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FILE : Arts and crafts
Your aren't one of the craft twins (DEPENDING) but you like arts and crafts !
its your favorite hobby.
But you know what else is your favorite ?
The shrimpiest of shrimps. SHRIMPO !!! (☆▽☆)
You both are . . Kinda friends ? So you decided to ask him if he wanted to do arts and crafts with you !
" Shrimpo ! There you are :D i've been looking everywhere for you. Even through the holes in your walls. " you say, Shrimpo knows your joking about the last part but if you actually did : he wouldn't be suprised at all.
" WHAT DO YOU WANT. " You tried getting closer to him, like Finn for example. And you succeeded, its just that he still often screams a lot. But at least your kinda there, He doesn't exactly just let people talk to him without him turning it into an argument just because he ' feels like it '.
" thank you for asking, Can you do arts and crafts with me ? I dont wanna always be alone while making . . I dont know, a origami frog ? "
" WHY. "
" because i want you to go with me and i love arts and crafts ? ? Im offended you asked. " You joke, faking offense at the last part.
" . . FINE. " no way its that easy. no way. You think, being suspicious of how quick he accepted. But nonetheless, you were excited and practically dragged him to the place you put all the supplies for making stuff in.
Also, wouldn't he normally say ' I HATE ARTS AND CRAFTS ' or something like that ? Suspicious . . . . (・ัω・ั)
Once you brought him to the table. You grabbed like- 6 sheets of paper.
6 sheets because you know he was gonna rage while drawing and crumple it.
you are prepared for war (ㆁωㆁ)
anywho. You ask him to draw something, and you give him a pencil.
" Shrimpo. This is the most focused you have EVER been for a drawing. " true. When has he ever had focus on drawing or even drawn before. I mean. Maybe he does, but you just never see him do it.
After he finishes the drawing, he shows you. his face kinda flushed, Its a drawing of you ! Kinda sweet. Wait. EVEN MORE SUSPICIOUS, WHY WOULD HE DRAW YOU. Even Rodger wouldn't crack this case 🙀
" IT LOOKS AS UGLY AS YOU. " he says. Yeah, you can't exactly just believe thats what hes thinking when hes flushed, gaze to the side, and the drawing looking exactly like you when the whole time he was drawing, he didn't even look at you.
so its safe to say, This shrimp likes you.
very very very obvious and very safe to say.
©m00nst4rd0ll do not repost, copy, translate or modify.
#mooniescreation#dandys world#dandys world x reader#shrimpo dandys world#x reader#shrimpo x reader#dw shrimpo
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Always - Eddie Munson
18+ MDNI
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I run up to his trailer and bang on the door “EDDIE” I continue to bang on the door as I hear footsteps behind me “EDDIE PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR” I can hear shuffling inside and trailer and him running “EDDIE HELP ME HES GETTING CLOSER” the door finally yanks open and I feel two strong arms pull me into the trailer, the door slamming behind me
“He’s coming Eddie and I think he grabbed a weapon” he instantly know who I’m talking about and we start rushing to his room “COME OUT HERE YOU SLUT OR DONT COME HOME AT ALL ILL BREAK THIS DOOR DOWN AND KILL YOU”
I grab onto Eddie harder and try to block him out “cover your ears sweetheart” I can faintly hear him yelling out to my father telling him that he’s called the police and to leave we give it a few minutes and know he’s gone
I start to cry and we fall to the ground, he starts rocking me back and fourth “shhh I’ve got you sweetheart he’s not gonna get you your safe with me” I dig my face into him deeper and try to calm down “do you wanna tell me what happened or do you want to eat something”
I look up at him and take a deep breath “I can tell you if that’s okay” he smooths my hair and kisses my forehead “you really don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to” I take a deep breath and look at him
“I had to work another shift after the one I was scheduled for it because I need to money I thought it would be fine but when I got home I could smell alcohol and the door slammed behind me, my dad was there saying that I was at a guys house and that I was a slut who won’t amount to anything, he grabbed my arm and started to drag me across the room but dropped his bottle and let go of me to grab it when it cut him I took that opportunity to run” I look up and can see tears forming in his eyes
“When I got out of the house I heard his safe open and knew he would try to hurt me so I ran here because you were so close and I knew you would keep me safe but I’m sorry I’m so so sorry I dragged you into this” he grabs my face and shakes his head
“I don’t care about all that stuff sweetheart I only care about you are you okay did he hurt you?” I see his eyes searching me for injury, I shake my head and grab his hand “I’m okay it’s just that my wrist is a little sore and I’m kinda hungry”
“Let’s stand up and fix that okay?” I nod my head and slowly stand up grabbing his arm and he keeps me steady directing me to the kitchen
I zone out for a second while he grabs something and suddenly he’s standing right in front of me
“Here’s your ice once it starts to feel better you wanna wash up?” I nod my head, he grabs my upper arm to not hurt my wrist and puts the ice on it softly I wince so he starts to run circles on my arm “that feels good” he smiles and looks at me “yeah?” I hug him taking in his scent
“Thank you I would take you up on that shower but I haven’t any clothes” he grabs my hand and leads me to the bathroom “you just use some of mine it’s okay” he messes with the water till he finds it good and smiles at me
“You go ahead and shower the stuff you can use is right there, I will leave some clothes on the sink” I smile and hug him again “could you order pizza I can pay” I can feel him shake his head “don’t worry about it” he smiles and turns around closing the door
I start to shower and the water feels perfect the heat hits me and I can feel myself relax, I sit there for a while and look around for what soaps he has I grab the shampoo and it smells just like him I put a bit in my hair and wash my hair imagining it was him helping me
I move on to body wash and I smell entirely like him it’s comforting and I take it all in
I turn off the shower and use his mousse to tame my hair when I think about how this feels so normal, almost too normal but he’s my bestfriend he could never see me that way, I look to my right and see the clothes he’s set out for me
One of his dio shirts and a pair of sweats and at the bottom is a pair of his boxers I slip everything on and it’s like he’s in the room I open the door and he’s on the couch staring at the door intensely when he hears me he relaxes and heads towards me “hey sweetheart do you feel better?”
“Much, thank you” I smile and he looks at the clock “pizza should be here soon do you want to watch a movie in my room or here” I look at him and the door “can we watch it in your room”
“Of course” a knock comes from the door and I flinch we both still and stare at it “pizza” I let out a breath, Eddie looks less tense “imma go get that you go get comfortable” I smile and walk to the room sitting on the bed looking around
He walks in with the pizza and some drinks setting it down “thank you Eddie so much I can never repay you” he reaches for my hair and I involuntarily flinch I can see the pain in his face and he rushes across the room “I’m so sorry I’m sorry I didnt mean to scare you I wasn’t gonna hurt you” he sits on the ground “I’m not my dad”
I rush up and sit next to him “no no I’m not scared of you it was reflex, I know you would never hurt me” I crawl into his lap and he relaxes “I’m sorry it’s just everyone tells me I’m gonna end up like my dad and when I saw how scared you were I panicked I thought I was”
“It’s just reflex im not scared of you I promise promise” I kiss his head and have us stand up “look we are both vulnerable right now so let’s just eat and watch a movie okay?”
“I should be comforting you not the other way around” I shake my head and grab the pizza “eat up okay we are fine everything is fine let’s watch the movie” he sits next to me and I turn on Nightmare on Elm street
For the next thirty minuets we laugh at the graphics and he calms down after a while but I start to fall asleep, when I wake I feel around for Eddie and shoot up when I can’t feel him “Eddie?” It comes out as a whisper in my tired state and I look around “Eddie…Ed’s where are you” he rushes in and I let out a loud sigh
“You were gone where did you go” he stays where he is and looks at me “I went to go clean up I was gonna stay in the living room tonight”
“Can you stay with me please” he looks around and nods walking over and laying down “always” I relax and quickly fall asleep
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I feel the heat of the room hit me and I wake up i try to shift but feel something holding me in place, correction Eddie is holding me in place and when I run my hand up his chest oh my gosh he isn’t wearing a shirt I mean yeah it’s hot but wow he’s hot, I have my head in his chest and smile I’m cuddling with my bestfriend in his bed while he’s shirtless
I start to trace his face to make sure he’s asleep and smile when he doesn’t wake I then trace his tattoos on his chest I look up at him double checking he’s asleep and leave small kisses on his tattoos and collarbones
He is so kissable I wish every morning could be like this, I lay back down holding him tight again and listen to his steady breathing as well as his heart after a while I feel as if I should make breakfast and slowly start getting up
As soon as I move his arms tighten around me and holds me closer “where do you think your going sweetheart?” I freeze and look him in the eyes “I was um going to make you and Wayne breakfast a thank you for your hospitality” he grumbles and moves us over
“Mmhm no your staying right here” I laugh and try getting up but he’s staying true to his word “eddddieee please let do this” he huffs and burys his face in my hair “five more minutes of holding you than I’ll think about it”
“Okay deal but after I’m making French toast” he sighs and lets out a sound of contentment holding me closer “I love you” I smile and hold onto him trying not to look into it too closely “I love you” I feel him playing with my hair and tickling my ears when the door swings open
“Hey boy I’m gonna go over to-“ we snap our heads over to Wayne and he looks at us suspiciously looking at me than eddies bare chest “oh um sorry” he slams the door and we start laughing “he’s acting like we just make a mini Munson”
“The look on his face was so hilarious but you should probably go clear that up Ed’s” he laughs and hugs me hard one last time before I move off of him and he gets up grabbing his shirt on the way out
“I still expect breakfast” I laugh and he closes the door
I lay in his bed and can feel him all around me “I love Eddie Munson so much” I smile and get up walking into the kitchen “hey Ed’s are you gonna help?” He grabs some stuff out the fridge and looks at me “of course darlin why not” I grab the pan from him and laugh
“Because the probability of you burning something is very high” he glares at me and scowls “hey I’ve only burned things a few times” rolling my eyes as I mix the eggs with creamer and giggle
After two stacks of food and a huge mess we are finally done and start to eat when he looks at me seriously “so are we gonna talk about what happens after this?” I look at him and look back down “what do you mean I’m gonna go home like always”
He slams his fork on his plate “like hell you are I’m not letting you go back there” I look down sadly knowing he’s right “Ed’s I have to or he’s just gonna be more mad” he gets up walking over to me and turns my chair “please sweets don’t”
I place a hand on his face and sigh deeply “what if he says I ran away or something involving the police?” He starts to grab my hands and brings them to his forehead “you turned eighteen two months ago you can do whatever you want we can just get your clothes when he’s not there and you can live here”
“What if I want to go back” he stands up taking his hands away from mine and backs up “you wanna go back there? he’s gonna hurt you or worse and I can’t” I stand up and he looks at me “please let’s just do it my way”
“Why?” He looks at me like I asked him to solve world peace and scoffs “why? He’s gonna fucking kill you and I can’t live without you” I look out the window and stop protesting he falls to his knees and hugs my waist “please sweetheart I’m begging you stay I can’t let you get hurt do you know how much I wanted to kill him for hurting you”
“But why? Because we’re bestfriends?” he stands up again and walks away ��because im in love you I cannot let the women I love get hurt no fucking way” my voice gets stuck in my throat and I smile “You love me?”
He rushes over to me “so fucking much” he kisses me really kisses me not a little peck or anything simple he kisses me like he needs it pouring out all his emotions in the kiss, it’s sloppy and messy but perfect all at the same time
“I love you too, I’m in love with you” he grabs my chin and looks at me “so your not going back right” and shake my head and kiss him “I’ll never go back again I promise”
“You taste sweet” he kisses me smiling into the kiss and I never want to stop “will you stay with me?”
“Always”
#fluff#feelings#eddie munson fanfic#eddie munson#eddie stranger things#80s#admission of feeling#best friends#to lovers#besties to lovers#protection#hurt/comfort#lovers#eddie munson fluff#friends#confession#love confessions#some angst
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i feel left out :( <- has barely said shit
#im a dumb fuckinh idiot#AAAAAAAAAAA#im sorry im sorry im sorry imsorry im sorry#but LOVE ME LOVE ME LOVE ME PLEASE IM SO SICK OF BARELY FEELING LOVE#truth is im digging my own fucking grave because ill never truly be satisfied and thats not anyone else's fault. just mine#and like if no matter what i did someone still felt bad? i too would start to get tired#its like my brain built itself to eventually self destruct#i know i cant expect everyone to adore me unconditionally. thats unrealistic. but i cant tell my brain to stop being sad when it doesnt#happen#because no matter what i do i will always feel like people like others more#i will always feel like no matter what i do people will still like others more#even if they barely do shit#and i dont know how to fix myself and#god. i just#i wanna be normal and fine and i dont wanna be like this#please
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dottore and his segments fighting over who can sleep next to you. (they all end up squishing themselves for space on the bed so you had to leave. they don’t notice it, so now they’re actually cuddling each other without knowing)
with each toss and turn, a dottore falls onto the floor and snaps his back. rest in peace 🙏
#god i had such an awful dream??#i was like twelve years old again but i didnt know i was twelve#so i just went out like normal and my mom sent the police after me and everyone was calling me im#blake.screaming#i dont wanna tag this.#ok fine#dottore x reader#dottore headcanons
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seems like its going well then
#desire mona#media#not watching for my own sanity but as i said to hunny bun ill peruse twitter after its over to see the aftermath and highlights#lets hope this time around i dont wanna blow my brains out but considering one of them is normal im sure itll be fine#wonder what the work atmospheres gonna be like tomorrow#goddamned saint - nickel creek#thoughtsing
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Look at these stickers my brain is literally so huge. God. I love them so much.
I hadn't tried to do a sticker sheet at home before because I knew it would be difficult, and I was right! Getting the cut lines to line up with the print was super hard and there were many failed attempts, but it was so worth it I'm so happy with them!!!
This sticker sheet is for my patrons this month ^^
#like seriously I wasted like 10 entire sheets#normally when I do stickers I get to arrange them on a 'print and cut' sheet#which basically has these black marks in the corners that the machine can scan so it can cut based off of where those marks were#so it gets to line up muuuch easier#but with this I didnt want to have just like 2 sticker sheets a page... I wanted to have 4 for an 8.5x11 piece of paper?#cause of obvious reasons I feel#cause the print and cut takes an inch all around#I'm not sure it would be replicable either tbh? like if I were to design another sheet I would have to waste a bunch of papers again#cause for some reason the individual cut lines werent like... it wasnt like it was just entirely offset or entirely scaled 1:1#it was like some parts had to scoot up some spots had to scoot over some down whatever#so I think I would have to print cut and test again#but. also I did all that and realized. I could have been testing this on normal pieces of paper... I didnt have to use sticker paper#its fine! just makes me feel less bad about trying to do this again in the future#the sticker paper isnt that expensive this wasnt terrible#anyways. might do more in the future! I only have one other idea right now for a sticker sheet bt I wanna do it eventually#not like I wont ever have other ideas. obviously.#I just generally try to only make stuff that i'd actually wanna have so i'm not trying to make a ton of designs or whatever#this is actually also why i'm often sort of... late? on the patreon designs#not late like i send them out as soon as payments get processed for that month the design was for#but ideally id be making them ahead of time enough that people could sign up or sign off if theyre interested or not...#but I just dont wanna make a design that feels procedural... I CAN but I wanna make things that are creative and worth paying for!#so. I often will spend multiple days mulling over ideas for that months designs. so I'm not very ahead at all haha#anyways. yeah these are for october and then I've also gotta draw a halloween themed drawing for this year in general that will be the prin#i lov halloween#anyways.#patreon#merch#my bf didnt get it the gravestone box. its like a nerds box shaped like a gravestone...#and the nerds are. ghosts... its good. its good okay you agree
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normal murder time trio and then the idiocracy that is jk fashion au and the jk!mtt
#why is idiocracy spelled like that. it should be spelled like hypocrisy. idiocrisy#i laughed so hard when i saw this comment on this specific tiktok#i have no fucking idea what the hell hannigram or lawlight is (something to do with deathnote??) but this fits#if the fandom isn't one i've been in then its irrelevant ‼️‼️‼️#normal mttpoly is so damn toxic they break eachothers bones for fun. but they like it so it cancels out#jk mtt would be the SWEETEST fucking qpr youd ever seen. unbelievably sweet#the cuddles are HARDCORE ‼️‼️‼️ and by that i mean they do not get up from bed unless they specifically need to#they do everything together i cannot iterate enough how sweet the jk mtt are together#god i need to make more jk au comics just so i can show just how sweet the jk mtt are#i have so many ideas but lack a body fast enough to give life and a mind lenient enough to approve of the quality#tricule rant#i dont wanna tag this shitty post as jk fashion au....m.m but the voices in me....... the PARASITES in me............#whatevrer its fine its funny#jk fashion au
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i want to see exactly how many people actually have thought i am for research because ive gotten this quite a few times from different people i just wanna see how far it goes
#please understand while im not doubting so much now im not going to base off everything by peoples perceptions of my online behavior but#i feel like it does give good insight#i just always have a little hesitation in me because i feel like no one can get a full scope or honest picture of myself to Know me enough#to say that i can trust their opinion of me without knowing me enough in that sense#gahh. cuz i always feel like im doing Just Fine Enough i feel normal enough but im not guhh.#GUHHGGGHGH#it literally wouldnt change anything for me. like im autistic . ok! shrugs my shoulders. i cope i cant to anything more to help myself#than that#do u guys get it. do i have to go eat bricks or do u guys get it. my internal struggle. im like sisyphus#i cant trust other peoples opinions of my and i cant trust my own perceptions#while of course self diagnosis is a wonderful thing i dont want to put a name on myself that serves me no purpose#autism is awesome but do i deserve that title when dont feel like i own it wether i am autistic or not#im just so conflicted.#do you get it. do you get me. am i being reasonable . am i just fighting a truth about myself or are my doubts realistic. but the Evidence.#im so tired#i do not wanna b one of those tiktok girlies saying theyr hyperfixated on cooking pasta#Now do you get me#all my long winded rabbit trail rambles out of me before i finally get to my one point condensed conclusion#and now i just cant delete the rest of my tags because of all my time spent on them#enjoy my indentity crisis lol#i Might delete some of these tags later
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#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#yakuza series#ryu ga gotoku 7#yakuza like a dragon#yakuza 7#yakuza 3#katase#hisho#masu im stealing your tag for her LOL itll save me the stroke. plus hisho works as a name donnit fuck it we take what we can get#tbh when i looked her up in the files- or mine anyway- it was 'hisyo' which. dont think thats a word <3 ANYWAY#snap sketches#click for better quality or scream and die#>says i wont draw them again >makes references to draw them again#my in-game-models ref sheets for them is so messy we gotta work with what we got its FINE#what a way to cool down after Church <3#normally i wouldve had the katase/hisho models together but i wanna.... show off the height difference i made up about them </3#i had fun tho... you cant see it due to. CLOTHING. but i wanted katase to be boxier since everyone built like damn CARGO in y3#didnt really have much thought with hisho. aside from the fact she's like ~5'2 without heels#yeah no in my dome i've decided With Heels katase's 5'9 while hisho's 5'4 that's just what my eyes figured out#anyway. i dont have any more time for girls this week i got comms </3 just wanted to doodle somethin quick for meself this morn..#ok bye ima go work so i have more time to draw nonsense !!!!!!!#i need to stop. liking this game series it keeps giving me things to wanna draw and distracting me from projects And Everything Else#BYE
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getting into ben 10 is so sad bc I binge the entire OS and am like wow cant wait for more and then every other series doesnt have the things I liked about OS and even casual fans online say that 10yo Ben's character in OS is more compelling than all the others but theres barely any of him after OS
#how did that episode in ultimate alien when it brought back 10yo ben make him 10 times more compelling#but only his 10yo self and not his current self in the show#but fr it was so sad learning that they immediately jumped straight to a 5 year timeskip after OS#plus artstule change plus recast plus major personality shift plus redesign#like looking at alien force ben next to OS ben idk who the hell that is bc thats not ben#its fine like im chill with just being neutral/uninterested in the later series and just sticking with OS#thats the power of fandom#i dislike his omniverse characterization but that doesnt mean i dont love rook#and i wont stick him into OS as a self indulgent au#theres also multiple things i like about the later series for sure tho like#1 rook like i just said but also#ben and gwens relationship. i love that they didnt play around with them in AF#and doom dimension likeee#i dont like how theyre written in AF and UA but that stuff is bomb#i think it all boils down to me wishing the show didnt feel split up in eras with different versions of the characters#and it was more linear#like instead of instant 5 year timeskip it was like. now ben and gwen are 11 or 12. maybe even 13#it shows more development that isnt just a huge jump from 0 to 100#ben getting more mature is the natural progression of his character but also#its the fact that they gave him major development in OS then changed everybody so jarringly they didnt even feel like the same characters#like theres a reason OS ben is the most compelling#it should have been more linear close together and less broken up in my opinion#pandas.txt#they just made ben look so normal and boring in most of the clips ive seen in the later series#plus not even feeling like the same guy#maybe ill try and watch the reboot#it rlly is chill tho bc im fine with just liking OS its a great show#anything i wanted to see i can just think of in my head myself and now i have a bunch of stuff to play around with#once i get more into it#bc this show is so fun and great and i love it i rlly do wanna stick with it
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Is it a casual thing to get high together and then fall asleep in the same tiny bed ?
#asking for a friend....#anyway... the adventures of foolishness with german guy continue...#i think this can still be a platonic thing btw? to sleep in the same bed#but i have a hard time analyzing it bc i have a crush on him lol#we did do a lot of casual touching in bed but u know that might have been mostly me sorry oops#i still dont think he likes me like that?#which is fine its just kinda torture when yr platonically in bed with the guy u wanna kiss but u cant !#but ill live#but anyway yeah.... how normal and platonic is this from a scale of 1-10 be honest pls#diary entries
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okay look. not to gatekeep but i think if you're a newer starkid and you can't tell me 1) who julia albain is 2) what little white lie is and 3) all the names in liam's got a phone call, i don't wanna hear your complaints about what starkid chooses to produce next
#what was denise donovan's first show? who originally did their music? who was in apocalyptour? QUICKLY#i wanna be clear i have no problem with new starkids who are respectful and excited about the company#my issue is the newer ones who hate on old shows/get upset about basically anything that isnt hatchetfield related/are weird to the crew#idk starkid isnt like a show fandom. its years of college friendship and a fandom built by fans. ive been here since i was 10#ive seen quite a few newer fans get upset about cinderellas castle. one dummy on twt even argued with mariah about it#and idk it just comes off as very rude to hate on a company that GIVES US STUFF FOR FREE when you dont even know their history#newsflash!! adaptations and puppets are like. as starkid as it gets#starkid is not a product that we ask for. the gang thinks up something theyre passionate about and we enjoy#its fine to maybe not like a play concept or point out poor choices from 2009. but its NOT ok to attack the company and its crew as a whole#idk. its just very frustrating to me#just be respectful! please! the starkids r not big budget a list actors they are normal people who work for little pay for passion projects#i could probably articulate my thoughts better but whatever. just be respectful thats what this boils down to#starkid#me yapping
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I was reading through the Webtoons (again) and remembered the scene/panel where Lime claims he caught Corona and Mochi tells him not to joke about that. My actual 2 questions are 1. Is Lime the type to have "Man Flu"? And 2. Out of the Coven (incl Taffy) whose best and dealing with being ill?
10000%. a few months ago (???) the idea came up that indeed lime in all his greatness, can tank physical and magic attacks and then walk away like its nothing, but then when tummy hurty suddenly hes out of commission for days on end. punch to the face??? nothing. got the sniffles???? hes gonna die.
this one is kinda interesting!!!! i dont think mochi gets sick often (and if she does, she can just magic heal it away so shes never dealt with it). i actually think taffy or coco would be the best at pushing through!!! coco has enough perseverance to be like "No. We have a history quiz today and I'm not missing it for shit." and will be that one student everyone hates that comes in when theyre sick and is hacking and coughing the whole time. and taffy just seems like the type to be like "Oh I'm sick? I didn't even notice. anyway." (at least pre-timeskip when life is so shitty that an additional sore body and stuffy nose is childs play)
#oscar is a normal sick person who sleeps for a day and is fine#lime is the fucking man flu one#i think last time we were talking about a really genius strategy would be to just poison his food a little bit to take him out#fucker wouldnt be able to fight for shit#i wonder if he also uses it as an excuse like (mochi im so cold....can you feed me--)#(i dont wanna get sick too.)
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Sorry for the uptick in system stuff Im lowkey struggling and need to see system positivity posts or I'll explode
#malik's rambles#okay i know my ass is gonna vent in tags rn so . tw for that !!#iwill never shut up i missed tumblr tags so much wow#itsnot their fault and like . like i dont want to blame them . but its so isolating being and living this way#ill always be grateful for them and I know its just my brain trying to cope and like !! its not their fault but this sucks so bad like wow#also doesnt help that besides how scared I am and how I just . wanna be normal . I feel like I sound insane to other people#it constantly feels like everyone is laughing at us and is just playing along with our “roleplay thing” because they dont wanna bother#and like !! im trying really really hard to be positive about it and just live as well as I can . all of us are !! but it makes me feel like#ridiculous . it feels like everyone'll laugh and think we're playing pretend. which shouldnt matter people will always be assholes !!#I dunno aough im rantingso hard rn . and masa2 wont share which is fine but imscared and worried and scared and aauahhggggggggg#ik the point of the disorder is to hide memories from me so i can function but like . man this suckss9 bad#okay enough of this . Imgonna watch monsters inc i love monsters inc
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Yeah, as a nonbinary person who could get pregnant but never wants to, I find the way fans treat trans cats having litters really weird. Like as long as you depict it with respect because trans parents deserve it, it's not hurting anyone. Plus it's unfair to trans fans who want to have biokids. I saw a Warriors Roleplay outright ban trans cats from having children that werent adopted with the excuse of 'listening to trans voices'. Ok, well not every trans person is uncomfortable with the idea of having children and its unfair to act like thats the case. YOU can be uncomfortable with having kids and thats fine, but just because something makes you dysphoric doesnt mean nobody is allowed to do it.
ABSOLUTELY! Ohhh I have thoughts about that RP... "you can NEVER portray trans characters having bio kids, they HAVE to adopt because trans people having bio kids is wrong!! We're doing this because we love trans people and we know that not a single one has had or wants children! This is helpful!! We're helping!!"
This stuff does have an effect on the real world, too (maybe not our silly little cat headcanons, but the general discussion around this topic in a wider range) When you insist that you can't portray trans people having kids, to the point you ban it in an rp or lash out at trans creators who do so, how do you think that reflects onto trans people who not only want bio kids, but have already had bio kids? That people like them are so uncomfortable, it is an insult to other trans people to acknowledge they exist? That they are an Other, something abnormal, something the trans community should never accept?
I get it. There are a lot of trans people irl who don't want bio kids because of dysphoria, among several other factors. Anon and I are two of them! And there WERE some people genuinely being reductive about the topic and just making a single trans character in a gay ship trans for bio kids. But what trans people are you helping by banning the discussion altogether? We aren't a hivemind. We're all individuals with different needs and preferences. If your dysphoria is SO bad that you can't look at other trans people who haven't met your standard for whatever reason and you demand that they stay quiet and not exist for your comfort... it's time to work on yourself. And if you're not trans and you're saying this, please shut up, holy shit stop telling trans people how to write our own characters or how we should headcanon things.
And to be honest, I've grown kinda sick of being policed around what kind of trans characters we're allowed to write. This attitude extends to stuff like dysphoria, whether a character has taken steps to medically transition (and you'll get snapped at no matter what!), portraying GNC trans people, and more. It's not as prevalent in the warriors fandom, I think, but it's become so nitpicked that I'm exhausted.
#heres the thing. if each and every single gay couple is cis x trans and they all have bio kids. yeah. raise an eyebrow at that#thats fair#but like as long as you portray the topic with respect and care. its fine#hell this is an issue that's generally solved by just... not having a single trans character. have several!#like i said we're all our own individuals and we all have different desires and ways we present ourselves#have one transmasc character want a baby. have another transmasc say its completely off the table and they want surrogacy/adoption#boom! youve officially presented a more nuanced depiction of trans people than most tumblr users can comprehend!#also i didnt wanna say this but um.... yknow. its actually kinda... suspicious...#to say that you can never ever portray trans ppl having bio kids and if they do they HAVE to adopt no matter what#hmmm... why dont you want to normalize that? does trans ppl having kids... gross you out? do you think... we shouldnt have them?#that we shouldn't have the same opportunity as cis people because of our genders?#... there's a word for that. or at the very least... thats a pipeline to some really fucked up shit#mail#anonymous
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the block button isnt enough i need to set things on FIRE
#SORRY. i just. jdskfjdskljfdskjlfjlk#someone reblogged a post. the post is a screenshot from [REDACTED]'s twitter apparently#so even tho i have [REDACTED] blocked here i will NEVER BE FREE#....but i didnt kow they had a twitter so i guess i gotta go block there too#it was YET AGAIN a situation of me going#oh thats a fun fanart- wait. wait i know that art style. is that [REDACTED]. god damn it.#UUGHGHGHGHGHGHGHHHHHH#at least they have a really distinct art style [to me anyway] so i almost always catch myself if a stray post ends up in my feed#i had the same reaction a while back when someone reposted their art on insta#the thing is a lot of their art is fine but#i had enough like.... eyebrow raising suspicion that i dont think i ever followed them#and then one day they Posted The Thing I Blocked Them Over and i just cannot have that near me EVER#no shade to anyone reblogging their stuff tho bc i feel like most ppl probs wouldnt know#but i bear the burden of knowledge. i saw that singular post and it is all tainted FOREVER#oh i already have them blocked on twitter LOL ok. good lord they have a lot of followers#DO THEY KNOW..... HAVE THEY SEEN....#god. one day im gonna start thinking i hallucinated that post but i know what i saw. and it was Really Gross 😭#sorry to be a vague little bitch i just dont wanna start shit and i also dont want to give people The Mental Image Im Cursed With#it's ok i have seen cute fanart now and i am healed im calm im normal im moving on
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