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treestargarden · 2 years ago

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theres a grief that comes with realizing past severe mental illness that held u back from living ur life n learning things on the "age appropriate" timeline.

in my late 20s n im just now realizing like, what i actually wanna do. like this is this the first time in my life i have a "life" plan that extends past "get thru this day".

#oh it made u stronger #its really only a 4-5 year plan #but hey ive never even had a 1 year plan so i think this counts for smth #the trauma i endured as a childhood n the near constant setbacks have had to survive completely alone have done a number on personal growth #and milestones for myself #just the idea of having a 4 year plan scares the shit out of me #but the difference between now n 10 years ago is that i know theres nothing that i cant overcome vs there was everything to fear #i hate the logic but it did n i shouldn't be angry at the fact that i now know i can handle any bullshit obstacle #thrown my way #but i will be abgry on my child selfs behalf bc that was shit no person should ever have to go thru #these were long tags for smth that was initially meant as a reply but the og post got deleted lol

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