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nyazai-osameow · 9 months

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a silly little comic of a convo i had with a friend one night

#bsd #bungo stray dogs #dazai bsd #ranpo bsd #Dazai #Ranpo #souheki #comic #my art #mine #ptsd mention #i made this awhile ago but just never posted it #also got damn this is my first og post in awhile #i think. idk. time doesnt exist for me #kinda forgor this account existed until recently--

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fuupan · 1 month

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drew these for heart pirates day and uhhhh ep1115

#one piece #trafalgar law #fanart #my art #bepo one piece #heart pirates #sachi one piece #penguin one piece #canon doesnt exist if we try hard enough #if *I* try hard enough #also i like to think my guy just had a period where after he recovered he took the time to just. bask under the sun. suntanning.#cus my guy went from pasty pale as hell to enough melanin to put me to shame #/j i never had a chance to tan much to begin with lmao but you get my point #also also id like to think he uses bepo as like. a beach mat or smth. idk waht you call those. the things people lie on to suntan idk #like he already uses bepo as a pillow wahts stopping him to lie on top of him to sunbathe #also also also if youd like to know uhhh that beach day drawing?? inspired by when bepo swam away w law on top of him idk that was in my #mind for WEEKS when i read the manga #that and i just want them to goof off #also uhh ep 1115 a day AFTER heart pirates day was just cruel like damn #bepo's desperation got to me #also polar tang :((( man :((((( where are they getting another old man to build them another submarine :((

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lansangprincess · 4 months

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curious question for all my payneland lovers: how do you want Charles' love awakening to go about?

in a way, there isn't anything (ex. homophobia, a current partner, etc) stopping him from falling for Edwin (that we know of) so what would it take for Charles to suddenly realize he has feelings for Edwin that makes more sense than Edwin's confession being the trigger?

#if u think that edwins confession IS the trigger and that charles is just repressing things rn pls also elaborate on that #i myself am also toying w the idea of charles has had feelings this whole time (that he's aware of) but has been holding back bc of…smth id #omg omg just now writing this #what if charles has feelings but bc of his childhood trauma doesnt rlly believe edwin reciprocates them #what if what if he was like “ofc he's telling me he loves me now when we're both about to cease to exist”#orpheus eurydice on period #bc like if charles is orpheus #charles' devotion is stronger than his love for edwin (rn)#and he would rather they both reach the surface #than him to declare his love (“look back”) and lose him forever #idk if this makes sense #it's late #i will need to elaborate on this more when im awake #but i think im on to something here idc idc #payneland #dead boy detectives agency #dead boy detectives spoilers #dead boy detectives #dead boy detective agency #dead boy detective netflix #edwin payne #charles rowland #edwin x charles

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dykedvonte · 3 months

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I dislike takes that Danse would be just as conservative in modernized aus when it's clearly shown his staunch views of things come from his time in the Brotherhood and his deep-rooted desire to belong to something with a greater purpose.

Not to mention lines that show much more open-mindedness that get overlooked for his harsher sentiments when you first meet him. Like the oppurtunity to be a part of something is why Danse fell so far into Brotherhood dogma and it doesn't negate the offense things he does but I feel like it's just lazy to be like "hmmm he'd def be racist" just so it aligns to his BoS beliefs.

#like i genuinely think he would like not fall into the military if he was in modern times because of all the other things he could do #he clearly has a passion for tech and mods and likely would find himself more useful as like a mechanic like at most hes one of those range #types or something but I feel like people equate his seriousness and him being a military man to closemindedness when its like having to ge #a new view point like we really dont know what he believed in before the BoS if he believed in anything at all outside of selling scrap to #survive before basically having an army recruiter have him join one of the scariest factions like why is the BoS so fucking violent???#like the BoS operates in such a way cause there is no civilian population like everyone is something or training to be so they arent really #fighting for anything but themselves at this point which is just a feedback loop of gaining more power and is not equatable to real #military people due to the fact most of the recruits are really born and bred to be soliders while say irl you have a family and country to #fight for and return to outside the military which is def grounding as Danse wouldn't be in the army 24/7 like in canon #idk its odd to me when a character that is has fantastic racism ergo the trope of bigotry to fake races people try to translate it to real #life especially when those races have not equivalent like tell me what is the irl equal to a fucking ghoul or super mutant like????#racism is not like a funny headcanon like making him a defrosting prude or by the book is whatever but he would not be a bigot just like a #narc or some shit hed tell on me for loitering but I know hed tear apart each voting party and likely the military for being self serving #and like knows all about it and it makes him sound like a politics nut but its more annoyance like I have such strong feelings about #characters who would be marginially better if they were not victums to the military like yes I believe we can fix Danse he just needs to #be around not war/the military for like a week and see people be happy existing like he doesnt know how to do that but this is a weird take #ive seen mostly from white fans that makes me super uncomfy like ur weird #anyway still fuck the brotherhood everyone is so rude like damn i know its the east coast but can we get a little hospitality fuck you #maccready was right brotherhood of squeal more like it dont worry porky we'll get you out (danse is porky btw)#fallout #fallout 4 #fo4 #paladin danse

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infamouslydorky · 1 year

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Why is it so controversial to want to be able to have a life outside of work? Why is it expected to work extended periods of time with heavy workloads to the point that by the time you get home, you're too pooped to actually do anything? I don't mind working but I don't want it to be my whole life. I want to work to live, not live to work

#slice of life #capitalism #capitalist hell #im so thankful for my new job. i just think that 40 hr workweeks for full-time minimum is bs #doesnt even guarantee you benefits in some jobs such as my current one. which is a problem for me #love my new coworkers. job itself is hard but gratifying #idk if i could see myself spending most of my time alive doing it for the remainder of my existence though

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chiimeramanticore · 10 days

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#im not dead quit asking #I'm just really really really not doing well #sorry if i scared anyone. that wasnt my intent #things got. let's say worse. for me irl. more complicated for sure #i hate to publicize my breakdown I really do. but maybe i... need this? in a weird way?#i haven't really been adjusting well to having a platform online. that's not anyone's fault but mine ofc #i feel that my 'fans' (if ive earned the right to call them that) dont and frankly cant ever care for me as a person #i dont know you and you dont know me. you dont know all of me at least. just what i make public. what i allow others to see #i had it kinda bullied into me that i need to keep my mouth shut abt my own issues. and ive spent a lot of this year trying to unlearn that #maybe publicizing this is a bad idea anyway #I just know ive been more honest abt my emotions and my personal life with my friends and my partner #and not everyone enjoys it but i know I'm not like. traumadumping so i feel somewhat assured that anyone who doesnt wanna hear abt my life-#-probably wasnt all that interested in forming a close relationship w me to begin with. even if theyre friendly at first #everyone else; the people who I know care about me; have shown me that through their actions #my point is being honest abt how youre doing w other ppl is a good idea. revolutionary i know lol #and i still don't know a lot of you personally but #parasocial or not i got some very genuine sounding messages while I was gone. and i. feel really bad that i worried those people #I guess theres my proof that people would care if i disappeared suddenly. people would notice pretty quick it seems #im never gonna kms btw. even if i didnt have the support i have im simply too stubborn to die lol. to put it lightly #and to those who thought this was abt fandom drama: it's not. those who shall not be named are genuinely the least of my problems these days #I'm on a journey of self actualization. or something. im trying to get my shit together. im trying to stop being clinically depressed lol #but god keeps throwing wrenches in my plans and. i beat myself up about it too much #but that's just life. they say you make a plan and god laughs #im. trying to be okay with just riding the wave. im impatient but if i keep trying to somehow speed up time im just gonna exhaust myself #which I think is where im at now. burnt out #and on top of all that i still feel this need to like. perform for you guys #if i dont keep making content everyone will forget i exist. if i dont make another video essay this year can i even call myself a youtuber #etc etc. its the spiral its impostor syndrome we've all been there #im trying to end this on a positive note but idk. i dont have all the answers yet #hoping i figure it out soon. i hope you dont forget me in the meantime

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jrueships · 2 months

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guess whos not going in at all this week, actually

#MY MANAGER EMAILED LIKE 2 HOURS B4 I HAD TO GO IN #she finally changed my schedule (1 day) to the night shift today #(i emailed her to be safe just kinda casually reaffirming im going in at the new time & then asking if any other shifts wanted 2 be changed #bcs that sounds great to me whstever option she goes with #she ignored that question & i get a new email from her asking if i completed a training. lets called it DOC #basically a long time ago she said 'i will send you DOC instructions soon' .. a few days pass and i get three 50 paged packets #one is called NAVIGATING DOC #im like oh ok cool that must be the DOC training shes talking abt bcs the other 2 packets were abt various trainings #NAH BRUH. APPARENTLY THE DAY IM SUPPOSED TO GO IN. SHE MESSAGES ME SOME ENTIRELY ALIEN PROGRAM #and is like 'u completed this right? cus if u didnt u cant come in today.'#LIKE?? MAYBE I WOULDA IF U SENT THE SHIT #but it's also like. dam i shouldve emailed prompting her to send what she said she would n clarifying BUT FUCK #WHY DO I GOTTA?? IM NOT THE MANAGER #she literally told me the name of the program rn thru email so i type it in and see like four hour long modules to complete #mind u i aint never even been informed a WHISPER abt this new program. nothings even labeled DOC TRAINING #but my struggle is. was i notified this?? and i just didnt see??? was i supposed to clarify with her what the DOC training was exactly??#the only thing ive heard abt doc training b4 this is 'i need to send u DOC training soon' in EMAIL. so i expected an alert #abt THE DOC TRAINING... in an EMAIL notification. WHAT THE HELL IS THIS #idk man #i dont even care bro like im busy as hell & the work is just to build clinic hours so i dont care abt the money factor #it's just like. can we get this first day jitters thing over with already?? im so over this bro #yaddayadda i emailed her an apology n ill be on that ASAP shit. but i did let her know i am basically justnnow seeing this site #n if there was any email or notif that couldve/tried to inform me of its existence 2 pls let me know / figure out how to find it #so the issue doesnt occur again & i dont have to keep botherinher which im so srry of bcs med is stress n shes just trying to get by #but still bro im a lil miffed bcs she probably thinks im stupid now and now im wondering if i AM #bcs WDYM ONLINE MODULES. AINT NOBODY SAID SH IT EVEN ABT THE EXISTENCE OF THEM!!! i wouldve pressed harder 4 clarification #if i knew it was an ONLINE MODULE i had to look out for on some randomass site i didnt even know the name of until now #instead of the EMAIL UVE BEEN 'COMMUNICATING' WITH ME ON #ARREGHHHHHHHH IM NOT STUPID. I SWEAR IM NOT STUPID FUCCK MY BAKA LIFE

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bunnihearted · 4 months

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#feeling sad today bc it's my mom's birthday #and i couldnt afford getting her anything :< i've made a card but tbh i feel so dumb even giving her that like wow.. useless #my sisters are spending the day with her so i cant even be with her at all. and she likes spending time w my sisters more than me anyway so #im just keeping away. it makes me sad tho that they can all hang out but ..#like im actually such a shitty person and unwanted and just an awful person because not even my family wants to be with me #i feel lonely bc i dont get to partake in my mom's birthday celebration and that my family doesnt even want me to #and my mom doesnt think it's valuable to spend time with me today. she doesnt even want to... im just a burden and a bother #i feel so unlovable and unwanted .... and it makes me sad and i just wanna die lol #bc i truly truly am annoying and not important in their lives #why do i even exist? why do i even do anything? why do i even talk to anyone when all i am is a burden #i make everyone's lives worse and more difficult. im only a pain to deal with. i cant ever do anything right either #idk... i just hope my mom had nice moments w my sisters today #maybe i'll try to hide the card on her desk so she can find it so i dont have to give it to her skskks

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dullahandyke · 5 months

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and like sidenote if i can make a post with a target audience of zero. i feel like fhsy was to d20 what aa3 was to ace attorney but aa3 pulled it off better for reasons i cannot explain

#it is. the amatonormativity #^ guy who was REALLY pissed about the sandra lynn stuff #like yknow that bit in the first ep where brennan is like 'oh this drama is going down' and so like the pcs investigate it #probs bcos they think itll like kick off their new quest #and then it turns out to be like. petty romantic drama.#thats kind of a microcosm of the entire season for me #not to say there werent parts i liked (looks at the picture of baron i printed out and hung on my wall)#(and most of the leviathan stuff was brilliant and ayda is a role model for me)#but its all so tied up in the rest of that shit that i dont rlly wanna rewatch it the way ive rewatched fy 6+ times #likening this to aa3 bcos of the rlly noticeable uptick in romantic content in it compared to the rest of the trilogy #like prior to that all that rlly comes to mind is like. 2-3 and pearl's shipping shenanigans and larry existing #but in aa3 both mia and phoenix have past lovers who play big parts #theres a married couple theres tigre and viola (who sidenote i ENTIRELY missed as romantic my first playthru. i am dense)#there's the business with fawles #like it felt like romance played a large part in every case in aa3 #where even when it came up in 1 + 2 it was usually ancillary (2-3 excepted but like. ppl regard that case as a fluke in most regards)#you COULD argue that maggey and adrian also inject some romantic presence in the story #but idk it just doesnt feel as central or prevalent as in aa3 #like i saw a post abt adrian and celeste being cousins in the aa anime being not just the sailor moon 'best cousins' thing #but like. reinforcing the themes of familiar devotion as aa2's core. and that was rlly foundational to my understanding of the game #even tho its a change that comes from an adaptation #whereas you Couldnt make that change in aa3 without it changing A Lot of shit #where was i going with this. shrug.#the zelda and tracker relationship drama was entirely manufactured as punishing the pcs for not centering npcs #whose relationship issues were ancillary to the overarching plot they were focused on and which hadnt rlly been brought up beforehand #'why didnt gorgug call zelda :/' do u want zac to pause the kalina mystery to roleplay good relationship communication with the dm??#like its one thing looking at sy as a narrative but looking at it as a ttrpg campaign with limited time and a need to split character focus #i dont see what it did for the story besides give gorgug something to angst abt. didnt rlly feel like there was character growth or an arc #sigh. MANDATORY DISCLAIMER its been at least a year since i watched sy and longer before that since ive played aa3 #but at the time my feelings were strong and have only calcified. romance as a theme in something not generally abt romance

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moeblob · 1 year

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Flit (ginger) finds an injured, stray cat and is like "aw poor little guy... let's see if my sister can help you" and so he takes the injured black cat to Fleet. Who is then "I have no idea how to heal a cat" and turns him into a human, heals him, and is ready to turn him back into a cat but then he's just "WAIT IF IM HUMAN I CAN HELP YOU! LEMME BE A HUMAN! I WANNA HELP YOU!" and Fleet looks to Flit who shrugs since it's hard being the only assistance to his sister. So he proceeds to name the guy Eureka and now Eureka refers to Flit as "master" and Fleet as "mistress".

And obsessively tries to help them. But he also talks a lot at times and Fleet gets frustrated and turns him back into a cat as punishment and he sulks off to cuddle next to Flit... who is unfortunately much more patient than Fleet so he's now just stuck with this cat-guy-hybrid obsessed with him. And he doesn't regret /helping/ the cat but .... Eureka is really clingy. So he's just resigned to having either a black cat in his lap or a man looming over him asking "whatcha doing, Master?" at all times.

#my characters #also fun fact i guess idk these two are the flotsam and jetsam duo to fleet who is ursula based #and fleet and flit are twins who got banished from the kingdom their older bro rules bc fleet uses magic for not good #and then she is now like im going to RUIN our brothers LIFE and then gets the worst two henchmen in existence #her younger twin bro with no magic and a cat #but shes determined to be a menace regardless #also as a human eureka is like you know what the coolest thing is about humans??? sweater vests #THEYRE SO COMFY YOU KNOW? why dont you wear sweater vests master? i think youd look good in one #and flit just like i think you can wear a sweater vest as a cat too probably idk but -#and eureka is appalled that flit would ask him to overheat with fur AND a sweater vest #fleet will literally tell flit go find the other guy and flit is like did you try calling his name #and shes like no time you do it #so he walks like ten steps away and goes HERE KITTY KITTY and eureka either immediately appears to hug him #as a human of immediately rubs against his leg as a cat like I WAS WAITING FOR YOU TO CALL ME IM READY TO HELP #and flit doesnt know where his life went so wrong but whatever

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rearranging-deck-chairs · 1 year

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