#i think generally like. i just wanna be friends w ppl and if i also happen to find them hot maybe have a little sex
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Had a seismic moment today where I completely reframed my outlook on ambition & started looking at it (in the context of seeing it in other people) as admirable rather than opportunistic to a fault
#To be clear ppl who only work to serve themselves exist & they’re never fun#But as a pre med student surrounded by other ambitious pre meds it’s like actually motivating to see ppl wanna make a name for themselves#And be resourceful#I think the issue only comes in when people get frugal ab their resources and gatekeep them which is like#Very rampant in pre med culture unfortunately#But not w my friends & I love that#Like we’re all very tunnel visioned on what we wanna do but we will share resources w each other always#And no question goes unanswered#We r genuinely happy to be of service to one another#This also made me think ab how I frame ambition in men vs how I do in women#But now I’m very careful about when I label ambition “annoying” like it actually is just inspiring#Esp when exhibited by generous ppl who wanna see u succeed too
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You're super cool and if they don't have a crush on you that's their loss. You deserve someone who is endlessly grateful to spend time with you. Someone who's desperate to be with you. Accepting anything less than that is beneath you
WELL. idk i’m actually fine w most ppl not crushing on me? i can get all these things out of a rly nice friendship too <3 i’m specifically hoping this One person is crushing on me because they’re incredibly fun to flirt with
#i think generally like. i just wanna be friends w ppl and if i also happen to find them hot maybe have a little sex#the one relationship i AM in rn. the one w rama. is only able to be as intimate as it is because we always primarily treated it like#a friendship where we just happened to also have sex? and at some point we’d just gotten so close to each other that it was virtually#indistinguishable from a relationship#any time i’ve properly dedicated myself to trying to have a romantic relationship w someone it just Has Not Worked cuz#i’m probably just a little bit aro. it always just exhausts me and i act weird n stupid#sorry this isn’t rly what the ask was abt but i’ve had a LOT of thoughts on the subject recently#asks
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i know irl guys who are kind of similar to both nagi and oliver personality wise and i've slept w them both
#cora talking#like guy who lives alone during high school#i dated him in high school to be clear. we were in the same grade#he's super smart too like naturally#also he was like PLEASE sit on my face i think that's hilarious in hindsight#not smart in football tho just like in general#idk it's not hard to find oliver aiku in the wild esp in uni if im being honest LMAOO#the guy i know tho we were really good friends actually#he had a roster of both men and women and he would rotate ppl in and out#like Regulars he slept w bc he preferred that#that's truly how i think of aiku#good guy tbh despite his fuckboy tendencies#and a huge reason why i wanna write oliver in a nice way tbh#i think fanon like emphasises that he's a sleaze too much sometimes tbh HAHA#this is very /lh#i think it's fun to read#he's listed as top gentlemen tho i wanna bring that out in him more
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You are allowed to think what you like, obviously, but since you said that you weren't following the full coverage on it i just wanted to let you know that there were only five people (plus the pilot) on board the "submarine" and they were all billionaire business men.
okay ty! yah like i said it wasn't an informed opinion on the situation, just an inarticulate reflection on the current state of my dash haha. mainly it's just a generalised personal discomfort with media coverage of tragedies lol. obvs billionaires are inherently unethical and don't need defending so it's not even rly about them tbh. intended as more of a personal post than serious commentary yk (honestly i assumed there were some kinda employees on board along with them sjdjgjf - i'm uninformed mostly on purpose lol, i feel uncomfortable looking for details. but thanks for clarifying + not being rude dw i hear you)
#i forget how many active followers i have tbh haha#not to tmi and i don't wanna talk abt it more but a friend of mine died alone in a hiking accident on the other side of the world last week#and within hours of her being found i had a fucking news reporter messaging me on facebook asking to comment for their 'tribute' to her#so im Sensitive abt it sjdkfjg#as a general rule im not rly comfortable w paying close attention to news of unexpected deaths unless they're like. public political figures#i saw an arcticle on my dash about like. the family of one of the ppl involved w ppl joking abt their perceived reactions and i just can't#personally get on board with it 😭 i just think ppl have the right to mourn privately even if they're evil#it's abt the mourning thing specifically tbh#this is also the. Third time i've had journalists get nosy abt an untimely death of a friend/relative#i just can't vibe w morbid curiousity abt recent/ongoing accidents tbh (even tho i know it's a pretty natural thing to do)#anyway this is once again a personal post not trying to get into discourse over this pls (ur fine anon this doesnt count)
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#helpp i know sometimes ppl use ai for school TO SUMMARIZE really long readings when theyre short on time#like i still dont think thats. ideal. but i can understand it.#what i cant understand is using ai writing for assignments.. which ive had ppl proudly talking abt before.. ew#and recently my brothers been using ai for like. cover page and resume layouts but like..#wait actually i think i could solve my brothers layout problem if he just wants to remake his old one but ANYWAY..#hes sounded pretty happy abt it and it makes me feel a little bad but even my parents r like. why r u using ai 💀#AND IM GLAD bc theyre usually. not right w their opinions im ngl#idk whats my dads deal with it but my moms is that people are getting lazier or dumber and not doing things on their own#and thats part of why i want my brother to stop too but hes stubborn and he probs like that it saves him some time#but genuinely i think he spent a good amount of time generating layouts and even asked me abt it#but i probably couldve remade his in google docs in less.. and he'd be able to edit and adjust everything to his liking too#idk why i just realized i could remake it today😭 saw the side column and my brain shut off idk! its possible even w my limited knowledge#ALSO ON AI. heard from a cousin whos in his late teens say that he has friends who are “dating” their ai bots?#like snapchat ai chats? girl huh#like i knew abt c.ai and shit but the snapchat bot? if ur on snap then just talk to people 😭#like i knew people would freak out that would freak out whenever c.ai was down for maintenance n shit#but i think even they have more awareness than the people who go around announcing theyre dating their chat ai#and like i get it! bot says everything u wanna hear n ur like ooh🥺#but like. at the end of the day thats still just a chat ai.. and apart from the “wtf” factor. i do feel bad if ppl cant remember that😭#where was i going w this umm. using ai writing! bad! and im not even gonna get started on art 💀#i think for me also part of it is like. do u really want to write to other ppl in some ai's words and not ur own?#and ai can generate u as many nice looking resumes as u want but when u need to update it ull have to redo the process of#generating a new one or a similar one all over again if u dont have access to it in a way where u can make edits..#like its just a waste of your time and the writing isnt sincere idk. ig it matters less if u think ppl wont see it#but i heard ppl r doing it for creative writing applications to universities too and its like. why? what are u writing#a prompt? girl get the fuck out of here#anyway. will quit yapping 💀 ai bad#44597
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#this is a fucking vent so just gnore the venty ass tags but i have nowhere else to place this that feels safe other than just.#shouting into a void where no one hears. aka here ig.#bc its better i shout into a void alone than drag others down with me somehow—i dont. know#regardless… i’m just… i dont know what to think.#things are really bad lately & i’m struggling again to stop myself from sh utting down every time i try being vulnerable & opening up.#i keep clamming up & letting my mind take the reins when it tells me to just erase anything i say. to not open up.#to swallow every single emotion & experience that’s hurting me & let that poison kill me slowly instead. deal with it alone#because it feels like its wrong to open up. like its wrong to say anything. like me being open is just.#me being a fucking burden or something. i don’t know. i shouldn’t be like this. i’m supposed to be fucking better than t his.#what the fuck happened to the version of myself that could just keep suppressing & suppressing & not being a goddamn thorn in ppl’s sides.#esp bc all the things i’m having a difficult / painful time with is all fucking trigger heavy shit or things that i just don’t.#fucking know what to do with anymore because its not shit within my control.#a lot of it’s shit im still just processing that has hurt a lot & havingg to cope w that grief alone.#but then there’s also other circumtances too that are hard to navigate & my BPD having a field day w me in recent history too#i don’t know what the fuck is wrong w me at this point. & im scared & i can’t stand being fucking alone in this shit yet.#i feel like i have to. i have to. i have to. beccause this is my own issue & to dare express anything is me just. using ppl isn’t it.#that’s all it is right. & besides how many times has it been proven that ppl get sick of me for not being okay.#how many times have ppl walked away because they realize im just some fucking deadweight emotionally or something. id on’t fucking know.#am i spiraling? who fucking knows! maybe! because im fucking tired of what my life has been in general & im. overwhelmed.#overwhelmed by existence itself i fucking guess & what its meant for me overwhelmed by expectations overwhelmed by vulnerability thats just.#bleeding out through the fucking cracks of this fucking mess of a person i am.#& constantly fucking afraid that im just. too much. too much. too much for anyone.#too emotional in fucking general too intense too overwhelming for others regardless if its overwhelming them via pos or neg emotions.#afraid im going to get discarded afraid of what’s to come afraid in fucking general. fear & grief & pain & rage & hatred &.#desperation to feel anything other than this & desperation to feel loved thats got me having rly foul compulsions too#all my emotions feel like some kind of fuckihng hairtrigger & its hard to stop it in fucking general. i dont fucking know. & like i said it.#feels like shit to deal with completely alone. not bc i wanna deal with alone but bc i /have/ to bc if i dont then im just. a problem. or.#i dont know. im tired of everything tired of my emotions tired of this life tired of all that ive had to face up til this point & tired of.#fear & idk how to handle things alone anymore. my friends deserve better than this emotional burden i am to be around ig.#it feels so much like i have to apologize to those i befriend for being. well. this. for all of me & for being ‘too much’ in general.
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#im starting to get unbearably jealous that one of my best friends is hanging out with other ppl#and its embarassing#idk if im jealous bc i wanna be hanging w him or bc ive hung out w his other friends a few times and i think theyre cool so i wanna hang too#its probably definitely both#and also bc i am incredibly lonely and have nonody else to hang w and am obsessed w the fact that i am friendless#and have been geberally friendless for years other than these 2 ppl#and one of them lives in another city and constantly drops off the face of the earth and the other one is this shordy#but i think the very root of this is the fact that its really picking at the I Want To Be Invited Too scab thats been festering since hs#so this is generally a very unpleasant feeling#hes posting on his story like every day hanging w ppl or just like being Out and im like hmm i should kms maybe 🫡#im very good at immediately stopping those thoughts but im sick and stressed atm so it hits harder eughh#n i just had a convo w him about it like how im lonely n how id like to hang more + its def not his fault at all + my schedules crazy atm#so i know i need to chillax but god. am i lonely.#i wish ppl wanted me around :^)#gommywords
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"TrANsMeN rEalLy nEeD tO HaVe wOmEn AroUnD TO NoT Be MiSoGyNiSTic 🤪" bitch i have great relationships w my mom and gma, i dont think it's on my end with this one
#i drink respect women juice every day. i just dont coddle yall. thats what you hate :)#i tell you what it is like my mom raised me to ight.#yall weaponize your presumed innocence all the fuckin time- ya wanna know what my issue is w a lot of women in my generation?#you're great at understanding feminist concepts but act like by virtue of being a woman in an oppressive system that you can do no wrong#like you're an eternal victim who never needs to change and its only ever men who need to change. idk becky sometimes you're a pos.#and a lot of girls in my generation are catty pieces of shits who justify their behavior w hashtag girlboss shit.#im over it.#if you were a real girl boss you wouldnt need to flaunt it. tuh.#t'would be obvious. instead you keep repeating it to others but mostly to yourself as an affirmation to shake off any denial#that comes by. idk. maybe you're a gossipy asshole for no fuckin reason and try to justify why you shouldnt change? bye#are you a hashtag girlboss winning or just an asshole trying to make yourself feel better about being an asshole#the women at doctors offices? love me. they think im hilarious. service worker women? also love me and think im hilarious#my gmas friends? love me and think im hilarious.#turns out its just yall bitter assholes who have an issue. and idk who im supposed to trust- the women irl who love me and think#im hilarious or becky online whos bitter and shitty bc of whatever justification of the week she uses to be an asshole to people.#lots of girlies goin around acting like meegan from key and peele thinking theyre That Bitch when really ppl not in their friendgroup#of girls who gossip and tear people down know her as That Asshole.#poor Weak Fragile Little becky can never be criticized on her actions. so so sad. shes an entire VICTIM bc you even thought of#criticizing her unu. how could i.#go cry about it and find my fucks.#if the worst i do to you is make you cry yeah im not about to feel guilt tripped about that.
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yandere jjk thoughts
warning:: nsfw! i’m eighteen and you should be too! hints of kidnapping, non-con, and coercion. nothing is ever really explicitly stated but - still.
a/n: there’s no real rhyme or reason behind this - winter is just my favorite time to snuggle up and read about crazy ppl. also i wrote this in lowercase originally so u see a spot i missed, no u didnt. u can leave requests for different characters if u wanna
Gojo Satoru
In no world could I ever imagine Gojo Satoru treating you like a real human being.
He is the strongest. There is no one who could destroy him. He can see all. And the issue isn’t just that he’s the best, it’s that he’s been told that since the day he opened his bright eyes. He has a big ego and it’s justified because there is no one better than him.
And sure he’ll indulge you. He'll laugh at your jokes and console you when you cry. But in the back of his mind, in every kiss to your forehead, in every smile, there will always be a domineering aspect. Because he knows that you are insignificant in the grand scheme of the world. you are only important because he deemed you worth something.
You’re not quite a toy or a pet to him. You’re more like - an indoor plant to him. Something that needs nurturing from his caring hands, watering and sunlight granted to you by him. You adapt and grow according to his needs and his conditions. But at the same time, you are to be cherished. never handled too roughly, case you begin to wilt. You don’t have to do much but sit and be nurtured and be pretty while he gives you whatever he deems necessary for your survival.
It fascinates him, really, how simple your little life is. How much you don’t know and never will know because as a flower, all you need to understand is that water and sunlight and love are given to you before you’ll even realize that you need it.
But you still have a job to be pretty and sometimes that’s sitting on the bed, still, as he observes you or bouncing on his cock. It just depends on the day.
Geto Suguru
Suguru is a calm man, a quiet man. He makes decisions based on logic. He is not exactly one for emotional outbursts, and even at his angriest, he rarely raises his voice.
But you.
A little non-sorcerer that can’t even see curses somehow made him look twice. Little unimportant you constantly runs through his mind. What you’re doing, what you’ve eaten, what places you’ve gone to. Who you’ve talked to, who your friends are. Your hobbies, your interests. Your lips and your eyes and that special something between your legs.
Just thinking about you, even innocently, makes him harden. It’s uncomfortable, it’s infuriating, it’s maddening.
He thought, surely someone in your family was a sorcerer, a powerful one at that. But no, your family is normal. You are, genetically, as average as they come.
He doesn’t treat you softly at first, doesn’t have a mind to. You’re a filthy little nothing, after all. When he fucks, he fucks without care. Suguru treats you like a doll, not made of porcelain but made of cloth, one he can throw around and still be in decent condition. He keeps a hand pressed to your mouth, to keep your voice down. A blindfold around your eyes so he doesn’t have to look into them. Your hands are bound behind your back so you don't touch him even by accident. Flat on your stomach, unable to see or feel or say anything is how you find yourself every time. He doesn’t even come inside of you, the only thing you’re grateful for.
It’s scary, how roughly he treats you. But it’s downright terrifying when he begins to lay softer hands upon you, begins to kiss instead of bite, caress instead of pinch.
Nanami Kento
He is a very traditional and stern man.
You are, silly, to him. stumbling and bumping and in general, unsure of yourself and what to do. But he sees potential. Even when you’ve tripped over thin air or broken something by accident, there’s a certain grace to your movements. A grace he wants to harvest and invest in.
And while he wants to give you direction, he also doesn’t have the patience or time to teach you like he wants. So, it’s best to ‘learn on the job’ when it comes to Kento.
Learn how to cook his favorite meals and bake the sweets he loves just right. When he’s okay with speaking and when he needs quiet. Remembering to kiss him goodbye every morning and remove his coat for him every night.
Learn how to suck his cock right - which vein is most sensitive, when to suckle and gag and slurp, what noises to make, and remember to always always swallow. He hates messes after all.
Learn his favorite positions. The lingerie sets he like best. How loudly he wants you to be. Accept his cum in your tummy with a smile.
It’s not hard - please him and you will be rewarded. Rewarded with pleasure, with time outside, with gentle hands.
And if you stumble or forget, he will easily remind you of your job.
Mahito
You’re his personal entertainment. You’re an experiment.
Mahito is incredibly laid-back, even lazy to an extent. He lets you roam and explore and fall. He doesn’t care what you do as long as you stay within the four walls he’s placed you in.
It's hard to understand him. For a curse, he’s always laughing, finding almost child-like joy in the most odd things. Whether that’s watching an animal documentary or wondering if a human’s neck can extend like the turtles on TV.
One thing you do know is that he likes games and he likes playing with you. The only problem is you don’t when the game starts and ends, the rules or even if you’re playing right. Oftentimes, you find yourself playing a game that you don’t know the rules of and Mahito has named himself the gamekeeper.
He usually starts by asking a question. Something simple like “What time did you wake up?” or “What did you eat today?”. You find out the hard way that no matter what you say, you’re always wrong.
Say you woke up at ten? Then you’ll find yourself pressing into the mattress, drooling on your pillow as he drills you, punishing you for waking so late in the day. You had a slice of cake earlier? Then don’t be surprised when you’re in the kitchen licking icing off his cock as punishment for an unhealthy lunch.
Itadori Yuuji
He's the jock that gave you a chance. That made you feel special and pretty and popular.
He's sweet. He gives you his hoodie when you’re cold. He drives you home after school. Buys you lunch when you can’t afford it. Takes you on nice dates.
He wants you sitting front row at all his games, wearing his varsity jacket so everyone knows you’re his girl. He twirls you and kisses you in front of the whole school when he wins, the whole thing right of a cheesy rom-com.
But, surely, you didn’t think he was doing all that for free? No, he wants compensation. He deserves a reward for treating you so sweetly. It's only fair.
It doesn’t matter if you’re ‘not ready’. No, no, you’re just nervous, sweetheart. But he’ll be gentle with you so calm down. Yeah, calm down when he slides a hand up your skirt on a date to the movies. Be quiet when he asks you for head in the janitor’s closet between classes. And don’t make a fuss when he slips his cock inside of you, raw, even though you begged him to use a condom.
‘Rubbers hurt,’ he says. ‘It feels better raw’,’ he pleads. ‘Don’t worry - I'll pull out.,’ he promises.
And you better be understanding when he comes inside of you. Afterall, he’ll buy you a plan b.
Choso
Whatever you do, do not stress this man.
He’s going through enough as is. The last thing he needs from you is any attitude or ungratefulness. Even an upset face will have you with your knees pushed beside your head and Choso making you scream, all while watching you with that same tired expression.
Choso is the oldest of ten siblings. He is used to dealing with bratty behavior. He handles your tantrums with grace - once you’ve finished throwing things and screaming, he’ll only ask if you're finished. And then he will be upon you.
But, beyond punishment, he is caring and quiet. He prefers it when you speak, likes it when you prattle on about your day or your favorite show. He likes it when you’re happy.
#yandere#yandere jjk#tw yandere#yandere gojo satoru#yandere gojo#yandere geto suguru#yandere geto#yandere mahito#yandere nanami kento#yandere nanami#yandere itadori yuuji#yandere itadori#yandere choso#jjk headcanons#jujutsu kaisen headcanons#rottenomelet
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hi. ohmygod. i need to. yap abt jessa with you. you get me
i. think i only started to obsess over these two cause like i'm obsessed w/ elliott manor and the kids in general and like for this thing i'm writing i had to write from tessa's pov at the beginning which took the "oh yeah they're cute they've def been a Thing" type liking of jessa i had before to a "OHMYGOD THEY MAKE ME SICK AND UNWELL GIVE ME TWENTY FANFICS SOME COMICS AND A PLAYLIST NOW" type obsession :3
also tessa in general?? her whole backstory makes me SICK like. OHMYGOD??? she didn't deserve to die so early, and then the whole thing w/ the solver????? ughhhhh i could go on for AGES and i will if you want me to :3 tessa's like my 2nd fav rn, second only to cyn, and i'm (hopefully) gonna go as her for halloween so like. again i am OBSESSED
you seem cool. wanna be friends? :D
JAJSJSJKSJS OMG ANOTHER PERSON THAT HYPERFIXATES ON THIS SHIP TOO
If i remember right i think that i got into it bc i was just casually checking some comtent of it then just kinda got sucked into it- like its my otp at this point
And yea, the Elliott Manor is actually pretty interesting, like if md gets a spin off it would be cool if it revolves around the manor and shows us the solver thinga majigs, and the characters lives there in general. I think we could also see more of J cuz like, 3 years of little screentime is like, damn girl
Also how your feeling on jessa changed was so me lmao, i started off like "yea i guessss theyre pretty cool" to being overtly excited whenever new content from the jessa tag comes up-
I was kinda conflicted on the ship, since i saw ppl hating on it and cuz im a ✨️ validation seeker ✨️ i kinda disliked it as well, but then i went over to tumblr and got more open to jessa
Oh and Tessa, like omfg WHAT THE FUCK. It took me a while after episode 7 to rlly understand the whole thing and its like damn, i feel so fucking bad for her. Like i have cried multiple times over the same analysis post abt her. She was a kid that did no wrong, had a shitty and abusive childhood (hate 4 the elliott parents), and then just, died like that.
She was a kid that was forced to grow up fast but never got the chance to grow up for real.
AND PLAYLIST YOU SAY????
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0PvGsofJCFUb0ihaqAq9LU?si=O5PwMNdDQAC07vUE51ky8A&pi=S9rMY_dkSXyyM
If you actually get to do the cosplay for halloween, can you show it? It would be rlly kewl!!
Also yea i wanna be friends!!! :DD
#murder drones#nett answers#netts daily yap session#<- like fr#jessa#ripping royals#j x tessa#tessa x j#murder drones tessa#tessa elliot#md tessa#tessa james elliot#tessa md#tessa murder drones#murder drones j#j md#j murder drones#md j#serial designation j
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Absolutely love the Infodump on Cookie she's so good. however!! I remember you made a trio of characters for this game and were torn about which one to play, then decided the other two could be his attendants.
How are those two, what are they up to?? Have you done much with them in the game so far? (And even if not, wanna give us some tastey information about 'em?)
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oooh yes! those two are sir velvet the unsmiling (it/she), and damned-if-i-do/dandy (he/they). let's pull up their art (esp now that i have crispy clean new scans!!! i think i have only ever posted this art as shitty phone pics prior to this)
ANYWAY. it turns out that even though attendants are a built-in part of the noble sweetheart playbook (cookie's title) and you're SUPPOSED to be using them... for me in practice, when i'm actually playing the game, i just keep totally forgetting lmfao!!!! :') rping with my other party members and chasing quests and stuff is so engaging that my brain is totally booked with just being cookie, let alone two additional npcs, so sadly dandy and velvet have not gotten a ton of screentime in the current campaign
BUT that really just makes me eager to one day play them properly in a different campaign, whether that's them each taking their turn as player characters like was originally intended, or when i'm GMing a campaign of my own (i'm trying to write up something for my friends, but i have no idea when it's actually gonna happen bc i'm so busy rip... but when i do, cookie and her attendants will def be npcs)
i honestly don't have MUCH i can say abt them, bc since i haven't played them much i also havent developed them much... i suppose i can give summaries tho!
in terms of vibes velvet is very much like, "guy who is brooding so hard that it stops being mysterious or having any gravity at all and is mostly just making people wonder if she's like? okay?????" like there is only so long you can spend with your back to the rest of the group clenching your fist and muttering to yourself before people just start kind of glossing over it and being like "oh haha that's CLASSIC sir velvet the unsmiling!!!"... mix this with a heady dose of "[nasal voice] UM, you forgot to collect the homework" and somehow you have created a creature ideal for wrangling cookie's effusive elaborate scatterbrained whims, somehow, most of the time. velvet is really similar to a different Brooding Goth Knight character i have wherein my formula is "make a character who looks extremely fucking sicknasty badass, then never ever ever stop making fun of them ever"
dandy is cookie's quartermaster, and so unlike velvet (who's usually assumed to be traveling around with cookie, even if i am constantly forgetting to roleplay that it's doing that) he mostly chills at chateau gorgeous looking after his liege's affairs and making sure the ppl who live there are fed + sheltered + generally taken care of. they are pretty much velvet's exact opposite in terms of temperament; EVERYTHING gets velvet's hackles up, NOTHING phases dandy. i need to be careful bc i am starting to arbitrarily ship them just from typing this. anyway, dandy is largely non-verbal; they're able to speak if really necessary, but they would just rather not, and if there's really no way around it they'd rather just sidle over to cookie and whisper it to her, and then let her communicate whatever they want to say to the rest of the group on their behalf; if cookie's not around, you're just gonna have to figure out how to communicate w him otherwise. which always works out fine bc dandy is very patient and used to getting along in silence!
that's about all i've got rn... i will def post it here if i come up with or draw anything else that's fun tho :) ty for the ask!
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hello favorite outsiders acc ever, i saw you say you hc ponyboy with bpd on your mental health post for everyone. can you expand on your thoughts a little more? would love to hear them :3
heyyyy super cool anon whats uppp :33
AND IVE WAITED SO LONG FOR SOMEONE TO ASK ME ABOUT THIS, THERE IS A GOD🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
i hope this gives u a general idea as to what i mean, and for anyone who realizes when say something wrong, pls do correct me about it i hope i portrayed everything correctly🙏🏽🙏🏽
ALRIGHT SO PONY W BPD
•allow me to preface by saying im not hc’ing 14 year old pony w bpd, its him when he gets older where it presents itself, if i remember correct, bpd shows its symptoms when ppl r like around 18 and into their 20’s??? around that time period is where it peaks, so this is more of an older ponyboy thing
•now as for how he got it, we can throw in obvious factors such as his parents dying, his friends dying, but one i think is swept under the rug a bit is that he pretty much has to be pretty worried about getting jumped or harmed somehow, its not like he lives in a safe area
•however even if u dont wanna believe that bit about getting jumped, bpd is typically associated w long term trauma’s but single event traumas can also lead u into having bpd, especially in ponys case where the deaths in his life happened pretty close to each other, so either way u flip it i think its pretty believable
•i think the first symptom he’d really feel the effect of first is that numbness, in the book its canon that pony constantly lies to himself and this is just one if the things he lies to himself about as he grows up, he tells himself that its just a passing thing or he just straight up fakes his emotions to not pay attention to that
•pony has a HUGE fear of abandonment, i dont think i gotta explain myself here its pretty obvious, however this does lead to him having paranoia about the ppl he loves dying, even disassociating for a while over it and he needs constant reassurance
•his disassociating leads to him missing a lot of time and not working on things he rlly should b
•when it comes to his self image pony just, doesnt know WHAT he wants, he doesnt have a clear sense of who he is, his values change, his friends change, he doesnt know whats going on w himself at all and he lays in bed a lot of the time just thinking about it
•going back to this feeling of emptiness, it causes pony to act impulsively just to cope, he smokes a lot, he drives recklessly, and he binge eats, and all this just complicates how he feels about himself which circles back to him not knowing what he wants from himself
•and then finally, pony constantly contradicts himself, for example, pony says he wants to build these close relationships, however he keeps pushing ppl that want to help him away, mostly bc hes scared that they’ll leave him, but then be has these moments where hes begging for them to be with him again but he pushes them away once again and its a weird cycle for him, and as soon as he realizes what hes doing he shuts himself off bc he feels like a bad person
•when it comes to his mood, i think he knows that he keeps on switching up how he feels, and bc of that after he goes through his mood swings and he realizes what he's done, he feels this sense of shame and then tried to just not talk at all just to “save himself”
•bc this is pony when hes older i could see this affecting his grades quite a but and that gets darry to get on him about it, and his relationship w darry is where that unstable relationship bit comes into play
•HOWEVERRRRR bc of how he responds to darry, that leads soda into stepping in to try and help but pony just feels like hes being laughed at????persecuted???? idk the word for it, but it makes pony feel worse so he can go from loving soda, to then wanting to not be around him within a few minutes, so his relationship w soda is where it becomes more obvious when it comes to unstable relationships
• now bc bpd and bp both have similar symptoms/effects on a person, and i hc angela as having bp, i could see curly recognizing the similarities between the two and he tries helping pony when he can, but at the end of the day, curly is one person and he doesnt know what to do, bc he doesnt have the resources available to help, he can barely help himself
•maybe curly got darry and soda to realize something was up w pony or somethin
gonna stop myself here bc i refuse to go on a yap sesh lmao
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Guess whos back... Back again... Shady-
Let me stop okay fuck uhm
WELCOME TO MY INTRO AGAIN BUT LIKE THIS ONE IS BETTER
My name is Mono but I cant settle on one name online (i have... a list of names...) (which grows if I hear a name i think sounds cool and ultimately wanna steal immediately) (none of you are safe beware) ANYWAY yeahz I'll write down the names in the comments when I'm done if I feel like it
Also yeah I'm trans + pansexual, my prns are he/him & they/them, and im a minor(ity)
INTERESTS AND SHI
Games : Cry of Fear, Sally Face, Little Misfortune, Little Nightmares, Fran Bow, Mouthwashing, Yandere Simulator, Class of '09 (the flipside can BURN), DDLC, and uh uh yeah i can't think of any more rn maybe I'll edit this one day
Shows, TV, Movies, etc : Scream franchise(including Scary Movie), DHMIS(youtube series ver., haven't watched the recent tv show), Thanksgiving, Smile, Sixth Sense, Spiderverse movies, I Know What You Did Last Summer, The Owl House, The Black Phone
True Crime Community : Artyom & Nikita, Columbine, Zodiac, Dahmer, Jack da Rippa👅👅👅 LMAO okay anyway, (i am relatively new to the tcc... its just leik any crime right? So I can mention people like Robert Pickton or Fred & Rose West? neat ok) ROBERT PICKTON, FRED & ROSE WEST, lmao..., uh Ted Bundy, Menendez brothers, I have briefly seen stuff abt Adam Lanza, Alyssa, etc but haven't read abt them/watched documentaries or anything... OH ALSO THE 2 PPL THAT KILLED UH BRIANNA GHEY I FORGOT THEIR NAMES (edit: somehow forgot John Wayne Gacy?? I LITERALLY LISTEN TO A BAND W HIM AS AN ALBUM COVER AM I RETARDED....)
Music : i changed my spotify recently but here's the link to my (unfinished) main playlist
General Interests : I LOVVEEE caffeine so much its a problem, rainy weather, stuff like tumblr, discord, spacehey, etc, collecting trinkets, cosplay(?)(i don't do it often but I've done fem!simon Henriksson & Shaggy 2 Dope, and Nezuko but that was like 2022 and I dont watch anime often anymore), I wanna get into playing guitar, i write stuff sometimes, read obvi, silly willy design/architecture games that i find, i draw💯💯💯, uhm.mgmgmm... yah.. ALSO I READ WEBTOON SOMETIMES!! SBG, JD, VF, SS, ALLAT(if ur curious abt those go 2 my asks and I'll say the actual name im lazy and this section is long af)
DNI LIST!!!
EDIT:: DNI list is kinda stupid idgaf if you interact and are any of these but i probably will not like you + won't respond
Racists, homophobes+transphobes, pedos, anti-para, people who r sensitive to gore, blood, crime, etc, people who defo abuse that report button (js block me istg<3), people on shblr & edblr who shame others for depth and weight, basic DNI's ig?
Boundaries!
Simple stuff tbh, like just dont harass me or my friends, followers, yk, don't be rude for no reason(jokes and such are fine like if u have a tone indicator n stuff or the person is ok w it)
Asks, comments, etc are fine as long as they aren't requesting personal info e.g real name, phone num, yk the drill allat stuff
Anons, pretty pls use emojis so ik what asks are from u, or if u dont wanna signing ur nicknames or alias is fine too
Paraphilia/Kink/IDK? (I may post this stuff in the future, like on my old acc w sh pics)
Necrophilia(im anti-contact to clarify, jus fantasies), blood, knives, self h4rm, su1cide, gore, etc stuff like that ig
WHO I WANNA MEET!!!
Literally anyone who has similar interests n is respectful lmao, I don't rlly block unless i REALLY dont like you so feel free to ask 2 be moots n stuff
OK BYEEEYEYEYEYTE
- Mono
#tee cee cee#gore lover#cw gore#tcc tumblr#cannibalposting#cw guro#teeceecee#mass killers#cw blood#intro post#introduction#me#blog intro#introductory post#pinned intro#Spotify
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looks w my big eyes ... trans Evan? trans Evan thoughts? - @vinnyemh
trans evan thoughts,,,,,,
2 me he calls himself a trans dude because he doesn't know what nonbinary/genderqueer is (he's too busy getting possessed give him a break) isn't on hrt simply cuz of preference. didn't know he was trans until he was a teenager but was a VERY transgender child. like he would get upset at being called a tomboy and would constantly wish he wasn't a girl and would try and hang out with boys at school all the time and would try and prove himself to them (only to get laughed at cuz his weird-girlisms. it's chronic , unfortunately) would wear nothing but slightly too big hand me downs. he only knew trans ppl existed because vinny came out to him and the idea haunted him for years until he was in highschool and came out to vinny and vin was like [insert faux surprise] (he knew. he so fucking knew . evan, the closet was GLASS) forced himself to like only girls to seem "more like a boy" but had a huge gay crush on nick (anyone remember nick? i remember nick and i remember that him and evan were friends and would play video games i love nick ANYWAYS) and an even bigger weirder gayer crush on vinny. stole a lot of jeff and vinnys clothes and would get stuff at thrift stores and church clothing drives and friends and stuff and would try and make it seem intentional . was in t4t love with steph,,, (steph is SO tgirl i love her sm) YES this means in my hcs evan had their baby . YES this means habit ate the baby evan birthed and YES it makes canon just that much worse. baby back ribs. ANYWAYS. not important. to me evan got rlly into mma and fitness and stuff as an outlet for his emotions and it ended up being really gender euphoric. actually back to the baby (so many of my trans hcs for evan somehow end up back here) evan wanted to be a dad SO BAD. was one of those kids that always knew they wanted a family but hated the idea of being a mother . then the transgenderism hit. it's part of the reason he isn't on hrt in my hcs cuz he wanted kids so bad so ofc habit just had to exploit it </3 ANYWAYS. he never really chose the name evan lol he just kinda didn't wanna be called his deadname anymore so went by evan until he could find something better but it just stuck and that was that. also not explicitly a trans hc but more just general hc but evan gets crushes on all his friends he's so t4t but doesn't know what the fuck that is </3 (also yes 2 me all the emh crew r trans,,, look at them)
UH. ILL RB IF I THINK OF MORE MY BRAINS A LITTLE FRIED RN !!! BUT !!!!!! TY FOR ASKING,,, I HEART MY TRANS EVAN HCS
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OH. MY GOD. HHFFTDFXKHGDGHHDX op i just. binged alll your vlad content. and. Oh my god. Your good vlad comic is just SO GOOD i dont even have words. There's so much new stuff i doscover when i go into the comments. Like. Plasmius being reflected in the portal?? Vlad's reflection in the tea kettle? All the silly lil expressions ppl have? The text bubbles being different on tge last part.????? Theres so much SYMBOLISM it's INCREDIBLE!!
Its amazing you have so much skill and it's all so im cgaracter and funny and GOOD!! YOURE amazing! So. Dw take your time! It's better everyone's happy AND the finale is fully finished and thought out than that there's a rushed one! N i dont wanna ve rude or anything. BUT.
Do you have like, a rough idea of when you think it's finished? Im going no tech camping in a few weeks w/ friends and i just wanna knoww if you have a rough time schedule to release
NO pressure!! Keep doing what you're doing! It's gonna be amazing no matter what
God im just being spoiled at this point with all these compliments 💕 。゚(゚´ω`゚)゚。
You need to understand my creative process is:
“ok so Vlad needs to uh say this so so OH OH WHAT IF HE DOES THIS! Oh Dragon you fucking genius”
*5 min later* “oh god idk what to do next GOD I SUCK ASS SOMEONE ELSE DO IT FOR ME I CANNAEEEE!!!”
….Rinse and repeat…..
I also have wonderful talented friends that help me with my ramblings and idea bouncing (and grammar) @notllorstel @setakendirart @ectospacecadet AHEM
I’m hoping that by the end of November I will have all the lineart and composition done. Rendering takes a while but is generally easier and more streamlined, so holiday time I should be close? If I manage that then hey, it would have taken almost exactly a year for the final part to come out ha ha _(��「ε:)_
#ask the dragon#danny phantom#good vlad au#vlad masters#comic making of this level is still new to me and idk how to make it easier for me yet#but hey I mostly focus on playing with my strengths/ which is character writing and expressions 👌🏻
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woah your matchups are so detailed ! 🩷 can i request one if that is okay? idk if this info will be okay but, here goes nothing: i'm 5'1 and v petite, w messy hair cut in a wolfcut. i have so much duality, both in personality and in my style: i can go from happy and sweet to ruthless and cold af in seconds so much that sometimes idk which of the two is the real me... i'm also v good at acting, lying and pretending. my style varies between emo and cutesy haha. i'm shy but i'm also a gremlin w the ppl i trust and can act v silly. i have v bad trust issues, i really can't trust anyone. i have anger issues too... my hobbies include writing, playing romance games and watching anime. i love rock music and visual kei too. i would love to learn how to play an instrument or learn to sing one day... my friends say i'm sweet and in general i'm cheerful around them ! i hide my feelings and struggle w them alone often, esp when i have anxiety.
my love language is gift giving. bc i'm not v smart and even if i have good intentions what i say might have the wrong effect i prefer comforting my friends making playlists for them or writing them a fic to cheer them up. i know if they lived near me i would always be buying little gifts for them haha but at the same time i'm super shy when it comes to accepting gifts bc i don't think i deserve them...
i'm also v romantic and daydream a lot, especially abt my yumeships. i can be cheeky and a quirk of mine is i tend to wink when taking selfies a lot > /// < i also obviously love vampires 🦇
idk if this info is okay... i'm sorry if i did this wrong and absolutely no pressure to answer ! thank you so so much either way ♡
From author: From what I've gathered, it looks like what you need is someone to spend quality time with.
Your need for that romance aspect in your life tells me that you're very open to relationships and would welcome one if it came your way. But you do need to be wary and try not to rush things as it may affect how much of you the boys could take.
Since you prefer staying home, I can decipher that you're not necessarily a very socially active person but that doesn't mean you don't enjoy building friendships since it's clear to me you care about your friends abundantly.
Because you deal with anxiety and emotions, this can show me that you may prefer to keep them locked away or even push them aside to forget about. I wanna hone in on this a bit because as we know all of the brothers have problems dealing with inner conflict and you not being able to navigate through your OWN ones would help better point to who you would work best with.
Because of your generally kind nature and ability to comfort people without necessarily using your words, this tells me that despite being faced with emotional obstacles from those around you, you still find it possible to respond in appropriate manners without the need to verbalize your care for someone.
And now that we've assessed you, your best match would be 🥁🥁🥁🥁
Azusa Mukami
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Azusa is someone that's known to be passive and soft spoken. His docile nature has lead him astray in the past and because of this, he needs someone that won't take advantage of him while also keeping him on his toes.
Because of your clashing tendencies of being kind and being assertive, this keeps him interested. Azusa would be exactly what you need when looking for a romantic partner seeing as he's always selfless and would constantly think of your needs first.
Azusa doesn't need to go out all the time and have fancy dates planned, he'd be perfectly comfortable just laying next to you while you scroll on social media or even listen to some Malice Mizer. As a matter of fact, he quite enjoys that band and loves it when you do decide to put on some music.
Because of your ability to navigate through emotional conflicts by showing remorse or even gratitude towards someone by giving them a gift, this shows Azusa that you care about him and that you're putting effort into the relationship. This would then have a domino effect of him learning to open up more and in return, making you be able to open up towards him.
He'd fully support your creative side and would encourage you to learn a new instrument and even sing. He'd be your biggest supporter no matter what you do.
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