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bulldog-butch · 4 months ago

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i sometimes so desperately wish my gender and sexuality were more simple. i wish we weren’t trapped in a world where the binary even within transness weren’t so rigid. i wish i could just say i was trans man or that i never had had the desire to transition and could have just stayed happily as a cis butch lesbian

#and i don’t necessarily mean that trans people are rigid with the binary although some definitely are #i more mean that people looking in from the outside expect you to become a man or a woman #or be a non transitioning nonbinary person #really grateful to my nonbinary/genderqueer pals also transitioning who help keep me sane #bork bork!#been thinking a lot about public spaces in particular bathrooms recently #idk what the fuck i’m doing #thankfully i live in a chill state otherwise i would avoid public bathrooms like the plague #i still get so nervous going in tho

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bunnyboy-juice · 2 months ago

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i may not be into fauxcest but i am absolutely a friend of the family

#does this make sense????#like i genuinely cannot be involved in those dynamics myself as much as i actually would love it #(and i would have loads of fun!! but my nervous system hates it so i Do Not want to be in a dynamic like that)#but i am that family friend whos maybe an aunt or uncle or something of the sort even tho they're literally not related #nd everyone affirms regularly they Are Not blood related but still loved as family a #but they're invited to the family gatherings and know yalls birthdays and your mom/sister/whoever tells them your dirty secrets sometimes #and they love you so much. indecipherable from your family. but if anyone ever asked you'd go “well thats not REALLY my aunt but you know.#family friends.“ and yeah #anyway im not making this rbable bc i dont feel like having ppl get weird ab this but also like #this has been rotating in my head for DAYS #(also pls dont suggest i try these kinds of dynamics again ik from experience its not for me!! but this is where i can engage also and i #think its a really fun concept)

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pyrosomatic-metamorphosis · 2 years ago

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(end of bad’s Acceptance vod, about 1:48:30)

no but im never going to be normal again. LOOK at this. look. IMMEDIATELY before this he gave a whole miserable speech at the graveyard about how much he misses the kids and how he wants them to come home. He was grieving so hard it started to rain. He cried while he sang to them. It was the perfect end to 5 days of grieving- and then he does this.

and the rain isnt about grief anymore- the thunder isnt a peaceful background to a heartbreaking scene. It is rage. the whole context changes. The storm raged on while he grieved like he raged during the Everything Else that happened (“there are a lot of federation workers on today. I need to interrogate them about some things” he said while he was following forever ALONE to distract him. he knew forever was fucked up and about to put more marriage pressure on him and for anyone else that would have been Terrifying. how could you focus on anything but that? but. bad was thinking about tormenting more federation workers)

i just!!!! its so good. its SO good its so scary its so good. bad hasnt accepted the loss of his children but he has accepted how far he will go to get them back. (he will do anything)

#qsmp #Ik someone else posted the clip but i could not find it again and i Needed to go insane #i still need to go insane #i need to pick up every little bit of his character and pin them up and write an essay on all of it #you know that entire nervous system that was preserved? i need to do that to him #im going to be SO annoying about bbh for the next while #like i can feel the brainworms setting in so hard i am GOING to get pov rot and get so excited about my perceptions of his character that i #twist him away from what he is #it will be in the name of understanding him but really i will trudge thru those roots and trip into hell #or maybe not maybe ill continue to have fun and cool character analysis #50/50 on whether or not it will be comprehensible tho i think the last 8 posts at least ive made about him are nonsense #its because he is a bastard #with too many moving parts. i need a diagram neatly laying out every q!bbhism ever #qsmp badboyhalo #qsmp clip

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scionshtola · 2 months ago

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i want to go home. and level whm.

#i still get scared queuing by myself for many things #i don’t think i’m the best at healing but i’m competent!!#but i get nervous about not knowing mechs in normal and trial round #and also what if i get put some place scary in level roul. like aurum vale #i’m okay with ally roul tho. idk about myths yet bc i haven’t done any but i know the mechs mostly pretty well for all of them #so i’m less nervous lol #anyway!!! i want to go home and play video games!!!#i need a text post tag #as soon as i get it to 100 im gonna take a break from leveling things i think #bc idk about ast. that might be a pvp leveling job for me lol

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ushijima-wakatoshi-1 · 4 months ago

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So. You’re a farm guy, right? Theoretically, if I wanted to learn how to ride a horse, how would I do so? Because I’m scared the horse will sense my nervousness and judge me then the horse won’t let me ride it…

It is true that my grandparents own a farm, though they only raise cattle. However, Shiratorizawa has a horse-riding club, so I asked one of the members your question.

If you do ride a horse, it is highly suggested you ride one that is experienced, perhaps on a guided trail ride. Experienced horses are used to nervous first-riders, and may simply act lazier than usual. If you ride a less trained horse, for example a personal one, it may sense your nervousness and bolt or buck, leading to injury.

#ushijima responds #//hc that ushijima can soak up massive amounts of info w/o actually digesting any of it #//which is how he gets decent scores w/o studying much #//and how he still manages to be alarmingly clueless #//anyways this was a super cool ask!! thank you!!!#//i love horses #//i doubt you own a horse so #//trained trail horses r used to nervous ppl so it shouldn't be a problem! just make sure not to yank the reins or scream or smth #//maybe read the reviews b4 going bc some horses are green or troublemakers #//its best if u remain calm tho!#ushijima wakatoshi #haikyuu #//doing everything in order!

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nekomamiiz · 2 months ago

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𝐭𝐞𝐭𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲

"what do you think, darling? shall we go out or stay in for the night?"

"i think you already know my answer to that question, tetsu."

#introducing #｡ .⠐✿. tetzy #self-ship #i don’t have much more to add to this #its lame and unseasoned but i will get better at this #the delusions are gaining more shape #50/50 chance we actually go out and have a great time… but also we can never make it halfway through getting ready #the fancy clothes get put on just to be taken off less than 5 mins after 🤭#i still dk what im doing yet but we’re already well into our relationship here #married in fact!#we have a cat and a dog #boy cat and girl dog #dog was mine cat was his and they became besties before we made it official #we’re looking for a bigger home tho because we’re thinking of expanding the family wink wink #waaaaah #he makes me so happy #kissing him #loving him #f****** him #need him in my guts #why was i so nervous to post this?!?! sitting in my drafts for almost an entire day

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autonomousxselves · 9 months ago

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//I keep trying to write but I'm going to be busy almost all week with work and family, got scheduled all day July 4th and as proof of yesterday it's not going to be easy working on the interstate during a holiday week so I need to catch up on my sleep more than anything rn. If you're waiting on a reply I'm sorry I will try to get it out this weekend or next week 🙏

#i'm putting pen to paper again ;; ooc #went in on my day off because they were short staffed again yesterday #felt a little bad but after that i heard coworkers saying they loved me and nice things about me so its not so bad ^^#it was kind of brutal? not like more eyerolls from customers or anything like that but #people kept running around and when i tried to dl multiple jobs at once i was asked to eait bc i was making people nervous #a customer cussed me out when her payment didnt go through but she got her stuff free anyways so idk why she was mad #they told me i cant light fireworks off in the parking lot either 'corporate wouldnt like that' corporate isnt patriotic? smh smh #fr tho i will get back to everything se you later!!!#feel free to still send memes/asks/replies tho bc i will get back to it!!

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wlwgang · 9 months ago

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Nicola Coughlan the woman that you are!!!!!

#s3e5 posting #I am like so nervous watching these scenes but like secondhand nerves idk cause like as someone built a bit like her I just can’t wrap #my brain around it that we get these kinds of scenes #and like when the other two couples were going at it I was like eating it up but now I have to pause like every two seconds so I was like #ok I should interrogate that feeling I guess #idk #Augh tho Colin was sooo much more of a cutie pie last year I wish they had just left his face alone #bc like they were prob like oh he should be more conventionally hot and still want her that’s like saying something no idc abt that #let men have soft jawlines too was Simone Ashley’s not enough to power the show for several seasons alone #bridgerton

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rubberduckyrye · 10 months ago

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Once... Once the Prologue ha been refreshed, I'll be once again done with 1/8th of the story...

Prologue, the six cases, then an epilogue....

So much to do, but 1/8th of such a huge project is nothing to sniff at, either!

The prologue has 5 chapters second-drafted at the current moment, with about 20k words to its name. That's a lot!!! That is so many words!!!

And that's still not the whole prologue, ofc...

#I'm actually excited to write the future cases too!!!#I don't feel nearly as much dread as I used to #I think this writing program/system I've come up with is really helping me out #and if I can keep writing consistently every day? I can knock this out #I CAN do this I wrote 50k in a week I CAN do this #How much did I write today...#Counting earlier this morning from right before I went to bed I'd say about 3k total today #And by “today” I mean... technically yesterday morning and this morning #so it's probably more like 1.5k #THAT'S STILL GOOD PROGRESS THO #But the next new chapter is. Going to be really anxiety inducing.#Gonna have to write for a bunch of characters and not all of them were ones I've written for before anjkdfnjdkgls #Looking at YOU Rantaro...#But I can get through it!!! I can!!!#--wait I might need more two extra chapters aaaa #GDI #At least Kiibo and Kaito aren't.... bad #I'm mostly just nervous as hell about Rantaro dnkjnfjds

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izzy-b-hands · 2 years ago

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Just got three more job apps out and on a list for employers to reach out to me if they think I'd be a good fit! (It had a lil essay spot to tell what u can do, what u like to do for work, etc and I think I did well in that spot!)

Got some filming done earlier so now all i need to do is edit that, post it, get the vacuuming done, do some Prolific, and figure out something for Housemate's bday bc Bday is coming up! (which is all I'm saying cuz i know ae will see this post. Not a huge surprise or anything but just A Little Something bc i want to 🫂)

I know im probably gonna drop tomorrow and get nothing done, but for today. For today, I am vaguely productive 🙌!

#text post #that said my legs are still v shaky post filming so i may have slightly overdone that but u know what? idc aksndjfng #my cane has shipped and should be here soon so I'll be fine even if the legs fuss for the next few days #the job apps are going out hard again bc the university isn't getting back to anyone on if they're keeping us employed for the fall or not #so i am Nervous! abt that and want to get ahead of a possible layoff as much as i can #which isn't much really but better than nothing lol #im not really ready for the fatigue drop to hit tomorrow but that's just How It's Been since i had covid this last time #and pretending it isn't happening hasn't been helping so like im not happy abt it but I'll acknowledge it at least aksndjfngj #enough typing tho bc laptop needs opening for posting and prolific!! so i can get to the vacuuming!

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sanchoyo · 2 years ago

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i start that new job tomorrow 😶 ...

#... im not sure if itll be a full day or just 'more paperwork/general tour/training' tho kinda hopin for maybe like a half day TwT;;#im very nervous and considering taking one of the old anxiety meds i still have #from when i was in therapy. except idk if theyre still in date + they made me feel like a zombie which is why i stopped taking them lol #like i was SO out of it on them. but would that be preferable 2 the feeling of Soon Entering Cardiac Arrest levels of anxiety im having rn?#maybe...#+ going to take a sleeping pill around 10 to make sure i dont stay up all night freaking myself out #jkdkjfhjjk can my brain be normal about this. i havent even started the job yet calm down!!! calm down!!! its ok!!!!#i just feel so bad bc everyone has been rly nice. like 'omg yay u found a chill job w insurance RIGHT before u get kicked off urs thats #great ik youll do well!!' and its like well what if i DONT do well what if i freak out again. and self sabotage. then what. like i KNOW #its bad and i KNOW what i SHOULD be doing but its like herding geese over here in my brain zone. painful and bad and i dont understand why #things happen at all its confusing and frustrating to deal with #logically i know i need a job. i need to pay my debts and start saving and I WANT to move out! but its like that fine dining and breathing #scene from spongebob. brain on fire. lol #sanchoyorambles

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bistaxx · 1 year ago

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Honestly, knowing this event is (presumably) ending on my birthday is already the best gift I could ever get