#i will post this again but better at some point lol. and without the sparkly eyes. 😂😂

[reineydraws]

me, lazily colouring as a cool-down: why don't i try oshi no ko eyes

me, after i finish adding the sparkles: oh god they've been hit by camie's quirk

here's the finished post btw

[mochamoth]

samarina magical girl headcanons?

I have a few headcanons so far and the whole plot is kinda done! Uhh sorry this is a bit of a rant in advance! Feel free to just skip to the headcanons, the order doesn't matter too much (also mild spoilers for the canon gamee!!)

Backstory:

So this takes place sometime in the early 2000s, not modern but also not the canon 1940s time era. The backstories are pretty much the same except the Ninth Circle has an even sharper eye on Samarie. At some point Marina catches Samarie stalking her and gives her a talking to. But, after several apologies and begging from Samarie, Marina decided to get to know her a lil better. They slowly become friends overtime until some plot stuff happens and they die. I don't have a solid idea yet but I was thinking what if the Ninth Circle was more of a lab than a "school". Still a cult but y'know the vibes are a bit different. They catch the two running away and threaten to shoot Marina if she doesn't turn Samarie back in. Marina refuses, they shoot, Samarie takes the shot for her but unfortunately they just shoot Marina anyways afterwards.

Somewhat luckily Samarie was close enough with the Gods to make some sorta deal with Rher specifically (for arguments sake let's pretend in this au Rher is still semi close with humans). Marina and her would be allowed to live and be resurrected, in exchange for.. Well idk yet. I was thinking something to do with Moonscorching. Maybe every night they turn, or every few days, full moon, you know something like that.

So they're brought back to life, but both have MUCH stronger magic. Not only that but Samarie doesn't feel as sick as she used to be. The two later on realize they're stereotypical ✨️magical girls✨️ and fight against "villains" ig. The villains would be actual enemies from the games. Uhh I might add other characters to this au later on, but for now it's just my own little corny ship indulgent au so yeah!

(Sorry for any grammar errors I am tired lol)

Actual Headcanons:

Samarie uses a Star themed staff while Marina uses a Moon themed staff. I just thought it fit their souls aesthetic wise!

Samarie has extremely powerful magic, but is a terrible fighter. She's clumsy, messy, and a nervous wreck. Marina is a bit weaker magic-wise, but is wayy better in combat. She's more confident, focused, and skilled.

I think it'd be funny as shit to make Black Kalev their little sidekick.

They're constantly saving eachother. Usually it's Marina saving Samarie, but if Marina is in danger Samarie fucking kicks ass. She's still a crazy girl after all.

They have more stereotypical sparkly magic cuz.. Well magical girl. But they can still use other canon spells. It's just less convenient.

Their staffs will transform when they do. When they're not in their combat fits the staffs both turn into crystals. Both wear them around their necks like necklaces.

They can't use the gifted magic without the staffs. Basically they're witches in a way.

They do flirt on the battlefield cuz that's romantic imo. It's more Marina flirting and Samarie being a gay mess but that still counts!

In this au they're not dating (yet). Samarie obviously has a massive crush (or obsession) with Marina, and again after becoming friends Marina develops a crush back on her.

This has nothing, and I mean NOTHING to do with the au, Samarie has autism. I didn't know where else I'd share that hc so taking my chance rn.

Samarie still isn't used to the outfit change. Especially Marina's outfit (she is a lesbian disaster).

They rest and cuddle together after long battles. It'd be cute okay?

I might add more later (in which case I will post), and yes this is out of character. Sorry abt that. Uhh also I've never seen a magical girl anime. Like ever! I want to. I really wanna watch a few, just haven't gotten around to it.

[tepkunset]

Rating all the Hellfire Gala 2022 Outfits in my Correct Opinion

(Long post alert!)

Wanda, oh my god. I am dying over how gorgeous this design is. I’m honestly speechless. 10/10

Havok looks very boring compared to his last year’s appearance, which I liked quite a lot except for the weird white strip things. He just put on a leather jacket, scrunched up the sleeves and called it. 3/10

Spider-Man looks like he stole a work-in-progress look from Miles rather than coming up with something himself lol. It’s not ugly. It’s just not the best look for him, personally. 5/10

Gambit is committing to the tits-out look for these galas and I respect him for it. I also like this one a lot better than last year’s; it is way more suiting to his personality and looks more intentional than just rolling out of bed and putting an unbuttoned shirt on. 7/10

Black Widow is someone I trust to actually walk in those god awful break-your-fucking-neck heels without breaking her fucking neck, so I can buy it. But that doesn’t make those shoes any less ugly. The mask is the only thing I particularly like about this look. 5/10

Magik looks 100% better in this design than she did last year. I like that it’s reminiscent of her Inferno look. She looks very intimidating and sexy at the same time. 8/10

Doom, HOLY SHIT. Showing these mutants how it’s fucking DONE. I love the detail on this outfit, and that giant cape just looks so regal and luxurious. I want to curl up and sleep in it. 10/10

Wolverine looks ten times more in character wearing this than she did in that stupid dress last year. You know, despite having, on panel, said that she doesn’t feel right in dresses before. It’s still not quite up to speed with what I imagine being a peak look for her (a very stylish suit, imo,) but it’s up there. 7/10

Synch killed it last year but I guess decided to tone it down this time for some reason. It’s still a good look; I still like the rainbow design reflective of his powers. 5/10

Iceman is back in actual character too this year, baby! Now this is a suit I can see Bobby in. It’s nice but simple. 7/10

She-Hulk looks like she’s ready for a beach party more than she is ready for a gala, but I don’t hate the design. 5/10

Emma looks a thousand times better in this outfit than in any of the three different ones she wore last year. I love the gold accent and the cut-out parts looking like she’s wearing a snowflake. 10/10

Steve, what are you doing? He looks like an old timey gangster asdflkjsjf 3/10

Sam is simply but sharply dressed, and I can respect that, but this is a gala! Be a bit more adventurous than just adding some colour, bud! Even just a pattern would’ve made me happier. 5/10

Captain Marvel has a really nice jacket design; I like the idea of the inside being sparkly with stars. I also think the high waist suit pants are a good look for her. 6/10

Cyclops looks good, but I can’t help but feel like I’ve seen this look before... Oh, because I have. I can’t find the image on Google right now but it’s from a real like fashion show. So, not the most creative design to just copy that. Still, it’s a good look, and way better than his last year’s design. 6/10

Jean is absolutely killing it again this year! She looks like a winx doll or something. 10/10

Forge didn’t get a cool look last year so I’m glad he’s participating this year! I think the mixture between the organic Krakoan stuff is a cool idea, but I’m not sure I like the application entirely. 5/10

Iron Man’s look at first I thought was the most boring shit I’ve ever seen, but then I realized the jacket is holographic? So points for that at least. But seriously Tony, you’re wearing jeans to a gala? 2/10

Rogue, WTF are you doing, Rogue? She had one of the best designs last year, now this? I hate this, she looks like one of those dandelion puff balls. 2/10

Namor also aspired to go for the tits out look and again, I must respect him for it. And see what a good pattern can do to spice up a simple look? 6/10

[trekkiehood]

Practically the Same (Part 5) - SPN Fanfic

Title: Practically the Same

Part: [1] [2] [3] [4] 5/6

Fandom: Supernatural

Words: 1.1k

Setting: AU - Modern Setting - No Supernatural

Title Inspiration: “You know, I finally get why you and Dad butted heads so much. You two were practically the same person.” - Dean (4x19)

Characters: Dean, Sam, Benny, Bobby, Sonny

Ship: None

Ao3 Link

Summary: Dean’s working two jobs trying to care for Sam’s needs and wants. With John finally gone the Winchester’s can live their life without fear abuse. Until the cycle of abuse continues when the youngest Winchester starts drinking.

Trigger Warnings: Sam-bashing, PTSD, Violence, Alcohol, Verbal Abuse, Physical Abuse

Authors Note:

Dudes I am so sorry I took a nap and didn't wake up when I meant to lol. I'm posting this at rehearsals so sorry if it is rushed lol (also I'm posting this in a sparkly pink dress and silver cape which does not fit the tone of this lol).

Anyway, this is the most violent chapter so I wanted to warn you about that.

Well here you are lol, please enjoy!

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Dean couldn't help the smile as he drove towards the school. He'd been working nonstop for two weeks but he finally had it. He'd called ahead and Sam's teacher had agreed to meet with him for the money after he got paid. It was nearly six so the fact that he was willing to meet him at all was a miracle.

He pulled up in front of the school. It was locked so he banged on the front door praying that the teacher hadn't played some joke thinking it would be funny to trick the poor family into thinking they had a chance. Just as he was starting to get really worried, the door opened.

"Mr. Winchester?"

"Yes, Mr. Wyatt?" the man nodded, "Thank you so much for agreeing to meet with me." He shook the man's hand as they entered the school.

"Oh, no problem!" The teacher said, leading him towards a classroom. "I'm glad we could work this out. I really wanted Sam to go. He's a bright kid."

Dean smiled softly, "Yeah, he is."

They reached the classroom and Wyatt started shifting papers on the desk, pulling out a permission slip.

"Uh, because it's so late it'd be great if you could pay the full price but if you can't we can work it out."

"Nah, I've got the money, just tell me what you need."

The teacher rattled off a number, it was a bit more than Dean was expecting but he still had enough. Where were these kids staying? The Hilton?

"Perfect! Here's the permission slip, we just need a parent or guardian to sign here and here." He pointed at the page after slipping the money into an envelope.

"I'll just sign now if that's okay."

"Uh, yeah, that's good, you're Sams...?"

"Oh, uh," he signed his name on the lines, "I'm his brother, I take care of the kid."

The man looked at him, "If you don't mind me asking, how old are you?"

"Does it matter?" Dean felt immediate apprehension rise at the question. It wouldn't be the first time someone had told him he was too young to take care of Sam. But what would they know? He'd been doing it for years, why was it a big deal now? Because Dad was gone? They were better off without him anyway. They were. No matter what Sam or anyone else said.

"No, it's just..."

"Thanks for meeting with me Teach, but if that's all you need I really need to be gettin back."

"I'm sorry if I offended you, Mr. Winchester, I was just-"

"Don't-" He snapped before blowing out a breath. "Stop calling me that. I'm Dean. Just... it's fine, okay? Sorry. I just- I really do need to go."

"No, of course Dean. Here's Sam's pass." He handed him a red card with some words Dean didn't take the time to read. "Just make sure he brings the pass and has money to eat on."

"Yeah, yeah whatever. Thanks for meeting me."

He took the pass as he hurried out of the room. But as he started the drive back to Bobby's he didn't let the awkward meeting ruin his excitement to hand Sam his pass for the trip.

~SPN~

When Dean pushed through the door, Sam was once again sitting at the table. And just like before, he had a beer bottle in his hand. All of the excitement seemed to drain out of Dean's body at once. He thought he'd feel angry but all he felt was exhausted. It was like the physical and emotional strain of the last two weeks caught up with him all at once.

"Sam?"

Sam looked up, raising his eyebrows, "Oh so you do still live here. I was starting to wonder."

"Yeah man, sorry, I know I've been busy lately."

"Whatever."

"I, uh, I thought you were gonna stop drinking?"

"I never said that. Not even after you sent Bobby after me. He grounded me by the way. Thanks for that."

"Uh, yeah, sorry, he, uh, didn't tell me."

"Well you haven't been around so I wouldn't expect you to know."

"Look man I really am sorry, okay? I'll talk it over with Bobby."

"Whatever."

"At least... at least put it away when I'm here okay? I don't like you drinking."

"So you've said. But I'd say my reason is fair."

"Reason?"

"Today was the deadline for the D.C. trip."

"Yeah I know-"

"And considering I didn't have the money that means I'm not going. Thanks."

Dean smiled at that, "Yeah, yeah about that. I talked to your teacher-"

"You don't even care! I'm missing out on the trip of a lifetime and you're smiling!"

"No, I do care-"

"No, you don't! Dean, do you even realize how important this trip was for me?"

"I do, Sam, I've been trying for two weeks to get you the money-"

"But you failed!"

"You see Sam this is why I don't like you drinking, you're a mean drunk."

"Maybe I just have a lousy brother."

Dean sighed and ran a hand through his hair. He didn't have the energy for this. "You know what Sam, we'll talk about this in the morning. You can look at this when you're done drinking and thinking clearly again." He placed the pass on the counter and turned to leave,

"Hey, don't walk away from me!"

There was no warning other than that. Dean turned and he could do nothing but watch as the beer bottle left Sam's hand. Dean felt frozen. He was unable to move, paralyzed as a thousand memories flashed through his head. When had the person he'd always protected become the one he needed protection from?

The bottle crashed against his shoulder, eliciting a choked cry. Shattering on impact, several pieces of glass sliced him across the arm and face. The alcohol drenched his entire right side, mingling with the blood as it dropped onto Bobby's kitchen floor.

Sam's eyes were almost comically wide. He was panting but it appeared he had been shocked into sobriety. "Dean, I-"

Dean stared ahead, the ringing in his ears growing louder and he felt his breathing become more restricting. He was staring at Sam but felt like he couldn't look at him any longer. He reached into his pocket, ignoring the flare of pain in his clearly dislocated shoulder, pulled out the rest of the payout from his last paycheck, dropped it on the counter, turned and left.

He thought he heard Sam calling to him from behind but the buzzing in his head kept him from comprehending anything. He just knew He couldn't be here. He needed to go. He needed to go. He needed to go.

~TH~

So... yeah... Sam's a... bit of a jerk. Also Mr. Wyatt is the teacher from "After School Special"

The next chapter will be the final chapter. What do you think will happen. What should happen? What do you think of Sam's response? Dean's response? We're only going to get to see one other characters response (and it's already chosen so it's not going to change anything) but who do you want or think it will be?

You guys's comments have made me so so happy I can't even describe it. Love you guys so much <3 God bless, Jamie

[vaguely-concerned]

The Mandalorian s2 ep1 Reactions Post That’s right I’m BACK

and none of you not even god himself can stop me from rambling about space cowboy dad and tiny green baby stuff for much longer than any sane person should 

the TL;DR is that I still love this show SO MUCH, beware a bunch of spoilers under the cut!

- costume design wise I LOVE how badly the armour fits Cobb Vanth

 especially when you get shots with him and Din side by side for contrast:

It’s not just that it’s clearly not made for him (it seems he’s a lot lankier and more wiry than Boba is), he simply doesn’t know how to wear it, and he doesn’t know how to take care of it, because he doesn’t know what it means. Remember when Din’s breastplate got bent completely out of shape by the mudhorn and he had it repaired to the best of his ability long before they even finished with the ship? That’s why he looks so grounded and natural in it and Vanth has sort of a clumsy Spiderman-in-his-first-home-made-costume air about him. (also Boba’s helmet has a beautiful heft and solidity to it in this, they make all the beskar have a Feel and weight to it, makes it feel important)  

I like that Vanth is taller than Din; everything that drives home that Din’s strength doesn’t come from being naturally physically imposing or impressive is a joy to me 

- Boba’s armour seems to be confirmed to be real beskar, which gives me so much hope that they’re doing something actually nuanced and interesting with Boba and Jango’s cultural identities as Mandalorians (whether they do consider themselves that or not, for example), unlike George Lucas’ inexplicable yet unbending stance of ‘They aren’t and never were lol get fucked Fetts’  

the way the triumphant heroic part of the mando music sputtered and died when the man himself showed up tho... uh-oh this might be bad news 

man but that’s a stunning and surprising way to introduce a well-known character divorced from what makes them so iconic, though, just from that I’m going to trust they know what they’re doing (AND they got temuera morrison back I’m so EXCITED!!!). without the armor there’s the face of someone who shared that face with literal millions and at the same time must be looking older than his father ever got to at this point, and that’s super interesting as a starting point to me. (I... guess there’s still a chance it’s a fakeout and that it’s actually another clone, but that would be such a letdown when they’ve already given us this haha) 

- an excellent [mando sighs] moment

this opening scene did a great job of re-summarizing him for the audience -- establishing again that he gives you one chance at dealing with him fairly and if you insist on continuing to be an asshole about it, you’re toast, the fact that his fighting style is so much about being able to tank blows rather than not getting hit in the first place, the horror movie monster mando setup as he stalked the dude down and strung him up, the Poetic Justice predicated on some very careful word choices, and most importantly “where I go, he goes”... all wonderful, I’m sure I’ll watch this scene back for fine details and better looks at the background characters many many times 

(word seems to have spread about him and the baby for real now, which makes me VERY nervous btw)

- Pulserifle’s back! Jetpack’s back! Razor Crest’s back! Grappling line’s back! PELLI’S BACK!!!!!! Tattooine... is also back *Finn voice* Why does everyone want to go back to Tattooine????

I really enjoyed the way they fleshed out and (for lack of a better word) humanized the sand people, though, if you are going back to this desert hellplanet again that is a worthy reason to do it 

- Din swearing :O!! and one of the less egregious star wars swears too, I’m fine with this

- in campaign star wars news: I guess there was sort of both a binbon and a jubna in this ep! what a time to be alive

- as usual I love the jawa. a bright spot in any day, just a bunch of lil goblin-y friends hanging out having the best time loving sparkly crystals and rescuing silver foxes.  

get in loser we’re going shopping

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I uh. Do you think. Hm. Is there maybe a metaphor here somewhere. Is there perhaps a hidden, one may say double, meaning, at play, right here, in this image? Who can say, it’s just niggling at me (there’s a very similar set of shots with Toro in season 1, but seemingly the show went ‘I fear we might have gone too subtle with it, let’s amp it up this time’ over the season break loool)

honestly though this dynamic really highlighted everything I love about the ways Din performs masculinity. It’s so much softer and more community/collaboration focused and more comfortable to be around than Vanth’s version -- and Vanth isn’t a bad dude by any stretch of the imagination, it’s not hard to see why he’s like that considering where he’s from, he’s just such a... man. The lone person who can protect this village! The only man who’s got what it takes! It’s all on his shoulders and no one else’s, so do exactly as he says or he’ll put a hole in you! (I think it’s telling that one of his first comments to Din is ‘I’m sure you call the shots wherever you’re from, but ‘round here, I’m the person who tell folks what to do’, because as we as the audience knows, Din very much does not call the shots of where he’s from lol) I guess it says some nice things about the tribe of Mandos Din is from that this is how he approaches things, and it says some good things about Vanth how quickly he comes around to this smarter and less confrontational/domineering style of doing things once he’s been exposed to it and sees how it works. it’s just neat

(it’s smart of Favreau to set his ~*lone gunslinger*~ character up like this, too, it makes him so much more interesting and versatile)   

- With the way Din says ‘a Mandalorian Armorer sent me on my path’ it does seem confirmed that’s the equivalent of a priest role or a sort of shaman -- I wonder if he knows the name of ‘The’ Armorer or if they take on the role as a whole identity 

- the sheer contrast between the two people who wanted Din to take his helmet off for them in this ep tho... wants Mando’s armour off for horrible awful reasons and got exactly what he deserved:

wants Mando’s armour off for entirely sympathetic and understandable, just culturally uninformed, thirsty thirsty reasons & also having drinks together:

 (the sort of... little lick over his bottom lip he does there? keep it in your pants vanth my GODjflsadf he’s a good dude tho he understands and respects the ‘no armour removal before marriage’ thing and backs down gracefully)

- This is a nuanced thing: I don’t think I actually ship it (not in a requited way from Din’s side, anyway, Vanth I’m 100% sure about lol), but the incredible potential for out-of-context-taking of “Take it off, or I will”/”...we doin’ this in front of the kid?” is uh astounding  

(anyone got the vibe Vanth sort of had something with the bartender too? no just me? well well)

- I was never really scared Din was actually dead or hurt b/c baby wasn’t scared and I figure he’d know lol, a very useful fear barometer 

- “What’s the plan?” “Take care of the child” “What are you gonna do?” “I don’t know, but wish me luck *yeets his new bro out of harm’s way before diving in head first himself*” fksdjhfkjlashdfkjsldahfkasldjhfskldajhfsadkjfh WHAT a summation of Din’s entire approach to battle & life, dad please you carry a not insignificant part of my heart around with you be careful 

(Also with the heavy implication that Boba was watching the whole thing... can you imagine him just looking on as Din throws himself down that gullet like a madman. There must have been some ‘o_-7 *headscratch headscratch* ???’ going on for him there)

it’s kind of sweet that din trusts vanth will take care of the baby if something happens though, they really bonded quickly huh 

- the sand people who kept willingly going over to the krayt dragon’s cave are honestly braver and more admirable than anyone else has ever been, I kept just shouting in anguish as they were gobbled up, they deserved better 

- can we talk about how clear it still is that Din’s just... lonely. When he thinks he’s found another Mando and he sounds almost reverent with relief... and then it gets odder and odder (’uh... drinks? I guess... does he have drinking straws with him or -- HE’S TAKING THE HELMET OFF???’ oh buddy)

I wonder if they’re building towards something about him realizing it doesn’t have to be Mandos for him to trust and bond with people longer term? Basically all the characters he’s met and we’ve watched him form attachments to and get help from are non-Mandos -- Kuiil :’^(, Cara, Omera, Cobb Vanth, IG-11 :^’’(, Greef Karga to a degree. Establishing so firmly what he’s looking for this early would be good setup for a ‘what a character thinks they want vs. what they need’ thing later on just on a writing level, anyway, Boba Fett could bring in some interesting points of view about Mandalorianness too   

- baby’s happy gurgles when he sees pelli!!!!!! din speaking sand people language and petting alligator doggies!!!!!!

- pedro pascal’s voice work remains an utter joy to me. din’s measured, earnest, occasionally slightly stilted way of talking is still so good, and then he does things like inserting some more... idk life is the wrong word but that more charged and dynamic tone he took on when he said (”I thought you weren’t a gambler”) “I’m not”. *chef kiss*

- if the pulse rifle’s stun is able to do that to a fuckn krayt dragon... that’s some serious shit din is carrying around with him lol (interestingly the actual shooty pew-pew part of it didn’t seem to do much to it, but then I guess he was shocking it from the inside out and not through thick hide, so idk)

- my only real complaints about this ep: Vanth’s backstory ran a bit long, and not enough baby & dad interaction. the concept art’s got me tho: 

 (din often wears his original/old armour in concept art still, incidentally, don’t know what that’s about)

awwwwwww

+ omfg ;______;

- this sand people person conscientiously brushing a bantha’s teeth... blessed

- Customary flame thrower report: there was a rare useful deployment of the flamethrower. Good job Mando’s flame thrower for furthering the field of diplomacy

ETA: I CAN’T BELIEVE I FORGOT TO MENTION THIS: DIN BEING COMFORTABLE(ISH) AROUND DROIDS NOW!!!! GROWTH????!?! IG-11 WE MISS YOU??????????

[reputayswift]

Ever since I saw your exile literati gifset I cant get over how cyclical their relationship is! They really have seen this film before!! Why do you think Rory keeps coming back to Jess especially when she’s in a relationship with someone else?

Hey there! First off, thank you for checking out my Exile edit, I appreciate that a lot :) Secondly, this question sent me into an analytical spiral which is why you’re getting a response a few days late lol! I wanna preface this by saying that I’ve read a LOT of GG takes so anything I’m about to say has probably definitely been said more eloquently and concisely by someone else. Also I’m not going to get into comparing the boyfriends specifically because 1. I’ve watched the Jess eps more than any other so I don’t feel knowledgeable enough to talk on the other bfs 2. Conflict scares me :)

Okay so!

1. My (Somewhat) Reasonable Answer

I think they have a certain level of understanding that draws them back towards each other. I know Jess saying he “knows [Rory] better than anyone” in s6 is pretty controversial in the fandom (and I would never say Jess’s connection with Rory is deeper than her and, say, Lorelai’s) but that theme of “knowing”/mutual understanding crops up a lot for them (I’ve also seen a quote floating around from the writers saying they were intended to have a “meeting-of-the-minds” situation going on but all the sources I found for that were from Tumblr so not sure on the legitimacy of that).

Aside from both being bookworms they’re also both dealing with having others’ narrow expectations placed on them. The people of Stars Hollow (and in Jess’s case, his mother as well) reduce them to archetypes/caricatures of themselves (Town Sweetheart, Bad Boy). We see this pretty clearly when Taylor takes issue with Rory not wanting to play “Ice Cream Queen” once she sets her sights on college and Rory being hailed as the (literal) “poster-child of censorship.” Early on Jess susses out that Rory’s not exactly pleased with having this role forced on her (when Rory complains that her censorship poster is “stupid” Jess responds that “it’s the people who are stupid” and switches around the movie discs to get it taken down), which is one of our first glimpses at this understanding/peeling-back-their-images theme.

Teach Me Tonight has probably some of the most obvious examples of this. When Rory asks Jess why he’s not planning on attending college (when she knows that he’s more than capable, despite his lack of effort in school) he says:

“Ask my mother, she could give you a couple reasons. Oh, and I’m sure Principal Merton can chime in with a few good ones. In fact, ask your mother. She doesn’t know me all that well but I’m sure she could improvise a few things.”

Notice his response has everything to do with others’ uninformed expectations and nothing to do with his own desires! Then we have Rory saying her dream is to be an overseas correspondent and Jess initially thinking it sounds “a little too rough for [her]” (going off of that gentle Town Sweetheart assumption) then immediately pushing that away and assuring her she’ll do it.

Then we have Lorelai’s Graduation Day/The New York ep which is a huge turning point for their relationship! This whole interaction when Rory boards the bus back home really emphasizes the breaking-through-expectations point:

“Why did you come here?... I mean, you ditched school and everything. That's so not you. Why'd you do it?”

“Because, you didn't say goodbye.”

“Oh...Bye, Rory.”

Especially in conjunction with Rory’s confusion regarding her own actions after the fact:

“This is not who I am. If I were to write this down in my diary and I would read it, I would be like, Who is this freak? This isn't me.This isn't my diary. I wouldn't do this. I wouldn't skip school when I have finals coming up to go see a guy that isn't even my guy and end up missing my mother's graduation, which I wanted to be at so badly. That's someone else. That's someone flighty and stupid and dumb and girly.”

So we not only have Rory going against her own responsible schoolgirl image, but also Rory breaking through Jess’s assumption that people expect/desire him to leave (not caring enough for a warning or explanation). My friend @sanssa has a great post expanding on this better than I ever could :)

Alright so! The controversial s6 “WHY DID YOU DROP OUT OF YALE?” ep! Jess showing up (denim jacket, tousled hair, sparkly eyes...) having finally harnessed his own smarts with a published book is perhaps the perfect example of how the Jess x Rory relationship empowers them to seek out their own desires despite expectations:

“Jess, you've got such a great brain. I knew that if you could just sit down and stop shaking it around, you could do something like this. I knew it. I knew it.”

“I know you did...I just basically wanted to show you that. Uh, tell you...tell you that I couldn't have done it without you.”

Fast-forward to their mid-dinner argument, where Jess says:

“I know you better than anyone. This isn't you...What are you doing? Living at your grandparents' place, being in the DAR, no Yale — Why did you drop out of Yale?!

You could (and many have!) argue that this wasn’t his place to interfere (if you’re not invested in Jess I can completely understand how having the boyfriend with the least screen-time show up — tousled and sparkly as he may be — to tell her he knows her best and she’s — in kinder words — wasting her life away would have you saying “Who’s this guy?” lol) but when you look at their history of pushing past each others’ fronts and get to Rory’s resulting realization;

“[Jess is] doing something...I’m not. I mean, what am I doing? I'm living with my grandparents... I'm palling with my grandmother and being waited on by a maid. I come home, and my shoes are magically shined. My clothes are magically clean, ironed, and laid out. My bed is magically turned down. I'm in the DAR? I'm going to meetings and teas and cocktail parties?... And wasting my time partying and drinking, just hanging out doing nothing,”

I personally interpret it as him telling her a hard truth she was shielding herself from accepting. And of course we see his intervention in-part sets off her reconnecting with Lorelai and getting back on track with her schooling/dreams, in much the same way Rory pushing past his “no one expects anything of me so I’m going to do nothing with my life” assumption motivates him to pursue writing more seriously.

Then finally we get to the Revival where Jess finds Rory in a slump again and encourages her to write a book about her and her mother:

“Where is this coming from? What inspired you?”

“I was frustrated. I was talking to Jess —”

...

“Last night I outlined the first five chapters just like that. That’s a sign...This is it, this is what I’m supposed to do.”

TL;DR: They understand each other in a way that lets them see past others’ assumptions/expectations to the true, complicated them in a way that empowers them to follow their dreams and be better versions of themselves

2. My Extremely Biased Hopeless Romantic Answer

There’s some sort of soulmate/red string of fate thing going on, Alexa play Invisible String

[a-little-slice-of-fandom]

If you could restage Six (so same basic script with different set, costumes, choreography etc. and possibly minor script changes) What would you change?

Hey love!!!

Ooooh this is quite an interesting question. I don’t think I’d change an awful lot (because six does work on a fundamental level. It wouldn’t be playing across three different continents with 7 productions if it didn’t) but there are a few tweaks that I think could work!

I don’t think I’d change the set at all because I think the minimalism works quite well and it makes it feel more like a concert than a traditional musical. As for staging I’d probably just try and make it that Parr stands further away from the other queens pre-IDNLY for the ✨ symbolism ✨. Six kind of does that already? But I’d make it more obvious.

If we’re going with current west end costumes/ Australian costumes then I’d wouldn’t change a thing. Those costumes perfectly encapsulate their queens and work well both individually and as a group. They’ve been updated to be more sparkly now and look much sturdier than the previous west end costumes but they’re still the same costumes and I think they should be the standard for the show. Don’t try and fix what’s not broken! I would maybe just make the west end/Australiam Seymour costume more in line with the broadway costume because thats not been carried over yet (unlike the Aragon costume) and I think it’s actually a nice change. If we’re talking broadway costumes then Aragon, Boleyn, Seymour and Howard can stay. Cleves costume and broadway Parr costume on the other hand...I would change them back to what they were before. Britt can keep the boots though! I’d also personally update the ladies in waiting costumes. I don’t think they fit with the show very much and you can get nicer costumes.

Also find a way bring back the masquerade masks in AYWD from the studio run! It’d be such a powerful image and you could have so much fun with the designs of the masks (having the masks match everyone’s costumes, including alt covers!). I’d maybe make it so you tie the masks instead of holding them so the queens can still have their mics though. That was actually an issue in the studio run of the show where you couldn’t always hear the queens backing up Aimie, and it would only be more of a problem in bigger theatres.

Back to the ladies in waiting, while I don’t think that they should have lines I do think that there should maybe be a fifth lady in waiting on ✨ miscellaneous instruments ✨ to bring back the jazz elements from the studio run and the violin/oboe (?) from the student run. While I love the four LIW we have now (and without them we wouldn’t have a show) I also love the variety and the individuality that every song had in the older runs thanks to more instruments. I know six wants to come off as more uniformly pop-oriented now but I genuinely liked the variety that the old runs had. But I think this is the most unlikely of my changes to happen lol.

As for tiny script changes, I would maybe just give everyone another couple of lines here and there to add another 5 minutes to the run time. I know that some people talk about “extending” six into a full two hour musical but honestly? The reason why I love six is because it’s so short and noncommittal. Plus that would completely ruin the way it’s structured as a musical and it probably would do more damage to the script that helping it. I might dislike how six is organised sometimes but Toby and Lucy did know what they were doing when it came to the actual structure and writing of the show. Another five minutes just might help flesh out the queens a little more (I think that Cleves in particular could really benefit from more lines) but it wouldn’t ruin the flow of the show or make the show overstay it’s welcome. Also it would allow Boleyn to mention Elizabeth so that’s always a plus.

(Also this is a very personal thing but I would take out the miscarriages joke near the end. I know six has a very young fanbase and it doesn’t affect most of them, but I just think that joke is a step too far and is really insensitive. Yes, I know that’s the point, but it’s just a joke I never found funny and I think it’s one of the only joke that relies on taking it too far. Six is better than insensitive jokes)

Lastly, I wouldn’t really change much of the choreo (it’s not something I know much about but I like what’s there already) but I do think I have a good idea for one part of IDNLY. You know that bit where Parr is listing off the things she did like “I wrote books and psalms and meditations”? Instead of having Parr walking about the front of the stage while the queens sit on that little bit with the stairs, I’d have Parr sitting on the steps with the other queens. Then she could direct different parts of that verse to the different queens. Like turning to Aragon when she says “fought for female education” and Cleves when she says “I even got a woman to paint my picture”. I‘ve always viewed that bit as Parr intentionally trying to mention causes that the other queens feel strongly about, and her showing that they all have overlapping interests so I think that could work well. Plus the queens all sitting down together as a group and listening to Parr in the middle could be a really powerful image (especially if Parr was previously standing further apart like I suggested). This is all just a me thing though and it probably made no sense.

Okay for someone who said they didn’t want to change much, I’ve made an awful long post about what I’d change 😂 but thank you again for the ask love!!! I really enjoyed answering it

[kunderdogs]

KNK As Brothers

First time doing something like this and I had a fun time writing it! My siblings are close but not by much lol 

Jihun: The Best Friend

He’s your number one guy, no matter what

The type to be there, no questions asked

Always takes your side if you’re fighting with your parents

Will make sure you’re safe whenever you go out

Offering to pick you up and take you there

Waits up for your call so he can drive you to make sure you’re safe

Your very first friend

As children, you two rarely ever played with anyone else at the playground

You two rarely fight - you’re too similar

Doesn’t mind if you want to put make-up on him

Just don’t post it without his approval - needs you to have one with his good side at the least

Wants to screen everyone of your boyfriends/partners before he can approve of them

They have to meet certain criteria before they’re approved

If he sees you crying, he’ll comfort you immediately and want to know what’s wrong and how he can help

Will buy you a bunch of food to help you feel better

Cuddles like when you were children

No concept of personal space

Will barge into your room and flop on your bed when you’re laying down

Wants to have deep talks about anything

Confides in you the most

You’re first one he tells good news to

HUGS FOR EVERYTHING!!!!!!

The kind of hugs that lift you up and spin you around

Gives you his old clothes/things 

Sneaks you some spending money when you need it, even if your parents tell him not to since you always use it on snacks

Joking around with you like your one of his friends

Includes you in most of his plans and includes himself in yours

Especially if you’re going to get a pedicure, he’s like “I’M DOWN!!!”

Wants to do face masks with you and watch rom-coms since his friends don’t like that

Tells every single one of his girlfriends that you come before them and they find it cute until he ditches them on a date when you call him crying about your boyfriend

When you move out, he makes sure to make him a copy of your key and interrogates the security at your apartment building about every little detail. “Are those cameras in the elevator operational? How many break-ins have you had in the last two years?”

Will drag you to the gym with him when you stay too long on the couch

Complains about your driving even though you’re a better driver than he is

Buys you random things that remind him of you - like a stuffed lizard because it’s your favorite color

Seoham: The Gentle Protector

You can do no wrong to him

You’re perfect - it’s that simple

Almost fatherly in a sense

Wants only the best for you

Encourages you to do your best in school/work and pursue your dreams

Supports you 110% all the time

Will correct you if you need guidance but he does it lovingly

Takes you out on “sibling dates” when you were younger so you have high expectations of your future s/o

Probably won’t approve of anyone you bring home because no one can be good enough for their little sib

Looks intimidating but will pout and whine if you don’t want to talk about your problems with him

Doesn’t have good advice but he’s a great listener

Tells you men are terrible and encourages you not to date forever

Tries to have the birds and bees talk with you when you’re nine

Will panic when you get your period because he has no idea how to handle this new development so your parents are like “She’s the same person...just don’t be weird about it.”

Helps you play pranks on your other family members

Eventually you two have a prank war between you two

You thought you won until he replaced the sugar with salt one day when you were planning to make a cake for your friend

You were PISSED but had to acknowledge defeat at that point

He has a paper crown that says ‘KING OF PRANKS’

Gets you the oddest Christmas presents - like tire caps that are pink and sparkly

And a cereal dispenser - which you love but why the fuck would he get you that

Takes you to award shows so you get the chance to dress up

Whines that you’re too pretty and now he’ll have to shoo away all the guys from trying to hit on you

Glares at anyone who looks at you for too long

If you don’t do good in school, he’ll be very disappointed and blame himself

Tells you stop wearing his clothes if you’re gonna get make-up on the collars

Buys matching sibling shirts for you guys

Always smiling when you call/text/face time him

Wants to do holiday cards with you in those stupid onesies, even though you’re 28 years old

“You’re never too old for family pictures!!” “You’re 30 and wearing a Snoopy onesie...”

On your birthday, he’ll send you gifts at your school/work like big balloons or a flower arrangement

Brags about you to his friends even if they’ve known you for years

VERY affectionate

Will probably cry if you deny him a hug

Crying at your graduations

Cries when you get engaged

Crying the loudest when you get married like even more so than your parents

“You’ll always be my little sister.”

Dongwon: Overprotective

As your older brother, he feels the weight of the responsibility

You guys weren’t that close growing up since you’re girl

Didn’t know how to relate to you tbh

Asks your oldest brother for advice to be closer to you

Tries to be there for you but he gets distracted by his own life

Doesn’t let anyone bad mouth you EVER

Will stand up to anyone for you, even your own family

Has gotten into fights over some guy at school making an inappropriate comment about your skirt

Is so overprotective because he doesn’t want you to end up going down the wrong path

Goes about it the wrong way, let’s be real lol

If you try to sneak out, he’s on yo ass & will drag you back home

Will embarrass you in front of your friends and “your lil boyfriend”

“Who is this guy?” “Your BOYFRIEND? Hell no. Wait for me in the car.”

Lectures you about being responsible and focusing on school in order to be successful in life

You guys argue all the time when you’re teenagers/college age honestly

He’s so hardheaded and he doesn’t understand why you don’t see he’s doing this out of love

It takes your older brother to break it up and separate you two before you hurt each other feelings

Even though you do argue, he’s the first to make up. He can’t stay upset with you and it breaks his heart to see you crying because of something he said

He’ll buy your favorite food and apologize, wrapping you in his arms and kissing your head

You two get closer as you get older and you mature under both your brothers guidance

Thinks there’s no one in this world that deserves you so he won’t approve of anyone. You could bring home the nicest, kindest, sweetest guy and Dongwon would be like “Hm...I don’t like his vibe.”

HATES when you go out with your friends and will force his friends to come with him so he can keep an eye on you

Glares at anyone who tries to make a move on you, effectively keeping all potential suitors away from you

Is satisfied with himself when he grabs the drink some guy bought for you and downs it

Yep, he’s the one that will follow you on your first date and sit in the back of the restaurant with a hoodie and sunglasses on but you immediately spot him and sigh

Why is he like this

When he gets older, he will shower you in gifts to “make up” for him being an ass when you were younger

It makes you feel a little guilty but he got you a new macbook so you keep your mouth shut for the most part

Your relationship improves as you get older because he is more mature

Inseong: The “Twin”

Since you two are the youngest in the family, you guys are dotted on

But since you’re the baby, you get everything

He’s jealous of you when you two are children

He wants all the attention on him but then you were born

Asks your mom to return you when you were 3

Your oldest sister is the mediator but she goes thru puberty and you’re kind of on your own

Since you and Inseong are so close in age, you go to school together

He doesn’t speak to you much in school, you revolve in two different circles but he keeps an eye out for you 

Instead of him protecting you, you protect him and stand up for him since he’s too shy to say anything

He appreciates it a lot even if he doesn’t say much about it

One day a girl in his grade was making fun of how he laughs and she didn’t see you near by

So when you confronted her, it turned physical very fast and you were pulled off of her and sent to the principal’s office since you punched her first

Inseong heard about what happened and was worried about you but you were sent home before he could get to the office 

When he gets home, he’s relieved that you’re not hurt but he’s upset that you got into a fight for him. “You shouldn’t fight for me.”

“You’re my brother. I’d fight the whole school if they said something bad about you.”

He’s so touched, he’s crying in your arms now

You’re like wtf dude get a grip but just smile and tell him to be with you when you have to tell your parents what happened

After that you guys are inseparable - like twins

ALWAYS taking pictures of you and selfies with you two

Demands you take “candid” pictures of him. “Is it really a candid if you ask for it though?” “Just take it Y/N!”

He’s very cuddly with you and loves resting on you cause you’re tiny

Will buy you just about anything if you act cute to him

Complains when you steal his clothes & hoodies but doesn’t really care

He gives in to every suggestion you have

Mostly goes along with your bad ideas

Has to have you looking good in public because “you’re a reflection of me!”

Will be nervous if he brings a girl over to meet you and your older sister because he wants you two to approve of her and he knows how blunt you two are

Doesn’t want you to have a boyfriend because he doesn’t want you to “forget” about him

Pouts when you tell him you’re dating someone

HYPE man to the max

Will be bawling at your wedding then will sing “I Will Always Love You” by Whitney Houston but has to stop since he’s crying again

Asks to live with you after you get married because he misses you

You think he’s joking cause he laughed it off but he’s serious

He now lives 10 min walking distance from you

Heejun: The Bad Influence

Since y’all were so close in age, your parents made you do everything he did

If he played soccer, so did you

When he wanted to learn the guitar, you had to as well

You wanted to take dance classes? They signed him up too

Unfortunately for you, he was a boy wonder and excelled in literally everything, even the things you “forced” him to do

He’s always getting you in trouble though

In school or at home

Somehow manages to run and hide whenever someone is scolding you

One time, for a senior prank, he and his friends pulled the old ‘water bucket over the door’ trick on the dean and you somehow took the fall even though you were in class at the time

But it’s okay since you find him and beat him with whatever is in reach (backpack, math book, frying pan, your mother’s heels)

Always promises to make up for your suffering somehow

He’s still your favorite family member though

You two sneak out all the time

Some times to hang out with all your friends

Or he’ll drag you to a party

Heejun won’t let you drink underage though, HELL NO

Each time he sees you’ve some how managed to get another red solo cup, he’ll snatch it from you

Tries to set you up with his most responsible friend because he doesn’t trust none of the others honestly

Teasing the hell out of you for anything

“WooOOOOWW straight A’s? Your nerd is showing~”

Always screaming and making random noises that make you jump

Gets drunk one night when he’s in college and face times you at 3am to tell you that men are trash and don’t date anyone like him

Runs to you every time he has girl problems

He taught you how to hot wire a car and when you asked how he knew how to, he said “If I told you, I’d have to kill you.”

Play wrestles you when you least expect it

Like you’re just walking in your house and you’re tackled from the side and put in a headlock with him screaming “TAP OUT! TAP NOW!”

When he finds out you were crying over a boy, he’ll throw on a hoodie and call his boys, “We ride at dawn, bitches. We’ve got to hurt some people.”

Literally will beat your ex’s ass for cheating on you and will play innocent when you question him, even though his knuckles are red and bruised. “Hm? Oh, this? I...fell. Yeah, that’s what happened.”

Pouts when you won’t come to his band’s performance 

Literally will whine and bitch about how you don’t love him if you don’t come and watch him play for the millionth time

Is always showing you physical affection of some kind - arm over your shoulders, ruffling your hair, nudging you, kicking you softly when he wants your attention

Will toss ice on you if you don’t wake up when he wants you to

Is basically a little shit

Demands you name your first kid after him if you wanted kids

Is very offended when you have a girl and don’t name it Heejun

But he’s the best uncle honestly - so sweet and loving. 

Completely different than how he treated you

Your daughter is his princess and he’ll deadass fight you if you tried to take her home after he spent the day with her.

“So you think you can just come back into our lives after all this time?”

“Give me back my kid. I was at work.”

[mnemememory]

[video description: a Bengal cat is sitting in the middle of the frame, eyes fixed on something just above the camera’s lens. He stays there for almost five minutes, not moving. 

A door slams just off to the side, and the cat flinches. 

“HA! I WIN! I WIN!” 

A pair of battered boots comes into the scene. “What is –?” 

“I WIN!” 

Text scrolls across the suddenly blank video: [Triumph is mine!]

STARING CONTEST WITH ROOMMATE’S CAT – part 12

NottTheBrave 

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Another Staring Contest With The Devil – Nott 3 | Frumpkin 9…SHOW MORE

[video description: A woman is standing in front of a tall wall, dressed in blue sweatpants and a black tank top. She has a long stick held loosely in her hands. Every few seconds, she spins it around so she can better show off her muscles.

Next to her is a tall man with dark skin and a long scar running up from his top lip and across his cheek. He is dressed very thoroughly in padded armour and is side-eyeing the woman and her big stick with what would appear to be a healthy dose of concern.

The woman waves her arms around. The man narrowly dodges underneath the stick.

“Hello, my lovely viewers,” the woman says, grinning. “Today, we’re going to film a man getting hit in the dick with my staff.”

“Beau,” the man says, genuine alarm settling across his classically handsome features. “I didn’t agree to that –”

The scene cuts ahead. The sun is well up in the sky by now. The man is even more thoroughly padded across every inch of his body, so much so that he can barely waddle around without falling over. He attempts to do so, shuffling to the side so he can stare balefully at the camera. Beau is nowhere to be seen.

“Hi,” he says. “My name is Fjord, over at CaptainTusktooth on YouTube, Twitter and Instagram” – links flash across the page, along with the words ‘lol go and tweet him GIF’s from The Ring’ – “And today, I’m going to be acting as a crash-dummy for –”

“Stop boring my viewers!” Beau yells off-screen.

Fjord gives the camera a long stare. It zooms in a little bit to capture how dead inside he looks, the ambient upbeat music momentarily replaced with the sound of violins.

“This is what happens,” he says. “When you lose a bet with your girlfriend. Learn from my mistakes. Don’t make bets with your girlfriend. You will lose.”

Beau cackles off-screen. The tip of her staff whips along the edge of the frame as she warms up. Fjord looks at her, then back at the camera.

“Jester,” he says. “If I die, I want you to know that this is entirely your fault and –”

“Here I come!”

The scene cuts to Fjord giving a loud, high shriek as he stumbles back. The moment replays once in slow motion, the colour saturated out and violins playing in the background, and then cuts to them both standing in side-by-side.

“Okay, so here’s how to actually hit someone –”

Beau continues to demonstrate how to hit someone without actually hurting them, and then how to hit someone and absolutely hurt them. Fjord remains stoic throughout, though ever so often he’ll make a pained face to the camera whenever Beau lands too-hard a hit. The video ends with a montage of Fjord’s uncomfortable faces overlaid with his initial scream].

 I Hit A Man So Hard He Screams | ft. CaptainTusktooth

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Join me and my crash-dummy and fellow YouTuber CaptainTusktooth (yes, that’s his real name) as I hit him a lot with my staff…SHOW MORE

[video description: A woman with short blue-dyed hair and glitter-dusted freckles is standing in front of an expensive-looking kitchen. Her apron has the words ‘My Cooking Is So Good Even The Smoke Alarm Cheers Me On’ stitched in pink thread across her chest. The intro theme – which consists of tiny bubble unicorns stampeding across the screen dragging the words ‘Jester Fancypants McGee!’ behind them – pops with a burst of sparkly animation.

“Happy Valentine’s Day!” Jester says, waving her arms around.

From behind the camera, a quiet voice says something. Words appear at the bottom of the screen:

[Yasha: Your right hand is out of frame]

Jester beams, shifting a little more to the right.

[Yasha: No, you have to go the other way]

Jester shuffles to her left. She seems to receive some kind of non-verbal confirmation that she is corrected positioned, because she starts back up again with no less enthusiasm.

“In honour of Valentines Day, we’re going to do be doing something very special. Do you know what my favourite kind of cake is?”

There is a moment’s silence.

[Yasha: Wait, do you want me to answer that?]

 “Red Velvet Cake!” Jester yells at the same time, flinging her arms into the air. “And do you know what that reminds me of?”

Another moment of silence.

[Yasha: …blood?]

“Blood!” Jester yells at the same time. “Oh, you got it right Yasha! Good for you.”

There is a small sigh.

“Here’s what you’re going to need to make this very wonderfully bloody Valentine’s Day Red Velvet Cake,” Jester says. She points at the white granite tabletop and snaps her fingers. Through the magic of jump-cut editing, it soon becomes littered with messily measured bowels of ingredients. Text appears to the side in curly lettering: For ingredients and full recipe, check link to Jester’s blog in the description!!!

The cake that takes form is less anatomically correct than artistically creative, complete with googly-eyes and a dramatically screaming mouth. Jester stands back from her work with a proud smile. She wipes her stained fingers down the length of her apron, which now resembles something out of a particularly gruesome horror movie. Her face is splattered with red food colouring, her nose tipped with a puffy smear of cream cheese icing.

“And there you have it!” she says proudly. “My Valentine’s Day –”

Someone stumbles into the scene. Fjord is very obviously tired, limbs dragging with lethargy, dark bruises visible along his arms. He takes one look at the destroyed kitchen, horror-movie girlfriend, and camera-setup, and then turns around and leaves. An edited frowny face follows him out of frame].

the coolest and most fun valentine’s day cake in the history of ever

Jester Fancypants McGee

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Prepare for Vonderful Vampire Valentine’s Day with this one-of-a-kind Red Velvet heart – cake...SHOW MORE

[video description: Fjord is sitting on a comfortable-looking couch that is covered in all kinds of animal rug-skins. The person sitting next to him has shoulder-length blond hair and is almost comically well-dressed compared to Fjord’s own jeans and cowboy boots.

Fjord stares dead at the camera.

“Welcome,” he drawls. “To Fjord’s Yee-Haw Game Ranch.”

 Fjord’s Yee-Haw Game Ranch: Red Dead 2 ft. Bryce

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Well howdy there, partners! Welcome to Fjord’s Yee-haw Game Ranch, where I – Captain Tusktooth, AKA Fjord – and Bryce….SHOW MORE

[video description: a tall, skinny man is sitting calmly in the middle of a graveyard. The stones are warped and faded enough that the names are completely unrecognisable, the camera focused in a way that the shadowed trees are a black silhouette against his back.

“Hello, children,” the man says. He is dressed in bright pastels, his hair dyed a fluorescent pink. “Today we are going to make the perfect cup of tea.”

 He calmly sets up a tripod with a large, antique black kettle hooked over the top. He sets a small fire underneath it and sits and stares at the camera.

After five minutes of waiting, he checks the kettle and is apparently satisfied with the results, because he goes over to one of the graves and begin to pick some flowers. There is no sound other than the crackle of the fire and the distant, creak of tree branches pushed about by the breeze.

The man returns to his spot and begins to grind up some purple flowers in a mortar and pestle, gently brushing the contents the clay cup when he is done. He sits back with a low, contented sigh and stares at something behind the camera for a little while.

When the kettle begins to make some noise, the man gets to his feet and takes the kettle off the tripod, pouring it into the cup. He stirs it for a little bit with a small stick, and then blows gently over the top. Steam curls up from the cup towards the sky in delicate, smoky tendrils.

The man waits for a few minutes, and then takes a long, generous sip of the tea.

“Aaah,” he says. “Thank you for experiencing this with me, children. This is a very good cup of tea.”

 making the perfect cup of tea

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Making tea…SHOW MORE

[video description: the camera is focused downward at a table full of buttons. There is no apparent uniformity to the size, design or colour – some of them have the paint chipped away, while others sparkle in the dim lighting. There isn’t any room in the frame for the rest of the room. There is no background music.

“Good morning, everyone. Today I welcome you to my button collection.”

A pair of green-gloved hands reach out from both sides of the frame to shift around the buttons. More buttons are revealed.

“This is one of my favourites,” the disembodied voice says. The gloved hand grabs onto a small, clear glass button to hold it up to the lens. It swims in and out of focus for a few seconds. “There was a lovely tailor shop that I lived behind for a while which just threw these away, can you believe –”

“Nott? Have you seen my cat?”

“I’m filming –”

The scene cuts again. The lighting has changed and become much brighter. The buttons on the table have obviously been messed around with. The green-gloved hand is holding up another button up for the camera to inspect, this one bronze-looking and intricately designed.

“I found this one on the coat of a dead person washed up next to the sewer I was hiding behind. I had to polish it a lot to get the bloodstains out of the cracks, but I think it came out okay.”

The rest of the video continues in a similar vein, with the green-gloved hand choosing buttons from the table seemingly at random and relaying stories about each of them. At one point, a cat jumps up onto the table and starts pawing through the buttons, but the green-gloved hand shoos it away before it can eat any of them].

 EPIC BUTTON COLLECTION

NottTheBrave

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Posted 11/03/2018

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BONUS

[video description: a tall, androgynous-looking man who has perfect purple-and-gold eyeshadow and is covered in tattoos stares fixedly at the camera. He is sitting cross-legged on a bed covered in throw-pillows that do not match. He is slowly tapping his nails – which are painted a lime green with glitter accents – along his knee.

“Well, well, well,” he says, lazily stretching out his shoulders. “I bet you thought I had died.”

Someone clears their voice offscreen.

“Well, I didn’t!” he continues hastily, voice bright and cheerful. “Which is the important thing to remember here. No one is dead. I continue to grace you with my presence through your computer screens. Less Mollymauk Tealeaf is still better than none!”

Another throat-clear, this time louder and more pointed.

Mollymauk rolls his eyes. “Since my last foundation tutorial seemed to go over well, I thought I should demonstrate some more advanced –”

Someone barges into screen, shoving Mollymauk off to the side and glaring at the camera. Her shirt if cobalt blue. Her arms are crossed in front of her chest. Her makeup is smudgy and old.

“Hey, Molly,” she says. “Why don’t you tell your lovely viewers why you’ve been so radio silent these past few weeks.”

“I said you could watch so long as you didn’t interfere! This is going to be a mess trying to edit out –”

“No one wants to watch your foundation, they want to know about –”

“I am a very private person, Beau, and I don’t appreciate –”

Someone comes into frame. She is very tall, with heavy dark makeup and frost-pale skin. Her eyes narrow at the bickering duo, and then she turns her back onto them.

“He got hit by a car,” she says.

“Yasha! Get back behind the camera!”

Yasha shrugs and goes out of frame. Mollymauk is currently in a headlock.

“Wait, on second thought, come and save me –!”

The scene cuts into the future, with Mollymauk and Beau sitting on opposite ends of the bed glaring at each other. They are both noticeably more dishevelled than earlier. Mollymauk’s makeup does, however, remain impeccable.

Words appear at the bottom of the screen:

[We put it to a vote. Molly was outvoted 2 to 1. You’re welcome]

“Fine,” Mollymauk finally says, sulkily uncrossing his arms and sitting up a little straighter. “This can be my impromptu Q&A! I haven’t done one of those in a while, anyway. To make a long story short –

“Very short,” mutters Beau.

“– I was run over by one of my exes.”

“One of your asshole exes,” Beau says. “You always forget to mention that.”

“Well, I thought the fact that he ran me over with his car made that fairly self-explanatory.”

“People are stupid. They need things spelled out for them.”

“Well, maybe you’re not –”

There is another jump cut. There are noticeably less pillows on the bed, and the ones that remain have been moved around. Beau is gazing sulkily off into the corner.

“I basically broke up with him because he started being a creep to some friends of mine,” Mollymauk says, glancing down at his nails. “And when they told me some of the things he said – well, it wasn’t exactly the most heartbreaking decision I’ve ever made. It was rather cathartic, actually.”

“And then he ran you over with a car.”

“I’m getting to that, calm down. Since Lorenzo wouldn’t stop harassing me, I decided to – well, you know what, that’s not a very internet-friendly story. Needless to say, he made the decision to cut off all contact.”

“With you,” Beau mutters. Mollymauk ignores her.

“Unfortunately, he isn’t exactly – the hamster’s dead, but the wheel’s still turning, if you know what I mean. Since I’m rather publicly affiliated with this simply charming young woman –”

“Fuck you, Molly.”

“– he decided to be rather unpleasant.”

Beau scowls. “This idiot pushed me out of the way of that car and was in a coma for a good week. Thanks, dickhead.”

“I’m so sorry for saving your life, it won’t happen next time.”

[I just cut out the next part because I had to bleep everything out, and it wasn’t worth it]

The scene cuts again. Molly is sitting in centre frame, back straight and grin wide. Beau is nowhere to be seen. The bed is a mess, with most of the pillows shoved into the corner.

“Since this devolved a little, I guess my next video will have to be the foundation one! So sorry for that, my lovely viewers, but really what you need to know is that I’m back and will once again be uploading on schedule. So long, farewell, and I’ll see you next time.”

Molly blows a kiss to the camera, and the scene ends.

 My Ex Ran Me Over With His Car | Impromptu Q&A With boBeauboBeaubo1

Mollymauk Tealeaf

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Posted 12/07/2018

While I think the title is fairly self-explanatory, I do want to assure people that I’m all better now with only a few scars…SHOW MORE

[dreamsinger-rose]

Review - Trolls

First off, if you’d like to see other stuff I’ve written, on Fanfiction.net I am Dreamsinger. On Amazon, my usually-very-comprehensive reviews are under Gemseeker.

For my first post I thought I’d start with a review I wrote about a movie I fell in love with recently - Dreamworks’ Trolls. I posted a shorter version of this review on Amazon. I couldn’t post the whole thing - apparently it was too long! LOL.  Feel free to make a comment - or multiple ones, seeing as how I go through quite a few different points that may be easier to discuss separately. I’m looking forward to hearing what you all have to say :) 

Funny, clever and heartwarming. Characters you care about- one has PTSD. Catchy music, gorgeous colorful animation

This is a funny, funny movie. Make no doubt about that. But there are a lot of touching, subtle messages in this movie as well. Don't get me wrong, you can look at it two ways - on the surface it's a comical, musical adventure about a pair of not-quite-friends who team up to rescue a group of trolls kidnapped by a monster called a bergen who wants to eat them. Kind of generic, right?

But as a story writer with an interest in psychology, I see a lot more going on, if you only care to notice. Without going too much into spoiler territory, here's what stood out to me and made Trolls a beloved favorite of mine.

The troll world is fantastically unique, a place where the laws of science, particularly physics and biology, are very different from our world. For example, trolls use their hair for all sorts of things; it moves and stretches at will. There are certain trolls whose bodies produce cupcakes (that are apparently edible); others produce sparkly glitter that is used in various creative and/or defensive ways. Oddly enough, I don't find this offensive; what appear to be fart jokes aren't, not quite. Also, trolls' skin and hair colors can change rather dramatically. This fact becomes hugely significant later.

Troll culture has some rather unique points – clothing is apparently optional. The glitter-trolls don't wear clothes, but there are no embarrassing bits displayed, so I’m fine with that. There is a charming custom called Hug Time, where every hour, trolls are supposed to participate in group hugs. Trolls actively teach their children that everyone deserves to be happy - that it's important to care about others and live in harmony. They also have this tragic backstory that is not gone into much in the movie; namely, that older trolls must have had friends and loved ones eaten by the bergens in the past, which makes me wonder if they have something of the mentality of oppressed people, who feel a strong need to stick together.

The animation is absolutely gorgeous, with brilliant colors that appeal to the artist in me. But even more so, what struck me the first time I saw Trolls was that none of the characters -not one- fit what we think of as traditional beauty. There are no "beautiful people" here, just regular people who work and laugh and go on dates and -successfully- fall in love. That's a powerful message. Think about it.

What I love most about Trolls is how so many of the characters learn from each other and grow into better people. The troll princess, Poppy, is cheerful, fun-loving and well-meaning at the beginning, but when disaster strikes, she takes on the responsibility of rescuing her friends, despite knowing nothing about the world outside her village. I admire her leadership and positive thinking – she is a great role model for the other characters. Her funny, upbeat song "Get Back Up Again" is one I've used myself to get through tough times...

In conflicts with other characters that could easily have ended badly, Poppy demonstrates a lot of compassion and forgiveness, as well as the ability to just "roll with it". Those are valuable people skills, and really impressed me. She isn't perfect, though - she can be pushy, manipulative and irritating. Poppy is the personification of hope, which is all the more heartbreaking when she finally breaks down and ends up being the one who needs help herself. She also demonstrates resiliency, and is able to bounce back and make good decisions despite all that happens to her.

The character Bridget (her name means "strength", by the way) is a simple, caring bergen who could easily have been the star of a Cinderella-type story all by herself. A scullery maid hopelessly in love and despairing of ever having the courage to tell him, she begins to change when she meets the trolls. By the end of the film you feel so proud of her for stepping up and doing what she feels is the right, no matter what it costs her. From her, we learn self-confidence, self-sacrifice and courage. A truly admirable, and likable, character. Her voice actress' singing is phenomenal. She can do everything from tremulous love songs to disco funk.

My favorite character, hands down, is Branch. "I don't sing, and I don't relax. This is the way I am, and I like it!" He's easily the most complicated person I've seen in an animated film in a long, long time. While he is prone to outbursts of temper and paranoia that the other trolls find tiresome, (truly, he is hilarious in these scenes!) Branch is also very caring, more than he wants to admit, even to himself. As the only gray troll in the village, his color is more significant than we realize at first. He has a dark past that is hinted at almost from the start, and a lot of emotional issues (related to guilt, of all things), to overcome. I admit it; my heart goes out to him.

I love his character design. He wears a vest that reminds me of gingerbread house trim, all rows of overlapping half-circles or semi-arches, worn with a pair of endearingly clumsily-sewn shorts. One of the other characters even comments on his vest, which makes me wonder if it was a gift from someone special… Branch is also the first young character I've ever seen with crow's-feet, premature stress-induced wrinkles at the corners of his eyes, something that gives his face a remarkable amount of character.

Despite his problems, Branch is portrayed as a strong character, who is methodical, resourceful and intelligent, good at mechanical engineering, physically capable and agile. He demonstrates a certain wry sense of humor at times. He is all the more brave for facing his fears out of love for a certain someone. A small spoiler that I think most of us would guess anyway, seeing as how he is voiced by Justin Timberlake: Branch's song True Colors is one of the sweetest, most charming songs I've ever heard. (I bought the Trolls music right afterward.)

The voice talent, as I've said above, is excellent. Every song is sung with so many fine nuances (Poppy's voice trembles, Branch has the most delicate, sensitive tone I think I've ever heard). I like how Poppy's voice goes husky when she's feeling emotional. I love how Branch's voice cracks when he's nervous or upset. I find the fact that three of the other trolls have different accents from the rest fascinating, making me speculate on whether there is more than one troll village out there.

There are very few areas of which I'm critical; one being the use of a few religious terms like "Oh, my God" and "angel", but as they are used in a non-religious way I can accept that. There is no swearing and aside from the glitter/cupcake jokes, no actual toilet humor, which is often the reason I won't buy an otherwise decent movie.

One area that I wish had been explained, even briefly, is how bergens justified eating trolls, seeing as how they can talk with them. Did they think they were just some kind of silly animal that happened to be able to speak/sing? It makes it harder to sympathize with the bergens, even after we see how miserably depressed they all are.

"Happiness isn't something you put inside you; it's already there. Sometimes you just need someone to help you find it." -A quote from Poppy with massively significant undertones, so subtle I didn't see it until I'd seen the movie several times. Bergens have what they consider a good reason to eat trolls –they believe it makes a bergen "truly happy". Sounds kind of addictive, doesn't it? Is that reason all the current bergens believe themselves to be miserable (BTW, why do they have a roller rink/pizza parlor if they're so unhappy?), even those bergens who have never eaten a troll? Because most of them were addicted and even twenty years later still long for what they perceived as “true happiness”?

Don't forget to check out the bonus content. There's a series of clips called Troll To Troll, where Poppy and Branch engage in amusing dialog that helped me understand Branch's character better. While he's often described as a grumpy loner in other reviews, the Branch in the clips seemed to be more social and less angry, with his biggest emotional problems relating to anxiety, not hostility.

Final notes: There's a reference in one of the songs called "Sunshine Day" from the Brady Bunch. 

Although Poppy is portrayed as the main character, Branch and Bridget are really the true protagonists. They grow and change more than anyone else.

Overall, I believe that Dreamworks did a fantastic job on Trolls. I feel that a lot of the people who worked on it have some background in psychology, (or suffer from anxiety or depression or know people who do) since many of their films have a strong emphasis on emotions, and Trolls is one of the best movies they have ever produced. (Thank you, Dreamworks!)

Be sure to check out the Trolls holiday special, and the cartoon series based on the movie, too. There’s also a two-minute short called Trolla-Palooza Tour, where we get to see Branch play the electric guitar.

There’s lots more I could go into, especially now that the TV series is out (still not sure if it counts as canon or not) so please comment/reblog, and thanks for reading this massive post ^_^

[princess-megzie]

jfc could you maybe stop spamming all of us with your gofundme bullshit? we get it already. go get a job like everyeone else who has to work to pay there bills. your hats are crap and cost way too much. who the fuck is going to pay 20$ for something you can get on amazon for 3$? grow the fuck up and get a job.

Hi. I’m Rainbow aka Megzie’s wife. Megzie is currently out of the office and I gleefully announced that I would reply. Why? Because she has shit to do, and I just finished work. I also haven’t slept in over 24 hours so this is going to be extra exciting!

I usually attempt to be somewhat diplomatic when responding to comments like this. Thankfully we have had very few, as usually all of our accounts keep anonymous questions off. I find that cowards seek out ways to be nasty if given the chance and it’s best just to not give them a way to do that. If you’re going  to be a horrible piece of shit, it’s always better to use your name so I can ridicule you publicly, have others join in to point and laugh at the sorry loser and then block your ass! That way we all have fun.

I am at the moment very upset. If this had come to me my answer would have been “lol loser. Poor pathetic idiot has no life and wants to make everyone miserable. Sit on my sparkly dick and spin shit head!” HOWEVER. You did not send this to me, you sent this to my wife. So now, I’m fucking pissed. So allow me to express this in the best way I know how.

Fuck you.

Now! Since that’s out of the way, let me tell you why you are a small pathetic little coward that should really think about your life choices. I know a lot of you idiots are losing even more brain cells with those tide pods your sucking on, but do me a favor and drop the colored sack for five minutes.

1. News flash, I am currently working four jobs plus school. Megzie just got done with an internship and is also currently looking for something else. So right away, you assumed that A, we’re not working, and B, we’re not trying to find anything. Bless your narrow minded little soul, I WISH I was that fucking ignorant. The world must be as bright as those pods for you huh? I could just pinch that cheek if it wasn’t covered in soap.

2.Our hats are very nice thank you. I know it’s reeeeeeeeeally hard for you to understand how small handcrafted cottage businesses work and I wouldn’t dream of trying to make you put any REAL thought into it so I’ll just say that, A) lying about the quality of something you have never actually tried is usually frowned upon in the grown up world. B) We price our hats (and all the rest of our products) so that we can pay ourselves at least something of a living wage after the price of materials. Bu it still takes around two hours for Megzie to make a single hat if she’s focusing solely on it. I know you’re short on brain cells, so I’ll do the math for you-- despite the utterly EXORBITANT price tag, we’re still making just above minimum wage for each product sold. And lastly, C) a really amazing solution to not wanting to spend the money on a handcrafted item, would simply be to just…..(wait for it).....not buy it! SIMPLE RIGHT?! OMG EVEN YOU CAN DO IT! And the best part is……………..you can do it without being a fucking shit face! What a concept!

3. Sweetie. That wasn’t spamming. That was simply reblogging. Trust me. I can spam. Megzie can spam! But we are restraining ourselves. Lord have mercy if we actually start promoting something. But that comes to the best part! Guess what every tumblr user has on their page? Guess guess! That’s right! A ‘Follow/Unfollow’ button!!! I bet you already sort of know what that does. I mean you can sort of type so you must have some idea of what buttons do. But just in case you forgot! ‘Following’ someone on tumblr means that you LIKE their content and would like to see more. “Unfollowing” someone means that you are not interested in the content and would like to stop seeing it. CRAZY RIGHT!? WHO KNEW THE INTERNET WAS SO FUCKING SIMPLE!? So just remember, when you get on tumblr everyday and think, “HM...SHOULD I HARASS SOMEONE GOING THROUGH A TOUGH TIME BECAUSE I DON’T LIKE SEEING THIS POST!?” You can say “NO! I WILL ACT LIKE A PERSON WITH SOME VAGUE SENSE OF EMPATHY AND RESTRAIN MY SMALL BRAIN AND SIMPLY, UNFOLLOW.” Magic. Am I right? You don’t have to answer that. I know capital letters are hard.

So in conclusion little person. There is one simple fact here. And that fact is, we are currently going through a hard time. We are one of many people in this world that is facing poverty. We have over the years build up a strong group of support. We helped when we were able and hoped it made a positive difference in people’s lives. (Trust me, we have a huge stack of plush that we got when we donated towards projects from other friends). We find ourselves in a situation where we are in need of help, and our support system has been kind in ways that even I could never hope for. We are even the recipients of a food bank charity that lets us get groceries every week. (We qualify because we make enough money to show we are actually working and not just sitting around looking for a handout, you fucking dillweed) Anyone who graduated college will tell you that jobs are not easy to come by, especially around this time of year. Everytime I think about getting a fifth job (along with school) and working fast food or retail, I have to remind myself of the physical limitations that have prevented me from doing so recently, such as an autoimmune disease that is untreated due to no way to pay for medication and doctor visits. (Apparently because the drugs I need are the same they give to chemo patients, they need to test my blood every month which is like over $100 per test. Doctors. Am I right?) And that’s just the physical disability. I mean I could talk you ear off all the other things I have to deal with like ADD, dyslexia, dyscalculia, executive dysfunction, severe depression, so on and so forth. Megzie is even worse off than I am at times, and these times, have been very hard.

But you know what makes this amazing? They won't be that way forever. One of those jobs I have, is working on a movie where I will get IMDB credits, which in the entertainment industry, will go a long way. I’ve worked my ass off to make sure that I will succeed as a video editor, and when my searching finally pays off, I will be able to support us. Megzie is currently working to organize consulting work as well as other means of employment and we have more leads every day. One of them WILL stick. In the meantime, we have our small cottage business. It’s toxic green and full of work and a genuine love for what we do. One day, our hard work will pay off and we'll both be employed again. Have regular income, pay bills, make sure we can buy toilet paper, think about a retirement fund, buy clothes without guilt, take her to a movie every now and then, slowly start to pay off our mountains of student loans, help out those who gave us a hand when we needed it and relax after a long day at work knowing that we will not be homeless.

And you will not matter. Years from now, hell, maybe even month, you will not matter. Did you hurt Megzie with your cruel comment? Of course you did. It was meant to hurt. It was meant to be cruel. And it did it’s job. But that hurt is fleeting, and we get up the next day to do our best. Your spitefulness will fade from memory and eventually you will become to us, what you know you already are--nothing. Because when we are back on our feet, when we are stable and working towards the rest of our lives, you will still be nothing. You will be dirt that clogged the gears for only a moment before it was brushed aside and discarded. You will be a passing annoyance. You have to live with that. You have to carry that shame inside you. You are a cruel person. And that’s something you will have to have inside you for all of your days. And I take great satisfaction in that. Because this struggle we are in now? That’s temporary. You being a cowardly pathetic disgusting sack of garbage? You get to carry that around for the rest of your life.

And should you change your mind, I will still sell you a nice warm hat. :)

[sturlsons]

gotham archives: batman’s writing process

Anon on CC asked: Hello! Your outlines are so pretty!! Can I ask how you plan them / your process, and do you have the outline for heretic? Thank you!!

hi anon! thank you for your compliment! the sacramental outline is pretty organised but most of my first outlines look more like the petersburg one, i start with a trusty pen and  then make more notes with different ink the more i think about things.

okay, so my beta, @fyolette​ plays an INTEGRAL, indispensable role in my planning process. incidentally heretic is the first piece she worked on unofficially with me (the first official one we worked on from start to finish was movers and shakers), i.e. i had a (MISERABLE) draft written and then she helped me put it together.

the process depends on what form i have the original idea in. i almost never get an idea in its entirety, a story doesn’t come into my head in a start-to-finish resolution form. my stories are dynamic and character-driven, i.e. i know that X and Y will have Z dramatic moment, at some point X is going to Cry On A Rooftop, and i want Y to learn W important lesson. what concrete, logical sequence of events leads to this? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ (though to be fair i sometimes do have more of an idea than this.)

i also get a lot of thematic ideas — you’ll hear me saying shit like “okay so i want them to be petty criminals” or “i want them to be bakers” or “okay but get this, PHOTOGRAPHERS” (wow teesta that’s new and totally not something that you’ve written in 4 different variations already). most importantly, i link music and poetry to fics. i can’t write a significant story without an epigraph and a playlist, whether i include them in the final post or not.

what this means is i basically take a bunch of knicknacks to ksenya (which she calls sparkly buttons) which can consist of songs, moodboards, character profiles, key incidents, etcetera, and then we arrange those into a comprehensible plot. in the 1.5 years that we’ve been working together, i’ve gotten a little better at outlining, so now sometimes i can provide a complete list of scenes to her (arranged even! this isn’t sarcasm, it’s genuinely progress for me!) and then she helps me fill in plot holes and rearrange bumpy progressions.

since i’m not one to make changes to my draft unless there’s a dramatic problem, ksenya and i both favour outlining the story thoroughly. it cuts out 80% of the editing labour. and i’m a shitty, shitty plotter, but i’m a great writer; there’s not much to complain about in post-processing.

for me, the star of the story is emotional progress, for which the plot is a framework. (hence i always admire writers who have amazing, intelligent plots!) so i almost never know HOW a character got to a certain point, but i know where he started from and where he is now, and where he has to go. and (very important) The Friends He Made Along The Way.

there you have it anon! the outlining/plotting is actually the biggest and worst part of the writing process for me, after which it’s pretty much smooth sailing provided i have the time and energy to write. well except for this year where i have rushed headlong into a writer’s block, but u know. life just b like that sometimes.

i thought i’d say a word about the physical outlines themselves since you asked for the heretic one (linking that in the end!). so, i always start with a physical one because my brain doesn’t work unless i put a pen to paper, the physical act of writing helps me remember things. so my physical outlines are usually messy because i know i’ll be rewriting them or entering them into the laptop. so let’s say that my first outline looks like the petersburg one, and the physical rewrite looks like the sacramental one. like who are u. i’m u but neater.

but that was back in 2015, i’m With The Times now, i make spreadsheets if the plot is big enough! here is an example of the summer; blue spreadsheet, and another one for jaywalkers.

summer; blue (start of the process)

summer; blue (very end of the process)

jaywalkers

so this is basically what i do. the uh, fuck i forgot the term. um, data criterion? SKEJRGHSERG basically the columns i add depends on the plot. summer; blue had this undercurrent (lol) of taehyung’s illness so i added a column for that, another story i’m writing has so many simultaneous plots that i’ve actually just made a year-long calendar of it, what happens in jan/feb/march etc. it’s much easier to work with than a notebook where you can only add so many edits before it starts looking like utter shit. ON WHICH NOTE I PRESENT THE SHITTY OUTLINE OF HERETIC.

oh also, i occasionally use aeon timeline especially for simultaneous plotlines! i have one for that story i mentioned above, the one i made a calendar for. tbh idk why i didn’t just use aeon like i’m doing the same thing, rip. aeon timeline is super useful, it’s some 40 euros which is a little harsh on the wallet depending on ur budget but then you have it for life! u know what let me put down the apps that i use most frequently for writing though they’re super common and have been around in writing masterposts since 5000 BC.

so in order of usage in the process:

my trusty notebook,,

pinterest + my inspiration blog for moodboards (i used to use padlet but i…forgot about it)

spotify for playlists

skype because ksenya and i video call for sometimes 4 - 5 hours, plotting out something start to finish in the duration of one call itself while she drives down from one city to another, etc.

aeon timeline in combination with

google sheets, where i enter my plots; i share them with ksenya so she can see my progress

for the actual writing, it depends on my mood: i mostly sprint on mywriteclub, but i also have ommwriter, focuswriter, evernote, and what i call the Hell App— an app called writer’s block which doesn’t let you quit the window until you reach a time/word count goal.

my final draft goes into google docs so that ksenya can read over it

then i use the maps application on my phone to find the nearest bar in order to get shitfaced to celebrate the end of the hell fic.

all the links above are for mac, once u go mac u never go back etcetera. but i think they should have windows equivalents! everything apart from aeon timeline is free. apart from the booze. that’s not free. unless ur smart

so there you have it! i’m so sure i could’ve expressed and explained all of this in a more comprehensible manner but this has all the important points! if you want me to elaborate on something don’t hesitate to hit me up. i can fish up examples/screenshots for almost all of my published works, though i’ll keep my WIP shit under wraps for obvious reasons. but if someone would like me to thoroughly document the process of a new fic from start to finish when i get to it, i could possibly do that if there’s interest! again, just hit me up.

GO FORTH IN FAITH MY CHILDREN i don’t think any of this was particularly useful but at the very least now u know what goes down in the batcave.

[woven-birds]

**Rant ahead. I apologize for any spelling and/or grammar mistakes. I’m tired and kind of emotional so it may not be well written rn.**

**Also tw warning for mental health.**

Lol @ people on here who think they know my life. And think that I’m an “overly sensitive, special snowflake, “everyone is beautiful and special”, “believe in yourself”, “do not let the world make you hard”, sjw delicate -as-a-flower-petal girls that refuse to live in the real world and believe life is some magical sparkly fairy tale full of meadows and flowers and sunshine and ~kisses from your gentle, artsy, and loving European boyfriend~ just because that’s how life actually is for them and they think it’s that way for every girl on the planet” kind of girl. All because I said to not be so rude and mean. That kindness goes a long way.

She also said: “I’m done being kind??? Who the fuck are you to tell me to be kind??? Who the fuck are you to tell me what to do??? I don’t even know you??? The fuck??? I’m done with being kind??? You have no idea what the fuck has happened in my life and I don’t owe anyone kindness??? Kindness, patience, and softness has brought me nothing but misery and suffering and being stepped all over and being repeatedly betrayed so uh yeah, I’m done trying to be ~♡☆kind and sweet and soft~♡☆^.^ so shut the fuck up????”

{I’ve never told this next bit to the public. Only my boyfriend and past therapists.}

LET ME TELL YOU MY LIFE STORY since you assume you know my life:

I have been through some shit. I was sexually abused as a kid and beat, thrown into an adult jail at 16 because of my crazy mother where I was unsafe and around actual murderers (for real some Orange is the New Black stuff without the comical relief). I was hospitalized for 6 months for attempted suicide and an eating disorder as a young teen. And again at 20 (nearly two years ago) for attempted suicide. I was hospitalized for the first time at age 10.  I got pregnant at 17 and now live far away from my son at the moment. While I was pregnant with him my family kept forcing me to give him up/get an abortion. I have very bad anxiety so bad I don’t know how to have normal conversations with people; and have panic attacks while grocery shopping and don’t leave my house as a result. I have severe depression and I have PTSD from all the trauma in my life. I have been in therapy since I was 5. I was first put on medication at 7. I can’t currently afford to get help for my mental illness so I’m dealing with it on my own. I grew up with an emotionally abusive mother and a mentally ill uncle who I lived with that tried to burn our house down when I was 15. I’ve never met my biological dad. My aunt strangled me when I was 11. I grew up poor; as a teenager I had to beg my mom for hygiene products and new underwear. I was also lucky if I got a meal once a day. I self-harmed since I was 10, and had my ED since age 8. My best friend at 14 died from cancer. I could go on… but I think I’ve made my point. My life is far from perfect. 

Nevertheless, I’m still kind to people. Yes I have my moments like any other person. However, I’m not rude or cruel or judgmental of other people. With the cards I’ve been dealt in life you’d think I would just lie down and let life beat me down, but guess what? I fucking don’t. I keep going. And when I feel like I can’t and I want to die or self-harm I talk to someone. A stranger most of the time because I have zero friends irl. I’m kind to people and I accept kindness from other people. I could choose to be bitter and miserable. But I don’t. (I’ll address you personally now) You should too.You shouldn’t just give into being so unhappy and cold just because of the things that happened to you.  I promise you you’ll feel a lot better. That’s all I was trying to say to you. I wasn’t trying to tell you “how to feel” as you said in your post. 

I’ll call anyone out for being rude. Idc. If you don’t like it unfollow me. There’s no fucking reason to not be kind. That’s the point of this long insomnia fueled rant of mine. If you’re super negative and rude & refuse to change - leave. Don’t follow me. I don’t want that in my life in any way, shape, or form. 

Okay, I’m done now. Thank you for listening.

[bxngtans]

Hey guys! This is just my reaction/summary post of the BTS Concert in Newark (Thursday, 3/23)! I’ll be going into a lot of detail, but bare with me. I’ve linked all the fancams I took throughout the post, so you can check that out :)

[Full Fancam Playlist]

BEFORE THE CONCERT

Alright so first things first...I’ve been following BTS since ~May/June 2014, and this was the first time I was actually able to go to a live concert. I WAS LITERALLY BEYOND THE MOON when I got tickets, and I was so excited that I was badgering everyone I knew with my fangirling. BTS means so much to me, they got me through some of the hardest times in my life, and they gave me happiness and hope. So getting to go to one of their concerts, see them and support them in person, was such a blessing.

I had P2 seated tickets, so I got to the Prudential Center at around 7pm. I immediately got in line for some merchandise, and I was able to get a BTS Army Bomb!! I met another girl who also came to the concert alone and we bonded over BTS and the struggle of putting batteries into the lightstick LOL. Once I got to my seat, I was all alone as in the seats on either side of me were empty, BUT the MVs were running and the energy in the venue was so amazing. Everyone was singing along, jamming out, cheering, and I got into it too. It’s pretty amazing how so many people were singing along to BTS and I was really really happy tbh. Two girls eventually ended up next to me, and they were seasoned concert-goers so they were really nice! The seat to my left was empty though :( Also!!! So many volunteers were handing out colored baggies for the rainbow, it was so touching.

THE CONCERT BEGINS / INTRODUCTION

Okay so....holy shit. The lights finally dimmed and literally everyone was losing their shit. They had this cool shattering effect play on the screens and then BOOM BTS was out, kicking it off with Not Today! It literally felt so surreal. They were even better than I could have ever imagined, and everyone was so hyped it was amazing. To start off the concert, they transitioned pretty quickly between songs. I was so into it, I only got a few snippets of the songs, but it was all so good. I think at this point they had gone through Am I Wrong, Baepsae, and Dope! AND LEGIT I COULD NOT BELIEVE THEY WERE THAT IN SYNC AND STILL SINGING SO WELL.

When they got to the introduction, I was pretty much dying with how cute they were...and how dorky they were in real life. If I had any theory that they were in fact cool and chic that was thrown out of the picture when J-Hope came out onto the scene with his “I’m your hope~, I’m your angel~,” line! They all clearly practiced their English, which was so touching too. AND OMG SUGA. What a dork, he just kind of basked in the cheers when it was his turn to speak, and had this little smirk on his face, I was dying!

Video Clips: Am I Wrong + Baepsae / Introduction Ment (JK)

BEGIN: SOLO STAGE (JK)

Holy. Freaking. Shit. MY BOY IS S O   F R E A K I N G  T A L E N T E D. When he first came out, I was internally screaming, and when he opened his mouth, it was like angels came out from behind the clouds...But nothing could have prepared me for that dance break. He seriously killed it and I could not believe how stable he was while singing. I’ve never been so proud of him. :’)

Video Clip: Begin (JK)

LIE: SOLO STAGE (JM)

Alright, first off, I was so into this stage I legit did not want to take my phone out to record, I couldn’t take my eyes off of him. He sang so well, he danced so well, and the stage was so freaking beautiful, from everything from the bit where he was blindfolded to the choreography. It was so just...so freaking beautiful to watch. Park Jimin is ART.

FIRST LOVE: SOLO STAGE (SG)

I love Min Yoongi. Everyone got really quiet during his stage, and we were all just totally enraptured by his stage and his rapping. His presence is no joke. I was so into it I didn’t even think to record anything man.

REFLECTION: SOLO STAGE (RM)

WOW WAY TO MAKE ME ALMOST CRY NAMJOON. This was not planned as far as I know, but when Namjoon sang “I wish I could love myself,” all the audience echoed back “We love you,” like they did in Brazil, and I got GOOSEBUMPS. It was so freaking sweet and he totally owned the stage, even shouting out to the crowd at one point. Definitely an awe-inspiring performance.

LOST (JIN/JM/JK/V)

DUDE I WAS NOT EXPECTING THEM TO SUDDENLY POP OUT FROM THE STAGE THE WAY THEY DID, the girl next to me had to redirect my eyes LOL. I am so pumped I finally got to see this performance, and they were all so stable and their energy was A+.

Video Clip: Lost

SAVE ME

Okay, they did not give ARMYs time to breathe, literally once Lost was over, they started Save Me, and I was lowkey hyperventilating. Jin, Jimin, Jungkook, and V were the only ones on stage until the first chorus, and they were all walking around the stage and interacting with the crowd, it was so cute. Then the chorus hit, and sUDDENLY THE RAP LINE WAS RUNNING ON STAGE TO JOIN IN THE CHOREO and DAMN SON was that GOOD. One thing I have to mention for this stage, was Suga’s rapping was so o n  p o i n t.

Video Clip: Save Me

STIGMA: SOLO STAGE (V)

I recorded the entire stage because one of my friends is a Tae stan, and I’m so glad I did, because holy shit. Tae hit those high notes like a motherfreakin KING. Anyone who sleeps on his voice needs to listen to him sing Stigma live BYE. Also, totally unrelated, but he was so sparkly in this stage LOL.

Video Clip: Stigma (V)

AWAKE: SOLO STAGE (JIN)

O.M.G. I have to admit, I’m usually not one to get into ballad-type songs, but this was literally an experience. They had instrumentalists on stage too which kind of just enhanced the experience even more. And Jin’s voice was better than I could have ever imagined. He sang so emotionally and honestly, I don’t know how I was able to even keep my hand stable to record any of it...

Video Clip: Awake (Jin)

MAMA: SOLO STAGE (JH)

SO. FREAKING. AWESOME. THE CHOREO, THE SINGING, THE RAPPING, THE EVERYTHING. I LOVE JHOPE AND HE REALLY PROVED ALL THE HATERS WRONG WITH THIS STAGE. HE HAS SUCH AN AMAZING STAGE PRESENCE EVERYONE WAS SO EXCITED, THE AIR WAS BUZZING. ALSO I LOVE THIS SONG BYE.

CYPHER PT. 4 (RM, SG, JH)

THIS WAS SO LIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They were hyping up the audience so hard, and we were legit dying. This was the point in the concert where they started flinging water onto the crowd, it was getting hype real fast. (And later in the concert, Tae even threw his entire water bottle into the crowd LOL). Also, I have never loved the lyrics to this song more: every person in that stadium was singing “I love myself” and it was so freaking awesome. I love how BTS managed to create such a hyped environment and STILL have everyone singing along to the most wholesome lyrics...

Video Clip: Cypher Pt. 4 (RM, SG, JH)

FIRE

Rap line took off their coats and the music started and the other members came on the stage and DAMN. Anyone who says BTS isn’t talented has gotta look at them performing Fire live and try saying that again...Also, the fanchants/singing along was 10/10, I’m sure BTS could feel the love!

Video Clip: Fire

BTS MEDLEY

This was probably the best moment of the night for me. They started off with No More Dream and then went through all of the older songs that got them to this point. I was so emotional by the time they got to Boy in Luv and Danger, because those were the eras I first got into them...and it kind of hit me that that was three years ago, and look how far they had come. I was literally such a wreck during this part of the concert, but I loved every single bit of it. I recorded the whole bit too!

Video Clip: BTS Medley

21st CENTURY GIRL

This is one of my favorite songs by BTS, and they absolutely killed it on stage!! The message has always made my heart melt, and seeing everyone in the crowd screaming and chanting and singing along was such a surreal moment to me. All the ladies really DID put their hands up in the air and SCREAM!

Video Clip: 21st Century Girl

BOY MEETS EVIL: SOLO STAGE (JH)

Man, what can I even say...After this concert, I love J-Hope even more than I thought I could, and the dancing in this was too good to describe with words so honestly just watch it omfg.

Video Clip: Boy Meets Evil (JH)

BLOOD, SWEAT, & TEARS

(cough cough, you mean my blood, sweat, and tears after this entire concert??? LOL) I was totally emotional during this song too, because Namjoon had just announced this was their last song. And while I knew full well that it wasn’t, it STILL got emotional for me because I realized the concert was almost over. But they really did awesome with this performance, although I was a bit concerned because they looked dead tired :((

Video Clip: Blood, Sweat, & Tears

-BREAK-

Okay so BTS left the stage, and the audience quickly started cheering and chanting for BTS and it was a pretty euphoric moment tbh. Also, we all started putting on our colored baggies over our lightsticks, and seeing the rainbow ocean develop was truly amazing. I swear I got goosebumps.

WINGS

So obviously, BTS came back on stage to perform a few more songs LOL, and Wings was one of them! I could literally feel my heart melting throughout the song, because right before, they played this video basically figuratively telling the story of BTS, and how they were seven hearts into one, seven boys into one, and wow it was just really, really emotional and beautiful. Also all of them were walking all around the stage and dancing and jumping and playing around with the fans it was so SO awesome. :’)

Video Clip: Wings

-TALK-

Oh god, don’t even get me started on this...the boys called us their Wings and told us without ARMY, they wouldn’t be able to fly. And FRICK Namjoon really knows how to pull at our heartstrings. They also looked so genuinely happy with the rainbow ocean, and thanked us for it, and GOSH EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS MOMENT WAS JUST PERFECT.

2! 3!

One of the most emotional songs of the concert. When the boys held their mics out for the fans to sing, I got goosebumps, and I was really proud with how hard we tried to sing for them, despite most of us not knowing Korean, and I’m sure they were really happy too. Can I say goosebumps?!

Video Clip: 2! 3!

-THANK YOU MENT-

This was probably the sweetest moment of the concert. They all took their time to say something in English to the fans, and they all had something worth it to say. Jin was so freaking cute, egging the fans on to say that his solo stage was the best :’) And J-Hope was just so excited, you couldn’t help but smile when you saw his face on the screen. Not gonna lie, I’m gonna call Suga out on his bluff, because I’m 90% he just heard Namjoon calling us our wings and repeated that and he looked so satisfied with himself and our response LOL. BUT I LOVE HIM FOR THAT. Jungkook was adorable, and he didn’t want to speak first, our cutie! Jin called us our rainbow which was adorable too. I WISH I COULD INGRAIN EVERYTHING THEY SAID INTO MY HEAD, but alas I can only remember being so happy, laughing, and this general warm feeling in my belly.

SPRING DAY

Okay, for real for real the last song, and it was beautiful. The dancing was more than I could have ever wished to see from BTS after performing so much and for so long, and yet they still did an amazing, amazing job.

Video Clip: Spring Day

THE CONCERT ENDS / CONCLUSION

My heart hurt a little bit when they came out to do their final thank you and bow to us all. But I think they probably make a habit of doing long and meaningful goodbyes, and I’m really happy they do. The audience was singing along to the “Whoa~”s of Spring Day, and BTS just looked out to us as we did so, and it was such a sweet moment. As they bowed, a bunch of people in the pit through plushies onto the stage, and J-Hope actually picked one up and tried to mimic its face, it was SO CUTE! Jungkook took a flag and tied it around his neck like a little superhero, it was adorable. Also, Jin blew so many kisses and acted so GREASY towards the end, I freaking loved it. One of my favorite moments was when J-Hope started swaying his arms to make the crowd follow him, and Jungkook copied him except in 10x speed, like the absolute dork he is.

I PROBABLY MISSED SO MUCH and I wish I could honestly relive it all over again and again, but the memories and videos will have to suffice.

Honestly, sorry for the long-ass post, but this is mostly for my sake so I don’t forget a thing :’) But I hope you guys enjoyed reading/watching this as much as I did.

To those of you who made it to the end, wow ;D

[jercythesiscrying]

Karasuno Music Shuffle | Ch. 2/2 | Poly first-years, G, 1.5k

NaNoWriMo Day 5: iPod Shuffle

Summary: Rules: 1. Pick a character, pairing, or fandom you like. 2. Turn on your music player and put it on random/shuffle. Click the Red Velvet Mix on YouTube and let whatever happen, happen. 3. Write a ficlet/drabble related to each song that plays. You only have the time frame of the song to finish the drabble; you start when the song starts, and stop when it’s over. No lingering afterwards! 4. Do ten of these, and then post them.

Read on Ao3

A/N: All of these focus on the Karasuno First Years, who in my head are in a poly relationship with each other lol. Each song title is linked to the YouTube video that played when I was writing. Thank you once again to @bearixt for the beta and sweet comments!! ♥♥

(Fic under the cut!)

Bad Boy

Hitoka takes a deep breath, pointing the gun dead straight in front of her.

“Sayonara,” she whispers, and pulls the trigger.

“CUT!” Ennoshita yells, and everyone breaks scene.

Hitoka breathes a sigh of relief, a hand coming to her chest. She wipes her forehead with the back of her wrist, looking up to see Shimizu-senpai offering a water bottle. Hitoka swaps her gun prop for the drink.

“That was great, Hitoka-chan!” she says with a soft smile. Her words seem genuine, and Hitoka blushes at the praise.

“Thank you!” She fidgets, fingers tapping on the bottle. “I was really nervous about Ennoshita-san assigning one of the Crow’s Angels to me,” she confesses. “I didn’t think I could be a-a—” she stutters, grasping for words— “a badass like you or Saeko-san.”

Shimizu furrows her brows. “Oh, goodness, not me.” She waves a hand, brushing off the possibility. “Saeko nee-san, maybe, but not me.”

Hitoka looks at the way the black fabric of Shimizu’s jumpsuit clings to her body, how she certainly looks every bit of a badass in her high heels and perfect make up.

Wish Tree

Tadashi walks down snowy streets, feet shuffling with every block. His boots are probably getting scuffed at the toes, which Hitoka will admonish him for, but he doesn’t really mind.

Around him, downtown Tokyo easily welcomes the Christmas season with sleigh bells, sparkly decorations, and carollers dotting every street corner.

He looks up when snowflakes begin to fall gracefully from the dark night sky. A few flurries stick to his eyelashes. He brushes them away with a gloved finger, blinking away the moisture. Someone bumps into his side, and when he looks up, he sees a young couple laughing together, caught up in their own world.

Tadashi hunches his shoulders over, stuffing his hands into his pockets.

I wonder how Tsukki is doing, he thinks, thinking of his childhood friend. I hope he’s enjoying himself.

Dumb Dumb (Japanese Version)

It’s infuriating, really, how stupid Tobio feels.

Tsukishima is the most annoying person he knows. He might be even more annoying than Shouyou, which is terrifying on a whole different level.

Tsukishima makes him feel exceptionally stupid. He cannot go a day without provoking him somehow, and he literally looks down on him with every centimetre he has over Tobio.

Which is why Tobio is beyond frustrated with himself over his obviously growing crush. It’s the same way he felt—feels—about Shouyou, about Hitoka. He doesn’t know how he got into this ridiculous position, liking another one of his teammates.

“Oi, Your Highness,” Tsukishima calls after him, and Tobio’s heart flutters at Tsukishima’s voice. He hates this so much.

He takes a breath, looking over his shoulder to meet Tsukishima’s gaze. When their eyes meet, he can’t find any words to reply, somehow dumbstruck at how stupidly attractive Tsukishima looks when the light outside envelops him in a soft halo.

“Fine,” he snaps, pulling Tobio out of his thoughts, “don’t talk to me, but practice starts in five.” He leaves with the club door slamming shut behind him.

Tobio drops his head.

He doesn’t know how he’ll survive this.

One of These Nights

Tadashi makes his way towards the apartment he shares with Hitoka and Shouyou, lights illuminating the suburban street with a yellow glow. His coat is still wet with the flurries that began falling before he dove into the subway, and he sighs into his lapel, realizing he has to get it dry-cleaned now.

This time last year, he had an arm looped around Tsukki’s, and they laughed about their plans for the holiday season. Tonight, Tadashi walks home alone, heart heavy with longing.

When he reaches his building, he stops. He looks up at the high-rise with sadness. He thought he’d be over this part by now.

Perhaps another night.

Hit That Drum

Taiko drums pound a rhythmic beat around them, the cheers of Saeko’s team hollering their support.

Tadashi slams the volleyball onto the floor three times. He takes a deep breath, eyes narrowing at the exact space he wants the ball to go.

Visualize it, he hears Shimada say in his head. It will help focus your aim.

He throws the ball up, legs moving with a practiced run-up after hours upon hours upon hours of training. The ball hits the meat of his hand with a satisfying THWACK! and his body instinctively moves into a receiving position on the court. He watches as it floats above the net before dropping exactly where he planned.

Their opponent’s libero dives onto the floor, fingers stopping short where the ball lands inside the paint.

The drums around him echo throughout the stadium.

With You

Hitoka yells the lyrics as loud as her lungs allow, fingers gently threaded in Tadashi’s hair. Tadashi adjusts her position where she sits on his shoulders, and her hands automatically grasp his head, still yelling with the music. The idols on stage dance on, hands waving with the choreography, and she mimics the movement with her own free hand.

Bright lights point centre stage on the group’s leader, and they end the dance in a beautiful pose. Hitoka screams, clapping her hands in hard applause.

Halo (Beyonce cover by Wendy)

Hitoka clutches the broomstick, singing along to the music in the background. Her English isn’t perfect, and she’s sure she sounds like a fool trying to sing along with some foreign pop song, but she’s enjoying everything too much to stop.

Kageyama and Hinata apparently challenge each other with a battle to see who can do a better air guitar solo. She looks at her side where Yamaguchi continues to strum invisible bass strings to the song’s rhythm. Behind him, Tsukishima has started to tap with the beat using two dusters he found.

Hitoka belts her little heart out, completely carefree for once. Her voice soars with the music, and she snaps her fingers to the rhythm. She giggles at Yamaguchi banging his head—hard—when the beat drops. In her periphery, she catches Tsukishima’s lips breaking into a smirk.

She sings the last of the lyrics, her voice echoing into the room.

Candy

The lollipop is sweet on Kei’s tongue, the artificial watermelon flavour so tangy it’s almost sour. He looks out the corner of his eyes where his partners sit next to him with matching lollipop sticks in between their lips.

“Thanks for sharing these, Tsukki!” Yamaguchi says around the candy in his mouth. Kei shrugs, hoping that the blush on his ears isn’t noticeable.

“Aw,” Hinata whines, “I still wanted the orange flavour...”

“Trade?” Kageyama says, offering a spit-slick lollipop towards him. Kei winces when they switch candies, sticking the treat in their mouths without hesitation.

“That’s gross,” he says.

Yachi rolls her eyes, crawling over to take a seat in Kei’s lap before popping both the lollipops out of their mouths. She wraps her arms around his shoulders and kisses him soundly, tongue curling around his. He can taste her cherry flavoured lollipop when he licks into her mouth.

“It can’t be any different than doing that,” she teases, grinning down at him when they break for air.

Peek-A-Boo

Kei can’t recall right now whose idea this was, but he’s going to kill them once he remembers.

Not even Yachi will be safe when he does.

He growls, running down the corridor, stopping to catch his breath once he turns the corner. Once he knows he’s safe, he carefully peers over the wall, looking down the dimly lit hallway with its flickering lightbulbs. Cobwebs cover every inch of the decorations, the old wooden floors creaking with every movement.

He doesn’t see them, but he can hear Yamaguchi and Hinata’s laughter down the corridor, their voices growing closer. Kei sighs, heaving another breath before sprinting away.

Why in the world did he agree to play hide-and-seek in this stupid haunted house?

Blue Lemonade

Hitoka looks down at the hand softly grasping hers, eyes moving up his side to meet a narrowed gaze meeting hers.

She blushes and immediately turns away. Kei’s fingers tighten their hold.

“Look,” he says in that flat voice of his, “there’s a juice stand there.” She looks up to follow his finger pointing towards what is indeed a juice stand. She looks back at him when he asks, “Do you want something?”

“S-sure.”

She takes a seat on a bench nearby, heart thumping at the way Kei insisted he pay for their drinks. He left with a kiss to the top of her head, and it takes Hitoka everything in her not to bury her face in her hands.

When Kei returns, he holds two drinks, condensation dripping down the sides of the plastic cups.

Red Dress

“Are you sure?” Yachi calls from where she is still hiding in her room.

“Yes,” Shouyou sighs. “We promise we won’t laugh at whatever you’re wearing!”

Tobio would smile at his boyfriend’s obvious impatience, but he’s equally tired of waiting for their girlfriend to come out. They’re already very late.

Thankfully, Yachi relents. “Okay...”

She emerges from the corner, and Tobio can’t stop the gasp that escapes his lips.

Yachi is absolutely gorgeous in the little dress she wears. The fit is tight, hugging her every curve, beautiful legs exposed from mid-thigh down. She wears a pair of shiny black heels, but Tobio barely notices it because he can’t stop staring at the cut of the fabric, the exposure of her shoulders.

“Wow...” he breathes, reverent, and Yachi’s blush turns her face as red as the dress she has on.

Read chapter 1 here → See additional notes here →

[welcometoerinsworld]

This one is definitely going to be more than 5 minutes.

HOW LIFE IS GOING:

Things are going okay. Got a bit behind on my homework and had to finish it up today, which sucks, but it didn’t take too long.

It’s been three weeks since I last did an update cuz things have been all sorts of crazy, so there are three weeks of things to update on. Where to start. lol. So, last update I wrote about how I reconnected with a friend from high school, Josh. We’ve stayed in contact and message pretty much all day every day. I would say he’s part of the reason I didn’t get all my homework done before Sunday this last week. haha. It’s fun talking to him. He makes me laugh a lot and we support each other. He’s going through a lot of post-divorce drama with his ex, so we talk about that a lot. I complain about work and school and needing back massages, so it evens out.

In other news, there was some crazy stuff. I can’t remember if I’ve written about this on here before, but last summer I found a lump in my breast and had to have some testing done. They did bilateral mammograms (ow) and an ultrasound. Results came back as cysts that eventually went down in size to where I couldn’t feel them anymore. Well, a few weeks ago the lump came back bigger and had constant pain along with it. Went back to the doctor a few days after my last post and was scheduled for another round of testing at the hospital. This last Friday I had my appointment. This time they did a mammogram on just the one side and two ultrasounds. I have several more cysts, but they don’t know which one is causing the pain, so they can’t do anything about it since there are so many and they’re all fairly small. The doctor said it would be trial and error on removing the fluid from each cyst to figure out which one is being mean and that it would just fill up again over. She said if I get a large enough cyst that they can pinpoint that particular one as causing pain, they can surgically remove it, but until then they’re not going to do anything. Some days I can feel it hurting without touching it, but other days I have to poke around before it hurts. It’s a little stressful on the days I can feel the pain all day long, but at least it’s not unbearably painful. It’s mostly like a bruise someone keeps pressing on, not like pain where I’m going to fall over and cry, so at least there’s that.

WHAT I LOVED ABOUT THE LAST (three) WEEKs:

My favorite thing about three weeks ago was getting to babysit Holly’s kids. I love watching those kids. They’re all really great and so much fun. The boys (3 and 4) set up a little blockade so Emma (1) couldn’t get down the hall and she just walked back and forth in front of it all confused. It was the cutest thing ever.

My favorite thing about two weeks ago was meeting up with Josh in Winnemucca and getting to finally see him after 17 years (!). More about that below.

My favorite thing about this past week was after my testing at the hospital, Josh arranged to have flowers delivered to my apartment. He said he wanted to make sure I had something uplifting in case I received bad news at my appointment since he couldn’t be here with me. It was so incredibly sweet of him to do that and I really appreciated it.

Another nice thing about this last week is that a surprise little package arrived in the mail yesterday. Someone sent me some pretty daffodil jewelry. No clue who it’s from, but it’s lovely. Thank you, whoever you are.

WHAT I DID THIS WEEKEND and the weekend before that and the weekend before that:

This weekend has been uneventful. I’ve mostly done homework, prepared my lesson for church, and went to a friend’s house to check out her Lipsense stock. Ended up buying a few and am so excited about them. I’ve never been a girly girl (Josh keeps calling me that, though), so it’s so weird for me to buy expensive makeup (thank goodness she was running a special). But I love it and I love how it looks. My favorite is the super sparkly gloss. lol. It’s just so shiny and sparkly and pretty. I want to wear it every day. Maybe I am a closet girly girl and never realized it. lol.

These are photos of me wearing my new bright red lipstick with and without the sparkly gloss.

Without sparkly gloss

With sparkly gloss

Sooooo, for last weekend. Josh was supposed to come visit me on the 17th, but that didn’t work out, so I spent that Friday out at the coast, driving around looking at all the pretty viewpoints I passed and checking out fun eateries. It was fun and relaxing and just so nice. I loved being able to just explore at my own pace and not have to worry about homework or work or anything other than having a good time. It was really nice. Here are a few photos from my little excursion. None of them are edited, sorry. I’m too tired to process them right now. I’ll do a full post about the coast once school is out and I have time to sit down and edit photos.

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Friday night, though, things got crazy. Josh and I started joking about meeting halfway and then it turned into a serious conversation about where we could meet up. We both decided to pray and sleep on it at the very last second Saturday morning we decided to meet up in Winnemucca and spend 24 hours together. Yeah, we totally drove a billion and a half miles to meet up for a day. lol. He drove about 7.5 hours and I drove 8.25 hours. It was crazy, but also fun. I panicked a little just before we were supposed to meet up (he decided to drive up and meet me along the highway to drive back together) and pulled off at a chain-up area. He found me and we hung out there for a while, walking around and talking. It was nice. Then we drove the rest of the way to Winnemucca, had dinner, checked into our separate hotel rooms, and hung out some more. He helped me finish up some homework I still had to do and we just chilled. It was nice and relaxing and very low-key.

The next morning, he knocked on my hotel door at the crack of dawn cuz (and I loosely quote) he was “so excited to see me and couldn’t stay in his own room any longer.” I was still asleep and gave him a minor stink-eye. haha. We chatted for a bit before he went back to his hotel room (or walked around, I have no idea) so I could shower and get ready. When he came back, he showed me a few self-defense things before we headed out to find breakfast and then somewhere to walk/hike/hang out. We ended up at some sand dunes where he read part of a conference talk and then we listened to another one by Elder Uchtdorf. Then it was back to walking around, goofing off, talking a lot, and self-defense before lunch and then driving our separate ways. It was definitely a whirlwind weekend, but it was worth it. Except for the part where I almost ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere, but that’s beside the point. Josh is pretty awesome. Weird as anything on this planet, but a really great guy.

Two weekends ago was the 12th and 13th. That would have been mine and Troy’s 6-year anniversary. It was weird to realize I would have been with him for 6 years, but it didn’t make me as sad as I thought it would. I miss the fun we had together and the comfort of our relationship, but I know us parting ways was for the best. We messaged a little that day to talk about how we’re glad we have the memories of all our adventures, which was nice, but it was just a short 5-minute thing. He’s never been much for long conversations. I miss his quirks, but I’m okay with how things are now.

WHAT I’M LOOKING FORWARD TO:

School being over. lol. Seriously. It just needs to be over. I’m so done with school. This is the start of Week 9 and finals are in Week 11, so I’m almost there! Last final is due June 12th, so it’s just barely over two weeks away. I’m kinda wondering if I should take the 12th off so I can do finals, but if it works out like all my other terms, I’ll just have a bunch of timed tests that I can do on Monday and then Tuesday afternoon. Let’s all cross our fingers for that, k?

PLANS FOR THE UPCOMING WEEK:

Ugh. This week. lol. This upcoming week is turning into a giant mound of stress and it’s just barely starting. So, Tuesday I have to attend a 5.5 hour training at work after my morning session with Kid 2. That means I’ll hardly have any time to get homework done. I know this training is important, so I’m going to go and hope for the best. It’s ABM training (advanced behavioral modification) that will teach me how to handle when Kid 2 bites me, hits me, kicks me, and when other kids throw stuff. Anyone remember when I had a chair thrown at me a few weeks ago? Sheesh. The training will also go over getting out of various choke holds, how to handle hair pulling, ways to lift and move kids who are in behaviors, and some other things. I’m super nervous about it, but hopefully it will help me become better at my job.

Other stuff for this week are homework (duh), babysitting Holly’s kids (hooray!), and the possibility of Josh coming to visit. He’s going to try, but there are a lot of things going on for him at the moment, so it may not work out. I’m going to do my best to get all my homework done early in the week so I can hang out with him if he is able to come out. Sooooooooooooo, yeah. This week is gonna be crazy. Bring it on.

WHAT I’M NERVOUS ABOUT:

Homework, finals, and this dang term project I need to get working on. I have to analyze a supply chain and I haven’t started it yet. From what I’ve read on the class boards, several other classmates have yet to start, either. Not too great for any of us since there are only two weeks left in the term. I think this project is due on the 10th, so there are literally two weeks left to get it done. I’d better get crackin on it.

WHAT I’VE BEEN DAYDREAMING ABOUT:

Not having to do homework anymore. Cuddling. Romantic walks on the beach. Getting this dang knot in my neck dealt with. lol.

HOW SCHOOL IS GOING:

School is going okay. I finally got my grades put into my excel sheet, so I can begin calculating how poorly I can do on my remaining assignments and still pass. haha. This is where I stand currently with all graded assignments.

This is what I’ve calculated to keep my A’s:

And this is what I’ve calculated to pass each class with a B:

I do this every term around the end cuz I get so burned out and just want it all to be over. Normally I keep a running tally earlier in the term, but I haven’t had time to do it until now. Well, I didn’t really have the time to do it now, but I wanted to see how badly I could do and still pass. haha. I think I’ll do okay this term. Pretty sure I’ll end up with two B’s and maybe two A’s, but we’ll see. I need to get this project started for MGT 322 so I don’t entirely bomb it. But it looks like I can get 50% on it and still pass the class, so there is that.

HOW WORK IS GOING:

Things have been going okay with work. Coworker drama picked back up for a few days and I issued a solid cease and desist message on the work messaging program. Dude started texting me again, was trying to be all flirty at work, and decided it was okay to touch me at work (just my arm, nothing like what made me mad), so I sent him a clearly worded message stating none of that was okay and that it needs to stop. Made me nervous to send it, but aside from a dumb text telling me he didn’t do half of that and giving me crap for some other stuff, it has stopped again. Hopefully that all stays stopped this time.

Other than that, things are going well with Kid 2. Their family is moving soon and the house is packed up, so Kid 2 is having additional behavior problems. I’ve been bitten quite hard a few times and there has been an emergence of other new behaviors, such as licking (me, walls, chairs, toys, etc), spitting food/juice on people (so far it’s just been Kayla), and hitting. Well, I guess Kid 2 has hit before, but it’s been a long time. And kicking. Those two are rare when I work with Kid 2. Mostly it’s sitting on the floor and refusing to move (until I invade space and slowly shuffle Kid 2 along the floor) or yelling no repeatedly or pushing. We’re all working through it, though, and there seems to be progress.

I’m still pretty sad about Kid 2 moving soon. Not sure when it will be, but their house is packed up and one of the parents already has a job in the new town, so it will be soon. Hopefully not too soon, though.

HOW RUNNING IS GOING:

It’s not. My foot has been giving me troubles, so I’ve been walking sporadically over the last few weeks. Driving for so long that one weekend did something to strain my foot, so I’ve been taking it easy the last couple weeks.

WHAT BOOK I’M READING:

Yeah, I haven’t read anything in the book I wrote about in my last post, but I did read a couple chapters in The Count of Monte Cristo a few days ago. Needed a break from homework, so I read for a little while. I love that book. As cliché as it sounds, the book is so much better than the movie in 1,000 different ways. I still need to remake that video talking about the differences. Someday I will.

GOALS FOR THIS WEEK:

Reached some of my goals, but not all of them. That’s okay, though. None of these really have a deadline, so I’ll just keep these the same as before.

Fitness

Slowly increase walking pace while maintaining a distance of at least 3.1 miles

Start doing weights or resistance exercises

Do 5 regular push ups

School

Get a little ahead with homework (haha)

Work

Do better at managing Kid 2’s new behaviors

Personal

Read at least one chapter of a non-school book

Religious

Be more consistent at reading my scriptures

Read one conference talk a week

HOW I DID ON LAST WEEK’S GOALS:

Fitness

Slowly increase walking pace while maintaining a distance of at least 3.1 miles

Kinda did this, kinda didn’t. I maintained my distance, but didn’t increase my pace at all. I actually went much slower with my pace. Oh well. At least I have my distance down.

Start doing weights or resistance exercises

So, yeah, about this one. lol. I meant to do this, but life got in the way. I’ll do this at least once this week.

School

Get a little ahead with homework

I swear, every time I get a little bit ahead, life blows up and I go right back to barely keeping up. Hopefully this week will be better. 16 more days and the term is over.

Work

Get Kid 2 to the bathroom more often

I’ve actually been doing really well at this! Hooray! lol. I’ve been getting Kid 2 to the bathroom probably every 40-60 minutes, which is better than the 60-90 minutes it was before. Kid 2 doesn’t fight going into the bathroom anymore, which is helpful. Some days I’m able to hit every 30 minutes (aside from the preschool hour), which makes me happy. Still not getting every 15 minutes, but I kinda feel like that is unrealistic in a place that has as many kids as we do and just one kid bathroom.

Personal

Read at least one chapter of a non-school book

Yes! I did this! Hooray!

Religious

Be more consistent at reading my scriptures

Yeah, I’ve been struggling with this one again. I need to get back into my routine. The thing I liked about working 8-12 M-F was that I had a routine every day and a set time every day to read my scriptures. Since I only work 3 days a week now, I struggle to maintain a routine. I listen to my scriptures while getting ready for work, but on days I don’t work it tends to slip through the cracks. I will do better, though. Ooooh! I’m going to set an alarm on my phone. That will probably help.

Read one conference talk a week

I feel like this one is kind of a cheat since I read multiple conference talks to prepare my lessons. But since I don’t teach every week anymore, I’ll have to make an effort to read the weeks I don’t have a lesson to prepare for. I have done this each week, though, so hooray! lol

ISSUES/PROBLEMS/CONCERNS:

Just about having enough time this week to get all the things done that I need to. This is going to be a rough week time-wise, so I need to go to bed so I can get up early and start getting stuff done.

WHAT ELSE IS NEW:

Nothing I’m writing on here. haha.

So, I guess that’s everything. Hope everyone has a wonderful week!

5 Minute Life Update 5/27/18 This one is definitely going to be more than 5 minutes. HOW LIFE IS GOING: Things are going okay.