#i wish i wasn’t like this.
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#will delete in the morning but.#it��s entering that season where i start to dread my upcoming birthday#thankfully i’m moved out so there won’t be any fuss#but i have. no one to spend it with.#thinking back to last year and just how much i hated my birthday#and like i am beginning my twenties. and that’s how im gonna start it. alone.#bc i have no friends and no boyfriend to spend it with.#last year i literally spent an hour crying alone in a seperate room from my family bc no one was talking to me and i couldn’t stand#listening to my sister speak as if i wasn’t even there#i just thought this year was going to go differently.#like i’m glad i moved and im overall grateful for where i ended up#but when i was moving i thought i was promised community.#and literally every prospect i’ve have of companionship has never actually#happened#and idk it’s been a long day a bad day at work and i just. wish my life was different#like truly i think the last time i had a birthday party was in the third grade#i wish i wasn’t like this.
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the problem with ordering food is that you’re immediately like I shouldn’t have done that…….i shouldn’t have spent that money…….but then the food arrives and is so delicious (and GOOD FOR YOU!) and you live to smile another day.
#my top three expenses are mortgage -> vet bills -> food#I wish ordering food wasn’t so rewarding#unfortunately it is like someone delivering happiness to your doorstep#BUT ALSO I NEED TO STOP SPENDING MONEYYYY
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New blorbo :)
Also a silly interaction with this piece
#cardcaptor sakura#eriol hiiragizawa#I wish I had the big hat big robe flowy cape drip. I wish#spoilers so don’t read further if you haven’t reached the end of sakura (looking at you whery)#but I enjoy him immensely and it makes me so sad to see how much he’s shipped with tomoyo#in old fanfics and stuff I mean.#like I don’t agree sometimes with the show’s direction of romantic relationships (rika and terada sensei come to mind)#but to me tomoyo is a diehard lesbian and you cannot convince me she’d be happy with Eriol#that aside I do think eriol is the most fascinating character and also a dead ringer for most of the traits I like in characters lmao.#if I had a nickel for every time I enjoyed a character who is mature for his age and has more power than he knows what to do with#I think a character study on him would be cool#like when did he realize he wasn’t aging. was his aging restricted because of his magic or an intentional choice from the memories of clow.#where does clow end and eriol begin and how much does memory contribute to identity#I’d really like to see a fic just about his interactions with fujitaka and the kinomoto family as well
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So when Pristine cut comes out and everyone has time to soak it all in, you’re all going to go ahead and play Scarlet Hollow, right?
#slay the princess#I wish Scarlet Hollow wasn’t so hard to pitch#like Slay the Princess’s whole thing is so alluring#it’s called Slay the Princess for one#a subversion of a trope#and there’s this weird creepy British guy saying to kill her but he isn’t going into detail#Scarlet Hollow is so much harder to talk about#But it’s so good man
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Reflecting on how depressing Kieran’s canon story is started to make me spiral so I decided to draw some happier scenes involving Kieran.
#meek’s art#shitpost#art dump#arthur morgan#kieran duffy#rdr2 fandom#rdr2 fanart#rdr2#red dead redemption two#red dead redemption 2#red dead redemption fanart#bill williamson#sadie adler#spoilers#rdr2 spoilers#wholesome#mary beth gaskill#i forgot that Arthur canonically DOES thank Kieran for saving his life.#also this isn’t entirely bill x Kieran (it’s unhealthy) but more like Bill being uncharacteristically nice to Kieran 😙#Kieran and Arthur have such a unique dynamic to me and I wish Arthur wasn’t so mean to Kieran in game#if I could I’d write about Arthur and Kieran and how special I think they are as a unconventional buds
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Fafa redraw for fafa day!!!! + face cuz that side quest ended up so pretty
#like I wasn’t supposed to draw the face lol#I just did in a moment of weakness#I could do motion graphics for this now that I think about it#I’ll do it if I get the time ok?#mxtx#art#heaven official's blessing#天官赐福#tian guan ci fu#oh ya!!! thank u to everyone who wished me happy birthday last post yall r so slay#hua cheng
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They’re just so . So fun to draw. Bite sized shapes.
#dreamworks trolls#trolls#trolls band together#broppy#trolls branch#trolls poppy#trolls viva#trolls clay#trolls jd#jd was so funny i wish the movie like. remembered to give him some actual proper closure for his issues that wasn’t just Maybe one line.#anyways.#that line is a psychonauts reference.#art :0]#IFORGOR.#trolls floyd
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Curtwen Week Day 4: Haunted
#fuck yall I really wasn’t sure about this last night but looking at it now I think it’s grown on me#I tried going for a 1960s comic book look#because I really like the vibes of old comics#they’re very cool#honestly this came out very different from what I had planned originally#but then I had this idea and ran with it#also I made the executive decision of doing long hair Curt because A) It’s my drawing and I can do what I want and B) I love the idea that#curt had the long hair like in SAD post fall#whoever originally had that idea is a genius- I wish I could remember who it was#but yeah I love doing stylized stuff like this#I don’t do it as often as I want to#I have another saf idea similar to this that I’ve had on the back burner that I might do soon ish#i suppose we’ll see#I’m not making any promises#but yeah this one is a bit different from the drawings for the other three days#I got a bit of reprieve from all the rendering I’ve been doing#fun fact: palm trees are technically a type of grass#because it doesn’t have bark and it doesn’t have rings to tell how old it is#curtwen week#Curtwen week 2024#Curtwen#spies are forever#tin can bros#tin can brothers#agent Curt mega#curt mega#owen carvour#Joey richter#my art#cw guns
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IT’S MY BIRTHDAY!!!! I’M OLD NOW!!!! so!!! as celebration i’m finally posting my isatsona!!! because a while back i saw someone bring up the idea of making sonas based on our roles in the fandom and i thought that was a fun idea teehees. he is like 2 inch tall and obsessed with a weird card game involving sacrifices. they’ve apparently Changed at some point but no one can tell what’s actually different about them. they keep a small bird in their apron at all times. do enjoy them.
also!! greyscale + alt without his glasses below!!
#marshdoodles#isat#in stars and time#this is the closest you guys are getting to seeing what i look like (silly)#i think he’s fhe housemaiden who lives in the art room on the first floor#i think he would also shrivel up and die if he found out one of the saviors looked at his art#i considered making him rock/paper type but aaa. lazy. theyare but a humble paper type#i have been thinking of a moveset for them. i think at least one of their skills would make an enemy more vulnerable to crits#ALSO!!! THANKYOU ALL FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES I WASN’T EXPECTING THIS MUCH??? IM SO SOPPY#JUST. WUAUAUAUAUUAUAUA#isat oc#isatsona#<- forgot these tags awauaua
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I think the thing that shocks me the most about the discourse, if you can even call it that, around book Alicent vs show Alicent, is the idea that people think book Alicent had full autonomy over all her choices and she wasn’t a “victim” like show Alicent.
Now first, I put victim in quotations bc the way people who do not like her have almost bastardized that word. Alicent is a victim, and those things (rape, abuse, neglect) were done to her. That says everything about the men who did that do her and nothing about her. But people are hellbent on throwing Alicent, a woman in a violently patriarchal environment, being victimized back at people as if it is moral flaw of hers. Which is just terribly ironic bc the same folks who say Alicent “did it to herself” or “deserves what she is getting” also seem to think the crux of the story isn’t about generational trauma catching up with itself, how far people will go for power, or even how all girls and women are harmed - albeit to different degrees. But more the fact that Rhaenyra is the only woman to be harmed - and the only harm done is not getting the throne easily. Those same people wouldn’t be caught dead admitting that Rhaenyra is also a victim in the way they shit on Alicent for being. From the father who sets her up fail, to the baby daddy that’s been eyeing her since she was barely 18, to the uncle that grooms her. It takes away from the fantasy projected onto Rhaenyra if she too is surrounded by men that use her and she never escapes that.
Second, it’s funny how F&B gets heralded by some as this exploration of how history is skewed depending on who is telling it. But people can’t read between the lines (you honestly don’t even have to do that much work) with book Alicent. Showing 14 year old Alicent being preyed on, 16 year old Alicent being pregnant with her second child, and 18 year old Alicent being raped is somehow the show needlessly making Alicent a victim. But reading about a 13 year old bathing, dressing, and taking care of a king who mistakes her for the daughter he abused and neglected, and then that same girl, at 18, marrying another king that killed his previous child bride is just girl bossism on book Alicent’s part?
People hate conceptualizing the idea that (even book) Alicent is caught in patriarchal trappings bc to some that takes away from Rhaenyra’s plight…. Bc they can’t wrap their heads around several women *gasp* all going through hardships, and that ultimately people will respond to trauma differently depending on tools/knowledge they have at their disposal. Alicent neither being gleefully evil nor picking herself up by her bootstraps to somehow end years of patriarchal violence is not the neat box they want for her.
#people want Alicent to gleefully be evil not bc it would be more interesting (newsflash it wouldn’t)#but so they can be justified placing her in the ‘evil woman’ category#bc to them their is only ‘good woman’ and ‘bad woman’#but since the show doesn’t lineup perfectly with the woman they made up… they put her in the ‘weak woman’ category#bc the only thing worse for a woman than being a bitch is being perceived as passive in your demise#trust me I would have loved to see Alicent let Viserys rot and plot against him just as much as the next person#but please do not act like that wasn’t probably self preservation and trauma on book Alicent’s part#not her doing it for shits and giggles#and lbr the same people wishing the show went that route would’ve been the same people STILL shitting on her#pro alicent hightower#alicent hightower#pro team green#anti viserys i targaryen#anti targaryen#ok NOW I’m done lol#told myself no more of these lol
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I desperately wanted to hold all 5 at once but I tragically had to tap out at 4. When I went to pick up the 5th cat (Merrill) Tunia started wiggling and I had to let her go.
#Tunia has the zoomies now. and I’m not sure what that means?#like did she enjoy that???#my post#me#I wish I wasn’t making that face in the first one bc I love that all 3 boys are looking at the camera sort of#Kenny#Arthur#Merrill#Valentine#Petunia
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🍊 Big Sis Nemona 🍊
my favorite Unovan/Latina Pokémon trainer ever created
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#pokemonscarletviolet#nemona#trainer nemona#rival nemona#Art#Pokémon sv#Had people telling me she’s not Unovan when she obvi met with Lacey when she was younger but anyways she’s Puerto Rican from New York to me#if you don’t like my hcs you can literally follow someone else lol but for certain she’s not from Spain!! But speaks Spanish!!#I love nemona so much man she reminds me too much of my high school self she’s my daughter now idc#pokemon#pokémon#I should seriously tag this but I can’t stop thinking about how much I love nemona did I mention I love nemona I love nemona guys#pawmi#ig#trainer Florian#trainer Juliana#god I hate the sv protags tho I’m never drawing them except thats a lie cause I really like Juliana/Kieran in CONCEPT (narrative mirrors)#I just wish Juliana wasn’t so ugly to draw…
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“It’s odd to see a father so involved…”
Captain, captain sweetie, my love my darling my heart my pride and my joy, cap… be honest now, you have daddy issues, don’t you? No shame but like we all guessed from the start. He hated you and then sent you off to boarding school didn’t he? He was an army officer and you were pressured to follow in his footsteps weren’t you? It’s alright captain you can talk about it…
#yeah that line confirms my headcanon lmao#like I know for his time it was normal for dads to not be involved the taking care of babies and it wasn’t like looked down on or anything#but like to me it’s ’wow it’s odd to see a dad who loves his son I wish I got that damn’#y’know?#bbc ghosts#bbc ghosts spoilers#the captain
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i love it when my friends are like “oh i need a partner so i can do ___” and then they list off something i would gladly do with them. like you do not even need a partner for that in fact
#there are very few times i wish i wasn’t aroace but that sure is one of them#like what’s special about romance to you#what do you get that i don’t#aromantic#asexual#aroace
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3—no—4? 5? tickets to challengers please
#death note part 2 if the writers let me take the wheel#yes we all know death note tennis = challengers but consider#in which everyone is art except L#death note#challengers#i want you all to know that takada misa churro scene was conceived in my mind. i didn’t draw it but let’s all imagine it together#teru and kiyomi are so interesting to me. i wish kiyomi wasn’t written Like That#guy who has only seen death note watching a movie: this is just like death note#light yagami#teru mikami#kiyomi takada#misa amane#l lawliet#lawlight#mikalight#my art#my art 2024
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war arc is insane for kakashi he goes through so many stages like
gai and i will survive together <3 -> gai and i will survive because of my son wtf when did he even LEARN this -> umm i think my presumed dead childhood teammate has a right to kill me so maybe i’ll die -> wait nvm i gotta beat his ass before he kills my son -> okay gai’s dying so i’m DEFINITELY going to die during this war fuck this -> man my childhood teammate is dying for real now too -> wait shit gotta save my kids lives -> gai is okay but still my kids > my life -> childhood bff gave his life to save me noo -> oh god his dying wish was for me to be hokage god i wish i died -> wait my kids reunited nvm i needed to live to see this moment i’m so blessed🙌🙏
#naruto#naruto shippuden#hatake kakashi#kakagai#literally will never get over war arc kakashi#mr they’re all already dead has like four priorities in life#and somehow the war is over all of them specifically actually#love that for him <3#i just know he wakes up every night in a cold sweat like wait how the fuck did we win😰#also we need to talk about obito’s dying wish rude af really#but also top ten funniest dying requests to make of ur bff who REALLY doesn’t want to be hokage#like you can tell me that wasn’t payback for how snooty baby kakashi was but tbh i will NOT believe you😤
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