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personally i think the trope of "said something i wasn't supposed to while high on pain meds at the hospital" only works if it's smth actually incomprehensible. down with this trope. that and the whole "speaking out loud but the narrator doesn't know they are" trope. you should legally have to tag that i think. i know this usually happens for characters that would never admit something otherwise but actually there are a billion reasons someone would admit something they wouldn't otherwise. for example: someone else has a bomb-
#an essay i would never publish#/hj#a fic/book will be going so well and then they rush to this part#and it's like please give me a little more fun#also why is it that they always say this after waking up from surgery or smth like that and every single character is in their room#i'm fairly sure the nurse would be like âget the hell out of here so they can recover???â#like this is NOT a hate post if you like this then that's literally all the power to you#i just think you should tag it so i can't be surprised with second hand embarrassment#i also think it diminishes the impact of the reveal you're making because the character wasn't aware that they were giving this up#and if it's something personal to them then no one ever writes the part afterwards where they have to deal with the embarrassment#or the shame of it#or the fact that they had no control over that and now it's just open in the air for everyone to know#erinwantstowrite#writing
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Funny stuff happens on twitter sometimes dkslfjsdlkf
#these tags are dedicated to the person who told me to stop hiding headcanon info in the tags#im still doing it LKSDFSDFKLFJ#anyway some exposition for my tumblr fans:#J never sleeps. like ever#if she does âsleepâ she usually does it sitting in the drop-pod#a lah inuyasha style LMAO#if that makes sense#she never even slept during Tessa's sleepovers#she'd just lay there letting her mind wander#But it always stressed Tessa out that J never relaxed#so one day she was finally able to convince J to TRY. just once.#the first time J ever slept and the first time she truly let her guard down in that manor#was curled up. as small as she could be. next to Tessa.#J was so scared of being found. of being hurt for stopping just once.#so Tessa sat with her the entire time. So she could feel safe enough to finally rest#J can't sleep because it means she'd have to physically stop#and after so long since she the last time she was allowed to rest#I don't think she knows how any more.#and if she did I doubt she'd let herself stop for even a moment#because stopping means letting it catch up to you#its easier just to keep moving; isn't it?#its easier then facing the fact she'll never lay next to her ever again#or smth idk im not a writer lol#ANYWAY thanks for reading :]#murder drones#serial designation j#serial designation v#uzi doorman#tessa is mentioned but I don't really think it warrants a tags :p#I really should be making text posts if im gonna make tags this friggin long
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Sometimes i make fanart and think âwow, this one specific person would love it!â And its happened multiple times with many people and i still donât understand why i feel disappointed when Ive barely shared two words with these people when they donât see it at all.
#lego ninjago#im tagging ninjago because eveything i posy is ninjago related#especially this post#i need to draw Lloyd agin#soon#like properly#i also need to draw bonzle shes pretty#and i want to draw forvidden jay#three things#gotts do em#i also have this one art idea for wu#oh god they keep piling up i do NOT hav the skills nor motivation for tjis#OMG I HAVE AN IDEA FOR HARUMI AND MORRO TOO HOW DID I FORGEY#aghsegu#i dony wanna#but im gonna#eventually#fanart#artists on tumblr#idk man#im doing smth#no literally i barely interact with people on here because im way too socially awkward#but i still think they would love it#i think you guys should know that if ive seem you at elast twice in my notifs i have thoroughly stalked your profile#and only some of you will know this because i KNOW barely any of you read this far into my tags unless prompted#wait#okay maybe more of you would read this this time#ignore that#i never said that#i swear
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#iâm bored i just wanna see how many words i can put in the tags like will it just keep going on forever or will they stop me like i know th#the tag limit is 30 ok so the iindividual tag limit is 140 characters thatâs actually so rude i wanted to keep going forever and see how lo#g this could be but i guess we can do this 30 times ok what the flip should i talk about hm i was playing the guitar today but i rage quit#ause the song was hard and hurting my fingers! ermmmmm it was sunny ok this is boring letâs think of more exciting things to type hmmm acco#ding to all known laws of aviation- jk iâm not doing the bee movie script but can you imagine i think that would be funny hmmmmm words i lo#e podcasts so bad thatâs a fact no one has ever know before my blog definitely isnât all about audio dramas the people are definitely not a#ready aware of this jesus christ this is only the seventh one of these this is actually quite a lot of space i underestimated how much i ha#e to type btw thereâs probably spelling mistakes in here somewhere or autocorrect has been annoying but i cba to retype anything so i donât#care lolllllllllllll how do you feel about oscar malevolent i feel a normal amount actually (lie) yk what i really miss sam and colin alrea#y like iâm actually not okay i really hope we hear from sam again in s2 and also colin ngl i hope ur in the computers soz or not dead miss#im like a bastard my paranoid it king ok erm im running out of things to say um heartstopper s3 was crazy good i cried lmao i love gay peop#e so much itâs crazy i hope it gets renewed for s4 i need to reread the comics lowkey and the books theyâre all so talented for being so yo#ng it scares me ngl !!!!!! the tmagp hiatus is getting to me slightly like february in reality is soon and not that far away for how podcas#ts go but seriously how am i supposed to live until then without knowing what happened. please colin be alive. ive only just realised i can#use fills stops. sorry thatâs made everything a bit messy. i shouldâve been doing this before. whoops. anyways. hi mutuals i love you all s#much i hope you enjoy my rambles and shitposts cause i enjoy yours very much! never think youâre being annoying i literally donât care be a#annoying as you want posts as much as you want i am ur biggest fan <3 im getting a bit fatigued from typing like my mind is blank basically#now itâs just turned into a. stream of consciousness but i donât really have any thoughts to put here idk if weâre halfway ermmmm omg itâs#lmost halloween how crazy is that time is flying by i kinda forgot it was october lmao. itâs wild how itâs basically almost christmas. like#what. thatâs illegal. how is it wintertime again. what the flip. i miss summer already take me backkkkkkk. i hope my phone doesnât crash or#smth cause iâve not saved this as a draft and i cba to do any of this again. maybe i should save it. ok i will when i reach the next tag bc#ok it stopped me but iâve saved it and holy jesus itâs a lot of text im just sat here giggling thereâs really no point to any of this other#than me being bored sooooooooooooooooo (imagine if i just did the letter o for every character wouldnât that be crazy) so wait thereâs 140#haracters and 30 tags so whatâs 30 x 140. someone hurry. i havenât done maths lessons in two and a half years iâve forgotten everything wai#let me get the calculator app ok im back it said 4100 characters so. i dont know how many words that roughly is but its. a decent amount. o#what the flip why am i wasting tag space with maths. i hate maths. my screen time has been actually soooooooooo bad recently like damn some#one put my phone in a block of ice please joshua gillespie style. my mind is running out of things to say. do i talk about myself. im james#im 18 which is weird cause wdym im an adult go away. ive run out of facts. i love podcasts and procedural dramas that stupid firefighter sh#w is my life unfortunately. i think chappell roan should be the queen of england instead of king charles. i dont like having a king cause#ho needs men in power not me. ok um this is the last tag equal rights for all. yolo. the time will pass anyways! thank u boredom ok bye gn:
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NON COMMITTAL QUESTION what do my followers (all 21 of you, including bots Iâm sure) think about me posting fics?
Idk Iâve been watching twd (as is clear bc itâs the only thing I post ab rn) and darylâŚ
Lowkey I have a couple ideas already⌠itâs just I donât want ppl who follow me to feel weird ab me posting fics? Idk if that makes sense. Like I donât THINK ppl will have problems with it (this is literally tumblr) maybe Iâm just insecure about my own abilities/ideasâŚ
#idk why Iâm so nervous to post this#like I yâall say yes then my hopes and dreams crash or smth lol#and Iâm sure my writing is better than the sh*wn m*nd*s fic I wrote when I was 14#lowkey Iâve started writing smth for fun alr and itâs gone in a diff direction alr#but also idk if this is just my perception but I think itâs kinda hard to like. her mutuals and friends here without writing#also this writing would prob start with twd since Iâm watching it rn but maybe Iâll write for some of the other fandoms Iâm in#But also Iâve had this acc for ages just lurking idk if I want to post fics here?#but also I know myself and if I donât use the same acc one will probably go to wasteland and never return#idk I need to hear opinions but have no one irl to talk to ab this đ#the walking dead#twd#Daryl Dixon#Daryl Dixon fanfiction#Daryl Dixon x reader#idk if I should tag this in my other fandoms but I donât want to flood their tags#if I started Iâd write a Daryl fic first though
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is there vampire chronicles discourse about why armand and daniel actually broke up after queen of the damned because if so my hot take (very cold take) is that it was probably because armand spent so much time stressing/lamenting about daniel eventually hating him for making him a vampire that daniel was like omg ur so annoying if u want me to hate you then fine and left. but then when armand didnt come find him like he had every time before, he was like wait, what and assumed he abandoned him. idiots, the two of them.
#actually i need to talk about this with someone#ive connected the dots#iwtv#i dont want actual discourse i just wanna know what everyone thinks#ive heard ppl say daniel actually hates being a vampire and to speak my truth i simply dont believe that#nothing has ever indicated that to me ever but i never read blood and gold/the later books so maybe i missed smth#armands word and the stuff about him crying for 2 seconds in qotd are unconvincing to me#i guess ill tag this#tvc#sorry 4 main tag posting i rly should change my blog tag
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you know you're fucked when you go through that mental checklist of basic needs (did i eat recently/did i get enough sleep/have i been social lately/when's the last time i showered etc) and everything is alright there but you're still feeling like stabbing yourself in the head
#it's like oh. i don't have any concrete step towards feeling better now. i just gotta live like this and hope it goes away somehow#it might be a hormonal thing bc i need my tshot today (but I'll have to wait till tuesday bc of the holiday...)#not that that's helping me in any way lol like ok i may know what's up but i can't solve it so. death it is ig#also i mean it might just be bc my brain is fucked and should be stomped till it's nonexistent. in my humble opinion.#nothing new here. i wanna die. yeah yeah whatever. i always do. now more than usual but w/e.#I'm too mentally tired to even think abt it. like usually i at least fantasize abt how I'd kms or smth#now I'm just ''i wanna go to sleep and never wake up'' booooo boring. this is why you should die you uncreative fuck#......can you tell I'm doing really bad lol#vent#negative //#suicide //#ask to tag
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theres a grief that comes with realizing past severe mental illness that held u back from living ur life n learning things on the "age appropriate" timeline.
in my late 20s n im just now realizing like, what i actually wanna do. like this is this the first time in my life i have a "life" plan that extends past "get thru this day".
#oh it made u stronger#its really only a 4-5 year plan#but hey ive never even had a 1 year plan so i think this counts for smth#the trauma i endured as a childhood n the near constant setbacks have had to survive completely alone have done a number on personal growth#and milestones for myself#just the idea of having a 4 year plan scares the shit out of me#but the difference between now n 10 years ago is that i know theres nothing that i cant overcome vs there was everything to fear#i hate the logic but it did n i shouldn't be angry at the fact that i now know i can handle any bullshit obstacle#thrown my way#but i will be abgry on my child selfs behalf bc that was shit no person should ever have to go thru#these were long tags for smth that was initially meant as a reply but the og post got deleted lol
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(same anon from before) tighnari & kaveh (friend?)ship dynamics!
hmmm i definitely don't hate it (wow, i know, unbelievable) but i think partially that's because i have never seen it? đđ
i simply can't imagine it at all rn, gotta see some sort of content to even figure out how their dynamic would work
but again ... out of all potential evils of this world (insert every ship i hate)? this ??? is completely fine.
and i am def very into the idea of them being friends because that sparks joy in my soul heh
#k-aveh should simply be friends with t-ighnari and c-yno and all 3 of them ignore that one other dude <3#jksadlhjsdhkasdhkdas#ask adry#anonymous#let me know if u would ever want like a special tag or smth btw#ALSO i do have a soft spot for rare ships and i think this is prolly a very 'rare' one given... how popular some other ones (đ¤˘) are#the more i think about it... i get no bad vibes...#worst case scenario - i dont care but in a good way aka it's not my ship but i respect it#best case - i'd consider it a ship i enjoy#but to repeat myself for 23848903284 time i literally never seen it đ¤§
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#battinson with chronically ill half dead teenager yesssssssss#I'm imagining that first night he brings danny to the cave and hes just internally panicking#like what do i do with this kid. where do i put him. i cant just leave him in the cave. im DEFINITELY not leaving him alone
FRRRR. Like @/that1badassbitch mentioned in the comments, Bruce's thoughts that entire time was just varying pitches of internal screaming. Which I am still wheezing at because yeah, preach. Bruce's pov from the moment Danny accosts him in the alley to him bringing Danny into the cave ranges from awkward panicking, genuine desperation to get this kid some help, a lot of heartbreak on the boy's behalf, and also just pure anger at his godfather.
Cuz like, who the fuck does this?? How dare he. This boy is a child. If it weren't for Danny's genuine terrified pleading, Bruce would've probably had a confrontation with Vlad. He would've lost, considering Vlad's power set and Bruce's lack of and Vlad would have gotten away with Danny. But he would've tried it. (Could've resulted in a spin-off au where Bruce, after losing to Vlad, proceeds to hunt the bastard down to save Danny.)
But yeah, I absolutely, delightfully agree that Battinson is just. internally panicking the entire time. From the rooftops, to the car, to the driving all the way to the cave -- which, after a quick google search, is apparently in an abandoned train depot in Batman (2022). Which is fascinating to me, but I digress. His internal monologue consists of cussing out Danny's godfather, trying to figure out what the poison is, a repetitive use of the word "FUCK", and him going "keep him awake keep him awake keep him aWAKE--"
But like, in a more Bruce Wayne fashion.
Danny is curled up in the passenger seat beside him and Bruce keeps intermittently checking on him every few seconds. Danny just looks like shit, man. Poor kid has a seemingly unending bloody nose, he's coughed a few times already and each time sounds like its shaking through his lungs and taking a piece out. His breathing is hollow, quietly raspy, and Danny sounds like he's gasping each time he breathes in. He's pale, clammy and sweating, but trembling, and his eyes are glazed over, unfocused, and half-lidded.
Dealer's choice here but I'm very amused but also fond of the idea that Bruce, in an attempt to do anything to soothe this kid, panic-clips off his cape and kinda just. throws it at him. Cringes, then awkwardly tries to adjust it so it's laying over him like a blanket.
It works though! Danny, through his haze, cracks a smile at him before grabbing the cape and practically curling around it. He seems to visibly relax, and Bruce silently slumps with relief that his idea worked. I also think he tries to painfully make some sort of small talk but frankly the only valid form of "small talk" he knows is interrogation. Danny's too out of it to mind though.
Bruce asks him if he knows what his godfather used to poison him.
("Blood Bl'ssom.") ("What is that?") ("A k'nda plant. Issa type o' rose.") ("Where can I find one?") ("Y'can't.") (And hear Bruce's blood chills for a moment. "What do you mean?") ("Blossoms went extinct in th- in the 1600s.") ("What? How is that possible? How'd your godfather get his hands on one?") ("Science.")
He also learns that the poison is, horrifyingly, cannibalistic, and Danny reassures him that he kinda stopped feeling the pain a few hours ago. Then he gags on nothing and spirals into an ugly coughing fit. "...Mostly." He adds on.
I have this very vivid mental image of Battinson screeching to a stop in the cave, Alfred's off to the side messing with some prototype gadgets. Bruce's side door swings open and Alfred's in the middle of snarkily asking if he's decided to get a reasonable amount of sleep tonight, only to immediately eat his tongue when Bruce beelines to the other side of the car and frantically pulls a waifish victorian kid with the tuberculosis blood cough to match out of the passenger's side.
("Dear god, what happened!?") ("His godfather poisoned him. I need towels and every medical device we have in here.")
The few photos I could find of the Battinson Cave did not imply there was a gurney in there, so Bruce uses on of the metal tables. He uses one arm to swipe off all the stuff on there onto the floor before laying Danny down.
It's. a very stressful time! That's for sure. Bruce is stuck between trying to get some form of antidote or at the very least a neutralizer to the blood blossom extract made, and also reassuring Danny that he's going to be fine. He's out of his depth.
They do get Danny stabilized though! How? Uh, I hadn't actually been able to think of how up until now, and this is just me trying to throw together an idea up on the fly. But Bruce like, manages to make some kind of 'antidote' that doesn't completely kill the blood blossom extract, but it makes the poison at least forcibly slow down.
[Forced to put a read more because this got SO LONG. oops]
"like what do i do with this kid. where do i put him. i cant just leave him in the cave. im DEFINITELY not leaving him alone" <<< is his sudden internal crisis after Danny's stabilized and passed out on the table. Giving him back to his godfather is completely off the fucking table, and Bruce can't give him up to CPS because there's a risk that he'll also return to his godfather.
He ends up, unsurprisingly to all of us, on deciding to keep Danny with him for the time being. At least until they can get his godfather behind bars. And you're right! Danny can't stay in the cave -- it's a half-furnished, rundown train depot. There's a tetanus shot waiting around each corner. It's Bruce's (reluctant) idea to take him up to the manor.
So Danny wakes up in an incredibly gothic guest bedroom, not feeling 100%, but also not feeling like total death like he did yesterday. He can still feel the blood blossom in him -- it leaves a joint and muscle soreness throughout his whole body, and when he breathes there's a weight there.
His confusion over where he woke up -- because it's very much not Vlad's place -- is overshadowed by his frank awe. You can't tell me he hasn't developed an appreciation and fondness of gothness due to his friendship with Sam. He might not be into it like Sam is, but he can appreciate the beauty when it's right in front of him.
#and hes got that awkward silent staring thing going on. Danny's trying not to die and vlads not there anymore#so hes unbothered by it really
Bruce pulled up a chair next to Danny's bed in the manor and didn't move a single inch the entire time. Just. sat there and stared to make sure the kid didn't stop breathing in the middle of the night. Probably has some facial recognition scanner going to try and figure out Danny's last name -- whether that works or not is dealer's choice frankly.
Either way, Danny turns his head to the left and nearly jumps three feet into the air when he sees Bruce and his 'stares into your soul' blue eyes. Sends him into a minor coughing fit by accident. Battinson very awkwardly and quietly apologizes. danny kinda just waves him off.
That's a whole conversation I'm not gonna go into, but to sum it up Bruce asks how Danny's feeling, and Danny tells him that he feels better, but he can still feel the blood blossom poison. So whatever he did, didn't get rid of all of it. (He's still incredibly fucking grateful nonetheless)
cue that "getting to know you" interrogation stuff.
(Danny can probably keep the full extent of his halfa status a secret from Bruce at first, but he is forced to tell Bruce about the ectoplasm running through him since it's the only reason the blood blossom toxin even works on him. Which results in him telling him a.. slightly omitted version of why he even has that in there in the first place.)
(Maybe he reveals that he was a hero in order to convince Bruce to let him out on the field rather than being just support? I've got ideas and fortunately your tags will help me delve into them)
#alfred pretends to be exasperated that bruce kidnapped a kid but honestly hes relieved#maybe being responsible for someone else will make bruce more responsible for his own health
no notes. just know that i'm wheezing at this. my friend @kingcrow01 had Alfred essentially reacting the same fucking way.
#the media would eat it up are you kidding??? the reclusive prince of gotham seen with a mysterious child???#and theyve both got that sickly pathetic wet cat look to them what with bruce constantly being injured and danny being chronically poisoned
FR! I love social media shenanigans and I love seeing it in fic (Lex Luthor's Ascent From Supervillainy To Fatherhood is a really good example of it imo), although i'm not too good at making it myself. Imagining how twitter in-universe might react to photo evidence of Danny with Bruce is going to fuel my desire for seeing people's reactions to things for ages. I am delighted to imagine that dumpster fire. The in-universe memes, guys.
Nobody has any clue what this mysterious Wayne child looks like for the longest time because Danny follows Bruce's lead and dresses in Anti-Paparazzi Recluse Fits. Mostly because he's the godchild of an equally reclusive and influential billionaire figure, and I imagine Vlad would pitch a media fit trying to find his poor, beloved godson.
Can you imagine the fucking SCANDAL if people found out that Vlad Masters' godson ran off and was currently living with recluse Gotham Prince Bruce Wayne? The tabloids would eat this shit up. It's a three-course meal that's paying their rent for the next three months. That's not even to say what Vlad might do upon finding out Danny's whereabouts.
So yeah, photo evidence of Danny only has shots of him wearing a large hoodie, one of Bruce's jackets, and a medical face mask and a hat. It doesn't hide any of the Sickly Pathetic Wet Cat look, if anything it enhances it. But you can see his bright 'staring into your soul like the oracle of delphi' blue eyes, and the black curls plastering his face, and his pale skin.
In some photos, as blurry as they are, Danny appears to be leaning into Bruce's side, seemingly using him as a support. The "antidote" (medicine?) Bruce created that first night was effective, but it wears off eventually. Before they make his medical bracelets, the both of them agree to use the antidote Bruce made to stave off the worst of the poison.
These photos are taken around the times the antidote was wearing off or had worn off, and the toxin was taking itself out of the backseat and shifting back into high gear. Despite that, Danny managed to convince Bruce to let him tag along on whatever shopping run he was on.
Someone took one of these photos and captioned it "Pathetic Wet Cat and his Sickly Pathetic Wet Kitten" and posted it on SMS. It got numbers.
Oh my god, I just thought of this but when Battinson is finally cornered by reporters asking him about Danny he does this:
he internally panics, and then with a straight face says "i don't know what you're talking about. i don't have a son." and then he Flees.
(this blows up in his face because the reporter he responded to never asked him if Danny was his son, they asked him who the boy seen with him was. Bruce is trending on twitter before he even makes it home. He's mortified. There's potential here for a scene between Bruce and Danny where they have that long-awaited 'are we family?' conversation.)
#i know everyone's focusing on danny working as a hero with batman and his relationships with dick and jason and everyone as the older siblin#but im still stuck on early days batman with a teenager to care for and how that dynamic is going to be SO DIFFERENT#than that same bruce with a 9 year old Dick. like the circumstances are so different and hes never bat-dopted a kid before this
NO BECAUSE YOU GET IT. YOU GET IIIIT! I fucking love older brother danny, however the biggest appeal of the "eldest son danny" idea is in fact how he and bruce's relationship would have to play out in order for that to happen. You could argue that Danny could be an 'older brother figure' to the Robins and still not have any familial affiliation with Batman, but the fact of the matter is, simply? I want that familial affiliation with Bruce. I want to see how that would play out, and how it would develop.
I am. a scientist prodding a little glass stirring rod at the potential family dynamic of Bruce Wayne and Danny Fenton and going, in complete wonderment and awe, "wow. fascinating. how does that work? how did you happen? what made you? how can i do it again?"
I also think there could be something fascinating over the fact that Bruce Wayne watched his parents die in front of him, while Danny's parents don't even know Danny died at all. A (once) child with dead parents, and a dead child with living parents. I think there's something to be explored there, I just haven't yet figured out what.
And yeah! a teen is completely different than an 8 year old. They're in very different developmental stages in their life, and that's not even addressing their lifestyle differences. When I made this prompt I mentally kinda just placed the death of danny's parents as having happened a few months ago. To me, it feels like enough time for Vlad's temperament to escalate from bad to worse, and for him to actually cook up that blood blossom toxin.
Danny's at a different mourning period compared to Dick, who was brought in while it wasn't even a day old. Maybe Danny hasn't had much time to mourn his family as much as he's wanted because he's been stuck in survival mode living with Vlad, and once he feels secure with Bruce he can finally tap into that grief he's been keeping on the backburner.
Lots of things to explore that can adjusted and changed as needed! Very flexible.
All in all though, I am a sucker for found family and in order for Danny to have family in Dick and the others, he needs to find it with Bruce.
#and this one has a crazy demon murder godfather and poison blood and a history of punching otherworldly apocalypse-creatures#into another dimension. no parenting book will help.
no notes here other than yeah, agreed, wheeze. The good news is that he doesn't need to be completely afraid that those otherworldly potential-apocalypse kickstarters will show up at any random point, Because, imo, Danny shut down and destroyed the portal before he could be shipped off in order to prevent anyway (cough-the GIW-cough) from accessing it. Vlad's the only one with a working portal currently and he's not as careless as the fentons are as to keep it open willy-nilly.
now the only thing he needs to worry about is the crazy demon godfather and the flora-boros blood toxin in his son's veins! whoo.
#and like yeah danny will want to help gotham and save people#but honestly? with his new limitations and no expectations from a previous robin do you think he would do it the same way?
I love this question! because honestly when I was initially expanding on this idea on my own, my initial answer was "no" due to the toxin's limitations. I had the same idea as you where Danny takes on a more 'oracle' role where he's not out in the field, but he's still helping behind the scenes. I was torn between "logically would this happen" as well as "chronically ill people aren't delicate flowers, they can do things" and a little dash of "okay but i really want nightingale out in the field"
In the end I decided that I liked the idea of Danny actually out with Bruce, and that as a result there would need to appropriate consequences and drawbacks for this decision.
#idk guys he fights ghosts because no one else can#i think he'd probably play a much more supportive role. at least at first. << you're totally right, too. And Danny's motivations for wanting to help in Gotham would have to be different than in Amity Park. Oooo this has good character growth potential.
Danny helps Amity Park out of a sense of obligation right? Like obviously it's also because he's a good person, but ultimately it kinda comes across as an obligation. He's the only one who can, so he's the one to do it, despite the fact that throughout the show he's shown to want that normal life. There's guilt there if he doesn't do anything; he has the power to stop this, so why shouldn't he?
(Oo, doesn't that sound kinda familiar? Guilt over something he ultimately has no control over, but thinks he could have?)
So! For him to choose to decide to rejoin the hero life, and not just from behind the curtain, feels like a pretty big character decision to me. Especially because now, he doesn't really have the power to help. Not like he did before.
He's sickly, essentially powerless because using his powers speeds up the toxin, and equipped only with his wits, his creativity, and whatever fighting skills he may have acquired during his time as Phantom -- and whatever martial arts prowess the author decides to have Maddie pass down to Danny.
He's not doing this because he feels like he has to, but because he wants to. I think that's pretty cool.
You reminded me that ideas can be combined too! It's dealers choice for anyone who wants to throw their hat into the ring in how Danny decides to join the frontline fight.
I'm going to kinda contradict myself here but one of my ideas for Danny going from behind-the-scenes to in-your-face-scenes is just. Batman needing backup for a fight. I'm not going to go into specifics for who he's facing, because frankly i'm not sure myself, but he needs backup.
And Danny, who likes to sit in the cave more often than not, waiting for Bruce to come back, sees this through whatever cameras are available. He's stressed out, worried for Batman's safety. This could be a good catalyst for the overarching subplot of him rejoining the hero scene as well as hey, maybe realizing that he doesn't need his powers to help people.
Danny's warring with himself about what to do. Trying to soothe his anxieties by reminding himself that Bruce is an incredible fighter and good at getting out of tight spots, telling himself it would be fine. Rebuffing the little voice in his mind saying he should help by telling it that he might make things worse. And when his subconscious tries to tell him that he can help, he rebuffs it by saying does he need to?
And there, right there, is what's been playing on repeat for however long it takes for him to become nightingale. Every night: "I can help, but do I need to?" and during this night is when he has an epiphany; "No, but I want to."
it's like the sun peaking through the clouds after weeks of gray skies. He wants to help. He can help, but not because he should or because he's able to, although that is important, but because he wants to.
So he finds where Bruce hides the face paint, smears what he think is an adequate amount on his face -- it looks almost mask like. And hunts down one of the spare utility belts -- he ends up having to wrap it around his shoulder and torso like a bandolier due to how tall Bruce is and how willowy Danny is. he already has a hoodie on, and pulls it up over his head. And fuck it, i'm calling down the Rule of Cool Law. Danny finds one of Bruce's spare capes and tears it up to make a makeshift scarf to better hide his face. He gets some other tools he needs that he knows Bruce uses, and then he's off.
(Bruce is both very shocked and very upset when Danny comes crashing through the ceiling with a faux-confident; "Hiyo, B! You're looking pretty bat-tered, so I thought I'd come in and give a helping claw!")
(Results in what I think is a very funny post-fight conversation where they have something of a hissed argument in front of the half-conscious criminals. "what are you doing here?!" "i wanted to help!" "where'd you learn to fight like this?" "mom taught me" -> which causes a fucking BUZZ in the criminal underground when word gets out.)
there's conflict. argument over bruce not wanting danny to come out to help him. Until danny eventually wins out in the end by pulling up footage of phantom on the batcomputer, revealing his previous hero status, and pure damn stubbornness. Bruce agrees but only after he updates Danny's self-defense and gets him a proper suit.
#alfred cant handle TWO wet rats getting beat up every night lol
singling this out because it's funny and you're rIGHT.
#danny innovating new and better bat gadgets. making good humanitarian use of the wayne money in ways that would make sam proud. #making sure alfred isnt the only thing standing between bruce and bruce's death at the hands of the city he loves
Danny's bambi eyes are lethal work, and Alfred's favorite employ whenever Bruce is being stubborn. Even after rejoining the active hero scene, Danny will still team up with Alfred to drag Bruce to bed or rest. Excuse you, don't make the same mistakes he did! He's the elder hero here!
Danny churns out so many anti-ghost gadgets for Bruce for the inevitable confrontation with Vlad, along with non-ecto gadgets just because he wants him safe. It becomes an unusual bonding experience for the both of them to come up with gadget ideas together and then figuring out how to make it work, and then building them together.
Vigilante equivalent of helping dad in the garage except you're both fixing the car and telling the other to grab them the 3/5th quarter-inch flathead screwdriver from the toolbox.
Danny is delighted to have someone to bounce ideas off of with, as does Bruce.
For the good old "fights are one of the ways ghosts socialize" trope: They have regular training sessions, but it's Danny who asks if they could sometimes just have some for-fun sparring sessions. Then has to very embarrassedly explain to Bruce that it's just something ghosts do with each other to socialize sometimes.
Bruce reads between the lines and sees it for what it is: play fighting. Danny's asking to play fight. There are no parenting books on taking care of a half-ghost teen, but he immediately thinks on a documentary on lions he saw a while ago and agrees.
These play fights more often than not result in Danny being tossed around like a ragdoll and loving it -- he's light as feathers and being thrown up into the air feels like he's flying again. Something he can't do anymore for obvious reasons. Plus the ghostly bonding thing.
I don't have much to add about the humanitarian use of wayne money thing, i agree. It also makes Bruce proud and could help inspire him to start getting more involved with Wayne Industries so he can start using his parents' company for humanitarian use as well.
#MAN imagine the fluff of danny learning to decipher bat grunts#if anyone has experience seeing past the crazy obsessive seemingly single minded focus of a parental figure and to the real love and care#that exists so deeply and truly under and throughout it all it'll be danny
aaaaaa, man you're so right. i was talking to crow about this but, for context, the idea was that Nightingale has a tendency to sometimes bite his opponents. And it's become something almost like a signature surprise move because he has Ghost Fangs, but the first time this happens its during some kind of gang fight between B, Gale, and a handful of goons.
However, the fight halts to surprised stop when one of the guys shrieks out; "OW, HE BIT ME!" and like a spell, everyone turns, flabbergasted, towards the guy who said it. Because what the fuck did you mean he bit you, wHY IS HE BITING.
And there, hanging off the guy's arm with all the smug self-satisfaction of a cat, is Nightingale, with his fangs still chomped down onto the guy's arm. There's a few seconds of silence, long enough for everyone to see what's going on, before Gale reorients his momentum and kicks the guy square in the jaw; knocking him out cold.
The thing that catches everyone's attention is that Nightingale drew blood. They watch, half-terrified, half-baffled, as the kid scrunches his nose up, wipes at his mouth, and makes a noise of disgust. He turns to look at Batman, who has also stopped what he's doing to stare as well.
Nightingale asks him; "Am I gonna have to get checked for this?"
Rather than deign him with a response, Batman remains silent. They stare at each other for three whole seconds, before Nightingale clicks his tongue like Batman had said something he didn't like, but expected.
"Aw, okay." Then without missing a beat, he turns and launches himself like a feral cat at the closest person next to him, and the room descends back into chaos once more.
Man, I'm just imagining them working next to each other on their own personal project, and Danny will quietly ask for Bruce's opinion on something. Bruce gives him a single grunt, and Danny's silent for a moment, contemplative, before muttering something like "huh, i guess you're right" or "oh, good idea."
Danny eventually adopts Bruce's little "hrm" quirk himself, and it slowly goes from: "hey, what do you think about this?" "hrm" "that's what I thought too" to: "..hmn?" "hm."
The ever consistent urge to make Your Blorbo The Most Specialist Character On The Block Ever is forever a plague of mine, and I'm very tempted to say that Danny is the only other kid except Cass who can do the "hm?" "hn" thing back to back with Bruce. Don't get me wrong, the other batkids can do the "Hey X thing" "hm" "okay" thing, and on some level can do the "hm" "hm" thing too, but they can't do it quite to the same extent as Danny can, and its from those years where it was just the two of them.
but yess!! I agree! Danny's got experience with that kind of obsessiveness, Bruce reminds him a lot of his parents that way and he understands it the best out of all his siblings as a result. It also means, however, that he willingly goes in to drag Bruce out of whatever obsessive rabbit hole he's fallen into, if he feels that Bruce has been too hyperfocused on something. He saw it with his parents, and it ended up killing them. He's not losing another dad because of his foolish tunnel vision.
#bruce is so much quieter than his parents but man if danny doesnt understand him. and maybe bruce comes to learn what dannys used to as well#comes to learn to speak his affection and open up so much more. to make danny feel more comfortable and welcome
AGAIN, NO NOTES. This is perfect and yes. I've got nothing to add.. okay I lied, i just needed a moment to think. Bruce isn't the most physically affectionate person, but he starts to be thanks to Danny, who is very tactile. Same thing with verbal praise, Danny hardly got any of it in school or, regretfully, at home since Jazz tended to get all the praise.
Bruce tells him "good eye" once after Danny spotted something before Bruce did, and Danny preened so brightly Bruce genuinely wondered if stars were going to appear over his head. He'd gotten his hands on video footage about Phantom that had shown him doing that exact same thing.
(oh which reminds me. The moment Danny tells Bruce about his previous hero experience as Phantom, Bruce goes on a research helldive to get his hands on everything about it. He's watched every single video showing Phantom. There were very few videos of Phantom that weren't videos of his fights, which were horrifying to watch on multiple levels.
Including but not limited to the fact that ghosts could apparently survive the most lethal of injuries, and he was never going to get the image of Phantom yanking a steel pipe out of his chest out of his head, or him pulling out a broken chunk of glass from his throat.)
(It was even worse seeing videos of Danny's parents shooting at him. That was a long, uncomfortable conversation.)
Another time Bruce is asking Danny about being a ghost, and Danny wistfully tells him that the thing he misses most is flying. Grappling through the city is the closest thing to it, but it's still fundamentally different -- and in some ways more exciting -- than flying. The closest comparison he could give is an indoor skydiving ring.
Bruce, a week later, rents out an indoor skydiving ring for the day and Danny spends hours inside the wind tunnel. He tells Bruce all about the similarities and differences in the car on the drive home, and then tells him that next time Bruce should try it too.
Just, all-in-all, seeing how these two interact and impact each other is what makes this so appealing to me. Especially with early years Batman. And I had so much fun typing all this out, thanks for the opportunity to infodump haha.
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âWoah. You look like shit."
Granted, thatâs probably not the first thing Danny should be saying to the guy that just bit the curb, but in his defense; heâs not running on 100% right now either.
The man -- tall, towering, and broader than Danny is tall -- whips around on his heel, black frayed cape flaring out impressively. Danny would've whistled in appreciation, but he takes the time instead to wipe the back of his hand across his mouth, smearing the blood running from his nose across his cheek.
"Sorry." He blinks widely, not even flinching as the man with the horns zeroes in on him. "That was rude of me. I have a really bad brain-to-mouth filter; Sam says its what always gets me into trouble."
And she's not wrong either, per say. His smart mouth is what landed him in this situation -- with blood blossom extract running through his veins and cannibalizing the ectoplasm in his bloodstream. Thanks Vlad.
The man grunts at him; a short, curt "hm" that shouldn't make Danny smile, but he does because he's somewhat delirious and probably concussed. The man keeps some kind of distance, sinking towards the shadows of Gotham's alleyway like he dares to melt right into it.
If it's supposed to scare Danny, it doesn't work. Danny's never been afraid of the dark; he's always been able to hide himself in it. He blinks slowly at the mass of shadows.
"You look hurt." The shadows says, blurring together around the edges. Danny squints, and licks his lips to get the blood dripping down his chin off. Ugh, he hates the taste of blood.
"I am." He says, "My godfather poisoned me. M'dying." The agony of the blood blossom eating him from the inside out looped back around to numbing a while ago, so all he feels is half-awake and dazed.
"Hey," Danny stumbles forward towards the man, a bloodied hand reaching out to him. "You-- you're a hero, right? You're not attacking me; which is more than I can say for most costumed people I've met." Maybe it's a poor bar to judge someone at, but he's already established that Danny's not in his right mind.
The man makes no change in expression, but Danny realizes blearily that it's hard to tell with the shadows on his face. He stays still long enough for Danny to latch onto the cape -- stretchy, but almost soft under his fingers.
He looks up blearily into the whites of the man's eyes. "Can you help me? I don't-- I don't wanna die." Again. He doesn't wanna die again. He blinks slow and lizard-like. "I mean- I'll probably get to see mom and dad again, but I told them I'd at least try and make it to adulthood."
There's a clatter down the street, and Danny's ghost sense chills up his spine and leaves a bitter, ashy taste in his mouth. He immediately knows who it belongs to even before the deceptively gentle; "Daniel?" echoes down the way.
"Daniel? Quit your games, badger, Gotham is dangerous for children."
Danny's mouth pulls back, and blood spills against his tongue. "Please." He rasps, and grabs onto the shadow's cape with both hands. "Please. He's going to kill me. Please--"
"Daniel? Is that you?"
His lips part, dragging in air to plead with the darkness again. He doesn't need to, the whites of his eyes narrow, and the cape whirls around him before Danny can blink. Soon swaddled in shadows, the Night lifts him up, and steals him away.
#fr tho. anyone reading this should look up the Battinson Wayne Manor if they don't know what it looks like. It is SO goth and i love it#its gorgeous imo#i was looking up battinson movie clip compilations last night and my favorite fucking line from him is and will always be#[âwe just got you on assaulting an officer!â] âyou got me on assaulting three" LIKE YOU SASSY MFER. THATS HILARIOUS DUDE#batman being a troll is my favorite thing ever and ever and eVER. im adding these tags as i go along can you tell#found family doesn't need labels but in this case im putting them on there.#flora-boros is a play on of the word 'flora' and 'ouroboros'. eyy. get it? flora because. well. the blood blossom is a flower and ouroboros#cuz the ouroboros is the self-regenerating snake eating its own tail for all of eternity. ectoplasm is the tail and the flower is the head#personally i really like the idea that danny's got some proficient martial arts skills thanks to his mom. skill may vary.#but if i were to apply it to BB. danny can hold his own pretty well but he's not anywhere near batman's level. he's creative tho.#wow this took me a long time to reply to. somehow?? danny gets a scarf because that's the design i gave nightingale and i think it fucks#this reminds me. danny purrs and has other minor ghostly stuff he does instinctively in his human form. that kinda fucks him over because#it activates or disturbs the ectoplasm in his blood. which in turn disturbs the toxin. it won't make him severely sick. things like#coughing fits are common. but so is nausea. hot flashes. fatigue. chronic pain. sometimes vomiting. the whole ugly nine yards.#smth smth there's an appeal to the tragedy between the man who never fully grew up cause of his parents' death. and the kid who#never got the chance to after his parents caused his death.#throwaway idea: after bruce is told about Danny's accident and subsequent death he later goes out and silently makes Danny a grave#he doesnt think it's fair that danny never got one. its simple and subtle bc he doesn't really wanna bring it up with danny.#im trying to think of what it would look like and. throwaway design but it's a stone tree stump where instead of just plain rings there's a#star chart carved into the flat part. it looks like just a kinda dramatic statue but behind it Bruce has a small plaque and Danny's epitaph#on it. its in the only part of the garden that's not overgrown and bruce plants flowers around it. he thinks it could work as an adequate#substitute until Danny can get a proper headstone. It's danny's favorite spot in the whole garden and he doesn't get why. he thinks its#the star chart. bruce has found danny fast asleep beside the stone tree; using the flat part as a head rest; more times than he can count#mmmm i think thats everything i've got in my head for now.
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ok Heres some thoughts now that im not stupidly sleepy anymore. i like thinking about dreamys first encounter with miles after entering his universe, freshly mutated and not having any real idea of whats going on, confused as fuck. so they see spiderman on the news and go âshit, thats the guy i gotta talk to, how the FUCK do i get in contact with himâ and then IM THINKING they do something very silly and dramatic which is to stage a crime like an armed robbery or something so hell show up, then as soon as hes there they drop the weapon or whatever and go âoh good it worked. sorry about scaring everyone i just needed to talk to spiderman for a second ill find some way to pay for therapy if anyone needs it after thisâ and then telling him about their own powers so he can help
#cherry chats#dreamy đ#ahhh wait fuck. just realized i should change that tag fo have an emoji in case anyone follows the dreamy tag#augh. hold on. brb#dont read this post yet its not finished. ill come back and say more stuff in the tags in like 10 minutes or smth#OK BACK!!!!! i have more shit on dreamy now that idk if ive said before#their relationship with liv in their original dimension has over time morphed into the WORST fwb deal in the whole world#liv has become so incredibly manipulative and actually downright obsessed w them. idk how that happened#she tries to prevent them from talking to anyone shes jealous she has tantrums shes admitted the true nature of the collider project and its#ties to kingpin etc etc#shes absolutely crazy over there. and i LOVE it#she thinks she can manipulate dreamy They manipulate her right back. theyre sooooo fucked up <3#and they came to milesâ dimension not by choice but as a result of the accident. spider society hates them because theyre anomalous#and also Erm a shit hero. by spider society standards#they have nothing more than just a vague feeling and fleeting memories and strange dreams from their original dimension#theyve tried looking themself up in alchemax personnel files but finding nothingâ because in 1610 they never worked there#so their memories dont add up with the reality around them which is obviously. SOO fucking frustrating#also. news on powers. their extra eyes have nightvision and their fangs have a temporarily paralyzing venom đ#they dont know that for sure though. they havent run any tests because they would need a living subject for that and the way they found out#in the first place was accidentally biting their tongue. so they dont know for sure how the venom works#but i know. and its paralyzing The effect is less for them since its their venom but still potent enough to cause irritation#like. when they bit their tongue it stiffened and tensed up for awhile but no numbing#if it bit someone else it would have a marginally stronger effect#and ummâŚâŚ. umm. well actually maybe thats all#after their vanishing in their home dimension shit fell apart over there#both liv and ohnn were distraught and tried looking for them but eventually gave up#theyre gone for years before they manage to find home after allâŚâŚ.. they just assume theyd been offed or something#so umm. i think thats it đ i love dreamy i think theyr great#still not sure what their home dimension is called though. i like 8084 but im not sure#so yay My spidey baby Teehee ^__^ i like thinking about their lore a lot ithink its fun
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new ocs dropped,theyre not sonic related im just a fan of the concept of zombies since forever,,theyre names are dr,james(no first name yet idk man) and circus cornflower,hes also a doctor(..was) preforming less ethical experiments as a zombie himself,and hes fully sentient look at this guy
#circus believes in the scientific method with 10x more zombification and self surgery#and dr james believes in violating the hippocratic oath and medical malpractice#and its yaoi and circus infected the doctor by biting the sides of his mouth like a kiss because he really didnt want to be a human#i think there should be tags on this for smth but i never know for what#i wish other people could tag it for me i would not mind that for any of my posts tbh i think i deserve it sometimes#needle tw#gore tw#is that the right ones.?
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I was lookin thru my blog and trying to think like why is there mostly Splatoon stuff on here and then I remembered that I'm super against spoilers so whenever I see stuff I like from other fandoms and it could potentially spoil smth I don't reblog it ⢠x â˘
#listen I'm going a bit wild a bit wacky with the Sonic Prime stuff but I look on my blog and it does not reflect that at all LMAO#I should also probably TAG my Sonic Prime stuff but the issue with my brain is if I don't start tagging smth the first time I post abt it#and then don't tag every single post there after#I cannot tag my posts#like I am not legally allowed to tag mlp stuff bcuz I didn't start from the very beginning and if I did wanna start tagging it#then I would have to go thru my entire blog post by post to see every single post I ever posted about that subject#and it would be so scattered between posts and it's not just images it's also written posts like I can't be doin all that man...#for Sonic Prime tho I think in general I never posted much abt it cuz I wasn't super super into it the first time I watched it#and also I didn't wanna spoil anything by reblogging y'know spoiler posts#and then also I didn't look @ much content on it so once the month moved in I never rlly saw anything abt it#since I only followed like 2 people who were into Sonic enough to post abt it at the time#I went and looked back @ my posts and I THINK I think I only posted like one other post but idk for sure#I'm gonna try NOT to worry abt it by I'm kinda vibrating a bit bcuz I don't know for sure if I have it all tagged#but I also don't wanna spend 5 hours looking thru every one of my posts to make sure#cuz I would I literally would do that and I have done that but I would like to not do that
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so a thing that my brain does on the reg is it makes me get nervous about a scenario (ranging from probably-won't-happen to Definitely-Won't-Happen) and then i have to spend like 40 minutes meandering my way through an improv youtube apology video until my brain feels like I've addressed the scenario about as well as i can and lets me move on. usually this comes in the form of like
you accidentally said a forbidden slur (i.e. one i can't reclaim) while streaming/in a group conversation and now have to explain that your brain misfired catastrophically hard and that you've never said this word before (true) And You Have To Do It Well Enough To Be Believed
because like. i wouldn't believe that guy either, y'know? most people in that situation just cross that bridge when they get to it and do pretty bad, so maybe my brain is trying to help prepare me via interrogation. my point is that i spend a lotta my spare time pacing in my bathroom fending off theoretical murder charges (which are either phony OR true OR a secret third thing depending on the day).
as soon as i woke up this morning my brain gave me a new one:
what if people accuse you of faking your (middling) knowledge of french? and also you're a celebrity and have to prove it by speaking french live on a talk show or something.
which like. good morning to you too, brain. the first thing i did was (slowly, mediocrely) construct an appropriately indignant sentence in my head (i haven't used french since my ap exam like a month ago) and then
BUT WHAT IF PEOPLE THINK SOMEONE FED ME THE LINE
ok we'll have the audience write in questions live
WHAT IF THEY STILL THINK IT'S RIGGED AND ALSO WHAT IF I DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY'RE ASKING ((<- LIKELY AND UNCHARACTERISTICALLY ROOTED IN LIVED EXPERIENCE!!!)) WHICH WOULD PROBABLY MAKE IT WORSE
girl that's The Most i can do what do you want from me.
and then once i woke up more i had a realization in that blasted out, quiet wayâlike an astronaut drifting away from their ship untethered, forever. that
the prognosis of taking american public high school language courses is to remember jack shit (pardon my french). it's a classic babe it's near universal. we all know we don't know.
Babygirl, (And I Cannot Express This Enough,) No One Is Ever Going To Make You Speak French Live In ~5-40 Years To Prove You Took It In High School. Go Back To Sleep. there's only like two scenarios you can think of ever where that happens and there's like a 70+% chance you can just say no or ignore it. what a weird thing to fake in the first place too who would even accuse you of that.
anyway sometimes being a citizen of Braintown is funny and not exhausting in a kind of sad clown way but it's usually just kind of awful. something something c'est la vie
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i hope your fingerâs ok!! please take all the time you need and remember you health comes first :) imma be selfish and send you a charles request cause ur writing makes me smile at my phone like an idiot and i canât help it :p ok so!! charles x versteppen reader? shes maxâs sister and drives for redbull (cause im delulu like that) and theyâve been fighting w each other since they were kids (no one knows why they started arguing theyâre j petty and refuse to give it up even though they dk what theyâre arguing abt anymore) and obvs theyâre in love w each other - maybe another drivers flirting w her or smth and charles j snaps and hard launches the reader cause surprise theyâve been dating each other đ¤ holy shit this is long sorry for rambling đđ
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yourusername: another trip around the sun and still following my brother around, difference is now i beat him x
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user16: your honour i am so obsessed with her
maxverstappen1: can't even be angry about it, you deserve the world
yourusername: you softy, i love you
maxverstappen1: also dummy i know who your boyfriend is now did you guys forget that we LITERALLY LIVE TOGETHER
yourusername: i was intoxicated my bad but we bought you breakfast?
maxverstappen1: literally the only reason he hasn't gone over the balcony, he might want to be gone before this hangover wears off
yourusername: noted.
user17: yall want to share with the class?
user18: based on ^^ this reaction i'm going to say it's not carlos
user19: watch out he'll drop a shit pick-up line in a second and be rejected
carlossainz55: hope you enjoyed your birthday beautiful
user20: bro this guy STINKS
user19: i told yall
yourusername: thank you carlos
user21: i'm sorry this is dry as hell it can't be carlos
charles_leclerc: my shoes will never recover, i'll be sending an invoice your way
yourusername: you're a millionaire boo, you can replace those tacky white trainers yourself
charles_leclerc: is having no manners a verstappen trait?
yourusername: come for max all you want, but the birthday girl? low leclerc
charles_leclerc: when you go low i go lower
yourusername: oh believe me i know all about you and going down
user22: DO YALL MIND?
user23: do they think we're dumb?
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charles_leclerc: a weekend without racing?
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user24: what is biden doing about the soft launch pandemic?
user25: well this is oddly timed ...
yourusername: you look like you'd have sweaty hands
charles_leclerc: wouldn't you like to know
yourusername: unlike all ur fangirls i've actually smelt you sweaty after a race so you can keep your hands to yourself
maxverstappen1: you heard her đ¤¨
charles_leclerc: why are you here? is this a 2 for 1 deal on annoying dutch people
yourusername: you can call him annoying all you want, but you love me don't lie
charles_leclerc: my lawyer says i shouldn't comment on that ;)
sebastianvettel: when will you two stop?
yourusername: sorry seb :(
charles_leclerc: sorry seb :(
user26: i know carlos is sick reading this weird flirting when y/n never comments on his pics
user27: she comes here just to flirt cause she didn't even like the photo
user28: she doesn't even follow him đ
pierregasly: i love a slow burn as much as the next person BUT NOT WHEN I DON'T KNOW WHO IT IS PICK UP THE PHONE
charles_leclerc: you're so dramatic, nobody knows calmar
maxverstappen1: he's lying i do
pierregasly: WHAT
charles_leclerc: by ACCIDENT i didn't tell him by choice
user29: so like, it's definitely y/n LOL
user30: oh no everyone get ready marca is going to run a story tomorrow about how charles leclerc is ruining carlos' career with psychological warfare by flirting with the girl he likes
user31: sainz sr about to wage war lol
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charles_leclerc: i don't share. i love you. please follow me on instagram now (and let me come on max's jet) x
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user35: HOLY FUCK
user36: they're so fucking sexy my lord
yourusername: you're so weak, one teammate flirts with me and you hard launch, i've had 12 year olds use me as a face claim to pretend they're pregnant with your child
charles_leclerc: they took your face? i happen to quite like it, can they give it back?
yourusername: quite?
charles_leclerc: don't make me look bad you know i positively LOVE YOUR FACE
yourusername: and my ass since it's all you look at on track
charles_leclerc: okay you can drop the act now people know we're in love stop being mean to me :(
yourusername: but it's true, no?
charles_leclerc: rest assured i love your actual ass much more
maxverstappen1: believe me the people she lives with know WAY too much about how much you love it
user37: carlos sainz really thought he had a chance when these fools have been together for TWO years
sebastianvettel: congratulations you two, glad we don't have to watch you two trying to be subtle now
maxverstappen1: so wait when did you find out?
sebastianvettel: about two weeks into the relationship, they were very obvious
yourusername: thank you for keeping our secret dad <3
user38: y/n really said you ARE my grid dad
yourusername: oh no that's my actual dad
charles_leclerc: he's literally going to walk y/n down the aisle
maxverstappen1: please don't tell me you're engaged? i only just got over you actually being together
charles_leclerc: i'm not your brother yet don't worry (i will be soon)
carlossainz55: congrats guys
user39: it's okay bro you can cry
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yourusername: two years with the love of my life, still on max's side on val d'argenton x
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user40: they're disgusting (when will it happen to me)
charles_leclerc: we'll have to agree to disagree
yourusername: just admit it you love to push verstappens off the track
charles_leclerc: sorry babe as much as i love you, i'll never let you win x
yourusername: good thing i always beat you then x
charles_leclerc: either way victory sex still bangs
user41: yes, yes they're cute, but i need a full on play-by-play of how this relationship came to be
user42: i know these menaces were giggling and kicking their feet every time they had an argument in comment sections
yourusername: oh it was very fun
charles_leclerc: but the radio messaged are 100% real lol
maxverstappen1: thanks for having my back, you're welcome for all the gross pictures i've taken for you guys
yourusername: consider your payment like every meal i make us
maxverstappen1: well if i did it f1 would be down three drivers
user43: wait so does charles basically live with them now?
maxverstappen1: unfortunately yes. depressing music, even worse cooking than me and horrendously loud sex with my sister. i should kick him out
charles_leclerc: i literally bought you noise-cancelling headphones?
maxverstappen1: nothing you can say will save me from this trauma
yourusername: just shag daniel and get off of our case x
note: ahhhhh i am so sorry this request took so long, my inbox keeps moving stuff around lol. my finger is good thanks for asking, the human body is a wonder and i peeled off the last of my scab this week lol. i hope this was the kinda thing you were looking for !! xx
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kim minji x fem!reader ; angst, fluff
synopsis: you and minji break it off, both emotionally and physically, each pushing the other away. but the universe has other plans, bringing you two back to square one as if you were always meant to find your way back to one another.
warnings: sixth member!reader ; arguing ; pining ; reader is canadian for the plot but it's not even that important it's just for a silly tims joke and smth more ; ugh they're so in love get away ; angsty but super fluffy + heavy pining ; a lot in one ; iffy pacing imo ; have fun with this one i rly liked writing this ; wtv else i didnt mention
a/n: guys PLEAAASSSE donât be scared of the hook and angst tag PLSGIYS i swear itâs sweet⌠i swear. i was smiling throughout donât be scared⌠itâs not THAT bad ANYWAYS i want timmy's so bad rn... un cafe infuse froid a la vanille si vous PLAAAIIT someone send me timbits asap
âi think we should break up.â
minjiâs head snaps toward you, eyes wide, an exasperated âwhat?â escaping her lips.
confusion flashes across her face, and for good reason. everything has been good between you two, really goodâno fighting, no tension, just the usual hustle of practice and training. youâve both always found a way to make it work, to balance everything. so why now? why are you saying this?
you canât bring yourself to meet her gaze, your eyes focused on some spot on the floor instead, teeth worrying your bottom lip.
âweâre both training so hard,â you murmur, your voice barely above a whisper. âi think we should focus on that for now.â
âbut⌠everything is fine,â she says, a pleading note in her voice. âi donât get itâŚâ
truth is, you donât want thisânot at all. the idea of breaking up with her makes your chest tighten painfully. but things have gotten tougher lately, the rules stricter, your companyâs expectations weighing heavily on you. being with minji would only make things harder down the line, for her and for you. youâd never want to hold her backânot her, not the person you love more than anything.
âi think itâs best for us,â you repeat, though your voice lacks conviction.
minjiâs brows knit together, her eyes searching your face. âwhy do you get to decide this?â she argues, her voice rising slightly. âletâs just⌠talk it out. we can work through this, canât we? we always work it out.â
youâve only been together a few months, but theyâve been some of the best months of your lifeâof her life too, you know that. both of you are still figuring things out, still finding yourselves in the midst of all this chaos. hell, neither of you are legal adults yet, both being sixteen and clueless. but itâs minji who made you realize youâd never feel this way for anyone else, certainly not a man. she was the first girl who gave you butterflies just by smiling at you, the first whose hand you held with a racing heart, the first whose cheek you kissed, feeling your face flush with warmth.
and thereâs that one memory, a core memory that replays in your mind like a favorite songâyou can still feel her hands gently holding your face, the way her eyes sparkled with something pure, something deep, right before she leaned in and kissed you. your first kiss, your first everything. sheâs your first love, and the thought of letting that go feels like tearing out a piece of yourself.Â
tearing yourself away from her would be better for her anyway, thatâs what your company insisted anyway.
âplease,â minji whispers, and thereâs a crack in her voice that breaks you all over again. âdonât do this.â
you swallow hard, your resolve wavering. your chest feels heavy, like youâre carrying a weight you canât bear. but you press your lips together, fighting the urge to reach out and pull her into your arms, where she belongs.
âitâs⌠itâs better this way,â you say, even as everything inside you screams the opposite.
minji shakes her head slowly, a tear slipping down her cheek. âitâs not,â she insists, voice breaking. âitâs not better⌠not for me.â
and you know, deep down, itâs not better for you either.
âminji,â you begin, voice faltering.Â
âdonât minji me,â she snaps, eyes fierce and determined. âweâre not breaking up.â
âwe have to, donât you get it?â your voice breaks, tears welling up as you stand in front of the entrance to her dorm, the one she always complained about, the one youâve come to know so well. âhow will we ever debut if we have these worries and burdens in the back of our minds?â
minji pauses, her features softening, but her gaze remains fixed on you. âyou think iâm a burden?â
ân-no! no, minji, no.â you shake your head quickly, regretting your words the second they leave your mouth. âitâs not like that⌠my companyâs been on my back, pushing me harder, and they might move me to another one. god, i feel like a pawn in chess or something. look, itâs just⌠itâs best we focus on our own paths right now.â
minjiâs eyes search yours, hurt etched across her face. âweâve always made time for each other before. whatâs different this time? y/n, i love you.â
âweâre sixteen, minji,â you say, your voice barely above a whisper. âweâre young and⌠and stupid, and nothing in the future is promised.â
âwell, i want you in mine. i would do anything to make sure youâre there in mine, anything.â she insists, her voice trembling, âeven if you debut and i donât, or the other way aroundâi want you there. i want you there always.â she steps closer, her hands coming up to rest on your shoulders, her touch warm and steady, even as your own resolve begins to crumble.Â
her words make your neck tense, your lip quiver. you feel the tears spill over, hot against your skin. minji moves one hand to your cheek, her thumb brushing away the tears, her gaze softening as she whispers, âi love you. i love you when iâm exhausted from practice, i love you when iâm stressed over exams, i love you when we only have a few minutes together⌠i love you every moment of every day. i canât⌠i canât let you go.â
you shake your head, your breath coming out in short, uneven gasps as you pull away from her touch. minjiâs brows knit together, her eyes filled with concern as she watches you crumble, sees you bury your face in your hands. you take a shaky breath, wiping your tears away with the back of your hand.
âiâm sorry, minji,â you choke out, your voice heavy with emotion. âi love you, but we canât⌠we canât do this. i donât want to talk about it anymore. you donât need me in your life. iââ your breath hitches, your heart clenching painfully in your chest. you wonder if itâs worth it, if sacrificing what you have with her is really the way to achieve your dreams. âi donât need you in mine right now,â you finish, your voice cracking, every word cutting through you. âwe should focus on our own things.â
minji stares at you, her eyes searching yours, her heart breaking, the words slowly sinking in. a tear slips down her cheek, and she doesnât bother to wipe it away.
you take a step back, your vision blurred with tears. âiâm sorry, minji⌠iâm doing this for usâfor you.â
you turn away, your chest tight, and as you walk away, the sound of minjiâs quiet sobs echoes in your ears, each one tearing at your heart a little more. but you donât look back. you canât. not now, not when every step away from her feels like losing a part of yourself.
â
itâs been a year. one long, agonizing year since you last spoke to minji. a year spent fighting the urge to look through the hidden folder on your phone filled with photos of the two of you, each image a reminder of what you lost. youâve stopped crying every nightâfirst every week, then every month. but the guilt, the sorrow of losing her, the love of your life, still clings to you like a shadow.
youâve thrown yourself into training, harder than ever. it stopped being about debuting a long time ago; now itâs just a distraction, a way to drown out the ache that never seems to fade. but was it worth it, listening to the company, if the will to keep going feels like itâs slipping through your fingers?
then, one day, they pull you aside. your company tells you youâre being relocated, moved to another company thatâs shown interest in you, in your potential. they say you might debut sooner. it sounds like everything you should want, so you agree, packing your bags and letting them shuttle you off to the new dorms, even if a part of you feels numb, disconnected.
when you arrive at the new building, something about it feels familiar. the hallway, the scent in the air, the way the light filters through the windowsâit all makes your heart thud in your chest, unease curling in your stomach. memories you tried so hard to bury start to bubble up.
you shake your head, trying to clear your thoughts, and push open the door to your new room. itâs⌠not much. the walls look a little worn, thereâs a fine layer of dust on the shelves, and itâs smallâcramped, really. not surprising. youâre still a trainee, after all. you didnât expect luxury.
inside, two girls turn to look at you, surprised by your sudden entrance. one is shorter, with wavy hair and a bright, warm smile, the other taller and younger-looking, with a curious expression. you manage a small, polite smile in return.Â
âhi, they sent me to sourceââ
âyou must be y/n?â the girl with wavy hair interrupts, tilting her head slightly, studying you with interest as you shut the door behind you. âiâm danielle, nice to meet you.â her voice is friendly, her eyes sparkling with curiosity.
âhi, nice to meet you too.â you reply, noticing the slight arch of her brows. your korean is decent, but the accent still lingers, evident enough to catch attention.Â
âiâm hyein,â the younger girl chimes in, a grin spreading across her face. âare you from here?â
ân-no, iâm not,â you stammer, a little caught off guard. âyou could tell from my accent, huh? iâm still working on my korean. iâm fluent in english though.â
hyein glances at danielle, then back to you. she points at danielle and adds, âdanielle speaks english too.â
âyou do?â you ask, turning to danielle. she nods.
âyeah,â danielle says, switching to english with an easy smile. âitâs nice to have another english speaker around. two of the other trainees speak it pretty well too.â her accent is thick, australian, and itâs like a tiny piece of familiarity amidst all the change.
a small relief floods through you, just enough to calm the nerves that have been knotting your stomach all day. âoh, thatâs⌠thatâs good to know,â you say, a faint smile tugging at your lips.
âyeah,â danielle agrees, and for the first time since you arrived, you feel like maybe, just maybe, this new start wonât be as hard as you thought.
they both help you settle in, and soon you find yourself sharing a bed with hyein. itâs cramped, barely enough space for two, but itâs better than nothing. youâre grateful for their kindness. both of them seem so genuinely sweet, and you quickly learn that danielle is only a year younger than you, while hyein is much younger. sheâs practically a child, literally a child, you feel a protective instinct kick in immediately. thereâs a sincerity in her wide-eyed curiosity, an innocence that makes you want to look out for her, to make sure nothing ever limits her spirit.
danielle, on the other hand, is a ball of sunshineâradiating warmth and energy that makes the room feel brighter. sheâs constantly smiling, her laughter infectious, and even though thereâs a hint of tiredness in the way she moves, a slight slump to her shoulders, sheâs still so full of life. she talks a lot, her voice light and cheerful as she shoots question after question while getting to know you. itâs hard not to be eased by her easygoing charm.Â
as the night wears on, they do their best to lift your spirits, sensing the nerves that still linger just beneath the surface. danielle makes a few silly jokes that make you smile despite yourself, and hyein tries to comfort you with small gesturesâa reassuring pat on the arm, a soft-spoken âitâs okay, youâll get used to it. they mustâve relocated you for a reason!â they can tell youâve been thrown into this new situation without much warning, and theyâre doing their best to make you feel welcome.Â
you feel a strange mixture of fear and hopeâthis whole thing is still so new, so uncertain. itâs unsettling to be here, to have been displaced so suddenly, but at least your new roommates are wonderful. theyâre different from the people at your old company, where the atmosphere had been tense, filled with a kind of hostility that always made you feel on edge. here, thereâs warmth, a sense of camaraderie you havenât felt in a long time.
you wonder if this company will be any different. you hope it doesnât end up ripping you apart like the last one, but for now, you find comfort in the gentle smiles and kind words of danielle and hyein. they make this unfamiliar place feel a little less lonely, a little less scary, and for tonight, thatâs enough.
â
danielle shakes you and hyein awake at the crack of dawn, urging you both to get ready for training. itâs a normal routine for them, but for you, itâs the start of something new. you rush through your morning routineâskincare, a light layer of makeup, and clothes you hope are suitable for dancing. you quickly follow the two out, trailing behind as they lead you down a path toward another building, one that you assume is where all the training happens.
inside, they guide you through the hallways until you reach a room. danielle opens the door, and youâre greeted by an empty dance studio. hyein lights up at the sight, a wide grin spreading across her face. âwe have some time to warm up before the other three get here,â she says, already jogging inside.
danielle steps in next, and you follow, trying to push down the nerves fluttering in your stomach. you all sit on the floor, stretching your legs, trying to loosen up and prepare for what you know will be hours of hard work. you focus on improving your flexibility, feeling the slight burn in your muscles as you push yourself further. ten minutes pass, and just as you start to feel a little more at ease, thereâs a knock at the door.
the three of you turn your heads in unison, watching as the door creaks open and a girl shuffles in, rubbing her eyes like she just woke up. behind her, two more girls enterâthe first is a shorter girl who yawns deeply with each step she takes, but the second girl⌠your heart stops dead in your chest.
kim minji.
kim fucking minji.
she catches your gaze, and both of you freeze. time seems to halt, your eyes locking onto each other in shock. minji looks just as stunned as you feel, her expression mirroring the disbelief you know is written all over your face. you canât breathe, canât thinkâyour mind is spinning, and your heart feels like itâs dropped to your stomach.
before you can fully process whatâs happening, a voice from the other side of the room snaps you back to reality. âyouâre the new girl? nice to meet you! iâm hanni,â the shorter girl says, approaching with a friendly smile.
you force yourself to tear your eyes away from minji, swallowing hard before managing a polite smile in return. ânice to meet you, iâm y/n.â
minji, on the other hand, feels like sheâs caught in a dreamâor maybe a nightmare. youâre standing right there, in front of her, looking just as beautiful as you did the last time she saw you, minus the tears streaming down your face. she thought she had done pretty well moving on, pushing you aside so far in her mind so that she only thinks of you when sheâs not bombarded with coursework or trainingâso rarely. she canât move, canât speak, not until danielle calls her over, breaking her from her trance. she takes a shaky breath and forces herself to join the group, her mind still reeling.
the room feels charged with tension, both of you stealing glances when you think the other isnât looking, neither daring to say a word. itâs a strange, painful coincidence, running into each other like this. itâs almost as if cupid is playing a cruel joke, aiming to tear your heart to pieces rather than make it flutter.
and the worst part is, you just have to push on with practice like thereâs no history between you two. like you donât have memories stored up in your mind of her laugh, the way her hand fit in yours, or the way she looked at you like you were the only person in the world. both of you are still so young, but you know better than to let your feelings get in the wayânot when debuting is on the line.
you take a deep breath, trying to steady your nerves as you introduce yourself to everyone again, making sure to keep your eyes anywhere but on minji. your voice is calm, your smile practiced, and you do your best to pretend that she isnât standing just a few feet away, close enough for you to hear her breath hitch, close enough that you can almost feel the weight of her stare.Â
the room is filled with conversation as the girls introduce themselves back, one by one. you nod, exchange pleasantries, but every word feels heavy, like youâre walking on a tightrope above a pit of old memories and unspoken feelings. you focus on the faces in front of you, the ones you havenât seen before, trying to absorb their names and voices â hanni, haerin, danielle, hyein, and⌠â anything to distract from the familiar face you know too well.
then, practice begins, and you force yourself to concentrate on learning the choreography, to commit every move to memory. the beats of the music fill the room, and you step in time, trying to mirror danielle and hanniâs movements. you stretch your arms, pivot your feet, focus on your control, and move across the floor, pretending that your ex-love-of-your-life isnât right there, just a few steps away.Â
you try not to notice minjiâs presence, the way her hair falls across her face when she turns, or the way she bites her lip when sheâs trying to focus. you do everything you can to ignore the quickening of your heart whenever you hear her voice, sharp and clear, giving feedback to the others. you push down the memories that threaten to surface, the images of stolen kisses and whispered secrets, forcing yourself to focus on the rhythm, the steps, and the music.
but itâs hard to pretend when every glance feels loaded, every second that passes feels like an eternity. you know youâre here for a reason, to work hard, to debut, to make something of yourself, and you canât let old feelings get in the way of thatânot now, not ever. still, as you dance, you feel a pang of something deep in your chest, a longing that no amount of practice can seem to shake. not this time.
â
another year goes by, a year of slowly building bonds with the other girls and learning how to navigate around minjiâs presence. the two of you have grown, mature enough to look each other in the eye, exchange a few words when necessary, but never more than that. neither of you dare to willingly interact beyond what's required.
an unspoken agreement hangs between you both: act alright in front of the others, get along enough to avoid raising questions, and move on. itâs all you can do. three hundred and sixty-five days pass, and in that time, you begin to notice more about minji, the side of her that never wavered, the side thatâs still so caring towards everyone around her.Â
you see her helping hanni with her korean, keeping hyein motivated with endless praises, complimenting danielle on her improvements, and reassuring haerin when worries weigh on her. minjiâs always been the caring type, that never changed. neither did her pretty, gummy smile, her soft eyes, the way her eyebrows furrow in concentrationâeverything about her that once made your heart skip a beat still lingers, still draws your attention.
it stings, realizing your feelings havenât faded. theyâre still there, buried beneath the surface, and you know theyâll remain, how could they not? itâs kim minji youâre dealing with. if you debut together, those feelings will continue to simmer, but you push them down, suppress them, because youâre the one who created the distance between you two. the tension is your fault, and you have to deal with your mistakes.
minji tries not to break, not when she sees you laughing and being carefree with the others, yet stiff and distant around her. she knows she should be angry, and she is, but not enough to hate you. youâre both just young, chasing your dreams, and if that means leaving her behind, minji will accept it. as long as youâre happy, she can let go, because no matter what, sheâll always care about you, always love you in her own quiet way.
her feelings havenât faded either, and sometimes it showsâwhen youâre with the others, bringing laughter and light into the room, she remembers the way you once brought that same warmth into her life. but staying stuck in the past wonât help her, and minji knows that. she allows herself a few glances, lets her gaze linger on you when she thinks no oneâs looking, before pulling herself back to reality.
thereâs always that unspoken tension in the air, the weight of words never said, the feelings both of you try so hard to bury. but somehow, you manage to keep going. you get by, coexisting in the same space, neither of you willing to confront the past, but not quite able to forget it either.
â
two days until debut, and the excitement is electric.
all six of you are buzzing, nerves mixed with joy. after years of grinding, sleepless nights, and moments where the dream seemed too far, you're almost thereâright on the cusp of what you've always wanted. the final practice for "attention" wraps up, and you gather in a circle, sharing words of encouragement. the rehearsal went better than any of you could have hoped for, and the anticipation of seeing the music video reactions and stepping on stage for the first time is almost too much to handle.
the energy in the room shifts once practice is over, everyone easing into a more relaxed state. danielle is sprawled out on the floor, leaning against hanni, who's leaning on hyein. haerin sits by the mirror, legs crossed, lost in her thoughts. minji, meanwhile, stands near the mirror on the other side of the room, hands on her hips, staring at her reflection. you're in the center of the room, watching her without even realizing it, your eyes tracing the curve of her back before you finally gather the nerve to approach her.
you tap her shoulder twice, and she turns around, surprise flickering across her face. "y/n?" she says softly.
"hey..." you respond, suddenly shy, your eyes flickering from her chin to her collarbone, avoiding direct eye contact. "can we talk?"
minji hesitates, glancing around the room before nodding. "alright."
you lead her out of the practice room, both of you offering quick excuses as you slip away. the walk down the hallway is quiet, the silence heavy between you. minji waits for you to say something, but you can't seem to find the words until you reach a small window in front of a couch and potted plant. the light streaming in casts a soft glow over the space, and you take a deep breath.
âweâre debuting soon,â you say, the words awkward as they leave your mouth.
âyeah,â she breathes, her gaze following yours out the window.
âitâs been myâ our dream for so long,â you continue, voice quiet. âi know things have been... rough between us. and thatâs on me. i wanted to apologize.â
you take a deep breath, forcing yourself to meet her eyes, even if just for a moment. âfrom here on out, i want to mend things between us.â
minjiâs eyes widen, and you can see the surprise written all over her face. you can tell sheâs about to say something, but you press on before she can interrupt.
âiâm not asking for us to go back to how things were, i know thatâs wrong of me to ask, considering i⌠yeah.â you clarify, gulping and trying to supress a faint blush. âbut i want us to be members, to get along. eventually, maybe even friends again. i just want to fix thingsâat least a little. i know our past was complicated, but if weâre going to debut together, i want there to be less tension. more of... a broken bridge than no bridge at all, you know?â
your words hang in the air, and minji is silent for a few moments, processing. she looks at you with an expression you canât quite place, and for a moment, you wonder if youâve said too much. then she speaks, her voice quiet, almost fragile.
âokay,â she says, the word barely escaping her throat. âi want that too.â
relief washes over you, and you let out a breath you didnât realize you were holding. a small smile tugs at your lips. âiâm glad. i hope we can talk more, catch up... maybe do something normal again.â
âsomething normal,â minji echoes, a hint of uncertainty in her voice, but she smiles. itâs a soft, genuine smile, one that makes your heart clench a little.
the two of you stand there, the silence between you now comfortable, not heavy like before. for the first time in what feels like forever, youâre seeing herâreally seeing her. minjiâs changed. sheâs more mature, more thoughtful in her actions, her words. thereâs a quiet authority about her now, especially as the eldest. the others look up to her, and honestly, so do you. hell, youâve always looked up to her. sheâs become even more beautiful, the soft evening light highlighting her features, giving her this glow that makes it hard to look at her for too long without feeling something stir inside you.
minji, on the other hand, is taking you in as well, a quiet smile on her lips as she does. thereâs something almost poetic about this momentâyou two, standing here together, about to debut in the same group. just years ago you two had met by the river, built a friendship and more, then less. regardless of what would have happened to the two of you, youâd end up together again.
to think that there was a whole time where you were both in different buildings, different spaces, hoping the other would make it. now, youâre side by side, part of the same dream, somehow together again. both of you made it.
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after your first debut stage, adrenaline courses through your veins as the six of you rush backstage, breathless and buzzing. the girls are squealing, jumping around, and you canât help but grin at them. then, your eyes meet minjiâs across the room. her smile is genuine, proud, and it softens something inside you. you mirror her expression, holding her gaze longer than you should, until danielle tackles you with a hug so tight you feel like your ribs might cave in.
âthat was amazing!â danielle beams, pulling back just enough to see your face, her eyes sparkling. âi canât believe we just did that.â
âi know, right?â you respond in english, your body finally beginning to relax. âiâm so... overwhelmed, but in the best way.â
âso many people were cheering for you.â danielle pokes your cheek playfully, a mischievous smirk tugging at her lips. âbet it was that wink you pulled off during your ending fairy.â
your face flushes instantly, and you push her away with a groan. âstop! i was nervous! i didnât know what else to doâŚâ
danielleâs laughter is contagious, and soon hanni joins in, her eyes twinkling with amusement. âsmooth wink, miss l/n,â she teases. âyou might end up with a lot of fangirls, more than guys i bet.â
you whine, trying to push them both away, before finding refuge by haerin, whoâs spaced out in her own world. she blinks at you, a bit startled as you point over to danielle, hanni, and now hyein, whoâs joined in, the trio replaying your ending fairy. they giggle like kids, mocking the way you winked and bit the inside of your lip. haerin just sighs in understanding, standing beside you like a silent bodyguard.
minji watches the whole scene unfold from a distance, a small smile tugging at her lips. thereâs a warmth in her chest, seeing everyone so carefree and happy after all the hard work. sheâs beyond glad that you all made it, that the dream finally came true.
(even if youâre not hers anymore, youâre happy, and thatâs more than enough for her. minji is grateful just to know that.)
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the next month flies by in a blur. your ep is out, thereâs promotions, interviews, a few meetings, and just so much. despite the whirlwind, every feeling from every moment sticks with you, vivid and sharp.
each track from your ep gains massive popularity, spreading across the globe with people praising the group left and right. your debut isnât just a debutâitâs the debut of the year, and suddenly, everyoneâs talking about you. youâve become the new âitâ group, with people especially stunned by hyeinâs talent at such a young age. the attention is surreal, but what shocks you the most is the way people are talking about you. everywhere you look, there are comments about your visuals, your voice, and the shy praise makes your cheeks burn.
(of course, hanni and danielle never miss the chance to tease you about your ending fairies blowing up online. each one garners thousands of views, and despite the attention, you cringe at every single one.)
but while youâre in the spotlight, so is minji. social media canât get enough of her, with countless posts gushing over her visuals. people are stunned by how effortlessly beautiful she is, how her voice carries a certain warmth and depth. all the things youâve always admired about her are now being praised by the world. her popularity is skyrocketing, and itâs no surprise to you. minji has always been stunning, both inside and out, and now everyone else is finally seeing what youâve known all along.
itâs bittersweet; all the gushing over minji had been your little thing before you messed it all up.
â
minji sits with the rest of the girls in the dorm complex, a new one near hybe. itâs nicer, not as cramped as the old place, and even though she still shares a bed with haerin, she loves it.Â
(itâs a queen sized bed instead of a full size, sheâs not complaining at all.)
sheâs grateful for everything, especially the upgrade from where they used to live. theyâre all gathered for dinner, a celebratory meal after their debut, but as the minutes tick by, minji notices something off: youâre not there.
the rest of the girls donât seem fazed, but minji is. sheâs the oldest, the most observant, and it feels strange that a whole member is missing. she waits a few more minutes, but you still havenât shown up.
âhave any of you seen y/n?â minji asks, her voice calm but curious. âi donât want us to eat without her. weâre a teamâit doesnât feel right.â
hanni tilts her head, looking a bit confused. âshe didnât tell you?â
âtell me what?â minjiâs brows furrow slightly.
haerin chimes in. âshe went out.â
âwhat?â minji stands up from the table, the unease settling in her stomach.Â
âi told her to stay,â haerin continues, âbut she kept saying âitâs okayâ and that sheâd be back in an hour or something. she seemed pretty eager to get out.â
danielle shrugs, adding casually, âyeah, she told all of us. she didnât mention it to you?â
minji shakes her head, feeling a small twist in her chest. âno, she didnât.â the thought of you being out alone, especially during a meal this important, doesnât sit right with her. youâd left your wallet in haerinâs bagâminji remembers seeing it out of the corner of her eye, a little gray wallet you always carried. she hadnât thought much of it, assuming youâd all eat together like usual.
âshe said sheâs not hungry,â hyein chimes in. âshe said she snacked too much earlier. donât worry, sheâll be back.â
minji hesitates, still standing while the others pick up their bowls and begin eating. she knows you too wellâyouâre the type to lie if it meant sparing someone from worrying about you. and if you were really hungry but said otherwise, it just made her feel worse.
she sits back down but canât shake the unease gnawing at her. sheâs never eaten this fast before, practically gulping down the side dishes and wrapping lettuce around the grilled meat without much thought. she finishes her meal quickly, but it feels empty, and the food doesnât settle well in her stomach.
after a few bites, she stands again, slipping on a light sweater. âi donât want y/n to miss out on this food. itâs really good,â she says, her voice light, but her eyes are serious. âiâm going to go look for her, iâll be back soon.â
before anyone can respond, sheâs out the door. she walks quickly, her steps filled with purpose. she knows where youâll be, and itâs not long before sheâs headed to the place sheâs almost certain youâve gone to.
itâs a five-minute walk to the nearest bus stop, a three-minute wait, and a ten-minute bus ride to the area sheâs thinking of. the city blurs by as she stares out the window, her thoughts racing. another few minutes pass as she speedwalks from the bus stop, her legs carrying her to the familiar bench by the river, the one with the view of the bridge that glows softly in the evening light.
she remembers the first time she met you here, how you both talked for hours, the breeze gently blowing through the trees. itâs quiet now, the water rippling softly under the dimming sky, and there you are, sitting alone on the bench, looking out at the water.
(âhi, is anyone sitting here?â minji asks, her voice lighter than it is now.Â
sheâs fifteen, fresh from a rare break in her training. she holds a small bag of honey chips in one hand and convenience store gimbap in the otherânowhere near as good as her momâs, but enough to fill her up. her usual bench is taken, though, and she spots you sitting there. no big deal, she thinks, sheâll just sit on the other side.
you glance up, still chewing, and your eyes widen at the sight of her. âo-oh, no! here, sitting, um, no one. you canâuhââ you fumble for the words, trying to string them together. âalone, i am. with me, no one.â
minji smiles at you, easily picking up on your accent, the way you stumble through the grammar. a foreigner, she thinks. she gives you a thumbs up and takes a seat next to you, setting her bag of chips between the two of you.
you blink at her, caught off guard by how effortlessly she seems to glow. before you can say anything, she catches you staring, and offers you a chip. âwant one?â she asks, holding the bag out.
âitâs okay, food, i have.â you respond, shaking your head, but she giggles softly.
âi have food,â minji gently corrects you, repeating the sentence with a small smile.
you mumble an embarrassed, âoh,â before adding shyly, âyeah, i have food.â
âyour korean is really good,â minji compliments you, her tone warm. âitâs just your grammar and formality. but itâs not a big deal if weâre the same age. how old are you?â
you pause, taking a second to process her words, then respond, âfifteen. iâm fifteen.â
minjiâs face lights up, her eyes crinkling with her bright smile, and you find yourself mirroring her expression. âme too!â
âreally?â you say in english, then quickly switch back, clearing your throat. âreally?â
minji nods, understanding your little slip, and switches to english herself. âyou speak english?â
your eyes widen slightly in relief. âyou speak english too?â
âi learned some here in korea,â she explains, her voice soothing and calm. âi also studied in canada for a while.â
âno way! iâm from canada.âÂ
âreally?â minjiâs eyes sparkle with interest.
âyeah,â you grin, glancing out at the bridge in front of you, the soft glow of the evening lights reflecting off the water. âiâd kill for some timbits right now⌠i wish korea had them.â
âi get that, they were my favorites when i studied there. cheap and good.â minji chuckles softly before asking, âwhy are you in korea? are you studying abroad?â
your smile falters for a second, and you hesitate before answering. âwell, i want to be an idol. itâs⌠kind of stupid. i came here alone after making it through the audition and getting scouted, but i barely know the language. i just really want to be an idolâitâs my dream.â
âitâs not stupid at all.â minji leans in a little closer, her eyes locking on yours, the sincerity in her gaze catching you off guard. âi want to be one too. iâm a trainee.â
âreally?â your surprise is evident in your voice. âthat makes two of us.â
âi guess it does,â minji agrees, holding the bag of chips out to you again. âiâm minji, kim minji.â
âthatâs a nice name,â you say, accepting the chip this time, plopping it into your mouth. âiâm y/n, l/n y/n.â
minji grins, her eyes soft as she says, âeven nicer name.â the compliment catches you off guard, and you canât help but giggle at her words.)
you notice someone sit down next to you, catching minjiâs presence in your peripheral. her voice, now deeper and more grounded than that first time you met her, cuts through the silence.
âi hope this seat isnât taken.â
your muscles relax as you scoot over to make room for her. âitâs not.â you keep your eyes on her as she settles in beside you, looking out at the familiar view. the glasses perched on her nose somehow make her even more striking, drawing out the natural allure sheâs always had. you canât help but let your gaze linger on her profile, tracing the soft lines of her face.Â
before you lose yourself entirely, she breaks the silence. âyou werenât at dinner.â
âi wasnât hungry.â you lie easily, turning back to the bridge.
minji gives you a side glance, clearly unconvinced. âright.â
âi just needed some space.â the truth slips out this time, your voice quieter. you can feel her gaze shift, now fixed on you. âhow did you know iâd be here?â you ask, still staring ahead, avoiding her eyes.
âsome things donât change, y/n.â she says simply, leaning back into the bench. âi had a hunch.â
you stay quiet, the wind brushing past you both. the bench holds too much history for either of you to ignore. the same spot, years later.
(âyouâre here again.â it had only been a week since your first meeting. minji had found you on the bench at nine at night, munching on fruit snacks. âthinking of timbits?â
you laughed, patting the seat next to you. âmaybe.â
minji smiled as she sat down, and you handed her a piece of dried fruit without a second thought. âwas it a coincidence that we ran into each other again?â she asked, sounding curious.
âmaybe iâm just lucky,â you said playfully, âlucky to have run into you again.â
âlucky to run into me?â she raised an eyebrow.
âyouâre the only person i can talk to like this,â you admitted. âi was hoping iâd see you again, kim minji.â
âi was kind of hoping the same, l/n y/n.â
âis that so?â you grinned, scooting closer.Â
âmaybe.â
the two of you spent the next hour talking, shoulders nearly touching, laughter filling the space between you. the fruit snacks were long gone, but you stayed, sharing stories about trainee life and the little struggles of the week. it felt easy, natural, like youâd known each other for years.
when your phone buzzed with a notification, your face fell, and minjiâs mirrored yours.
âyou have to go?â her voice held a tinge of disappointment.
âyeah,â you sighed, âbut letâs meet again, okay? can i get your kakao?â
âof course!â minji had jumped at the chance, quickly giving you her contact. âcan we meet again next week? iâm happy iâve made a friend like you.â
âme too,â you had said softly, âyouâre like a savior. my korean is so badâŚâ
âiâll help you with that,â sheâd laughed, âbut our time is limited.â
you hugged her then, surprising her with the closeness. she caught the faint scent of lavender on you and hesitated for only a moment before hugging you back tightly. you mumbled a quiet âthanks,â your lips brushing against her hair near her ear, making her shiver slightly.
âfor what?â she had asked, her voice barely above a whisper.
âdoesnât matter.â)
you feel minji looking at you now, and in the corner of your eye, you see her scoot a little closer, her shoulder brushing against yours. itâs subtle, but the warmth from years ago flickers to life again in your chest.
âyour korean is really good now,â she says after a pause, her voice soft. âespecially since the first time we met.â
âiâd hope so, after three years.â you smile to yourself, trying to lighten the moment.
minji doesnât laugh, though. instead, she turns to face you, her expression unreadable. âi was worried, you know?â she says quietly. âwhy did you tell everyone but me that you were leaving?â
you turn to meet her gaze, lips parting as you exhale softly. her eyes are as warm and familiar as ever. âi knew youâd make me go back inside.â
âi wouldnât.â
âyes, you would.â
âiâd just go outside with you, y/n.â
her words settle between you, and you feel the weight of them in your chest. sheâs always been too kind, too caring, even more now than when you first met. sheâs still minji, but somehow better, different in ways that make you feel like youâre stuck in place, the same selfish version of yourself.
âoh.â
thereâs no warning when your eyes start to sting, a subtle burn building until you feel the tears pooling. you turn away quickly, hoping to hide it before it gets worse.
âdo you hate me?â your voice comes out barely above a whisper, but shaky enough to betray you. âi wouldnât blame you.â
minjiâs brows furrow. âdo i what?â
âhate me.âÂ
she pauses, studying you closely. her eyes trace the way your hands fidget restlessly in your lapâsomething sheâs seen you do countless times before. youâve always done it when you were anxious, whether it was before a monthly evaluation, or when you had something on your mind that you wouldnât share with her. she notices how your teeth press into your lower lip, your foot bouncing slightly, a nervous habit sheâs memorized over the years.
ây/n,â she says softly, scooting even closer until her side presses into yours. her arm wraps around your shoulders, gently pulling you into her. she holds you like she always has, her thumb brushing lightly over your arm in slow, comforting strokes. âi could never hate you.â
âi dumped you without a word,â you mutter bitterly, the words heavy on your tongue. âand then i got moved to your company, and you had to act like you were fine with me being there.â
minji stays quiet, letting you continue.
âyou donât have to pretend. i know i made it hard for you.â
âiâm not pretending,â she says, turning to look at you again. âyou debuted, y/n, and thatâs all i ever wanted for you. itâs your dream. you gave up so much to make it happen.â her voice softens even more, her gaze steady on you. âall i have is admiration for you. even if weâre⌠not together anymore, all iâve ever wanted was for you to be happy.â
her words only make the tears spill faster, flowing freely down your cheeks as you tremble beside her. the warmth of her touch is familiar, and it brings back memories of when you were sixteen, when sheâd comfort you in moments just like this, when everything felt overwhelming.
âminji, iâm sorry,â you manage to choke out, your voice cracking with the weight of it all.
âitâs okay,â she whispers, her hand still rubbing soothing circles into your shoulder.
you hate how vulnerable you feel, especially in front of her. youâve held it together for so long, keeping your emotions locked down since the breakup, since the whirlwind of your debut. but now, sitting here next to her, it feels impossible to keep pretending. the tears keep coming, and you sniffle quietly, wiping at your cheeks with the back of your hand.
even though her arm is still around you, and part of you craves that comfort, you canât help but feel like you donât deserve it. the guilt presses down on you, and you gently take her hand, holding it for a brief moment to savor the warmth before carefully removing her arm from around your shoulders. you donât meet her gaze as you do it, but minji seems to understand, not saying a word.
âyou havenât eaten yet, have you?â she asks after a beat, her voice still soft but with a hint of concern.
âiâm not that hungry,â you reply, forcing yourself to focus on anything but the heaviness in your chest.
ânot even for gummy snacks?â she teases, tilting her head slightly as she watches you.
her playful tone pulls a small smile from your lips. âmaybe for thoseâŚâ
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the next few months go quite normally, though it took you a bit to fully open up to minji.
you're timid and reserved, but thereâs a new warmth in the way you interact with minji. the tension that kept you two apart starts to fade during the activities that come with your debut. livestreams, music video shoots, and photoshoots become regular parts of your routine, each one pulling you and minji closer.
during livestreams, you and minji share laughter, trading playful jabs as you engage with the fans. the cameras capture genuine smiles that hint at the friendship creeping up to the surface. music video filming offers another chance for you two to joke around, using humor to ease the nerves that come with performing in front of the crew.Â
you find comfort in those moments, the way your shoulders brush together as you wait. a cozy blanket drapes over the two of you, forcing you into close proximity. in those quiet moments, laughter spills from your lips, light and infectious, often unnoticed by the cameras. the bond between you deepens as you exchange jokes, the sound of your shared amusement weaving a thread of connection that feels both familiar and new.
photoshoots also lead to accidental closeness. whether itâs posing back-to-back or sharing a propâor something much more heart-racing like minji putting her arm around you or your head ending up on her shoulderâyou two frequently end up right next to each other, considering the fact that you two are the oldest of the bunch, and a popular duo. the laughter comes easily, her smile draws you in without fail, and soon youâre both cracking a bunch more jokes to distract from the awkwardness of the camera lenses. there was a stiffness in the curtain that separated you both, and as soon as it begins to fall the lingering chemistry starts to peek through again.
as time passes, the bond you share with minji deepens as well as with the other members. the lingering feelings you both carry remain tucked away, hidden in the trenches of your hearts and overshadowed by the growing friendship. you find some type of comfort in this new ânormal.â to be completely true to yourself, youâre just grateful for the connection that remind you both of the comfort you once shared.Â
(for the most part, it stings sometimes, mostly late at night.)
dinner and practice felt natural again too, as easy as brushing your teeth or opening the blinds in the morning. being around minji no longer held that awkward tension; instead, it was a comfort, familiar and warm. the only thing that lingered was your admiration for her, something small that colored your interactions.Â
(there were more nights that stung.)
at practice youâd see her greeting everyone with your favorite smile of hers, eyes crinkly and gums showing. sheâd smile at you sweetly, maybe even sweeter than how she smiles at the others (but you could be delusional) then head on over to one corner to stretch.Â
even the others would notice this, catching you while youâre stretching, hand on one foot reaching for it as you stare at minji through the mirror.
minji is sweaty, lifting her shirt a bit to wipe remnants of the rigorous choreo and giving you a peek of her abdomen. when she brings her shirt back down, your eyes go back to her face. sheâs stunning, even after all that exercise and tiring movement. her hair sticks to her a bit, and she just looks soâ
hanni pushes you over subtly, making you fall over and let out a weird noise that only she catches. you give her a glare and get up.
âyouâre so annoying.â
âsomeoneâs daydreaming a lot these days.â hanniâs right, youâve been doing that far too often.
âjust got a lot on my mind.â
âyouâre always staring at minji.â hanni snickers, looking over at the oldest member. âbunnies have even caught you in the youtube videos.â
âthey have?â
hanni laughs, helping you up on your feet. âpeople are calling you guys âparentzâ online.â
âw-what?â
âitâs kind of cute,â she grins, âitâs actually hilarious. dani and i were laughing at some clips last night.â
you scoff in response, nudging her with your shoulder and snickering after. minji catches the interaction from afar, eyes narrowing just barely when hanni pushes you again with a little more force, and eyes narrowing just a bit more when you push her back again and laugh.
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minji hasnât felt like herself lately, itâs been more than a week. thereâs something about you that keeps her attention, especially now that you look stunning for the comeback. in the photoshoots and music video recordings for âsuper shyâ and ânew jeans,â you radiated beauty, and minji often tried to look away, but your adorable hairstyle was impossible to resist. she found herself playing with your hair whenever hyein, danielle, or haerin joined in, but only when they distracted you. she wouldnât dare being the first to do so.
as you began shooting for the full albumânot even music video shooting or for the photobooks, just in the booth recording the actual songsâminji was pulled in like sand drawn back into the ocean. she caught sight of you just before her turn to record, attempting to sneak up and surprise you, but you surprised her instead. walking out of the studio, you wore no makeup, your hair was clipped up messily, and a snug t-shirt and sweatpants hugged your form perfectly.Â
(her eyes stayed on the curve of your torso for a little longer than sheâd like to admit.)
minji froze for a moment, taking in how unraveled you looked; she was mesmerized.
âi didnât think youâd be here early,â you said, your smile breaking her trance.Â
minji felt her stomach twist.
âwanted to surprise you,â she replied, earning a bigger smile in return. âyou sound good.â she added, biting back the urge to tell you how good you looked.
âdid i? ugh, i donât know; i think i can do better. iâll work on adjustments tomorrow.â you sighed, a familiar hint of perfectionism creeping into your voice. minji had always found it strange how you saw flaws in everything you did, despite your talents. youâve always been like that even when you were fifteen, sixteen, and during the time you two were trainees together. âi bet youâll do lovely, though.â you add, shaking the topic of you off.
âyou think too highly of me,â minji chuckled, shaking her head. âmy range is kind of iffy.â
âyour voice suits anything, minji. i like how deep it is. itâs nice to the ears, really soothing.â you shrugged, glancing at the cap she woreâa dark gray with pink lettering. a small smirk tugged at your lips, almost imperceptible, but minji noticed. you pinched the brim, lifting it slightly to reveal more of her face before turning it backward and letting it sit like that on her head, a few strands of hair poking out from under to cover her eyes.
âis this new?â you ask, your surprise evident. you move the hair away from her eyes and minji swears she feels her legs wobble.
âum,â minji stammered, caught off guard and blushing slightly. âyeah.â
âitâs cute,â you mumble softly. âfits you well. iâll see you later? what do you want for dinner? iâm cooking for us tonight.â
âuh, i, um. anything the members wantâask hyein.â
âokay.â you smiled again, walking past her but pausing to give her shoulder a gentle pat.Â
minji felt a rush of warmth from the brief contact, and as she stepped into the recording booth, she struggled to shake off the memory of your interaction. her mind lingered on your words and the way you looked at her, causing her to falter. the producer raised an eyebrow at her distraction, but once she shook it off, she found her rhythm, pouring her heart into the song.
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if seeing you just after recording made her lose her balance, then just seeing you in every concept for the new album had completely swept her off her feet.Â
for âcool with you,â the stylists had dressed the members similarly, all with flowy white outfits. however, each members look was different. everyone looked amazing, but the stylist seemed to pay a lot of attention to youâat least in minjiâs eyesâ because they did you great.
your makeup wasnât all that strong, just simple eyeshadow, light blush, and faint lip product. still, you looked ethereal. it seemed like you had jumped out of a fairytale movie, even the cameras for the âbehind-the-scenesâ recording had caught her staring.
minji laughs awkwardly after catching the camera in her peripheral, smiling to hide how flustered she is.
ây/n looks very pretty, doesnât she?â minji says, âeveryone does. i think the concept suits everyone well.â
the camera is still on her, she starts talking about how she feels about the shoot and the album. then minji feels someone creep up from behind, putting both hands on her shoulders and making her jump up. she turns her head slightly to meet some of your features, your gaze on the camera in front of you gives minji a good look at the side of your face.
âhi everyone!â you wave to the camera, then turn to your left, meeting minji. âhi minji.â you say softly, almost adoringlyâminji might be a little insane for thinking thereâs even a hint of adoration in your tone.
âhi y/n.âÂ
âi like how they styled you,â you admit, âdoesnât she look wonderful?â you run your fingers through the hair falling down her shoulders. âyour hair is so soft⌠ah, i love the accessories in your hair.â
minji tries her best to keep her cool, especially with the camera focused on both of you. youâre reaching out, playing with her clothes or gently tugging on strands of her hair. your fingers trace the edges of her accessories, and then, almost absentmindedly, you start to toy with her hands, admiring her nails like theyâre the most fascinating thing in the world and boasting about it to your fans. at one point, your gaze locks with hers, and minji feels herself freeze for a second. your eyes are intense, filled with a warmth she canât quite describe, something familiar and it makes her heart race. embarrassed, she laughs it off, looking away as though your compliments are nothing.
minji tries to return the favor, hoping to give you even a fraction of the feeling youâve stirred in her. her knuckles brush lightly against your jaw, sending a soft tingle up your spine as she points out your earrings to the camera. her touch is brief, but intimate enough to make you hold your breath. then, without warning, you feel her fingers gently poking into your scalp, carefully lifting a section of your hair to admire its style. you donât expect the sudden closeness, and your lips part slightly as heat rises to your cheeks.Â
she catches the change in your expression and feels a little proud, her own heart fluttering at the sight of your blush.
âi was just telling âbunniesâ about your look for today. i think itâs really beautiful.â
âdo you?â
âmhm,â she nods, âi bet youâll look wonderful during the choreography too. iâm excited to see the monitoring.â
âhaha,â you chuckle awkwardly, âthanks.â
the staff stops recording and shoots a thumbs up to you two, which lifts a weight of your shoulders.
you two donât share a word for a moment. you canât really look at her for some reason, and neither can she, but thankfully hyein joins in and starts admiring the both of you.
â
day two of shooting is simply hours of posing for the photobooth. youâre set up for group shots, then some solos.
as youâre doing your soloâs, danielle pops up from behind the camera and starts throwing compliments at you.Â
âpretty girl~â she teases, âooh la la~â
your stone-faced expression is replaced with amusement after the shoot ends. you let out the laughs youâve been holding, getting up to teasingly hold onto danielle and then push her back.Â
âyouâre so annoying,â you joke, walking away from her. âyouâre so lucky i was close to finishing the shoot, i wouldnât have been able to go on after.â
âsorry y/n-ie.â she apologizes, âi couldnât help it.â
you roll your eyes, catching the camera thatâs recording the interaction and giving it a dumbfounded look. you pout playfully before danielle jumps to your side and smiles as she hangs onto your arm, both of you giggling like idiots.
minji, whoâs watching from afar, accidentally frowns. hanni notices this, considering minji is supposed to be taking a picture of her so she can update on âphoning.â
âwhatâs with the sad face?â
âwhat?â minji focuses on hanni again instead of the scene going on behind the younger member, readjusting her hand. âitâs just my resting face.â
âyouâre not even taking the pictures properly.â
âiâ i was thinking of something.â minji shrugs, âlook here, let me snap a picture.â
but hanni doesnât look back at the camera, instead turning around to catch you and danielle giggling about something. then she looks back at minji, whoâs also looking in the same direction again, frown present.
âdid something happen with either of them?â
âno, itâs nothing.â minji sighs, âyou turned your head while i was taking the picture, letâs redoââ
âyou werenât paying attention when you took it.â
âhanniââ
âwhatâs going on?â hanni asks, brows creasing slightly. âis it y/n?â
âitâs nothing.â minji says firmly, putting the phone down now and giving up. âi think iâm going to go use the restroom.â
ânuh uh, no youâre not.â hanni grabs her wrist, squaring up with minji. âcâmon, whatâs up?â
minji pauses, words failing her as she tries to piece together how to explain whatâs been gnawing at her for weeks. how does she tell hanni that sheâs jealous, jealous of the easy way you and danielle flirt without thinking twice about it? how does she admit that youâve never really left her mind, that she still wakes up some days with her heart aching for you, despite all her efforts to push the feelings down? minji wonders how she could possibly confess that she hasnât fallen out of love with youânot even close. in fact, sheâs only fallen deeper, drawn to this new version of you that she wasnât around to witness grow.
it hurts, more than she lets on, that sheâs missed out on so much of your life. the pain of being cut off so suddenly still lingers, but at the same time, sheâs proud of the sacrifices you made to debut. and it stings even more that you debuted alongside her, the constant proximity stirring up emotions she thought she had buried. sheâs spent so many nights alone, thinking about you, about the two of you, wondering what went wrong and what could have been different.Â
hanni watches her, waiting for an answer, and minji shrugs, trying to mask the storm of emotions with something easier to swallow. Â
âi just feel like y/n and i have this⌠rift, i guess. as friends, i mean.â
âi donât see anything wrong between you two,â hanni replies, clearly unconvinced.
âi donât know⌠sheâs just so relaxed with everyone else, like with danielle. they act like theyâve known each other forever, but with me, itâs different. it feels like somethingâs changed.â
âare you jealous?â
âno! no,â minji says quickly, shaking her head, though her voice betrays a hint of uncertainty. âitâs not that. i just donât want anything rocky between us. everythingâs fine with the others, but with her⌠itâs complicated.â
hanni gives her a knowing look. âif it helps, i think she looks up to you a lot. youâre both the oldest, and i feel like thereâs a different kind of pressure on you two. maybe sheâs just intimidated by how amazing you are. she talks about you all the time when we hang out, and iâve seen her look at you from across the room more than once. i think you two need to talk or something.â
âshe looks at me?â
hanni rolls her eyes. âis that seriously the only thing you took from that? youâre impossible.â
minji blushes, a quiet laugh escaping her, but hanniâs words stick with her. âno, but seriously,â hanni continues, âweâve had some deep talks, a lot actually. sheâs mentioned being scared that sheâs not as good as you. she thinks youâre way out of her league, like you set this standard thatâs hard to meet.â
minjiâs quiet, the weight of hanniâs words sinking in. she glances over and catches your eye from across the room, both of you pausing for a split second before you smile. itâs a small, soft smile, the kind that leaves minjiâs heart racing. she quickly looks away, flustered.
âi guess iâll talk to her,â minji says, her voice softer now.
âyou should. i mean, iâm not her, but thatâs just my two centsâor won or whatever. you get what i mean.â
minji bites the inside of her lip, nodding slightly as she mulls over the thought of actually talking to you. itâs long overdue. too many things were left unsaid when you ended things, even the apology you gave her before debut didnât cover it all. but the idea of confronting it all, of putting herself in that vulnerable position again, is terrifying.
maybe after the shoots, after the performances, after the album drops, she tells herself. more time to stall, more time to watch you from a distance, more time to get lost in her own confusion.Â
â
promotions arenât done yet, but youâre close. youâve just gotten back to korea after performing at lollapalooza, a memory thatâll surely be engraved in your mind.
as fun as it was, youâre exhausted, exhausted from everything and how often you were being put near minji.Â
as soon as you get back to the dorms, exhaustion pulls you straight to your bed. you barely make it onto the mattress before you collapse, landing flat on your back. your eyes are heavy from the long day of shooting for the ânewjeansâ youtube channel, and within seconds, you drift off into sleep, your body giving in completely.
but when you wake up, youâre not in your bed anymore.
the air feels different, the scenery unfamiliar yet somehow recognizable. you blink, disoriented, as you take in the street around you. it feels like a memoryâone deeply embedded in your mind. you look down and see your pinky linked with someone elseâs, the warmth of their hand anchoring you. confused, you follow the connection, eyes tracing up their arm to their face. at first, the features are blurry, making you squint. and then it hits you, as clear as day.
itâs minji, but not the minji you know now. itâs sixteen-year-old minji.
your heart stutters in your chest. she looks exactly as she did back then, her bright smile lighting up her face. her eyes are wide and full of life, just like you remember from the night market where everything between you had changed. the place where youâd confessed to each other, turning a casual hangout into an unplanned first date.
âwhatâs wrong? you look a little pale,â minji says, tilting her head in concern, but thereâs a playful lilt to her voice.
âminji?â you manage to say, your voice wavering. âwhatâs going on? youâthisââ
ây/n, why are you acting weird?â she laughs softly, her hand sliding into yours, fingers intertwining easily. her thumb brushes lightly against your skin, a touch so familiar it makes your heart ache. âdid you skip a meal again? i told you to eat before we came out here.â
her words are like a time capsule, pulling you back to when sheâd always remind you to eat. even when she was drowning in her own trainee schedule, sheâd send texts making sure you were taking care of yourself. back then, you were just friends. or maybe more, even if you didnât want to admit it.
âiâi have to go,â you stammer, your chest tightening as panic floods your system.
âagain?â her smile fades into a frown, brows knitting in confusion as you pull your hand away from hers. âyouâre leaving again? without explaining?â
âwhat?â your voice cracks.
âyouâre always leaving me,â she says, her tone dropping. âare you ever going to stop?â
âminji,â you whisper, shutting your eyes against the guilt that washes over you. the regret is palpable, twisting in your stomach. âi didnât want to, but i had to.â
when you open your eyes again, youâre somewhere else. the market is gone, and youâre left disoriented once more, thrown into another unfamiliar scene.
youâre on a couch now, rubbing your eyes as you sit up. the air smells sweet, like pancakes. your favoriteâsundays at home, topped with fresh maple syrup. the scent guides you into the kitchen, where a girl is standing at the stove, her back turned to you. long, dark hair, pajama pants, a loose t-shirt.
she turns, and your heart nearly stops again. itâs minji.
but this time, sheâs not sixteen. sheâs the age she should be. the present minji. your minji.
âyou alright, love?â she asks, concern in her voice as she turns the stove down and sets the spatula aside. she walks over, fingers gently fixing your messy bedhead. âbad nap?â
her touch is soft, her presence warm. she cups your cheek with one hand, her thumb brushing against your skin. âyou looked a little shaken up.â
âiâm⌠no, iâm okay,â you lie, leaning into her touch for just a second. your eyes drift past her, trying to ground yourself. âare you making pancakes?â
âyeah,â she says shyly, her lips curling into a soft smile. âyou mentioned missing home, so i thought iâd surprise you.â she presses a light kiss to the tip of your nose. âthereâs a batch ready for you.â
âthank you,â you murmur, the words barely leaving your lips as a lump forms in your throat.
âanything for you, baby.â she takes your hand, leading you toward the stove where a plate sitsâtwo pancakes perfectly stacked with raspberries and syrup. itâs thoughtful. so minji.Â
you love this, you love her. you never stopped loving her, you couldnât ever do that. but instead of feeling warmth, you feel a pit growing in your stomach. somethingâs not right.
âthis isnât right,â you say, voice trembling as you put the plate down.
minji blinks, tilting her head in confusion. âwhatâs wrong? is it the pancakes?â
ânot the pancakes,â you say, stepping back, your hands shaking. âthis. none of this.â
she moves closer, concern deepening in her eyes, but you instinctively back away.
ây/n, what are you talking about?â
âthis isnât real,â you choke out, your voice breaking. âi donât deserve this. minji, i broke up with you. this never happened.â
a tear slides down your cheek, your lip quivering uncontrollably as the weight of your words sinks in. âiâm sorry, minji. iâm so, so sorry. i keep doing this to you. iâm so sorry⌠i love you so much.â
minjiâs expression mirrors the heartbreak from that dayâthe day you stood at her door, delivering the news that shattered everything between you. the pain you inflicted on her then, itâs all here now, reflected in her eyes.
before she can say anything, you turn, running toward the door, heart pounding in your chest.
âŚ
you shoot up in bed, gasping for air. it takes a few moments before you realize where you are. blinking rapidly, you rub your eyes, trying to ground yourself in reality. you grab your phone, checking the notificationsâsomething from your mom, and a random emoji from haerin in the group chat.
this is real. you're awake. it was just a dream.
it's one in the morning, and you're sitting on the edge of your bed, face buried in your hands. your eyes are shut tightly, trying to suppress the emotions that are threatening to surface. after a deep breath, you force yourself to stand, legs feeling unsteady but somehow keeping your balance. you make your way to the bathroom, turning on the light, squinting as the brightness stings your eyes. you splash cold water onto your face, hoping to snap yourself out of the lingering shock. you stare into the mirror and the reflection looking back is someone you barely recognizeâsomeone you canât stand. your breath shakes, your brows furrow, and you hastily wipe the water from your face before switching off the light and heading toward the living room.
you stop in the kitchen first. grabbing a glass from the cabinet, your fingers hesitate when you realize it's the one minji gifted you for your first birthday together in the group. the memory flashes in your mindâyou remember the shock on your face being caught on live stream, eyes wide when she handed you a clear glass with your favorite cartoon character on it. you can almost hear the laughter from that moment, but now it just feels heavy in your hands.Â
you fill the glass with water and take a sip, catching your distorted reflection in the stainless steel of the fridge. your hairâs a mess, faint lines under your eyes telling you that sleep hasnât been kind. you lean your forehead against the cool surface of the fridge, closing your eyes and sighing deeply as exhaustion sets in even deeper.
"are you okay?" a voice comes from behind, making you jump and spill a bit of water onto the floor.
itâs minjiâof course itâs minji.
"woah, hey, let me help you clean thatâ" she steps forward, concerned.
"iâm fine," you lie, shaking your head, waving her away as you kneel down to clean the small spill. "itâs just a few drops, donât worry." you place the glass on the counter and grab the nearest paper towel, crouching down to wipe the floor quickly, feeling her eyes on you the entire time.
minji watches you closely, her expression soft yet concerned, taking in your restless, frantic movements.
"are you sure youâre alright?" she asks again, voice low, gentle.
"yeah," you breathe out quietly, still not meeting her gaze.
"why are you up this late?" she presses, stepping a little closer, her presence warm but heavy with concern.
you straighten up, tossing the paper towel in the trash. "i just had a⌠a strange dream."
"nightmare?" she asks softly, tilting her head.
"something like that." you try to brush it off, but youâre too tired to put much effort into sounding convincing. minji watches as you trudge over to the couch, your body language saying more than your words. you sit heavily, sipping your water before setting the glass down on the coffee table. leaning back against the cushions, you close your eyes, trying to sink into the silence, but it doesnât bring comfort.
minji follows, sitting a few feet away, watching you, clearly wanting to understand. she can tell somethingâs off. "y/n," she says softly, her voice coaxing your eyes open, "is everything okay?"
you donât respond right away, instead turning your head slightly to look at her. thereâs something vulnerable in your eyes, a longing, a quiet ache. but you sigh, closing your eyes again, trying to swallow it all down.
"iâm sorry," you whisper after a beat.
"for what?" minji asks gently, scooting closer to you, her hand hovering over yours as if sheâs not sure whether to reach for you or not.
"everything," you mutter, voice thick with regret. "minji, iâm sorry for everything."
she shifts even closer now, her hand softly covering yours, her thumb brushing lightly against your skin. "is this aboutâŚ" she trails off, already knowing what youâre referring to.
"yeah," you say quietly, eyes still closed, voice tight. "iâm sorry. iâm so sorry." your voice breaks, and you finally open your eyes, but you canât look at her. "you didnât deserve what i did. iâm sorry i debuted with you, iâm sorry for all of it. god, minji, iâm so sorry."
"y/n," she breathes out softly, her hand gripping yours a little tighter now. "we were young. we didnât knowâ"
"i didnât want to break up with you," you blurt out, cutting her off. "my company⌠they saw my lockscreen. iâm so stupid. they made me break your heart." the words spill out, your voice raw and trembling. "you were never a burden. i never stopped loving you. seeing you now, after all this time, youâve grown into this incredible person, and i⌠i canât stop loving you. itâs killing me. i donât deserve to love you after what i did. i tried to push it down, but i canât. i hate myself for it." your breath catches in your throat, tears welling up as you force yourself to keep talking. "youâre so perfect. youâre everything i could never be."
"y/n, stop," minji pleads, her voice thick with emotion, but you pull your hand away, retreating from her touch.
"no, you donât get it," you say, shaking your head. "youâre perfect, minji. iâm being compared to you every day, and iâm nothing like you. youâre the role model, youâre everything the group needs. and iâm just⌠iâm an asshole. i tried so hard to keep things casual, to pretend i was fine, but iâm not. iâm not fine. iâm still so in love with you that it hurts." you pause, voice faltering, barely holding it together. "iâm sorry. iâm so, so sorry."
minjiâs eyes fill with tears as she listens, her heart clearly breaking for you, for everything youâve carried alone. she tries to pull you in again, to comfort you, but you push her away one last time, unable to accept the closeness.
and she doesnât push further. she just watches, her heart breaking alongside yours.
a tear slips from her eyes, sheâs looking at your trembling body and unstoppable flow of tears. minji shakes her head, opting for holding your hands instead, her fingers brushing against your knuckles.
ây/n, do you remember what i told you before?â
âwhat?â
ây/n i hated you for a good amount of time. but time made me realize that we were both just trying to reach our dreams, and if that meant you sacrificing us, then⌠i support you. i did support you. that never stopped me from loving you either.â
you stay silent and look at her through tear lined eyes.
âi tried to push down a lot, and it hurts to see that youâre hurting from doing the same thing as me. as your member, as your friend, and⌠as someone who loves you beyond measure: i donât want you to hurt anymore. itâs okay, y/n, itâs okay.â
you let her pull you in this time, her tears stain your hair and her arms wrap around you so warmly that all you can do is succumb to the tenderness. you sob into her shoulder, muttering at least three more âiâm sorryâsâ into her.
ây/n, what i said before still goes. âi love you. i love you when iâm exhausted from practice, i love you when iâm stressed over exams, i love you when we only have a few minutes together⌠i love you every moment of every day.â i never stopped loving you ever.âÂ
the memory echoes in your head, replaying the two times minji said itâboth sincere, both heart-wrenching. you feel a little less terrible when her hands begin rubbing your back in slow, soothing circles. you can hear the slight crack in her voice, the way she tries to stay strong for you because thatâs who she isâsomeone who always holds it together for everyone else.Â
(âare you okay?â youâd asked her once, catching that brief shift in her expression, the kind she tried to hide.Â
you took a better look at her that day, noticing the dark circles under her eyes, the slight lag in her movements, like she was carrying something heavy. it took her a few seconds to force a smile, nodding as if everything was fine.
âyeah, sorry,â she said casually, quickly turning her attention back to her food. âjust thinking.â
âminji,â you said her name softly, reaching out to place your hand over hers. she looked up at you, a little surprised, her cheeks flushing slightly. âtell me whatâs going on.â
âitâs fine, iââ she started, but you cut her off with a raised brow, your expression making her shrink a little under your gaze. the warm glow of the restaurantâs evening lights illuminated her features, the soft orange hue catching the tiredness in her eyes. she pursed her lips, letting out a small sigh before admitting, âeverythingâs been really difficult lately. iâm losing energy. i feel like iâm not doing well. itâs just⌠i wish you could be there with me more. thinking about you is what gets me through practice. knowing iâll see you, even just once or twice a week, pushes me to keep going.â
you didnât say anything at first, just pushed your bowl of noodles across the table towards her before standing up and sitting beside her instead of across. she looked at you, confused, but you reached for her hand again, holding it in both of yours as you gazed at her with all the love and understanding you felt.
âyouâre always doing great, minji. no oneâs doing it like you,â you said, voice soft but certain.
âreally?â her voice was small, like she wasnât sure if she should believe you.
âof course,â you reassured her, leaning in to press a gentle kiss to the side of her head before pulling back. âiâve been feeling the same way. just the thought of you keeps me going. letâs be each otherâs push, okay?â
minjiâs face softened, her lips curving into a small smile. she nodded before leaning in and pressing a tender kiss to your lips.
âokay,â she whispered.)Â
as you sit here now, her hands still rubbing comforting circles on your back, the memory feels bittersweet. sheâs always been there for you, even when you couldnât be there for her.
minji holds you close, her arms tight around you like sheâs afraid youâll slip away if she lets go. you bury your face deeper into the crook of her neck, your own arms wrapped around her, clinging like sheâs your anchor.
âyouâve always been my push,â minji says softly, her voice barely above a whisper. âthatâs never changed.â
she pulls back gently, lifting your head and brushing away the strands of hair that have stuck to your tear-streaked face. her own eyes are glassy, but she smiles through the tears, looking at you in a way that makes her feel exposed, vulnerableâlike sheâs seeing you for the first time all over again.
âcan we try again?â you ask, voice trembling with hope and hesitation.
she blinks, heart racing. the weight of your question settles in the air, heavy and fragile.Â
âof course,â she whispers, her voice cracking. âthatâs all iâve wanted.â
time seems to freeze, the air still around you as your eyes lock. it feels like youâre both sixteen again, standing in that alleyway after a long night at the street market, except this time itâs different. now youâre on the couch, in the dorm you both share because you made itâyou both made it. you two achieved your dreams. but thereâs always been something missing: each other.
minji cups your cheek, just like she did back then, but her touch is softer now, more tender, more vulnerable. her thumb strokes your skin as she leans in slowly, her eyes fluttering shut before her lips meet yours. itâs gentle, delicate, like sheâs afraid youâll crumble under the weight of her affection. your hand instinctively moves to rest atop hers, feeling the warmth of her knuckles against your cold skin. the kiss is soft, laced with the remnants of tears, but somehow it tastes sweet. everything youâve been holding ontoâall the fear, all the doubtâseems to melt away in that moment.
you pull back first, though only just. your lips hover near hers, close enough to feel her breath.
âi love you, minji,â you say, voice low but firm. âiâm never going to make you doubt that again.â
her eyes soften, and she brings her hand to the nape of your neck, pulling you in again. âi love you too, y/n,â she whispers, before pressing her lips to yours once more, this time with a little more certainty, a little more sweetness. like youâve both finally found what youâve been missing.
â
hyein stumbles into the living room, rubbing her eyes, not fully awake yet. she groans, dragging her feet toward the kitchen, but stops mid-step when she spots two familiar heads peeking out from the couch. her sleepy eyes narrow as she tries to make sense of what sheâs seeing. the sight takes a moment to register, and when it finally does, a sleepy smile creeps onto her face.
you and minji are tangled together on the couch in what looks like an awkward but oddly comfortable position. your head is resting on her shoulder, one arm lazily draped over her, your hand clasped loosely with hers. minjiâs other arm is wrapped around you protectively, her head tilted at an angle that looks uncomfortable, but somehow it balances out with the way yours is twisted. the corner of the couch has you two nestled in tight, looking cozy in your pajamas, mouths parted slightly, both of your eyes a little puffy from sleepâa little too puffy to be from sleep. hyein stares, completely baffled at how you both ended up like this.
haerin is the next to wake up, and she spots hyein standing by the couch, phone in hand, snapping a picture. haerin yawns as she saunters over, her head tilting like a curious cat when she catches sight of you two. her brows furrow, and before she can even ask, your head slips, falling from minjiâs shoulder and landing in her lap. your torso twists in an awkward, almost painful-looking angle, but minji instinctively shifts, scooting over to make room and pulling you closer, making sure youâre both comfortable without even waking up.
"whatâs with them?" haerin asks, her voice low and groggy, her eyes narrowing at her oldest members.
"dunno," hyein shrugs, amused. "iâve never seen them this close."
"me neither."
before they can figure out whatâs going on, hanni and danielle stroll in, spotting the younger girls gathered by the couch. curiosity piqued, they walk over to see whatâs going on, and as soon as they do, their eyes widen in surprise. a grin spreads across hanniâs face, and she wastes no time whipping out her phone to capture the moment. she quickly airdrops the photo to danielle, who giggles as she looks down at her phone, eyes twinkling with mischief.
"whatâs up with the parents?" hanni teases, barely able to hold back a laugh.
"parents?" haerin repeats, raising an eyebrow.
"just look at them."
you and minji remain tangled together, still sound asleep despite the odd position, yet somehow, you both look peaceful, like itâs the most natural thing in the world. your head rests in minjiâs lap now, her hand still protectively holding yours, the two of you fitting together as if youâve always been like this.
hyein and haerin exchange glances, amused but confused, while hanni and danielle quietly snicker like children whoâve stumbled onto something they werenât supposed to see.
â
the next few weeks with promotions still going on postpones the time you get to explain everything to your members. but eventually you and minji sit down with them in the living room, going over the whole timeline of events and earning a variety of reactions.
your members gather around, all seated in the living room, eyes trained on you and minji. thereâs a tense sort of anticipation in the air, the kind that comes with heavy conversations. you and minji exchange a glance before diving into the timeline of everythingâ how it started, how it fell apart, and now, how youâve found your way back to each other. each word feels like youâre lifting a piece of the weight thatâs been suffocating you both for so long.
the reactions from your members are immediate. there are lots of âohhhhâs and âahhhhsâ as they start piecing things together, understanding slowly dawning on their faces. you see nods of realization, and even though some of the details are painful, they listen intently, faces softened with sympathy. they admit theyâd sensed something was off but had never wanted to pry, giving you both the space they thought you needed. now, knowing the full story, their expressions shift to one of collective empathy, eyes filled with a kind of pity and concern.
you and minji sit close, your hands intertwined, a subtle reassurance to each other that itâs okay to finally share this. as you speak, minjiâs thumb rubs gentle circles against your skin, grounding you when the memories become too much. the frowns deepen as you recount the harder partsâthe breakup, the misunderstandings, and the silent pain you both carried alone. but thereâs also relief. itâs evident in the way your members nod along, like everything makes sense now. theyâve always had your backs, and now it feels like theyâre rooting for you even harder.
"we never wanted to push," hanni finally says, her voice soft, almost apologetic. "we figured you two just needed time."
danielle nods along, her eyes a little glossy, while haerin sits quietly, processing it all. hyein, surprisingly, offers a small smile, "iâm glad you guys worked it out."
you and minji exchange another look, this time a lighter one. something close to peace settles over you both, like a burdenâs been lifted now that the truth is out there. it feels good to be understood, to no longer have to hide the past or the pain from the people closest to you.
this isnât like beforeâand thatâs a good thing. thereâs no going back to what was, because now youâre both different, stronger, and this version of ânormalâ is something youâd choose over and over again. youâll grow alongside minji, hand in hand, side by side, and sheâll be growing with you too.
you wouldnât trade anything in the world for this.
â-
"you called?"
âtexted, but close enough,â you respond with a smirk. minji rolls her eyes playfully before plopping onto your bed, looking at you curiously.Â
âdid you need something?â she asks, her voice soft but carrying a hint of amusement.
âi just remembered something,â you say, moving toward the bed. âi wanted to show you itâgive it to you before your shoot. you said you had to leave in twenty, right? well, i found this while i was organizing things."
âwhat is it?â she asks, her curiosity piqued. her eyes follow your movements as you crouch down, pulling a slightly worn shoe box from under the bed.
you smile as you open the lid, revealing a collection of small mementosâphotos, letters, and trinkets that instantly stir up memories for both of you. minji leans closer, her eyes widening slightly when she recognizes some of the items.
âi never threw anything out,â you explain, voice tinged with a hint of nostalgia. âi couldnât. i remember you gave me two copies of this because you couldnât keep one at your place while we were both trainees. iâve always kept it⌠never really looked at it after everything, though⌠after iâŚâ
your voice trails off, the weight of that unfinished sentence hanging in the air. minji, understanding without needing an explanation, moves from the bed and sits beside you on the floor. her shoulder presses against yours, a silent comfort.
you reach into the box, pulling out a photo strip. itâs from one of your dates, back when things were simpler, when everything felt new. you flip it over, revealing four small photos in sequence. the first has your cheeks pressed together, wide smiles on both your faces. in the second, youâre both forming a heart with your hands. the third shows minji kissing your cheek, and the last one has you kissing hers. your smile deepens as you hand it to her.
minji stares at the strip, her fingers lightly tracing the edges of the photos. her expression softens, caught between disbelief and tenderness. you two were so young back then, but the love captured in the pictures is unmistakableâjust like the love that still exists between you now. she glances at you, her gaze full of warmth.
ânow you can keep it,â you say, voice gentle, âwithout worrying about anyone taking it from you.â
ây/nâŚâ minji whispers, her voice so quiet, so filled with awe. she hugs you tightly, and before you know it, she's covering your face with kisses, one after the other, until finally, she presses her lips to yours in a long, tender kiss that feels like everything you've been holding back for so long.
âi seriously love you so much,â she breathes out when she pulls away, her forehead resting against yours.
âi love you more,â you reply, grinning.
âmore than timbits?â she teases, raising a brow.
you giggle, poking her cheek. âdonât get ahead of yourself now.â
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