#i wish i was this delusional really
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me when I’m delusional and out of touch.
“No other male would be a a fairer ruler” i can name like 7 other people.
“Prythian would be blessed to have such leaders” a guy who can barely run his court and his inexperienced 20 y/o gf leading a nation would obviously be such a blessing 🙏🙏.
#i wish i was this delusional really#how is his head this far up rhysands ass like genuinely how#anti high king 🗣️🗣️#acotar#a court of thorns and roses#acosf critical#anti cassian#anti rhysand#anti feysand#a court of silver flames#cassian stop thinking challenge (failed)
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free will is drawing ur two favorite characters together and making them gay
#akekita content in this economy? it's more likely than you think#this is like for the three ppl that ship them (me tumblr user haliai and atlus)#also which boyliker at atlus designed yusuke's phantom outfit like WHY is he dressed like a gay hooker 💀💀💀💀#the skintight spandex bodysuit designed to show off the slutty waist?? the exposed cleavage?? the cunty little fox tail?? bro 😭#my hand was shaking while i was drawing the second img it felt so IMMODEST 😭😭😭😭😭#i wish atlus confirmed which highschool akechi went to bc i love the hc that he attends kosei#his tie matches hifumi's ribbon so i think they're trying to tell us smt (im delusional)#ANYWAY akechi and yusuke would match each other's freak lowkey like they're both hardcore yappers that weird everyone else tf out#akechi would find solidarity in the fact that yusuke doesn't shut up abt whatever he's interested in#also also the fact that akechi is a mirror version of him bc they're victims of the same situation#both being exploited and utilized as tools after their mothers death#by the man they called father in exchange for validation or a false sense of place#but ultimately yusuke was saved by phantom thieves while akechi refused any pity and slowly succumbed to fate of his own making#really makes you look at atlus and think whats going on in their buttery smooth brains for not including other character interactions#aside from the social links with joker. the wasted dynamic potential between some of the characters is insane 😭#persona 5#p5#yusuke kitagawa#kitagawa yusuke#goro akechi#akechi goro#akekita#bro me when i stay up until three am drawing persona instead of finishing my lab (i’m beyond cooked 💀💀)#i think i need to switch college majors i can’t keep doing this#lotus draws
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I really appreciate the beauty of Malleus New Year's card. But most importantly, other than its gorgeousness, I also appreciate how it pays so much homage to his status and character, from the flowers, the clothes, and the setting. 🥹
We know that wisterias were prevalent in his Dorm Groovy SSR, this time its another flower which is the red plum blossom here😭❤️
In Chinese philosophy, the Plum tree’s blossom is a symbol of winter ending and a herald of spring. The tree’s pale pink blossoms are cherished because they bloom vibrantly and so bravely amidst the winter chill. They symbolise perseverance and hope, as well as, beauty thriving in adverse circumstances.
The way this flower's meaning is so matched with Malleus' character is so precious. We know he's "the herald of spring" because his birth brought forth a hope that the Draconias(or the faes in general) won't die out just yet (the ending of winter) and the fact that this flower blooms even in winter probably symbolizes the fact that when he was an egg, he was still perservering to live. This also applies to his life as he grows up. With the way even if his life is riddled with loneliness and exclusion, he makes an effort to go out and adjust himself with others, he doesn't give up even if his reality consistently places him in situation where his goals can never be achieved (that is, him being accepted socially and him being ignorant of human culture but still makes an effort to understand it), he just continues to be hopeful that someone/ some place will invite him, therefore his ability to thrive in adverse circumstances.
The way he slowly rises in this card makes me feel like it symbolizes how slow paced Malleus is "in going out/getting used to outside of his comfort zone", actually lol. He described his admission to NRC as him being nervous because its an unknown place but still hopeful for the experiences that he might get(acccording to the vignette of his GloMas SSR), just like him here rising from the snow and the way he lifts the veil which makes me think he wants to see the world outside of his country's point of view with his own eyes.
Japanese tradition holds that the Plum (or ‘ume’) is celebrated as a protective charm against evil, so the ume is traditionally planted in the northeast of the garden, the direction from which evil is believed to come.
I also read this symbolism which makes me tear up lmaooo 😭Because we know in Book 7, Briarland was invaded from northeast where the Silver Owls originated from 💀 The fact that the plum blossom is a protection flower and he's surrounded with it in this card makes me think that it symbolizes how protected he was during Briarland's era 😭and another thing to dissect from his slow rise from the snow with the fact the plum blossom signifies protection is probably the fact that he took so long to hatch despite many people caring for him.
Side note that in Malleus Bloom Birthday Groovy, it implied that he was born in daytime during a snowfall, and he was happy experiencing the winter, just like in this New Years card where he's smiling against the heavy snowfall 🥹
In Japan, plum blossoms symbolize good fortune, an auspicious flower, along with pine and bamboo, and the arrival of early spring. They are often used as the design for New Year’s greeting cards and other celebratory occasions. (And maybe this is just the likely reason why this flower is here in Malleus' card and I'm overthinking it above lol
Next thing I want to mention is his clothes, that attire reminds me of the formal outfit of a Japanese Emperor (From what I searched, its called sokutai, but what Malleus wears is much more simpler I guess, its a outfit derived from it which is called ikan.) This post is a great overview about these two outfits.
Ikan is the work clothes of nobles and government officials in the Imperial Court after the Heian period. Sokutai is a formal costume for those from the Emperor to the court nobles in and after Heian period (Heian costume). Ikan is called 'tonoi (nighttime) costume', whereas sokutai is called 'hino (daytime) costume'. (which probably references the fact that he's a night fae)
The point is, what Malleus wears in this card is a very traditional garment that only high ranking Japanese officials can wear. But what he wears isn't the clothes of an emperor yet, but just for a high ranking official, which is accurate to his status that he's still a crown prince not yet the king, because only Maleficia truly rules Briar Valley right now.
I love the decision that they made him wear such a prestigious outfit because the story of the New Years event is the characters working on customer service lol Its like his clothes is a reminder that he is still highly distinguished even if temporarily he's a worker.
Lastly the VEIL !!!!!! That's the thing that catched my eyes the most in this card lol I KNOW they're not referencing a wedding here because the veil don't look the same, but its so good not to mention that the one of the headress of a Japanese bride is called tsunokakushi and its description can be related with Malleus a lot lol.
The term is a compound of 角 (tsuno, "horn") + 隠し (kakushi, "hiding"). This derivation is listed in some sources as a reference to hiding a bride's "horns" of anger, jealousy, or other negative qualities, in order to present a more virtuous image for the wedding. However, this interpretation might be a folk etymology resulting from a shift in the reading and meaning.
The headdress and the veil aren't the same thing but I kinda feel like this is the idea they're going for considering the veil is 1) hiding his horns, 2) he's a character associated with being jealous, and most importantly, 3) only the person he is looking at can see his face (which is the point of most wedding veils/headdress, to hide the bride's face so that only her partner can see it).
But long veils, like the one Malleus is holding is also just a garment for a noble to hide their nobility. Which is this is probably the likely reason, considering he's using that veil to cover up his horns and his clothes, the most obvious features of his status.
Also, it could be just a fun reference to the fact that Maleficent in live action wore a long veil to hide her horns so that she wouldn't scare the humans lol
#twst#twisted wonderland#disney twisted wonderland#twistedwonderland#malleus draconia#disney twst#twst malleus#lian notes#twst malleus draconia#twst diasomnia#twisted wonderland malleus#malleusdraconia#twisted wonderland headcanons#twst analysis#my ass can never make a simple simping post about him i need to dissect this with all the power my google search image has LKADJFLKS#I AM STILL STANDING WITH MY DELUSIONAL TAKE ABOUT THE WEDDING BIT THOUGH#look the VEIL IS WHITE i knooowww Malleus would pull up in a wedding attire once he catches you referring to him as your wife HEAR ME OUT--#/jk but lowkey not reallya lkfdjlksfd#this is the malleyuu crumb ive extracted from this thank you for reading my ted talk everyone#i really wish i can just put copy pasta down bad captions about this man BUT NO my mind really INSIST i need to make#an analysis essay about him anytime he does something new😭😭😭
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Ugh. I'm so sick and tired of scrolling through Tumblr, expecting a beautifully curated experience and seeing yet another person, who can't use tags properly, asking why people ship Sterek because Derek is an "adult". Like we're some crazy, immoral, "sociopaths". I'm sorry you can't see what we see, princess. We can't all live in your fantasy land where people only ever fall in love with people who are the same age as them.
As if age gaps never happen, never work, or are only ever creepy and manipulative.
By the way, it's fiction. By the way, age gaps happen all the time. And some of them actually work out. And they can be incredibly equal partnerships.
What a crazy idea, right?
#i wish this would just die#do they all think every stable couple ever is only ever the same age?#are they really this delusional?#some of best relationships were with older men#I'd like to know who decided age gaps were wrong creepy and manipulative#I'm heated#i know that i am#but I'm so over it#sterek
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jason todd would be so good at comforting his s/o through a panic attack i said what i said
edit: MADE A FIC ABOUT IT HERE
#rose rambling#am i saying this to self soothe? perhaps. am i wrong? no#i really hate having an anxiety disorder sometimes i wish i was normal#idk its too late to be yapping#he would give me a hug and tell me its ok (im delusional and insane ☹️)#jason todd x reader#jason todd fluff#jason todd x you#jason todd x y/n#jason todd imagine#jason todd#red hood#red hood x reader#red hood fluff#red hood imagine#sigh#yet another rough night
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I beg people in the MW to think very carefully when they talk about mental illness and physical disability cause it’s not as straight forward and easy to diagnose/depict as you think…
#it’s less I hate the analysis more so the way people talk about these real mental disorders in really demonizing ways#like there aren’t people who leads normal lives#and are well adjusted with these disorders like only people like them can do shit Jimmy does and it’s in a really fear mongering way like#please be careful with how you handle those subject matter not every bad character needs a reason why some people are just like Jimmy no#no clear diagnosis or if ur gonna pick something you don’t need to be on the apd spectrum to be narcissistic it’s just like I wish people#would understand that like people like him just exist he would not be diagnosed as either in like a clinical setting cause it’s more than#just hitting the boxes plus like it’s stated that Jimmy still choice to do what he was doing#like a big thing with sort of violent apd personalities is they don’t show any regret or remorse at all for these actions and he does it’s#born from self preservation but to this extent to classify he’d have to still not feel anything like it’s just a touchy thing and we are#bordering on the same fear mongering people had about schizophrenia or bpd#like I just feel like he def has something but it’s not named or define for a reason like he practically fits everything and it’s likely i#intentional so you can give him that excuse but it’s likely he’s just like that like some people are cruel with no sort of neurosis like hes#def delusional but sociopaths and psychopaths tend to have a better grip on reality than he does#did and more factors point to himself than anything going on in his head#this is just the psych in me but pls be super careful with how you discuss mental illnesses cause it’s still his choice to do the things he#mouthwashing
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Looked at the trailer before the exam,,,
Most. Important Borderlands 4 trailer low spoiler
No Rhys,,,, Zane in a bun and hobo beard,,, but pretty women....
Rating..... acceptable...........
#There are way more thoughts and I'll keep it here#Borderlands 4 trailer#God. The designs of the new fellas feel like 'it's woke time corpo style'#I wish the lady at the start was one cus she has really lovely silhouette#Cus literally it's#Pretty Boi#Cunty siren#Vaughn on steroids#And mandatory tech speed kid#I like the environments and some new monster designs. The black lady is pretty#But man why is the villain just so... Idk djshshsh#Still having hopes.#Also im glad the hologram still has old Zane look cus idk why they hobo-fied him#I still hope for this game - I always love the environmental design of these games#And i am delusional about getting Rhys or Timothy jshshsh
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Siffrin has OCD. If you even care.
#isat#in stars and time#isat siffrin#I could say soooo much about this#I know that wishcraft is all about rituals but they do rituals even when they arenttttt making a wish#he really is out there having obsessions. he really is out there having compulsions. he really is out there with delusional anxiety#he really is having intrusive thoughts and control issues and worrying about thought crimes
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You like Casey Jones a lot. What do you think of her being shipped with April?
Yes.
It's prob the only ship I care about in rise. I like to believe if the show had like 7 seasons then this is where we'd end up. Casey/April is a TMNT classic. And rise's version is enemies to lovers + GAY? My recipe for an OTP.
Having said that, I am a little weary of capril in the fandom simply bc Casey is a VERY underrated character, and I HARDLY see her but when I do, it's shipping art/fics (I will say this is changing). But I fear sometimes that people only like her to ship but don't care outside of her being with april. The fandom hasn't even scratched the surface with casey's character post show/movie and I'm more interested in exploring that rn than the romantic side of things.
#idk am i delusional for assuming this?#i just fear people get caught up too much in the romance that thats the only purpose the individual has#like how rise fandom treats usagi#he really only exists in the rise fandom to be someone (mostly leo)'s bf#prove me wrong#would you still care about usagi if he wasnt shipped with any turtle?#anyways my fear with casey#but i do love capril and i wish we got more of their dynamic in canon#you can bet any au i create that capril will be endgame#capril#thnx anon!#pixel replies
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jay have you listened to & ye Wait its not even midnight there. suck it ive had the album for 13 hours already
yah i get new music at the same time as east coast america so thats in like. half an hour still. time traveler flex
unfrotunately i have not been keeping up with bastille lately At All i didnt even realise the album was out tmrw?? i think i listened to part 1 and it was not very memorable. but i will listen to the full album at least once <3 just for your sake
#when will they have their punk rock era... <- delusional#idk why im complaining tbh i really wanted for them to go back to their lit & history nerd era#i just wish the instrumentals were more fun. like ive just got hozier for that now anyway#ask
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the way they’re looking at each other oh i’m going to be ill…
[from the bsd anthology chapters]
#knkdz#kunikidazai#this chapter#devastating#i still haven’t recovered#they mean so much to each other#do you see them#are you looking#sobs into my hands#their reunion is long overdue#i miss them#every day i wake up and wish that they could just know the other one is alive#is that really too much to ask#this just in: next chapter is kunikidazai fishing (delusional)#oh this next season is going to devastate my mental health#bsd manga#bsd anime#bsd season five#bsd kunikida#bsd dazai#bsd ships
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2005 | 2023
#'catie stop making comparison history posts' NO I REFUSE#i was gonna make fun of myself and say smth like#'person whos only fully watched 2005: wow this is giving me 2005 vibes'#BUT NO!!! NO!!!! THE PARALLELS THE PARALLELS#got p3 in both australin gps!!!!!! AAAAAAAA THE HISTORY THE PARALLELS#everyone is making comparisons to aus 2006 cause he won that but no they dont understand!!!! this is the comparison you should be making#guys you know what this means#fernando 2023 wdc-#its a sign i swear i swear!!! let me be delusional cmon#dont ask me how many random instagram posts i just looked through trying to find the same angle#yeah i wish they were both facing the same way but well what can you do#this is really really full circle bcs australia 2005 was the first old nando race i watched#and the first ever post-race highlights i ever made! and now here i am a billion posts later#so to have watched that back in january almost 3 months ago and then watch this and see him achieve the same is so meaningful for me#fernando alonso#fa14#2023 australian gp#2005 australian gp#we do a little bit of f1#f1#formula 1#formula one
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it's always "wanna grab lunch together?" and never "cubitum eamus?"
#the secret history#francis abernathy#francis the man you are#straight men WISH they were on that sheer level of sexiness#i would stagger in seconds actually#that's how you know richard was shit at latin bc anyone who could understand that would Buckle.#the intellectualism. the aesthetic. the inherent sexiness of speaking a dead language.#my standards in men are delusional because of Literature and i'm not sure how to explain that to people#fuck i should try to “cubitum eamus” on of the pretty girls on board actually#i think the other girls don't really like me thought#(i have never had a single latin class in my life)#and i have no plans for conversation beyond that
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Update on how reading Thrawn: Alliances is going
I am s t r u g g l i n g to finish it..im barely past halfway
#to those of you who warned me..i should have listened to you#yall were right it really isnt the same as that first book#i'm still gonna finish it though because i have the uncontrollable need to learn everything i can about my hyperfixations#i really like the clone wars era flashbacks...but every time it switches back to the empire era stuff i get bored and put it down#so far my favourite parts have been:#anakin being a dumbass trying to hide the real nature of his relationship with padme from thrawn#vader being a dumbass worrying about whether or not thrawn knows he is anakin#vader being a delusional dumbass referring to anakin as a separate person even IN HIS MIND#vader shutting down every mention of anakin by just saying#anakin skywalker is dead#and thrawn being like#sure jan#the chapters ive liked the most though are the ones from padmes pov....i wish there was more of that#anyways im 60% in and i have 9 days to finish it :)#also the further i get into this book the more i miss eli#i still think thrawn is an awesome and super interesting character#but man i miss his dynamic with eli#thrawn#thrawn: alliances#darth vader#anakin skywalker#padme amidala#palpatine#the clone wars#thrawn: alliances spoilers#thrawn novels#star wars novels#eli vanto#mitth'raw'nuruodo#chiss ascendancy
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Coming to the realisation that every single reed POV angst fic i've written is OOC, because reed is much more unhinged than i previously thought. He doesn't get jealous of Tesilid, he doesn't mourn a life that could have been his, because he's just so full of confidence that Ailette will like him. He can take his time, he can flirt and get rebuffed all the time without getting mad, because he's going to get what he wants eventually, anyway; he's just playing with his food. He's completely delusional, I love him so much.
#s-class heroine spoilers#reed#you know what also gets to me? the fact that actually his confidence isnt completely baseless either#bc he IS tesilid and ailette does have a soft spot for him. he kills thousands and shes still trying to save him#anw hes so funny. mental image of him kicking his feet thinking about what gift to give ailette#sketching the weapon on a piece of paper and writing '💞💕Ailette Rodeline💞💞' and looping hearts around it maybe#<- its me IM the delusional one#anw he doesnt really wish he could take 117's place bc why would he want to pretend to be a goody two shoes. lmao. thats so lame. scoff.#hes so funny he says that offhandedly and then afterwards goes right back to flirting#'ailette rodeline says she loves you? alright bet'#bro doesnt even care. it's like he never got that tidbit of information in the first place#amazing selective memory i love him so much#many things deeply wrong with him
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Wait I think I missed something in this incredible saga. Are you going on a date with the coworker??? I swear the last thing I saw was “no I would never” lmaoooo. If so, I (like the rest of snzblr) are anxious for updates about your love life. You’re one of the top snzblr couples now, enjoy 🤙
I did say I would never and I was a fucking liar apparently 😔 it's not technically a date tho bc I never told him it was bc I need to be so casual and mysterious ahdkaksk but it's a date To Me lmao. It's tomorrow tho bc we're still at work rn and it doesn't look like we're leaving anytime soon so at least I have that to look forward to I guess lmao
#not snz#we're not a couple tho nooooo 😭😭 lmaooo#it's just me being delusional#like he's literally not into me i stg i think y'all are gonna be more disappointed about the outcome than me#OH but he did hug me tho so I'm riding that high rn actually ahskamsk#lowkey have just been leaning against him half the shift but we've been watching videos and stuff together bc it's been slow so#that means nothing probably#also he looks at me like 😒 every time i ask one if my stupid little debate questions ahsakslsl#today was if ceral is a soup and if ketchup is a smoothie#please know that i ask these randomly literally out of nowhere like it's a normal thing to bring up lmaoooo#i have negative flirting skills ahdkaksk#this is the opposite of pulling a bad bitch by being autistic this is making the coworker question why he puts up with me lmaoooo#but he's the one who said yes to dinner so 😌#you know what he's never seen me in a cute little outfit before actually 👀#it's always been either the work uniform or hiking clothes#which to be fair my hiking clothes are kinda cute but they're hiking clothes nonetheless#like he saw me in normal clothes a bit ago but i was actively dying so they were just the most comfortable clothes i could find#so like maybe i can wear a skirt i have cute skirts i like wearing out with my bestie#and they're like. very specific kinds of skirts so maybe that'll tell him something ahskasmks#help why am i thinking so hard about this ahdkalslal#like it's literally actually not even a date it's just me flipping out for no reason while this guy is clueless 😭#like I'm telling y'all he's not into me and i don't understand why I'm being like this about it lmaoo#I'm always like 'fuck i wish my coworkers wouldn't crush on me to the point of asking me out that's awkward i don't date coworkers'#AND THEN I TURNED AROUND AND DID IT MYSELF#why am i like this#why am i so 👀 when he's one of the few people i shouldn't be 👀 at#i swear i should give it a couple months bc maybe I'm just feeling some type of way about him bc i was sick#but noooo i just HAVE to be insane about it now 😭#i should really have a tag for me being a pathetic wreck but idk what it would even be lmao#partner posting
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