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Hey Mae!!! I love your writing and have been a silent supporter for a long time but I was wondering if I could request something with one of the marauders (or all of them) having an oh moment, but not like an âoh I love them,â kinda thing but like an âoh Iâve made itâ sorta thing? I donât really know how to explain it well sorry, but like they didnât think theyâd actually be in this relationship or they didnât think theyâd get this far in life with them? Iâm really sorry Iâm just babbling on about something that doesnât make sense but if you could find some way to write this or if I spark any kind of inspiration I would be so grateful!! Thank you for even considering and sorry for such a long request, love you! Canât wait to see what youâve got next! (But donât overwork yourself! eat, drink, and sleep!!!)
Thank you for your lovely request angel! And thank you to @ellecdc for helping me figure out what to do with it :)
James Potter x fem!reader ⥠639 words
James listens as your voice changes, drifting into the kitchen and back out again as you go to toss an old newspaper into the bin. Youâre tidying as you talk, telling him about the book youâve just finished. Not so James will read it, but so heâll feel like he has. Simply because you like to share things with him.Â
You gather envelopes from the dining table between your hands, flicking through them absentmindedly, pausing in your rambling to ask, âDo you need this notice?âÂ
âNo, thatâs alright,â he says from the couch. âBin it.âÂ
Your table has become a mess. James doesnât know when it happened. Itâs the closest thing to the door when you come in, so itâs accumulated receipts, flyers, and anything else the two of you donât want to hold onto when you get home. You sort it all into piles, voice a reassuring melody.Â
Outside, the sun is going down. Syrupy golden light bathes you in a warm glow, coming in through the window like it was meant to find you. James is honestly unsure how he got so lucky.Â
James Potter is no stranger to love. He was brought up to feel with his whole heart, and he knows how fortunate he is to have parents who raised him that way, and friends as good as he has, and a girlfriend so lovely. But this life.
Thereâs your mail, all mixed together on the dining table. And the meal youâll likely share there later, maybe with the tall candles you were so happy to find on sale earlier in the week. You could have last nightâs leftovers, or James could make you his motherâs pasta, which you love, and lean over the table to kiss sauce off the corners of your lips. Afterwards youâll probably curl up on the couch to watch one of your shows. James loves that you have shows you watch together, loves that you wait for him to watch new episodes and always say letâs just watch one more when youâre already heavy and yawning against his side. He loves your flat, and your inside jokes, and all the things you donât need words for.Â
He wonders how often people get this lucky. That they just go and make the perfect life with someone without even realizing.Â
âHey, sunshine.âÂ
You look up at him through the aureate glow. You appear amused at the new endearment, not of Jamesâ usual repertoire. You donât realize how fitting it is.Â
âCould you come here for a moment?âÂ
âWhatâs up?â you ask, setting down the stack youâre working on. You sit just where he knows you will, tucked up against his side. James wraps an arm around your shoulders, pulling you in snug like a key fitting to its lock.Â
âNothing,â he says, turning to give you a proper hug. You let him half haul you onto his lap, your hands on his shoulders and his face in your neck. You smell like home. Like your lotion and the bathroom after you shower and lazy Sunday mornings.Â
âJames.â Your voice is a happy hum by his ear. âWhatâs this about?âÂ
âI love you.â He nuzzles underneath your jaw, relishing your surprised laughter. âI love this. I love us.âÂ
Your fingers burrow into his curls. âI love us, too,â you say, softly.Â
âDo you want my mumâs pasta for dinner tonight?âÂ
âOoh, yes. Always.â You pull back from him, holding his head still so you can look at him. Your thumb draws a loving semicircle by his temple. âI was thinking I could light those candles I found.âÂ
James beams. âI thought you might.âÂ
You give an odd smile back. Bemused, but also horrendously besotted. âYouâre being weird.âÂ
James kisses you sweetly with a smile still on his lips. âOnly for you, my love.â
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The Salesman | SFW alphabet + being obsess with his wife
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Warnings: Parts with Suggestive things - Obsess!Salesman - Wife!Reader - Possessive!Salesman - Grammar mistakes -
A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)
The Salesman its not someone who usually shows affection or gets said feeling towards anyone. In fact for most years he thought he was unable to feel such a thing.
But then you came into his life and shattered that thought. He ended stalking you around Seoul, getting to know you before he did a first approach. He called it fazynation at first, but when he finally got to know you for real he fell hard for you.
His ways of showing affection are quality time together, since he has some complicated hours at work he looks out for things you two can do together. Avoids the places where he usually goes.
Words, he loves calling you cute nicknames and telling you how well you did something. No matter what it was he makes a big deal out of it.
Contact, if he could take you everywhere with him, he would. He needs to have you by his side, being able to touch you its a must. He needs one kiss from you for his day to be good.
B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)
Most likely you two would be friends if you two used to work for the Organization and shared the same twisted dark mind set back then.
Like that he is a chaotic one, he does not like breaking the rules, in fact he lives by them. But would push your limits both inside the island and outside.
If you two worked as recruiters then you two would have friendly competitions on who can get more peopel into the games and bet on them once the games starts.
C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)
YES. He is a big softie for his wife. After a long day of seeing the kind of peopel he hates the most he comes home needing you.Â
Will drag you to either the bed or the expensive couch the saw you seeing one time and got it for you, cause why not? The best for his wife.
Will hug you from behind, let his head fall on your shoulder and whisper how much he loves you and how happy he is with you.
If you two lay down then he would like to have you pressed against his chest, facing him so he can give you small kisses or being the small spoon so he can hug you against him and act as a shiled from the world.
D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)
THIS MAN SAW YOU AND WAS ALTERADY PLANNING THE WEEDING.
He is actually good at both. He likes to keep his home clean and prefers food that he made himself. However he cant compare his coking skills with yours. After the first time he tried your food he was unable to make himself food again. Why ? Because yours its just better!! And dont ask him to eat fast food, he hates it.
E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)
Oh sweet you, he would NEVER break up with you.
If for some reason you start to act strange and distant yourself from him he will gashlight you and blame you, manipulating the situation on his favor so you would feel bad for even think about it.
No. He needs you like his lungs needs air, he cant and wont ever let you go. He would destroy your personal life first so you would have no one to reach for.
You are his light and muse, he wont let you go.
F = Fiance(e)Â (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)
FAST. As I said he saw you and he was planning the weeding.
Even if he wants to get married fast he would work himself to be seen as a proper future husband. If you have friends then he would act as a gentlemen and even make them jealous of you. Your family would love him to no end, and would joke about when the weeding will be.
Your mom/dad may beg you to marry him since he is a good man and wants the best for you.
G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)
SFW: SOFTIE. Loves to hold you close, smell your perfume and have your hands around him. It helps him ground himself down when he is too stressed.
Emotionally he is complicated, for you he is a open book at least with his feelings of devotion towards you. He is very vocal by how much he cares for you and how happy you make it. When it comes to personal matters, mostly his work he prefers to keep you in the dark about it. He does not want you to see him any different.
NSFW: At first in order to not scare you away he would be gentle and vanilla with you in bed. Then he would slowly introduce you to his depraved and dark side of it.
Does he manipulate you into giving in? Yes, yes he does. But you wont ever notice it.
H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)
He likes them, his hugs are short but with full of meaning. He likes to give you one during the mornings and at night.
Its a routine he has, he needs to at least give you one during the day.
On special times his hugs will be longer, maybe in your anniversary, he will hold you in his arms against his chest letting you listen to his heart beat.
I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)
In is mind, he tells you the L word just days after starting dating you, or even while he stalked you.
He knows he loves you, but wants you to say it to him first so he can respond pulling all his heart in these words.
J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when theyâre jealous?)
He gets easily jealous, not because he does not trust you. But because he wants you all for himself.
Not only does he gets jealous over strange males, but over your friends too.
If he feels like you are passing too much time with them, then he will use his charm to keep you away from them.
If things gets more serious...then he will just make them dissapear, he may torture them or take two at times and makes them play a deadly game but the catch is..no one has a chance of winning.
K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)
Oh! His kisses are full of love and passion, his favorite spot its defenetly your lips. He loves to kiss them till they end all red and puffy.
Your neck is another place, he likes to leave both, small kisses and long ones in order to leave marks behind.
He likes to be kissed by you on his lips, neck, cheeck and hands. The last one its his personal favorite since it makes him feel less of a monster...or does not care what he does as long as you like his hands.
L = Little ones (How are they around children?)
Actually no.
He can fake around kids that are not his but he does not want kids with you.
He wants to live a long life with you and only you. He wants your attention only on him.
M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)
Depends on how the night activities went.
Sometimes he lets you sleep while he gets ready but he finds you making him breakfast. Thats a thing that always happen.
If he feels like he wants to spend more time with him then he would ask you to shower with him, and help him dress for the day.
N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)
Depends on how he wants the night to go and and what time he gets back.
If he comes early and just wants to spend quiality time with you, you two would watch a movie or talk for a bit.
And if he wants to do another tnings...well you two are in for a long time.
If he comes home late then he would prefer you to be asleep, since he still has to shower and other things.
But you usually wait for him awake or wake up once he gets in, you like to see his tired face light up when he sees how much you worry over him.
O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)
Its complicated. He likes how you see him and only know of his depraved side when it comes to sex.
He may twist the truth about his past and what he does for work, maybe with a few years he will reveal something more, but nothing that would scare you.
P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)
He has much patience, needs it for his work and it traslates to your relationship. Its not like you can do more to break his patience, he deals with worse things.
Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)
He remembers every single detail.
Even since he stalked you and got all your personal information, its like his second life.
What you like and dislike, what type of music, food, colors and activities, he remembers all of it.
Its impossible for him to forget a single detail when it comes to you.
He remembers your the special dates, from the first time he saw you to the first date you to had.
Your anniversary date its printed on his mind, you will find the most romantic dinner waiting for you, the most relaxing day just for you.
R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)
His favorite moment its one centrain day, the day you told him you loved him.
It was a sunny day of spring, both of you were walking around a park, seeing the flowers and nature as well as other couples.
He had stopped to buy you some sweet and was enjoying seeing you munch over them.
"You know, we have been dating for some time now" You said to him, stopping to look up at him.
Taking a deep breath you added "And I cant keep this hide from you anymore, I love you, I have never feel loved like this before. And I have never loved someone so much before, it makes my heart feel heavy in a good way. And I want you to know it, I love you"
S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)
He is very protective over you.
While he knows the organization wont do anything to you unless you do something to interfer with the games he feels at ease with that.
He does not trust the peopel.
He hacks your phone so he can know where you are at all hours. Has cameras at his home and a security system in case someone breaks in.
He even teachs you to use a gun and fight just in case.
(Having you around him its just a plus)
T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)
LOTS. Each date, anniversary and gift suprasses the last one.
He will ask you what you biggest dream is and make it come true. Gets you the best gifts and take you to the most fancy and fun dates.
Even once you two are married he likes to still take you out like old times.
U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)
He is:
A stalker.
Manipulative
Gaslighter
Possessive
Control freak but hides it.
He is a red flag, a walking one. But even that he gets all softie for you, his dear wife.
V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)
Well, he knows he is good looking and likes to take care of how he looks. But only for you.
Wants to look handsome and well dress for you. Does not care if he catches the eyes of others, he just wants you to look at him and tell him how good looking he is.
W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)
Totally. He never felt complete before, always alone and going on with his days. He never cared if he felt lonely, not till he met you from afar and then for real.
To him, you are his soulmate, his other half, his human side and lover. The one who grounds himself and brights his life.
X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)
Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldnât like, either in general or in a partner?)
Honestly if he ends being obsess with you he may ignore whatever thing he may dislike from you.
Does this mean he would not try and change you? Oh no, he would.
Something he dislikes is disobedicneic, if he tells you to not ask about his work he expects you to do as told. You cant follow, you cant enter his office...
Thats what he hates the most.
Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)
Before meeting you, he would sleep six hours. And thats it. His nights are plagued with nightmares and lots of times he would wake up before his alarm and look outside the window, towards the dark till the sun comes out and the lights of other houses starts to get on.
But once he meets you, he becomes a heavy sleepier, he loves to cuddle you during the night, with you by his side his nightmares are gone. His six hours passed to be eight hours, more if he feels greedy and want to stay besides you some more.
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i love that you donât put sonic as a jerk in your headcannons but rather supportive! this is so cool, because sonic really wants all of his friends to be happy and with amy wouldnât be different, specially since theyâve known each other since they were children and sonic himself said that she is a special/dear person to him so i agree he would be happy if amy and shadow got together. as much as i love sonamy, i also love shadamy (sorry for the long ask itâs just that is not that common seeing sonic being portrayed like this in some ffs)
Thanks for the compliment! This one means a lot because I think Iâm actually harsher toward Sonic sometimes than a lot of modern shadamy writers are. I say âmodernâ because new âAmy goes for Shadow because Sonic is a jerkâ stories are actually few and far between. Itâs easy to think theyâre all over the place because there absolutely are a lot of them, but the ones I run into are usually from, like...2012. If you sort by Date Updated on AO3, it tells a different story, pun intended. I believe there are three main reasons for this:
1. Since half of shadamy fans started shipping them in SA2 two and a half decades ago, a ton of us are in our 30s now, writing more mature stories with more fine-tuned characterization. This is one of the advantages of having an ancient ship.
2. Itâs a tired trope. Weâve all read a million of them. Most people donât like how Sonic acts in them for his sake, but my biggest gripe is that they undersell what Shadow has to offer. Heâs not just good for Amy because heâs Not Sonic, heâs good for her because of who he is.
3. Sonic treats Amy much better than he used to. The reason âSonic is a jerkâ fics were so common 10-20 years ago is because he was a jerk, almost exclusively to Amy.
These fics exist because no other character works better than Shadow as an arbiter of justice for something that bothered a lot of Amy fans at the time.
More on this under the cut. Lots more. I got kind of carried away.
Itâs easy to forget how bad Sonic was when we have games like Frontiers and comics like IDW and Mega Drive now:
Between new fans who arenât as familiar with older games, longtime fans who havenât looked at their history in a while, and fans who love Sonic and just donât want to see him in a bad light, tons of people sweep his old behavior under the rug without even realizing it.
I donât think any of that is fair to Amy.
A brief reminder of their dynamic in the past:
1. Constant abandonment. He ran from her in Sonic Adventure...
...Sonic Heroes...
And four times in SA2 alone! More on that later.
2. Standing her up on dates. This mostly happened in Sonix X...
[Episode 42, episode 45]
...but there was also Sonic and the Black Knight, where he didnât show up, didnât apologize, never made it up to her, and made no attempt to reschedule.
3. Uh...literally hurting her, for some reason...?
At the end of Sonic Riders, when he didnât feel like properly handling a hostage situation:
Oh, welcome back, episode 42! Didnât expect to see you again:
The new version of Sonic Generations altered this cutscene, thank god, but back in 2011, players saw this:
4. And the worst part of this, to me, is that he lets her get her hopes up. Itâs not just the almost-dates he skips. Knuckles teases Sonic in Heroes, saying, âAre you playing with that girlâs heart again, Sonic?â Itâs intended as a joke, but then he does things like this:
Sonic X, episode 52. You know what roses are, Sonic, you know how sheâll interpret this, and you know you wonât follow through.
I know Iâm picking on Sonic X a lot, but it was pretty popular at the time, even among fans who didnât touch the games or comics. This was how they saw these characters growing up, and it made its way into countless fics.
But even after all these years, no matter which continuity you work with...he still wonât give her a solid âno.â
Not liking someone back is fine. Not being interested in a relationship is fine. But letting her believe sheâll win you over if she chases you long enough isnât, and thatâs what heâs doing to this day.
Fans throw around the same tired old âjustificationsâ over and over for why he is/was like this to Amy, but they donât hold water. People say heâs mean because he doesnât know what to do with his feelings for her, but he liked Elise, too, and he was nothing but kind to her.
(Putting this here because although fans donât like to admit it, Elise was indeed intended to be a love interest. She and Amy are presented on par here, so if you think he likes Amy, then he liked Elise, too. You get exactly the same result regardless of who you choose for this trial.)
The other frequent âjustificationâ is that he ran and lashed out because he was afraid of her, often accompanied by awful Amy hate (âstalker,â âpsycho,â etc.). This also doesnât work because Sonic was always harsh to Amy no matter how gentle she was. Classic Amy is the sweetest, most adorable little munchkin in the world...
...and he still ran away.
^ These are from the same exact comic, by the way: IDW Sonicâs 30th anniversary. Five pages apart. How in the world could anyone not want her around?
Amy had more spunk in Adventure and Adventure 2, but she was just as sweet, and he still treated her like a pest to be swatted. The ending of her story in SA1 is this:
But...why should she have to? He treats everyone else with the same baseline of respect, at least until they give him a reason not to. Why is it just Amy? He wasnât just mean to her, he was uniquely mean to her. She didnât act out until Heroes in 2003, when sheâd already been ignored for years. Standing on the sidelines wasnât working, so she tried being more âproactive.â Was it the right way to do things? No...but I honestly canât hold it against her. It makes sense in context. She was a kid, and kids act out when theyâre neglected.
And this is where Sonic Adventure 2 comes in.
SA2 was pivotal for Amy. Nearly everyone tossed her aside; Sonic left her behind four separate times in this game alone. First was right after she broke him out of jail on Prison Island. He ran off the second her back was turned:
Second, he and Tails both walked away from her after Eggman blew up the moon. She easily couldâve gotten arrested here.
Third, Sonic and Tails made a plan to stop Eggman right in front of her, blatantly leaving her out of it as if she wasnât even there:
...which, if youâll recall, led to Eggman holding her at gunpoint:
...and when Sonic set out to rescue her, this was his recap:
This does not work as a joke given how they treat her. He pretends she doesnât exist to her face, then says this behind her back.
And immediately after that, when it was time for them to save the world, they left her alone again.
I canât speak for anyone else, but I was furious by that point.
But then...something interesting happened.
A photoset or gifset canât do this scene justice, but I think most shadamy fans have already seen it plenty of times. For the few who havenât, you can watch it here.
The contrast between Shadow and Sonic is impossible to ignore. By building up this moment the way they did, the writers primed us to notice it.
Sonic runs from Amyâs hugs, while Shadow would like more of them, please and thank you.
Sonic pretends she doesnât exist, while Shadowâs moved to tears and changes the course of his life because he values what she has to say.
Anytime theyâve interacted since then, heâs been uniquely respectful and gentle with her. Itâs what she deserves, and for a long time, this was all we had. He was all we had.
The other half of the equation is that it is very, very easy to picture Shadow taking Sonic and the others to task for their mistreatment of her. As a blunt person whoâs not afraid to confront Sonic, Shadow is the most believable candidate to this day. The only person to fully respect her from the start also happens to clash with the person who hurts her most often? Of course those fics exist. Itâs a perfect storm.
And itâs no wonder that this attitude persists somewhat even now, because Sonic is still doing this, even if heâs ânicerâ about it. That prison escape from SA2? The one he never thanked her for? He still gives all the credit to Tails for that, even up through Frontiers:
Amy. Amy broke you out of prison. Tails broke in, and then she snuck through a maximum-security prison, somehow stole a card key, and saved your life. Weâre in the 2020s, but heâs still disrespecting her. And donât get me started on the TailsTube Secret Santa episode.
It feels like Sega wants us to forget all of this ever happened, and it has some very confusing results. From that same Sonic 30th anniversary comic from above, the one where he and the others abandoned her:
Like...this? This is lying. Heâs just lying to her. I canât tell if they think we all collectively have amnesia or if itâs some weird, mean-spirited joke at her expense. I genuinely donât know what theyâre trying to say.
Itâs not enough to pretend it never happened and move on, not to me. Sonic should be held responsible for what he canonically did. Him supposedly being bad with feelings didnât make it hurt her any less, and heâs older than Amy, so he shouldâve been the mature one.
The longer the writers keep this up, the worse Sonic looks, and I donât think thatâs what theyâre aiming for. Ignoring the problem is not a solution. Amy might forgive, but Iâll never forget.
I just want to see a canon apology so I can reason out why she put up with it for so long. I want to at least be able to buy her having a crush on him. I can do that when heâs being selfless and heroic. I canât do that when he treats her like the plague, and pretending he never did doesnât match the Sonic I legitimately like. I bet a lot of s0namy fans would like to see a resolution like that, too.
Sorry to turn your thoughtful compliment into a rant. I really do appreciate it, and Iâm glad you enjoy the stories!
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Youâre Not Alone In This.
Based on the following ask: @itzvenus04 Hotch is my comfort character, maybe itâs because he takes care of others and I like that especially when I take care of people all the time, Iâm like Cinderella in my house like no joke, if I donât do it, nobody will ever do it. Anyway, I was wondering if you could do like an Aaron x Diabetic reader fic, as I have diabetes and itâs extremely difficult and exhausting and love to maybe see that with a comfort character of mine. Like Aaron does anything and everything he can to understand the reader and the illness, like when the reader sugar is high or maybe low, taking care of doctorâs appointments, medication drop off, just putting effort in I just want to read something that could comfort me in that way because itâs exhausting being a diabetic and having no one bother to care about it or put effort in, Iâm alone essentially - I really hope you like this babe! I did my best!
Aaron Hotchner x Diabetic! Fem Reader
Angst/Fluff
Word count: 1709
REQUESTS ARE OPEN - not edited - please be kind. Requests are open and feedback is welcome if it's constructive!
Warnings: My blog is 18+, minors DNI, some explicit language, reader has type 1 diabetes, mention of doctors and appointments, mention of medication/insulin management, no use of y/n, Fem reader, reader has no physical description â other than being a diabetic and having an insulin pump (worn tucked into their waistband or pocket) and an administration site located on their leg (there is mention of a site failure and relocation) as well as a sensor worn on the arm, reader is mentioned to work as well as being active in college courses (not full time), Hotch cares a lot, use of pet names, I think thatâs everything â let me know if I missed any!
I do not consent to having my work translated or reposted to any other site. That being said I do not own the characters portrayed in this story.
You were the type of person who couldnât bear the thought of burdening others. As exhausting as it was, constantly doing things on your own and taking care of others, you did so without complaint because things needed to get done. It would be much easier to just do them as opposed to putting it on someone else, or worse, adding weight to their shoulders.
This growing sense of solitude grew when you began dating Aaron. It wasnât that he made you feel alone, actually it was quite the opposite! Aaron was always reassuring you that he was by your side through it all, especially as your relationship progressed. But as things intensified, you couldnât help but notice the sag in his shoulders, bags under his eyes, and the air of weariness he exuded. Aaron had an extremely difficult job, one that had taken far too much from him, so who were you to make his life any more difficult than it already was.
You did everything in your power to hide things from Aaron â just to keep from filling his plate with anymore worry. You would suffer in silence through the highs and lows of your mental health, the business from working full time and taking classes at the local collegeâŚand even more so, your physical health.
You had kept the fact that you had type one diabetes a secret from AaronâŚnot because you were embarrassed or because you didnât trust him, it was simply because you knew heâd make it his mission to ensure that you were taken care of, ahead of everything else.
But that was the problem with dating a profiler. Aaron could see through the façade that were your replies of âthings are good!â âIâm great.â âClasses are going well.â âI feel fine, just a little tired.â Aaron knew that there was something deeper, looming under the surface, something you werenât telling him. So, two months into dating youâd had to come clean.
âSweetheart, I know something is wrong. I just wish youâd tell me so I can help you.â Heâd beg.
âAaron everything is fine I pro-â
âPlease donât say everything is fineâŚhoney, you were basically lethargic the other day when we facetimed, and I was so worried about you.â
âIâm diabetic Aaron. Thatâs what was wrong. My sugar was low. But everything is fine.â You explained.
After that, Aaron made sure to keep a closer eye on you. Not so much that youâd feel suffocated or like he was babying you, but enough that he could tell if your sugar was too high or too low. Once Aaron found out you had type one diabetes, he dove into late night research sessions on what all your condition entails, how to best manage your insulin, what an appropriate level looks like, how to calculate your carb intake so the proper amount of insulin is being administered as well as how to change your site and how to use the pump.
The change in his behavior was subtleâŚbut noticeable. Aaron started keeping small snacks or juice with him in the case of a sugar low, he also started checking in on you more frequently. When you moved in, the changes became far more obvious, Aaron was doing so much around the house â always doing the dishes, taking the trash out with him on his way to work, doing laundry on the weekends, setting up deliveries for your groceries. It was overwhelming to have someone this attentive.
âAaron, I can do this!â You giggled as his arms snuck around you, pulling the vacuum from your grasp.
âI know you can sweetheart, but you donât have to. I will.â He pressed a gentle kiss to your shoulder, encouraging you to go sit.
His overprotective nature didnât surface until he witnessed a pretty intense low.
The morning had started off normal, youâd skipped out on breakfast, which wasnât unusual. Youâd completed an assignment for school and taken your dog on a walk when you started to feel off. It had been a little bit warm outside, but with the way you were sweating, you knew that wasnât it.
You managed to get back home, but not without feeling lightheaded. You reached down to unclip the dogâs leash, and thatâs when Aaron caught it, your hands were shaking, so much so that you were struggling to open the clasp.
âSweetheart, are you okay?â
âI uh, I feel a littleâŚâ You pressed the back of your hand to your forehead and with the other, steadied yourself on the entry table. âCan you â would you grab me someâŚsome juice?â
âYeah, honey why donât you sit down.â Aaron quickly went to the kitchen and poured a glass of juice.
Aaron watched you insistently as you sipped the juice. He reached over to check your phone, to see if your numbers were starting to regulate. Taking note of the number beginning to rise, he sat next to you and rubbed soothing circles on your spine.
âHoney, did you eat breakfast this morning?â Aaron inquired.
âNo, but I never eat breakfast Aar. When I do, my numbers usually end up to high and then I feel sick all day.â You huffed.
âOkay, we will figure it out. Maybe we should schedule an appointment with your doctor.â He suggested.
âItâs always been like this, itâs okay really.â
âIâll schedule an appointment for you sweetheart.â He pressed a kiss to your temple.
Aaron was far more attentive with your illness, going with you to your doctorâs appointments, asking them how to avoid highs and lows, figuring out the best way to manage your insulin. He also began to monitor your medication, making sure you never ran out and that the pharmacy was processing your refills, when they got low.
This day was not going the way you had hoped. Things had been super overwhelming, you had finals coming up for your classes and work had been particularly busy, truthfully you were exhausted. Youâd been nauseas all day, your numbers elevated, despite your best efforts to lower them.
You had taken a break from studying to change the laundry when you heard Aaron get home.
âHey baby!â Aaron pressed a kiss to the top of your head.
âHi hon.â You mumbled.
Aaron knew you had been stressed out about school and work, you had put your finals dates on your shared calendar, and he figured that was taking its toll on you.
âWhy donât I make us some dinner? I can grill up some chicken?â He posed.
âYeah, that sounds good. I can steam some broccoli to go with it.â You suggested.
âPerfect!â Aaron left you with a peck.
Youâd finished up with the laundry and went to the kitchen, pulling out a water bottle from the fridge while you got started prepping the veggies.
Aaron glanced at you through the sliding door, he had noticed there were quite a few water bottles and cups scattered around the apartment, more than usual. He couldnât help the bit of concern that crept in â youâd previously mentioned sugar highs sometimes came with unbearable thirst.
âSweetheart, have you checked your number recently?â He asked.
âYes, itâs been a little elevated today.â
âAre you feeling okay?â
âYeah, a little nauseous but Iâm fine.â
The two of you sat and ate dinner while talking about your days. You told Aaron about a new project at work and how you were more than ready for your finals to be over. He shared that he had consulted on a few cases today with some law enforcement from other states â hopefully they wouldnât get called away this weekend.
After dinner youâd excused yourself to the restroom and Aaron cleared up the table, placing the leftovers in the fridge. He made his way to your shared bedroom and softly knocked on the bathroom door.
âBaby, is everything okay?â
âAar, Iâm fine.â You sighed.
âWould you let me in? Maybe I can help.â He offered.
âI donât need help â Shit!â You hissed.
With that Aaron let himself in the bathroom, worried that you were hurt.
âWhatâs wrong?â
âI think thereâs something wrong with my site.â You were fiddling with the site attached to your leg.
âHoney, why donât we change it out, I can help.â Aaron moved to grab everything youâd need for your new site. âIs your sensor good still?â
âI think so.â
âOkay, go lay on the bed.â He commanded gently.
You went to lay on the bed, sliding your sweats off, carefully moving your pump to lay beside you on the bed. Aaron made his way over to you with the new injection set. He assisted you in removing the old one and placing the new one, taking note of the needle being bent slightly.
âSweetheart, I think this is why youâve been high all day. Your insulin wasnât injecting properly.â
âUgh. Stupid thing! Letâs just put in the new one so I can get this all sorted out.â You stressed.
You had tears in your eyes. Not from the pain of the needle entering your skin, or the sick feeling youâve endured all dayâŚbut from the fact that you donât get to have a normal day thatâs carefree. Aaron has taken so much off your plate by being especially helpful with day-to-day things, but this feels like too much and you feel so alone in your illness.
âAlright honey, youâre all set.â Aaron began cleaning up all the trash from the new injection set.
âThank you.â
âHey sweetheartâŚâ Aaron began. âI know that I will never be able to fully understand, but I want you to know that Iâm here for you. I want to help you in anyway I can, whether itâs changing your site for you, doing the dishes after a long day, or even just to give you a hug.â
Your tears were falling freely at his confession. You had never felt so seen, so weightless, so supported. You let your head fall back and your shoulders finally relaxed.
 âI love you so much. You have no idea how much that means to me Aaron.â You wrapped your arms around his middle.
âI love you too sweet girl.â Aarons arms enveloped you as his lips connect with your forehead.
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I'd run away and hide with you
Summary - Ellie joins you and Joel on your trek to Jackson. Along the way, your mind gets the better of you, and when you reach Jackson it all comes crashing down.
A/N: i don't have any excuses for why this took so long and im so so sorry guys đ 2024 was hectic and ive only recently been able to catch up on stuff pls forgive mee
Pairing: platonic/father figure!Joel Miller x f!reader (could probably be read as GN tho?)
Word count: 3.8k
Warnings: angst, hurt/comfort, violence, guns, language, PTSD, abuse mentions, panic attack/mental breakdown
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DO NOT COPY THIS FIC IN ANY WAY PLS AND TY.
Youâre getting bad again; that much is visible to him now. But he doesnât even know whatâs wrong this time.
You never open up to him anymore. At the start, youâd tell him everything that was going on in that little head of yours. Youâd let him hold you while you cried. Youâd always talk to him.
Now you donât talk and you practically smack yourself in the face whenever you cry, willing the tears away as you bite down on your lip.
Itâs been a few months since you left Boston to visit the guys at Lincoln. It was a good trip. After that hiccup at the start, you had pretty much forgotten about your dad; he couldnât even get to you in your sleep. You spent a lot of time hanging out with Frank whilst Bill and Joel âtalked businessâ, and it was pretty fun seeing the little home they had built for themselves in the town - Frank even let you pocket some strawberries, and it was your first time trying them. Safe to say they were fucking amazing, and you told Joel all about it that night. He'd pretend to be annoyed at your incessant rambling but he liked to see you happy, distracted, somewhat.
When you came back, Marlene was bugging Joel about some new smuggling job in exchange for the car battery heâd been searching for and before you knew it, you were back on the road again to bring this kid - Ellie - to the fireflies.
She was a bright, bubbly kid. Constantly talking and telling you and Joel jokes from that damn pun book of hers.
Joel didnât warm up to her nearly as quickly as you did, and you obviously knew why. Youâd been staying with him for almost half a year now, and had gone through a lot of shit with him, so heâd told you about his past. About Sarah.
So you had a hunch that that was why he didnât open up to Ellie easily. That was why heâd always just grunt at her whenever she asked a question, why heâd practically toss her food at her when she had to eat, why he would barely even acknowledge her.
You could always tell he never meant it though. He didnât really hate her. He cared about her - thatâs just how he was - and it scared him. He was a protector, a fighter, and, most importantly, a father. He basically took you under his wing and gave you all the paternal love you ached for before, and now he had Ellie to look out for too.
But as time went on, you started noticing things. He started laughing at her jokes, or engaging in conversations with her, even telling her about before. You then realised how much it actually pissed you off.
Seeing them getting along made you incredibly jealous. Joel was your protector, your carer, your da..
You shake your head. It still felt weird when you accidentally found yourself thinking of him like that, giving him that name in your head.
It had been a few months since you all left Boston, for good you hoped, you hated that place and all the unfortunate memories you left there, but now you were in the cold and unforgiving state of Wyoming.
Right now you were all huddled around a fire in a little alcove. Joel had some whiskey which he sipped on.. As he talked to Ellie. Fucking Ellie, who was joking around with him, asking him stupid questions about some sheep farm on the moon.
You werenât paying attention, you didnât care. You instead chose to stew in your own thoughts which were drifting back to before any of this. You stared into the fire as you remembered the times you were the one making Joel smile, the one heâd hold and comfort, the one heâd talk with at the end of a long day.
He didnât do all of that with Ellie, but he didnât do any of it with you anymore, either.
Suddenly, your thoughts go even further back, remembering your father. Remembering the constant screaming which definitely damaged your eardrums by the time youâd left, the incessant beatings you received - at least that taught you first-aid, right? - and the many, many nights spent crying yourself to sleep. You didnât get to cry in front of your father, knowing heâd only hit you harder for being weak and useless, so you just waited until you were curled up on the little mattress on the floor, your dad already asleep from the alcohol.
You only come back to the present moment when you taste the metal of blood in your mouth. You didnât remember biting down on your lip but apparently you had been so hard that it made you wince slightly when you pressed your fingers to it.
Joel didnât notice. He was still talking with Ellie, his eyes soft as he looked at her over the flames.
Jealousy makes tears sting at your eyes. Youâd thought finally, finally, you found someone who would actually care about you.
Now you watch bitterly as Ellie makes him laugh more than youâd done in a while, wondering what you did wrong.
-
You were clutching your handgun tight, not feeling safe out in the open like this despite not having encountered any dangers for a good week now. It felt like things were too safe, and you didnât like it.
Your thoughts were interrupted by the sound of Ellie blowing air through her lips, and it actually kind of annoyed you, because what was she even doing?
Joel asked that question for you.
âWhat are you doing..?â He sighs heavily, glancing at her, to which she just smirks.
âIâm learning to whistle.â She replies simply.
âYou donât know how to whistle?â
âDoes it look like I know how to whistle?â She huffs.
They go back and forth for a little longer, with Joel ending up defeated as Ellie continues her air-blowing, and you find your heart splintering at the sight of them bickering only like father and daughter would. It might not seem like much, but youâve definitely noticed how Joelâs gotten closer with Ellie over the past few months. Itâs upsetting, seeing his natural paternal instincts coming out with her too now.
The three of you make your way past a big dam and arrive at a river, at which point Ellie unhelpfully chirps up.
âHey, guys, what if this is the river of death?â She jokes, not realising how poor her timing was, for you hear the heavy thuds of horse hooves almost as soon as she finishes her sentence.
âHands up. Donât make any sudden movements, or we shoot.â A gruff voice barks out. You know better than to go against what theyâve said, so you turn slowly with your arms raised, and wait for Joel to do any negotiating.
âWe ain't lookinâ for any trouble, weâre just passinâ through.â Joel says, keeping his voice strong and unwavering.
âDrop the gun.â The man spits, and Joel slowly does as he says, his eyes wide with panic and betraying the collected and brave persona he attempts to put on when he realises that this might be it.
Ellie looks equally terrified, and you canât blame her, especially when the man addresses her directly, telling her to step back and away from you.
âHow âbout we just talk this through-â Joel starts.
âHow about you shut the fuck up?â The manâs gun is now raised, and Joel knows better than to argue now, nodding.
The man asks about if any of you are infected, and you feel the dread setting into your bones. Joel tries to diffuse the situation and ease the manâs (unfortunately correct) suspicions, but itâs no use, as he whistles for the sniffer dog.
He offers you a bullet instead, the easy way out, and you all remain silent, panicking further as the dog sniffs you, then Joel, then makes its way to Ellie.
You donât know where to look, you can see Joel starting to hyperventilate, you can see Ellieâs eyes shining with a terror youâve never seen her showing before, and you just decide to not look anywhere. You squeeze your eyes shut before-
Sheâs giggling. Your brows furrow, eyes opening to see Ellie playing with the dog, her face getting licked, and she looks over at the two of you, giving you a sort of âhow the fuck am I aliveâ look, before petting the dog and smiling.
âYou just bought yourself 10 more seconds. Whatâs your business here?â The man shouts, and Joel tells him that heâs looking for his brother, trying to keep things brief.
A lady rides forward, asking Joel for his name. He gives it, and sheâs silent, looking around at the three of you and trying to piece things together, before telling you to come with her.
-
Maybe somethingâs wrong with me, you think, picking at your nails absentmindedly as you trail behind the group - Maria, Joel, Ellie, and Tommy on their little tour of Jackson.
No, somethingâs definitely wrong with me. Because why else would you be so jealous of them? Of Joel finally finding his brother - another person to drive him away from you - and finally growing closer to Ellie.
Not to mention the way you just fucking clam up any time he asks about it.
Not to mention the way you just let it all build up, suffering in silence, waiting and waiting for the inevitable moment where you break.
You all end up in the dining hall afterwards and, while youâre pissed about everything else, you canât deny some good food. You almost moan at the taste of proper, seasoned meat after all these months, wolfing it down in similar speed to Ellie and Joel.
âThereâs more if you need it.â Maria adds after a few moments of watching you all, no judgement in her tone despite your rough actions.
âThank you, maâam,â Joel says, looking up briefly before continuing to eat. âBeen a while since weâve had a proper meal.â
âActually I donât think Iâve ever had a proper meal,â Ellie chimes in, making you clench your jaw. God, even her voice pisses you off. Nobody asked her to talk. âThis is amazing.â She mumbles, food in her mouth.
Joel glances at her for a second.
âSorry.â He tells Tommy and Maria. âEllie, letâs mind our manners.â
She doesnât reply, looking up instead to see a girl watching her behind a pillar.
âWhat!â She barks, making the girl run away and making you scoff. She glances at you, frowning, before continuing to eat.
You knew she didnât hate you - you were a good pretender most of the time. Laughing at her jokes, smiling tightly during conversations.. But lately youâd slipped a bit, and she was starting to notice.
âWhatâs wrong with you?â Joel mutters.
âWhat about her manners?â Ellie spits, always so defensive.
âShe was just curious.â Maria soothes, âKids around here donât usually look or talk like you.â
âRight,â she says, nodding her head slowly, âwell maybe Iâll teach them.â
It takes everything in you to not scream. She was annoying you so much. And she was getting all the attention because of her boisterous behaviour. You were sitting there, quietly, calmly, and no one batted an eye at you.
âAnd I want my gun back.â Ellie argues.
âThey also arenât armed.â
Tommy jumps in, sensing the tension growing even more.
âYou know what, uh, I think yâall got off on the wrong foot.â He starts, but the two keep bickering.
Eventually, Tommy reveals that Maria is his wife, and after an eager congrats! from Ellie, and the most forced one possible from Joel, the meal ends.
-
Tommy quickly shows the three of you around the rest of Jackson - Maria chose to stay behind - before leaving you and Ellie in your temporary house, going to have a chat with Joel.
âSoooo.. That was awkward, huh?â She chuckles, trying to joke with you like you used to at the start of all this.
You nod, anger still bubbling up inside of you. You didnât want to be angry at her, or Joel, even, and you knew if you talked with her for too long youâd just end up yelling at her, so you tried your hardest to keep calm.
She chews on her lip, nodding slowly before starting to ramble about how crazy this town is and how Joel is totally pissed at Tommy.
You keep nodding along, wondering how on Earth she manages to keep going on and on for way too long.
Eventually, she bids you goodbye, going to explore the town.
You wouldnât want to hang out with yourself either, you think as she closes the door.
-
Joel came back home in the evening, pissed off. You tried saying hi to him, having decided you were done being annoyed at him, but he completely brushed you off before storming upstairs.
Maybe you werenât making it up. Maybe he did just.. Start hating you.
Ellieâs been in her claimed room for an hour, and the house is quiet until about 10pm. Youâre still on the couch, curled up, lost in your thoughts. About Joel, about Ellie, wondering about yourself, too. You were thinking about how nice this town is, how you didnât want to leave tomorrow at all, but figured youâd definitely have to. Youâd have to return to the wasteland outside these walls, and youâd probably never make it back to Jackson.
Youâd had too many close calls already. God, or whatever was out there, had probably spared you enough.
Your thoughts spiralled and spiralled until it happened.
Everything came out.
It started with tears, silent as they streamed down your face, before the anger released itself, making you dig your nails into your skin in some final attempt at self-control, before you were storming upstairs.
You throw the door open to Joelâs room, and he blinks at you, having been in bed, probably trying to sleep while you soaked in your misery downstairs.
Heâs such a fucking asshole, is all you can think.
âIâm not coming with you tomorrow.â You mutter, surprised you arenât yelling already.
His brows furrow and he stands up, trying to approach you.
âWhatâre you talkinâ about?â He says, voice stern and rough.
âYou clearly donât want me around anyway! Iâd just be making your life even harder if I came with you. Iâll.. Iâll just go my own way.â You huff, voice quivering towards the end when you realised youâd have to trek this world alone now.
He repeats his previous question and you bury your face in your hands, nails tightening against your fists as you try not to start screaming at him.
âWhen was the last time we had a proper conversation? Or you asked me how I was doing? Or you hugged me, or anything?! You couldnât even be bothered to say hi to me earlier, and last night you and Ellie were being buddy-buddy by the fire while I was literally on the verge of tears. You clearly donât care about me anymore. Itâs just her.â Youâre shouting now, rage consuming you as you get closer to him, shoving him backwards.
He grabs your arms roughly and you visibly flinch, eyes widening under your furrowed brows as you peer up at him. His face is blurry underneath your tears, and your mind short-circuits.
Your dad is back? Your mind tells you yes. Yes, and youâve pissed him off now, heâs grabbing you because heâs about to throw you on the floor. Youâre always doing something wrong - you shouldâve known better than to argue. Only insolent, disgraceful children open their mouths in retaliation. You should respect your father. Now you have to apologise and pray he accepts it.
Immediately youâre cowering. He canât even get a word out before you start apologising, body trembling as he loosens his grip on you.
âPlease, sir, I- Iâm so sorry- I didnât- I didnât mean to- to yell. Iâm sorry, Iâll leave, just please d-donât- please donât h-urt me-â you choke out, voice raw.
His expression softens, brows knitted in concern now rather than frustration.
âBaby, come here-â he tries to say, but youâre shaking your head, inching further backward until you press against the wall, whimpering when you realise youâre trapped.
Now heâs going to hurt you. Your apologies mean nothing when he gets this mad.
Joel had only grabbed you. It was nothing like the abuse you used to face and yet it was still enough to make you completely crumble.
You sink to the floor, sobbing, still apologising. Ellieâs awake by now, her eyes wide as she listens to what she can make out. What the fuck did he do to you? Sheâs about to get up, to go and protect you. She doesnât care if youâd been giving her the cold shoulder for the past few weeks, she doesnât care if Joel seemed to be giving her the opposite at last. If youâre in trouble and itâs because of him she didnât fucking care about anything else.
But then she pauses, just outside the door, hearing him cooing at you.
âCalm down honey. Itâs okay, itâs me, Joel. Look at me, please.â He murmurs, crouched down in front of you but still giving you some space.
You had your arms raised in front of your face, legs tucked inward, trying to protect yourself from any potential blows, mind still loud and thoughts jumbled, but his voice suddenly helped to clear some of the fog.
You peered at him through the space between your arms and blinked the tears away as best you could.
â..Joel?â You croak after a moment, and he nods, a small smile blossoming on his lips.
ââS me, sweet girl. Come here.â He opens his arms for you, and you shift closer, still timid and not making that final step.
He sighs softly, not disappointed or annoyed, just sad that your trauma managed to put you in this state.
âItâs just me, okay? Itâs Joel, not.. not him. Look at my face, baby.â He whispers, and you do. Your dad wouldnât call you baby or speak softly with you. Surely this man in front of you wasnât him.
When you finally recognise him, you feel the tears blooming again, a small whimper escaping your throat before youâre crawling into his lap, clutching him tight. Still apologising, as always.
âShh, itâs okay. Whatâs goinâ on, hm?â He says, voice gentle as ever as he holds you. He doesnât squeeze you tight, or move in any way, he just lets you cling to him. He doesnât want to suffocate you, knowing you probably already feel like you're drowning, barely tethered to him for support.
âY-you donât like me anymore.â You hiccup, and he shakes his head.
âNo, sweetheart. Of course I like you. Youâre my.. Youâre my girl, yeah? Could never hate you.â He murmurs, brows furrowing. Why did you even think that?
âB-but you get on with Ellie way better now, and- and you donât even talk to me anymore.â
He sighs softly. Ellie was.. A chatty kid. If she didnât start all those conversations with him, he doubts he wouldâve engaged with her nearly half as much as he did. He had grown to enjoy her ramblings, of course, but he was too stressed, anxious all the time on the road, to ever actually start the chats with her or you. He realises now how that wouldâve looked to you, understands the emotional breakdown youâd just had, understands why youâd been so quiet recently.
You thought he didnât want you anymore.
He gently pulls your head back, tilting it up so you could meet his eyes. His thumb catches a tear before it can fall and he starts explaining.
âBabygirl, I wasnât not talkinâ to ya as much cuz I didnât like ya. I was just stressed.. Too focused on gettinâ us across the country in one piece to worry about conversations. Ellieâs.. a bit of a chatterbox so of course I had to be respondinâ with her, but..â he trails off, guilt consuming him more and more as he tries to reason with himself. Yes he was nervous but thatâs no excuse for the state his negligence has landed you in.
âFuck, there ainât no excuse, really. I just.. Please, please believe me right now. Iâm tellinâ ya, I donât hate you and I never ever could, okay?â He pleads, eyes searching yours for any sort of understanding or forgiveness.
He definitely doesnât see hatred there like heâd seen when you first stormed up here, no, he just sees confusion, worry.
âYou really donât hate me? Even- even after I gave you so much attitude and I was shouting at you? Surely I deserve.. You shouldnât be being nice to meâŚâ You whisper, brows furrowing, confused at the fact someone was apologising to you. Normally you were the one apologising. Heâd been the only person to ever show you compassion and understanding, and you thought, surely youâve fucked it all up now.
He sighs again, shaking his head. âI could never ever hate you, honey. Never. No matter what you do or say to me, I can promise you hatred would never even cross my mind.â
You whimper again, nodding. âOkay.â Is all you can get past your lips, your body shaking with sobs again as he finally allows himself to hug you properly, rocking you back and forth and stroking your hair.
He isnât surprised when you fall asleep like this, curled up in his arms. Youâve exhausted yourself in every way tonight, and you deserve a good, long rest.
He grunts softly as he stands up, still keeping you clutched in his arms as he makes his way to the bed and sets you down. Heâll take the couch, he figures. His back is fucked already.
But then you stir a little, blinking up at him as he watches you.
âJoel?â
âHmm?â
âCan.. can you please stay tonight? I just.. IâmâŚâ You canât get the words out, but he understands. He knows what you need.
He gets in beside you, kissing your forehead after you cuddle up to him and drift off slowly, blanketed by his comforting presence, your mind a little less stormy with his reassurances now there instead.
Sleep evades him for much longer, though, distant memories of Sarah swirling within his mind. He wonders what sheâd think of him, of you, of the way heâs taken you in like this. Would she be proud? Would she be angry? Would she feel like heâs replaced her?
He shakes his head, knowing that those thoughts would just cause him to distance himself from you again.
He finally manages to fall asleep at 2am, dreaming of Christmas trees and a little girl with curly hair.
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daisuke x reader | what are you doing new year's eve?
content: sfw, fluff, confession, daisuke calls reader "man" and "dude" but gn reader otherwise, mostly dialogue whoops
word count: 895
writer's note: jimmy only speaks once, but in my head this is an au where he does nothing wrong so reading it like that might make it more bearable. sorry for giving jumbotron dialogue </3
Holidays never meant much on the Tulpar - especially not New Yearâs. Days blur together when you follow the same routine in the same place for months on end. Time hardly passes -Â and another rotation around the sun doesnât feel the same floating through space anyway.Â
Still, your humble crew made the best of it. And now all of you were gathered around the coffee table with a cake in the center, waiting for the clock to hit midnight.
âAny resolutions, guys?â your captain asks. âLetâs hear it.â
âTo find a new fucking job.â Jimmy states, crossing his arms and slouching back into his chair.
âGuyâs got the right idea. As much as I hate to say it.â Swansea agrees. His party hat has shifted out of place, though he makes no effort to readjust it.
âOh come on, guys, donât be such downers,â Anya interjects, trying to lift the mood. âWeâre with each other, right? Itâs not all bad.â
âYeah, the New Yearâs all about opportunities and fresh starts and junk!â Daisuke adds. âMy resolution this year is to finally find myself a hot date.â he laughs, pleased with himself.
âStill,â you sigh, âItâd be nice to be home right now.â You rest your chin in your hand, hunched over a little with your elbow on your lap.
Daisuke smiles and pats you on the back reassuringly. âDonât sweat it, man! Weâll be home before you know it.â He rests his hand on your shoulder, oddly comfortably.
The living room screen flashes to life with a faux-happy countdown to midnight. Itâs far too bright, especially compared to the gentler nighttime graphic (âI miss it, but âtis the season, right?â). As the clock approaches 12:00, only some of you bother counting along aloud, though those who do are rather enthusiastic. And when the clock strikes 12:00, only some of you bother cheering. The shipâs speakers ring out with a joyous tune, and Polleâs artificial voice wishing his most valued team a happy new year. Your crew goes around exchanging handshakes and hugs and all the gestures that come with the New Yearâs fresh start.
The last to approach you is Daisuke, who spreads his arms out wide, smiles even wider, and squeezes you tight in a hug.
âThanks for everything, dude. Youâre awesome! Couldnât do it without you.âÂ
Nobody takes a Pony Express internship for the companyâs good reputation. Like your fellow intern, you were down on your luck, unsure of your future, and looking for something to get you on your feet. Luckily for you (or perhaps both of you), he made things a little easier. Youâve learned and laughed together since the start of your time on the ship. No matter how tough things got, Daisuke was always there, ready to crack a joke or offer a listening ear.Â
âCouldnât do it without you, either.â you tell him in earnest. âYou make it good.â
He lets go of you, his smile dropping slowly. Daisuke looks off somewhere to the side with the slightest flush to his face.
You tilt your head. âIs something wrong?â
âNo! No, everythingâs alright, I just, uh-â he trails off for a moment, choosing his next words carefully. âCan I talk to you for a second? Like, just us?â The flush on his cheeks deepens.
You look around to find that the rest of the crew has busied themselves with slicing and distributing the cake. âYouâre sure everythingâs okay?âÂ
âPromise!â he says, pushing some confidence.
The two of you slip out of the living area and into the hall, walking a little ways away from the festivities and commotion.Â
âWhat did you wanna tell me?â you ask.
âYouâre really cool, yâknow?â he says after a beat of silence. âLike youâre always helping me and explaining things when I donât get them and saving my ass from getting yelled at. I meant it when I said youâre awesome.â
Your eyes and lips raise into a small smile. âThatâs really sweet, Daisuke. Youâve been great too, always keeping our spirits up. Youâre wonderful.âÂ
He beams, happily accepting your praise. You look him in the eye, anticipating whatever he might say next.
âBut there is something I wanted to tell you.â Daisuke raises his hands out of his pockets hesitantly, his palms up. âCan you hold my hands first? I think it would help right now.â
Your eyes widen slightly in pleasant surprise, and you place your hands in his with a comforting grasp. âWhatâs up?â
âIâve liked you, like, like-liked you for a while. Like, ever-since-we-started-working-together a while. So I was wondering maybe possibly if you wanted to, you could be my date? Like I was saying earlier?â He blurts out the words, nervous for your response.
Itâs unglamorous - but itâs sincere and heartfelt and so perfectly him that you canât help but break out into giddy laughter.
âDonât laugh at me, that was hard!â Daisuke scolds in mock-frustration.Â
Your amusement dies down and you sigh contentedly, his eyes meeting yours.
âYes, Iâd love to be your date.â
Daisuke wasnât sure when heâd hear the end of it. Maybe asking every other person on board for advice wasnât worth the relentless teasing that would follow. But, he was sure it was worth it for his first proper New Yearâs kiss, and for the life you would lead together back home.
#mouthwashing#daisuke mouthwashing#mouthwashing x reader#mouthwashing x you#daisuke x reader#mouthwashing fluff#sfw#gn reader#mouthwashing game
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ML Fanfic Recs for Completed Fics 4K - 7K Words
I've got 20 fics for y'all this time! Several Lovesquare fics, unsurprisingly, but also some nice character studies, AUs, and a handful of less common ships, such a Lukadrien and Kittybella.
All of these fics will be in my Keyseeker's Choices For Best Completed Miraculous Fics Of 2024 Collection, and if you like that, please consider checking out my other collections, Keyseeker's Choices For Best Completed Miraculous Fics Of 2023, Keyseeker's Choices For Best Completed Miraculous Fics Of 2022, and Keyseeker's Choices For Best Completed Miraculous Fics - Misc. Years.
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Two is Company by Shadownoble
Adrienâs father wants him to play for an upcoming party. Only this time he wonât be doing it alone.
This Lukadrien fic's adorable! Luka's got selective mutism, which Adrien takes in stride. I love how their relationship develops, they're smitten with each other! Though of course while Gabriel brought the two of them together, he's an obstacle too. Because he's a dick.
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memtempsychosis by @bittersweetresilience
FĂŠlix is always watching Adrien die.
I love time loop fics, and this is no exception. Felix somehow gets trapped in a time loop with Adrien where no matter what he does, Adrien always dies by the end of the day by some manner, and then everything resets. I love how inevitable it all feels, the strange beauty to the prose when going over his deaths, and how you can feel Felix's increasing desperation throughout it all.
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Consequences of Dating Blindly by @mostmagical
Marinette knew she tended to get tunnel vision when she was focused, but luckily her boyfriend Chat Noir was always there to watch her back as they fought Monarch. With their enemy having disappeared, however, they decided together that it was finally time to reveal themselves. In public. Face to face. It's a little silly to have to introduce yourself to your own boyfriend, but after all, it wasnât Marinetteâs fault that she never knew her boyfriendâs name. (Adrien has never been to school, and Marinette doesn't know him.)
This is adorable! The two of them are so smitten with each other, and Adrien's not used to people not recognizing him as Adrien AGRESTE on sight. Marinette's got quite a few surprises coming her way, she didn't expect her kitty to come from this kind of background.
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Chat Noir Cataclyms Hawk Moth's Balls by @a-flaming-idiot
It's what it says on the tin; Chat Noir castrates his unaware father. And at the same time, Gabriel hits a high C to shatter glass, Nathalie realizes she wasted her life, Chloe accidentally outs herself, Adrien becomes homeless, there are no more secret identities, Tikki thinks she's funny, Nino and Alya take what's their's, and Chloe finally respects another human being. And a partridge in a pear tree~
So this is a fun little crackfic! Lots of jokes and absurd scenarios, you're likely to giggle at least a few times (and hopefully several times) while reading this.
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The Only Love We Keep by @nemaliwrites
ZoĂŠ is used to wanting things she canât have â loving people who do not love her back. Sheâs made peace with that. But as soon as she meets Scarabella, sheâs a goner. Or, five times ZoĂŠâs love wasnât reciprocated, and one time it was.
I love this analysis of Zoe and her circumstances, her mindset, her philosophy based on how she's grown up. How she yearns for her mom to actually love her, but she just... doesn't. And how she finds friends who actually care for her, and someone who actually wants her.
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A Body Without Spirit by @nemaliwrites
âLook, I donât know much about you guys, but I always hear other humans whining about how they have to listen to their parents or their teachers or bosses or whatever.â âYes,â says Marinette, âbut thatâsâŚthatâs different. Usually, when someone tells me to do something, I only do it if I want to. I can think about it, make a real decision. But thisâŚit was like I didnât even have time to think about it. Like I couldnât resist, even if I wanted to. And if I did, it would have killed me.â -- Adrien and Marinette swap bodies. Marinette does not have a good time.
I love how this examined how it feels to be controlled by an Amok, especially by someone who's never felt it before, who knows something's not right, that this isn't just psychological, but doesn't know what's causing the inability to disobey orders. And it means that Marinette really, truly understands why Adrien can't disobey now, not just on a mental level, but through experience.
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Blueberry Passion Fruit by @ninadove and @paracosmicat
He walked up to the counter, because he could not think of anything else to do. For all those times he had rehearsed their reunion, he had failed to consider the most obvious scenario: Adrien might want to run away once more.
I love Adrien just having run away, used a fake name, and then start working at a random cafe. Of course Felix still manages to track him down eventually. I loved seeing them talk things out!
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The Music Of His Soul by @rosie-b
Ever since she was born, Marinette could hear piano music in her head. It wasnât any song that was playing in the world immediately around her; instead, what she heard were the songs that her soulmate was listening to. They came to her as her soulmate heard them, at seemingly random times from early morning to late afternoon, when the golden rays of sunset began to stream throughout Paris. Marinette enjoyed hearing the piano; it was proof that her other half was out there, alive and waiting to meet her. Written for Ladrien June Day 1: Hiding in Plain Sight
If you like soulmate fics and Ladrien, then this is a real treat! I liked this particular take on the soulmate mythos, and the way Adrien and Ladybug had looked for their soulmate, had thought of them, was really sweet!
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i love you to death by @wackus-bonkus-maximus
When Toxinelle vanishes after a battle with Hesperia, Loveybug takes her place.
So this fic takes place from Griffe Noir's perspective, showing his thought process and feelings towards Toxinelle, and his reaction when she just... vanishes and is replaced. I like how, as much as he'd convinced himself before her disappearance that he hated Toxinelle, he finds that he can't stand her being gone.
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love's constant shield kept you safe while you healed by katrinette
When Chat asks Marinette to keep his tree safe for him, of course Marinette says yes. Marinette's got ten green thumbs. She can keep any plant alive, healthy, and blooming. But Chat's tree has hidden damage, and extraordinary actions might be necessary to keep him alive.
I've never seen a tree used as a sort of daemon, as a piece of a person's soul that reflects their physical and mental state, it's very creative! I loved seeing how Adrien's and Marinette's trees acted and what they looked like, and how Adrien's tree reacted to bad circumstances.
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To Have Loved by @trishacollins
Adrien struggles with the loss of children he never had, with a life he remembers living but that wasn't real. The only person who understands him is Ladybug, his wife and his children's mother. Sleeping alone is such an empty feeling. Together, they might make a start at healing. Or they might just make a new disaster.
I love Jubilation angst. Depending on how "real" that timeline felt, waking up could be devastating - and Chat WAS certainly devastated in that episode. It's akin to the Pevensie kids in Narnia growing up, becoming rulers, and then tumbling out of the wardrobe a couple decades later, the same age at which they left. Of course Ladybug and Chat Noir would cling to each other afterwards, the only other person who remembers that imaginary timeline.
That's not all this story entails, however. Gabriel isn't too happy about Adrien sneaking out as much as he has been, and he WILL get answers, one way or another...
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If I'd Met You First by @geek-fashionista
According to Tikki, Chat Noir has always been Ladybugâs partner. âMaybe someone ought to tell him that,â Marinette says bitterly. [An Enemies AU]
So apparently this was one of the earliest enemies AU in existence, with originally being written in early 2016, but it was only just now uploaded to AO3 so I'm still counting it for this list. Despite its age, it holds up remarkably well, the author guessed a lot of things correctly, like Gabriel being Hawk Moth, it being possible to akumatize multiple people at once so long as the same feeling is being used for all of them, and it being possible to reject akumas. Considering that none of that was confirmed in season 1 (granted, most people had guessed that Gabriel was Hawk Moth, even that early), it's pretty remarkable!
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Happily Ever After by 3ggroll
Gabriel Agreste was a hero. Of that, Marinette is sure. So what's with the bitter taste in her mouth whenever she sees his statue?
This is an alternate universe version of Re-creation's epilogue, with Gabriel's Wish actually altering people's memories - Marinette's, most notably - to forget that he was Monarch, and to erase the memory of that knowledge whenever she figures it out. And she keeps ON figuring it out, over and over, but the knowledge is never allowed to stick.
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honesty can only be if there is a lie by katrinette
Ladybug always tells the truth. Chat Noir always lies.
So this is an interesting concept. While transformed, Ladybug physically cannot say anything untrue, while Chat can only speak in untruths. As a consequence, Chat gets good at figuring out how he can lie in such a way as to convey truthful information to Ladybug, and Ladybug learns how to speak deceptively without actually saying anything false.
Unfortunately for them, while they aren't bound by these conditions as civilians, it seeps into their civilian lives. Adrien learns to lie freely, easily, and convincingly, which is empowering at first, but leads to the class avoiding him when he starts being caught in them. Marinette doesn't outright lie, but her tendency to dance around subjects gets on people's nerves and similarly leads to others running out of patience with her or avoiding her. Basically, neither of their social lives fares well.
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No Names In The Stars by @nemaliwrites
Shadybug knows how her story ends: people like her don't get happy endings. She's made her peace with that. Her name on Claw Noir's wrist changes things.
I love Shadybug and Claw Noir talking like this, getting more emotionally sincere than they usually are. I especially liked how Shadybug kept thinking about how her soulmate wouldn't want her, that she's a nobody. It fits what we see of her in the special.
I also really like the reveal of who hers and Claw's enemy is. It's not unexpected, but it's still good.
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in which chat noir comes up with an awesome gift for ladybug by @mixelation
If his Lady wants ultra rare Adrien Agreste merch, then thatâs what his Lady will get! Written for the Miraculous Ladybug Secret Santa exchange.
This was really sweet and I love how mixelation wrote Adrien's internal narration! You really viscerally understood his thoughts and feelings. It had some of the intimacy of a first person perspective, but well, in third person.
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Crossed Wires by @torvalvtt
Marinette has taken Adrien up on his suggestion that they share an apartment in university to help cut costs and be closer to school. This would be fine, except they both seem to have a problem with keeping their suits off around the apartment.
This was fun and hilarious. I loved seeing Ladybug and Chat Noir hurriedly try to come up with excuses for why they were in their own apartment, while Marinette and Adrien weren't XD.
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Here is Your Chance (to Understand) by Neonlite
And when he turned back to Adrien, tired in a way he always was when he thought about Belos, at the concern in Adrienâs eyes, and he knew what really unsettled him about the boy. It was like looking in a mirror, at a younger version of himself. A version of him with a responsibility he shouldnât have had, a version of him with a power different from everyone else. Cat Noir seemed to settle atop Adrien, like a skin he was more comfortable in. (And the Golden Guardâs mask was safe because he wasnât Hunter in it, he was the strongest witch on the Isles.) -- Where Adrien gets plopped at Hunter's house and he has many feelings about it. (Maybe too much for someone who wasn't stranded in a different dimension.)
I love Adrien and Hunter talking. They don't know exactly how similar they are - Adrien is from the season 5 ending, so Gabriel's regarded as a hero and he doesn't know that he's a sentimonster - but even still, Hunter can see the similarities between his younger self and Adrien in the ways they act, can tell something's wrong, even without Adrien realizing it.
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Blanc Space by @11jj11
Nino awakes to find himself in a strange flooded world...
So this is an interesting concept. Nino wakes up to suddenly find himself in Chat Blanc's timeline, with no idea of what just happened aside from it probably being due to an akuma attack, as most strange happenings are. Of course, he meets Chat Blanc, though the cat doesn't know he's real.
I love how Nino realizes what's going on and empathizes with Chat. He needs company so badly.
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Miraculous: A Lovesquare Dating Sim by @nagisachan1
âDid you hear that, Tikki? A âchoose your own adventureâ about a romance with Parisâ superheroes. Do you really think thereâs people whoâd be interested in that sort of thing?â Tikki giggled. âI have a feeling thereâs a lot more than you think, Marinette.â What will Marinette do tonight? YOU decide, in this CYOA lovesquare adventure!
This isn't very long, but I really like the way it's set-up, I played through so many CYOA books as a kid. Playing through this simple little Lovesquare fic whets my appetite for something more involved, it seems like it'd be easy to do a multi-writer collaboration for some sort of CYOA fic, and if that happened, I'd like to use this fic as a guide for how to format it. I especially love that at the top of each chapter, there's a link to go back to the previous chapter so you can easily try out the other branches.
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While i absolutely love malevolent and everything about it from its insane concept to the fact that everything is done by one fucking guy i cant help but laugh at the fact that theres no difference between supernatural and malevolent in terms of queerbating đđ i think Iâm cursed to like homoerotic media made by straight men who wont ever commit to the bit they created
Iâm not saying that i want them to be together like explicitly or whatever its just that i know that theres no reason to add certain things in the plot other than to create this kind of ambiguous state. And i know its not just me cos my bestie who got me into malevolent and recently watched all supernatural says the same thingđđ So now weâre just making jokes about how stereotypically âbury ur gaysâ or âmake them go their separate waysâ the ending will be lmao in true fashion of the best queerbait media
Top 3 are: 1) they get separated and go their separate ways cos John wants to âfind himselfâ 2) they get separated and john goes to find lily (and donât get me started on lily that whole thing is fucking HILARIOUS to me) 3) one of them dies and the other is forever in mourning
Again i love malevolent but the last seasons really r trying it in this department đđđ
Edit. Lmao i know its a controversial take so not surprised at the comments. First of all i cant be âwrongâ about a feeling I have its just how i FEEL about the show in the later seasons. You can say you disagree but to say that im wrong about my feelings just doesnt work lol im not here to defend a thesis. Secondly i know for a fact itâs not just me and my bestie feeling this way since yk this post also has ppl who agree with međ¤ˇ. If you get what Iâm talking about you immediately understood my point, if you donât, u donât, its ok, Iâm not advocating to change the podcast lmao
Pls stop with the whole âa lot of people see it as a aromantic relationship they dont have to be a couple friends tell ily to each other oftenâ respectfully IN MY OPINION they have passed that line of friendship a long time ago. You can interpret it however you want same as I can interpret it however I want. But as a person who has a couple fandoms where i love the friendships and platonic relationships of characters i have never genuinely paid attention to to the amount of ily characters say bcos yk it would be a regular amountđđ Same as it never struck me weird if some characters been jealous in a friendship bcos it was clear that it was a friendship pure and simple. Which js why iI dont feel like jarthur is written as friends even if they never get together (which i dont even want lol i dont see how it would fit into plot atp). Honestly just how many times yall tell your friends that you love them or be ready to kill their other friends đđ
Some moments in malevolent feels eerily similar to supernatural and tw and if you get it you get. Two that come to mind is how in spn they had dean have sex with a female angel when everyone obvs been shipping him with cas. And how teen wolf brought dereks little sister that was practically his copy in every way on screen and alluded to stiles having a crush on her đ. I get similar vibes when john brings lily out of fucking nowhere as his âlightâ (Or purpose or tether to humanity smth like that i forget the exact wording). I died laughing when hearing that like im sorry i get what heâs saying you donât have to explain it to me but he brings her up so abruptly and i was just sitting there mentally asking myself âwhat do you know about her??? Who IS lily???â Like weâre suddenly meant to think lily is a bigger influence during those 2 months on johns humanity then arthur isđđ i mean come on even arthur was like ???
i wouldnât be as surprised if they showed us some interaction like lily reading to arthur or smth like us hearing her voice or idk her last fucking name at leastđđ something that would make it clear why heâs bringing up that character from fuck knows when other then its the only female character that can be considerably linked to john as his âlightâ in this scenario.
You can view their relationship however you want if you dont see it perfect then its not meant for you. I however genuinely cant view this as just friendship, the whole being jealous to the point of wanting to kill someone who seems as devoted to your partner as you are, refusing to be parted even when opportunity WAS presented and so on. If you can thats great, media is not meant to be interpreted in one way I can say its not friendly and you can say its your fav aromantic duo đ¤ˇ
I dont even think Harlan is doing it on purpose we just have very different definitions of what platonic means lmao. However the increase of these moments in the last seasons felt kind of purposeful to me lol which was what brought this on. And pls dont tell me its cos they got closer in the latter seasons arthur killed himself in s1 theyâve been closeđđđ
I just donât think that a person who hasnât heard that harlan wont make them a couple, hasnât heard a bit of discourse, listened to the podcast and certain moments of âilyâ or their separation anxiety yada yada yada and would never think they have romantic feelings for each other or that its not where its headed.
Also if I feel like i experienced this exact same thing with media before and it was called queerbait and universally acknowledged as such Iâm not gonna reinvent in my head definition of friendship and platonic love to fit what was previously labelled as queerbait there, Im gonna call it queerbait. Especially since it feels like every other media that was labelled as such before. Im not advocating to change the podcast or cancel it or whatever im expressing an opinion i have on my blog that i know other ppl even if not a lot agree with.
I stand with my cancelled take đđđ
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Any Shadow and Tails hcs?
Sorry this took a minute, anon! I had written up several headcanons a few days ago and then my browser crashed and I lost everything I wrote ^^;; it took a minute to find the motivation to write them up again.Â
I wasn't sure if you only wanted headcanons of Shadow and Tails in relation to each other, or if you wanted separate ones for them as well, so I tried to think of a little of both!Â
Shadow:
Though black coffee is his drink of choice, Shadow also enjoys a cup of rooibos tea when he's looking for something a little more relaxing. Decaffeinated coffee doesn't quite do it for him. And he only drinks his coffee hot. He judges Rouge whenever she gets an iced latte.
He's very good at painting nails, but only Rouge knows this. She's the only one he'll offer to do it for - and it's always in exchange for something like intel or tech. He learned how for the bad days where Maria couldn't keep her hands steady and got frustrated. He'd paint her nails so she could feel pretty.
Shadow likes Barry Manilow (this is mostly a joke xD âŚmostly). But seriously, I do think he enjoys listening to a wide variety of music though. He was limited to what tapes they had on the ARK, a lot of it whatever the scientists and Maria liked listening to, so he enjoys experiencing different genres of music just to get a feel for them. He doesnât necessarily like all music, but thereâs something to be said for just experiencing it, even if he doesnât like it. Heâs also intrigued by live music, especially since Maria was just starting to learn to play guitar when her parents sent one up with the supply ship for her twelfth birthday. That was the only experience he'd had with live music until arriving on Mobius.
Tails:
Though he drinks coffee, he does it out of pure necessity. His taste buds are still a kid's, after all, so he loads up his caffeine with sugar, flavored syrups, whipped cream, and marshmallows. When he discovers cold brew, he finds that a bit more palatable since the beans aren't made as bitter by the heat when roasting them, but he still needs flavors and cream. He actually prefers energy drinks if heâs looking for a caffeine boost, but coffee makes him feel more grown-up. Yes, even with the marshmallows.
He doesnât read as much fiction as Sonic, but he does have a pretty large collection of comic books and graphic novels. There are some series heâs followed since he was little, which offer a bit of stability/familiarity for him when not much was a constant in his life aside from Sonic and fighting Eggman.
When he was little, Tails begged Sonic to teach him guitar. He was quickly embarrassed though, because it wasnât something he took to naturally. They made a little progress, but as he got older he stopped asking for lessons as much, so Sonic assumed he lost interest. But sometimes when he knows Sonicâs not going to be around for a while, Tails will take out the guitar and practice by himself, though he never tells Sonic about it.
Shadow and Tails:
Shadow doesnât actually have beef with Tails. When Team Dark came across Team Sonic in Sonic Heroes for the first time since the events of SA2 and started fighting, Shadow identified Tails as their aerial support and would save his teammates from falling into the jungle river. He also picked up on the fact that Sonicâs battle tactics focused primarily on protecting his team, and that he was holding back from full-out attacking Shadow. Part of him wanted to see that blue hedgehogâs full potential, though he couldn't really pinpoint why at the time. So it was a strategic decision to take out Tails first by kicking him in the head, nothing personal.
Scratch that, Shadow does have beef with him whenever he catches Tails drinking cold brew (this is also a joke lol, if he didn't fight the kid over putting marshmallows in his coffee, he's not gonna fight him over cold brew).
Tails has better accuracy than Shadow with a firearm, but Shadow is a quicker draw and has a faster reaction time. They both prefer to use non-lethal ammunition as a method of stunning opponents, though the Tornado and Cyclone do have lethal weaponry systems, however, since Tails often needs as much firepower as possible when going against Eggmanâs air fleet. But those are just robots, so it's okay!
Tails is one of the few people who knows Shadowâs âbirthday,â or at least, his âcreation day.â He learned it by going through G.U.N.âs files when Amy asked him to, because she really, really wanted to know when his birthday was. He only looked it up after she promised not to throw a party for Shadow (she wasnât going to, Tails, she just wanted to get him a card and a little gift!). Rouge is the only other person who knows his birthday - also from G.U.N.âs files - but she knows Shadow doesnât want to be fussed over too much, so keeps everything low-key as well.
I think that's enough for now! I feel like I'm not as good at writing up headcanons independently as I am incorporating them into fics, but I hope this was along the lines of what you were looking for, anon! If you have more specifics hcs you're curious about, let me know :)
Thank you for the ask!
#skimming asks#miles tails prower#shadow the hedgehog#sonic headcanons#I really like a lot of details that came from TMoSTH - like Shadow agreeing to Hot Honey concert and Tails drinking coffee with marshmallow#so definitely incorporated those elements into my headcanons for them#the âbeefâ thing is also adapted for the games since every example of Shadow attacking Tails is from other media that I don't use in my fic#at least not my main picket fence timeline fics#prime and movie fics are their own thing#long post
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So i have 2 questions
Why do iris and perry have godparents?
Does Dale still suck as a father in your human au?
(Will get to second question in a separate post đ§Ą)
The short answer for the first one is that , despite being best friends in preschool, when Perry and Iris reconnected in elementary school, it literally went SO BAD that they made each OTHER mutually miserable enough that they both got assigned godparents đŹđŹ
Perry IMMEDIATELY recognizes his childhood friend, but B-lining to HUG the school bully on his first day went just about as well as youâd expect â ď¸â ď¸
This hug actually freaked Iris out SO much that is took him DAYS to finally get a good look at Perry, and when he did, wellâŚ. đŹ
As much as I hate to torment my bby boys, Its still Peri and Irep- The two of them having ZERO communication skills is intrinsic to my characterization of them tbfh snsndndndndjdj â ď¸â ď¸
LONG ANSWER:
I actually wrote some drabbles about these events! (mostly so that I wouldnât forget them if I get questions that allow me to illustrate parts of them for the blog)
Iâll put the link below! đĽ°đđ
As for why they STILL have fairy god parents even after clearing up their hurt feelings and becoming friends again-
đPerrys mom is often out traveling for movie shoots, and Perryâs Dad is very busy with his accounting job, especially at the end of every month- tho they used to spend every waking moment with thier little man, Perrys terrible habit of people-pleasing has led to him majorly downplaying how lonely he feels, especially now that his big brother and best friend Timmy has left for college, and took thier dog Sparky with them (something that Perry INSISTED he was fine with, despite being very much not fine with it at all)
đOn Irisâ side, if you directly ASKED him why he was deemed miserable enough to get a godparent (despite coming from money and having attentive, adoring parents) Iâm not sure heâd actually be able to tell you himself! Between mod and readers tho, the reason Iris is miserable is that deep, deep down, he secretly RESENTS the role of âthe scary kidâ that his natural fangs and unorthodox upbringing have forced upon him, but because heâs always been SO SMALL for his age (my poor evil son was a preme, and spent much of his first few months in the hospital) he committed to the bit so hard he doesnât even know HOW to be nice anymore, instead pushing ALL his peers away so none of them ever get close enough to see his flaws and weaknesses, because being âthe scary kid that no one would dare mess withâ is the only thing that makes him feel safe- despite how desperately he wants to be loved and praised by his peers đĽşđ
Hereâs the Doc detailing Perry and Irisâ first meeting, godparent assignments, AND eventual reconciliation! đĽşđ(Hoping to get questions that I can finagle into excuses to eventually draw the vast majority of these events tbh đ)ďżź
(Cw for UNINTENTIONAL misgendering and mild- mostly just implied- child violence â ď¸)
Aaas for your second question: heâs even WORSE! đ
Just a second, Iâll answer that one in a reblog so I can tw for Dale Dinmadome lmao (Only Half joking. Fairy Devâs backstory is NOT going to be a pleasant read đ you have been warned dbdbdjdjdjddjej â ď¸)
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Never Meet Your Heroes ⢠Chris Sturniolo
Iâd never meant for it to happen. I just wanted him to notice me. Once. The fame and attention was only meant to be a temporary bonus. If any.
The goal was simple. Post a TikTok everyday until Chris Sturniolo commented. The first time Iâd done it was literally a joke. It was me doing some stupid dance to Freak Hoe by Speaker Knockerz. The point of my plan was to do a song that Chris liked or had mentioned liking before, for every video. The caption read âPosting a TikTok everyday until my celebrity crush comments.â People were supposed to guess until he actually commented.
But thatâs not exactly what happened. I kind of, for the lack of better words, went viral. People really enjoyed the concept of using different songs as hints and not to brag but, people really liked me. I was getting comments from so many different celebrities, which was also bringing more people to my page because they thought it was hilarious when I had to reject yet another celebrity because it was never him. It got to a point where I genuinely believed he was actively ignoring me. I had gained 8 million TikTok followers, surpassing him! It was comical at this point that he hadnât commented. I was running out of songs and patience.
I was getting brand deals, invites to LA, and so much more. For a girl from a no-named town in the middle of nowhere; it was like a dream.
I couldnât enjoy it though. For one, Chris still hadnât commented. Second, what happens when he does? Does my five minutes of fame end? I go back to being nobody again. That was a sinking feeling I wouldnât let into my mind. I refused to think about the what ifs? Or the future, at all for that matter.
The comment sections of my videos were just embarrassing at this point. Every single person had guessed it and I âŚcouldnât tell them yet. But everyone knew.
I had a secret weapon though. Something that was definitely going to work. I had saved Lil Skies for last. I hadnât used a single one of his songs because I was afraid itâd be too obvious. Plus, to be honest, I didnât really know any of his songs. The only one I knew was RAGE! and that was only because of Chris.
I wanted this one to be good too. Like, creative and having lots of camera angles. So, I recruited my little sister for the camerawork. She was surprisingly good at filming. I put on one of my best outfits that accentuated my body in a pleasing way. Because letâs face it; thatâs what most of my audience is looking at. I also do my hair and makeup. I canât even deny it; I looked really fucking good.
After it was all said and done, I watched the video over and over. I wanted to be sure because if it was true and he hadnât seen me yet, this could be his first impression of me. I highly doubt he hasnât though. I just donât understand why heâs holding out on me.
I took a deep breath and posted the video. Captioning it, âThis is getting ridiculous now. If he doesnât comment on this one, I give up.â Within seconds, thousands of likes and comments came in. I read them as fast as I could.
NOOOO PLS CHRIS COMMENT
WTF CHRIS
itâs so obviously chris itâs like crazy atp
Youâre soooooo hot my God
#needthat
Raw. Next question
The comments from random men truly and utterly disgusted me. When girls commented, it never bothered me. I loved it and it made me feel confident but the menâs comments just made me feelâŚdirty. I scrunched my face up and decided that was enough comments for tonight. I click my phone off and call my dog to come lay down with me. I went to sleep that night thinking of an imaginary world where Chris and I met and fell in love. Pathetic but it helped me fall asleep.
The next morning I woke up to my roommate, Piper, busting through my door. Scaring me and my dog. I jumped up as she started yelling.
âY/N! Wake the fuck up right now! You finally did it!â She basically screamed as she clutched her phone in her hand.
âWhat?!â I scream back, still breathing heavy from her abrupt wake up call.
âHe commented! Chris commented! Go look!â She jumped up and down in place and I felt dizzy with how fast I whipped around to grab my phone on the nightstand.
I unlocked it and wiped my eyes as they were still blurry from sleeping. I clicked on TikTok and felt my skin buzzing and heart racing as it loaded. After what felt like hours, my own profile popped up and I clicked on my most recent video. It felt like time slowed down as I clicked the comments. There it was. The most liked comment. Christopher Sturniolo.
I was waiting on you to use Skies
âWhat the fuck?â I spoke my thoughts out loud. I donât really know what I expected him to say but that wasnât it. I mean, I felt cheated. Iâd spend the last month humiliating myself for the world to see to get his attention only to find out it was because of my song choices? Infuriating, to say the least.
âEveryone is saying he followed you though..â Piper tries to soften the blow since she can clearly see Iâm not happy.
And I know that isnât fair. I had my hopes entirely too high and I should be grateful he even commented. But damn, man. His response fucking sucked. So much so that I felt the need to tell him. Which I guess I could do now that he follows me back.
âGood, because I need to say something..â My fingers worked quickly as I slid onto his profile, clicking the little message button. I immediately clicked the message box to start typing away until I seen it.
He had already messaged me.
Hey Iâm flattered by your posts and really enjoyed this entire experience.
Now that I got that out of the way, are you trying to link or what? đ
Once again, I felt disappointed. I know I was being delusional about what he might want with me but it definitely didnât sound like friendship or love. It sounded like he probably just wanted to fuck. Which deeply upset me. Enraged me, actually. So, I respond quickly.
really? thatâs it?
I clicked my phone off and laid back in the bed, laying my arm over my face. I groan in frustration. Heâs only a man. Why did I expect better?
âAre you okay?â Piper asked and came to sit next to me on the bed at the same time a buzz came from my phone. I sat up immediately and was shocked to seen heâd already replied.
What were you expecting? A proposal? đ
âOh my God, heâs an asshole!â I show Piper the message and she covers her mouth quickly to stifle her laugh. I glare at her.
âIâm sorry! His response was just kind of funny..â She said and I rolled my eyes before responding.
wow
youâre kind of a dick. ngl
His response was immediate, making it clear that he was staying on the messages.
Bro you donât even know me
And there it was. The truth hurt worse than anything. He was one hundred percent right but it didnât make his lack of appreciation any less shitty. Heâs gained a lot of attention from my videos as well.
youâre so right. and now i donât even want to.
Oh noooo â ď¸â ď¸
âI hate him..â I say out loud as I try to think of something to say back, âI donât know what to say to him, Piper.â
âBe the bigger person, Y/N..â She tells me and it was really hard but eventually I decided she was right and that was the better option.
chris, i was a really big fan of you and your brothers. but especially you. i thought youâd be different and maybe that was my mistake. i waited over a month for your reply and it sucked. then i open my messages to your other lame ass reply. i hope you understand i meant well with my posts and wanted to make you laugh maybe or compliment you. sorry if i was annoying.
âIâm sorry, babe. They say donât meet your heroes..â Piper tells me and I scoff.
âNo kidding..â I laugh.
My phone buzzed again.
Youâre right, I was being a dick. Iâm sorry.
I didnât know what to say tbh
I felt so much pressure to say something cool when I finally replied that I fumbled completely and looked dumb asf
Would you be willing to fly out to meet me and my brothers as an apology?? That was my plan anyways
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AN: Plssss be gentle this is my first post everâŚIâm nervous asffff LMAO
What do you guys think??
Lowk Chris is an ASS in this but itâs how I pictured it. Should I make a pt. 2 or literally never write again hahahahaha
I have a lot of plans for this if you guys wanted me to continue
#sturniolo triplets#matt sturniolo#chris sturniolo#nick sturniolo#christopher sturniolo#sturniolo x reader#nicolas sturniolo#christopher sturniolo x reader#matt sturniolo x reader#matt stuniolo fanfic#chris sturiolo fanfic#chris x reader
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beat writers talking about ja'marr teasing joe in the locker room after the game đĽ˛
#well thank god i didn't skip the ad read this time!#these guys get to watch them interact all the time#and only deign to tell us about it in the middle of an ad read at the end of the podcast!!!#what are these priorities!#these interactions are what i need from the hard knocks this season#(crazy conspiracy theory: ja'marr DID get this outfit for joe because it does have ja'marr vibes)#(and he's teasing him openly in the locker room about it because they've made it into an inside joke <3)#(or ja'marr just did really like the fit and instead of complimenting he had to pull some pigtails because of course <3)#also lmao at joe's 'i cannot confirm'#joe burrow#ja'marr chase#joe'marr#thank you paul. i always liked you the second best of all the beat writers!
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I LOVE your art first of all gahh!!
And i love the way you draw Charles like, did you just make this bald old man incredibly attractive????
thank you so much !! with that i always say I Draw What I See ... charles xavier already attractive nuff said tyvm i didnt do anythin extra.....
#snap chats#big bumper sticker that says I Love Bald Bitches. another equally large bumper sticker that says I Love Old Men#im so serious with charles tho like ..... there's been instances in the comics where he has hair and thats not .. thats not it#some people just look infinitely better bald and charles xavier is one of them#im gonna have to foam at the mouth if i think bout him in 97 again sorry i reminded myself of caps ive been lovingly given đ#i do love my old men and With That the small differences between his older and younger self ..... girl i get it ... both of em..#cause like sometimes (read: most of the time) i only like an older ver of a chara but naw ..... LOWKEY .... nay... i must be silenced .....#@ all six of charles' exes I Get It ... yo if he gets one more. stop i just made myself laugh like a loser we're moving on from this joke#ANYWAY POINT IS any day where someone tells me they find the way i draw charles to be attractive is a day i win automatically#whatever else happens dont matter ....... my truth is being realized ...#ANYWAY THANK YOU AGAIN !!!!!! i do my best for the people đ
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For the first time since I can remember I did not hate every second around my family and⌠not only that actuallyâŚ. Kinda enjoyed myself? Idk, just got home and Iâm real tired but I think thatâs just cuz I was up early and busy and then had the drive home. Christmas stuff and all that. My mom didâŚ? Get me a pair of shoes that were lesbian colorsâŚ. I canât tell if that was some insane coincidence and she didnât know or her trying to say/do something all things considered. Apparently my siblings kept telling her I wouldnât like them when she picked them out (which is fair I wear almost exclusively all black and mostly boots over tennis shoes) but she insisted soâŚ. MmmâŚ. On the one hand I wish she would just like⌠say something? But if it was some weird way of being supportive I guess it was kinda sweet? Idk. I might be reading into it and it was just a coincidence
They also all insisted on helping me move in February which kinda has me like ???? Because Iâve moved four times since Iâve moved out and they have never once done a THING to help even when I lived much closer but Iâll take it cuz that means I wonât have to rent a truck cuz theyâll bring theirs and I wonât have to hire ppl to move the big furniture so thatâs a lot of money Iâll be saving
They're also giving me one of the beds and mattresses from my great grandma's house since they've been clearing it out after she died a few months ago because when they asked what all I would I have to move and didn't say a bed and then explained my bed is a 20+yo mattress laid directly on the floor they were like :/ which obvi I know wasn't ideal I just couldn't afford to get a new one but now I won't have to. Obviously it's used but it's still only a year or so old they said, and I don't think I've EVER had a mattress that wasn't at least 15 years old so that'll be nice. I hope it helps some of my back issues...
Anyways, idk what fucking happened to these people in the span of a couple months but it kinda feels unreal
#they also got me some manga whichâŚ..#some of it was manga I wanted!!!#however one of the series I told her I wanted was blue exorcist and. well.#I guess she forgot the second half of the title because she got me volumes of some manga that was blue something#I donât even remember Iâd never heard of it before and when I read the summary itâs some slice of life romance#so now I have random volumes of the middle of that series that I have to figure out something to do withâŚâŚ#cant say I really wanna read it lol#didnât bother to tell her it was the wrong series cuz tbh that was way more effort than sheâs ever put into my actual interests#so Iâll take it ig#ugh this is so weird#itâs like. I can tell sheâs trying to do better after we had that conversation last month#which yeah in some ways is nice obviously but really I just feel complicated#cuz it doesnât fix everything else even if she gets better now#and also it was easier to just accept she fucking sucked and hate her#I think I still kinda hate her butâŚ. ugh like I said idk itâs complicated#anyways my siblings also made me play Fortnite with them which Iâd never played that#it was okay I guess#met my grandparents new puppy theyâre obsessed with#(theyâre both convinced they hate pets and ended up with him cuz my uncle got it for his daughter except both of them are bad a taking care#of things so he ended up with my grandparents)#but theyâre so clearly obsessed with this fucking dog oh my god like itâs insane#theyâre both the epitome of that joke about the dad not wanting the cat but then absolutely loving the cat#kaz rambles
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not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go
(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)
#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill#well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst#like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc.#so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made#bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you#but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings#and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste#there's no accounting for several things actually. tasteâ biasâ lore-knowledgeâ differing levels of chronic-online-nessâ etc#so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously)#but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything#if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is#which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose#anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate.#and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic!#if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it.#like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages#or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing#i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know#it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess#as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence#the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education#i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i saidâ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is-#writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl-#will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck⢠stereotype#sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen#there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions#like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of-#'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity#like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem#but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.
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Girl help, I read what info we got so far on the horror takes on Bambi and Peter Pan and I'm dying laughing.
#well me and my dad both are actually#i was reading them to him or telling him and he made some jokes that made us laugh#like at peter pan horror he went 'what is he gonna kill captain hook?'-'the tables have turned' lol#and he mixed snow and sleeping beauty up when i said horror sleeping beauty as yes thats among the line up in poohiverse#as he said 'is she gonna kill the huntsman' and when i corrected him he said 'oh is she gonna torture the witch'#and with bambi said is he gonna eat the wolf and went yeah right when i said no hes hunting humans#and with the director wanting to teletubbies he went 'eh oh!'#and with pinnocho it was just 'is he gonna get free of the strings and start kiling everyone' and jsut#yeah thats the plot of these films#insert childhood character is killing people#i might post the bit of peter pan horror later that made laugh because i think it needs to be seen to be believed#also he thinks i watch these correction i watch the kill counts lol#you cant pay me to watch these#tho pooh saying 'oh bother' in bah2 apparently..we got it i guess#we got the line
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