#i wish he loved me

[another-0ddity]

I hate my limerence mind.

It’ll be the death of me.

Abandonment once loved, SUCKS. But honestly what I think is worse,,, being the only one in love or the only one obsessed. With an LO (limerence obsession/limerence object). I fear rejection.

Though sometimes with an LO I get that delusional that I think they’re in love with me too, then they act cold or distant and I feel abandoned. It’s so hard trying to explain this and put it into words. I hate that I don’t even understand my own fkn borderline mind.

My LO I think is also my FP. But (in my moments of clarity) everything is one-sided. And it’s just even more painful.

[lilbluebastard]

I wish he’d bust it open for me

[anotherbpdbitch]

i feel so horribly alone and unwanted

[kintsukuroi-babes]

I keep re-reading his last message to me. It hurts a lot. I honestly thought he loved me. All he was trying to do by saying these is cut me as deep as possible.

💔

[cheesecakeislazy]

Sometimes when I scroll through Tumblr, I’m like “Damn bitch you downbad as hell” when in reality? I’m just talking to myself.

I’m literally blushing so hard reading some of y’all fanfics… sigh Kenji Sato from fucking Ultraman: Rising should not be my ideal man.

[whydoyoudothisme]

we’re on the phone and he’s not talking to me but his phone is vibrating and he’s laughing…

[daddyhitsmehard]

I’m currently so starved for touch. I can nearly feel the ache in my core. I can hear it calling out, needing a hug. A cuddle would mean so much right now. I miss having the touch of someone who cares.

[lovely--swan]

i love like a dog

[airforcedugongsempty]

I don't even know what to do anymore

You know it's bad when even your boyfriend doesn't give a shit anymore. He's so unfazed by me mentioning either wanting to not eat or feeling an immense amount of guilt when I do. He gets so discouraged and annoyed that at this point, he just does not give a fuck. He just accepts things the way they are and thinks I'm not doing anything special. He has such a "if you wanna" attitude that makes me feel fatter than fucking ever because he's obviously never going to be concerned again. He was concerned before I gained weight, which I only did because he would convince me I deserved to eat and help me not feel guilty. Now, he just tunes me out and says he trusts me to make the right decision.

I'm trying- I really am- I'm trying so hard to be right for him and hold off eating but I fucking can't when he acts like nothing I do will change the way I look at all. How I feel holds no importance to him. Its not his fault, though, he's just sick and tired of trying to convince me to eat that now, after seeing I never starve for long enough for it to matter, he's just given up. He knows I'm not in any real danger. He'll learn one day when shit kicks in that maybe he should've cared. By then, he'll beg me to eat, and it'll be too late. If only.

[differentcycleobject]

I know if i text you again it'll start to get pathetic

[un-spokentry]

Bury me

Bury me inside of you

Let my breathing be subdued

Squeeze my bones until they break

Scratch me up until I bleed

Watch what you say to me

I may believe you, until you leave

Ill be running after you down the street

I will chase you on repeat

You’re the last thought I have before I sleep

You’re what I think of when I peak

Kill me

Slowly

Swiftly

However you wish

Just please my love,

Give me it.

[hers-underwraps]

Stop

Some guy just asked me what my favourite form of the cosine rule was and I wanted to melt into a puddle

[miiraa-selene]

just got broken up with

[kintsukuroi-babes]

I miss him so much:(

[lightpost]

I felt the magic in the air tonight I really thought I did anyways... I put on my headphones went down to the lake and danced cause no one watching and there was magic in the air... I even cried sitting on the bench talking to you at how much it hurts to miss you, how much it hurts to go to a place and know a few people and still end up forgotten, ignored and presences taken like a grain of sand cause money talks and drunk people are loud when it comes their money and when you don't drink and have no money it shows so people tend to distance themselves from me its like they can smell almost. I really missed you today. I hurts to miss you this badly everything screams I'm missing you. An empty chair next to me screams at me the empty presences you have in my life... everyone notices the hurt it brings so they stay away from me like the plague... me missing you has become disease others would rather not be apart of... I don't know who I am without love I am a person who needs love I come to life when I am in love and I've never truly been in love before but you and when you aren't in my life my life doesn't live, it doesn't work the way it needs too cause you are the key I need to open that door for things and people to notice me so I can come to life... my own family doesn't even see me or care about me unless there is a man in it and they see that man and start noticing me but they treat him better than they will treat me so at least you'll have that when you come into my life... you'll be treated like a King and I'll be treated like dirt but no matter what you will be cared for and treated like a King.. and I'll at least start getting noticed as your property. I don't know I thought tonight had something to do it guess I was wrong and just wanted to dance a bit and write at how much missing you hurts I cried and talk to spirit alone at the park. I hope your July 27, 2024 Saturday night is going good. Funny how even 27 adds up to 9 and you spoke me to on the 9th of December in 2012 all those years ago and your voice still affects me in every way. Almost 12 years later.... Missing you hurts so badly every aspect of my life hurts just missing you. I wish you knew.

[whydoyoudothisme]

After being cheated on by two people who I thought loved me I’m convinced I will never experience what it means to be loved correctly, there will always be another girl, I will never be enough…