#i wanna see her on my wishing screen again sob

[celuere]

Pooks! I just got Zaddy- I mean father, and her weapon, both winning 50/50! Now I wanna give her the nastiest head ever because she deserves it 😝

Is it safe to say I'm in her good graces?

All Hail Arlecchino as we all say in unison.

-🎐

YOU ARE MORE THAN IN HER GOOD GRACES GO GIVE HER THAT HEAAAAAAAD

ALL HAIL ARLECCHINO

[makerofmadness]

think I'm just gonna off-load at least one more while I'm at it like I could just dump these all back to back but I don't wanna be like spammy in the tags too much. Uh fun fact about Holly in this AU: joke I made with the few people I shared this with privately was calling her "washed-up catgilf" so have fun with that /silly

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Gacha Pre-Pull: *hic* Another round! 

Gacha: What's my name, again...? Oh, right- *hic* Hollyberry Cookie! Ha ha... 

Wish: Raise your glasses...!

Loading Screen:

Maybe I can *hic* protect Cookies one more time...

Do they have any juice over there??

I don't really wanna fight, but...

*Yawn* Reminds me of a time...

I'm gonna need so much juice after this...

Skill: INCOMIN'!

Victory:

Ha ha, that was fu... *yawn*...

Cheers to victory...!

Aww, c'mere, everyone...!

Defeat:

I... zzzzzz...

Washin' down the pain...

*sob* I can't protect anyone...! 

Knockout: *hiccup* ...!

Promotion:

Pour out the juice! And keep it comin'!

C-c'mon, everyone! *hiccup* Let's drink the night away...

I need more berry juice! It's never enough!

S-sometimes, if I drink enough berry juice, it- *hiccup* it cleans my mind out...

No Cookie *hic* remembers what I've done, anyways, so why do anything at all...?

My family... *hic* I just wanna see them again...

Level Up:

You trust me, right...? RIGHT??

I can go a few more rounds...

I'm not wastin' a single drop...! 

This one's on me...! *hiccup*

You're too kind...

I'd love to protect every Cookie *hiccup*...

*Yawn* Did my halo get bigger...? Eh...

Berry juice keeps me going...!

Kingdom:

Sound the... *yawn* zzzzz...

*Purrs*

C'mere...! Let me give you a biiiiiiig hug...!

Tap me on the head next! *hic* It's soft...

C'mon! Sit down! Have a drink with me! Please...

Raise your cup...!

Where's the berry juice??

Cheers...!

Beast? *hic* Who're you talkin' abou- Oh, right; that's me.

Hahaha, that tickles...

You can never have enough berry juice...!

Cookie Info:

*hic* Another round!

Can you *hic* scratch me behind the ear...? 

Give me a hug, won't ya...?

I-I wish- *hic* I wish I had been there more, before...

*Sob* *Hiccup*

Passion? Wuzzat again...? Rings a bell *hiccup*...

Happiness...? They put that in berry juice...

I don't feel like getting up...

Naps are better when there's another Cookie next to you...

Ha ha, *hiccup* my head's lightening up...

[kogetaikid]

TW! UTY pacifist Spoilers!!!

Before people think I’m turning into a reblog account, here’s some of my misinterpretations of UTY pacifist before completing the game (there’s only two but Vera with me

1. Ceroba wanted to inject Kanako with INTEGRITY.

(Drawing unrelated, but you’ll know why I put it later)

When playing the pacifist, I thought the Ceroba misunderstood Chujin’s final message before he died, and convinced Kanako to get injected. However, during the Ceroba fight, in one of her memories, we see this:

(Cutting through some emotional dialogue)

Through some of the dialogue I skipped (wasn't originally planning on making a post about this), Kanako offers herself as a subject for her father's (Chujin's) work. Ceroba shows hesitation as it goes against her husband's wish but goes with it so she doesn't ruin his legacy. It made me feel bad for both characters. Kanako was just some dumb kid who didn't know what the hell she was asking for/expecting. She was just grieving her dying father and felt it was her fault for his demise. Ceroba was grieving too, and therefore couldn't think straight, but made the awful decision of giving into her daughter's demand of being injected with INTEGRITY.

2. Clovercide (TW!!!)

(Image also unrelated)

(TL;DR: Due to traumatic reasons, what was just a just sacrifice from Clover seemed like suicide to me.)

Just a heads up! I'll put a "keep reading" (if you wanna well, keep reading) under this because this may get a little personal...

This is still okay to reblog as long as you put the right warnings!

When I first saw the game in general, I though the screenshots I saw of the pacifist ending were the neutral ending. I though Clover got badly injured, or fell ill causing their end.

When I found out the wasn't the case, and watched a short clip (with no other context) of Clover giving up their life in the pacifist, I thought nothing of it. It was when I was listening to the soundtracks and saw how badly everyone was grieving Clover, then going back to places like tumblr talking about how they were just a kid that I started to get the wrong message.

I started to think Clover was probably miserable and indirectly asked for an assisted suicide by Ceroba and it broke me. Especially as someone who was suicidal/had dark thoughts as a kid. (I haven't felt like ending my own life for four years and have been clean for over one year) I've also had to endure the sob stories of mentally unstable people. This all tying back to the very few things I new about the pacifist ending, I felt kinda bad, sad and a little angry at Clover. This is what I would think:

WHY DID THEY DO THIS!!!???

SOME OTHER FUCKING DUMBASS KID COULD'VE TAKEN THEIR PLACE BUT NO!!! IT JUST HAD TO BE YOU, DIDN'T IT CLOVER!!!???

How miserable are you...?

Waiting for that fateful day where I could finally complete the game felt like preparing for a flu shot. I almost didn't want the game to end. I was so mad at the people saying "It was just a sacrifice", and shit.

...and as it turned out, they were kinda right. (still not giving them full credit) I didn't get the best screen shots cuz my computer crashed, but it was Clover going through all their memories in the underground, and realizing that they can't just hide away in the underground forever as a human. Monsters have been trapped for centuries and no matter how many of the monsters cared for them, they needed to do what was would've possibly happened from the start: give up their soul.

What I then got from the ending was that Clover felt to guilty to stay alive, and in the end, the wanted to do what's right. It's kinda getting sad again now that i think about it. Any who, this concludes my post. Enjoy the random screenshots at the bottom that I could fit into the post without it proving my point /hj. I'm currently debating whether or not I wanna go back and do the genocide route. Even though it's a fangame, I don't wanna fuck up the timeline.

[twosomeofcuteness]

DW Season Finale Thoughts! (Spoilers below the cut)

Sorry, Mrs. Flood is dead???? WHAT DO YOU MEAN? She was teased the entire season and now she's just dead? WTF

Kate noooooo I miss you come back

Hey wait a second, where's rose?

Please don't nickname the god of death

What's this weirdo ship. Oh. Thx doc. Aw Mel hugging the tie

"We're on fire" gives me the same vibe as "I'm in danger" and I can't explain why

Great work gang.

Now wait a second cause I thought everyone was supposed to be dead except Ruby (based on the episode description)

goddamn it's 73 yards again

Okay this sutekh stuff is fun and all but can we get to the part where River Song is Ruby's mom and also please can River Song be Ruby's mom and also not dead and please can River come back I miss her

Welp. Everyone's dead ig 'cept these three.

Hey wait if everyone everywhere you landed is dying wouldn't that kill the Vashta Nerada on the library planet? Cause that'd be pretty cool actually

Aw nice the motherfuckers (daleks) are dead. A win.

Hey wait a second, why haven't we seen the daleks this season I kinda miss the mfs

oml doctor stop with the pity party it's gonna be okay

okay actually nvm gimme more of the feral screaming cause that's real as hell

Okay but also where is the fun in everything and everyone being dead? What are you gonna do with the rest of your life now Sutekh???? HUH?? Did you think of that???

Okay okay so Ruby is greater than the doctor that's interesting to know... Maybe cause her mom is River Song child of the TARDIS????? (Guys I really want River to come back, I can't help it)

doc if everyone is dead how are you talking to someone? I am confusion

Oh she dead now.

Ruby answer the time window sweetie

oh damn even the god of death wanna know who Ruby's mom is

NO don't tell her she's human please I need her to be River's kid.

NO MEL SWEETIE BABY NOOOOO

"Love a whistle" is holding hands with "love a tomb" gimme my wife back please

hey guys maybe pay attention cause Mel's not okay rn

no. leave Mel on the tardis please

this is the doctor who show. they can't kill doctor who. not permanently

nope nope, turn that screen around doc don't let me see

yessss send her to keep watch good job

poor mel. Sutekh don't hurt my babyyyy

Mel sweetie you're so strong you can fight him please sweetie

no MELLLLLLLLLLLLL BABYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

don't give him the name Rubes okay you can do it

literally an empty empire sounds so boring like wtf

Doc keep your mouth shut cause baby you ain't helping

RUBY NO

is ruby ruby's mom?

shut up scooby doo

YESSS RUBY

YES TARDIS BABY ILY WELCOME BACK HONEY I'M SO SORRY YOU HAD SUTEKH ON YOU FOR SO LONG WITHOUT CONSENT

MEL BABY WELCOME BACK

OMG ROSE DEAREST YOU'RE OKAY

hey it's that guy who died behind the tardis last episode. he's okay now

alright so mrs flood who tf are you?

yes welcome back the ood!!!!!

welome back random woman and her child glad you're okay

yo is doc gonna kill sutekh???

ah lit death is dead... Can River come back now??????

doctor sweetie it's gonna be okay

oh neat Susan Triad you doing great proud of you. lmaooo not with the tea then

hey wait a damn minute give ruby the credit she deserves for saving the world

NOOOOOOOO WHY ISN'T IT RIVER *SOBBINGS*

I'm sure louise is great but I wish she was River.

Nah that signpost thing was silly

lmao mel just pats his arm and walks away that's hilarious

Doc you idiot you can't take the girl to her mom and then expect her not to go in and see her mom

stop my adopted ass can't take this and neither can the doctor's cause he is not doing well.

imagine if that wasn't her though cause that'd be real funny

awkward for that store employee too

oh thank fuck I thought he was gonna abandon her

NO NO NO WAIT RUBY'S COMING BACK NEXT SEASON RIGHT?!?!?! CAUSE I LOVE HER AND I DON'T WANNA LOSE HER

DOCTOR STOP YOU DON'T LIKE GOODBYES PLEASE DON'T SAY GOODBYE NOT TO YOUR BESTIE

River didn't come back AND he said goodbye to Ruby wtf is this.

Oml mrs flood who even are you leave me alone already.

In conclusion this is how I currently feel:

[mcl4r3n]

dando pre-slash h/c after lando's break up announcement

for @landoisokay <3

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Daniel wishes he smoked. He doesn’t, has only ever lit a dart a couple of times when he thought he could fit in with the cool kids better, but he hates how it tastes, and considering how much cardio Michael makes him do, it just would be terrible for him overall. 

But sometimes he wishes he did, if only to give him something to do with his hands, if only to give him an excuse to step away from everyone and everything for a few minutes. 

Not that that stops him from pulling away, anyway. It’s an exceptionally cold day in Zandvoort and he’s still dealing with the news breaking about his leaving McLaren. He really doesn’t want to talk to anyone. 

He finds a spot in the paddock that’s blessedly quiet, which is rare considering that it’s media day, but he really can’t be arsed to care right now. He needs to be alone. 

Except when he turns his head to the left, he sees Lando sitting on the ground a bunch of meters away from him, looking as dejected as he feels, which makes no sense. He’d think that Lando would be in the garage or something, probably relishing in the fact that his position as first driver has been solidified. 

Daniel wants to ignore him. Sure, they’ve become better friends over the year, but Lando is still his main competitor. He clenches his jaw. He’s better off not paying him any attention. They haven’t even spoken properly since the news was announced. 

But then Lando sniffles, peering at his phone, and that’s when Daniel’s phone goes off, the notification that Lando’s posted something new in his stories appearing on his screen. Yes, he does have Lando’s notifications on. Sue him. They’re friends. 

So Daniel opens the story up and sees the announcement: I wish her the world and have so much respect for her and all she does as such an amazing and strong women with nothing but kindness. 

Ah, Christ. 

Pls respect our decision and respect our but more Importantly and especially her privacy moving forward. Thank you for your endless support.

Daniel locks his phone. Now he really can’t ignore Lando. 

“Hey,” Daniel calls out, and Lando looks up, then sees Daniel. His expression goes from shocked to shuttered in the span of a few seconds. 

“Hey,” Lando replies, and then fiddles with his phone. The endless pings of notifications seem to cut off immediately. He pockets his phone, and looks away. 

Daniel pushes himself up, makes the short trek to stand next to Lando. 

“Is it okay that I’m here?” Daniel asks.

Lando only sighs, lifts one shoulder up in a shrug, and nods to the spot beside him. He’ll take it. 

Daniel plops down next to him with very little grace, and knocks Lando’s shoulder with his. 

“I’m sorry,” Daniel says. “I just—yeah. I saw.” 

Lando lets out a wet little sob-laugh. “How the hell did you—“

Daniel waves his phone around a little. “Notifs on.” 

“Ah,” Lando says. “That’s—yeah. Didn’t think you would.” 

They sit in silence for a long while because Daniel hasn’t ever been great at comforting people after break ups, especially when he doesn’t know the details in the first place. He just knows that Luisa made Lando happy, and had a chance to meet her a couple of times. 

“D’you—I dunno, d’you wanna talk about it?” 

Lando sighs again. “I don’t wanna—you have enough on your plate. It’s fine. You don’t have to like—pretend or whatever.” 

Daniel nods, figures it’s fair that Lando would think this was pity. 

“To be honest mate, I feel like listening to your shit would give me a chance to stop thinking about my shit, so I’m actually being selfish in asking. But it’s cool too if you’d rather not.” 

Lando’s mouth curls up in a wry little smile. 

“I’m gonna—miss this,” Lando says quietly. 

“Huh?” 

“This whole—you don’t bullshit me,” Lando replies. “Everyone else has been just like—It’s okay, she didn’t deserve you, you didn’t deserve her, all that crap. You’re just. . .  you just wanna know. I appreciate that, I guess.” 

Daniel huffs an exhale through his nose. “That’s me, Mr. I’m Your Therapist For The Next Five Minutes.” 

Lando nods again. He wrings his fingers into a tangle. Daniel sees three spots of raw skin, obviously from where Lando’s bitten through the hangnails. 

“I dunno mate, I thought we were good, but I guess I’m a shit boyfriend or whatever.” 

“This sport eats you alive,” Daniel replies. “It’s hard to like—“ he gestures with his hands. “Juggle everything.”

“I thought it was going okay,” Lando says. “We were both really busy, and I wasn’t—like, I don’t know. Stupid. Like, stupid to get jealous over shit. Stupid to be angry about her not being able to fly out. Stupid to get mad at her for being pissed that I wasn’t giving her enough attention.” 

Daniel is painfully aware of how difficult it actually is trying to maintain a relationship while also just fucking—trying to drive well weekend after weekend. 

“Some people are built for it, and some aren’t, mate, that’s just how it goes.” 

“Yeah,” Lando says. He brings his thumb to his mouth again, dry skin between his teeth, and despite Daniel having the same problem, he still reaches out and takes Lando’s hand and rests it back on Lando’s thigh. 

“Your hands are fucking filthy,” Daniel says. Lando snorts under his breath. His hand is still firm on Lando’s. 

“You’re one to talk,” Lando replies. He uses his other hand to tap on Daniel’s short-as-fuck nails. 

“Well, I’m jobless next year, so I think I get a pass,” Daniel says, nudging him with his shoulder. 

Lando sobers up real quick after that. Crap. 

“I’m sorry—about that—“ 

“Nah, that’s—it’s not on you,” Daniel waves off. “It’s—eh. Just. It’s fine.” 

Lando sighs, moves his hand away in order to rest his weight on both hands behind him. He closes his eyes and tilts his chin up to the sky. Somewhere, a breeze blows through. 

“The fucking pair of us, eh,” Lando says. 

“Yeah.” 

“I didn’t—I don’t want this, you know,” Lando says softly. Daniel looks up to see Lando looking at him, piercing blue-green, wide and shining and sincere. “I—we weren’t great, and you dealt with a lot this year especially, but I thought—I thought you’d have more time. To fix it.” 

Daniel tilts his chin to his chest, the words washing over him. 

“We both lost something thinking we still had time to fix shit,” Daniel replies. “Never know if that’s true or if these things are just meant to happen.” 

“No way to know,” Lando says. 

“Did you know? That the breakup was coming?” Daniel asks. God, he really wishes he had a cigarette or a vape or something to like—just have something to do. Quell the buzz of anxiety that’s coursing through him. 

Lando pulls his lower lip between his teeth, and starts shaking his head, before it turns into a reluctant nod. 

“I gave her the option,” Lando says. “We had a really bad fight and like, we’ve been on the rocks for months now, and we didn’t talk for a while, and I just—I didn’t wanna keep making things harder for us both. So yeah I just—fucking—I asked her if she wanted out and she said yeah. So. Yeah. I didn’t fight it. And now we’re—We’re here.” 

“I’m sorry, mate,” Daniel says. “That blows.” 

“Yeah, I’m sorry too, about—everything, and about you,” Lando replies. 

It’s not quite a heart-to-heart, because how much can they actually talk about their respective hurts stone-cold sober while they’re set to face the fucking media for this weekend’s race. 

But Daniel manages to bring his hand to the back of Lando’s neck and squeeze, and he feels Lando’s tension leave momentarily. 

“It’s gonna be okay, yeah?” Daniel says, willing himself to believe his own words. Neither of them know what the landscape of their tomorrows will look like. He doesn’t know how many fake smiles he has left in him. He doesn’t know where he’ll be next year. Lando doesn’t know how he’s going to move on. 

But at least they have this moment to themselves where they’re just mates sitting next to each other, commiserating their own respective heartaches. 

“Yeah, Danny, it will be, you and me both,” Lando says. He manages a small smile, and it actually reaches his eyes. Daniel hopes that his own looks the same. Lando claps him on the knee. 

“Good talk, okay, sweet,” Daniel says, laughing a little. Lando rolls his eyes, rubs the heel of his hand to his nose. There’s a thin sheen of snot on Lando’s upper lip now from it, but Daniel figures he doesn’t need to point it out. 

They both get up, and Daniel’s ready to make his retreat into hospitality before he feels arms envelop him, arms slung around his neck. His own arms go around Lando immediately, automatic, and Daniel closes his eyes to relish in the solidity of Lando, the firmness of his body, the reality that he’s real and Daniel is real, and for the first time in three weeks, Daniel feels like he belongs in his skin again. 

“Thanks, DR,” Lando says, muffled. “I—yeah. Thank you.” 

Daniel squeezes him harder, and he doesn’t even care if they get papped hugging. It’s been a hell of a time. Shit’s hard. This fucking sport is hard. Dealing with a break up is hard. It’s nice to know that in all of that, he still has this real thing, too. Sure. They’re friends. He isn’t losing Lando by leaving McLaren. This feels like a promise. 

“Anytime, Norris Lando,” Daniel replies with one last squeeze. “Any fuckin’ time, yeah.” 

They pull apart, and Lando’s big hands squeeze his traps one last time before he visibly shakes himself out of it. 

“Christ, let’s get media over and done with,” Lando says. 

“Time to face those cunts,” Daniel replies. They walk back into hospitality together, closer than they normally would, elbows brushing and shoulders bumping. 

[rainbowdaisy13]

WHEW runnin on 4 hours of sleep so I’m struggling with being eloquent. I’m gonna do a list to help my brain—thoughts as I remember them

*Stage is set up wonderfully—most stadiums you aren’t gonna have a bad seat

*If you have ever been to MN, you know that MN Nice isn’t what it means other places. Most here come from sullen Nordic stock so talking to strangers requires a shitton of alcohol. Nary a bracelet was exchanged around me, no complimenting of others outfits. The vibes were very much 👀 staring at others and being too scared to interact 😆

*Openers are perfect—MAATHP followed by CS really gets the crowd amped

*Her opening speech was interesting—she made a point of saying how she appreciates that we are so accepting of people in MN which felt like her acknowledging Pride

*She is so adorable and sexy live, very multifaceted —her stage presence is unmatched. She owns the entire stadium and she knows it. Was super powerful to witness

*Over the top long winded Het-splained Betty which was 🙄 because I thought she was transitioning away from that in previous shows—also my BFF turned to me and goes “she just said it’s a fictional album but then literally writes a song about a House she actually owns” and I died 😆 I had never thought of that before

*Which leads into the fact that Rebekah’s hair was in a ponytail flip thing—hairpin theory may be a bust

*The stage, lighting, bracelets light coordination, pyrotechnics are all top tier. Just next level—I don’t wanna ruin it because it was a shock and super cool, but I’ll say there was a point when we were blasted with volcano level heat being in the upper bowl and everyone went wild

*I sobbed the entire time through Marjorie which was expected

*Dear John was the only song I sat for—I absolutely freaked out that she said be nice online kids don’t go after anyone—turned to my friends and was like omfg she’s never addressed that before!! I do think she needs to be more forceful and real though in her language choice. It very much gave Kindergarten teacher talking to her class—which as we see, did nothing given the amount of posts I’m seeing of swifties being like nope don’t care. I wish she could’ve been like “hey stop being assholes online!! I don’t like it! It doesn’t help me!!”

*Daylight was a shock to me—very beautiful acoustically

*Her dancers are so talented, love all the diversity—also size inclusion, I love a bigger dancer that can do a fucking 3 hour set—break the stereotypes!!

*Seeing the screen during Anti-Hero live was heavy. I do not get what Swifties think is happening during that song. I didn’t realize it till last night, but they juxtaposed live Taylor singing on the left of the screen next to giant angry Taylor screaming and begging to be seen. It’s a crazy feeling to see that and be like damn I participate in this dichotomy by even being here

*I took a pee break during tolerate it and the line was nonexistent

*Shes so quick at costume changes!!

*Rainbow stage and rainbow bracelet lights for August which makes no sense unless it makes sense. Why wouldn’t it be a beach seen/waves?

*I don’t get how she sounds so good second night and doesn’t lose her voice. Doesn’t make sense to me—she must not talk day of the concert at all

*Shit I can’t remember which song it was for, but the screen visuals are naked Taylor in a bed. We get a brief glimpse of her holding someone’s hand, and the hand is of a Black person. This is significant IMO for 2 reasons—we are seeing continuity that she’s using anyone *but* a CIS white man as her love interest over and over and over again. Why?? If she’s only ever officially dated CIS white men?? Make it make sense. Also using a Black man as the Love interest in Lover and then having a Black male dancer do the Karlie grab hands stare at each other walk during Style seems like she’s trying to get across this is about the same person IMO

*The show is planned so well that it never fully loses momentum. And the 3 hours goes by way faster than I thought it was going to

*If you go to a show please stay and cheer for her band, dancers, etc. So many people left while she was asking for us to acknowledge them which is rude AF. She’s always known and acknowledged she couldn’t do these shows without 100s of mostly unseen talented people

Overall, I feel very fortunate I got to see her perform Eras. It is a once in a lifetime show. I don’t know what’s next for her, but it feels like she’s stepping away from this version of herself and evolving. I can’t wait to see what’s next 🫶🏼

[seii-fantasy]

Look !I have found a beautiful flower!

(Soji Okita , theres others characters coming!)

Soji Okita x Kanao!Reader

Your big sister will be similar to Shinobu!here we go!

Synopsis: The disciple of the Butterfly estate has been wondering in the amphiteater of the Valhalla . Lost , she doesnt talk to anyone except her sister , her eyes were emotionless due to her trauma , but someone will change her life as her big sister promised

Warning : Soji might be ooc , might speaking about abuse , or violence and fluffy

Here we go!

Lost again in the Valhalla Amphitheater , a young woman was wandering lost in the halls , except that her (Big sister's name) told her to stay in their estate to watch the Ragnarok .

But since they stayed more than a day , the young woman wanted to watch the Ragnarok in the tribute of the Amphitheater but she was lost , she was very shy to ask the people who were in the halls , where were the tribute

She didnt want to meet a god , knowing what will happen if she met a god , even if it was a lower god .

"Oh? Kondo-san ! Look at her hairpin isn't it pretty?" A young man appeared touching your hairpin , you took a few steps back , you tried to pull out your Katana. "oh - wow calm down! Little one! We do not want to harm you" the person called Kondo said

"What's your name ? " the young man asked with a smirk as you throw the piece that your sister gave when it fall back on your hand .

You muttered "y/n" , "So lady y/n , what are you doing here" Kondo asked , as a screen that showed the fight , you pointed and you exclaimed quietly "See" .

And Soji giggled "Aah! You wanna see the fight from the tribute?" He asked as you nodded your head in agreement. "Sorry little one , but we cannot go , they're already full of persons" Kondo said "So pretty lady want to come and watch the Ragnarok , with us? And by the way my name is Soji and the tall man beside me is Kondo!" Okita asked while taking your hand and you followed him.

Kondo was smiling , Soji was happy that someone that was his age was with him

Reaching the estate of the Tennen Rinshin duo , you enter the estate , trembling . It was similar to the estate where your biological parents used to live

And those horrideous persons who were unfortunately your parents were the reasons of why you became like this

Trembling like a newborn , who started to walk . You got out and vanished in the nature of the Valhalla . Kondo dumbfounded of what happened , send Okita to see what was wrong with you .

And of course he accepted , he cannot let another friend disappear

You flew in the nature , eyes teary from all the bad memory that came back

Flashback

"You are such nuisance!" "I wish i hadn't gave birth to an useless child like you!" "Hope you d13 someday!" "NO ONE WILL ACCEPT YOU!"

Those setences that your parents used to tell you everyday , while beating you . You were skinny as a skeleton , your parents didn't feed you , gave a drink for you , even love you. They sold you to a trader and that man was similar to your parents

Until you met her , the one who delivered you from the eternal torture , you've been going through . And finally she treated you as a human .

End flashback

You stopped and hid in a bush , and cried , you were ashamed of what happened .

"Huh? There you are pretty lady , i thought you were gone forever? " a voice spoke while taking your hand up. Forcing you to stand up

"Oh? Why're you crying"Soji asked, you kept sobbing while muttering "Bad memories" he caressed your right cheek and said "Don't worry they won't come back if they dare to come back , just tell me abt it " Okita said with a beautiful smile

While he was conforting you , (Big sister's name) came worried to Kondo, asking him where you were . Kondo sighted and said that you disappeared when you three came back to his estate and your sister explained that you had a trauma due to your parents while she took a look at it , she said that it was quite similar to the estate of your parents , and they kept chatting until you arrived

Soji was holding your hand while saying "Kondou-san! Look! I have found a beautiful flower!!"

Kondou was laughing happily while your older sister looked at you , finally happy that you found someone who loves you just like the way you are.

[tenjikusprincess]

am i here to rant about yesterday’s episode? yes.

WELLLL this recent episode had me crying for about and hour or 2 and it seems like a lot but i had been waiting for this for the longest. i’ve been dying to see the kiss, akane, their trauma EVERYTHING because that’s what got me into them (koko and inui)

well, i’ll start with this. AAAAAA! yes i was going insane because this scene was animated BEAUTIFULLY. like im shocked they didn’t censor anything and the lighting was 10/10. i began to feel sad when koko fell to the floor and began to cry because koko is my favorite character and its over for me when he cries. but yeah this scene was amazing

now, with one of the main people in this backstory. i’ll say it again. BEAUTIFUL. i’m in love with how they animated her and shit i’m kinda simping- BUT ANYWAY. her voice actor was great as well like her voice really suited her.

(also her smirk had me rolling like koko if you don’t share, we are gonna fight)

their fight scenes were great and i started to get emotional when it came to koko touching inuis face. i was saying that i wish there were more scenes with them fighting but i took it back after something that ill get to in a bit. but yes the akane thing had me tearing up

ALSO I FORGOT TO MENTION THIS. THEY ADDED THE OFFICIAL ART TO THE ACTUAL ANIME LIKE AAAAAA IM SCREAMING

this is when i started to sob fr. reading it was sad yes but hearing this broken voice makes me wanna go through the screen and give him a rlly big hug because if this happened to me as a kid, i wouldn’t be able to handle it

now for the part that completely destroyed me

do i have to say anything more? first of all, this DID NOT happen in the manga so they threw it in there just because. I WONDER IF THEY KNEW WHAT IT DID TO ME. second of all, i want to give credit to natsuki hanae (koko’s va) because the emotion in koko’s in this episode was crazy. i wish they both hugged because seeing them cry together is not ok for me.

well that’s pretty much it for my favorite part of the episode. the rest was a bit of kakucho and takemichi’s fight and the commencement of the haitani bothers vs angry and hakkai fight which has me extremely excited for next week because that fight is my favorite. (rindou’s split had me dyinggg like i was screaming and everything)

ok im done BYEEE

[thedanceronthestreets]

Just saw this post on my dash and wanted to comment on this keeley bit cause i've seen this argument made a few times now and i just feel like i wanna add my own carrots to the soup:

Am i pissed off that people keep forgetting keeley's queer? Absofrigginlutely. Am i pissed off that a character can't casually mention her attraction to women and be taken seriously for it? You BETCHA. But the sad truth is that if i asked my family whether they thought keeley was bisexual and showed them the evidence they'd all go 'it's just a joke'. Which, yeah, is homophobic (rural queer rite of passage 😌) and sucks balls. But to me it proves the point that in mainstream media, we've just not reached the point yet where keeley's off-hand comments about her sexuality are enough to make an audience question its own homophobic bias. And i think it's easy to forget that in our tumblr bubble, as op mentioned in their above post, all of these takes and accusations around whether someone is acting homophobic or not (this applies to tedtrent shippers accusing tedbeccas of homophobia as well, though i've only seen that on twitter so far) are so far removed from the ACTUAL homophobic takes that are prevalent in the larger fandom of white conservative christians who think ted lasso is about how to have a positive attitude towards capitalism. Queer people saying 'i wish the ted lasso writers took keeley's sexuality more seriously' are not the enemy, just as much as queer people saying 'let keeley be silly and goofy about liking women' aren't. It's casual audiences who are so oblivious to any sort of queer insinuation that even if keeley were to kiss rebecca on the mouth, they'd probably call them very good friends. And while i think it's flipping fantastic to see keeley be unashamedly bi while being in a relationship with roy (well yknow, hopefully again soon), wanting something more explicit on tv that will cause obvious discomfort in the very specific homophobic audience niche of sports fans and karens is perfectly valid. AND IT DOESN'T MATTER WHICH CHARACTERS WOULD ENGAGE IN SUCH A PLOTLINE. I think many people flocked to tedtrent because people started laying out (very sparse) arguments within season 1 and 2 that could be read in a queer way and now that not only ted is a main character but also trent a title character the ship was bound to gain more popularity as that's just how these things work. But if in the end tedbeard turned out to be canon i would eat my own arm (out of positive emotion and delight). If colin and isaac turned out to be a couple i might worry that the storyline lasts for 1 episode and nothing more due to the size of their roles, but ultimately i'd sob at the tv and wouldn't shut up about them ever again. It really doesn't matter WHO challenges the general audience as long as it happens. And as much as i love keeley, her comments so far haven't managed to trigger that sort of uproar in the audience that would kick off an avalanche of arguments around queer characters and their space in media (and i wanna specify again that this refers to the general audience, not the queer tumblr-residing one that has obviously had this discussion around keeley). Anyway ted lasso writers, let keeley and jodi balfour's character get nasty on screen please 🫶

(Also, i keep seeing posts insinuating that the tedtrent fandom has turned awful and i'd be much obliged if someone could enlighten me on that front as i don't know whether i'm just entirely oblivious in my own bubble of people but whenever i check the tedtrent tag all i see is gifs, theories for the upcoming episodes or people going 'haha i know i have shit brain fungus but what if')

[thesevenwondersofawitch]

Watching Picard season 3, episode 1. The Next Generation.

(Contains Major spoilers for the ep)

The music is so chill, tho I DO want to set the world on fire

Awww, pretty flowers

Uhhhhh, the masks are kinda random 👀

Interesting, one of Picards logs is playing 🤔

OH IT'S BEVERLY!!!

Wait oh found them?!

Oh no what happened to the crew member?🤔

OH HOLY SHIT

NO BEVERLY SHE'S BEEN SHOT

NOOOOOOOOO

Ngl, it's giving Ranger vibes

She's so badass I can't even I'm screaming

She just came out of the fog like a freaking angel of war

Oh noooo, she's bleeding

Is ANYONE gonna let the crew dude out?

OOOOOOOO SHE'S TRANSMITTING HER MESSAGE FROM THE TRAILER

LARIS! I THOUGHT SHE WASN'T GONNA BE IN THIS SEASON I'M SO HAPPY

Are they talking about his past relationships?

Oh

They're talking about a painting 😂😂😂

YEAH GEODRDI MY BABE

He runs a museum? Wasn't expecting that, but good for him😂

Awwww, Laris won't let the guy pack up Picard's painting

Ohhhh, so they're going on a trip, I thought they were going over his Will 😂

*sees the flute* I'm gonna sob it's fine

"I am not a man who needs a legacy." Dude you totally are that type of man😂

When I see that record player all I can think of is Q

Computer: "Unable to determine the location."

"Thanks for your help." I do not think that he was thankful for the help😂

OH MY GOD IT'S HIS OLD COM BADGE

I'M SCREAMING

I have literal chills

OH NY GOD IT'S BEVERLY I HAVE SO MUCH CHILL

"And Jean-Luc. No Starfleet. Trust no one." I'M SCREAMING OH MY GOD

I love Laris and Picard's talks by the fire

Dude, you've seriously haven't spoken to her in over 20 years? For shame dude

Oh, she cut everyone off😅

"You even tried to be Lovers, didn't you?" Man, I picked the absolute worst time to take a drink of pink lemonade, I nearly choked cause I couldn't help but burst out laughing 😂😂

I love how Laris is fully behind the fact that Beverly isn't paranoid

Picard: "I'll be back in a few days, maybe even less."

Laris: "Maybe even more."

Me: Or maybe he won't be back at all, and he'll die before you can ever see him again.

Oh fuck, she's gonna save him a seat😭 imagine if she's sitting there waiting for him only to get news he's died.

Their first (on screen) kiss!

I love that Guinan seals souvenirs😂

"That's 'Galaxy Class' to you young lady!" Riker is offended 😂

"Deanna and Kestra will appreciate the time away from me." Oh no, what happened (what did ya do Riker)

Picard totally wants to ask what happened but is holding his tongue, tho I wish he wouldn't cause I wanna know

WHAT HAD BEVERLY SO TERRIFIED!

So she cut off Deanna, Will AND Geordi as well, that definitely raises red flags since she was close with Deanna

RAFFI

I KNOW THAT WALK IT'S TOTALLY RAFFI

Oh God, the Daddy kink still lives? I hate it.

Nooo, Raffi's getting drugs😭

"My girlfriend left me." NOOOOOOOOOOOO

PLEASE LET THIS BE HER COVER 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I'm thinking it's a cover since she's really trying to get info

Who's the Red Lady? BEVERLY? SHE HAS RED HAIR! COULD IT BE ABOUT GOING AFTER HER

Oh, I would greatly like to kill this dude for hurting Raffi

OOOOOOOOOOO SHE IS UNDERCOVER YAY

I'm so proud of her for dropping the drug instead of using it😭

"I'm not sure about this plan."😂

"It's not a plan, it's a ruse." Same old Riker😂

THE TITAN

THAT MEANS SEEVVVVVVVEEEN!!!!! OH, I remember it from Lower Decks 😂

"The First Officer, on the other hand, I think you'll recognize." SEVEN

SEEEEVVVVVVVVEN!

(Actual footage ^ of the Saffi Fandom)

"Captain Shaw prefers that I use "Hansen," Admiral"

Oh hell no, I hate this Captain with a burning passion now cause how fucking DARE HE

The way that Picard paused to correct the one guy's posture and badge 😂

Oh Seven totally doesn't like the Captain 😂

*Ensign grins at Picard* Picard to Seven:"Is there something wrong with that Ensign?"

"Ensign La Forge, eyes on your station." I'M SCREAMING

Oh God, Riker is totally embarrassing her by bringing up her Nickname from the academy. If Deanna was there, she'd totally hack him and say: "Will!"

Seven's face when Picard said she should take the ship out😭 she was like a lil kid trying to hide how happy she was😭

*Picard tells Seven something way out of date in regards to flying then ship*

Seven:"It's all automated now."

Picard:"Oh... Of course." *Clears his throat awkwardly* "You're going to be a Captain before you know it, Commander Hansen."

Riker, grinning: "Excellent recovery, Admiral."

Picard: "Shut it, Will."

This Captain eating has me uncomfy

Dude, Picard was definitely not expecting this guy to be an ass

Riker looks like he would like to beat up the Captain 😂

Oh. Wow. I really hate this guy

Seven just watching the convo between them is a mood

Picard really should've done his homework on what stations were open

Seven is so helpful

Oh wow, he's even more of an asshole than I expected.

Honestly, I'm kinda shocked they're not gonna just knock the Captain unconscious and take control of the ship, saying that the Captain isn't feeling well😂

Seven watching Riker and Picard go has me wondering what her plan is🤔

AWWWWWW RAFFI'S GRANDBABY😭

"Good morning sweet girl"😭😭😭😭😭

Raffi's lil smile 😭

Raffi looks so done with her handler

Awwww, my poor babe, she's so tired

Did she just get discharged from Starfleet? Oh, just pulled up into from her file

"You are a warrior." The way Raffi's whole demeanor changed has me thinking she was brainwashed and this was saying was the trigger word to activate her

It would totally make sense since we know Worf fights her at one point

WHAT IF HE'S HER HANDLER

Oh my god, Riker and Picard are sleeping in bunkbeds 😂😂

Seven summoned them! Yay

Oh what is she planning

"You're gonna tell me what the hell you two are really doing here of I'm about to throw both of you out of an airlock and never look back." Aw, this reminds me of Voyager Seven😊

SHE MENTIONED JANEWAY!!!! I'M SCREAMING

Oh damn, Seven should go back to the Rangers, cause honestly I just want her to be happy and she doesn't seem to be.

Did she throw the Captain out of an airlock

Awwww, she ignored orders and brought them to the edge of federation space

I love how Seven followed her instincts

"I like that Seven." Same, Will, same.

The way everyone looked back as the Captain kinda fired Seven, they like her better

I feel like I should have an idea who Rachel Garrett is but I'm blanking

OH SHIT

Raffi's trying to get through to Starfleet, but it isn't working 👀

Oh I hope my babe doesn't witness an attack cause that could really traumatize her

OH NO

OH MY GOD, I HAVE CHILLS

The screaming of them is horrible 😭

She just witnessed a huge tragedy and wasn't able to do anything, that would definitely mess a person up

WAIT

Her son's family doesn't live in District Seven, do they?

WHAT IF THAT'S WHY SHE TRIES TO HAVE A FIGHT

"So long as we don't have to move or shot we should be fine." Me😂

The fact that Picard made Beverly a playlist instead of giving her flowers 😭😂

Wait wait wait

WHAT IF BEVERLY STOLE THE STUFF TO PROTECT IT AND WHOEVER ATTACKED HER STOLE IT AND USED IT TO ATTACK STARFLEET

Oh fuck, what the heck happened to her nose? It looks Alien

"Number one she's here" not me thinking his Dog was about to come running with a wagging tail😂

DUDE (Me to the guy who's holding Riker at gunpoint)

Does Beverly have another son?🤔

HOLY SHIT I WAS RIGHT

Wait, were they after him?🤔

I wonder who his dad is🤔

Wonder if his older brother ever showed up to take him to baseball games in the past 😂

ARE YOU KIDDING ME? THAT'S HOW THEY END IT? OH COME ON

The older trek music has me so happy

If you'll need me, I'll be screaming and reading as much fanfic as I can until the next episode.

[ladylooch]

oh a daddy he was made into, imagine them finding out lucies pregnant

i’m imagining happy tears, kisses and more baby making

Lucie and Con had gotten a little caught up in the moment and went all "wanna make you a daddy" right? Lucie threw her pills out, they got a little crazy for a weekend. And then real life got hard with finishing school and hockey season, so they decided maybe they should wait some more. Do it right- get married, find a house or a condo in NYC, and go slower.

Lucie has never had to take a pregnancy test before. She isn't even sure which one to grab.

In a panic, she just swipes her hand across the shelf and buys twenty of them. The self-checkout is not working and she can feel the judgemental gaze of the cashier as she rings them all up.

She sits with the empty boxes and wrappers scattering the bed, staring at the tests in her hand, waiting for Lio and Connor to come home from practice.

She feels so small and wishes she could call her dad to hear him tell her it's going to be okay. Her heart rate quickens when she hears them barrel in the front door. She had asked Connor to come see her without Lio when he got home.

"Hey baby, you okay?" Connor can tell something is up. The tone of her text was weird.

Lucie says nothing, just holds one of the positive tests out to him. Connor reaches for it, looking at the word pregnant on the digital screen.

"I have five more with the same answer." Connor is staring down at the test. His silence scares Lucie. "I'm so sorry. I know we changed our mind and said it isn't the right time for a baby. I thought my pills were working again." She starts sobbing.

"Luc, it's going to be okay." He can hear the panic in her voice. "There is nothing to apologize for." She cries harder because how is this happening? For someone who chucked her birth control pills, she's really surprised about being pregnant. "I am so excited, Lu. But if you're not right now, that's okay."

"You are?" He walks towards her. She wraps her arms around his waist, burrowing her face into his abdomen.

"Yeah. I get to have a baby with the love of my life. I'm the luckiest man in the world." He kneels down to wipe her tears away. "You know I dream of being your kid's dad."

"Yeah, but then we decided not now."

"This one doesn't care about what we decided. They're coming." He puts his hand on Lucie's flat belly.

"I love you so much." Lucie moans to him later that night, when she's finally come around to the idea and they're celebrating. "Fuck, my baby daddy is so hot." She watches as he strips the rest of his clothes off, pulling her down the bed to place his mouth in the apex of her thighs.

[sapphicdib]

Hello! For the rain world ask 8 is a must, please tell us all your thoughts! And also 3?

3. What is your favorite region?

It’s a tie between Looks to the Moon and Waterfront Facility! LTTM probably edges out over WF tho. The music in both areas absolutely FUCKS, and I just…I know it’s a joke but I do love being in Moon. It’s very calming, the areas are gorgeous, I love saying hi to her little inspectors and neurons and everything that makes up “Moon”! My favorite rooms in the region are probably DM_O02, and then her Neural Terminus. DM_O02 because of just how fucking...MASSIVE it is. It's so dark, takes up like, 6 screen transitions, its fucking breathtaking. Her neural terminus is also my fav bc Reflection of the Moon is the best song ever SOBS.

THE STRUTS AND VENTS❌ DO NOT ❌ COUNT ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ FUCK THOSE AREAS FOR REAL

8. What are your opinions on Looks to the Moon (character)?

HOUGH.

lmfao that's the general sum of my opinions. We all know that tumblr user sapphicdib is down horrifically, atrociously, HORRENDOUSLY bad for Moon, so I'll save the rant on how much I wanna fuck her cuz I think its pretty obvious but aside from that, she breaks my heart! Like Sig says, she's caring to a fault, and that's her greatest strength and biggest weakness. She clearly takes her position as local group senior very seriously, as she is hesitant to use her seniority privileges and apologizes that they will be unpleasant for all on the network. She also has a lot of trust in her local group, going to them for help when she starts being starved for water rather than choosing to deal with it "on her own". She seems like overall a good leader, though probably a bit stubborn, considering she refuses to use forced methods with Pebbles until its too late, since she stubbornly refuses to believe Pebbles is a bad person/trying to hurt her. She trusts her group members. I wish we got more insight into what she was like during her prime, see her acting as a local group senior and not in panic-mode, but I suppose that's up to interpretation.

I know that some people think she forgives Pebbles too easily, or is too kind, but we have no real context on how long it is between campaigns to know how long she's been stewing over what happened. As an iterator, I think Moon accepts what happens...pretty quickly. The logical side is that she's already been collapsed, so why keep being angry about it? She knows Pebbles is gravely ill, the rot in of itself is enough of a punishment, he doesn't need Moon's resentment on top of it.

As an older sister myself, I think she's portrayed well. The ending of Rivulet reminds me of when my brother and I got into a huge fight one day and then the next day we just went and got Wendy's and pretended it didn't happen. Her message to Pebbles reads to me as that: You and I both hurt each other. Do you want to play some dominos? Can we just be siblings again?

I love Moon ;-;

[humanrindswrites]

without you

summary: reader misses corey while he's away on tour

pairing: corey taylor x female reader/oc

warnings: angst, crying, loneliness, implied/referenced self-harm, mental health issues, hurt/comfort

word count: 989 words

originally posted to ao3 january 1 2022

It had been two months, three weeks, and five days since he had left for tour and it only felt like the days were getting longer and longer. At first, it was easy to adjust to going back to living alone, but once the novelty had worn off, she couldn’t help how lonely she’d felt. To make it worse, she hadn’t realised how much he’d helped her with her recovery until he was gone and all of her motivation had disappeared.

They talked on the phone almost every day that he was away, but it just wasn't the same as being held in his arms while he told her about his day. And she welcomed phone sex as a way of spicing things up, but her own fingers were starting to get boring.

She just wanted her man.

You're being selfish, she kept telling herself. He's out on the road living his dream and you're moping around wanting him to come home already.

No matter how much she told herself that she had to get out of bed and do things, she just didn’t enjoy things anymore. Food tasted bland, the TV shows they watched together piled up, and she couldn’t even go for a walk without missing his presence.

This was going to be a long four months.

She’d put herself to bed relatively early and was just about to drift off to sleep when her phone rang from the nightstand. She flicked the light on and rolled over to pick up the phone, her eyes squinting in the low light. Her nerves were settled when she saw his name on the screen, accompanied by her favourite photo of them together. She swiped across to accept the call and placed the device next to her ear.

“Hi baby,” she said as she settled back into the sheets. 

“Hey, how have you been today?” he asked her, shouting over the noise of the backstage crew in the background.

“Same as I’ve been every day,” she said, trying to hide how terrible she’d felt. “Just waiting for you to come back.”

“That’s sweet, but you’ve still got a lot of waiting to do.” She could hear his bandmates jeer at him and giggled when she heard him tell them to shut up.

“Where did you play tonight? You’re in Canada now, right?” His footsteps could be heard through the receiver, along with the sound of the door to his dressing room opening and closing.

“Toronto, yeah. Figuring out the time differences is going to be a huge pain in the ass,” he said, sighing into the receiver as he finally sat down for the first time in hours.

“I don’t mind, I’ll always answer the phone for you.”

“You’re so cute, I wish I could bring you along.”

A lump immediately rose in her throat and tears pricked in her eyes. She sniffed and tried to stop the sob that escaped her mouth.

“Hey,” he said, his voice soft. “What’s going on? Why are you crying?”

“Sorry, I just really miss you, is all,” she said her voice breaking. “It’s just been hard here without you.”

“I know, baby, I miss you too,” he soothed. “Please don’t cry.”

“I’m sorry.”

“You’ve got nothing to be sorry for, I cry when I miss you too.”

He listened to her sob until she had no more tears left in her, his heart breaking with every gasping breath she took.

“Can I call you back?” he asked delicately. “I want to see you.”

“Yeah, I wanna see you too,” she said as she sat up in bed. A dial tone sounded as he hung up before her phone rang again. She quickly grabbed a tissue off the nightstand and used it to blow her nose before accepting the video call.

She smiled shyly when his face filled the screen, still painted from the show, his eyes tired and red, sleep starting to catch up with him.

“There’s my pretty girl,” he crooned as he smiled softly.

“Hi,” she said shyly, suddenly conscious that she was in her pyjamas.

“Don’t get all shy on me now, sweetheart.”

“Sorry, I just look a mess right now.”

“Baby you couldn’t look a mess if you tried.”

She felt herself blush and looked away from the screen. Even after all this time, she still couldn’t take a compliment without wanting to hide from him.

“You still taking your pills every day?” he asked, immediately changing the subject. She nodded and showed him the glass of water sitting on the nightstand. “Good. You haven’t been tempted to… y’know?”

He tiptoed around it, but she knew what he was talking about. She hadn’t done anything to hurt herself in over a year and she was proud of it. The last thing she wanted to do was break that streak. She didn’t think she could bear the shame of him finding any cuts on her when he came home.

“No,” she said, her voice quiet.

“You’d tell me if you were, wouldn't you?”

“Of course I’d tell you, I don’t want to hide things from you,” she said, her eyes threatening to tear up again.

“Good girl, but don’t beat yourself up for not feeling too good,” he said tenderly. “If you fall off, just get back on again, okay?”

“Okay,” she said in a small voice.

“Get some sleep for me, you’ve earned it.”

“I’ve sat around the house all day while you just performed in front of a fuckton of people,” she said with a laugh. “If anyone’s earned some sleep, it’s you, baby.”

“I guess that’s true,” he said with a laugh before yawning deeply. “I’ll let you go now, they’re gonna be wondering why I’m taking so long.”

“I love you, baby,” she said softly as she settled down to sleep.

“I love you too,” he said with a smile. “Sleep well, darling, I’ll call you tomorrow.”

[cutegirlmayra]

Prompt:

Before Amy could even take her self-discovery trip and share the story of love that even trumps time itself... her car broke down.

Sitting on the side of the road, she was texting the girls, telling them the trip just wasn’t happening today.

That virtual-scape had done a number on her in many ways... the Koco’s story never left her mind... and all of a sudden... her favorite flower had changed, too.

She started noticing them... more often.

She reached out to a magnazine with an article she had written up about the experience and her own personal thoughts, but that backfired... serverely.

Many were calling her view of love to be ‘foolish’, ‘idealistic’, ‘too traditional’. “what does that even mean!?” She frustratedly rose her shoulders up with her hands gesturing out, looking back at the phone at all the reviews it had gotten.

“I should have never let them take my photo...” she lowered the phone a bit... before hitting the button to turn the screen off... for now.

She put it against the side of the car and leaned back to let her head rest against the dead machine... “... I bet Sonic never has to deal with breakdowns...” Her eyes watered up. “I bet... his little engine just keeps on going... never ending... never wavering... in what he knows is right.” she rubbed her eyes with her arm, before... her strength gave and she slid down the side of the car.

“What am I even doing here?” She began to cry, sobbing into her glove as the other hand’s back rested against the ground with little to no energy left to hold the phone anymore. She just cried... it felt somewhat good to do so... She had wondered what the rain on that island felt like... the one Sonic had experienced while she was all... digitlized.

She looked at her hand over her eyes... solid, not glitching in or out.

“Am I...” she started, getting emotionally caught up again against her better judgement, and feeling the weight of her words buldge at her throat and block themselves from escaping, somewhat. As though... the greatness of those words kept expanding... Before she finaly pushed them out of her mouth to bring her breath back from being obstructed, “Am I even meant to tell the story... of never-ending love..?” She began to doubt her feelings for Sonic, his feelings towards her... She could remember him holding her back from trying to warn the Koco that it wasn’t safe, but she kept pressing on... she didn’t care about danger or stupid reviews online... she just wanted to be with him.

“Am I... being selfish?” That sunk deep into her being.

“Of course not.” she told herself, moving her three bangs up and sniffling towards her raised arm. “I’m just hopeless... without Sonic... without love... Who even am I?”

“Well, last time I checked-” 

She gasped at the familiar voice, turning around.

“You were Amy Rose, right?” Sonic smirked as he wagged a knowing finger out from behind the car. “Tails called,” he held up another phone. “And no, this isn’t my phone.” He chuckled, “No numbers here to grab, I’m afraid.”

“Sonic...” she breathed out, her eyes bending in absolute relief at seeing him.

But then...

She looked at herself, sitting on the ground like a hopeless romantic and idealistic wanna-be of Romeo and Juliet.

She patted her face and got up, speedily. “W-what... well, good. I’m glad.” she smiled to him before turning her face away, looking up and blinking her eyes fast, “Whooo...” she lightly whispered, trying to get her emotions under control while Sonic watched her with a knowing look in his eyes, but just happily started to move under the car.

“Something on your mind?” he asked, which immediately led her to stop pacing away and drop the act that she was tough and okay. She turned her head back to him, wishing with all her might he’d just... act like she needed him again.

“You could give me a hug if you already knew.” she had spoken it all out loud, like a... well, she wasn’t an idiot, but maybe like a crazy person. “How long were you here..?”

“The whole nine yards.. ow!” From under the car, Sonic’s hand appeared out and flicked itself, “Darn bolts and gears...” He muttered to himself and tucked the hand back under. “You got any tools in there, by chance?” He pointed to the trunk.

“O-oh, yeah.” she started to open the back, “You’re... You’re really able to fix it?” she asked, getting it out and closing the back as she looked to where the hand once appeared, having seen him slip under as though going down a slide... he was goofy like that.

“Should be. I made a plane, after all.” Sonic reminded her that Tails’s biplane was originally his own, and she ‘Ah’d in rememberance and nodded, relieved it didn’t seem the car was too badly broken.

Her pride... on the other hand...

“Here you go.” she placed the red toolbox down beside him.

“No, nah, nah, stop. I need ya to hand them to me.” He waved out a hand and then did the universal sign with his fingers for ‘gimmie gimmie’ by crunching them up a few times. “Tinkering takes time. Let’s fix this mess. Ummm... first tool I need. Repentance.” he joked.

She laughed, “Oh brother, I forgive you for making me wait so long.” she rolled her eyes, opening the tool box.

He snickered, “I meant for thinking you could change the world all on your own.”

She paused... her eyes widening slightly.

“... Nah, you need a good helping hand for that. Kinda like how I can’t fix this car without you, Amy. ... Also, screwdriver, wrench, and crowbar, please.”

She just... handed him the tools, but afterwards, he took her hand, “Come on down here, I wanna show you something.”

She wasn’t used to Sonic giving her ‘life lessons’ but something in her got excited that he was even trying to!

She didn’t hesitate at all, she just moved under the car and laid beside him as he was fiddling with the pipes under the car. “Sorry, it’s a bit grummy under here.” he showed her his hands were covered in black, and she giggled slightly.

“Is that why it’s a man’s job? Cause we like our gloves clean?” she joked.

“Heh, no one can keep their hands perfectly clean.” he started to tighten something up, “There we go, that’s what we were looking for.”

“Really?” She asked as he gritted against the turning cog.

“Uh-huh.” He confirmed, “You see... sometimes, screws get loose, cogs need tightening,... gas leaks out and we lose all motivation to go on.” He continued his work as Amy stopped watching his hands and looked towards his face.

“You do everything you can, but there’s rocks on the road ahead. And there are many roads, and the maps aren’t always made in stone-Ow! Emmm...” He glared at his finger, apparently, getting squeezed in on something and flicked it a few times like before, what she saw when he stuck his hand out from the under the vechile. “We have tires, but they wear out and need replacing. We have ideas and goals in mind... but every now and then, we find ourselves stuck on the side of the road, in the middle of a forest, with a bunch of crappy signals we desperately cling to just to read bad comments about ourselves.”

She remained silent, her lip a tight line, her hands coming together, but everything in her heart was clinging to his words... desperately... wanting an answer...

“Life is never an easy road, Amy. Changing and growing... learning about ourselves, what are ideals are, and trying to inspire others will always take-YEOW! Mother Earth!” He bit the side of his hand, having hurt his finger again. “Hammer.” he held out his hand to her.

“The tools are-” she reached up... before realizing what he meant. “Oh.” she summoned her Piko Piko Hammer.

He took a quick glance at it and then looked back to where he was working, “Smaller.”

She re-summoned it.

Another quick glance before looking away.

“Smaller.”

“Oh, come on.” she made it bit-sized and he took it, angling it just right...

“Annnnndd...” he turned it in his hand. “There!” he gave it a light tap and the knob went right into place super fast. “Lickeysplit.” he chuckled, then held out the hammer for her, “We need help. We need people. If we look outside ourselves, we tend to the find the answers deep within... LIke within this bucket of bolts!” he elbowed the car, letting out a gust of air. “If you really want to find yourself, discover more about love, and figure out your course Amy... You can’t just tough it out and cry alone.” he turned the hammer around with a bit of manipulation of his fingers in one hand and then let her take it.

“I do want to hear all about it.” He interwined his fingers and let them rest on his belly, looking to her, “Doesn’t mean we have to be that far apart, though... right?”

She had been so worried... so worried that her experience of self-discovery and action would pull her away from what she loved and cared about most...

She wrapped her arms around him and he rested his head to return the hug, before they both climbed out from under the car.

“It’ll run alright now.” he tapped the side of the vechile, as Amy crawled out and he stood up straight. “Hand.” he stated, as though still asking for a tool.

She smiled, “In hand.” she gave him hers and helped her up from the ground.

They stared at one another for a moment, both smiling with the rays of a glowing admiration and ‘liking’ in each of them... before Sonic let go of her hand, “Eh-heh, well, you um-” he cleared his throat, then coughed cause the black stuff was still on it, and now just got into his lungs. He hacked a second as he spoke, “G-Going back on the-” he coughed, “R-road? Ehem.” he pounded his chest a moment, but felt a little nervous all of a sudden... why was that?

“O-oh, yeah.” she looked to the car... then rubbed her arm. “I think... I think I can now... run alright, too. Hmm.” she blushed with a cute affirmation that she understood what he meant. With another hug, she quickly rushed to the driver’s side. “Bye, Sonic! I’ll tell the girls to meet me soon, that the trip is back on!” she waved him a cute and energetic farewell, “And I’ll be sure to tell you all about what I find out and learn, wait for-!” she stopped a second, realizing what she was about to say.

As though Sonic was waiting for that, he stepped aside and into the forest a bit, putting his hands on his hips, smiling as he remained respectful...

‘It’s your call, Amy...’ he said in his mind, but his words rang true from his heart to his eyes... which she could clearly read now.

Her hand was out on the door,... not having closed it yet as she had already entered the vechile.., one hand on the wheel.

“... Wai...” she realized... this was her asking him to wait on her love.

He folded his arms slowly... softly... still waiting for her to officially say it...

‘You decide your own course.’ he took deep, mediative breaths.

She was asking him to let her go... to not help any further than this from now on.

“... Wait for-” she teared up, “Me.” she stated, “The ‘Me’ I want to be... and will be. For love,... and all that comes with it.” She nodded, though her strength was depleted after that.

He nodded, being serious about this ‘technical farewell.’.

“Till the long time we see each other again... Amy.” He rose his head up.

She said it.

She was free of her crush, she could go where she pleased...

But she covered her mouth and sobbed as she turned on the car and didn’t look back, driving away.

“I will always love you... Sonic The Hedgehog...” she looked in the rearview mirror, as he never stepped back on the road... but remained on the side near the forest...

He lowered his head down.

Then the rain came...

And he looked up slightly, smiling.

“I... really wished I could have shared an umbrella with you, then... Amy Rose.” he gazed up at the storm clouds as Amy continued to sob as she drove on in her newly enriched spirit and fixed-up car.

“... I really wish... I could have told you sooner.” he closed his eyes, at peace.

She’d be back... and with one heck of an adventure to tell!

[pocfansmatter]

I know I'm pretty new to 911 & buddie but I've been enjoying the ship in silence for a couple months & I have a question...

Why in the fanfics & headcanons does the fandom insist that Buck is loud & open but Eddie is the one who fails to express his feelings?

I can see where you get confused, Eddie is catholic (to an extent), was in the military, has a panic attack over a new relationship that results in a doctor calling him "repressed". All those surface level point to a man who is terrible at expressing himself I get it.

But I wanna talk about Buck & Eddie here & how canon shows us this isn't TRUE.

Buck may be loud in his love but only with other people who aren't Eddie.

Like with his sister, when he first starts his friendship with Eddie he goes on & on about what a great father he is & how he needs some help. She even calls it a crush before giving him advice. He doesn't talk about this moment with Eddie of course.

Then we have off screen to think about. Where he calls Carla to ask for help on Eddie's behalf. Because we KNOW the conversation was probably similar to the one he had with Maddie. Where he rants & raves about how great Eddie is as a father & how adorable Chris is before explaining that they need a little help. Carla, well she probably thinks about the time Abby's mom went missing & Buck rushed over to help find her even when him & Abby hadn't even MET yet because that's what he does for people he loves. He tries to fix the problems for them & Carla probably gets it. Understands before Buck might even that he loves Eddie & doesn't hesitate to meet with this mystery person with the amazing son.

If you think Eddie is quiet you are mistaken, he is private. Also he can express his feelings very well you just may not be able to translate them yet.

Because Eddie doesn't say things in a way people can always understand but if you do than you can hear Eddie screaming his love for Buck & you wouldn't call him quiet.

Eddie "you can have my back anyday" Diaz isn't quiet.

After the tsunami he looked Buck in the eye with his hand on his shoulder & thumb on his pulse & said clear as day "Buck, there's nobody in this world I trust with my son more than you." Thats pretty freaking straightforward if you ask me.

Lets go to the well now. Where as soon as that dirt fell with Eddie under it Buck screamed & sobbed & yelled & tried to dig Eddie out with his bare hands in front of an audience of strangers some other firefighters & some not. And no one probably told Eddie how insane Buck went with grief. They probably never talked about it once he got out because under the water Eddie was passing out & Buck's voice was the first one he heard when things started to go black. But then Eddie swam out & the first thing he did was go to his lawyer about changing his will.

Then we have the lawsuit & the grocery store argument. Where Buck is stumbling & stuttering & failing to make his team understand, to make Eddie understand his point of view because Buck isn't actually SAYING anything. Then we have Eddie. Eddie who is PISSED Eddie who calls Buck exhausting & says how much he wishes he can talk to Buck & how much Chris MISSES Buck & yeah it hurts like hell to hear but at least Eddie is SAYING something when Buck isn't saying much of anything.

Then we go to the make up. Where Buck is quick to make a joke about ghosting & Halloween because he fails at communicating well and Eddie doesn't laugh because nothing about this has been funny to him. Then Buck gets serious & begs Eddie to talk to him even if its to yell & say he's still angry like he did in the grocery store. Because Buck knows anything is better than this silence because Eddie normally isn't this silent, not with him, not with Buck anyway. Then they are okay again or at least on their way.

Don't get me wrong though Buck still fails at interpreting Eddie speak too, even if he's the expert. Like in that kitchen scene (you know the one) where Buck admits his failure to see Eddie was in pain & needed help. He even says he understands that Eddie probably wanted to beat the crap out of him & Eddie laughs it off like "I wouldn't do that... you're on blood thinners" & Buck doesn't fully grasp that's Eddie speak for "I would never hit you no matter how pissed you make me." It doesn't matter though because their son is in the living room waiting for a round of video games so they just fall back into their routine.

Then we get to the shooting. There's so much blood, so much so that Eddie gets confused & asks if Buck is hurt because he thinks he may have been shot too & that would probably kill Eddie before the bullet does.

Then we have Buck being asked if he's okay by a fellow firefighter & him answering an honest "no", then he's shaking in front of Taylor, & breaking down crying in front of Chris & all these people GET it. Get how much Buck loves Eddie but Eddie doesn't SEE these moments does he? He may get a second retelling by his son but by then Buck already mentioned the crying & its been downplayed & washed of any romantic subtext. And Buck says how he should have gotten shot instead of Eddie & you can SEE the tears forming in Eddie's eyes because how can Buck casually say such a heartbreaking thing like that? Doesn't he GET it? How much he means to Eddie? Hasn't he HEARD Eddie over the years? Then Eddie realizes once again that even Buck isn't an absolute expert on Eddie speak yet so he doesn't know giving him his son to watch & love is the equivalent to Eddie ripping out his own heart & saying "here its yours." Or that "you can have my back" isn't a proper way to ask someone out. Or that "Chris misses you" doesn't exactly translate into "I miss you" automatically.

Then they talk & Eddie says that Buck is legally in charge of his child in the result of his death because Buck is important & loved & not expendable like he thought because how could he have ever thought that? And Eddie did this a year ago right after he almost died & the first voice his heard in his head was Buck's & its crazy to me that you guys say Buck is louder in his love & better at communicating when Eddie is out here getting legal documents filed out signed with Evan Buckley on them without hesitation.

Maybe you guys just aren't an expert at Eddie speak yet.

[longtimewish]

Actually I wanna do a rank of the final arcs for real (spoilers ahead!)

Shogun Assassination: 9/10. The arc that made me start Gintama. I wish I could watch it again for the first time because some moments just don't land the same anymore; the first time I watched 305 I was SOBBING, on rewatch it didn't hit me that much. STILL is the best reveal that Sorachi has ever done, truly peak writing. Because Gintoki's past ends up stealing the arc I had forgotten how awesome Zenzo, Sachan and Shigeshige's storyline was, the second you get them away from Gin they become the coolest supporting characters of the show lol.

Farewell Shinsengumi: 10/10. Literally a perfect arc. Sorachi's best serious arc, I caught up with Gintama when the second episode dropped and following it weekly not knowing what was going to happen permanently altered the chemistry of my brain. This was the real turning point of the story because it showed us that the characters couldn't simply go back to the previous status quo and had to finally face the consequences of their past. The Okikagu and Ginhiji moments seemed straight out of a fanfic at some points (I still cannot believe that Sougo saving Kagura from falling off a cliff even though he was risking his own life - with her even YELLING at him to drop her so he wouldn't fall too - is something that canonically happened). Katsura allying with Kondou and Matsudaira was one the best things to ever happen in the series. This is the third time I watch this arc and Nobume and Isaburo's story still makes me cry. I Just. Love this arc so much.

Rakuyo: 8/10. My problem with this arc is that it is an arc, because there are like three separate plot lines that have nothing to do with each other and could have easily been divided into two arcs. I loved Kagura's development and finally fully learning about her past; Kamui is still the most underwhelming character of the show for me but well his presence was necessary so I'll forgive all the screen time he had. The Joui 4 should've been on the final arc, loved their moment but in retrospective it's incredibly random that the arc about Kagura's family is outshined by Gintoki's high school reunion.

Silver Soul (first cour): 6/10. On rewatch I realized I completely misremembered this arc. In my memories this was a serious arc with comedy moments, when in reality is totally a comedy arc that gets serious at the end. My biggest problem with this part of the arc is that right after establishing Utsuro as the series' final boss, Sorachi introduces as this arcs' villains the Liberation Army, a faction that not only we never have heard of before, but also that has NOTHING to do with Utsuro. So every fight against these bad guys do NOT get our heroes closer to defeating the Main Bad Guy, which makes this whole part feel like a side quest. My second problem was Baka Oji's backstory because what the fuck was that. Takasugi just having the uniform he used as a teen laying around is always going to be funny for me.

Silver Soul (second cour): 6/10. Bansai is unironically one of my favorite side characters and I will be forever mad at his ending :))))). If I already thought that introducing the Liberation Army at the end of the story was a mistake, Sorachi's insistance in showing us the bad guy's sad backstory proved me it was the WORST mistake of the arc (Hideaki you have a fantastic cast of characters teach us more about them instead!!! I don't care for this guy and I won't feel sorry for him!!!!). The fight against Utsuro, however, was very good (gotta love the power of love and friendship defeating evil). Time skip is def the highest point of this arc, I still remember how insane was waiting weekly for the manga to see what had been of a character, truly a time to be in the fandom. However after all the character are reintroduced the quality drops again because for some reason we are delivered some of Gintama's most unfunny and repetitive jokes for like four episodes straight?? (with the exception of the "trial" segment of the last episode, that was funny as hell).

Semi-final: 6/10. First episode SUCKS, truly a low point in Gintama's humor. Second episode, however, was peak comedy and the Shinsengumi's last moment at the centre stage, so I really enjoyed it.

The Final: 8/10. Does anyone remember what a MESS was the publication of these chapters in the manga?? To be honest back then I was a bit disenchanted with the story, waiting months for a bit of a fight wasn't that exciting. So I'd never truly appreciated that this part is actually good, definitely the movie format improved it for me. Also shout out to Gintama for having the gayest final battle of all time, I was never a Takagin girlie but WOW there was just no heterosexual explanation for that scene. The final chapter just being a series of gags about endings didn't do it for me in the manga BUT I think in the movie it was done better and left me a better impression this time. Also I want to kiss on the mouth the anime studio person that added the five seconds Okikagu interaction that basically confirms that their relationship has permanently changed and that now they are actually closer than they were before.

During 2015-2018 I was utterly OBSSESSED with Gintama, like it lived rent free in my mind 24/7, and while I did follow the manga and read the ending when it dropped I hadn't watched the The Final movie (that's been out since 2021 I think??). Anyway flashforward to the last two weeks, my bestie who also had Gintama brainrot and me started a rewatch of the final arcs and yesterday we reached to the ending and WOW this shows is still one of my fav pieces of media of all time and watching it gives me an immense joy that can get me through really bad days huh