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The Metatron and Crowley
⚠️ Spoilers for Good Omens 2 ⚠️
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I keep seeing people saying that The Metatron hates Crowley because he knows that he may be a threat when paired up with Aziraphale: he's trying to get him out of the way because of the whole 25 Lazari thing.
But I stand by the fact that he doesn't just hate him for that. I don't think it started there. Nor do i think it started at Armageddon. That bastard has hated Crowley since he fell from Heaven because there is no way that he wouldn't be pissed off by someone ruining Heaven's perfect reputation.
"For one Prince of Heaven to be cast into the outer darkness makes a good story. For it to happen twice makes it look like there is some sort of institutional problem."
This suggests that Gabriel retaliating isn't the first time this has happened: someone has done this before. So, who could it be? I mean, it could be referring to Lucifer, but I doubt it. A) He's not a particularly integral character in the plot, so it doesn't seem totally necessary to bring him up. B) We already have a fallen angel (who is significant to the plot), who appears to have been very high up the corporate ladder in Heaven before he fell.
"You'd have to be a throne or a dominion, or above"
Crowley said that Heaven never changes their passwords, but that still implies he would've had to have been a throne, a dominion, or higher when he was there. And he says in episode one that he worked closely with upstairs on the plans for the universe. Crowley was high-ranking, one of the top. I've even seen suggestions that he could've been a seraphim. A high-ranking angel associated with flames that has direct contact with God? Reminds you of someone, does it not?
Now let's say that Crowley was a seraphim (or at least ranked dominion or above), The Metatron wouldn't be too happy with an angel of that status (who also played a very big hand in the creation of the entire universe) questioning God's plan and ultimately falling to Hell. Bit of a dark mark on Heaven's reputation, isn't it?
"Always asking damn fool questions, too"
Hmm... you mean the same angel who became a demon after asking questions? That's what he remembers Crowley for. The questions. The questions that led him to fall. The Metatron isn't going to forget a high-ranking Angel falling after they questioned The Almighty.
The Metatron has always hated Crowley. Or at least, he has since Crowley fell. And now the demon is hanging around with Aziraphale, preventing Armageddon and unintentionally performing 25 Lazari miracles. No wonder he wants him out the way.
It's not just the one miracle. It's the fact that a fallen angel, who has already left a dark mark on Heaven's reputation, is now continuously causing more chaos and encouraging other angels (like Aziraphale) to question the true intentions and behaviour of Heaven. He's been making Aziraphale question things for millenia! Crowley is causing institutional problems and The Metaron despises him for it.
Suffice to say, Crowley has been in his bad books for a very, very long time.
#metatrash has definitely hated crowley for a while#and if anyone has any better idea of how angel hierarchies work then that would be great#i was raised atheist#and still am#so my knowledge of christianity and the bible is a little ropey 😅#but i hope this got the poinf across#good omens spoilers#go2 spoilers#good omens#crowley#the metatron
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Idk if you've seen this before, but I think you'd like it. In a comic, where Bruce was a teenager, his priest told him to go to confession daily because the priest believed that he would die/get murdered at any moment. Bruce believed like he was sinful, rotten, and irredeemable, so he acted like it.
It's just gshsidnsfxusnsshs. I love Teen Bruce so much. Babygirl, you're not fundamentally doomed or evil. You're just 15
HEY???????
only priests in Gotham, man. Well. And every red state.
#it’s kinda funny cause I hc Gotham doesn’t have churches?#like don’t get me wrong it’s a conglomerate so large it’d be impossible not to find out#but I just think gothamites would find the concept of churches really weird.#like you go to some dude’s house and get on your knees for him. yeah that’s Oswald’s place for us#idk I really think the Waynes were agnostic. Martha’s Jewish and Thomas is an atheist to me but they both agree to raise Bruce agnostic#and yk then they didn’t.#asks#bruce wayne#dc
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the way this website balks at the term "culturally christian" is so funny to me like. oh shit you mean the religion our government and culture is structured around might impact you even if you're atheist and ESPECIALLY if you're ex-christian? noooo it's the people using it to describe a phenomenon of western culture that are wrong
#I think sometimes it's a genuine misunderstanding of the term#but others it's just a knee-jerk reaction against being associated w christianity#like babe just bc you left the church does not mean the church left you!#esp if you continue to parrot very christian beliefs!#and even people born and raised atheist are dealing w morals imbedded in western society by christianity#it's also not exclusive to christianity! culturally muslim people exist in other countries & cultural hinduism etc...#it's about what religion is The Major Religion backing the moral decisions of a society#regardless of your personal belief
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rick baby if you're not going to hell nobody is
#rick's prayers in this episode really do be living in my head rent free#im just so in love with the characterization like if it wasn't already obvious that he has religious trauma this scene really seals the dea#getting to see rick sanchez of all people- absurd amounts of power; god complex; cynical atheist rick sanchez begging for his life in praye#it makes me feel things#and like this bit in particular. he's on his fucking knees with his hands clasped and head bowed. man's SCARED and i am emotional#yes i was raised christian how could you tell#rick and morty#rick & morty#rnm#r&m#rick sanchez#rick and morty season 2#a rickle in time#my nonsense
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There's always some random stranger on the internet that understands exactly how to explain something better than you ever could yourself
#healing#ex christian#deconstruction#atheist#raised by narcissists#writing#thoughts#narcissistic parents#toxic family#toxic parents#parentification#growing up too fast#i dont belong to my parents#you dont own me#you fucking suck#oldest daughter#oldest child
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i like to personally think that the Lone Wanderer, obviously raised religious (christian) to some degree, had their incredulity with religion for good after seeing James die.
or maybe even after James left, and they were forced to be the Wasteland's errand person using their morals and beliefs for the good of humanity, but ultimately just being used.
faith slowly fading, turning into hatred and resentment, or maybe just a lost soul wondering why God abandoned them just like everyone else did.
#take this sad thought of mine. needed to verbalize it.#mainly this is how i see it for Luna#faith slowly fading away the second james left#she tries to do everything she can to help out everyone even if she doesnt want to or cant. she'll find a wau#shes got the weight of her parents' passion and life long dream to finish and fulfill in her shoulders#all while being the wastelands sacrifial lamb.#i have so many religious imagery and symbolisms to use for her bc of this#raised catholic & now atheist doesnt help the notion either!!!#lw: luna hayden#lone wanderer#lone wanderer fallout 3#fallout 3#fo3#james fallout 3#religious themes#mod.holotape#thinking too hard
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Once on here I polled what religion people thought I was raised as and got 40% Christian and I realized all of you know literally nothing about anything
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Good evening, why do you think americans are obsessed with Doctor Zhivago and what do you think of the novel?
I'm being charitable when I say that there are maybe five Russian books that John Liquor American can readily name, and all of them have been made into movies and/or musicals. With Zhivago, part of the reason it became a cultural touchstone so quickly has to do with the circumstances of its publication in the United States during the Cold War, closely followed by the epic David Lean film, in which Omar Sharif is so hot that it hardly matters that the movie itself is mid.
In regards to Zhivago's specific appeal to American sensibilities, I think a lot of it has to do with that adage about how an English language romance begins with a kiss and ends in a wedding, while a Russian language romance will begin with a kiss and end in Siberia. The weddings are fun but after all that stale cake, you want to want, and you want to be left wanting.
My relationship with Doctor Zhivago is that it's fundamental to my understanding of human dignity and human frailty. It is also a very nice love story.
#raised by atheists who told me pushkin created the world and tolstoy populated it#but pasternak sighed and exhaled all the stars into a vast night sky to make the loneliness sweeter to bear#i find that it's difficult to quantify the breadth and depth of certain kinds of beauty in english#i'm fluent but sometimes i'll be reaching for a sentiment and an angel appears to redirect my hand to a hot coal on which to burn my tongue#hayward translation is fine p&v is fine too but nobody has done much of note with the poetry—i do appreciate the effort#people should keep trying. i certainly will. that's what we do!!#russian literature#boris pasternak#doctor zhivago#assbox#anonymous
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god get me out of here
#not to sound like an annoying atheist but i hate christianity actually#how do you let a book about a made up god ruin your mind like this. how do you go on to yell the bullshit in this book with your full chest#i think i get a pass since i was literally raised like this
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is Anton into Christmas? Does he celebrate anything else in the winter? If Anton does celebrate Christmas then when does he put his tree up?
oooh okay so Anton and Pierce were never religious so they didn’t celebrate christmas or anything else. BUT… now that you made me think about it i love the idea of Anton and Dew like setting up and decorating a christmas tree together and baking (and probably absolutely butchering) little holiday cookies and treats (Anton would make little mice cookies) that sounds soooo cutee omg… they probably will do little stuff like that for the holidays but i’m not sure about the tree hmmmm… that sounds so fun for them honestly though. like i’m pretty sure Dew used to celebrate christmas so maybe Anton gets a tree for them to decorate to make Dew feel more at home (LOL) cuz he’d definitely do that (i assume he’d get the tree probably at the beginning of december). and presents!!! and since Anton literally knows nothing about christmas he’d make the most random stuff up as he goes along trying to make it seem like he knows what he’s doing. but he doesn’t. but he’s trying!!! he’s so silly your honor
so yeah something like that :3 thanks for sending this ask because now i know what Dew and Anton are gonna get up to during the winter holidays!!!
#as for me#i celebrate christmas cuz i was raised christian#but now i’m atheist#but it’s still fun#i loveeee winter and the holidays sm#i’ve been wondering what Anton and Dew would do for that and i don’t really know yet#but now i do!!!!#ask#tllr ask#dew oc#anton oc#pierce oc#also when i wrote the word december i got fucking jumpscared my mind immediately went to December Holiday from deltarune#yknow Noelle Holiday’s sister#yall#holy shit i fucking LOOOOOVEEEEE DELTARUNE SO MUCH AHHHHHH#AAAWHWHQHWHEEEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHWHWHWHWHH AAAAHHH HAHAHAHAAH#CHAPTER THREE AND FOUR ARE GONNA BE COMING OUT SOONNNNN VERY SOON IN 2025 COMFIRMED GUYSSSSSS#IM SOSOOOOSSOSOOSOS EXCITED AAAAHAAHAHAHH#sorry i just had to get that outta my system im done now
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It's unfortunate that religion in Star Trek is so controversial because I think converting to Buddhism would fix Mariner
#lower decks#beckett mariner#star trek#star trek lower decks#I'm not Buddhist I just like assigning religions to characters#Anyways I think Carol is atheist and Alonzo is AME and I think Beckett was raised vaguely Christian#but I think Buddhism is the spiritual path that would actually help her the most#also Boimler is Unitarian. It's just a vibe I get#Ransom doesn't believe in God but he is afraid of him (raised Episcopal btw)#The Orions seem to have some sort of monotheistic mother goddess thing going on? So that's what Tendi's doing if she's at all religious#but tbh I think rejecting Orion religion is probably part of her running away to Starfleet#Rutherford doesn't remember what religion he was raised as because of the implant#and now he has a weird spiritual relationship with the warp core (as does every Starfleet engineer)#T'Lyn is doing that off brand Buddhism thing that Vulcans do
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not to be a “scrooge” or anything but as an ex-christian i really don’t like christmas
#i wish i could enjoy it the same way my raised-atheist buddies do tbh#ex evangelical#ex christian#i like being able to celebrate the winter solstice though#yule is nice
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The Modern Messiah
Christ would be crucified again if He returned for us in the modern day.
There is no seat at the table for a Man who loves despite gender, queer identity, race, religion, creed, occupation, or sins today.
There is no pew to sit upon, nor bread broken, nor wine poured for such a Man who stands before us and calls Himself the Son of God once more.
He could not be reconciled with the Messiah we know.
The modern Messiah is alabaster white, painted drops of bright red mark Him 5 times across the arms legs and ribs, and He is carved upon a cross, nailed proudly above the priest like a prized Fish, or Lamb, slaughtered and stuffed and pacified so He may not defy the teachings of religion once more.
The modern Messiah is offered no seat at the table, for the safety of sin, He is kept a spears length away, and remains upon the wall.
If a man is born once more as Jesus Christ, He would loathe the priest and cry out against the churchmen who preach violence and know only hate in their hearts.
We will seize Him with such violence just as before, we will bolt Him upon a crucifix of steel, guild Him in a crown of barbed wire, and the Son of God will die again as a bullet pierces His ribs.
Those who pray to the marble Man chained in churches dread the day those stone still eyes and lips turn upon them, to pray back.
#christianity#raised catholic#ex catholic#catholiscism#Jesus has his work cut out for him#jesus christ#atheist#atheism#3am thoughts#it’s 3 in the morning#The image of Jesus dying on an I beam cross in a crown of barbed wire with a glock pressed against his ribs is really poignant#God should be punished for the crime of creation that is humanity#some very particular word choices in this#i abandoned organised religion a while ago but somehow the story of christ in isolation to the religion is still really compelling to me#hes a doomed pragmatic soldier for peace and acceptance that we are more likely than not to kill#I can’t seem to stop thinking of christ as an old friend#both victims of god in a sense#given life to suffer and die#even the son of god cannot escape his wrath#and the wrath of his creation
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some more ghost rider sketches, version i guess i wanted to draw some bones,
including a partial prototype of whatever the hell the Rider has going on underneath his skin-suit (which might need more leather 'muscles' but. whatever), a theoretical endpoint of how dead Robbie could get in my verse, which. unlikely? extremely. but fun to draw, and a line-up of Robbie, Lisa, and Gabe
in theory, Lisa's sense of style was inspired by @wazzappp 's post of Claire's fashion Lisa, but, well, outfit design eludes me. so. brightly colored vague y2k vibes are. the best i got
#robbie reyes#gabe reyes#lisa (ghost rider)#revenant robbie au#i am fully just drawing whatever at this point but. its fun so idk#ANYWAY i read the avengers 2018 run and. ok it was bad#both generally and also. sob they hit robbie with the generic mcu-quippification and naive teenager beam 😔#absolutely no escape#but challenge of the ghost rider kind of hit tbh#if only bc it had robbie racing blaze for Gabe's sake and well.#ok objectively idk how his parents got pulled to hell like.#were they supposed to be there?#did johnny drag them from another afterlife?#idk at all#but *man* ok im not immune to family/loved ones finding out about a fave being a 'monster'#and accepting him anyway ok#so long story short idk if im gonna go with an exorcised-eli yet or not#but i gave robbie a rosary (not accurate. yes i know i didnt get the spacing on the top part right) on account that#religious iconography in marvel works based on a personal faith#re that one panel of kitty pryde burning dracula with a star of david#so i figure there's a high chance that robbie was raised roman catholic when his parents were around#even if that was a long time ago#and even if he doesnt believe/is religious in the strictest sense#he still has associations yk?#(<to be clear speaking as another mexican american and the impacts of religion in the culture as a kind of atheist)#anyway my point is#in a non-exorcism version hes found that wearing a rosary. even if it doesnt shut eli up entirely#makes him more? bearable? less loud/oppressive? easier to push down#while in an exorcism version ig it helps with keeping his identity as robbie centered and dealing with supernatural emotional regulation#zsketches
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Self worth is SO HARD when growing up you were taught the toxic "realities" of the Christian religion.
"be happy, Jesus loves you"
Both my parents, and my God were CONSTANTLY telling me I wasn't good enough, I was a wretched sinner, and a woman! My place was to serve others (especially men) and to repent for my sins, while CONSTANTLY going out of my mind with worries about the end of time, and the state of other people's souls.
I'm so thankful to be free BUT GOD DAMNIT it takes a lot of work to remind myself of my self worth!
#self worth#healing#ex christian#deconstruction#atheist#thoughts#vent post#raised by narcissists#narcissistic father#emotional manipulation#emotionally immature parents#emotional abuse#parentification#i grew up too fast#toxic family#toxic parents#toxic love#sick of religion#fucking insane#fuck you#fuck religion#you fucking suck#leave me the fuck alone#this is so stupid#anti religion#anti christianity#i hate this
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i’m in this strange phase where i’m trying to explore my spirituality and to understand what divinity means to me and it’s just. hard. complex.
i was raised in an atheist family but now i know, deep down, that i am not an atheist. but atheism is still inscribed in my brain, the shame of worshipping, the shame of honoring the divine, as if it should be hidden, as if i was being irrational.
i have been practicing, or trying to practice, hellenic polytheism for a little while now. i keep going through phases of faith then of doubt. something isn’t quite right yet.
i love religions— all of them interest me. i just decided i wanted to read the Old Testament, so i’m reading the Genesis now. and i’ve been doing research on Judaism, out of curiosity. it fascinates me— but especially the rules. the constant connection to the divine, even in mundanity. the concept of every action having a purpose, of doing things a specific way and knowing why, of finding God everywhere and honoring God all the time. i see a lot of people being scared of religious obligations, of organized religion, and i understand how it can be dangerous at times, but i yearn for the order, for the meaning.
i want organized worship and i want to find God every day. i want to do everything with the intention of connecting to the divine. and yet i don’t know what the divine is, what God(s) is (are), and i still believe monotheism isn’t for me, something about it bothers me— but maybe it’s just christianity ? i don’t know anything anymore. i know polytheism interests me too and i know my autistic special interest is ancient greek religion and ancient cultures, but it’s hard to draw the line between what interests me due to my autism/simply because i find it amazing to learn about, and what interests me because it feels right and aligns with the way i perceive things.
so i keep doubting, i doubt and wonder and question and find myself irrational whenever i think of a God, or of multiple gods/Theoi. i know i believe in something. but there is this atheistic guilt, atheistic shame ?
i’m so lost.
and everyone i know is either an atheist or a usually-not-very-observant catholic. so exactly what i already know not to be for me.
#judaism#hellenic polytheism#religion#theology#religious beliefs#divinity#helpol#polytheism#monotheism#paganism#trying to figure out what religion makes sense for me#and it’s scary#quite often i wish i had been raised within an organized religion so that i could have felt the order and the rules and the meaning#and then could have decided for myself whether or not it felt right#i would never have felt good in christianity#and i know i’m lucky because being in an atheist family protected me from religious trauma#but still#i feel lonely#and purposeless#i’m still trying to find god(s)
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