#i was crying even before i got it done i was so scared
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That was scary(LucyBronzeXCatleyReader)
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Summary: you have a medical emergency(Appendix) and your girlfriend is freaked out.
You have felt sick all day and had some pain in your stomach. It was just one sided though. The pain was just terrible and that said something cause you have a very high pain tolerance.
You were in the changing room with the team. Trying to tie the laces of your football boots, but the movement almost makes you vomit. Your girlfriend is watching you with worry in her eyes. But doesn't say anything cause you have told her multiple times today that you were fine.
"period cramps?" Keira whispered into lucys ear. Lucy shook her head no. Knowing it wasn't time for that yet.
"i don't know. She keeps telling me how good things are and that she is fine!" Lucy stated and sighed softly.
You could tell that you started to develop a fever, the pain was also getting worse by the Minute but when you tried to walk it off, you didn't go far. Beding over in pain. Groaning softly before going down, hitting the floor, crying out in pain.
"Babe!" Lucy kneeled down in front of you, checking you over. She was panicking but tried to appear calm for your sake.
"what hurts?" She asked.
"stomach." You cry out. She picked you up and carried you to the medics. Who checked you over quickly before putting you into the ambulance that was there for the Game and you got a Ride to the hospital. Lucy never leaving your side. Keira was calling Leah so she could inform your sister Steph about what had just happened.
You were brought into surgery right away. Cause your Appendix had ruptured. Lucy was in the waiting room, pacing around. Sending Updates about you into the Team Chat. Then her Phone went off. It was your sister.
"Lucy, how bad is it?" Your sister asked right away. it was evident in her voice that she had been crying.
"her appendix had ruptured. She is in surgery right now!" Lucy explained. Trying not to tear up. Truth was she felt guilty for not dragging you to a doctor cause you claimed to be fine.
"we will be there in an hour or so. Traffic is crazy! Kyra is driving!" She replied rambling on. It was clear how worried your sister was about you. So was Kyra, who was not just Stephs little pest, but also yours.
"Drive Safe Guys. We don't need another one in the Hospital!" Lucy told them. She probably has never been so scared in her Life.
Kyra and Steph arrived just in time for the doctor to explain to Lucy how the surgery went.
"the surgrey went without any complications. We would like to keep her over night and if things are okay by tomorrow she can leave. But she has to rest. So is there someone that can take care of her?" The doctor looked around.
Lucy, Steph & Kyra all said yes at the same time.
"she has lots of people that can help her!" Lucy stated.
It was around 2 hours later and you were fully awake now.
"well this was an experience i could have done without." You replied tiredly. Your sister looked at you.
"us too, y/n! Us too! I mean you scared the crap out of me!" Steph replied and i wasn't even there when you collapsed!" She stated. Sighing softly.
"You scared me too, weirdo!" Kyra answered.
"i was there and honestly it was the scariest Moment of my Life!" Lucy told you and kissed your forehead. You frowned softly.
"i am sorry for scaring you! Wasn't my Intention!" You said and took Lucys Hand in yours. "Honestly i didn't know it was that bad!" You admitted. Squeezing your girlfriends hand gently. She squeezed it back just as gently.
"maybe next time someone ask you If you are okay, answer honestly and don't play it down!" Lucy let you know her thoughts.
"i agree with Lucy. Seriously y/n, it's okay to be honest! You don't have to be strong all the time." Steph said and looked at you with worry in her eyes.
"this was warning enough in hope!" Kyra answered. And you nodded your head softly.
"yes it was! I promise i will ask for help and don't always try to tough it out anymore!" You let them know. Offering them a small smile.
Lucy stayed with you through the night and you got to leave the hospital to go home the next day but had to rest. Lucy made sure you did. But she wasn't alone. No Kyra and Steph also stayed for a few days before going back to Training.
The Team came to visit you for the next two weeks. Then you were allowed to start with doing some light workouts.
It took you a little over a month for you to be fully back on your feet but as soon as you were you proposed to Lucy and she said yes.
So now the two of you had a Wedding to plan.
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I feel dead
#IT HURT SO BAD OMG OMG#i was crying even before i got it done i was so scared#luckily the woman who got us to have the vaccination let me hold her hands as i was injected#and the nurse was nice as well#but omg that was scary#it still stings đđ#my head hurts but only on the right side where i got it done#anyway im home now cause i feel really dizzy#funnily enough only some of the boys felt sick n none of the girls#which is also weird given im the only Secret Third Optionâą (trans) person in my year and i felt like shit too
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#when i got hashtag sick i was in hospital and i was doing my regularly scheduled call with my dad#and i really had no plans of telling him bc ive done that before and its not like he can scare the MS away or anything#i dont know what happened. maybe because it was such a fucking bad episode. maybe because i was so tired. maybe it was a secret 3rd thing#but one minute was like fine then i just burst into tears and i was crying so hard which is MEGA EW BC IM NOT A CRIER LIKE THAT#and my dad freaked out and he was like whats wrong and i didnt wanna tell him but I also sounded insane bc i spontaneously started sobbing#and he was getting more alarmed and i was upset that id upset him and so i just spat it out i was like 'listen king'#'its no biggie but my body is trying to kill me again and im just a little sad atm' and he replied 'baba why wouldnt you tell me?'#and this man who has a very big serious job literally dropped everything and took a 20 hr flight over#and he genuinely just grabbed one of his work suitcase because he showed up with nothing but dress shirts and his laptop#and i think maybe it healed me a little. i mean it def also made me sad too but mostly healed me#and he'd been here for a couple of weeks and he left today and i feel shit about being sad about it#again because he has a very big and very serious job and i genuinely dont understand how he even just showed up like that#so I felt guilty throughout#anyway i dont think he drinks anymore but i was like king have a sip of wine with me and he did and it was lovely#and I hope I become my fathers daughter and not my mother's child. praying to both our gods#heres to healing â€ïžâđ©č
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?????? Why did he tell me everything was fine if my insurance requires me to have been on hormones for 2 years to approve the procedure. . .why didn't he say they won't approve it if that wasn't the case. . .is that outdated information???? Maybe we can lie????
Am i seriously about to have all of my fucking hype crushed???? Maybe I can convince my doctors to lie for me or we can say I was doing it DIY for a few years. People ask how long I've been on hormones a lot because my voice is pretty deep and I look pretty masculine surely we could get away with this???
I feel really fucking beaten down now. Why not stop the discussion and go 'hey they require X amount of time on hormones'. . .I really hope I can convince my providers to fudge the truth for me a little or i'm going to lose my mind i seriously don't know how well i'm going to take it if i can't get this done???? Like I already feel so anxious at the thought. Please everything about me needs this. I am going to go fucking insane if this can't happen this year.
#i suddenly feel very stressed about my fourth floor window#i don't know if i'm going to direct the violence at myself or someone else and i'm just hoping i won't have violence to direct at all#i feel so so fucking stressed out. why wasn't this the first thing i was told???????????#please please cooperate with me doctor and therapist please i haven't felt suicidal in over a year please we cannot ruin this#i feel dizzy i feel dizzy i feel dizzy i'm too stressed about this please i'm gonna fucking break down i'm gonna fucking cry what if they#say no what if they want proof i was doing it before i met them i'm feeling so lightheaded and i'm lying down lmao???#what if i say i was on hormones before and i had to stop taking them will that throw a wrench in things????? i'm going to lose my shit#guys my year may be fucking ruined everything was going so well despite the state of the world despite everything#i need these women to lie for me. one small lie for one dumb fucker's wellbeing. surely they can agree to this? surely if i tell them how#scared i am they'll agree to say one little lie for me#i feel like scratching myself til i bleed rn hhhhhaaaa didbcueiebdj good thign i cut my nails the other day because them shits were SHARP#okay. okay. all i have to do is ask. i may not get an answer from one until tomorrow but these are very good people they have been#kind to me so far and good to me so far and they understand how important this is#my doctor has a nonbinary kid!!!! surely she'll be able to ask them for advice if she isn't sure please i'm going to throw up and i haven't#even eaten yet please don't take this out from under me this close. please don't rip this away from me when everything is going so well#please don't try and take this from me under this current administration that's trying to take everything from us#please#danie yells at existence#suicidal ideation cw#self harm mention?#I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO TAG THIS I'VE NEVER FELT SO BAD I HAD TO GET IT OUT OF MY HEAD HERE BEFORE i'm gonna send them messages and hope they#respond soon. if they don't. idk. i ask how much it'll be out of pocket#i wanna rock back and forth i need to eat and take my meds i wish i'd done that before i got started#like damn i bet my anti-anxiety meds would have been REALLY helpful right about now! shame i haven't taken them since yesterday!#and i didn't take the ones i'm supposed to take last night either because i was so distracted by. ider what i was doing the insomnia was#kicking my ass til about 6am though#so I'm running on like nothing here. which isn't helping.#i know. i know if it doesn't happen i'll live i'll survive i'll be fine but mother of god jt doesn't feel like it#it doesn't feel like it'd be worth it to have to like like this for two more years#i've already been living like this for like. idk. at least 12 years.
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Clearly not handling having to give up my dogs as well as I thought I was
#can't even properly cry about it bc im sharing a room with my sister#as awful as i feel about the whole thing...i feel the worst when i think about K#she was literally like my baby ... got her when she was like...6 ..8 weeks old and i could hold her in one hand#and having her really helped me get through last year#anyways i feel like physical pain over this#and D my giant baby#he's so sweet and lovely but people are scared of him bc he looks aggressive#i hate this so much and it's constantly what could i have done to prevent this how could i have done better??#maybe if i were better at being christain#then maybe god would have done smth#not that that's ever worked before#and it's a pointless spiral i know because there is nothing i could have done and that hurts so much as well#it's so fucked up... literally all my future plans included K (bc my fam loved D more.. they weren't as fond of K) and now#even if i moved to a diff country i knew id have to do extra paperwork and all that so i could take her with#and now...there's just nothing...a massive fucking void#anyways back to distracting myself so i dont think about this#asra talks
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i don't feel like studying any of the subjects from The Plan rn but everything else is so boring that i also don't want to waste time on like watching content or something and i would rather switch subjects then give up on studying for the day and by old me standards ive already done enough but new me i still feel like i can do more but i don't know what ughhhhh this is torture
#okay so The Plan is#i mean not that anyone would care or understand but i like writing on tumblr like a diary#The Plan is to finish law in one month so i can give the online test and this js non negotiable because there's two#online tests and i have to do ATLEAST one before this year ends or it will be too much#and then to finish my backlog of direct tax till like 10th so i can give that test and be caught up with the rest of the class#and there's about 35 more 2 hr lectures to go (rip me)#oh also i haven't touched audit in ages and backlog is getting to the i can't breathe under this burden levels and classes resume on like#10th 11th something and i want to rejoin with them#the plan is to have all this done by november so in December#i can focus on catching the fuck up with fr and afm because like ive attented SOME classes like sparingly#and i know it but very upar upar se so i have to do it properly once or ill die#yeah that's it that's The Plan#it's doable i think i calculated hours days wise and everything#but like. theory subjects are fucking hard to do constantly because either they're boring asf (like law and audit)#or they're complicated and make me cry from frustration (like direct tax)#mann.#now that im actually studying#i feel so irrationally scared for how chill and like. blaise attitude i had towards inter exam#i had absolutely no idea everyone else was studying so deeply like tax syllabus first half is the exact same as inter#just a little advanced and sir keeps saying ye toh aapne inter mein padha hi tha and im like hain??? bhai itna sab tha????? i had no clueđ#like how tf did i pass my dad says not to tell anyone that i didn't really study for it cause ppl will think#aise hi farzi ca finalist ban gayi but like tunblr so wtvr#but yeah how tf??? could i pass???????#like i actually start to panic when i think about how less i had studied which makes no sense since it's not like they can#take away the result or reverse it or anything it doesn't matter now#but like just woah. like i can't even explain#i remember for tax all i watchef was marathon and usme bhi i got bored (THE DAY BEFORE EXAM!!!) so i skipped#the main topics that had crazy weightage and just did a number of tiny topics and studied only enough#to get passing#dt irl is VAST i can't believe these people learn such specific things that if iss date se iss date mein hai toh section 54 ka exemption
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vent post. There are two stories i was told in my teenage years that even before i had a real concept of trans issues made me uninterested in discussing the supposed sacredness and safety of separated sex-based spaces.
First, when i was like 13 or 14 my PE teacher told us about a time she went to a women's public restroom, some guy was hanging out outside the bathrooms, she didn't think anything of it, went to the bathroom, and he walked in after her and like, creeped on her over the top of the stall. She was ok, she wasn't telling us this to scare us, just telling us what to do in situations like that (and iirc she was telling the whole co-ed class this, not just girls, bc it's useful for everyone), but this taught me immediately and forever that there's nothing actually keeping these spaces separate really, that anyone can be a creep in any space, and that establishing a space like that as for women only isn't actually particularly useful for safety.
Second, when i was 16 i was at an anime convention, a friendly acquaintance of mine and i ended up in conversation outside, and he showed me his bare wrist and told me he'd been kicked out. A female friend of his had stepped in dog poop outside, and between that and the stress of the convention she'd had a bit of an emotional breakdown, so being her friend, he started comforting her and ushered her into the women's restroom so they could wash the poop off her shoe together. And because he was a man who went into the women's bathroom, he got kicked out, no matter that he was doing something that was actually beneficial to a woman. Punishing a woman's friend for supporting her was supposed to... protect her somehow? This made it clear to me that a no-exceptions rule separating the sexes like that wasn't actually inherently good for everyone.
And this isn't even getting into me as a child needing to accompany my younger sister to the restroom when we were out with just my dad because she had certain support needs past the age he felt comfortable bringing her into the men's room with him. And what if I'd been born a boy, or she'd been the first born? Who's helping her then?
And of course even putting all this aside, we should always prioritize compassion and support anyway. But i never even needed to meet a trans person to know that "keeping men out of women's bathrooms" is silly nonsense. But trans people also need to pee anyway and as humans they have that right, so leave them the fuck alone. your precious women's restroom is just a fucking room with a door, holy shit give it a fucking rest, if someone is attacking you in the bathroom that's bad and if someone is in there to pee that's good and it doesn't fucking matter what their junk is or was when they were born.
a woman could have done the exact same thing to my PE teacher and it would have also been bad no matter how "supposed" to be in the restroom she was, and no one should ever be punished for helping a crying friend wash their shoe.
Anyway i know I'm speaking to like-minded folks here, i just think about those two stories literally every time bathroom gender shit comes up and it pisses me off.
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Arcane characters saying things they'll regret during an argument with you. | Vi, Caitlyn, Jinx, Ekko, Sevika x Gn!Reader
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(Part two)
Because if I can't be happy, then neither can you./jâšïž
Content: Alcoholism, spoilers for season 2, heavy angst, toxic behavior, cursing, established romantic relationships, potential mentions of cheating, gaslighting/ manipulation, probably ooc idk, sfw
Reader has no set pronouns.
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ăVI
You hated the cycle she had trapped herself in. It was never-ending and beyond self-destructive. For a while, you tried to get her out of it by attempting to reason with her, show her the light, tell her that everything is going to be okay and to just stop with the senseless fighting. But then the heavy, out of control drinking began, and she became unrecognizable to you.
She barely spent time with you, and when she did, then it was due to an extreme hangover that you had to nurture her through before the next fight began. You were so sick of it. You couldn't take the state she was in anymore. You wanted your girlfriend back but didn't want to suffer anymore as a result of it. And so, you tried one last time to snap her out of it.
"Hey, uhm... can we talk?" You ask nervously whilst peering at her from the doorway into her room. The roaring of the crowd and indistinguishable words of the announcers buzzed over your heads, reminding you of the timelimit you had to do this right. Vi didn't turn to you and instead focused on smearing the black paint over her eyes, a dark gaze glance cast your way at your meek plea. "Make it quick. I got 10 minutes before I have to be out there again."
You took a deep breath and tried to ignore the coldness in her tone. It was so odd, so not like her. "Vi... I... I need you to stop this. I understand your pain. I really do, I... get it. But this isn't right. You're practically killing yourself here, and I can't take that anymore-" "-This topic again? I told you to fucking drop it already." She hissed with a shake of your head and something about that made you finally snap. "I care about you Vi! That's why I'm doing all of this shit for you. No one else would do as much as I did. Why can't you see that? What the hell happened to you-" Your voice was cut off by her hand slamming into a nearby wall, anger written all over her face that made you flinch away instinctively.
You had never been scared of her before and this just broke your heart further.
"Shut up! You haven't done shit for me, except for pissing me off and whining and crying about every little thing I do! How about you fuck off and leave me the hell alone instead!? The only person who ever did shit for me is Cait and look how that turned out!" Silence. Deafening silence. Except for Vi's heavy breathing. You were rendered speechless. All the years you've spent with her at her side even as children flashed through your mind, before it all stilled and went cold. Your gaze hardened, and you nodded slowly, turning away wordlessly to do as she asked. You understood now. You were always the second choice in the end.
Vi seemed to only notice that you've left once she heard her name being called from the ring above. And her heart sunk at the realisation that this time, you wouldn't be there to watch her win.
And so she didn't.
ăCAITLYN
Zaun was becoming a sensitive and dangerous topic to bring up around her. Even the slightest mention of it made her face harden and earn you a dismissive hand waving all of your protests away. It also didn't help that she was pulling away from you and instead getting closer to a certain red-headed officer of hers. It was frustrating and so exhausting to deal with, on top of all the grief that hung over your heads constantly. It was driving you mad. Nothing you said got through to her.
It wasn't a secret that you disapproved of the war and the alliance with Ambessa. You could look right through her, see with a clear mind that she was up to no good. Whatever she had planned wouldn't bring either nation anything but more plight. This wasn't the right way to go about things. It wasn't humane. The people she hated were no different from you both. But she just couldn't see it the same way, her judgment clouded heavily by her need for revenge on Jinx. A singular person had shifted her perception about a whole group of people... and it was becoming suffocating. You couldn't recognize her anymore.
You were trying to find the right time to finally confront her about it fully, and thankfully, the opportunity came up one evening whilst she was going through paperwork in her office. You were pacing nervously around the room, trying to find the courage to speak your mind, but she beat you to it. "If you have something to say, then say it. I have work to do and can not be disturbed like this." She muttered, eyes focused on the sea of papers before her rather than your stilling form. Very well, she asked for it. "I... want this war to end. This isn't right."
Her hand froze before she hummed and resumed her task. "I thought we had moved on from this topic." She said calmly, not betraying how clearly irritated she was becoming. But you couldn't give up now. You'd go crazy if you did. "Caitlyn. There is no moving on from it if people are going to die as a consequence! How could you ever look away from that? Why can't you see that this is wrong? Why can't you see that Ambessa-" You stepped towards her grand desk with every word, hands coming down to push the paper she was holding away from her face. You just wanted her to finally look at you again after so long. "-Is playing with your mind!" "Enough. Don't you dare say another word."
The Kirammann stood up and towered over you, a strong hand grabbing onto your arm with a sharp shake that surprised you. Had the grief taken over her mind this badly? So much so that she couldn't see how much this was hurting you to lose her? "I demand you see reason and stop sympathizing with those treacherous animals... unless you want me to see you as one of them as well." "You think I'd betray you?" You breathed, and suddenly the realisation that you had lost her for good finally sunk in. You needed to go. Now.
Caitlyn's face sobered up at your question, yet before she could say a thing, her dear officer Nolan stepped in with a report in hand. Seeing the position you two were in, she nervously tilted her head. "Oh, my apologies, am I disturbing you-?" "-Not at all. In fact, I'm the one who's disturbing YOU. My apologies for that." Ripping your arm out of her gloved hand, you pushed past the girl and rushed out of the room.
Your girlfriend watched you disappear down the dark hallway before she straightened up and gave the officer a curt nod to go ahead with her report. But it was hard to listen to a word she was saying when Caitlyn's head was replaying the memory of your teary, heartbroken eyes over and over again.
ăJINX
She didn't care about her life anymore. That was clear as day, and unfortunately, your relationship was suffering because of it. You knew that Silco's death had killed her inside, that his absence left her lost and confused. But you were so desperate to keep her together. So much so that you were practically destroying yourself for her well-being. Eventually, this boiled over when she was beginning to pull away from you. You, who had always been there. You, who she always cringed onto and begged to stay with her. You only had eachother now. It was impossible to think about a life without her now.
The unhinged spark in her eye had faded away and was replaced by an empty shell of what it once was. That scared you more than you'd like to admit. "Jinx... what are you thinking of?" You asked her one night whilst you quietly snuk around the dark lanes of your home. She didn't respond at first, and your eyes were focused on the back of her hooded head, wondering if she even heard you. But you know she had, when she came to a sudden stop. "... I... I think we should part ways, sweetheart. This ain't gonna go over well forever." She said in that hauntingly calm voice you've grown to hate. And you'd be lying if you said that you didn't see this coming.
"But why? We've always been together through everything. This isn't any different-" "-But it is! It's over! Jinx is over!" Facing you, you near flinched at her glowing, violet eyes, heart beating against your chest. She would never hurt you. You knew she wouldn't. And yet... you found yourself ever so slightly stepping away. Maybe that's what set her off in hindsight. "You're gonna leave me like everyone else anyway. Might as well beat ya to it-" "-I would never do that! What has gotten into you? You should know better than to think that-" "-You're scared of me, ain't ya?" You pressed your lips together when you realised that her mental state had gotten much worse than you expected.
She was losing it.
"In fact, I bet you're thinking of me the same way Vi does. You'll be so much happier without me. But... actually... what if you're going to backstab me like her one day?" The look on your face must've been horrific enough to sober her scrambled mind then because even she seemed to be unsure of what she's saying. And yes, you knew she wasn't doing well. You knew she was just saying things without thinking them through. But you were sick of it. So tired of it all. She could practically read your mind.
"W-wait, I'm sorry, I didn't mean that, I-" "-Okay... you're right. We truly would be better off going our separate ways." You were stepping away from her quicker now, and then you were running, your view becoming blurry and unintelligible. "WAIT NO, PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME, I DIDN'T MEAN IT, I-" Jinx screamed after you, her breathing heavy and uneven, but she didn't go after you. She knew she had lost that right the second she opened her mouth.
You disappeared into the lanes, for the first time ever sprinting away from rather than towards her. And like the Jinx she was, she had screwed up another good thing up for herself. Perhaps deservingly this time.
ăEKKO
Ekko was extremely busy with his duties lately and practically completely neglecting himself for them. It was very concerning to you and everyone, to say the least. Especially now that a war was practically forming at your front door from Piltover. And you were grateful and thankful for all he did for you. You really were. For that reason alone, you wanted him to take things easy at least sometimes to eat and sleep properly when he can. So, on the request of other members, you went to go looking for him one night before it was time for bed. He was sitting up in the tree, clearly planning to keep watch all night, like he usually did.
But you had come with a mission of your own and refused to leave until he came down to bed with you. "Ekko." You hummed as you finally reached him, a friendly smile on your lips. Balancing a nice basket of baked goods you had made yourself, you stepped towards his form that was beautifully illuminated in the moonlight. Seeing him here made you feel content and relieved since you were barely seeing each other to begin with anymore. Which you have been trying to be understanding about.
"I know what you're here for, and the answer is still no." The young man sighed with a shake of his head and frown. You weren't the first one to come by, that's for sure. "Hey... you know this isn't healthy. We're counting on you to stay strong for us, and you can't be that if you're starving yourself." You say with a slight falter to your smile, yet you tried to keep your tone playful and light. He, on the other hand, did not.
"I already told you that it's a no. Now go to bed and let me work." "But I made you these and-" "-I said, no." He hissed out, and that took you aback. He never raised his voice at you, nor did he ever have an attitude with you either. But the stress was getting to him badly, and so was the lack of sleep. "Why can't you just get that? How many times do I have to say it to get it through your thick skull? The least you could do is go and make yourself somewhat useful by patrolling, instead of wasting your time with this."
Oh, how his words cut you deep. Rationally, you knew that everything was just getting too much for him. But it didn't stop you from feeling hurt anyway, as your lip wobbled, and you slammed the basket on a nearby desk before quickly taking your leave wordlessly. Ekko froze at that and reached out to you, your name on the tip of his tongue, but the guilt stopped him from saying a thing.
"Fuck!" He cursed at himself, as he rubbed the bridge of his nose with a disappointed sigh. He definitely was losing it... and you unfortunately had to unfairly take the brunt of it.
ăSEVIKA
"What did I tell you about running off when I tell you to stay put? You could have fucking died out there and then what?" Sevika was angry at you. Not that you could necessarily blame her since you did nearly get killed by an Enforcer earlier. But you had no real choice in this. You swore you didn't mean for this to happen. It was supposed to just be a quick errand run. You wanted to make her something nice for dinner, spoil her a little as a thank you for all the work she was putting into Zaun. Yet you couldn't explain any of this with the way she didn't let you even say a word now from the anger running in her veins. In fact, you had never seen her this enraged before.
"I am sick and tired of you disobeying what I tell you. I can't always be there and save you from everything, you know? I got better things to do and than to babysit you all the time-" "- I'm not asking you to do that either! I'm a grown adult, I can take care of myself!" You yelled back, absolutely angry now yourself at the way she always infantilized you like this. It always the same conversation and argument over and over again. You were so sick of it. You could handle yourself just fine and have proved this before. Yet she was so hellbent on proving you wrong every time, you couldn't take it anymore!
"I'm your partner, Sev. You're supposed to treat me like an equal." "I would, if you weren't so fucking incompetent. If I wasn't there, you would've been dead. Why can't you get that? Should I spell it out for you more? Dumb it down even more?" You hated when she was being like this. It was rare for a reason, and you despised this side of her. The side that was so prideful and egotistical. And you were trying so hard not to stoop to her level. It didn't help that you were a little injured and struggling to stand as is. "I'm not in the mood for this shit, I'm literally bleeding. Can we argue about this later, please? I just wanted to surprise you with something nice for once, and I get that I was wrong, but you don't have to be so mean about it, damn it!"
The tears in your eyes were betraying you, and the embarrassment of that just made you push past her and disappear into your shared bedroom. You'll just deal with the injury yourself. Sevika stared after you in slight surprise, considering it was rare for you to yell back like that and cry at that... but the sight of the flowers and half prepared food on the kitchen counter made the regret finally set in.
Perhaps you were right after all.
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#feeling so frustrated#i started doing my online courses which i only have like 6 of left (they have to b done by tmr bc our first day in the pool is tmr#and when i went to have breakfast like my left side was hurting s bad suddenly#and i was like ignoring it bc it felt kinda crampy and i was like mayb i just need to stretch it#anyway after breakfast like it was ok and so i sat on my bed to get back to doing my work and suddenly the pain got rly intense and i#couldnât concentrate on my work and i even started sweating a little like my glasses were starting to get a little foggy so i stood up n#was just pacing around my room n trying to stretch but it rly got so bad that i was like ok⊠i think i need to tell my momâŠ.#and it got so bad i even started crying like i donât cry often in general but esp not easily over pain..#so i took an advil and my moms like get ready iâm taking u to the hospital but once i changed n stuff i felt much better (the advil iâm#assuming) and i was like no.. i feel better now⊠but my mom was insisting sheâs taking me anyway but i went out for a walk around the block#to like calm down and yeaâŠ. anyway iâm so scared to go to the hospital what if itâs my appendix and like tmr is my first day back at work#and i have stuff to still finish before then and and anddddddâŠ.#i just donât know#i feel ok rn tho⊠but yea i just#đ#p
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thanos/su-bong x pregnant! reader (fluff, comfort)
warnings â thanos and reader have matching tattoos, crying, mentions of sex, cursing, mentions of pissing on a door, pregnant reader, switching of referring to thanos and subong so hope you donât get too confused, use of bitch (not towards reader), lowercase, typical squid game shit so mentions of blood and death,
you joined these games because although you thought it was too good to be true, it was all you could do. your shitty ex su-bong making you invest all your money into some dumbass crypto scam and blowing all of your guys money on drugs, childish bets, and gambling. after he blew both your guys money out, you left him, blocked him on everything, ignored your doorbell when heâd attempt to see you in person, everything. but two months after you broke up, it all came crashing down. you found out you were pregnant. and he was the only one you let see that part of you, it was his. but you were sure he moved on and even if he hadnât, you couldnât take him back. if he was this much of an incompetent person, heâd definitely be a terrible father. you didnât want him in your life or your childâs.
besides some guy you assumed to have dementia or be on drugs, the game was going pretty smooth. until it wasnât and it turns out the guy wasnât crazy and people all around you were dying. blood splatting on your face left and right. you finally find a method and stay behind other people and everything was going smoothly again besides the intense stress and pressure. your heart and stomach feeling heavy. but the next time that doll turns around you hear a bunch of screams and you look to the right and see that su-bong was here too, and he had just pushed all of those people. he looked crazed. you just ignore it and try not to think about it, finally passing that finish line and being done with the first game, waiting for a full explanation.
you all move back into the main rooms that contained all your beds and people start screaming and yelling for answers. crying to go home, begging for their lives. you too wanted to go home, but you had so much on your mind. so much that you donât notice your ex is nearing right behind you.
âseñorita! oh my god baby is that you?â
he grabs your shoulder and turns you around to face him and you look up at him, frowning your eyebrows. he starts grabbing your face in his hands, touching all over you, not being able to comprehend it was you.
âoh god, it is you, babe, are you okay? where have you been iâve missed youââ
âsubong, stop. weâre not together, and we never will be ever again.â
you push his hands off your face and step back to put some distance between you two, still giving him a major glare. he reaches his arms out towards you again as if he was slowly trying to pick up a scared puppy.
âcmonâ you canât still be mad. baby, iâll make it up to you, especially now.â
you look behind him and see a few people waiting on him, clearly eavesdropping. he turns around and looks at you again, a puppy dog look on his face but you shake it off.
âitâs not going to work subong. the debt im in now is insane because of you!â
he holds his right hand out before grabbing your right hand.
âbaby please â we got these tattoos together,â
you look down at your hands and see the matching line placements decorating both of your hands. it was a stupid idea. youâd been dating for a little over a year, you shouldnât had done it, you knew that. but you could barely pay for your bills, you definitely couldnât pay to remove a tattoo. but deep in your heart you wished he was different, wished you could forgive him because deep down you still loved him. that tattoo was a sick reminder of that everyday. you realize youâd been staring at the two of your hands for a while before pulling away quickly. he looks at you with a smile and hope in his eyes. he places both of his hands on your shoulders again.
âsee, weâre meant to be. it was a mistake, i know, i did it out of the goodness of my heart! for us, for you, you know that.â
you scoff at him.
âno. no i donât know that. weâre not getting back together choi su-bong, thatâs final.â
his hands go limp on your shoulders before you speak up, saying your next few choice of words slightly quieter as his fans or friends or whoever was still behind you two, stop eavesdropping.
âand just so you know, iâm pregnant. itâs yours. iâm keeping it. i donât need you to help me. iâll find a way to make money and iâll raise my child.â
he stares at you stunned before you push away and move through the crowd. you hear him yell for you, yelling that cringy señorita pet name your way, but you ignore him, trying to hide in the crowd, listening to what the guards say as he drowns in the sea of people.
the guard mentions voting and how you guys were gonna vote whether to stay or leave. part of you wanted to stay still, but if you died, so did your baby. and you were scared out of your mind, nothing able to comfort you. so you knew you were going to choose to leave. you werenât in insane debts but you still had a lot. the money they were offering after the first game was nowhere near close enough to pay it all off. you would have to play one more game, maybe even two to pay it off, but you couldnât take any risks. they start calling from highest to lowest numbers and once they call âplayer 230â, your shitty ex makes his way down the line, skipping to smack that blue button, choosing to stay. it only made you wanna choose the other side even more. your turn comes and you choose to leave, sticking the red âxâ on your chest. you could see him staring at you through the corner of your eye, but you just chose to ignore it. creepy bastard.
after arguments and close physical alterations, the voting was over. you had lost, youâd be staying for another game. you wanted to go but at least youâd have an opportunity to make a little more money, you guessâŠ
âexcuse me, young lady, would you like to join us?â
you look over to a short older woman holding onto your arm, pointing over to a small group of people who were sitting on their beds. you give her a small smile and nod, letting her take you over there. she signals where you can sit and you move slowly while holding your stomach, letting out a deep breath once you finally get down all the way. you look around and thereâs an older man, a younger girl, and another woman with some very strong features. the older woman speaks.
âi mean, i canât believe they chose to stay! no offense hyun-ju, but come on!â
the older woman smacks her hand down on the bed and you give her a sympathetic and understanding look. she looks up at you before she gets a surprised look on her face and quickly flails herself around to get her composure.
âright! maâam, this is my son yong-sik, this is young-mi, and this is hyun-ju.â
she pauses looking at you and sits up quickly again.
âoh, and you can call me mrs jang.â
she gives you a teethy smile. realizing sheâs waiting for you to introduce yourself you let out an oh and tell her who you are and she grabs your hands into hers and rubs circles into them.
âoh that name is so pretty. a pretty name for such a pretty girl.â
her son yong-sik slaps her shoulder and then they start arguing. you just sit there happy to have the company before you look to your right and see subong on the other side staring at you. you quickly look away and look down at your legs, biting your lip.
âyo, whoâs that girl? you were arguing with her earlier. sheâs smoking.â
he keeps staring before snapping his head back at nam-gyu.
âyou are right, she is smoking hot.â
he pauses.
âwell you see nam-suââ
ânam-gyuâŠâ
âright right, nam-gyu, anyways, thatâs my girl over there, okay? she just playinâ hard to get right now is allâ,â
nam-gyu raises his eyebrows, getting an idea.
âsoo, you gonna let me have a turn with that, right?â
thanos slaps his arm.
ânah bro, i normally share but that, ive had dibs on her for at least two years.â
he slaps nam-gyus arm again and then grabs it, causing nam-gyu to let out an âow broâ,
âdonât worry bro! iâm sure we can find ya a bitch in here though! keep your mind busy and dick wet and weâre sure to win this whole thing.â
he slaps his arm one last time before nam-gyu slaps him back, thanos just laughing before slowly going back to watching you. trying to figure out how he should go about this. deciding that heâd just wait until everyone was asleep to talk to you again.
night time comes around and you had to piss. this fucking sucked. you had none of your pain killers, and you were about to crawl into a ball and start ripping your skin off from the pain you were in. but right now just focus on pissing. just focus on pissing you thought. you get up slowly, clutching your stomach before walking up to the door to the bathroom, knocking on it, waiting for someone to answer. finally the window slides open and youâre met with a triangle looking at you, or at least you think he, it? is looking at you.
âuhm, excuse me, i need to use the washroom.â
âplayers may not leave this room past your given curfew.â
the window to the door shuts. you take a deep breath, not willing to cause a scene and just about walk away before a guy walks up behind you and starts making a scene for you. that guy being su-bong.
âhey, me and my girl are tryna fuck, if you want we can do it right in the middle of this fucking room!â
it doesnât work and the door doesnât open.
âim not a girl! i have a penis and i know how to fucking aim. the next time you open this door itâs gonna be fucking yellow instead of pink i promise you that! i gotta heavy ass piss stream i been holdinâ and i can let out all over this door!â
you slap him, asking him what he was doing and that he was being crazy. but if you were being honest you were trying to stiffle a laugh. he always was funny, and in your relationship he always knew how to make you laugh. youâre pulled out of your thoughts when somehow what he said actually worked and they opened the door for you both. you make your way to the bathrooms and itâs silent the whole time. he was thinking of what to say to you. a million things running through his mind. you make it to the two bathrooms and you go and open the womenâs bathroom door before it feels ten time lighter and you see subong holding the door open for you. giving you a cheeky grin. you just look at him before making your way into the bathroom and the door closing behind you. you hadnât even noticed that you were holding your breath before you breathe out and realized your lungs were burning.
âi really have missed you, you know?â
you snap your head around and see that he had followed you into the bathroom and you call him a perv, yelling at him to get out.
âhey! iâm not here to fuck alright. i mean, unless youâre down then babe, letâs get it fucking going.â
he claps his hands together and you give him a disgusted look before going into one of the bathroom stalls and slamming the door shut so you could finally piss. but when you were done actually doing your business, you just sat there with your face in your hands. he was stressing you out, this baby was stressing you out, and this place was stressing you out and you were on the verge of a breakdown.
âiâm not coming out until youâre gone.â
you see his feet right under the bathroom stall door you were in and groan. hearing the door creak a little, assuming he was leaning against it, which he was.
âbaby, please. i just want us again. iâve missed you so much, youâve been the only thing on my mind since you left.â
you started to tune him out and started rubbing your face in your hands even more, feeling your eyes start to water, your breath getting caught in your throat, your sniffing starting to become louder before one of your sobs slips and he hears it. asking if you were okay and you just ignore him, covering your mouth with your hand, continuing to cry.
âplease let me in.â
you take a deep breath and slightly get up to unlock the door before sitting back down on the toilet seat, face still in your hands. he crouches down to you and cups your face in his hands before he pulls you in for a hug and starts rubbing circles into your back. your sobs getting louder as you burry your face into his bloody jacket, but you really werenât thinking about that. god thinking of when you two were like this made you start to regret the past, yearn for a future with you two, and hate the present situation you were in. still crying into his jacket as he continues to try to soothe you with his touch. he pulls away after awhile and pushes your tears away with his thumb. his heart crumbling as he sees your teary orbs looking him in the eyes. youâd cried to him before when you were together, and he had comforted you many times before, but never had he seen you this distraught. he hooks his arm under your shoulder and lifts you to standing and he moves you out of the bathroom stall. you wipe your tears away, mumbling a sorry, avoiding all eye contact with him, looking at the ground.
âbaby, look at me.â
your eyes look around at the ground before you slowly move your head up to look at him, a small pout on your lips. biting them from the nerves. it was a bad habit youâd never gotten rid of, youâve had it since heâs met you. he looks at you, almost looking through your eyes. he places one hand on your arm, and grabs your right hand in his right hand, the matching tattoos clashing together.
âplease, give me another chance. weâll figure out the money, work, all of it.â
he pauses and looks down at your stomach. moving the hand that was on your arm to hold your stomach. looking up at you for confirmation that he could and you give him a small nod before he rubs the side of your tummy.
âi just canât believe it. you shouldâve told me!â
he raises his voice and you look away. still about to completely knaw off your lip.
âi didnât think youâd want to stay. can you blame me?â
he pauses his rubs on your stomach, other hand still in yours and moves the hand that was on your stomach to your face, making you look at him. putting his thumb on your lips, getting you to stop biting them.
âi promise i want to be there for you and for our baby.â
you take a deep breath and he rubs his thumb on your tattoos.
âi wonât leave you, iâll be better for us, i promise baby.â
you whisper under your breath. canât believing you were about to say what was about to come out of your mouth.
âyou promiseâŠ?â
his eyes light up.
âi promise baby.â
he pulls you into a tight hug and he hears you groan, forgetting that he mightâve been putting too much pressure on your belly. he gives you an awkward smile and he takes your hand into his and holds both your guys hands up to your face, as if showing you that he was never gonna let go of you again, and you two couldnât be separated. you give him a light smile before letting go of his hand and he gives you a look of confusion.
âwhat? you never gave me the chance to wash my hands.â
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losing you | s.r.
in which you being in danger in the field elicits a response from Spencer that you're not used to - anger
margovember
who? spencer reid x fem!reader category: angst content warnings: general cm violence, jareau!reader, fear of abandonment, fighting word count: 1.67k a/n: i really didn't like this one at first but turns out now i really enjoy it lol. it's hard for me to dislike anything jareau!reader. anyways, setting this up to post while i chemically straighten my hair, i hope you enjoy!
âWhat are you doing?â Spencer asked, crossing his arms in front of his chest and casually leaning against the doorframe. A bored expression planted on his face as he watched you dump your dirty laundry out of your go-bag and begin to shove clean clothes inside.
You huffed, slamming a dresser drawer shut as you shoved socks into your otherwise empty duffle, âIâm going to stay with JJ tonight.â Avoiding his gaze, you proceeded to pack away your underwearâfour pairs for an overnight trip.
Slowly, he meandered over to the bed, sitting on the ledge and watching you, âI think we should talk about this.â He told you, pushing his glasses up on his nose.
âI agree,â you responded, checking your toiletry kit to ensure you had everything you needed to get through the next twenty-four hoursâor more if the team got called off on a new case while you were with your sister.
Spencer frowned at your response, âYou agree, but youâre still packing to leave.â He turned his head to follow you as you floated around the room, tossing miscellaneous clothes in your bag.
Nodding, you zipped your go-bag shut, buttoning an additional closure before turning back to face Spencer. âYouâre angry with me, and I think we could have a more productive conversation with each other tomorrow after you sleep on it.â
âAnd I think we need to get our thoughts out now before it turns into a bigger issue. Internalizing emotions like youâre suggesting isnât healthy,â Spencer challenged, following you as you walked to the front door, setting your bag on the console before searching around for the right pair of shoes. âAnd now youâre just walking out,â he griped, gesturing over to the shoe rack.
Your head snapped up at that remark, âHey, I am not just âwalking out.ââ Your gaze narrowed at him as you nearly stumbled over your own feet.
The knot between his brows loosened at your expression, and for a moment, you werenât in the midst of a disagreement. For a moment, the two of you were two kids who had been walked out on. âNo,â Spencer said, his voice softer than it had just been, âYouâre right. That was a poor choice of words and Iâm sorry.â
Chewing on the inside of your lip, you paused your efforts to leave the apartment and took a deep breath. âI made a split-second decision, and it ended up saving a little girlâs life. I donât regret it, but I do regret the way it scared you.â
Spencer kept a firm distance from you, even if you reached out an arm, you wouldnât be able to touch him. âYou should have listened to Hotch; thereâs no reason that you shouldâve done⊠that.â
âYou werenât there, Spencer! If you had seen the way he was holding that gun to her temple⊠if you had heard the way she was crying out for her mom, then maybe youâd understand why I took her place,â you told him, shifting uncomfortably on your feet.
Spencer groaned, pinching the bridge of his nose, âThere had to have been another option, Y/N.â
Maybe there was, but part of your FBI training had been on making snap decisions, and this was just another example. âSo, you think I shouldâve let him keep that gun to the little girlâs head?â
âNo,â Spencer answered, dragging out his vowel. âI just would have rather not seen a gun to my girlfriendâs head instead.â
You halted, eyes widening in alarm as you shifted to a newfound frustration, âRight,â you sniped, âThatâs rich, coming from you.â
His eyes flashed with recognition, and you knew that he was well aware of what you were referring to. Last month when he had his face off with Cat Adams, leading to her pointing a gun at his head while he proceeded to egg her on. Youâd given him a mouthful the next day, and you werenât afraid to do it again, âThat was a completely different set of circumstances.â
Cocking your head to the side, your nostrils flared, âWas it?â You ask sardonically, âA serial killer pointing a loaded gun to your head sounds pretty fucking similar to me!â
âAt least I stayed to talk to you about it instead of running away,â he snapped, both of you escalating in the ways you knew how. You raised your voice while he resorted to the cutting edge in his voice.
You held your hands out to your sides helplessly, âDo I need to put in for a transfer or something? Is this that big of an issue to you?â You could barely stomach the idea of leaving the BAU, but at this point, losing Spencer would be worse than joining a new department.
âNo,â he answered instantly, âThe problem here is that you donât think before you act.â
You held up your hand, âI think before everything I do, and Iâm sorry that my synapses donât fire a million times a minute, and I canât calculate the probability of every outcome beforehand, but I did the best I fucking could with the time I was given.â
Spencer raised his eyebrows curiously, âThe best you could? A Glock to your temple was the best you could do?â
âFuck you! Why donât you have any trust in my abilities in the field? Why do you all of a sudden do you think I canât do my job?â You demanded, chest rising and falling with anger as you glared across the room at him.
Spencer flinched at the accusation, the idea that he was just as bad as all of the people who assumed you only got your job because of your sisterâthe kind of people Spencer used to defend you from. âI didnât⊠youâre perfectly capableââ
âBut not good enough for the BAU? Not good enough to be a profiler, surely,â You interrupted him. âYou know what I think, Spencer? I think youâre scared. I think seeing a gun to my head frightened you, and youâre taking it out on me because Iâm the only vessel that you can snipe at and know they wonât leave you entirely.â
His posture changed then, leaning against the back of the couch as he absorbed your words, âYouâre an incredible profiler, honey. The team is lucky to have you, you know that.â
Your shoulders slumped forward in response, âThen why the hostility? Why did you snap at me in front of everyone as soon as you found out the gun wasnât loaded?â You took your bottom lip between your teeth as you studied his facial expressions for an answer. When you offered to take the little girlâs place, you were under the impression that the gun was loaded, and when the rest of the team caught up with you, they were under the same guise.
It wasnât revealed that the chamber was empty until JJ made the shot that took out the UnSub, and Spencer had been all over you with worry one moment and wanted nothing to do with you the next.
âDid you feel like your worry wasnât warranted?â You asked when he remained silent, âLike it was a waste of emotion when I wasnât in any real danger?â
Spencer shook his head, crossing his arms in front of his chest self-consciously as you forced him to look at his behavior objectively, âYou were always in danger, Y/N. The way he was watching you, the grip that he had on youâŠâ
The UnSub gripped your hip so fiercely that he had almost taken you down with him when he was shot, and you wouldnât be surprised to find bruises marring your skin when you changed out of your work clothes. âI saved that little girl, Spence. Thatâs the deal, right? âI will well and faithfully discharge the duties of the office on which I am about to enter.ââ You quoted your oath to him, the same one he had taken, âAt that moment, it was my duty to save that little girl. She went home to her parents today because of me.â
âYouâre right,â he said, any evidence of malice washed from his tone. âYou were incredible. You were fearless, and it scared the shit out of me,â he told you. âIââ he faltered, âIâm sorry,â he said, approaching you the way you would a wounded animal.
You shook your head when he held out his hands for you, leaving your arms stiffly at your sides and shaking your head, âNo, Spence.â
Despite your protests, he pulled you into an embrace anyway; your body was resistant to him, the way his warm arms wrapped around you and pulled you flush against his body. âPlease donât go,â he whispered. âBe mad at me, make me sleep on the couch, but please donât leave,â he murmured.
Your cheek was pressed against his chest, the wool lapel of his suit jacket scratching against your skin as tears flooded your field of vision. As much as you wanted to resist, this was Spencer. Instinctively, you nuzzled your face into his chest, wrapping your arms around his waist and taking a shuddering breath.
âIâm sorry,â he breathed. âIâm so sorry. I donât want to lose you,â he told you.
Fear of loss. Spencer had been terrified to see a gun to your head, but the thought of having to watch you leave the apartment you shared in order to get away from him was petrifying. âI have to call my sister,â you told him, your voice muffled by his jacket.
One hand was on your waist, the other on the back of your head, fingers threaded into your hair, âWhy?â
âTo let her know Iâm not coming,â you muttered. âSheâll worry, and it seems Iâve caused enough of that today,â you told him, appreciating the heat that emanated from Spencer as he looped his arms around you, holding you tightly as if thatâs all heâd ever needed.
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junior.
synopsis: holding your child for the first time is always the first step to becoming a good parent. andâŠwhat now?
ft; itoshi rin, mikage reo, barou shouei
a/n: my tiktok is cryinggirlnamedhelen with a thanos pfp from squid game season 2. follow me if you want to.
itoshi rin
rin didnât know how to feel about the cries and yells inside of the delivery room.
it wasnât common for husbands in japan to stay with his wife during labor, so rin waited outside, pacing around with beads of sweat rolling down his temple. sae and rinâs parents sat on one of the benches while your parents sat on another, hands clasped together and mumbling prayers.
god, rin wasnât even this nervous during the finals at the world cup.
stupid isagi and bachira had begged to come, and when they came, they just kept on asking what rinâs thoughts were on some stupid names for the baby that they had come up with. rin had shooed them away, and the two were now in the cafeteria, getting food for you when you would finally be done with the painful labor.
rinâs palms began to sweat; why was it taking so long? was it really normal for you to be screaming bloody murder in there? rin didnât like hearing you in pain, not at all. each of your yelps and cries felt like a stab to rinâs heart. if he could be in there and stay by your side, he would in a heartbeat. but the doctors didnât want him to be there, and rin trusted the doctors more than himself.
and finally, the high pitched cries of a baby erupted.
everyone stood up, and isagi and bachira came just in time with mountains of food on each plate that they held. the moment a doctor came out of the door with a smile, rin sprinted through the door and kneeled down by your side.
he placed a hand over yours, your skin pale and your breaths shallow, although to rin, you still looked like an angel. ârin. heâs healthy. heâs got your lashes.â a shaky smile made way to your lips before a doctor gently handed rin your newborn baby.
a tuft of dark greenâalmost blackâhair was atop his head, and long underlashes that has been in the itoshi family for generations made way onto his eyes. rin felt his chest tightening, and his eyes began to water.
why did he feel so prideful of someone who he had just met?
the baby boyâs eyes opened; a bright teal, the color of sea glass. rin stiffened; was his kid going to cry? was rin holding him too tightly? did he fail at a father already?
but the small boy just smiled up at rin.
rinâs eyes gleamed, tears glossing over his turquoise irises like the most expensive porcelain china. âhey,â rin whispered softly. rin smiled gently when his son giggled softly. âyou mustâve recognized my voice from when i used to talk to you through your momâs stomach, huh? your momâs amazing, she just delivered you through so much effort.â isagi and bachira stared from the doorway with their jaws dropped, although isagiâs eyes soon softened.
rin didnât know why he loved this child so much. he didnât know why a smile crawled to his lips the moment he saw him. he didnât know why he felt the need to protect him forever. it scared him a little, but rin knew this feeling well, and he welcomed it.
after all, it was how rin felt when he had first met you.
mikage reo
reo once again winced at the sound of your screams, holding in even more tears and begging that your pain will end soon. once again, he asked his butlers and secretary the same thing as a few minutes again. âis everything there? her favorite foods? her favorite video games and snacks? her favorite movies? that one drink that the nurse recommended that was good for women who just gave birth?â
nagi, who was sitting on one of the benches and was dragged here by reo, replied tiredly, tapping away at his console. âreo, we just checked 3 minutes ago. theyâre all here. even your butlers seem tired of this.â reo sent him a glare.
âreo, honey, you should sit. the nurses didnât want you in there for a reason.â reoâs motherâs attempts at coaxing him were weak, and reo wouldnât budge from his position standing right next to the door of the delivery room. âthey knew that your crying during her pain would distract them.â
reo ignored his momâs words. he had even tried bribing the nurses into letting him in before realizing that he really would just be a hindrance to deal with in the middle of trying to deliver a baby. a crying husband probably wasnât a good addition to a screaming and wife.
suddenly, the screaming became higher pitched, more wet, moreâŠalive.
your daughter was born.
without needing any confirmation from the doctors, reo shoved the door open and ran in, sitting on the chair right next to your bed that was placed by the doctor who had cleverly predicted his intrusion. âlove, are you okay? does it still hurt? are you hungry? tired? how are you feeling? do youââ
âreo, im okay. thank you. andâŠâ you weakly gestured to the nurse who held your baby wrapped in a bundle of purple blankets. instantly, reo stood up and took the baby into his arms, his eyes brimming with warmth.
âshe looks just like you. sheâs just as beautiful as her mom.â reo whispered, sitting on the chair again and gently cooing at his newborn daughter. he gently tickled her cheek with his pointer finger, and she giggled. reoâs heart melted and his eyes began to water again before he sniffled. âyouâre like an angel. both you and your mom.â
reoâs parents walked in, discussing something about the future heir of the company, although reo ignored them for now. heâll have to talk to them about how he wanted his daughter to follow her own path at another time. but for now, he just wanted to value this beautiful moment with his wife and newborn daughter.
nagi walked in, reading the room and shoving his gaming console into his jean pocket. he walked to you. âreo panicked a lot, and you screamed a lot. was it really that bad?â at your weak nod, nagiâs eyes widened a little bit. âwow. im suddenly really glad im not a woman.â a glare was sent from both reo and a few nurse.
reo glanced down at his daughter again, and his eyes softened, as if his daughter were the most precious thing in the world. âi love you so much.â
reo barely even knew this newborn girl for a few minutes, but she was always tied for the most beloved person in his heart: tied with you.
barou shouei
barou grew up with two younger sisters. he tolerated and loved them through temper tantrums, periods, puberty, boy heartbreak, and girl problems. heâs been changing their diapers, teaching them how to walk, feeding them, and cooking for them ever since they were infants.
so why was he so nervous about his own daughter, who was soon to be born?
barou didnât tremble as he waited outside of the door, nor did he cry when he heard your wails and moans of unease. however, he was awfully stiff and overly snappy, even for barou. even when his beloved sisters tried to talk to him to ask about you and your soon to be born daughter, barou was practically already yelling.
when barouâs mother tried to calm him, barou couldnât bring himself to reply, knowing that he would say rude things that he would regret later on to his own mother. heâd rather not risk it, and instead just nodded, trying to believe that youâre okay in there and that youâre trying your best, which he knows you are.
when the wails of a newborn baby daughter reached barouâs ears, he pushed open the door without even using the handle and instantly stood by your side.
âare you okay? was it too bad?â barou knew that he was being weirdly gentle, but how could he not when his wife just gave birth? you were pale, panting, and beads of sweat rolled down your face and neck, but you were still drop dead gorgeous in barouâs opinion.
âno, not at all.â you whispered. âyou know what they said? they said that sheâs one of the healthiest theyâve ever seen, maybe the the healthiest. you really did spoil and pamper me during the pregnancy, huh?â
âwell, what else was i supposed to do? mistreat you? im not heartless.â a nearby nurse offered barou to hold his daughter, in which he accepted. same colored hair as him, and when she looked up, the same ruby red eyes as him. only difference? her eyes were soft and full of warmth like yours.
barou didnât think that anything could ever be more perfect than you, but maybe he just found a tie.
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What about if Logan made his partner squirt but they have never done that before and are pretty innocent and inexperienced so they are embarrassed initially thinking they peed or something?
summary: Logan comforts the reader in this story, making it known that if anything ânastyâ happens, he wonât judge her.
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How do you guys feel about a x men story with reader? Logan being rude Logan at first, then slowly shows small affection towards the reader. Jealousy and things of that sort. They soon hit it off, and after Logan starts acting rude again, because heâs scared of the love he grew for her. Itâll be a long story, but something to read at night. ALL ON WATTPAD! Comment below, please!
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âSsh, baby, just relax,â Logan whispered in his girlfriendâs ear after he slipped his tip through her entrance. âL-Lo,â y/n cried low at the instant stretch he gave her. Pleasure and pain shocked her whole body.
âItâs okay, baby, I know Iâm a bit different than the others,â Logan spoke about his size as he continued pushing into the girl, looking into her glossy eyes as she tried her best to keep in her whine.
âThatâs it, bub,â y/n finally took him all. âS-Slow please,â y/n begged, making the man nod. âOf course, baby,â Logan said as he slowly pulled back before pushing back in.
Y/n threw her head back with a cry, trying to take his size, but it was a new deal for her. This was her first time taking Logan, and he was so much bigger than the rest.
âDoinâ good, baby,â Logan assured the girl as her hands wrapped around his neck, trying to keep herself together. He smiled down at y/n, loving her reaction to him making love to her for the first time.
âOh god,â Y/n said in an alarming tone. âWhatâs wrong, baby?â Logan asked, still thirsting as he rubbed her cheek. âI-I donât know,â y/n whined as she clenched around the man, trying to hold in what was trying to come out.
âF-Fuck, baby, donât do that. Gonna make cum faster than I want to,â Logan said, but she wouldnât stop. She couldnât. She didnât want to stop this wonderful moment, but she swore she was about to pee.
âG-Got go to the bathroom, Logan. G-Get up,â y/n stuttered as she pushed at the manâs shoulders, but he wouldnât get up. âHey, hey, that's normal. Youâre gonna cum, baby,â Logan said, trying to teach her about her own body as her heartbeat rose.
âP-Please, Logan,â y/n cried low, feeling her legs shake. âJust let it go, baby. Let it go,â Logan leaned over the girl's face as he placed his hands on both of her cheeks, rubbing at her tears.
âLogan,â y/n cried again as her nails dug into his shoulders and her cunt squeezed around him tightly. âThatâs it, y/n, thatâs it,â Logan repeatedly said as she came, soaking his lower body and bed.
âS-Stop,â y/n cried, not knowing what was coming, but it was too late. Y/n released around Logan with a loud cry as he sped up his thrust, snapping his waist to feel her body jolt.
âOh, god, baby â So fuckinâ good,â Logan leaned into the girl's neck, feeling his own orgasm around the corner. Y/n has never come this fast. Sheâs never even squirted before.
Logan usually lasts a long time, but this was the first time heâs had sex with y/n. This was a different lust he was feeling, and he couldnât hold back how much he wanted to fill her up.
âL-Lo,â y/nâs mouth parted as she continuously squeezed his cock and still leaking around him. âI just know you taste good, baby. I fuckinâ know it,â the man growled, cock pumping into her smoother, now that sheâs all soaked and dripping.
âS-Sorry,â y/n said low, embarrassed, and not processing that Logan felt amazing. âDonât apologize, baby. I know it hurts, just relax and take it. Almost there,â Logan groaned in the girl's chest.
âIâm s-sorry,â y/n cried out again as she moved around the man for the second time. âAugh, that's it. Thatâs it, baby,â Loganâs hips stuttered as his cock twitched in the young lady.
Y/n talked with Logan before they did this, telling him they should use a condom, but he told her heâd pull out.
Now that he sees how fucked out she is, he could take his chances to fill her up without her fully knowing.
âF-Fuck, baby,â Logan moaned as he bit down on her neck. Logan spilled into his girlfriend, filling her up as she whined beneath him.
In her head, she was scared that the manâs seed ran through her wall, but she was too fucked out to speak and tell him. She slightly didnât care anymore. The pleasure through her body felt too good.
Logan continued his slow thrusts for a few more seconds before pulling out of her, groaning at the feeling of the last seconds in her walls, and the sight of her leaking all that he gave.
âYou did good, baby, donât cry,â Logan said as he finally looked into y/nâs eyes. âHey, hey, câmon, baby. I get you couldnât take it, but itâs okay,â Logan felt scared that he probably took it too far.
âB-But I peed!â Y/n covered her face and curled in their bed, feeling dirty and nasty. âBaby, you didnât pee â You came?â Logan said, confused.
âBaby, are you okay? Is something bothering you or on your mind?â He asked as he lay next to yo/n and pulled her into him.
âNo, I just- That was embarrassing,â y/n sniffed. âY/n, have you never quirted before?â Logan asked as he softly lifted her head so she could look at him.
âNo,â y/n said low, making the man chuckle. âBaby, that was it,â Logan rubbed her cheek, wiping away her tears. âWhat? Oh, I- Oh,â y/n said, feeling instant release.
âAnd even if you did pee on me, I wouldnât judge. Only means I fuck you good,â y/n whispered in her ear before pecking her cheek.
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You tell you bf fingering doesnât get you off, he proves otherwise
"Well how do you usually get off when I'm not here?" He chuckles in disbelief at what you had just admitted to him.
"I don't know, I just don't," You say with a light chuckle and look away in slight embarrassment.
The revelation that you would wait for him to come back home to you and fuck you had him hardening in his pants. There was no way his baby went on without any relief.
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"Come on baby, you can do it."
Your right arm is tired from locked position you have it in as your middle and ring finger move in and out of your hot, wet pussy. Your forehead is glistening in sweat and your chest moves up and down with heavy breathes as you lay your head back onto his shoulder as he sits behind you on the bed. You could almost cry as you've been trying to get off for the past thirty minutes.
You let out a frustrated whine when you can feel the ache of your fingers, scared of loosing the arousal, you pull them out. The slick clinging on makes you shiver.
"I-I can't do it anymore. Please!" You cry out and look up towards his face to make him see your desperation.
But when you look up you see his eyes on your sex, eyebrows furrowed, an almost angry look on his face. He breathes out of his nose before his hand replaces your own, his two fingers slipping right in and move at a faster pace than what you were doing.
"So wet baby, look at this. Why can't you get off like good girl?" You let out a shaky moan as you looked down, watching his hands play at your cunt. His fingers reaching places you couldn't reach and the other hand rubbing on your swollen clit. You then feel his lips on your neck, kissing and licking, all the sensations making tears form in your eyes.
âSo pathetic, canât even do it yourself. Look how you writhe baby.â He chuckles, hearing the squelching at the pace he was going. You begin writhing, body moving in jolts at the sensation of your orgasm coming.
"Uhn! I- I'm cumming! I'm cumming!"
âMy poor baby, how long have you gone without getting off, huh? Donât worry I got you. Need another one from you.â He coos
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pulled this out of drafts to give new followers something, almost done with uni for the summer so I can focus on finishing writing the bigger projects
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This is fucking laughable
#cis white man at work#has now started to be a petty little bitch because I won't talk to him#keeps locking my fucking lab door so I have to walk all the way around to get back in to MY workspace#no one ever locks that door#I straight up saw him watch me walk out the door and get up and lock it behind me#I'm switching to a new department before he fucking kills me at this point I'm SO done with this#wimp womp#he's a whole ass predator at work only talking to the younger girls#I'm honestly so mad at myself for giving him the benefit of the doubt#I warned him I was mean too he can cry a fucking river#trying to stalk me on facebook now#he could have been normal about shit but no. i got busy and couldn't entertain him and he threw a bitch fit about it#he fucking knows the kind of man he is his whole mood and behavior changes on a dime before he remembers to slip the mask back on#uwu such a nice guy I did you a favor so now I get to fuck you right? i know your a lesbian by my cocks so big uwu I won't even use it if#you're scared uwu#stupid bitch really thought he could talk to ME like that#if he ever lays a hand on me again I'm breaking his fucking arm
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Tim walking into the dining room: Oh B, i just realized, happy 5 years sober, I am really proud of you.
Bruce, small smile and sipping his tea: Thank you Tim.
Dick, looking up confused from his bowl of cereal: What? Sober? Weren't you drinking last night at the gala?
Bruce, brows furrowed: Not from alcohol, Chum.
Tim, after downing his cup of coffee: Damn you didn't know? It was cocain. B was on that booger sugar.
Bruce, making a face: Please, never call it that again.
Dick, after his brain rebooted: You...you did cocain?
Bruce sighing :Yes I did...I though you knew.
Dick, abandoning his bowl of cereal: No, no I very much didn't! How did you...like get into that?
Tim: Dick take it down a notch, please? Bruce has been clean for years.
Bruce, shaking his head: It's fine Tim, I should have been more up front with this to the others.
Dick, with his head tilted and still a bit upset: Others? You mean only Tim knew?
Bruce, nodding: He caught me taking a key from one of Penguins supply when he was Robin and forced me to confess, I went to rehab a week later.
Dick, sitting back down in a stupor: Wait...You mean the thing when you were gone for like a few months? I thought you were on a deep space mission with the league! Hell, Uncle Clark even said so!
Bruce, wincing: Y-Yes...I was in a treatment center in Sweden...Tim found them and signed me up without telling me, and had Clark take me there...
Bruce side eyeing Tim: Took my Kryptonite before doing so...and my stash.
Tim, unapologetic, shrugging: Mom used the same place when she was getting off of Quaaludes.
Bruce, shrunching his nose: Never did like downers, made it harder to think.
Dick, having a mental breakdown: So you just...did drugs? For like a while? When did this even start?
Bruce, silent for a while, moving his breakfast around for a moment: It started when I was about...16? When I was in the club scene for a bit I got wild, taking pills and such that I didn't need, it was the 80s, blow was all the rage with the youth in higher circles and...well one thing lead to another and I got hooked.
Dick, holding his head in his hands: Oh my God...Wait.. Were you actively doing drugs when you adopted me???
Bruce, groaning: Yes...Didn't it ever seem strange that sometimes I was very lively and then suddenly was practically dead an hour later before getting back to lively?
Dick, horror coming across his face: Oh my God the signs...
Tim, chuckling: B was a God damn drug fiend, practically snorted half of Columbia.
Bruce, looking scandalized: Tim! I was not that bad...
Tim staring at Bruce:
Bruce staring back:
Bruce, sighing: Fine yes it was that bad.
Dick: uninhorant screeching
Bruce, tsking: I quit a few years after taking you in Chum, I only relapsed when Jason...temporarily passed...and that was only for at most a year, Tim found me out, sent me to rehab and while I have had a few scares, I have been sober for years.
Dick: Happy for you, really but holy fuck.
Tim, snorting: It wasn't the first time I caught you B, imagine little old 10 year old me following Batman and Robin and stumbling across the Dark Knight of Gotham doing a line on a gargoyle while Robin beat the shit out of the dealers below.
Dick, agape: Really Bruce? Do you even remember that?
Bruce, Blushing: i...may have done that more than once...
Dick, crying on the inside: BRUCE?!
Jason, walking in with a smoothie: Oh what are we yelling at B for? I want in.
Dick, wildly pointing at Bruce: BATMAN DID COCAIN.
Jason, slowly taking a drag from his smoothie, before turning to Bruce: w h a t?
Bruce, hiding his face in his hands, sullenly: I trained you all better than this. Yes I did drugs, I am 5 years sober.
Jason, softly putting his smoothie down before walking over to Bruce and patting his shoulder: Proud of you for that, like actually good job, holy shit that is hard. But also WHAT THE FUCK.
Bruce, sighing hard: I thought you all knew...
Jason flopping down in a chair, counting on his fingers: Wait a God damn minute, you got on my case for smoking while doing cocain!
Bruce, dead panned: it's a gate way to much harder things.
Jason, squinting: Who are you D.A.R.E?
Tim, cackling: he was! Did a whole speech about it! Full Batman regalia and was talking about how weed is bad!
Bruce glaring lightly at Tim: It is! It can cause lung damage, a build up of black tar in the lungs and can dull your mind when you are in a tike of crisis!
Jason, rolling his eyes: B, Shut the fuck up you did cocain.
Bruce, sighing yet again: You really are not letting that go are you...
Tim, sipping his coffee: Think of it like this, there is a reason B was able to get back to fighting like a week after Bane broke his back.
Bruce, pursing his lips,: Not the time Tim.
Tim, grinning evilly: Oh no, it is very much the time, I have been waiting till the others knew...I have so many blackmail stories....and pictures
Bruce, a look of true fear on his face: Oh God no...
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