#i still feel awful

[the-colours-system]

they said its nothing to worry about

im not going to the hospital

sorry

[hissterical-nyaan]

Had a full blown sob session on video call with mom

[pocketmousiie]

once again so grateful for my theatre teacher for letting me sleep during class holy shit. ily mr w

[lorddeathofmurdermountain]

I was unable to sleep all night, for no particular reason, and then in the morning; BAM. Feeling like my stomach is cooking the Draught of Living Death or some shit. Nasty ass stuff. Try to sleep it off? Still can't sleep. Bring bucket to room and try to sleep anyway. Barf the most vile concoction I've ever laid my eyes on and possibly maybe bleed a little bit? Felt like heaven on earth when it was done, weather immediately changed from cloudy to sunny. No more tummy ache :)

But honestly, that shit was vile. The bucket is from outside so it's pretty dirty inside. After I washed it with water post-throwup I think my barf cleaned up all but the most stubborn of dirt in the bucket. Like it was fucking foaming bro. What in the fuck.

[lilyimmsim]

i made a somewhat racist joke yesterday to someone (call her sarah) that i’m not super close with, but who is close with my best friend. i am good friends with some burmese/african/filipino people, and i am quite used to them joking around with each other/me on the basis of skin colour etc. however, the joke i made to this girl, was not okay and (came across) quite racist; we are not close like that and it hurt sarah. i only became aware of this after our mutual friend came up to me and politely mentioned how much it hurt sarah. i felt a multitude of things; immediate guilt and shame, surprise because it seemed to me as though sarah joked along with me, and an immediate desire to apologise. i pulled her aside and told her that i was so sorry, explained that i was used to joking around but that did not at all make this okay, and that i didn’t think about it. she forgave me, and i think it’s okay now. but i made a mistake, i made a poor judgement call, and it hurt someone. i am not saying all this as “look how good i am at making amends” but rather letting myself understand that people are not (ever) perfect and we will hurt others. i’m not excusing my actions, but as someone who prides themselves on fighting against race/gender inequality, i did feel as though i had failed. i still feel terrible thinking about how sarah felt, and i hope i remember this feeling, but i also hope i learn that it’s okay to make mistakes - so long as you apologise, learn, and grow from it all

[pencilmint]

Sunset in Shinjuku

[the-blazing-star]

The ao3 writer curse is real cuz I decided to start writing a fanfic like 2 days ago and yesterday I started feeling like I was knocking on deaths door. Good God.

[leo-and-me]

happy late birthday go Brent Carver. rest easy you absolute legend.

[silenceoflink]

With gift giving season around the corner, i am in shambles

[dappy-dappernette]

I keep on hearing people go all "The voice of the Smitten is such a creep. All he wants in the princess is someone to control and keep as a pretty object. He'd drop the princess if she wasn't the perfect petite maiden like in the damsel route." and I will not stand for the Smitten slander.

Like- He's been in love with her as a burning corpse ghost lady:

A terrifying ghost woman who wants to bring fear and chaos to the world:

And even a murderous blade monster woman who would kill you and enjoy every second of it:

Like, he ALWAYS loves the princess no matter what she looks like or how she acts, he loves her for being herself no matter what or who she is. That's the point of his character and I'm tired of people slandering my boy.

[queered-into-oblivion]

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[theneongreen]

My sister was really excited to binge The Conjuring movies last night, but the power went out for 8 hours. Luckily, I got food poisoning and was able to reenact The Exorcist just for her!

[supemaeve]

I've felt awful these last couple of days so I haven't been able to spend any time on the internet but at least my semester finally ended so I'm ready to start crossing stuff off my list of things do to until the next one starts.

There's many new shows I want to start though so it will be hard to pick and I definitely need to finish reading every single Maeve fic I have left...

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The dog days are over.

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[collieii]

someone probably said this already but in spiderverse i think it's interesting how when pavitr was first introduced everyone thought something bad was gonna happen to him bc of how confident and optimistic he was. and then in the actual movie we see that something bad was supposed to happen to him (police chief dying!) but it doesn't! miles stops it! and miguel berates miles for this, says it's going to cause the universe to collapse or whatever.

there's this idea that tragedy is inherent to spidermans growth, and while it's true that some spiderpeople learn important lessons through loss, no one stops to ask, is it really necessary? yeah, maybe the chief was supposed to die. but why does spiderman have to be formed through tragedy? why do we (as heroes) have to let people die? pavitr didn't lose anyone, and he's still a good spiderman! maybe, if he doesn't suffer, he'll end up better off for it!

so while miguel is arguing for all this big picture stuff about saving the multiverse he's lost sight of what it really means to be a spiderman, he's not looking out for the real individual people. yeah it's just one person who would die, but that one person means something to someone. shrugging and saying "stuff just sucks sometimes, we can't do anything about it" is the opposite of what superheroes do. pretty obviously, miles arc is also a reflection of the struggles people face in real life, working within unequal systems, where it's easy to shrug and say "that's just the way it is" and not ask "but why does it need be this way? can't we do something about it?"

miguel is arguing that you can't have your cake and eat it too. presumably, miles and co. are going to find a way to get around that and change things for the better (and maybe that's why miles has that line about two cakes in the advisors office!)

[ninyard]

exy fans + Twitter (the au where andreil gets outed)