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something something headcanon Michael wrote a good amount of the Fnaf songs as a way of coping with the horrorsâ˘ď¸ so like in his handy dandy notebook, right next to his plans of arson and vivid drawings of nightmares, it reads "I can see you there, warmth and life, why don't you share, it's been many years, stuck here living with out fears-" and it doubles as Michael trying to categorize all the information he's learnt and helping him process all this information and it gives this really funny visual of later on, Gregory asking Glamrock Freddy something from the past of Fazbear Entertainment or his previous family drama and then Freddy just starts humming and muttering "....mmm all stay strong, we live eternally, all is well in mmmmm pure insanity, mmmmm-AH!- here is your answer, Gregory! :333" no because imagine he shows Gregory "Too Far" (by CK9C) and Greg's like "Thats......a lot of yelling." "I was going through a rough time haha." -listens to it further before taking of the headphones- "...You good man?" "I'm really not, but we ball, Gregory."
#fnaf#michael afton#five nights at freddyâs#glammike#glamrock freddy#Do you see the vision chat#Fazbear Entertainment probably published all these songs by finding Michael's notebook in the rubble lol#âGregory you do not understand theyre using the wrong octave gregory!! its not my artistic vision gregory!!â#screw it im making it a part of silly salvaged lol#william in his little peepaw area finds a copy of the notebook thats up for display in RockRow's museum and he bullies Mike relentlessly lo#âreally? thats the best Rhyme scheme you could come up with? PLEASE!â#âWhen me and Henry worked on the Diner's music at least the lyrics were clever! here in this verse you're just calling me evil!â#âIf you're going to be in my shadow please try and keep up; I'm not Peter Pan Michael.â#And then Gregory's like âYk I thought your music was pretty alright Freddy :Dâ and then all is right in Freddy's world#he is however fine with CC and Lizzy dunking on him. yk. sibling things#one day Freddy catches Vanessa humming to like....Left Behind or something and he laughs to himself#also shoutout Welcome to Freddy's by Madame Macabre#BANGER SONG FRFR
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Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship
#saw carnation lily lily rose by john singer seargent irl today. it was basically at my doorstep all along idk why i never went to see it#it was placed at a corner in the gallery. me and my friend sat down and sketched the paintings of beautiful naked people quite badly. paper#provided by tate britain. she told me about how she couldnt look her boyfriend in the face after a harrowing film about war. when i say the#interview was informal i mean the person who was supposed to be my boss told me let me get you a cider and then he said after#50 years of life he knows people are inherently good and it only takes a little bit of kindness to save this world. he said he tricked#his wife into keeping the baby and then he said he quit his job at a US bank to help people find meaning and in it#he would have liked to find meaning. instead he started climbing with his friends. he said he chews his cigarettes because its a habit from#when he had to hide things from people. the entire time i felt uncomfortable and incredibly enlightened. this is my friends mentor. she has#his pattern of pauses and expletive and penchant for ends-justify-means attitude. i do think im not very clever#but maybe one day i will love you enough to make up for it. i wrote code i dont understand staring at the final error i thought about how#we both thought of how when we're too old to remember the voices of our friends we would like to stand in the pathway of the LHC beam pipe#cut it open and eat light in the freezing cold vacuum (kills you long before radiation will) the invisible puncture wound unfolding dna#back to the start larger than you ever were. you go to heaven once youve been to hell. my friend is in my bed#practicing calculations of eigenvectors by hand and she is uninterested in a visual proof you are uninterested in incompetence#we catch a train this is your kind of burden you tragic hero wincing at that word you only do this because you have to. im the only one#who can. i am a coward in this for the fucking poetry. the visual proofs. the pretty numbers. an architect who was horrible at maths wanted#to be a philosopher and accidentally ended up neck in deep in 70th Error On Visual Studio Code i want to kiss your eyes before we say#goodbye we both know there is no love in the way there should be. I still have your dress in my wardrobe. i hope you make art.#you think im alright head-wise i think you fucking hate me i think ill never be so clever you want me to tell you my idea?#if you wanted more of this world i would have liked to kiss you harder. we cant both be like this. im sorry i cant be with you the whole wa#the love is gone if you have to ask it. his breath catches his eyes feel stiff it is -1.9 kelvin he is near the beam pipe i miss holding#his hand i miss her singing voice i miss his hair and i found the antonym of pain thank you for carrying me home.
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okay. so. i did not vibe with the latest doctor who episode a lot? and idk why exactly. i did still enjoy it for the most part! do love that we're getting more explicit queer romance on the show, but idk it didn't feel...genuine? especially with the doctor saying that ruby's his best friend but then abandoning her to aliens for most of the episode. i'm like really feeling that the overarching plot must be about storytelling. like especially all the blatant references to bridgerton INCLUDING the bad guys and poker face covers. and the teaser line about it being the doctor's life they're playing out. i'm hoping that the arc is kind of about how something (pantheon character?) is kind of controlling the doctor/ruby's story to hit the beats it's supposed to bc its tv but is doing so in a non-organic way which is why the season feels so disjointed and very telling-not-showing. also the weird 6 month time jump between Space Babies and Boom. otherwise i'mgonna feel like it was just kind of poorly written. like! to be clear! i am still enjoying the show! but not as much as i have other seasons
#rachel speaks#doctor who#the rogue#sorry i have many thoughts#i think my favorite episode so far this season has been dot and bubble#it just feels most lilke doctor who and the twist at the end was really well done#i think doctor who is at its best with a good monster (alien) of the week and a mystery to solve#and i think a lot of the episodes this season have either totally strayed from that format or not fully built it out enough#like space babies is a pretty standard motw episode but i felt like there was a lot left out#like i did not get a good reason as to why the doctor was saving the bogeyman#like not even a 'all life deserve to live moment' just a 'oh no you can't kill it and now i've trapped it in the airlock forever instead!'#devils chord felt like it came way too early in the season#and personally as a professional musician music episodes tend to be hit or miss with me#because the more specific they try to be the more wrong they usually are#for example#a tritone is not a chord#and it wasn't actuallyb anned in the middle ages#also the idea of a 'lost chord' is so baffling to me#if we're living in western tonal land (which we clearly were in the episode) there are no lost chords#we know all the chords#if they had said 'melody' i would be more inclined to believe them#anyways so not a huge fan of the devils chord#73 yards was also very good and enjoyable! probably my 2nd favorite#but definitely a departure from standard who#oh i forgot about boom#i liked the anticapitlist anti war stuff#thought the twist was clever#but i felt like it relied too much on a relationship between the doctor and ruby that we hadn't actually seen yet#the rogue went back to that motw format but it spent WAY more time on the relationship between the doctor and the rogue#than actually on the cosplaying aliens
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Geela's reference/concept art!
Translation notes under the cut.
I'm really not sure about the "Is she the Minister of Animals!?" caption. The sequence of characters there appear to be "ăăžĺ¤§čŁĺçŠ!?" The first two characters (ăăž) are the sama- honorific, indicating it's referencing someone of higher status. The last two characters (ĺçŠ) mean "animal." The middle ones, however, are kinda weird. "大" can be read as "large," or possibly "university," and "čŁ" means "retainer or attendant." So, taken at face value, this would read something like, "Sir/Ma'am, [are you/am I/is this] the retainer of large animals?!"
However, for what I'm guessing were grammatical reasons, no automatic translator would translate it that way no matter how much I fiddled with things; and would always default back to just spitting the Japanese words back out. However, if two of the characters are switched around (čŁĺ¤§ becoming 大čŁ), every automatic translator was suddenly able to interpret it, and I could successfully find the characters as words in a dictionary--but it was translated as "Minister of animals" instead of "retainer of large animals." So it would have read more like, "[Are you/am I/is she] the Minister of Animals?!"
Given the sama- prefix and the way the sentence is formed (as well as the fact that "Minister" is the big title we see used in Hyzante), I decided to go with the "minister" translation, but I'm making the assumption that there was a little bit of a typo there. There's a pretty good chance that this is just a grammatically-shorthanded version of "Ma'am, are you the retainer of large animals?!" Or, as always, it's possible there's a completely different potential meaning that I missed.
#triangle strategy#triangle strategy artbook#geela breisse#also I was really hoping I could figure out who those guys were off to her right#friends??? family??? coworkers??? the world may never know#I do really love the thought they put into her characterization tho as far as being both kind and strict#I went back and re-watched her character story scenes after translating this and she's just. so good#like her whole thing with not really caring much about frederica to begin with and then slowly learning to love her is so neat#and it's always so interesting to me how geela went from hyzante -> aesfrost -> being the aesfrosti princess's royal tutor#like! she's ambitious!! she's clever enough to do pretty much anything she wants!!! and yet she still chooses to remain an attendant#because she feels like that's where she can make the most impact on the world#anyways! I love her#ts artbook character ref sheets
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ohhh those are the sun/moon charms that were for pre-order a while ago right? will you be selling more of them eventually?
i want to but im not really sure. i have a very negative attachment to them right now because i got them in late november literal days after receiving some bad news, then spent the entirety of december and some of january beating myself up over not packaging them when i took the time of specifically to process and give myself a break.
so right now they're still sitting in my store, and you'll certainly be able to see them when it reopens, but they're not up for purchase.
#vu asks#there are some days where i kind of just#look at them and im equal parts proud of the work i put into them#and just sad#you can check my faq if you really wanna know exactly what im talking about but its#yeah#i love them and i love seeing people and friends get so excited over them#and i love the designs i thought they were cute and simple and clever#but rn it's pretty 50/50 on if i get a lump in my throat or not when i look at them#tw vent#just for the tags
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I'm not done yet but hey are you giving zuko eldest daughter trauma because I'll fucking kill you I read ONE line it's probably the first of what's to come but I'm sending the hate ask now xoxo
ofc i wouldn't do that! he's just fistfighting a saviour complex and is eternally burdened by the responsibility of raising and caring for his sister while simultaneously being a child himself and always putting himself before the worst of the war so that azula doesn't have to all the while growing more and more rage towards the situation until it all comes out in a very cataclysmic scene that i will definitely cry at when writing :)
#he's got that fiona gallagher in him#big thief rlly went to town with mythological beauty and 'there is a child inside you who is trying to raise a child in me' v tams zukocore#the funny thing about zuko and azula's relationship is that yes it's kinda wholesome but it is still ultimately fucked#and yet i find them pretty easy to write bc i literally just go 'what would me and my sister be like in this situation'#like ive said before how my sister never really stepped up as the eldest and ive always felt like we shared that role#like i'll give it to her she's better at being the eldest in certain situations and im better in others#and it's always been us helping our mum bc as capable and brilliant as my mum is she's also doing everything alone#and her temper is... not great. so me and my sister took care of each other in our own way#and by 'our own way' i mean we have NEVER had a stereotypical relationship. our age gap is too small and we're both too mean#literally zuko's ch1 quote about 'they'd never been protective of each other' is directly inspired by me and my sister#i dont feel protective of her i dont feel a need to keep her safe and happy and it's really odd bc i KNOW im supposed to but i just dont#and she doesnt for me even though she's the 'eldest'. and yet i love her and would kill and die for her#and also if we were in this situation and we were trying to shield each other#from certain horrors that we thought the other couldn't handle then we'd have to be SO CLEVER ABOUT IT#bc just like zuko with azula if i caught my sister trying to patronise me/protect me i would HIT THE ROOF#like i am thoroughly convinced there is nothing she can handle that i cant and vice versa so we'd have to be soooo slick about it#and while with zuko and azula that only holds to an extent bc azula is ultimately YEARS younger than zuko#and whatever you think of her personality she just straight up should not be exposed to certain things#(neither should zuko but yk what i mean)#it still stands and we see throughout tams the v clever ways zuko has learned to protect azula so that she doesnt catch on#like either the next chapter or the one after (probs the one after) there's a really horrific scene#that's just super dark and gory and while with a normal younger sibling you'd do something to keep their eyes on you and not on the scene#like lie to them or make it into a game or something so they're unaware of what's happening#but instead zuko sees what's happening and before azula can he quickly gets her to check their supplies and count their money or some shit#like giving her a job to acknowledge her capability and not patronise her while still shielding her from a really brutal scene#and it just goes over zuko's head that at sixteen he ALSO SHOULD NOT BE EXPOSED TO THAT#but long story short i just think that's so funny. like the fire hazards are sooo fucked and for good reason#but it literally just boils down to me and my dumbass sister#so yeah. very niche eldest daughter syndrome emanating from tams zuko#ask
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My PokeMiku rankings (not open to criticism /j).
If anyone wants to make their own tierlist, I used this one. And heres all the Project Voltage art.
I was tempted to rank the "Announcement Miku" (the art with Farfetch'd in Project Voltage) and the previously existing Snow Miku collab I discovered via Bulbapedia's Project Voltage page, but realized theyd be unfair comparisons, lol.
#dee does things#pokemon#vocaloid#project voltage#interesting evolution to this one I didnt think bug was all that great but then realized it was pretty clever and I thought water was#really good until I realized it was just kind of a swimsuit and not much else- serviceable but bland in comparison to other stuff!!!#a friend critiqued ghost miku because of her outfit but I think the glitch effect was just too clever I enjoy the talisman and#wisp details too. could they have done more? sure but at the same time I cant think of what they could do so I think it makes the thought#null for me lol. psychic is a perfectly cute outfit it just doesnt give...ANYTHING to me much less psychic if it was normal sure- Ive come#to appreciate its allusion to meloetta's design but I think if they were going the ''smarts'' route they shouldve made it more obvious and#made miku a professor/composer to show her mastery at it vs. a school kid lol. also thought she was a tennis player at first adkjnbdakjn-#I genuinely thought the people BEHIND project voltage thought it was bad and thats why they put it FIRST as opposed to the typical starter#types LOLLL
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God I wish fnaf games entered an era of camp as opposed to trying to have a scary narrative with the subtlety of a brick going through a window
That's why I really love The Glitched Attraction because the puzzles are actually really well thought back and do a great job of tying back into the lore, it's just that as soon as dialogue happens it's reeeeaaallyyy poorly written
#if you're talking about the mainline games however lmao#i feel like the peaks were FNAF 3 and then Sister Location#the other ones are pretty good#and then Security Breach is eehhhhhh#and AR Delivery or whatever is uhhhh whatever#I'm also probably a smidge biased because I've been following MatPat's most recent penultimate timeline#and it's like WOOF the places Scott Cawthon decided to put hints sometimes#it's like 50/50 on being either stupid as hell or decently clever#but all that shit's a mess#and tbh? I'd cut him a little slack#i highly doubt he ever thought the series would explode like this. FNAF 1 was supposed to be his last game ever#and now the titles are double digits? i think? so yeah why would you plan out a story so far#if you never ever thought it'd go anywhere?#idk I'm rambling now sorry#i love FNAF
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#similar feelings abt my late diagnosed adhd#ur telling me u were diagnosed and medicated at age 8 so u didnât spend the first three decades of ur life setting said life on fire#ur telling me u didnât develop crippling/paralyzing anxiety from the fear of inevitable disappointment and failure#ur telling me u donât go through months long bouts of depression constantly bc of the ever present reminders that you will never be normal#now with bonus physical disabilities from medical misogyny and medical neglect made worse by being unable to follow up on anything ever! - @spacelazarwolf, same hat đ
Iâm going to be a bitch for a second, but when Iâm conversing with someone newly diagnosed with MCAS/POTS post covid and they complain about âthe long waitâ to get diagnosed and that âlong waitâ is 3-4 months my entire brain blue screens.
Like on the one hand, yes those 3-4 months must have been so, so scary and I am so unbelievably glad weâre in a place where doctors know enough to reconize it now. Like truly, I am so sincere I am so happy for them.
But Iâm also just like... 30 years, man.
I spent 30 years being told from the age of eight I was manifesting my allergic reactions through anxiety by health care professionals.
Fuck, five years ago when I was starving to death from how severe my MCAS had gotten an allergist told me it was anxiety.
And you got diagnosed in three months.
MONTHS
MONTHS
AND YOUâRE COMPLAINING
Iâm not mad at them. Iâm not. Iâm just sad for myself.
But also, hey, yeah. If you come into an MCAS forum and wonder why a bunch of the old timers get upset when you complain it took months for a doctor to listen to you, this is why.
It's not that you deserved to wait longer. It's that we didnât either and and sometimes even good changes can unearth a world of hurt.
#medicine#disability#covid-19#also! i have spent years being like âi'm so lucky! i got diagnosed with endometriosis after only five years!â#(which is genuinely an incredibly short wait! because i had doctors who actually did believe me when i thought something was wrong!)#it took about twelve years to be diagnosed with fibromyalgia (still pretty short!)#(of course those five and twelve years were during adolescence and directly led to me dropping out of high school)#but like. i shouldn't have to be grateful for a freaking diagnosis??#let alone for things that led to a serious and permanent reduction in my quality of life???#i'm just lucky my life was only in serious danger from myself and not those things#(also it took until my thirties to get diagnosed with adhd so like. that's fun)#(actual ptsd symptoms now because doctors in the 90s didn't know quiet clever daydreamy girls could also have adhd)
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â PROF. GETO'S CLASS IS SO HARD, BUT HE'S SO HOT!! â
⧠pairing: professor!geto x f!reader (part one of the prof geto series)
⧠summary: you were a 4.0, straight A student, until professor geto's class, the same far too hot ethics professor fawned over by faculty and students alike. you didn't understand what was so special about him...until you start having dreams about him.
⧠warnings: 18+, nsfw, a lot of smut (mostly fantasy), depictions of student/teacher relationship (only ok in fiction not irl!!!), reader is a grad student in my mind, but age is vague, masturbation (f + m), fingering (f! receiving), sex (p in v), getting off to his voice in recorded lectures, arousal from reading his writing, amateur's take on moral philsophy and ethics, art by @/jatinsohanvi, google scholar graphic by platonic loml @laneysmusings
⧠wc: 10,149 (i have a problem) | part two
âYouâre late,âÂ
Your first impression of Professor Suguru Getoâs class was that you could never be late again, unless you would like to be chided in front of all your peers for your tardiness.Â
Your first impression of Professor Suguru Geto himself was that he was truly the most breathtaking man youâd ever laid your eyes on. His inky black locks tied into a neat bun, his deep royal purple vest buttoned over a crisp white button up with pressed gray slacks, his pretty lips pressed in a small frown, as his dark gaze pierced through you. And you donât know what stirs in your chest â a fleeting moment that is tucked away under a bite of your bottom lip and burning cheeks.Â
And now you knew why when you had walked into class, the amount of unfamiliar faces in this course had far outnumbered the ones in your usual course load â the same reason why this man undoubtedly had three chili peppers next to his professor rating on some website out there.Â
And now you were faced with him staring you down as you stumbled down the stairs of the all too full lecture hall.Â
As you muttered apologies, and took your seat far too close to the front of the class, smack dab in the very front of the very same professor whose eyes still were concentrated on you, before sliding back to the class at large.Â
âNow, where were we?â he says, continuing the lecture.Â
Ethics was not your major â you were a philosophy grad student, and although the two went hand in hand â no, they were not the same thing. Ethics are the moral principles â like rules to follow to live a moral life â people can follow, while philosophy is the study of knowledge, reality, and existence. And this class encompassed both â an ethics and moral philosophy class. Your eyes slid around the room â and compared to all the random majors stuffed into this classroom, you had no doubt youâd do well. Your eyes met Professor Getoâs â maybe one slight doubt.Â
And when you get your first essay back, you eagerly flip to the last page of the paper, wondering what accolades and compliments youâd receive this time. Your eyes find the grade, and your stomach drops, a gaping maw that consumes you from the inside out.Â
You got a B.Â
A B+ â an 88 on your paper in this course, and you stared at the grade on the very last page of the paper you had collected from his desk â Professor Geto had insisted everyone submit their papers both physically and electronically â his scrawl in red pen littered each page of what you thought was a thoughtful and even clever paper on the existence free will and the ethical and moral dilemmas that surround it. And he had given it an 88.Â
You had a 4.0 point average â you had gotten the highest scores in some of the most difficult courses required by your major, and now you were going to be derailed by a class you took on a whim? Thatâs not happening. No, you were going to get him to change your grade. You were seeing as red as the ink that tore your paper to shreds.Â
âCome in,â your knuckles had rapped against Professor Getoâs door, your heart in your throat, as you heard his reply, entering his office. His office was as pretentious as he was. A much larger office than you had seen before (poor Professor Ijichi had a shoebox of an office), while Professor Getoâs was three times the size, outfitted with large, beautiful windows, distinct bookshelves, and even a lovely deep mahogany colored couch with decorative cushions. And you knew why that was the case â Professor Geto was an expert in his field, revered, even at his relatively young age. And the university had coveted him, and managed to lure him to work behind these ivy covered walls. While other professors who have been here longer are stuck with offices that donât begin to compare.Â
Academia was truly hell.Â
And yet, Professor Geto seemed to rule over it with an iron fist. Even now, you found your professor looking as annoyingly perfect as ever â his elbow resting against his desk, pen in his other hand, as he flipped through more papers on his desk, his hair in a messy bun, a few black strands falling across his furrowed brow, his pretty lips pursed in concentration, and his dark gaze flicks up from his work to you, and his lips curl, your name leaving his lips, âgood to see you, please sit,âÂ
You had planned to attend these office hours in victory, to apologize for your misstep in the first class, and let your professor praise your paper to no end â but instead you were going to see why your paper was graded so harshly.Â
Your speech was ready, you were going to lay it out, you had the perfect explanation and the excellent reasoning âProfessor GetoââÂ
âI know why youâre here,â he cuts you off, lips forming in an utterly condescending smile, âyou want to discuss your paper, correct?âÂ
âI am, I wanted toââÂ
He sits forward in his chair, setting down his pen, âIâm going to save us some time by explaining my comments on your paper, do you have it?â and you close your mouth, pulling the paper out of your folder and handing it to him, âYour paper was one of the best in the class â it was thought provoking, grounded in research, persuasive, even made me consider some points I hadnât beforeââÂ
You blink, his praise catching you off guard, your thoughts twisting in on themselves, âThen why did you give me B?âÂ
âYou didnât allow me to finish,â he sighs, as he flips through your paper, looking up to meet your gaze, âyour paper was excellent when it came to philosophical concepts, but your ethical conclusions on the other hand, could use some work,âÂ
You gaped at him, âWhat did I possiblyââÂ
âTo put it simply, you were trying to use your knowledge of philosophy to cover up your lack of knowledge in the field of ethics,âÂ
âI wasnâtââÂ
âAnd thatâs okay, because that means I have something to teach you donât I? Thatâs why youâre in this course, to learn,â he gives a tight lipped smile, tilting his head. Oh youâd like to learn a lot more from him â like the ethical dilemma of wanting to murder your professor, âand Iâm here to teach â and this paper is a teaching moment â and from your expression, I assume you didnât read the comments I left in detail,âÂ
And your cheeks burn, as your eyes fall away from him, âNot fully in detail,â you still swallow your shame, and meet his gaze, âI donât mean to be a bother, Professor, but how can my paper still receive a B â Iâve never received that low of a score on any single paperââÂ
âThereâs a first time for everything,â and you have to bite back your retort, âyeah first time having an annoying prick for a professor,â and he rises from his desk to hand you back your paper, âthe bottom line is, I know youâre capable of better, this class isnât going to be easy â Iâm not going to hand you accolades for no reason. You have to earn them â if you arenât up for the challenge, you can drop the class.âÂ
The option was there â you could simply drop the course, rid yourself of Professor Geto and his ridiculous criticism forever. You could take a class with one of the many professors who delighted in your papers (even the ones youâd written at 3 AM and submitted not proofread), and go on with your life and preserve your 4.0 GPA with ease.Â
But then you looked at him again. He was unfairly hot, even when he was fucking putting you down, he stood in front of you, offering your paper, his fingers long and thick brushing yours by mistake as you took back your paper, a watch on his wrist gleamed in the low light of his office. You glanced around his office, saw the awards on his walls, pictures of him giving lectures or receiving honors, and the books that lined his shelves werenât dissimilar to your own academic shelf at home. And your eyes fell back to his, as he stared at you curiously, lips pursed, as your paper slightly crumples in your fist.Â
âNext paper is due in two weeks?â and he pauses, before his lips curl in that same grin.Â
âYes it is,â and a smile graces your lips, lightning quick.
Like hell you were going to let him win. You were going to get him to praise your papers (and maybe that wouldnât be the only thing he praised) â if it was the last thing you do. Youâd get an A in his class, hell, youâd get him to beg you to be his teaching assistant (heâd look very nice on his knees for you, wouldnât he?).Â
You rise from your seat, and grab your bag, âIâll see you at your next office hours then, to discuss my paper topic,â and he watches you leave, his eyes piercing into your back as you do.Â
âSee you soon.âÂ
Oh, he would.Â
âRight on time,â Professor Geto barely looks up now when you knock on his door, his door now always ajar for office hours.Â
Now you had made a habit of showing up for his office hours, youâd bring your paper topic all picked out, along with your handpicked sources you had chosen for your paper, all typed up in a neat bibliography. And heâd kindly rip it apart with that same damn smile on his lips. It had been a few weeks, a few papers later â and you finally had worked your grade up to an A-, not quite an A+, but youâd get there. You had to.Â
Because it wasnât just about your GPA now â you were going to get Professor Geto to praise you â through any means necessary. The man was stubborn, even when youâd come back with an improved draft, heâd only hand it back to you with a smile barely tugging at the corner of his lips, with no compliment to be had â only small check marks scribbled in the margins in your papers, with the occasional âgoodâ written next to it.Â
âWell, we all know what happens when Iâm late,â he laughs, a noise that makes the ice dagger clutched behind your back ever so slightly melt, âI made you laugh, extra credit?âÂ
And he rolls his eyes, and you notice that his dark eyes are hidden behind glasses today â and god, why does it only make him even more gorgeous? Heâs already brilliant, itâs unfair for him to look as if he was sculpted by the gods as well, âIt takes a lot more than a chuckle to earn extra credit,â and you canât help but bite your lip.Â
No, no, heâs the worst. It didnât matter he was the epitome of every academicâs wet dream, you were above that. You had a goal.Â
âSo, can we discuss my next paper?â you hand him your bibliography, and he takes it, delicate fingers flipping through, your mind notes the absence of a ring on either hand, before brushing the thought aside.Â
âYouâre writing on the morality of good or bad actions,â he hums, as he looks over the sources you had chosen, âScanlon, good â have you readââÂ
ââWhat We Owe to Each Other?â Only about a million times â well more like six,â and he nods appreciatively, âof course youâve read it,âÂ
âI didnât just read it, I wrote a paper on it, similar to yours, actually,â and your eyes flick up to meet his, heâs leaning forward in his chair, red pen in hand, as he scribbles notes in the margins, as well as on the back of your bibliography, âof course I donât have your penchant for rambling,âÂ
You pout, âI donât ramble â I like to make my pointââÂ
âMany times, and the same one,â and your mouth opens, only to find a wry smirk on his lips, âIâm teasing, another one of my very tedious qualities, and how you stand it during class astonishes me,âÂ
You cross your arms, unable to meet his eyes, as you choose to stare at your bibliography instead, âYouâre not completely tedious, more like irritating,â and he huffs a chuckle.Â
You had to admit, begrudgingly, Professor Geto was aâŚgood teacher. And you had your fair share of awful teachers â many of them were brilliant, accomplished people in their fields, but didnât know how to translate and convey that in their lectures to students who simply knew less than them. But GetoâŚhe knew how to break down complex concepts and theories of moral philosophy and ethics to a science, he knows how to make students understand these complicated topics that you had seen other professors fail to, and he does it while being an intellectual dreamboat to most of his students â the ones that swarm his desk after class, still there even as you slowly make your way out of the lecture hall.Â
âA rare compliment from you,â he raises an eyebrow, âIâm touched,âÂ
âYouâre one to talk,â you furrow your brow, and a smile pulls at his lips.Â
âDidnât know you wanted my approval,â he tilts his head, leaning forward to lean on his elbow on the desk, âwell, you have improved remarkably in the class so far, and if you keep going like this, I may have no choice but to praise you,âÂ
âYou will,â
âSomeone is very sure of themselves,â a pause and then he adds with a quirk of his lips, âas you should be,â and heâs sliding your bibliography across the table again, and passes it back, âread the sources I recommended, and see about adding them to your paper â you may have some overlap in the other papers you chose so use your discretion on which ones you use,âÂ
âSo donât repeat myself?â You raise an eyebrow, and he leans back in his chair, crossing his legs.Â
âYou learn fast.âÂ
And you do â returning to your apartment to work on your paper, as you flip through his notes â as much as you hate to admit it, his notes and criticism did help â annoyingly so. He was far more detailed and perceptive than any other professor you had. Most had let you skate by without a second thought, and you wrote papers like you deleted your internet history after a scandalous romp through elicit websites â tools, clear history â and then onto the next paper or exam. But Professor Geto forced you to face your shortcomings, face the things that you didnât like to give a second glance to, lest your rejection sensitive self feel the agony of having to deal with criticism.Â
Each time you did it, you got a little better, and he had a little less to say â time and time again.Â
You leaned back on your bed, scrolling through the papers he recommended, but so what? So what if he was a good teacher? Doesnât mean he has to be as infuriating as he is â he knew exactly what to do to get under your skin, and he didnât prod at it, he scratched it.Â
And you found yourself typing his name (âsuguru getoâ) and T.M. Scanlonâs name into the search bar of your universityâs library collection, and his paper pops up right on top.Â
You stare at the paper for a good minute, before you click on it â and you start reading. And reading. And reading â and fuckâÂ
It was good. It was more than that â it gave you so much insight on this topic, it made you rediscover T.M. Scanlonâs work in a new light â and you bite your lip. And it wasnât just the research â the way it organized, the way it was presented, the way it was written â it was eloquent, but it wasnât unreadable or incomprehensible. It wasâŚreally good.Â
You imagined him, pouring over Scanlonâs work as he wrote notes in the margins of his copy, pages dogeared and passages highlighted, as he sat in his office typing away at this paper. His sleeves rolled up, his hair let out of his usual bun, his glasses perched on his nose as he read, only his desk lamp and computer illuminating his office. The keys of his computer clacking under his touch, lengthy fingers pitter pattering as he wrote his thoughts and analysis of Scanlonâs work â his brow furrowed in thought.Â
And you felt yourself flush, swallowing the lump in your throat, as you kicked off your blanket â it was so warm all of a sudden, pressing your thighs together. You shook the thoughts from your mind â what the hell were you doing? You glanced at the time, 2:39 AM it read back at you mockingly. You sigh, shutting your laptop down, and putting it aside â you need to do your skincare and brush your teeth. You glance back at your laptopâthe familiar of your flush clung to your skin like a forbidden kissâÂ
And you clearly needed sleep.Â
âCan you read this passage to me?â Professor Getoâs voice said, as he stood in front of you in the lecture hall â as you stood behind the podium that faced the entire class â hands in his pockets, in an olive henley, his hair tied in the usual neat bun, his black bangs falling in his eyes as always, glasses on, instead of the usual contacts. The class sat all around you â his exercise in getting the class to participate and get comfortable speaking in front of others, just as philosophers had done in the past (his very own âliterary salonâ he called it).Â
You swallow, keeping your eyes fixed on the book in front of you, ââWhen I ask myself what reason the fact that an action would be wrong provides me with not to do it, my answer is that such an action would be one that I could not justify to others on ground I could expect them to acceptâââÂ
âWhat do you think Scanlon meant by this?â he asks you, but his gaze was different this time, it held the amusement it always did when it came to you, but it was warm â no â it was burning. His lips were pursed, as he crossed his arms, the henleyâs fabric seemingly straining under the action.Â
âHe meant that an action that is wrong in his eyes when he couldnât expect others to accept the ground on which he could justify it,â and his lips curve into that damned smile, as he takes a few steps closer, rounding the podium, as he brushes past you, the brief touch of temptation incarnate â the dangling apple of Tantalus personified before you.Â
âAnd can you give me some examples of what kinds of actions would be wrong?â and heâs standing behind you now, and you canât bring yourself to look at him â but you can feel his gaze on you.Â
âSenseless murder,â and he hums in approval, his breath felt like it was warming your skin, âwanton violence, reckless assaultââÂ
âWhat other everyday wrongdoings could fall under this category?â and suddenly the class before you is gone, and itâs just the two of you in an empty lecture hall, âtheft, lying, student-teacher relationships?âÂ
And your breath catches in your throat, his cologne strangling any sense left in your mind, as his body heat nearly radiates off him, âProfessor GetoââÂ
âSuguru,â he corrects you, and heâs reaching for you, but he pauses, âcan Iââ and you only can nod, and his fingers brush your hair aside, ever so gently, âwould this be considered a moral wrongness, sweetheart?â his lips press a chaste kiss to your shoulder, and you shiver at the softness of his touch.Â
âWell, I am a student in your class, and even though Iâm of age, it presents a power dynamic and a favoritism that might beââ and your sentence cuts off as his arms wind their way around your waist, pressing himself to your back, âIââÂ
âGo on,â heâs murmuring his words against the nape of your neck now, as he pulls his glasses off to place them on the podium, âmight be what?âÂ
âMight be viewed as morally wrongââ and heâs chuckling, the vibration sending a delicious shiver down your spine, as he presses more butterfly kisses to your neck.Â
âHow can something be wrong when it feels so right?â he asks, and his hand is sliding down your side, âfeels so good, does it even matter what society views as right or wrong? Do their rules pertain to what weâre doing here?â and his fingers toy with the hem of your pants, teasing and pulling, as he pauses, waiting for your answer, âwhat do you thinkââÂ
âPlease,â you swallow, as you turn to look at him, seeing his lips in that same smile that haunted you, âtouch me,âÂ
And his smile only grows wider, âGood girl.âÂ
BUZZ. BUZZ. BUZZ.Â
Your eyes flutter open, your breath caught in your throat, as you stare at your ceiling, your hand reaching for your phone to silence the alarm. And you squeeze your thighs together, a distinct ache between your legs, your skin all too warm.Â
What the fuck was that?Â
You skip office hours the next week. You couldnât bear it â you could barely tolerate going to class now, as the dream invades your nights, with filthy variations that leave you perturbed and horny (mostly horny). The common theme only being that each time you get close to anything remotely thatâs anything (a kiss, a touch thatâs more than a caress, anything at all), you wake up.Â
Itâs as if your dreams are edging you â you groan into your pillow â and it was working.Â
Youâre so wound up, youâve even resorted to using your vibrator before bed, wondering if that would make a difference â it did, but only with you having a dream of Professor Geto using a vibrator on you during class â the vibrations growing even faster when you were speaking as he watched youâÂ
You needed to stop thinking about this. But how can you?Â
God, itâs even worse when youâre in class. You sit in your usual seat, front and center â and why does it feel like his eyes are on you far too often? Even as he lectures Professor Geto attempts to catch your eye during his lecture, trying to make a point, you all but glue your gaze down to the textbook and your laptop, typing away his words, trying to drown out the whispered words and groans from your dream that ring in your ears. You canât stop seeing him â unless you want to skip class, which you really couldnât when attendance and participation counted for a good chunk of your grade.Â
Class ended and you were packing up your things. You had to weather the storm â avoid being alone with him until the dreams were just a distant memoryâÂ
And then you heard him say your nameâÂ
Your eyes flick up to meet Professor Geto â who had his usual swarm of students waiting by his desk, but he parted the crowd, he approached your own seat, hands in your pockets, âDo you have a class after this?âÂ
âNo, I donâtââ the words slip out before your sleep deprived mind can put the pieces together.Â
âThen can you please stay after class? Iâd like to talk to you,â he says, and before you can say anything, he turns to speak to the students waiting for him.Â
And now you wait â your anxious energy singing at the frayed ends of your nerves, as you tried to hold yourself together â wondering what he could possibly want to speak to you about. His students dissipated one by one, until it was just you and him left in the lecture hall.Â
Just. Like. Your. Fucking. Dream.Â
You round the row you sat in, before walking down to speak to him, âIs there something wrong? The next paper isnât due until the end of next weekââÂ
âIt isnât about the paper,â and your heart squeezes, as you try to keep your breathing even, as he steps closer â and why, why did he have to opt to only wear a button up today â and a deep royal purple one no less, âI wanted to check in with you,â and he begins to undo the cuffs of his shirt, rolling them up â exposing his forearms and the pretty veins that ran along them â the same arms that he had used in one of your dreams to bend you over that desk, the whispers of heated kisses along your neckâ
You needed to get out of here.Â
You blink, âIâm fine,â and he tilts his head.Â
âI only ask because youâve looked tired the last two classes, and you didnât show up for office hours this week,â he crosses his arms, unhelpfully, as he purses his lips, the lines of his brow furrowed.Â
âIâm fine, Professor, I appreciate your concern â I just havenât been sleeping well,â you admit â it was the truth, âand thatâs why I didnât come to office hours. I was trying to catch up on sleep,âÂ
He nods, sighing, fingers raking through his hair â those same fingers that would feel so pretty around your neckâ âI know Iâm hard on you,â oh he would be, âbut itâs because I know youâre capable of more â most of these students are taking the class for an elective, but I know itâs more than that for you,â yes, itâs so you can finally earn his praise, âbut Iâm also here for your benefit, so if you need an extension or anything else, please let me know,âÂ
God, all you wanted was for him to maybe wrap you in his arms and kiss you, or bend you over, pull your clothes off and fuck you, or just to leave you alone all together.Â
You werenât sure which one you wanted the most at this moment.Â
âI will, Professor Geto, I appreciate it,â you murmur, biting your lip, as you try to focus on the task at hand â getting out of here, âI donât think I need an extension, Iâve made good progress so far. I just need to finish it, so I can revise,â
âWell, let me know if anything changes,â his lips curl, âok?â And you nod, and if you werenât so hyperaware, you swore you would have imagined it â but you didnât, âgood girl,âÂ
And you pause a moment â his lips did move, you pinch yourself discreetly â and you know it isnât a fucking dream. You only smile in return, giving a curt nod and goodbye, before beelining out of the classroom.Â
But you didnât stick around long enough to see the slight flush on Professor Getoâs cheeks â nor did you know that you two were thinking the same thing about yourselvesâÂ
What the fuck were you doing?Â
But to your relief, the dreams do subside, and youâre finally able to rest â but the thing that doesnât subside is your awareness of your professor.Â
You sit in class, watching him teach â and you knew he was attractive, hell, it was one of the things that made you all the more embarrassed to have him ream you out â having your super hot professor rail at you for your mistakes wasnât on your list of shining achievements (lest it was him actually railing youâ).Â
You needed to stop doing that.Â
But it felt as if you werenât the only one who was hyper aware. You felt as if his eyes skimmed over you during class this week, his replies to your weekly discussion board were less biting than usual, and his office hours were surprisingly canceled this week. First time all semester, but you werenât so full of yourself that you thought it had anything to do with you â right?Â
Either way, you had submitted your paper and now you were done with this weekâand as class finishes, you slowly pack up, looking forward to the week being over with and for a personal rendezvous with your bed. But as the usual gaggle of students make their way to chat with Professor Geto, your eyes flicker up to meet his, as he stares back a moment.Â
And you canât make yourself look away, and for a moment, neither can he.Â
But then a student calls for his attention, so his eyes flicker away, a smile on his lips as he spoke â and you turn to leave, grabbing your bag, as you look backâÂ
But why did his smile look so strained?Â
There must be something wrong with him.Â
Professor Suguru Geto drummed his fingers against his desk, but he felt more like shoving his things off his desk â if only to distract him for a moment. He pulls his glasses off, and runs a hand down his faceâgod, he hadnât been sleeping well. No, his nights were plagued, plagued by you â you had slipped into his dreams ever since that day he stopped you.Â
Why had he stopped you?Â
It wasnât the first time he had personally stopped a student who seemed to be struggling, he could count the times he had on both his hands.Â
But this, this felt different.Â
You were different.Â
But why were you different to him? He rubs his temples, from the moment you had stepped into his office he thought he had read you â an overachieving student used to getting their way, As handed out to them, and an inability to take criticism.Â
He knew, because he used to be one of them. But he knew you needed to be challenged to grow â but it was a matter if you would accept it. And from the moment you asked him when the next paper was due, he couldnât help but smile.Â
And his time spent in office hours with you grew more enjoyable each time you came. And when you hadnât last week, he couldnât sit still, checking the time, checking his email, and even checking if his office hours had been accidentally listed wrong in his weekly email to the class (they werenât). And the hour and half passed with many students hungry for his time and his charm â but not the one he was looking for.Â
Then those words had slipped from his tongue when he had stopped you, left his mouth like he was possessed, and now he had found himself here. Found himself thinking about how your lips parted when he said it, thinking about how you were feeling, thinking about you, you, youâÂ
Thereâs a knock at the door, âProfessor Geto?âÂ
And it was you.Â
âI apologize, I know you canceled office hours, but I just had a few questions I didnât get to ask you in class,â your fingers toy with the ring you wore, a folder in hand, a soft smile on your lips.Â
âOf course, come in,â and you did, your dress was painfully short, the fabric riding up as you sat, the folder in your lap, âis this about your paper?âÂ
âIt is, I was reading a few papers, and after our conversation, I couldnât help but find your paper,â and he tilts his head, âand I want to include it as a source in my paper, but I had a few points you made that I wanted clarified,âÂ
He raises an eyebrow, and he canât help but tease, âClarified or criticized? Are you planning on turning the tables on me?âÂ
âWell I do have a red pen,â you click your pen, lips curved in a smile, and thereâs a hint of heat that he wishes to unearth, pluck from the earth and possess himself, âbut I promise Iâll be civil,â
 âI have no doubt,â he had a million when it came to you â but that wasnât one of them. He runs his fingers through his hair, a few strands coming loose, âof course, letâs discuss it,âÂ
âYou discuss Scanlonâs idea of a social contract, everyone within this moral society agrees on whatâs right and whatâs wrong â the basic principle is that if there is a rule no one can reasonably reject as a basis, but is there such a rule that can exist?âÂ
He tilts his head, âScanlonâs theory relies on this premise â are you questioning me or the premise?âÂ
âBoth, actually,â you shrug, crossing your legs, âis there a magic switch that changes every person to be rational? Because I think only rational people can agree on what rules cannot be reasonably rejected â what about people who are cruel, inconsiderate, self-absorbed? Do those traits go away when operating under Scanlonâs social contract? You propose in your paper that moral reasons are not subjective â nothing is uncolored by human opinion,âÂ
âNo, butââÂ
âHow can we agree on what is truly right or wrong? How can one hundred people agree on that when everyone views these actions in different ways? Right and wrong? Black, white, or gray?â you rise from your chair to hand him his paper printed out, the paper more red than white with the amount of writing youâve done, âlike for example,â you lean forward, your hand braced against the edge of his desk, âcan one hundred people agree that student-teacher relationships are wrong? Because one veto,â your hand trails ever closer to his, toeing that dangerous line either of you had even yet to approach to cross. But here you were, seemingly barreling toward it.Â
And he didnât want to pull away.Â
He swallows, whispering your name, âThis canâtââ and you were so close â too close, your perfume hypnotized him, your fingers brush against his and he canât help but hold them, his thumb rubbing across your knuckles, âthey can agree that itâs wrong â the power imbalance from the authority of the professor and the age differenceââÂ
âI disagree, so the rule isnât legitimate, right? Even if one disagrees, the rule cannot be make valid,â and his breath catches as your fingers slide up his arm now, resting on his shoulder, as you lean over his chair now, as your other hand toys with the loose strands of his hair, âif the two of us canât even agree, then how could a hundred, or a thousand, or a million?âÂ
âButââÂ
âBut what?â you pout, your fingers dragging down his chest, toying with the top button of his button down, âI donât see you pulling away, do you want me to stop, Professor? Because I will,âÂ
And he swallows thickly, but he canât stop you â he doesnât want to, âBut, we shouldnât â it isnât a reasonable objectionââ he tries his hardest to stand firm, but he only crumbles when your fingers brush his cheek, tracing the cut of his jaw. And it feels like flames tickling at his skin, begging him to thrust his hand into the fire.Â
âLike I said, people are not reasonable,â your lips draw closer, and he can feel your breath warm his own, and god, why are you so tempting? And your lips stop short, barely an inch between your faces, âand besides, would you rather be reasonable or satisfied?âÂ
And thereâs only one answer â you.Â
He leans forward, lips nearly brushing yoursâÂ
RING. RING. RING.
He jerks awake from his desk, papers sliding as he does, his breath caught in his throat, and his eyes wander â and finds no one else there.Â
A dream. He runs his fingers through his hair again, crumpling the paper he had oh so lovingly drooled during his nap. He needed to get his shit together.Â
But his current predicament wasnât making that easy â his cock strained against the fabric of his pants â was he a grown adult or a horny teenager?Â
Fuck. It wasnât going away â no matter what he thought, his mind kept circling back to you.Â
And his eyes slide to the time: 1:40 AM.Â
Far past the time any soul would be here, even cleaning staff would have been long gone. It was just himâ
And you.Â
âSo good for me, baby,â heâs panting, palming his erection, an embarrassing amount of precum drips from his cock for a barely wet dream. He ignores the gnawing guilt in the back of his mind â but he canât help but imagine the image of you, spread out on his desk, hiking that oh so teasing sundress up, only to find your underwear drenched â just for him.Â
His fingers would slide up your plush thighs, squeezing to draw a gasp from your pretty lips, âProfessorââ youâd say, unable to form a sentence, all those brilliant falling away under his touch, until it was just him occupying every crevice of your mind.Â
âWhereâs that mouth now? So needy fâme,â heâd murmur, âbut such a good girl,â and you were, his thumb tracing his slit, smearing his pre-cum, as he imagined you spread on his desk, your puffy folds nearly showing through your far too translucent panties, âmy best studentâs so pliant for me now,â
And his hand moves faster, and he can imagine your fingers reaching for him too, your smaller fingers wouldnât be able to even touch as much as he can â but god it would feel so much better.Â
But heâd want you to feel even better than he did. Â
Heâd tug your underwear down, stuffing it in his pocket (his fee for all of additional office hours), and he would prep you right â fuck you open with his fingers, two or three, before he tasted you. Your fingers would dig into his scalp as you moaned his name again and again, before you came all over his face.Â
Heâd lick his lips clean of your release, before dragging his cock down your sweet cunt, watching his precum mix with your cum, as your walls flutter around nothing, craving to have him sink into you.Â
âProfessor, please,â youâd beg with pretty, kiss bitten lips between pants, âplease,âÂ
âWhereâs all those quips now, sweetheart?â heâd tease, as he would let his tip tease your clit, pulling a moan from your lips, âall those words fall away when you want this cock, donât they? Been thinking about you like this, wondering what youâd look like spread out under me,â and he would lean down to kiss you, âitâs even better than I expected,â
Heâs jerking himself off in earnest now, the lewd noises of his hand around his cock filling most of the silence, his low groans filling the rest. And heâd finally sink into you, inch by inch, until heâd kiss your cervix with his weeping tip.Â
And, god, he wishes his fingers fisted around his cock would be as good as your cunt would feel around him. He would fuck you slow at first, âI know those boys canât fuck you as good as I can, as well as I can,â heâd tell you, as he would pick up the pace when youâd tell him to, making you cum again and again with his cock, thumb rubbing at your clit, until he was finally close. Heâd either cum all over your stomach, marking you with his release, or if youâd let him, heâd cum inside you, filling you with his seedâand then heâd watch it drip out when he would pull out. He groans your name lowly, shuddering as he comes all over his hand, hard.Â
Fuck.Â
Thatâs the hardest heâd cum in a long time. Heâs a mess â panting and flushed, as he leans back, head against the back of his chair, too spent to even clean up. And then he finally does, cleaning himself up well, and collecting his things to leave the office.Â
But he only treated the symptoms, not the problem itself. His hard-on is gone, but his mind is still filled with thoughts of you. How heâd kiss you sweetly after, how heâd clean you up, care for you gently, make you rest because you never seem to do enough of that, and heâd let you relax â finally relax, as you slept the night in his arms.Â
As he heads to his car, he knows that heâs utterly fucked (without even being fucked) because he has feelings for you. And he didnât know if they were going to go away as easily as he hoped.Â
But he hoped they would. He owed it to you, your education, and your future career not to act on these feelings.Â
And he sighs as he sits in his car, starting it, but why did it hurt not to?Â
It was that time again.Â
Your next paper had come around again, and you needed to prepare a topic before you went to speak to Professor Geto. You had put it off, something you had never done with his class, but you wanted to limit the amount of time you spent with him, if only for the sake of your heart.Â
Watching him in lectures was bad enough, your thighs pressing together as you watched him speak, his impeccable looks and intelligence a deadly combination for your heart (and your body). You could barely focus, your eyes too fixed on the way he wrote on the board â his fingers too lithe and too thick, his voice all too alluring when discussing Kant and Aristotle and you canât help but think what heâd sound moaning your name.Â
God. Fuck. Â
Either way, you needed to listen to the lectures again since you werenât able to pay attention. Maybe without watching the video would be better, you settle on your bed, notebook and pen in hand, as you place your headphones on. His voice filled your ears, and youâre scrawling notes.Â
But your mind begins to wander. Heâs lecturing on the deontological ethics, and all you can think about is how he could make you cum with just that voice of his. Â
Shit, you shifted your thighs again, feeling that familiar ache again. What would he sound like when he moaned? How would it sound to have him touch you, run those long fingers down your thighs, and whisper filthy things in your ear?Â
As you listened to the lecture, his voice became white noise as your fingers slipped past the waistband of your shorts, and you shut your eyes.Â
âThatâs it, sweetheart, spread your legs for me,â heâd murmur in your ear, his chest pressed to your back and heâs urge your thighs wider, and his fingers would press against the wet patch on your panties, and heâd hum, âso wet fâme and I havenât touched you yet, Princess,â his lips would kiss your pulse, âyou like my voice that much?âÂ
âProfessor,â you gasp, as his fingers would tease you through your underwear, the fabric growing more soaked by the second, âpleaseââ and his thumb would ghost around your clit, teasing you, as his long fingers would piston in and out â they would reach so much fucking deeper âI need toââÂ
âAlready begging? I knew you learned fast, but not this fast,â and his fingers would tug the crotch of your panties aside, his fingertips tracing around your outer lips, before a finger pushes past your sweet cunt, âfuck, my favorite studentâs pussy is so fucking tight. These boys are not fucking you right,â and you whimper, his finger would be so much thicker than yours, as you glide another finger inside you, the two dragging against your walls, âlisten to your pretty cunt,â heâd grin against your skin, âand the wet squelch of your pussy, âso pliant for me, takes my fingers so well,â heâd murmur with a chuckle, âpractically swallowing me up,âÂ
And youâre bucking your hips against him, wanting, needing him deeper, because your fingers donât reach as far as his does, moans leaving your lips.Â
âIâm soââ youâre moving faster and faster, his lecture still filling your ears, your pre-cum soaking your shorts and onto the bed sheets, âI canâtââÂ
âCome on, Princess, use those big words of yours, you have no problem usually,â his hot words would whisper in your ear, and youâd hear him rub his erection against your ass, trying to get himself off, and youâd grind against him, wanting any friction, âtell me,âÂ
âLet me cum, please,â and he would smile, running his fingers through your hair, before he bore his thumb down on your clit and sunk a third finger into your needy cunt, just as you did now. And itâs too much for you, your toes curl, your messy walls fluttering around your fingers, as you cum all over your shorts and sheets with a groan of his name. Your fingers were soaked, as you pant, trying to gather yourself, as you came down from your high.Â
âFuck,â you murmur, tugging off your headphones, so your cunt doesnât have to twitch listening to his dulcet words again. And youâre pulling your fingers out, your cum dripped down your fingers, as you shifted, far too wet underneath you, as you tried to slip off your bed to take a shower and clean yourself up.Â
And then you realized, you didnât even hear any of the lecture.Â
Double fuck.Â
Why was this so difficult?Â
You stood near his office, trying to work up the urge to approach his door for office hours? Since itâs almost the end of the semester, there had been an influx of students attending office hours, and with everything, you had found excuses in your head to avoid office hours. But you couldnât avoid him anymore.Â
For your final paper in the class, you had to have a meeting with him during office hours to discuss your topic, complete with bibliography and outline. And it was almost time for your meeting.Â
But you didnât know how to go in.Â
The last few weeks in class have made things worse. You couldnât help but watch the other students fawn over Professor Geto, his lips curled as he spoke to them. And youâd leave class without a word. You had to stick through the semester and your feelings would disappear with time. You wouldnât have to see him, you wouldnât have class anymore, and you couldnât talk to him.Â
Or wouldnât.Â
But now you had to. And you didnât know howâ otherwise than just to do it.Â
You knock at his door, âCome in,â and you open the door to see an empty desk, blinking, âIâm over here,â
And your head snaps to your right, and Professor Geto is sitting on his couch, his legs crossed with a stack of papers in hand. His jacket is slung over the side of the couch, his deep maroon button up sleeves rolled up, glasses perched on the tip of his nose.Â
âI thought you lived at your desk,â you raise an eyebrow, âdecided to change it up for the end of the semester?âÂ
âEveryone needs a change of scenery,â he leans forward, placing the stack of papers on the table in front of him, âdo you want to sit here or move to the desk?âÂ
You shift in place, before moving to the couch beside him, âThis is fine,â he stares, âwhat?âÂ
âJust surprised, you always have something to say,â he leans on his elbow, âno smart remarks today?âÂ
âFresh out, can I offer you my proposal for the final paper instead?â You say dryly, and he cracks a smile, holding out your proposal. He clicks his red pen, readying his sword.Â
He takes it, his dark eyes darting back and forth as he reads, his brow furrowed in concentration â and you canât help but want to reach out and smooth his brow for him, tease him that heâll get wrinkles. But you canât. Canât because that would cross a line that neither of you should cross.Â
âYouâve come a long way,â he says, as he flips it back the front, writing only a few notes here and there.Â
âBut?â You wait for it.Â
His gaze flickers up, a tilt of his head, âThat was the end of my sentence,âÂ
You pause a moment, âReally?âÂ
âReally,â he scribbles a few more notes, âI look forward to reading the paper, it will be excellent Iâm sure, maybe youâll even get higher than a B+,âÂ
âOh, ha, ha,â sarcasm dripping from your tongue, but you canât help but smile, âyouâll miss me and my endless need for academic validation,â but was it really academic validation you were after now â your eyes gazed at him sitting with the tip of his pen pressed to his lips â or was it his?Â
And itâs his turn to pause, and his lips curl into a soft smile, âI will,âÂ
Your breath catches, âReally?âÂ
He chuckles, âReally,â he licks his lips, his eyes glancing downward at your proposal than at your face, âIâve enjoyed our chats this semester,âÂ
âHave you? Even when I argued with you,â a half nervous half serious laugh dies on your lips when his gaze meets yours, far too serious for your heart to take.Â
âEspecially then,â his fingers run through his hair a moment, before he speaks again, âI canât say you could say the same,âÂ
âAnd why couldnât you?â his eyes flicker with an emotion you canât grasp fast enough, before it slips away into the depths of his dark irises.Â
âBecause you stopped coming,â his voice is soft, his tone barely even, and this gives you a real pause, heat flushing your body, as if his words had set every nerve ending alight, your mouth growing dry along with it, and it gives him a reprieve he needs to brush it aside, âyou donât have to, of course, these office hours are not relevant to yourââÂ
âI didnât stop coming because I didnât enjoy it,â you cut him off, swallowing the lump in your throat, âI stopped coming because I did,âÂ
He stares, âWhat do youââÂ
âI donât want academic validation anymore, I donât care about my GPA,â you consider it a moment, âok I do,â and he snorts, âbut I care more about validation from you,âÂ
âFrom me?â he says, and his gaze tries to meet yours and it canât â but his fingers brush against your skin, making your breath catch, your eyes finding his, âand what kind of validation do you want?âÂ
And you canât find the words, and you hesitation makes him shake his head, âI apologize, I shouldnât haveââÂ
âWill you have a drink with me?â and heâs speechless for once, âafter the semester is over, of course â I know it wouldnât be ethical before,âÂ
And his eyes find yours again, âSome would say it would be unethical after too,âÂ
âI would say it depends,âÂ
âOn what basis?â and you canât help but smirk.Â
âAm I being graded, Professor?â and you delight in a small crack in his smiling veneer as a light flush dusts the tops of his ears, âand if Iâm good, will you call me a good girl again?âÂ
He swallows, âI donât want to cost you your education or yourââÂ
âI understand the risks, but we arenât contemplating shifting a trolley to hit one person or five, or murdering one healthy person to save five sick ones,â and he raises an eyebrow, âitâs a drink to celebrate the end of the semester,âÂ
âAnd if it's something more?â he nearly whispers, the softness of his voice reflected in his features, as his fingers that rested on the couch twitched beside yours.Â
âThen weâll cross that bridge then,â and then you add with a small smile, âOr hit the metaphorical person with the trolley,â and it pulls at the corners of his lips.Â
âYou make a fair point,â and you gasp in mock surprise.
âThe first time all semester you agree with me,â and he chuckles, a noise you wished you could hear him make innumerable times more.Â
âNot the first,â he replies, before leaning forward, pressing your outline back into your hands, his fingers brushing yours, âwe both agree youâre a good girl, donât we?âÂ
And your breath catches, his words warm your skin, turning your blood to lava, âProfessor,â and he smiles again.Â
âWhen we go for drinks, call me Suguru.âÂ
~~~~Â
The semester wears on and finally draws to an end, but finals induced hibernation begins for you. A mix of papers and exams, you finish everything â including your paper for Professor Getoâs class. As always, he has you submit a paper and electronic copy, the paper copy to be dropped off at his office mailbox. And you do just that, the mailboxes being only around the corner from his office, and your heart squeezes at the thought of him. After this, the class was over, it was done. You werenât his student anymore.Â
And you place the paper into the mailbox and sigh, chewing your lip as you pass by his office, but find the door closed (and locked, as you quickly turned the doorknob to test it). Where was he? This was the time he was usually in his office, but maybe he had left campus for the semester â had he forgotten about your drinks?Â
Fuck. You hadnât even discussed a time or place, you had left it vague â âafter finals.â Your cheeks burned at the memory, you were far too flustered to elaborate. And you had spent far too many nights imagining him calling you a âgood girlâ in many other situations.Â
And then you heard a call of your name, your gaze snapping up, your heart leaping, but only to see the department head.Â
âHi Professor, how are you?â and the two of you make polite chit-chat, until he asks you.Â
âHave you applied to be a T.A. for the department?â and you blink, âapplications just opened and I think from what Iâve heard about you around the department, I think you would be an excellent candidate.âÂ
âIâd love to be â how does the application process work?â and he explains that itâs a double blind process where applications are viewed without personal information of the candidates, and then matched with a professor based only on resume and writing samples.Â
You can barely listen to the department head, still far too distracted with thoughts of Professor Geto â so you agree to apply, if only to placate the department head, and make an excuse to leave.Â
It had been a week or so, as you lay in bed in your apartment, staring at your ceiling â you hadnât even bothered to get Professor Getoâs personal number. You couldnât even reach out to him if you tried, as the only way you could was through his university email, which was out of the question â the university had rules against a professor and student dating, and if anyone found that email â you sighed â it wouldnât be good.Â
Maybe it was for the best.Â
The only communication you had gotten from him was an email from Professor Getoâs mailing list to the class from a few days ago, stating that he was out of state in a conference, and he would return soon, but your grades would be emailed to you. But the paper copies would be available to pick up in his office from 3:00 PM to 6:00 PM on Tuesday. It was almost time to pick up your paper, and your nerves bit at you as you thought about the possibility of seeing him. Who knows if he would even be there to begin with.Â
Would it be anything? Would it be nothing? Was there not any point to this at all?Â
Oh, great, you were becoming existential.Â
You sat up, the only thing you could do was go. So you do, taking your time to get dressed. If you were going to see him, you might as well look your best.Â
Fuck. You couldnât go in. It had taken you longer to get back to campus than you thought, and now there were only a few minutes of his office hours left.
And youâre about to knock when the door opens, and you find yourself face to face with the man who has consumed every thought of yours for the last few months â good and bad alike.Â
âLate again?â and you canât help but smile.Â
âI prefer fashionably late,â and his eyes rake over your outfit, making your cheeks burn.Â
âYou certainly are,â and he steps aside to allow you into his office, and you glance between the couch and the desk, but he makes the choice and sits at his desk, âI have your paper right here,â and heâs rifling through his file of papers, âhow did your finals go?âÂ
âIf I have an A on this paper, perfectly,â and a smile tugs at his lips, and you raise an eyebrow, âwhat? Something funny?âÂ
âNot at all,â and he pulls your paper out, ha âI just recall you saying you wanted something more than, what was it? âMy academic validation?ââÂ
And your cheeks flush, âI did, but I also didnât hear from you,â and your fingers reach for the paper, and he holds onto it, âProfessor,âÂ
âI couldnât reach out to you because I was still your professor, but once you get this grade, Iâm not anymore,â and his gaze is sharper without his glasses today, his dark blue Henley doing nothing to help the flush on your cheeks â memories of your dreams flooding your mind, âand once you get this grade back, Iâm not anymore,âÂ
âAnd what does that mean?â you canât pull your eyes away from his, but his fingers let go of your graded paper, âhow about you look at the last page of your paper and see?âÂ
You pull the paper into your hands, flipping to the last page:Â
99 â I was impressed by this paper not only by the content but by its comprehension and use of both ethics and philosophy. But I was also impressed by the person who wrote the paper. Youâve shown determination and growth throughout the semester â and you have reminded me what we owe to each other. And I think we owe each other a drink, and a chance for this.Â
You feel his eyes watch you as you read, your eyes finally meeting his â his brow knit together, his lips pursed, concentrated gaze trying to decipher your reaction.Â
âWhy a 99?â And his eyebrows raise, as if to ask, âthatâs your question?âÂ
âYou had some spelling and grammar errors,âÂ
âReally? You couldnât let it slide?â And he tilts his head, before he sees your lips curling into a grin.Â
âSo you think itâs funny to mess with your professor?â And his voice drops, a playful tone that makes you nearly shiver, as he leans forward, resting his chin against his elbow.Â
âYouâre not my professor anymore, are you, Suguru?â he likes that by the way his teeth bite his bottom lip briefly, his eyes flitting to your lips for a moment and back to your eyes, âso I guess weâre using that trolley after all,âÂ
âIf you want to,â he says softly, âI wouldnât blame you if you change your mind, itâs a risk,âÂ
It was. It was a risk to your reputations, your careers, your futures â especially to yours. But, your eyes met his again.Â
âContractualism is about avoiding risk,â and he nods, as his gaze falls away, âbut some risk is necessary in life, and I think this is one thatâs worth taking,âÂ
âWe will have to be careful,â he murmurs, but already his fingers are twitching, far too eager to touch you, âwe canât make any mistakes. I donât want to hurt you,â he adds softly.Â
âI know, I donât want to hurt you either,â and you rise before slowly rounding his desk, âbut I want to know what itâs like,âÂ
And he canât stop himself â he gets to his feet, his fingers finding your cheeks and he kisses you. You can taste the black coffee on his lips, his kiss is gentle at first, so chaste and fleeting that youâd swear he didnât kiss you at all â and so itâs not a second before your lips find his again, in a deeper kiss that steals every ounce of breath from your lungs, and leaves only heat behind. This was dangerous. The very risk you were both trying to avoid, but as heâs pressing you into the edge of his desk, you canât find the logic you misplaced when those goddamn fingers youâve been dreaming about squeeze your hips.Â
âFuck,â heâs panting â god that word sounded more sinful on his lips than it should â as he presses sweet kisses to your neck, âwe shouldnât be doing this here,âÂ
âNot very ethical,â you chuckle breathlessly, as your fingers rake through his now disheveled bun, âbut I canât find the sense to care,â your noses brush, as you canât help but smile, âwhat would Scanlon or Kant say about this?âÂ
And his arms lift you onto his desk, several papers crumpling underneath, âWho the fuck cares?â heâs hissing, his lips find yours in a searing kiss, as his thighs press yours apart, as he settles himself between your legs, his knee grazing your core, drawing a delightful gasp from your lips, âI know what I want,â and his eyes soften, his fingers tracing the length of your cheek, âdo you?âÂ
Before you can answer, two pings catch your attention â your phone and his computer lighting up with a notification, and you both pause a moment, as your eyes glance at the banner notification on your phone, skimming over the words. The T.A. positions have been assigned.Â
âFuck,â you hear him mutter, and you gaze snaps up to his on his computer, the email now opened on his screen, âthis canât be rightââÂ
âWhat is itââ and the question dies on your lips as your eyes find where his rested âÂ
You â you were his T.A. for next semester â for the very class that you met in.Â
Fuck, indeed.Â
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⧠a/n: lets all remember that student and teacher relationships are bad in real life. it's ok to live vicariously through reader but unfortunately no professor will be as hot as professor geto or gojo T_T. s/o to @/laneymusings and @bucky-of-the-opera for beta reading this for me and being just absolutely wonderful!!
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Funny then that Cosmos has mismatched eyes as well, but the primals split from her don't, but Grimnir is the one who was split from Odin and also has mismatched eyes. It might be a coincidence, but it is interesting
Maybe mismatch is the fate of split individuals
Geo and Zooey each inherited one of the eyecolors of Cosmos, so i think it really showcase much more Cosmos's own split in her mindset - after all she is all about balance, and in a sense she splits herself in two - the one who would look out for the primals, and the one who would look out for the mortals. They're evenly split from her, they're two distinct part of herself, of her soul.
Yuni's eyes meanwhile are purple which is what would happen if Geo's blue eyes and Zoey's red eyes would mix together. I think it is meant to show that Cosmos is no longer split in two, it's no longer about a balance with two sides pulling on each other -- but Cosmos' true desire is for the two desires to no longer be divided, but be on the exact same realm of existence, hand in hand. It's no longer about Primals' rights, or about Skydwellers' rights, and the way sometimes priviligizing one would mean pulling on the other - it's about the coexistence between those two to be so harmonious that caring for one is caring for the other by default. (after all Yuni's weapon is called Harmonia).
I think it's therefore kind of a coincidence, as i expressed in the previous ask what i think Odin and Grimnir's eyes are like.
But it's still about representing torn ideals imo. It's still about showing this divide between the Original and the Creation.
So like... i think in Cosmos' case it's really much more about the whole thematic around balance, and in Grimnir's, it's about developping a new vision outside of his Original. Cosmos' views shapped her "children", but Grimnir is about "opening his eyes" to the things Odin don't want to see and acknowledge.
It's complicated to explain but in a way i don't think it's a coincidence on the ground of, to me, it seems that in substance, the miscolored eyes are supposed to express this divide between Original and Creations. It's the sharp distinction between the way the Original sees the world, and the Creation does.
But it kinda does stop there in the sens that the thematic i would associate with both reasoning are otherwise way too particular to their respective themes (or, mostly, that Cosmos' theme is so strong it cannot be applied to anyone else), that it returns back to being a coincidence.
#tbh i feel like Grimnir was created before they really thought about connecting him to Odin#lots of old primals were forgotten for a long time and i don't think granblue actually planned it#they just found clever way to repurpose it#i'm 99% certain Grimnir was designed like this just to add to the chuuni factor#Odin meanwhile used to only have two eyes closed on his usual sprite#so anything else seems like late way to make it coherent within one another#and it's still done pretty well!!!#but i feel like Grimnir and Cosmos' mismatched eyes really come from drastically different intends#that just somehow ends up having vague similarities if you reach a bit#and it's cool i love it! it's just; yaknow.#ichareply#ichafantalks gbf#anonymous
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@ entersandman 2
âââââ (a film for two)
summary; after lots of teasing, you finally tell spencer who you are and help him out with his âlittleâ problem.
cw; +18 minors dni, pure porn, teasing, praising, praise kink, sexting, spencer being a needy mess, mention of streams, sex toys, a lot of orgasms, media au!, semi-public sex, oral sex (f and m receiving), cum swallowing, spitting in spencerâs mouth, pillow humping (spencer), mommy kink, sub! spencer and dom! reader, sex calls, dirty nastyyyy talking, breeding kink, fingering (r receiving), so many pet names for spencer âcause he deserves them, face riding/use (spencer receiving), nipple play, nipple sucking, spencer cursing, reading being a smug little shit, hickeys, this is so explicit omg, chocking (spencer receiving), spencer talking dirty?!?
an orgasm is a very human thing. and spencer has had many, many orgasms before. he lived basically off of having them. but none of them have been as good as the one he had while seeing the pictures and videos youâd sent him.
and heâs triedâŚ
tried so hardâŚ
a whole week. heâs been going live every night for a week. his arms is sore at this point, he swears itâll hurt if he got hard again. and he had made so much money⌠it was stupid, but maybe it was because he had tried everything that week. everything to get an orgasm as good as the one youâd given him. he had used all his toys too; his fleshlight âinto which he pumped his dick with abandon using his eidetic memory to remember the sound you made on your videosâ, his vibrator âwhich heâs run up and down his cock and around the leaking tipâ, his other vibrator that stimulated his prostate âthe overstimulation made him a mess, but it wasnât as good as your guidance and wordsâ, her blowing masturbator â to imagine what your mouth would feel likeââŚ
but of course⌠it didnât work. and you hadnât joined not even one of those lives. he looked like a kicked puppy on all of them out of camera, needing you to cum easier and well⌠better, harder.
@ entersandman
@ entersandman; want your mouth on me. i can say please.
@ entersandman
@ entersandman; where are you? i miss youâŚ
it wasnât fair. you couldnât just... show him how good âsexâ could feel and then leave him like that. he grew paranoid, watching everyone âfemale of courseâ in his classes in hopes of a sign, a slip, and needy, that too.
soooooooo needy.
@ entersandman
mommy please
please need you
you smirked at the new messages on your phone.
@ puredoll
canât baby, you know iâm studying, not everyone is smart as you, my clever boy
@ entersandman
iâll help you! just tell me who you are and we can study together!
you snickered and sent him a picture of your cleavage, since you were laying downwards on bed, reading your philosophy books.
@ puredoll
almost got me baby. but we both know that studying isnât what you want.
spencer groaned, at the sight and at the feeling of his cock standing up, pretty and ready to go. he pouted, and thought about sending you a picture to try and get you with his puppy eyes, but ended up getting shy about the idea and gave up.
@ entersandman
youâre mean.
you couldnât help but laugh when the notification of spencerâs new stream popped up.
toying with him was easy, but you too had needs, and were growing needy as well. you wanted him. so bad it almost hurt. and he was growing closer to finding out who you were since you couldnât help but stare at him in class, lost in his beauty.
so, one day, you decided to make your moveâŚ
it was a sunny day, and you had opted to wear one of your best outfits, a white snug dress that laced up around your neck with golden sandals. your hair was up in a curly hairdo with little strands cupping your face and your makeup was done with a large eyeliner and glossy cherry lips. you looked amazing âlike any other dayâ but you decided that today you wanted to notch it up one bit by applying your favorite scented body cream, repainting your toes and nails in white and spritzing your favorite and most precious perfume around your whole body.
then, you took your school purse and keys and left for the day.
you didnât even need to find him, he came to you like as if god knew of your intentions. he looked pretty. with a blue shirt and tie, and brown trousers and shoes. preppy, nerdy, slim fingers sliding up the bridge of his nose his glasses. his hair was taimed, perfectly combed, and he was clinging onto his satchel like a little kid.
cute. you smiled and slowed your walking towards the class, so you couldâŚ
âoh. sorry. please go ahead.â he said as he almost bumped into you going pass the threshold and into the room.
you looked up at him and with a kind smile said. âthanks, pretty.â the last part was tinged in teasing, your lips curving more into a smirk now as you looked away and made your way inside, your perfume engulfing him as you passed by.
and he stood there, frozen. âcause not only a pretty girl had just called him pretty himself, but⌠âprettyâ, what you always called him on streams and in your nightly chats. and that smirkâŚ
he gulped. could it be? he looked inside and saw you watching him, curving your eyebrows as in âarenât you gonna come inside?â
his feet moved alone, and before he could stop himself he was sitting right by your side.
âbold move, spencer.â you said, and he shook to the core.
spencer, spencer, spencer, spencerâŚ
it was as if you were made to say his name.
âis it you?â he inquired, his eyes on your profile until you turned towards him with a playful frown.
â âis it meâ? who am i, spencer?â you were teasing him. of course you were. he gritted his teeth and clenched his fists on his thighs, his checks flushing, adamâs apple bobbing. he looked around, at the almost empty classroom. âwhat is it? you canât say it?â he shook his head and you cooed. âaw, i thought better of you than this, spencer.â
he swallowed harshly and closed his eyes for a second before looking at you like a puppy.
âmommy.â he muttered and you smiled.
âgood boy.â you praised him, and he had to swallow down a moan, it sounded better than he had imagined. you were better than he had imagined. you were beautiful, gorgeous, breathtaking⌠you surely knew how to take his breath away.
âwhy⌠why now? why are you telling me now?â he inquired and you hummed.
âyou arenât happy?â
âno! of course not, itâs not that! itâs justâŚâ you understood.
âwell i was growing tired and⌠i really wanted to play with you.â you pouted, and reached for his cheek, caressing it. spencer swallowed again, and gripped his satchel over his legs. you smirked. âwhat are you hiding, huh?â
ânothing.â
âspenceâŚâ you warned and his cheeks got impossibly red.
âyou know.â
âyeah, i know. but i want you to say it.â his whole neck flushed and his lips trembled. âcome on, be a good boy.â you purred.
âyou made me hard.â he explained and you smirked.
âaw, that easy? baby⌠someoneâs needy, hm?â your hand came into his hair, and he hummed, almost moaned as you scratched at his scalp.
âyou⌠you left me.â
âwhat do you mean baby?â you played with the little hairs on his nape.
âyou didnât enter my streams.â you cooed once again.
âi know. did you miss me?â he nodded. âyou did, huh? what did you do on those streams, hm? tell mommy.â god. you couldnât talk about this things in public, but again, there were two more people in the class since it still was early, and they were on the furthest seats ever on the back chatting away. thereâs no way they could hear you. his eyes trailed over to them anxiously and your other hand fell to his thigh. he almost jumped out of his seat. âspence.â
âi⌠i played with my toys.â he quivered.
âplayed with your toys, huh?â he nodded, hair falling to his pretty eyes. âwhat kind of toys?â he gulped when your hand started to move up his inner thigh and below his satchel.
âmy⌠vibrators.â you hummed.
âand did you cum?â he nodded. âwas it good?â he shook his head this time. âwhy not?â you were now drawing circles with your thumb on his thigh and he was stuttering.
âyou werenât there.â you almost melted at his pout. you would give him anything if he played that move on you, by your reaction, spencer knew, and he was gonna take it to his advantage. âi missed you so much mommyâŚâ suddenly someone shouted in the back and startled you. it was a shriek of joy.
âthe class got cancelled!!â
âare you joking?â
ânuh-huh! god iâm gonna go back to my house and sleep the rest of the day.â
you could hear the other couple chatting as they quickly gathered their things and left from the back exists in a hurry to get back into their beds.
it was as if god loved you. how else could you have gotten spencer alone⌠with you?
spencer suddenly felt as if he were being stalked by a predator by how your eyes changed. your hand moved up⌠up⌠up⌠until you were cupping his erection, and he let out the prettiest whimper youâve ever heard.
âgod, you sound prettier than through the screenâŚâ you sighed.
âmommyâŚâ
âwhat is it baby?â you started to touch him from over his pants, with your hand measuring his length. he was bigâŚ
âwe canât⌠weâre at schoolâŚâ he whined, although his hips thrusted against your touch in need for more.
âyou donât seem too sure about that.â you smirked. âyouâre so pretty, the prettiest boy ever. you know how badly i wanted to enter those streams and see you? but no. i had to go slow with you. well iâm tired of going slow. arenât you, spence?â he nodded.
âyes, yes, godâŚâ
you pushed his satchel aside. âwanna see you.â he nodded once again, and with desperate fingers struggled to open his pants, pulling from his clothes so his cock would slip free. you clicked your tongue at the sight of his reddened tip. âbaby⌠look at you. doesnât it hurt?â he nodded.
âi just couldnât help itâŚâ he cried out. he had touched himself raw. âevery time i thought about youâŚâ he flushed. you understood.
âi canât touch you like this, itâll hurt you.â you cooed and his puppy eyes came back.
âno! please! it wonât hurt i promise! iâll be good!â he begged, and you shook your head. âplease mommy pleaseâŚâ you sighed.
âi canât use my handsâŚâ you said, but smirked, there were other ways to make him cum. and you were good at them. his eyes almost popped out of their spheres when you got on your knees in front of him.
âoh godâŚâ he whispered at the sight and the implication of what you were about to do.
âiâm about to ruin my lipstick, so you better behave, hm?â he quickly nodded, desperately even.
âiâll behave mommy, i promise.â
âgood boy, pretty.â you said, and took him in your hand. he moaned, his head falling backwards on his seat. âbaby⌠i havenât even started yet.â you chuckled.
âsorry, itâs just⌠iâve thought so much about thisâŚâ he bit down on his botton lip and you let out another chuckle.
âyouâre so cuteâŚâ and with that your tongue swiped a stroke across his red and raw head. your lips curved at the whimper that fell from his lips and just how quickly his hand came to the top of your head. you licked clean the beads of precum there with a hum. âtaste so good baby⌠better than i imagined.â
âkeep praising me and iâll cum.â he whined breathlessly and you laughed, pumping him slowly from his base before taking him into your mouth with a little moan.
him and his praise kinkâŚ
you loved the heady taste, how thick and large he was, and how warm he felt in your mouth.
he wouldnât stop leaking, and you started to suck, slowly taking more and more of him in your mouth with the bobs of your head. you thanked this was a secluded area and 1. the doors were all closed and 2. there were no cameras, âcause spencer wasnât good at keeping quiet, and youâd kill anyone who saw the pretty faces he was making right now as you fucked him with your mouth.
âmommyâŚâ he moaned, his back arching as you sped up. âfuck. feels so good mommy, so good⌠thank you, fuck, thank youâŚâ he praised you, and you felt your core getting wetter than it already was. you too had a praise kink after all.
his hips started to thrust up and your hands left him to go to his hips and push him down on his seat.
âsorry, sorry mommyâŚâ he cried as you popped him out of your mouth and hissed a âstay putâ at him.
âyouâre gonna be good and take it, arenât you pretty?â he nodded. âthatâs my good boy.â you went back at him, licking him from base to tip before taking him back down your throat.
âoh my godâŚâ he was a mess. but he was your mess. he hissed when you gave special attention to his head, licking and sucking harshly. but the pain only made the whole experience better. he was a gentleman, pushing the little strands of hair out of your face, but he was getting lost on the feeling of his impending orgasm. âmommy, iâm gonnaâŚâ
âyouâre gonna cum for me?â you asked as you pumped him. he nodded, his tongue peeking to wet his lips.
âyes, yes mommyâŚâ
âwhere do you wanna cum, hm pretty?â you inquired, sucking on his head.
he blushed. âcan iâŚ?â he stopped, stuttering.
âcome on baby, be good and use your big words.â
âcan i cum in your mouth?â his puppy eyes were back, his adamâs apple bobbing. you smiled.
âyou wanna cum in my mouth? wanna fill me up and watch me swallow it all?â you haunted him and he nodded. âhow do we ask for it?â
âplease mommy, please⌠can i?â you hummed in thought, just to tease him, before nodding.
âyes, you can, baby.â he moaned, and you went back to taking him back in your throat, down to the base, almost choking. the feeling of your throat closing around him making him whimper and thrash.
âah-ah-ah!â he hiccuped, voice airy and the grip of his hand tightening on your hair. his cock twitching inside your mouth, and with one last suck, he couldnât hold it anymore. he let go with a high-pitched whimper, his mouth falling open in a silent moan as his head fell back and his neck got exposed to your hungry eyes. you swallowed everything he gave you as you continued bobbing your head to extend his orgasm.
once down from it, you popped him out of your mouth, licking your lips clean.
you looked up at him to watch his chest rising and heaving in breathless puffs of air.
âare you okay baby?â you inquired him, and he mindlessly nodded. you had just sucked him braindead. âthat good, huh?â you smirked, and he nodded.
âso good, mommy. thank you.â
âaw⌠so politeâŚâ you got up from your knees, but not before putting him back in his briefs. âopen up.â you patted his lips and he followed your orders. you spat into it and he moaned, happily swallowing. âgood boy.ââtastes good?â he nodded. âdoes it hurt, baby?â you patted his chest, your noses touching.
âno, mommy.â he shook his head.
âstill. youâve gotta take care of yourself baby, how else am i gonna have fun with you, mh?â he nodded. he was still breathless and with a fuzzy mind. âno more touching until youâre all better, understood?â
âunderstood.â
âatta boy.â
later that day spencer posted on his twitter.
@ entersandman
@ entersandman; head so good iâd be losing mine
after that spencer really did lose his mind.
you were serious about the âno touchingâ, but this. this was pure torture.
not only he could remember every little thing about your head, but you just looked so good everyday at school, and your messages, and your pictures⌠god⌠he was going crazy.
he needed to touch himself but he was supposed to be a good boy, so he couldnât.
@ entersandman
@ entersandman; iâm being a good boy i promise mommy
but he wanted to rub one out so badlyâŚ
âmommyâŚâ he whimpered.
it was a late night friday. 2AM. and spencer was desperately and ridiculously grinding against his pillow. it had been a week since he had the feeling of your mouth around him. a whole week of teasing from your part. he was already healed. and so, oh so desperate.
he hadnât cum in a week, and it was getting to his head. thatâs how he found himself right were he was right now.
âthatâs it baby, keep humping that pillow for me.â
you had been surprised by the incoming call. this late at night? it shouldnât have been bad, but not spencer moaning and whimpering on the other end, what quickly turned you the fuck on.
âoh fuckâŚâ he whined, his sweatpants being the perfect friction against his leaking cock.
âwhat are you thinking about, huh?â
âyour mouthâŚâ he sighed. âmommy please⌠let me touch myself, pleaseâŚâ
âmmmh⌠you sound so pretty begging for it, baby⌠itâs been long since you last did it, huh?â
âyes.â he whimpered.
âawww, poor baby.â you cooed and he groaned at the way his cock jumped. âyou wanna touch yourself baby? you wanna cum?â he moaned as a positive. âbut what if i want it for me, huh? all that pent up, heavy load of yours, hm?â
he almost came right that instant as he thrusted against the pillow.
âyou want it?â he panted and you hummed. âwhere?â
âin my pussy.â spencerâs eyes rolled.
âoh my god.â
âso⌠are you sure you wanna waste it in your hand?â
âno, butâŚâ he whined.
âbut?â
âyouâre not hereâŚâ
âso why donât you come here?â his eyebrows perked up. âcome to my place.â
âare you serious?â he questioned you, and you giggled.
âof course i am, it must have been so hard for you this week⌠you should come here and let me make you feel better.â you purred. he moaned.
âiâll be there in 10 minutes.â he quickly babbled, and hung up.
you sent him your address as he quickly put on some clothes and took the keys to his car.
now you just had to wait.
âmmmph!â your mouth was on his as soon as he stepped through the door, tongue swiping his lower lip for entrance. what little of his erection had gone down in the way was quickly back as you pushed into his mouth.
âyou taste so goodâŚâ you whispered against his lips, his hands on your hips as he kissed you once again, desperately.
âneed youâŚâ he whined, his cock throbbing against your belly.
âyou do, huh?â he nodded. âhow much?â
âso muchâŚâ
âyeah?â your fingers trailed down his jaw, and he shivered.
âyeah.â he whispered against your lips.
âthen show me.â without needing to tell him twice, his hands shot up to the sides of your face, pulling him for the wettest and neediest kiss someone had ever given you. he was pouring everything he had on it, and you moaned, melting against him as he guided you backwards.
âroom?â he hummed between kisses.
âto the right.â you answered and squeaked when his big hands came down to your thighs and pulled you up, making you surround his hips. the two of you groaned at the feeling of his erection against your pussy, and you rocked your hips to feel more.
âfuck.â
he quickly made his way into the room, never straying from your lips and softly placing you onto your bed.
âmommy.â he whispered against your jaw as he kissed his way down to your neck.
âyeah, baby?â
âwanna eat your pussy.â he whispered against your skin, and you shivered.
âyeah? you wanna eat my pussy, honey?â
âyes, please.â he begged and you groaned, nodding. he whimpered at just the thought, his hands quickly followed yours to your shorts, pulling them off along with your underwear as you moved up the bed and him; down, kissing at the exposed skin on your stomach. you groaned at the feeling. you had thought so much about thisâŚ
he kissed at the skin of your hip, nibbling and sucking as he made his way in between your legs, pulling them over his shoulders.
âyouâre so beautifulâŚâ he groaned at the sight of you all spread out for him and glistening⌠âgod i just canât wait.â he whispered before diving in and licking a fat stroke up your slit with a moan, whimpering when you did too and your hands made their way into his hair and tugged.
âoh god, spencerâŚâ he ate you out like a man starved, sucking at your clit before going back down to your entrance and plunging his tongue inside to slurp out your juices.
âso good, mommy, you taste so goodâŚâ he moaned, licking his lips before going back at it. you pulled at his hair, messing it all up as you rocked your pussy against his tongue, riding his face and pulling him closer. he was even louder than you were as he licked everything up.
one of his fingers caressed your entrance and your hips canted upwards, moaning as he pushed it inside.
âfuck, pretty. youâre so good at this⌠fuck me with your fingers baby.â you ordered and he complied, starting with the one already inside, pumping it in and out as he suckled at your clit. âjust like that, good boy.â he whimpered and added another, curling them to hit your g spot. he wanted to make you feel good. he needed the praise. his hips rocked against the mattress as he fucked you with his fingers and licked your clit. âatta boy, fuck, youâre gonna make me cumâŚâ your back arched. âgonna give you this pussy baby. gonna make you a fucking mess. want your load inside of me, fuck, spencer, fuck!â you could feel yourself reaching it, getting closer and closer and closer⌠âyes, yes, yes!!!!â you used his face as with a final suck and curl of his fingers you fell apart, your eyes rolling back. he moaned when he felt you squeezing his fingers, fucking you through it.
once you came down, he licked you clean. sucking his fingers inside his mouth with a moan.
âcome here.â you ordered, pulling from his tee-shirt until he was in between your legs. âyou did so good baby⌠ate me out so goodâŚâ you praised him, and he sighed, smiling. ânow give me a taste, will you?â you purred, pulling down his bottom lip to open up his mouth as you guided him to yours, kissing him hungrily as you took off his top.
he whimpered, his tongue dancing with your own as you rolled the two of you over and sitting on his lap. âfuuuuckâŚâ he moaned when you started to roll your hips against his.
âyouâre so hardâŚâ you bit down on your bottom lip, discarding your shirt. his eyes widened at the sight of your naked and exposed chest, his hands quickly going to your breasts and thumbs rolling your nipples. âi want you now.â you smirked, and he nodded, helping you get rid of the last piece of clothing that was on him, since he wasnât wearing any underwear. âno underwear? someone came readyâŚâ you smirked and he whined, being cut off by his own moan when your pussy made contact with his cock. your lips engulfed his length as you rocked your hips, lubing him up.
âyouâre killing me.â he cried out, his dick twitching, head dribbling with precum.
âshhh⌠let me make you feel better, pretty.â you kissed his lips, taking him in your hand as you rose your hips and guided him to your entrance. âgonna fuck you so good spence⌠youâll forget your own name.â you promised before you slowly sank down on him.
and spencer knew you were telling the truth, âcause just with the tip inside, his mind was blank.
âoh god, oh my god, jesus christ, fuck, shitâŚâ you wanted to laugh at the indecent amount of words that were stumbling past his lips.
âaw come on baby, already?â you smirked. âitâs just the tip.â his hands were on your hips, fingertips pressing against your supple skin. âare you sure can you handle it?â you inquired but he didnât answer, moaning as you lowered yourself just the slightest amount, taking another inch. âspencer.â you harshly called out his name.
âyes?â he dazedly replied, chest heaving, cheeks flushed. you could eat him up.
âi said. can. you. handle it?â
âyesyesyes, please mommy. i can. i promise.â
âgood. donât you dare cum until i tell you to.â you ordered before taking all of him in in a quick movement. his eyes rolled backwards and from his mouth erupted the most beautiful whimper youâve ever heard.
âoh my god, oh my god, oh my godâŚâ
âsure, if you wanna call me that.â you shrugged, a smug smile on your lips as you started rolling your hips to adjust to his girth. âfuck, youâre stretching me out so good baby, so fucking big⌠a pretty boy with a pretty and big cock, you have it all donât you?â he moaned, nodding at your words even if he hadnât really processed them. he was trying his best not to burst.
come on, he hadnât come in a week. a week in which you hadnât stopped edging him. you had to know what you were doing to him. you just had to.
âdonât move, please.â he muttered, his dick twitching, he was gonna cum so hard.
âwe havenât even started yetâŚâ you sighed, and he pouted. he wanted to make you feel good, but you had this effect on him in which he could cum with just one single touch. âi thought you could handle itâŚâ
âi can! itâs justâŚâ he saw you smirk. âgod⌠you know what you do to me, you know.â you puckered your lips as you leaned closer to his own.
âthat i drive you crazy?â you rolled your hips and he moaned, his grip tightening. âoh i know darling, i can feel itâŚâ you whispered against his ear before your lips latched to his neck and your hips started to slightly move.
âyouâre killing me.â he whimpered, and you hummed, sucking a pretty mark where you knew he wouldnât be able to hide it. âdonât stop.â his hands wandered to your ass and helped you move more, slowly riding his cock.
you moaned when his tip kissed your cervix.
âfuck baby youâre so deep, canât wait to feel you pump me full.â he moaned, and his hips subconsciously pumped upwards, making you laugh, although you almost squeaked. âoh you liked that, huh? like the idea or your cum inside me, pretty?â he nodded.
âyes, fuck, yes. want it all deep inside your pussy mommy.â you moaned, moving harder. the squelches of your wetness around his dick moving in and out of you filled your room, only turning the two of you more.
âyeah baby? want me round and pretty for you?â the idea almost made him cum and you noticed. one of your hands surrounded his neck. âanswer me, baby.â
âyes,yes,yes.â
âgood boy.â you started to ride him in earnest. his eyes fell to your jumping breasts and then his hands followed, rolling your nipples to stimulate you. your back arched. âthatâs it, touch me pretty, touch my tits.â your hand tightened around his neck and his hips stuttered against yours. âyou like it, hm? like my hand around your neck baby?â he nodded.
âharder.â he begged and your smile got wider.
âatta boy.â you complied and his moans increased in volume. âthatâs it pretty, let me hear you.â
âmommyâŚâ he whimpered. âi canât, it feels so goodâŚ!â
âdonât you dare. iâve just started playing with you.â he whined, but nodded, his muscles tensing as you went faster, your own moans spilling into the room. âfuck, such a good cock. love it. love your cock baby.â you praised him, and you felt it twitch. he rose to hold you, his hands back on your ass to drive you harder down on his cock until his tip was breaching your cervix and your eyes were rolling back.
you wouldnât let him cum? fine. then heâll make you cum first.
his mouth latched to your right nipple as his hips snapped up against yours.
âspencer!â you screamed in ecstasy.
âmommy, fuck, mommy.â he panted against your chest, moaning against your skin before his tongue would circle your nipples and suck.
âdonât stop. donât stop, just like that.â you were surprised at his sudden change, but you werenât gonna complain, not when he was fucking the lights out of you.
âit was made for me, mommy. your pussy was made for me. it takes me so goodâŚâ he was babbling, whimpering as you tugged on his hair. the two of you moved messily, taking from the other, giving at the same time. desperate. hungry. it was as if you two were in heat, lost on each other.
âfuck baby, iâm gonna cum. gonna cum all over your pretty cock.â you moaned, and he went harder, one of his hands surrounding your waist to keep you in place for his incessant thrusts and the other moving to your clit, drawing circles on it to push you closer. âfuck,fuck,fuck!!!!!â you screamed, your back arching as with a couple more thrusts your orgasm hit you like a tidal wave, clenching down hard on his dick.
spencer whimpered, driving into you over and over again to fuck you through it, begging like crazy during it. âplease mommy, can i cum? can i cum now? please let me cum, let me fill you up mommy.â
âyes pretty yes, fuck my pussy, pump me full of your cum. i want it in my womb.â his hips stuttered and with, one, two, three more pumps he was burying himself impossibly deeper, breaching your cervix and spilling into your womb with a moan.
you two continued to rock against the other to ride the high down until all that was left was pure bliss. you two flopped down against the bed, you on top of him as you tried catching your breaths.
âuhâŚâ he tried, clearing his throat. he was out of words.
âyeah.â you nodded. âthat wasâŚâ
âyeah.â he copied you. âwanna go again?â he asked after a beat, too eager to make you feel good again.
âyeah.â you muttered before devouring his lips.
[âŚ]
months passed, and spencer was once again on one of his lives, shirtless, his stomach tied up in knots in nervousness. his adamâs apple bobber, his breath hitched as your fingers scratched his neck.
âhey you all, i have a surprise for you.â he said before an unknown figure slowly joined him on his bed, completely clad in lingerie. âthis⌠is my girlfriend, and today⌠sheâll be joining me.â he stuttered as you pressed wet kisses to his neck and jaw.
âready, pretty?â you inquired him, kissing his lips. and he nodded, puppy eyes staring at you. âgood. cause iâm gonna fuck you dumb. and they are all gonna watch.â
âââââ
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(artist: ppanae100)
You sighed as another picture popped up on your phone, sent during his so-called "study session" with friends. Youâd sent him to study, and this is what he was up to. Mentally, you made a note to confiscate his phone the next time he claimed to go to a "group-study."
So, Narin Gul was indeed your husband. This young, clingy, bratty, bimbo of a manâyour husband. You, a college professor. No, not his college professor. You just happened to grow up in the same neighborhood, and the moment you helped him with an essayâsomething he was initially too shy to ask about but did on his parents' insistenceâhe fell hopelessly in love. Deeply. He wanted to be yours and you to be his only.
He still couldnât quite understand how heâd fallen for a Chemistry professor, of all people, since he hated anything related to studying. His parents had to practically beg him to pursue a degree, just for his own good after heâd all but given up on academics. In the end, he chose English, thinking it might be easierâonly to now cry over novels, not because of the stories, but because he absolutely despises studying! He just wanted to be whisked away. To stay at home all day and keep himself and the house pretty.
And you, you were everything he ever dreamt of. Like his own knight, a Princess Charming. Sure, you were a bit older, and that only made it all more romantic in his mind. He, a cute and eager English Literature student in his first year, and you, a sophisticated, cold, dashing, and incredibly intelligent Chemistry professor--just the thought of it made his heart flutter. After that first interaction, he practically melted onto the floor when he returned to his room, unable to believe that you were the same (Y/N) who used to play on the streets with your friends. He, a kid at the time, would watch from the sidelines, sometimes joining in, and then you had disappeared for years to get your degree. And now you were back--thank God, you were back--and more dreamy than ever.
From that day forward, he started paying more attention to his English studies. Well, at least trying. Heâd read poetry or skim through the synopsis of novels he hadnât actually touched, hoping to impress you with a few lines memorized just for you. His bimboy brain, of course, failed to process half of it, but that didnât stop him. He had to prove that he was more than just a pretty face, that he was your good, studious boyâeven if "studying" for him meant reciting two lines of poetry and hoping they stuck.
Narin knew, deep down, that you would never accept him as your anything because of the age gap. But despite his airheaded tendencies, he had a brain--one he didnât use often, but when he did, he was clever. So, in a move that could only come from a desperate, lovesick boy, he concocted a scenario where his honour was on THE LINE!. And, of course, it was all because of you! His genius plan? Spread the rumour that you had asked him out on a date.
That single rumor was enough to send his parents into an absolute frenzy. Both families got involved, concerned about preserving reputations and traditions. Before you knew it, you were being dragged into marriage talks, and suddenly, you had a pretty boy in your lap with plump lips and an endless supply of cheeky grins. You couldnât help but shake your head at the absurdity of it all. Tch.
đ"Why do I have to study?!" Narin whined, flopping dramatically onto the couch like a toddler. "I want to be a househusband! I will be a househubby! Iâm not going to college! Please, Coco!" His pleading eyes were wide and desperate as if hoping youâd magically let him off the hook.
You pinched the bridge of your nose, already feeling the dayâs frustration mounting. It had only been one day since the wedding--a wedding where he cried hysterically about leaving his parentsâ house, despite orchestrating the entire thing himself. And now, this?
"You have to go because your parents paid for it! A degree is important. After that, you can sit in the house. Got it?"
"No, itâs not! There-" He froze, gulping as your stern gaze bore into him. His rebellious stance deflated with a huff, like a child whoâd been caught sneaking cookies. "Fine..." he grumbled, crossing his arms but relenting nonetheless.
Sigh.
You were so frustrated with the way your life had turned upside down that, instead of taking time off after the wedding, you threw yourself straight back into work just to stay sane. Meanwhile, you had Narin take a few days off to stop his constant whining about everything. You needed the quiet, but what shocked you was coming home every day to a home-cooked meal that was, annoyingly, delicious. Turns out, heâs actually talented at something after all. Not to mention those adorable outfits he wears, like that Panda onesie. What an adorable little minx.
However, heâs perpetually pouty, glaring at you like a scorned child every time you leave for work. He always tries his best to make you late, his antics a cheeky mix of playful defiance and desperate need for your attention which you cave in sometimes. He hadn't stopped grumbling about not being taken on a honeymoon either, arms crossed and lips jutting out in a sulk. But he will wait, deep down, he knew youâd take him eventually. He just wouldnât let you live in peace until you did.
His friends were apparently waiting for honeymoon picturesâhow embarrassing would it be to tell them his wife was too much of a workaholic to go on one? So, of course, he told them you were saving up for something huge. Eventually, to quiet him and his friends, you took him on that honeymoon just to get it over with.
Narin always made sure to do his homework right beside you, his head often resting on the table, watching as you graded papers with that calm, focused look on your face. Did he forget to mention you looked so hot?! It was like he was in his OWN K-drama! He loved being in your presence--it was warm, comforting, and-
đ"Narin? Narin! Stop dozing off. I want to see you writing."
He jolted upright. "Y-yes! Waitâwhy are you being so strict? I was just... taking a break." And there they were, those tears welling up in his eyes again. His go-to move. No, as a matter of fact he savoured your strictness. So, so much , like 'choke me already, ma'am'.
Sigh # 2
Despite his exaggerated bouts of emotion, Narin never forgot to remind everyone at college that he was a newlywed--with you as his wife, an established and respected professor. Oh, he made sure the world knew. Thatâs right. Go rot in jealousy, losers.
đ"Your husband has, again...behaved very rudely in the class." Your friend, Payton who was a professor at his college called you from work. '"I mean, before that teacher went to the dean, I handled the situation.'
You glanced over at Narin, standing nearby with his arms folded, clearly shivering under your gaze. What the hell are you supposed to do with him?. You made him apologize to said teacher and now he was ranting on the way to the car.
"Not my fault! She wasn't letting me go to my hair appointment! And why weren't you picking up my phone?! Did you already find someone else?! More beautiful than ME?! ARE THEY YOUR STUDENT?!"
"You little-" You held back, controlling the urge to snap. Control, (Y/N), control. ''Get in the fucking car." You slammed the passenger door as he got in and once in, turned to him.
"You were expecting me to come and take you to a salon in the middle of my job?! And why the hell do you have an appointment in the middle of your classes in the first place?!" You knew perfectly well he made the appointment as an excuse to bunk.
"Well, forgive me, wife, for trying to look pretty for you," he muttered, looking away dramatically. Then, with a smirk, he added, "And by the way... have you got your friend spying on me here?" His cheeks flushed pink, and he giggled like a child. Possessive control freak, he thought to himself. God, thatâs so blazing hot of you. Just when are you gonna collar me? That too a pretty diamond one? :(
Why is he smiling like that?
"Look, Narin, she is just doing her jobâ"
"Oh my God, staaahp," he interrupted with another giggle. "Just drive~. You donât need to be so defensive about it. I know you love me so much." He pecked your cheek, likely leaving a glossy stain behind, then laughed, clearly enjoying his latest episode of theatrics.
Great, you thought. Heâs at it again.
Sigh #3
Well, after that, you had to keep a close watch on him to ensure he didnât book any more 'self-care for wifey' appointments during college days. You still wondered why he squealed and shied away whenever you demanded to check his phone. What bothered you the most was that, despite having a sharp tongue, he seemed quite naive and innocent when it came to understanding the consequences of his words and actions. This often led to clashes with his in-laws. Had his parents even bothered to teach him anything?
đ"Good, you're ready. Let's go." You got up from the sofa as he finally emerged from the bathroom, dolled up. You were really hungry and just wanted to get to the family dinner.
"And here I was expecting you to shower me with romantic compliments... write a damn poem or something so weâd get delayed, and then YOUR family would ask why we're late so I could tell it to their faces that THEIR (Y/n) couldn't stop showering me with compliments and affection, making THEM jealous. THATâS HOW IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE!"
"Um... you look pretty. Pretty as ever. And weâre late either way, so you still get to use that line. Come on now." You walked past him, not forgetting to--
"Hey! NO! You donât get the 'smack my bum pass' after that lackluster compliment you threw at my face, professor." Liar, he definitely loved it.
Heâs a little manipulator with the eyes that of a siren. He knows how to use #keepingyourpartnerunderyourspell tactics very well. If you get furious or donât take his side after he acts like the spitfire he is in front of your family, then goodbye. Heâs leaving with his suitcase, which is mostly empty because he knows youâll come to bring him back home anyway, to go to his parentsâ. After enjoying at least half a day of tranquility , you have to bring him back before his parents call you and inform you about his hunger strike.
However, when you visit your in-laws, youâre treated like a queen, being their only daughter-in-law. Narin, although a headache sometimes, really takes care of your comfort, always standing over your head and feeding you various dishes. You just wish he would be this docile in front of your family. Perhaps one day. Your parents scold you for being so lenient with him, but what are you supposed to do? On one side, your husband wonât let you be in peace, and on the other, your family. You just use the excuse of him being young and immature every time. It hurts seeing him sad without you even realizing it.
Narin feels deeply wounded by the way your family sometimes favors you and disapproves of him, especially after how he has schemed his way into your life. Despite this, he believes their disapproval is unjust and is tormented by the idea that they want you to LEAVE HIM! Leave such a beautiful, ideal boy like him!. The fear of this happening haunts him, makes him furious, even giving him nightmares. He can't bear that. He will wilt. He won't ever let that happen!
He believes in love, just like in the fairy tales and Shakespeareâs sappy lines and knows that one day your heart will melt. He can spot the tenderness in your eyes and the way you care for him, correcting his dumb choices like saving him from sending the shared account details to an unknown number for a free couple spa day at a resort in GreeceđĽšđ
đ"Hey, Coco? Did you tell everyone that I passed my driving test?" Narin asked with a mischievous glint in his eye. It was Sunday, and heâd invited your family over for tea, or maybe he was just feeling playful and bored. He loved stirring things up a bit.
"Yes, on his first try too," you said, looking up from your laptop with a proud smile.
Narinâs cheeks turned a shade of pink at your beaming expression. "Why wouldn't I pass? You were my teacher, after all, haha. God," he turned to your mum, "Your daughter is such a scary teacher, but it was worth it. Haha!"
He got up to refill your tea and serve more snacks, catching the eye roll from your mum as he did.
HE. IS. LOVING. THIS. MARRIED. LIFE. >_<
(AN: wanna get Narin preggo- also a warm welcome to my new subsâ¨ď¸)
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ZERO-SUM GAME
Itâs different with Aventurine. You like being his luxury hand watch. You like being his elegant knife, his liarâs dice, his pretty poker chip. You want to be his objectâthe object of his affections, something he can parade around just like his expensive suits and his beautiful jewellery and his ostentatious furs. Look at me, he uses them to say. Look at what I own. Look at what I own despite this code on my neck. Look at what I've won despite my eyes and my blood. (Or: Aventurine wins you in a game of poker. He decides to cash out his prize right then and thereâto enjoy you on the card table, laid out among all the chips and cards.)
8.6k words of psychological issues, explicit smut, and deranged characterization. aventurine tops, reader bottoms. public sex, voyeurism from strangers, piv, oral (reader receiving), fingering with gloves on, creampie. mild dubcon but the reader is ultimately into it. afab gn reader, they are playing a fem-coded role for an espionage assignment (dress, heels, makeup). themes of objectification. discussion of slavery and sa during slavery (not explicit). dead dove do not eat, mdni.
You are in the grandest casino of Kinyoshi Moon Colony, and Aventurine is running your latest husband into life-ruining debt.
You arenât cut up about it. If your marriage (or concubinage, rather) were genuine, you'd maybe be annoyed about the loss of capital. But as it is, this relationship is an assignment from the IPCâone of the longest and most excruciatingly boring yet. Fortunately for you, Aventurineâs presence tonight means that you've finally gathered enough intel for Diamondâs needs. It is time for the IPC to terminate your latest contract, and Aventurine is here to collect you.
Which is a little funny, given your relationship. It is strange sitting across from your boyfriend, draped over another man and thoroughly ignoring him. Youâre entirely focused on fawning over your husband insteadâlaughing into his ear, lighting his pipe and filling his whiskey glass, and oh, Mister Li, you're so funny, you're so clever, I think you should go all in!âbut Aventurine doesn't react. He only smiles at the two of you, like he isn't bothered by the sight.
This is, of course, an act: when you came home from your last marriage (assignment), he'd made sure to pleasure you so thoroughly that you forgot all about your ex-husband (mark). Aventurine did not openly admit to any kind of jealousy at the time, but you could tell he hadn't been keen on letting another man touch you. He usually isn't too keen about anyone touching any of his things, in fact. Despite appearances, he always abhors the thought of losing anything important.
But any fears he might have are concealed right now. Theyâre always concealed. Hidden by the expensive suit, the countless stacks of chips, the golden walls and high-vaulted ceilings of the Venetian Zhijin, Masked by his generous gifts, his easy laughter, his careless frivolity. You can see right through his gilded smile. The rest of the table cannot.
They are all intrigued when Aventurine asks, a playful lilt in his voice, âHow about we make this game a little more interesting, gentleman?â
The other players at the table consider him. The other plus-onesâconcubines, courtesans, gigolos, and so onâlook at him with calculated expressions of cursory interest. You do so as well, but only for a moment. Your gaze quickly returns to Mister Liâs faceâyour husband is meant to be your true focus, after all, not the game. You are not a player at this table, but an accessory. Closer to an expensive watch than a human being.
Some business magnate from the Triangulum Galaxy leans back and raises a brow. âI'm listening,â he says. You watch a bead of sweat travel down your husbandâs neck.
âHow about we up the ante,â Aventurine says, his voice light, âbut instead of betting more money this time, we bet our dates?â
You think, in other star systems, other worlds, such a suggestion would invite riot. But Kinyoshi Colony being what it is, and the Venetian being the establishment that it is, the other players at the table only laugh. Nearly half of them deal in the trade of human beings anywayâthis is nothing novel for them.
âWell,â one of them says, âitâs not like winning more moneyâs gonna make a difference to any of us.â A round of chuckling. He turns to his dateâsome noblewoman from Jarilo-IV who seems greatly out of her depthâand says, âWhat do you think, love? How do you feel about being part of my wager?â
She doesn't like it. She clearly doesn't like it, and she also clearly doesn't know how to say it. Were you not on the clock, you might intervene. Maybe. As it is, though, all you can do is observe quietly. All the power in this gambit lies with Aventurine. Even when surrounded by men who manipulate the wealth of entire cities, planets, galaxiesâhe remains in full control.
âThereâs never any shame in folding,â he says, magnanimous. Then he looks your husband in the eye, smiling conspiratorially. âBut I know there are some of us who aren't afraid to take risks.â
Li laughs. âYouâre right about that, Mister Aventurine.â He gives you a fond smile. And of course he doesâyouâre his last shot at winning back all his losses for the night. âI think you'd make a pretty little chip, don't you?â
Although Mister Li is clearly less distressed at the thought of betting you than he was at the thought of betting his company just last round, you notice, out of the corner of your eye, a muscle in Aventurineâs neck twitching. Itâs very, very subtle, and he'd have never let himself do it if the tableâs attention were on him, but he did it. Perhaps it was involuntary. Your mouth curls.
âSure, darling.â You try not to sound too giddy. âIâll be whatever you like.â
Ordinarily, you wouldn't be so happy about this farce. This is, put plainly, a stupid way to extract you from your mission. Were the cards in anyone elseâs hands, your husband could win and you might be stuck with him for another several weeks, at leastâassuming that you aren't discovered and killed first. Or you could go home with another man and be subjected to the kind of things that men do when they trade human beings, and you don't think the IPC would care too much if you were. You are an asset before you are a person, after all. At this table, you are closer to an expensive watch than a human beingâand at the Company, you are an overpriced knife.
But to Aventurine, you're a chip in one of his games, and you don't mind that so much. Men who only know wealth will throw around their riches thoughtlessly, but men who have endured poverty will hold onto them tightlyâdesperately. Aventurine takes care of his luxury watches, his elegant knives, his liarâs dice. His capital. And he never loses anything. He always comes to collect. You trust him to collect you, even with this stupid plan, so you are calm as you watch the dealer shuffle the cards.
The table makes their bets. Most of the players go all-in. A couple fold, perhaps feeling some degree of concern for their partners, but it's more likely that they just have shit hands. A lot of the ones who continue playing have shit hands anyway. Your husband doesn't do too badlyâa straight flush. He seems confident.
Then Aventurine lays out his cards. Ten. Joker. Queen. King. Ace.
All hearts.
You have to take a sip of your whiskey to stop yourself from laughing.
Aventurine, himself, has the grace not to look too smug about the outcome. Or maybe it's very unremarkable for him, all these winnings being pushed over to himâpoker chips and human beings. Some of the other dates are clearly anxious as they move toward him (they are expected to be loyal to their husbands), and some are clearly excited (they are expected to be frivolous, hedonistic playthings). He humours them all, for a little while. Puts on the usual show as they crowd around him, charms them because it'll be good for business partnerships in case any of their husbands care even a little bit about them. You'd do the same in his shoes. But in your current ones (six-inch heels, black leather, red bottoms, luxury), all you can do is seat yourself on the card table and light up a cigarette. Waiting.
Aventurine eventually sends them all off. All I wanted was to get to know you, he says cheerfully, which is probably not a lie. After they leave, he asks the dealer to close the table and go on break. Turn a blind eye. You raise a brow when they obey him.
How interesting.
You're still enjoying your cigarette by the time he turns to you. You flash him a smile, one of the ones that you use for work. His expression doesn't change, but his thumb brushes against one of his many ringsâswitching off your synesthesia beacons for some privacyâand he leans back to study you. You know he's admiring you, but it could be mistaken for a leer.
âWell, well,â he says, âIf it isnât the esteemed concubine of Li Fengzhi.â
âThe esteemed fifth concubine,â you correct. He hums, looking surprised.
âI thought you were the fourth. Did I misremember?â
âNo, just misinformed. He took another concubine right before I arrived on Kinyoshi. He acquired a sixth just last week. Turns out he picks up paramours like theyâre strays.â
âHow inconvenient.â
âIt made no difference to me,â you dismiss. âIâm his favourite anyway, but Iâm sure you knew that already.â
âIâd have had to be blind not to notice it. You have the man wrapped around your finger.â Aventurine leans back, studying you as you smoke on your perch. âBut before we continueâwhy donât you come a little closer, esteemed Fifth Concubine?â
You make a face. âThat title doesnât sound as nearly as flattering in Avgin dialect as it does in Zhijinese,â you note, though you get off the table anyway. You donât go very far, electing to seat yourself on his lap, your arms draping around his shoulders. The feathers of his jacket tickle at your bare shoulders; the satin of his gloves glide down the skin of your thighs before settling on your calves. âSince youâve won my company for the night, though,â you sigh, âI suppose I can humour you, Mister Aventurine.â
âLucky me.â He leans in, his breath sweeping the shell of your ear. His fragrance surrounds you, your body warming at the familiar scent of ambergris and vanilla. You realize, all of a sudden, how much you missed it. You have to stop yourself from pressing your face into his neck and meltingâit would be a dead giveaway for your identity and also too revealing of your feelings. Aventurine might be endeared by it, but he might also find it disconcerting. He often needs to be tricked into intimacy.
He does enjoy being wanted though, and he can obviously tell that you want him. He pulls you closer, one of his hands giving your thigh a generous squeeze. It makes you throw your head back in a laugh, exposing the soft skin of your throat. You aren't surprised when he takes the opportunity to kiss it, his lips gentle against your pulse.
âYouâre being very forward,â you tease him. âDid you miss me?â
âIâm just trying to be careful,â he defends himself between kisses, his breath warm on your skin. âWe should try to conceal our mouths as much as possible. No one can intercept our synesthesia beacons, but someone could still read our lips.â
You give him a funny look. âWeâre the only two speakers of Avgin in the known universe. Who could, other than ourselves, could read ourâmmphâŚâ
Aventurine has caught the rest of your sentence with his mouth. Heâs hungry and wanting for you, the heat of his lips overwhelming. Your tongue is as practised as his, but you find yourself too distracted by your thrill to focus, your kiss wet and eager. Messy. Unprofessional.
Youâve never kissed any of your husbands like this. Youâve never kissed any of your other owners like this. You feel dazed when he pulls away.
You compose yourself. âSo you did miss me.â
He smiles. âGuilty as charged.â A gloved hand rests on your face, satin tracing your lips. âHow could I not? Youâve been away from the house for so long.â
Your eyes narrow. Thereâs no idiom for this in Avgin, so you flip briefly to Interastral Standard: âPot, kettle, black. You leave home all the time.â You smack away the hand at your waist, petty. He looks amused. âAnd you almost always die.â
He switches out his smile for a pout. âDonât tell me youâre still mad about last time.â
âYou nearly got yourself blasted with atomics, so yes, Iâm still mad at you.â
Now heâs frowning. âAm I going back to sleeping on the couch when you come back?â
âYes,â you say. His deepening frown is meant to be read as a joke, but you know better. Deciding to throw him a bone, you lean in, whispering playfully into his ear: âYou can still fuck me on it though.â
Aventurine hums, as if considering. His hands traverse your sides as he contemplates your suggestion. You move to straddle him, your thighs squeezed around his hips. When you grind against him, you can feel how much he wants you despite his composure, his controlâhis length straining in his pants, pressed against the silk covering your core.
âI donât think I can wait long enough to fuck you on the couch,â he says, voice teasing.
âNo?â You hum as his hands travel upward, feeling every inch of you. âThe ship on the way home, then?â
âWe donât leave until tomorrow. Do you really think I can wait that long?â
You don't expect to feel the warmth of his hands on your chest. Your breath hitches when he starts palming your tits through your dress, neon eyes admiring the curve of them. One of his thumbs skims over the peak of your breast, and his mouth curls when your nipple hardens. âNo bra? That's convenient.â
âIââ You squirm in his grip, whining. It just makes you grind against his lap more, your cunt moving against his slacks. A wave of heat runs through your lower half, and you clench around nothing. You can see people from a nearby table glancing at you, doing double takes. You can feel their lingering gazes on you, and you know Aventurine can too.
âIâare you going toââyour voice shakes as he pinches your nipple, as his other hand moves to squeeze your ass instead. Your dress is shortâdesigned for easy accessâand his fingertips easily skim the underside of its skirt. You wonder if heâs going to pull it up. You wonder if he's going to go even further than that.
But that would be an absurd thing to do in the middle of the busiest casino in the colony, which also happens to be the busiest trade hub in its star system. It would be absurd even for the two of you. Nevermind the reactions of the other players in the roomâthe staff here would immediately blacklist you, and so would every other gambling house in Kinyoshi.
You try to calm yourself. âAre youâahâgoing to take me upstairs?â
He's fully kneading your breasts now. You can feel your clit throbbing, your body responding to his rough and unrepentant touch. âHm⌠I don't think I want to.â Aventurineâs voice drops. His smile takes on a distinctly wicked quality. âI think I'll take you right here.â
âBut weâll get kicked out,â you whine. Even as you protest though, you're panting and moving your hips now. Grabbing at his arms, rutting against him like you're in heat. His fingers hook around the thin straps of your dress, pull them down your shoulders, already starting to indulge despite your reservations. You bend into his touch.
âKicked out? By who? The staff?â He smiles, as always. âI own the place now. I don't think they'll be giving me trouble.â
âYâyou what?â For a moment, you're too shocked to keep up the wanton show. âYou do? Since when?â
âSince last night.â He thumbs one of the straps that's fallen halfway down your arms. The rest of your dress threatens to come down with it. âTechnically it's the IPC who acquired itâor, well, their shell company didâbut I'm their designated representative here. I signed the contract.â
âThe IPC isnât going to be upset that you're fucking a concubine, who's not even your concubine, on their new property?â
Aventurine shrugs. âThey know the kind of establishment the Venetian is. People gamble with humans here all the time, you know, so this has definitely happened before. The IPC definitely expects it to happen again. And besidesââhe returns his attention to your dress, starting to slip the fabric down your shouldersââI'm just cashing out my winnings. I'm sure they wouldn't deny a gambler his vices. That'd be bad business.â
You want to say more, but then he tugs, suddenly exposing you. Youâre bare in front of himâin front of everyone. You can feel eyes on you. Heat curls in your gut as he grabs your tits again, his satin gloves smooth across your skin, and your nipples pebble beneath them. âHm⌠much better.â
âButâŚâ You bite your lip, glancing around. There are so many people watching nowâso many voyeurs, who've forgotten about their games and their slots. Though there are a greater number of people who are continuing as usual, studying their hands, smoking their cigarettes, unperturbed. All regulars and VIPs, you know from your intelligence.
Aventurine pauses as you catalogue the room, raising a brow. Probably he's surprised at your sudden modesty; you usually have none when his touch is involved.
âOf course,â he adds, âif you'd rather enjoy the suite upstairsâŚâ
âNoâI donât mind staying down here⌠it's just that Iâve neverâŚâ
Your voice trails off. Your eyes traverse the space again. There are people whoâve fully thrown their cards down, greedily drinking in the sight of you instead. Even some of the dealers are watching between hands, glancing at you instead of watching for cheaters. Like this is public entertainment, like you're a show.
Aventurine tilts his head.
âYou've never had sex with an audience?â he guesses. He sounds surprisedâperplexed. You don't know why. You know he knows it's a stupid question. You know he knows the answer.
You had sex in front of people all the time before you met him. You did it for the exact reasons that heâs almost certainly done the same. To this table of business magnates, you are closer to an expensive watch than a human being; to the IPC, you are more like an overpriced knife; to this gambling hall, you're an interesting sideshow.
To your captors who fucked you in public, you guess you were something like a toy.
The thought sitting in your mouth is this: you've never had sex with an audience and enjoyed it. It was painfulânot painful for the heart or the mind or anything else sentimental, but painful like it felt you were a fish being gutted open by a knife. And even beyond that physical pain, you simply didn't enjoy being passed around. You didn't like being owned by those people. You didn't like being an object for their entertainment, a spectacle to be consumed.
But it's different with Aventurine. You like being his luxury hand watch. You like being his elegant knife, his liarâs dice, his pretty poker chip. You like being his plaything, spread for his viewing whenever he wants. You want to be his objectâthe object of his affections, something he can parade around just like his expensive suits and his beautiful jewellery and his ostentatious furs. Look at me, he uses them to say. Look at what I own. Look at what I own despite this commodity code on my neck. Look at what I've won despite my eyes and my blood.
You want him to own you too. You want him to show everyone that he won you, that he bought you, that you're his possession now. That he, and he alone, is free to treat you like a toy.
You're getting wetter just thinking about it.
âNevermind,â you whisper. âLet's do it.â
His smile widens ever so slightly. Slyer than usual.
âGood,â he says. He guides you into standing. âLetâs get you settled then.â
You're seated back on the card table. The cigarette is forgotten in the ashtray next to you. Aventurine takes the time to straighten out your dress, lifting the straps back up and affording you some modestyâbefore he gently lays you out.
You look up at him as you're spread in front of him, laid out next to his royal flush and winnings. Like you're another chip in his stacks, the most expensive one. He puts a hand beneath your leg, drapes it over his shoulder. He takes the opportunity to kiss your calf, his lips delicate.
You glance at the tables around you. You watch the business owners and politicians as they watch Aventurine. You watch them as they watch your boyfriend pepper kisses up your leg, unless he's settling in between them. Your thighs spread easily for him, and you don't resist as he hikes up your skirt.
Then he frowns.
âIâve never seen these panties before.â
âTheyâre new,â you relay.
âFrom your husband?â
âYup.â
âI see.â
You can't see his face, but he sounds distinctly displeased. You expect him to complain, to say they're not expensive enough or not designer enough or just plain ugly.
You don't expect him to tear them right off.
âAventurine?!â
You're so surprised you sit up, just in time to see him throw tatters of silk to the floor.
âWhat?â He looks up at you, expression unbothered, almost mild. âIt wasn't your colour.â
Your mouth opens. âBut it was still very nice!â
âI'll buy you nicer ones later. Iâll buy you a whole drawer of nicer ones later, when weâre done here.â
He looks down again, humming. Your cheeks flush as he spreads your legs again, baring your glistening sex to himâthis time completely bare. Satin glides along the inside of your thighs, and your breath hitches when he reaches their apex. You feel the light touch of a finger along your opening, and you feel your body responding, tightening around nothing.
âTell me,â he says, âWhat else did your husband do with you?â
His voice is casual, almost disinterested, but you know Aventurine is listening carefully.
âNot much,â you answer truthfully. âI haven't cum in months, you know.â
âOh?â He sounds surprised. âYou don't have sex with him?â
âNo. He's fucked me a lot. Itââyou whimper, pausing when you feel his fingers spreading you open, fluttering hole and swollen clit exposed to himââit just wasn't very good.â
âThenââyou feel a thumb press against your clit, and you swallowââhe never touched you here?â
âN-no.â
âStupid of him.â Heâs drawing slow, lazy circles into the bud now, making you squirm on the table. You press yourself eagerly toward his familiar touch, having desperately missed it for months. Aventurine, perhaps sensing your neediness, asks, âAnd you didn't touch yourself?â
âHe didn't let me,â you whine, and now he's frowning at you.
âI knew I should have gotten you out of there sooner,â he says, and you have to bite back a laugh. Aventurineâs mouth curls at the sound, and he leans in to place a kiss on your thigh. âBut thatâs fine. I'll make it up to you now.â
Aventurine kisses are soft and precise. They pepper a path up your thigh while his fingers continue to play lazily with your clit. You wantâneedâto feel something inside you, but he doesn't oblige. His fingers merely run along your entrance, teasing your dripping pussy with luxury satin, and that's all they do, even as your hips buck needily toward him.
He pauses for just a moment. When you look at him, you see him staring at youâat the brand on your inner thigh, the commodity code that your captors left on you, branding you as a product to be used and sold.
His voice is almost soft when he asks, âAnd what did your husband say when he saw this?â
âHe never did,â you reply. âHe always fucked me from behind. And he never went down on me.â You pause, thinking about the way he spoke of his business. Of his trade partners. Of what your captors had done to your home when you told him about it, feigning intimacy only to be matched in cruelty. You think about the way he fucked you, how it felt to be gutted open on his expensive, silk sheets.
None of it matters to you, really. This is behaviour that youâve long accepted, that your body always anticipates. But you always like to offer Aventurine intimacy, whether real or feigned, whether he returns it equally or responds with undeserved cruelty: âI think it wouldn't have bothered him if he had noticed it.â
You can't see Aventurineâs eyes, but you can feel his reaction when he places a chaste kiss on your product code.
âI should have gotten you out of there sooner,â he repeats. Then he pauses. âMaybe I shouldn't have let you go at all.â
âI didn't mind,â you say. You aren't lying. âYou gave me up for a reason.â
He stands. Cups your face with a palm, luxuriant fabric and gold rings pressed against your skin. Sometimes he's given up the aventurine stone temporarily for assignments, parting with it in elaborate gambles that he always manages to win. The way heâs touching you now reminds you of the way he holds the gem whenever it returns to his hand.
âWell,â he says, âIâm sorry it took so long to get you back.â
Aventurine tilts your chin up for a kiss. You meet it eagerly, and it's so tender in its familiarity that every memory of your husband fades. There's only Aventurine, and his gentle mouth, and the way his hands slide your dress down again, how he palms your breasts again. How he teases one nipple with his expensive rings until you're moaning into his mouth. How his other hand travels down until his gloved hand is cupping your heat. You drag your hips against his touch, desperately seeking some kind of friction, your wetness drenching the cloth. Your cunt clenches around nothing, your body aching to be filled by him, aching in a way that it does for no one else.
Itâs one of the most addictive feelings you've ever known.
Aventurine only stops touching you so he can push away all the chips, clearing space on the table. He ignores the cacophony as countless stacks fall over, not sparing the plastic coins a single glance. Like you're the only prize that matters to him, even though the sum of his winnings come out to more than you ever were worth.
He lays you out on the table again, flat on your back, exposed, before kissing a path down your bodyâyour neck, your breasts, your stomach, between your thighs. He deigns to give your product code one more kiss, his lips so gentle that it makes you trembleâand then he finally puts his mouth on you. He licks a hot stripe from your dripping pussy up to the crest of your sex, and your eyes close in bliss.
If you felt any uncertainty before this, it's completely gone now. Your hands ghost over your tits, playing with them as Aventurineâs tongue plays with you. He sucks on your neglected clit, fingers squeezing your thighs, keeping you spread open and still for him. He presses in, lets you drag your cunt over his greedy mouth and grind your clit against his face. Heat and pressure coil tight in your belly as he pleasures you, your body flushing with the kind of bliss only Aventurine can give you. Youâre so lost in it that you almost donât notice how quiet the rest of the hall has gotten, the cacophony of chatter and slot machines oddly subduedâalmost missing. In their absence, the obscene noises that Aventurine is drawing from your mouth and body are louder than they should be.
The pleasure in your belly is just starting to swell when he pulls away. You give him a pleading look as he leans over you, but before you can start begging for more, you feel his fingers press against your heat. He watches you with keen eyes as he starts rubbing your pussy, maybe enjoying the desperate noises you make at his touch. You buck your hips, moaning as your clit and entrance grind against the fabric of his gloves, seeking friction. Youâre empty, aching, desperate to be filled, but you think you can finish like this, just by rutting against his satin fingersâ
Aventurine withdraws his hand, and you whine.
âNo,â you beg, âplease, please keep going, I was getting closeââ
He raises a brow, feigning surprise. âKeep going?â He brings up his hand, shows you his gloves. The satin is soaked, shiny and stained with your slick. âI don't think I should. Look at what a mess youâve made of my gloves.â Aventurine hums, frowning. âThese are designer, you know. And limitedâthere are only 95 pairs of these in the whole universe. And you're ruining them.â
âI'm sorry,â you say, mind so fogged with lust that you can't even return his teasing. âI'm sorry, I'll make it up to you, I'll do anything, justâjust let me cumââ
âAnything?â His smile is sly.
âAnything.â
âWell. I suppose if you help me clean this up, I wouldn't mind rewarding you with more.â
You don't need to ask what he means by that. When he holds out his hand to you, runs a finger along your lips, you obediently open your mouth for him. Your tongue slides along the wet satin, only making his glove messierâbut he seems not to mind. He merely watches intently as your tongue cleans his fingers, taking in the obscene image of you hungrily lapping your own slick off the expensive fabric.
He lets you ruin his glove thoroughly before finally drawing back, peeling it off.
âI'm not sure that did any good,â he says, frowning. âIâll probably need to buy a new pair. Butââhe pulls away, and you feel him settle between your legs again, his hands spreading them. âI'll still reward you for the effort.â
Aventurine is quick about getting his mouth back on you. His tongue is hot on your skin, expertly teasing your clit. You feel his fingers running along your entrance again, growing sticky with his need. He laughs when you press your hips toward his hand, desperate to be filled.
Then he's pressing his bare fingers into your heat, and your back is arching off the table.
The moan you let out is obscene. It only gets worse when his fingers curl, making the pressure in your belly even heavier. Utterly shameless, you beg for him as he fucks you with his fingers: Aventurine, please, please, I need more, please, I'm so close, I'm so close.
As if taking pity on you, his mouth finds your clit again, his fingers pressing into your sweet spot at the same time. And he doesn't let up, pushing into it even when you think you can't take anymoreâtongue swirling against your overstimulated bud, fingers making you gush uncontrollably. You practically sob when you cum, a noise of desperation that echoes in the gambling hall.
His smile looks a little fonder than usualâor maybe just entertainedâas he stands again and leans over you. You taste your own release in a messy, open-mouthed kiss, and he strokes your face when he pulls away.
âSo good for me,â he praises. âAre you going to let me do more?â
You nod eagerly. âWhatever you like,â you say, all sense of shame gone from your body, âand however you want.â
Aventurineâs mouth curls. âYour husband fucked you from behind, right? Why don't you bend over for me, then? Let's show him how he should have been doing it.â
You see the diamond pupils of Aventurineâs eyes glance off to the side, where, sure enough, your husband is spectating with some of his business partners. You force yourself to turn away before you can smile, hiding your expression from the other men. Youâre not meant to derive any real pleasure from any of this, let alone pleasure of the vindictive kind. Your relationship with Aventurine is supposedly nothing but a gambler and his newly won, human plaything. It would be suspicious if you appeared to be anything else.
You slink off the table in a distinctly performative way, and Aventurine plays equally into the showâprobably an act as familiar to him as it is to you. He guides you into turning around, your eyes falling on the scattered cards on the tabletop, the casinoâs eyes falling on you. His hands waste no time in pulling down your dress and reaching around to knead your breasts, in full view of the rest of the gambling hall. You're only vaguely aware of your audience now, registering the interested, hungry stares, but not really caring. You're too focused on the way that Aventurine is tugging and twisting at your nipples, at how heâs pressed up against your ass, his cock straining through his pants. You grind needily against him, whining.
Aventurine kisses your shoulder. âPoor thing. You've been neglected for so long, haven't you?â His hands retreat, and you hear the sound of a zipper being undone. Then your skirtâs being pushed up and you're being bent over, your dripping pussy fully presented to him. When you feel the press of his cockhead against your entrance, you desperately try to push yourself back onto him. But he doesn't allow you toâonly running the tip along your wet folds, still sticky from your release, while he stills you with a gentle touch on your hip.
You make a pathetic, desperate noise. Aventurine chuckles, though thereâs now a breathy quality to his voice.
âBe patient,â he chides. âI'll take care of you.â
You know he will. He always takes care of you, in a way that no one else ever has. Even when he gambles your life for some mission, even when he can barely afford you the barest hints of intimacy, even when he displays your body to an audience of slave traders and murderersâhe always takes care of you. Even if you are only a knife or a wristwatch or a chip in one of his games, he still treats you like you're worth holding onto.
Aventurine finally moves. Your eyes flutter shut as you feel his cock sliding into you. Usually he needs to be careful after your long missions away from him, knowing you'll be tense. He understands that your body always anticipates being in pain after being touched by other people. But he has you so worked up right nowâstill dripping from your release, still pliant from his fingers, still eager to please him before the crowdâthat your cunt easily swallows his length. The stretch is pure bliss, pleasure unfurling in your body as you're filled up properly for the first time in months. He's just as affected as you, breath shaking as he bottoms out.
âFuck,â he breathesâlaughs. âNearly forgot how good this feels.â He pauses, his breathing slowingâalmost stopping each time you squeeze around him. You turn back, throwing him a pleading glance, and he meets it with an endeared smile. âEager today, aren't you?â He hums, a hand sliding along your waist. âYou really do need to be properly fucked.â
He's stalling. Trying to give you a moment to adjust, but you don't need it. âYes,â you encourage him. Aching for the press of his cock against your walls, you grind against him, and you hear a strangled groan as you force him to move inside you. âPlease, Aventurineâplease, please fuck me, I need it so badlyââ
He hums, both hands grabbing your hips, his fingers sinking into you. âWell. Since you asked so nicely.â
The first thrust has your eyes going wide, your hands reaching for the card table as youâre forced to bend over. You spread our palms next to the mess of heart cards and shiny tokens, bracing yourself for the way your bodyâs about to be used. He doesn't give you time to breathe after, each stroke filling you deep and fast. The rest of the gambling hall grows very, very quiet as Aventurine fucks you, and suddenly all you can hear is the appreciative murmur of the crowd, clink of ice cubes in aged whiskey, the noisy flick of lighters as more patrons opt to pause their games and enjoy the show. You hear the shattering of all the stacks beside you, hundreds of thousands of dollars in chips fall over beside you, tokens clinking as they roll across the tabletop. But all of that is soon drowned out by the wet noise of your pussy being fucked open, the squelch of your slick around his cock. You moan each time he bottoms out, eager to be filled.
When you feel his cock press into your sweet spot, your moans quickly turn into cries.
You hear something like a breathy laugh from Aventurine. Your body always reveals itself so easily to him, and you know he enjoys it. He hits that spot again and again, builds an agonizing tension in your body with every thrust of his hips. It has your pussy gushing around him, your thighs growing wet and sticky with your need.
Just when it feels like you can't take anymore, he reaches down and presses his fingers against your throbbing clit. Your knees buckle as he toys with you, chest heaving against the table as he sets a brutal pace. You'reâoverwhelmed, mind going hazy as you're fucked mercilessly. So far gone, you can hardly register the disgruntled expression of your husband, the hungry gazes of his companions, the way that other players are starting to shift in their seats, palming themselves at the sight of your pussy being split open. There's only the tight coil in your gut, the chips between your fingers as you grab uselessly for something to ground you, the cock that's filling you over and over and overâand oh fuck, youâre going to cum, you're really going to cum after being won in a game, from having your pussy used like a sleeve, from being watched by men who will never own you no matter how many times they trade you, no matter how many times they fuck you, no matter how many times they pass you around, because you'll only ever belong to Aventurineâ
Your orgasm crashes through your body, and you sob.
It's a broken, blissed out noise. Your pussy is equally shameless, gushing as you pulse around Aventurineâs cock. You go limp as he fucks you through your orgasm, uncaring about the mess you're making. He only groans as you squirt all over him, hips stuttering as he reaches his own peakâspilling himself inside you, pumping you full. Aventurineâs body slumps over yours as rides out his high, his face pressing into your shoulder. You find the wherewithal to shift yourself, just enough to your lips against the tattoo on his neck. He looks at you for a fleeting moment, the blue ring of his eyes electric on you, before capture your mouth in a desperate, messy kiss.
The two of you stay there for a long moment, panting into each other. Then Aventurine collects himself, remembers how to talk: âFuck.â
You piece yourself together just as easily. Maybe even faster. Smiling into his mouth, you ask, âEnjoy yourself?â
âClearly.â Aventurine presses his lips into your neck, lingering only briefly. âCan you walk?â
âI think so.â
Aventurine takes his time with moving, as if basking in the afterglowâor bragging in it. But he does rise, eventually. Pulls out slowly, making you shudder. He helps you to your feet, lets you hold onto him for support. His spend drips down your thighs as you right yourself, messy and hot on your skin. You can feel it sliding down your legs as you walk, braced against Aventurine as he guides you in the long walk toward the elevator. It slips all the way down to your calves, to your expensive heels, even onto the marble floor.
You're fairly certain that it's not an accident when Aventurine flips up your skirt as you pass your ex-husband. At the very least, it isn't a mistake when you stumble in that same moment, bending over and giving him a good look at your well-used pussy, now overfilled with your boyfriendâs cum. You don't stop to look at him, but you know he must be red-faced, displeasedâaware that heâs been humiliated. Beaten by a Stoneheart, concubine stolen by Sigonian, one of his favourite possessions claimed by a former slave. You'd laugh if you could.
You can't help but kiss Aventurine while the two of you wait for the elevator, a smile glowing into his lips.
It's absurd, but a staff member approaches the two of you as you indulge in one another. Aventurine pulls away as youâre approached, looking mildly annoyed as he switches on his synesthesia beacon.
âSir,â the staff says, âyouâve left your other winnings at the table.â
Even in his post-orgasm bliss, Aventurine responds promptly. âIâll cash it all,â he says. âSend the money to my room. I'm not coming back tomorrow.â
âVery well. And the terms of the⌠human resource exchange that just happened?â
Aventurineâs jaw clicks. It's quiet, but surprising. You watch him carefully.
âWe didn't bet contracts,â he says. âThis is a concubine, not a slave. But tell Mister Li I'll buy them anyway. I'll pay whatever price he wants, which Iâd wager is the company that he gambled and lost to me. Maybe suggest that to him.â
âOf course,â the staff member replies, bowing. Despite the first-rate service, Aventurine looks like he can't get out of there sooner enough as he guides you into the elevator. You give him a curious look as the door closes.
âYou're going to give up a multiplanetary corporation just for this?â you ask.
âNot entirely. The IPC was planning to acquire it anyway. It'll be ours again in a few months.â He stares at your reflections in the mirror, his strange eyes lingering on your dishevelled form. âWeâll put your intel to good use,â he adds, and although Jade or Diamond or any of your real bosses would say this with a smile and reward you with a bonus, Aventurineâs expression is unreadable.
âWhat's on your mind?â you ask, fingers brushing against his hand. âYouâre worried about something.â
Aventurine blinks, and it takes him a moment to recover.
âNothing. Just hoping we didn't give our relationship away just now.â He cups your face with a hand, guides you into looking at his smile. A deflection. âI might have gotten carried away.â
You lean into his touch, eyes playful: a performance. As if he's some stranger that you're servicing, a captor being entertained; as if you're a plaything about to be used. As if you expect to be treated like the disposable commodity that your husband just gambled away.
âI wouldn't worry,â you reassure him. âI'm sure after the show we put on, it'll be clear to anyone that you're only keeping me around for sex.â
It's very, very subtle, but a muscle in Aventurine's neck twitches. He'd never allow it in a game of cards, never before the IPC, never before the prying eyes of slavers and killersâbut he allows it in front of you. He always unwittingly bares himself to you, even as he swallows his discomfort before adopting his usual, vulpine expression. You don't think anyone else would notice what lies beneath the gilded surface of his smile, his liarâs eyes. You don't think anyone else would notice his tells, his vulnerabilities, his quiet fear of loss.
After all, there is no one else in this universe who knows how to trick him into intimacy.
Winning has always come with a certain emptiness for Aventurine. Gambling is, after all, a zero sum game. He plays a royal flush and people lose their homes. Winner takes all. He survives the fighting pits, his blade dripping red with the lives of other slaves. Winner takes all. He runs from the stench of blood and burning flesh, praying for thunder and rain loud enough to drown the screams of his dying kin. Winner takes all.
He alone survives. He alone enjoys his riches. Ever since the Avgin died, he has always been by himself. There is no amount of coin nor credit that will ever change this.
Here is another unyielding fact that hollows any win: that no matter how many credits he collects, he will always be a chip himself. He will always be a plastic token worth sixty coppers. Gambling is a zero-sum game, and ever since the day he was chained, Aventurine has been the pool of riches divided among winners. He has always been the commodity being traded between hands. He has always been the prize to be cashed out and used. Even now, with all this money and power, it will never be him who comes to collect: it will always be the IPC. Winner takes all.
Such is his fate. Luck is always on his side, but he has always had the losing hand against destiny. No matter how many times he wins, there is nothing that will ever truly belong to him.
But then he met you.
Then he met you, and now his luck does not always feel like such a cruel or empty thing. Now the zero-sum game has meaning. He hedges his bets in the market and buys out a planet, and acquires you along with the shares. Winner takes all. He gambles his life against a nuclear power and comes out on top, and the IPC allows him to keep you by his side. Winner takes all. He plays a royal flush and wins at a table of slave traders, and he gets to fuck you until you can't think of any cock but his own. Winner takes all.
Gambling is a zero-sum game, and when you're the reward, Aventurine wouldn't have it any other way. Heâll never share you with anyone. He'll never sell you to anyone.
Heâll never lose you to anyone.
Sometimes it surprises him, this attachment he feels to you. He doesn't quite understand it, but he thinks it mostly just has to do with how good it feels to fuck you. Much like gambling, Aventurine has never enjoyed sex until you came along. Sex for him has always felt like a humiliation, like being gutted open as a captive animal, like being won and passed around in the grand hall of some gaudy casino.
Which is, in fact, another thing he never thought he'd enjoy: having sex in the Venetian Zhijin before an audience of revolting men. He'd resented having to do it as a slave, but heâd enjoyed doing it with you as a Stoneheart. He'd even do it again if he couldâtake you over and over again on that card table, fill you up with his cum. Spread your cunt in front of everyone, so they could see for themselves that you were now his. Winner takes all.
Winning doesn't feel empty when you're his reward. Sex doesn't either. Because Aventurine isn't a chip or an animal or a commodity when he fucks youâhe's a player. Someone with a seat at the table, as just as wealthy and powerful as the slave traders around him. Someone whoâs allowed to own somethingâreally own something.
Really allowed to own you.
Aventurine owns you. When he fucks you, he is a player at the table, and you are the prize he gets to keep. And no matter how you feel about him and how you act toward himâthis is all the two of you will ever be. He knows this. He knows that you know it too.
So sometimes he can't fathom it, the way he treats you in bed. The way he always kisses your commodity code when he sees it, the way he allows you to kiss his own. The way he always thinks about pleasuring you until you're drunk on his cock, so addicted to him that youâll never want to be touched by anyone else. The way he always likes how your body feels when it's being shaped by his hands. How different it feels from being forced to touch other people.
How badly you make him want something that he's always hated.
And this is what he understands least of all: how he doesn't like to hear you say aloud the true nature of your relationship. How he doesn't like it when you accept this reality and say, you're only keeping me around for sex.
It hollows him out when he hears it. A bitter feeling swells in his throat, and he forces himself to swallow.
Aventurine keeps his face neutral as he enters the suite with you. As soon as the door is shut, you pull him closeâclose enough for him to see the blurred lines of your lipstick, smudged from his mouth; close enough to see the white diamond necklace on your neck, a collar for a concubine; close enough to see the finger-shaped discolorations on your throat, poorly hidden by your foundation.
Close enough to see all the things done to your body by othersâall the things you didn't choose for yourself.
âHow do you want to have me next?â Your fingertip traces his lips. âOn the bed? In the shower?â Your eyes are playful. âMaybe against the window?â
Aventurineâs hand cups your cheek, gold rings pressed against your skin. His hold is delicate, more careful than with anything else he's ever handledâany of his watches, his furs, his jewellery. Even more than with the aventurine stone.
âI want to kiss you,â he says.
You blink.
âKiss me?â Your brow ticks up, but then your face lights up in supposed understanding. âOkay. You can kiss me. And then?â
âAnd then I'll keep kissing you.â
You tilt your head, not understanding. âReally?â
âWhat? Is that off-limits now?â He leans in, expression playful. âDon't tell me I've got to go back downstairs and win back permission to kiss you from your husband.â
Before you can say anything elseâask anything else, perceive anything elseâhe presses his mouth to yours. Your eyes widen for only a moment before falling shut, your arms wrapping around his neck. Your lips part for him, and he delights in the noise you make as he deepens the kiss.
He did lie, in a way. The two of you do end up fucking againâthis time in bed, your mouth gasping into his as you fall apart for him, wet and needy around his cock. You're so warm around him, so pliable beneath him, so desperate when possessed by him. He knows that he could keep going, that he could do anything to you, that you'd be eager to let him use you however he wants.
But all he does afterward is kiss you.
This is yet another act that he never thought he'd enjoy. Kissing has always felt like a chore or a power play or a manipulation. It has always come with a certain emptinessâjust like gambling, just like sex. And then he met you, and now it no longer feels so hollow. Because when he wins bets for the IPC, he feels like a poker chip in one of their games, but when heâs fucking you, he feels like a player at the table. And sometimes, when he kisses youâwhen he holds you close, when you come down from your high and press your face into the crook of his neck and in the vulnerable haze of your bliss, tell him, I missed youâ
âhe finally feels like a human being.
end notes: christ alive I have never written anything so horny glddjsksjs. I apologize for both my mid smut writing and deranged characterization đ
initially this was supposed to be brainless pwp about aventurine eating you out on a poker table but I kept asking myself âwhy the hell did aventurine gamble for human beings and why are these two insane enough to be fucking in a casino tho lolâ, and thus a coherent narrative was born from my shameless lust for this guy! but please also don't take the story too seriously because this is a dumb smut piece first and foremost and I mostly wrote it with my clit đâď¸
that being said, if you are curious about the subject matter that I covered â here's an afterword expanding on my intentions with the themes.
#aventurine x reader#aventurine smut#hsr smut#hsr x reader#honkai star rail x reader#x reader#im so tired of editing this the quality of this piece is a lost cause sldkfjsldkfj#DIVIDER BY @/CAFEKITSUNE BTW it is so cute i thought it was perfect for this fic#anyway. sorry to everyone for character assassinating our favourite gambler#yueshuo.fics#dead dove#cw.slavery
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Jealousy, jealousy - Azriel x reader
Summary: The whole inner circle is tired of you and Azriel flirting with each other, without acting on it. So Rhys decided to help his sister and Azriel with that, by planning a special birthday party for her. Based on this request.
Warnings: Smut! 18+! Az is jealous (but it's fluff)
Azriel couldnât stop watching you. Again.
You were sitting on the couch in front of him at the townhouse, silently watching your brother, Rhys, talk. Azriel loved watching you, your shy, yet clever eyes were always so observant. On top of that, you looked beautiful tonight. You wore a dress that looked like it was made of starlight and your pretty lips were painted in a color that made-
âYouâre daydreaming again, Az,â Rhys interrupted his thoughts, making Azâs eyes quickly avert his gaze from y/n, to her brother sitting next to her.
âProbably dreaming about his undying love for Truth-Teller,â y/n smiled. The shy, yet flirty smile that always made Az go week in the knees.
Before he could even try to suppress it, a wave of warmth filled Azâs cheeks, exposing his adoration. You were the only person who could make him blush like that. It has been this way since the first day heâd met you, when you were teenagers, which is already centuries ago. Rhys only introduced his sister years after heâd met Azriel and Cassian. She was still young, but so was he. It wasnât hard to fall in love with her. The way she was hiding behind her brother, shy, yet curious, peeking behind his shoulder at the two Illyrians standing in front of her. Suddenly a smile was on her curious face, and the first thing youâd said was: âAre those shadows yours? Theyâre very beautiful.â
Since that moment, Az was a goner. He never acted on it though. Too scared, too insecure and too worried he would ruin your friendship. It had been the same for years. The flirting, the teasing. But never more than that.Â
Until a few months ago. When the bond snapped.
In that moment, Azriel couldnât be any happier. It all made sense now. But then he realized, it didnât snap for you. You didnât seem to know. And it happened all over again, he was scared. What if you didnât want him as your mate? What if it would freak you out? And what if Rhys would hate him for it?
âYouâre still staring at me, Azzieâ he heard y/nâs soft voice, yet again interrupting his thoughts. He looked confused for a moment, as if finally realizing where he was. âOh yes, I'm sorry, you do look beautiful tonight y/n, you canât blame me,â he smiled nonchalantly. It was always like this, the flirting and the compliments. It was normal.
âYou look great too Az,â you returned the smile. Another wave of warmth heated his face. He quickly tried to hide the flushed cheeks, when fortunately, Cassian guided the attention to him. âSo, what are we going to do for your birthday tomorrow y/n?â Cas asked.Â
âOh, I donât know, I guess we could go out or something? Nothing special, just like we always do,â you answered.
Rhys clicked his tongue at that. âNothing special? My dear sister, I think you donât know me that well then. We have the perfect surprise for you.â That was something new. âDo we?â Az asked confused. âWell, now Iâm curious,â Feyre smiled.
What Az didnât know is that the whole inner circle knew about his âsecretâ feelings for you, only Az and y/n were oblivious. Honestly, his friends didnât know how the observant shadowsinger didnât notice how obvious it was. He always gets shy and smiled with y/n. It was a mystery how he didnât realize the fact he had a lovesick look all over his face when heâs watching her. So Rhys, the good brother he is, decided to come up with a plan. The easy strategies didnât work, so he decided to use the one thing Az couldnât hide, jealousy.
*******
When it was finally the evening of your birthday, it turned out Rhysâ surprise, indeed, was special. Your brother had decided to take you all to some dance showâ but it wasnât some normal dance show, you realized when you saw the poster hanging on the door of the club. It were only male dancers. Male dancers with not so many clothes, it seemed. âNow Iâm really curious brotherâ you sighed. âYouâll love it.â
Your brother was right, it was so much fun. You ate and drank with the inner circle, watching the show from your shared table. They even got you a cake with fireworks. But that wasnât the only surprise.
You were all cheering when one of the dancers came to you. He was muscled and had beautiful, curly blonde hair. Before you could process what was happening, he grabbed your hand and pulled you on the stage with him. The male put you on a chair in the middle of the stage and started moving around you, your face flushed immediately.
He smirked at you, showing off his impressive moves. You couldnât help but smile at him. It was fun to let go for a moment and enjoy the silliness of it all. The whole inner circle was cheering for you.
Az on the other hand, didnât like it that much. He balled his hands into fists, when he saw the way the male grabbed your hand and guided you to the stage. He gritted his teeth, the way you blushed, the way he was moving around you and even touched you⌠And then you smiled at that male.
Az had to muster every ounce of self-control. He did all he could to not just get up on that stage, and bring you back to their table. He wanted to be the one to touch you like that. He wanted to be the one to make you smile.Â
Even after the show was over and you were brought back to your original spot, Az couldnât shake off the jealous feeling. His whole body was still tense and he had a dark look on his face.
âSomething the matter, Azriel?â Rhys smirked teasingly, grabbing his friend's shoulder, knowing damn well why he was acting like this. âNo.â Azriel answered shortly, taking another big sip from his drink.
******
Y/n was so tired when she arrived at her bedroom. She sat on her bed, taking her shoes off with a relieved sigh, ready to go to sleep. But suddenly she heard someone knock on the door. It was Azriel.
âHey Az, what are you doing here?âÂ
âJust wanted to say goodnight after such a⌠special⌠birthday evening,â he grinned.
âYeah it was⌠something,â you giggle. You sat next to each other on the bed in silence for a moment.
âDid you think he was hot?â Az blurted out. âWho?â you asked confused. âThat guy, the one who danced for you,â he grumbled. âOh, I-I donât know, he was fine,â you faltered.Â
Az didnât answer. âAre you okay Azzie? You seem tense.â You rubbed his shoulder gently, trying to comfort him.
âI didnât like itâ he stated. Y/n was confused. âW-were you⌠were you jealous?â Az only sighed, looking down.
âIt was just, he was⌠he shouldnât touch you like thatâ he tried to explain without making his jealousy too obvious. You were disappointed for a moment, he probably just didnât like it because he saw you as his little sister, you thought. Because he wanted to protect you. âIâm sorry Az,â you silently said. âNo, no, donât apologize y/n, itâs my fault, Iâm acting stupid.â
âI get that you feel like this, you see me as a... sister, you feel protective over me or something, I get it Az,â you sighed. Azriel looked up, his hazel eyes carefully watching you. He frowned, âDo you really think thatâs how I feel about you?â Itâs silent for a moment. âI was jealous y/n, very jealousâ he finally confessed.
âY-you were?â you stroked his cheek softly, fingertips tracing the freckles down his neck. Azriel nodded, you looked in each others eyes for a long moment. His pupils dilated, a hungry look on his face. Then the room suddenly filled with the smell of your arousal. âYou want to⌠you want to show me what you look like without that shirt then?â you hesitated. âYeah? You want that?â he smirked. âYesâ you answered breathlessly.Â
Az slowly took his shirt off, your eyes tracing the lines of his muscles hungrily. âMuch better than that male,â you sighed. âCâmereâ he groaned, surprising you by grabbing your hips and lifting your body on top of him in one move. You were straddling him now, arms tightly wrapped around his neck.
And then his lips were on yours, hungrily moving against each other. He grabbed your ass, squeezing it gently. A gasp left your mouth, âAzzie, Az please.â You started moving against him, pressed so close to each other, yet it wasnât enough.Â
âWhat do you want, baby?â he whispered against your lips. âI want you.â
âAnd what exactly do you want from me? Tell me y/n,â he groaned.
âYour cock, I want to feel you in me, Azriel, pleaseâ you begged.
âSo pretty when you beg like that, darling. But not so fast.â He wrapped his arms tightly around your back and turned you around. Youâre back now against the bed, with Azrielâs body hovering above you. His wings were spread wide and his shadows were moving around you. Silently asking their master for permission to touch you too.
They helped him with getting you out of your birthday dress, the soft tendrils caressed your skin so deliciously. The shadows danced around your whole body, touching you almost everywhere. You felt a familiar heat growing in lower stomach.
The male above you spread your legs wider, placing soft kisses closer and closer to where you wanted him most.
You grabbed his dark locks in your hand, eagerly trying to guide him to your pussy. âPatience, baby, patience,â he calmly said.
His hands traveled up your body, gently grabbing your breasts, his palm stroking your nipple. âSo pretty for me,â he cooed.Â
And then he finally pressed his soft lips against your pussy, a load moan left your mouth. He started to lick like a starved male. His lips softly wrapping around your clit, sucking messily. He then wrapped your legs around his head, locking in his face in between them. He groaned into your cunt, âAzzie, yes, feels so goodâ.
Then you noticed that he was grinding against the mattress, trying to find some relief too. He was already so turned on, just from the taste of your pussy. âI want you to feel good too,â you whined. Azriel replaced his tongue with his fingers, the scarred skin softly rubbing your clit, âOh I already feel amazing, baby, don't worry.â
You gasped when you felt his finger enter your pussy, stroking the soft walls. Your breathing grew louder. âYeah, you like that?â He chuckled.Â
It felt amazing, but you wanted him in you, you wanted him pussy drunk, feral for you. So you could only do one thing, touch his wings.Â
You gently stroked the less sensitive part on the outside of his wing, testing the waters. He groaned, âOh baby, you donât know what youâre getting yourself into.â
You decided to stroke a more sensitive part, making him grab your thighs harshly. Az sat up. âCome here, you dirty little girl,â he said huskily. âDo you want me to fuck you y/n? Is that what you want, huh?â
âYes, please, yesâ you whined.
âHow could I deny that pretty face? My beautiful little girl,â he cooed, leaning in closer to press his lips against yours again. You helped him pull his pants down, his impressive length sprang free. You gulped. He was long.
"Donât worry, if you want to stop weâll stopâ he murmured into the crook of your neck, kissing the skin gently. âNo, no! I can handle it,â you claimed, your hand wrapping around him, eager to feel the soft skin in your hands. He groaned into your ear, âShit, you have no idea how turned on I am right now.â You giggled, rubbing the tip of his cock against your clit, already soaking wet.
âAre you sure?â he whispered. âYes, Iâm sure Az, want to feel youâÂ
He slowly entered you, sucking your nipples as a distraction for the pain. But it was a good kind of pain, you wanted more. So you grabbed his ass, trying to push him deeper into you. "Don't... don't be scared, it feels good," you said in between heavy breaths.
âNeedy little girlâ he grinned. His rhythm picked up and his thrusts started to get harder. His hips slamming against yours
âYou feel so good, this pussy is mine isnât it? Only mineâ he whimpered into your ear. âYes, Az, my pussy is yours. I'm yours,â you moaned. Az started to fuck you harder, âSay it againâ he demanded.
 âIâm yours, only yours AzrielâÂ
âThatâs right, good girl,â he moaned, putting one of your legs over his shoulder. The new angle made you gasp. Your places your hands against his chest, your nails softly stroking down his abs.
Azriel was mesmerized, his eyes fixated on your swollen lips, the lips he couldn't believe he just kissed, and the way your tits bounced because of the force of his thrusts.
He looked so handsome like this. His messy hair falling over his face, his eyes half-lidded, the blush on his cheeks and the heavy breaths that left his mouth.
âIâm already so close Azzie,â you whined. "Already?â He teased. You nodded. âI want you to come with me,â you pleaded, one of your hands lifting up again to stroke the inside of his wing. Az moaned at the feeling, the arm that held him up collapsed beneath him, his body softly falling against yours.
His chest was now pressed against you, the position was so intimate. His thrusts started to get sloppy. âBaby, babyâŚâ he whined softly in your ear. Both drunk on the feeling of each other.
His fingers circled your clit, making you moan his name like a prayer, over and over. The familiar feeling coiled in your lower belly, finally snapping when he nibbled on your earlobe. High-pitched moans filled the room, your orgasm washing over you like a big wave. Azriel moaned with you, his brows knitted together.
âWhere do you want me? On your tits? On your pussy? In your pretty mouth?â
âIn me, I want you in me Az, please,â you whined, craving to feel more of him, to be claimed by him. You wanted to be his the way no one ever was before. Az groaned in answer, heavy breaths tumbling out of his mouth. You felt him release inside your pussy, moaning your name against your cheek, riding out his high slowly.Â
Azriel fell next to you with a loud sigh. His arms tightly wrapped around you. He placed a soft kiss against your neck and stroked your inner arm. âYou donât know how long Iâve been dreaming about this.â he confessed. âMe tooâ you answered. You should probably talk about this, but for now, you just wanted to sleep. Comfortably in Azrielâs warm arms.
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The next morning, y/n was watching Azriel sleep next to her. Her hand stroked his naked chest while her other hand played with his soft dark hair. He looked like an angel, laying there, so peaceful.Â
And suddenly, she felt a tug in her chest. A thread, a feeling like no other. Y/n gasped, making Azâs eyes open slowly. âGood morningâ he whispered with a smile. Y/n only stared at him.
She couldnât believe it. He was her mate. Her mate.
âY-youâre my mateâ she whispered. Az sat up immediately, grabbing her cheek gently. âIt snapped? It finally snapped for you too?â He whispered, his eyes getting teary. âYou knew?âÂ
âIâve known for a few months now, but before last night, I didnât think youâd want meâ he murmured. âOh Az, of course I want you, Iâve loved you since we were teenagers and met in Windhaven, Iâve loved you since I noticed the beautiful, smart and compassionate male hidden behind those shadows,â you smiled. âI love youâ he smiled, kissing you softly.
An hour later you went downstairs together. The rest of the Inner Circle was already in the living room, doing each their own thing.
Rhysâ eyes immediately went to your intertwined hands, an unreadable look on his face. âRhys, before you say something, I want you to know I would never hurt your sister and I am-â Az quickly tried to explain. But Rhys interrupted him with a voluminous laugh.
âFinally!â He smiled, getting up to face you both. âIâve been trying to get you together for the last year, but you both were so obliviousâ he teasingly rolled his eyes and opened his arms, hugging you both. âYeah honestly Az, it was about damn timeâ Cassian smirked.
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