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Commission for a good friend of mine of their touhou yuyuko fandaughter oc! 🌸💖💕💕
#dorf's art#aesthetic#digital art#anime#anime girl#cute#fan character#oc#other peeps ocs#commission#finished commission#commissions open#commish#pink and blue#pink#blue#butterflies#sakura#touhou oc#i think she came out nice here#💖
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Rice. From my plot that's literally just a game of chess. (he's a rook)
#my characters#CHESS BABIES#they actually had a tag here and i adore it bc it was in caps lock for a while#no idea why it was in caps but whatever it was thems the rules#rice has a younger sister named turnip and shes a pawn and then his coworker rook is a guy named cakes#and cakes has a huuuuuuge crush on him and doesnt think to hide it so rice just kinda puts up with it and then somehow#they meet with one of the white knights and are like well he seems mostly harmless#and since they dont attack or try to kill him he decides hes actually in love with rice as well so cakes is like oh no#im going to lose my years long crush to some foreign guy#but the white knight is just vibing cause out of the entire white army he has the least stake in it bc he was born in the land of red#so he doesnt really care but since one of his parents was a white native he got recruited kinda#look it sounds so bad to have colored nations and them being white black and red#but its chess i swear and my dad had a REALLY FUCKING NICE wooden chess set when i was a kid#and it was AMAZING AND BEAUTIFUL and each piece had red felt on the bottom to about scuffing the pretty wood board#anyway thats where the neutral land idea came from - all of his pieces had SOME red on them#and now i gotta go to work for more video orientation#guys theres been so many videos in the past two days#i have no energy for art#i have so many things i wanna draw but i havent managed to actually do anything yet#i need a fuckin schedule.....
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Both my parents actually suffer from HORRID emotional dysregulation and are prone to snapping and going into rages. My sister is the same way tbh. I am now realizing this is why they are constantly baffled by the question of whether or not I am mad at them.
I don't have external meltdowns.
I could. I don't let it happen.
I keep my rage on the inside and stay pretty quiet about it. It's just as strong as theirs [physically shaking nose bleed from high blood pressure kind of bad], but like as a kid I saw how terrifying it was to be around [dad breaking dishes, mom putting our lawn chairs into walls] and I just internalized that I wasn't going to wear that anger on the outside.
So my mother genuinely cannot tell if I am just being quiet or if I am silently hearing the dial-up noises of pure rage. This has lead her to both making strong and confident statements like "You are a pacifist who would never hurt a fly U.U" but also acting like I am secretly dangerous maybe... It's because she has never seen me snap.
She knows what her temper is like [throwing chairs through walls], she knows what my father's temper is like [pick up child and toss out door], and she can tell I am being tested, but she doesn't know what happens when I snap or where that breaking point is.
Her -perhaps unhinged- solution to this, my whole life, has been to do things that should obviously enrage me or shut me down completely, like ignoring important boundaries, repeatedly, punishing me for expressing emotions or needs at all, etc... And then to constantly ask me if I am angry with her when I get too quiet [right after near directly telling me to shut up].
It has occurred to me now, they have never once seen me lose my temper, so they literally just can't tell if I am angry at them. My sister is easy, my mother fights and screams with my sister constantly, my mother understands this. My mother doesn't have any grasp of feelings or boundaries that are not screamed at her [apparently, and I fear my sister is the same way]. Her and my sister are close despite constant fucking fighting because they understand each other.
They are trying to get me to engage the same way and it is not working. I realize now that this has been hard for them.
I was so successfully taught to suppress my emotions, by being punished for any outburst, that rage quiet looks the same as any other kind of quiet from the outside. To them anyway.
I did tell her. For the record. I used my words. I did tell her very calmly that my response to rage, in order to avoid doing the things that terrified me as a child, was to simply leave [the autistic urge to GTFO]. When a situation or person causes too much of the dial-up rage noise, I simply extract myself from that situation, up to and including never speaking to a person again. I explained this calmly. I explained it calmly 100 times and I explained that I explain myself calmly as my rage response 1-5 [also pretty much every other negative emotion tbh], and I told her that what came next was me simply opting out and fucking off. I told her this. I couldn't understand why she never took me seriously, or why she never fucking understood.
I couldn't understand what made her like this.
But it's the same problem I have with everyone else multiplied by a factor of 10.
If I am explaining myself calmly, they can't understand that it's actually serious or that I am actually upset. ESPECIALLY because they read me as "female" and women "aren't that rational" so if I am not screaming and crying about something, which I never do, people assume I can't be upset and it isn't serious.
And then after having my boundaries ignored too many times despite having calmly explained how and why it's a problem [shaking inside or not]... I leave. I leave and everyone gets upset like this is unexpected behaviour, even though I told them 50 times that is how I would respond if they kept doing *the thing.*
And for neurotypical people especially, they are expecting there to be a disconnect between what someone says they need or feel and what their actually boundaries and feelings are, and they expect the latter to be demonstrated with emotions. Telling them bluntly you do not function that way somehow never helps?
My mother isn't just looking for normal yelling or a few tears to know I am serious, whether or not I do those either [I don't], she's looking for an explosion to know there's a problem at all.
Fucked if I know how she proceeds through life this way in general or if this is just her expectation of her own kids???
And I couldn't get why my mother couldn't read my emotions and didn't seem to think I have any. It's because she's testing for the rage limit to see where my 'actual' limit is instead of taking my word for it. Never the fuck mind that she could simply *not* test at my boundaries instead of letting me have them. Separate issue.
I couldn't figure out what made her *like this*
She's expecting me to throw a giant meltdown violent tantrum at people when I have 'actually' had enough. Maybe she got away with those being like 5'4" in another time, but I am the size of the average man, I do not get to have giant screaming rages, whether or not people perceive me consciously as a woman, and least of all because a lot of people -at least unconsciously- read me as 'masculine' or at least always "they guy" of the situation compared to all other women and some men [bigger stronger and more rational, more able to just absorb the damage and let it go so the less rational screaming/crying one doesn't have to be dealt with]. Even if it was in me to be willing to terrify people [usually never], there are such limited instances where it wouldn't just blow back on me. Potentially very dangerously.
I am going to be the quiet calm one. You are going to have to let me use my words, bitch.
So she kept ignoring my boundaries until I had to cut her out of my life, and she probably doesn't understand and probably thinks it feels sudden -after 36 long years of bullshit- abrupt and unfair.
But I told her hundreds of times.
I probably should have just screamed at her.
#good stay out of our yard' and he didn't seem to know what to say to that#but other than that I don't think anyone in my adult life has ever seen me turn aggressive at all to the point where people 100% like to#play games of testing my patience and my boundaries because they think my tolerance is infinite#but like I have autistic rage tantrums on both sides of my family and they are just happening inside my head#And somehow it took me until now to realize that being that way was actually -expected- of me by my parents and especially my mother#and that by keeping myself outwardly level headed to be considerate I actually took away whatever signals she can understand#to have empathy for how I must be feeling#I mean it's still all on her#but it makes so much sense of why she's fucking *like this*#And why my sister thinks I hate her just because -she- stopped texting -me-#but that fucking guy#Every time I was like#In my adult life I have screamed at someone ONE whole time and it was 1000% deserved#And I threw heavy objects around one whole other time and in my defense I didn't do it in front of the guy he just felt the ground shaking#heard the thuds and came back to the logs blocking his path because that fucker wouldn't stop parking in our yard after being asked#and then TOLD not to about 10 times because he was acting entitled to just park in our yard and was crushing my plants???#seriously I don't know what his deal was but he wouldn't stop telling me how much the ground shaking scared him like it was supposed#to get my pity like I think this guy took one look at the logs I had just tossed down and was suddenly afraid of this “woman” he was#bullying in their own yard and so my ability to feel bad for scaring him had gone straight out the fucking window#I looked at him and said stop parking in our yard instead of your own you are killing my plants#he'd just fucking be like 'well the last people to live here let us D: :)“ and I'd be like ”good for them?“ ”stop“#and he'd just keep doing it#I was having a week of insomnia and was finally having the best dream#the kind of sex dream you have like twice in your life#and this fucker had just gotten some noisy ass little bike with a spoiler on it#and starts it up right under my window at 3am from IN OUR FUCKING YARD#so I had a nice long anger nap and just after he got home from work and was sleeping in his house#I picked up these chunks of deadwood tree from the back#there was like 3-4 logs that used to be a WHOLEASS fucking oak tree Like these logs were not as heavy as they -looked- but they were still#this fucker deleted half the tags I wrote and I am not retyping that fuck you tumblr so fucking hard
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i don't. understand. why. people here. are so nice. to me.
#curly is. cuddling me. which is. weird. because i. tried. very hard. to erase him.#i figured. it would have. fixated on that longer. but it only took. a couple days. before it. got comfortable with me. what.#and flo hasn't. let me out of her sight. all day yesterday. except for. a short period. where curly kicked me out of front.#i think. she wants. to study me like a lab rat.#she. is very weird.#and Stan. i expected. him to. hurt me. when he came up front yesterday. because i think. i started. the initial panic. about [REDACTED].#but he. didn't? I don't. understand. he hates it when. we panic about [REDACTED].#instead. he. picked me up. and started gently. petting me. it was. nice. and. helped calm the body down.#... everyone here is. too nice. we aren't. safe yet. i'm scared.#we will. never. be truly safe. why are. they so kind.#pk;m diamonds🔷
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#I've read some of you talking about your irls reaching out#Positive and negative thinga#And I'm... In the middle#I haven't hidden my love for 1D since it took over my life 3 years ago#So the people that know me know this about me#Granted they probably know more about Louis but still#One of my closest friends was a bit insensitive at first and I just couldn't reply#She then sort of came through and has been checking in#I don't think she realized how much it mattered to me#Then I told my best friend who's still back home#I also don't think she understood how important they are to me#She hasn't checked in again but she has sooo much shit on her plate that I don't even blame her although it still... A little bit#But I'm also like trying not to think they actually knew how seriously important these bois are to me#Anyway. Another friend... I saw him right after I found so I was still very much in shock and he knows about them and my deep connection#Saw him the next day he hugged me and asked me how I was and this was after the shock wore off and I had cried all night#I almost broke down again... But he hasn't checked in again and I'm a bit sad about it#Someone I met briefly in the summer and got to talking about the bois reached out and asked and I was glad they did#My sister has been checking in which has been very nice#Again... Idk... I don't need them to understand or be all over me asking or anything#It's just... Yeah.#And it just reinforces my gratitude for this space and the friends I've made the past couple of years#I have no idea where I'd be if I didn't have this and you all#But then again... The biggest reason I'm still in this community is the people I've met#So of course I would always have you here#Understanding something that outsiders could never#It's like trying to explain why Louis is so important to me... If you don't feel you won't get it#Rambles ramble#My eyes hurt
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Me just laying in bed chilling the fuck out:
My brain: do you think doffy gets bad insomnia alongside his nightmares.
Me who's an insomniac that also has nightmares due to ptsd: *few seconds of thinking* he fucking would the poor bastard.. and it's not like anyone can convince him to sleep, what the fuck are they gonna do?
My brain: true..we should write about it.
Me: stop with the false motivation man you do this all the time.. not a bad thought.
#the fucker rambles#i felt like putting my thoughts out to the world#so here ya go#donquixote doflamingo#im probably gonna write something with this concept#although this originally came from the idea of doffy reading me a bedtime story.. i know weird but just imagine that beautiful voice of his#cora and law were included in that thought but doffy's had the most detail and a personal headcanon of which i just shared#ok but back to the doffy reading.. you think he also read to sugar on occassion? like she probably came to him with a book and asked nicely#and its his family of course he would set aside 5 minutes#sorry another thought that went with the other#thought I'd share that too
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well that was a shortlived good feeling about my job
#maybe i should just become unemployed. maybe i should just suffer!#recap of todays further events .#that supervisor? who i kinda didnt already like but now absolutely hate?#she came down to confirm that i wasnt leaving. okay . and then she fucking tells me#oh we're going to get another person to help out from this other company. we were going to do that bc we thought you were leaving#but she thinks that even if im staying there should be another person on this floor. bc apparently more has to be done#and there are 'constant complaints' abt this floor . which doesnt make sense to me bc there shouldnt be#and so we're waiting to see what the manager decides but hes on fucking vacation and wont get back until. next week??#she said she was gonna email him and like right after she left i emailed and texted him explaining everything#and trying to very nicely say hey what the fuck are you doing you don't need to hire anyone else#and if im doing a bad job fucking tell me so i can do it better. bitch#and she had the nerve to fucking tell me when she was talking to me#that i wont find an easier job than this one#well if its so fucking easy why are we hiring someone else#by the way getting that extra person from this other company doesnt cost them anything which is why theyre doing it i think#which is making me not feel good abt my own future lmao. like why would they keep paying me when they can get someone for free#and she was saying all this stuff like oh you have it so good here we dont write you up i do all this stuff to help you like . ok#i didnt ask you to come downstairs w the coffee order and if you wanted me to i would come up . god#but the thing of me not being able to find a better job like wow! what if i killed you. for saying that to my face#and she talks abt how shes been w the company 20 years ok and that doesnt give you an excuse to treat me like a child. jesus#anyway im very pissed off and not enjoying my work situation lol. i dont wanna do this anymore#but looking at other jobs im so unemployable. sigh
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IF I HAD A NICKEL EVERYTIME I WANTED TO BE FRIENDS WITH A DUO OF CHARACTERS FROM A HORROR GAME, ONE BEING HUMANOID AND THE OTHER BEING A MONSTER WITH SHARP TEETH-
#i don't know what clicked in my brain but now everytime i see the doc i just think “DOC!!!!!!!!!!” and get the urge to tackle hug him :D#i'm just picturing him like “oh god not you again” rolling his eyes with a smile and holding his arms out#HEAR ME OUT. ARTIC DEALER AND DOC ALL BECOMING FRIENDS#something something dealer and doc realizing how close they've been this whole time through their relations with artic#there's this one scene in my head where artic runs out into the pine forest outside the club#collapsing into a mess of dirt and blood and tears as she's forced to come to terms with the past that she came here to forget#for most of my s/is the lavender hair is natural but here i like to think it's dyed and her hair is naturally brown#and the dye's been slowly fading as a visual representation of her gradually remembering things#the doc eventually finds its body. and assuming it's unconscious he admits to himself that despite coming off as stoic most of the time#or acting like it's a nuisance#he does genuinely like having her around. thinking back to that time she told him she died and came back#except artic did in fact hear all of that and lets out a weak chuckle or goes “...really?” scaring the shit out of doc gjshdkf#and for a while they just. sit and talk. the sky is blue and the birds are chirping. life goes on.#and eventually he helps artic up and they head to that cornerstore to get something to eat#and later she re-dyes her hair! something something a renewed sense of self after processing things ouo#i also like to think an optional part of artic's design is a knee brace? it doesn't need one all the time#but sometimes its left knee feels weirdly loose so it's just nice to have#dancing with the devil#my nonsense
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I’ll never understand younger siblings whining about their older siblings moving away like I bet yall were nasty and annoying too like wow all those years and you claim to adore the older sibling and post oh woe is me the older sibling abandoned me … girl … the older sibling didn’t have a parental certificate or anything.
#since when were we friends nor did I have any obligation over you or towards you#we are literally roommates here acting like we’re friends#dora daily#I say this cause I saw yet another younger sibling on tiktok trying to make themselves a victim like the older one is clearly avoiding the#whole family and changing their phone number so u guys don’t contact for a reason like wth did you guys do that’s so bad they would go#through all that trouble#‘older siblings will never understand how doing that affects us physically and mentally’ oh quit whining and cope#I didn’t have an older sibling I relied on only myself heck not even strangers help me when I’m in dire need#I think yall need to cope harder and wake up to the real world#not all younger siblings but a lot of them like my little brother 13yo is good id never want to abandon him but the rest … yeah bye#idgaf you should’ve not been an idiot because believe me ik kids mess up but not like this#and now she’s grovelling at my feet bye grovel harder#like just an hour ago or so she came up to me and was like I’m going to school for the first day are you gonna miss me#I said no because she always tells me no when I ask her if she missed me#and somehow she had the audacity to be upset like okay#the same girl who tells me to move out btw#my mum said oh u have to be her best friend cause if she has nobody here then she will have to rely on strangers#and she would find herself in trouble cause they don’t have good intent oh gee I wonder which person caused me to do that#it’s honestly ironic#like Eris and virtue happened because she couldn’t step up and be a normal mother byeeee#and anyways whyre you acting like having a sibling is essential#it honestly isn’t like why would I be nice to a girl who dogs on me and beats me up and is disrespectful#she’s not that young anymore she’s almost 12#‘oh they have different personalities’ well i hate hers and im not to be forced to like it either its my right
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#i was in the uni i do internship at and after we were done i was hanging out with my friend &her sister& sisters friend anyway#they said the gay club had an event thing going on do u want to go n i was like sure#so we went to the class itll be held in and we were early so it was just us#n then one of the gay club leaders came in and then looked at us and then was like oh sorry i think i have the wrong room#(it was the right room)#and then she checked the room number and was like ?????whats happening#because why are 2 hijabis in the gay club event#we were like hii we r also here for the gay event . come in#it was so funny#but she was rly nice afterwards very cute person i think we just startled her#much to think about
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Ru'thûn is no Osmium royal, she has no common blood with the Hive Gods. she comes from no extant Swarm known to the Vanguard, or even most Hive.
her armour is fluted steel, yet coarse like sharkskin. it is older than humanity, and is so deeply impacted into her chitin that tearing it away would flay her hide. within the fine, granulated crevices of her armour are the perfect growing conditions for fatal anaerobes.
(an old side portrait of Ru'thûn from February 2022. reuploaded from my twitter. feel free to click and zoom in.)
#destiny hive#hive oc#oc: Ru'thûn#oh i need a new art tag... um...#blackwax art#i'll xkit a new one later.#ah this is so... there is so much i would change about this.#does not matter right now.#since this is a .png there shouldn't be any loss in quality from my saving it and reuploading here...#i tend not to use my phone like this because of an implicit worry that the image will degrade. i hope it looks fine on desktop.#i can't believe i drew this and two weeks later Witch Queen came out#and the First thing i noticed was that Savathûn had the same heels as Ru'thûn...#the only difference between their shoes is that Ru'thûn does not have the prongs on either side. otherwise it is identical which is funny.#if the background was transparent i would say use this to compare heights since that is what it was meant for.#then again you could just superimpose your own thing onto her.#her neck is craned forward though...#i always say Ru'thûn is 20 (now 22) feet tall withoutn horns because she has no horns adding to her height.#i still do not think her horns or... i forgot the word for her Alien Queen graft... add too much.#a lot of this drawing i would redo... now that i have a nice 3d model to look at perhaps i could do that.#Ru'thûn's graft does flare upwards a little but i don't know how much height that would add.#i think what i will do is get some charts out and then count.#otherwise. for this image. i imagine her full height would be roughly where...#the large gap between the third and fourth spine on her headpiece are (not counting the horn on her forehead).#eugh.
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I think Wednesday and Yoko should become friends.
Yoko is an interesting specimen, on good terms with her sire - rare these days - and snarky enough to keep up with Wendesday, but doesn’t seek to challenge her directly, like Bianca. She also favours black, which instantly makes her more agreeable to be around. Crucially, Enid cares for Yoko, and as someone who also cares for Enid, Wednesday decides that it is her duty to at least be as amicable as she is able with Enid’s bes- othe- previous best-friend-who-is-still-a-very-close-friend.
Enid hates this.
Wednesday doesn’t notice at first.
She’s taken to dedicating her entire attention to Yoko when they speak, determined to unearth and discern every aspect of her and trusting that she can at the very least rely on the vampire to warn if not protect her if danger appears. Trust. It’s a new thing. A very new fragile thing.
It - shamefully - take a week of interrupted conversations before Wednesday turns her eyes back to Enid and a mass of strange behaviours unravel at her feet.
Anger; growls and claws and scowls. Beautiful and unfamiliar and wrong. Enid has developed a short-temper recently, it seems. There’s a bitterness to her, she’s even short with Wednesday, something which throws her entire day out of wack. Pathetic; out of sorts because a girl snapped at her. Her ancestors are rolling in their graves, the next family reunion will be abysmal.
Wednesday is a clever woman however, the cause is pitifully easy to determine. It’s her. As usual, Wednesday is the problem. Wednesday began talking to Enid’s best friend, and now she’s upset. Perfect. Even when she’s trying to do something right, she’s doing something wrong. Not for the first time, Wednesday curses herself for caring at all, and briefly considers actually cursing herself. No, no, the chance of backfiring is too high. She’s an Addams after all, what if she begins to care more. The risk is too great.
So, as someone who has an invested interest in Enid’s state of mind - they live together after all - she disengages with the fledgling friendship. Actually, perhaps she should recede from the social group entirely, the relationship is entirely casual and interaction is hardly regular anyway, but it clearly makes Enid uncomfortable. Yes, that’s the best cause of action.
#/mp#my writing tag#Wednesday Netflix#Wenclair#I've been reading gold golden by Verannode on AO3 and it makes me want Wednesday & Yoko friendship#Wednesday thinks Enid hates her spending time with Yoko. And she's right!! For the wrong reasons.#Wednesday is possessive in a 'look at how much they want you but they can't have you can they' and sends her out to play way#Enid is possessive in a 'you're mine and they can't have you' bundles her away way#this has way more words than i intended. and i have more words to say but i thought it would be nice to leave it here#I don't think Enid and Yoko are best friends in the show tbh I think Yoko is just a chill person and they are friends but not super close#I think before Wednesday came along Enid had no close friends and was very lonely and the whole rooming with Yoko thing was a jealousy bit#catch me once again writing out a plot and never delivering the goods
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Hi tumblr, contrary to what it may seem like I am not in fact dead.
Yay me! \o/
I got covid and that was a doozie (do NOT recommend, please for the love of self get your boosters). It took a lot out of me and very much outstayed its unwelcome. I already have the life of a spoonie. I'm all good on the chronic illnesses front, thanks.
When I finally did start to crawl out of that hole, an old ghost I thought long buried came back to haunt me. So that was fun.
I spent the entirety of November watching a train wreck of epic proportions unfold. In real time. Unable to look away. Unable to decide whether to make popcorn, or to go and get more kindling for the fire. (spoiler, I did both)
Admittedly I hyper fixated to the nth degree, and while I didn't quite forget this blog existed, there is only so much one can keep up with in one go.
For now the wreck seems to have settled into a pile of ashes. It remains to be seen if all that's left is a pile of burnt rusted scrap, or if there is any un-life in it yet. Either way no longer my circus and definitely not my monkeys. Although unwise life decisions are being considered in the aftermath. Status of sanity pending.
Either way, after dealing with my neglected to do list glaring at me menacingly, I finally managed to find some energy to wander back here.
In short, TL;DR: didn't die, yay. Got distracted. But I'm back now. For a given value of back, considering tired and the holidays. Have you missed me? Because I sure missed all of you. Yes even you, hellsite (affectionately).
#can one speedrun the emotional arc of a 7 year drama fest they thought they left behind in a month's time?#yes apparently one can#and uncover some unprocessed stuff in the meantime#but overall I think I am the better for it#came out the other end with closure and having done the things I could not back then#hey at least my therapist seems to think I did good :P#and she got paid for an hour of drama time so we're all good#anyway lots of catching up to do here#although I have no way of reading back for the entire month#if you think I missed something important feel free to drop in my inbox :-)#it's nice to be back
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Having a Saturday like "most people I've dated have only really liked me for my body and/or a fake personality I've presented, so when they know the true me it's not enough to keep them around. Anyways let's have some ramen for my 2 pm breakfast."
#speculation nation#negative/#mayhaps. i am not feeling too great this morning.#this came from me thinkin about my recent ex again and how she said she never actually loved me#(im sick of thinking about it. but i think im gonna be thinking about that for a long long time.)#but i thought about how excited she'd get about my looks n body and i just thought to myself like#'maybe she didnt love me but at least That couldnt have been faked.'#n then i just paused like '...Geeze.' at how depressing a thought it was lmfao#like sorry my personality is ass and my hot bod's the only good thing about me (relationship-wise)#xoxoxo cant help bein a hot mess i guess !#... i dont know if she even realizes the blow she dealt to me by saying that.#i Told her i had trust issues and felt unlovable. i Told her this.#and yet she tells me that she never actually loved me and every time she said it was a 'mistake'. a MISTAKE.#she didnt need to say that. she literally didnt need to say that. even if it was true there are just some things that dont need said.#in the end. she's not the first person who's dealt this kind of blow to me. and she might not be the last.#i'll keep going. i'll keep trying. i know im not actually unlovable. there's gotta be Someone who likes me for more than just my body#who is also a good fit for me. they Gotta exist out there. somewhere.#and for now. i continue on with full confidence in my attractiveness but Zero confidence in my personality.#might try a nice n slow romance next. make them actually work for it b4 they get to sleep with me.#make it a reward or smth. or rather. make sure theyre not here for Just that lol.#sure would be nice if i had someone interested in me for more than just my body. we'll see if i can find that lol.
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You have to imagine that they're telling her a very silly pun
Reblogs appreciated! Gan.yu (right) uses she/her! S/I (left) uses they/them!
#here it is... more accurate s/i skin#please be nice about it ;w;#for those who don't know! (bc I'm gonna put this in selfship tags) I have a medical condition that makes me jaundice like. all the time#so I'm being very brave and changing my s/i's skin to reflect this#but also I think this came out really cute :) yuyu looks lovely as she always does#Art 🎨#yuyu 🍨#selfship#selfship art#genshin impact selfship#nblw selfship#lesbian selfship#romantic f/o#f/o x s/i#I like me better when I’m with you 🍨
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oh GOD i just saw someone i'm subscribed to on youtube just released a video about the cats fandom....... i'm deathly curious and also shriveling up into a prune irl
#i think i'm most afraid of seeing myself in the video. i think i would have to quit the internet and move to the woods if that happened#somebody else watch it for me and report back lmao#the worst part is i came across the video by doing my ~monthly search for new uploads of productions#so i feel 10000% more called out than if it just appeared on my homepage#it's like a damn car crash though bc there's a part of me that really REALLY wants to watch it#the thumbnail is of 2019 characters as well which is not promising for how nice she will be#personally if i were going to make this type of video i'd pick the munkustare though#because there's nothing like father-figure disappointment to replicate the feeling of your tiny fandom being put under a magnifying glass#anyway if i never post on here again y'all know what happened lol
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