#i want a fucking beard and short hair and to be me and GAY!!!!!
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king-sassy08 · 5 months ago
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I'm back at it again, unfortunately
#jay jabbers#why does she always have to tell me his girlfriend looks like me. WHY#ive never seen her or met her but apparently EVERYONE thinks she looks like me and is some kind of substitute for me#TRUTH BE TOLD im right fucking here!!!!!!#yes I'm obsessed with him yes im in love with him#yes i know he doesnt like me back yes it is shattering me from the inside out yes i can feel myself slowly dying#yes i am aware that finding out he has a girlfriend was the beginning of a downward spiral over the summer that led me to be more depressed#than ive been in a Fucking While#i know we would never work i know we're too different but i would so desperately want us to work if it ever came to that#but i know it would never fucking happen#but#theres so much that SHE has fhat i dont#im disabled shes not im ugly shes not im fucking crippled for life shes not#im depressed anxious ocd shes not#shes skinny im not#were both from mexico apparently we fucking look alike byt shes smart and she doesnt have the fucking range of issues i have#ive told him far too much about whats wrong with me which. is another reason we could never work#she probably doesn't have anything wrong with her and if she does then shes never told him like i have#and of course the big one i give off a distinct air of queerness and most people think im a lesbian#i want to transition and get top surgery and a hysterectomy and be a handsome man named jared#i want a fucking beard and short hair and to be me and GAY!!!!!#meanwhile shes a fucken girl and he would never go for fucking some half baked wanna be fag#idfk. im tired and i like him and he doesnt like me back and i dont wsnt to be reminded of it#jay rambles
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zinepunk · 2 months ago
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Some thoughts on the end of arcane season 2:
Wow that was even gayer than expected /pos
Episode 7 was damn incredible. Everything I ever wanted from this show, especially with the “what could have been” themes
I know I wasn’t supposed to find it funny but I cracked tf up every time the alternate realities switched. Like it’d go from Ekko on a date in ideal Zaun being like “nooo I HATE parties :(“ to Jayce GOING THROUGH IT eating raw meat alone in a cave lmaoooo
TimeBomb canon letsgoooooo
GAY SEX???? GAYY??? SEX?!?!?!?
IN A JAIL CELL FOR SOME REASON???? I mean slay ig??
Side note I had a dream that Vi and Caitlyn had sex but woke up and was like damn too bad they’ll never do that in canon. I’m a prophet 😎
Mel’s character design somehow got even better and I love that for her (rip about the mommy issues tho)
Also what was up with Skye being savage as hell? Viktor being like “I’ll miss our talks” and her being like “no you won’t” Tf???!?
Ekko slayed this season but what’s new
Ekko putting Jinx on a suicide watch by rewinding time every time she killed herself was funny as hell ngl. Speaking as someone who’s been monitored 24/7 for that exact reason
I wanna know what the hell Ekko said to Jinx to convince her to not only not die but also save everyone cuz I feel like we missed some steps
Look I know JayVik didn’t become OFFICIALLY canon like the others but that confession was gay as hell. They’re canon to me idc
The reveal that the mage who saved Jayce as a kid was Viktor all along?? Side note, my dad actually predicted that by accident because he couldn’t remember who was who so yay dad
I know this isn’t important whatsoever but VIKTOR WITH A BEARD CAN GET IT
Jinx’s new hair is really growing on me but unfortunately it only lasted like 30 mins
I can’t believe jinx fucking died. I seriously didn’t think they’d kill off one of the main characters
Also did Jayce and Viktor die? That was super unclear like where did they go??
I feel like Vi and Sevika really got the short end of the stick with this ending since both of them had at least two found families EACH die off completely
Anyway in summary I LOVED the ending and the little seeds it planted for future spin offs. Once again I watched the whole thing jaw dropped. I kept thinking “wouldn’t it be crazy if they did xyz? But they wouldn’t do thaaaat” and then they FUCKING DID IT. 10/10 show, ended as beautifully as I’d hoped.
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onelittlespiral · 1 year ago
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FML:Relax
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From the moment I arrived, I felt like I stuck out like a sore thumb. I had come on vacation to kick back for a few days and get some action, but the resort had nearly no women and was instead populated with almost all men. They seemed like nice guys when I talked to them, certainly my kind of guys with how jacked they were. Or at least I thought so.
“Hey cutie, wanna come spend some time with daddy?”
“A newbie! Don’t worry, I’ll be gentle and sweet with you.”
“You looking to top or bottom?”
I realized I must have come on the Gay Days, and the men there were not shy about coming on to me. I tried to politely excuse myself whenever they turned the topic to sex. I spent a lot of time at the pool trying to just relax and have a good time, but it was starting to tick me off.
“Hey, I haven’t seen you here before.”
A man came and sat next to me. He was a scruffy guy, tanned and huge like most of the rest of them. The scent of sunscreen and BO rolled off him. His arms were wrapped in some nerdy tattoos but their size clearly showed he worked out hard. If he wasn’t here this week I would assume him to be a good pick for a gym bud.
“Yeah, first time. Didn’t realize I booked…uh…this week. Not really my scene.”
Something in his demeanor changed. It was hard to describe, but I felt a lot more at ease. He leaned over and began whisper to me,
“If I’m being honest. It isn’t much for me either. But fuck these gay guys know how to party. They’ve got just about anything you could want to take, and basically just pass the shit around. You ever actually tried poppers? I was fucked up bro.”
Maybe it was finally meeting another straight guy but I began relaxing.
He continued, “I got some stashed if you want to swing by and try some shit out.”
Maybe this vacation wouldn’t be such a wash.
I stopped by his room later that afternoon. He greeted me at the door and invited me in as he promised to show off the goods. The room was trashed. The floor was strewn with dirty shirts, shorts, and jockstraps. Shot glasses and beers were stuck to the tables. The bed was drenched in sweat. I stepped in and took a seat on the couch, cautions to avoid the mess. He sat down next to me.
“So, what have you got?”
“You now babe,” he said, throwing his arm in the air.
“Whaaaa…haaa” I started before my brain was afloat.
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I slowly leaned forward, drawn in by the thick musk that radiated from his pit. I tried to resist but soon my nose was pressed against it as his sweat filled my brain. I tried to pull back but he rested his arm against the back of my head, pinning me as my brain shut down on the fumes. It wasn’t long before my tongue lolled out of my mouth.
“There you go. Relax. Good boy.”
Good boy. It echoed in my brain, bouncing till it was the only thought left. I quivered in anticipation as I continued to drink in his scent and let his hair tickle my face.
“Yeah, lap it up big boy. This is right where you belong. It was designed just for you, to trap guys and help them fit in a bit more.”
What did he mean by that? But as he told me to lap it up, it was no longer good enough to just smell. I gave a hesitant lick. It only took one as his sweat swam across my mind. All functionality shut down as I worshipped that pit. As I did, I began to feel a change. Deep within an itch, a need developed. A need to be desired by this man… no. To be desired by men. Any who would have me. I felt a new power flow through me, a revitalized energy and strength. He pulled my dumbstruck face out of his pit and gave my hair a quick tousle. His hand glided down my cheek to my chin, and with a firm flick of his wrist pulled my lips to his. He pressed my face to his in a deep kiss as new memories filled my mind. Memories of long nights dancing and drinking at bars. Days working out getting shredded before hitting the sauna for some fun. Of pride parades and glitter in my beard. The longer he kissed me the more I felt myself grow completely comfortable in his arms. I belonged here, with all the hottest guys living it up for a week at the resort. I had been coming here for years to show off, party hard, and fuck into the early morning. My old self was being flushed away, leaking out of my cock, while the new personality filled in the gaps.
My body began to change where his hands brushed over my body. Arms swelled as biceps grew to mounds on my arms. Pecs hung heavy with muscle. Thighs and legs sent slow rips through my shorts until they had burst through, leaving my swelling cock to fight the jockstrap underneath. Feet inched across the floor as my toes curled from the strain. Every inch writhed beneath his touch. He pulled me back to inspect me.
“Damn you’re turning out well, some of my finest work.”
I mumbled in agreement, still stuck in a state of ecstasy as I felt new power surging through me. “Time to seal the deal.”
He slid his jock down, and the full force of his sweat and musk sent my brain swimming. I couldn’t resist as he slid his cock down my open throat, balls deep, and began face fucking me. As his bush filled my nostrils, pre slid down my throat in a steady stream. I felt warm all over, as a deep tan set in. I had come to this resort for years and loved sunbathing and showing off my muscles. The heat persisted, turning to a sweat, the sweat turning to a deep funk. It was the same smell invading my mind and body as he continued to thrust, deeper as my body adjusted to years of sucking men off. It felt like no surprise as a dusting of hair covered my pecs, then pushed down my stomach before my shaved down bush exploded. My pits filled in to better capture my own smell, and keep me just a little high on my own supply.
“Fuck yeah little bro, you’re gonna be so good out there.”
He slipped a hat over my head, and my mind filled with a new purpose. To kick back at this resort and fucking party. To feel pride in who I was and become one of the community. But, most importantly, to grow the tribe and bring more guys into the fold. I felt his cock tense in my mouth as my mind slowed down to accept my place as a gay god, to worship my bros and be worshiped. As thick ropes shot down my throat, I felt strong. I smelt rank. And I was fucking home.
The next day, a new guy showed up to the resort. Skinny, shy, out of place. I came over to talk with him.
“First time here, bro?”
“Yeah, not quite sure I belong.”
“Don’t worry,” I said. Throwing my arm behind my head. My musk caught his attention as his eyes began glazing over, “Why don’t I show you around?”
“Ye…yeah…yeah.”
“Don’t worry,” his face was soon resting in my pit, and I saw his muscles twitch with anticipation, “you’re gonna fit right in bro.”
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octuscle · 7 months ago
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Pride fare
Dmitri and Igor stared at the young man with the pink hair like they would stare at a disgusting insect. It was brave of Austrian Airlines to place such a faggot at Istanbul's not exactly gay-friendly airport. And God knows Dmitri and Igor weren't exactly gay-friendly either. The two were the perfect example of nouveau riche Russians. They liked to pose as oligarchs to impress women. In fact, they were rich. But oligarchs? Not at all. But who cared. The two of them had several million in accounts all over the world. Unfortunately, most of them were currently frozen. But they had enough cash with them to look forward to a fun weekend in Vienna. Getting here had been hell. The two of them mourned the days of direct flights. But the special military operation was important and just. Quite different from the reaction of the decant West to this very operation.
Max looked at the two gentlemen who wanted to check in with him. Expensive, but tastelessly dressed. Overweight. Probably over 50, but you couldn't see that very well because both were obviously lifted. Max wouldn't blow one of these two pigs for any money in the world. But Max was a professional. And remained polite. "You two sweeties, you do know that the Pride special rate is only valid for people up to 21, right?" Dmitri grunted something about "I'm not cute, you miserable faggot." But luckily Max didn't speak Russian. "No problem, you two lovebirds, I just need to adjust a few little things." Max typed on the keyboard of his computer. "There, now everything should fit. Which one of you is Dima? I'd like your suitcase." Dmitri was about to get loud and snap at this asshole, what could he think of! Dima might have been what his mother said to him. But not some smug asshole. He took a breath. And thought that Max was actually kind of cute. So he picked up his suitcase, covered in rainbow and leather-pride stickers, and heaved it onto the baggage carousel. "And, darling! What's your boyfriend's name? I assume you want to sit next to each other." "Next to Igarjok? No thanks! Set us apart. That increases the chance that we'll meet someone hot on board." "I'm very sorry," said Max with a twinkle in his eye. "But no one who checked in with me today was really hot." "Okay, I'll go first then," said Igor, heaving his studded travel bag onto the baggage carousel. Max smiled with mock agony. Yes, the man Dima had called Igarjok didn't look bad for his age. According to his ID, he was 48, but hot… Max had seen better. He handed them their rainbow-flag-colored boarding passes and wished them a good flight and lots of fun at Vienna Pride Week.
The two took their hand luggage. Dmitri had a black leather rucksack, Igor a small antique army duffel bag from the Soviet navy. Dmitri called out to Igor that he should go ahead, he wanted to take a quick piss. Igor nodded and made his way to the security checkpoint. And Dmitri went to the nearest toilet. He had hoped to find a quick fuck there. He was always horny. In the airport toilets, there was a good chance of meeting a tight Turk. And if he waved a few dollar bills, Dmitri could be sure that he wouldn't have to wait long for someone to kneel in front of him and suck his cock… And damn, the hot Turkish macho was worth every penny! Dmitri briefly checked his reflection in the mirror. The short hair, the beard shadow on the angular face, the leather jacket. Yes, he was pretty good-looking for a man in his mid-40s. It was a privilege to be allowed to suck his cock.
When he arrived in the queue for the security check, he grinned. Igor was only ten, maybe 15 people ahead of him in the queue, obviously he had also made a toilet stop. It was hot to see Igor in front of him. Igor had one hell of a tight ass. And in the army trousers he was wearing, it really stood out. He knew that. And everyone else saw that. Dmitir could see Igor arriving at the security checkpoint. He took off his bomber jacket and showed off his muscles under his tight T-shirt. He took off his studded belt, put everything in the plastic tray and went through the body scanner. It sounded the alarm. Dmitri had an idea why and grinned. Igor grinned too as he was scanned by the muscular security guard. Amazingly thorough in the crotch area. Of course, Dmitri couldn't hear anything, but obviously the security guard demanded that Igor take his plastic bowl and come with him. The two of them were lucky!
When Dmitri arrived at the security checkpoint, the employee looked decidedly cool. Dmitri had put his jacket and rucksack in the tray when the officer asked if he had anything else in his pants. He looked very clearly at Dmitri's crotch. Dmitri unbuttoned the top two buttons, enough to show the bush of hair, put his hands in his pants and awkwardly removed the cock ring from his cock and balls. "Sorry, officer, I keep forgetting that," Dmitri said with a grin. Surprisingly, despite his piercings, the body scanner didn't pick up on it. But his rucksack was taken off the conveyor belt after being scanned. The security officer waved him over, pulled his full-body harness out of the backpack and asked what it was. The officer tried unsuccessfully to look cool. "Shall I show you what it is? But I have to take my pants off to do that…" "Come with me!"
Dmitri's body search took place in the same room as Igor's. The two security officers had brought in two more colleagues to back them up. Only by joining forces did the two of them manage to plug all the holes and get on board just in time with the final and urgent call. Igor squeezed into 9E and Dmitri into 6C. Max had gone to great lengths to make them both happy. And indeed, after the two Russian stallions, the hottest guys sat in 6B, 9D and 9F. And the purser had reserved one of the toilets just for them.
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At the baggage carousel in Vienna, there was no mistaking that the gays of the world were meeting up for one of their flashiest parties. And Dima and Igarjok were guests of honor at the party. Hardly noticed in the West, it was a sensation in Moscow when the two popular teen soap stars came out. The call-up order came immediately, and the two had only managed to flee to Western Europe in a hasty escape. And it was a huge stroke of luck that they had started making porn due to a lack of money. For them and for millions of fans. They didn't know how many porn magazines they had signed until their luggage arrived. Their driver was waiting outside. A hot guy. Thank goodness. It had been over an hour since their last fuck on the plane.
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possessionisamyth · 9 months ago
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Look, listen to me, come closer. Nope, too close, take one step back. Okay, thank you. Now open your ears and hear what I'm saying.
Whole Cake but sanuso, BUT Sanji has fully transitioned via Ivankov and her poster has not been changed from the bad drawing yet. This means when they go to pick up Sanji, the disowned son, they are meeting Sanji the trans woman who cannot marry another woman ala Pudding. Not because of the gay thing, but because Charlotte Linlin expects babies from all her married kids.
Hold on, I'm not done. There's more, but it's below the cut cause I'm nice.
Okay so clown 1 and clown 2 arrive with their convincing arguments or alternative threats ready to go only to see Sanji and immediately call Judge so they can check. Is this the right person? Judge said a son didn't he?
Vito: "You have two daughters?"
Judge: "No. One daughter."
Vito: "There is a woman here calling herself Sanji."
Judge: "Sanji is my bastard son. He has the same eyebrows as the others, and he's blonde."
Both of the retrievers look at Sanji who fits the bill except for being a pissed off looking woman.
Vito: "Uh, you know what. We'll just bring 'Sanji' to you and you can make your best judgement."
Judge: "You'd better."
Sanji arrives. Reiju is doing her absolute best to remain appearing emotionless, but the giggles are being held at bay by a thread because this was the best possible way to get out of this marriage. Sanji the escape artist wins again in her eyes. The tri color brothers? They immediately start laying on the mockery and sexist comments of which Sanji is Not A Fan, but they threatened Zeff, and she needs to see how this is going to play out before doing anything. Judge? Absolutely pissed. He cannot give any of his other sons to Charlotte Linlin because they have actual value in his eyes. He was supposed to be giving the trash away, and the one thing Linlin needs out of any marriage deal is grandchildren. Grandchildren Sanji cannot provide with the one kid Linlin planned to give up ala Pudding.
Judge will either have to figure out a magical de-transition method that is instant (not possible in the time they have left). Give up one of his valuable sons (extremely not wanted). Or lie about Sanji's gender and go through the deal hoping they can get out unscathed until this is "fixed".
They opt to lie. Sanji who kept her hair short, only because longer hair was too much of a hassle in the kitchen, doesn't even have the option to be dysphoric due to the lengths the Vinsmokes are going through to pass her off as a man. Like. It's extremely pathetic. It's sad. It's one of Usopp's "I can't do X disease" level of awful and bad except Usopp's little lies were at least coming from someone cute.
They put a fake beard on her. Reiju is responsible for her make up. Clothes are tailored to hide the obvious curves. Sanji is making every step of this process as difficult as possible. There's nothing no one can do about her voice, though it's only slightly pitched up from before her transition. They tell her not to talk and slap the exploding handcuffs on her to make sure she doesn't. They say she's half mute or something, and Linlin says something like husbands are best seen and not heard. They buy it. They fucking buy it. Sanji isn't sure who's more stupid, the Vinsmokes for putting her through this fluke, or the Charlottes because they fall for it hook line and sinker. Her beard starts to fall off halfway through a meal and they rush her back to her room.
There are multiple mishaps where she's almost "caught", and her brothers are annoyed because they have to put in effort to cover for her unless they want to be auctioned off. Reiju is putting in a lot less effort to cover for her. But Sanji is tired. She is angry. She wants to go home. The fake beard is itchy. The clothes aren't her style. She misses her cute stilettos that Usopp lovingly sharpened the heels on. She is getting some entertainment from making trouble by nearly exposing her 'secret', but it does nothing to ease her worry of the ticking time clock to this farce of a wedding.
Pudding is nice at least. A little touchy, but nice. Sanji is so tempted to compliment the young girl, but the bracelets around her wrists are a very cold reminder not to.
Usually I have more to write where I go over the whole arc with this kind of headcanon, but I don't. Have some snippet ideas.
Usopp yelling out, "What did they do to my babygirl!" in earshot and Sanji giving him the wettest most pathetic sad cat eyes because she loves when Usopp calls her that and she wants TO LEAVE.
Sanji revealing her gender at the altar, and Pudding having a lesbian awakening.
Sanji actually taunting her brothers with a reversal of the sexist commentary they were throwing at her and then saving them.
Hearing multiple Charlotte kids question why Judge lied about having another son, and that they would've accepted a daughter to marry into the family. Some even say a daughter offering might've even prevented the whole assassination attempt thing.
Usopp gently putting Sanji's spiky stilettos on her feet like Cinderella and her prince, and she gets a horrible nosebleed. This happens moments before she's being dragged off to remake the wedding cake.
Pudding is still having the split genuine thirst and fake angry reactions to Sanji where she's just like (thumbs up emoji) in response.
Multiple cut scene styled flashbacks where random Charlotte kids realize Sanji was very obviously a woman, and they'd been too stupid in the moment to pay real attention to her slip ups.
Injured Sanji giving the double middle finger to the Vinsmokes as they part ways.
Luffy seriously asking Sanji why they didn't put her in a wedding dress. Were they too stupid to see she's a girl? He could tell it was really obvious so why didn't they?
Sanji in an irritated voice explaining to Luffy what they put her through, and then placing her hands on her blushing cheeks as she explains she only wants to wear a wedding dress once. She pointedly looks at Usopp and flutters her lashes. Usopp gets all bashful and smiley and starts a whole spiel about how if they got married it'd be way grander than what the Charlottes could come up with. Sanji is swooning. Nami is moments from throwing them both overboard for being way too mushy.
You got that right? Okay, good. Have a nice evening!
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pandafishao3 · 6 months ago
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TEASER Virgin!Steve
Virgin!Steve is winning the poll, so here is the teaser! Like all these teaser, it'll be posted in its entirety during Kinktober and I am pumped. Enjoy some cutesy kid-next-door and pre-serum virgin Stevie.
WARNING: Steve is underage in this fic. Age unspecified but he's in high school. DLDR.
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The new guy next door moved in right when the weather started to turn. It never really got cold where Steve lived, but for the next six months, it would be hot enough for him to be able to walk shirtless in the garden without his mom reminding him to put something on. And to Steve’s great luck, the new guy also seemed to prefer walking around shirtless.
His name was Bucky. Single, no kids and had just bought the house to get away from the stress of the city. Steve had heard him introduce himself to his mom and stepdad as “James, but you can call me Bucky”, and he had immediately tried to find excuses to introduce himself as well. Steve was generally shy, and the fact that he’d skipped a grade in high school hadn’t made it easier for him to make friends, but something about his new neighbour made him very eager to seek contact. They often saw each other over the hedge separating their gardens. Where Steve’s mom had gone for lush green bushes and apples trees, Bucky’s house had a more modern twist with a pool, wooden patio and even a hot tub. It would be a lie to claim that Steve hadn’t put on sunglasses as he laid in a lawn chair and pretended that he wasn’t watching Bucky do strong breast strokes in the pool.
He was gorgeous. There was no other way to put it. Maybe 35, 40 years old, with dark brown hair that fell in waves on top of his head but was kept short in the neck, and a swimmer’s body. The dark hair on his chest and the broadness of his shoulders just screamed ‘grown man’, and Steve was so gone for it. Meanwhile, he was a skinny teen with no muscle to speak of and definitely no beard yet. He didn’t think Bucky would ever notice him.
At least Steve could comfort himself with knowing that his neighbour definitely was gay. Or at least liked men. He wasn’t proud of it, but it just so happened that Bucky’s window was right across Steve’s, and one night when he was up late studying, he had caught the other man drunkenly pulling a guy across his bedroom. They had collapsed on the bed as they heatedly made out, and then Steve had watched with huge eyes as Bucky flipped the guy around, tugged his pants down and buried his face in his ass, eating him out with a fervour. For Steve, who was just about as sexually inexperienced as you could get, this was all new. Despite the extreme fluttering in his stomach (and the embarrassing erection in his pants), Steve hadn’t been able to look away. Whatever Bucky was doing with his tongue, it seemed that his lover for the night really enjoyed it.
What followed after was a very precise, rough fucking – a sight that had Steve both swallowing hard and whimpering. He wanted that, he wanted it so bad, but he also didn’t know if he dared. After Bucky had finished pile driving the guy from behind, Steve sneaked to the mirror and pulled down his own pants. He checked very quietly first if his door was locked, and then bent over to look at his own asshole. It looked pink and very small. He had no idea how a cock would ever fit up there, if he was being honest.
But boy was he willing to try.
It was around two months after Bucky had moved in that they really talked for the first time. Steve had been reading on the lawn one evening as his stepdad was working late and his mom watched that Formula 1 show she liked. On the other side of the hedge, Bucky had been busying himself with trimming the top of it, wearing nothing but a pair of worn down, sun pale denim shorts that hung over his hips in a truly God forbidden way. When he got to the end of the garden furthest from the house, not very far from the apple tree under which Steve sat, he suddenly looked up to give the teen a dazzling smile. Steve almost blushed himself into an early grave. He wasn’t wearing a shirt either, and he hoped that his skinny chest didn’t look too juvenile.
“Hey kid. Whatcha reading?” Bucky asked, still smiling. Steve clumsily dropped the book as he tried to string a sentence together.
“Oh uh uhm, it’s American Gods by Neil Gaiman” he said.
“Come show me” Bucky asked and put down the trimmer. What else could Steve do?
Feeling like Bambi on ice, he wobbled his way to the hedge and held out the book. The hedge itself reached as high up as Bucky’s waist, so a little higher on Steve. With a curious frown, Bucky took it and read the backside before holding it by his side, not giving it back .
“You like books, don’t you?” The question wasn’t teasing, it was just curious.
“How did you know?” Steve nervously smiled in a manner he hoped was flirtatious. Christ, this guy probably just thought he was a silly kid.
But if that was the case, why did he look Steve up and down like that?
“Because I see you out here a lot, and you’ve always got a book in hand” Bucky winked. Steve could hardly breathe as his mind raced oh my god oh my god he’s been noticing me. “You sound like a smart kid, but I do hope you give yourself a break sometimes”
“Sometimes” Steve said meekly, unable to do much but stare at the beautiful man before him.
Bucky looked at him with something in his eyes, something that made Steve’s knees weak. He shrugged in an innocent way that didn’t seem innocent at all, and then looked back up at the teen.
“You could borrow my pool if you want. The water feels really nice in this blasted heat” he said and it was all Steve could do not to whimper. That had to mean something, right? Bucky wouldn’t offer that if he didn’t want him to come over for a swim?
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Aaaand with that cliffhanger I am very sorry to leave you for this time being. In October you can read the whole spicy thing on my Ao3 and I personally cannot wait to post the rest of this almost 10k oneshot!
Credit for the header: Fernanda Paulino on Pinterest.
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understand what you said, but does that mean no one can write with blonde hair blue eyed characters anymore? Is there any other proof this creator is basically a nazi? Or are they just using characters that they relate to? I do think all stories need a mix of characters, but not everyone will do that and to call those with blonde hair and writing about blonde haired sims nazis is a bit extreme.
hi. thanks for the message, anon.
i didn't call this blogger a nazi. honestly, i don't think they are a nazi! i'm pointing out how nazi and fascist rhetoric can infiltrate spaces without people realizing what they're doing is, in fact, nazi and fascist rhetoric. this is not unique to simblr! this is fucking everywhere! you know that meme of the muscular blonde guy with a beard that represents good choices, being "based" etc? the "angel face" and "witch face" on tiktok? that's nazi rhetoric too!
let's look at the wikipedia article for nordicism, the idea of a "nordic race" that is superior to all other people:
This distinction was repeated by Charles Morris in his book The Aryan Race (1888), which argued that the original Aryans could be identified by their blond hair and other Nordic features, such as dolichocephaly (long skull). The argument was given extra impetus by the French anthropologist Vacher de Lapouge in his book L’Aryen, in which he argued that the "dolichocephalic-blond" people were natural leaders, destined to rule over more brachycephalic (short-skulled) people.
Nordicists claimed that Nordics had formed upper tiers of ancient civilisations, even in the Mediterranean civilisations of antiquity, which had declined once this dominant race had been assimilated. Thus they argued that ancient evidence suggested that leading Romans like Nero, Sulla and Cato were blond or red-haired.
so writing a royal family that are blonde haired, blue eyed white people with above average intelligence and strength... do you see how this rings a few alarm bells for me?
"Or are they just using characters that they relate to?" oh anon, you just gave the whole game away! you can't relate to people of color? you can't relate to fucking, i don't know, a white redhead with brown eyes? is that what this is about? seriously? you can't relate to asian people? you can't relate to black people?
"all stories need a mix of people but not everyone will do that" oh honey i know. i know you don't want to write about people of color, or gay people (unless they're like, conventionally attractive cis bi people or yaoi gay twinks), or trans people, or disabled people, or fat people, or jewish people, or muslim people. i see it every fucking day. and honestly, i don't want you to write about those people if you find them unrelatable, because you're probably just going to write them into massive bigoted caricatures and stereotypes. keep writing your white people if they're the only ones you see as relatable human beings!
no, i didn't call this person a nazi. i don't think they're a nazi. i don't think you, anon, are a nazi. i just think that person, and simblr as a whole, has a fucking problem because they can't recognize that writing something like that is harmful and literally Aryan Race Science 101. and people have the fucking GALL to be like "i just don't understand why fascism is on the rise all over the world." everyone needs to do better.
it's unfortunate if you had good intentions by sending this, anon, but no, i will not fucking apologize for being an asshole when the thing i'm complaining about is literally racism and eugenics.
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orchideous-nox · 3 months ago
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So we know Alex's type.... Do you have one?
Oh I know all about Alex's type, the things I could tell you... Alas, I swore not to, so you won't hear a peep from me. Honestly when it comes to me having a type....I want to say no?
Personality wise, I tend to go for nerds, like my exes have all been gamers, one was really into Star Wars and Marvel/DC, one was really into LotR, but they look nothing alike so I can't say there's anything I'm like "that's so attractive to me". If someone rambles about something they really like, there are times when I will just sit there like 😍because passion and excitement for something can be hot as fuck. I like a good beard I guess? Thick thighs, I will melt over some good thighs so put someone in short shorts and I'm gone. And if they have like a bit of a belly going on, like a chubby stomach uggghhhh I'll die. I love a good dilf like Oscar Isaac, Pedro Pascal, Taika Waititi in OMFD when he has a cropped shirt on and it lifts up and you can see his tummy, Michael Sheen as Aziraphale does something to me, Lee Pace in The Hobbit films specifically...actually any man in a white-blonde wig.
I guess I go for more alternative people so piercings, tattoos, I like dyed hair. Muscular women are a weakness for me (which is funny because muscular men give me the ick, idgaf about abs), think Rhea Ripley, Ilona Maher etc, and tall women like Gwendoline Christie and Hannah Waddingham. I'm also incredibly gay for Chappell Roan, Julien Baker, Lucy Dacus, Holly Minto from Crawlers, Lupita Nyongo, Anok Yai at the Met Gala this year stole my heart she looked so prettyyyy. Also Danielle Galligan, Jessie Mei Li and Amita Suman from Shadow and Bone. Mhm. Love them.
I feel like this has been very binary so shout out to the non-binary hot people. EMMA FUCKING D'ARCY!!! Their nose is perfection, I love them. Mason Alexander Park specifically as Desire in The Sandman. Vico Ortiz has my heart, Jim in OFMD made me realise some things about knives that I can't go back from.
I guess if I'm being serious, as a demisexual person I find physical attraction very much comes as I get to know them which is why I don't think I have a type.
I also asked Alex if I have a type (he sometimes knows me better than I do) and he just said "hands" and then "pretty hands" when I said hands isn't a type. I guess that's a thing, you will find me watching thirst edits on tiktok of Hozier's hands, this has expanded to Julien Baker and Tom Hiddleston.
Anyway....this ended up being so long and just me trembling about who I find hot, but I hope this gives you want you wanted to know anon?
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fandomfluffandfuck · 1 year ago
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being gay is too difficult anon is too right 😔😔 i would give up all my organs to ride nomad steve. I WANT TO RIDE HIM AND HOLD HIS SLUTTY TITS AND LET HIM DESTROY ME 😭😭😭 !!! I WOULD DO ANYTHING THAT MAN TOLD ME TO DO!!! his hair drives me crazy. his beard makes my legs give out. he is a menace, and i want his dick down my throat, NOW...sorry the beard really does something to me. and his waist, don't get me started.
thinking about nomad steve and long-haired bucky just making out and pulling on each other's hair and and ahhhfdhfdh.
- bf showing anon (also, i saw you left some comments on the gifs >_< i still need to look at them, but i'm glad you liked them... i think, hopefully! also, also, i have been thinking about andy and tj again :') they have been on my mind lol)
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We're not alone! ✊🏻Our numbers are great.
For real, though, who doesn't want Chris Evans? Remember that time when the internet was seemingly filled with memes of straight guys saying they'd do or be done by Chris? Can I use that as proof? Either way, I am. He's too powerful with long hair and a beard, and that wasp waist--slaughtering people left and right. It's too much.
Oof, though, you're too fucking right.
Nomad Steve Rogers And Long-Haired Bucky Barnes Pulling Each Other's Hair, Moaning Into The Other's Mouth While Grinding Filthily.
😮‍💨😮‍💨 That mental image is going to make me fucking short circuit.
(No worries, lol, take your time looking at them, I just appreciate you making and sharing them! I did enjoy them 😏) ((Good, we should all always be thinking about them 👀))
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placentaeater999 · 8 months ago
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It is 5am and I have gotten half an hour of sleep so it's time for my ramblings that you can totally ignore lmao
I keep thinking about this older gay man (maybe in his 50s) i met last month. I'd gone to a reception for a scholarship program i got accepted into and he was a part of the selection committee. He came up to me afterwards because he said he personally wanted to congratulate and thank me and the one other openly queer person that got in. We talked for a few minutes and as he talked about what it meant to him to see more of the community trying to enter this field (it's a marine sciences program) he started to tear up and I did too.
His face looked like so many of the older gay men ive looked up to in terms of the masculinity he exuded even while wearing a bright pink patterned button up with kakhi pants and a little side bag. There was something so comforting about him. He looked like someone i wish i could grow into, with a short well kept silvery beard, sunglasses, some nice short hair, and a thick septum ring.
I'm someone who's very passionate about my queerness and my transness and the history and the queer folks that've come before me. I love my queerness and my community and while I didn't like my own queerness for a long time, its something ive fought for tooth and nail to care for for so long now. To have an older gay man tell me he was proud of me personally just fucking like-Im tearing up rn as im writing this just AUGH.
I just
AUGH. Very rarely do I feel proud of myself. And this man I don't know being so proud of me and my existence that he Cried?? I just. I Cry.
Anyways. The room is getting lighter and the birds are singing so im gonna try and rest.
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octuscle · 2 years ago
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I have always wanted to try some gay bars around my area, yet I have never managed to actually go to one, I don't think I will fit in at all. Yesterday I received a flyer from a local leather bar popular with the older guys about some kind of party tonight. I'm thinking about going but can't manage the courage, is there any way you could help ?
From my own experience, the biggest problem when visiting a leather and fetish club for the first time is not your outfit. You can even come in a pink tooth fairy costume if your attitude is right. Are you unhappy with your body? No problem, if you're still bursting with self-confidence. Once you've got to the point where you're lying in a sling or fucking someone who's lying in a sling, it doesn't really matter what you look like.
Don't worry, I'll make sure you make a grand entrance. It is now 5pm. You're currently 23 years old and haven't really had much experience with rough sex. We'll change that. I'll make you five years older within the next five hours. Five years in which you have had fun every weekend in the relevant bars. Online dating? Cybersex? For you, that's for sissies. You want to feel and smell your partner's sweat during sex. And for you, shooting your semen into a tissue is a waste. It should end up in someone else's face or ass. And if you get fucked yourself, at least on your chest or in your face.
Do you notice how you change? How your self-confidence grows. How you look at the people around you in the underground. And how you yourself attract more and more glances. You are an alpha stallion. Let me adjust a few things. Three times a week to the gym. You have a career at work. You're an alpha. That gives you the money to invest in leather. These things aren't cheap. But you love the smell. Army? Rubber? Skinhead? All hot fetishes. But you need the feeling of black leather on your skin.
When you get off the underground, you grab the crotch of the hot guy opposite you with your leather gloves as a farewell. And then you head for the toilet of the underground station with your heavy boots. Totally filthy place. But with glory holes. And sure enough, there's someone waiting on the stall next to you. You haven't had sex for two days. And you gratefully get a blowjob before dinner.
In the burger restaurant you stand right at the entrance. A couple of guys think you're the bouncer. With your black bomber jacket and short-cropped hair, that's not far-fetched. What if your colleagues saw you now? No one would recognise you without your tailor-made suits. At least not at first glance.
After the burger, you go out for a beer or two. You're already wearing the full outfit. Leather jeans. Leather shirt. People gawk and drool. But you only have eyes for guys in leather. Too bad, there are none in the gay bar today. More like young party people. So it's better to move straight on to the leather bar.
On the street, at the stairs down to the bar in the basement, there are a few really hot guys smoking cigarettes. Beginners. You put a fat Dominco Presidente in your mouth. And exchange glances with the bearded leather master standing on the railing of the basement stairs. He stubs out his cigarette, takes the cigar from your mouth and grabs your chin with his other leather-gloved hand. Wouldn't you like to put something else big in your mouth?
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After a few minutes, the two of you are the attraction in the dark room. This is a promising start to a horny weekend. Make the most of it!
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offmychest-official · 10 months ago
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if i see one more of those sweeping transmasc generalizations that try and claim that were all uwu femboys, brainless twinks, or young conventionally attractive men with maybe a little patch of facial hair and nothing else im going to personally crash the sun into the house of whoever is making them i am TIRED of everything i see thats a "relatable trans boy meme" excluding me from it. i am NOT some toothpick-thin softboy i am a FAT TEENAGER who intends to have a capital-b BEARD as an adult while being scene and every time i see trans man rep cut off in their early 20s i want to MAUL SOMEONE. it really and honestly feels like cis people just want us to be a hot accessory to them. the "gay best friend" stereotype. the "flat chest short hair" type of trans boy is all they want. when a trans guy with no desire to get top surgery walks up they start to get all twitchy and i am fucking Sick of it. like physically ill. im a trans guy i like my boobs how is that somehow the end of the world for cis bitches its simple
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bisexualseraphim · 1 year ago
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wait you’re actually Christian but also lgbt? how does that work?
So I’ve got a bit of a funny relationship with religion — I was actually raised Iehovah’s Witness at first (yeah that’s a story to tell…), decided I didn’t like that one bit, was then raised Protestant for a while, became antitheist out of rebellion, studied religion in depth, went through a few different phases, and then finally rejoined the Church as a Protestant again.
However, I would describe myself as more of an agnostic-Christian; I do not take any edition of the Bible at face value or, pardon the pun, as gospel. I also don’t see God as some bearded old dude in the sky who loves us yet has nothing better to do other than spread disease and watch us destroy all species.
Some people might find that contradictory and I do understand that, but I personally find it a lot more productive and comforting to see the Bible kind of like Aesop’s Fables — these events did not actually happen the way they are depicted, but there are valuable lessons to be learned from them and they are personal and open to interpretation by everyone who reads them. Every Christian you meet will have a different opinion on what it “actually” says and means. You’d be surprised how many claim that Ezekiel’s descriptions of angels are “wrong” despite literally being there within the text. At the end of the day it is a book, just like any other. No interpretation is strictly right or wrong.
…Which is exactly why I despise Christians who use it to excuse their hatred. “I interpret the Bible as saying that men having sex with men is wrong.” Okay? That’s personal to you. So just don’t have sex with men as a man if you don’t want to. However, many other people don’t interpret it that way or just aren’t Christian to begin with, so for you to tell them that their identity or their personal lives are against God is cunt behaviour. You are not Christ himself, it is not your job to “save” them or whatever the fuck. Mind your business.
I just think trying to apply a magical story that was written thousands of years ago in many different languages that can be translated and interpreted in many different ways to the real world in the 21st century is pointless and can only lead to a life of misery. I mean, Hell isn’t even spoken about in the Bible the way that 99% of Christians speak of it. Dante made up most of that shit in Inferno about 2700 years after the Bible’s first ever conception. They’re literally basing their idea of Hell off of, essentially, a fanfiction poem when they tell us that that’s where us gays are headed. They don’t even actually read the text they hold so dear lmao. You’re not technically supposed to wear mixed fabrics or shave your beard or cut your hair or get tattoos according to the Bible but that always goes ignored too 🤷🏻‍♂️ You can’t do all that but then rag on trans people for “rejecting His image” or whatever the fuck. People are the way God made them, and God made trans people. Not that anyone follows the Bible to the letter anyway. That would be practically impossible. (And, as I said, not everyone is Christian and interested in abiding by the Bible.) In short, do whatever the fuck you want as long as it’s not hurting anybody else. Love yourself and love each other.
So yeah, it’s a bit of a weird one for me. I think the Bible is a very interesting story regardless of whether it’s “real” or not and many could get something out of reading it if you just see it as kind of a cool comic book or something. I find the idea of Heaven and an afterlife comforting and I value the teachings of Christ. At the same time, I am open to all other religions and their teachings. Everyone has their own perspective on who or what God actually is — or many Gods, of course — and nobody has any right to tell them that they are wrong, because we simply don’t know. I think anyone who has studied the Bible would also greatly benefit from reading the Torah, the Bhagavad Gita, the Koran, etc to open up their world view a little more.
I just think it’s such a shame that religion is often used to divide when it could instead be used to connect and relate with others. I had many Jewish, Buddhist and Hindu friends as a kid and I greatly enjoyed discussing with them our respective texts and how they differed, but were also in many ways similar. And I do admit I sometimes feel ashamed for being part of a group who so often see an ancient book as the entire meaning of life, the universe, and everything and use it to deny human rights or even fucking science.
Facts and science should always come before faith, end of story. Science is a universal truth whereas faith is personal belief. And you should always, always, when you can, be kind. “Love thy neighbour as thyself” and all that. Funny how that always gets ignored. Just goes to show that people who spread hatred have some serious self-esteem issues.
And I hate all forms of bigotry but one that especially gets on my nerves is antisemitism by Christians because it is entirely baseless and Christianity literally would not exist if it weren’t for the Jewish people. (Not that bigotry ever has an excuse but you get my meaning.) Jesus was not killed by “the Jews.” Jesus WAS a Jew and he was persecuted by — who else — the Romans. And even if he was killed by Jewish people (he wasn’t) that still wouldn’t excuse any of the horrific things done to them throughout history. Antisemitism has been a problem since Judaism first became a concept thousands of years ago and I cannot express how much it saddens and disappoints me that it’s still so commonplace today. Many people are even antisemitic without realising due to all the dogwhistling (“lizard people rule the world,” anyone?). It’s abhorrent.
But yeah. It’s complicated. To sum up: I love Jesus. I believe in Something that created us but not necessarily exactly as the Bible says. I believe most if not all of the Bible is metaphorical and therefore using it to justify treating others shittily is bullshit. I believe science should always come before faith and church should always be separated from the State. Religion is deeply personal and therefore trying to enforce your personal beliefs and values from it onto others is, at the very least, fucking rude and preachers can kiss my well-bathed arse. I believe all religions are valid and have value and, if I’m being honest, I am primarily Christian rather than anything else due to its familiarity to me. If me from 20 years into the future time travelled back here and told me I’d end up becoming Jewish or Buddhist or Hindu or something else, I’d be completely fine with that. I am always curious about the world around me and try to be as open as possible, and, above all else, compassionate. (Except to bigots and to anyone else who’s plain cruel but I don’t feel like I can be particularly faulted for that.) And I believe Christianity and the Church as an institution has a lot of issues that it needs to answer for.
I don’t know if I’ve at all explained myself well here but if anyone has any more questions my inbox is always open. (But if you come in to say anything homophobic or transphobic or antisemitic or whatever the fuck in the name of the Bible you can go fuck yourself ✌🏻)
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the-light-finds-its-way · 1 year ago
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So I missed my annual national coming out day post!
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But anyway, here's your trans Titan being a shirtless Titan!! I wear my surgery scar loud and proud, and in fact, the night I took this photo was during a con, and a guy dressed as Jesus saw me shirtless with my gay flag swim shorts, passed by, and said, "Blessed be, my child!"
YES!!!!!
This year, my beard FINALLY started coming in. It's not thick yet, it's scraggly and curly and itchy as allfuck. But! I love it nonetheless!! It's a BEARD!!!! THE thing I have wanted for YEARS!!!!! I've been on testosterone for 5.5 years now, and I'm so SO happy with the changes it's brought to me, even though they're so slow.
I've, in the past year, gotten a gender-affirming haircut! My first haircut in almost 20 years!! I buzzed my sides, then took my super fucking long Viking hair, tied it back, and braided it. I look even more like a modern-day Viking this way lol.
In my college's creative writing magazine, I published a short story about the troubles on my first walk as a man, going out in public as the entire opposite gender of what everyone, and I mean EVERYONE, knew me as. I live in a tiny town of under 20 square miles, and here, you know everyone and everything about everyone. It's horrible, the anxiety of going on that first walk. But man, it's freeing. And I broke those binds years ago that held me down, and I've walked free every day since, being me. Being Magnus.
Anyway, be loud and proud, don't feel pressured to come out if you aren't ready, if it isn't safe to, whatever your situation may be. You are important, you matter, your safety and your life matter.
Love yourself, love your progress. Don't give up. :)
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sagevalleymusings · 29 days ago
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They're Taking All the Girls Away
I’ve spoken about this before but I want to give this topic a closer look, because I’ve noticed it’s something that’s resonating with folks particularly now. Gender identity has been changing rapidly in the past ten years, and this has led to push-back. To some, it can feel like a concerted effort to confuse teenage girls being pressured into an ill-fitting stereotype to reject their womanhood altogether. ‘Trans activists are taking all the girls away!’ they say! And of course the response is, ‘no that’s not happening, TERF, now fuck off.’
But… isn’t it? I’m in a group totally unrelated to gender and in that group, one of the members mentioned they were having confusion about their gender, where they felt ‘femme’ but not like a woman, and there were over 70 responses on this one post, almost all of which were other people saying they felt the same way. Increased visibility of non-binary and trans as identities has caused a lot of people who would have otherwise lived comfortable lives as cis women to second-guess themselves and their feelings. They know they aren’t women in the way we expect women to be… so does that mean they’re non-binary? And if they would have previously been fine with calling themselves women but now they don’t, couldn’t you call that “taking the girls away?”
Is that a bad thing? 
Let’s take a step back. This is a personal subject for me. It’s a personal subject for a lot of people. It’s difficult to divorce the facts at hand with our opinion of what is correct because this is a very subjective issue. Yes, there are facts that are part of it. “Science is real” is a catchphrase because it is true. But people weight scientific fact with their opinions - the opinion that gender does not exist and people are male or female based on biology with no alternative options is as based in science as the opinion that gender is very real and a wider spectrum than just men and women, with some basis in biology which is also not a pure binary of one or the other with no overlap. 
So when I talk about this subject, I think it’s important to bring to the table my perspective and my opinion as informed by that perspective, because arguing semantics on this topic is simply ineffective. When facts become informed by opinion to the point that they stop mattering, attempting to argue based on the facts simply gets nowhere.
Where am I coming from, then? Well when I was 14 I started to realize I was attracted to women and not men. I responded to this with inching dread and a sudden inexplicable crush on one of the most unattainable boys at school. It had the benefit of sounding true while being impossible to actualize on. At 16, I came out officially as gay without having made a conscious decision that “gay” and not “bi” was the correct label.
When I went to college, I decided to remake myself in the way a lot of baby dykes remake themselves, and I cut my hair off and started shopping in the men’s section for more masculine clothing. In my sophomore year, I enrolled in a Women’s Studies 101 class which asked us how we describe our gender, and I chose to write about being gender non-conforming.
I talked about how being butch was a kind of woman - a subcategory that described a masculine woman as separate from the normal expectation. I talked about how I thought gender was more complicated than the rigid boxes that defined what was expected of me because I happened to be born female, and how I had no desire to follow those expectations.
It’s a perspective which I think a lot of radical lesbians have experienced themselves. In fact, some of the most anti-trans people I know are butch women who believe that someone transitioning is an affront to their decades long struggle to fight to be whatever kind of woman you can be. Have short hair, grow a beard, use a strap-on - you can literally be as masculine as you want. The thing that you are born with may be female, but that doesn’t need to define you. 
It’s honestly a perspective I understand. But what I don’t understand is why this has historically been so incompatible with trans rights. To me, they aren’t just two sides of the same coin, but the same side of the same coin, just viewed at different times. 
The first person I heard vehemently arguing that gender wasn’t real at all was a non-binary person, but the idea that gender is made up is the very basis behind the gender critical perspective. The same people who claim that they/them pronouns is going too far were standing with me identifying as gender non-conforming ten years ago. Radical lesbians believe that you have a right to be whatever kind of woman you want to be, and that the sex you are born into does not define who you are and what you are owed. Trans activists believe the very same thing, but with the added layer that you can be whatever kind of *person* you want to be, even if that person is not a woman.
When I was a kid, this perspective wasn’t really very wide-spread. Trans people existed, but mostly in the abstract. I and many others only really understood transness through the lens of someone with deep gender dysphoria. And in a case like that, you could say the person doesn’t really have a choice - this is something they need to do to treat their psychological distress. 
But as time passed, definitions around what it means to be trans shifted. You don’t need to have dysphoria, you don’t need to treat it with surgery or hormones, and you don’t even need to be binary. Now, there is an understanding of gender which is more nebulous, where a person can be neither a man or a woman - not based on their biology, but simply based on their feelings. 
A lot of people rigidly reject this notion, but the reasons for this rejection vary. I’ve heard the argument, “it’s just basic science” but the fact of the matter is that sociology is also science, and sociology stands by the notion that gender is something which is not rigidly based on biology. 
I think for many people who vehemently reject non-binary identities in particular but trans identities by extension, “science is real” is the fact that they can justify their beliefs with, but ultimately the belief itself is deeper. I suspect it has a lot to do with the way it leads to questioning of one’s self, which is why I want to couch this in terms of my journey with myself. Once upon a time, I used terms like “butch” to describe my gender and called myself gender non-conforming. If I had been born ten years later… Would I have transitioned?
I’m not the first person to bring this up. JK Rowling said the same thing in her infamous essay, that perhaps she would have become “the son my father always wanted” rather than continue to be a woman. And I went through a period of time where I cut my hair short, wore men’s clothes, and embodied a kind of masculine gait, with a zigzag in my step, shoulders broad and back. If I had a better understanding of what it meant to be trans when I was in my early twenties, would I have taken that phase to a different conclusion? 
I genuinely don’t know, but I do know that for me, it was a phase, and I settled on something much more femme as I aged. But most of the time I don’t really think about gender at all, and that’s something that I think bears noting. 
I’ve heard plenty of reactions to Rowling’s statement about whether or not she could have transitioned as a young woman, and most of it boils down to this: Rowling saying she might have transitioned because she self harmed, or had an eating disorder, or had anxiety as a teenager, misses the obvious point that trans men who transition do so *because they feel like men* and the depression and other mental health symptoms are a symptom of the way they’re treated because of that feeling. 
If you don’t feel like a man, the trans argument goes, then you are not one. But there’s a problem with this explanation. Most cis people have a very loose if not nearly non-existent feeling of their own gender. They don’t feel like a man. They don’t feel like a woman. I am a woman because I have a vagina and I have been told that the term for people who have vaginas is “woman” therefore that’s what I am. If I had been told the term for people who have vaginas is “man” I would be a man. For most cis people, it isn’t any deeper than that. I am not a woman because I feel like a woman. I’m a woman because that’s what society decided for me is true, and I’ve never had reason to question it.
Though, that’s not quite true for me personally. I have had reason and opportunity to question my own gender. After all, in my early twenties I was butch. I was deliberately fighting against gendered stereotypes of what a woman is supposed to be and playing with notions of masculine and feminine. This play did not disrupt my sense of my own womanhood at the time because my sense of gender was separate from my sense of gender stereotypes. 
But I’m willing to admit that recently, with the trans discussion in the forefront so much, I have started to question my own gender, in a way that’s confusing and disjointed and uncomfortable. 
I haven’t been sure what to do about this new uncomfortableness. I’m discovering that a lot of people, particularly women (or at least AFAB persons regardless of how they identify now) in their 30s feel this same way, that they are a woman because that’s what people call them, but it isn’t something they have a comfortable amount of ownership over. Anna Myakushina on TikTok has described it as being a woman in the way that a dandelion is a weed. It’s technically true, but not quite right. A dandelion is a flower that we call a weed because it springs up unwanted - so too gender. 
And this is something that at least 70 people in my Facebook group resonated with enough to say that they felt the same way. Some of them called themselves women, some of them called themselves demigirls, some of them called themselves agender, some of them called themselves lunarian, or librafeminine, or girlflux, or non-binary, or genderfae… They called themselves all sorts of things, but what it boiled down to was a resonance that the thing they had been told they are -a woman -was ill-fitting, so they had to find something that felt like it fit better. 
There might still be a few gender critical folks in the crowd who are thinking: “why do you need sixteen different words for the same thing? You’re all women! You can be whatever kind of woman you want to be!” Those folks may also be thinking a lot of very uncharitable things about trans activists, and their quest to “confuse girls” into transitioning when they don’t want to. After all, if everyone feels the way I do and no one has a concrete sense of their gender, then it does seem like someone could trick you into feeling a way about yourself that isn’t true to who you are. 
There’s a couple of issues with this. Firstly, when Rowling talked about transitioning because of feeling disconnected to the expectations of a teenage girl, it was in the abstract. Descriptions of girls being convinced to transition are by and large in the “might have been” category with less than one percent of one percent of people in the world actually making a mistake with their transition. 
But when these 70 people in my Facebook group talk about their gender journey, it’s a real person experimenting with what they want gender to look like for them, and in no case is that person on hormones or altering their body irrevocably to become more androgynous. They’re just using a term other than woman and a pronoun other than she to describe themselves. 
This is why I see  the gender critical perspective of being whatever kind of woman you want to be and the trans perspective of being whatever kind of person you want to be as exactly the same. Ten years ago, when I started using terms like “butch” and “gender non-conforming” that *was* me acting out a kind of non-binary identity. I just didn’t have terms like that for it. But they’re the same thing with the same goal: the expectations for people based on whether or not they are perceived to be a man or a woman don’t fit most people, and we need language to talk about that. 
I have heard some say that if non-binary was real, then everyone would be non-binary because no one fits the stereotypes of man and woman perfectly. And, yeah. I think they have a point. But I also think that in a lot of cases, people are not completely rejecting their maleness or their femaleness. They’re doing what Anna Myakushina or these 70 people in my Facebook group are doing. They’re enacting a kind of gender presentation based on stereotyped traits that appeal to them, and then picking what they want to call it. I did the exact same thing when I wore masculine clothes and called myself butch. 
I think you can make the argument that a lot of younger people are flocking to non-binary language because the stereotypes of gender are so outdated as to be useless, and that does translate in very real ways to more people identifying as non-binary, including people who genuinely wouldn’t have ten years ago. I wouldn’t have. I still don’t. Because as much as “woman” feels like a pair of socks that are both too small and not stretchy enough, non-binary feels like I put my shoes on and forgot socks altogether. But maybe if these terms had been around sooner, I would have felt more comfortable trying them out. I don’t think there is a word that describes my gender perfectly because our gender system sucks. It’s based on garbage, and it doesn’t work for most people, and regardless of which line in the sand you are on, that’s something we all agree on. There have been valiant attempts made to try and talk about gender in a way that feels more personal and more comfortable. But I also know that my gender is not my own. It isn’t just how I feel about myself. It’s also how people interact with me. Women are treated differently by virtue of being women, and if I decide to start calling myself lunarian but no one knows that, they are going to treat me as a woman no matter what I call myself. I can tell people this is how I feel about myself, and ask them to treat me differently based on that feeling, but there will always be strangers who have no reason to respect me who ignore that request. 
But at the end of the day, there are a lot of people who feel the same way I do about themselves but who have decided that they do want to call themselves non-binary, or agender, or what have you, and who do use they (or she/they) pronouns. And maybe they wouldn’t have ten years ago. So in some very real ways, the feeling that more people are identifying as non-cis is in fact real. Where I differ from the gender critical perspective is that I struggle to see how that’s a bad thing. After all, you didn’t think it was a bad thing fifty years ago when the lesbians were wearing suits at the bars. You didn’t think it was a bad thing when you were refusing to wear bras in the 80s. It wasn’t a bad thing to challenge gender when challenging gender stereotypes but ultimately leaving the concept of gender intact. 
If it wasn’t a bad thing for me as a baby butch to cut my hair short and wear masculine clothing, I can see a world in which someone now does the same thing, but also says that he’s a demiboy that uses he/him pronouns. 
Let the kids play with their gender for heaven’s sake. You already don’t like the system of gender we have in place, it feels hypocritical in the extreme to get upset that someone else is breaking a system you don’t want.
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