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"Oh har har Gotham is terrible to Joker and that's why he acts the way he does," Gotham worships a hot topic furry with the mental stability of a soggy cracker and thinks a 10 year old vigilante is perfectly normal
#like im.sorry but what the fuck possesses dc writers to depict joker as a biproduct of an intolerant community#that he constantly harms and abuses and generally worsens by just standing there#am i supposed to feel sorry for that bitch? i dont#me personally i think it'd be hilarious if they refused to indulge his pariah complex#collectively they all agree to stop reacting to his antics. oh you're gonna blow up the bank?? haha you prankster#you're gonna kidnap someone and hold them hostage? here let me help you! want me to call batman for you?#hey jokie did you see the game! had a nice weekend? like literally fuck this man lmao#batman#bruce wayne#dc comics#dc#text#text post
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As someone who really likes their artwork I just gotta agree it’s innately uncomfortable. I used to be of the opinion that Thistleclaw was a more complicated character - and I still am, but in a very different light. I think thistle was always morally dark, he was just very good at disguising it with the relationships he fostered, snowfur definitely being one of them - after she dies I think maybe he did grieve, but I also need to remind everyone he openly called both her and his son weak after the fact. I don’t think if he loved anyone that that love was healthy, and he was very quick to turn against others for failing him in his eyes. He also consistently has a history of child abuse as stated - he was very harsh on Tigerpaw which I don’t see a lot of people talk about, not to excuse his actions as an adult, but as a character I think it’s important to note how Tigerstar’s role model largely abused him throughout his apprenticeship and pushed him too hard. I hate Spottedleaf’s heart but I hate it for the horrible portrayal of child abuse more so than the “out of character writing”, I don’t think it should exist because the Erin’s are not good at handling these topics and this book is now the most concrete evidence of that, but now that it does exist, we shouldn’t ignore the larger implications that it’s made.
I also dislike the idea that thistle became worse after his wife died because it’s a really lazy way to make a sympathetic villain and used to completely woobify him. This can be done right (I think kingpin from spiderverse did this very well - you felt bad for his loss, but it did not justify the harm he was willing to do to a literal child and everyone around him) but, in thistleclaws case I see it as just an excuse for him less so as a piece that plays into his villainy. There’s like a lot of villains I can list with tragic backstories who still are consistently proven by the narrative of their story to be wrong or reprehensible, killmonger from black panther, lord shen from the second kung fu panda (extremely well developed for a villain in a kids film that shows up once in the franchise), candyman from the candyman films (the remake more so - the original is very confusing in how he works), general woundwort from watership down, etc., etc. but I only consistently see these aspects of Thistleclaw used to wave away criticisms of his character instead of embrace his villainy or even that yes, realistically he constantly put others in danger and was extremely willing to do so in order to satisfy his own desires. The added vilification of bluestar is what worsens this, Thistleclaw is basically a parallel to her; maybe not as well developed as most novels and media approaching this concept, but it stands. They both desire deputyship, they both are faced with loss, they both lose their kits in one way or another; the difference is that bluestar up until Tigerstars betrayal is shown as someone not only weighed down by the crushing weight of her own past transgressions, but attempting to do right by those mistakes. Her desire for deputyship is to lead her clan to a better future, her overall desire throughout her story is to mend and persevere, even at the sacrifice of her own happiness which she does sacrifice (her kits and maybe her love for oakheart), bluestar gives instead of takes and even when she does the story punishes her. Thistleclaw on the other hand only understands take, he lacks any care for his own life since it’s a RiverClan skirmish that takes it. He’s willing to hurt a kit to feel in control, willing to hurt his own apprentice, maybe even his own son, but completely unwilling to shoulder any blame for his actions. He always lashes out, never looks inward at himself, and any mistakes made on his part aren’t viewed as mistakes by him. He doesn’t regret what he’s done. They’re actually pretty good parallels for eachother in that way, bluestar breaks the code, but it’s not violence or blood lust the fuels her — she falls in love when she’s vulnerable and alone, she bears kits of that love, and even she understands based on the laws that bind her that what she’s done is wrong. Thistleclaw stays within the code (more or less) - but, he still causes damage nonetheless. Just because his actions are within the code does not justify them, they are still negative and fueled by his own selfish desires which he never feels any shame for. Even without Spottedleaf’s heart mentioned these are all things true to how he operates in the books and even when they are sympathetic to him, his actions outweigh that sympathy. His actions are largely why two villains exist in the series (both tigerstar and scourge would’ve likely not have gotten that bad had it not been for his irresponsible negligence, recklessness and violence).
SH while bad, isn’t innately bad because it adds another victim to Thistleclaws list; it’s bad because of the poorly handled topic of child grooming and that should largely be the focus of most people, not a character. This is a series targeted towards young adolescents and children and it’s disgusting that this book exists as is. I couldn’t complete the book myself based on how bad it made me feel as a survivor of online grooming, it’s honestly revolting how the focus of Thistleclaws behavior being wrong is that he is training in the dark forest, the implication that if he wasn’t this would be fine is. It’s ridiculous this book was even published. I’d personally argue they could’ve had the story handle the topic of grooming without the explicit implication of romantic/sexual grooming being at the forefront due to how largely this series isn’t the series that should be handling this (kids stories can handle dark, realistic and often common subject matters to clarify; warrior cats is not the series that should be educating children on topics like drug usage or gun violence or whatever). Thistleclaw could’ve been Spottedleaf’s mentor who similarly wanted to make another tigerclaw out of her through harsh training and violent means, trying to push her into this ideology he’d already pushed tigerclaw into, Spottedleaf’s desire to become a healer could even parallel this as instead of embracing his destructive teachings she becomes a mender. It didn’t have to be that insanely uncomfortable and tasteless (clarification; discomfort in some stories can be good like horror or suspense, SH is uncomfortable not because of the topic alone, but the handling of said topic being so obtuse that you cannot fully believe that someone thought it was ok to publish) it could’ve been a story that used metaphor or something not as complicated to get the idea across instead of butchering the topic at hand and making a mess.
This was. Longer than expected. I need to take a shower thinking about SH for more than two seconds has made my skin crawl.
sad machine has always really rubbed me the wrong way tbh. the way they (apologies in advance if this is the wrong pronoun as i haven’t checked) talk about thistleclaw is just like… are we even thinking about the same character at this point? I get ignoring SLH since it’s poorly written and really uncomfortable but thistleclaw isn’t good or even really morally gray disregarding that. and it’s fine to have problematic faves or whatever, but when your defense of that character is ignoring the repeated child abuse they’ve perpetuated- which is the thing they’re probably known for best in the eyes of the fandom- in order to paint that character as a loving father or whatever, i can’t help but find it really weird. thistleclaw being generally terrible to kids isn’t a thing with just SLH either. it’s a consistent detail (ex. him in rise of scourge) and it just gets uncomfortable when people try to pretend like it’s not or like it’s exclusive to one novella that they don’t take as canon or whatever. I don’t think this is a thing exclusive to sad machine either but they’re like the most popular artist in the fandom I see perpetrating it
#tw csa#tw child grooming#tw child abuse#tw Spottedleaf’s heart#Spottedleaf’s heart#spottedleaf#Thistleclaw#bluestar#warrior cats#wc#also there are better characters who can be loving dads with tragic stories#crookedstar is right there#thrushpelt is right there#there’s probably more but I likely forgot
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Pt. 12 "It's Already October?"
CW: PTSD themes, nightmares, insomnia, dishonesty about mental state, past noncon/dubcon mention, past abuse mention, emotional abuse, panic attack, tics/tourrettes, food mention, slapping mention, injury mention, blood, self harm (explicit), razor mention, bondage mention, drugs/alcohol (explicit), August is sort of in this one, oblivious caretaker, party setting, halloween setting (Let me know if I missed anything!)
(Note, as a general warning these two upcoming chapters are going to be pretty graphic with descriptions/intensity of the situation, and I really want to reinforce that I prefer if these stories are viewed by 18+ readers, and is read with discretion <3 -Crow)
The last time that Elias had talked to Allen, he had promised that things were going to start getting easier, that the pain and the fear would ebb and it would all begin to feel ok very soon. Elias was beginning to think that he had a different idea of 'soon' than Allen did, because he wasn't feeling like it was getting any better. If anything, it seemed like it was only going to keep getting worse. His nightmares were so violent and often that he didn't even put in effort to sleep anymore, he simply stayed up after the first time he was jolted out of his sleep. After that he would always sneak out of the room around Tyson and busy himself with something until he woke up as well. He was constantly tired, sure, but it was ridiculously hard to convince himself to close his eyes and force himself back into a nightmare once he was already awake. It made him feel incredibly ashamed, but he was getting rather good at hiding how much all of it was really wearing down on him from Tyson, how he wasn't allowing his injuries to heal, how he was always terrified and exhausted. Except that this didn't exactly go in his favor, because he was acting so good that Tyson decided he could go back to work.
"I'm not working the full shift, so I'll be back before you even know it. You'll probably sleep the whole time, won't even know I'm gone." He smiled at Elias, who was sitting at the edge of the bed watching him get ready. "If you need anything, you can call Leo or Allen, or me if you don't wanna call them."
Elias nodded, only out of obedience, he didn't want to bother anyone by calling them in the middle of the night. He could deal with it himself, just like he always did. "You look nice in your scrubs," he said, to deflect the attention off of himself, "like one of those hot doctors from that show."
Tyson laughed and flopped onto the mattress next to him. "Yeah? This pale blue really brings out my eyes, huh?" He melted as Elias laughed, the sound of it was light and, if he dared to think, happy. Maybe he was gonna be just fine, he seemed like he was doing alright so far. He was hopeful, and the fact that he was about to leave Elias alone all night and he was alright enough to be laughing had to be a good sign, right? It was ironic, but it seemed like Elias was less nervous about the whole situation than Tyson was. With a small sigh, he reached over and smoothed out a wrinkle on the sheets and mumbled, "I'm gonna miss you."
At that, Elias turned his gaze away from him, trying not to let his upset that he was leaving show. "You'll be too busy to miss me." He insisted, forcing as much humor into the sentence as possible.
"I highly doubt that." Tyson pulled him against his chest, kissing his cheek gently. When he thought about having to stand up to leave, dread filled his chest and weighed him down enough to stay put. He tried not to think about how someone might break in, how they might take Elias away from him again, how he would be powerless, so far away. August was in jail now, he reminded himself, Elias would be ok.
"You're gonna be late, Doctor." Elias teased him, pushing him away playfully. He smiled when Tyson sighed heavily and stood up, looking him up and down.
"Ok... I'll see you in the morning. Promise you'll call someone if anything happens?" He waited for Elias to nod, then grabbed his bag and turned to the door.
He only made it a few steps before he heard Elias stand up, his voice small and scared as he breathed, "Tyson, wait."
"Hm?" He looked over Elias, who had his arms wrapped around himself and looked like he might fall over any second. He was silent for a long time, squeezing his hands tightly around the materiel of his shirt, looking like he was too nervous to say what was on his mind.
"I love you," he finally muttered, "that's all. Have a good night."
Tyson grinned at him and crossed the room again to kiss him. "I love you too. Get some rest."
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Whatever movie was playing on the TV was boring, Elias couldn't seem to focus on it. He had been sitting on the couch the majority of the night, smoking weed every time he felt uneasy. He got up a few times to double-check that the door was locked, just to make himself feel a little better. It was painfully lonely without Tyson, without the simple knowledge that there was someone else in the house with him. He debated calling him, just to hear his voice, but he didn't want to take him away from his work. Then he wondered if maybe he should call Allen, that he might have some advice about being alone. Really he felt like he just needed someone to talk to, someone to tell him that he was doing alright.
"Everything you're doing is wrong," August was sighing, shaking his head disdainfully. The disappointed glare in his deep blue eyes could've killed Elias, made his chest ache so painfully every other injury he'd ever gotten from August paled in comparison. August was a monster, a sadistic devil of a man who's main goal seemed to be causing everyone else around him misery. So then, Elias found himself wondering time and time again, why was displeasing him so upsetting? Why did Elias feel like he was crumbling to pieces without his approval? "Tyson's too soft on you. But you know that, of course, don't you sweetheart?"
"I'm trying to do what you taught me it's just...he doesn't care. I don't know what to do."
"Yes you do. You've got to be punished, my love." Just like always, his voice was disgustingly honeyed, even as August grabbed him by the throat and pinned him to the ground. Elias didn't even see him grab them, but there were the ropes again, tight around his wrists as always, and Elias couldn't move, and he could see the glint of the razor inching closer to his skin.
"August please God, no! I'm sorry, I'm sorry! Please I'll do better!" He couldn't breathe, he couldn't move, August was going to slice into him again and he couldn't handle anymore pain.
"You know you need it, Elias. Remember, it's to help you be better. Don't you want to be better?" His voice was sweet, almost caring, even with the corner of the razor digging into his skin.
Elias didn't remember falling asleep, but all at once he was bolting off of the couch and gasping in frenzied breaths, looking around the dimly lit room for any sign of danger. He was alone still, there was no one with him. As soon as he realized it was only a nightmare, he blindly reached forward until his hand brushed the glass pipe on the table. He didn't waste any time pulling it toward him so that he could get high again. Even though the smoke made him cough, he felt like he could breathe a little better the foggier his head got. He checked his phone, disappointed when he saw Tyson hadn't checked up on him yet and that it would still be hours until he got back. Without meaning to, he thought back to the nightmare, what August was saying. His subconscious August, at least.
Would he feel better if someone hurt him? Would it make him stop lying and hiding what he was feeling if he just got into trouble for it once? He knew Tyson wouldn't ever lay a hand on him, and August was long gone. But the more he lingered on the idea, the more he realized how much he needed the pain. His anxiety only began to worsen again as he dwelled on it, so he stood up and tried to busy himself by cleaning up. It helped for a bit, he was mostly distracted enough that he didn't think of the nightmare or the idea of being punished, until he got to the bathroom.
He was paralyzed the second he saw the large straight razor sitting menacingly on the shelf of the medicine cabinet, similar to the one August had used on him. He could feel the sharpness of it without even touching it, he was familiar with the sting and the burn that came when it was dragged heavily against his skin, he remembered the dull soreness of the injuries when they started healing. What he didn't know was how it would feel to hold it, though, he had never been allowed to touch it in that way. He wondered how heavy it would be, if it would be cold or not. His hand was trembling as he reached out and picked it up, his breath bated as he looked it over. It was so god damn sharp. If someone were to hold it to his skin and just ruin him, he imagined it would probably be like pushing a reset button, like he would be brand new when it was all over. At the thought, he set it down and pulled his sweatshirt off, not even bothering to look at himself in the mirror, grabbing the razor again once his shirt was on the floor. There was nothing he wanted more than to cry at the dangerous thoughts running through his head, but at the same time this felt like the only option. He placed the razor over the healing cuts on his forearms, taking a few ragged breaths to gain some courage.
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Tyson felt bad when Elias flinched awake as he crawled into bed with him, he seemed to be sleeping so peacefully. He looked lost and scared as he sat up, squinting through the dark at Tyson.
"Just me, love. I was gonna come sleep with you for a bit, is that ok?" He asked him, finding his hand on the blanket and brushing his fingertips over it.
Elias's shoulders dropped back to relaxed and he moved closer to Tyson, allowing him to pull him against his chest as they laid back down. "How was work?" He whispered.
"It was alright. How was your night?" He rubbed up and down his back, trying not to be bothered as he felt his spine underneath his hand.
Elias was silent for a while, then he cleared his throat. "I missed you a lot. It was lonely here."
"Yeah, I bet. Did you sleep well? I mean, before I woke you up."
"Uh...yeah, sort of. I stayed up late though. Watched a movie." He snuggled closer to Tyson, against his bare chest, sighing at the warmth.
They talked for a little longer, until Tyson was too tired to stay awake, and then Elias just stayed close to him and listened to him breathing for a long time. He couldn't fall asleep again, mostly because he didn't want to wake Tyson up if he had a nightmare, but also because he couldn't get comfortable with all of the new cuts on his arms.
There was a lot more blood than Elias was expecting, and he was too shocked to move for a second as he watched the red ribbons stream down his skin, and then a sort of sick calm washed over him. He didn't remember it feeling this relieving when August did it, but, God, did it feel like a breath of fresh air. So he just kept going, and soon he was covered in blood, like he was used to, and he turned off the light and sat at the bottom of the shower for awhile until the bleeding stopped.
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After the sun started to shine through the curtains, Elias slipped out of Tyson's arms carefully and made his way to the kitchen, busying himself by making breakfast. He made himself some coffee while he waited for the french toast to cook, then he began to cut up some fruit. It felt odd to hold the knife after hurting himself the night before, and he found himself shaking slightly. He was doing everything he could to stay busy, he felt like if he stopped moving he would sit down and fall asleep, and he couldn't handle another nightmare. He didn't want to see August anymore, he wanted it to really be over, and when he was dreaming about him it was like actually being around him again.
"That smells amazing." Tyson remarked as he came into the kitchen. Elias jumped hard, nearly dropping the knife that he was holding.
"Jesus," he huffed, trying to breathe so his heart would stop racing, "I didn't know you were awake."
Tyson sighed as he leaned against the counter, looking around at all the food. "I just woke up."
Tyson looked so good, his dark, curly hair was messy, his face was still tired and he was shirtless and his voice was gruff from sleep. Elias set the knife down as carefully as he could and walked over to him, wrapping his arms around his torso and hugging him close. "Well, good morning, then."
"Good morning. How long have you been awake?"
"Oh, uh...I um..."
"Did you go back to sleep after I got home?" He pulled away from Elias and inspected his face. He had dark circles under his eyes, but he couldn't really tell if it was from lack of sleep or the healing bruises. Tyson knew he was getting thinner from holding him, but now that he was looking at him harder, he could see it in his face, too. He frowned as Elias shook his head, then placed his hand over his cheek.
"I'm sorry," Elias choked out, fearful over the disdainful look on Tyson's face, "I tried to, I just couldn't...I just didn't wanna have another nightmare-"
"Hey, it's ok, love. You've got nothing to be sorry about."
Even though his voice was nothing but sweet and loving, Elias turned away from him with a frustrated sigh. "For fucks sake, Tyson!" He groaned, grabbing the counter to steady himself. "I'm fucking up so bad why cant you just, like, fucking yell at me or something!?"
Tyson was shocked at the outburst, gawking at him for a moment, left speechless. He was angry at him for not being angry? Allen had been similar when he first got back, tried everything he could think of to get the people around him to see that he was bad, that he was deserving of pain, but that stopped for the most part once he realized that the people around him were safe and wouldn't hurt him even if he wanted them to. He could see Elias shaking where he stood and he felt helpless in that moment, like there was no way he could comfort him.
"Elias," he said softly, stepping carefully toward him, "you have been through more pain and fear than anyone should have to deal with in their entire lifetime. I can't imagine how hard it is for you to adjust after that, and I'm not going to punish you because you're having a hard time."
Suddenly, Elias burst into tears, caving in on himself as his shoulders shook in sobs. "You don't understand! I'm so...I need...I need you to fucking...! God fuck Tyson!"
"Baby calm down." Tyson moved to grab his shoulders in some attempt to soothe him, but Elias turned and shoved his arms away, stumbling back from him. "Elias, please-"
"Shut the fuck up! Shut up Tyson, stop being so fucking nice to me!" He covered his face as he cried, sinking down to the floor with a thud. Tyson sat down across from him, hands to himself, and watched as he began to rock back and forth a little.
"I love you Eli-"
"Stop it! Please stop it!"
"-I love you so much and you're not doing anything wrong."
Elias only got more hysteric at that, his breathing so quick and labored that Tyson was worried he might pass out. When Elias began to tic and hit his injured hand against the ground, Tyson grabbed his wrist to hold him still. Elias fought harder, screaming to be let go, for Tyson to "stop fucking touching him!" and thrashing in his grip. He wasn't going to calm down, not like this, not on his own, and he was hurting himself, so Tyson had no other choice. In one quick movement, he slapped Elias across the face.
He felt bad instantly, of course, but Elias grew still, apart from his body trembling and his shoulders rising and falling with his labored breathing. He looked up at Tyson, fear etched into every detail of his face. After a few seconds of silence, he dropped his head down and took a deep breath.
"Th-thank you," he breathed, his voice just as shaky as his body, "thank you, Tyson."
Tyson shook his head, fighting the tears in his eyes as he stood up. "Come here."
Elias slowly pushed himself to his feet, sniffling a few times and trying to steady his breathing. He stiffened when Tyson grabbed his shoulders, only bowing his head further in submission. He fought the familiar dread he usually had when August was only just beginning a punishment, when he knew he was going to be weak and broken and near death in a moment. Logically, he knew Tyson wouldn't hurt him as bad as August would, but after being hit, his brain went right back to that same fearful, trained head-space.
"Look at me, baby," Tyson whispered. When Elias shook his head and grew even more tense, Tyson took a step toward him. "Eli, angel," he cooed, tilting his face up until he grudgingly made eye contact. "Are you ok?"
Elias nodded eagerly, eyes still wide and terrified. "M'ok." He insisted. Tyson knew it was just because he thought it was what he wanted to hear, he could still see the fear and the pain written on his face.
"I'm so sorry I hit you. I won't do it again." He wiped the tears from his face as he spoke. His cheek was red from where he hit him, and Tyson's heart sank further. "I love you so much, Elias, I never want to hurt you. Ever."
Elias forced a small smile, nodding his head. "It's ok. I love you." He flinched a fraction as Tyson stooped down to hug him, then melted into his arms. He closed his eyes and took a few more deep breaths. He counted to ten, then pulled away and cleared his throat. "Your breakfast is gonna get cold."
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Tyson couldn't be sure if it was just because he had been hit earlier and now wanted more than ever to please him or if he genuinely wanted to, but he was surprised when Elias insisted they go to Leo and Allen's for the Halloween party they'd been invited to. When Tyson brought it up, it was mostly just to let Elias know that they were thinking of him, that he had friends who wanted to see him, he wasn't expecting him to want to go. Initially, Elias was just shocked that it was already Halloween, had he been with August for that long...? Had it already been almost two weeks since he'd last seen him? He tried not to act too bothered about how much it shook him up, realizing he'd completely lost his sense of time lately. But once Elias said that he would love to go, Tyson gladly agreed, promised Elias that if it got uncomfortable or overwhelming they would leave. Elias was amused with Tyson's makeshift costume, his tight red shirt and cheap devil horn head band. He looked ridiculously attractive, and here Elias was in his oversized hoodie he'd been wearing for days and an added jacket, his hair and face were both an absolute mess. He felt ugly, not that he didn't always feel like that lately, but as long as Tyson was distracting him he wasn't really thinking about it.
The party had a lot more people than either of them were expecting, the house was buzzing with conversation and music and loud laughter, and Elias was instantly intimidated. He reached for Tyson's hand and stood close to him, looking down at his shoes as he was guided through the crowd.
"Hey! I didn't think you guys would come!" Someone was saying. Elias looked up for a split second to see it was Leo, who was grinning ear to ear. Elias was envious of his carefree happiness, and he wanted to sob when Tyson let go of his hand to hug Leo. "How are you, Elias?"
He flinched at the sound of his own name, snapping his eyes up to Leo. He hated being addressed like that, like a person, because every time he could hear August pounding it into his brain that he was less than human, that he wasn't important enough to be spoken to, that he was only alive because August allowed it, because August wanted to use him, because he was a punching bag, because he was a sex toy, because-
"I'm fine," he choked out, forcing a tight smile. "Do you have any booze?"
Leo frowned at him in confusion, then looked to Tyson for some sort of explanation. When he only responded with a simple shrug, Leo turned his attention back to Elias. "Uh...yeah. Yeah, it's in the kitchen."
Elias thanked him and turned away from them both, weaving through people until he found himself in the kitchen. Only a few people were in there with him, one of them being Allen, who looked just as uncomfortable as Elias. He was wearing a tee shirt and bow tie, which was the most low effort costume Elias had ever seen. He would have laughed, if he wasn't so hell bent on getting himself drunk so he could handle being here.
"Hey," Allen said, smiling a little, "I didn't know y-you were here."
"Yeah, just got here. Ty's with Leo." As he spoke, he poured himself a shot of tequila, holding his breath so he wouldn't tic and spill it. He threw it back, gagging on the taste, on the memories of August forcing him to take shot after shot of the burning drink because he was more fun when he was drunk, he was told. "What are you supposed to be?" He asked. Allen's eyes were on him as he filled up the shot glass again, then grimaced as he set it down and reached for something to chase it with.
"Oh, I dunno. I've n-never really done this whole Halloween party thing." He shifted his weight, chewing his lip. "What about you?"
Elias didn't answer him, shaking his head. "Can we please go somewhere quiet? This sucks."
Allen laughed, "yeah, it does, huh? Wanna go sm-smoke?" After Elias agreed, Allen took his hand and led him out to the backyard. There were a few other people, but they were dispersed enough that they found a place far away from everyone quickly.
"Tyson hit me today," Elias said suddenly, looking at the ground as he smoked, "I can't even remember why. I just...I just remember I was on the floor and he hit me."
Allen was shocked into silence for a moment, then he took a deep breath and leaned against the wall they were standing at. "Was he mad at you?"
Elias felt on the verge of tears then, couldn't speak over the lump in his throat. "He didn't seem mad, he said he was sorry after. I think he just...I think he just felt like hitting me."
Allen shook his head. "No, Tyson isn't like August. He wouldn't just hit you because he wanted to." When he looked up at Elias, he was surprised to see his cheeks wet with tears and a tight frown on his face. "Hey, it's ok, Elias. It's ok."
"No, it isn't. I'm so fucking exhausted." He dropped his head into his hands and fought the sobs shaking his shoulders. "I can't sleep and I can't eat and I feel like I'm fucking up every little thing-" he froze up when he felt Allen's arms around him, holding him tight. For a second he was stunned into silence, then he really began to cry.
"You're gonna be alright," he was saying, "right now, you're in the hardest part of it, but it's gonna get better." He pulled Elias closer as his weak, broken whimpers shook his small frame. He didn't remember ever being in this much despair, sure, he was confused and scared and hurting, but for the most part he was just relieved that he was safe. How long had Elias been back, a week and a half? When Allen had been back for that long, he was focusing on trying to get his life back together, trying to mend relationships and himself and feel as normal as he could. Elias seemed to be breaking apart over and over again. August must've been so cruel to him.
When Elias slowly stopped crying, he pulled himself out of Allen's grip and took a deep breath. "I um...I'm gonna go get another drink. Thanks for uh, talking to me."
"Yeah, of course. Let me know if you need anything." Allen watched as he stood up and limped back into the house.
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BAH HAH
"Oh har har Gotham is terrible to Joker and that's why he acts the way he does," Gotham worships a hot topic furry with the mental stability of a soggy cracker and thinks a 10 year old vigilante is perfectly normal
#like im.sorry but what the fuck possesses dc writers to depict joker as a biproduct of an intolerant community#that he constantly harms and abuses and generally worsens by just standing there#am i supposed to feel sorry for that bitch? i dont#me personally i think it'd be hilarious if they refused to indulge his pariah complex#collectively they all agree to stop reacting to his antics. oh you're gonna blow up the bank?? haha you prankster#you're gonna kidnap someone and hold them hostage? here let me help you! want me to call batman for you?#hey jokie did you see the game! had a nice weekend? like literally fuck this man lmao#batman#bruce wayne#dc#addition +
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