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at the end of the day its the weird obsession shows used to have with men dressing as women (and looking really good doing it too)
#i wish i was born a man so i could like#dress fem one day#and everyones just cool with it#or see it as a joke#but when IIII do it im “a fake trans”#smh#anyway micky dolenz as a woman is crazy#princess gwen goes hard too#i used to have a friend who was delusional about davy jones dressed as a woman#i think abt it a lot#im the same way with princess gwen i love her so much its not even funny#why are beautiful men dressed as women in television so rare now#can we bring back men dressed as women in like a low effort way cause it always looks good. idk why it just serves so much cunt...#anyway#mike posting#sung tongs 🐯
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Obsessed with the way Evadne's relationship with Apollo is described. Obsessed with the way Apollo was especially gentle with her because she was sheltered, hidden away and hadn't had any sort of experience with love prior to Apollo (and due to it being described as her 'first learning Aphrodite's joy' through Apollo', it was probably her first time even being attracted to someone). Obsessed with the way when she runs away, she stops in a violet patch to give birth. Y'know, violets, very famously the flower so strongly associated with Aphrodite that they were used in love potions? Those violets. Obsessed with the way that when Apollo realised his lover was going to have to deliver their child alone, he sent BOTH the goddess of childbirth and ALL THREE OF THE FATES to help and support her. Obsessed with the way that Apollo sends snakes to feed his baby honey straight from their fangs because Evadne abandons their son out of straight primal fear when her stepfather finds her and how the description of that honey is 'sweet venom' [ἰός] of the bees and is DEFINITELY a poetic pair/pun with [ἴον] aka violets and that every single thing about this relationship, conception and birth is a complete and utter fairytale down to Evadne's insanely overprotective stepfather having an immediate change of heart when he learned Evadne's child was an actual, legitimate Son of Apollo and the babe, after being cared for by his dad's honey-fanged snake buddies, was found perfectly healthy five days later swaddled in a blanket of violets (y'know the flowers so strongly associated with Aphrodite that they were used for lo-) and they called him Iamus aka Boy of the Violets which is AAAAAARRRR I AM GNAWING AT MY ENCLOSURE
Iamus was made of love. Everything about him was surrounded by deep and profound love and like, let's not even talk about his whole Thing of when he came of age and was like "I need to find out what my purpose is" and he literally had a Disney Protagonist moment where he ran out into the wilds and was like "Father!! Grandfather!! Tell me what I'm supposed to doooo!!" and then APOLLO FUCKING ANSWERED AND LED HIM TO ONE HIS TEMPLES ENTIRELY BY TALKING WITH IAMUS AND LETTING HIM FOLLOW HIS VOICE FOR THE WHOLE JOURNEY LIKE -
What do y'all know about the kind of SSS tier romantic escapades Apollo had fr?
#ginger rambles#NO BECAUSE WHAT DO Y'ALL KNOW ABOUT APOLLO AND EVADNE FR#They're a MAD underrated couple and their story is what everyone wishes Hades/Persephone was#Evadne actually WAS sheltered and overprotected because she was a daughter of Poseidon explicitly given to Aepytus to watch over#And Aepytus to his credit wasn't actually a bad man or anything he just took his job very very seriously#Super pious guy - even though he was positively incandescent when he found out Evadne was pregnant he didn't hit her or anything#He just was like “Get me my HORSE I am going to consult the GODS about my DAUGHTER'S HARLOTRY”#Evadne was fucking terrified of him though she hid that pregnancy like her life depended on it#And the minute she heard horse hooves even though she had just finished giving birth she dropped Iamus like he was molten and fucking ran#I could only imagine Aepytus having set up a baby shower or something cause he was overjoyed by the oracle and Evadne gets home thinking#she's going to get Dungeon'd only for Aepytus to hug her and be like “You should've told me you were seeing Apollo sob emoji sob emoji”#God I'm sure Evadne had a bunch of trauma to work through with her stepfather changing his whole entire attitude on a complete#Apollo doesn't directly interfere with their lives after Iamus is born up until Iamus comes looking for him but he was definitely keeping#a very close eye on them all through their lives#Ugh I'm sick I'm so sick in the head thinking about them#apollo#evadne#iamus#greek mythology#ginger chats about greek myths
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Hobie, looking at old photos: who’s this lady?
Miles: oh that’s my mom when she was like in her early 20’s, she was really into goth stuff… i think she got arrested right after this photo though bc of a protest
Hobie:
Miles: stop giving me that look i’m never letting you near her.
#miles: stop giggling and twirling your hair it’s weird / hobie who wants to meet this woman so badly bc he admires her so much: 🥺🥺#not in a crush way lol but genuine admiration and to hear that she used to be goth and ALSO go to protests when she was younger???#he’s going to kill miles and take his place . well no im being dramatic but he would say that#i think hobie and rio’s meetings can be something so personal. woman who doesn’t have the time or energy most days to do the things she+#used to be into / still likes & the younger person who wishes they were born at the same time so they could be friends. aguh#i’m thinking rio was like. romantic goth#well she dressed like it but she listened to all types of goth music#but yknow. family pressures + dreams of being a nurse and worried they wouldn’t hire her or take her seriously#miles morales#spiderman#spider man#hobie brown#spider punk#spiderpunk#m&m posts
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What I say: I wish I was born a boy.
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What I actually mean: I wish I was a boy in an 80s film with a group of friends who all play baseball and love each other dearly. We all love to play fight and wrestle which leads to tickle fights. We make fun of each other, but we also have deep conversations around a campfire or in a treehouse we built ourselves. We look at the stars sitting on each other’s roofs and catch frogs by the pond. We don’t have anywhere to be expect with each other and we don’t have anything to do expect be young and be happy.
#by the way I don’t identify as trans#I just relate to experiences guys specifically from 80s films go through and wish I could experience it with friends of mine#I want to be a boy but I like being a girl but I don’t like being a woman but I don’t want to be a man#gender is so fun you guys ✨#tickle fluff#I wish I was born a boy#ticklish guy#ticklish guys#80s movie tickle
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The situation I posted about is mostly funny but I do think it makes me feel alienated from some people (largely certain women because it's my main reference group) dkkdld. Like oh you guys truly have never had to contemplate your gender/enforced gender norms/gendered choices and gendered benefits/punishments, you truly think that all of your choices and actions are simply personal and not societally steered and socially rewarded/punished 😅 like y'all are comfortable with your conformity to an extent where you don't even notice how little freedom there is sometimes dkkdksks
#i also have complicated feelings because i don't believe in abolishing gender or anything :/ but like dkskldkd#is there a word for when you're a cis woman but you're viscerally uncomfortable with certain expected social roles and gender performances#its not gender nonconforming i conform in a lot of if not most ways. but i'm uncomfortable a lot skkssk#i think its also a special kind of uncomfortable when you know you're not trans (nonbinary or otherwise). like huh there really is no way#out of the force fem panopticon that everyone pretends is normal and even feminist JSKDKDKDK#and especially with the recent 'internalised misogyny' discourse where you have to bootlick choice feminism JSKSKDK#(= trip over yourself validating people for conforming to gendered expectations and telling them its ok for women to be feminine etc shit)#i wish i could just dress the way i want and look the way i do and be a woman but everyone just decides to give me all of the privileges#and prioritisations that are societally afforded to straight cis men of an otherwise similar position to me in society#but that i'd still be a girl and people would refer to me as such jdkdld. just without the misogyny#also i hate makeup and 'feminine grooming' and rituals related to appearance/expectations of participating in those. and policing#what an acceptable female body looks like and medicalising anything out of the norm#(i've ranted abt this before but if i was born 20ish years earlier i would have been given GROWTH STUNTING PILLS. TO MAKE SURE I STAY SHORT#AND CAN STILL GET CISHET MARRIED TO A MAN. as you know women's main purpose is to look attractive to a husband. if youre tall youre an uggo#sorry this all makes me so mad dkkdkdkd#thank god i have more bodily autonomy than i would have had earlier but 🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲 things are still depressing in so many ways#i think i should just have been lesbian crown prince rudolf
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the friend ive had for longest has the most incorrect opinions ever and idk what to do abt it like i cannot fix her but i also cant stop being friends w her at least functionally bc it would make family stuff horrendous
#basically weve been friends since essentially b4 i was born like she used to listen to my mothers belly#while she was pregnant and our families have been friends for decades#and shes been thru a lot w me and we have a lot of shared experiences that no one else could get etc etc but . MEIN GOTR#like we havent been close for yrs now but sometimes it still makes me cringe she will refuse to address nb ppl by the correct pronouns#and she follows her parents' anti-palestine opinions (i rly tried to talk to her abt it but her logic is so fucked and she will not listen#to an actual line of reasoning) etc etc like she knows im gay but i can never come out to her etc etc#anyway#its so weird man#but if we stop being friends it will make things so so so so awkward idk#we rarely ever talk anyway but i rly wish there was a way to fix her
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Can't believe Scar saw a rapidly approaching, dishevled mumbo and went "he's so cute." I need to run unorthodox experiments on them.
IKR SAME OMG
They’re literally perfect for each other <- delusional
But seriously they have so much lore together in my silly brain and the few interactions they do have (WHICH HAS BEEN INCREASING A LOT LATELY MAY I ADD) has been FUELING the fire rapidly and gods gods GODS do I have many thoughts about them
#literally making an illustration type comic on Mumbos whole vampire timeline#Scar will be next with his vex schenanigans..#the worst part is I always cycle like three to five different backstory’s in my brain for these two I CANNOT decide#but now that I’ve written a short ficlet (that no one will see unless asked) abt a few scenes of Mumbos backstory I think I’m pretty set on-#-his part#Scar tho??? no clue#I have the Hotguy backstory (which I daydream about WAY too much) I have the apocalypse backstory. I have the single player raised by villa-#-gers for years and years cuz his mom dropped him off in the single player world when Scar wasn’t conscidered a player yet since he was an-#-infant cuz it was a teen pregnancy and she was too scared to tell anyone so she just dropped him off with the villagers never to be seen#again. and since it was technically HER single player world when Scar DID grow up old enough to be recognized as a player he couldn’t#access any of the 'exit world' stuff or anything like that since it wasn’t his world#and then like a watcher or smth pulled him out of it so that Scar could be put through the horrors of gun related things for experimentstuff#and then there’s the backstory of where scar IS a watcher. like not a person turned watcher he was BORN (if you could say that) a watcher#and like the other watchers wanted to do an experiment of basically 'could a watcher if stripped of its memories and placed in a people-#-world be able to produce its own feelings and emotions?' and so they did that to Scar but they didn’t place him there as a baby no. they#placed him there as a full grown man so bros even more confused. and when the life series stuff started he had exactly one ☝️ dream per#Series and it was tiny little snippets of his watcher self but he didn’t know that it’s him but like he felt a strange pull towards these#dreams so that’s basically the reason why he kept coming back to the life games even tho they hurt him deeply as we all know#and then when he won secret life the secret keeper asked him what his wish was now that he’s won and he didn’t ask to know who he was and#where he came from (since he just appeared one day as a full grown man with no identification) since he’s made peace with that maybe it is#better not to know. so instead he asked abt the dreams he always has in these series and wth their abt and the context and stuff#and then BAM the secret keeper just drops all that information on him and he has an identity crises :D#anyways. I put both of these guys through many horrors I just have so many ideas for scar specifically. oh also there’s that backstory where#hes an assasin guy and he feels rlly guilty abt it when he gets split in half (gtws and btws) cuz like he has morals now apparently?? also#it explains the scammer stuff cuz he was a HUGE scammer bacl them#asks#hermitcraft#goodtimeswithscar#mumbo jumbo#redscape
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I don't care when people don't include me in stuff, I'm used to it but-----
my own family going on a trip w/o even asking me kinda felt
shit 🫠
#like i understand cuz they gave up on trying to talk to me butttttttt#why the fuck am i the villain in the story even like this 😭#its okay if u dont give a fuck abt me. but at least dont make me feel like i deserve it lol#like yes sorry but i have a reason for lowkey disliking all of you#and i know damn well all of you know why#yet they always say that it makes no sense i behave this way#behave this way means keeping my healthy distance and trying to move out asap#i dont spread hate and im not an asshole with them???#but me not acting all lovey dovey is a problem too#yes idk i always think i should cherish that they are still alive and i could better my relationship with them but#What to do when you can see your own dad literally hating you#like when he talks to me he always does so in a cynical and angry way#man im sorry i was born and shit its kind of your fault for not using a condom :/#lol okay i think imma delete this later but yes#yes i hate it that the only people i feel loved by are de*d ffsssssssssssssss#like all is well lately but i wish! love wouldn't only exist in my head man! im happy this way but when i realize the situation its kind of#pathetic and idk until how long#can i keep on staying sane like this lol#im kind of already insane if we think abt it but how long will it take me to lose my marbles completely 😭#yes this crisis was spiraled by just me not being included in a trip i wouldnt have gone to regardless if they asked me#but yes like. Idk they could have just told me at least😭 i called my sis in the morning and she responded like 10 hours later that they are#w dad and a womannn doing some funsies eating pancakes n shit 👻👻#i hate pancakes and i hate myself but 👻#im jealous of you guys frrrrr🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛ for being so normal n happy 🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛
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bedtime nowww probably ummm today qas not what i wanted it 2 be but its fine. i dont feel negative just a very very very numb day which is almost worse. but only almost 🙏
#i did get thr laundry done didnt fold it didnt take a shower#so thatll hopefuly be tmrw#i hope im able to do an activity with somebody tmrw.... the kids will be back at school so umm. no risk of weeman asking for my laptop in#the morning. or maybe me n lamp could play aa... idk#i feel like such a loser i go 1 day without bothering my family and im like wahhh im lonely. Can you shut up ..... we r better than this.#but wtvr. thats also a mean thought and i shouldnt be idolizing the way i lived last year. We were taking spongebaths and eating#1 bowl of soup a day crying ourselves to sleep every night and literally going weeks on end wo talking to our loved ones. so why am i like#We need to go back ! well i know why its bc i cant just let myself heal and move on bc of my stupid complex#and tbf i was very efficient back then. i ws able to do my spongebaths at least every 3 days and i did my laundry every week right on#schedule and i had a job....all it took was literally not being a person in any meaningful way FJFNGJGN. idk#it was very simple. its still very simple perhaps simpler (#no job) but instead i just feel guilty i guess. sbt everything#which i ws doing last year but again i was too out of it to rly dwell. i just cried at work a lot abt it#but now its like. i dont have a job to go to to focus on. my interests/hobbies can only distract me for a few days maximum b4 they become#nothing 2 me. and then im just back in limbo again and it feels pointless#and even when its a 'good' phase of something actually keeping me distracted from everything its like. not. all it does is ruin my sleep#schedule again yk. ik im literally the timeloop guy so u think id loveee Everyday being exactly the same over and over and over but well i#dont. bc they arent actually the same day theyre just reminders that everything does keep fucking going but im stuck. which is the opposite#of what i want. and what id have if the beautiful timeloop would simply rescue me. wtvr tho.... she doesnt even know i exist 😥#little joke. IDK. like i said its better ig than having a truly miserable day but. man. i wish everything was better#i ws gonna say like it used to be but. yk. ive been depressed since i was like 7 its not like. idk. i wish i was born different and i wish#my head worked and i wish none of it had evrr happened. but itis ok. i cant think of a funny cutesy alternative to put here so we will just#say nothing. yay
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The more I think about it, the more I realize Supreme Leader really has an anti-immigrant/xenophobic streak. Her racism towards the Nabateans is rooted in that they're "different" from humans, and thinks it's their fault for everything that happened (even though the Agarthans are right there but they probably twisted the narrative). She suspects Claude and thinks he's from a different country and because of where he's from, thinks she doesn't have "sufficient knowledge" about Fodlan. I know people will bring up her Almyra speech during her paralogue but that's just talking, when push comes to shove she displays a much different attitude.
Hm,
I wouldn't go that far tbh.
However, Supreme Leader is an imperialist - remember the off-shoots? - which means that Adrestia will always be superior, in one way or another, to the country/states/territories she invades.
I don't think her line to Claude about having "sufficient knowledge" refered to his background, but more to hers : he doesn't know "Willy's Sekrit History" or Nabateans/Agarthans exist and aren't humans (not yet at least lol).
Still, if you think about it, this is a Supreme argument : no matter what Claude would have learnt (hell his paralogue is about meeting Macuil!) even if by some mistake he hears about Willy's Sekrit History, to Supreme Leader he would never have had enough knowledge because, well, he isn't her.
Bear in mind that in Nopes, she accepts his "alliance" after imparting him the "knowledge" she has (curiously we will never see what was in that letter she gave him save for Rhea'n'Seteth not being who they seem to be...) so I wonder if any kind of intel he could have gotten on his own would, at one point, be rewarded by Supreme Leader as acknowledgment that he has "enough" knowledge... or it still wouldn't be "enough", because it doesn't come from her?
You mentionned her Almyra convo in her own paralogue...
Who demonstrates her lack of "knowledge" here? lol
As if the Church of Seiros or religion was the reason why Almyra does its monday raids! Talking with them because they aren't religious or don't follow the Church of Seiros creed? Gonerils don't follow it either, and yet they've been fighting for their lives for centuries against raiders!
"When pushes come to shove" : do you mean Brigid? Because that is also another country that doesn't follow the Seiros religion... and we see how "reasonably" Adrestia treated them through the ages, hell, in non-CF routes, Brigid is still a vassal of Adrestia during the war so...
#anon#replies#Supreme Leader stuff#her rejection of Nabateans though is something as specific as the Crimean NPCs throwing stones at Ranulf in FE9#you can't be imperialist without a good dose of nationalism and xenophobia lol#granted it's not like you hate the 'others'#it's just that for now they suck but when you'll conquer them they'll stop sucking anymore#iirc in her Nopes battlequotes with Dimitri'n'Claude she has something like#praising them by wishing they were born in Adrestia which is all kinds of weird#but oddly fitting#they're so talented that they could have been Adrestians#playing BKEWLO and BKO where the games don't shy away#at depicting imperial asshats who think they're better than anyone else#really is a gut punch#the closest we got was imo SB Ferdie#saying bullcrap about Faerghus and crested people to demonstrate both his ignorance#and haughtiness like man doesn't even bother studying or researching what he's talking about#big 'those people are savages we must bring them civilisation even if i made up the savage part' vibes lol#FE16
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everyone say thank u to my roommate for going to visit her parents this weekend so I can jack it loud and nasty 🙏
#i love her but there are some benefits to having the flat to myself.... love getting to wander around in just my boxers + a tshirt too#things i could do while she was still here if i wasnt a pussy 🙄#jk itd just make her uncomfortable and im too respectful for that#having a lowkey crush on her is an endless comedy to me bc we would be so woefully incompatible romantically#and also sexually.. historically ive only ever stone topped bc ive never been comfortable enough w anyone to let them fuck me#despite very much Not being stone or exclusively a top. and i think shes some form of sex repulsed anyway so like. sits there dead silence#and also shes so in love with her other friends and i showed up late to that party.... ive been feeling kinda guilty lately bc ik-#she misses them a lot and wishes we'd be able to stay roommates w them too. and im a pretty poor replacement for them tbh#and i love spending time with her but whenever i do i feel kinda painfully aware im not them like i could never fill that space#and asking to hang out more with her always feels like im taking away from time she could be talking to them. or even being alone ik she-#likes her own company and i get that a lot too so its chill but ahh.. man#i dont mean this in a bitter or jealous way at all like theyre all such sweet ppl i couldnt ever hold it against them#theyre kind of a 3 headed cerberus type situation and im like. the stray puppy they found on the side of the road#theres nothing they can do differently i was just born to be alienated from other ppl forever until i die. and someday i hope ill-#finally get used to it and accept i wont ever feel like im enough for anyone else or feel like anything else is enough for me#old wounds healed over 5082 times that still hurt to touch but i cant help pressing my fingers into them anyway bc its a familiar pain etc#anyway lost where i was going with this its just been on my mind again recently. i hate to be pitied i hate to feel like im only included-#bc they didnt want me to feel left out i hate feeling like a shoddy secondhand stand-in and its been a lot of that lately#also been a little annoyed bc sometimes it feels like shes trying to micromanage my social life and girl. we're not close enough for that#im sure its well intentioned but im not part of what they have going on i cant compete in that ring so dont try to push me into it..#ahhh. its all ok tho one of the guys is coming to visit next month which will be rly fun but ill try to give them some space too#its good at least im doing this processing now bc group situations can be spike traps of triggers for me sometimes#regardless of how good friends i am w ppl and ive already had a wobble a few weeks ago w how i cope and i dont want it to become a#fully fledged regular issue again bc its so hard to crawl back out of that pit. anyway losing coherence here im gonna stop rambling#and go make myself an early dinner and then back to drawing........#sorry for long tags if ur reading this blows u a kiss but go find a better use of ur time girl!!#.diaries
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also daily hozier:D
YEAHH lesgo cheering cheering /silly
#answering asks#chair asks#chair!!#ouhh nfwmb….#i’ve heard this one before but i do Not remember it#i remember thinking it was kross though CACKLES#OUHH GOD#“give your heart and soul to charity cause the rest of you the best of you belongs to me” AUGH#i think this is both killer and cross about each other. i dunno it’s kross some way some how i believe#if i was born a blackthorn tree id wanna be felled by you held by you fuel the pyre of your enemies AUGHH#this is so cross about killer and killer about cross and. and#augh#its too slow for me to like listen to regularly but man#some banger lines here#moments silence!!! this one’s funky#this is on my playlist and i’ve heard it before but i’ve. entirely forgotten where i got it#i think it was from you talking about it CACKLES#the reason comes on the common tongue of your loving me!!!!!#ouhh arsonist’s lullaby…#this kinda bangs actually#don’t you ever tame your demons but always keep them on a leash…..#i love how like slow and heavy it feels does. that make any sense#but my peace always depends on all the ashes in my wake augh#i Cannot think of anything coherent to say about it but it slaps#it’s one of those songs that makes me wish i could animate cause it puts an animatic in my head#man
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anyways i have some foals due to be born tomorrow morning so i'm gonna try to be excited to see how those turn out
#a few days ago i decided i needed stuff to look forward to#because so many depressing things kept happening#and each day i'd be like 'man i wish i could get something today to distract me' but by then it was too late#so i've been doing some experimental breeding in a horse game every day#so that i have exciting foals being born constantly#so if i'm sad i can have new foals right then#they take two to seven days to give birth#so that's why i have to do it in advance lol
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i feel the need to state that this is not about kickin it lmfaoo but i desperately think we need to have conversations and perhaps do some readings about how media can be extremely queer even if its not technically 'canonically' gay... it's getting dire out here and some of u are boring as hell and wrong and im tired of seeing it
#and many times esp in the case of comedies they can work on several levels to work for multiple audiences. simultaneously#should not egregiously detract from your enjoyment and to like. actively rate movies or shows etc awfully bc theyre not 'canon.' you ARE#stupid. to me<3#abby talks#i wish some of u could have been in scully's classes w me just cause youd love her. and then other people... u desperately need#some whacky mentor to help u see the beauty in the world..#most recent examples i can think of are all the reviews i saw of shes the man on letterboxd. u idiots there are so many ways#and moments to view in a queer way. DELIBERATELY. in a fun way!#it's a learning curve i know some of us were born to understand this but i urge u to expand ur mind
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who up experiencing double internalized homophobia
#'i can't like girls that's unnatural and disgusting'#'i can't ever be a real man if i like men'#CAN I EVER WIN?????????#also i get like physically ill at the idea of marrying a man? not even dating that's fine. just forever tying myself to a man fucks me up#i feel like if i marry a man best case scenario i'm always going to be a faggot worst case scenario i'll be a wife until death#when i daydream about relationships i'm always married to the women and only dating the men#god i wish i were just a straight trans man then i could just be a regular ass man who was born in the wrong body#i transition and i get a job at the office bs factory and marry a woman and adopt 2.5 kids. i know i still wouldn't be normal but i wish#i always imagine i'll be in a happy regular marriage and any past relationships with men was just me 'experimenting'#i know that's bs. i know i like men just as much as women but i wish that it's going to change. i know it won't. but i wish#idk why i think about this so much i literally play overwatch and collect criterions i can't get dick or pussy to save my life#i had an interaction with my mom most akin to the 'damn nobody want you fr fr' meme the other day#i get so few bitches my mom can't even be homophobic anymore she just needs me to fuck already because i'm an embarrassment#peter.txt
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i'm so out of it rn but apparently my eldest aunt's mother in law used to practice magic. in rural pakistan in the mid to early 20th centruy. she ran away from her village to marry the man she loved and was hated for it by the society around her. apparently people used to call her too cunning. she was also apparently famous in the villages nearby for her beauty.
i am really, really mad that i did not get to ever meet this woman.
#especially as someone who is now interested in paganism#like ancestral connection and magic are such an important part of the magicks and practices i've been looking into#and its always felt so difficult for me because i come from a muslim family and its like who the hell am i supposed to connect to??#i dont share a drop of blood with this woman but my heart aches to know her anyway#she was famous for her beauty. her first husband died and she was forcibly married to his brother.#she ran away from that marriage and married a man she loved. she practiced magic and had children and everyone talked shit about her for#being too cunning but she just kept on going despite the hardship#and idk. i feel like i might be putting this woman who died well before i was born on some type of pedestal but like !!!#in rural punjab during the 20th century this woman fought for her life to not be taken from her#and idk. i wish i could have met her#i mean even if she was alive i probably wouldnt have since my family have cut ties with her family#because her son cheated on my aunt but i really really wish i had met this woman once#limebug.txt
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