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A werewolf knight promised a bride in return for his unflinching loyalty and unmatched battle prowess.
His Jarl thinks the most beautiful, talented, and wellbred Lady of the island will suit nicely as his gift.
But the wolf has already made his choice -- he'd made it long before he ever went to war. Everything he did, every terrible, horrible, deadly thing, he did it for her.
And since he was promised a bride, well. Who can stop him? It's his due, after all.
#who holds his leash? certainly not the laird and certainly not this wench they're trying to foist upon him#he's GOING to kick up a fuss and start biting people if he doesn't get his way#Viking style etiquette but it takes place in the same universe as Dr. Pragma and Kelsi and Ettienne and Mason#which is gaslamp Victorian and modern cityscape prospectively#anything is possible <3#jk they're all modern but with elements of their respective romance timescapes for spice <3#anyway. this poor little bakers daughter.#she doesn't even know. she's like 'oh I'm so SORRY you have to be married to a peniless nobody like me. i promise I'll fix it and you can#be married to someone you actually like 🥺' and he just lets her keep thinking that because it makes her easier to manipulate and less liable#to flinch when he gets a bit. handsy. with her. becuase obv he wouldn't come on to someone he doesn't even like!#but then she brings up the concept of annulment ('well have to sleep in seperate beds of course. we can't let them get the wrong idea') and#the gig is up. he's like no we WILL be fucking. you're mine.#and then she tries to run (doesn't know about chase-instinct)
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#i love that they used daryl dixon as the bg lmao#anyways! this has been a long time coming. the positives abt social media have been starting to stop outweighing the negatives for me#and rather than offering the connection to others it once did it has begun to feel very disconnecting to me in a way i do not like#i will still pop in occasionally i think if only just to post poetry or answer asks. but i will no longer be opening this app daily or#uploading my queue so when whatever's in there now runs out that's it!#I'll still be active on patreon. slightly less active on substack and medium. and wolfgang and i will still be doing the podcast.#but i need to take my time back tbh and this will help me do that hopefully. hope ur all as well as can be <3#tcp
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We'll rule the world
#baldur's gate 3#dark urge#durge#durgetash#oc: arja#enver gortash#I'll probably have to start the run over and I haven't even reached act 3#but I like thinking about their rotten alliance#especially while reading la dame de monsoreau simultaneously#reg art
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Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!
#cats#holiday#OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few#days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below)#My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart#rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart#so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag#and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day#last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few#hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent#ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect#because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make#me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these#'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a#few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is#getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better#and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo#I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm..#pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c#Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after#like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread...#I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was#doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally#ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully#whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos#ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever.#And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely#though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart#stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive#things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***
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The funny thing about Pharma and the Delphi situation is that that's where the concept of the DJD was first introduced (with the first scene with the DJD at work happening literally the issue afterwards, issue #6) and literally the more you learn about the DJD the more it vindicates Pharma in his paranoia and being convinced that he couldn't ask for help like
In the Delphi issues we learn that the DJD hunts down Decepticon turncoats/traitors/etc and that Ambulon, one of the Delphi staff, was a Decepticon traitor. We also learn that their leader is evidently terrifying in addition to being a t-cog addict, but that's it.
Except in the subsequent issue #6 and all issues with the DJD afterwards, we learn a variety of fun facts about the DJD such as
Several of the members either literally transform into torture equipment or have said torture equipment built into their bodies
Their leader, Tarn, the guy with the t-cog addiction that forced Pharma into blackmail, can kill people with just his VOICE
We later learn that the DJD have a fanatical devotion to the Decepticon cause/Megatron such that they literally worship an idol of Megatron
Even later on, we learn that Tarn's kill-you-with-his-voice powers work both over the phone and via recordings of his voice
Tarn is also very talkative during torture sessions and he seems to find pleasure in his stupid, smug-smart guy persona where he likes to describe to victims what's happening to them and why. And there's no reason he wouldn't apply this to Autobots just as much as he does to Decepticon traitors
The DJD have access to signal jamming technologies that make it so that even if their victim can get a help signal out, no one will receive it until weeks after the fact
Their entire system of hunting people down is based on pursuing them no matter what, isolating them from any help, driving them mad with psychological terror, etc
They're capable enough warriors to slaughter an entire ships' worth of people, apparently without sustaining any meaningful casualties
They're drug addicts that are prone to overdosing and/or losing control and slaughtering people while they're under the influence
So like???
If Pharma was only privy to HALF of the things that we as the audience know about the DJD, it's perfectly reasonable to assume that Pharma probably wanted to call for help at some point, but was convinced that doing so would lead to 1. the signal being jammed/blocked so no one would help anyways 2. him and everyone else at Delphi (including the TRAITOR WHO IS ONE OF THEIR EMPLOYEES) would be horribly tortured to death by fanatical Decepticon torturer freaks.
Like I get that in the text Pharma only says that he did the Red Rust stuff so that he wouldn't be caught/blamed for the t-cog deal and is prideful about how he stopped the DJD from murdering Delphi, but like...... there's no fucking way that Pharma going "oh I didn't want to get in trouble and also I'm better than everyone" was his PRIMARY reason for everything on Delphi. Pharma didn't go from perfectly normal/sane Autobot doctor to raving egotistical maniac because he was always an asshole and he decided to solve the DJD issue in an asshole way. It's bc according to all canon evidence we have of the DJD and the way they react to traitors/Autobots, Pharma had every reason to fear for his life and believe that no aid would come to him.
#not to mention that fucking uhhhh it was BLACKMAIL???#generally when BLACKMAIL happens the whole deal is 'you give me this thing and i don't kill you'#'but also if you go running for help i'll kill you'#or 'you can't call the authorities for help bc you're doing illegal things for me so theyll just arrest you'#squiggposting#pharma apologism#mfs wanna say 'pharma could've just ran or called for help' when the DJD are literally famous#for their ability to hunt people down and murder them horribly#remember when the lost light was getting hunted down by the DJD and they called for help?#remember how it took 3 weeks for anyone to get the SOS and by then everything was already over?#also it's reasonable to think that like pharma was just giving spare tcogs to tarn without having to kill anyone at first#figuring it's just extra supplies to order and it's a small price to pay for delphi not getting horribly murdered#and it was only later that he had to actually start killing people#and by then tarn could've easily hit him with 'you could run and ask for help but then they're going to ask you'#'why you were giving tcogs to a decepticon in the first place. have fun being a traitor for that'#and then there was you know. the paranoia and constant anxiety and trauma from being next door to the DJD
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aight, aside from the fact that 3 houses by Dave Malloy is now gonna Haunt My Waking Thoughts For The Week...
nah, that's it. The only pandemic play I can get behind. Proper amount of drunken revelry, fantastic amount of fairytale allegory, Yes She Does Smoke Weed, vindictive dragon spirits and knockoff tom nooks, cairns of amazon boxes, The Ending, The Set, The Parallels...
and the wolf. Gods help me, but I wanna kiss the wolf on his broken-toothed maw. dance with him. ask him for a metal straw. I'd be a furry for that wolf in his stupid knit sweater.
(And then, the harmonieeeeees my love, they're so perfect and ugly and pretty and the genre shifts and and and)
#I can go on#pleaasee ask me to go on#everybody with the ability to get tickets see this show#Signature does student tix for like 16 bucks seriously#regular tix I think are pretty cheap for theater too#During work breaks my roommates just gonna hear a faint “me and my weed and my currant wine...” humming out of my bed#cast album isn't even on spotify yet I cry#it's so good you guys#it's so so so good like you have to understand#I'm shaking you by the shoulders and staring deep into your eyes with the deranged glint of a starving madman#you want to see this show#you need to see this show#the world around me is breaking and crumbling and burning#and I'm gonna be stumbling through its ashes in a daze thinking about the Fucking Spider Above The Cairn#The pigs will be breaking my and mine's bodies over their knee on the fucking “free speech lawn”#and I'll be in the corner thinking about Mr. Malloy's Use Of Polyphony#100 out of 10 would recommend#it runs through June please support good art#when the world is depressing this is the stuff that makes us remember the light#go see it#Dave Malloy#3 Houses#Three Houses#pandemic fiction#theater#musicals#If I have to start this fandom by myself I Will#“three strangers with their pinkies entwined...”#<3
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seconds before and after disaster (aka he's REALLY had it this time)
#bg3#baldur's gate 3#bg3 oc#bg3edit#gamingedit#vgedit#oc: robin#miyku#userwolfkissed#theviridianbunny#userfray#i'm sorry if i tagged an url or forgot someone i'm kinda ootl lately#see the one thing i'd say here is don't try to read his mood from what he's saying out loud#read his expression and also if he stops talking and starts observing you better run#these were parts of a gifset but it's been sitting in my drafts unfinished for a while now and i don't think i'll get to finishing them soo#so here have some simple gifs of him
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Me: ok the game is suggesting I do a full run with that setup and that's fine that's GREAT but I need to sleep so I want to get to the next save point quickly That First Sadness: *Exists* Siffrin: (Attack.) Me: OH YEAH GREAT LET'S SKIP THE DIALOGUE COMPLETELY-- That Scene: *Happens* Me: ...DID I SCREW THE RUN UP ALREADY? DID I SCREW THE RUN UP? DID I--
#in stars and time#in stars and time spoilers#isat act 3 spoilers#ok that being a recommended tag makes me wonder how many curveballs are up ahead lololol#for the record I THINK. the run is fine#but it definitely gave me a start lol#I'll find out for sure in the morning#also gdit I always remember WAY TOO LATE that recording 30sec clips is an option#I should have gotten more of that scene#...did get the last expression tho :D
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fighting the urge to abandon half my current wip so i can start a new, very large project that will take up most of my free time........ how are we feeling about royalty jily, lucissa, fralice, and xenodora but, and here's the kicker, they're all cheating on each other....
barty is a siren and evan is a barber/surgeon who works close to the seaside....... emmeline, mary, marlene, dorcas, and remus are knights for their respective kingdoms....... regulus & sirius are princes and severus is the royal medic for slytherin..... sybill is ravenclaws royal oracle and minnie is gryffindors prime minister..... amelia is the prime minister for hufflepuff..... hmmmmmm
#I'm having too many thoughts#my brain feels like a broken printer#OH MY GOD#andy and ted run a small printing shop and partner with rita who wants to start her own newspaper in ravenclaw...........#and thats how bellatrix meets her...... because she's a knight for slytherin and is on the hunt for her runaway sister......#guys. guys.#side note who else would be a siren other than barty?#i would say pandora but she's the queen of ravenclaw soo.........#idk i'll think about it#anyway!#<3#hp marauders#marauders
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sometimes you gotta take in the lil details
#non sims#i'll come up with a skyrim tag#in my tes era again#(always i just go sleeper agent on it ig)#still in my modding skyrim era i'm sick so that's not v conductive to me actually playing morrowind so this is what i've been doing#sad bc nammu made some good progress he joined house redoran he's actually level 3 and somehow keeps invading every vampire tomb#(i run away bc i cannot deal w that right now)#his slave bracers finally broke off <3#i'll compile some screens and post tomorrow maybe#i truly am the people todd coward thinks about when bethany esda is concocting the latest installment of weird ass lore told through#environmental storytelling and esoteric books and an open world crafted with meticulous detail cursed with bugs up the wazoo#but yeah modding skyrim is being surprisingly fun after i figured out mod organizer#i have bookmarked some mods that require me to regen lods dyndolod or whatever it's called but i'll do that at the end#at least in morrowind that's how i do it#i did my engine fixes my bug fixes my graphics and sounds overhauls my model replacers enb landscapes and now my cities and locations mods#armor next and then i'll start overhauling combat#i'm gunning for dark souls like bc that combat style suits me rly well and i always hated melee in skyrim#(re: armors sforz i looked at your imitations previews and i'm in love i'll have fun experimenting w/ them i owe u my life)#but yeah...... 99% of my skyrim experience has been in ps save for a brief moment i pirated it on release on my shitty laptop i had then#it's been wonderful to actually mod it
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do you guys ever sit and remember that dennis takes a mental health day is an episode that exists
#ada speaks#i think i could probably recite the entire one sided phone conversation he has with daisy by heart and i havent seen the ep in months#i don't know how to explain it but#from what little ive read of ross' writing it feels like. when you click onto a fanfic and you feel immediate deep trust of the author#like it just clicks#the cookbook characterization specifically. is like.#i would put my life in your hands#and im sure we will get more eps by him and i really hope that continues because i think its been a very long time since the shows had#writers that i feel Get the characters in a way that feels effortless rather than. overcompensating.#like you can smell that writer's signature no matter how hard they try to cover it up with jokes and subversions#which isnt always a bad thing and im sure if we do get more maloney eps i'll pick up on his writers quirks too#but it doesn't feel like he's trying to copy anyone/pull from old eps it feels like he has a good grasp on things which makes it feel fresh#i find that long running shows hit a point where episodes start to feel less cohesive and more like. segmented short films#but if you have a really good group of writers and they find their groove its like. yeah. ok.#i think season 3 is a good study because marder and rosell's influence is all over the entire season#later seasons you can literally just. Feel which eps they worked on because its got a completely different vibe from the rest of the season#16 still suffers from that segmentation but#i think all the first time sunny writers (and nina's first solo ep) were all absolutely fuckin bangers and they've got a good team in there#anyway. characterization of dennis flipflops a lot. but the rest of the gang arguably gets it worse at times#i think megan's dee is the absolute worst aside from conor galvin's#and i understand wanting to write her as a girlfailure who is just. horrible. but.#ok. comparing self help book dee to ross' cookbook dee. i dont even have to say anything do i.#she's like. The Woman. in the self help book. and i fucking could not stand it. ross' dee is so perfect though#and his frank. MAN.#EVERYONE FUCKING RUINS FRANK.#i think marder and rosell's frank is a lot of fun because hes clearly based on marder's dad and acts believably#a lot of writers struggle to capture his. frank-ness.#he's sort of suffered from like. bland pervy senile old man writing for a long time#and ross brought back him actually being a competent businessman#IM OUT OF TAGS IM SHUTTING UP
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Board sketch dump ranging from S1 to S3 sketches I've made (& my partner) as I make my way through the Magnus archives for the first time.
#the magnus archives#I do hc Jon a man of color & Sasha as well#but due to the board it's very difficult to portray#I'll draw the S1 four in my actual program soon to show their designs in my brain properly 👍#hey Jimmy is Tim just markiplier?#yes. he is.#(inside joke with my partner tbh)#as for Melanie's design...#it started as a joke and then it got worse as she joined the team and atp it's just a running joke between me and my partner to Barbie her#I actually much prefer the blue hair pronoun design she usually gets in the fandom#as for Martin! ...usually when others draw him he looks a wee bit much like me#so I think this fits him just fine <3#Sasha is based on my partner's design! I saw her and woaaah pretty#so tldr: gorgeous goddess in a cardigan#Jon is just scrunkly.#as he's supposed to be#(I'm only at E102 so no spoilers please!)
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do you still like dream or george?
yeah i do im just not as fixated on mcyt as i was when i first joined the community so i dont really have much to say right now,, i have my own personal thoughts but honestly my life has been hard enough these past two weeks with personal matters so everything happening has just been on the back burner for me
#also ive said this before and it still rings true but like without content dtblr just kind of starts reposting the same things we did months#or even years ago and like it can be fun ! but my interest is definitely waning without something substantial to keep me engaged#and this isnt complaining about a lack of content because i understand Why though i do have certain gripes which i think runs true for a lo#of us but rn i feel like i'll just occasionally lb for sapnap when i have the time and everything else is dependent on if d or g upload#asks#thank u anon <3
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Sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy
You have... very very very very very very very very smart people you know, and they're say something that not only isn't true, but literally is as opposite of the truth as it's possible to be... and you'll... gently inform them "hey, it's actually a bit more like this" and then they just kinda... go on saying literally the exact same thing
I'm not sure if it's just that... I often feel like I must be very bad at communicating, or people must just not notice/ignore a lot of what I say, but... I don't know
Like dearest friend, you've said something as absurd as... I don't know, it's hard to say without saying it, but honest to god about as absurd as saying the United States was a part of the USSR, that level of completely getting it backwards
...and it just doesn't seem to matter when I try to explain it... I legit don't even know if you read what I said
Really end up feeling like I'm going nuts sometimes
#to be clear; I don't mind people disagreeing with me (though that's not what's happened here... I don't think I came into it at all)#but all I need in order to be able to work with disagreement is just... knowing you at least heard and understood me#like if it's 'I get that you think that vanilla is a good flavor of icecream; but I really prefer chocolate'... ok; this works for me#it's that... a lot of the time it honest feels more like 'what are you talking about? vanilla isn't a flavor' where... huh?#let's take a real example; not everyone needs to agree with me on nuclear#but like... someone saying 'I get that it's way safer these days; but I still worry about waste storage'... well ok then#but if it's just like 'but it's dangerous and will explode' even after I've explained about the designs now#where there's a salt plug that with melt and drain before anything can happen; and these materials don't like to run away#...and it's not like they're asking me to back up the source; it's like I never said anything at all...#what am I supposed to do here? you feel me on that? do you start to get why I feel like I'm going crazy when that's how it often feels?#no one is obliged to agree with me but... literally just active listening would fix this... say you heard me and we're good#acknowledge that I voiced something and it's been noted#honestly... honestly my who life it's felt like I must somehow actually be invisible#...to an extent maybe I'm a figment of my own imagination; I might well be a ghost that's lonely and makes you all up#...for all the impact my actions have#or maybe literally everything I say just comes out garbled... is that it?#this post is about something very specific; but it's also about something that happens a lot with a lot of different people#on a broader scale; why is it no one else seems to be able to connect the dots#and these aren't like... conspiracy theory dots; these are like russia buys drones from Iran; therefore russia and Iran are partners#that's the kind of dots I'm talking about connecting; please tell me that's not a conspiracy theory to you... it seems plain to me#I don't know... I really don't... I don't think much I say will ever have any impact anywhere on anyone#...honestly a good 90% of the time people don't even respond to what I say#not like my posts here; I mean direct in dms or whatever; I'll say stuff and it's just silence or a new subject#again; across multiple people; it's common... it's... I think it happens more often than it doesn't#I can instantly name 4 conversations with 4 different people that's happened with lately#and that's not counting the 3 where I know the reason why it's happened#I really am something unfit to live; the evidence is endless#mm tag so i can find things later
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I love when pretty people are gay about their fictional blorbos, please keep filling my dash with your love for them <3 we're in the same boat
#now i wanna think about comfy scenarios with koto hehehe#wife <3#seari talks#like... i can see her stressed out and i just hug her and start to talk to her#we go through the problem at hand and i give her a different perspective and we reach a conclusion#but she needs to rest now because she just keeps running ahead and never stopping#so today she will take a nap andif she cant sleep she will at least relax in my arms#we will cuddle in bed and i fill place small gentle kisses on her face#I'll whisper to her how much i love her and ill hear her let out a small sigh and burry her face on my neck 'i love you too'#ill let her take a rest and be safe in my embrace. a place where she doesnt have to play the role of the hero of the vigilante#a place where she can lower her guard and for a second let herself be vulnerable and know that nothing will happen to her#a place where she will be able to take a breath and trust someone else#'you truly are my angel...' shed whisper after a few moments of silence and id smile and continue kissing her head and gently#caressing her back and hair. hoping she'll be able to take a small nap#seari being gay#< alr that'll be my tag for when i do this lmao
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God, this is fucking crazy
So i only have 3 more classes to take, but it'll cost the same to take 3 classes as 4 classes. So I've been thinking about taking a 4th class just for the hell of it. Something fun and/or easy.
Out of curiosity, I looked up orchestras. I was in it in my first year, but I haven't consistently played since 2016. But I still dream about being in an orchestra again. I *miss it*. So I was like. Well, what if *that* was my 4th class next semester? What If?
I looked it up. This week is the last week they're doing auditions for it. There was only one more spot free after today. And that's *tomorrow evening*.
I haven't really played my violin much in YEARS. I'm so out of practice. But apparently they don't reject anyone outright. Auditions are just for placement. So worst case scenario, I get placed in an orchestra at a lower skill level than I was at my prime. It'd still be an orchestra.
It's crazy short notice, but I don't think I'd forgive myself if I passed it up. Bc I have just one more semester before I graduate. One last opportunity to be in a school orchestra. And if I didn't do this, I'd be left with that What If forever.
So. Crazy short notice, but I have a violin audition tomorrow!!! Hahahaha
#speculation nation#im literally shaking with nerves rn but i want this so so so badly#i remember. how to play. my arms are just so much stiffer than they used to be. and my nails. man im gonna have to trim my fucking nails#at least my left hand. kinda sucks bc i like the polish i have on rn but u cant have any long nail at all for violin.#i need to play two scales of my choosing. ascending and descending in three octaves.#recommended for violin is A C or E-flat major. of course i know A and C but i'd have to look up E-flat. never did much with flats in school#then again i have that One Two Three and a Half rhythm Down. thats how id often warm myself up.#start with the base G string and just do a scale up and down (one octave). go up to the next note. do it again.#again and again until i started running out of room on the E string. & if i was Real motivated maybe id start shifting to continue.#so all id need to do is find the E flat and id be good. it all follows the same pattern.#the harder challenge will be the solo or etude. 2-3 minutes in length. only *one day* to prepare.#i have NO IDEA what id even play. i'll look in my old sheet music to see if theres anything that might work#simple enough for me to relearn on such short notice. and interesting enough to be played solo#(since i was always in orchestras it's not always the best for solo playing. tho i was also first violin section a lot#which is Basically the same as playing solo lmaooo)#if i cant find anything i do have a few sheet music books i could look in. id hate to play smth too simple#but better simple and Right than trying to do something above my current skill level.#which IRKS ME bc once upon a time i was the 4th best violinist in my high school. out of nearly 2k students.#but thats what happens when u go years without consistent practice :p ur arm gets Stiff.#im. still nervous but also thinking about the music is making me EXCITED.#it's going to be a wild time prepping for this thing but itll be over in like 5 mins and i dont even have to worry about Passing#so long as i *do it* i should get into something. i just need to push myself. do it. get out there. *play your violin*#i already cried in a public bathroom for 10 mins today and im feeling emotional Again.#not quite crying emotional tho thankfully. just. i feel like i need to climb onto a rooftop and SCREAM!!!! but like in a good way.#so so so nervous but itll be so so so worth it. i could be in an orchestra again. finally. finally finally finally.#and i STILL NEED TO FINISH THIS ASSIGNMENT.....!!!! hfkahfks today has been. a DAY.#just. keeps going through my head. i could be in an orchestra again. i could be in an orchestra again. at least one more time.
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