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rune-tisms Ā· 10 months ago
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me: okay time to enjoy my last day of the long weekend ^_^
computer: stops functioning correctly
shower: waterā€™s too cold to take one
computer: not able to be fixed anytime soon
my cat: havenā€™t seen her all day, starting to get worried
me:
me: okay new plan
me: how about i kms
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runraerun Ā· 2 months ago
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Steddie Amnesia Ficlet: 2/3
-> Part 1 | Part 3 | AO3
cw: more head trauma/concussed!Steve discussions.
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Steve hears Eddie call after him, but he doesnā€™t stopā€”he canā€™t face it. Not right now, anyway. Not when his eyes are stinging and his heart is pounding in his ears, each pulse more painful than the last. His legs take him to the building heā€™s supposed to go into, fueled purely by muscle memory. Not brain memory, of course, because nothing up there works properly anymore, apparently.
The Brain Injury Recovery Center.
Itā€™s where Eddie expects him to go. Heā€™ll catch Steve if he goes in, or heā€™ll wait for Steve by the doors until he comes back outā€”both options involve facing Eddie after Steve had made a total idiot of himself. Both feel utterly mortifying.
So he ducks into the alleyway beside the familiar brick building instead, just to catch his breath. It takes Steve longer than the average bear to sort out his feelings now, after all. Jesus, whoā€™s he kidding? Everything seems to take him longer.
Steve feels hot tears streak down his cheeks before he angrily scrubs a sleeve over them. Of course Eddie isnā€™t his boyfriend. Eddieā€™s funny and cool and heā€™s in a band and he lights up every damn room he walks intoā€”and Steveā€¦ well, maybe Steve was something a few years ago when he was in high school, and maybe he was even something before his accident, but nowā€¦
Thereā€™s a sharp clapping noise that sounds like thunder. A door slamming, Steveā€™s brain sluggishly supplies. Itā€™s followed by shouting.
ā€œSteve? Steve!ā€ Eddie calls from somewhere on the street.
Steveā€™s heart feels like itā€™s going to fall out of his ass. His face is probably still blotchy and wet, his breathing hasnā€™t evened out yet and his eyes are still leaking like a goddamn faucet. Heā€™s pathetic.
Canā€™t let Eddie see him like thisā€¦
He ducks behind a metal garbage bin, careful not to let anything but the bottom of his sneakers touch the sticky looking surfaces around him. It stinks, like rot.
ā€œSteve?ā€ Eddieā€™s voice echoes off of the alleyway walls. Steve claps a hand around his mouth to muffle out any of the pathetic sounds that seem determined to escape from him. So much of his body just does whatever the hell it feels like now. Out of Steveā€™s control, like everything else.
For a few, tense seconds, thereā€™s silence. Eddieā€™s listening for him, maybe. Steve shuts his eyes and waits him out.
It feels like an eternity before he hears Eddieā€™s hurried, retreating footsteps, continuing his shouting for Steve. He sounds almost as panicked as Steve feels. Almost.
Steve gives a noisy, wet sniff and does one final scrub of his face before getting to his feet. He starts walking.
As he goes deeper into the alleyway, he thinks back on all the things heā€™s been wrong about. The fact that Eddie had some of his band t-shirts mixed in with Steveā€™s clothesā€¦ well, that was because they were both guys who wore about the same size, and Eddie left his shit everywhere. Itā€™s no wonder some of his stuff got mixed into their laundry. And the times Eddieā€™s driven him places? Thatā€™s justā€¦ what friends do, Steve supposes. And all those times Eddie made Steve laugh? Made him feel like the center of the universe? Well, thatā€™s justā€¦ Eddie. He must make everyone feel that way. Itā€™s like his super power. But it isnā€™t romanticā€¦ It doesnā€™t mean anything more than Eddie being a magnetic person.
Steve is just so stupid. Painfully so.
He blinks as the sun hits him. He mustā€™ve reached the other side of the alleyway.
Steve cups a hand over his eyes and grimaces. His migraine wasnā€™t backing down. He sighs. Time to head back.
Steve turns back into the alleyway heā€™d emerged from, only heā€™s about halfway through when he realizes the color of the buildings on either side of him are wrong. Theyā€™re brown on one side, painted green on the other. That isnā€™t rightā€¦
His heart jackrabbits in his chest, but he keeps walking forward. Maybe heā€™ll recognize the street once heā€™s back on the other side.
But when he gets there, itā€™s as unfamiliar to him as the alleyway. Steve turns, looking up and down the road to see if he could spot Eddie, or his van, or the Center. But thereā€™s nothing.
And when someone shoulder checks him, Steve supposes he was sort of asking for it, standing in the middle of the sidewalk like that. He apologizes, but itā€™s too late. The personā€™s already out of range to hear him.
Itā€™s as if everyone else is on fast forward while Steveā€™s stuck on pause. The world keeps moving along while all he seems to be able to do is watch it go by.
Why would he ever think someone as dynamic and spirited as Eddie would hitch his horse onto Steveā€™s busted up, barely mobile cart?
Stupid, stupid, stupidā€¦
He presses the heels of his hands to his eyes and wills himself not to start blubbering again like a goddamn baby. His life is already one big, painful lesson in humility as it is, he doesnā€™t need to wallow in it.
Steve keeps walking. Figures heā€™ll spot something, or someone familiar to him eventually. The pounding in his headā€™s eased off to a dull ache, at least. Maybe there was something to this exercise and fresh air thing the doctors were always going on about, after allā€¦
The thing is though, Steve doesnā€™t spot anything familiar. Not even vaguely so, and itā€™s not until the streetlights turn on that he realizes heā€™d spent the majority of the day wandering around the streets like some lost dog that managed to slip his leash.
Itā€™s cold too, and all heā€™s got on is jeans and a polo. Itā€™s October, isnā€™t it? No wonder heā€™s got goosebumps all up and down his arms.
Then, he finally spots something familiar; a phone booth. Steve breathes a sigh of relief. Heā€™d just call his parents. Theyā€™d come pick him up.
He gets the booth and lifts the receiver before he blanks. A quarter. Heā€™d need that. Duh, Harrington. So he hangs up the phone and pats his pockets until he finds a wallet, but all thatā€™s inside of it are a couple of crisp bills. Heā€™d need to break one.
Steve turns, scans the street until he spots a well lit, invitingly warm looking diner. The joint looks so damn cozy that he forgets to make sure the street is clear before he steps out into the middle of it.
Tires screech, harmonizing with the horn thatā€™s blasting at himā€”Steve flinches, reaching up to cover his head and braces for impact.
To his great relief, the hit never comes. Which, thank fuck. He canā€™t afford anymore accidents. As it is Robinā€™s threatened to make him wear a helmet full-time.
Steve doesnā€™t listen to whatever the person yells at him, he just hurries to get the hell out of his way of the other moving vehicles.
ā€œSmooth, Harrington. Real smooth.ā€ He mutters to himself as he catches his breath.
He pushes the door to the diner open with shaking hands, but itā€™s blissfully peaceful inside, and he can actually feel his insides unclench as he stands inside of it.
ā€œSit anywhere, hun, Iā€™ll be right with you.ā€ A womanā€™s voice tells him. Steve nods and slips into the nearest booth overlooking the street. Watches the cars go by. Thereā€™s even a couple of cop cars, sirens blaring, lights flashing. Steve wonders briefly what sort of emergency theyā€™re rushing off to when the waitress comes to his table.
ā€œWhat can I get you, handsome?ā€ She asks, cheery and warm like the rest of the diner.
ā€œUhā€¦ā€ Steve frowns, taking a few seconds to process the question, ā€œnothing. Iā€™m just waiting for my parents to come pick me up.ā€
The waitress taps the side of the notepad. ā€œWell you gotta order something, hun, or you canā€™t stay here.ā€
Steve wants to stay here. Itā€™s warm and smells fucking amazing, like ā€œpancakes?ā€
She waitress smirks. ā€œYeah, we got those. You want a stack?ā€
ā€œYeah, please.ā€ Steve smiles back, laughing along with the waitress like heā€™s in whatever joke thatā€™s currently so amusing to her. ā€œIā€™m starving.ā€
ā€œYou want some coffee too, to help you sober up, maybe?ā€
ā€œOh, Iā€™m not drunk.ā€ He huffs out a little self deprecating laugh, ā€œI wish. No, Iā€”uh, my meds, theyā€™re the kind that you canā€™t mix with alcohol. Coffee too. Bummer, right? Yeahā€¦ But, uh, it is what it is, I guessā€”soā€¦ā€
He can feel it. The way his mind so often wanders. Heā€™s lost his train. His track. He frowns, eyes drifting towards the street again, watching the headlights zip by.
ā€œā€¦so just the pancakes then?ā€ The waitress asks, jolting his train back onto its rails. His attention snaps back onto her.
ā€œYeah, pancakes. Sure.ā€ Steve flashes her what he hopes is a charming smile.
She returns his smile and leaves him be, and he lets himself relax. Props his head up on a fist and watches life go on for everyone else but him.
He gets his pancakes, and some juice too that he doesnā€™t remember ordering, but hey, thatā€™s nothing new. And damn, the pancakes taste even better than they smell. He needs to remember the name of this place so he can come back with everyone. What did the doctors say? Repeat something in your head over and over until it sticks. Repetition. Repetition, repetition, repetitionā€¦
Itā€™s around the time his fork hits an empty plate that one of the police cars stops in front of the diner window, lights on, but the sirens are off now.
Hopper steps out.
Huh. Thatā€™s weird. Steve wonders what sort of emergency heā€™s here for.
When Hopper enters through the glass doors, the bell hung over the entry way rings out pleasantly. An angel getting their wings.
His eyes land on Steve and the older man sighs, shoulders falling. Relief, Steve recognizes. Hopper pulls the radio from his belt and says something into it before stomping over.
Then it clicks.
Oh. Steveā€™s the emergency.
He feels his face heat up. The handful of other patrons scattered across the diner are all looking at him.
ā€œThere you are.ā€ Hopper sighs, gruff and exasperated.
Steve sinks into his seat, just a little. ā€œShit. I fucked up, didnā€™t I?ā€
ā€œJust a little.ā€ Hopper chuckles dryly. He takes off his hat and slips into the booth across from Steve, apparently not in any sort of hurry now that heā€™s found the runaway dog.
Steve runs a hand through his hair, a nervous tic heā€™s developed. ā€œSorry.ā€
ā€œNah, donā€™t be sorry. Just strangle Munson for me when you see him next, will ya?ā€ Hopper drops his hat onto the table and waves the waitress down. He orders a coke.
Munson. Eddie.
The memory of how he made a total and utter fool of himself comes rushing back, slamming down onto him like one of those cartoon anvils. Jesus, how did he forget that..?
Suddenly the pancakes arenā€™t sitting so good in his gut. Feels like heā€™s gonna ralph.
ā€œWas he freaked out? Eddie, I mean.ā€ Steve asks, cautiously approaching the question. Did Eddie say anything about whyā€¦?
ā€œYeah, him and Robin both. Then the kids found out tooā€”donā€™t ask me how. I suspect the curly-haired one has an illegal transmitter.ā€ Hopper leans back in the booth as the waitress drops off his coke. He takes the straw out and drinks it right from the glass. Steve waits for him to finish, doesnā€™t say a word.
When Hopper puts the glass down, Steve just sits and watches the way the drops of condensation run down the cup, distorting around the fingerprints Hopperā€™s left. ā€œAnyway, theyā€™re all out on their bikes looking for you too.ā€
Hopper smiles fondly, like itā€™s something charming and notā€¦ pathetic. ā€œYou got a lot of people that care about you, kid.
Steve swallows around the lump in his throat, and nods. Tries for a grin, but itā€™s weak. Probably wouldnā€™t fool anyone, much less a cop. ā€œYeah, Iā€™m a real lucky guy.ā€
Hopper looks like he wants to say something else, but he just takes a breath and nods. Steveā€™s grateful he doesnā€™t argue. Doesnā€™t think he has the energy in him right now to fend off the ā€˜but look how far youā€™ve come!ā€™ ā€˜Your speakingā€™s gotten so much better!ā€™ ā€˜It could be a whole heck of a lot worse!ā€™ comments.
ā€œWhat do you say we get you home? Unless you want dessert? My treat.ā€ Hopper offers with a grin.
ā€œNo, I just want to go to sleep,ā€ he says, before remembering his manners, ā€œthanks, though.ā€
ā€œAlright then.ā€ Hopper glances down at the cleared plate of pancakes and the half finished coke before sliding out of the booth, followed by Steve. He takes out wallet, but Steve beats him to it. He tosses down a few bills, hoping itā€™s enough. Hopper doesnā€™t comment, so it must be.
The drive back to his and Robinā€™s apartment is a solemn one, but itā€™s strangely peaceful. Hopperā€™s got the heat on full blast due to Steveā€™s lack of coat, and the motion of the vehicle along with the darkened sky leaves Steve feeling wrung out in a way he hasnā€™t felt in a long time.
In fact, when they finally arrive, Hopperā€™s gotta shake his shoulder to wake him up.
ā€œWeā€™re here.ā€ He rumbles out in his gruff baritone.
Steve lifts his head from his folded arm and looks up at the modest building. He wonders how far they live from the pancake diner. If they could walk there, sometime, him and Robin and Eddie.
But then Steve realizes he never got the name of it. He feels his insides sink. Another thing lost to him.
ā€œThanks, Hop,ā€ Steve gives Hopper a nod and what heā€™s sure is a tired smile. ā€œIā€™ll, uhā€”Iā€™ll try not to run off again.ā€
ā€œAh, donā€™t worry about it.ā€ Hopper says, diplomatically. ā€œLet me walk you in.ā€
Steve cringes at the idea. Heā€™s grateful for Hop and all heā€™s doneā€”especially the part about not making him feel like a complete dummyā€”but he just wants this all to be over and for things to revert back to how they were. And at this point heā€™s so close he can taste it.
Steve busies his hands by undoing his seat belt. ā€œNo, itā€™s okay, reallyā€”ā€œ
Hopper looks like heā€™s about to argue but Robin damn near crashes out through the buildingā€™s illuminated front doors. She makes a b-line for Steve, whoā€™s just barely gotten out of the cruiser.
She wraps her arms around him and doesnā€™t let go. ā€œSteve! Holy shit, you scared me so bad. Iā€™ve been out of my mind!ā€
Steveā€™s arms are trapped at an awkward angle, but he reaches around her as best he can, arms like flippers. ā€œIā€™m okay. Seriously. Look, not even a scratch.ā€
She doesnā€™t laugh. Just squeezes him harder. Truthfully, Steve doesnā€™t know if heā€™s okay, but itā€™s what everyone always seems to want to hear from him, so he says it often.
ā€œIā€™ve already killed Eddie like three times.ā€ Robin murmurs into Steveā€™s chest, before finally pulling away. Her eyes are bloodshot, her nose stuffy, like sheā€™s been crying.
ā€œItā€™s not his fault, Rob.ā€ Steveā€™s brows pinch together as he frowns, ā€œis heā€¦ā€
But when Steve looks up towards their building, he can see Eddie standing in the doorframe, his dark silhouette illuminated by the entry way lights. Heā€™s still as a statue, holding open the door for them, arm extended out into the cold autumn night. Steveā€™s insides squirm.
ā€œYou got him from here, Buckley?ā€ Hopper calls from his cruiser and Robin ducks to meet his eye before giving him a thumbs up. She loops her arm around his waist and they start towards their placeā€”towards Eddie.
Before they reach him, Steve keeps his voice down as he asks, ā€œCan I just go to bed? I donā€™tā€”I canā€™t talk about it right now.ā€
ā€œOkay.ā€ She nods, ā€œI get it.ā€
But she doesnā€™t, not really.
Steve avoids eye contact with Eddie when they finally reach the building, and before he can say anything, Robin interrupts. ā€œHeā€™s going straight to bed. Iā€™ll call you tomorrow, okay?ā€
ā€œYeah, okay.ā€ Eddie says in a small voice. He doesnā€™t argue. Doesnā€™t even follow them back up to their apartment. Maybe Eddieā€™s even relieved he doesnā€™t need to confront it tonight. Maybe they wonā€™t ever confront itā€¦ maybe heā€™s hoping Steveā€™s brain will take care of everything and make him forget. Make it like it never happened. Part of Steve wishesā€”
No. He doesnā€™t wish that. His brainā€™s already functioning at half capacity, he doesnā€™t want to thank it for fucking up, even if it might make Steveā€™s life easier.
Whatever Eddieā€™s expression is, Steve doesnā€™t look back to find out. He keeps his eyes on his feet, focusing on putting one step ahead of the other.
When they finally arrive at Steveā€™s matchbox sized bedroom, he doesnā€™t even bother changing into pajamas, or even out of his jeans for that matter. He just falls into his bed, pulls a pillow over his head and wills himself to let go of the day and surrender to the sweet pull of blissful unconsciousness.
šŸ«£ Oops, I made it worse. But I promise the Eddie and Steve confrontation is in the next part! šŸ™ This is tagged angst with a happy ending for a reason.
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luna-loveboop Ā· 4 months ago
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Wars and Wild as knights in Lu
They have issues.
I have a lot of thoughts on Wild and Wars and their relationship (Order of this post is talking about saluting, Wild and Wars' different perspectives, memory issues, and fire) Rant time.
No saluting!!
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So Wild took a formal- almost/awkwardly saluting pose when Wars confronted him in 'Entrance pt.2'
It's similar to the first time Wild addressed Wars as 'captain'. His left hand is up from where a salute should be, and his overall posture is awkward, with his shoulders and right hand raised, but it's clear he's trying to do a salute in the presence of a fellow knight.
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In the second example his hand is behind his head, but his posture is very straight and his right arm stiff- he's again attempting a formal saluting position. Which is still awkward
It is less clear but his changes in posture clued me in. He goes from like a deer in the headlights to visibly sweating to straight backed and looking up at Wars- looking at the changes in his body language
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Side note but I literally love how Jojo draws the champions tunic so much-
We can't see the action of Wild's body language in a comic, just the positions he went to. But he visibly leaned away from Wars before switching to a straight backed saluting-like posture. He's clearly freaked out, hence Twilight's face: >:(
I think that Wild taking somewhat military poses around Wars is important to their relationship issues because it comes from his struggle with memory and identity
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So like. All of them have different perspectives
Wars
I adore Wars. He is baby and I love him. I think it is also important to acknowledge that he would not speak to any of the others this way.
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And the scarf man cmon it's so pretty they are so cute-
Why is Wars talking to Wild like this? He's called him out and reprimanded him multiple times in front of the others. Wild has taken it well but tbh if it was Legend I think he would be on fire.
To some extent I think he is in captain mode. I think that he has trouble seeing Wild as not a knight. Wars gives Wild respect as a knight who sacrificed for his kingdom, but now it seems he's taking it away as a knight who's not doing well enough since he 'disregarded the plan'
At least I think that's the outside (or Wild's) view of it. But Wars internally really cares about Wild and he saw him run up to a giant and lose it. Different ways of showing concern perhaps?
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Who wouldn't want to keep Wild from getting more scars?
I just. Don't doubt for a second Wars really cares about Wild- even if the way he's acting still isn't cool. He has no right to treat him like a soldier any more than the rest of the chain, and right now I think Wild is acting as the more mature person.
Wild
I adore Wild. He is baby and I love him. I think it is also important to acknowledge that although he is clearly making efforts after Twilight's injury, Wild has ignored Wars for the majority of Lu, by not speaking to him much, and not thanking or acknowledging Wars when he directly helped him. (Small example being walking with Hyrule not Wars when injured and not directly responding to Wars)
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Wars cares about and respects Wild, but it seems Wild wants nothing to do with him, and he's been cold towards Wars for the majority of Lu. To Wild, Wars reminds him of his perceived failure. Which is valid feelings, but still not fair. And I think that ask is talking about these two.
The thing I love about this is each of them are right and wrong in some ways, leading to the tension between them. So fully blaming either of them is not logical
The rest of the chain is just vibing. Except twilight who's mad and wants them to just grow up, but. Heros of courage not wisdom @uniquevoidflowers ;)
And that ask- '''Are any of the Links ever jealous of another Link for adventures that were less difficult/life threatening?'' ''When you hear Wild say he 'hates' someone you'll have your answer.''' somewhat leads to my next point-
Wild's identity and memory issues exacerbate all of this
In Entrance, Twilight is being stressed and defensive, that's ok. What concerns me most is that Twilight has talked with Wild through stuff like this in his rough moments
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Wild has tried to be formal several times- he is not very good at it
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Four's face I can't didnwidkekfjej
Wild isn't and can't be 'him'- the same 'perfect' (<actually has crippling anxiety) knight he was before, and Twilight knows this. And I agree with him a bit, I think, that Wars is making things worse in Wild's mind by being that perfect soldier, and seemingly holding Wild to a standard he isn't
Wild's attempts at saluting is symbolic of that- Wars makes him feel like a failure trying to be the person he should be. But Wild shouldn't be anyone but himself.
Anyways. Fire.
Wars and Wild have issues, and I want them to work through all their relationship drama so they can reach their PEAK dynamic, which is obviously this
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I mean like. We need these two to be friends
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Anyways. Wild is in this constant state of identity crisis, and being around Wars has not been beneficial- neither of them is or has been showing the other the respect they deserve. Not as knights, but as people and brothers. They need a get along shirt.
All this Art is by Jojo @linkeduniverse au!
:)
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bruciemilf Ā· 2 years ago
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"Oh har har Gotham is terrible to Joker and that's why he acts the way he does," Gotham worships a hot topic furry with the mental stability of a soggy cracker and thinks a 10 year old vigilante is perfectly normal
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s0fter-sin Ā· 9 months ago
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soap's whole deal being sniper and demolitions gets me going bc on the surface they sound so different but when you get into it, you realise it's bc soap's smart
sniping is all math; calculating distances and wind interference and bullet drop. something i think people overlook is he was listed as a sniper first so it can be implied that he's better at it than demolitions. he does more sniping in both campaigns than demolitions work; in capture or kill, ghost specifically calls on him to take down the aq snipers
and demolitions is math with a hit of chemistry; knowing what mixes with what, knowing how much to use, recognising environmental factors and adjusting accordingly. it's not just about the boom; so much work goes into contained/ planned explosions. especially when having enough power for a breacher charge and not bringing down the whole building is the difference between mission success and failure
the chemical bombs he makes in alone can't just be any old cleaners, they have to have the correct reaction to each other; he just knew off the top of his head what would mix with what to create what reaction. he would also potentially have to recognise them by sight/smell bc they wouldā€™ve been written in spanish
soap would also have to know architecture; recognising structural integrity and weak points so he knows exactly where to plant a charge to bring it down and how it'll come down
he has an incredible soldier's mind people just forget that bc he's sociable which itself is a skill
we know he tends to buck against orders he doesn't agree with like when he pushes back against ghost in capture or kill and shepherd when he tells them to release hassan
he gets closer to people and sees if he can trust them and that's when he follows them without question. really think about how he talks to alejandro and rudy; he asks about their home and alejandro's family and rudy's relationship with him. those aren't questions you ask a stranger after a few hours of knowing them. that's not even touching on his relationship with ghost
he also deliberately brings people of higher ranks down to his level; talking informally with ghost and giving him a shoulder punch, addressing alejandro (a colonel!!) by his first name and rudy by his nickname despite literally just meeting them. he personalises all of them and itā€™s in direct opposition to the reason most characters do that; itā€™s not due to insubordination or lack of respect, the more he respects and trusts someone, the more casual he is with them
he digs into people; he wants to know what makes them tick and that determines if he can one, trust them and two, follow their orders. once he decides that, he's the ultimate soldier; he bleeds loyalty which makes him vicious when that loyalty is taken for granted
he isn't naive or bubbly or insecure; he's an incredibly smart and aware soldier. he's aggressive and bloodthirsty and loyal and intuitive and i love him so much
#i cant believe i never posted the soap meta that got me twitter famousā„¢ļøšŸ’…#as with damn near every piece of characterisation in this franchise soaps is only apparent in subtext and connecting tiny little dots#it is very easy to just pick up his surface personality and think thats all he is#but soaps not a sunshine character#hes not super friendly or bright#hes just willing to talk to people and hes paired up with ghost who never wants to start a conversation#every time i see soap presented as this bubbly airhead thats super sweet and just blows stuff up i lose a year off my life#and i dont blame people for getting this vibe from him but im begging you to look a lil deeper#this isnt getting into his anger or the fact that he is a soldier which automatically makes him a wee bit fucked up#like he is hyperviolent and takes joy in it#we all know ghosts snuff film joke but soaps the one who responds positively to it#he returns the joke and only calls him out on it when he says he wont watch it more than once and even then its teasing not grossed out#and if we take the ā€˜he tried to join the military at 16ā€™ factoid from 09 as current canon then he very easily could have a rough home life#no one tries to repeatedly join the military early without having some kind of problems#soap knows his worth and his abilities you dont get to be as good and specialised as he is without being completely sure of yourself#we know ghost has an ego but soap constantly butts up against it with his own affirmations#ā€˜you wanna be better than me johnnyā€™ ā€˜maybe i already am/i will beā€™ ā€˜a little helps not so bad eh ltā€™#being a sniper makes me hate the ā€˜cant sit stillā€™ hc hes literally an sas sniper he wouldnt be complaining after a few hours of overwatch#i like the adhd hc and maybe he fidgets in his day to day life but the second hes at work hes At Work#tldr soap could be just as complex a character as ghost if cod would stop treating their campaigns as an afterthought and actually commit#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#weā€™re a team. ghost team#talk meta to me#john soap mactavish#soap cod#cod mw2#soapghost#save post#call of duty modern warfare#cod meta
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iraprince Ā· 1 month ago
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ALSO being on bluesky is reminding me i used to be on social media bc it was kind of fun. i used to be less scared of strangers and of talking to ppl. i have already rambled about this at length other times but i am thinking abt it again relative to necrotech99 and how excited i am abt it. it makes me wanna talk abt my stuff again.... (not TOO much bc i don't like unduly influencing quest suggestions/audience participation lol. like one thing i want to avoid from the tvrn era is it was really fun to answer so many behind-the-scenes questions, but i did end up eventually feeling like it created a situation where like... ppl who followed me on social media were having a rly different experience w the story, and had way more info, than ppl just following the thread, and i don't love cultivating/encouraging that kind of divide?)
anyway. thinking about that again. bc i used to talk abt tvrn all the time and promo it like crazy. and i even remember sometimes thinking to myself "damn where did i get all that energy bc lately promoing stuff/remembering to boost things online is such a drag and a chore and i hate it." and now that im on the necrotech grind im like oh yeah it was easy for me to remember to promo it bc i was.... genuinely promoing it... like i was genuinely eager to re-reblog stuff over and over and get more eyes on it bc i wanted really really badly for ppl to read and suggest!!!!! vs w work stuff a lot of times it's like. "[HEAVING A SIGH] i guess i should re-reblog stuff for Engagement and Visibility and Reach" in an abstract "maybe this will help me out jobwise? maybe someone will see my stuff and want to hire me, or find my itch and buy some games?" vs the DIRECT "i am hyping this up bc i want ppl to look at it now now NOW NOW NOW NOW :D NOW" that i feel when im rly into a quest
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batcavescolony Ā· 11 months ago
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just saw someone say Rick Riordan making a TV show is just as bad as anything JKR has done. BFFR you're comparing Rick Riordan trying to make his world more inclusive, changing some parts because of money/time constraints, or just making changes cus he thinks they're needed, to JKR being a terrible person!
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sergle Ā· 1 year ago
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I'm thinking abt that pretty fall leaves embroidery pattern post and about how like... it is categorically a repost, it's a reupload. right? a thing that is generally disliked. but because it's credited, it's genuinely boosting the artist in question. and it could ALWAYS be like this. reposting content could ALWAYS be a symbiotic relationship, but because sourcing back to the original creator of something is so uncommon, it's just easier to ask people not to repost it at all. and people still don't understand the difference. or they'll go to the effort of cropping out usernames/signatures to repost something, which is More Effort than literally crediting the creator of something you liked enough to want to repost. Like. I literally don't actually care if my own shit gets reposted, you have to understand. I just don't want it STOLEN. But "do not repost" is easier to write on my art than "you can repost this, but don't alter the image/remove my signature, don't you dare write 'credit goes to the artist' because that is not credit, please link back to my original post or someplace that you can actually find me. please use an actual link/url instead of writing a non-clickable link of my username, because making it text instead of a clickable link cuts the number of people who will go to the effort of visiting my own page in Half." All those aggregate themed accounts, those fuckin annoying as hell instagrams and facebook groups that are like "body positive art we love wamen šŸ’• hashtag feminism" and then MASS-STEAL plus sized art created by women, if pages like these that always go and steal my older self-portraits and other works... If they just put a link to my prints of those pieces in the text of those posts, or, fuck, my commission info page? I would literally be living on the moon right now. I would have a house on the moon
#there is actually nothing morally wrong with running an account that just reuploads ppl's artwork or their jokes or their cosplays#if you just put a VISIBLE LINK in the description of your post with proper credit then it would be beneficial for everyone#because you can get your little clout or whatever it is you want by putting a bunch of same-category content on a page#but nobody's getting fucked over because if your post blows up then people just get FUNNELED to the source#because it's placed so plainly where everyone can see it#and yeah it's better to retweet or reblog but#on the rare occasion that I see my shit reuploaded on tumblr WHICH IS WEIRD BC I MAKE MY OWN POSTS HERE but anyway#someone making their own post where they upload my stuff. and it's always the floral self portraits so let's say it's a post with all those#if I scroll to the bottom and it says like. Artwork by Serglesinner on Twitter <-- clickable link [Sergle's Prints] <-- clickable link#to my etsy#I'm like oh okay and all the anger leaves my body and I'm like ah I see. and I toss the rock aside#like oh okay so you actually care that a person made these pieces. Instead of posting the caption ''women <3'' or smth#like you've GOTTA die if you do that. but if you just link back#or if you go to the effort of writing like a description with a BLURB? like it's a damn museum. like a light paragraph of info#about what the art is and who made it and their links#I am literally sucking you in a strange and peculiar manner. that is extremely helpful#and maybe other artists don't want this AT ALL and they'd rather people not reupload even if it is credited#but I feeeeeeeeel. like 99% of the time this would solve the issue#reposters could genuinely be helping ppl. sometimes the repost gets more traction than the real thing#as long as it credits the creator then that's an okay thing to happen!#that can land somebody a sale! a commission order! a new fan! A JOB#A JOB!!!!!!!!!!#sergle.txt#I didn't write this eloquently AT ALL what the fuck ever barkbarkbarkbark
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seagreenstardust Ā· 22 days ago
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Remember how Katsuki was so heartbroken at Izuku losing OFA that he broke down crying???? He was planning to do this with Izuku forever, it was hardwired into his system by that point that they would be chasing each other to the top and beyond, and losing that was like losing a part of himself
He cares so much about Izuku guys. He wants to Izuku to stay with him so badly
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buttercupshands Ā· 3 months ago
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Mha sketch dump!
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feat. LoV sleeping and other things
So there's that World Hero vote going now, BUT there's also basically a personal Top 5 thing too
I thought about my top 5 for a bit and ended up with this
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But as it was I didn't like that we don't exactly have a way to make multiple characters have same place like that character sorter. But my top 3 would've shared 1st place
And also it gave me some inspiration so I sketched Izuku and later Tomura. And here started the sketch wave, bc choosing AFOmura for the Tomura pic is... A choice and so there are two Tomura's on the sketch, with AFOmura getting the 2nd amd Tomura 1st
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I got a bit frustrated with how I drew them so I decided to try to redraw some stuff while keeping with mha style as close as I could
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I was a bit... Surprised? To see my own progress as the last time I did a thing like this it wasn't that good
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Trying to simplify the style instead bc I was getting sleepy didn't help
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starrysharks Ā· 1 year ago
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'more masc women in media!!' you guys literally cannot even handle princess peach
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scooterpengie Ā· 5 months ago
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I saw this tweet and I knew I had to draw them šŸ˜­
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olibuns Ā· 2 years ago
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Happy birthday Choi twins šŸ„ŗšŸ’•šŸ„³šŸŽ‰šŸŽˆtheir birthday CG made me cry given how it's like a cute moment where they get to just Be Kids so I wanted to draw something with similar energy...I care them so bad you guys don't even KNOW
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elizakai Ā· 1 month ago
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gahdamn being in a fandom for close to ten years makes a bitch forget vital canon information
#like gahdamn i just want to write i donā€™t want to second guess the mechanics of basic fandom knowledge every three seconds#to be fair the main saturation of fandom content doesnā€™t contain a lot of the canon info either so it#thereā€™s less density in how much of it youā€™ll see#i really should refresh myself but it is kinda hard to dig around#utmv#undertale#ut au#sans aus#i love fanon stories so much and i love using canon ideas but listen i need to at least include canonicity to some extent in writing#*like including fanon* not canon#(when i write) or iā€™ll tweak so hard#stupid things like ā€˜where does dust sans respawn when a reset occursā€™ (its his sentry station despite it being depicted as his bed often)#ā€˜is it ever addressed that horror sans literally seemed to blow up someones head psychicallyā€™?ā€™ (not to my knowledge)#why is color sans not god status again (i donā€™t fucking remember if he is or not$#can killer sans actually utilize save and reloads (from my understanding he only can in a universe that relies on those mechanics??)#but how far is to far removed#does killer even summon red knife magic bcs i think thatā€™s not canon right#iā€™m pretty sure he just uses a physical fucking knife right????#is it ever explicitly explained how much Defense a monster might gain when they LV up or gain EXP or did i make that up in my head#IT DOESNT MATTER BUT IT MATTERS TO MEšŸ’”šŸ’”šŸ’”šŸ’”šŸ’”šŸ’”šŸ’”#ramblings#i love the multiverse#i fucking love just undertale#donā€™t even get me started on deltarune mechanics iā€™ll go on for hours
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cashmoneyyysstuff Ā· 1 year ago
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me : omg i love this character sm i could talk about them all day if i could
me talking about said character : hes just so like hes just hes i hes so i cant i mean you know ? hes like but you know like, hes so cool and like
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dykedvonte Ā· 1 month ago
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I think the most baffling thing about the Tulpar as a vessel to me is the fact that the ship really did only have a one way communication system.
I know it was cheap but even the most basic of vessels regarding major transport would have some way, shape or form for outside communication. Not only that but there was absolutely no form of innate emergency signal to show they may have been offline or in trouble despite clearly having a system to dock credits if they went off course. It's another factor that really shows that bad situations are made to get worse by design. One person who is required to relay all information to the crew and make all the choices without feedback. No way to update or call for help in case of a dire situation. No way to inform of inner personal conflicts and acquire procedures accordingly.
It really is like they are all in some sort of fucked up solitary confinement. They have their own world with strict roles that are meaningless in the end, as long as the cargo makes it, it doesn't matter what happens on that ship to the company. They don't want to hear anything and will come to conclusions on what happened based on how much pay they can withhold from the workers. Even what they do send is short, sterile and corporate to the extent it was likely written and sent out with a command by some random unmanned computer in an office.
There's something to be said about how unfair it is to force absolute power and control onto one person when you as an entity could do so much more to offload it but I've said it many times before so I won't again.
#its just like idk i dont think Curly was a bad captain because we only have this scenerio and I certainly dont think a man like Swansea#would like him or have very little issues with him specifically if he was incompentent or too lienent in the past but I do think the stress#was making him worse and worse as being a present leader as it dawned on him how much he actually had to handle like I really think he#just wanted to do yknow normal captain pilot stuff and fly the ship and yknow the little stuff like make sure things run right and over tim#the constant stress and strain of having to make every major choice started to grate on him and freak him out cause they cant even fucking#eat unless he pulls out the scanner and starts cooking like he has to choose the meal likely or have a vote and i make that part of the#reason he seems so indecisive and inactive is the fact he has to make the choice all the time and he's hoping he can at least make the crew#feel a little more in control of themselves as people by staying out of affairs like the game or disputes because god he literally has to#choose for them all the time like thats a lot of responsibility monitering their sleep their breaks food consumption thats all on him like#it really should be another persons job entirely as thats almost like absoulte contrl over the lives of everyone else that PE forces onto#that title and its also crazy how everyone accepts it even if they dont like it like they broke the food machine open rather than get the#scanner they all waited two months before Jimmy appointed himself leader its so scary how conditioned they all are to the environemnt#cause that sort of mindset is sadly real where people just wait everyone just waited until it was getting real dire and then they still#followed Jimmy without too many complaints like i saw a fic or post where Anya acknowledges they all kinda just let Jimmy do what they want#because he became the captain and it was stupid on all their parts cause they could clearly see how bad he was and yet he was captain so#they just fell in line to their roles and thats a bigger point towards how PE treated them and the complacency capitalism brings to you#just like something that irks me because idk I know Curly is slow to act but he's not as like unopinionated as people make him out to be#like he does try to find solutions but they are still restricted at the end of the day by what PE provides them and I think his biggest c#crime is being in his own head too much and not giving Anya that emotional stability cause like idk man was he supposed to go to Home Depot#himself and install like padlocks? even if the let Anya sleep in medical after she pointed it out she was already pregnant at that point#like we arent seeing the inherent issue that no one not even Anya herself was thinking of the preventative measures because a)there was a#point nothing was happening that necessitated them b) it would've been the responsibility of PE to address them pre and post incident and c#there is only one person on the entire ship given the authority to do anything. You can not make multiple important choices in one instance#in such little time and Curly should not have had that total power like i think the most interesting thing in takes that really blame Curly#is that level of control they give him over the company. Like again i think about the three days we miss between the eval/party and the#convo/crash like i think people switch them around as if those scenes happen in succession when they are broken up and its heavily implied#Curly and Jimmy just havent been talking vs the depiction that she told him and for like three days Curly was just chummy despite the fact#Jimmy and him just had a blow out fight like the next time we assume they talk is during the crash sequence cause he honestly hangs#around Anya more which i think is really important because she trust Curly to defend her himself but not his judgement to give her somethin#to defend herself as she knows he believes her but also knows she's not seeing the danger the same and its heartbreaking and more
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