#i wish i could make it be ok
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i keep fucking having these moments of "Damn I am really fucked up..." and not gonna lie guys it's starting to get to me frfr.
#it's the constant 'no that's not a normal thing kids did. ytou shouldnt have been doing that when ou were a kid marq'#it's the constant reassuring myself that im a good person despite where i come from and who i used to be#it's the way i have had actual real fucking trauma that i downplay because '*shrug* what are you gonna do'#like NO marq it is supremely fucked up you lost three people who were important to you over a course of six months#it is supremely fuked up that msot of your family didnt show up to your wedding#it is supremely fucked up that you weren't even married for a full year yet before your mom died#it is supremely fucked up you didnt spend christmas with your mom that year and you are living witht hat guilt#it is supremely fucked up that you had to walk through the remnants of the burned building where your mom died#to sift through all the burnt sit to find just ONE thing that could be saved so you could have something of hers#you are a severely fucked up person marq#none of this is ok!#i wish i could make it be ok#there's so much love#but so much other shit in me#id ont know how to keep dealing with this.#delete later
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stardew valley marriage candidates
#stardew valley#oh dear god character tagging. ok here we go#sdv alex#sdv elliot#sdv harvey#sdv sam#sdv sebastian#sdv shane#sdv abigail#sdv emily#sdv haley#sdv leah#sdv maru#sdv penny#it's like memorising an entire homeroom class#I JUST WANTED TO SEE HOW THEY'D TRANSLATE INTO MY STYLE#bros the concept of this town full of bisexuals that could want you is so funny#like I have mostly just been farming but it makes me laugh when I remember#ah yes. bisexual town#obv that's an umbrella term in this context and you're free to HC them whatever you wish#I just think bisexual town has so much potential for shenanigans
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I have been sketching. So much tma. Here's some expansions on my Jon and Martin designs I've been doing.
Another note I forgor to mention is I love how after hearing Simon go "it's enough to make your hair turn white" about Martin's office in s4 many of us collectively agreed his hair turned white because of his association with the Lonely. The shared consciousness is real and we use it to play hot potato with the communal brain cell dedicated to the sillies.
Closeup of apocalypse boyfriends (also to the person who said they love my s5 Jon's fancy white girl updo: I think about that every day)
#s5 Jon in his white girl era#whatever the fuck that means#I'm still not done w the archives cuz busy n stuff but Jon needs to let Martin know wtf goin on#God may work in mysterious ways but you do not have to. Communicate with your man please#my art#the magnus archives#tma fanart#tma#tma season 5#tma spoilers#jonathan sims#tma podcast#martin blackwood#tma jmart#jmart#jmart fanart#jonmartin#there's so much going on in these and I am not sorry welcome to my chaotic mind#hope y'all read the tags cuz I need to announce before I fully make my Jon character sheet that his favorite band is linkin park#it's so funny and just right#tbf linkin park goes hard I'm tired of pretending it doesnt#but come on he totally was totally an edgey prick when he was younger#and older. he hasnt changed huh#anygays he totally loves linkin park and type o negative and three days grace and green day and evanescence#georgie was a paramore girlie I just know it#wish gerry were here he and jon would jam to type o negative so much :( and jon could introduce him to this cold night :(((#ok enough byeeeee
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how do transmascs not want to kill themselves all the time honestly
#i experience transphobia and hardship in my daily life#and then i go home and go on my computer and learn that i dont experience any of that actually#im just pretending. and i shouldnt talk about it because im just a fake trans#who wishes his experiences could even measure up to a crumb of what real trans people (women) have to go through#ok cool.#testosterone is a controlled substance did you know that. my state is actively making it harder for people my age to access hrt#but i guess since im transmasc i dont actually have to worry about any of that! im fine!#i didnt have a 3 month time limit before it would be illegal for me to access hrt! im transmasc im too privileged to worry about that!#transphobia#transandrophobia
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happy valentines day... 2!
#you mind if i post month old art i never finished#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#emu otori#proseka#tsukasa tenma#nene kusanagi#rui kamishiro#I WAS MAKING POLYSHO VALENTINES ART AND NEVER FINISHED IIIT. NO TIME. I GOTTA GO#omfg wait i have the cyberpunk desd boy art i never finished um youll get that later too bc idk when i'll have something new to post .#well if tumbltbr never got it does it even count. I think not. wxs killing me rn snd i cant even draw about it#ok adios#youll get month late white day themed art too probably#omfg someone on twt asked if they could Cosplay the tsukasa that made me feel insane because 1 what a compliment lord in heaven#but 2. Please dont do that toyourself i cant imagine having to fuckig sew any of this. as i sew right now i would never wish it upon anyone
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hey in ur peri animatic: (https://youtu.be/OCqlRuDaXYU?si=K52WDu_vw9rg7chz) that I have been permanently obsessed over since today and have watched about 20 times by now so much that I have drawn & posted stuff based on it what was that partial bug form peri had?
I haven’t watched either of the show btw so if it’s explained in the show please tell me plsssss
OK, SO the bug thing is not technically canon to the series. It's based on my own headcanons for fairy biology, but i do have justifications for it!! Fairies have very strong shape-shifting abilities, so it would make sense that the form they show to humans isn't necessarily their true form(not to mention extreme that mimicry is very common in insects). And you want to know the visible traits almost every fairy has in common? Being very small with Insect-like wings.
The fact that their humanoid form isn't their true form in actually confirmed in the show! Cosmo and Wanda are revealed to look like biblically accurate pseudo-angels in the museum episode. (I say pseudo angels because the Flaming Sword of Eden is only debatably sentient and I don't think is considered an angel. Ophanim are also debatably not angels because they don't have wings (sorry for the angel tangent I like angels))
So wouldn't their true forms be angelic then? Well, yes. But I like bugs so. Also I have more headcanons to justify myself. I like to think that they have both a true-true form (incomprehensible to the human brain, probably exists mostly in a dimension invisible to us, that looks how we imagine biblically accurate angels), and a fairy form (which is visible to humans but is naturally very insect like and tends to scare people). So, in order to interact with humans, they have to learn to shapeshift into a humanoid form but will occasionally slip if they get too relaxed/aren't careful, hence the mandibles coming out when he yawns!
The reason they struggle so much more with human forms than the animals or objects they typically turn into is that, well, they aren't trying to convince those animals or objects. The more human they try to look, the harder it is to keep up convincingly. If you turn into a really uncanny squirrel, only other squirrels will notice. If you turn into a really uncanny human, they form a lynch mob and burn you at the stake.
#fop#fairly oddparents#fairly oddparents a new wish#fop a new wish#headcanons#ok I think I said everything I wanted to#my brain has so many useless thoughts bouncing around in there#their bright colors would also imply that they are poisonous to eat#my personal theory is that Jorgen is half human idk how else to explain whatever he is. tall. no wings. that or he's something else entirel#maybe he's a higher rank of angel#fairies are definitely a type of angel in this world#but they don't seem to line up with any specific rank as far as I can tell#they behave most like I'd expect a Guardian angel to which could make Jorgen an Archangel or Principality#but Ophanims are in the first sphere of heaven which. uh I don't think it's right#to be clear I'm not even religious im just way too into angels#Uhhhh anyway I guess the moral of the story is that I did that just because I wanted to an because nobody could stop me#Actually Im just thinking about this now#I mostly drew baby poof without bug features to keep his design uncluttered visually#but fairies having naturally very human looking larva would explain how changelings happen#something something evolution. mutualism. those parasite birds. idk#ok im out of thoughts now seriously this time youre free now#speculative biology
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if you're stretching for shadowclan cats to use:
antpelt is mistakenly listed as from shadowclan in battles of the clans, and the wiki had him as a different character for a while. he also has an unnamed apprentice
shredtail is also mistakenly listed in shadowclan during bramblestar's storm
I am absolutely at the point where I'm willing to make absolutely ABSURD stretches. I'm affectionately calling all the extra cats I'm scrounging up from writer mistakes and background scenes "ShadowClan's Glitch Warriors." Thank you so much for pointing these three out, they're going in the list.
Suddenly, I was struck with an absolutely hilarious idea. Partner wanted something fun to draw but still has read absolutely nothing about Warriors, so I pitched;
"I will tell you nothing about these characters or who they are except their names. Draw a Shredtail, an Antpelt, and Antpelt's apprentice. TOTAL freedom over the designs here."
First they drew this lmao,
"This is a joke," they clarified
"NO I LOVE IT," I said, "KEEP GOING"
So we got Dollar Tree Shredtail, Great Value Antpelt, and the best thing I've ever seen in my life. Once they put these designs down, we talked personality and differentiators from the canon counterparts while they colored and refined them;
I loved the bushy gaster tail so much that I swore on the spot I was going to work it upwards into a whole bloodline, including the very obscure background warrior in AVOS, Wasptail. So even though they're mentor and apprentice in BOTC, I've decided these two will also be related. Probably siblings, or auncle/nespring.
The little black one is based off an Admiral Butterfly (it was my idea to make the little spots on their chest look like medals), so the name seems clear to me. Admiralpaw. Xey'll be meewa unless another gender works better; and I'm planning for xem to go out during a bloody battle against The Kin in true admiral style.
(funfact; admiral butterflies are extremely territorial. Males fight each other for control of a plant to attract females to.)
Warrior name is still undecided, though. Open to suggestions, leaning towards Admiralflight or Admiralflower.
Not-Antpelt I'm having name troubles with. I REALLY wanted to name them Majorheart, after a major ant, to keep the "military ranking + bug" pun that Addy's got... but it seems that none of the ants in this area would have a major caste. B'awww.
In the meanwhile, Antspot works fine. Alatefang or Dronepelt could work, too. Feel free to shout out suggestions, this guy's name and gender aren't set in stone.
Lastly, here's Diet Shreddy. Girl now <3
She is 100% going to be killed during The Battle of the True Eclipse, keeping consistent with the mistake in Bramblestar's Storm where Blackstar mournfully calls out the name of a Dark Forest warrior. I'm also undecided on if the actual Shredtail himself dies during that battle in BB, it might just be her.
In any case, she's probably going to be a TPB girl. If she's born during Brokenstar's time, she's one of the younger ShadowClan cats to take part in the WindClan Massacre. Might even be an early apprentice at the time, in a similar situation to Badgerfang (though in BB this was a one-time thing). If not during Brokenstar, then sometime during Nightstar's brief reign.
Right now she has no family, she's in my "reserves" at the side to use as a patch between generations. Her name is probably going to be either Tattertail or Shredclaw, given as an Honor Title after the Battle of BloodClan.
So she had a previous warrior name as well. She seems like the kind of troublemaker who would have the prefix Sike-- a small stream that dries up in summer. Sikestripe, if her name was given by Nightstar, or Sikestrike, if it was given by Tigerstar. Maybe it was one and then the other, in a sign of disrespect to his predecessor's lie.
#Then I lulled partner to sleep by streaming me working on the ShadowClan Family Tree#Small update for all concerned; Thank you for all the well wishes. They're doing ok#As OK as you can be in this situation. It comes and goes in waves.#We've been doing lots of nice stuff while hanging out all day. Soup. Video games. Stories. Rest.#They asked me for some nature prompts because plants are relaxing to draw#So I'm going to try making some guides specifically to their requests#But anyway--#I'm compiling lots of ��glitch warriors” so I can mark down EXACTLY where they come from and their descriptions.#So far I've counted like 3 silver tabbies#This is extremely funny because there are TWO adult cats who could be called 'silver tabbies' alive during that time in TPB#Neither of them are actually silver tabbies (Boulder is solid gray and Archeye is a gray tabby).#And one of the 3 unnamed silver tabbies is a queen.#Btw I want to open up a like... 'Let's pick some names and personalities!' thing somehow for a lot of these Glitch Warriors#Because it sounds like fun and I like the spirit of collaboration with these guys#Plus I know some people really love the biome-accurate prefixes I can provide so this is a nice opportunity#Better Bones AU#bone babble#bug#ant#cw bug#ant cat
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words cannot describe how happy i am that heket remains lamb's #1 hater in the entire world even after her cleansing
#i haven't drawn anyone from this game other than monch in so long. lmao#the new update has infused me with so many THOUGHTS!! it's driving me CRAZY#i had to draw this scene because this dialogue makes me sooo . happy. i love how angry she is. i love that she STAYS angry.#while everyone else feels more at peace she's still pissed off and i love that for her. heket they could never make me hate you#i think. while i don't much care for the bishops overall because i'm an npc enjoyer until the end. i think this solidified#heket as my favorite bishop . like I wish they didn't heal her voice for whatever fucking reason BUT. i can ignore mm's stupid ass decision#and focus on the less stupid ass decisions. <3#ok i'm done talking now. i drew this impulsively i can't stop thinking about this scene#cult of the lamb#cotl#cotl heket#cotl lamb#cotl unholy alliance#cotl spoilers#clamart
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computer enhance
#zeno's art#ocs#ultimate x calibur#nova starbridge#long time no nova#ok im so tired#WELL#tavia krank onion vivica lunette needles+pins jaundice novo ANDDD smithereens are all on artfight i think#i will TRY to get the quintet all on there#i wish i could have cavity and angel but i dont know.......#i have to work on a zine piece and comms on top of these#but i will make time to do revenges and stuff#its gonna be a bit busy but fun
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playing around w/ the landgraabs
#nancyyyy 🙇♀️#ok i based this version of her makeover on an edit someone on simblr did of her like a year or two ago but i cant remember their url!!#it was like bella nd nancy and i think they were both secret agents?? ugh i wish i could find it but ya i made her a secret agent c:#the sims 4#simblr#s4mm#ts4 gameplay#ts4#s#AND i plan on re-doing johnny zest but this time he's still a landgraab and he was given one of the landgraab companies to take over--#so he's still in his copro era before he becomes mr funny man does that make sense/???
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sending my love !!!! from the other side of !!!!!! the apocalypse !!!!!!!!
#revolutionary girl utena#rgu#shoujo kakumei utena#sku#tenjou utena#utena tenjou#utena#himemiya anthy#anthy himemiya#anthy#utena x anthy#utenanthy#utenthy#anthy x utena#biruesque art#comic#to no one's surprise. another one inspired by love from the other side#listen. listen ok. its so utenanthy core#i wish i could project all the amvs and animatics in my head#but instead god gave me a pen and im about to make that everyone elses problem
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#sleep token#CAUSE THESE DAYS#I WOULD BE LYING IF I TOLD YOU THAT#I DIDN'T WISH THAT I COULD BE YOUR MAN#OR MAYBE MAKE A GOOD GIRL BAD#ok to rb#*#anyway listen to the summoning#listen to sleep token
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Thanks for the tag @reedact3d ☺️. I had…a shitty day (I mean, for obvious reasons but also life is crushing me).
Tagging some new peeps and some frenz @lutescent @dimitris-dream @nildurumvolenti @kine11 @britt-the-bratt @alpae-cottiae
#me#myself#selfie#make new friends but keep the old one is silver and the other’s gold#so many people don’t post their faces but I wish I could give you a shout out anyway#ok but seriously can I just crawl under a rock? I’m smol and sad and scared ok thanks#an evil rodent chewed my engine harness wires
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weird guy. peculiar creature even.
#for the 3d model i wanted to do a cool pose BUT I FORGOT TO SPLIT HIS ARMS AND LEGS INTO TWO PARTS#no knee batter </3#he has no elbows aswell#off the batter#off batter#the batter#batter off#off game#low poly#3d model#blockbench#art#artists on tumblr#may have used some parts from ashleys model but thats ok#look making heads is hard#i should probably watch some tutorials#but i am. lazy#if anyone has tips for how to make them posable please help.. i am clueless#i wish you could rig it like a gmod character#that would be nice#scotcharts#scotchdoesthings#<almost forgot my tags
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woe, doodles be upon ye
#could you tell I watched hxh. CRAZY THAT IT HAS SO MANY OF MY FAVORITE TROPES#I’m not allowed to talk about it though bc I’ll spoil my friend. Hi dips. Otherwise my Kite art would be in this one#also wow. Mario fanart!!#NEVER make paper with seaweed worst mistake of my life. I did put Mario horror game art on it but overall terrible experience personally#and of course. Mob psycho takes up the most room. I’m still here folks you can’t make me leave#ok tags now#cowardly draws#mp100#mob psycho 100#shigeo kageyama#dimple#mp100 dimple#reigen arataka#Teruki hanazawa#see there’s technically context to the flowey ones that make it not undertale but feel free to tag that if you wish#hxh#hunter x hunter#hxh pitou#gon freecss#btw my favorites are kite pitou and gon. Which is really obvious I bet#super mario#mario bros#mario the music box#mtmb#shoutout to ollie bandtrees for telling me about that one#I totally didn’t spend hours trying to get every ending#DEAR LORD THESE TAGS ARE A YAPFEST#erm. if you made it this far congrats on getting through my deranged rambles????
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tw sh!!
#tw sh#cw sh#sh#blood#really trying to make sure people who DON'T want to see anything of this sort. don't!#i really wish i could somehow make a post required to un-spoiler for everybody#even if their content settings are a certain way#because. i care abt that kind of thing#my art#furry#stars#i am OK btw i am not in danger or anything like that
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