#i wanna sleep for three days

[borathae]

Me looking at all the asks in my inbox and wanting to answer them but work has been so stressful lately that I have zero energy once home:

[soullessseraphim]

"but they're a demon, they don't need to sleep or anyth-"

SHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhh............

quiet. and accept my sleepy Valdemar.

[b4kuch1n]

making of a feathered thing

[buwheal]

[yangjeongin]

[thedeerman]

me: i’m gonna make sure i remember to take my meds properly

my doctors office: actually we’re gonna just… not refill that for a while. yeah, you can call all you want. we’ll say we’re working on it and then not do it. enjoy the withdrawals, bitch

[rederiswrites]

Oh boy here we go. Midnight Madness, the night merchants stay open to midnight, musicians appear on every corner, and people fill the streets in a wild variety of costumes. I've seen a dozen people "riding" in a cardboard Viking ship, Japanese fertility processions featuring a giant phallus, face paint, a great many belly dance spangles, and much more.

Except this year I'm on the other side of the table. Time to smile at strangers and tell the same five jokes until midnight! Yeehaw!

Nominally, there are sales--i did lower several of my prices, but as much to experiment with what price point a bead will hold than anything else.

I am very eagerly awaiting an adrenaline rush that might get me through this.

[motordyk]

oh. the difference between a million and a billion is 10 more 1 millions.

so you take the 1 million you already have (1,000,000) and then add ten more 1 millions To That 1,000,000

1,000,000 - 1 M 1,000,000 - 2 M 1,000,000 - 3 M 1,000,000 - 4 M 1,000,000 - 5 M 1,000,000 - 6 M 1,000,000 - 7 M 1,000,000 - 8 M 1,000,000 - 9 M _____________

10,000,000 - 10 M

.

ok my bad. you actually have to add 100 more of those to get to a billion

oh wait no thats 100 M

so now you have to add another 10 Million On Top of That 100 Million that you already have.

and THEN you get One Billion.

you are no longer rich. i think youre just a fucking monster. all that money that you have in real life and you are doing nothing with it. you are going to die and you should die. does the us government even have that much

oh wait they do. and they were going to sell TWICE that amount, ALL OF IT, just to kill some random ass people. why. you deserve to get robbed and if you die trying to stop them that is on you. i cannot actually think of any good reason for you to have that much money and just let it go to waste by putting it in a corner somewhere. you are actually mentally ill and you need help. no wonder theres a cap in other countries on how much money you can own. holy shit

[cyanide-sippy-cup]

Middle of the night but I gotta talk about some frustrations. 'Cause you know what pisses me off? The mainstreaming popularization of punk. Don't get me wrong, I love seeing it become more popular and I love seeing people discover themselves and the culture. I mean, I got into it from a young age with RATM, for crying out loud.

The problem is that when something becomes more and more popular, you get a lot of... unsavory types. And I'm not even talking about the Tiktok punks that do it for the fashion and the "cool factor" (ignore how punks weren't considered cool and actually disregarded and disrespected as a group of "radicals" and "unsightly" which is what makes punk punk to begin with) and talk about "posers" but then the moment you ask them about their favorite local band or even their opinions about the BLM protests or Drag Queen Story Hour the real them *cough* bigot *cough* comes out. I'm talking about how everywhere you turn, there's an increasing erase of the culture and history, and it's turned into yet another thing for cis white people to use to make up for their lack of culture.

Punk is based in queerness and blackness. Period. That is an undeniable fact. It is a culture started and rooted by black musicians which then bled into the equally black queer community. It is impossible, when you go through the origins, to separate the three. From the fashion to the music, we owe everything to them.

And it's just like what happened with the gay community. A massively marginalized group, technically allowed to live in society but not allowed to be our true selves. And then, like, you have super famous and historic movements lead by black activists through the 60s to 80s. And progress is finally made. Huge celebration. We're finally allowed in public, we start appearing on TV again. But then fast forward to modern day, and white people, like we've always done, we get our grubby little paws on it. And we scrub at it in all the soap we can until any instance of black or brown is gone. And then we claim it as ours. Everybody acknowledges where it started, but nobody celebrates it. In fact, we put down black people in our community. We appropriate their culture and their language, because stealing your voice is actually our way of celebrating you so you should be happy. We make movies of those movements, and we erase any evidence of them ever having been there.

And it's relatively the same thing here. The more mainstream it gets, the more people are doing it to be performative, the more we erase and cover up the "unseemly" history that makes it so beautiful in the first place.

And, like, I'm white and I'm pissed/tired. I can't imagine how black punks feel. Cause, like, think for a minute. Some group decides they want in but they don't like how it is, they want it their way. The "correct" way. So they begin to "kick out" everybody who they don't want, appropriate everything they like about it, and rewrite and recontextualize the history that made it. Isn't that, like, the textbook definition of fascism? The whole thing we're trying to take down? Like come on.

And to the white punk/gays who read this and got confused or upset. No, I'm not saying there aren't any white punks. No, I'm not saying there weren't white gays from the get go. Nobody is saying you can't be white and punk. The point of this post is, just, be a good person. Respect, acknowledge, celebrate the culture that created this thing we love. The gay community that we know is specifically a product of blackness and black efforts. Stop appropriating them, start learning how to celebrate them properly.

[watercolor-hearts]

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[toiletshit]

reminder of things to draw/doodle for future self (once the spider ""terrorizing"" them has been taken care of. somehow.):

regigigas wearing a baby holder thing with regice in it

regigigas reading a bedtime story while rocking regice in a baby cradle

regigigas pushing grocery cart with regice sitting in it

grocery cart just filled with the regi children I guess

[x22817]

Today is the first day of the week I don't have to take care of someone else's animal. I was planning on going into town and working with Hek at pet stores. I am always super excited to train. It makes me feel better. It gives me confidence. It's fun! Now, I just don't want to even exist, let alone go outside and do things. It's Hek's birthday tomorrow, and I want to celebrate it and spend time with her, and now I feel guilty that I just don't care. It pisses me off that I can't care enough about this really important thing.

[dragonborntatsuya]

Hey just accidentally overwrote my Character file for Terra in BBS can someone console me. I had just beaten his like a minute ago and was going to start Ven’s story

[dolokhoded]

i'm at the library and i should be studying but holy fucking shit i am so eepy . god show mercy on my soul and let everything explode so i don't have to take these stupid exams and i can go home and sleep

[cubot]

My stomach hurts today... -1 -1 -2 -5 -1 -6 -1 -1 -1 my... my HP...

[iid-smile]

its fun to stay at the yyyyyy m c a 😎