#i will put as many tags as i want its my art and im proud

[weskers-lapdog]

art yay I drew elijah for @clock0fmeantime

astounding to me that it took over 8 hours to finish i dont even sleep that long!!!

her tiara's jewels are the colour of her mask ^_^ and the metal is the stars of her robe and the feather(?) is the robes base yay

[soursherbat]

hiiiii im garrett (but you can also call me sterling, lamb, or sour!) this is my main blog 💕

🔞my bsky is here- NO MINORS! some tags:

🎨#g.png (art tag) / 🙏 #they of salvation au (mainline COTL au) / ☠ #divine parasite au ('bad end'/evil lamb au)

🌟i have a billion sideblogs but i never use them- as a result this blog is a big melting pot of interests and other posts! if you want only fandom content you may want to look elsewhere

🌟my current hyperfixation is cult of the lamb but i have many other interests! namely pokemon, d&d, fnaf, alien, sanrio, animal crossing, etc etc if i listed all of them this post would take a thousand years to read

🌟feel free to spam me!!!! i mean it. i love getting my notification box full of likes, reblogs, asks, mentions, anything! mutuals can also dm me if they'd like

🌟i don't give out my discord to non-mutuals sorry

🌟i self reblog a LOT!!! i like to bump my art in the timeline so everyone can see it! if you're wondering if ive posted sometimes this pin will be replaced with art im proud of 💗

🌟if you want to make fanart of my ocs or designs i would love to see it!!!!

✖ some boundaries;

do not ask for art requests unless ive made a post asking for them, please! this is just to prevent me from feeling overwhelmed

no asks about pregnancy or anything related please. asking for pairing babies is a different story though!

do not use they/them for me. my pronouns are it/its, friends and mutuals can also use he/him but i GREATLY prefer it/its

minors ignoring my many 18+ warnings are getting hard blocked sorry, it's to keep everyone safe!

my fandom art can be used elsewhere but PLEEEASE credit me with a link back to this blog!

i dont have other social media and i dont plan on making any, tumblr is the only place you'll be able to find me (aside from archive profiles) i caved and now i have a bsky for my nsft stuff-

do not use any feminine terms or pet names for me At All ever please-

putting some of my refs ive made under the cut for ease of access! [only my lambs and my main fursona atm-]

[sig-nifier]

twenty questions for writers

thanks sm @swifty-fox for the tag!! i love things like this.

tagging @magneticghouls and @onyxsboxes and literally anyone who fancies it

how many works do you have on ao3?

33!

what's your total ao3 word count?

155,902

what fandoms do you write for?

whatever tf the current fixation is. i've written for rooster teeth, our flag means death, buzzfeed unsolved, masters of the air, the eternals, and challengers! currently got a slow horses fic in the works :))

top five fics by kudos

i like the way your words taste - a fluffy druig/makkari oneshot with 860

wild things - a western gale cleven/john egan au with 849

the art of consumption - a smutty art/patrick fic with 780

make you feel alive - another gale cleven/john egan oneshot with 633

hitchhikers - a serial killer ryan begara/shane madej au with 485 (the first multichapter fic i wrote that got me an audience it was wild)

do you respond to comments?

ofc! i try and respond to every single one with at least a thank you

what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

a fic called stay with me, which ended in MCD.

what is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

i end most of my fics happily!

i think the happiest is probably wild things. everything works out for the better in that one

do you get hate on fics?

i dont! very grateful that everyones always so nice, makes me feel like the are you winning son meme

do you write smut?

i used to never write smut but something this year just had me writing so much of it and whilst it feels mostly awkward to write, people seem to like it!

craziest crossover?

i've never written any kind of crossover, and i don't like to read them either. i guess MOTA in the western genre is the closest i'll come.

have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of!

have you ever had a fic translated?

nope!

have you ever co-written a fic before?

also nope!

all time favorite ship?

ive been in fandoms since i was like 12, there's no way i can pick an all time favourite. it literally just depends on what im into at the time.

i really like inej/kaz from six of crows. i think scully/mulder is great. hannibal/will. ellie/dina. willem/jude.

off the top of my head i would say i'm most fond of the tenth doctor/rose. that one gets me.

what's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

i'm really starting to doubt my ability to finish seven miles out of freedom town. im gonna try my best but the hyperfixation has moved on and it feels more like a chore than something im enjoying rn. im really sorry to anyone that disappoints, it disappoints me too, cos wild things was genuinely some of the most fun i've ever had writing fic and interacting with a community. i'll try and get it finished, it might just take me a while.

what are your writing strengths?

i think im pretty good at dialogue, making it sound like something a real person would say.

i think im fairly decent at dramatic writing, at making things sound flowery and poetic and theatric. thats my favourite way to write.

dont think im too bad at characterisation most of the time.

what are your writing weaknesses?

i suck at worldbuilding. i think its boring and i dont care for it, i just want to write about the characters. planning bores me. i just write things and go back and fix inconsistencies later.

wild things is the most effort i've ever put into a world. i was googling locations like a mofo to make things accurate.

thoughts on dialogue in another language?

i think its great! one of my favourite fics has a character that speaks french and he uses it to tease other characters who don't know what he's saying. its done so beautifully.

first fandom you wrote in?

if we're talking actual first fandom it was probably one direction or creepy pasta when i was like 13.

the first fandom i ever wrote for seriously was buzzfeed unsolved in 2018.

favorite fic you've written?

im very proud of washed clean, an angsty oneshot about gale/john. i really like the writing in that one.

i dont think i can pick a favourite, i have like three. hitchhikers and the axeman of new orleans were my starting points and really showed me the joy of writing fic that other people were going to read. i had a lot of fun writing those and i love me some dark themes.

wild things consumed my every thought for like, the 11 days i was writing it. ive never been so obsessed with one of my own fics before, it still blows me away how well it was recieved and i met some great people through it so im eternally grateful for that.

yeehaw, y'all.

[astranite]

Fanfic self-rec!!

So a while ago I got tagged by @forest-falcon (im 99% sure), and I didn't get to it at the time, but I really wanted to do it! So here it is, very belatedly and based entirely off my memory of the post because I don't have the energy to conduct an archaelogical excavation of my blog as I can only hope I tagged it well.

~very paraphrased~ rec five(?) of your works and why you are proud of them. Then tag x amount of people. (I think it was also for art not just writing?)

Probably the most chaotic way of answering this. Also turned into a bit of me reflecting and musing over my writing.

But in no particular order as I'm proud of them for different reasons :)

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Blue Skies- tumblr Ao3 Scott and Bereznik with Gordon too. Very whumpy, then hurt/comforty. I am extremely proud of this one, like so so proud. There is a massive amount of emotion in it, written all in one go and I stayed up to 1 am to finish it. It is a lot about trauma and honestly a lot of putting feelings onto paper. But all the details, the parts I think i did a really good job of viscerally showing instead of telling, the blue skies theme. It's intense and there are many awful, painful things, but there is also hope. That's definitely a main theme of my writing: no matter what I put them through, they will come out of it and there will be hope again.

Bruised- tumblr Ao3 Earth and Sky. Hurt/comfort. Some Virgil worrying over Scott, a bit of classic Scott-angsting, then lots of brotherly affection between them. The end is very Soft. Everyone gets a hug and then to sleeeep.

Squid Hug- tumblr Ao3 FishTanky fluff with lots of cuddles. Makes a good comfort read, with a bit funny, a little silly, and a good dose of hurt/comfort leaning heavily to the comfort. Did I mention the hugs?

As Sure As The Stars- tumblr Ao3 trans Alan! A realisation of it, and a coming out. And Alan and John together stargazing and a conversation on the roof. I poured alot of growing up queer experiences into it for myself and it also seemed to resonate with others too.

Pride Paint And Rainbow Pins- tumblr Ao3 My first Thunderbirds fic and for Thunderpride too!! Its short, fluffy and sweet! Some artist!Virgil plus a few puns. (And I really wish I had all of those pride pins, because I made the designs of nearly all of them up and I love them). And the pride themes! It really makes me happy in itself. But as well for being my jumping off point in Thunderfam. It has many of my queer headcanons for everyone when I'd been too shy (and anxious about being welcome) to make them into my own post.

Bonus points to the numerous WIPS I am working on that are as yet unfinished but I am still very proud of and can't wait till I do!

The Blue Blanket Fic!! I can't not mention it! I'm working on turning it into a full fic, which the first part of is here. But look at what @edutainer2022 and I already wrote. There be feelings, there be Scott whump, there be the blue comfort blanket!

:D

[thatgirlwithasquid]

tag game: stranger things edition 👻

tagged by @ratbastardbilly and @intothedysphoria (ty guys xx)

1. ride or die ship (your otp): CUNNINGWAY!!! They’re my girls. Chrissy and Heather my beloveds. I have never been so hyped for a ship before and this is the first time I’ve put this much effort into one, but if I don’t advocate for this rarepair then who will? (the answer is bambi. bambi will. but whatever, you get the point)

2. most annoying ship: there isn’t really a ship i find WHOLLY annoying. stancy maybe. i also think jancy and mileven have ran their course and jopper gives me a lil bit of the ick. obvi no hate to the ships or those that ship it!!

3. second favourite ship: ima have to say harringrove, but there are others i like a lot too!!

4. favourite platonic relationship: heather, chrissy & billy. the chaos trio. more should be done with them <3

5. underrated ship: there are so many!! argyle/chrissy (which i am lovingly referring to as pompompinapple, just try and stop me)? byergrove (billy/jonathan)? calicheer (billy/chrissy)??? how can i possibly choose????

6. overrated ship: uhhhh this feels dangerous. but steddie. dont get me wrong, i love this ship, but the boom in works for them was INSANE cause i dont think they have TOO MUCH chemistry in canon (tho there 100% is a good bit and it makes sense)

7. one thing i would change in canon: the blatant lack of care the main cast have for characters outside their group. no empathy for billy, barely anyone looking into heather, characters dying that no one mentions again…

8. something canon did right: I really liked steve and dustin’s dynamic. like, a LOT. they cocked it up a bit in s4 for the sake of ‘haha, dumb steve’ but yeah. theyre sweet :)

9. a thing i’m proud of creating for the fandom: my sideblog @poolsidepanic . i know that its a niche ship but i hope i help other people who love them as much as me actually be able to enjoy their ship and not just… be disappointed when they come up empty handed. the art and little fics and such i make over there make me so happy <3

10. a character who is perfect to me (wouldnt change a thing): heather. sassy, bitchy, yet kindhearted lifeguard? yes. the only thing id change is the DISSERVICE THE DUFFERS GAVE HER WHEN THEY KILLED HER AND IGNORED HER EXISTENCE.

11. the character i relate most to the most and why: steve. just how he responds to the offhanded comments the people he cares about make to him, that they never seem to realise hurt.

12. character i hate most and why: neil, karen, brenner. no explanation needed

13. something ive learned from the fandom: idk. ive always wanted to be a positive person but seeing some of the toxicity in the fandom has made me really want to keep my little blog as positive and safe as i can for everyone. some things we see SUCK but if i can make someones day a lil better id like to? so not really a learn but an encouragement to be nicer wherever i can

14. three tags i seek out on ao3: i dont read a lot of st fanfiction, actually. i havent been in the mood for it for AGES!! but in general im a slow burn, hurt/comfort, angst kind of person. i love the occasional, agonising right person not enough time or some character bashing for the sake of compelling suffering (if done right!!!)

15. a song i strongly associate with my otp/favourite character: ooooh fun!!! ‘Groan’, ‘Wet’ and ‘Maggot’ by Dazey and the Scouts are so Billy. ‘Drunk Walk Home’ by Mitski gives me Chrissy vibes, and ‘Maggot’ again for her tbh (billy and chrissy, my sad beloved blorbos). there arent any songs i associate with cunningway yet tho 😔

tagging: @bigdumbbambieyes @hargrove-mayfields @billyhargrovesupsidedownshadow @every-dayiwakeup and anyone else interested in sharing :)

[twildflower]

tags for the memes i made based on pokespe or gameverse / stuff made with mmd

helloww (*´ー｀*).. you can call me anything like tofu, vee, twiflo or my other names (if you know them) as long as ik youre talking to me, i cant decide on a consistent name so i have a lot lol, or you can give me a nickname i dont mind

Trans guy 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️❗️❗️❗️ Im slowly becoming more normal abt this fact but yar. I'm just a normal silly guy other than that. well not normal in any way but i am a very silly guy :3

i know fluent english chinese and some 日本語 i dont know why is this relevant or why am i putting it here. my englsih is decently good i just like typing bad english whenever i can its funny. I dont know how to type chinese i can only use the handwriting board :smile:

i post stuff im interested in, reblogs of art n stuff and sometimes funny/unfunny shitposts too so its just easier to have these tags for my memes.

>boundaries/limits

I’m a multishipper and I fall into ship rabbit holes really easily; just once piece of art that’s good and I will fall like a motherfucker but I’m also weirdly picky. I don’t like certain straight ships of red green gold silver (eg red & yellow, gold & kris) but pretty much everyone else im open with anything. Like sapph ruby plat dia pearl (eg sapph & blue, sapph & ruby). Okay ill be honest this is a very short list but i hope you get what i mean by being multishipper but picky.

I'm a proshipper but thats just bc Im very fucked up in the head so i like fucked up shit, but just fiction tho. i think anything that happens with real people is weird as fuck, it’s just that im fucked in the head so i like to see weird unreal shit thats all. And i think people who are antiship are fucking stupid bc these are fictional characters. pixels.

No strict dni list but I hate genshin/anything related (eg honkai. Garbage ass disgusting named games) so just don’t purposely shove any of those stuff in my face or youll be blocked. I don’t care enough to check if you like them or whatever, you can like them just don’t talk to me abt them. I also don’t like roblox but not to the genshin point bc i downloaded it some times to play with somone if im very good friends w. I just dont like many of the copycat games n like just gacha or stupid games, some very original roblox games are cool tho. Ye.

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uh yeah. if you wanna chat my dms n asks are open. i dont mind.

#tflo arts if you want to check out my art/doodles. Im not too proud of my stuff esp if theyre not tagged with character tags so you can just search it up if you really want to. you can request me to draw stuff if you wanna lol...

miner in the gungeons ill be 18 next year im old i dont really want to be 18 i hope i die might kms before then breakdance sorry i meant breakdance sorry i meant breakdance sorry i meant

hey wow you read it to here. im actually just a really mentally ill kid that gets physically sick really easily and often and im not good at anything so i make memes. Well i say im mentally ill but my parents dont believe me bc theyre asians so i never saw any doctor to have any proof lol

Hrmm. My main interests are Pokemon Splatoon Vocaloid (Kagamines). I guess. I also like Pjsk Persona 5 Gundam Build Fighters Macross Delta Jewelpet Shugo Chara Henry Stickmin MahoAko Madoka Sky(COTL) Kirby n foxes/crows/cats in general. Just off the top of my head im adding stuff to this list when I remember. I dont space anything bc iykyk them. if you wanna check them out then you can just search them up

[sangre]

OOP IM SAUR SORRY tags did not load for me with my prev ask - 47, 51, 59 for satine, the loveliest rose satine 🥺🌹🎭

sixty-nine more questions for your ttrpg characters! / ask.

weuben!!!!!! (picks you up and spins you) TY TY!!!

47. what could they talk about for hours on end?

presentation! the presentation of something, especially wrt creative projects. the way an artist painted something, the way a musician composed something, the way a stage director asked for things to be done, like... because of his theater background both in the last life and in this one, he is really obsessed with the deliberate composition of things. not necessarily the way something looks per se, but just like. the way someone decided to put something together and show someone else, it's like casting your soul into light.

so like, especially with artists, satine can listen to (and talk about) why he chose to do something for a long time. reasoning, justification, meaning, you know? but this applies to things that aren't art-related too... like, talking about gender! he could probably talk about the fun about gender and what it means to him and how he presents, too. theater!!!! the self! presentation. what we present to the world and what it means to show something that we want to be seen (or better yet, recognized).

51. what element of their backstory are you proudest of?

AHH maybe the doppelganger element... it's been a couple years now that i've wanted to play the second version of someone, whether someone who died or someone who was artificially made (to be in the shape of someone). in 2015 i wrote smth with a friend that was like "guy comes back from the dead and feels like something other than himself, wants so badly to be seen as himself still, knows and is continuously traumatized by the fact that he both is and isn't"

and that's a narrative i've been exploring in characters for a while now, from a ton of different angles. but i don't think i've had a character who actively is the second-following incarnation of someone yet, so i'm excited to have finally followed through on the desire to play someone like that! especially since satine doesn't really have a complex of "please see me as the self i was" and is rather earnestly like, "i am in some ways that person, truly, but please see me as someone with my own life to live" and stuff.

it's a lot of like, navigating the urge to let go of people pleasing in/of making sure she doesn't drive herself crazy trying to perfectly be what everybody wants from her - letting go of trying to be a self that people knew, too, so it's an arc i really love and find personal for many reasons and i'm proud of its execution so far!!! so happy to be playing it in out a longform campaign.

59. what’s an element of their philosophy that you disagree with?

ohhh! well let's see. satine is .. really forgiving. and i don't think i would agree with some of the things she can forgive with enough context. this is super thought-provoking because satine has a gentler perspective of the world than i do, he's more like... lenient about rolling with the punches. i'm more indignant

i guess the obvious answer is "satine can forgive pretty lightly depending on the person, he could even forgive murder if it was explained well enough emotionally" and you look at me and the characters i like and we both laugh but you know, in real life, in practice. G:LSJDKGLSDKSDG:L maybe it's just that satine doesn't hold grudges when people hurt him but i do.

satine also probably doesn't see the point of revenge for any reason and holds no pettiness. there is like negative twelve pettiness in satine's body, he doesn't see the sense in revenge at all. i, revenge arc enjoyer, do. i definitely think it's fun to have a really forgiving character who is learning what is more forgivable, and forming stronger opinions about what to forgive and what not to the longer he lives in the real world. mind you, satine has only been conscious in this life for 3ish years. ;LGJKSHLDGL;F Oh she's got planny of time.

[izzyfishie]

izzy intro ✨✨

alright hi bitches its me /lh

if ur new, hi! im izzy! im a bmc enthusiast and a proud member of the squip inc rp !!

BASIC INFORMATION

• she/they

• biromantic demisexual

• i do rp, art, writing, and animation.

MY FANDOMS

• be more chill/squip inc

• splatoon

• heathers

• six

SOME IMPORTANT INFORMATION

• i am a certified hydra hivemind and squangbanger (anony + foxxi + spirez + cowboy + oli + jo + will + izzy) member <3

• i get a little silly sometimes especially on vc/if i grow closer to u

• i am EXTREMELY sensitive. like. i will burst into tears if i think that you're mad at me /neg

• i constantly use tone indicators

• i am likely the biggest riverway (BMC) shipper ever

• i always spell things wrong, but it's kind of turned more into a comical thing rather than a problem :]

DO NOT SEND ME THE FOLLOWING:

• unsolicited nsfw or nudes (im a minor bitchass)

• graphic violence and gore (please put a TW, this stuff will literally make me pass out so NO !!)

• anyone else's personal information without consent (doxxing is a no-no <3)

SQUiP INC STUFF

first of all, what is squip inc?

• squip inc is a discord and tumblr rp that began with a simple anon ask on @anonyb0b's blog!! soon, everyone started creating their own squip ocs and now we have a full-fledged rp that we plan to turn into a web comic. in fact, we even have our own growing wiki!

my character

• in squip inc, i play a major character named unit 6339, or better known as mio, and a minor character named izzy (basically just myself but in the rp form) !!

• izzy's lore began as me joke-flirting with @a-superquantumunitintelprocessor and fighting a love war with my friend spirez. after i lost the love war, i felt anger and envy mixed with the curiosity of the side effects, and thus, i took a squip. that squip ended up being mio.

• mio is judgemental, rebellious, salty, and pretty gay ngl. however, her life is cut short when she is corrupted and killed by a virus. but let's be honest, the story would be pretty boring if it ended there. mio is brought back to life using an interesting method and returns with a... rebooted personality. if you want more details on mio and the other characters in squip inc, make sure to check out the wiki and dm me for any extra information !!

mio's blog -- @mio-chxrry

who all is involved in squip inc ?

• oh, tons of people. in the official discord server, we currently have 35 members, and that's just in the discord server! we have many more active members on tumblr. it's honestly such an amazing thing! and i am totally invested in anima's group's lore.

MY TAGS

art -- #izzy art

writing -- #izzy writes

rp lore -- #squip ocs, #jeffrey moments, #squip inc, #the squapocalypse, #squangbangers, #squolive garden, #mio moments, #anima, #cowboy's ranch, #the jeffrey lore, #squip rp

old miscellaneous tag -- #anyways

ooc -- #ooc jeffrey lore, #ooc squip rp

[kil9]

I wanna say... thank you for your super odoroble, fun, versatile and colourful 100 drawings, they are so much fun, I wish I was as talented 😢 Blease, you put so much work into them it's uhmazing. They are so pretty I could go through them daily and never get bored. I lurked around on twitter (more stalked you) and on tumblr and gosh I love them all so darn much, but especially D-81 for some reason (ok maybe because it captured his cuteness so well) and D-18 because I love a cute catboy with a fun outfit and cool pose. Always love your humour and love reading your opinion in the tags... it's 3 am here, if it's incoherent I blame it on that. Sorry I just wanted to express my gratitude and have you heard SHINEES BACK BACK BACK BACK !!!! xjdkfkfk sorry I have so many Taemotions in me, legit teared up seeing him, I missed him so much I can't describe it. Anyway take care, stay healthy💙 thanks again💙

omg 🥺 !!!! i cant even say youre welcome lol, thank U for saying this 🥺 yeah i did put a lot of work i cant deny 😭😭 i feel so accomplished but its the kind of thing i dont know if i would ever want to do again... i hate sticking to one thing and repeating myself (just like taemin fr) so that made it even harder 💀 (but even more fun) tbh coming up with 100 ideas was just as hard as the art itself !!!

those 2 are also some of my favorites :D i actually made a little thing of my 10 favorites and least favorites when i was processing the whole deal, so i might post it 🤔 im glad people like clown taem, im unexpectedly rly proud of the design so i might draw him more in the future !!! (im glad/surprised ppl think im funny too 💀 i thought i was my own one man audience lol) thank u so much this means a lot u have no ideas 🥺🥺

and HELLYEAH :D SHINEES BACK FOREVER !!! NO ONE LEAVE AGAIN !!!! tonight i rode in the car with the windows down blasting sherlock so loud and pointing to the full moon ^_^ SHINEES BACK !!! 💎💎💎💎💎

[voiidvagabond]

Fanfic asks: 3,7,11,18,29,32

Thanks for asking!

3. Tell me about one of your fics you think is underrated/underappreciated. Oh boy! I have quite a few, honestly, but I've been thinking a lot about "Occlusion" recently and I for sure think it's underappreciated. But that might just me my tastes speaking. It's a horror fic I wrote for Halloween and it's very creepy >:3

7. Is there a character or ship you'd love to write for, but haven't yet? So many! A lot of ships I just love so much and I feel like a lot of idea simply don't do them justice. But I have been sighing and giggling and daydreaming about Tango and Etho from Hermitcraft. I just think they'll be an absolute blast to write whenever I get around to it :D

11. Share a favourite comment a reader has left you. Comments are what run in my veins and fuel my brain to make the words. I love getting comments! This one has stuck with me since I received it and it resonates with me as someone who desires his writing to have profound impact.

istg addiction is the only word apt to describe my feelings towards this fic. I find myself rereading it frequently, finding a new word, a new line, a new paragraph each time to appreciate different. every bloody phrase in this is so frantically crafted to be passionate and intense and warm in a way. like it feels so real and there and human and monstrous. there's a vision and its perfection. not a moment do I spend squeamish, the words are just so well crafted and beautiful that it kills any thought speaking otherwise. there's such a bond between them such a truth that feels so raw. im going mad, madness absolute madness. i reread and i reread and each time there's something else and i want to sit here for hours and pick apart each sentence because each part is my favourite, each part is memorable. everything is so dramatic and every short sentence leaves you stunned. there's something so animalistic that's being portrayed that then reflects onto how yourself you feel. writing and words is a safe place, another word to get swept up into. and this is just fuel for the flames, allowing me to get blown away into this other plane. so basically, yes. Good shit 👍

This is what it's all about.

18. What's your most used additional tag? According to my lovely AO3 filter sidebar, it's "Not Beta Read". What can I say? I rarely employ any of the people who would love to beta for me and also the "no beta we die like..." tags are so fun to mess around with.

29. What's your most popular fic? That would be "Like Knives Clattering to the Ground". I'm very proud of the work itself and it gained so much traction somewhat because I posted it right when the fandom was leaping into action. I know a lot of times it feels like things move really fast on the internet and some people feel like they have to keep up with it and if they don't write fast enough they'll miss the hype. I can be a slow writer. I like to take my time. I have wips that I'm actively working on based off stuff that happened over two years ago. It's easy to get caught up in it and feel like you're missing your chance if you don't churn out a work of art within a specific timeframe. But it's okay! Take your time. There are still Star Trek: TOS and Merlin and Supernatural fics being written. It's never too late. If you love something, put it down in words. *gets down off my soapbox*

32. What's a fic you'd love to write, but probably never will? I had this dream semi-recently that was a modern-ish AU reincarnation duology following the 3rd Life series and everyone who played in it but it's a light horror. I want to incorporate hallucinations of the series as the characters try to figure out why their lives don't feel real anymore. Their past life memories begin to become entwined with their daily activities and it leads to some hostile and messy interactions. I don't have anything more to go on than that short synopsis and I honestly haven't the inspiration for it.

ask me about fics

[squeiky]

The realization that my all is never enough.

Idk, i drew an entire vent peice about how i keep seeing my favorite artists im inspired by, talk about people "finding meaning in their art" or "making fanart" or "talking about how much peopel are inspired by or love their work"

And idk, i may just be a selfish, egotistical cuntwad, but i get so depressed and envious and mad, every fucking time.

I was warned by the internet "dont compare yourself to others! The numbers dont matter. Do art for yourself and then people will follow." Ect, ect. But what they failed to consider, is that there was a 3rd , secret posion called "productivity". The ability to DO, in and of itself.

Ive recently come to the devesating realization that all my hard work, my artworks, my experiments and love- is all for naught on every platform i go to. I've listened to the "number dont matter" but why the fuck is it so hard to get ATLEAST more than 10 notes? On all of my 3 platforms?

So far, the only people keeping me a float, continuing to strive and continuing to post, is my mutual(s) who have actively supported me.i love em', and i hope to god im not undermining their support.

But somedays when i see people go "oh, i love the feeling of when people notice details in my work!" "Oh i love the fanart!" "I love the keysmashing or the emojji smash or" bla bla bla.

So far, my art, on every platform goes one way. Tumblr: 90% posts are under 10 notes or at a bare max, 20. No comments or tags. You get one post per few months that does super well, and people reblog, comment, tag and like.

Insta: 90% of posts are under 10 notes (total), with the maximum being UNDER 20. No comments (excluding freinds or mutuals who comment). One reel, or post does exceptionally good, rarely happens.

Bluesky: just started it, so not much info, but its similar to everything else stated above.

Deviantart: more or less the same.

Its normal right? Im not going insane right? Or am i addicted to the dopamine rush? Am i a lunatic for wanting people to speak and say something? Am i too socially akward? Am i not doing enough? Am i not trying hard enough? Am i just lazy? Is it because i try too many new thinga? Do i take to long? Is it because im not intresting? Do people just not like my art? Am i not good enough?

Why cant i get someone to say something? Do i have to go viral every fucking posts? Do followers not mean anything? Do people not care? What do i have to do? What do i have to do to make people like me??

I dont want to sacarfice my artistic vision, i dont want to sacarfice my integrity just to pump out the same, quick slops of art just to get interaction. I want to be proud of my work. I want to love my work and what i do. I want to put my blood, my soul, my emotions, my sweat and tears and joy and everything into what i do.

I want someone to fucking notice.

Tumblr is killing me, instagram is killing me, bluesky is killing me. Nothing is working.

Im tired of scrolling through my artblog and seeing nothing but 0 notes. Im tired of thinking nothing matters. Im tired of being fatigued, of not being able to finish work fast enough, of feeling like im never enough.

I dont WANT to attach this blog to my art blog because i THOUGHT that if i didn't attach it, i could grow a following of my own. I didnt have to associate myself with a messy, emotional, reblog heavy, blog like this. But i guess thats what i have to do to get a comment. To get a little a fucking reblog. Or a tag.

I gotta have a mental breakdown and go "please please please say SOMETHING"

IM AN ARTIST NOT A FUCKING PRODUCT. IM NOT MADE TO BE CONSUMED IM HERE TO MAKE SOMETHING WORTH TALKING ABOUT.

Im done. I leaving the internet for as long as i need again.

I want to love my fellow artists and be happy for them again. Im tired of this bullshit.

[shadowsingercassia]

Thank you for the tag @anarchiii !! ❤️

1. How many words did you publish on AO3 in 2024?

I haven't posted anything on AO3 and I don't think I have an account either but that's only because I have no idea how to use it 😂

2. How many fics did you complete this year?

25! (If I counted correctly)

3. How many in progress or ongoing fics did you start this year?

Well I have a series that I stopped updating so that's one (?) and a part 2 to a fic I have so... that makes it 2 (I think...) 🤔

4. What was your favorite thing you wrote?

So I have two 🙂 (a little bit of rambling):

First is my The Gate To Home series! It was everything for me, I really don't know how I got through it and even if I hadn't prepared it properly so many people loved it and supported it until the end (I love you all smm ❤️)

Second is The Day Hope Died! This fic has a special place in my heart because when I'm having a hard time, I write and this is the only fic of those that I had the courage to post. The feelings there, the angst are a representation and a reflection of my own that day (I'm alright now for anyone wondering!)

5. What piece was your most experimental or different from your usual style?

I think that Genuine Poetry is a type of fic that I don't usually write and that is purely because of the poem I put in the fic (I had never written a poem in my life before that)

6. Did any fics surprise you - either while writing or their reception?

So Masked Christine of the Opera surprised me with its ending, I was not expecting that plot twist to settle into my mind though rereading it, it's not great, but the rest of it is very special to me 💕 another thing I was surprised to see when I finished writing it is that I actually wrote it in third person and I hadn't even realized 🥲

7. Do you have a fic you wrote and loved that went under the radar? (This is your sign to reblog/repost it!)

Again it's Masked Christine of the Opera, I really loved writing it and I'm going to say it, it's a great fic although the ending is a little bad (I really had thought it was good 😭) it just has my heart ❤️

8. Who is an artist that inspired you?

I really have a lot of artists that have inspired me to make my own art (even if I'm still a beginner) and for that I want to thank @dawneternal and @freyjas-musings

9. Who is an author that inspired you?

Alright I will yap so bear with me:

@scorpioriesling all your fics are incredible, I absolutely loved Too Hot To Handle and I actually binge-read it in September and I wanted to say I'm obsessed, same for the Invisible String and all your other fics! 🫶

@velarisdusk your fics are... mwah 💋 I don't even know where to begin your writing is amazing and truly I love you so much! This tag game was probably my sign to re-read all your fics 😂

@illyrianbitch I love each and every single thing you write, if I could have them injected into my veins I would do it 💓 (I'm also very glad you're doing well now 🥰)

@azrielslittleslut you quite literally inspired me to write an Azriel x reader fic because of how well you capture his personality 💙

@azrielsdove your fics mean everything to me, I've read each one twice and I'm planning on reading them all again ❤️

10. Who is a new author you discovered?

I've been on Tumblr for a little less than a year I think (me and my alzheimer that I don't actually have) but recently I have discovered @thelov3lybookworm (I know you are not a new author but I'm obsessed with your Lucien week fics and im currently reading all your other fics too!!)

11. Did you do any collaborations? How did it start

No, I haven't done any

12. What accomplishments are you proudest of?

In my writing, reading my first and latest fic, I'm proud because I've grown but I'm also proud because I had the courage to start so shoutout to my first fic Stupid Headache (you will always be my baby) 🥰

13. What did you learn about writing or creating this year?

Dont take it seriously (like in a way of dont view it as a competition). That's the most important thing I've learned. When I started, which was long before I got Tumblr (like when I was a teenager I wrote my first short story) and I took it so seriously, planning things obsessively, which is the reason I actually lost my passion but now I found it again and I'm very grateful for that 💞

14. What is your advice?

Well, I really don't know any good advice, I mean I'm still learning things everyday but I think my biggest advice is what I previously said, don't take it seriously, it's not a competition

15. What are your creative goals for 2025?

I want to try and create an OC and maybe start writing more ships and less x reader but mostly I just want to write, that's my goal, not to give up on writing :)

note: again, thank you @anarchiii for the tag !!

no pressure tags: @really-fanny-longbottom @illyriassweetheart @azrielsdove and anyone else who wants to do this!

Answer and then tag three or more creators to keep the game going!

Thank you so much @velarisdusk for the tag! 🫶🏻

1. How many words did you publish on AO3 in 2024?

I don't have anything published on AO3 simply because I still don't know how to use it even though I do have an account. But here on tumblr, it's 92.878

2. How many fics did you complete this year?

49! I've never counted them before and never realized just how many they were omg

3. How many in progress or ongoing fics did you start this year?

Ongoing only Bound By Secrets. In progress apparently 10? I thought I had 3 WIPs. I completely forgot about the other 7 lol

4. What was your favorite thing you wrote?

UGH how do I choose one? A Helping Hand has a special place in my heart because it's the first fic I wrote and posted. Night and Days is one of my favorites because I love the banter between Azriel and reader, and I also have to mention Say My Name because omg I loved writing that one and I know I might be biased but I was giggling and kicking my feet while writing.

5. What piece was your most experimental or different from your usual style?

I'd say the first few things I wrote rather than one in particular for the simple reason that in Italian I tend to write very long sentences because it's normal, but in English sentences are usually shorter so it took a bit to get into that mindset. As for experimental, I'm trying to write a fic from two povs at the same time, sort of like an omniscient narrator. We'll see how it turns out.

6. Did any fics surprise you - either while writing or their reception?

Many fics surprise me while writing because I don't plan them out that much other than a few things I want to happen and then I see where the story leads me. As for reception, Bound by Secrets. I didn't expect so many people asking for a part 2! (I'll write it, I promise)

7. Do you have a fic you wrote and loved that went under the radar? (This is your sign to reblog/repost it!)

The Path To Healing and on a happier (and smutty) note Alcohol and Giggles. I cried writing the first one and laughed writing the second one.

8. Who is an artist that inspired you?

I love every single fanart by madschofield and elizianna.the.one!

9. Who is an author that inspired you?

@writingcroissant was the first author I found on here, the literal reason I created an account was to read her fics, and @illyrianbitch was the second. I love everything they write and it made me want to write again.

10. Who is a new author you discovered?

@shedoessoshedoes and @duskandcobalt! I'm going to read all of your fics so don't be surprised if you see me in your notifications for the next few weeks 🥰

11. Did you do any collaborations? How did it start

Nope, no collaborations.

12. What accomplishments are you proudest of?

Kinktober! I decided to do it two weeks before it started and didn't think I'd be able to write all 31 one fics but I did it!

13. What did you learn about writing or creating this year?

When I started posting, I kept opening tumblr every five minutes to see if there were any new notes/comments/etc. Now I don't do that anymore. I still care about people enjoying my content of course and any kind of feedback is always super appreciated, but I don't need to continuously check to know that my writing is valid and good even if I get only a few likes.

14. What is your advice?

I'm the wrong person to ask this to, but I guess write what you like and what you want to read. I know it's basic, but never before I realized just how true it is. Feedback and appreciation for your work is awesome, but you have to be the first one to like it or it's probably going to turn out bland if you push yourself to write something you don't like or are not interested in.

15. What are your creative goals for 2025?

Finish working on all those WIPs apparently lol. And I have an idea for a series that I want to work on as well.

No pressure of course, but if you'd like to @azrielslittleslut @anarchiii @shedoessoshedoes or anyone else who wants to do it!

[glitter-garbage]

Süßer (making candy apples can be distracting)

(buy print)

[deep-space-atomic-clock]

RIGHT okay uh so imagine meeting the god of time and theyre wearing a sleeveless argyle sweater. what would you think

[thesaddeningboohoo]

i um. guess i just realized im practically nonverbal online. ive been trying to socialize more, especially cause i want to promote my art because life is very not easy right now. i have so many mental illness, trauma, and fear of basically everything that i dont even leave the house. but im crippling shy over text because i cant see other people's expressions. i really do most of my talking in the notes. because its like voicing my own thoughts, people dont need to hear them, but people who're interested will know. so its comfortable rather than putting this out here for anyone to see.

and then i get an ask

i know theres a large group if people who dont like me. someone in my past, someone i can't remember because ive mentally blocked years 2014-2017. its all a void....but my friend who was closely aware of what happened has told me that people dont like me because of something that happened.

i have severe PTSD, i hallucinate people coming after me anytime im alone in public. i go nonverbal around strangers. i used to be...different. i want to be that way again. i want to know what happened to the me from 5 years ago.

the aforementioned ask: "you sure are proud talking to yourself"

as someone who's had this current blog for 10 years and only recently hit 1000 original posts, its a big deal for me to add my "voice" in the tags.

i know im talking to myself.

i dont care that i am. but i want to know why you wanted to ridicule me? i have 112 followers, most are bots that i never deleted because i wanted to think i had more people who liked me...

what i want to know, is why you came to say that shit to me? dont be mean. i want to end all strife. whatever the world sends me, i want to end amicably. ive been making my amends in the world. what did i do to you? why cant i remember it? why cant i remeber you? why after 5 years are you still angry with me? or is it spite? do you hate me despite how lowly youve made me? Please. Whoever you are, move on. Leave me alone.

(this is long and im stupid, so im sorrey for making you read all this. i don't understand computers at all otherwise id put a read more on it)

[estrel]

tagged by @tearsofgrace @dreamnovak (and possibly others?? sorry if i missed you but i definitely saw the tag at some point lmao!!)

Rules: It’s time to love yourselves! Choose your 8 (ish) favorite works you created in the past year (fics, art, edits, etc.) and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you brought into the world in 2020. Tag as many writers/artists/etc. as you want (fan or original) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome work!

oh god. here goes nothin’...just,, a lot of these are from suptober bc that’s when i was Least Busy and wrote a lot so!! yea

get it out - a ficlet i did for suptober20 where dean and cas go on a case and have some serious ust in a bathtub, covered in gross goo and water. (wc: ~1k, teen & up)

melt the ice - hurt/comfort ficlet (also for suptober20 lmao) wherein dean has a panic attack in the middle of a winter storm over a fight he and cas had had.  (wc: ~1k, teen & up)

to switch places - 15x15 coda (sort of) in which Dean accidentally flips a switch that puts him in Cas’ body, and vice versa. (wc: ~2.1k, teen & up)

because without you, i’ll unravel again - my most recent poem, which, i mean. it’s better than some fics i’ve written, so i’ll include it on here for that reason. dean’s pov, destiel, angsty !!

not just a gift - Sam finds out about the mixtape Dean made for Cas and thinks he might just lose it because of how clueless those two are. i do like this one solely because sam is two seconds away from smashing his head against something (wc: ~1.5k, teen & up)

saving grace (and staying put) - i think this might be my most popular ficlet...which is...insane?? it’s a christmassy one, with some presents exchanged, and i’m proud that i was able to actually write some okay fluff! so! (wc: ~1.3k, teen & up)

empty bottles, broken time - 15x19 coda, angst, dean prays to cas, but of course!! (wc: ~850, teen & up)

left ajar - 15x18 coda. dean’s pov and jack’s pov, angsty, but i like my writing in this one, i think (,: (wc: ~1.1k, teen & up) 

i actually forgot that a wrote a lot of these, so seeing them again was a trip!! i’ll upload the ones that aren’t on ao3 yet to ao3 soon, if you want to read them there instead!! ♡ enjoy! i’ll add my tag list just for funsies-

@castiels-a-lamp @jellydeans @writtenmemxries @cestladean @randomblabbling @fluffiestlou @dreamnovak @weird-dorky-little-d @depressivedemonnightmaredean @castiels-pussy @friedchickenangelwings @galaxycastiel @destielle @dickspeightjrs @on-a-bender @organicpurplepants @casbelieves @samuelswinchester @spacegirlstuff @seffersonjtarship @winchester-novak @professorerudite @squintingg @holmesemrys @imnotrevealingmyname @mishha @good-things-do-happen-dean @angxlsgrxce @casandeans @castielscrookedtrenchcoat @destiel-in-its-natural-habitat @gracelesschoice @superduckbatrebel @iheardyourprayer @top13zepptraxx @that-one-fandom-chick @scoobydean @destiels-canonahhhhhhhhhh @maxguevra @cursed-or-not @i-think-im-humanbut-cant-besure @mirrorsball @madilineskingdom @awolfnamedaliac @castee-yel @tearsofgrace @credentiast @fivefeetfangirl @my-favourite-hellatus @gray-is-neutral @sunflower-vol-28 @ensignabby @ar-bi-trary @lulu-zodiac @y-yo-a-ti-dumbass @castielology @nguyenxtrang @destiel-bitches @supergaycas @deancasology @miadeline @save-the-sloths @goblinwritergay @theroguetranslator @imals18 @downtherabbitholeproductions