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i was the one you always dreamed of; you were the one i tried to draw

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KRIST TENDS TO FALLEN PARTNER AFTER SINGTO TAKES DRAMATIC, LIFE-THREATENING TUMBLE AT STARLYMPICS

Witnesses at GMMTV’s annual sporting event Starlympics watched in horror as company darling Singto Prachaya Ruangroj lost his balance during the relay race and rolled across the floor. With the utmost courage, our local hero picked himself up and continued the race undaunted while concerned competitor and newcomer to the company Boun Noppanut Guntachai checked over his shoulder to make sure he hadn’t just been included in the unusual demise of an extremely handsome screen legend.

On the sidelines, Ruangroj’s platonic life partner and fellow industry darling Krist Perawat Sangpotirat reacted immediately to the fall, pushing through the crowd like a Titanic passenger rushing to save their loved one from chunks of falling ice.

Throughout the rest of the event, Sangpotirat catered to Ruangroj’s every potential and imagined need, confirming for all in attendance both in person and online that the bond between the khuujin KristSingto remains exactly as it always has been but with added features like Younger Partner Pampers Older Partner.

As of now, Ruangroj’s floor-inflicted booboos appear to be nonlethal, though this account will keep you abreast of the latest updates.

Tune in next year for The Ex-Morning (2025), Ruangroj and Sangpotirat’s comeback series destined to elicit life-ending joy from 89.5% of viewers.

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"BOUNPREM PERFORM BEAUTIFULLY AT STARLYMPICS," SAYS UNBIASED VIEWER

[source: @.danitwgbarnett (twitter)]

This is one of the best live performances they've done together and I'm fully emotionally destroyed over seeing them perform for their own fans and all the fans of every other person there.

I've been following them for just about five years, and this is the success and love I always thought they deserved.

REVAMP (2025) COME TO ME.

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JackJoke kisses at .75 speed

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Gemini’s reaction to OhmNanon being civil to each other

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“are you okay” no bro i constantly feel like i am too much but simultaneously not enough

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the more this show goes on the more i just genuinely don't get how people hate kant, or at the very least have no empathy for him and his situation.

kant is a man literally built of sacrifice. in so many ways he sacrificed his own life for babe's. over and over and over again. his grief for babe's. his education for babe's. his happiness for babe's safety and security. his social life in order to stay at home taking care of babe. relationships with partners who didn't take any interest in babe, or didn't want the baggage of a man with a dependent. whatever dreams or aspirations he had for himself fell to the wayside, at least temporarily, in favour of supporting babe.

he sacrificed his own freedom every time he stepped out of their house to go and steal a car - something that he so clearly isn't proud of at all - just so babe can get the education he deserves. the fact that he wasn't caught doesn't matter, he went to altar every single time, willing to be caught and slaughtered like a lamb if it meant babe was good.

and then he was finally caught, and he sacrificed himself in brand new ways just so he could stay out of prison. never mind the fact that kant might not have even gone to prison if it was his first offence and he played the system right, and even if he did it wouldn't have been for long. but that wasn't a chance he could ever take, because who would look after babe if he was gone, even for a few months? who would pay for school and make sure he ate? and so he stayed willingly under christ's thumb for god only knows how many years, playing whatever new versions of big brother he had to be, ingratiating himself with drug dealers and thieves and whatever other kinds of dangerous people christ wanted him to, getting himself onto all these people's bad side knowing it would only take one to figure him out and turn on him and put him in hospital, or worse. but that was a sacrifice he willingly made the moment he pulled his grieving baby brother into his arms and said 'i'll take care of him'.

and here it is, the ultimate sacrifice: christ tells kant to jump into the lion's den, promising that if he makes it out alive, he can have his freedom back. and what choice does kant have? if he doesn't they'll be back to square one after he worked so fucking hard for his and babe's stability. and babe's old enough now that kant can start having a life again, and kant's business is doing well, and things are finally good for them, but now this. and if he doesn't do this it will have all been for nothing. so he does it. essentially puts his life up as collateral once again the moment he walks through the door of heart burger and tries to seduce an assassin, knowing it could be taken from him in an instant if he missteps.

except it doesn't go as he planned, because bison is beautiful and bison is bright, and he's sweet and he's dangerous and kant can't help but fall for him, no matter how he tries to dig his heels in and think about the end goal: his freedom, his brother's safety. he says as much to style - style says bison has you wrapped around his finger and kant says i know. that's why i'm trying to end things quickly. and in that moment bison becomes yet another sacrifice kant makes for babe. or at least he's trying so hard to make him one. because what kant wants, he cannot have. not when there's babe to think about.

but it's so unfair. and it's so sad. like yes we all know it's unfair for bison and it'll be such a betrayal, but what about kant? what about his heart in all of this? what about him giggling at his phone screen like a teenager texting bison, only for the grin to fall the moment he remembers who he is and what he must do? what about him acknowledging that he's working so hard to hold bison at arms length but he's failing and that's why he needs this over asap? what about him having to be on all the fucking time, spewing out lie after lie after lie, and what that does that him? what about him being so fucking scared every time a gun is shoved in his face that he's fucked up in a way he can't talk himself out of and that babe will be left all alone in the world?

what about kant having this beautiful boy in his bed, who's kissing him in places he's never been kissed before and telling him that he loves his fuck ups, and that he won't come over because doesn't want to be a bad influence on babe, and that him stealing cars was not only not a shameful thing, but an admirable thing to do for someone you love? this beautiful boy who notices his brother is hurting and follows him to defend him from the people that hurt him without question? this beautiful boy who has asked for nothing but the truth, the one thing kant can never give him? this beautiful boy that kant is falling for, and he knows he is, and he knows he can't, because that's not allowed, because bison isn't his, he doesn't get to keep him. he's just another sacrifice in a long line of sacrifices kant has made for love, and yet this one... this one has claws. this one will leave scars that he'll get to keep longer than he will ever get to keep bison.

kant has been living with an asterisk next to his name from the moment his parents died. from then on, at every opportunity kant sacrificed who he might've been for who babe still could be. he sacrificed kant the person for kant the big brother, and whatever that included. kant the protector. kant the provider. kant the thief, the scammer, the informant. kant the manipulator. never just kant, not anymore.

but then there's bison. beautiful, observant bison who always seems to be asking who are you whenever he looks at kant. and kant doesn't know what to tell him, he really doesn't, bc whatever mask he tries to put on, whatever facade he tries to hide behind, bison just sees right through him. and although kant does everything possible to avoid telling him anything, bison always seems to get his answers anyway, even when kant doesn't say a word. like bison is collecting every splintered version of kant and putting them together to make a whole person again. just kant. no asterisk.

and kant doesn't know what to do, because bison is beautiful and he's in his bed and he has kant wrapped around his finger despite his best efforts. and yet he knows it's only of time before he has to peel himself away and never look back. let bison sit in the prison cell that was always supposed to be kant's. and despite how he might try to convince himself otherwise, he knows the guilt will eat him alive. he knows he'll feel the place where he tore them apart just as acutely as bison will. he'll have to splinter apart into a thousand versions of himself all over again. kant with an asterisk. and he'll have no one to blame but himself.

and isn't that just so fucking unfair?

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POND PONLAWIT KETPRAPAKORN as WANG 180 DEGREE LONGITUDE PASSES THROUGH US (2022) — dir. Punnasak Sukee 

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never forget the universal rule of the order of things: People Will Not Read It

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do you ever start writing a comment on the internet and then think “oh what the fuck am i going on about” and delete it

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I am afflicted by Nuance. I fear it may be terminal. well okay, not necessarily "terminal" per se, but

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Also Fadel being this calculating, deadly man but as soon as Style says “I’m gorgeous, I wanted to choose my own man.” He starts to twirl his hair in his mind, smile whipped as hell, and goes, “Oh, so you chose me? ☺️” God How I LOVE these little nuances.

The brothers are literally opposites in this regard: Fadels exterior is a tough crack but there are little glimpses of his softness, his endearment, that side of him he shoves deep down. Whereas Bison wears himself like a “la la la sweetheart la la tiny and pretty” but 1 single slip and he’ll maul you whole. Love them love them love them so much.

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The Taming of the Shrew (Act V, Scene I) by William Shakespeare | Kant & Bison in The Heart Killers, Episode 5

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I hope you don't get any more scars. I'll be the one you trust 100%

- Episode 5, The Heart Killers, 2024

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One day, I’ll be your 100%.

THE HEART KILLERS | EP5