#i think i just have a rly bad cold or smth idk

[lanshappycorner]

Sanrio has updated Red Bouquet's character bios so I have taken the liberty of translating any additions :) (*very scuffed)

Hallritt's bio

Hobby: gift giving

Specialty: piano

Likes: apple pie, cooking

Bad with: reading maps (bad sense of direction), cooking (looks like child's play)

Merold's bio

Hobby: collecting clothes ??? (Rly weird wording but we can just assume he likes clothes shopping idk or he has some sort of clothing collection. Makes sense tho he has the best drip)

Specialty : sharp sense of hearing I think

Likes: his lord, sweets

Bad with: troublesome stuff, overly passionate/hot-headed people, nightmares

Puruth's bio

Hobby: going on walks on days when the weather's good or smth like that

Specialty: reading poems, finding 4 leaf clovers

Likes: milk, napping

Bad with: being restricted with rules

Romarriche's bio

Hobby: making sweets, sewing

Specialty: carrying heavy things

Likes: tea, taking care of others

Bad with: people who hurt his friends/comrades

Rimicha's bio

Hobby: games

Specialty: eating a lot, slacking off

Likes: fish and meat, being praised

Bad with: work, capable people

Sanah's bio

Hobby: decorating stuff, painting nails

Specialty: surfing

Likes: flowers, fruits

Bad with: cold places, roundabout situations (hard to find a word for it tbh but like when someone keeps beating around the bush or talking in riddles and stuff)

[muzdiir]

okay

idk why but like the past month or 2, occasionally when im cold, my nips will hurt rly bad. like, just sudden but persistent stabbing pain going through like the root of the nip? into the titty meat. i have not been able to get it to go away when it happens (unlike w like hard nips from cold).

i told my dr about it, & she doesnt seem overly concerned (she explained why she thinks its unlikely to be smth like cancer), but she told me she could order a mammogram if i wanted. (i'm holding off unless it becomes more often)

anyway, w the fun Dysohoria™️, i rly hate touching my tiddies & also discussing them in any serious way. i kno i should be doing the at-home limp checks but i dont bc i dont wanna touch them. so like if there is a difference, i wouldnt know.

& i kno i should also be more vigilant bc cancer runs in my family, & my maternal grandmother died from breast cancer. but also...theres a sick little part of me that thinks, if there are lumps, then i can get a mastectomy w/o jumping thru hoops 🫠

god the horrors of having tiddies

[remuslupinfarts]

6, 21, 26, 31 <3

Hiii 💟

6. Age you get mistaken for

Idek honestly…I mean like I’m short so sometimes like 13 or something but like not rly anymore (?) but then I’ve also been mistaken for like 20s I think idrk. Tbh I don’t like know what age ppl think I am

21. What I love most about myself

Basic but I honestly love my eyes bc they are brown but like light brown and a little greenish. Also this is strange but I have very muscular calves which I like mostly bc I think it’s funny idk my family just has like muscular genetics 😭😭. Also I think I’m good at like putting peoples feelings into words and like letting them know I get what they’re saying (whether it be abt smth serious or silly). Idk if that’s like special or anything but I always just like love helping friends w that skill.

26. My biggest pet peeves

Mouth noises, loud breathing when sleeping/snoring (literally sleepovers are so difficult for me), slow walkers, OMG WHEN PEOPLE DRAG THEIR FEET WHEN THEY WALK AND LIKE MAKE THE SCUFFING NOISE I HATE THAT!!!! I def have more but they are basically just the generic ones so

31. What your last text message says

“Summer is like currently a primal need” <- school is literally so stupid and I want summer so bad bc it was sunny like last week and the beach was taunting us bc it’s too cold to like actually swim like you can maybe take a dip but you can’t rly stay in and now it’s so cold and windy and ugh. I just want it to be beach weather and no school again.

[kirishwima]

why do my sensory issues just. rise up when im tired or hungry

[turkitty5]

commentating selmers poems

day 1; very cute, very good. reminds me of frankie cosmos (good). simple. i like the made up words for the sake of rhyming; a repeated tool used in her works. solid!

day 2; again, made up words. love it... very short and simple. could expand on this "octember", i wanna know how that affects her bad feelings or why it helps her to not sink or whatnot . good for her tho!

day 3; one of my fave selmers poems. very simple and good, no made up words, but no need for them really. shes just having a good time. i like this theme in her poems. this is a feeling that id like to experience.

day 4; she fucked w this one for sure... she knows whats up w cold pizza, i agree. i love the 'd that is used lol. i feel like you could stretch and try to find a deeper meaning to this one? or just leave it as is. and i like that.

day 1; simple. if you choose to pry, she does tell you what "crimes" she alludes to. (i think it was arson during october or SMTH like that)

poetry society; you can choose to listen in on this poem during the library scene with bea, and you stumble upon her and the other poets of town. obv this one isnt like her others, it seems she saves her deeper poems for the poet society and tells mae her silly short ones. i think that this poem alone could explain a huge plot of nitw itsself, i love how raw it is and i love how shes just. talking. shes not making up words or rhyming shes just really Real and even Mae comments on how "weird" it is. idk its good very good. not my fave but i do so wish she made more poems like this.

day 2; lol. also i love the Rhyme but Not rly. good poem. short and gets the point across. important!

day 3; this one gives me mixed feelings!! good feelings. i like the devolve from rhymes to none, i like how it also kind of fits the nitw theme of "shits so fucked. lets have fun" yk?? this poem is a bit scattered, thats never bad ofc. i like this one alot. even if stuff is hard, stuff is fun, take advantage of that or whatever.

day 4; good. simple. cute. just saying about the longest night holiday in the game. i like this one alot. her poems are so feel good imo

[saintobio]

i love the fact that no one in sn is necessarily bad or good everyone is in the gray area. even sera despite being with a married man i still understand where she's coming from i mean if my lover kept telling me he loves me even after his marriage with another woman i wouldnt let him go either im not saying its right for her to do that but yk.. i get it.

and lets talk about gojo that man need to let go one of them before the problem become permanent i also the fact that gojo told yn "but i want you" even just because it was the heat of the argument explain the fact that now he has accepted his needs for yn.his ego already bruised. even if part of him still want to deny the fact that his fathers (who was one of the reason he got married in the first place) decisions could be the reason he can be truly happy and he hates that. which is understandable because if gojo and yn actually become happy together his father would still act like an ass towards his own son and probably thinks his own son owes him for his happiness. (which is not tru at all i hate his dad so much i hope he burns in h3ll)

now about yn i want to take her out for a picnic or smth because she doesn't deserve whatever shes going through rn but im scared gojo starts to rub off on her but not in the good way lile fuck i hate cold distant yn too part of me just want to tell her to talk it out with him instead of avoiding it and tell him how she truly feels and i know for a fact yn is too nice to a confront someone and i think its one of her biggest flaw. the fact that she always dance around her problem because shes too scared to hurt the ones she cares about but... i love this version of yn too because she starts to put herself above the others and its so refreshing and i also think she just need a weekend getaway with her sister and dad and her close friends w/o satoru

also toji i know his intentions were good but him basically provoked something kinda fucked up like dude?? he knows hes gonna cause a scene and he still went with it ?? but thanks to toji cause hes the only one that can distracted yn from her problems for a moment instead of her stressing out. i know toji loves yn company for who she is but i think part of toji secretly love making gojo mad. and probably envy him for having such a caring loving wife

7&10 are my favorites because when i thought things get kinda better something just HAS to went wrong amd i love every second of it.

the fact ur characters always have layers to them not just like one dimensional character like each of them have their flaws and their strength even i can't truly hate the 'antagonist' in the story even though ive been rooting for yn since day 1. and this statement is not only for sn but also for ur other fics too especially the angst ones welp unless its sophia or sophie idk but we're not gonna talk about that

-🛌

thanks so much for sharing ur commentaries <3 also we cannot deny that if not for toji's plan to make gojo jealous, gojo would never have blurted out loud in front of everyone including sera that he wants yn. i agree that chapters 7-10 seem to be the readers' favorites hhhh i still get notifs from those constantly.

i am vv glad that you are appreciate how the characters were written in this series despite some of them being rly complex aaaa <33

[smalltragedy]

* justice smith, demi man + he/they | you know gabriel de leon, right? they’re twenty three, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, six years? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to 1984 (infinite jest) by the used like, a million times this year, which makes sense ‘cause they’ve got that whole waking up in a body as heavy as the dead, emotions always on the verge of spilling over - you laugh before the punch lands, the belief that every encounter you have will be the last thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is october 31st, so they’re a scorpio, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( james, 21, est, they/them )

hi im just reposting gabe’s intro bc its been a very long time n im starting a little fresh hehe. yes i do regret the text color bt im not going back.

VIOLENCE TW

mini playlist.

ghosting ;; mother mother / roam the room ;; citizen / art of doubt ;; metric / thnks fr th mmrs ;; fall out boy / heart in a cage ;; the strokes / where is my mind? ;; the pixies / flowers grow out of my grave ;; dead man’s bones / 1984 (infinite jest) ;; the used / blister in the sun ;; the violent femmes.

statistics.

full name: gabriel de leon.

nickname(s): gabe.

birthday: october 31st, 1997.

zodiac: scorpio sun, scorpio moon, gemini ascending.

label: the icarian.

hometown: belleville, new jersey.

sexuality: bisexual (masc-leaning).

pinterest.

biography.

it’s only rly ever been gabe n his mom n the little new jersey suburbs that r always the same no matter where they go. they dn’t speak abt fathers or brothers or spain or anywhere other than the now, and how its constantly changing bt oddly the same.

his mom’s name is sonia n we love her. she worked a lot as a single mom n p much hs done everything on her own ever since leaving spain.

they dn’t talk abt spain bt we cn talk abt spain n hw sonia hd grown up partially there n partially in the states n hw she’d originally planned to live there forever bt the man she’d fallen in love with ws involved in some. high class dangerous shit n it ws safer fr them to part even if tht involved leaving everything she knew n loved <3

bt its like. ok. bc she hd gabe <3 n they dnt talk abt it so it practically nvr happened. n she tries her best as a mom n usually tht is enough.

they moved around a lot just bc sonia is a very. flighty person. anxious bt nvr seems tht way is just always. tense. gabe didnt think she ws capable of relaxing fr. a rly long time.

she wld commute 2 nyc every morning n after school gabe wld climb onto the train n by the time he got 2 her place of work she’d be just getting off n they’d get a slice of pizza n sometimes they’d go somewhere like central park or coney island (just fr the novelty) bt most of the time they just got back on the train home w/ gabe either doing homework or napping on her shoulder.

when gabe got a little older he’d sometimes skip school n take the train after sonia had already gone so he cld spend the day in nyc. he liked learning bt didnt rly like school. he nvr properly fit in bc of the amt of times they’d move so it felt like nowhere ws. right fr him.

got rly involved in. the punk scene as a young unsupervised teenager n tht led 2 a lot of like. shitty stick n pokes bt also a love of. very loud angry music n a sense of justice tht he held tightly in his fists. got mouthy towards bullies whether at school or in the scenes he involved himself in n started getting into a lot of fights bc of it.

during this, sonia ended up dating n marrying gabe’s stepdad who he calls craig sometimes bt i dnt think thats his name i wont lie to u guys. its partially a joke n partially purposeful disrespect bc gabriel does not trust a single man bt like. man. ‘craig’ is just an accountant. he’s fine he’s a good dude. they once bonded over like. the mets.

violence tw // anyways. when gabriel ws 16 he got into a super super bad fight tht ended rly. terribly n like listen. nobody died bt it ws just. it got blown up very out of proportion n gabe might’ve gotten expelled even tho he wsnt even the one who started it bt thts okay. ‘craig’, or paul, suggested tht maybe. a change of scenery wld b good fr gabe n b4 they knew it they were. moving to paul-robert’s hometown of irving, north carolina. violence end of tw //

he wld’ve complained more bt. fr sonia’s sake gabe kept it 2 himself. it made her happy 2 see them all get along anyways n like. idk he cld put forth tht little effort <3

bt honestly like. he didnt rly get into too many fights once they moved down here n even tho sometimes he ws like. ommgg. i hate this town .. its so washed up .. he still made friends n like. the only thing tht changed ws tht it ws a lil harder fr him 2 acquire illegal substances.

anyways. currently he hs a tattoo apprenticeship n is a professional piercer n like. he plays guitar n writes songs bt thts more of a hobby rn than anything else. mostly focused on paying his rent at port apartments bc as much as he. loves his mom he does not want 2 live with her forever <3 n thts okay!

personality & facts.

overall xtremely passionate person like god. feels emotions so intensely. every time he opens his mouth n talks abt an interest of theirs its just very like. u listen n ur like oh. gained 2 inspiration. thanks.

clings onto his friends p tightly bc he like. nvr rly stayed in one place fr super super long in new jersey so he nvr made very long term friends n now hes like. very clingy HLKDSHLKFSHLKDG also hates to b alone. subtle desperation behind interactions with ppl he rly wld like to be friends with.

like dnt get me wrong hes gotten into. sm fights bt thts mostly bc he cannot keep his mouth shut n he also cnt stand douchebags he like. always wants to tear them down prob bc he ws a victim of bullying. n u know what. we support him. otherwise he loves ppl bt esp if they hv similar interests 2 him.

like golden retriever who bites kind of. intensely loyal but at the same time is very skeptical. things tht good things do not last very long even though they’ve been doing already fr the last few years.

also bit of a nerd. they were nvr rly a big fan of school bt theres smth abt a good superhero comic tht draws their attention more than like. any english class evr. bt seven soldiers of victory? classic. big dc fan.

uh. very into like. hardcore music. hardcore rock. punk. if its loud n angry they r into it like so so much. hs sm tattoos is like. super covered in them its partially bc they work at a tattoo shop n partially bc they do not know hw to manage their money well.

ooohh u know what theyre. kinda moody i wont lie to u. very defensive like they dnt evr wna talk abt their past. has experienced Things n they do not wish to discuss them. will usually like. deflect frm conversations he doesnt wna hv.

in tune with nature. loves fkn taking walks. hangs out in the woods by abernathy creek n lilac ridge bc nobody rly goes there n its just. nice

tries not 2 take anything super seriously 2 the point where when he does take smth seriously its a little scary bc theyre super intense abt it. forcibly optimistic even tho on the inside he feels like a total pessimist. lots of. deep down insecurities tht he projects by attaching himself p firmly onto others. >.>

so so so energetic. can never stay still. always hs to be moving around. restless like tht. probably got it frm his mom. overly protective over the ppl he loves. probably got it frm his mom as well.

goes onto Tangents bt also divert frm those tangents n is generally all over the place.

always cold n always looks tired n like he hsnt slept in a thousand years n u know what. sometimes he just does not sleep.

oooohh theyre a vegan. totally into animal rights. devious little demi man beyond that .. loves horror n the paranormal n believes in like. every cryptic. will debate u on it.

erm not. the kindest 2 themself theyre a bit self destructive. impulsive. drives very fast n parties super hard. said i will hv my effy stonem moment. u dont hv to gabe.

bt ya! luvs oranges n reds n is maybe a short king. hs an eyebrow piercing n like. a lip ring i wont fk around here he IS living his best emo life in 2021. a little outdated on the trends bt thats okay. probably will tell u hes frm new jersey. its a personality trait. smokes the shittiest cigarettes ever.

wanted plots.

just ghosting along ,, dnt even exist 2 me ,, ;; god. firstly just the vast amt of ppl tht gabe hs like. spoken to romantically n then dropped suddenly. n then maybe like. one tht actually Hurt bt they cnt avoid each other bt theyre actively pretending each other doesnt exist n its. hurtful bc it ws like. actually smth nice bt <3 ykno FKLFSDHG

hey hey heyy c’maahn i’m just a little guy ;; n this is the vast amt of ppl tht gabe hs probably. pissed off n hs either fought or been on the verge of fighting just. unable 2 resist a good bicker-turned-duel.

just blistering in the sun ;; they cld b close friends bt also they cld also not b bt just ppl who. indulge in bad impulsive decisions with gabe. general bad influences on each other’s health n just. no good! party hard bt at what cost.

n also ;; like ... rly solid good friendships ... flings n maybe an exe or two tht either ended on good terms or just. horrendous, ppl they’ve distanced frm, ppl also frm up north, piercing customers, bt not tattoo customers bc im p sure they’d get fired if they were just tattoo’ing ppl willy nilly, etc.

[satsuma-saturn]

Wings of Wax and Feathers - Belphegor x Reader

A/N: not my best work, but i felt the need to post smth, since i haven’t posted a fic in a while. was gonna finish it sooner, but i highkey had a seizure and have just been recovering from it. anyway, i hope u enjoy and feel free to request shtuff that u wanna read. i’m also expanding on writing for more than just OM!, like MM, MLQC, Love Unholyc, and that’s probably it, but idk. My brain is malfunctioning after sleeping for only 3 hours lmao. Uh, I’m not rly a big acc, so I don’t rly get any requests, so send in requests if ur so inclined!

WC: 1322

Warning(s): general angst, mentions of character death, mentions of strangulation

as always, fic is below the cut-

His dark hair shines bright in the moonlight, violet eyes illuminated, like stones of amethyst. You stand before him, watching him gaze off into the distance. He seems distracted, not having noticed your presence, despite you standing in front of him, within his line of vision, or peripheral, at least. A frown dances across your face as you decide whether or not you feel like bothering him. On one hand, you had sought him out specifically to speak to him, but on the other, you don’t feel like being snapped at. Even if he isn’t the Avatar of Wrath, he sure as hell acts like him.

For weeks, you have been avoiding him, knowing full well that he has wanted to talk to you about “The Incident.” The incident that everyone refuses to even acknowledge. Not even Mammon, who held your corpse after the life had been choked out of it. When you brought it up with him, he pretended to not know what you were talking about. Belphegor is different, though. He knows it happened and he wants to make amends. You aren’t sure that you want to, though. Often, you find yourself flip flopping back and forth between wanting to continue avoiding him and actually speaking to him. Even if he were to apologize, you aren’t sure if you could ever have the same relationship with him as you do with his brothers.

Yet, you find yourself standing in front of him, as he stares at the stars, blissfully unaware of your presence in front of him. At this point, you still aren’t sure you’re ready to talk to him and make amends, but your feet moved faster than your brain, leading you to seek him out. There’s a quality about him, giving him a soft, innocent look. Just a boy who wants to sleep and spend time with his twin brother and little sister. Beneath that soft exterior, however, is a cold-hearted killer. A demon. Of course, they’re all demons. This is their world and you’re just living in it. Even sweet, gullible Mammon is a demon beneath the surface, capable of what Belphegor did to you and worse.

Wind whips around you, chilling you to the bone. Why, of all nights, did you decide that seeking him out in the winter night was a good idea? Ordinarily, one would assume that Hell, or the Devildom, as it’s known by the demons, would be hot at all times. At least, that’s how it’s been portrayed in all forms of media you’ve seen. The Devildom does have winter, though. Winters are different in the Devildom, compared to the human world. Temperatures are colder than anywhere in the Human World, even the coldest of places. Despite the cold, tonight is warm, compared to other nights in the Devildom, yet freezing to you.

“MC.” A quiet voice drags you from your reverie, as stoic, violet eyes bore into yours. He seems to have finally noticed you. Beyond saying your name, however, he says nothing else. Just stares. There’s a tired expression on his face, but just beneath the surface, you sense his irritation. Obviously, he had come all this way to be alone and just think, but you showed up, invading his space. The demon doesn’t say anything about it, but somehow, you’re sure that that is what he’s thinking. It’s hard to tell with him, though, as he wears the same tired look on his face, no matter his mood, similar to a certain police captain on a show that you watch in the human world. Dark circles accentuate the bags under his eyes, which anyone would assume came from a lack of sleep, but you know better. All he does is sleep.

“Belphegor, hello. I was looking for you.” He says nothing, just staring at you, not blinking. You feel like a turtle, wanting to slip back into your shell, but there is nowhere for you to run. The Avatar of Sloth isn’t a threat to you, at least not now, but you still feel uneasy around him. Perhaps you should have brought Mammon or Beelzebub with you, but they’re back at the House of Lamentation, unaware of Belphegor’s location, or that you had sought him out. If Mammon knew anything of your fear of the youngest brother, he would have kept you from searching for him in the first place.

After a few minutes of uncomfortable silence, he finally speaks again. “Why? You’ve been avoiding me, but suddenly you wish to be in my presence?”

You ponder his question. Other than trying to make amends, for the sake of the other brothers, what is your reasoning for seeking him out? The two of you know that you would rather be anywhere than where you were. “I guess I just want to smooth things over with you and make amends, y’know? For the sake of your brothers. All this time, I’ve been playing the demon family therapist, and it seems my work isn’t over yet.” Momentarily, you pause, giving him time to absorb what you just told him. “So, you don’t hate humans anymore. You’ve seen that we aren’t so bad, right? It isn’t any human’s fault that Lil-”

“Don’t say her name!” He snapped, his violet eyes blazing with anger. What is the point of trying to patch things up if he won’t even listen to you? His anger was starting to rub off on you, as you scowled at him. Maybe you made the wrong decision in coming here. “Humans are insolent, insignificant beings! Just because you are the descendant of someone that I cared about, doesn’t mean that my viewpoint has suddenly changed on your kind. You’re the only human that’s worth allowing to live. The rest can all die, for all I care,” he says, as if that makes anything better. His voice grows louder with every word, causing you to back away slightly, out of fear. You don’t notice it, but he does. Even if it is his fault, it still stings to see you so frightened of him.

Even without the fear of him, his words are not what you wanted to hear. You should have known. Demons are creatures of habit, not putting forth the effort to change themselves for the better. It was in their nature, and you should have expected the Avatar of Sloth to be the least likely to make a change in his nature. “You know what? I tried! I tried to patch things up between us for your brothers, but you’re too far gone! You don’t care about me! You don’t like me! I only matter to you because I’m some distant descendant of your sister’s! This may not be what you want to hear, but it’s the truth! Stop pretending that I’m anything to you but some vicarious version of your sister!” Your hands tremble as you shout. The demon is silent, his violet eyes piercing yours. He doesn’t even appear to be reacting to your words. “What?! You have nothing to say?!” Hot tears prick at the corners of your eyes, as you try to fight them off, not wanting to cry in front of him. Sniffling, you wipe your nose and turn to walk away, the icy dew soaking into your boots, which offer little protection against the cold. As you start to leave, he settles on a fallen, rotting log, burying his face into his hands.

Belphegor lifts his head from his hands, speaking quietly to himself. “My name is Icarus, and I have flown far too close to the sun.” He sighs and runs a hand through his dark locks, feeling all alone in your absence. If only his love for humans hadn't turned to hate. Maybe then you would feel comfortable around him. For now, though, he will have to watch you from a distance, keeping tabs on you from Beel.

[inkykeiji]

HELLO CLARII BBY!

⚡ ANON HERE~

i hope you are doing good mentally physically and emotionally if not remember its okay to feel down sometimes we all have our moments but what matters is that we stand back again and be better than before♡

SO I WAS JUST READING THROUGH THE ASKS and i found out you too love rain and winter🥺ahhh that made me really happy cause almost eveyone around me prefer summer cause its viewed as happy and fun time i get it too lile ice creams beach people but i dont exactly vibe with it

but when it comes to rainy time especially winter.. smth is just so beautiful idk wether its the comforting silence or my love for cold as i literally prefer everything cold like my drink my food my water temperature or wtv it is! it should be cold snth about it just calms me down

or maybe its the fact its during my birthday time 27th dec perfect time for birthday for me i just loveee the Christmas decorations the lights the fairy feeling end of the year all that are just sappy feelings just makes me feel like im exploding with emotions in a good way

one of the reasons my snowman and me series is so dear and so close to my heart

when it comes to rain.. the whole mood is just so comforting i can pour out all my feelings and my place if covered in plants and trees like its just so beautifully green after the rain.. god is it the most spectacular view and the weather right in the middle after it rained and before the sun starts to shine... the perfect. i just love it so much i will always make sure i get drenched cause i love dancing in the rain no matter what if it rains you can see me outside :>

plus points if it has thunders and lightnings cause they are just so beautiful.

ANYWAYS THIS IS GETTING TOO LONG

( IM SO SORRYY😭 )

BUT I JUST WANTED TO EXPRESS MYSELF CAUSE YOU JUST COMFORT ME SO MUCH AND YOU'RE JUST STRAIGHT UP ADORABLE 🥺

stay safe drink lots of water and remember if you ever feel like you are alone I'm right here♡

HEHEHE aw lightning bb <33

you're so precious!!!! i'm feeling a little weird today; last night i was suffering from sensory overload rly bad but today i just feel really jittery n anxious :( but!!! i have asks queued for today which always makes me feel better and makes me feel productive!! <33

yes!!! i actually hate summer so much LMAO >.< it usually makes me feel even more depressed, which is hilarious ahaha but i've felt that way since i was about 13ish??? i also hate being hot (like it makes me ANGRY) and i absolutely despise sweating, so summer and i don't often get along well </3

i agree with you!!! i love the cold (and cold food/drinks, too!!!) and i too find something insanely comforting about the rain and the snow; i find it very cozy <3 i dunno, it's quite hard to explain!!! i think, for me, there's also a personal element to it as my happiest memories as a child seem to all be in the winter/around christmas, and now i just automatically associate summer with all of the bad experiences i've had lmao

AHHHHHHH LIL LIGHTNING BOLT LISTEN I LOVE CHRISTMAS LIKE I LOVE CHRISTMAS SO SO SOOOOO MUCH!!!! i also really love halloween, but if i absolutely had to choose one favourite, it would be christmas <3

ah see i have a very complicated relationship with my birthday, which thankfully is not in winter hehe <33 but i can understand where you're coming from!!!

i love the smell of rain, and i love the sound of it against windows and roofs when it's really pouring hehe <33 i like to describe it in my writing a lot and i am possibly writing a lil something with rain in it right now 🙊 hehe <3

AH MY PRECIOUS LIL LIGHTNING BOLT i love you so very much, you comfort me as well bb <333 it's very very nice to know that you are here for me and that i am here for you!!!! <3 i hope you have a lovely weekend sweetpea <3

ps. it seems that i picked the right emoji for u, huh!!!! lightning bolt is very fitting <33

[transrightsjimin]

@trespassers-will​ ok here we go

i also watched the various videos hidden inside each photo and the videos that were posted today as well and took notes too hjfhk

1. hobi’s room

okay so i thought i would rank jin’s room first but then i saw hobi’s room and i saw that couch nd went OMG okay thats no.1!! i love this interior so so much, like i normally hate orange and blue as a combination but this seems almost more like red and blue and it really reminds me of hopeworld. there’s many pop art-like graphic design posters adorning the walls, showing lines like ‘hope‘, ‘sweet’ and ‘my way‘. the shoes on the closet(?) behind him were disaplayed bc those are the colours we wears the most in his fashion. and then there’s this iconic inflatable clear pink couch and him wearing a pink robe and just GOD what a mood, i want a room like this!! the chair reminds me a lot of the type of fun quirky furniture i fantasized about and incorporated into my drawings as a kid when i was around 8-11, probably because i got inspired by stuff like totally spies and polly pocket, which had all these designs clearly inspired by 60s and 70s space age design but more in pink and purple i guess.

also i hate the search for such stills bc even w safe search on, you still have godawful f3tish drawings depicting those kids from totally spies ending up in search results and it’s disgusting. but yeah it reminded me of that

when i say polly pocket, i particularly mean this quik-clik (magnetic clothes and hair) era in 2005 which was what i had some stuff from. i had that couch / movie night! set and the pool and that

also i just really like hobi’s room because with all the posters and cabinets and clothing items laid out and a carpet and fun colours and whatnot, it really feels like an actual room you could live in, unlike any of the other rooms which feel very empty or too minimalist to me. but YEAH hobi’s room is my fav, i love the way a fuller room feels more cozy and habitable and floaties and inflatable floaties are AMAZING

2. jin’s room

jin’s room is so prettyyyy!! jins explanation of the room was very uhm confident and funny but i love that. the couch looks like a lilac shell, which makes sense as everything else looks very pearlescent. i really love cool-toned pastels like lilac, powder / baby blue, periwinkle and everything just looks like it’s part of a waiting hall for mermaids or something. there’s also gems in it which took me a while to realize bc i only noticed the glass chandelier and lamp but then i saw them in his hand nd on the table. i dont rly care abt gems / jewels but overall i just love how this whole room speaks ‘pretty‘ to me. robes are always a plus. as i was writing this, i was also reminded of hair extension mullet jin with iridescent clothing and all and that is actually my all time fav photoshoot / look of him. him saying he’s the gem of the room makes sense too as he’s sitting in the shell like a pearl. jin pretty pretty mermaid

ok from here on its getting harder bc place 3-8 is not so much abt which is nicer but which one actually makes me feel any emotion bc i just feel too exhausted for excitement over comebacks or anything really. also minimalism doesnt make me feel anything either. but ill try

3. jungkook’s room

ok ive been staring at a screen w few sleep for too long so ill try to go through my ranking faster bc ive been working on this post for too long, also partially bc i cant focus nd partially bc theres some i just rly dont feel much for but i feel bad for ranking one lower than the other or ranking smth higher when ive talked to someone who dislikes a room i like dghkfdf

but yeah i like jungkooks room! its a very intense blue tht might make you depressed if youre in it too long but again i love how theres multiple items stacked in the bg and intense blue lights, and the ceiling looks like it has soundproof padding. its like youre in a recording studio or at some vaguely nostalgic party of a friend of my mom, who had plants in her home nd rock music nd the tv on and was smoking nd it was a bit dark and mysterious. i like it, it intrigues me a bit nd makes me miss going to concerts. also this pic rly just reminds me of 2008-2010 pop music videos where theres always a party and dj and people are wearing sunglasses or something and theres a dance break at the end

4. yoongi’s room

also blue!! the first time i saw this pic it was bc someone sent it to me to say how ugly they thought the decoration / editing looked w the metallic dripping stuff from the couch and whatnot but i kinda like it :( i like his velvety clothing and the light blue in the rest of the room is really pretty. i like mirror themes when done well nd i like how the reflectiveness shows also in the metallic dripping nd metallic spheres and the mirror hes standing on nd the way light reflects on his clothes and from the lamp. only the lamp feels a bit too much like a contemporary art installation for me nd his room already is a bit too empty for my liking nd i had the feeling when i watched the vid of him walking through the room that there was not much to interact w in the room like it was a bit dull. his voice in the explanation videos made it feel more like a place of peace / solitude rather than boredom or loneliness though.

5. namjoon’s room

ehh i think place 5, 6 and 7 are interchangable at this point. namjoon woulve ranked lowest but i listened to his explanation videos and saw him goof around in today’s video and appreciated it a bit more. the room still looks quite minimalist and not super comfortable, like youre not allowed to touch anything there (which is the same for jin i guess but i dont view that as smth meant to look like a living room). i do like how the wood theme is present throughout each wall nd in various items and w the windows nd use of space it feels a bit inspired by japanese interior design and that that is inspired by his bonsai tree nd love for woodwork, but im not sure. i was actually quite shocked some of his explanations were so short. so yeah i place this 5th bc i like how coherent the theme is but it doesnt feel cozy or inviting nd still very cold to me, maybe bc it looks too expensive or minimalistic in terms of colours.

6. jimin’s room

i like the flowers but also i dont like tiny flowers nd they tend to be the stinkier ones. i kind of like how jimins room feels the most like a grandma one w all the flowers nd offwhite and the lamp and beige i think? but the colours are so muted and if anything it feels like a place for a bridal photoshoot nd im just so bored. i love jimin nd feel bad for ranking a room he curated so low but it rly creates no serotonine in my brain, just melatonine bc im sleepy. i like how the room i obviously quite packed w stuff, but then the washed out colours make everything still look very bleak. hmm. i do like how the flowers reach outside the borders unlike w any of the others’ photos. im about to fall asleep so let me quickly finish this post

7. tae’s room

the picture in the middle behind him is interesting nd i dont know how he made that, nd i do like how he described his room as a place where there would always be enough food for visitors. i know it’s meant to communicate some highbrow, artsy vibe but w the weird editing and lightning nothing looks real in the room he’s in (including himself, like it doesnt even look like hes in the room) and it just looks kitschy instead of artsy. yeah i dont gravitate towards this one, it’s like deep-fried and desaturated at the same time nd i tend to avoid looking at it subconsciously

8. the first room photo

i first posted a long description here why but it disappeared but in short. this photo evokes no emotional response to me other than think of kind of crappy hotel rooms i was in w my parents while on vacation nd we slept in the same room or something nd the beds were awful nd made my moms chronic pain worse. the clothing is very boring and so r the colours of the room. i know bangtan curated stuff but its still the least interesting photo to me, maybe im too depressed to feel anything idk

im sorry this was prob very boring TT_TT i tried my best to make a ranking but i rly dont know nor care as much as i would want to

[lavellane]

OTP TWENTY QUESTIONS - TRISS MADDOX / AVA DU MORTAIN

i was tagged by @goblin-deity​​ and @pillarsofeternity​​ thank u both !!! tagging @trvelyans​ @arlathen​ @solasan​ @lvllns​ @abelas​ @noonvvraith​ @lavelans​ @rosebarsoap​ and anybody else who wants to!

who can out drink the other?

who CAN but chooses not to? ava. who WILL but absolutely SHOULDN’T? triss 100%. neither one of them are big drinkers but put triss in a social setting and watch her instantly lose any and all ability to self discipline lmao

who says “i love you” more?

hmm okay so they both have their own individual and specific Issues around relationships, so neither of them rly say it all that much except during intense/intimate moments when it rly matters. but i think after a while (as in like a year or so into the rel when ava is used to it and comfortable) i think ava might say it slightly more than triss does, just in priavte together whilst Doting on her u know.....

who has trouble sleeping alone?

triss ! i mean even before they got together her nightmares were real bad :( but being w ava thru the night helps, to the point where theyre basically a non issue for her anymore. plus she’s a very cuddly person in private just in general and likes BEING cuddled fdjdjfkjf so not having bae w her during the long, cold nights is..... a tragedy luv 

who swears more?

oh triss djdjkffdkjfdk tho shes doesnt swear THAT much and never around ppl she doesnt know. usually just when shes distracted or with fwends having a goof...

who does more of the housework?

probably ava.................. triss is lowkey a messy bitch lol. not DIRTY or anything like her house isnt gross or whatever but she definitely just leaves shit lying around and never tidies lmao. when ava comes around she always ends up cleaning jsut bc shes Like that. as for things like dishes/vaccuuming/etc, mostly triss does that stuff bc its her apartment lmao,, tho ava will always end up helping her anyway bc, again, shes just like that

who forgets their anniversary?

triss :’’’’(((( shes RLY independent and before ava she took a very modern approach to dating so she rly doesnt.... consider those things too much. i like to think ava WOULD remember bc her memory is like. impeccable lol and she’d want to know these things bc shes somewhat old fashioned - but i also dont think she’d care enough to be upset by it. like she IS old fashioned in some ways but like ava of all ppl would probably agree that its not a big deal. regardless triss always wants to do smth together when she does remember lmao

who steals the duvet in their sleep?

TRISS AND SHES SO BAD ABT IT AS WELL. shes the MOST restless sleeper u will ever meet, absolutely throws herself all over ava during the night and if ava was as fuck-off-strong as she is, i have no doubt triss would succeed in pushing her out of their bed on multiple occasions

who keeps the other awake at night with their snoring?

neither, fortunately ! tho on the odd occasion when ava sleeps, she is sometimes woken up by triss sleeptalking during nightmares

who finds stray animals and begs the other to let them keep them?

honestly neither again, mostly bc triss is so busy and her apartment is too small for anything other than her bird. triss is definitely the type to pick out the ugliest/most feral stray animal she can find and gush abt how cute it is tho!

who usually makes dinner?

triss! she likes cooking even tho she’s not very good at it. she sometimes asks ava to help her in making recipes that ava likes or is more comfortable eating, bc of the whole sensory thing

who plays their music out loud?

triss again ! i have a hc that there is ALWAYS music playing at triss’s apartment, she always has her radio or her speakers playing smth bc she is uncomfy with silence, and also just bc she likes to dance around the house kfdjkdkf

who hogs the bathroom?

okay.........i HONESTLY think ava. idk why but i feel like ava takes rly good care of herself. whereas triss is a rat who will brush her hair and teeth and maybe put a moisurizer on if shes feeling it that day lol. ava at the VERY least spends a lot of time on her hair imo, washing it as well as making it look so damn Iconic

who gives the most compliments?

triss ! shes a very sweet bby and u cant rly get thru a convo with her without being complimented at least once lol

who usually starts/causes arguments between them?

definitely ava, tho i would argue - at least in the context of their relationship - that its actually a good thing, or at least a healthy thing. triss HATES conflict that involves voicing her own issues w something, and much prefers to just bury it down or pretend it doesnt exist. which isnt healthy at all ! so a lot of their arguments usually have to do with ava trying to get triss to have meaningful dialogue with her and not hold back so much.

who isn’t afraid to embarrass the other in public?

triss.................i feel so damn sorry for ava actually lmao

who gives the other cringe worthy pet names?

hmmmm, ava gives them unironically (like. triss’s cousin once overheard ava call triss “my love” or “my heart” once and NEVER lets triss forget it) but triss absolutely goes out of her way to come up w some truly creative ones. 

who fusses over the other when they get sick?

ava !!!!! i feel like after 900 years she would be Extra worried abt that kind of stuff, and severely catastrophises abt how absurdly fragile/vulnerable she thinks humans are. like triss will get a cold and ava will still partially act like its 1183 or whatever and her gf is literally at deaths door lmao.

who finds it impossible to stay angry at the other for long

hm both ! ava tends to get frustrated a lot at everybody in general, but triss has an annoying way of cutting thru all of that lol. whereas on the other hand, like i said, triss just doesnt get angry, and even if she does she tends to just move past it as quickly as she can because she doesnt want to argue

who clings to the other for comfort when they’re sad or scared?

i think both, but in slightly different ways ! triss always wants comfort from ava, whether shes happy or sad or whatever lol, but i do rly love the idea of ava relying on triss a little more for emotional support once they have been in a relationship for a while, and once and ava feels safe w that kind of thing............like just letting her be vulnerable with someone whom she trusts, just for a little while.... 

who is more ‘physically passionate’? (hugs, kisses, or maybe more…)

again i would say both in different ways ! it rly depends on what the q means by passionate. like triss is very handsy and quite physical w her affection, and ava is more into the subtler stuff. but in saying that, when ava does get physical its WAY more intense and ‘passionate’ in that sense!

[thoughts-of-the-unheard]

i just dreamed

that two of my friends slept over and they both slept on my bed but i slept on a sleeping bag at the foot of my bed and i didnt think anything of it until we went to do it again the next night and i was thinking the boy should be on the floor and i should be in my bed bc its my bed but then two indiscriminate people showed up to sleep on the floor on the sides of my bed and im not quite sure who they were but i wasnt bothered and a bunch of other people started showing up like a party and this one kid that was in like four of my classes and i think is really attractive  was there but we werent friends so i was  

confused about that but my father showed up and we have a bad relationship and wed always fight but never in front of people but there were all these people in the dream and he was snippy but quiet so no one else could hear him and he said some rly scathing thing and tried to leave but i followed and said smth about him and he just stood there which he never did so i went to go back upstairs to the party and he followed as he said smth and i backed up the stairs and across my room as he talked and i walked into the guy friend who slept over (gfwso for now on) but i didnt really acknowledge it bc i had some kinda tunnel vision bc my father was still talking and the music from the party in my room was turn down or off idk but everyone was staring and i started to tear up and he glared at gfwso then left and i turned and went through the attic door bc thats what i walked into and i didnt want anyone to see me cry and gfwso followed to cheer me up or smth but my attic wasnt my attic to the right of the door it was a whole other house that i promise ive never seen before and we were in the kitchen and there was our old couch but slightly off in it and the cabinets were almost blindly white with the lights on them and there were stairs going upstairs behind that you could see in spaces and i wanted to explore because “i never knew this was here!” and suddenly the place was full of more people but just generatic like space filling people no characteristics but it wasnt like they all just appeared there it was more like my mind had just registered they were there but anyway i went exploring and gfwso just kinda followed along but id ask him where to explore next and i grabbed his hand and like tugged him with me and there was this section that led to like a back deck that was level with the ground where the rest of the building was like built up anyway it was dark and we were looking out and i said “wow” bc i thought i saw a lake in the property of the people next to us but it was just really wet pavement and i was embarrassed but i hadnt told him i thought it was a lake so i wasnt embarrassed about like him just to myself for being so dumb and then we went back inside and up the stairs behind the kitchen and he started kissing my neck but i kept pulling away and laughing as i led us upstairs bc i hate pda and i knew ppl could see us and we werent dating and i wasnt even sure he liked me until he kissed me and i found like a supply closet or smth and went to kiss him back like actually kiss him but his top half was a cleaner bottle like spritzer one and i was kissing a spritzer bottle and i was excited to kiss him but when he was a cold plastic bottle i was disinterested and disappointed but i wasnt confused about him being a bottle i thought it was his halloween costume but i dont know what my costume was and i walked out of the supply closet to see some tall masculine person standing there like angry at me for being there bc they wanted to make out with their short boyfriend in there but they didnt say that i just knew it they said they were angry bc i was making out with a boy in there but i knew when they opened the door that bottle head gfwso wouldnt be there so i just left and eventually i found gfwso again and he didnt have a cleaning bottle body and him and his friend and i walked off the deck and were walking home bc gfwso and his friend live close together but its x miles (i didnt catch how many i just knew it was far) from me but i didnt want to stop talking to him so i walked with them and his friend didnt say anything the whole time but we bickered lightheartedly and i remember walking across an intersection but there wasnt any buildings around us and it was really bright and i thought it was early morning so i was confused about that and i said so and i looked back at my house to see it was still kinda dark there like we were in a time zone on the other side of the world but i looked at my phone and it was only 6am ish but it looked like 2pm where i wouldve been bc the sun was wholly out it was getting toasty and gfwso’s friend left well more like disappeared but i understood that he had gone home and we kept walking and lovingly bickering and stuff and there was this tree on the right side of the road and it was short but wide like a motel and on the other side of the road there was a tall chainlink fence like 10ft high or smth and it was a bit taller than the tree and this old couple was driving on the road and we thought they might get into an accident if they kept driving like that and right as we thought that they went off the road and crashed right beside the tree into a trailerbed that wasnt there before and we ran over to them to see if they were okay bc were both first aid and cpr and aed certified and we asked if they needed help and i thought the old man who was driving had died bc his head was bent toward me but his body was 90 degrees away but his head just moved back to his body like memory foam would rise back to its position after someone layed their hand on it and i thought it was weird but i didnt say anything and the old lady who i understood was his wife said they were okay and they were lucky they went up the trailerbed and not into it and she laughed and i looked to gfwso who was suddenly my ex bf connor who i ended on bad terms with and then i woke up to my alarm

thoughts? theories? interpretations? analysis? ideas? comments?

[y-kihyun-archive]

rules: answer 10 questions, tag 10 mutuals to answer 10 questions you write

tagged by @memehyungwon​, tysm!! ur questions are so interesting lol, i already know i’m gonna write way too much for each question so i’m putting my answers under the readmore 😂💗

1. what book would you recommend to me and why?

oh no all the books i’ve read recently were for school LOL 👁👄👁 but “orfeo” by richard powers is good if u like scifi ! it’s like somewhere between scifi, magical realism, mystery, drama & it’s about the significance of music which 🥺🙌

2. what is a hobby you loved doing as a kid that some may think is dumb?

omg i used to try to sew clothes for my american girl doll but they just looked like sacks HAHAHA

3.  if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know?

y’know... i don’t feel any real desire to know a Deep Universal Truth™️... i would probably just ask the ball if/who i’d be married to... like.. not to be single and lonely in quarantine... lol....... haha jk.. unless...?

4. what movie trope do you think you fit best?

not to be y/n but i WANT to be y/n LOL 😭 when will a hot, cocky, rich man with like idk daddy issues or smth sweep me off my feet at my corporate desk job so we can go on a quirky & life-changing romcom adventure to fix each other??

5. what’s a common misconception people have of you?

👁👄👁 in high school everyone thought i was just Nice, Quiet, Smart Asian Girl #2349054 (the one who draws anime boys in her journals and does math good or whatever) but i am not sure about now ? i think ppl in my social circle assume a lot of things about me bc i’m friends w/ @vsfakelove 😯 (ex: ppl think i’m on leadership in the uni club we’re all a part of bc she is, but i most definitely am Not)

6. who would be on your dream concert line up? (no limit for the amount of artists. you decide)

EASY PEASY: monsta x, rich brian, glass animals, cold war kids !! the first 3 i’d give an arm & a leg to hear/see live, their concerts looks like so much fun, and w/ cwk i just love their music so much ;;

7. would you rather be able to travel back in time or would you rather travel to the future but you’d never remember what you saw?

TRAVEL BACK IN TIME TO THE PAST but specifically to when there were dinosaurs, i would like to observe a dinosaur to see how close paleontologists’ reconstructions are :O

8.  Your house is on fire. You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. What’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno? (family and pets are safe so don’t worry)

not to be boring but my laptop 😭😭😭 i need to replace my phone soon anyway, my phone can perish... most everything i own is p replaceable, it’s just stuff !! 🤷🏻‍♀️

9. what’s the funniest thing you ever heard said about you?

AAHH one time we were playing that weird ellen app (psych) and the question for me was “what would be the first result when you google chelle” and 😭😭😭 @vsfakelove wrote “an article from the local newspaper with the headline ‘local teen found lost in park after following a man claiming to be lee jooheon’”

10.  what one song that without fail WILL make you cry? why?

uhh i think “dreamland” by glass animals... sometimes it gives me the urge to cry; it’s a rly pretty & sort of sad/dreamy (haha) song, and i listened to it obsessively on repeat when it first dropped bc that was also the day i got rly bad news 😬 so a lot of associations going on oof

my questions:

what’s the worst thing you’ve ever eaten?

describe your aesthetic as pretentiously as you can!

would you marry your bias? why/why not?

what’s your favorite myth?

what’s your favorite meal?

what is your idea of true happiness?

if your life was a movie, what song would play during the opening credits?

if you were a dinosaur, what dinosaur would you be?

where’s your favorite place to hang out/visit?

what do you HAVE to have on you when you go out?

tagging: @vsfakelove @kyunsies @kihyunsgf @fantascia @burnitupmp3 @kebinwooo @kihynnie @ckyunoirs @zit @shownudeluxe​ but as always no pressure, sry if you’ve already been tagged, and feel free to ignore !!

[excorcismic]

YES i caved n’ decided to pick up my boy and YES i’m trying ,,, to right a quick rundown and plotting post while yearning for the sweet release of sleep bc orientation sapped me of all my energy BUT !! i’m , , ,  so excited . to pick up leon . so excited . i love this man more than anything and i’m OVER THE MOON to pick him up so let’s get on with it before i repeat myself one more time !!

IN A CANON NUTSHELL : so leon is a character originating from resident evil 2 ; he’s considered one of the chief protagonists of the series , but not the first . in his first appearance he’s a rookie cop and his first day on the job , raccoon city is overrun by zombies ( infected humans rather than the undead , though ) and after that day . . . leon can’t do it & because of his heroism for dealing with the raccoon city debacle , he’s made into a government agent instead . in resident evil 4 , he’s tasked with rescuing ashley - the president’s daughter - and ends up uncovering & battling a cult known as the los illuminados as they have their own zombie virus known as the plaga . then . . . in resident evil 6 dude ends up actually . killing the president because of the president getting infected with a zombie virus . long story short , leon’s been through a shit ton of zombie apocalypses ( and other monsters the virus creates ) and he’s exhausted . he tries to go on a vacation and then chris redfield busts in like that dancing paul rudd gif so even THEN homie can’t catch a break . but he’s a very good dude & perhaps one of the most good-hearted , selfless people on the planet - it’s just sad because he started out with so much hope and after witnessing so much horror that hope fades and is replaced with exhaustion & even a bit of cynicism . but not enough as to where he turns into a person that won’t give you the shirt off his back because oh yeah , he is . he’s just maybe a bit more distant and doesn’t smile as much as he used to . 

IN AN ALUCARD NUTSHELL : so leon is a former paramedic ( that sometimes still is called to do things ) turned hospital nurse - he was known for being the hero of the story multiple times in horrifying cases , and he’s overall gotten a pretty good reputation as a medic . however , the reason why he moved onto nursing was because the stress got too much for him for those dire situations after his divorce from his wife - miss cordelia chase . and now he’s just kind of trying to get through things but . things aren’t the best on his end even though he’ll try his best to power on through . he’s pretty okay but not great you know ?? 

BUT OOOOHHHH YOU WANNA PLOT WITH LEON SO BAD OOOOHHH

just to start off by saying idk if this list will be as long as misa’s bc it’s currently shortly after midnight and i’m getting more and more tired & incoherent as the clock just ticks away -

BUT ANYWAY . ppl who routinely come into the office / hospital he works at would be p cool and know him pretty well as a nurse from that . he doesn’t work in the ER most of the time ; though sometimes . he mainly is in the office doing stuff for checkups and all , clinical things . honestly tho it would be a bit of an interesting connection if sb went to the ER for embarrassing / stupid reasons ( party gone embarrassingly wrong , for example ) and leon’s the guy that has to help with it . just a Thought .

also coworkers !! idk if we have anyone from the medical field yet but there’s also that .

again he was married to cordelia so if ppl who know cordelia know him as cordelia’s ex-husband we can run w/ that and make smth out of that as well .

leon is also . kinda . lonely . like misa . can y’all see I Have A Type when it comes to muses AHHH - but anyways he spends a lot of his nights at bars and stuff so maybe some drinking/bar buddies he sticks with or the like . maybe waiters/bartenders who know him pretty well just from the fact he’s a regular , kinda know what’s going on with the dude .

like misa , neighbors . he’s not a spunk twenty-four year-old emo-fashioned mr. rogers like misa is but he’s a caring dude who looks out for them .

speaking of caring - maybe some ppl leon’s saved as a paramedic or in general just patients he treated for a while ?? i just . rly like the thought of leon caring for people on the job and then he finds them outside of it and he subtly cares for them off the job too . maybe even if it’s doing as much as sitting with them or comforting them when a loved one’s in the hospital or something . idk i just . like how much leon cares abt people .

okay so people from high school bc i lowkey headcanon leon wasn’t a troublemaker but he was more of a bad boy/rebel type just for the fact he had a tendency to do things that weren’t . by the rules . by the book . never mean or anything just maybe sometimes would hang out at abandoned buildings or late at night and now he’s significantly mellowed out and maybe that rebel is still somewhere inside of him but ur gonna have to dig it out a bit . and this could rly be anything too like friends , enemies , exes ( leon is bi u can pry that from my cold dead hands ) , etc . prom / homecoming dates , people who only knew him as a kid that got busted once for drinking alcohol in the back of somebody’s truck , etc . let’s have Fun with this .

also in general , just some good friends he’s always had ?? people who’ve known him for a long while and have still stuck with him .

exes !! whether it be pre-marriage or post-divorce . post-divorce i don’t think leon would rly stick in the relationship for long given he more than likely was not prepared at the time ( probably didn’t go past a few months , def some were just one-shot dates ) . again , he’s bi & capcom cannot take that away from me .

maybe a found family of sorts - leon . . . would be a great dad so maybe some younger folks he kinda dads over without meaning to .

AND AGAIN RLY . . . anything i’m sorry if this isn’t as detailed as misa’s bt IF I GET MORE IDEAS I SHALL ADD !!

this is long again i’m so sorry bt again react or like if ur interested in any of these connections !! imma retire 2 mobile n try to get some shut-eye .

[bpdeadd]

the doctors came again today to give my sister smth to knock her out bc she's not sleeping and she was singing in her room some poem, chant or smth she made up for like HOURS and then went outside and was wandering around the garden singing this ‘chant’ or w/e - the doctors arrived and she locked herself in the upstairs bathroom and she kept singing this thing she wrote but like ??? 

and the doctor said to me ‘it must be very scary seeing your sister like this, don’t worry people do get better’ and I'm just thinking should I tell them I have a mental illness myself or ??? I have a personality disorder m8 dealing w that is scary enough plus I can’t atm emotionally connect to my sister so idk rly know wtf plus for a lot of us we don’t like jfc

is it bad that I feel kinda annoyed about this bc no one took my mental health srsly and just thought I was just weird and a ‘bad person’ for being like this? I mean my mum was pointing at my sister who was chanting and talking to herself and dancing around in the garden in the rain and said ‘see this is REAL mental illness’ and like why tf is she invalidating my mental health and experiences just bc I'm not delusional or twirling around in the rain and cold and chanting to myself? like wtf

plus this has just happened within the last few days and honestly I've been like this for years and no one did or said anything even when I said and showed I was struggling, but they all ignored me, so I feel kinda annoyed about it? like I feel sorry for my sister for dealing w this but its like my parents ignore my brother and I - call us bad people and manipulative and abusive for how we are and invalidate us both (and me for basically saying my depression, anxiety and BPD aren’t real mental illnesses??? which I said to her that there are many types of mental health issues like wtf mum) but as soon as my sister acts weird and also how she is atm (which I do get like she's not with it anymore) they all jump on it??? suddenly my sister gets help and I'm still fucking on the waiting list for therapy for about a year now.

my parents won’t have her hospitalised atm bc they are concerned about her anxiety and going to a new place may make things worse, (when previously they didn’t give a shit) and y’knw I keep thinking if that was me they’d happily send me off somewhere just to get rid of me - same w my brother.

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2018 Creator Reflection

I picked out my fav pieces from this year like I did last New Years! Lots of rambles abt them all beneath the cut.

January: Miners is one of my fav poems ever--I think I did it some justice. Owen swapped the poem’s meaning from the mine collapse to the war-dead but both apply to Nol so it works perfectly. Fake lighting is rough but I learned a rly efficient (if layer-heavy) technique for it here.

February (one / two): I had to pick two here since both of them always stayed with me. I think the image speaks volumes of them with Nol violently ripping apart these grimy shells while Elliot’s sitting on needles with a dainty white box of pastries. For the second, I know I pick on Nol a lot, but this was one of the key turning points for him. And I used to obsess over his breath--I still do tbh--but here’s where that motif came back in full force.

March: I wanted to make smth soft after Feb’s dark contrast, and Keats gives me the best excuses tbh. At this point, I was really into giving white strokes and painting shadows onto my edits bc art nouveau is such a mood. I think this is also when I started lightening up abt just representing Nol and Eli’s romantic relationship on my blog. I still get nervous abt sharing but I think my best work still comes from them together.

April: I honestly had way too much fun writing this and I still have leftover purple prose lines sitting in my drafts from it. I’d forgotten how to write them until this prompt woke the skill back up in me. Tbh I still go back to it when I need to remember. Also rivi wrote me this in return and I’m p sure cry everyday abt it bc her writing is so beautiful

May: Fam I love this song sm. I rushed to finish this edit and then revisited it a few months ago to adjust the blur n such. It’s probably the most complicated thing I’ve ever edited. The lyrics fit so well with how Nolanel just vice-grips things to hold himself together, so I put the dragoon for war, Elliot for Elliot lol, and the flag/rosary for faith and country. Each of these things conflict and form the core of his struggle as a person.

June: I think smth possessed me when I made this--I started with no idea where I was going and suddenly I had this really beautiful sprawl of light and dark. I think Sae is really fascinating and complex n im glad I got to know the rad person behind her more this year!

July: I spent several days on this and the whole thing is a blur in my memory. I put Nol on the altar on purpose since he’s the more “holy” of the two/has done less wrong, but mostly since he’s the one who gets the most out of these moments away from the world. Elliot still has outside thoughts n he’s not as relaxed, but Nol’s hand on him is kind of all the reassurance he needs. I gotta finish editing the whole album one of these days, too.

August (one / two): I think both of these give a brief impression so I picked them. The one about the rosary I find impactful and genuinely cold--I used to get censured by classmates for being too dramatic in the emotional sense (at this point, too bad). As for the second, I was really not feeling well around that time, and finding The Heart’s Journey in school rly got me out of it for a few hours. I think the edits themselves are a bit awkward but I’m fond of the composition anyway and of what I tried to make.

September (one / two): I barely ever think of Elliot younger than seventeen, so fourteen yo Eli crashing into my thoughts w a Calamity flashback was such a sucker-punch. I’m so in love with his rashness and with Jos at the end. As for the edit, it recreated by accident the everybody-cry-on-the-floor (idk if this is mood or goals) pose when Nol proposes--I still dislike the scene but I felt a little better abt it after this (slapping a Pogany heart into it helped)

October: can i just AAAAAAAAAAAAA abt this bc that’s my author’s note (i failed writing smth happy w no strings attached but it reveals some rly intense n important parts and issues in their relationship that i rly loved expressing finally)

November: (one / two) OK i had to pick two from this month because these go together for Armistice Day. It takes within 2 seconds of knowing me to learn that 99% of my braincase is filled w thoughts on war poetry n war culture, etc, will smith poses at my like 8 soldier characters. I still think of Nol as a ltn so it was really cool to approach some of his interaction w his company as a loveable? mob.

December (one / two): I made both of these as leveplates! I’ll post versions w the frames once I figure out making more of them. I’ve attempted stained glass before and it doesn’t usually come out well--I stick to the art nouveau sort of borders much more. Using super saturated colors was new, esp w Nol, but I really love both of their poses (which, for once in my life, I didn’t have to combine 4 pictureS to achieve).