#i was doing that from 10-15 years old
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i wish my hearing wasn't so damn sensitive. i have white noise playing loud af when i go to bed so I won't hear anything else. the power went out twice last night which of course shut off the white noise. first i woke up to the sound of my cat chewing, the 2nd time I woke up to someone walking on the other side of the house. why does autism/misophonia have to do that omg
on the bright side having sensitive hearing isn't all that bad bc when i listen to music i can pick out every single instrument's part and learn how to play every part on every instrument i own so that's an autism win for sure. we have a badass electric piano from 1989 that lets you record multiple tracks at once. so when I was in band, I'd learn every instrument's part, record each of them, play them all at once, then practice my part on my instrument (viola, clarinet, bass clarinet, saxophone) along with it. like i said. autism for the win. sometimes
#i was doing that from 10-15 years old#quit band at 15 because 1. our band teacher tried to kill us (had to have an ambulance come for several students during a heat wave)#and 2. they wanted $350 for band fees and my parents couldn't afford it#my grandma bought that piano for $3000 in 1989 dollars which is $7628.25 in today's money#i don't even know how SHE afforded that. it was right after my grandpa died so maybe life insurance or something like that?#it's the most expensive item we've ever owned for sure other than cars#.bdo
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Kids being kids
#gopher art#mortal kombat#kontradictions mk#mk subzero#mk smoke#kuai liang#bihan#tomas vrbada#genderbend#r63#the sketch of baby kuai and bihan is based on a moment from ch14 of my fic (but the truth is worse)#at least i think its 14. its starting to blur together for me#kuai is 5 and bi-han is 9; almost 10. Kuai's shitty haircut is based on a haircut i gave myself around that same age#aka the reason my mom didn't let me use scissors for until i was legitimately 10 years old. no i am not kidding#in the second picture kuai is 15 and tomas is 17 almost 18. this is very shortly before kuai is scarred#i still have no fucking clue what the lin kuei uniforms are about. does everyone wear blue? just the bros? why do some of them get to wear#A Special Color and some dont? is it a rank thing?#anyway i think uniform is based on rank. and thats why the tiny cryosibs are wearing such different looking uniforms
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sneeping with his legs up over his head for some reason... weird boye
#cats#love the second picture... skrungly sleepy well rested boye face...#since he's an elderly boy now sometimes when he wakes up from a nap he looks a bit scruffy and squinty eyed#Hard to beleive he's like 15 though.. he still looks like a kitten to me.. due to his giant round creature eyes and childlike demeanor#I think it's interesting that like... baby cats are babies. kittens are kittens. and you can tell a cat is like 'young adult' phase#looking from like a few months to maybe 1yr or 2yrs.. but after that they just always look the same to me#a 5 yr old cat is a 10 yr old cat is a 15 year old cat. unless the cat in question is particulalry aged or youthful#I still have so so little energy... it's been icy here this week. like not even FUN but just scary icy even thoguh i lOOOVE the cold#and its my favorite weather. I think it'd be okay actually if I had a woodburning stove/fireplace/hearth thing. literally thats my only#concern with the power going out. I genuinely don't mind stuff like having to go to the bathroom in buckets or cook over a fire or do other#less conveninet things. Its just that if eveyrhtng is electric then you have no way to cook and all of that. well.. and I literally need#background noise to go to sleep lest my ocd sprials become so loud I am slowly driven into maddness.. but a few battery packs or something#and a phone with one downloaded video I could play on repeat is fine for that. I dont need internet. ANYWAY.. so so sad that my fav#orite season ever (winter) is here. and the first cold of the winter is like... just an ice storm that you cant even walk in. I#love like 4 feet of snow where you can play in it and stuff. But just a thin flat sheet of a few inches of ice over every imaginable surfac#is not really playable. the wind speeds are so high and so many trees fall it's actually not that safe to go hang out outside anyway unless#you were in a totally clear open field. which is SAD also because i love ice and high winds. i love to stand out there and get whipped in t#he face with ice crystals and feel like I'm in some dramatic movie or something. but alas.. the threat of being attacked by a falling tree.#I did go out some but again it's like. literallyyou cant walk on it. so I just squatted and dragged myself along the ground lol#One of my stories has a whole section where the main characters are trapped in a deadly cold environment for a week and have to use magic#to survive and etc. etc. so I'm always like.. ouuu.. I should go in the ice.. it's Writing Research actually.. *foolishly gets frostbite*#THOUGH yesterday I went on a harrowing evil journey down a bunch of icy hilly roads to go check on some person's cat because the cat#had been left in the house for like 5 days at that point with nobody to check on them and nobody else seemed to want to do anything#about it (like call all of the neighbors or try to get someone out there) so I just went myself with a roommate who agreed to drive me.#It seemed acting totally normal and I gave it more food and water but.. I am still worried about it.. Apparently the person will be able#to get back to their house tomorrow but.. I dont trust them. But I couldnt take the cat with me because it's like.. a stranger's cat#basically and also no carrier + very skittish.. so I feared if I just tried to carry them bare handed they'd definitely leap from my grasp#and then it'd be like.. sliding on a sheet of ice chasing a cat and so on.. I still think they need to be watched for health issues tho >:|#ANYWAY.... many cat adventures lately... and strange weather... I wish for a normal week without always so many Things Happening.. augh
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It's kind of wild to me how in these old Christopher Lee pics, he's so LONG, he doesn't fit in the photo, it takes forever to scroll down, but in the younger pics, he's early in his post WWII "had malaria literally 7 times" era so if he's photographed sideways, he just ....disappears
#this was supposed to be a post about how hard it must be to draw Christopher Lee-looking Dooku with his impossible proportions#and how my artist mutuals are INCREDIBLE for pulling this off#I mean 75% legs 10% spider fingers -5% torso 15% why does his hair do that 20% left arm#but then I made myself sad thinking about like 24 year old Christopher Lee being so skinny from wwII
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i’m gonna be so real i’m . considering dropping a little coin for sethos....
#PROBABLY ONLY LIKE 10 OR 15 BUCKS BC I DO STILL HAVE SOME STORY&HANGOUT QUESTS TO DO WHICH WILL GET ME FUNDS BUT ATILL....#i also need to log into my acc somehow on a pc to claim my coda shop shit....i had dropped 50 for arel’s weapon but. did not realize that#codashop topups do not apply to console acounts . which like u could’ve made that#clear from the beginning instead of hiding it in a 2 year old tab at the very back of the help section on the website 😭😭#shouting in the void
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your first love hits different
#another day another vent-in-the-tags post#i came across a picture of me and my fiest boyfriend of five years today. picture must've been 10 years old at this point#found many more pictures of him and us on my dad's old pc#i can just feel my body pull and heart ache when i look at him in the pictures#wondering what my life would've looked like if i hadn't broken things off between us#we tried to stay friends and a couple of months later we went for a drink. when daying goodbye he moved in to kiss me#i was hesitant and stepped away. he couldn't bare having me in his life while not being together so he cut off all contact#don't get me wrong in any of my thoughts- i love babe whole heartedly and he's the only man for me now and in my future#it's just that nagging feeling burried deep. the 'what if's. what if i felt more confident about my body back then?#what if i hadn't moved on so quickly? what if i had let him kiss me?#i tried texting him telling him i was approved for gbp surgery (i broke things off because i was very insecure about my body)#he congratulated me and sincerely wished me all the happiness in the world but also asked me not to contact him again after this#it's been 7-ish years but every now and then i wonder how he's doing and what he's up to#he doesn't really have social media apart from facebook (and that page is private) and i only stayed in touch with his former best friend#but i'm not gonna ask him because i know they haven't spoken in years either#i've had plenty more relationships after him but i rarely ever think about those guys#am i okay? is this normal? lol#i should get my head out of this rabbit hole asap#add: the picture is almost 15 years old lol. my math ain't mathing. we met in 2009. not that it's important#i think i just moved on too quickly and didn't allow myself time & space to grieve. that's why he keeps popping up in my thoughts now & then
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Random fact about me: I have this group of old fancharacters from a particular franchise from that I just sort of... implant into different properties when I’m bored and need something to daydream about. It’s very odd to have this expanded universe going on in my head that only I know about, like I don’t write anything down about them or even draw them much but I sure am invested in them. They’re like a potluck in my head, where I just throw whatever ingredients I happen to be interested in at the time into their little universe. Right now it’s pokemon.
#I don't really know what to do with this information#I feel like I should write more of it down because it's gotten very complicated#and I KNOW I forget the details of these things after a couple years when it's fun to remember them#bored badgering#at this point they've devolved from a fanclan fro WC into like... a pokemon/redwall crossover#built on that fun idea going around the fandom a few years ago of like 'what if only 10% of the current clan cats were left'#like a plague or a terrible battle#so I wittled my original fanclan down to about 15% and for funsies threw them in with a bunch of old redwall OCs I also had#and just let them bounce off each other in my head when I'm bored#lately I've thrown pokemon into the mix cause... idk why not
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aauauauuougghghs i need to move out 👁👁
^^^ [CHEC IT OUT] i need to move out moodboard (available now !!!(
#99.txt#my mom is like ''you seem upset with mee :('' yeah cos straight up like i think i just hate u now#when i got covid it was MY problem i stayed in my room. i wore a mask any time i left. i even wore gloves to the kitchen.#to make sure she didnt get it (and she didnt !!!) and i even cleaned the whole house while i had it lol. and still kept it away from her#so now that she has it guess what !!!!!!!!!!!! everyone guess what !!!! its STILL my problem !!!#i stay in my room ! i use the basement toilet !! i have to wear a mask outside my room at all times !!#and wash my hands so much im gettin rashes because she just goes around doing whatever touching whatever ?#coughing on whatever because she doesnt give a shit !!!!#i made it my mission when i had it to keep her safe#and now that she has it its ''well if you wanna keep safe thats your responsibility'' like ???????#i promise you the thought of making space for another person & accommodating or compromising has never occoured to her once#its all ''well its up to you !!! good luck !!!!!'' yeah fuck me i guess#and she keeps bothering me asking me to help her with shit still !!!!!!!!!!!#''how do i find my documents on the computer ive had for 10 years :('' are you stupid ?????? are you dumb for real ???????#and she puts me in the situation where. im busy clearly busy with my own shit#but she feels SO entitled to my time that she will just insist that i drop everything and do something for her#if i say no or have a slightly unenthusiastic response its ''oh youre SO mean to me youre SO mean. no one will want you :('' ...ok.#but if i ask for help from my own mother once in a while its ''wow you ask so much of me you know youre not a child anymore :\\\''#yeah. i know. i dont think ive been helped with anything by a parent since i was like 15 years old#''why are you mad at me ven you seem mad at me :('' yeah . i think like you just kinda fucking suck
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That Audi is over 30 years old???
#really just means it's probably from the early 90's but like???#the h on german license plates are great. because sometimes a car and it's apparently over 30 years old#and now you're realizing your perception of an old car is very different from reality#possibly only the case if your father has been a car dealer since before you were a toddler#like. what do you mean cars i. a 24 year old. have seen so often as a small child. are over 30 years old?#cars that were already 10-15 years old when i was a child? imagine that#-guntram
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The kids I teach think I’m magic because I have a puzzle ring that falls apart when I take it off but stays together when I wear it. It’s just very sweet.
#one of them wrote a story for English class with me as the main character because of it#I had a rabbit sidekick and was the lost child of the queen#I also one time called the robot tattoo behind my ear my lucky robot that keeps me safe#and they’ve developed a whole mythos around how all of my tattoos give me powers.#(the actual reason the robot keeps me safe is cause he reminds me it’s okay to stop masking and sink back into my natural roboticness)#he’s my ward against autistic burnout)#like. I just love the way kids think.#anyway it was our end of year show today and my two little baby classes did me really proud and I might have cried a little#they’re the first time I’ve had a full class on my own that I’ve not shared with other teachers#and this year has just…it’s been a fascinating learning curve and yeah#my boss was like ‘watching you today with them made me somewhat envious of the rapport you’ve managed to develop with them and how well they#respond and interact with you’ and I’m looking at this guy that I’ve looked up to for over 15 years now like? that’s what I’ve always been#envious of you over like every single kid you teach loves you. and like we just had a really good conversation about the different dynamics#yeah I just needed to ramble cause it’s half three in the morning and I’ve only just got home and my little ones were so good!#like! uhhhh they’ve had a really difficult year for various reasons and we’ve hit so many roadblocks but they went out today and danced#their little hearts out.#my ballet group also showed up and actually performed my choreo properly for the first time ever. with technique!#do they do that in class? never seen it. but they were so good. ahhhhhh.#also the group that I perform with had our final performance as a group after dancing together in one configuration or another for ten years#and it was kind of emotional and there were lots of hugs and tears.#and it’s wild because I’ve seen these kids grow from 9-10 year olds to like…nearly adults and I’m just like…I’m so proud of you guys#they’re all going off into the world to be awesome
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You're more amazing than backflips
Made my 2nd Miitopia party! Jamie is now a Scientist and is joined by Natrin the Warrior, Fimishec the Imp, and Beacon the Chef
#asks#natrin is an old character inspired by the dnd rulebook saying that 3 year old dragonborn are as mature as 10 year old humans#then their relative maturity rate slows way down and it takes them until age 15 to be considered adults#and i was like “huh that's weird why'd they do that?” and then i realized that if they kept up that aging rate#then you'd have adult dragonborn that are 6 years old and that sounds Weird so they probably wanted to avoid the squickiness of that#what with bards and all#but anyway that got me thinking about dragonborn ages and so i decided to make a 3 year old dragonborn because it's funny#fimishec is the demon from that Mischief in Magic School story that i never did anything with#and beacon is of course beacon#she follows in compass's footsteps by being the healer of the group#which is kinda backward from how it should be but Team Rose needed to be the first party#i also have the final party members planned!#anyway miitopia is a really nice casual game#you don't even control your other 3 party members and the difficulty is fairly low#combine that with the fact that i Must Clear Every Alternate Path and i end up stupidly overpowered lol#it's nice to have such a low-pressure game
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desktop part is untrue 👹 not to be that gen z sorry
this can't be true can it
#i mean i’m older than 15 so it doesn’t matter but i still think that estimate is too old#it’s more like pre covid / post covid#my old elementary school only got rid of their computer lab with desktops during covid#bc the state had grants for laptops so the kids could do online scjool#so in general it’s more of a gen z and gen alpha split#gen alpha is so fucked up lmao i’m genuinely scared for 10-20 years from now
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I need a shugo chara reboot where the incest subplot is removed and Amu and Ikuto exclusively have this dynamic:
#molten rambles#why are we pairing a literal 10 year old with a dude who is between 15-17 years old#i used to ship amu/to for reference#so this is coming from someone who aged up and got weirded out#also utau#im so sorry they did you so dirty by making you love your literal brother 😭#i do still like her and kukai though#that was cute
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NHL ALL STAR TEAMS BUT every team is determined by your draft (or would be) year:
Team "Old Men" (2005-2012)
Forsberg - Crosby - Kucherov
Hertl - Miller - Vatrano
Jenner - Trocheck - Wilson
Reilly (solo defensemen, plays 60 minutes a night)
Hellebuyck
Bobrovsky
Talbot
Team "Sassy Bitches" (2013/2014)
Nylander - MacKinnon - Pastrnak
Draisaitl - Lindholm - Reinhart
Oliver Bjorkstrand
NO DEFENSE WE DIE LIKE MEN
Demko
Shesterkin
Georgiev
Team "All Offense" (2015/2016)
Kaprizov - McDavid - Konecny
Boeser - Matthews - Marner
Connor - Aho - Keller
Barzal - DeBrincat
NO DEFENSE OR GOALIE FUCK IT WE BALL
Team "Young'ns" (2017+)
Hughes - Petterson - Thomas
Tkachuk - Suzuki
Hughes - Makar
Dahlin
Swayman
Oettinger
#the 2017+ team destroys#they have the best goalies and actual defense unlike every other team#i had no idea what to do with the 15/16 lines they are so chaotic that top line is a fever dream but whatever#that second line scores 10 goals a game#they should make mcdavid play goalie i think that would be funny#the 13/14 team is the scariest by far#they would win from good looks and spite#get me the fuck off the ice and the media room when that teams on#also leon should probably be on the top line because he does actually play left wing but i wanted to reunite pasta and willy#honestly i think the 30 year old guys team would do the second best#they are very babygirl#and full of will and determination#and have the hottest goalie in the leauge#wait no that's stuart skinner#nhl all star 2024#nhl#nhl all star game
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Happy father's day!
This poll is about estranged fathers. If you are not estranged, congrats! You all get to share one answer.
Good lord! This sure did go. I'll answer some confusion as best I can.
This is a poll about estranged fathers. I'm interested in the timelines of people who don't talk to their dads.
Because I am interested in estranged fathers, I basically categorized everyone who is NOT estranged into one answer. If you have spoken within the last few hours or weeks: congratulations! You are within normal relationship parameters.
If it's been more than a month, something odd may be going on, especially if your culture normally observes father's day. After a year, it's definitely not normal.
If you want to be more specific within that month, make a poll, it's fine! No need to get mad, go hug your dad!
The results (aside from the volume holy shit) are pretty much what i expected: the vast majority of people are not estranged. Within that, some love their dad, some do not. But I don't personally care how recent contact was if it was within the last month.
I'm not trying to make a commentary about how fathers are all awful and everyone should reject them. I'm not an authority on dads either.
I am not "everyone" and I am not "tumblr"
I'm literally just a guy.
There's no goal here to try to fill every slot evenly, nor a message that you should.
Not every poll is all inclusive, and not every poll is about you.
For those who it is about, I see you. Father's day is weird for us, especially when surrounded by people who like their dads. We are rare in the grand scheme of things, and that's a good thing. But estrangement is about loneliness, either ours or his.
It's raw for some of us, an old scar for others, and for me: a turning point in life where everything started to get better. A year becomes two, a decade another, and someone who consumed your life becomes a part of the past so distant you stop remembering it so well.
We may not have dads, but we have each other.
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I love just sitting and working in small, local coffee shops for hours at a time. Even though it’s hard for me to sit still, it’s really fun to get to see all the people who come in and to get a better sense of the community as a whole. I love half listening to conversations, seeing how people interact with each other and with the baristas, and who even is drawn to the location in the first place. I don’t usually feel like paying $2 - $6 for a coffee or tea is really worth it except on special occasions, but the value of getting to be around people in a pleasant, safe, open environment like that really adds so, so much value to the experience. I like to feel connected to the people around me, so it makes me happy!
#I had to get a new key for my car and my headlight replaced so I walked to a random coffe and boba shop in a shitty looking strip mall#that was about 10 mins away from the car dealership. I was there for 2 hours and two small groups of people came in during that time#first over the first 15-20 mins I was there three or four men in their 30s -50s came in and were talking with the barista#I discovered that the barista (also a 30-50 year old man) and all of the men were part of the local Slavic community#cause they were speaking what I think was russian (I only know how to say yes and no in russian and I heard those words lol)#they talked for about 30ish mins before each man left individually. the shop was empty for about 15 mins before an elderly couple came in#their friend Jim joined them - they seemed to be regulars possibly - and they talked for about 20 mins and were still talking when I left#when I took a phone call it directed to my hearing aides and they thought I was taking to them so after I was done I apologized#they were very nice snd chatted with my briefly about my aides and people thinking I must be talking to myself with them (which DOES happen#but also I do talk to myself out loud all the time lol) and when I left the coffee shop I said bye to the barista and the elderly group#they all said bye back. it was such a pleasant experience#it was also SO different than I expected cause the coffee shop not only does coffee but also does bubble tea and matcha???#so I assumed it would be an Asian owned business not a Russian/Slavic one lol#overall a great experience. 10/10. a wonderful way to start the morning#googoogajoob
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