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It’s time for the big one. Book 3!!! My beloved!!!
Okay I’m coming out swinging with this one, but I think I liked book 2 better— HEY put those pitchforks down let me explain myself.
I think, as a first time read, book 3 is really god damn good. There’s genuinely so much to love about it and it marked the moment I personally fell in love with Heroes. The way it expands on the world and takes advantage of FEH’s setting is fantastic, the aesthetic is hands down the best one, and many other things that I’ll dig further into in just a moment. HOWEVER, Book 3 has a pacing problem. And it unfortunately becomes really obvious on a second watch, because you’re already aware of the major twist.
The first five chapters? Gold. Pure gold. Inject the awkward family dinner dynamic directly into my veins. But once we’re in the realm of the dead? Ehhhh the pacing gets a bit more meandering. It’s not as tight in comparison to Book 2. I think the only time book 2’s narrative drags a little is with Loki’s among us shenanigans, but even then it’s not that bad. Outside of that? We are on a rollercoaster and it is not slowing down. Book 3, in my opinion, needs to take notes from that.
Let’s us Helbindi as an example. The reason why his character is effective, despite his limited screen time, is because the story is making full use of Leagjarn and Leavatein’s character building scenes. It’s not only building their dynamic, it’s also building his character. It’s creating the context necessary for us to understand exactly what it means when we learn that he has a younger sister that he is trying to care for in Múspell under Surtr. Book 3 lacks those multipurpose scenes. Most are exactly what they say on the tin. This greatly dampers its ability to juggle our cast of colorful characters in its short timeframe. And perhaps there is no bigger example of that than the character of Eir.
Eir almost feels like she could be cut for the narrative altogether, which is a shame, because man I like her. She deserves a more fleshed out narrative about overcoming her abuse and traumas. In the same way that I’m invested in Fjorm’s vengeance against Surtr, I want to be invested in Eir growing out of Hel’s control. But unfortunately the two characters we mainly see her interacting with is Líf (which are good scenes) and Kiran, you know, our silent protagonist. And Eir herself is pretty quiet. Not exactly a good mix for effectively communicating a lot about her character quickly.
Ironically, there’s a scene in chapter 1 part 5 where Anna is suspicious of Eir and is grilling into her, and it’s honestly a way more interesting dynamic. It’s immediately dropped as other plot developments occur, which is a damn shame because I think that could have been a fun answer to this conundrum. Anna could start suspicious, then immediately feel really bad about being suspicious upon learning what Eir has gone through, but then has those suspicions confirmed when it’s revealed that Eir was ordered to betray them. It would both make sense for Anna to pick up on this threat given the Order’s history and it might also make Eir putting all her cards on the table a lot more impactful.
But that’s enough criticism, because my guys, it’s book 3. Like holy shit I love book 3. If you enjoy FEH, you don’t need me to sell you on book 3. Book 3 gave us Líf. Líf is a sad wet cat of a man and I adore every second he’s on screen. The way he recontextualizes Alfonse and his dynamic with the people in his life adds years to my life. Your honor I require that the skeleton jello man be in a god damn situation with no breaks. To the blender with him.
Speaking of, I was surprised to find how incredibly depressed Líf is. I thought there would be a lot more rage present, but no he’s just sad. This makes every scene between him and Sharena delightfully painful. Chapter 12 part 1 (ie after Líf collapsed a building on top of everyone and has a chit chat with Sharena) might be one of my favorite scenes thus far. As they’re sitting in the rubble of the ruined castle they all called home, they have a painfully genuine little heart to heart. Líf needs to get a little meltdown out of his system before getting back up again and does so by talking to the only person he’s ever known how to. Twisting the knife on it is how it’s all phrased in a way that showcases that it’s just Alfonse. Painfully Alfonse. The same Alfonse who tried to logic his way out of being hurt by self isolating and distancing himself from others. The same Alfonse who tried to double down on that failing ideology, before finally letting his walls come down. It’s delightful. I love how consistent Líf feels with Alfonse’s previous actions.
Also, some of his lines are just really funny? “The realm of the dead is no place for the likes of you, living boy.” now lives rent free in my brain forever. It’s a gift that keeps on giving. On a surface level, that’s an odd line and bizarre insult. But the more you learn about Líf, the better it gets. When was the last time he talked to living person outside of the realm of the dead? Do think he rehearsed that in his head for the day he knew he’d inevitably face down his younger self? Is he internally cringing or fully committed? No matter the answer it’s hilarious. God damnit I love Líf.
In other news, I may have glazed over it before, but oh my god those opening chapters are delightful. Awkward family dinner my beloved. I genuinely cannot get enough of it! I am putting Gustav under a god damn microscope. All of his scenes are so god damn fascinating. I loveeee this guy and his consequences on the narrative. Usually, when there’s a somewhat morally complicated character who is also a parent, the parental qualities of that character are seen as the morally good parts. But with Gustav, that’s where the moral complexities of his character reside. He’s not a bad person, he’s a good leader, he’s a great husband, but he’s a complicated father to both Sharena and Alfonse. Hell, he’s complicated for those exact reasons! It’s so god damn fun to see. The love is there, but so is the flaws of every person involved.
The writing on this guy is peak too. Everyone is nervous and stuttering when talking to him, which is behavior that we haven’t seen out of most of these characters up to this point. Surtr resurrecting himself didn’t even begin to strike the same level of momentary blind terror that proceeds Gustav rolling up to witness the overly dangerous dumb shit our protagonists are getting up to. And it makes sense! That’s their dad! And king of the whole nation! Our protagonists care about his opinion more than most. It’s so awkward and I love it! The best part, in my opinion, is that the only character not at least a little nervous to talk to him is Henriette. I don’t know what exactly it is about this that gets me, but oh boy does it get me. They’re married, your honor. I would even be so bold as to claim that’s his other half. They mean a lot to me. Henriette did not deserve to be caught in the cross fire of the FE dad curse, but damn does it make good drama.
And last but not least, Sharena. Oh boy do I love every scene with Sharena this season. To the point where I’m disappointed that we don’t get more. Her dynamic with Alfonse is called to attention for obvious reasons, but I enjoy the subtle way it’s pushed to the forefront before the stage light came on. The royal siblings got each other’s back— to the point where if one goes down, it’s like the other lost a limb. I really like that and it’s a shame the pacing doesn’t allow for more of it.
I also want to draw that scene where she stops Líf’s assassination attempt so so bad. She deserves to kick his ass and then be confused about his behavior with Alfonse later.
Anyway, that’s where I’m gonna leave this one. I feel like I could go on for forever. More than already have, anyway. Book 4 is up next and will mark the half way point. Wish me luck
Um. So. I may have gotten stressed and started transcribing FEH’s story mode. Might currently have all of book 1 written down. Perhaps a third of the way into book 2.
This started as a way to have the preface chapters handy since they’re not replayable. But then I looked on the FE wiki and saw that they only have a small fraction of the chapters written down. And that scared me, because means that my hyperfixation has a nonzero chance of becoming lost media if the app were to go down one day. So now I have all of book 1 in my back pocket, including the preface, two intermissions, and the two relevant xenologues. Once I’m further along and have a few more books accounted for, I have no problem making the document public. But until then I encourage others to also write some of its content down. Just in case, you know? Especially those prologues and Tempest Trials.
With that PSA out of the way, omg book 1 hi!!!! It’s been forever!!!!
Apparently, I haven’t reread book 1 in its entirety since I first played Heroes! I’ve gone back to look for specific scenes and replayed the levels on harder difficulties (self inflicted or otherwise), but I haven’t done a thorough second pass before. Which was news to me, because that meant I was consistently blindsided by scenes and characterization that I completely forgot about! Did any of you remember that Zacharias was apparently Alfonse and Sharena’s childhood friend? I didn’t! But there it is, chapter 7 part 5 after battle cutscene, Anna specifies that aspect of their relationship. That’s crazy! How does the timeline even line up on that??? If he spent his childhood in Askr, how did he manage to have a strong relationship with his significantly younger sister? How did he find himself rubbing shoulders with enemy royalty? Could he have inadvertently met Peony? I’m not changing my takes on his character, but I would love to know.
Speaking of character, apparently seven years spent writing a character naturally changes how they sound! Who would have thought. It made seeing the book 1 versions of our Askr trio a little jarring, but in an oddly nostalgic way! This was a phase of the game where the story, its characters, and its world existed with the singular purpose of introducing new players to what Heroes was trying to do. Which was, at the time, being a cute yet unobtrusive gacha app tie in with simplified FE mechanics to give you that gameplay fix on the go. And to its credit, it does do a good job of this! It ain’t a masterpiece, but I was charmed by its emphasis on showing off all these cool characters you could go summon. Ryoma gets to talk for a few lines and you are going to look at his very pretty art! But that meant that the world and characters of Zenith take a bit of a backseat. They’re not here to be too complicated. The Order of Heroes are the friendly faces that go on adventures and meet these heroes that you can summon for only $19.99. But we all know where the game and its story is going to go from here. That emphasis is going to wane as FEH grows into its own identity (and also earn IntSys over $1 billion worldwide).
But that’s a later development. Before that fundamental shift is where book 1 sits. It’s in this fascinating position where these characters have yet to solidify into their recognizable forms. And if you don’t believe me, chapter 9 part 4 has a scene where Sharena and Alfonse’s roles have reversed. For once, Sharena is posing the cautionary “what if the information we are getting from this total stranger is a trap?”, to which Alfonse responds “nah I’m getting a vibe that it’s fine and that we should believe him whole heartedly.” Like??? Huh???? It’s Bruno, but still, that’s hilarious! Alfonse’s pragmatism bordering on paranoia hasn’t established itself as a massive driver of his character yet. Nor has Sharena’s role as trusting emotional core and moral compass of the group. It was very easy to borderline Mandela Effect it into being there, but it isn’t. Not quite. There are hints, sure, but once again these characters were initially made to be simple at the time. The depth doesn’t quite exist yet.
It wasn’t until I was writing this very paragraph that it finally dawned on me why the Askr trio voice lines, especially Alfonse’s lines, are such a big deal. That's where Alfonse’s character arc with trusting Kiran resides. There's the pragmatism we know and love! It’s not super present in the text of book 1, but the depth of these characters can be found in the voice lines you unlock from building them and earning the crown jewel level 40 conversation. That’s where Alfonse’s arc with his self isolating behaviors crumbles at that sight of one silly tactician. That’s where Sharena finally wins a fight against her own loneliness by forming genuine friendship with this stranger form a strange land, who is appreciative of her loud eccentricities. That’s where Anna apologizes about her initial underestimation of Kiran, thanks them for being more reliable than she could have ever hoped for, and swears that whatever hell may come their way, they’re in this together. The books themselves don’t seem to reflect this characterization until book 2, where they overall act more in accordance with the rest of the narrative. It’s as if they're taking from the voiced lines’ example and extrapolating more on the story they imply.
The one standing in slight contrast to all this is Bruno, as he's the most interesting character in book 1. It's blaringly obvious he's Zacharias, but it's genuinely amusing how deep he is in his own gaslighting. He can't manipulate, mansplain, manwhore his way out of this one folks, but he's certainly going to try! His lies aren't even that good, but it honestly contributes to how at wits end he is. Like, sure honey, I totally believe you that you just killed Zacharias. I bet he has an eight-pack too. Just take a nap for two minutes. But then everyone believes him because our protagonists have yet meld their group braincell. Overall, an amusing time.
I don't have a particular point I'm trying to make with this one. Just having a fun and pointing out the things I've noticed. Might give a little update for every book I complete. However many that will be.
#New book review let’s go#Oof this is post is getting long. Rip.#feh#fire emblem heroes#fire emblem#Feh Ted Talk#feh eir#feh anna#feh lif#feh alfonse#feh Gustav#feh Henriette#feh sharena
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I write stuff because I enjoy doing so
Not because I crave acceptance and praise from anyone...
Definitely don't need the likes and comments from people....
#rambling#might be a bit drunk#i do enjoy writing#yet the serotonin i get when someone likes what k do is unparalleled#i want to inject that feeling into my veins
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Huzzah! It's birthday time! I'm slowly accumulating more and more things I like (latest additions this vest I made and a travel typewriter! Still need to fix the latter one though)
Sure has been a year.
#terri#niart#got my wisdom toofies out#well 2 out of 4#still got stitches#idk if this removal lowkey fixed my fear of the dentist?#it was so easy and painless#also finally i'm on anxiety meds jkahsdjash#i also got depression meds but i haven't tested them yet#I'm going to see the love of my life soon again!!!#only 2 more months to go....#i've also finally found awesome friends who don't make me feel like i'm insane for wanting to be cared for#the difference is like night and day#old friends saying hey let's surprise another friend of ours oh also i think it's your birthday on that day#new friends reminding me to pick a brunch place for us to go on my special day#i am sobbing#the right people are out there#don't lose hope#i've never felt this platonically loved honestly#also yes i'm working on the next dragon's lair aksjdhasjkd#just#a lot of things happening and i'm sooo burnt out#this piece was such a strain and i just#don't have patience for art rn#this is photobashed btw there's an actual photo of my typewriter under all those layers#i'm not about to spend 300 hours just to draw a typewriter from this angle kajshdjkasdh#ALSO ONE MORE THING CAN I JUST GUSH ABOUT THE ANASTASIA BROADWAY OKAY?!?!?!#I didn't realise until now that they made it way more historically inspired and i mean bruh BRUH#i have been having a recording of it playing on the background nonstop for like 3 days now#Vladimir Popov I want to inject you straight into my veins holy shit he is a perfect man
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the most insane fic idea came to me hear me out, it's the 19th century, jon is at oxford and he is living life as normally as he can get, only occasionally getting splitting headaches and visions of other people's trauma. he gets kidnapped by a strange man who preaches about apocalypses, chosen ones and eyes. oh and he also might be in love with him. cue the most toxic, one-sided jonelias to ever have been seen
#i could literally imagine it#like jon behind bars#in some dingy prison cell#elias is some fancy scholar#elias comes down every day to ask jon if he's feeling better#jon spits at him#etc etc#i want this fic to be injected into my veins oh my god#tma#the magnus archives#jonathan sims#elias bouchard#jonelias#jonah magnus#tma au#tma fic#fic ideas
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the green creek novels have so much franchise potential. we've already got the books. it could make a killer HBO anthology series, a season (or two because they're so long) focusing on each book. there could be video games where you play as the pack. the merchandise? little stone wolves, wooden ravens, stick on tattoos, work shirts, costume contact lenses.
we could have everything.
#i just want to inject them all in my veins#feel the wolves coursing through my body#i need it i need it i need it#green creek
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I'm honestly so excited to see more of Li-Sar and their interest in the detective, specifically when it comes to how each RO is going to react to Li-Sar and their....everything lmao.
Specifically, since I'm on a Mason kick lately, I've been wondering about how Mason is going to react with someone as blatantly into the detective as he is. The entire series so far has been Mason completely oblivious to the fact that he wants more from the detective than just sex. And then we've got Li-Sar who's got no qualms about saying that the detective will be theirs after 2 seconds of being a corporal being.
Mason is going to have to be watch someone who is adamant about how much they want ALL of the detective, while he himself doesn't know that's what he wants too.
He knows the detective is important to him, that he feels peace and comfort whenever they're close, that he fully feels like himself whenever he's with the detective. But he doesn't connect that to being in love with the detective
So to see Li-Sar, someone who knows EXACTLY what they want from the detective. Someone who is determined to get that as well. I can't imagine Mason would take very well to that lol.
I'm very curious as to how that...unease, I suppose, from Mason will manifest as well.
I'm just overall incredibly excited to see how everything is going to go and how it's going to affect Mason to the point where he HAS to acknowledge what's between him and the detective
#im just so excited#and i feel like Marcus at least is just like ??? at Mason being all angry and jealous about Li-Sar#both because obviously he's not going to fuck the glowing bad guy who injected weird electric powers into his veins#like he's not THAT stupid#(pre-unit bravo Marcus tho? he'd probably be tempted....simply because who wouldn't be like WOWZA)#and also Marcus himself isn't subtle about the fact that he wants something with Mason#that he wants to be WITH mason and not just casual fun#he doesnt push obviously but he's not exactly good at hiding how much he cares about Mason#(which is why he hasnt had sex with Mason either)#(he doesnt want to confuse either of them)#(mason wants fun and marcus wants more he's not going to give into what mason wants at the expense of what he wants)#(and he's also not going to say that he understands that Mason is only looking for sex and then get upset when he doesnt get more than that)#sorry that my tags are just me rambling about the specificities of Mason and Marcus's dynamic djdjdjdjdj
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Succession S4E6 - Roman absolutely serving on the back of the golf cart
#injecting the soundtrack from this scene into my veins#like im just gonna be listening to the 19 sec loop of it i have on repeat thx dhmu#hes always getting the really good special osts(as he should)#like in S2 he had a special beat called 'hearts' and ITS LITERALLY SO FUCKING GOOD AAAHHHHH#i feel so impatient abt having to wait till the end of the ssn for them to release the full s4 soundtrack#plsssssss hbo i just want to listen to it theres so many good songs this season#havent seen anyone gif this scene yet#and it was def my fav shot from this ep#so might as well gif it!!#did not know what to caption this...F1 is much easier sob sob#roman roy#succession#succession spoilers#succession gifs#hbo succession#tvedit#succession season 4 episode 6#succession s4e6#catie.edits.#(lmao for when i eventually venture into gifing my one random german tv show i love dearly)
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anyway. the uk sucks ass and living here sucks ass too! NHS is sooo amazing until its soooo not!
#thebirdspeaks#well more like the bird vents#like even if they arent making medically transitioning even more hellish and difficult#since shortly after i went to gps about my new chronic pain and fatigue i knew that medically transitioning was no longer an option#because theres no fucking way im subjecting myself to the same humiliation dehumanization and disregard for my humanity and knowledge#of myself and my body and lived experiences and limits all over again. even if it means dysphoria and not being as happy as i could be with#my body. i dont even let myself think about if i want hrt or surgery because i cant put myself through the shit required to get it#and thanks to negligent nurses i gained a phobia of injections after having a awful blood test with the needle wiggling around in my vein#my anxiety at the though of a gp appointment is astronomical- even thinking about it makes me feel sick#fucking nhs#and im meant to be grateful im not paying out my ass for the privilege of being legitimately traumatized? by the people meant to HELP ME#well lets just say ive realized why two of my fics include surgical horror ass shit
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can i admit that ed sheeran's new album sounds epic
#ed sheeran#don't get me wrong. i was living for the math symbols & i honestly thought he might've done punctuation next#like autumn variations??? i need that injected into my veins rn#based on vibes alone i feel like it might be a folklore type of album since he also mentioned friendships#but i don't want to put any expectations on this album since he did say it's different to his normal stuff#I'M SO EXCITED!!!!!#ALSO gingerbread man records. he's so iconic#because 1) he's a ginger 2) he's silly goofy 3) he's a man and 4) he RECORDS MUSIC?????#i don't know if it was intentional but it's so smart & punny i love it. it screams ed sheeran#update: this album is fucking EPIC. i love this album so much. my new comfort album
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One more personal aro story for the week:
A friend of mine has been going through some boy drama that I am now extremely well-versed in after a trip with them. And I talked to them the other night with a small group of our friends.
They've made the decision to not make a move.
I could feel why the rest of the group was sad (amanormativity), but I was only sad because I know they like this boy and the biggest reason they don't want to go after him is because they don't think they're lovable.
So we were talking about it. And they were telling us about what would happen-- worst case scenario, but that's how they think-- if they did ask him out. Maybe something would happen, they admit, but I would always be scared and feel alone and still be just as unlovable as they were at the start.
And I just said, "Being lonely by yourself is better than being lonely with someone else."
Stunned silence.
Slowly, everyone went, "Yeah. Damn." And even they admitted that rationally they know that's true, but I know how hard it is to believe that. I know why: amanormativity. (Isn't it always?)
But yeah. I am correct. And I will joke around about my aro love advice all day long, but amanormativity is such a disease.
And:
Being lonely by yourself is better than being lonely with someone else. 💚
#aro week#aro#aromantic#bookworm updates#bookworming#my friends who think they are unlovable break my heart#i want to inject my love for them into their veins until they can love themselves to realize that is enough#being lonely with someone else sucks#ive been lonely a lot during my life but its so much worse when youre in a space where you KNOW youre not supposed to feel that way#so yeah#being lonely by yourself is better than being lonely with someone else#💚🤍🖤
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*lays on my bed and listens to Florence and the machine and yearns to draw faster than I do*
#catfish speaks#i want to draw something devotedy and gay and beautiful#and i want it to be done BEFORE I GO TO BED TONIGHT#sobs im so slow at art but have so many ideas its so wjdjsjwjejwjjqjqjqje#the song js never let me go btw#inject that song straight into my veins it makes me feel ALIVE
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i want to inject technology is a dead bird and all of its versions into my bloodstream
#i think my favourite version is the johnny k reprise. absolutely fucking incredible i want to inject that shit into my veins#but there's something about the original album version that just. hits#maybe it's the robot voice (connie my beloved i miss you so much)#also between here and now is really short but also fantastic#there's something about that version that makes me wanna stick my head out the window of a moving car at night and feel the wind in my hair#actually most of mars' songs make me wanna do that#and her voice sounds so sweet in the acoustic internet sessions version <3#anyways yeah i fucking love technology is a dead bird#the song and the album#although if we're referring to the whole album i think my favourite song on it is mrs stadler (that music video fucks and so does the song)#but the johnny k version of tiadb (not on the album) is one of my favourite songs period#mars argo#brittany sheets#technology is a dead bird#landfill rambles
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youtube
#not to be dramatic but I want to inject this music straight into my veins 🥺#outer wilds#echoes of the eye#outer wilds ost#echoes of the eye ost#music#the things this makes me feel 🥺#Youtube
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SORRY im a bitch but masumi mever actually apologizes to Ichi. i went through the trouble of finding the raw jp sub just to confirm a suspicion LMAO but it's more like "i troubled you with masato" and ichi immediately goes on defensive saying it's no trouble
NONETHELESS he does not apologize and yet i think your post is still valid........... Anyway sorry i just dislike some of the adaptations made from jp-eng it mischaracterizes some of the characters in a couple of scenes
i cant be mad about a correction LMAO THANK YOU (mfers who should be apologizing are the hooligans outside of my window rn shut up it's 10PM ☠️☠️)
#snap chats#im just a dumb american who only bothers to have access to the localization translations of the japanese and english dubs#so im always grateful for the extra step people take to double check#tho it does make me realize /i/ should probably start to care more too.. it makes me look foolish#though you say the post is valid i feel like deleting it now- i wont tho just so this ask doesnt look bizarre out of context#thats the frustrating part of translation isnt it: its a delicate craft and doing it one way can really botch things#'i troubled you' and 'burdening' someone are in the same vein but the injection of 'sorry' really does change the tone of the statement#i guess it can be implied that he's sorry but that's very different from outright saying it#in any case my ears are burning and i dont like that SO im going to chug this seltzer#no im not i have a tummy ache :(#euuugh i dont want to write about reagonomics..#ill do it in a minute just gimme a sec..
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sorry to everything else happening on the dash rn i just finished rewatching avatar that film slaps so hard i refuse to accept people who slander on it this film means the world to me
#nothing will ever make me feel emotions like this film#the sad scenes ads heart breaking#the joy you feel is real#so real#i want to inject this film into my veins
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superstition is one of those songs that’s so good sometimes when i hear it i just feel crazy
#*looking around tearing my hair out* YOU HEAR IT TOO RIGHT? YOU FEEL THAT?????#pink pony club was also like this but for Me.#superstition is like on a musical level so good that i stop knowing what to do with myself#want to inject it into my veins. etc. anyway if yall have song that make u feel like this leave em in the tags#OH also some kate bush songs are like this rn but thats bc im in a Hounds Of Love Era#mine
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