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butchfalin · 1 year ago
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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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clownboybebop · 8 months ago
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if you’re ever in the position to choose between giving up and accepting defeat, and actually trying to fight the ancient unkillable god that is about to peel apart reality like a string cheese, remember this: scientifically speaking, you might as well give it a shot!
1.there were trees at the beginning of the world! there were trees so long ago that they predate bacteria that causes wood to decay. when a tree fell, it would lie there in stasis and there wasn’t any way of breaking down wood xylem on a molecular level in that way.
2. it seems obvious to say, but wood eating bacteria are literally incapable of comprehending what they’re breaking down. It’s just not information conciously available to a microorganism. they don’t know what they’re deconstructing, where it came from, bacteria have no way to even fathom the existence of a tree as a concept.
3. Regardless of the facts above, the world we live in today is a world where wood inevitably decomposes
it is worth fighting the unkillable god no matter how pointless it seems. it is worth taking the risk even though youre trying to accomplish something impossible. the reality in which you live was also once reality in which trees didn’t rot. You live in a reality that allows for existence before the possibility of destruction. you live in a reality where uncomprehending microbes break down matter that is so far beyond the scope of their comprehension that it feels comical to specify something so obvious. you live in a reality that occasionally allows unshakeable physical truths to be altered with no warning.
It is worth fighting the unkillable god because trees are so old they predate the source of their destruction, and it still did not spare them. It is worth fighting the unkillable god because bacteria rots unthinkingly, because there is room in our cosmos for destruction without comprehension on the part of the destroyer. It is worth fighting the unkillable god because now and then reality retracts the promise of immortality without fanfare, and when that happens there is no mercy for the ancient. the unmaking is not softer for the desecrators ignorance. for all things, existence is endless until the exact point where it ends.
so you might as well try to kill the unkillable god. it doesn’t seem likely, but at the beginning of the world, trees didn’t rot. so you never know! you never know
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gongyussy · 6 months ago
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if nothing else can save america this zero-year-old fairy baby otter with no gender can. chiitan's platform is love. and chaos.
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divorcedwife · 16 days ago
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cascadingcandlelight · 1 month ago
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TF2 Comic 7 is out and hoooly shit
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Miss Florence Pauling the woman that you are. Dooming your toxic yuri. God I love her
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milkywayes · 8 months ago
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GARRUS VAKARIAN: DATABASE IMAGE ACCESS. > PT. 1 : 2160, 2166, 2170. > all files backdated according to user preferences: (terran_coordinated.calendar).
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macaronicoffee · 2 years ago
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I want to do this too, so
My BSD headcanons, cuz I have a few
Dazai Osamu
-he/him
-Bisexual demiromantic
-He had so many affairs, mostly with random people, who just met with him in some bar
-Regularly go to gaybars, and normal clubs too- but never had a normal partner
-Just like the op, I hc, he has a crush on Chuuya, but it only developed, when he left the maffia
-Experienced in the bed, but doesn't know anything, how relationship works
Nakahara Chuuya
-he/him
-Gay, but also greyromantic
-He's also stupid for this
-He has a crush on Dazai, but doesn't realized yet (yes, for 7 years)
-He's gentle with women (this is canon) but he also doesn't realized, he doesn't care about them in that way
-He had no relationship, and no affairs yet, he tought he has no time for that
Nakajima Atsushi
-he/him
-I don't have a specific hc for his sexuality, so I write the popular opinion, with mine- Bisexual, with girl preference
-I'm sorry shin soukoku shippers, the bois are cute, but the Atsulucy is cuter (to me!!)
-He's also stupid in this
Kunikida Doppo
-He/him
-Aroace
-Also doesn't realized yet, so he's in the strange phase, where you want to experience these kind of stuff, and you think, everyone struggle with it this much
Nikolai Gogol
-He/him
-Be gay, do crime
-He has a mad crush on Fyodor, but..
Fyodor Dostoyevsky
-he/him
-Aroace (I promise, he's the last)
-He doesn't care
-He knows what's with Nikolai, but he just doesn't give a damn shit
Sigma
-they/he
-Doesn't know anything about their sexuality, me neither
Q
-They/them
-I honestly thougt, it's canon, it was hinted more than once (but it's fact, they didn't say it straight up, so I guess it's a hc then)
Edogawa Ranpo
-he/him
-I ship him with Edgar, but honestly I don't know, so read the op's
Edgar Allan Poe
-he/him
-Also idk, Ranpoe is cute
Higuchi Ichiyou
-She/her
-Straight, and same with the op
Fukuzawa Yukichi
-he/him
-he's asexual, or gay
-It's canon he's 45, and never had any relationship, what can I say
-He's a genderbend catlady, and I love him for that
if Q's gender a hc, I guess I must to write them too
Arthur Rimbaud
-he/him
-gay
Paul Verlaine
-he/him
-gayer
-They are basically canon
-Just they didn't said it straight up, so we should
-They gay, they do crime, good for them (good was for them 😥)
Izumi Kyouka
-she/her
-with her, it's a little strange to me to think to her as mtf (because she's so young) but I don't have a strong opinion here
Ozaki Kouyou
-she/her
-with her easier, but I don't have a strong opinion here too
-It's just little strange to think them as mtf, to me, but I'm not against that
Herbert George Wells
-she/her
-when I read the 55 minutes, at first I thought, she's canonly trans, cuz Asagiri described her face as "masculine" (and then it turned out she wore a mask)
-And her name is a masculine name
-So idk what's up with her, if she's not mtf (maybe her parents hated her from the first minutes.. or she just didn't changed her name yet)
That's it, that's enough (I didn't thought I have this many)
my bsd queer headcanons since it's pride month!!
| dazai osamu
• he/him
• labels don't suit him, he doesn't like it and doesn't want to waste his time thinking about it
• when he was in the mafia, he wouldn't be interested in anyone (sexually or romantically) - i know a lot of people love to think he had a crush on chuuya in fifteen and i agree tho
• however he does like women now
• but he's also attracted to (in love with?) chuuya
• so here's my take : women are fine, chuuya is finer
| nakahara chuuya
• he/him
• gay
• he loves men
• what do you want me to say
• men men men men
• he does flirt with everyone when he's drunk no matter their gender tho
• also i love to think he experienced with both boys and girls when he was in the sheeps
• as for his gender, i mostly see him as a cis male BUT i saw that really interesting hc once, saying that chuuya has a female body because he was originally a girl, but arahabaki being a male, a feels like a boy. so idk, ftm maybe?
| akutagawa ryuunosuke
• he/him
• i'm tempted to say aroace tbh
• but it would sound too cliché given the fact he's kind of emo (no offense bby 🥺)
• so i would say, just like dazai, that he absolutely doesn't care about labels
• he also doesn't know a single thing about it (tachihara once asked him his pronouns, he confusedly replied "i?")
| nakajima atsushi
• he/him
• doesn't know a single thing about it either, the orphanage didn't learn children this kind of stuff
• i feel like he hasn't felt attraction towards anyone EVER so he wouldn't know
• but i like atsulucy, and i like shin soukoku, so why not bi
| yosano akiko
• she/her
• she loves women
• there's no reason for me to think that, i just love her and i want her to love me back ngl
• she did try with men tho
• obviously she didn't like it
| ozaki kouyou
• she/her
• i think she loves men
• doesn't mean she enjoys it tho
• my poor queen
• i could be a better boyfriend tbh
• kisses girls sometimes
• mtf!!!
• my best friend told me she hc her as mtf because her referenced author was a man, i think it's super cool
| izumi kyouka
• she/her
• she doesn't like to think about it for too long
• but when atsushi told her he was bi, she was confused and started wondering about her own sexuality (i think it fits since 12-14 is usually the age when you start asking yourself questions)
• i like her ship with kenji so i don't hc as a lesbian
• but dazai noticed she was struggling with it once and told her she didn't need a label
• i do hc her as mtf too, same reasons as for kouyou
| miyazawa kenji
• he/they
• my little baby doesn't need to struggle with all this stuff 😞😞
• he has a crush on kyouka, but he would be fine if she wasn't a girl
• he likes everyone, no matter their gender
• also he's my son
| kunikida doppo
• he/him
• straight
• sorry kunikidazai enjoyers
• he loves women
• he's just your local straight man to me 😢
• he did try to help kyouka when she was confused, even if he didn't know much either
| edogawa ranpo
• he/him
• does
• not
• care
• at all
• is he experienced? absolutely, he's 26 not 15. does he remember what his bed partners had between their legs? not a clue.
| edgar allan poe
• he/him
• ranpo.
• that's it, that's my hc
• i mean, look at him, this man is head over heels
| lucy montgomery
• she/her
• bisexual with a preference for boys?
• i don't really know pookies
• but she's def kissed a girl before
• cute little crush on atsushi, but it's canon!!
| tachihara michizou
• he/him
• straight but definitely curious
• he's kissed boys, i saw him
• he's married to me
| akutagawa gin
• she/he
• bisexual?? straight?? idk, but i ship her with tachihara so
• as for his gender, i think he thought he was a cis female his entire life, but when people started being confused on whether she was a girl or a boy, she realized it didn't matter to her (and she liked being called a "he")
| higuchi ichiyo
• she/her
• straight, in love with akutagawa r. (she deserves so much better)
• i don't get why people hc as a lesbian when it's literally CANON that she's in love with a boy 😭😭
• like, i think her ship with gin is absolutely adorable but c'mon
| tecchou suehiro
• he/him
• does not really care, but i would maybe say he's asexual
• idk i just can't manage to picture him being easily turned on or anything like that?
• anyway i love him xoxo
| jouno saigiku
• he/him
• i'm tempted to say straight but my ship wouldn't work if i did
• bisexual?
• he once said being a cop was a great way to impress women or something, so i assume he's attracted to them in some way
| q
• they/them
• them being non-binary is, i think, one of the most popular lgbt+ hc in this fandom
• i sometimes even forget it's not canon 💀
| tanizaki junichirou
• he/him
• trans
• trans trans trans
• he screams trans masc
• just like for q, him being trans is rather a popular hc in the fandom
thanks for reading!!!
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thenxthird · 4 months ago
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i started at my new job so that means they r also employed
full sketch page vvv
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dizzybizz · 5 months ago
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eiland page..... beloved <3
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sunnymainecoonx · 2 months ago
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I know damn well I misunderstood the assignment but we roll, I'll understand it some day
It's killer and dust btw. If you couldn't tell. Which you probably couldn't.. forgor to say but shhh 🤫 Killers having a convo with himself..
..I kinda wanna change my url but idk to what
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idontmindifuforgetme · 8 months ago
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I genuinely love not having a crush like I’m not over here feeling physically sick over some mid guy being dry to me I’m literally chilling
#Spring semester of last year was so bad bc I was unironically into 3 guys at once and they were all#Being dry and cryptic to me#And then before that in 2022 I had my horrid situationship#I had a mini obsession arc in dec 2023 over someone but now there hasn’t been anyone since#And my palette is so cleansed#When a girl is like I miss having a crush I’m like you’re literally a masochist#There was very briefly a girl I thought I had a crush on when I realized I’m bicurious but#I haven’t put effort into talking to her bc the idea of pursuing anyone makes me wanna claw my eyes out#I’m pretty sure I ghosted her by like just not responding to her last messsge actually#Not on purpose but more so bc I realized I was feeling the same anxiety I felt whenever I had a crush so I was like#Yeah I’m dropping this for now#I’m also always the most present for my friends when I don’t have a crush so idk#Like I don’t wanna be consumed by anyone I just wanna chill#The solution to not having normal attraction to people is just to not be attracted to anyone at all#I fr cracked it#I always just crave the butterflies out of it and never an actual relationship anyway#But they’re so not worth it#Which is why I always get bored of guys who’re forthright like oh ok you actually WANT something…. U don’t wanna just have fun#Not for me#I think the guys I’m into and I typically diverge in the sense that neither of us wants a relationship but they just wanna fuck me#And I more so just want the butterflies experience / to playact couple for like a couple months but nothing too serious#Which is why it never works#Like it’s not that it doesn’t work bc either of us wants a relationship it’s more that what we want out of the situationship is different#So lame#Ok this was a lot but I literally came to this epiphany while writing these tags
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darkdragon768 · 2 months ago
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Various doodles of the Dorito Twins.
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I just like to play with them like dolls and put them into situations.
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#woo dragons art be upon you#gravity falls#the book of bill#bill cipher#pyramid steve#have fun decoding! won't give the answers in the tags cuz that's taking the fun away#anyway. anyone wanna hear some additional thoughts of mine to the images? of course you do.#[IMAGE 1: originally i also wanted to do a ''mom said it's my turn'' but decided against it then. also. they are playing#Super Battle Siblings™ for the BoxBox64.™ ''but op. the n64 didn't exist in the eighties yet'' do i look like I fucking care.]#[IMAGE 2: i struggled pretty badly with those darn shoes. the shoes too big for the goddamn hes. anyway.#i also had to change the color of bill cuz he looked fucking sun burned.]#[IMAGE 3: if bill fucked our mom it's just fair that steve fucked our dads. i also always had this one tumblr post in mind that goes like:#''is the opposite of 'forgive me father for I have sinned' 'sorry daddy for being dirty'?'']#[IMAGE 4: actually no additional thoughts. squish the cat.]#[IMAGE 5: I once saw a drawing that had the steve equivalent to 'universe is a hologram. reality is an illusion. buy gold.' but all I -#remember is that it said 'eat copper' at the end. i also used minecraft ingots pngs cuz it's funny]#[IMAGE 6: the alpha twin title belongs to the silly ones. I don't make the rules.]#[IMAGE 7: :) ]#[OTHER: there's something else I had planned for this but I thought too much about it so now it's gonna be a comic.#hope i can finish it til next Wednesday]#have a lovely day everyone :]
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shalom-iamcominghome · 4 months ago
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I've been doing a lot of reflection as of late, especially after this past class.
This past class was about the Torah and Tanakh in general, and the way the rabbi talked about the commandments (specifically the ten commandments) has made me really reflect on how I interpret them, specifically the fifth commandment, or honoring your mother and father.
This is a commandment I have wrestled with for a long time - in fact, it brought me away from g-d at multiple times. I was severely abused when I was incredibly young by my mother, and I used to feel insulted at the implication that I were to honor her while she got to live a better life. It was hypocritical, in my eyes.
But this rabbi surmised that this particular commandment was because parenthood is an act of creation, something that is like the g-d from which we come from. My realization is this: I don't think we're necessarily meant to take even these commandments literally.
I this particular commandment is more of a call to honor creation - creation is a gift, and like any gift, many people simply will not like it and will discard it. The person who abused me created me, but she did not honor creation. She didn't honor me, but I can still honor it.
I have started to honor creation much more. I'm too young, too unstable, not mature enough to be a father (though I fantasize about it), but I create all the time. I create relationships, I create with my hands through crochet. I create memories, I create my world. And I can honor who I am and where I came from that made me who I am. I've been learning one of the mother tongues of my family (Italian, since part of my family originates there) and it was judaism that inspired me to do this.
I don't think g-d wants me to honor my abuser. I think He wants me to remember the Holy action of creation. When I am a father, that act of creation will be Holy, and indeed, I am already joyful about the thought.
I have seen many people struggle with this particular commandment, but I think this perspective helps me personally. I don't think I ever have to forgive my abusers (plural), and I don't think I am commanded to simply because they happened to be family. I am commanded to recognize the holy, to elevate the mundane. In doing so, I will remember g-d. Through creation, I honor g-d and everything he has done for us, for me, and for our collective people.
#jumblr#jew by choice#jewish conversion#personal thoughts tag#abuse tw#i am not sharing this for the sake of pity and i also ask not to be told to divulge my abuse story. that isn't relevant#i have been needing to engage with this topic for a long time though and judaism has helped me a bit in navigating healing#but i decided to share this publicly in the hopes it will help other survivors specifically of familial/parental abuse#i know how it feels (in general). it's so lonely and you can really harbor (understandable) baggage about this particular commandment#i have a meeting with My Rabbi (sponsoring rabbi) and i might bring this up. we've only spoken once face-to-face (zoom)#so that might be really Intense to bring up to him but he is very kind and i trust him (which is why he is My Rabbi)#and he has already told me that he WANTS me to wrestle with g-d and His word *with* him#again i am posting this publicly so i can document my thoughts and keep them straight but also with the hope it MIGHT help others#if it even *casually* inspires another survivor i will feel so grateful (though it is THEIR achievement and not mine to claim)#i want us to survive. i want us to eat well. i want us to smile#i will say that this must be a very sudden whiplash in tone from my last post about sex. from sex to awful horrific abuse#my stream of consciousness is just Like This though in the sense that i have very sudden realizations and tonal whiplashes#so you're just getting a very frank look into how my brain is structured and what my brain thinks are important enough to think about#if i seem much more verbose it's because i needed to write this on my laptop which makes typing and more importantly yapping even *easier*
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dailyhmsw · 24 days ago
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loop 130
bonus no effects version C: !
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beinganegg · 11 months ago
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Very belated Isabeau birthday comic
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jadecantcreate · 3 months ago
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my offering to my fellow citizens of kremy nation for kremy wednesday! kremy being a diva as usual reference and close up after the cut
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