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couldn't fall asleep and started feeling depressed and anxious and horribly paranoid about my future so guess who's on tumblr at 12:15 a.m.
#my phone's in the front and my computer was already put up#but i just. could not go to sleep. no matter how hard i tried#i was on the verge of a mental breakdown i guess#i feel like i'm going to lose contact with all my friends#like all of my close friends are either going to a completely different college or aren't even graduating yet#and out of all of my friends i have the furthest driving distance to their cities and i hate driving#like everyone will be living within an hour of each other EXCEPT ME i'm gonna be at least three hours away#and i hate driving so much it stresses me out i think i'm just gonna die on the road and have no future#and i made an insta specifically to attempt to keep contact but idk what i'm doing and idk if it'll even work#i feel like i'm just gonna be another name that people see#i'm so scared of being alone and i'm so scared of losing the people i love#and i'm so scared of them forgetting about me or losing interest in me#they're so important to me but i'm afraid i'm going to stop being important to them#god i'm afraid of leaving the damn cat. she's going to forget about me too#i'm so bad at keeping contact with people i don't know what i'm going to do#i'm so scared of trying to talk to people bc i always think i'm just annoying them no matter how close we are#people say we'll keep in contact but i know i'm just going to be too scared to put in the effort and then they'll stop too#i dunno i miss the times when we fantasized about leaving the country and moving together with all our friends#i wish that could be a reality#and we're going to be so busy too so even just trying to coordinate something won't work#i should have made an insta sooner fuck this is stupid. if i made it sooner i would have more time to create connections and get used to it#rather than just sit there not knowing what to do#i'm just scared of losing everything i know#well fuck i forgot i had attachment issues. i forgot that was literally one of the most substantial aspects of my early childhood trauma#fuck why can't i be normal. why can't i be okay. why can't i be a social person and actually be able to talk to people#there's so much i'm going to miss about my friends and my life. i just. idk what i'm gonna do now#i was looking forward to it bc i would finally be free from the grasp of my parents but at what cost?
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Sometimes I have to remind myself that posting art online is like screaming into a void 🙃🦉✌️
The new year holds a lot of issues for me. Art is difficult, life as an artist is difficult, and the world isn't kind. The sense of impending doom and failure looms over me. Why is nothing ever easy?
#owl#birds#bird art#snowy owl#digital art#rook lobby#illustration#darkrooklobby#digital illustration#ornitology#art talk#artist struggles#idk#artist problems#well tbh#life problems#wish I could just safely draw every day without any worries#alas the reality is different#and no one wants me anywhere#new year#new year resolutions#2025 resolutions#haha that's a funny tag...#new year new me#hilarious...
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OK JUST A LITTLE THING BECAUSE IM INSANE @cubbihue
Song: Plastic by Cheekface
#IDENTITY HORROR MY BELOVED#I want to watch him fall apart#I need him to explode#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#animation#animatic#art#digital art#fanart#body horror#I sent in an anon ask a bit ago about Chimmy being able to accidentally destroy himself if he realized what he was#and that idea makes me so so so crazy#The slow dawning horror that you arent yourself#followed by the horrific deterioration of your body as a direct result of your knowlege#like a punishment you cant undo#a horrible cycle of falling to pieces reinforcing this horrific reality and that horrific reality tearing you to pieces#you know now. you cant go back even if you want to#and the visual symbolism body horror of literally falling into pieces. AGHGhgh he's hollow in there just so you know#He could stick his whole arm in and not reach the back of his skull its just a dark pit completely hollow and unnatural#I like to think if you looked deep enough you could see stars#AUGHGH STRIPPING CHARACTERS OF THEIR HUMANITY MY BELOVED#removing even their basest comforts. Even their body isnt familiar to them anymore#Its this strange horrifying thing. What will it do next? Was it ever theirs? Should they be afraid?#and in my hands the answer will always be yes#Sorry Im going insane I love your au#I like characters who cling on to humanity that can never be theirs ♥
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Myth vs Reality
I really don’t like the stereotype that autistic people are super smart but their social skills are nonexistent. Not all of us are geniuses. Some of us are just normal, regular people.
I wish writers, directors, and others could understand that.
Spectrum Sloth
#autism#actually autistic#myth vs reality#I don’t like how they make autistic people savants that have no social skills#not all of us are geniuses#some of us are just regular people#I wish others could understand that#neurodivergence#neurodiversity#actually neurodivergent#feel free to share/reblog#Spectrum Sloth (Facebook)
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[ Reflection ] About yourself.
Was listening to Shunkan Sentimental by SCANDAL at like 10 p.m. and stayed up until 4 a.m. to work on this. I didn't finish it right away tho, I still had to sleep.
Two extras below read more!
#Asa draws#my art#fan art#kirby#Meta Knight#Dark Meta Knight#I don't talk often of my thoughts on Meta and Darmeta and how the mirror functions#I like to believe the Amazing Mirror was once a tool for people to achieve dreams. wishes#slightly like Nova but not quite. the mirror could not bring these wishes to reality. you could only walk into the mirror#and face the outcomes of what you wished for#and maybe it was like this for some time until the mirror got corrupted#and maybe Meta looked once into the mirror. but never walked in#thinking of an easier time#In a way#Darmeta is the outcome of what would have happened if Meta had taken another path#if he had never gone to Popstar#They don't really like eachother. Meta because of what Darmeta represents to him and Darmeta because one of the outcomes of being-#-someone's reflection is holding some of their memories and feelings#and Darmeta. well... he doesn't really like that#I like of think of them having gone past the point of being just enemies and hating each other for things they cannot control and instead-#instead they work well together#they still just *tolerate* each other#but the advantage of knowing so much of another person is that you know how they work#so they actually make a pretty good team on a good day
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GODDDDDDDDDDD DON'T YOU FUCKING LOVE WHEN MISUNDERSTANDINGS AREN'T DRAGGED FOR EPISODES ON END FOR NO REASONS BUT CHARACTERS ARE ACTUALLY ALLOWED TO COMMUNICATE AND BE VULNERABLE AND UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER AND FACE THEIR EMOTIONS SO VIEWERS CAN GET AN INSIGHT ON THEIR THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS IM GENUINELY ON MY KNEES
#CAN'T BELIEVE THIS SHOW ACTUALLY GAVE ME A SCENE LIKE THIS#LOSING MY MIND MY MARBLES MY CAPACITY FOR RATIONAL THOUGHT AND MY GRASP ON REALITY#I NEED TO BE SENT TO A SEASIDE RESORT TO CALM MY NERVES AND RECALIBRATE MY HUMORS IMMEDIATELY#ALSO GOD PONDPHUWIN ARE SO GOOD WHEN IT COMES TO EMOTIONAL SCENES#CAPITAL LETTERS ACTORS ON TOP OF THEIR CRAFT ACTING#we are the series#phumpeem#m: txt#if there's only one thing i could complain about ppw. i wish phuwin would open his mouth at least a little for their kisses#[gets booed off the stage]
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#us politics#global politics#i truly feel the global south has suffered ENOUGH#and YET#we still have to deal with one specific country’s own politics apart from our own#idk if americans truly realize how much of our headspace is taken up by the us’ activities because it directly impacts our own#it’s not the fault of YOU an American specifically#but i also truly honest to god hate this situation#it’s endless suffering#for third worlders in particular#i wish we could just ignore the US and not be affected at all#the same way the us is NEVER affected by our domestic politics#if it is it’s minor#but when the us sneezes everyone gets fucking Covid#this is the reality#/end rant
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Gojo “No one is allowed to take youth from young people” Satoru and Nanami “Being a child is not a sin” Kento can actually be so personal.
#nanago#i genuinely forgot gojo had that line but hot damn does it make me consider just how similar he and nanami are in that aspect#like. they both had life ripped away from them young.#gojo with himself and riko and then nanami with haibara.#they were each only 16/17 and the realities of sorcery caught up to them faster than it should have.#so yeah they’re pretty intense about their beliefs. they fucking had it stolen from them#which is why they’re adamant on others not experiencing the same thing they went through.#i adore them both So so much.#and i wish they could have fulfilled their dreams#jjk spoilers#tagging this with that last thing just in case anybody comes across these tags and shouldn’t have
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There is just so much lore for Machete and Vasco, and now developing lore for Vasco’s formal partner and their respective partner.
And all of these little details and interactions. Every time I read more I just think how much I would enjoy episodic writing centered around the events these 4 would be entangled in over the years.
It’s all so good 🤌
Thank you! I'm truly flattered you find my characters and their comings and goings interesting! It's all just stuff I put together in my brain for fun after all, and I've never felt like I have that spark or innate ability to come up with engaging stories.
#answered#anonymous#damn I wish I could provide you with that proper episodic narrative#in some alternate reality I have like a 300 pages worth of webcomic about them
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Nothing to see here just steph stealing glances of klay like he’s afraid he’s going to get caught 😃😃 (via namxsj on twitter )
#nba#golden state warriors#dallas mavericks#steph curry#klay thompson#steph/klay#ok first of all oh my god#secondly i need asg week to be NEOW actually I don’t think im capable of waiting til feb#both teams have kinda been floundering (mavs to a lesser extent but still) and I am growing Impatient for the reunion !!#also the buddy hield cycle being proven right for the 4th(?) time. lmao. some of those dumbasses rlly thought they got prime klay back#the victory lapping after beating the blazers jazz pelicans and pelicans was like nothing I had ever seen#especially towards a fucking legend !! like klay fucking thompson !!!!#no one not even pr-trained to high hell steph curry himself could ever convince me that he’s hopeful or even okay with this bullshit#he needs klay. klay needs him. they need each other and always have but it’s looking more and more likely that steph is#gonna go out like kobe while klay is gonna gonna keep chasing the ghost of pre-injury self#that last part felt so wrong to type out because i personally think he’s been everything you could want and more from a guy#who went thru everything that he went thru and#his comeback is probably my favorite comeback story in any sport ever of all time bc it’s such a fairy tale. and it also actually HAPPENED#!!!!!!!!!!!!#ppl talk abt the injuries like they happened to him and then he just disappeared forever like no bitch !!!!#he came back and they won it all that same year !! led the league in 3pm the year after that !!!!!! led the league in ft% the year#after that n ppl still acting like he adds virtually no value to any team that wants to win a chip when in reality that couldn’t be further#from the truth#I wrote it like that because I get the sense that they both look a little lost/confused at times and I can’t help but think that#losing embarrassingly or not they might at least be in better spirits (if nothing else) if they still had each other’s company#oh well. lol#ok I think that’s everything I had and a million sorrys if this post exploded on ur dash i wish I could turn off my stupid sports rpf brain#but I can’t ❤️#wishing every happiness to the two of them tho they’re my babiest girls frfr#nik's rants
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Normal take my hand we’re going to therapy
#dndads#dndads spoilers#normal we have walked similar roads I am putting you in therapy post canon you will get through this#while his relationship with sparrow may not improve I’d like to think he eventually finds peace with that. it’s hard but it can be done#I did like a speed run through the stages of grief lol I think I was mainly upset bc a part of me wishes I could reconcile with my parent#but that’s just not a reality that can be pursued after being so deeply hurt at least not without harming myself further#and I think that’s very similar to Normal’s scenario#I don’t think I’ll get too deep here lol but meh#I am content and now just vibing#god I can’t wait for the CoC mini series though give me sweet horrors
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Are you working on something now.?
if by " working on something " you mean "obsessively thinking about something so hard you forget to actually work on it ", then ya!
#ask zeno#unfortunately this is reassass lol#i wish i could project all of rhe full length episodes that play thru my head daily into reality lol the series would be done by now
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Just sudden need to let you know that I fight an urge to bite my screen every time I dig through your arts or see them on my dash
the highest form of compliment,,, tyty
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Started writing a fic back in early October and had to abandon it for a while due to IRL situations. But I've started working on it again little by little, and I am so excited to eventually share it with my mutuals and followers. I hope you guys enjoy it (I am trying my best to get it done)!
TBH my only motivation anymore is thinking about my friends having a good time reading it when it's finally posted (I love all of you very much). I cannot wait for all of these ideas to be fleshed-out on paper at last.
Over 16,000 words and I am nowhere near satisfied yet. I feel like I can write WAY more. Stay tuned!
#for anyone wondering the fic is dusknoir/grovyle centric but I PROMISE that I did not forget their girl Celebi#she loves them as well and they love her#but the entire thing takes place during Dusknoir's reconciliation w/ Team Wish#the doodle above is from a scene that I wrote!!#Echo and Dusknoir have lots of conversations#they are working on mending their relationship with each other#also dusknoir is holding his hands folded and out in front of him so Echo can clearly see them at all times#he knows that she's got some trauma with grabbing/touching when its w/ him specifically and he's trying VERY hard to accommodate her#in reality Echo could give a shit about him doing that for her but it's the thought that counts (she secretly appreciates it)#bonus that Sora also gets some resolution with Dusknoir too because lemme tell ya my girl NEEDS it#(scribz / fuji / zerger ) thinking about you guys each day fuels my desire to finish this damn thing so pls know that i love you#pmd eots#pmd2#my art#my fic#echo/umbreon#sora/lucario#not sure how long until this is actually posted cause my life is a horrible mess atm but I am hoping not too long!!#time to disappear back into the void because job hunting is the literal worst
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Y'all. "Gentlebeard critical" is a tag.
GENTLEBEARD CRITICAL.
THERE ARE IZZY STANS WHO ARE USING THIS TAG.
THEY'RE THAT ANGRY ABOUT IZZY DYING.
I AM SCREAMING RIGHT NOW.
#oh to be this level of delusional#and to not be burdened by reality#i wish i could#ofmd#our flag means death#gentlebeard#izzy hands#izzy critical#izzy stans dni#have fun being crazy
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I love FNaF 2 because it’s implied that the Toys behave like that because of their faulty facial recognition software which is all fine and dandy. But are they programmed to attack criminals on sight? Like if someone who’s actually in their database enters the restaurant will they just attack? That seems like not a good system to avoid trouble.
Idk maybe they just hate Jeremy personally
#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#jeremy fitzgerald#fnaf 2#I feel like their facial recognition software fucking sucks#like it clearly does not work at all#people always call the fact that the animatronics are so advanced an acceptable break from reality#but I think that they actually suck and it’s completely realistic#wish the Chuckle Cheese had this feature where you could walk in and just get attacked
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