#shouting in the void

[saintajax]

Blade’s babying of you is a very steep downward hill btw it starts off with him making sure you eat or are mission ready, and then the next thing you know you’re in his bed with him until you’re so used to his heartbeat you can’t sleep without it

[little-paper-man]

눈_눈 pain and suffering - bad luck streak did not, in fact, end.

went to get my root canals done this morning at the free dental clinic (an hour drive to which already sucks but fine) and because of my stupid combo of small mouth+big teeth they couldn't get good enough x-rays in order to safely do them so they did a pulpotomy on them instead and referred me to a root canal specialist at a different dental place with better equipment.... that's NOT free and will cost $750 per root canal and I need 3 done T~T

Everything Sucks~! Eveeerythinnng Suuucks~!

(If you're wondering how bad the small mouth+big teeth combo is, even my body said 'yeah you got no room for wisdom teeth so you don't get any')

[theladyro]

I know not a lot of people will read this, but I have to rant somewhere, so let it be here. I am SO tired of people equaling AI to like ChatGPT and picture generative services and condemning them all at once. You do realize that AI is much more? Advanced spell and grammar check. Speech to text services. Image recognition programs that help scan and convert old books and manuscripts into searchable text. That's just from the top of my head. You do realize how much potential there is for increasing accessibility of information? For disability aids? Saying that all AI is bad is like saying that money is bad. They both are just instruments. What you use them for - that is what matters. (And yeah, sure, I'd like to live in the world where money doesn't exist, I was raised believing in communism after all, but we have what we have. And it's the whole other discussion)

[genethefairfolk]

*wakes up in a cold sweat* people writing a book together are DRAFT COMPATIBLE

[thisismenow3]

Ever scroll past a post and catch a stray as it reads you for filth?

maybe filth ain’t the right word, but then again this about to be some catholic ramblings. Post I saw in question was talking about how forgiveness for someone who already feels bad about what they’ve done can be a punishment since they feel in their bones they HAVE to be punished. And it felt off.

My immediate thought was “ha, I know from experience it ain’t the forgiveness that gets that kind of person, the forgiveness is just salt in the wound. The wound is that you can’t forgive yourself until you feel punished enough and that happens regardless of the person accepting your act(s) of contrition or not.” Bruuuuuuuuuuuuu! The fucking strange combo of epiphany and misery and scrambling to not feel like this still applies to my own psyche was intense. There’s got to be a word for it. Probably is one in German. I’ve been at a stage in life for long enough now to wonder if the Catholic upbringing I had was really the source of this pathway in my brain. Cause I didn’t grow up in a region with many Catholics, past an early age didn’t associate with many, and my mom did a lot better than the tripe you see of American Catholic guilt. Her relying on guilt when she did honestly didn’t seem to far off the mark for most parents trying to get their kids to see making things right as a responsibility. And I don’t know other people’s minds on this but it doesn’t seem like the bit of guilt she pointed out did it all or started it. Maybe there is something to the people who say that guilt based anything in parenting is a poisoned apple like spanking in a way.

But it seems like some kids internalize things as their fault that ain’t at an early age, and those are the kids and teens and adults I’ve met who also thought this way. Who, when they internally came around to realizing their wrongs done, just self castigate in their head over and over and are upset with themselves long past the wronged party regardless of if it was made right or not.

I try to just tell my kid that it’s easy to say sorry and that there are always ways to make things right. So as long as you do those two things you’re good to go. When I have moments like the “oh no this ain’t still a problem fuck I’ve been better I can be rational and good without being extreme in how I view myself and internal self talk and setting overblown benchmarks for proving my contrition,” I realize we never truly get past things. Just like we have never truly “learned” in an over and done way. We will always have times when we go “well shit, I guess I forgot about this and had to learn it again, even tho I still kind of academically knew it.” Being a parent means having this all the time “you can’t beat yourself up cause you didn’t do perfectly. What do we say?””dont let perfect get in the way of being better” (crap, I need to apply this in my own damn head for ___ situation!!!)

Life is strange

[saintajax]

Honeycrisp apples i love u with all my soul

[genethefairfolk]

man i wish there was a "voiced by mark hamill" bracket somewhere it could be fun

[bardofavon]

not to be controversial bc I know this is like…not in line with shifting opinions on fanfic comment culture but if there’s a glaring typo in my work I will NOT be offended by pointing it out. if ao3 fucks up the formatting…I will also not be offended by having this pointed out…

‘looking forward to the next update’ and ‘I hope you update soon!’ are different vibes than a demand, and should be read in good faith because a reader is finding their way to tell you how much they love it. I will not be mad at this.

‘I don’t usually like this ship but this fic made me feel something’ is also incredibly high praise. I’m not going to get mad at this.

even ‘I love this fic but I’m curious about why you made [x] choice’ is just another way a reader is engaging in and putting thought into your work.

I just feel like a lot of authors take any comment that’s not perfectly articulated glowing praise in the exact manner they’re hoping to receive it in bad faith.

fic engagement has been dropping across the board over the last several years, and yes it’s frustrating but it isn’t as though I can’t see how it happens. comment anxiety can be a real thing. the last thing anyone wants to do is offend an author they love, and that means sometimes people default to silence.

idk where I’m going with this I guess aside from saying unless a comment is outright attacking me I’m never going to get mad at it, and I think a lot of authors should feel the same way. ESPECIALLY TYPOS PLZ GOD POINT OUT MY TYPOS.

[thisismenow3]

Our culture is second hand right wing propaganda

The linked blog post about how social security has never been in danger of insolvency but you wouldn’t know that from reporting AND everyday conversations and media got me thinking about how we are overall as a combined culture/media space in this country center right. It’s why fuck like Joe Rogan have so much success and why people don’t want to do the work to understand shit they just think “one weird trick” like makings nega version of conservative shit that’s fucked us would somehow solve the problem. Whether it’s reporting or shit like South Park we all end up lining up the ways right wingers would prefer things; as in not fighting in the best way to make things better. We are overly optimistic when we shouldn’t be (Luigi is one guy and even violent protest wouldn’t do shit when our country put republicans fully in charge) and pessimistic when we desperately need to fight for incremental change (climate change has been slowed and we are e the strategies and tech to even reverse it).

It’s just insane how little effort most people put into checking into things and being essentially intellectual in their pet suit of living their life by progressing knowledge. From the “social security is gonna dry up!” Myth to the “people in Asheville are only get $200 from FEMA” myth I just see right wing propaganda everywhere. And it directly impedes incrementally making shit better. Cause at best we are stuck as a whole being the misinformed dummies right wingers would prefer us to be and then any attempts to inform become portrayed as infighting and on and on

[saintajax]

I’m so serious when I say I need to make kaminari choke on my dick

[lurkingshan]

Adding the democratic process to the games this season was not exactly a subtle metaphor, but it was an effective one. So many of us have felt the brutality of trying to make democracy work under a capitalist system that encourages those who have to oppress the have nots, to view politics as a zero sum game, and to wield their votes as a weapon to hoard wealth and resources for themselves. I can’t say this was a pleasant watch, but it definitely felt honest.

[genethefairfolk]

One thing I appreciate about Abed Nadir in Community is that they took the cliché of the autistic genius, then made him go on to prove that he had the healthiest romantic life of the whole group (barring Shirley maybe, but then she did hook up with Chang in a bathroom stall in the middle of a zombie attack) which is... the complete opposite of the sexless autistic genius cliché

like, yes! give us autistic nerds who are also romance masters!

[friendly-jester]

chappell roan being told by a photographer to "shut the fuck up" and then her turning around and telling him to "shut the fuck up" is iconic. nothing but respect for my queen.

[macksartblock]

Anyway really enjoying the underworld saga

[thisismenow3]

I can’t stop thinking about my wife or my son reading this. My wife who always works to make the world better, my son who more than refusing to believe just can’t comprehend a world where taking care of people to this level doesn’t happen. It’s like… we should strive for self betterment for ourselves, but part of why “do it for ___” exists is that sometimes what actually motivates us to do it is other people we love. And with certain things like taking care of people, we should strive to do it for moral reasons. But if we can’t, just do it cause you can’t NOT do it for your wife or kid. And then make a habit of helping people. And then the world is so much better and it’s because you helped someone else’s “world” be better. Man, dad brain feels today. This was good

I AM ABSOLUTELY LOSING MY MIND AFTER READING THIS PLEASE READ IT

[bertie-w-wooster]

:((