#i wanna be normal and fine and i dont wanna be like this
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✞⛧Drunk Texts from Sevika ✞⛧
[3:47 AM - sevika]
Where the hell are you.
[3:52 AM]
I can’t find my keys.
Did you move them?
Don’t lie to me.
[4:03 AM]
Okay. I found them. Never mind.
You left the light off in the hall. Almost fell.
Trying to kill me or something?
[4:15 AM]
You’re probably asleep.
Good. Stay that way.
I’m coming home. Don’t get mad if I wake you up. That’s on you.
[4:18 AM]
Forget what I said.
You better be awake when I get there.
[4:32 AM]
I miss you.
Don’t tell anyone I said that.
Delete this message.
[4:40 AM]
I’m outside. Open the door.
Wait. Don’t open the door.
I got it.
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[1:15 AM - Sevika]
yo. you up?
wait i kno ur up
u alwasy wait 4 me lol loser
miss me?
[1:17 AM - You]
You just left two hours ago. Are you drunk already?
[1:18 AM - Sevika]
pfft no
im fine. like FINE fine
everybody herez lookin at me
prolly think im hot
[1:19 AM - You]
Or they’re staring because you’re typing while glaring at them. Be nice, Sevika.
[1:21 AM - Sevika]
u kno me im so NICE
just told sum guy id break his jaw
he looked at me FUNNY
…or maybe his nose idk he left fast lol
[1:22 AM - You]
Sevika. Stop scaring people.
[1:25 AM - Sevika]
nah. scared ppl r funny
bt not u. ur cute. like a bunny. lil bunny. my bunny.
u wanna sit on my lap again? bet u do. bet ur blushing rn.
[1:26 AM - You]
Sevika, you’re ridiculous. Are you drunk flirting with me? You live here. Just come home.
[1:29 AM - Sevika]
no im GOOD HERE.
this chair is kinda comfy but not like MY CHAIR. u kno the one i let u sit in.
U BETTER NOT BE IN MY CHAIR RN
[1:30 AM - You]
…I’m in your chair right now, actually. Feet up and everything.
[1:32 AM - Sevika]
wHAT THE FUQ
DISRESEPCTFUL AS HELL
im takin ur chair privlages when i get home.
wait r u waitin 4 me in my shirt 2?
[1:33 AM - You]
I’m literally in your shirt AND your chair. You gonna do something about it or just keep texting like a drunk idiot?
[1:35 AM - Sevika]
ok LISTEN u lil gremlin
ur gettin kidnapped when i get back
ur goin STRAIGHT to my bed. no more chair 4 u.
u think im jokin? bet.
[1:36 AM - You]
Oh no, whatever will I do? Guess I’ll just have to wait here like the little bunny I am.
[1:38 AM - Sevika]
stop bein cute im tryna be mad >:(
also ur def not a gremlin ur MY bunny
fine im comin home rn
…after one more drink
[1:40 AM - You]
If you come home smelling like beer and trouble again, I’m locking you out.
[1:41 AM - Sevika]
lmao ok but then who’s gonna carry u to bed?
face it baby u need me. luv u but dont tell anyone i said that.
[1:42 AM - You]
I’m screenshotting this.
[1:44 AM - Sevika]
delete that or ur grounded
also open the door when i get there
i lost my keys.
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[12:56 AM - Sevika]
yooo
why iz the floor so sticky in here
feels like im walkin on a damn flytrap
someone buy me new boots rn
[12:57 AM - You]
That’s because you keep going to The Last Drop, Sev. Why don’t you ever drink somewhere normal?
[12:59 AM - Sevika]
cuz i own this place
kinda
like spiritually
everybody knows me here
bartender just gave me a free shot for “looking scary”
i think that’s a compliment
[1:01 AM - You]
It’s… something. Are you already drunk or just being you?
[1:03 AM - Sevika]
im DRINKIN rn duh
but im fine like always
bet i could arm wrestle half the bar and win rn
u think i should? for fun?
[1:05 AM - You]
No, Sev. Please don’t break someone’s arm again. Last time you did that, you came home with their wallet as a “souvenir.”
[1:08 AM - Sevika]
lmao i forgot about that guy
he cried like a baby
funniest night of my life tbh
i’ll bring u a new souvenir tonight if ur lucky
[1:10 AM - You]
I don’t need any “souvenirs,” Sev. Just come home in one piece.
[1:12 AM - Sevika]
pfft u worry too much
like a lil wife or somethin
wait
r u my wife??
we shud get married rn. i’ll find a guy to do it
[1:14 AM - You]
Sevika. No. Don’t get married at The Last Drop. That’s not even legally binding.
[1:16 AM - Sevika]
ur no fun. but u kno wuts fun?
thinkin about u
and ur face
ur face is stupid cute
[1:17 AM - You]
How drunk are you right now? Be honest.
[1:19 AM - Sevika]
uhhhh
like 3 beers and 2 shots worth of drunk
and one guy’s dumb enough to bet me i can’t throw a knife at the wall n hit the same spot twice
[1:20 AM - You]
SEVIKA NO.
[1:22 AM - Sevika]
relax babe i won the bet obvi
made 20 bucks
and the guy is buyin me another round
u married a genius
[1:23 AM - You]
I didn’t marry you. Yet. But keep this up, and I might leave you for someone safer.
[1:25 AM - Sevika]
lmao shut up u love me
im sexy AND scary
also i jus told some idiot to stop lookin at me
…or maybe he was lookin at my drink? idk
[1:27 AM - You]
You’re the reason we can’t have nice things. Now come home before you start a bar fight.
[1:29 AM - Sevika]
but if i don’t start fights who will??
jk i’ll finish my drink
n maybe stop at that sandwich place on the way home
u want anything or nah?
[1:31 AM - You]
Yes, get me a sandwich. And try not to scare the cashier this time.
[1:33 AM - Sevika]
no promises babe
but i luv u
dont wait up
unless u wanna be awake when i get there ;)
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#arcane#arcane sevika#sevika#sevika arcane#sevika headcanon#sevika imagine#sevika x reader#sevika x y/n#sevika x you#sevika story#i want her sb
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i feel left out :( <- has barely said shit
#im a dumb fuckinh idiot#AAAAAAAAAAA#im sorry im sorry im sorry imsorry im sorry#but LOVE ME LOVE ME LOVE ME PLEASE IM SO SICK OF BARELY FEELING LOVE#truth is im digging my own fucking grave because ill never truly be satisfied and thats not anyone else's fault. just mine#and like if no matter what i did someone still felt bad? i too would start to get tired#its like my brain built itself to eventually self destruct#i know i cant expect everyone to adore me unconditionally. thats unrealistic. but i cant tell my brain to stop being sad when it doesnt#happen#because no matter what i do i will always feel like people like others more#i will always feel like no matter what i do people will still like others more#even if they barely do shit#and i dont know how to fix myself and#god. i just#i wanna be normal and fine and i dont wanna be like this#please
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secret wars secret love you will ALWAYS be famous
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#xmen#xmen comics#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#professor x#magneto#snap sketches#//draws eriks weird reindeer thing differently to make this pose work// vjELAKVJEALKJV#maybe ill stick to this but i kinda like the 'barricade' vibe of the other option but anyway#mom said its MY turn to reference the famous bridal carry panel#this was supposed to be a quick warm up but as i was lining things my hand started to tremble really bad#i dont know why ??????????????? thats never happened before and my hand's perfectly fine and normal now#like my hands tremble a little from time to time but nothing ever detrimental#the trembling i had today was ACTUALLY crazy bad. had me concerned but i was also able to still draw so not that bad ig#ANYWAYS. yeah <3 i wanted to reference tha panel we all love ......#i draw this mfer carrying his mfer so much i fear i cant be stopped. charles is a princess who needs to be princess carried#i usually draw it like. An Actual Block or whatever but its flatter ... so charles may rest his weary head ...#i did draw charles getting a handful. its what he deserves. its also what i deserve but i cant have that now can i#erik living my dream too tho ..... life is so unfair i wanna carry charles xavier and kiss his head this life SUCKS#slowly being able to feed my cherik fix again we're Semi back. once i finish my work for once THEN we'll be so fuckin back jWRKLJLAKF#ok thats all from me bye bye
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dottore and his segments fighting over who can sleep next to you. (they all end up squishing themselves for space on the bed so you had to leave. they don’t notice it, so now they’re actually cuddling each other without knowing)
with each toss and turn, a dottore falls onto the floor and snaps his back. rest in peace 🙏
#god i had such an awful dream??#i was like twelve years old again but i didnt know i was twelve#so i just went out like normal and my mom sent the police after me and everyone was calling me im#blake.screaming#i dont wanna tag this.#ok fine#dottore x reader#dottore headcanons
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seems like its going well then
#desire mona#media#not watching for my own sanity but as i said to hunny bun ill peruse twitter after its over to see the aftermath and highlights#lets hope this time around i dont wanna blow my brains out but considering one of them is normal im sure itll be fine#wonder what the work atmospheres gonna be like tomorrow#goddamned saint - nickel creek#thoughtsing
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Look at these stickers my brain is literally so huge. God. I love them so much.
I hadn't tried to do a sticker sheet at home before because I knew it would be difficult, and I was right! Getting the cut lines to line up with the print was super hard and there were many failed attempts, but it was so worth it I'm so happy with them!!!
This sticker sheet is for my patrons this month ^^
#like seriously I wasted like 10 entire sheets#normally when I do stickers I get to arrange them on a 'print and cut' sheet#which basically has these black marks in the corners that the machine can scan so it can cut based off of where those marks were#so it gets to line up muuuch easier#but with this I didnt want to have just like 2 sticker sheets a page... I wanted to have 4 for an 8.5x11 piece of paper?#cause of obvious reasons I feel#cause the print and cut takes an inch all around#I'm not sure it would be replicable either tbh? like if I were to design another sheet I would have to waste a bunch of papers again#cause for some reason the individual cut lines werent like... it wasnt like it was just entirely offset or entirely scaled 1:1#it was like some parts had to scoot up some spots had to scoot over some down whatever#so I think I would have to print cut and test again#but. also I did all that and realized. I could have been testing this on normal pieces of paper... I didnt have to use sticker paper#its fine! just makes me feel less bad about trying to do this again in the future#the sticker paper isnt that expensive this wasnt terrible#anyways. might do more in the future! I only have one other idea right now for a sticker sheet bt I wanna do it eventually#not like I wont ever have other ideas. obviously.#I just generally try to only make stuff that i'd actually wanna have so i'm not trying to make a ton of designs or whatever#this is actually also why i'm often sort of... late? on the patreon designs#not late like i send them out as soon as payments get processed for that month the design was for#but ideally id be making them ahead of time enough that people could sign up or sign off if theyre interested or not...#but I just dont wanna make a design that feels procedural... I CAN but I wanna make things that are creative and worth paying for!#so. I often will spend multiple days mulling over ideas for that months designs. so I'm not very ahead at all haha#anyways. yeah these are for october and then I've also gotta draw a halloween themed drawing for this year in general that will be the prin#i lov halloween#anyways.#patreon#merch#my bf didnt get it the gravestone box. its like a nerds box shaped like a gravestone...#and the nerds are. ghosts... its good. its good okay you agree
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Tally still isn't quite back to 100% yet, but she's recovered a lot in general. Every time she does one of her normal habits that she'd stopped doing while she was sick, my heart just squeezes with gratefulness. Stuff like her yowling like I died after I go to bed, her climbing onto my lap while I'm sitting on the toilet and/or watching me from on top of her litter box, her jumping onto furniture, her getting up in my face and sniffing my breath as I slowly blow air at her, her trying to eat the plants, her PLAYING.... and of course, her eating.
I also discovered the coat rack toppled over onto the couch after getting out of bed today - surely her doing. Didn't break anything so im just glad she's back to being at least some semblance of a chaos demon, even if she's not totally recovered yet.
It's the little things, sometimes. All her little habits, some harmless and some annoying, that make up who she is and her presence in my life. When all of these stop, so she's just a lump on the couch, barely eating and barely getting up... it was unsettling. And worrisome.
But I've got my baby back. She's still not super high energy, but she's got enough to feel like herself again. And I'm so, so grateful.
#speculation nation#i had a vet appointment scheduled for yesterday for blood work if she still wasnt better by then#and on monday when they called to confirm the appointment she was still really lethargic. only starting to act better.#so i didnt wanna cancel it yet. but on tuesday and wednesday she was acting a Lot better. actually mostly finishing her dry food!!#and returning to a lot of her old habits. i was really glad.#of course since it was new years eve and new years day i couldnt call the vet to cancel the appointment on the 2nd. bc the office was closed#but thankfully when i called earlier in the day yesterday they were completely fine canceling the appointment day-of#a lot of places dont let u do that so it was a relief bfmsbfm#so im watching her to make sure she doesnt get worse again. but i think she'll be fine.#i feel like it likely Was the same thing that june had. but a different manifestation. and more worrying.#bc june was just sneezing for like a week ish. i felt rly bad for her but she was still eating fine.#and she was up and playing and such. but when tally got sick... it was like she was a whole different cat.#i never want to see tally so stiff and lethargic and refusing to eat food like that again.#i know theres a good chance i will. eventually. but i hope it's not for a good long while. at least a decade.#my baby's normally the picture of health so it just feels so wrong...#and ultimately. i think the trip to the vet to get their vaccines is what caused this. the stress lowering their immune systems#and potentially smth they picked up while they were there. idk.#it was still important to get them their updated vaccines. but God i could've done without the reactions and sicknessss hfkshfnd
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rn i feel like im just flipping between the most depressed ive ever been (which doesn't mean much because im hardly ever depressed, the last time was like 2+ years ago but u think its pretty bad? idk how to judge it), my normal amount and type of mentally ill, and really really great but in a way that sane people dont like and would probably also get me hospitalised really fast. so. idk.
#im always like this but a lot less extreme and lot less frequent#like ive gone from really fucking depressed could not get out of bed to piss to really really good to normal in one day#and im not sleeping more then 3-4 hours#gods fucked off which is freaking me out#i seriously do not want to live through new years#idk i just dont feel great or safe#like im fine rn but idk#i probably wont be in a few hours or in the morning or maybe a few minutes#i wanna cut again but im not meant tooooo ughhhh#oh and im really not taking care of my cuts#like im bad at that already but even less#and i think i hit fascia#i haven't showered in almost three weeks and ive been wearing the same clothes for a week and i have no clean clothes#im really gross rn haha#idk what ill do when school starts again#ill probably cut again i dont care#tw mental hospital#i hope it kills me
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i want to see exactly how many people actually have thought i am for research because ive gotten this quite a few times from different people i just wanna see how far it goes
#please understand while im not doubting so much now im not going to base off everything by peoples perceptions of my online behavior but#i feel like it does give good insight#i just always have a little hesitation in me because i feel like no one can get a full scope or honest picture of myself to Know me enough#to say that i can trust their opinion of me without knowing me enough in that sense#gahh. cuz i always feel like im doing Just Fine Enough i feel normal enough but im not guhh.#GUHHGGGHGH#it literally wouldnt change anything for me. like im autistic . ok! shrugs my shoulders. i cope i cant to anything more to help myself#than that#do u guys get it. do i have to go eat bricks or do u guys get it. my internal struggle. im like sisyphus#i cant trust other peoples opinions of my and i cant trust my own perceptions#while of course self diagnosis is a wonderful thing i dont want to put a name on myself that serves me no purpose#autism is awesome but do i deserve that title when dont feel like i own it wether i am autistic or not#im just so conflicted.#do you get it. do you get me. am i being reasonable . am i just fighting a truth about myself or are my doubts realistic. but the Evidence.#im so tired#i do not wanna b one of those tiktok girlies saying theyr hyperfixated on cooking pasta#Now do you get me#all my long winded rabbit trail rambles out of me before i finally get to my one point condensed conclusion#and now i just cant delete the rest of my tags because of all my time spent on them#enjoy my indentity crisis lol#i Might delete some of these tags later
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#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#yakuza series#ryu ga gotoku 7#yakuza like a dragon#yakuza 7#yakuza 3#katase#hisho#masu im stealing your tag for her LOL itll save me the stroke. plus hisho works as a name donnit fuck it we take what we can get#tbh when i looked her up in the files- or mine anyway- it was 'hisyo' which. dont think thats a word <3 ANYWAY#snap sketches#click for better quality or scream and die#>says i wont draw them again >makes references to draw them again#my in-game-models ref sheets for them is so messy we gotta work with what we got its FINE#what a way to cool down after Church <3#normally i wouldve had the katase/hisho models together but i wanna.... show off the height difference i made up about them </3#i had fun tho... you cant see it due to. CLOTHING. but i wanted katase to be boxier since everyone built like damn CARGO in y3#didnt really have much thought with hisho. aside from the fact she's like ~5'2 without heels#yeah no in my dome i've decided With Heels katase's 5'9 while hisho's 5'4 that's just what my eyes figured out#anyway. i dont have any more time for girls this week i got comms </3 just wanted to doodle somethin quick for meself this morn..#ok bye ima go work so i have more time to draw nonsense !!!!!!!#i need to stop. liking this game series it keeps giving me things to wanna draw and distracting me from projects And Everything Else#BYE
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getting into ben 10 is so sad bc I binge the entire OS and am like wow cant wait for more and then every other series doesnt have the things I liked about OS and even casual fans online say that 10yo Ben's character in OS is more compelling than all the others but theres barely any of him after OS
#how did that episode in ultimate alien when it brought back 10yo ben make him 10 times more compelling#but only his 10yo self and not his current self in the show#but fr it was so sad learning that they immediately jumped straight to a 5 year timeskip after OS#plus artstule change plus recast plus major personality shift plus redesign#like looking at alien force ben next to OS ben idk who the hell that is bc thats not ben#its fine like im chill with just being neutral/uninterested in the later series and just sticking with OS#thats the power of fandom#i dislike his omniverse characterization but that doesnt mean i dont love rook#and i wont stick him into OS as a self indulgent au#theres also multiple things i like about the later series for sure tho like#1 rook like i just said but also#ben and gwens relationship. i love that they didnt play around with them in AF#and doom dimension likeee#i dont like how theyre written in AF and UA but that stuff is bomb#i think it all boils down to me wishing the show didnt feel split up in eras with different versions of the characters#and it was more linear#like instead of instant 5 year timeskip it was like. now ben and gwen are 11 or 12. maybe even 13#it shows more development that isnt just a huge jump from 0 to 100#ben getting more mature is the natural progression of his character but also#its the fact that they gave him major development in OS then changed everybody so jarringly they didnt even feel like the same characters#like theres a reason OS ben is the most compelling#it should have been more linear close together and less broken up in my opinion#pandas.txt#they just made ben look so normal and boring in most of the clips ive seen in the later series#plus not even feeling like the same guy#maybe ill try and watch the reboot#it rlly is chill tho bc im fine with just liking OS its a great show#anything i wanted to see i can just think of in my head myself and now i have a bunch of stuff to play around with#once i get more into it#bc this show is so fun and great and i love it i rlly do wanna stick with it
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Is it a casual thing to get high together and then fall asleep in the same tiny bed ?
#asking for a friend....#anyway... the adventures of foolishness with german guy continue...#i think this can still be a platonic thing btw? to sleep in the same bed#but i have a hard time analyzing it bc i have a crush on him lol#we did do a lot of casual touching in bed but u know that might have been mostly me sorry oops#i still dont think he likes me like that?#which is fine its just kinda torture when yr platonically in bed with the guy u wanna kiss but u cant !#but ill live#but anyway yeah.... how normal and platonic is this from a scale of 1-10 be honest pls#diary entries
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okay look. not to gatekeep but i think if you're a newer starkid and you can't tell me 1) who julia albain is 2) what little white lie is and 3) all the names in liam's got a phone call, i don't wanna hear your complaints about what starkid chooses to produce next
#what was denise donovan's first show? who originally did their music? who was in apocalyptour? QUICKLY#i wanna be clear i have no problem with new starkids who are respectful and excited about the company#my issue is the newer ones who hate on old shows/get upset about basically anything that isnt hatchetfield related/are weird to the crew#idk starkid isnt like a show fandom. its years of college friendship and a fandom built by fans. ive been here since i was 10#ive seen quite a few newer fans get upset about cinderellas castle. one dummy on twt even argued with mariah about it#and idk it just comes off as very rude to hate on a company that GIVES US STUFF FOR FREE when you dont even know their history#newsflash!! adaptations and puppets are like. as starkid as it gets#starkid is not a product that we ask for. the gang thinks up something theyre passionate about and we enjoy#its fine to maybe not like a play concept or point out poor choices from 2009. but its NOT ok to attack the company and its crew as a whole#idk. its just very frustrating to me#just be respectful! please! the starkids r not big budget a list actors they are normal people who work for little pay for passion projects#i could probably articulate my thoughts better but whatever. just be respectful thats what this boils down to#starkid#me yapping
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I was reading through the Webtoons (again) and remembered the scene/panel where Lime claims he caught Corona and Mochi tells him not to joke about that. My actual 2 questions are 1. Is Lime the type to have "Man Flu"? And 2. Out of the Coven (incl Taffy) whose best and dealing with being ill?
10000%. a few months ago (???) the idea came up that indeed lime in all his greatness, can tank physical and magic attacks and then walk away like its nothing, but then when tummy hurty suddenly hes out of commission for days on end. punch to the face??? nothing. got the sniffles???? hes gonna die.
this one is kinda interesting!!!! i dont think mochi gets sick often (and if she does, she can just magic heal it away so shes never dealt with it). i actually think taffy or coco would be the best at pushing through!!! coco has enough perseverance to be like "No. We have a history quiz today and I'm not missing it for shit." and will be that one student everyone hates that comes in when theyre sick and is hacking and coughing the whole time. and taffy just seems like the type to be like "Oh I'm sick? I didn't even notice. anyway." (at least pre-timeskip when life is so shitty that an additional sore body and stuffy nose is childs play)
#oscar is a normal sick person who sleeps for a day and is fine#lime is the fucking man flu one#i think last time we were talking about a really genius strategy would be to just poison his food a little bit to take him out#fucker wouldnt be able to fight for shit#i wonder if he also uses it as an excuse like (mochi im so cold....can you feed me--)#(i dont wanna get sick too.)
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OH????? actual massive W what the hell
#thank fucking god 😭😭😭#xueyis voicelines rn are so weird its like 2 completely different voiceovers clashing#its like one sounds fine one is just straight up not the same character#theyre fixing the biggest grievance i had w playing her im so happy man. like eng is v good overall#so i dont wanna be swapping constantly just for her to sound normal 💀💀💀#waiting until 2.1 is p sad tho but i hope it means theyll have time to polish the delivery proper#but this is sooooo good#bc her VA Is very good!!! but somehow the direction fumbled this completely#havent kept up w sampos but like fyi if u found the leaks sub post about his fixed voicelines. the leaker labeled them wrong.#the ones called old are the new improved ones. idk how you fuck it up like that but ppl freaked out#bc the 'new' ones in the vid are actually the currently in game ones theyre removing💀💀 so obviously theyre the worse ones#rambles#hsr
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Sorry for the uptick in system stuff Im lowkey struggling and need to see system positivity posts or I'll explode
#malik's rambles#okay i know my ass is gonna vent in tags rn so . tw for that !!#iwill never shut up i missed tumblr tags so much wow#itsnot their fault and like . like i dont want to blame them . but its so isolating being and living this way#ill always be grateful for them and I know its just my brain trying to cope and like !! its not their fault but this sucks so bad like wow#also doesnt help that besides how scared I am and how I just . wanna be normal . I feel like I sound insane to other people#it constantly feels like everyone is laughing at us and is just playing along with our “roleplay thing” because they dont wanna bother#and like !! im trying really really hard to be positive about it and just live as well as I can . all of us are !! but it makes me feel like#ridiculous . it feels like everyone'll laugh and think we're playing pretend. which shouldnt matter people will always be assholes !!#I dunno aough im rantingso hard rn . and masa2 wont share which is fine but imscared and worried and scared and aauahhggggggggg#ik the point of the disorder is to hide memories from me so i can function but like . man this suckss9 bad#okay enough of this . Imgonna watch monsters inc i love monsters inc
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