#i think the part i hate most abt all this is the unfairness

[lonigiri]

wonbin nsfw alphabet?

a=aftercare: honestly, he doesnt do much, you do more for him then he does for you. you two cuddle afterwards but thats really it

b=body part: on you, your waist, god he loves your waist, his hands are always on it, always has an arm wrapped around it. whenever you're riding him his hands are always on your waist. on him, he likes his fingers, he loves to play guitar and his fingers are so strong from playing guitar, loves prodding at that spongey spot in your walls, his fingers so skilled at making you feel amazing.

c=cum: he loves to cum on your stomach, loves painting your pretty body with his cum (he ends up licking it all up)

d=dirty secret: whenever your out of the house and he gets needy he takes ur panties that you wore the most recent and fucks his fist using them 🤭

e=expirence: i'd say before you he probably had like 3-5 partners, but with them he didnt really do much but vanilla missionary sex with them. he knew how to please a girl before you but you taught him how to please you specifically he hes a fast learner yall 😏

f=favorite position: loves when you're on top of him !!

g=goofy: i'd say hes pretty funny, but he can be serious if he wants to be

h=hair: hes 100% shaved down, i wouldnt be suprised if he got waxed regularly

i=intimacy: can be intimate if its like a special occasion but he is more comfortable being a little sillier

j=jack off: even tho yall are having sex VERY regularly, he still jacks off, not as frequently as he used to, but he still does it a lot

k=kink: overstimulation but not on you, on him, he might pretend that he hates it, but GOD he loves when your hand is squeezing his cock hard making him cum 10x over without breaks,

l=location: just the bed, yall do too much when ur having sex to do it anywhere else

m=motivation: just anything, anything you do turns him on, with NO fail

n=no: he honestly says he would try anything once, doesnt have any limits

o=oral: LOVES giving and receiving, loves when hes making you feel so good and your hands are pulling his hair :(( and when your giving him head hes on cloud 9 😣 loves it so much, loves ur pretty mouth around his cock sucking him dry

p=pace: when hes on top he goes pretty fast but when you're riding him you go a little slower

q=quickie: hes iffy on them, it just depends on where and when, but sometimes he wants to take his time

r=risk: like i said before, hes always down to try anything once

s=stamina: he can go for SO long like its crazy how long wonbin lasts. can go for 8-9 rounds without getting tired

t=toys: loves getting toys involved, viberators, cock rings, butt plugs, the occasional dildo

u=unfair: he cant, cant tease you like at all, whatever you ask you get

v=volume: he gets so loud, whining, groaning, moaning, begging for you to go easier on him

w=wild card:

x=xray: hes pretty big probably around 6 1/2 to 7" i dont think hes that thick though

y=yearing: ALWAYS 24/7 hes always thinking abt it, always initiating stuff with you, again, like i said, he gets hard with like zero initiation from you

z=zzz: doesnt really sleep afterwards, like at all, he loves cuddling afterwards though!

[raythekiller]

omggg the masky nsfw alphabet was 😍

how abt eyeless jack nsfw alphabet? maybe? :)

🦇 anon

🗒 ❛ NSFW Alphabet ༉‧₊˚✧

Featuring: Eyeless Jack

#Notes: THERE'S LIKE 4 OTHER PEOPLE ASKING FOR HIS NSFW ALPHABET IN MY INBOX, FINA YALL WILL WRITE IT 😭

pronouns used: none, gn! reader

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A - AFTERCARE 

Will absolutely not let go of you. The whole act is so personal and intimate and important to him he can't help but want to hold you close.

B - BODY PART 

Pretty nonsexual, but your face. He just thinks you look so pretty, even if he can't see properly.

C - CUM 

Major breeding kink, will cum inside of you multiple times in a row until you're filled to the brim.

D - DIRTY SECRET 

He's never had actual sex before, most far he's ever gotten was a blowjob or two.

E - EXPERIENCE 

As mentioned above, not too experienced, but he makes up for it with his eagerness and will to satisfy you.

F - FAVORITE POSITION 

Mating press. He's able to thrust deeper, hold you close and stare at your face all at the same time.

G - GOOFY 

He gets into an animalistic state and is unable to speak, so humor isn't really that present.

H - HAIR 

Clean shaven, makes him feel more hygienic. It's darker than his hair.

I - INTIMACY

Again, unable to speak, but the way he's clinging to you like his life depends on it says it all.

J - JACK OFF

Barely does it at all, unless he's got someone on his mind, then he'll do it a couple times every week.

K - KINK

Here's a full post on his kinks.

L - LOCATION 

Definitely the bedroom, yours or his. Makes it more private and personal.

M - MOTIVATION 

Hates to admit it, but your scent drives him crazy. Even better if you're horny, since he can smell your arousal in the air. It's intoxicating.

N - NO

Either of you being tied up is a hard no. He doesn't like it on himself for obvious reasons (cult sacrifice) and doesn't like it on you cause he's afraid he might lose control and needs you to be able to get away from him if he does.

O - ORAL 

Definitely giving. Those tongues of his work miracles.

P - PACE

Starts off slow and sensual, becomes brutal and animalistic after a while.

Q - QUICKIE

Prefers taking his time with you, so quickies aren't really a thing you do often.

R - RISK 

Pretty vanilla when it comes to this. Doesn't like experimenting or doing anything risky, but might budge if you ask nicely.

S - STAMINA

Just doesn't get tired. Only stops when you beg him to, otherwise he's gonna be breeding you for days.

T - TOYS 

Doesn't own or like to use any. Just doesn't see the point in it.

U - UNFAIR

Ends up accidently teasing you with how much foreplay he does, but it's completely unintentional.

V - VOLUME

Barely moans, only growls and groans. His noises are deep and raspy, unlike his normally calm and gentle speaking voice.

W - WILD CARD 

Sometimes when you're away, he sneaks into your room and jerks himself off on your bed, inhaling your scent off the sheets and pillowcase.

X - X-RAY 

This motherfucker is big, almost 11 inches, although not too thick.

Y - YEARNING

His sex drive isn't normally high, but he has some "heat periods" to deal with where he gets extremely needy.

Z - ZZZ 

Waits for you to fall asleep first, just relishing in the fact that you trust and feel comfortable around him enough to be at your most vulnerable. Will drift off after with a smile on his face.

[transmascissues]

hey, sorry idk if its ok for me to ask for advice here, but im really lost and dont know where else to go.

i might be starting testosterone really soon, (via informed consent) but i keep flipping back and forth on whether or not i'm sure i want it. some days i think, "yes 100% im a man i want T right now" and thinking abt the effects of T makes me euphoric. other days i think, "wait AM i sure tho? what if it turns out i hate it actually" and thinking abt the effects of T on those days makes me anxious and ambivalent.

i think it might be just a fear of change, but i'm not sure, and i'm worried about making a decision i'll regret forever. it doesnt help i keep seeing ppl say things like "you need to be 100% sure you want hrt before u start because going back and forth puts a huge strain on the body" etc, but i dont know if i ever will be 100% sure.

what do you make of this? do i really need to be 100% sure? am i rushing in too fast? or is this just anxiety talking?

i spent years agonizing over if i was really sure that i wanted to start t, and you know what it taught me?

no one is ever 100% sure about anything. it’s an impossible task. that’s just not how people work — you’re always going to find more things to be anxious or unsure about when you think about it because it’s an unknown thing and it’s completely natural to be at least a little unsure of unknown things.

and most of the time, nobody expects you to be 100% sure about big decisions because we all know it’s an unfair expectation. nobody told me i couldn’t go to college because i wasn’t 100% sure where i wanted to go. nobody tells you to never drive anywhere because you’re not 100% sure that the car won’t crash. accepting risk is a part of life. trusting ourselves to make the best decisions we can — and trusting ourselves to be able to handle whatever happens next — is an unavoidable part of life.

the only reason we’re held to that impossible standard of 100% certainty when it comes to medically transitioning is because people are transphobic and they want us to second guess ourselves and put off hormones or surgery out of fear. if everyone waited until they were 100% sure, no one would ever transition, and that’s exactly what they want.

i look at it like this: hormones are like any other medication. you take them because you decide they have a good shot at making your life better even though there’s also a chance they might be ineffective, have bad side effects, or even make things worse in the end. we accept that risk every time we take a medication because we weigh the options and decide the good that could come of them is worth that risk. imagine if doctors only offered medical care to people when they were 100% sure it would work and not have any side effects — they would never do anything at all!

i can’t tell you if hrt is right for you. i can’t tell you if the risk is worth it for you. what i can tell you is that, when i was unsure about what to do, there were two things that made me decide it was worth the risk:

the first is that i knew i wanted to give myself a chance. the idea of going on hormones only to get more dysphoria from it sounded terrifying, but the reality was that i was already living with dysphoria! and the idea of just accepting that because i was afraid to try the thing that could make it better was even more terrifying. at the end of the day, i decided it was better to choose the option that could make things better than it was to just spend the rest of my life wondering if it would’ve helped. the worst case scenario in both choices is dysphoria, so i figured, why not pick the option where the best case scenario is euphoria? i know dysphoria is something i can live with because i’ve been doing it for years, so i felt that i could trust myself to be able to deal with that outcome if it came. i knew it was possible that i would regret it and wish i had never started t, but i also knew i would regret it even more if i went my whole life never having given myself a chance at something better than the dysphoria i already live with. i figured, if i have to take a risk, why not take the one that excites me instead of the one i would just be taking out of fear?

the second is that hormones are fucking slow. there can be some changes that happen fast but for the most part, the changes on t take time to happen fully, and if i wanted even more time i knew i could take a lower dose to slow things down further. it’s not like you just wake up one day with a totally different body — it’s a process, and if at any point in that process you realize you don’t like what’s happening, you can stop! you’re completely in control; the second it starts to feel like it’s making something worse instead of better, you can decide to stop taking it. even with the changes that came quickest for me, i had time to assess as they started happening, and it would’ve been as simple as putting down the syringe and never using it again if i decided i didn’t want those changes to continue.

(and the people who say you can’t start and stop because of the strain on your body are exaggerating — i had to start and stop multiple times because i was having allergic reactions to all of the serums we tried, and i was totally fine. that was never even a concern my nurse brought up to me. i’m sure it’s not ideal to do that constantly, but i don’t think it’s a big thing you have to worry about.)

again, i can’t tell you if starting t is the right move for you. all of this is just how i made that decision for myself; i can’t make yours for you. what i can tell you is that you are more than capable of making a thoughtful and informed decision without being 100% sure. certainty is not a requirement.

and frankly, anyone who tells you they were 100% sure when they made that decision is either lying about it because they feel like they should’ve been totally certain, or they were in a position to make the decision so quickly that it didn’t leave time to mull things over and find things to be unsure of.

which leads me to my final point: if you’re thinking about it this hard and trying to be this meticulous about making the right decision, you’re absolutely not rushing into it. whatever decision you make, you’ve clearly put a lot of thought into it and that’s all anyone can ask of you.

this is your decision, not anyone else’s, and already you have everything you need to make the best decision you possibly can. trust yourself to choose wisely, and trust yourself to be able to handle whatever your choice brings. you got this.

[zukkacore]

I'm curious which clone angers Jace the most.

Like, I can imagine he has a lot of anger at J2 and the emotional side of things. Like, just sex is one thing, but actually stealing love and affection that's supposed to be Jace's (even if he says he doesn't want it right now).

But then J3 just gets to have all the good parts of Porter without any of the emotional wreckage that comes with him? Rude.

God this is such a good question. Jace's feelings on J2 are so complicated and he has openly admitted to hating J2 but there's definitely a lot more going on in there than he's willing to admit. B/c it's like. He's stealing Porter's affection but he's also essentially watching himself fall in love again. Like. He hates him he pities him but he also puts the most ONTO j2 (j2 eldest daughter coded thesis???) b/c J2 is the one the ratgrinders like and the one who is the go between for basically everyone. (And bc j2 loves Porter and Porter treats j2 as so precious. I do think he unceremoniously kinda dumps looking after Porter’s wellbeing onto j2 as well)

And I do think J2 is the one that Porter (and yeah they are on a break so Jace n Porter rarely interact but when they do) like. Essentially throws in Jace's face the most because he's kinda doing this weird thing where it's unclear half the time whether he is into J2 as this remarkable new toy who already kinda yearns for him and doesn't have Jace's baggage or if he loves J2 as a gesture from Jace, that Jace did this for him. A bit of both. Even Jace has no idea how to take some of those scenes.

That being said, i do think when Jace enfolds into the Plan but is like. Ok im back in but that doesn't mean we're back together, Porter has unabashedly flirted with j3 in front of him. And he's conflicted about that b/c he's the one drawing these boundaries anyway. But its so blatant and it doesn't even have the pretense of being like. even halfway as earnest and sincere as J2's whole deal was and Jace is like ok this IS different b/c Porter is treating j3 like a plaything, like a pet, like something he can use to make me jealous, and J3 is so annoying because he just takes it, he even kinda revels in it. And yeah Jace is deeply jealous b/c J3 gets all the good parts of porter with none of the baggage. Like as much as he hates j2 there is a level of deep pity and self hatred that runs through Jace as well when he sees J2 fall in love with Porter, and I think Jace's emotions with j3 are much more reductive and petty but also not as complicated.

That being said not to be earnest abt j3 but i do think Jace sees his commitmentphobic ass in j3. He knows J3 is using that distance and unseriousness as a shield b/c he doesn't want to address how deeply tenous his situation is and also he's like lmao you're engaging in risky sex to feel alive? Lame. That's been done. With me.

J4 I think annoys him, not as much as the others, yeah, j4 annoys Jace b/c J4 is trying to escape the narrative. and is like. So far succeeding? which like. Good for her good for her. But it is a little unfair

[marionvonwolfstadt]

wondering abt seb and max dynamics since theyre teammate😽

So, I absolutely adore Max and I desperately didn't want to make him the bad guy of the story, it would be so unfair to portray him like that. In the AU he's only one year older than Seb, but I gave him more of his more mature character, leaving the 'mad max' persona behind. He's still fierce on track, as Mark notes, he doesn't give Seb an easy time while racing, why should he? But off track, he's the sweetest and the most caring guy. The media-mandated stuff? He loves that Seb takes the blunder of it. They are both little menaces that would like for the press to fuck off and leave their personal lives alone, just focus on racing. Both with WDC mentality, both hate to lose. It ought to get explosive at times, but Max would never steep so low as to use Sebastian's identity against him. Max, I think wishes he was more extroverted like Seb at times, but also doesn't get his need to be praised or show himself off, he didn't get the Instagram statement. Max gets protective like of a little sibling sometimes, but he's just a decent guy. He understands how it is to be hated, your moves on and off track scrutinized by so many people who don't know you at all or don't understand. He's been the 17-year-old rookie, after all. Of course, he wants to beat Sebastian, but he won't do it off track. He relishes having a competition.

I think a more realistic scenario having taken their ages in the AU would be a little catastrophic haha, a mix of young Max 'wanting his first WDC' and Seb 'multi-21, I don't apologise for winning'? The rivalry would be so explosive and so legendary with such great talents! But again, I so much didn't want to give Max the rancid vibes, let's leave them for the main couple lol. So, they're a more optimistic version of what if they were teammates, with more emotionally mature Max and Seb being born in a different decade, already having more of the famous 'bee-guy' in himself.

So, I have a soft spot for Max who is soft for other people, this time Sebi. Also, but it's just a thing that was never to be a part of the story, if Seb wasn't absolutely head over heels for Mark, he'd get the butterflies seeing Max being all protective, this and you know, the competence kink lol.

Hope my rambling was a sufficient answer, but You can always send another ask. Thank U so much for this one <3

[beloved-brynn]

*pokes you*

Brynryn, hi hello, how are youuu?

Anyway, since you asked me abt who i ship my mutuals with, i wanna ask you something as well! >:D

What (two or more) characteristics do you personally like about yourself and your mutuals? You can either just say it, explain it, or anything really lol

About myself: I have a love-hate relationship with my grit. Mostly because I know I was born talentless in all aspects (no exaggeration), so every creative endeavor I have is 99% hardwork. And no, my parents don't have writing or drawing skills. I don't need to explain how my mom only knows how to draw "v" birds or how my dad isn't great at English. Absolute shame on them. (jk I love my family, I wish I could just pass my lifespan to hem HAHAHA). So when all hardwork fails, I feel like absolute shit. Second thing probably is my faith. I think I wouldn't be here if I didn't have some level of trust with the universe overall. The rest of me is garbage tho lmao. If I'm an otome game character, I'm 100% the beloved and beloathed trash husbando /srs.

About @leftdestiny-posts: I'm not sure I'd ever encounter an internet mutual like them ever again, and I think their appreciation for life and bluntness/straightforwardness is something to be admired. They're traits I don't have. Shiro and I are very very different people, and I'm not sure why there was a miracle that made us meet lol.

About @a-dose-of-phitre and @estellxli: longest friends I have. I really admire their creativity and skill, and if you want me to be honest, I know full well I'm left behind in those departments. If you know me irl, I'm not exactly the most affectionate person so I'd rather keep this part brief haha. Though, a small addition, I admire estella's communication skills and assertiveness a ton and I wish I had a bit more of Phitre's endearing charm and mannerisms (and height-). I'm super stiff lol.

About @navxry: Probably communication skills as well? When we met, they talked continuously. As much as I know I'm an extrovert and thrive off social energy, I think something in me is holding me back to being as vocal as they are. They also seem to have an abundance of energy. Ahh. Youth. /j

About @mixed-kester: i wish i am surviving engineering as much as she has i wanna quit can i quit also how does she pick colors sht is unfair i always have to open up google chrome to— //hjjjj

About @jessamine-rose: she already knows about my fashion sense or lack thereof, so let's talk about something else. I greatly enjoy her writing style because I know it's not something I'd pull off. Her sentence structures doesn't become verbose, they're incredibly succinct— enough to lead you along. Other than that, probably the way she bounces ideas spontaneously. I wish she sleeps right tho HAHAHA /silly

About @vennnnn-diagram: I probably pestered them too much about how normal people work honestly. I lack social skills so learning about stuff from them makes me feel a bit more knowledgeable without any visible judgement from them. So yeah, add that as one out of two. The second one? Their music skills. I hate learning instruments. I don't know why. I tried plenty. I suck plenty. Everyone in my family are great at playing except me. They're the Bruno Mars to my gambling addiction. WAIT WHY DOES SOUND LIKE THE WORST PICKUP LINE KN EXISTENCE HAHAHAHAHA

About @stardust-for-your-soul: i wish i can write fluff i wish i can write romantic things why can't i think of romantic genshin men headcanons why'd it always have to end in murder— oh and also, I love her prose. Chryseis can turn the mundane to something that oozes with beauty, and I think that romanticism is wonderful.

About @lucienbarkbark: i absolutely do not agree with your love for dazai /silly but I do admire estorea's unapologetic nature. Hell yeah bestie fricking read thag 300000+ chaptered story 😭😭😭 /gen. I find it a challenge to sit down and read nowadays huhu. Also, I like how warm she is to talk to, we haven't DMed much but it feels so hospitable (?) whenever she send fic links. Wish I was more like that. Also, thank you for the oda fics, soldier.

About @meimeimeirin: when mei put the kamisato siblings in a kin tier once (unless memory fails me), i remember silently agreeing so much. She has that "I got most my life together" vibe and I do wish I have that. She's also very open to talking about what she loves, she doesn't hide her affections and it's something I very much look up to if you've seen the things I've written so far lol. I love how vocal she is with appreciating what she has, including some new drinks she tasted, her parents' loving relationship, it's just sweet. The teashop aesthetic definitely suites her vibe. She just seems so... Elegant? Can't be me, I need to cause a mess /silly

About y o u: well first off if I get to have your hands for a day, you'd find weird ass drawings of blonde men on your drawing software. Second, I like your vibes a ton. It hits different. It fluctuates from absolutely chill to saying lowkey out of pocket things and I might be getting gaslit to thinking you're not at all the latter /j

[luna7822]

splatoon f^^base/splatoon society if beta!off the hook/pearlina was a thing instead of the off the hook/pearlina we know where there would be no such thing as the whole """"random overrated inkling idol besides pearl is just boring as all hell and yet somehow gets clout despite being pearl 2.0 in every boring and dumb way imaginable"""" thing and that there would be less degeneracy among the splatoon f^^base and more tolerable as well and that f^^^ would actually be more original if she was an octoling rather than boring lame af inkling and hell of a lot more tolerable than what her shitty canon counterpart will ever be since part of me wishes that stupid ass trend never existed at all even if i obv have no bias towards what we got with oth but still:

sometimes i feel like maybe the world wouldve been a better place if that stupid ass trend with certain idols besides pearl was never a thing in the first place and that beta!off the hook was a thing to which degeneracy in the awful splatoon f^^base will ceased to exist and that f^^^ would actually be a lot more tolerable if she was original/octoling too but unfortunately we live in s world where that boring ass trend is still a thing and that idiots want some random pearl knockoff dumbass to win finalfest with only 2 fucking wins on record as if its the most unfair shit ive ever seen when both marie and pearl won fair and square and that shiver and/or big man will forever have more of a chance in terms of wins than that stupid ass degenerate overrated ugly ass bitch will ever have in her sad pathetic life of nothing but being the most boring ass character imagineable and nothing more

and no im not saying i """hate""" inklings or anything its just that theyre kinda too overrated sometimes and that i wish that stupid ass trend with certain boring idols besides pearl was never a thing at all in the first place and that marina, shiver, and big man deserve better anyways with how much those idiots still continue to tteat them like shit unfortunately even when they did nothing wrong as well which really fucking sucks tbh ;-;

but even then i would love to draw beta!off the hook anyways since its very interesting to think like some au where octolings/octarians won great turf war and that ss but octoling in the form of beta!off the hook was a thing or smth along the lines of beta!pearl and marina being good friends when they used to be under octarian rule before calamari inkantation touched their souls and caused them to grow closer than ever before to the point where they decided to start their own cephalopod yuri idol group and end up becoming more popular than ss with all of their wonderful songs/splatfeste despite the public viewing them both as """weird inklings""" until octo expansion where they try to not spill anything abt their true identities by trying to play it cool during the octoling fashion segment iirc before u play fhe dlc and once u were done beating it as 8 then they would no longer have to treat it as a secret now that inklings and octolings are starting to get along again and after finalfest happens then i think pretty much everything after that would stay the same as it is in splatoon 3 with chaos winning and all that (and deep cut having a better looking f^^^ at least) or rather because of beta!off the hook having a different reception compared to what ours was order pretty much wins instead since nobody would treat marina like shit and that interesting things happen as a result which would require me doing some thinking abt order winning finalfest in a sort of beta!oth au thing but thats basically my whole thought process abt beta!oth in general since in all honesty its just really interesting seeing beta!oth/pearlina and whatnot even if i obv still love our pearlina anyways no matter what as an oth fan but still

oh and i would also imagine maybe tweaking beta!pearks outfit a little just to make it look more unique without looking too much like her canon counterpart and maybe tweaking marinas a lil too since its an au and all that without any major changes since shes fine as she is anyways but still

[superchat]

Do you have vision or desire for who you are going to become ? Not necessarily something you are resolved towards but something you’d like to see in yourself and would welcome . It can be small or nonexistent if you really like the way you are

Ohh, hrmmm. idk, i think abt how i do get older and what i will be like, would i be a 45 year old who goes online too much and reblogs too much anime art still or what. i feel like ppl have an idea that "oh once im older things will just Be Different" like their current habits just..wont apply to themselves in 20 years, but i think itd be very easy to just never lose them

I will be honest, i dont really like who i am and think there is an Inherent part of it with just how im wired, i think back to me in 7th grade vs. me now and how things i liked then is just the same now. i had no idea what k-on! was back then but my ipod wallpaper app had pics of the characters, i downloaded a ton of the wallpapers of bassist like this, especially this outfit with the sleeves and hat, cuz she was just rllyrlly cool looking but i was super embarasssd abt any of it, i remember when my friend found out i felt lik dying

A song i listened to nonstop as a kid was nowthen by matt flinner. didnt have much understanding of why i loved it, but now i look back and im like "oh its secondary chords." i look at any song through my life where i resonate with it and its always secondary chords as the reason why i like them

So i see things like this taat dont seem to change and coupled with how i jost generally dont like myseof and thilk im weird and awkward and socializing alwys breaks down at some point, and im like "hrrmm. well. whatever ill be in the future, will probably just be me now, but more"

I think it will be a lonely life, but i was always one who veered towards being alone, my parents talk abt how easy it was to raise me cuz id go in my room and play with my toys by myself for hours at a time. and today i go home from work and i just stay in my apartment and go online, ive been in a couple relationships that lasted 2+ years when i was in highschool but thats been the most involved relationships ive had, i dont think i would be good in any right now even tho i rlly want to connect closely with someone, i think abt it all the time :33 but i dont think i can maintain that, i remind myself that im longing for a romanticized idea

So when im older i think ill be alone and half be okay with it, and half hate it but i dont think ill ever be like "this is unfair!" cuz i dont rlly have anything or anyone to blame, its just how i am rlly

[shut-up-rabert]

You won't mention about how the modi government removed a whole chapter about the Gujrat riots and the emergency chapter.You won't mention how they are trying to hide the fact that nathuram godse.

I don't have any problem with who is Muslim,Hindu or Christian. I hate people who have extremist religious beliefs.The modi government is trying to remove everything about Mughal kingdom.ok I know the fact they are glorified alot in our textbooks and we aren't taught about indian kingdom.I believe they should teach us both Abt Mughal and indian kingdom but I don't think so that is possible under the modi government bcuz they have extremist religious beliefs.Forgetting about the mughals won't do anygood bcus even they played important role of what India is today.

Hey, are you some sort of miracle child who skipped the entirety of seventh grade or something? Because this is what those books look like:

The first two chapters cluster all the indigenous empires together and basically breeze through them, the third one is more expanded, and the rest are just various parts of this mega chapter called “Mughal empire”. Nothing in those chapters is discussed indpendently of the Mughals. EVERYTHING these chapters talk about is basically how the *topic touched in the chapter* was under the mughal kings and their policies with a little preface that talked about how things were before.

Take the chapter about devotion for example. You would think that the bhakti movement saints like Goswami Tulsidas, Mirabai, Swami Surdas, Raskhan, Kabir would get their due because of the changes they brought in devotional traditions that we still follow to this day, but NOPE. Nope nope nope. All about how the great secular mughals combined Sufism with Vaishnavism or whatever. All about how muslim traditions intermingled with pre existing Hindu ones but little about how they were shaped.

(And this can be said for the parallel sixth grade chapter aswell. We get the stories of Mahatma Budhha and Lord Mahavira in detail but any reference to the previous 23 tirthankars, including Lord Rishabhnath are missing. And simply forget about any reference of Hinduism other than a few passing references.)

And bhakti chapter is actually the most mellow one of them since it has some indic elements. Every other chapter is basically chanting the Mughal name. And ridiculously enough, despite having six chapters to themselves after a measly 300 year rule, No references to how awful they were to the Hindus and the crimes against us, where millions of us perished, are referred to.

You would think that a dynasty that was being sucked off by the previous education ministers would have all its glory, including the tower of our skulls made by the patriarch, would receive its deserved place in the history but nope :P

No changes whatsoever are being brought to these chapters despite their unnecessary length in glorifying the most trivial things, and their erasure of the Hindu massacres where atleast a hundred million of us were put to death for our infidel indentity.

Only the chapters in higher secondary, where they go in even deeper lengths to glorify even more trivial things are being removed in favour of a chapters that will actually teach about the 5000+ years history of bharatvarsha that existed before the mughals and the invading arab,turkish empires, our indegenious history, our true culture and beliefs that has been rushed in favour of these 500 years.

Oh, and not to mention that the formation of Sikhism, the pinnacle of Rajput empires and the Rise of Marathas happened in the same time. How much did you learn about it?

Yes, Mughals are sadly, a part of our history. But so is the history that us the people of aryavart forged ourselves, when we were self ruling, and that history is ten times as big as “our” mughal history that sits cross legged on the biggest share of recognition in our history textbooks. 10% of our history being cut is unfair, but the fact that 90% of it is already cut to give 10% an even bigger chance to ✨Ѕℋℐℕℰ✨ is fair?

Exactly how much did Mughals do that two out of like 10-12 chapters about their minor rule (where one crucial side of them is being deliberately concealed), that too the ones that were repetative, being cut is a great loss to our knowledge?

You say that Modi government is religious extremist. How so? By doing exactly what everyone wanted? Cutting two unnecessary (and repeptative aswell) chapters in favour of those which will teach us about the larger part of history that is overshadowed by this tiny chunk of half-true history? How is that extremist?

If anything, BJP is actually favouring the leftist narrative by letting the propaganda-esque chapters in seventh grade be as they are, not even trying to bring the monstrosity of the Mughals to light despite the expectations people had. People should be thankful to him, he’s saving face of their beloved Aurangzeb and Shah Jahan and they have the gal to call him a rightwing extremist.

Oh, and while we are at it, might aswell suggest you to go ahead and search what “extreme” right looks like. The current BJP government is not a good example of that, although its lower party members (MLAs, MPs) and sister organisations like VHP and Bajrang Dal are. Compare those to the BJP, and you will see that the centre is anywhere but extreme. Maybe Centre leaning to Moderate about now, but definitely not extremist.

You’d expect such “politically aware” folks who rage out in your dms to know that, but honestly, if you cannot tell this basic difference despite having actual extremists in your country, exactly how much politically knowledgeable are you?

Not enough, because if you were you would see how biased those paragraphs were:

A one sided account of the riots where, even if they were not pointing fingers at Gujrat Government for something they had been acquitted of directly, they did have NHRC report which solely faulted the Government without any true basis. The paras targeted Modi precisely, and accused him of the issue in a manner that seemed to have an ulterior motive.

Who in their right mind would let people read a defamatory para about themselves when they have the power to stop it?

Same with the passage dealing with RSS; other organisations that were banned alongside, including some other religions’ organisations, don’t have a mention anywhere. Only the “Hindu extremists” are mentioned as if their were no other extremists at all (plot twist: there were).

And exactly how does BJP gain from removing emergency? That’s one of the greatest follies of their opponent, if anything they should be propagating it. Tbt, THIS one genuinely seems like an attempt to rationalise because this is a political loss BJP has done to self without any reason.

But you know what? I feel like there were better ways than simply cutting the deleted portions (except Mughals) aswell. Editing those could have helped aswell. So yes, I will go and say that those bits should not have been removed (Or should have been if they truly were repetative? I don’t know, I did not take humanities in +1) but edited.

Hiding history is an injustice to the past, whatever your reasons. So if this is not repetative or otherwise unserving to the syllabus as a whole, or just not fit to be taught with other portions, It should not have been removed, but altered. Yet, I see that currently the editing and rewriting of books is ongoing, so maybe there will be proper replacements in the future? If not, raising questions against that until a proper answer is given will be our own duty

Either ways, that is all from me. If there is anything more you wanna say, my DM is open for it all. Peace.✌🏼

[sovonight]

I'm about to start BG2, which of the 3 paths for the Xan mod do you think is most in character for him?

well it's the same author as his mod for bg1, so they should all be in character for him, right…? 😒

idk. with the way i prefer to read him, i would guess that the friendship path is the least infuriating, and then his bonded romance, and then his nonbonded romance. i haven't even played his friendship path in bg2, but his romance paths are just. urgh.

his bonded romance has too many opportunities for sex at the expense of actually being able to talk to him, and the times you do get to talk to him, more material than i'd like is recycled from the first game bc of charname's possible amnesia, which detracts from any sense of familiarity/intimacy that the few rare good interactions with him provide. i guess one could consider this path to be in character if you think he's allo and was just too depressed to be super horny in bg1, but bg1 easily let me read him as acespec (his colors are literally purple and gray and he'll only enter a full romance during the timeline of the game if you're able to bond with him in a way that transcends any physical intimacy?? it writes itself) and it's like he stopped being fully himself once bg2 rolled around. another thing i hate is he has moments where you can literally step all over his boundaries, and even if he does speak up against you, you can still demand that he do it, and he'll just do it against his will. sure "devotion" and whatever, but that's not his brand of devotion--it used to be that if you willfully crossed his boundaries, he'd just end the interaction

his nonbonded romance is... it's just kind of tough to get through. the premise is "there was a spark but it was never followed through on," but it kind of assumes that charname broke things off in bg1 (even though it could've just as easily been xan who broke it off, depending on how you played), so it's more like "xan still has feelings for you and flirts with you but he's also disgusted and horrified by you so he holds you at arm's length the whole game." also he never dies in this path, he only dies in the original bonded path, so they're basically saying he gets to live if you just reject him in the first game and change your mind in the second and let him treat you badly until he apologizes and then all is well forever. like??? there's a convo later down the line where you can comment on how absolutely difficult it was to get to this point where he actually openly loves you, and one of the options is "well the difficulty makes getting here worth it," and to that i say no, absolutely not. what makes this path even worse is that you also get more Xan Lore (tm) here than in the bonded path--there's a whole story he tells that you never get to hear otherwise, and his lengthy apology for treating you badly had more thought put into it than most of the conversations in the bonded path. not to be like "it's so unfair :'((" but to be a bg1 xan romancer and not get an equivalent amount of thought put into him in the bonded path?? am i being punished for loving him too early???

i get the feeling that the author was trying to replicate the drama of his romance path in bg1, to make him just as "difficult" to love, but i didn't find him difficult in bg1 at all--he's just traumatized and fearful of loss, and thinks himself that he's difficult to love. his appeal in bg1 was his compassion and understanding and sorrow for the unfair situation charname is in--and now you're telling me that he's become part of that unfairness? sure, he didn't know she was a bhaalspawn for most of bg1, but he saw how she suffered, and has traveled with her long enough to know and respect her as a person. after his first knee-jerk reaction of horror, wouldn't he change his mind rather quickly? having him be genuinely apprehensive abt charname being a bhaalspawn in his bg2 nonbonded romance path walks that backwards and actively undermines his bonded romance path. in the nonbonded path, he says outright that he would be ok with charname being a bhaalspawn if they were already bonded, which isn't a great look bc it comes off as either "i can only find it in my heart to be ok with you if i'm literally chained to you" or "maybe if you didn't end my romance early in bg1 i wouldn't be disgusted by you now". what exactly is good about hearing that???

like props to the author for finding a way to make him involved in the plot and accessible to new players, but 90% of my gripes come from the allowances made to make that possible. he doesn't need an arc, or a storyline, or to be involved in the plot, he should just be in the sequel to hang out

tl;dr, take the friendship path, or even better don't recruit him at all. yes, i personally can't bring myself to play anything but the bonded romance path in bg2 bc it makes me sad to not be special to him in-game, but you! you can be free! friendzone him and have a stronger will than i!

[codes]

HAHAHWHAHHA I DIDNT SEE THAT YOU WERE THE OP OF THAT POST . ALSO I KNEW HIS NAME WAS ARJUNA BUT FROM . THE MAHABHARATA ... ?? i remember reading that as a kid and only registering the part where they all marry the same girl and also when they all die ANYWAYS i would like to hear abt him if youd like to talk abt him i am intrigued by his pretty brown boy swag

HEHEHEH YESSS it was me all along! sorry i ... idk what came over me

most of fates major characters come from very famous, ancient stories (karna, rama, and ashwatthama are also in there along w some other flop fucking characters designs) or are notable historical figures.

the series is weird (for so many fucking reasons) but one part of it is that most characters are based off the stories they come from so while they have the knowledge and experiences from their pasts, their personalities can be completely different from how they acted in these stories or in real life. sometimes its for the better, most of the time its to fit a specific character trope.

arjuna is ... a case study bc we get rlly weird reductions to his character that take away from how he was in the original text. arjuna in fate is a character that had everything handed to him and thus feels that he needs to go twice as hard in proving himself which manifests in a very... messy hero complex that is further exaggerated by his perfectionism. he struggles in accepting the "evil/darker" (i dont even know where to begin w this part of the story) parts of himself and when he finally does learn to w the help of the MC its the equivalent to him learning to be vulnerable w others (or at least to the MC) and not deny who he is or become fixated on imperfections.

its a huuuuge change in his personality and after u do his story the dialogue that he says to u changes from saying he wishes to be alone forever, until the end of time to wanting to help the MC forever, until the end. hes a lovely guy

admittedly the quality of his writing varies greatly depending on which chapters you focus on but most of his characterization is based off his relationship w karna... which is honestly a bad thing bc that ends up being a major focus and leaves little for his own self to grow and develop. in its essence, he became too fixated on his duel w karna and felt that it was unfair that he was able to beat him as it was through a dishonorable and hollow victory. it messed too much w his own feelings of perfectionism and so he rlllllyyyy hates (?) karna and wants to battle him again. personally i think the distress over killing his own brother in such a "cowardly way" messed w him too much to create a horrible horrible relationship btw the two. theyre much better now tho in the storyline, not perfect and not even close to good but arjuna doesnt try to kill him on sight anymore. sometimes.

fate is horrible. i genuinely dont recommend it to anyone, but arjuna is great on his own. look at this pic of him, karna, and thomas edison (the lion in the back)

[yuukei-yikes]

A lot of people seem to not like the manga as a starting point but its what hooked me. I saw will stetsons lost time memory and I was like "what???" "thats it???" and found the rest with my brother at like 2am. the mangas slow fun pace that is instantly cut off by horror is fun, the flashbacks are great characterization.... the only part i didn't like was the dissonance between Harutaka in mangaroute1 and mangaroute2.

it was a bit confusing. anyway do you prefer the anime or manga's version of takane as she seems to be your favorite character. (for me its gotta be the manga, the anime just did not do it)

the manga is what hooked me too! back in january 2014, there was tiny vinnie binging all the songs and what was available of the manga at the time in just one day...

i think the reason ppl dont recommend the manga as a starting point is the second manga route. personally, i recommend the manga as a starting point but only until volume 4 after the route we start with is over. and then i'd come back to second manga route when im done with everything else!! my kagepro recommendation is 1. songs 2. manga until everyone dies lol 3. novels 4. finish the manga 5. anime.

the thing with the manga is that it doesnt rly go into what the normal route is for very long. we keep saying second manga route but its like, idk MOST of the manga is that route.

i do like the manga for the same reasons as u, but sometimes im a little eh bc of mahiro sato's obvious knkd shipping and stuff lol. and i did write a whole bigass answer abt why i hate what happens to takane's character in haruka's arc in the second route. otherwise i dont mind the difference all that much. and i love her as ene in the rest of it. its just a few things that drive me crazy ok ill just link the post lol sorry i just have. um. strong feelings.

OK UR ACTUAL QUESTION hmmmmm well yea i'd say the manga or novels. i get what u say abt the anime but truly the anime did not do it for any of them LOLL there was barely any time for anything let alone good characterisation. like come on there's 11 main characters and 12 twenty four minute long episodes. wdym u dont like anime takane she was there for like (checks) 40 or 50 min in total?

takane is incredibly sidelined in the anime much like everyone else cuz. lol. AGAIN. kagepro is not somehting u can fit in a 12 ep long anime. yuukei yesterday in the manga and novels goes a lot more in depth about takanes personality and relationship to haruka. not to mention they put kano's little Disguising Myself As Someone Dear To You That You Have Regrets About on her instead of shintaro which was crazy. to me that did so much damage to kano's character. i wouldnt call myself a kano expert bc he's an insanely complicated character to tackle LMAO but... i dont know. i just dont think he would do that to ene. shintaro is one thing, we all know kano's little thing abt shintaro, but ene?? its like, he does that to her BECAUSE of the thing with shintaro. kano's pissed and frustrated at everyone moving on while he's stuck behind and ESPECIALLY at shintaro and takes it out on ene for being the main reason why shintaro is moving on. its a little unfair. i dont think kano would be THAT disconnected to do that. not to mention when he pulls that trick on shintaro he isnt half as harsh as he is on ene!! he just kinda spooks him (tho ofc thats enough to send shintaro spiraling LOL) while to ene he's like YOURE THE WORST FUCK YOU and then the way ene kinda laughs it off after also pisses me off LOL yeah kano could do this im not saying its COMPLETELY ooc but he would be in an incredibly despaired rock bottom moment and he'd be super apologetic about it later. post str kano and takane friendship *holds head*

and if you read the novels and kano's feelings and thoughts over takane it makes me sad that's what they chose to do in the anime bc in the novels kano regards takane as someone he's jealous of bc of how confident she is and "her ability to doubt people" and how he thinks they're similar ppl. like we rly dont give enough credit that TAKANE is the first person kano ever opens up to in his life. he even says the conversation they have might as well be the first conversation he's ever had with anyone, and they both head out to the hideout being the ones who have to admit something to the people dear to them (kano the whole clearing eyes thing to kido, takane the ene thing to shintaro) and its not for no reason!!! kano sees something in takane. he knows theyre similar, but at the same time he is jealous. that together sounds a little like he wishes he could be more like her. OUGH. and how they just chose to translate that whole thing into kano being awful to ene and berating her for trying to save shintaro is soooo fucked up. it bothers me so much. #notmykano

WHY AM I TALKING ABT KANO THIS IS ABOUT TAKANE. OK i was driving my point abt how the anime isnt a good judging point to any of the characters LMAO and i guess i wouldnt be able to tell u which "version" of takane i like best, or anyone for that matter. to me all medias are the same version of the same character. im in too deep all of them. the takane that almost kills kenjirou for outing her as lightning dancer ene is the same takane who admits it by herself. idk. guess its a good question but i dont have a good answer. thats also why i hate second manga route takane bc she does shit i dont think she'd do and it pisses me off LOL

[girl4pay]

okay you mentioned catelyn stark so now you’re just gonna have to suffer through me spiralling just for a sec it’s been years and years since i read any of the books and i watched the first few seasons a while back i don’t RECALL this being in the book ALL THAT SAID when cat’s talking to robb’s wife about the charm mothers make for their children GENUINELY one of the most fun and fascinating character moments Of Time for me and like i’m really generally Not That Into got but that whole conversation RULES ME like!!! idk idk how to explain it but the absolute psychological war going on there the terrible, awful humanness of it like she prayed for jon’s death!!! and then he almost died and she sat with him all night begging the gods to let him live, promising to love him and then he lived and she still couldn’t do it!!! like watching cat’s resentment towards jon was so uncomfortable and it’s like… SO so obviously unfair and wrong and then you realise cat KNOWS ITS WRONG she knows he’s an innocent in the situation and that it isn’t his fault and he deserves to be loved and cared for and she believes all this to be true to the degree that she fully believes failing to do so is an act of evil punishable by the annihilation of not only her entire family but like the whole continent she believes utterly and wholeheartedly that it was her god-given duty to love this child and she STILL COULDNT DO IT absolutely fascinating absolutely runs my brain like i will give at least what i’ve seen/recall reading in GOT credit for absolutely and categorically refusing to have any Morally Pure characters and not even just in a ‘they didn’t have any better options’ way in a full throttle people who are otherwise ‘good’ doing things that are genuinely and completely unjustifiable way but this moment especially i’m fascinated and obsessed like i really didn’t think they were ever particularly going to raise jon and cat’s relationship and they did and it’s fucked up and complicated and ugly! and she knew she was being unfair and cruel and she knew it wasn’t his fault and she was taking the anger that should have been for ned out on this innocent kid and she wanted to be able to love him but she Just Couldn’t! even though she hated herself for it she’s internalised the guilt for it so deeply she genuinely believes herself to be fundamentally responsible for Every Bad Thing That’s Happening and she knew it was hateful at the time but she couldn’t help herself!!! fucked up and fascinating!!!! i never stop thinking about it!!!!

its literally so fun like i love to read it i don't remember the scene abt the charms bcus i haven't watched the show in ages but the jon + catelyn relationship is so fucking fascinating and well written honestly catelyn + all her children it's like a great little microcosm study of like misogyny + familial abuse + power dynamics probs my fav part of the series. like my favorite part of the starks is they are supposed to be the Good Family that loves each other etc etc so they serve as like a perfect mirror for all the social issues in the got world bcus it's not villainy or hatred it's just what happens to a group of people living in a world like this

[spoonless-sunflower]

AAAAA I'm so pissed!!

How many years do we have to deal with the same problems and I have to be told to just "be kind and patient" and then I DO and then I always feel so taken advantage of bc things get worse and I get disrespected so ofc I start yelling and screaming and asserting myself when things go wrong enough!! And I hate that!! Who wants to have a screaming match with someone they care about?? That sucks! But I also feel backed into a corner bc things don't change until I put my foot down!

Yesterday, Leo's therapist told her that she should ask me to be more patient with her. She was so nervous to tell me that too. But she's always nervous to assert herself or take up space. I told her it was ok and that I'm proud of her for asking. I want her to assert herself (not asserting herself is half the problem 😭😭😭). But it ended up being a whole conversation about how and where I've been able to be patient and where and why I haven't been. And I told her I want to be able to show her more patience but like when she takes two steps forward one step back? Fine. Easy. When she suddenly takes 60 steps back and is so nervous Abt messing up that she can't share a single thought or starts lying or avoiding me or disrespecting me or even building resentment towards me about things she was too nervous to even talk to me about in the first place?? That's so unfair?!

And fine, maybe we should go back to having some sort of back up plan so that it doesn't end up in a screaming match bc that isn't right. But dammit I guess sometimes I'm just so frustrated I really do wanna scream. And right now I have taken space so as not to scream and I don't know what to do with all this anger and frustration!! And it's only so frustrating bc most of our days together are so good and so happy and then there are these 60 step back days and idk how to deal with them anymore bc I keep thinking we should be doing better than this by now. That SHE should be doing better than this by now! Is the relationship expectation that we do this for the rest of our lives?

Ugh even as I type this, I hear how unfair it is that I expect her mental health journey to go at a certain speed. But it's just scary not knowing how long I'm gonna be taken on the ride. Maybe I do just have to be more patient. But when she takes those 60 steps back, it just feels like she's given up. It took so much fighting just to get her back into therapy. She's been able get over so many of her other hurdles in the past and I'm so proud of her. But this crazy guilt complex and putting herself down and spiraling into herself until she's in a self sabotaging tornado? It feels like it's only getting worse. And it's definitely started to put me back into my old cycles too. I feel my spikes up high and I'm afraid of trusting and being hurt and that I won't ever REALLY be loved. And I do have to take responsibility for my part in that. I just hate it.

[luna7822]

remember when a majority of deep cut """"f^^s"""" used to be really chill until a whole ass year had passed before unfortunately being so divisive and hateful cuz some fictional character didnt need to win 24/7 to ne anywhere near """"pearl 2,0"""" or some shit as if its literally just the most cliche thing ever and therefore made frye 5t4n5 even worse and delusional beyond belief than they already are since theyre now completely greedy even AFTER they won like once or twice now if u were to count japan victories too as if both resulta from diff countries still matter?

me too ;-;

even if i didnt start playing splatoon 3 until i got the game a while after i got my switch in christmas of 2022 i feel as tho i wish ppl were better than this and that times would actually be more simpler for once when no1 hated shiver for just simply existing and taking Ws, no1 was begging frye to win 24/7 in the most dumb way possible and therefore taking everything too srsly for no reason whatsoever, and no1 was being an idiot and actively hating the game for no reason too cuz its unfortunate how awful ppl became ever since a harmless go to greeting splatfest happened or some shit like that since it just pisses me off when i feel like ALL deep cut members dont even deserve any kind of backlash or overpraise at all and that they really deserve to be treated like equals for once without some1 throwing pitchforks at shiver and/or big mam for even dare winning only once or twice cuz i hate how these sad indivduals have fallen over the past year tbh when they cant even treat them all with respect for once just as they deserve ;-;

dont get me wrong idc if frye won like once or twice or that the part where she wom again was kinda wholesome too in a sense but im saying this as some1 who thankfully didnt talked abt her 24/7 in the most boring way possible since its in all honesty the frye f^^base thats REALLY at fault here for not only overreacting everytime she just doesnt win as if she doesnt have to do it all the damn time since i feel like it would honestly get tiring if she did but also the fact that i dont appreciate how theyve been unneccessarily harassing any shiver/big man fans at all and also any1 who doesnt pick fryes team 24/7 since these ppl in all honesty are just very petty, overly obsessed with their dumb fantasies for a character that doesnt have to be perfect all the damn time, and hell even going as far to throw a huge ass tyrate over """"""unfair"""""" results screens as well when they cant even do any real math to know how it works besides stacks cuz i think they somehow have some favoratism problem with somehow wanting the same damn idol to win 24/7 cuz even then i barely understand their thought process at all when its literally just complete utter nonsense and also why i despise frye 5t4n5 in the first place for just overall being incredibly delusional and having the most pathetic behavior during turf wars and splatfests too and also why i hope that they lose so badly since they need to understand that their fav is not even anywhere near """"little miss perfect""""" at all and that they should just accept taking Ls for once like a normal human being should as if thats what they should be doing rn instead of getting mad over the most minor ass shit ever

no wonder why most of the oth fanbase is literally chill compared to most of the dc one anyways cuz i srsly think that frye 5t4n5 need to just chill tf out for once and overall just stfu for more than 5 fucking minutes when this ridiculious behavior of theirs has gone off for far too long atp and that i feel like we (ie ppl that are actually normal in a literal sense) should actually do smth abt this for once when the next splatfest happens instead of just letting them be even more pathetically stupid in nature than they already are since i just really want revenge against them so fucking badly u have no idea and i just hope that whenever big man and/or shiver has smth that i can agree with like usual next splatfest then u bet that ill be damn sure to get my revenge against those so called """""frye f^^s""""" one way or another since they really dont deserve anything anymore and ik not every f^^ of fryes is like this but its really rare to see any actual normal frye f^^s that arent miserable for no reason 24/7 tbh when even if i would be on like aliens, milk chocolate, wisdom or whatever without havimg to be on the same team 24/7 then i still wont tolerate their sad behavior at all when theyre in all honesty the reason why no1 cant be normal and have a good time for once unless ur from the japan side of things that i wish was just as chill as here in murica tbh and that its literally fryes f^^base thats THE problem and only the problem when most of the assholes there are unfortunately too problematic to even do anything fun and enjoyable anymore and therefore the reason why ppl need to just step up their game, take Ls like a normal person would/embrace losing, and just treat ALL deep cut members like equals for once without any dumbshit toxicity abt a harmless group of idols that barely did anything wrong other than existing in a fictional squid/octo game series thats meant to be played for fun whatsoever ;-;

basically reason number who knows anymore as to why i think theres no need for any hatred or unneccessary overpraise towards shiver, frye, and big man when ALL of them should be treated like a normal friendly silly trio of bandits for once instead of doing some unneccessary war abt them over quite literally the most ridiculious ass shit ever to the point where its literally no secret as to why most off the hook fans act better than those idiots do anyways if u dont count any idiots who treat shiver and pearl like """"guys"""" for no reason despite being lesbians as if its literally a GIRL ONLY thing and nothing more when it doesnt need to be anymore complicated than shit has already been for a long ass while now unfortunately ;-;

and overall i just hate most of the sploon f^^base in general for being so unneccessarily divded over the funni squid/octo game that in all honesty should be played for the sake of having fun and actually enjoying it for once instead of yelling abt stupid shit that doesnt fucking matter 24/7

this has been another episode of lunas rambles and shit and i hope that nobody throws shades at me over an actual harmless goddamn opinion for once and actually be fucking normal abt it for once istggggggg

[abcdosaka]

lately i’ve been feeling all kinds of nothing but also feeling kinda good. i feel like my life is so limited and there’s so much to open up. when i move out i think i’ll try to get out more but only a little bit, at heart i’m still kind of a homebody hehe

also i wore makeup to meet sp (i almost never wear it) and i did that lip combo i came up w recently and tbh i felt like a hot girl. it felt like i was playing dress up or i was in drag or acting in a play as if i was a baddie. i could maybe get into it since it’s fun to act like someone i’m not and try something new but also my makeup gives me a headache. maybe bc it’s all from like 2017 lol. it kinda makes me appreciate that i go barefaced everywhere one thing abt me is i have a pretty strong sense of self when it comes to my body. i don’t care about being ugly or pretty that much bc it’s not like smelling bad or something. like my arm hairs and dark under eyes are me, what would i do if i didn’t have those as a part of me

i was a little scared bc there was a guy who was acting a lil sus sitting in front of me on the bus and i was like ? why are you being so weird? but also idk maybe it was just me being paranoid. he stopped being weird when someone sat down next to me though so

idk thinking that men might be looking at me in any sort of way, whether it’s positive or negative, makes me feel very uncomfortable. it’s why i don’t wear my cute kinda low cut shirts or dresses/skirts or do makeup. it gives me this weird feeling of wanting to hide and become invisible. idk if it’s the lesbianness of it all or if i should talk to a therapist.

it’s not like i hate them but it’s like that fantasy i always have when i’m driving or in a passenger seat and there’s traffic. i wish that every single car would disappear so that i can cruise down any road i please and ignore signals and signs. the men are traffic in this case.

sometimes it’s hard to see men as people and not like unpredictable mammals that provoke at a single glance. NO OFFENSE BTW there’s plenty of women i hate too but at least they’re easier for me to read. like i’ll think a guy is pissed off but turns out he’s joking, or i’ll think a guy is joking abt being pissed but turns out he’s serious. then again it’s women who have the most emotional damage to me so maybe i’m just not that good at reading ppl. or is it?

the thing is i think i’ve trained myself to not dehumanize women just bc it feels too easy to do that, like turning them into evil manipulators or bitter weirdos. with men it’s like they’re so dime a dozen that it’s just bound to happen that they turn into numbers for me. it’s unfair but unfortunately society and whatever. well i know deep down everyone is a unique person with everything good and bad that entails. maybe it’s a me thing.