#i wish he loved me

[another-0ddity]

I hate my limerence mind.

It’ll be the death of me.

Abandonment once loved, SUCKS. But honestly what I think is worse,,, being the only one in love or the only one obsessed. With an LO (limerence obsession/limerence object). I fear rejection.

Though sometimes with an LO I get that delusional that I think they’re in love with me too, then they act cold or distant and I feel abandoned. It’s so hard trying to explain this and put it into words. I hate that I don’t even understand my own fkn borderline mind.

My LO I think is also my FP. But (in my moments of clarity) everything is one-sided. And it’s just even more painful.

[lilbluebastard]

I wish he’d bust it open for me

[anotherbpdbitch]

i feel so horribly alone and unwanted

[kintsukuroi-babes]

I keep re-reading his last message to me. It hurts a lot. I honestly thought he loved me. All he was trying to do by saying these is cut me as deep as possible.

💔

[whydoyoudothisme]

After being cheated on by two people who I thought loved me I’m convinced I will never experience what it means to be loved correctly, there will always be another girl, I will never be enough…

[cheesecakeislazy]

Sometimes when I scroll through Tumblr, I’m like “Damn bitch you downbad as hell” when in reality? I’m just talking to myself.

I’m literally blushing so hard reading some of y’all fanfics… sigh Kenji Sato from fucking Ultraman: Rising should not be my ideal man.

[daddyhitsmehard]

I’m currently so starved for touch. I can nearly feel the ache in my core. I can hear it calling out, needing a hug. A cuddle would mean so much right now. I miss having the touch of someone who cares.

[lovely--swan]

i love like a dog

[airforcedugongsempty]

I don't even know what to do anymore

You know it's bad when even your boyfriend doesn't give a shit anymore. He's so unfazed by me mentioning either wanting to not eat or feeling an immense amount of guilt when I do. He gets so discouraged and annoyed that at this point, he just does not give a fuck. He just accepts things the way they are and thinks I'm not doing anything special. He has such a "if you wanna" attitude that makes me feel fatter than fucking ever because he's obviously never going to be concerned again. He was concerned before I gained weight, which I only did because he would convince me I deserved to eat and help me not feel guilty. Now, he just tunes me out and says he trusts me to make the right decision.

I'm trying- I really am- I'm trying so hard to be right for him and hold off eating but I fucking can't when he acts like nothing I do will change the way I look at all. How I feel holds no importance to him. Its not his fault, though, he's just sick and tired of trying to convince me to eat that now, after seeing I never starve for long enough for it to matter, he's just given up. He knows I'm not in any real danger. He'll learn one day when shit kicks in that maybe he should've cared. By then, he'll beg me to eat, and it'll be too late. If only.

[differentcycleobject]

I know if i text you again it'll start to get pathetic

[un-spokentry]

Bury me

Bury me inside of you

Let my breathing be subdued

Squeeze my bones until they break

Scratch me up until I bleed

Watch what you say to me

I may believe you, until you leave

Ill be running after you down the street

I will chase you on repeat

You’re the last thought I have before I sleep

You’re what I think of when I peak

Kill me

Slowly

Swiftly

However you wish

Just please my love,

Give me it.

[ed-n]

[hers-underwraps]

Stop

Some guy just asked me what my favourite form of the cosine rule was and I wanted to melt into a puddle

[miiraa-selene]

just got broken up with

[whydoyoudothisme]

we’re on the phone and he’s not talking to me but his phone is vibrating and he’s laughing…

[kintsukuroi-babes]

I miss him so much:(