#i was productive being unproducte

[the-dragon-hearted]

Two Low-budget memes I made instead of writing the next chapter of the fanfic

And of course the necessary:

[icewindandboringhorror]

sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:

thing that I already do

thing I have tried 10 times

thing I already do

thing that I don't have the money to do

thing I already do

thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail

thing that is impossible given my situation

thing that doesn't apply to me

thing that I already do

thing I have already tried

hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently

thing I have already done

[soppsop]

i just rememberd adhd meds exist and now im upset because i could have that if it wasn't for that freakin neurologyst we went to see that told us it was impossible that i could have adhd because i have good grades in school. literally the ONLY question he asked me and immediately said it was impossible. we spent like 5 minutes there. he could've at least... explained something???? anything?????? and now i'd feel bad about asking my parents to see another neurologist because that costs a lot of money :((

[kitkat-dreams]

no, you don't understand, my daydreaming is normal and under control as long as I avoid music and am not left alone for too long and just fill my life with work so I never have a moment to think and let it slip back in!

[robiny]

i hate fandoms discourse with burning passion. as soon as something is not perfectly laid out and clear, the defensiveness is turned up to 100. anything that can be uncomfortable can’t be engaged with or you’ll die. I know people treat fandom spaces as their little escapism bubbles, but the detached meanness of online interactions paired with abysmal awareness (the lack of it) and incoherent readings of subtext is making me feel like my brain is being grated like a block of cheese every time I come across a post trying to discuss anything.

a take that jinx and silcos scenes have a sexual subtext is being circulated and people respond to it with such anger and refusal, their primitive minds not even trying to understand what that could mean and jumping straight to thinking people believe they’re attracted to each other or something. you cannot interact with fiction as you do with real life, its simply idiotic to do so. fiction draws parallels to life, it can comment on it, reflect it, but it exists in a different environment, it’s unchanging. these types of discussions are suppose to happen, but bc of their nature, people shut them down in fear of reflecting on something uncomfortable and drawing conclusions that scare them or simply don’t fit their viewpoint. ugh.

and I do believe you don’t have to engage with something if it’s makes you uncomfortable, it doesn’t matter if you should, you can choose not to for whatever reason, but it’s different when instead of not responding at all you bring down the person behind the opinion, trying to make them out to be stupid or worse for having a nuanced take on ur fave cartoon character. idk how much of these people are teenagers and I’m sure it would help my mental health to know LOL but it’s ridiculous

[potential-fate]

me: wow I really want to work on finishing more writing, and also I want to make more pear fatmorphs, and also I have this cc I want to do and also----

me when I actually have time to do anything: ----------

[ghostzzy]

whatever. whatever!

[shevr]

never feeling right in saying any of whatever i got going on is due to some kind of burnout because it always feels like burnout implies you actually tried & managed to do something cool & impressive to get to that point

[obstinaterixatrix]

Well in the end it comes down to recognizing when you can’t have a good faith conversation. I can understand the arguments being made and where it comes from but I fundamentally disagree with some of the foundations of these beliefs and will not budge. Nuance necessitates some alignment, I think.

[tendebill]

i knew installing overwatch 2 was a mistake and here i am. a week later. a zenyatta and reaper main. my love for gabriel reyes? unfathomable. i've made 2 reaper-related playlists and i've started drawing him too. not to mention the reaper76 fanfics i have locked and loaded to read on my phone. reaper my beloved.

[thin-violin]

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[emmys-writing-blog]

okk, I've been at a major blank for the castle infiltration chapters I had been writing. Normally I just write whenever I get the inspiration to, though it's been almost 2 months now and I still have absolutely nothing for that story. I do not think I'll continue that story; if I do, it probably won't be anytime this year. I do have a new hyperfixation and story idea though so that will probably become my whole blog. I'll start posting about that soon!

hopefully

[seilon]

I did an insane amount of work on the house yesterday for like seven hours straight without stopping (to the point where it looks like I basically singlehandedly fucking flipped the place) and yet im still sitting here like. im so tired my body is aching i am exhausted . but if im not even MORE productive i am worth Nothing and I will literally Die

[fatfemmefreaquency]

unironically i’m so fucking sick of the term “bedrotting”

[ad15124]

so boredddd

[centaur-dreaming]

Psa bc I think people need to hear this:

Stop tearing yourself down for being unproductive/unmotivated, but also for being so ONLINE and doom scrolling more than you usually do these past couple of months. This is more for people in colder countries, which is not to say that this doesn’t apply to warm countries and also on a year-round basis, but for my fellow productive, always-have-to-be-doing-something maniacs, it’s fucking January. What the fuck is there to do? Realistically? The weather is fucking miserable so no one wants to go outside—it’s either raining or freezing, which frankly we’re all used to, but it doesn’t stop it from being unpleasant.

No one is doing anything! So stop berating yourself for being online or being bored in the evenings or for not being outside more. I’ve been really beating myself up for how much I’ve been on my electricals lately, how little exercise I’ve been doing and just the general slump I’ve been in, but it’s currently 00:38am and I’ve just had this epiphany. It’s fucking January. The mornings when I’d usually go on an early walk and then work out after are Not Realistic To Do because it’s so fucking dark! If you’re in the city and you’re a young woman, dark tends to equal danger. I’m in the countryside but the same applies, even more so because there’s no set path! It’s just fucking mud! And with all the rain it’s not even mud, it’s a fucking BOG!! All of my friends are working or at uni (I’m on a gap year) so no one is actually able to meet me, plus you have to take out a small loan to go fucking anywhere these days—be it via train or car bc fuel prices…my point is January is usually miserable and we shouldn’t feel angry at ourselves for not being able to do the things we normally would when the conditions are completely different.

Idk. Just felt like getting it off my chest because it’s been really getting to me n it’ll be effecting other people too. So, if you’re in the same boat, dw. Chill. Breathe. Use this time to prepare and get to know yourself. Focus on you. Xx