting all day? Silly girl.â
âWhereâs your rosary?â Abby wondered, and you opened up your purse, scrunching it up in your palm. âNot even a pure girl anymore, just a depraved whore for us.â
Ellie grabbed the jewelry piece, wrapping it in between her fingers as the end dangled in your face. âAbby, next to me,â she ordered, and Abby took off her leather jacket, letting it drop to the floor, stepping in the stall.
You stayed kneeled, trying to put water to the fire you sparked.
The tip of Ellieâs combat boot hit under your chin, raising your eyes to hers. âGet over to her,â she cocked her head to the side, and you rushed up and over to the blonde haired woman, who grinned at you.
Abby pushed you down onto her lap, your back pressing up against her chest as Ellie pushed open the sliding barrier, mindlessly playing with your rosary. âWhy are you here today?â She began, yet Abby shoved your legs open, one hand on your throat, and the other snaked down in between your thighs.
âFâForgive me,â you stuttered, shivering to Abby's fingers glazing over your needy cunt, âfor I have sinned.â
âGo on,â Ellie agreed, and Abby slowly pushed one finger into you. âWhat troubles you?â
Your head fell back onto Abbyâs shoulder, squeezing harder on your throat as a warning. âFuck⌠IâIâve been selfish, sir,â you continued, whining to her teasing pace. âCruel and ruthless to those who love me.â
âAnd why is that?â Ellie wondered, paying no mind to you or your noises. âDo they deserve it, little lamb?â
Abby put in a second finger, the pace now running a bit higher, but made sure to not give you entire satisfaction. âDo they deserve it, bunny?â She whispered in your ear, her thumb pressing on your bud. âTell her now.â
âNo, God no,â you whimpered, placing a hand over Abbyâs wrist. âIâm just⌠just a bratâ holy fuck, fuck me.â
âUsing vulgar language in front of your God, little lamb?â Ellie teased, knowing what she was getting at.
She was your God â both of them were. They were your religion, devoting every piece of you to them, would do anything to have their forgiveness and love for eternity.
âIâm sorry, God,â you moaned, Abbyâs fingers pounding into you as you were beginning to fall apart at the seams, grabbing onto her wrist. âFuckâ Forgive me, God. I need your forgiveness.â
âYou have to earn it,â Ellie stated, and Abby breathily chuckled, her breath fanning against your skin.
âWant to be good for your Gods?â Abby asked, and you nodded, your face falling into the crook of her neck. âGonna do anything just for us to fuck you, huh? âCourse you are, baby. Youâre filthyâ look what weâve done to you.â
A warm sensation ran in your stomach, down to your thighs as your body jolted on her lap. âPlease, God,â you pleaded, tears at your waterline. âI want you, God. Iâll never sin again.â
Ellie hummed, looking at Abby. âWhat do you think?â She asked. âDoes the whore deserve to be forgiven?â
âMight have to work a little harder,â Abby said, and you were lost in your head, your climax burning in your abdomen. âSheâs going to break another commandment.â
âNo, no,â you breathed, shaking your head. âI wonât do it unless God tells me to.â
âIs that right?â Abby cooed, and her free hand combed through your hair, grabbing it. Her fingers slipped out of you, tossing you down onto your knees again with a harsh thud, a soft weep eliciting from you.
Ellie stepped out of her side of the booth, moving to yours, and you heard the rustling of her and Abbyâs pants, keeping your head down. A nude Ellie brushed past you, sitting down onto Abbyâs lap, both of their seeping cunts shown to your eyes.
âPlease us, little lamb,â Ellie said, and you slightly moved yourself closer, your mouth latching on Abbyâs cunt, hearing a soft moan leave her. You slid two fingers into Ellieâs, who cursed under her breath, and the pair looked down at you as you stared right back at them, desperation shining in your eyes.
âDoing sâgood, baby,â Abby gently praised, her breath jagged, and looped around Ellieâs waist to keep her in place. âKeep fuckinâ going like that.â
Your mouth switched between the two, lapping up their juices as they made out with one another, sweetly moaning into each otherâs mouth. All you could do was admire them, kneeling obediently while you drowned your mouth in their juices, needing more than just this.
Ellie put her hand on top of your head, the end of your rosary dangling in between your eyes, and she rutted her cunt against your mouth, keeping it latched. You stuffed Abby with three fingers, enough to fulfill her, roughly thrusting them into her.
The rosary continued to stay in your vision, almost like a mocking coming from Ellie and God; that once a pure angel fell into the hands of the corrupted, and became just what and who they are.
But you loved it, you loved that they curated you into this way. All you wanted to do was please them, see how sensitive they could turn out to be.
You spent the remainder of mass baptizing yourself in between their thighs, drunk on the taste of their sweet pussies.
You had spent the next day at home, making sure you had things planned out for when you moved out for Columbia. Abby and Ellie had convinced you to live in a penthouse that was about a block away from the school, and you had agreed on the fact that it was better to be with people you knew than a stranger as they knew it made you easily uncomfortable.
Your parents had left randomly for vacation, staying at their place in Milan, leaving you alone with your cat. You didnât mind the loneliness, it was something you well adjusted to as you got older, and you only ached for attention when it came to your girls, but they had their responsibilities that you couldnât interfere with.
You had finished packing up your box of books, setting it in the corner of your bedroom. Your attention turned to the sound of your phone going off, the soft ringtone coming through. You grabbed your phone, grinning at the contact name of âJesse.â
âWell if it isnât my favorite troublemaker,â you teased. âWhatâs up?â
Jesse James and his girlfriend, Dina Woodward, were the only people Ellie and Abby trusted you with; which said plenty because they would kill anyone who they didnât know, and tried to talk to you. He was good, despite the fact he came from a shit father, constantly got in trouble with the law, and blew money on anything. Dina was the only one who could put him in check, and you had grown close to her over the time of knowing him.
âI fuckinâ bought a club,â Jesse started off, and you scoffed in disbelief. âTurned that shit into a burlesque. Sheâs a beau, you have to come out and check it out.â
âWell, I canât right now,â you denied, and he groaned. âIâm trying to make sure I have everything together before I leave for college.â
âCry me a river, come on!â He begged, and you breathily laughed. âYou are always so attached to Ellie and Abs, make time for me.â
âIs your girlfriend with you, at least?â You wondered, and he hummed in response. You looked at the time on your clock, reading â9:03PMâ, and you sighed. âIâll be there in an hour. Donât go anywhere.â
True to your word, you arrived at Jesseâs enriching club. You got out of the black cab, and stared at the sign that gleamed in pink neon âCarissima.â
You hummed softly to yourself, approaching the security guard at the front. âFriend of Jesse James,â you said, and he nodded, easily recognizing you. He opened up the door for you, thanking him, and moved inside, hearing the familiar melody of âI Put A Spell On Youâ by Nina Simone tune through the venue.
It didnât take much to find Jesse, his arm wrapped around Dinaâs shoulder as the two sat on a lounge chair in front of performers, their soft laughter knitting between the music. You walked up to the side of the furniture, their eyes averting to you.
âYou made it!â Dina exclaimed, jumping up, and pulling you into a hug. âIâve missed you. Feels like forever.â
âI know, Iâm sorry,â you said, separating the hug, and gave a hast squeeze to Jesse before sitting on the side of Dina. âSo, what made you buy this?â
âGood investment,â Jesse said, and you awed, chuckling. âMy dad doesnât agree, but itâs beautiful. These performers⌠mind blowing, a fascination to everyone in this room.â
âYou tell Ellie and Abby?â You wondered as Dina handed you a cigarette, lighting it up for you. âThey would love this, think you are a genius.â
âI thought you would bring them. Yaâknow, since youâre attached to them,â he teased, and Dina smacked his arm, glaring at him. âBad joke, fuck! But where are they?â
âDonât know, I havenât talked to them all day,â you answered, puffing out a blow. âBut they got their shit to worry about, donât like being in the way.â
âYouâve been their world since you met them,â Dina said, taking the stick from you. âHowever, it is scary how overprotective they are.â
âWhat do you mean?â You asked.
Jesse laughed. âThose two have always been frighteningââ
âYeah, but their care for her is⌠different,â she stated, and gazed back at you. âKnown them since we were kids, and I can say they would kill for you.â
âSo dramatic,â you joked. âTheyâre the closest people I have in life. They take care of me, know whatâs good for me and I donât knowâ Iâve never really had that.â
âYeah, I guess,â she mumbled, handing you back the cigarette. âI just know theyâre fucking you good.â
âOkay, Iâm gonna go get a drink!â You beamed, inhaling the tobacco, and got up. âYou need anything?â
They shook their heads, and you hurried to the bar, continuing to burn out the cancerous stick in a spare ashtray. You smiled at the bartender as she headed over to you.
âWhat can I get you, love?â She asked.
âJust a cosmo, please,â you said, and she hummed, turning to the drinks. You waited patiently, fingers tapping on the gradient countertop in thought.
A shoulder softly brushed past you, but you ignored the person, until they cleared their throat. âAll alone here?â
You shivered to the voice of a man.
âWith some friends,â you dryly answered, eyes focused on the bartender who had her back turned from you.
âThatâs a shame. Woulda invite you to hang with me,â he said, his voice thick and heavy. âYou always still can.â
âNo thank you,â you denied, shaking your head, and prayed for your drink to come quicker, only for the bartender to head into the stock room for a moment.
Oh, you felt sick.
From the corner of your eye, you could see Dina and Jesse lost in their conversation, completely oblivious to you.
Your phone was in your purse, and you were scared to even fiddle with it.
âI donât bite, honey,â he assured, and your heart leaped into your throat as his hand touched your bicep. âCome on. A pretty thing like you should be having fun.â
âPlease let go of me,â you said, yet harsh enough to come off stern. âI donât like your hand on me, so get the fuck off.â
âNow donât be a bitch,â he spat.
You finally looked at him, your body wanting to collapse on you. He was taller than you, about six foot three or so. Broad and muscular, completely fit. His eyes were dark, had a goatee on his face.
You thought about throwing up all over him just to get this over with.
You hoped people sitting around would notice, yet no one did, caught up in their own worlds. You yanked your arm back, and scoffed. âYou donât got the right to touch me, you fuck.â
âIâll fuckinâ kill you,â he threatened. âYou come here in that little black dress, and expect nobody to fuck you?â
The bartender came back, and was the only one to notice this unsettling tension. âHey, honey!â She called out, putting your order on the countertop. âHad to head into the back to grab more cranberry juice, Iâm sorry.â
She kept her eyes locked on the man, a pair of scissors in her hand. âCan you hold onto my order for a second? I need to use the ladies room,â you said, and she nodded, making sure to keep the man secure in her radius.
You hurried into the bathroom, your shaky hands taking out your phone. Teardrops collected on the screen as you hit Abbyâs contact, the first name on your recent call list.
It took only two rings until she answered. âBunny?â
âAbby⌠abby,â you breathily whispered, sniffling. âIs Ellie with you?â
âYeah, baby. We just got done with some things,â she said, and you sighed in relief. âWhatâs wrong?â
âIâm⌠Iâm at this club, Jesseâs club,â you began, sucking in a sharp breath. âAnd went to the bar to get a drink⌠this man came up to me, wouldnât leave me alone.â
âWhat?â Abbyâs tone sharpened. âDid he hurt you? Where the fuck is Jesse? Or Dina?â
âHe just grabbed my arm. Jesse and Dina were just busy with each other, I was too far away for them to notice anything,â you stated clearly, wiping away your hot tears. âI donât know if heâs still in here, but the bartender is keeping a close eye on him, and Iâm hiding in the bathroom.â
âStay in the bathroom, weâre coming right now,â she assured, and you hung up the call, sitting yourself on the porcelain seat, trying to compile all your thoughts and emotions.
As Abby brought the phone down to her lap, Ellie glanced at her. âWhat happened?â
âSomeone fuckinâ weirdo touched her,â Abby exsperated, and static rang in Ellieâs ears, scoffing in disbelief. âJesse opened up his own club, she was there, and went alone to get a drink.â
Ellie texted Jesse for the address, and Abby searched around the backseat compartment. âI donât know if the gun is still in here,â Ellie said, and the blonde groaned in frustration. âWe canât go in there with one.â
âThe one time you donât bring your weapon,â Abby sighed.
âGot the address,â Ellie mumbled, opening up her phone. âCharles! Hit 7th avenue.â
âThe fuck are we gonna do with this dude?â Abby asked, and Ellie grinned. âTalk to me, baby.â
âWe fuckinâ kill him,â Ellie stated.
You passed time by playing games on your phone, the stress of it being enough to forget the short horror experience you just encountered. The shout of your name in the bathroom caught your attention, killing your high score in the process.
âBaby, where are you?â Ellie called out, and you rushed out of the stall, getting her attention. âOh, thereâs my girl.â
She hastily brought you into her arms, letting you cry into her shoulder as she held you, cupping the back of your head. âMy brave girl, hm? So proud of you,â she praised, kissing your temple. âAbby and I are gonna take care of everything.â
You nodded, bringing your head back, and she smiled softly at you. âDo you have any party favors?â You wondered, and she sighed, shaking her head. âPlease, just wanna wash off tonight.â
âHoney, you are not taking coke,â she said, and you frowned. âI know you are upset, but your body isnât used to it, and you wouldnât like it.â
âYes I do! Remember when I did it off your ass on our ski trip in Aspen?â You recalled, and she kept denying you. âPlease! Just this once. Iâll have Dina make sure I donât do more than three lines.â
âDina couldnât even keep an eye on you right now!â She shouted, and you flinched, body tensing. âFuck, Iâm sorry. I justâ You need to be careful.â
âJust three lines,â you repeated.
Ellie reached into her trouserâs pockets, fiddling with the bag, and handed it to you. âGo have fun, baby,â she said, and you kissed her cheek, thanking her before sprinting back out to Jesse and Dina.
The couple bounced up from their seats at your appearance, clear worry plastered on their faces. âFuck, weâre so sorry,â Dina said, gently grabbing your wrists. âWe were so caught upââ
âItâs fine,â you smiled, sitting down on the lounge seat, and popped open the bag of cocaine.
âFuck, youâre doing lines? Havenât seen you do that shit since the Debutante Ball,â she said, and you poured some of the white powder onto the table in front of you.
âEllie and Abby donât know about that,â you told her, and her eyes widened, looking at her boyfriend who only shrugged at her. âThey would kill me if they knew the amount of drugs Iâve done behind their back.â
âYouâve only done cocaine, no?â Jesse questioned, and you only glanced at him over your shoulder, giggling. You took a random card out of your wallet, dividing the powder into neat lines, a dumb smile on your face.
âJesse, can you go get my cosmo, please?â You asked, sweetness laced in your tone. âI deserve some of that with this shit.â He sighed, nodding, and getting up from his spot.
There were seven lines made, and you wiped off the collected powder from the edge of the card, sniffing it up your left nostril. You exhaled sharply, snickering, and traded the card in for a dollar bill. âYou want some of this?â You offered, turning around to look at Dina, and she denied the offer, eyes focused on you.
You hummed, tightly rolling up the bill. âMore for me, then.â You brought the paper up to your nose, aligning it with the first line, and took a heavy inhale, a strong burn hitting your nose. You sniffled, bringing your head up and leaned it back, shakily laughing.
âEasy there, babe,â Dina put a hand on your back, rubbing it. Jesse came back on time with your drink, handing it to you, and noticed the dollar bill next to the second line.
âAlready started?â He teased, and you took a sip of the cocktail, eyeing to the drug. âIâm all good, treat yourself with that stuff.â
With you doing lines and being utterly distracted inside of the club, Abby and Ellie were on the top floor of the building, inside a storage room with a beaten man on the ground.
Abby took another kick to his gut, Ellie sitting in a chair with a cigarette in her mouth. âYou like touchinâ females you donât know!â Abby yelled, and he sobbed, restrained by cable ties, his right eyes kicked in. âFuckinâ touching her like that, you arenât getting away with this shit.â
Ellie took the gun out from the back of her trousers, lucky enough to find the weapon in the glove compartment by the driver. She flashed the object to the manâs eyes, a vile grin playing on her lips as she stared at him.
She got up, and stalked towards his limp body, standing by Abbyâs side. âWhatâs your name, man?â Ellie asked, with her partner taking a hast note to her facade. âGot any kids or anything?â
âMy name is Brandon,â he breathed, and Ellie nodded, squatting down to match eye level with him, letting the gun dangle in her hands. âShit, dude, listenâ IâIâm sorry. I didnât think she was taken.â
âWhat makes you say that?â Abby questioned.
âA girl like that⌠wants attention,â he said, and the girls looked at one another before glancing back over to Brandon. âCan even tell sheâs got lingerie under that shit. Sheâs a fuckinâ tease, a whore.â
Ellie hummed, reloading the glock in her hand, and chuckled. âI think Iâm done with my cigarette now,â she mumbled, jokingly frowning as she played with the stick in between her fingers. âToo bad I donât have an ashtray on me.â
Abby took out a switchblade, exchanging it for the gun. âTell me when you need me to do it,â she said, and the auburn haired girl seized the manâs jaw, squeezing open his mouth as a wave of protests elicited from his throat.
Ellie pushed the bud to his tongue, and cruelly laughed at the garging scream that came out of him. âKeep fuckinâ talking shit!â She shouted, flicking open her switchblade, and held it to his throat. âSwallow that cigarette, wanna see if you still want to run your mouth!â
âYou donât get to talk about her like that,â Abby chimed in, taking off her leather jacket. âYouâre lucky we donât kill you right now.â
Ellie put her hand over the manâs mouth, refusing to let him spit out her cigarette, only giving him the option to swallow it for good. She smiled, pleased with the simple act, and took her hand back. âGot anymore shit to say?â She questioned, tilting her head to the side.
Brandon sniffled, jagged sobs intertwined with his heavy breathing. âYouâre both fucking insane,â he began, trying to gather oxygen into him. âSheâs going to leave you. Youâre going to drive her away with this shit.â
âWeâd like to see her try,â Abby said, and Ellie stood up, putting herself aside to let her do as she pleased. She sat back down, opening up her phone to text Jesse.
E: How is she?
J: Two Cosmos in. Had seven lines. Get down here soon.
E: Donât let her strip her clothes off. We donât need a sequel to Barcelona.
J: Me and Dina canât handle her, only you can. She wonât shut the fuck up about you.
E: Donât let us down again. P.S., may need a mop in here soon.
She tucked her phone away, and admired Abby damaging the man. She was ruthless, yet composing herself enough not to kill him â just yet. His face had molded into a pulp, unrecognizable to anyone as his blood painted on Abbyâs hands, his weak pleas being ignored by the pair.
Abby and Ellie got high off of this, hurting or killing anyone who made you uncomfortable. They had been getting away with it for so long, and you had been gullible to it, never blinking an eye to their unknown actions.
They would do this over and over again, even if something was your fault within it, they dealt with you in their own way â but no one was ever to lay a hand on you, and you knew that too.
Abby snagged his wallet out of his pocket, opening it up. âBrandon James,â she announced, pulling out his cash, and putting it in her pockets. âGonna use this to buy her something pretty and nice.â
âWhere does he live?â Ellie asked.
âWonât you look at that!â Abby said, pressing her boot to his face. âHeâs a rich brat. Lives in that building next to yours, Els.â
Ellie chuckled. âMoney probably got him out of his shit. Isnât that right, Brandon James?â
âPlease,â is all he could manage to say, dizzy and lightheaded.
Ellie returned over to him, and stood over him before lowering herself. âThis may hurt,â she said, signaling for Abbyâs help, who obliged by opening the manâs mouth. Ellie grinned, tugging at the tip of his tongue, and began to sever it with her switchblade.
He screamed, thrashing around, but was overpowered by the two women, entirely useless to their strength. âThis isnât even the worst part,â Ellie muttered, grunting as she went on to cut off his tongue. âYou made her cry, yaâknow? Poor baby was so scared, and didn't know what to do.â
His tongue ripped out, being put to the side of his head. She got up, staring at the blood of her hand, and could only curl her hand into a tight fist.
He fuckinâ frightened her, she thought to herself. He deserves to die.
He was already facing death in a horrid, slow manner, and the last thing he would see was these two, towering over him; utterly indulged by his death, and letting it fuel their ego.
âKill him. Jesse wants us back,â Ellie ordered, and Abby aimed the gun at his face, her finger carelessly pressing down on the trigger. His face blew, and they both hummed, taking in the view. âGood job. Already called the crew to come get him.â
Stuck yet hast of cleaning themselves up, alcohol and drugs overrode your brain, consuming you. You were sitting on the edge of the couch, staring at the dancers on the stage who moved with elegance, and passion. Each one of them were beautiful, confident in their own way that made your heart beat.
âWish I was as good as them,â you said, sipping on Jesseâs cup of scotch. âI can fuckinâ dance, but not like that.â
âTheyâre giving a simple show,â Dina noted, and you blew a raspberry, glaring at her.
âTheyâre doing much more than that,â you retorted, and inhaled one last bump, coughing. âI⌠I want to go up there.â
âYouâre not,â Jesse denied, and you pouted. âEllie and Abby would murder you, and then me. We donât want Barcelona to happen.â
âOh my gosh! That trip was so fun!â You recalled, warmly smiling at the memory. âWait, what happened?â
âYou drank too much, got lost in the crowd dancing with too many people,â Dina said, and you zoned out, attempting to have any recollection. âThen, you bought everyone shots, danced on top of the bar, and flashed your ass to them.â
âOkay, thatâs not bad,â you giggled, shrugging. âIâm going up there!â
âDo you have a death wish?â Dina wondered, and grabbed your wrist, preventing you from standing up. âYour girlfriends are going to kill you if you do some sort of strip tease up there.â
âTheyâll get over it,â you said, freeing your wrist from her hold. âTheyâre not here, anyways, and they wonât do shit about it.â
Jesse and Dina sighed, giving up all attempts and let you run off onto the stage. The burlesque dancers beamed at your presence, letting you stand in the middle as you were too mind numbed to understand what you were doing, just knowing you wanted to have fun.
The song and crowd were an echo, intoxication burning into your body, controlling each thing you did. You sheepishly grinned, your hand reaching to the side of your dress, and pulled down the zipper.
âNo, no!â Dina shouted, and Jesse mumbled multiple curse words, sipping down the last of his drink. âOh, we are so dead.â
Abby and Ellie appeared right next to them, at the exact time you were shimming off your dress, and were exposed in your garter belt, stockings, and undergarments. âWhat the fuck did we say!â Abby shouted, and the couple sighed, watching in horror with the two girls while you were oblivious to them.
People in the club cheered for you, a few getting their wallets out. You laughed, your vision a blur as you showed off your body, letting your hands run all over your body.
Your girlfriends watched attentively, millions of thoughts piling on top of each other, thinking of how to get off the stage, and back home. They werenât going to punish you while you were clearly out of your mind, but that gave them enough time to think of how to handle you.
They just fucking murdered someone for you, and your flashing your body to strangers. You were more than ungrateful at this moment.
The dancers on stage encouraged you to do what you wanted, cheering you though they knew you were not intact with reality. âShould I take off my bra?â You questioned, and the people in front yelled in agreement, earning a small laugh out of you. âYeah? Flash my tits for New York?â
âWhat the fuck is she saying?â Jesse asked. âGo get your girl before she turns this into a riot house.â
Abby and Ellie both rushed to you, having to fight through a crowd just to reach the steps to the stage. Your hands fidgeted with the hooks of your bra, and before you could strip it off, they got to you on time. âOh, itâs my girls!â You slurred, hiccuping as you laughed, and blushed in shame. âHow long have you been here?â
Ellie took off her blazer, tossing it over you as Abby picked up your dress from the ground. The crowd booed and groaned at your escort as you only waved at them, blowing a kiss. âBye Dina and Jess! Love you both so much!â You yelled, and squealed from being abruptly thrown over Abbyâs shoulder. âOw, my stomach!â
The limo was parked outside, and the chauffeur opened up the door, Abby throwing you onto the seat but made sure you didnât bump your head. Ellie climbed in right behind her, the door shutting.
âHiii,â you slurred, continuing to giggle. âYou like my outfit?â
âWho gave you coke?â Abby asked.
âEls!â You said.
âEllie, we talked about this!â Abby protested, and the auburn shrugged. âShe canât do that shit unattended.â
âIâve done it so many times without you both,â you confessed, and their eyes snapped at you. âYou made me this way â fucking corrupted, and shit. I am your blessing and nightmare.â
âYouâre drunk,â Ellie sighed. âYou need to rest when we get home.â
âWhy, daddy?â You asked, and Ellie reddened at the nickname. âI know you both want to hurt me. I was bad tonight, disrespecting you both. How silly of me.â
âFuckinâ watch it, bunny,â Abby spat, and you laughed. âI mean it.â
âWhatever. Youâre idiots,â you mumbled, and Ellie had thinner patience than Abby did â meaning one more insult would cause her to take you in the car. She tossed your dress at you, eyes boring into you. âYou could just hand it next time.â
âYou are one more backtalk from getting it,â Ellie warned, and your smile slowly faded. âAnything else you need to confess before we deal with you in the dawn?â
âOh, I canât have a life of my own!â You realized, carelessly putting back on your outfit.. âCanât take drugs without your eyes following me. Canât even hang out with someone without a bodyguard being there! So fucking annoying!â
âIf itâs so annoying, why stay?â Abby asked.
You went silent, looking away from the both of them, and finished throwing on your dress, slouching in your seat. âOnly ones who take care of me,â you murmured, so soft and quiet, pouting too. âMake me feel special.â
âYeah, and weâre the only ones who will put up with you this way,â Ellie added, and you nodded, tears welting in your eyes. âWho else is gonna do that? Tell us.â
You shook your head. âNo one⌠no one,â you mumbled, chewing on your lower lip. âCan⌠Can I sit on your lap? Please?â
Ellie heavily sighed before giving in, beckoning you. You practically hopped into her lap as you wrapped your arms around her neck, nuzzling your face into her chest.
You fell asleep on the ride back to the shared penthouse.
Sunlight crept into your eyes, taking you out of your gentle slumber. You groaned, stuffing your face into the pillow, and felt warmth on both sides of you. Your eyes slowly parted, finding Ellieâs tattooed arm dangling over your chest, Abbyâs looped around your waist.
You were trapped in between them, no way out. Your head pounded, your nose stuffy, and dying in sickness. You stayed still, trying to resurface last night's events, yet only blur spots flickered in your head. You whimpered, loud to drag Abby out of her slumber, her eyes adjusting to the sight of you.
âHey, bunny,â she whispered. âYou okay?â
âDid I drink last night?â You asked, and she weakly chuckled, nodding.
âAnd you did cocaine,â she muttered, and she brought her hand up, resting it on the side of your face. âYou are in trouble.â
You panicked. âWhatever I didââ
âBaby, you are okay,â she assured, thumb caressing your cheek. âBut you said some rude things. All we plan to do is spanking, thatâs about it.â
âIâm sorry,â you frowned, and she kissed the side of your head. âHope thatâs the only stupid thing I did.â
âAnd you stripped and performed at a burlesque club,â she shared, and your eyes widened, whining in embarrassment. âEllie nearly ripped your head off in the car.â
You looked over at Ellie, and grinned. âIâll make it up to you both,â you promised, pressing a kiss to her lips, and she smiled, nodding. âIâm going to clean myself up, I feel a bit nauseous.â
âWe had your things moved and unpacked yesterday,â Abby said, and you sat up, stretching out your arms.
âYou broke into my house late at night, and got everything settled that quick?â You laughed. âIâm still a month away from attending school, and youâre already locking me down.â
âBetter to get it done now,â she acknowledged, and you got up from the bed, padding over to the bedroomâs bathroom, closing the door behind you.
It took you only about thirty minutes to clean up, unimpressed by how worn out you looked. Your lipstick smeared, eyeliner and mascara cluttered around your eyes, your breath reeking of alcohol.
The shower was enough to relax your body, yet still felt sick, considering you needed a meal. You stepped out of the shower, wrapping a towel around your body, and stepped in front of the sink.
You found an unopened toothbrush waiting for you, and you grinned, opening it up. You turned on the faucet, and laid down a portion of toothpaste on your toothbrush, running it under the water shortly after.
You brought the object into your mouth, and used your free arm to pick up your pajamas. You walked over to the walk in closet, and looked around for the hamper, only to find it shoved into the corner.
Peeking over the basket, you noticed a white shirt stained with some red on it. It grabbed your attention, looking too crimson to be considered red wine, or anything else.
You just shrugged it off, putting your clothes over it, and went back to brushing your teeth. âHey Abs,â you called from the bathroom. âWhat kind of shit did you get into last night?â
âWhat do you mean?â She shouted back, the loud conversation awakening Ellie.
âOne of your shirts is stained,â you said, and Abby inhaled sharply, Ellie shooting up to look at her girlfriend. âDid I fall and eat shit, and get blood over one of you?â
âHoney, you did,â Ellie lied, voice groggy and hoarse. âI had to carry you inside, you had blood coming out your nose.â
âBut I have no bruises or anything?â You realized, spitting out the paste, and cleaned up your toothbrush and mouth. You changed into shorts and tee before walking back into the bedroom. âDid you guys get into a fight last night?â
They went silent, and you got into the middle of them on the bed, going back and forth looking at them.
âYou had an incident last night,â Ellie said, and your brows furrowed. âA man was being a fuckinâ dick, you called Abby, and we handled it.â
âOh what, you fucking killed him?â You joked, and they laughed dryly with you, but enough to make it believable. âIf you beat him, you just have to say that.â
âWe handled it,â Ellie repeated, and moved herself closer to you, putting her hand on your cheek. âNow we need to handle you.â
You rolled your eyes, bitterly scoffing.
âFuckinâ roll them again,â she dared, and Abby laid back against the headboard, letting everything unravel. âAlways going to be a brat? Even when weâre so good to you?â
Your face softened into a doe expression, tilting your head to the side. âDoesnât that make you want to fuck me?â
âWe wonât even touch you if thatâs what you're trying to accomplish here,â she taunted, and her hand snaked up to the side of your head, tightly gripping your hair. âWhen are you going to learn, little lamb? Is what we do for you not enough?â
âIt is,â you whimpered.
âYeah? Then why do you keep acting like it isnât?â She asked, and eyed over to Abby. âWhat should we do with her?â
âBreak her,â Abby said, getting up from her spot. Ellie grinned, turning her head back towards you, and your cheek was met with a harsh slap. You gasped, and her hand slid down to the back of your neck, pushing your body onto the bed.
âFuckinâ strip,â Ellie spat, and you whimpered, but obliged. You fiddled with the ending hem of your shirt, taking it off, and your fingers hooked around the waistband of your panties and pajama shorts. âNeed you on all fours.â
You huffed under your breath, glad that she couldnât see you roll your eyes again. Your clothes piled down onto the ground, letting your knees sink into the mattress, your chest laying flat as your ass was lifted to her eyes for display.
âBaby, youâre fucking soaking,â Ellie cooed with Abby returning on time, able to hear the clicking of objects. âLetâs hold off on gagging her until she wants to say some shit.â
Abby moved to your eye level, grinning. âYou want to keep being a desperate whore?â
âIâll get my satisfaction either way,â you assured, and she inhaled sharply, eyes snapping into Ellieâs. The auburn handed her an item, noticing the pink ball. âWait, wait!â
âShut the fuck up,â Abby seethed, maneuvering your face and brought it up, fastening up the ball gag. âYouâve really fuckinâ done it this time, bunny. And Ellie is going to handle you, not me.â
You swallowed thickly, your doe eyes shining with pleas but the blonde dismissed you, tossing your face back onto the bed.
Both girls had stripped themselves bare, Ellie positioned behind you as Abby sat in front of you, her cunt for you to gawk at, but forbidden to please.
In a sharp breath, you felt thick silicone push into you, causing your cunt to stretch. You cried, yet it was mumbled, and Abby laughed at you. âGonna deny you everything, honey,â Ellie muttered, her hands grasping onto your cheeks for support as she carelessly thrusted into you, breaking into you. âNeed to make you cry, need to know youâre fucking place with us.â
âWe could easily get rid of you,â Abby continued on, and your brows knitted together, shaking your head. âCouldâve fucking disposed you months ago, but no. Here we are, still putting up with your bratty ass.â
You cursed and moaned breathlessly, the pain turning into a bliss as Ellieâs strap pounded into you. âWouldnât want that, huh?â She asked, and you cried in response. âCourse not, honey. No one fuckinâ loves you like we do.â
You stared at Abby with teary eyes, your hand aching to touch her, only for the blonde to slap it away. âNo, take what you are getting right now,â she warned, and you nodded, your hips rolling and swaying with the rhythm of Ellieâs thrusts. âWonât ya look at that? Little bunny just canât get enough.â
Your hands grasped onto the messy bed sheets, nails digging into them. You stuffed your face into the material, lewd noises eliciting from you through the ball gag, almost feeling as if your body was jolted with electricity the moment Ellieâs strap found your orgasmic area.
âSheâs enjoying this too much,â Abby pointed out, and Ellie hummed, all movement being halted. You groaned in protest, and she switched around your body, laying you flat on your back. She straddled herself on top of you, intimidating you with how she towered over you.
She popped the gag out of your mouth, your lungs engulfing fresh air. âOh, little lamb,â she softly whispered, and smacked your face again, seizing it afterwards. âYou got me upset, you know that? Treating me like shit.â
âIâm sorry,â you whimpered, the strike burning your cheek before she placed another one. âFuck!â
âYouâre sorry?â She repeated, almost as if she didnât trust you. âFor which part, honey?â
âJust⌠just wanted to get a rise,â you admitted, breathing heavily. âCouldnât ask for it.â
âLook where that landed you,â she said, and hit you once more, your head spinning. âYou going to apologize to Abby, hm?â She climbed off of you, her hands guiding you around to face the blonde. âSay sorry, baby.â
You were a crying mess, and werenât even at the worst part yet. Though you were scared, you were aroused; maybe you were as depraved as they were. You enjoyed the sadistic acts they brought onto you, wanting to be all theirs to use, and play with.
You were their girl at the end of the day, nothing could change that.
âIâm sorry, mama,â you mumbled, and Abby hummed, careless to your apology. âPlease, mama. Didnât mean it, Iâll be better.â
âYou need to start acting right,â she said, and you nodded, mumbling promises through your sobs. âYou arenât able to leave us, you know that, right?â
âI wonât,â you reassured, sniffling. You knew thatâs what many people wanted, that they knew you couldn't be without these two girls, simply as if they were your life support.
Everyone knew it.
âWhereâs your blade?â Abby asked, and Ellie gestured to the night stand. She opened up the drawer, taking out her prized switchblade, something she always carried with her, but you didnât know why. âGot to mark our girl.â
Ellie grabbed her knife, flicking it open, and she settled herself in between your thighs. She was grinning to herself, yet so was Abby, the two only knowing what they had done the previous night with the weapon, and you were clueless to it all.
âNeed you to be a big girl for me,â Ellie stated, and you sucked in a sharp breath, the tip of the switchblade pointing into your right inner thigh, beginning to carve into your skin. âRight there, baby. Doing sâgood for us, focus on mama.â
Abby scooted closer to you, putting your head on her lap. âDonât cry, bunny. Itâs gonna be over soon.â
Ellie branded her initial firstly into your right thigh before moving onto your left inner thigh, starting to cut Abbyâs into it. You were trying your best to compose your body, squirming and softly sobbing to your skin being pierced.
âMama, it hurts,â you pouted, and she caressed your cheek, looking down at you. âI know Iâm your girl.â
âJust so you remember,â Abby reminded, groping your breasts. âSometimes you forget, baby. We canât keep repeating ourselves.â
You only nodded, melting into her gentle touch. Ellie threw her knife on top of the pile of clothes, smirking at initials. âAh, now we can give you what you want,â she said, and you sighed in relief, a smile playing on your lips.
Dots of blood appeared on the wounds as the girls got up from the bed, opening the bottom drawer of the night stand. You stared up at the ceiling, ignoring the burn that scorned, and a large hand pressed onto the side of your body, shifting you around.
âCome on, baby,â Abby whispered, positioning you on your knees that sunk into the bed, and could feel her bare chest brush on your back. âNeed you to spread yourself for us, you can do it.â
âYouâre our girl,â Ellie promised, kneeling in front of you, and cradled your face into her warm hands. âDonât know what we would do if you tried to leave us.â
Abby wetted her fingers, spitting down on your tight hole as she pushed two fingers into it to start you off. You roughly gasped, your body nearly faltering. âStay steady, princess,â she said, moving her fingers at an easy pace. âGotta prepare you for my cock, I need to make sure you can take it nice and sweet.â
Your face stayed in Ellieâs hands, trying to keep you focused on her. âMake sure to keep yourself spread for mama,â she told you, and you nodded, your shaky hands clawed down on your ass as you kept it spread open for Abby. âYou can take it, you always do. Isnât that right, sweet girl?â
âYes daddy,â you muttered, and Abbyâs fingers popped out of you. She put her hand back on your shoulder, guiding you back in the same moment she let her strap harshly sink into your whole. You cursed under your breath, tears welting in your eyes, and Ellie cooed, keeping your face in place.
Abby didnât move further, letting your hole take in all of her, and nodded at Ellie. She dropped her hands, hooking your arms around her neck as she filled your hot cunt with her strap, and your body shuddered, your face collapsing down onto her chest. âNo no, baby,â she said, shaking her head. âYou gotta show us how much you want us. Fuck yourself on our cocks.â
âToo stuffed,â you mumbled, and Abbyâs hand reached for the front of your neck, tugging your head back.
âShow us how needy you are, pathetic bitch,â Abby spat, and you whimpered, but compiled, gently bouncing yourself on both silicone objects. âYeah, thatâs it, bunny. Fuckinâ take everything we give you.â
Ellieâs was captivated by the way your cunt swallowed her strap, dripping and soaking it already. âThis is all you wanted, right?â She taunted, breathlessly chuckling. âJust wanted us to make you cock drunk, for us to treat you like the dumb whore you are.â
âYâYes, yes!â You choked out, rolling your hips as your body began to endure the scorching pleasure. âOh my god, feels sâfucking good, please.â
âYouâre barely fuckinâ two minutes in on fucking yourself,â Abby laughed, bringing your head back and laid down on her shoulder, forcing you to look up at her, âAnd youâre already falling apart. Can even hear how wet your pussy is.â
âWant to be fucked, please,â you breathed, on a brink of sobs. âCanât do it on my own.â
âYou have to earn it, love,â she stated, and grinned. âShow us how bad you need us, want us to fuck your pretty holes.â
You pouted, and she shoved your head back forward, a spin of dizziness whirling in your brain. Ellie sadistically smirked in front of you, her hands laid on your thighs, and tilted her to the side. âLooks youâre about to cry, little lamb,â she teased, and you kept heavy eye contact as your holes stretched further with every desperate bounce. âGot nothing to cry about, honey. You brought this on yourself, you know that.â
âSâsaid sorry, daddy. Iâm sorry,â your breath shook, sobs threatening to spill from you. You were overfilled with needs, feeling as if you were in heat, and only they could put the fire out. You could fuck yourself good, but they could make you feel orgasmic tides crash into your soul, and take you in one.
âOnly saying sorry âcause youâre not getting what you want,â Ellie said, and you were quick to deny it. âDonât fuckinâ lie, you know how much we hate that.â
âPlease, please,â you begged. âIâll be so good, wonât be a brat ever again.â
âFucking lying again,â Ellie scoffed, and Abby grinned, smacking your ass. âDonât worry baby, we like when you are; means we get to see you cry and break.â
You were stuck in the middle of these two, falling apart on their cocks as they observed you, waiting for you to break down into sobs. This was their whole pride, everything they fucking thrived off of, and if it made them the happiest theyâve ever been, you would them hurt you over and over again.
Your bouncing turned rapid, breasts in sync, and porngraphic noises drawing out of you. Your sensitive spots were being hit at, your eyes rolling back, and could feel heat pooling in your abdomen. Your hands reached out for one of them, but they denied you of it, leading you to fall into pits of sobs.
âThere it is,â Abby growled. âJust what we wanted.â
âCanât do it,â you sobbed, shaking your head. âPlease, need mama. Need your help, please.â
âYeah, bunny? Need us to take over?â She asked, mockery tangled in her tone. âCanât use that silly brain of yours, huh? Our poor baby thatâs useless.â
Her words mixed in with the fire that bubbled inside of you, expanding into your thighs. âFuck me, fuck me,â you babbled, choking on your tears. âNeed it sâbad, please. Just fuck me.â
Ellie halted your movements, and kissed your cheek. âWe got you, honey. Let us do whatever we want, okay? We need to fill your holes, want to see it leak out of you.â
The duo situated themselves before handling you to stretch your form better, your knees locking place to keep you up. Abby braced her hands on your waist before her strap brutally thrusted into you, Ellie following the same tempo shortly after.
You could feel yourself being split open, Abbyâs hands residing on your hips as Ellieâs let hers rest on the sides of your breasts. Their noises were shaky, rough, and undeniably lewd, a string of curses muttering out of them.
They would always be hypnotized by you, your body, and how fucking well you always took them. They would fuck you hours on end, and they have before, but they couldnât get enough it. It was a fucking drug, worse than any theyâve taken. Everything about you was addicting and pure perfection to their eyes, knowing that they would be the only ones who could see you crumble under them like this, let them take control of you, and tear you apart.
They wanted to fucking spend the rest of their life in your pussy, fucking destroying it, and letting it cry with you.
Raw lust was a firestorm on your skin, sinking into your body, and coursing through you. Your climax was overrode, about to collapse on you, and take you entirely, just needing to be free. Your legs trembled, slowly weakening, and a muscular arm snaked around your waist to lock you in.
âOur pretty girl needs to cum,â she acknowledged, and Ellieâs fingers furiously hooked around your throat, squeezing it. âWhat do you think, babe? We let her cum?â
âDonât know if she deserves it,â Ellie said, and your sobs were uncontrollable; your body was breaking, haze clouded in your head, and your high was unbearable over the limit. âYou want to cum, little lamb? âM having too much fun seeing you like this.â
âWanna cum, need to cum,â you blubbered, breath hallowed, and could feel them so far into you, you could almost swear they were poking at your stomach. âIâll be so good forever. âM your girl, only yours; wonât ever be ungrateful again.â
Ellie grinned. âYou mean that, honey?â
You mindlessly nodded, agreeing anything just so you could cum â it was fucking torturous.
âCum for us, sweetheart,â Abby said, and you exhaled in relief, your body relaxing to her permission. Like a violent hit, your high crashed out of you causing your body to jump and shudder. Abby kept her arm around you, the pair not being done with you until they came.
You could hear the sploshing of your juices as Ellie viciously rammed into you, Abbyâs cock abusing your tight hole with absolutely no remorse. You were there, letting yourself be their garbage waste, waiting for them to fill you up.
âImagine if we could fuckinâ put a baby in her,â Abby laughed, her moans knitted into it. âMake her our bitch forever, wouldnât be able to leave us then.â
âThat what you want, angel? For us to make you a pretty mommy?â Ellie asked, and you blankly agreed, braindead and numb. âKeep you trapped forever, nowhere to fuckinâ go.â
Abby and Ellie always considered that; having a family with you, though they never practically discussed it with you, or if thatâs what you wanted. They truly wanted you in their life forever, needed you in every way that would kill them if they couldnât have it. And if you did try to exit out of their lives, they would find a solution to reel you back in.
âMama gonna fill your hole, âkay?â Abby warned, and you hummed, falling in and out of reality. Ellie left her on your throat as extra leverage as she continued to hammer herself into you, her own climax trailing behind the blondeâs.
A symphony of vulgar, raw noises echoed throughout the bedroom, and your second peak surfaced in the depths of your belly, your body frail and trembling.
âFuck, baby, baby, baby,â Ellie cried out, her nails clawing into your skin, and Abbyâs hands crept down to your cheeks, clawing into them. Your skin was running hot and wild, their body heat radiating onto you as the room smelt of filth and sweat, shameless moans and whimpers wailing out of all three of you.
Your cunt and hole were stuffed with cum from their straps with Abby and Ellieâs climax dripped out of their sweet pussies. They pushed themselves out of you, and you fell back on the bed, gathering lungfuls of breaths.
âWonât you look at that?â Abby said, her and Ellie mesmerized by their cum leaking out of your holes, their initials branded into your thighs. âSo fuckinâ pretty, all for us to look at.â
âHead⌠hurts,â is all you could manage to say, curling up into a ball.
The girls took off their object, dropping it to the floor as they separated to obtain things for you. Abby went to the kitchen, grabbing cold water, painkillers, and a box of cherries for you; Ellie was in the bathroom, wetting a rag, and seized the first aid kit.
They rushed to your side in under a minute, worried that they might have finally done it this time.
âBaby, you with us?â Ellie panicked, and you nodded, sleep wanting to take you. âCan you sit up for us, please?â
âCanât,â you whimpered, and Abby sighed, helping to pick you up. She kissed the side of your head, holding you sit up while Ellie aided you.
âYou did so good for us, sweetheart,â Ellie cooed, running the cloth over your aching cunt and hole as you hissed in response. âI know, I know. Just need to make sure we clean you up well, okay?â
Abby brought up the glass of water to lips, stroking the side of your head while you took slow sips. âThere we go, thereâs our tough girl,â she whispered, and opened up the bottle of painkillers, inserting two pills in your mouth, returning the glass back to your mouth afterwards. âWeâre so proud of you. Youâre okay, bunny, weâre almost done.â
Ellie soothed your wounds with hydrogen peroxide, putting bandaids over it after. She put a chaste kiss to your hip, and you smiled small, thanking her. âYou want to get some rest?â She asked, and you nodded. âOkay, honey, let us change the sheets while you eat some food, yeah?â
Abby carried to the loveseat sofa that sat in the corner of the bedroom, handing you the box of cherries as she helped out Ellie. The two werenât even cleaned up, but made sure you were comfortable and okay before they were.
You wanted to cry.
Theyâre so fucking perfect, you said in your head.
You had eaten about five cherries by the time they fixed up the mattress, and put new sheets on top of it. You set the food next to you, and Abby returned to you, scooping you into her arms as you grasped onto her, sitting you on the edge of the bed.
Ellie picked out a new set of pajamas for you, changing you into new underwear, and a soft, pink nightgown. âGet some rest, and weâre gonna get ourselves fixed, âkay?â She said, guiding you under the duvet covers, and made sure you were tucked in. âWeâll be here when you wake up.â
You hummed, your eyes drooping, and let rest take over you. You felt them press a loving kiss to your forehead before you passed out.
You could hear your ringtone tune, lulling you out of your slumber. You let it go through as it shut up a few seconds later, and you groaned, trying to fall back asleep.
Then, the ringtone came back, and the buzzing added onto it. Your hand reached for your phone, finding it laying next to you. You grabbed it, squinting to who was calling.
Joel Miller, the contact name flashed.
Why the fuck was Joel calling?
You noticed the time, seeing it to be 4PM â how fucking long were you asleep for?
You swiped the button right, bringing the device up to your ear. âHello?â You mumbled, clearly exhausted and groggy.
âHey, kid. I was wonderinâ if Ellie was with you?â He asked, trying to sound calm, but wasnât. You instantly sat up, finding a note on the nightstand, and you picked it up.
Abby and I went out to get some things. Be back as soon as we can. Love you always, sweet girl.
Xo, Ellie.
âUm, no,â you answered, putting the note down. âWhy? Did something happen?â
There was silence for a moment. âThe cops are here, asking for her.â
âCops. Why?â You asked, fear streaming through your whole body.
âTheyâre accusing her of murder,â Joel said, and you swallowed thickly. âSomeone reported their friend missing â a Brandon James â saying how they saw him leave with Ellie, and Abby.â
Memories now began to flick in your brain, like bright lights, and bile burned at your throat.
The shirt. The red on the shirt.
Blood.
âWe handled it,â you recalled Ellie saying.
âWe handled itâ was code for âwe killed someone.â
You remembered the Brandon guy harassing you, grabbing your arm, and it sent you into full panic mode. You remember calling Abby about it, and Ellie giving you coke to distract you for the meantime. You remembered them not being with you for a while, keeping you with Dina and Jesse.
They needed you blind and gullible.
âAre you sure itâs even her description? People just say shit âcause they hate her,â you said, holding yourself together. âAnd Abby? Thatâs crazy.â
âAnother person at the club supported it by saying they saw the two walking out with you,â Joel continued, and you quietly cursed under your breath, tears pricking at the corner of your eyes. âThey were there, so were you.â
You went quiet as you heard some shuffling over the line.
âDo you know something?â He asked.
âI donât,â you said, sincerity mingled in your words. âI promise I donât. And I donât remember anything about being at a club, Iâm sorry.â
âOkay, well if you see her or them, call me,â Joel said, and you hummed, hanging up the call immediately. You let go of your shaky breaths, and nodded to yourself as a waterfall of hot tears streamed down your cheeks.
You couldnât stop thinking of the shirt. It had someoneâs blood on it, and they were dumb enough to leave it at home. You knew Jesse and Dina wouldnât narc them out, they were the same as Ellie and Abby.
You were alone in this; you had the choice of coming forward with the shirt, or keeping your head down, being naive to everything.
Everything started to make sense â the possession, the house, the authority you had given them. They never wanted you to leave, and they eliminated any threats, even ones that hurt you. You were glad they were there at your beck and call, but you never knew it would go to the extremes of murder. You were starting to worry that this wasnât the first time they did this, but the first time it was starting to catch up with them.
You continued to sob as you went through your phone contacts, and clicked your motherâs number.
It took a few rings until she picked up. âHello?â
âMommaâŚâ you sobbed out, not knowing how to explain what you were thinking without exposing a lot of things. âMomma, Iâm worried.â
Your parents werenât entirely neglectful â if you really needed them, they were there, and would never get mad at you for anything, even if you had some fault in it. They had their fatal flaws, ones that even affected you, but theyâd drop everything if you were in danger.
You never knew why that was, but you appreciated it.
âWhatâs wrong, dear? What happened?â She asked. âWhy are you crying?â
âI think something bad happened,â you sobbed, sniffling. âAnd⌠and I canât be here, in the city. Itâs a lot to explain, but can I stay with you in Milan? Please?â
âYouâre worrying me, cherie,â she said, and you broke down further, everything in the room spinning with you. âYou can come stay. Are you at home?â
âAt this penthouse⌠Iâll send the address to Tony,â you stated, trying to steady your breathing. âThank you, momma.â
âOf course,â she softly responded, and the line went dead. You rushed down to your feet, running into the walk-in closet, and grabbed a suitcase. You tossed random amounts of clothes until the baggage couldnât take anymore; you could buy more stuff in Milan.
You tossed your hygienic products on top of the clothes, and before you were going to zip up the luggage, your eyes averted to the hamper. You contemplated taking the shirt with you, burning it in another country so nothing would be traced back to them.
You couldnât tamper with evidence. But these were your girls, and it was your turn to take care of them, even if their actions made you sick at this very moment. You grabbed the bloody shirt, tucking it under your clothes, and zipped up the suitcase. You put on your sneakers, and tossed a leather jacket over your nightgown.
Abbyâs jacket.
You shrugged it off, and grabbed your cell phone, putting it in your purse. You double checked to see if you had everything in your purse before rushing yourself out of the penthouse, and into the elevator.
You didnât need to leave a note, or anything of that sort. You couldnât talk to them for a while, not until you made sure you werenât crazy or overthinking this whole situation. But the shirt was enough to confirm the first of your suspicions, and what Ellie said.
âWe handled itâ, her voice kept playing in your head, like a broken record.
For now, you needed to isolate yourself; besides, it wasnât like they would find you.
That wasnât possible.
You hoped.
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Lick Back
Realizing that your boyfriend has become a completely different person & being malicious towards you could only mean that heâs being nice to someone else.
Word Count:4.298
Warning: dry humping, kissing, neck kissing/sucking, dirty talking, nipple pinching, praising, affair/cheating, oral sex, breeding kink, unprotected sex, rough sex, creampie, slight voyeurism, teasing/taunting, squirting,
Your mother always told you that if your dog started barking at you that it only meant that someone else was feeding it. A dog would never bite the hand that feeds them.
Your mother wasnât talking about an actual dog.
However, you had a dog - in a way - and recently, it began doing just that. It became annoyed with you for every little thing youâve done. Itâs tone changed completely when speaking with you; always rushed and not attentive. It started to be mean for no reason, nearly foaming at the mouth when you questioned their sudden change of actions - or questioned it at all. It wanted to be outside longer than usually and would be upset when called back home.
The dog being your boyfriend of nearly 5 years. You noticed the shift a year ago, but you ignored your gut feeling of something being terribly wrong - but now, you are numb and though it hurts in a way, you are also relieved. The love that was one there in your relationship appeared to expire without you realizing it - or maybe you had not wished to accept it.
And yet, here you are in a home the both of you share. He is out, not bothering to tell you just where heâs at - and you donât ask. You stopped asking a year ago when you grew accustomed to sleeping alone.
But even if the love for your dog is no longer there - and if it was, it was slowly drifting away - that didnât mean the anger wasnât. The fact that you allowed the dog to stay with you because you loved him, fed said dog his favorite meals and showered him with love and affections. They were supposed to be loyal - but atlas, someone else had gained its love while you were left in the dark.
But there was someone else who liked what the dog had, you noticed. Someone who appreciated the meals you cooked and ate them with ease, who would come when you called them. They were loyal - even more than your own dog - and it just happened to be the dogs friend.
Jeon Jungkook is an attractive man and he knew it. It showed in the way he struts, shoulders lax and head held high. He almost wore a smirk, but never a cocky one. Jeon Jungkook could be an asshole - a complete fuckboy. He could turn his nose at anyone because he had it like that - but he didnât.
Jeon Jungkook was a kind individual. He was caring - especially to the ones he was close with. You recall many times when youâd had to call him because your boyfriend had gotten so drunk that youâd need a man's help - and Jungkook was always that man.
 And even though Jungkook was a friend of your boyfriend, he was kind to you, as well. He changed your tires on numerous occasions, making sure to give you the speech that âYou need to make sure you keep up with your car, Y/N.â or the âYour oil and tire lights are on, how do you even drive this still?â he had good intentions.
âThis is so good!â Jungkook says, mouth full of the pork belly. He licks his lips to savor the flavor. Jungkook always wore a disgusted face when something was amazing in taste and even now, his eyebrows are knit together in confusion and he appears utterly disgusted - that was a good sign.
âIâm glad you enjoy it.â you smile at him, washing the dishes youâve made when cooking.Â
âI told you I donât mind washing the dishes, Y/N.â Jungkook says, glancing upwards at you. âItâs the least I can do since you cooked.â
You sigh, smile never ceasing. âItâs alright. Youâre a guest after all.â
Your dog wasnât home and you donât know when he will be - nor did you truly care. His friend was nicer, more entertaining, as well. He ate your cooking as if it was fine dining, and appreciated it, too. He was kind and good at conversation - he was caring, far more than your dog.Â
âI enjoy cooking for you, Jungkook. You deserve it the most.â you turn off the water and begin to dry your hands. Your eyes meet his and for a moment, youâre pondering if heâs thinking about your words the way you intend him to.Â
âThank you.â Jungkook grins, tiny dimples at the side of his cheek forming.Â
You lean against the island that he sits at, quiet and content that heâs eating the food youâve made for him. It wouldnât be the first time you cooked for Jungkook - you recall the first time without your dog being present was a year prior. You had cooked and waited for his return and was left with nothing. It was hours after when you heard him return - this time not alone or coherent. Jungkook had slung the man onto the couch annoyed with just how drunk he had become and when you emerged - in nothing but a nightgown - he had apologized profusely.Â
âI cooked.â you had sighed, disappointed but not the least bit surprised by the actions of your dog. âDo you want a plate?â
It has become a tradition now. Youâd cook for Jungkook often and each time, he'd come and enjoy what youâve made him - whatever you made him.Â
Jungkook was no fool, as well. He knows just how independent youâve become, especially within the last year. He knows that you know that he knows of your boyfriend's loyalty - or lack of - but you never question him about it, even when he prepares himself to tell you the truth if you had.Â
Over time, Jungkook noticed that you donât seem to care about your boyfriend's whereabouts - and around that time, he picks up on just how you begin to dress when around him. It was subtle at first, sure. You showed more skin - more legs with your shorts, more shoulders. He notes that the clothes you wore were tighter but relaxed seeing as you were in the comfort of your own home. Youâd wear tanktops that showed your breast with shorts that made your thighs highly appealing for his eyes. Overtime, you ditched the bra and it became harder for him to not gawk at the way your breast looked in them.
Jungkook doesnât want to assume anything - you were so far removed from your boyfriend that you didnât care anymore. One drunken wine night when the man was away on a âbusiness tripâ, you had told Jungkook that you hadnât had sex with him in close to a year now - his own drunken response was that if he was your boyfriend, he would fuck you any chance heâd get.
Jungkook isnât sure if you remember that night and neither of you brought it up after.
âYou seem tense.â Jungkook is behind you now - when he has gotten up from his seat, you are unaware, consumed by your own thoughts. âIs everything alright?â
You slowly nod your head, turning it slightly to get a glimpse of him.Â
Jungkook snorts. âYour shoulders are tense.â he says, gentle hands placing themselves on your shoulders. âIs everything alright with work? The car?â
âYes, Jungkook. Iâm fine.â you giggled. âYou worry too much.â
Jungkookâs fingers begin to rub at your shoulders, applying pressure to them. You swallow, your hands gripping the edge of the sink.
âYou should relax, Y/N. Youâre always doing something and never truly giving yourself a break.â
Jungkookâs hand reaches your neck. They run up slowly, goosebumps left behind in its trail. Your eyes flutter close at how good it felt to be massaged.
âDoes it feel good?â
Thereâs a drop in Jungkookâs voice - itâs deeper. He whispers it, as if only speaking directly to you, even if you and he are already alone in the home.
âYes.â you murmur back, head falling back against his chest just as he reaches the front of your neck. A tattooed hand wraps around it, thumb caressing your skin in circular motions.Â
âIâm glad.â Jungkook is subtle when he presses himself against you - so gentle that you donât notice it at first. You're completely against his body, in blissful relaxation. âYou deserve to be taken care of, too.â
Even now, you dressed so comfortably - shorts stopping high above your thighs and a shirt that sculptures your breast so lovingly that he had a difficult time not watching the way they bounced as you walked around the kitchen preparing him the meal.
âI donât really have anyone to do that.â you whisper back, a slight moan creeping past your parted lips.
âI can take care of youâŚunless you object.â
You nod your head and instantly, his free hand roams down to grip your clothed breast. He can feel just how hard your nipple was.
You hiss, back slightly arching.
Jungkook engulfs both breasts in the palm of his hands and begins to rub, your light moans enticing him to continue. He can feel your nipples harden in his grasp and he himself begins to hiss lowly to himself on how heavenly they felt in his hands.Â
Thereâs no doubt that the two of you wanted this for far too long by the way you completely allow him to touch you without any resistance. He presses himself against you needily, face in your neck as his hands continue to grip and pull at your breast.
âYou smell nice.â Jungkook grumbles in your neck, nose inhaling your sweet scent; heâs sure he sounds like a creep, but he wasnât going to hold himself back . Not now heâs certain you want him just as much as he does you. âI like this scent on you the most. This and the jasmine one.â
You swallow, heat rushing through your body at his words. Jungkook had memorized the perfumeâs youâd wear due to the countless times heâd be around you. He recalls the time he even had to help his friend pick out a gift for you on an anniversary and how upset he had been when he chose the cheapest scent he could find - and one youâd never wear. Jungkook had swamped them out and chose the very scent you wore now and youâre none the wiser.
Your arms reach behind you to cup Jungkookâs head just as you feel his teeth sink into the nape of your neck. Heâs being more rough; dominant. You donât remember when the last time a man has touched you with such possessiveness - a sex-toy could only do so much.
âSuch pretty skin,â Jungkookâs tongue pokes out of his mouth to lick onto your neck. âjust want to mark it all up.â
âThen do it.â you respond. If you and him were going to do this, mind as well go all out. Your dog often comes home smelling like sickly sweet fruit perfume and cigarettes at times - you wanted Jungkookâs scent all over you.Â
Jungkook does, biting your skin harshly and then suckling on it until your neck is perfectly marked up. Heâs then quick to turn you around to finally face him, the both of you now locking eyes.Â
âAre you upset?â Jungkook questions, eyes dark with lust but a bit concerned.
âWith you?â you ask, raising a brow. âNever.âÂ
âNot with me. In general.â Jungkook murmurs, his hand reaching up to cup your cheek. His thumb gently traces your lips. âIâm sure you knowâŚwhat he does.â
You nod your head, leaning into Jungkookâs touch.Â
âDonât want you to regret or feel bad afterwards.â
âAre you?â you ponder aloud.
 You were so far removed from your boyfriend that you could care less about what he thought. In your mind, he was nothing but a roommate now; the two of you not even sharing a bed.Â
Jungkook, however, was your boyfriend's friend and maybe he would feel remorseful.
âI told you that Iâd never stop fucking you if given the chance.â Jungkook snorts, thumb tapping your lip.Â
âThen donât stop.â you murmur, tongue poking out to wrap poke his tongue. âI havenât been fucked good in so long.â
Jungkook hisses, his hand now gripping your cheek. He shakes his head. âHe told me what you like.â he confesses, unsure if you were willing to go down that route with him.Â
âHe was never really into anything.â you shrug your shoulders - this is why you ended up with a vibrator and a dildo; and you were currently looking into a vibrating dildo, how sad your life has become.Â
Jungkook is aware of his friend's lack of foreplay - he was only ever interested in his own pleasure. Jungkook, however, didnât mind pleasuring you until you were begging him to stop - but maybe he was just a bad person to think about his friend's girlfriend riding his face until she came.
Then again, you were being cheated on by said friend so maybe this was just his karma; it wasnât like you were a bad person and deserve such treatment.
âI want to eat you out.â Jungkook declares suddenly that it catches you off guard completely. âWhy do you look scared?â
âJust shocked.â you say, body growing even hotter. âWasnât expecting you to say that.â
ââI want you to ride my tongue until youâre squirting all over meâ is what I truly wanted to say.â Jungkook deadpans and blinks. âBut I didnât want to scare you away.â
You gulp, eyes widening and thighs clenching.Â
âAnd by the way youâre rubbing your thighs together, it didnât scare you.â Jungkook smirks and instantly, he presses his lips against you. Itâs a deep kiss that catches you by surprise, but youâd be lying if you said you didnât crave more.Â
âI can kiss you, right?â Jungkook says against your lips - maybe he shouldâve asked first. âI know kissing is more intimate-â
You shut him up by kissing him, arms wrapping around his neck to assure that he doesnât get too far away from you.Â
Kissing Jungkook came naturally - as if the two of you had done it before. He pries your mouth open and allows his tongue to dance around yours, all the way he holds onto your hips.Â
âBed,â you kiss his lips again. âroom.â
Jungkook follows behind you, unable to keep his hands off of your body as you lead him to your bedroom. He doesnât even bother to close the door before heâs already tugging at your clothes.
Your shirt is the first to go, breast pooling out that Jungkook cannot focus on anything else but them. He dives into them, your back hitting your mattress just as he begins to suckle on your left nipple, his thumb and index finger pinching the right.
The noises Jungkook made were just as filthy, wet sucking and groans echoing off of your walls. How long he had craved to see your bare breast - they were always teasing him when he was around. Bouncing whenever you move, nipples always erect for his view.
âSo pretty.â Jungkook brings the right nipple into his mouth, showing the same amount of needy lust and love to it as the left. His hand squeezes your left breast in the palm of his hand, the pain shooting pleasure right to your core. âI can suck on them all night. I donât know why he doesnât.â
Now, Jungkook brings both nipples into his mouth, needily needing to taste you. He has a crazed look in his eyes that only causes you to squirm beneath him, legs wrapping around his waist to feel him.
âYou can suck on them whenever you want.â
Jungkook grunts, teeth grazing against your nipples as they pop from his wet mouth. âDonât tempt me, Y/N. Youâll never be able to get rid of me.â
You were positive you didnât want Jungkook to leave.Â
âI want you naked right now. I wanna see just what that idiot has for me right now.â
There wasnât much Jungkook had to do to get you naked - in seconds, he had helped you kick off your shorts along with your panties, needy pussy on display for him.
âNeed you on my tongue now.â Jungkook hisses, flipping you and him so he is beneath you now. Your pussy is so close to his face that it causes you to yelp in slight humiliation.
âI-I wasnât really prepared to do this, i-I-â
âY/N,â Jungkook calls, tone dismissive. âIâm a man. Just fuck yourself against my tongue.â
So you do - and Jungkookâs hands only make you do more. His hands slap your thigh to kick up the pace, his eyes boring into your face as it contorts with pleasure. Your hips just as you grind against his tongue, hands gripping your breast.
Jungkookâs eyes never leave your face. He enjoys watching the stress leave your body as you pleasure yourself, it tells him that this is something you truly needed. His hands begin to rub along your hips, encouraging you to continue until they slide down to your ass. He cups them, his own head swaying side to side to further stimulate your needy clit.
âS-S-Shit!â your body leans back, hands planting against his thighs as he devours your cunt as if it was his last meal. âI-Iâm gonna cumâŚyou gotta move.â
That was the last thing Jungkook was going to do - not even as your hands try to pry him away from your pussy, he doesnât. He continues to suckle onto your clit until youâre visibly shaking above him, but even then he was determined; fully committed to having you cum hard on his tongue.Â
Your legs begin to quiver and Jungkook soon was going to get what he was looking for - you cum. He licks the arousal up, slurping and suckling loudly as your moans mewl out of your mouth.
âI could eat you all day.â Jungkook speaks beneath you - and you knew he was serious.Â
You did the wrong thing by looking at him. His mouth and chin was fully coated in you and just the sight causes you to cum even harder - the hardest you have ever had in your life; right onto his tongue like he wanted.Â
You fall back against the bed with a tired sigh, breathing hitching.Â
Jeon Jungkook was a dangerous man. No wonder the universe gave you your dog - you couldnât handle a real man such as Jungkook, surely.Â
âCan I fuck you?â Jungkook asks, swallowing the lump in his throat. âUnless youâre tired then-â
âI want you to cum in me.â
Jungkook coughs, his cock jumping in his pants. âI-IâŚreally?â
âIf youâre going to fuck me, you mind as well go all out.â you pant, widening your legs. âI donât want you to hold back, either.â
You were going to be the death of him - but if this was what is going to kill him, then heâll be content.Â
âFuck.â Jungkook is in a hurry to remove his clothing, scattering it all around the room without a care. âFuck youâre so perfect. I would treat you so well, Y/N. Fuck I hate him.â
Jungkookâs words causes you to giggle at the circumstances. He hated your boyfriend - his friend - for allowing you to fall into the arms of another man - him. Itâs all comical, truly.Â
âI would fuck you all day if youâd let me. Come home every night and fill you with my cum. How are you not pregnant yet?â
Jungkookâs babbling to himself, even if you could hear it. Itâs questions he has asked himself time and time again - wondering why his friend would rather sleep with other girls when he had someone like you at home. You cooked every day and assured the home stayed just right. He would have put a baby in you - and of course married you; but this wasnât about him now, was it?
Jungkook positions himself at your center and swallows. Youâre clenching, ready to be stuffed.Â
âI bet youâd like to put a baby in me.â you tease, hips slightly wiggling for him to enter you. âWhy donât you?â
Jungkook growls. âDonât tempt me with a good time, Y/N. You donât know how many times I imagined you in my home.â
Maybe Jeon Jungkook was a bad friend for imagining said friend's girlfriend in his home cooking for him - or in his bed breeding her. BUT he had since stepped out on the relationship so karma would have to skip him, right? If anything, you being with him would be doing both of you a favor - you wouldnât be cheated on and he would dote on you every chance he had.
Jungkook begins to enter you, shuddering at the tightness of your pussy. It engulfs him completely, as if shoving him in with whatever powers it held.Â
Shit.
Instantly, Jungkook begins to pound into you - you casted a spell, surely. Whatever you put in the food had caused him to be highly consumed by you entirely. Maybe a baby would be nice, right?
You werenât expecting Jungkook to get right into it - neither were you against it. He holds your legs apart in a tight hold, cock pounding into you so heavenly that even you thought about giving the man what he has been imagining.
âFuck,â Jungkook hisses when his eyes catch the white, creamy ring around his cock. âyou havenât been fucked good in so long. Youâre milking my cock already.â
âMaybe if you werenât such a pussy before you couldâve been fucking me.â you needed Jungkook to fuck you harder if possible. Making him mad and taunting him was an amazing way to start.Â
Jungkookâs eyes are furious, lust and anger swirling in them. âMaybe if you wouldâve asked me to fuck you I would have.â he spits back, his thrust quickening. âYou always looked so desperate, too.â
âI was.â your hand slap against his bare chest, but it doesnât cause him to stop - no, if anything it makes him fuck into you even deeper at your retaliation. âYou were desperate to fuck me, too.â you moaned when he hit that sweet spot that has never been touched before. âLike a little teenage boy.â
Neither of you notice the footsteps coming closer to the bedroom, far too entangled with one another's pleasure.Â
âI know when a bitch needs to be stuffed. Shouldâve filled you with my cum years ago.â Jungkook flips you onto your stomach. He yanks your hair back so your back is perfectly arched - and then he takes you just as hard as before. âBut tonight will be the night that I do what we both want, huh?â
âFuck, youâre so deep.â your eyes snap shut, stomach forming knots. Your breast bounces in the rhythm of his powerful thrusts.
One hand in your hair while the other begins to play with your wet clit. Jungkook buries his head at the side of your neck, lips against your ear.
âYouâre coming home with me tonight, Y/N. Iâm going to breed you here, then youâre leaving with me.â Itâs the sex and lust talking that's causing him to be so demanding and possessive, but you and him both go along with it. When the high was down, then maybe the two of you could talk with sense.
But as of right now - he was determined to put a baby in you without thinking of any consequences and stupidly, so were you.
âYouâre gonna leave him right?â Jungkook asks, yanking your hair harder as his hips jut into you. âYouâre gonna give me that baby you want me to put in you so bad and youâre gonna leave that sad excuse of a man.â
Your pussy clenches around him and your eyes manage to open. Youâre shocked to see him at the door, eyes wide and watching his friend fuck you into oblivion all the while bad mouthing him.
âY-Yes!â your juices leak down your thigh, overstimulated due to Jungkookâs fucking and aggressive rubbing along to your swollen clit. âWant your baby.â
You donât break eye contact with the man - itâs evident that heâs shocked, but he cannot be angered. Not with you, at least, maybe with his friend.Â
âHe could never fuck me like you. Never give me a baby.â
Now you were purposely taunting him, upset that this is when he decides to come home - but a bit glad that he gets to witness the end of an already crumbled relationship. You wonder how he feels witnessing his friend fuck you better than he ever could; with more passion.
You cum around Jungkookâs cock, juices leaking out of you and onto your bed and Jungkook isnât far behind you. His thrust began to grow sloppy. He leans away from your neck, eyes glancing up at the figure watching them - the same figure of his former friend; one who had not spoken to him in months unbeknownst to you.Â
The friendship had ended months prior when Jungkook had suggested that he treat you better, in which he responded angrily that if he wanted you to be treated good so bad that he should have you, declaring that he would have nothing but his sloppy seconds. Never truly imagining that he would witness it happen before his eyes - he was just angry and drunk at the time when he spoke so harshly of you.
Jungkook cums inside of you, so deep and so much. His eyes never leave the shocked ones of his former friend at the door as the both of you allow the high to die down. âYouâre coming home with me tonight.â he says, not asking but demanding.
You nod your head, eyes leaving that of your former boyfriend and they close as his (former) friend gently lays you down onto your bed.
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