#i try not to be resentful but i am
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It's really funny (by which I mean fucking infuriating) that they've taken absolutely EVERYTHING Luke did in Legends and given it to other characters.
Thrawn? Given to Ahsoka and Ezra.
Forging a new Jedi philosophy re: attachments? Given to Cal.
Making a long-lasting new Order? Given to Rey.
The only thing Luke is given is failure after failure. He's never allowed to do anything, or be anything. His Order is destroyed by his own nephew. His first student leaves him. His last student barely knew him. Everything he fought for, everything he rebuilt, was worthless in the end. He's a glorified cameo.
It's painful.
#star wars#luke skywalker#i try not to be resentful but i am#i am resentful#what a garbage franchise this is#it sounds like dudebro nonsense that kathleen kennedy hates him but she must#because wowie
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Some Batfam Headcanons because the brain never stops;
Jason hates being called "Bruce's Son". But he hates it more when hes called "One of Wayne's Orphans/Wayne's child" because fuck you I'm his son-! wait no--
With the exception of Damian, they rarely refer to Bruce as "Dad/Father". Either it didn't occur to them/didn't see the need to/thought it would be strange. But when Dick/Jason/Tim/Cass are tired or injured it might slip out. And Bruce might just crumble a bit at it
Doesn't mean they don't say it to their siblings when Bruce is out of Earshot.
"Dad said you couldn't." "What do you mean Dad said I couldn't use that mug? It's my mug!" "You snooze you lose Timmy Boy-" "Jason don't be an asshole-"
That being said Bruce says "son/daughter/child" at every available opportunity he can after he knows that they have acclimated enough that they wouldn't be uncomfortable/know they can tell Bruce that they don't want to be called that.
First time Bruce called Dick "son" in a way that meant "You are my kid" and not in a "This police officer just called me son with a brow furrow" way Dick grinned and carried on with the conversation. Later he wondered if his dad wouldn't like someone else calling him Son; but Dick thinks about the life he was given because of Bruce and thinks maybe his dad wouldn't mind.
Calling Jason "son" is a hit or miss situation, even before he died. The first time it happened he was confused, he didnt think that was the relationship they had and it made everything change for him. He got frustrated--not angry--with himself and Bruce at this sudden emotional turmoil. Wasn't he just the kid Bruce picked up in an alleyway? Wasn't he just some street rat in bright Robin clothing? (He lets himself believe that he can be Bruce's son. If for only a little while).
Tim cries after Bruce is out of earshot, it would've been a year or so after his parents died and he was adopted. He didn't think he could have been wanted like that again. Even if you think the Drake's had A+ Parenting or not, I don't think he would have gotten a lot of confirmation of being wanted otherwise.
Cass smiles, emotions carefully concealed under her expression. She's grateful she found Bruce and he doesn't mention it if she leans a bit closer in a request for closeness.
Damian doesn't expect anything less, he only appears satisfied. But also relieved that he has gotten the confirmation that yes, Bruce wants and accepts him.
EDIT 10/11; hiii, i have added Duke, Steph & a Bonus in a reblog you can find on the same blog under my 'batfamily headcanons' / 'sore rambles' tag. have fun :)
#these are just my thoughts#they dont have to align with your own!#i am also trying to find a healthy balance between being emotional and being Angry for jason--#he wasnt the angry robin dammit! maybe emotional and a bit more physical but cmon#points at Dick 'Eldest Daughter Syndrome' Grayson#when dick gets older i would imagine that he would resent being called anything in relation to bruce#if its just for his angst phase when he first becomes nightwing or if hes dealing with his own identity/or going through a fight w bruce#i also find the father / son dynamic with dick & damian interesting so i might ponder on that a bit more#also giving tim insecurity issues about where he fits in with the batfam is important to my soul (i have problems)#sore rambles#lotuspowder rambles#batfam#dcu#bruce wayne#dick grayson#jason todd#tim drake#cassandra cain#damian wayne#batfam headcanons#dc headcanon#headcanon#batkids#batkids headcanon#HI IF YOURE LOOKI
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i love riize dearly and i adore the loving side of this fandom more than anything. i've been a sungtaro stan since nct, crushing on eunseok since his sm rookies era, witness the addition of wonbin, sohee, and anton, and i've seen seunghan grow from being a shy kid into an important member of his own group. those were genuinely the happiest moments for me and i'm sure a lot of people share the same even if they haven't been around for as long as others have.
it baffles me to think that there are people out there that call themselves a briize but would push a member of riize to the point of leaving. in the end, all seunghan thought about was the group and the fans. he didn't want to cause harm, even though he never did anything that warrants this kind of reaction
i respect seunghan's decision because i would never dare put him in that awful situation ever again. he deserves better than this. the treatment he's received is worse than any criminal that has walked through the streets ever has. kbriizes truly don't deserve the group that they stan and they never will.
i love riize, i truly do, but i can't stomach being in this fandom. i want to continue writing for them and i'm sure i'll be fine in a few days,, but this is taking a lot out of me.
i hope everyone prioritizes their health above anything else, take a break and step away if needed. i'll try to be present in case anyone wants to rant <3 until then, i will be waiting for the day when i can freely laugh and enjoy riize as six.
#ddolposts#wrote this with tears in my eyes#i love you all <3#you're all so sweet and im sorry this is happening#hope everyone takes all the time they need#i wouldn't blame anyone if they become resentful#i know i am#i'll still try to finish the kinktober posts (i know this is the worst way to announce that)
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I think it would be really funny if rin was the more helpful one around his house. Like u would think rin would be the disrespectful one who always bails on housework or mass but its actually yukio who would always have an excuse not to go or forget about chores to the point that rin just does them instinctively now
#this post lagged my phone so bad i had to save it as a draft and switch it to my computer#god is trying to stop me from spreading my 'yukio is an atheist' ideals#anyway this extends to when they live together and when they are adults to the point that rin comes over and does all the chores for yukio#cuz this created an oroboros since rin always did them as a kid now yukio doesnt have them in his brain#he tries his best tho he would neveradmit (at least in highschool) that hes kind of a boyfailure at housework#rin is a homemaker this is my truth#rin is like kinda resentful but not enough to act on it and its so deep down he doesnt even realize its there#like yeah its kinda fucked up that he would ask yukio for help setting things up for mass or doing the laundry but yukio has a busy scedule#and hes wayy smarter than rin so obviously he shouldnt waste his time on stuff like that but rin would never voice those in a negative way#rin doesnt hate helping his brother tho if yukio asked him to come over and clean his house everyday forever he would probably do it#its just the principal of yukio being a perfect angel and rin not getting any credit cuz hes doing 'thankless jobs'#and yukio kinda feels bad even tho he really did have things to do he just couldnt tell rin cuz it was exorcist work#im just writing fanfiction now#accept my okumura twin fanfiction headcanons#blue exorcist#ao no exorcist#yukio okumura#rin okumura#'blue exorcist' 'ao no exorcist' yukio okumura' 'rin okumura' are my most used tags on tumblr#am i in your hearts yet blue exorcist tumbr?🥺
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one thing I have learned about being poor is that you cannot for a moment stop thinking about it
#theres no peace#every little thing reminds me we are poor#seeing friends having electricity wifi heat food gas. it all costs money. and bills and fees and charges happen all the damn time#im constantly worried that i am measing up somehow or im not keeping track of my finances properly#the person handling our disability assistance application keeps coming back with question after question about my job#and i have so much doubt and fear that ive made some mistake in my answers that will disqualify us from support#and theres this sick backwards stupid thing where applying for and being on disability support is discouraging me from trying to make money#because the more i make the less likely we'll get support but i need to make money to live#its just fucked. and once we're on support i have to make monthly reports of my income so ill feel like im explaining myself all the fuckin#time#cus the system isnt built in a way that makes sense for self employed ppl who have business expenses to account for#sorry for the ranting i cant sleep#truly truly i think poverty is making me a worse persin#more anxious more resentful more jealous more miserable more spiteful#i have so little and there is so little i can do to help it#i want things in a more desparate and even childish way than i used to eant things#spend a lot more time fantasizing about magically having expendable income#not to mention the constant exponential guilt that comes from asking for help or recieving help. its guilt i need to unlearn but i feel it
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every time I hear someone say "oh you have to listen to Dear Evan Hansen it has such good mental health representation" I cry in Next to Normal
#next to normal#and yes this is based on a true story#generally I dont try to juck anyones jum so I of course didn't tell that person what I was thinking at that moment#and if someone found Dear Evan Hansen a useful text in terms of their own mental health journey who am I to discredit that#but this is the internet and I am back on the ntn train#in a way it is my saf autumn musical#and yes I am a survior of the 2017 Tony Awards why were you asking?#no but seriously#it is so interesting how many narrative devices Dear Evan Hansen took from Next to Normal#but turned them into a less complete piece#like Gabe in ntn is a representation of unadressed grief and trauma and the family has to accept that he will never be really gone#and connor is just...idk not fully thought out?#idk I'm rambling#but also#how the love story between Henry and Natalie means something#Natalie sees her parent's relationship and desperately doesn't want that for herself and Henry at the same time also stand for#a piece of normalcy that seems attainable#you don't sit there and think hu why is there this completely separate love story thrown in there?#it mirrors the problems#and dear evan hansen#do I even have to say it#I thnk the thing I resent it most for is that it has a love story#naja#I'm of listening to net to normal some more#sorry I someone who really likes deh stumbles accross this#I feel like espechially musicals can be something that can be so personal#and I don't actually want to contribute to more stuff like#ew why do you like this when theres xyz that is so much better or morally purer or whatever#I guess what I do want to say is: if I had a nickle for everytime they made a musical about mental health where theres a ghost on stage and#the sister of the dead kid falls in love with a funny guy while her family is falling apart
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You used to be my rival!
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#Poorly drawn MDZS#MDZS#wei wuxian#lan wangji#season 1#If you caught the mbmbam reference you're a real one#This one was fun! I enjoyed trying to figure out a background and while i still have a ways to go I think it adds to the panel a lot#This scene doesn't quite play out with lwj doing the sleepy head on the shoulder#but the audio drama makes it ambiguous for a few seconds and *I* want to believe#Also rip to wwx you should have paid more attention to how close you were sitting to your frenemy#Watch out! He's touch starved and pining after you!! Noooo he cant hear us he's playing with corpse parts!!!#I think it would be funny if the resentful limb was stuck in a resentful pose. Might keep the joke up so we can get to 4x middle finger NJM#After this its Cloud Recess flashback time! Lets go Teens!#Edit: I live in a place that still has daylight savings so this is the new queue posting time. Yes I am miserable#Currently making this note and feeling like LWJ in this comic (sleepy)
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Some recent thoughts about nonhumanity and my relationship to the community + my personal relationship with it that I cleaned up, my writing style is a bit disjointed, I would like to share more of my writing, if anyone would be interested in seeing that :)
#I have a lot of thoughts about nonhumanity that I don’t know how to share#feel like there is such a communal focus on misinfo and easily digestible “content”#that there’s no space to talk about anything else that no one would care to look.#Not that there is anything wrong with that focus and not to say that I am exempt from participating in it!#I just don’t want that to be what represents me and the only way I engage in this community yk?#I want to spend most of my time talking to people who I have similar experiences to#not explaining things to people that are new to the space or just coming into their identities#which again there’s nothing wrong with that! everybody starts somewhere#(again I’m not an exception lol!)#I also have some misplaced resentment that I need to sort out I think idk it’s hard to sort.#It’s also hard to be okay with caring this much about stuff like this at all#i try not to be embarrassed i am anyway.#It comes with the territory of having mental stuff I guess lol can’t help being a freak!#nonhumanity#therian#canine therian#therianthropy#otherkin#therian art#nonhuman#dog therian#alterhuman#therian community#nonhuman community#coyote therian#kin#coyote kin#canine kin
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god we need to bring crackfic back. or just short and idiotic ideas that wouldn’t happen but would be funny to read
#i just had a vivid imagination of geralt’s company having a pillow fight#setting and timeframe: september 10ish. in riverdell aka transriver#dandelion hits geralt with his bedroll pillow (a quite flat thing and not very comfortable but what are you to do) for levity#it’s a game of a bygone time. a mild pillow fight is plausible between geralt and dandelion in the short stories#cahir comments . wow … really dandelion … this is so juvenile … i haven’t done a pillow fight since i was 10 … it’s for kids…#dandelion’s response: pillow to the face. immediate vicovarian reaction: dandelion razed harder by his pillow than cintra by nilfgaard#dandelion screams ear-curdlingly (you’d imagine someone was being murdered in this swamp)#geralt (still at this moment in time resentful of cahir) leaps and attacks him with his pillow#geralt and cahir spar with pillows like swords but get to smothering each other quickly#milva (see this is foreshadowing for like two weeks days later) had enough and starts pillowing the both of them#she also had not said literally anything for the past week so this is a surprise that she would involve herself#dandelion hits milva on the ass (with his pillow…) she nearly kills him#geralt and cahir try to save dandelion etc#regis has been watching all of this like 🫤#geralt (better mood now) asks him why he is not getting involved.#regis: ‘what… ought i to be doing’#geralt: ‘helping me smack cahir with pillows’#regis doesn’t even sleep with a pillow. dandelion calls out he probably has an extra on his bedroll. milva screams at regis don’t touch that#regis psychoanalyzes they are relieving their stresses and anxieties in a social bonding ritual involving play fighting#which is likely of primal origin in simian social troupes but i digress#regis reasons he doesn’t have latent quarrels with anyone in the group so it would be pointless for him to join#cahir is like well i like everybody here and i still am smacking dandelion with a pillow 😐#milva reasons just imagine someone you hate on the other end. she imagined beating the crap out of her stepfather 👍#regis still reluctant to join | geralt gets an idea and smiles—imagine the guy who coined the term ‘undead’#wrath of eons unleashed#regis after knocking geralt off his feet with a pillow: am i doing it right ☺️#meanwhile nilfgaardian spy watching them from the bushes:#‘i was going to report on them but it looks as though they’ve all gone insane’#‘or maybe they were like that all along’#the elbow-high diaries
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Look a Ninjago drawing :)
#lego ninjago#ninjago#pixal ninjago#ninjago pixal#lego ninjago pixal#pixal#pixal borg#ninjago art#ninjago fanart#my art#I have a feeling you don't actually believe you are good at what you're doing#that's what my therapist said to me last week#and that made me think#when did I started resenting what always made me happy? Because all I feel is that no matter how much I try I'm never happy#I'm in a place where I'll start to get nightmares every time I post something#Don't get me wrong I am so grateful for all the support you guys gave me and I feel really happy with the friends I got here#but things are not balanced#I have been doing art for such a short time and I can see how much I have improved#but if I am not happy with my own art I see no reason to keep doing it#I've only been drawing and getting better because you gave me so much support but the support is not working now#because no matter what I'll never be satisfied with myself#I know I will hate this drawing the moment I post it but everyone following me is a follower because of ninjago and I can't ignore that#So for y'all a drawing
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hands down the funniest reaction to an I love you text is “are you okay”
#yes I AM okay no I HAVEN’T fucked up soemthing so badly I’m trying to butter you up first#and frankly. I resent the implication that I would ever in my life—#willow’s wastebin tagxon
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Roxas: Had the Halloween town kids throw bombs in his face for multiple missions in a row before finally breaking down and smacking them around a bit.
Ventus: The dwarves were rude and refused to talk to him, immediately resorted to chasing them down and whacking them.
Characterization I see frequently: Ah, yes, Roxas is the one always willing to throw hands and Ventus is a smol sunshine boy.
#kh#kingdom hearts#these are really silly examples but the point stands!#in fact I think it expands when you look at their full screen-time#I am once again begging people to watch a full let's play of Days#don't get me wrong Ventus IS brightness and sunshine#but he also has the energy of a chihuahua ready to fight the world and I will stand by that#where as Roxas will tend to just try to avoid it until he Very Much Can't#now I think Roxas does BITTERNESS better than Ventus or Sora#but bitterness is not temper#in fact bitterness is usually negative emotions left on the backburner until the resentment caves in on itself#I suppose this is up to interpretation but from my reading...#a lot of times Ventus seems to burn out his anger then let it go#whereas Roxas doesn't do anything with the emotions until he/the situation self-destructs catastrophically so it ends up being nastier#but on the day-to-day?#yeah no Ventus is going to be the one reacting first#you can also exchange Sora for Ventus for some of these arguments#though I think he lands somewhere between Ventus and Roxas for short-temperedness#all this is more complicated than this reductive commentary of course#you have to take in how and in what orders the characters were introduced and marketed#the difficulty of getting the handheld games historically and the biases that set in before they were easily accessed#not to mention stock archetypes for fandom joke set-ups that then perpetuate the characterization...#like there's a LOT to how this came to be#but it Gets To Me sometimes#yza talks about a thing
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so I heard you wanna talk religion in ttpd! let’s talk I Can Fix Him (No Really I Can).
“they shake their heads saying ‘God help her’ when I tell ‘em he’s my man.” this isn’t the outright controlling judgment of the saboteurs in But Daddy I Love Him. nobody is trying to tell her what to do or force her to break up. this is a simple admission that the situation she’s in is difficult, that she’s chosen a hard path and needs help. and what is her response? “your good Lord doesn’t need to lift a finger, I can fix him, no really I can.” she admits salvation is needed. but Taylor is casting herself as the savior. she doesn’t need any help, any grace, any divine assistance. in fact, she doubles down: “only I can”. she and she alone has the power to reform this man, because of the love between them. it’s reminiscent of False God, except now the idol isn’t their love, it’s just her. she’s going to save him.
what’s interesting to me is we don’t know how the themes of salvation would have been recapitulated in light of the reversal at the end of the song, “whoa maybe I can’t”, because the song ends there. maybe she can’t fix him because he is ultimately unfixable, irredeemable, worthless. or maybe she can’t fix him because she’s not God. and honestly, I think the song is meant to leave us wondering. she’s waking up to reality, but is the reality his smallness of soul or her power trip?
so what is the blatant Christian language in this song for? is it telling us that Christianity is evil for implanting the idea of redemption into our minds when it doesn’t really exist? or is it a hint that trying to become our own gods, even with the best of intentions, is a pathway that leads only to death?
#I think a lot of women do have resentment toward their Christian upbringing precisely because they absorbed this idea of saving a fallen man#but what we have to recognize is#Christianity does not teach that women are supposed to save men!!#Christianity teaches that we are all saved by Christ!!#and so the answer is actually to go deeper into Christianity not to flee from it#and it’s interesting to me that this song doesn’t outright contradict that!!#the song is not about the psychology of trying to fix someone#it’s about the theology of it#Taylor explicitly paints herself as Savior and not psychiatrist#she would have died for his sins!!!!!#and so we can talk all day long about the foolishness of trying to fix someone#but Taylor paints a picture of an even more hubristic foolishness#and the answer could be either ‘he wasn’t worth fixing in the first place. you shouldn’t have tried.’#OR it could be ‘you should’ve had some humility. you should’ve relied on the Lord and not your own strength’#this is me admitting I need a music tag#is it a little dickish of me to post this? yes. I am an imperfect person
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My mom is always like "you were suchhh an easy kid compared to your brothers, you didn't even cry the first night home from the hospital it was so weird. I never had to worry about you since I knew you could handle yourself" meanwhile I as a kid always felt like
#its also funny bc then she acts surprised when i dont know how to do things#'i learned how to drive at 14' okay well you didnt teach me#'my friends taught me' okay well i didnt have friends because my social skills fucking sucked.#at this point i know its on me that i let my anxiety control my life im not even blaming that on her#sibce i am an adult capable of making changes#since*#but when she says stuff like this it makes my eye twitch#i try not to resent my brothers (esp my younger brother) for this#but kinda sucks they got more attentiveness to their developmental issues than i did#two younger brothers on the spectrum and older brother with speech issues and dyslexia#i started anti anxiety meds in senior year of high school but thats it. and wasnt bc of her noticing my anxiety disorder#personal#also i know people usually reply these things trying to be encouraging but i dont really like when others talk badly about my mom#so dont do that please
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i can’t find a way to transform this into a comic right now but i truly believe “i don’t want to battle you anymore” is one of the worst things that mc can say to kieran
#pokemon#kieran#rival kieran#trainer florian#trainer julianna#LIKE THINK ABOUT IT#if someone wanted to beat me that bad that they were like#ruining their own life and shit to do it#I WOULD NOT WANT TO BATTLE THEM!!!#like what the fuck i would be so nervous. and also like. this is not worth it#and i think that would CRUSH him#all of your hard work down the drain because they’re too scared <- kieran’s thoughts mayb#resentment building up. anger. rage. but also desperation yk#kieran did this FOR you. he did this to try and beat you yes#but i feel like on a deeper level he truly wanted to connect with mc#like a ‘see how good im doing. please. i am so strong now see me as an equal’#kind of desperation#idk!!! but i’m having fun imagining HDNDJD#pokemon scarvi#teal mask#indigo disk
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Maybe I’ll finally Wanze post soon
#as in a more official lore post like holt awol and sonderbar got#ALSO IM SO SO SORRY I STILL AM GONNA ANSWER THOSE INBOX ASKS J SWEAR#Wanze is on the mind there is bugs in my brain!!! wow just like holt huh#their relationship is wild to me they go from barely knowing each other (occasional hallway acquaintances)#to Wanze essentially having the equivalent of a bag of bricks dropped onto her head#which needs a little or a lot of patching up and Holt does that for her#actually hmmm I wonder if I should more visibly leave some marks of The Oopsie on her face#apart from the permanently broken biores crystals#gotta think on that…#anyway I was especially Thinkin about how Wanze really does resent Holt for a while#it’s complicated it’s not completely Holt’s fault#like she can’t control what happened she can’t bring back her bioresonance she’s a medical eule not a miracle worker#she’ll never really understand what it felt like to be part of that mind link#and that leads to some insensitivity on Holt’s part bc she’s really trying to keep Wanze from decommission here#and Wanze! why are you moping you gotta act normal!! Come on Wanze!#neither of them really get each other bc they’re both not stopping and listening like they need to#but they eventually do#also fun Wanze fact but post head trauma fixup she still has to/wants to go to the kolibri library#for stabilization yknow (she’s a nerdddd <3)#however it’s weird and she hates it bc her fellow kolibris are there.#she does not sing the same song anymore and sticks out like a sore thumb when they’re together now :(#she goes at really weird hours when no one else is there to make sure she doesn’t have to see them#Holt sometimes is able to get ahold of books for her#consider them cuddling together reading#that is all#blorbo tag#wanze#holt#Kolibug
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