#i stg they all share the same energy

[lithiumrev]

saying stupid shit out loud to an npc bc it makes your partner laugh is the best thing i stg.

ill be playing ESO and ill say “bold of you to assume i can die.” and my partner will just start laughing his ass off and come see what kind of tomfuckery im up to at that moment. its the best.

[mortifying-macaroni]

So I saw that other anonymous post saying that your Fanfic was really good. And I decided to take a bit of time to open it up in a new tab and have a look at it. I gotta say that I'm really liking it so far. I've actually kept reading through into the 3rd chapter, which for me and just how exhausting I find reading to be is a seriously big compliment. Especially with the added fact that I've never actually played through the mod this story is based upon. So the fact your story can keep me engaged despite those two factors is a seriously big acclaim And man. I can sympathise with Gretchen. That feeling of alienation from humanity, feeling held back by your past and even being disgusted by those ties to your past? Feeling like pretending to be something she's not is holding her back? I can sympathise with all those feelings. So I'm going to enjoy reading the rest of this! This is fantastic!

ANON!!! The way you brightened my morning is so unreal! I stg you've just amped my energy by infinity!!!! I know it sounds hyperbolic, but I'm not exaggerating 😭🖤 I want to thank you just as much as the previous anon for giving this fanfic a chance. Ngl I might have squealed a bit like an idiot when you mentioned how you kept going despite those two factors. Tbh, while writing, I had the impression that the style and structure might be too exhausting for some people, but I let it be since I'm 9 chaps deep anyways, so I'm beyond glad that my writing kept you engaged thus far!

As for CQM itself, I absolutely recommend giving the Sabbat route a spin and it offers replayability to those who want to come back after finishing their first run. The mod does an astounding job at portraying the Sabbat as more of an organization rather than a mere rodeo of shovelheads (the mod uses an older version of the Unofficial Patch, so if you're going to switch from the 'up to date' vanilla game to cqm, you will notice some differences, but nothing to be alarmed by).

Aw, I'm sorry you get the feeling of alienation and trust me when I say that you're not alone. No matter how often we think it's impossible, there's always someone out there who shares the exact same sentiment of what you're going through. You're never truly alone in this. And Gretchen, although self isolated, still has a few memories tied to her past that keep crawling back, however they're not too common, but they still linger since there's no way to just wipe them out like it's nothing. Her humanity's descent is going to be a little intense, but it'll, at least, help her find comfort in discovering a sense of belonging somewhere, even if the bunch she's hanging with isn't exactly the morally healthiest.

I want to thank you again and again for taking the time to read my brainrot baby! Hope it'll continue to be an engaging ride for you 🖤 and if not, that's completely fine, love. I'm still immensely glad you picked it up regardless! You're truly a dear and I appreciate you and your kind words so much!!!

[just-a-mod]

I played Soul Void : Redux.

starting this off with : this is a good review and a happy thing

i am putting it under a read more for spoiler purposes uwu

about 5 or more years ago, i first played Soul Void. i found it on tumblr, and thought 'wow, that looks interesting' and showed it to my at the time GF

we both sat down and played it, me watching her at first, before deciding i wanted to play it along side her and go through the experience

getting into this game, immediately i began to see parts of myself in it. struggles i've had, words i've heard from others and from myself. i looked at the characters around me and felt them resonate with me and i felt.

feelings. sorrow, grief. the want to help, compassion and the hopeful feeling of 'don't give up, it will get better!'

i wanted to help them, and in turn by the end of the game, wanted to help myself

that was 5 years ago

i haven't played since, and not for a lack of not wanting to, just not feeling i needed to. i still remembered The Seeker, i remembered how The Leech and The Waiting were. i remembered how it felt, and i continued on.

then i began to forget, but still, i didn't go back. 'not yet', 'i don't need it yet'. it felt like

lately, it's felt like i did. a refresher, a chance to...process? a chance to acknowledge 'hey, these are struggles. these are feelings, but they can be helped. they can get better.

then i saw Redux was coming out. 3-4 months or so ago, i saw the update was set to release July 26, and i waited.

i'd forget for a few weeks, remember, check the date, and then go back to the day to day, only to repeat the pattern a few more times.

yesterday, i remembered. yesterday, i checked the date.

yesterday after D&D, i threw myself into playing again. and it was everything i remembered it to be.

it feels, oddly enough, like a medicine. a kind of salve that stings and soothes at the same time. my mental health isn't (and hasn't been of late) the greatest. victories in some places, loses in others. but progress, i believe, all the same.

going into Soul Void, i get to see all of these people doing their best. encouraging each other, the player and myself to do our best.

seeing The Waiting, The Husk, The Seeker. The Leech. all of them

new faces too, people i hadn't spoken to before! people i had yet to befriend! places i hadn't' seen!

i stepped into the game and hearing new music, reading new dialogue, having a chance to laugh and feel pain and sympathy and 'oh girl, SAME' energy.

getting a chance to stare evenly at the Grim, to find them less scary and more funny this time around.

getting to help The Seeker.

getting to HUG The Seeker.

getting the necklace. having it in the real world. the message behind it.

(ngl i'd pay some amount of money for that necklace as merch, by the way, if not try to juts make it myself. just tell me how it looks and by golly i will figure out some kind of way)

but i sat, and i loved, and i teared up and cried. i felt an ache in my chest that was soothed the further i went in

i listened to my own words being so automatically offered

'you'll be okay'

it'll be alright'

'this will pass'

'you'll get better'

offered to pixels on a screen that held a reflective piece of something i can see inside of myself, and it reminds me to share those with myself.

Soul Void is a game that sits in a special place in my heart. along side shows like Inuyasha and games like Undertale. it is a game that changed my life in an important time, in an important way.

for years to come, i will revisit it. for years to come, i will remember how every one looks at the end of the game, when you've helped them all. when you've helped yourself.

i will be drawing art of Hugging Seeker.

(also i wish we could hug more people, like The Waiting and The Leech. im not upset we cant, i just also wish we could.)

((also also does any one else have such an emotional attachment to The Waiting because i stg i kinda wish we could just sit with him, as the veins stop pulsing? so he's just not...alone..? but idk that's me))

@kadabura from the bottom of my heart and soul, thank you for making this game. Thank you for updating it.

thank you for all the work you've put into it, and for making it a free to play game.

thank you for sharing it with the world, as this game is one of the most beautiful and cherished experiences i've had in my 30 some odd years of life.

thank you for making such a beautiful story and journey that can allow people like me to see kindness for ourselves

i was originally going to send an ask, but tumblr just does not have enough space in one ask for me to express my love for this game.

Thank you so much. i hope your days are filled with the joy and strength to keep getting new ones, and that your nights are filled with dreams of laughter and music

for any one who may be reading this and NOT know what this beautiful game is

and the beautiful soul who made it

Thank you @kadabura

Be safe and Be at peace <3

[rawliverandcigarettes]

For the fanfic director's commentary, I'd love to hear your thought process behind Anetha—especially (if you're willing to share) hints about her side of the story post–Chapter 8 of Halfway Home. If that's too spoilery or involved, more general rambles about Chapter 8 would be cool as well!

Hey thank you so very much for the ask!! I'm super sorry about the time it took me to get to it!!

Actually, I kind of wanted to have Chapter 17 out so I could dive deeper into her psychology without revealing anything about her attitude towards The Event and without spoiling anyone. But now it’s done, it’s here, it’s messy: I think we have enough pieces to start unraveling what’s going on in her brain.

That being said, spoilers for Halfway Home below for those who may dabble --and beyond the plot spoilers: I think that if you want to keep your opinion on Anetha neutral, or decide for yourself first by reading the whole thing and then potentially coming back, it might be a wise thing to do so because we're truly vivisecting my girl in the reply.

(edit post me writing the answer to the ask: WOW I rambled like CRAZY, so also beware that I do ramble like crazy oops)

So Anetha… Honestly kind of appeared in the story as I was drafting it?

The very very first draft that I ever did, that was actually in French (!), initially only explored Rhanda and Shandri (and Rhanda and Nagatha used to be the same person too), and Anetha was added compulsively because I felt like there was a giant room for conflict begging for someone to take up that space and act a little cooler and more rebellious than the rest of the cast, and that Shlee needed that sort of energy in his life (though the stakes were much lower at the time –or rather, they were as bad, but I had yet to understand just *how bad*). I think that, partially because she erupted into the story rather than being carefully placed there, she was the first character to click for me and the rare beta-readers at the time. Her motivations and psychology didn’t really change since 2017, I merely streamlined them over the course of the drafts –the scenes with Anetha in the spotlight may hold the prize for highest percentage of scenes that barely changed since draft 1 actually!

In the first draft, the breaking point between Shlee and Anetha used to happen in much more defused way. The moment when they were separated was extremely different: chapter 8 used to have a much more traditional Mass Effect flair and involved an attack by batarian slavers, fucking Jondum Bau was there (fun fact: Accano used to be Jondum Bau for a very long time –Accano is actually the conglomerate of two different turian characters that were both scrapped, Jondum Bau and Mordin Solus that were all squished into the blackpink icon that we know and love the slightly unnerving STG agent with a Mission TM), and Shlee was forcefully separated from Anetha during the attack.

Then, it was while Shlee tried to contact her from Omega that the first seeds of doubt about her intentions were planted, especially since the story used to have one of Anetha’s exes showing up and trashtalking the hell out of what she was like as a girlfriend, forcing Shlee to see his sister from an outside perspective for the first time (I still kept her setup in Chapter 3 because I think it still reveals some of these dysfunctions and they're interesting as a pattern). Then, there was the “hey” scene, that cemented the fact that Shlee kind of hated her guts now.

Beyond the fact that I made strides to make the story punchier and more compact by dropping a lot of storylines, and this could be condensed significantly while making my point clearer (deepening not widening etc), I decided that dropping the attack for something that was much more… mundane, in a way, helped to reveal an uglier interior facet of Anetha’s brain –though one that I, sadly, believe to be much more relatable than it may seem at first glance.

(I mean, traveling semi-illegally via a spaceship that side-hustles by smuggling batarian refugees from point A to point B and then being caught by border control is not exactly a regular or normal occurrence, but it could have just been a weird anecdotal bleep on their journey if Shlee didn’t brutally discover that he has much more in common with these batarians than his sister through his absence of administrative existence and being, therefore, inherently illegal).

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So I’m going to be relatively vague with the details since Anetha will be dissected further both in The Empire of Preys (though not a lot since she was younger and kind of existing in the background) and Override (where she will be a PoV character yaaay I’m excited for thaat), but to keep it simple: Anetha’s circumstances were already messy as hell before Shlee even showed up.

This is all hinted at in Chapter 8, but I do get into deeper details here, so… vague spoilers? I don’t think they are, but I do expose the events from her perspective, which I didn’t really do before so beware!

The relationship of her birth mother Priin and Rhanda was very complicated (and not even because of Rhanda!! wow), forcing Anetha to build up huge emotional walls to protect herself from her mother’s wild strides in the mental health department since she was a child, culminating in the moment where she had to take care of a SA emergency all by herself –leading to Rhanda taking the ONE (1) good responsible decision of her life and breaking up with Priin, which unfortunately led her to become unstable and distant and then pushed her to the breaking point when Priin ended up taking her own life years later, even though they had not spoken in years.

So Anetha was holed up to her aunt (not yet a bajillionaire at the time) and her weird human boyfriend while the only parent she had left went to fuck off somewhere to avoid exploding in front of her daughter and making the damage even worse. Anetha hated that move, feeling abandoned and burdensome and reacting by becoming as spiteful as she could towards her Dad, especially when said Dad returned with a small child and another failed relationship, a child she also dumped on her lap to go work on Illium soon after (this moment is much more complicated than this, Anetha understood what she wanted to understand, but TEoP is a lot about that exact moment so I'll keep it vague for now).

And then, just a few years later…… Rhanda returns, pale as a ghost, wrecked with something she will not speak about, only for Anetha to discover that her Dad has a literal stolen child stored in the trunk of their car, then transfered to the bedroom of the apartment they all share.

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Anetha’s aloofness is a survival strategy. It is basically all she has to defend herself from the people in her life, who should know better yet do not, consuming themselves in extreme behaviors at the slightest opportunity (Priin being Priin, Rhanda being Rhanda, even Nagatha deciding to Uno Reverse the free marketplace and becoming a kingpin for the Great Kapital qualifies I think –I could talk for hours about the two T'selvi sisters and how they mirror each other but that’s what TEoP is for so I will calm down and focus on the ask sorryyy). There’s a reason why Edwood, of all people, is probably the best influence in her life (shoutout to Edwood for being the only normal, not-unhinged person in this entire clusterfuck) and why she took after him so much.

I think what’s complicated with her, is that while she’s developing this whole rebellious, no-strings-attached, too-cool-for-you persona to master her emotions and avoid hurt at all cost (especially anything tied to abandonment and grief), she’s also constantly put in situations that demand her to be responsible: beyond her upbringing, she was effectively the adult in both Shandri and Shlee’s life for a good chunk of it, as Rhanda was unable to provide the basic necessities of safety and care more often than not. Not to mention: she knows full well her family is doing serious criminal things that nobody bothers explaining to her, and she must shoulder the burden of being put in constant danger for reasons she can’t begin to fathom. Every time she tries to grasp some normalcy in her life, the people who are meant to protect her put everything in disarray, and then demand her to be mature and practical and unflinching as if that’s, like, a reasonable thing to ask of a teenager forced to brace through the notion that everyone she loves is being tracked down by government officials. Even something as simple as her last name, she’s asked to abandon.

So THEN comes Shlee, and this makes everything so much more complicated for her.

Shlee is the literal representation of everything going wrong in her life: a growing organism forcefully brought in from outside; alien, diseased, destroying every safety net she may have built for herself, soaking up Rhanda’s attention as well as being the direct reason her Dad became the most deranged version of herself to date, something that may drop dead if not cared for correctly, and worst of all –something that demands that she acts as an example for his own growth, forcing her into a caretaker role whether she wants to or not through imprinting.

And he will die in like 30-40 years, which, fucking great, that's like in five years for her, and so the last thing she wants to deal with emotionally on top of everything else. So this is why she refuses to engage with him for such a long time: it’s too messed up on too many levels, and she wants to preserve herself from the general madness (understandable honestly).

During the first brush with Accano, Anetha basically has the exact same thought process that would come back to haunt her in that fateful chapter 8: Accano represents the authority of the state. The STG agent may be a maniac that will destroy her and everybody else, or he may be normalcy and order offering her a way out a situation that is getting more and more out of control. Maybe Rhanda did kidnap a salarian child in a crazed frenzy, and the best course of action would be to reunite him with his people.

And what a relief that would be.

So of course, that doesn’t happen and then Shlee starts becoming an actual person in her eyes, one she has to spend time with and care for; in so many words, a new constant in her life. There’s the component of being won over in spite of herself as he becomes sharper, wittier and a partner in their survival and co-raising of Shandri, aaaand of course there’s the other component of Shlee being her only concrete way to get back to Rhanda in any significant way.

She does want to help Shlee become his own person, like Edwood helped her once; her behavior is not manipulative on purpose, but her subconscious also sees this opportunity to take back control over the narrative by overpowering Rhanda’s influence over Shlee’s life and becoming his new reference point, his new everything, in no small part for the spiteful pleasure of ripping the last shreds of stability her Dad still has after being forced to survive her whims for so long. She really wants to sweep Shlee away and save him from Rhanda, preserve him from the unbearable fate of rotting by her side, but Anetha also wants to know that for once in her life, she won’t be the one to mend the pieces of what once was.

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So OKAY now we’re here (sorry this has basically turned into a short story length-wise, I think this is a result of concentrated blorbo frustration of not being able to talk about them with that level of details accumulating over 7 years; expect the same kind of outbursts once I am allowed to talk about Nagatha, or Jurlan, or even Rhanda in greater details 😭).

Chapter 8. The Citadel Border Control has her brother pinned down as everything he technically is: someone that will inherently destroy her life through the simple fact that he exists. At this point, Anetha’s brain is overridden with the refusal to be shoved back into Rhanda’s crimes kicking and screaming. She’s livid. She feels trapped and overwhelmed, and she’s been training her emotions to initiate shut down upon meeting a critical point of fear, powerlessness and general absence of safety. Empathy is the first thing to go when it comes to protecting herself. Maybe, if Shlee didn’t take the snap decision of running away, she might have calmed down and figured things out with him in a detention cell somewhere, but both of them are basically as emotionally triggered as it gets, and so Anetha shuts down while Shlee panics and makes a drastic decision to not trust her and save himself.

And Anetha does not take kindly to being abandoned and left to puddle in Shlee and Rhanda’s mess Yet Again.

There’s other reasons why she doesn’t reply to his texts to begin with –having to deal with Citadel Border Patrol to begin with, and then more that will be explored in Override. But in essence, once she’s let out, Anetha is pretty much… free. Free to figure herself out without the pressure of her insane family getting in the way (oh no does that sound like someone else we know having a similar character arc somewhere else surely not, a foil in my fanfiction it's more likely than you think etc).

Of course, there’s that pesky guilt and her complete refusal to handle grief in any way, and that feeling does linger, and so her willingness to handle the situation upfront is very much hindered by this (beyond the practical reasons why she might not be able to help). The whole “hey”/”hey” fiasco really does nothing for either for them (I think it was the best she could do and the most she was willing to leave herself open, and Shlee shutting that down meant every single one of her walls was back up and reinforced). The passive-aggressive nature of their conversations through bank expenses made mostly off her own paycheck is also a very bad way to communicate, and most of what Anetha sees for a year are receipts for ridiculously expensive cocktails and cheap bomb shots from Afterlife. Doesn’t really help our frog’s case as far as she’s concerned (even though she does realize it’s probably a bad sign and probably her fault that a shy nerd like him would be taking that hard of a plunge towards alcoholism, regardless of the reasons why –but she’s also pretty much there herself sooo not the best at recognizing the pattern).

Also she’s having mercenary times and they are Bad Times. Doesn’t help with the whole numbness/detachment problem either.

Speaking of Eclipse: the whole mercenary thing comes from that urge of trying to reconcile her desire to be independent and freed of responsibilities with that yearning for safety in a world where she’s always yeeted out of what is normal and safe without her consent anyway, starting with the fact that she’s pureblood and inherently looked as wrong –and just the general romanticizing of herself as a stone-cold badass as a way to one-up Rhanda on her own field, aaaand maybe a little bit a way to feel closer to her/make her react, because to be frank a lot of Anetha’s bullshit is about wanting Rhanda to react to said bullshit and act like a responsible parent, and be there, and not abandon her/de-prioritize her constantly, and be a source of stability rather than an endless distress generator.

(the seed being planted by the mercenaries hired by Nagatha at one of the most stressful points of her life is actually a rather late addition, but I think it works!)

But yeah, Anetha has SO MANY similarities with Rhanda it’s both hilarious and pretty tragic, but I’m really discovering how badly that's the case while working on The Empire of Preys, and… yeah. Generational Trauma. It’s a thing.

To conclude my ridiculously long answer to your ask: I’m sorry I spewed an entire essay about Anetha’s brain, but also I’m so happy you gave me an opportunity to pry her open for everybody to see the gunk there. Honestly a good half of the joy of getting other eyes than mine on Halfway Home is to watch them grapple with their emotions towards Anetha, as she can make herself so easy to love, and then immediately sooo hard to love. But I do love her (but I’m biased since I love literally every character except maybe… like one and a half? fuck içalec all my homies hate içalec), and so I’m really happy you were kind enough to encourage me to deepdive into her edgy brain!!!

[hella1975]

Every time you make a post about yourself I’m reminded of how fucking similar we are and it’s always something new and it’s so weird. Like I vent my issues through creative works but sometimes I’ll write it and it’ll take me months to realize that’s a problem I even have. I have several projects about the character (basically my self fucking insert let’s be real) being unfeeling at least out worldly or their powers or whatever they’ve got causes them to have no emotions or they were raised that they literally cannot show emotions (🤨 that’s a real project I’ve had for years. Idk how we are the same person) and therefore don’t. But one that I have in particular has a scene where the MC is watching his sister cry in their mom’s arms and he’s just thinking “how could she let herself be so vulnerable? Isn’t she embarrassed?” And later he realizes he was also somewhat jealous bc while they share a mom, she never lets him be anything but a punching bag and he has to be emotionless. This is totally not based on a real experience whatsoever and I have a normal relationship with my family *eye twitches*. This is so many words to say that I get that a lot. Even when I’m struggling I’d have my mom be like “you’re such an asshole why can’t you just snap yourself out of it” or thinking she’s being lighthearted by going “this is why all your friends leave you” and I’m like ah. I’m never saying anything ever again. Also ah, I come across like an ass when I’m just some guy in my head and in places where I’m relaxed and have the energy to be how I actually am/want to be (close friends, online, etc.). Basically this is so fucking long to say that I get the same shit that you do and it’s garbage, but like everyone else has said I don’t think you’re unfeeling. I get a sense of like camaraderie? Like “same hat” kind of thing, I get what you mean when you say literally anything because I get it? If you were so cold hearted, I think that wouldn’t be a thing because you’d just be nothing, there wouldn’t be anything to relate to? But yeah, I’m shaking your hand. I genuinely don’t know how we are one person split in two, it sounds like I’m just making shit up but I stg I have not lied in your inbox as of yet - 🫐

Also our periods are synced up. I don’t even know you. Genuinely, literally, with my whole soul: what the fuck - 🫐

blueberry anon im experimenting with the paranormal to contact you in increasingly concerning ways can you hear me. i saved this ask for a bit after you sent it just bc it really surprised me the comfort i got just from like. someone not only acknowledging it all but also being like 'we're in this together' type thing. like everything you've ever sent me has me nodding like yeah this guy gets it fr fr, and when a lot of times that's in response to posts i was nervous to make? it means a lot x

[maxortecho]

Complicated feelings about a lot of the Echo in 3x09 (WHY was Liz still angrily defending her right to violate Max’s boundaries??)

But I don’t really have the mental energy to unpack all that, so for now:

- Maria banging Greg… omg that scene was wild, and hot. “OVER HARD”, SCREAM.

- Maria and Isobel! I’ve always been a bit iffy about their dynamic but I LOVED THEM SO MUCH HERE.

- Max opens safes the same way Jones does, gonna gif that 😌

- Michael turning up with the message on his shirt, I laughed

- Liz dragging her subby boy around by the hand immediately, gonna gif that too 😌

- Max asking for them to stop being divided 🥺

- TAPE NUMBER 4. I DIDN’T JUST KEEP THE TAPES I LISTENED TO THEM TOO. SO I COULD BE CLOSER TO YOU.

- Not surprised Heath isn’t evil but I stg the lesson here needs to stick. It’s not about the outcomes being good/bad, it’s about not having the right to share information that isn’t yours.

- Jones being hot and evil… yeah, gonna gif that mf too

[fantastic-bby]

SKZ vs. their s/o dancing while cooking

Pairing: Reader x Member

Word count: 2k

Genre: Fluff 

Summary: They catch you dancing in the kitchen while you’re cooking 

Warnings: -

Requested by @m4rshm4llow​ (I hope you like it!)

Masterlist 

Chan

More often than not, Chan probably wouldn’t come home in time for dinner 

He spends so much time at the studio that he usually only leaves when it’s already past midnight or when he realises that it’s getting really really late

And most of the time, you’re already asleep when he gets home 

Buuuuttttttttt

Chan told you he was gonna be home earlier 

So being the loving s/o that you are, you decide to cook him dinner ^-^

So you're in the kitchen, wearing one of his black t shirts which pretty much engulfs your entire body :3 

While cooking, you have one of your speakers blasting songs at full volume

Since you're wearing socks, you're gliding all over the kitchen 

You barely even hear the door opening when you're in the middle of pretending your spatula is a guitar during the guitar solo

"Babe?" 

You snap your head up and see Chan smiling while standing in the kitchen doorway

You really weren't expecting him to be home for another half an hour or so

"Is that 5sos?"

You don't answer him and instead grab onto his wrist, dragging him closer to you

"Dance with me, Channie!" 

He laughs as he watches you dance 

Chan thinks you’re so fricking adorable he’s just aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa (^ω^)

"Come on, baby, you know the words" 

You eye him playfully and he chuckles

"Destination permanent vacation" 

Minho

Minho comes home at a reasonable hour 

He'd been working so hard for the past few months with the comeback, you decided that maybe you should make him dinner rather than just ordering something like you two usually would

What Min doesn’t tell you is that he’s coming home earlier to surprise you because he wants longer cuddle hours with you 

So you dance away in the kitchen, wooden spoon in hand and the music at full volume

When Minho stands outside your shared home, he can already hear the music

Wondering what you’re up to, he steps in without saying anything since he also knows you most likely won’t even hear him

He does not expect to find you dancing in the kitchen while pretending your spoon is a microphone 

So he just stands there, watching you with the biggest smile on his face

You don’t even realise his home until you turn around and see him standing like a Sim in the middle of the doorway 

“Min!” 

You grab onto his arm and start dancing, trying to get him to catch onto your vibe

He laughs at you and thinks you’re an absolute bundle of joy 

But Minho being Minho 

He doesn’t want to admit that he thinks it’s cute and wants to tease you

“I didn’t realise I was dating such a party animal”

“I know you like this song too, so shut up and dance”

He really can’t resist

He wouldn’t openly admit it but he loves when you’re all amped up

Changbin 

Binnie usually wakes up earlier than you do 

So when you wake up and notice that not only is he still asleep, you also have time to whip him up some breakfast

You climb out of bed carefully, trying not to wake him up 

But you notice how he snuggles into himself tighter when you slip out of his cuddle and it makes your heart just go (｡♥‿♥｡)

Since you’re still wearing your socks, you slide around the place without actually walking 

When you start cooking, you have your phone hooked up to one of Changbin’s many speakers 

You tried to keep the volume to a minimum 

But you were starting to disappear into your own bubble so you ended up making the volume a lil bit louder

Unsurprisingly, it wakes up Changbin

It was also the musician inside of him yelling at him to follow the source of the music

He climbs out of bed, shuffling his way out of the bedroom and towards the kitchen

Where you’re dancing and gliding all over the place 

Changbin’s not new to this sight 

He’s seen you busting out your favourite hype playlist while cooking before, but it never fails to make him smile

He leans over the kitchen island and watches how you barely even notice that he’s there 

Before you whip around and almost yelp in complete shock at the sight of him giving you the most adoring smile ever 

Something like ^-^

“Binnie, come dance with me”

You extend your hand towards him and Changbin can’t resist as he rounds the counter and wraps his arms around you 

“You’re so cute” 

Hyunjin

It’s not a new occurrence for you to be dancing and singing while cooking 

Hyunjin knows that quite well

He’s caught you a couple times 

You usually turn around and look at him all flustered and embarrassed 

He thinks it’s so cute how you immediately stand straight when you realise he’s watching, pretending that you weren’t actually doing anything 

Makes him go all ( ˘ ³˘)♥

Hyunjin absolutely loves when you’re acting all hype and excited even if he doesn’t actually openly say it 

So when he comes home from practice to see you using your kitchen as a dance floor

He can’t help but start giggling 

“Babe, what are you doing?” 

You whip around and your smile grows 

“It just started playing TA!”

You pull him into the kitchen and it makes Hyunjin laugh even more 

He loves seeing you dance to one of his songs he thinks its so cute 

“Dance with me!” 

You beckon him over and he obliges 

Putting his bag on the kitchen counter, he makes his way over to you where you’re pretty much happily bouncing in your spot 

“You’re so full of energy today”

He wants to tease you for being so excited 

But Hyunjin doesn’t want to ruin your vibe 

He would feel terrible if he did 

So he starts dancing with you while trying not to push over the pot that’s currently boiling on the stove 

Jisung

I genuinely feel like 

Jisung would be the kind of person to have random bursts of dance in his body 

So I feel like he really wouldn’t be surprised if his partner would have the same type of spontaneous tendencies

But since you’re not really that much of a dancer, you don’t actually have the same amount of dance bursts as Jisung 

He LOVES when you do though 

Makes it feel like you’re catching onto his energy 

So when you’re cooking lunch and Jisung’s working on music in your shared bedroom

You start dancing first by just bopping your head and humming along to the lyrics 

Then the song changes to something more upbeat and you’re already starting to sway with the rhythm 

When it reaches a particular 5sos song, you’re amping up the volume 

They make really good upbeat and possible revolution leading songs I don’t make the rules here

And it catches Jisung’s attention because now you’re belting out the lyrics 

At first he’s like ?? because he thinks it’s coming from his earphones

But when he pulls them down and realises that the singing isn’t coming from his laptop he’s all curious 

So he sneakily steps out of the bedroom to see you singing in the kitchen 

He would go all (ノ°▽°)ノwhen he sees you 

Jisung also wouldn’t hesitate to bump his booty with yours 

“Babe, you’re a better dancer than I am!” 

You turn around and at first you feel guilty for disturbing him

But then you see how he’s dancing too 

So you start dancing again 

And the two of you are just dancing away in the kitchen together

Felix

Aww this man has dance parties all the time you can’t change my mind 

He would totally be into just grooving whenever he wants to 

He hears a song he likes? 

He’s dancing (｢･ω･)｢

And I think his partner would have to be down with spontaneous dance parties too 

So you would just be doing your own thing 

Yaknow 

Vibing around the apartment as you usually do 

Gliding all around the place with socks on and sliding into every room possibly 

You’re just having your own vibe

You’re shaking your lil booty while wearing one of Felix’s colourful sweaters being really careful not to spill anything on it 

Your sleeves are rolled up and you’re stirring away at a pot of pasta while 5sos plays in the background 

Felix steps into the apartment and he sees you busting your cute butt in the middle of the kitchen 

He recognises the song almost immediately 

“You’re listening to 5sos! :D” 

Every bit of exhaustion Felix felt from practice just vanishes 

Especially when you point the spatula in your hand at him like it’s a microphone 

“They say we’re losers and we’re alright with that!” 

He laughs as he pulls the spoon out of your hand 

“We are the leaders of the not coming backs!” 

He immediately moves to your side and it’s like your energy has instantly been amplified 

Because now you’re both jumping around the kitchen excitedly while She’s Kinda Hot plays this song makes me feel like leading a rebellion i stg

Felix throws his bag across the room 

For the moment you’ve both forgotten your worries and are just belting out the lyrics in the middle of the kitchen 

Completely oblivious to the fact that your neighbours can probably hear you 

Seungmin

Minnie seems like the kind of person who would pretend stuff like this embarrasses him he really loves it

He would be the kind of person who would go 

“Baby, that’s so weird ( -_-’ ) ”

But he’s really just being a tease because he wouldn’t admit you’re absolutely freijashjkdase adorable to him 

You don’t mind it either 

He’s acts like he doesn’t like it but you know he loves it 

It’s also not new for you to listen to music while you do things 

Stuff like cleaning, cooking, even when you’re working, you’re always listening to music 

Seungmin takes note of it but he’s never actually seen you dancing to yourself since he’s usually away at practice when you’re really having a hype day 

But you weren’t expecting Seungmin to be home so early 

He was supposed to be home later in the night, but here you were in the kitchen while frying up dumplings 

Music’s blasting from the speakers but you can hear the sound of the front door opening 

You’re too hyped to stop dancing 

So when you turn around to see Seungmin’s amused smile 

You point at him with your spoon while singing 

It makes him laugh so hard 

He doesn’t even know how to react when you grab onto his hand and start dancing 

He just stands there LIKE A SIM before he starts laughing again

His heart’s doing backflips on the inside though 

Soon your energy starts spreading to him

“Baby, the whole building might hear your music” 

“Minnie, I don’t care”

He laughs even harder because it’s rare to see you so loose 

So he joins you 

Jeongin

You would be vibing around your apartment 

Just doing your thang 

You didn’t intend to have the music blasting because it started with a lo-fi playlist since you were finishing up some work at first 

Then you switched it to a more intense playlist when you moved to cleaning 

Then it changed into your hype playlist when you started cooking 

So you’re still wearing your socks because you thought it would be more fun to move around the place with them on

And you’re just busting out moves like the kitchen is a dance floor and not a place that could be a total fire hazard 

When Jeongin comes home he’s ??? because he hears music 

He comes in and you don’t even realise the front door opened 

He steps into the kitchen and his jaw drops because you’re pretty much in you’re own world 

Jeongin goes from :0 to c: to :D real quick 

“(Y/n)! Baby!” 

You turn around and see him and you’re also :D 

“Dance with me, Innie!” 

He doesn’t really have much time to react 

Bcs you’re pulled him into a your bubble 

And he feels the hype almost immediately 

Jeongin starts to catch on to your vibes

And he goes from swaying to the beat 

To bouncing 

To pretty much using Back Door’s choreo to dance to whatever song’s playing 

So you both end up using random choreos that probably don’t even fit with the song 

It doesn’t matter tho because you’re both happy lil beans c: 

[familiaanteomnia]

warning: mental illness, dysphoria-body image mentions, ED type mentions, shark week ish, bottom growth/related stuff n.sfwish? depending on how you take it- also packers,etc mention (naturally it varies by verse,etc but i’m mostly sharing pretty consistent information- also dont be stupid about any of this like i stg) -his puberty got kind of messed up like he so badly despised it, plus his mental health issues and all that basically by sheer force of messed up will/chemical backfires,etc it had an reaction like how stress affects those things as in... in regards to shark week was so inconsistent, so very much to the point he has these meds he’s supposed to take that basically kick his body the rest of the way into doing the process/is supposed to make it quick, done way sooner with less pain due to effectiveness even (he obviously forgets genuinely/fights against the whole situation leading to major cramps and issues even if he isnt bleeding) will go like 3 months of risking major health damage over it. (going on t makes this all worst because doctors like ‘okay now you really need to cause now you’re having more issues’ and he just- doesn’t) -really knows way too much medical shit in general,  naturally he’s very much an ‘why does life work like this why are people so ashamed of normal stuff’ etc but also dude will balk at stuff like ‘ugh im on my period’ xav just grimacing inwardly all like why must i be reminded that’s an thing.. ha ha not me lemme repress shit as such dude will carry extras,etc but is very much trying to be an punk dudebro about it/even if is basically screaming internally about it all, trying to never think about that stuff -k.t tape binds most the time, if not just doesn’t bother cause of his body shape/type and mood+ outfit+ plans for the day. however he does own an binder, sports bras work and are more often the case. as such most the dysphoria hits in different ways, elsewhere (but with his general puberty complications/fast metabolism,etc he also just forgets he’s trans an lot like he gets hit in the crotch and falls over in pain then 10 seconds later like ha ha wait what the hell i’m not even packing) -dude is pretty slender,etc from his fast metabolism, shit eating habits (because he can eat like 5 whole pizzas and not get slightly full or bloated but also he frequently lives off like candy, energy drinks,etc vices...) though it also can vary to kinda athletic and he doesn’t seem like mega unhealthy at least lol in that department plus with what he wears,etc usually unnoticeable (he is super easy to pick up especially if unconscious even that add of dead weight is pretty light but like not easy to tackle) -totally pumps his bottom growth not even entirely in that ahem sesual way but in an genuinely helps with pain/helps with dysphoria (not that his growth is bad at all but also, it kinda helps with that too) like i mean obviously splurged too so he can just like pull some pants on, play video games or whatever as it does its thing -likewise doesn’t skimp on things like packers, has an major collection/gets lower dysphoria? dude will drop like 1000 dollars on more options even if has plenty that are high grade, expensive not even sesually though of course many purposes and he’s only an person like anybody else/plus that t juice fueling an already high libido,etc but anyways yes he sometimes prefers to be like lol glow in the dark d.ick is my packer even though i have an 3 in 1 that cost so much money and is multifunctional (also he 100% for fun, aesthetic, and boredom sometimes pierces them) -general body image issues/disconnect problems due to his mental illness more than dysphoria, being trans surprisingly more stuff like ‘oh right this is what my body is? you mean to tell me for the last 48 hours was watching myself in 3rd person but didn’t notice- oops.’ but also damn is he pretty much like i know i’m aesthetically pleasing, hot and i will flaunt it even if not quite full of myself -likewise mirrors? he makes faces at himself, flips himself off and has totally shattered an large amount of them because he started thinking too much about if his freckles are visible,etc same with reflections though isnt always super mega serious can just be to make himself giggle/habitual

[wwilloww]

WILLOWWWW!! 💕Now that I have calmed down enough to be coherent… OMFG🥵🥵🥵. Yep that’s it. That’s my only thought the whole time 🥵🥵haha when jimin walks in on jk rawing her against the kitchen island I about lost it. And then when jk’s cock full on TWITCHES inside her as he makes eye contact with jimin?!?! AM I SENSING AN EXHIBITION AND SUB KINK JK (my ultimate fantasy)???? Phewwww. “the problem won’t be the tools in the toolbox” had me cackling… I mean… that sweat pant bulge was pretty impressive so I imagine he’s HUNG LIKE A CHAMP. And I about LOST it when jimin starts handling jk’s cock to show him how to fuck her better… like R U SRS yes I absolutely want to feel every crevice of his cock inside me. And I don’t think anyone’s mentioned it yet, but I noticed the title, Shh, finally being used in the story!! Nerdy lil detail, but I still enjoyed it 🤭 haha the moment we notice that it suddenly got too quiet in the living room for them to continue secretly fucking had my heart in my THROAT. I seriously thought they were gonna be caught leading to one big ot7 orgy😂 HAHA but that impromptu water fight scene was SO genius and sexy!! I loved seeing joon give her the shirt off his back. “has he been working you?... with arms crossed, his pecs seem especially voluptuous, and god, not to mention the way his arms bulge with the new position.” I am her//she is me. I am the switchiest of switches with dom leaning tendencies (hence my sub jk fantasy), but damn what I wouldn’t give to be manhandled by namjoon😩😩. And pls, I LOVED getting those subtle hints of tae being a past flame??? He seemed a bit… jealous almost? And that wet dream she had alluding to them fucking before??? Also, do I sense some taejin action in the future??? That’s a pairing that I feel isn’t as common and I’m loving it! Speaking of tension… I’m also picking up on some hobi tension. “You can sleep naked… I don’t mean it like that – I mean I can- I mean… I just want you to be comfortable.” And then he rips off his shirt for her (I can’t believe she got to see hobi’s sexy bod). My favorite scene is the last scene with jimin. Their relationship seems so easy, so comfortable. And when she says he seems like a sub cus he’s so angelic… I felt that. I LOVED the use of ✨explicit consent✨ and the discussion jimin has with her about talkin about boundaries before sex, “is it something you’d like to try?”, “and if you want me to stop at any point, you just tell me. Understood?” and the way he eats her out (and makes her watch him pleasure her?!? 👀) til she’s just BARELY cumming AND THEN RIPS AWAY HER ORGASM?!?!?😭😭😭😭 I about cried for her omgggg “I won’t make you wait long.” Sounds like both a threat and a promise and jimin had better be keeping it!!! I can’t believe it’s been 2 full chapters and no one’s cummed yet?!?! I feel like I’m being edged😩. Like mc, I haven’t been touched by a man in like 8 months and I AM DYING. If I had 7 hot male friends up in the mountains, I would LITERALLY reenact this entire series, I stg I am so touch starved. Bless you for blessing me with the sex I wish I were having. Looking forwards to some more mountain top shenanigans, and hopefully, orgasms. Ps just for future reference, would you like me to use they/them pronouns with you?? And if you ever need anyone to bounce thirsty ideas off of, I am always willing to help create some inspiration!! I am sorry for the hundreds of words of pure filth I just unleashed in your asks 🤭🤭 Thanks for sharing, Willow!! Sending you all my love 💕💕💕

LOOK AT ME HERE I COME, ARMS FULL OF LOTS AND LOTS OF LOVE FOR THE ONE AND ONLY YOU

MY FRIEND MY ANGEL I WANT TO YELL AT YOU ABOUT THIS BUT I FEEL LIKE THAT WOULD BE COUNTER TO WHAT I AM REALLY TRYING TO SAY BUT I WANT U TO KNOW THAT MY FEELINGS ARE YELLING OKAY 

FIRST OF ALL WHY ARE YOU THE BEST

second of all, I just... i don’t even know what to say at this point. Coming back out of a very frustrating class, I felt like reading this was bathing in a shower of love and I just... i KNOW I am supposed to be a writer with words for all my feelings but right now I don’t have them!!!! I just want to let you know how excited I get when I see you’ve sent me a note. The detail of your responses makes me feel like people are getting to experience the same things I am trying to create in these stories! It makes me feel so seen and so understood and AHHAGHKDJH. It means the whole world to me. Your excitement and personality just flows off the page in these asks and it is such a delight to get to read!!!!!! Such! A! Delight! 

Right now my preferences for she or they pronouns is changing by the daily (which is a me thing, and not something other people need to keep up with) and so I feel really comfortable using both pronouns. A lot of my close friends use both to refer to me and that makes me happy! And the other lot of my close friends also just use one! I do not mind either way, but I really really appreciate you asking 💕

As for THIRSTING. You are the thirst GOD. Your JK gif sparked this series to life. You are always welcome to come thirst with me. ALWAYS. Anyways, I love you, and I want to write a whole essay just detailing how much I care for you and appreciate your considerateness and kindness and humor. It is a pure joy to have you around in my sphere. Mwah!!! Mwah!! Mwah!!! 

(also i found this gif and i feel like it’s sh. boys energy competing for the final heart so here it is)

[writeofmind]

im a bit late for this bc im rarely on here ;-; but i thought id share my guesses at the pinks' sexualities ahahaha ok i am rosé biased and that bitch gay like i KNOW she's gay, i feel it in my bones i stg jennie is bi curious like a lot of you said bc i think she'd want to try things or like wouldn't mind doing things with girls yk lisa could be bi or even les, she has that energy to me lmao jisoo could be bi or straight IDK LMAO take care ily <3 -wdtfs

that’s okay! LMFAOO but you are accurate in my eyes!! we all think the same thing... so it’s eatin sumn 👀 take care too anon, ily! :>

[lucycantsleep]

alright i’m gonna do an appreciation post bc my friends are doing them and now i feel bad

but i’m lazy so....

i’d like to thank a few people for really improving my Quality of Life this year!!!

@defsigh @chippychee @thatadorkablegirl @ethereal-bean @sweetchaos-yk @yeetyouhoes ( @veckvontour / @swiftly-a-flawless-night ) @nakamowoto @iiasha @incoherent-piece-of-trash @fandom-queen-aka-trash @aceforeverz @nakamowoto @applejwoos @imbored-6 @ireallyneedthatgifinmylife (shelby i can’t remember your url) @honeymoon-changb @bubbleskwan @yeomjoo

and many more! (i can’t remember blog names and i’m too lazy to check, still love y’all tho)

i love y’all, thank u for providing me with some much needed love and entertainment during this difficult and confusing year

and to those Extra Special Boons (u know who u are— and where i live lol), you guys are the absolutely most amazing people ever!!! and it makes me glad that i decided to trust strangers i met on the internet (sorry, mom) with my number (and location rip). i know i never seem that serious or invested or whatever, but i really appreciate having you guys around whenever my life gets difficult and i don’t want to talk to my irl friends. thank u all for threatening to remove various parts of someone’s leg (out of love). anyway, i’d like to give a few special shoutouts :

to my wifey @defsigh : we share the same 3 Braincells and i love that about us, thank u for existing and being so funny and supportive you’re the best (and i currently have you saved into my phone under a picture of shrek, just fyi)

to my goddess @chippychee : thank u for basically creating our friend group on accident, and i’m willing to kick my roommate out if you ever want to escape your family, ily boon

to the ever supportive @thatadorkablegirl : how are you literally so kind and awesome and... adorkable????? this is a conspiracy, why are you like this how

to ms. smarty farty pants herself @ethereal-bean : i stg you might be my only sane friend and i appreciate you being so grounded and wise all the time (but i do love when you threaten to eat people’s knees, it’s very endearing)

to our yonk-er @sweetchaos-yk : you are an amazing crackhead of a human being, thank u for also threatening to remove people’s knees with me, and being nice (to all except nideen, but the bullying is funny so please proceed)

to our resident icon, @veckvontour ( @swiftly-a-flawless-night i hope) : u are so funny and creative, it’s always a pleasure to see your avatar on my screen, ily

to our lord and savior @yeetyouhoes : all i have to say is ur an aboulute, certified legend okay, thank u

there’s more but i’m out of love energy

sorry if this is super incoherent, i’m currently suffering from jetlag fml

[kageyuji]

5, 7, 15? thx bby

All three of these were call outs I stg

5. what is your favorite overused trope?

Probably the “there was only one bed” trope, although several are close seconds

7. name a character you wouldn’t mind naming someone after.

Bold of you to assume I haven’t...my dogs name is Kazz because when I got her I as obsessed with supernatural but didn’t wanna name her Cas. And my betta’s name is Aronax because I was reading 20,000 Leagues Under the Sea. Though honestly just any of my favorite characters 😂

15. does it bother you if a character shares the same name of someone you know well?

Ok ok so let me explain. Yes and no, it depends. I know a girl named Rose but she has completely different energy than Rose from DW so it doesn’t bother me but I know a guy named Thomas and everytime I see him my mind immediately goes “the maze runner”

[imagineurfavs]

Just One Night (2PM Jun.K smut)

“I still Stan 2PM and I 💕 Minjun! Waiting till 2020 is 😭 May I have a “ he’s home on vacation from army, so you having all the fun 😉 you can , before he has to go back” small drabble/ story? Please and thank you.”

(A/N I stg minjun isn't even my bias but like bruh the things I'd let him to do me...lord. Also strap in lol its long, sorry if you wanted something short i guess i got carried away lol oof...)

Word Count: 1575 words

It was such a rare occurrence these days that both you and Minjun had a free day at the same time. He hardly ever had days off from his military duty and when he did, you were always super busy with work so you couldn't spend really the time you wanted together. Only a couple of hours here and there before you both had to go back to the real world and leave the one shared by only the two of you.

But today was not one of those times. You'd told a little white lie to work, saying that you had a small family emergency to tend to and would be back tomorrow. Whilst they were thinking you were busy helping a relative, you were really sitting in your car in a small side road waiting for Minjun to appear so you could spend the full day together.

You were flicking through your phone as you waited, looking at all the photographs you'd both been exchanging for the past few months, always accompanied by messages detailing the desires you had for each other whilst you were apart. Just as you were beginning to get totally lost in your thoughts, a small tap on the passenger side window snapped you back to your senses.

"Y/N"!! he exclaimed as he swung open the door "Oh my god I missed you so much" he said, flinging his bags in the back seat and pressing a kiss to your cheek.

"me too, you can't even imagine..." you breathed out as you began pulling out of the secluded road you were parked in.

“Is there anything you wanna do today, it is your first full day off in a while, after all” you asked casually as you drove down the highway, warm sun beaming through the windows, illuminating Minjuns skin in gorgeous golden tones.

“Can we just...go back to your place, please baby” You heard from beside you, accompanied by the feeling of a large hand being placed on your thigh, squeezing ever so slightly.

A breath hitched in your throat as you swallowed loudly “Oh...sure” you said reaching to give his hand a quick squeeze, catching his meaning.

The short drive passed by in a comfortable silence, Minjun’s hand resting on your thigh throughout, rubbing small circles into your leg with his thumb. You were focused on getting you both home safely, but you could feel his strong gaze burning into you the whole time.

Whatever tension had been building between you both heightened tenfold once you arrived home and had to ride the elevator 8 floors up, cramped between an array of other people. His warm breath hitting your skin as he whispered in your ear “I can’t wait to get you inside and show you how much I’ve missed you.”

“Minjun...people” you replied quietly with a giggle, quickly turning your face away to avoid his teasing glare. He got slowly more and more daring as people started filing out of the elevator at each level. His hands running slowly up and down your hips, resting just on top of the zipper to your jeans.

The elevator opened at your floor and you both made your way out slowly down the corridor.You walked in to your apartment, throwing your keys down, saying with a laugh “wow, could you have been any more obvio- “ before being spun around quickly and pressed tightly to his chest.

“Well, I've gotta make sure people know you're taken, even thought i’m not here most the time” The coarse skin of his fingers travelled down your body, resting on the small of your back, pulling you into him and closing the remaining gap between the two of you. His lips moved with yours as he slowly walked you both back towards the large kitchen counter.

The familiar taste of Minjuns lips, the taste you’d missed so much, began spreading over your tongue as you pushed it past the barrier of your mouth and into his own. You held his face in your hands, thumbs running over his sharp jawline, pulling him closer to you. A small groan emanated from his mouth as he took a small bite to your bottom lip.

“Jump” The single word hit your ear, his low tone sending shivers throughout your body. Just as your feet left the ground, he caught you, warm hands on the underside of your thighs, keeping you elevated. With one swift movement he hoisted you up and placed you on the counter top, positioning himself between your legs.

Leaning back on your elbows, you watched his gaze travel down your still clothed body, taking your entire presence in. His eyes getting darker the more he stared.

“You can take my clothes off, Minjun” you teased as his hands came to a stand still just above your hips.

“I know, I’m just...I’ve missed you so much you have no idea”

Memories flashed through your mind of all the nights you’d spent alone in bed, thinking of this exact moment, of course you’d missed him too, but your mind was only focused on one thing at the moment. “Well then show me”. 

With those words of confirmation from you, he raked his hands under your shirt and over your waist, pulling your clothes off over your head. Hovering above you he attached your lips together once more, more ferocious than before. Your fingers taking purchase in his hair as his made a bee line to your core.

Slipping his hands inside your underwear he shot a smirk at you, separating your kiss for a moment “I know its been a while, but wow...baby, you're so wet for me already”

“Oh shut up and just touch me please!” you taunted, unable to wait any longer, pulling his face back to yours.

He let out a small breathy laugh into the kiss as his fingers went between your folds rubbing quick small circles on your clit, a quiet gasp coming from your lips as your head fell back from the arrival of the feeling you’d waited so long for.

His lips trailed to the crook of your neck, taking small bites on the soft skin as he pushed a single finger inside of you, curling it a few times before effortlessly adding a second. Your hands began blindly finding their way to his own trousers, making quick work of getting them undone.

He let out a hiss from behind gritted teeth, eyes fluttering closed, as his cock sprung free, the cold air of your kitchen hitting his hot tip. You wasted no time in sitting back up and wrapping your hand around his already hard dick. He locked eyes with you as you made one long deliberately slow stroke, your finger lightly grazing over the slit.

In the blink of an eye and without a single word he removed his fingers from you, picked you up and moved you both to your bedroom before placing you down, sprawled out on the bed. Crawling on top of you slowly, his build imposing but safe, he placed an arm either side of your face.

“I didn’t wanna cum in the kitchen...” A smile formed on the corner of his swollen lips, holding back a giggle “I had to get you in here and do it properly” He brushed his thumb over your flushed red cheeks as he placed his tip at your entrance.

He entered you at an almost unbearably slow speed, coming to a stop when his hips were flush with your own. Letting you get adjusted to him after such a long time without feeling each other, he connected your lips once more in a delicate kiss, your lips moving in perfect rhythm with each other until you signalled to him that he could move.

With an equally slow movement he removed himself from you, ran his tip over your core, gathering your juices before burying his cock in you faster than before. He set a firm but fluid rhythm, maintaining eye contact as he disappeared deep inside you, your hip bones clashing with each thrust.

You began to feel your orgasm quickly approaching, that familiar knot in your stomach returning; every sharp movement pushing you closer and closer to your peak. Minjun once again took his lips to your skin, his teeth nipping at the soft skin of your collarbones, sure to leave violent purple bruises in the days to come. You held on tightly as you feel your muscles begin to contract, the warm skin of his back under your fingertips becoming sticky with sweat as he pushes you over the edge of orgasm.

Your climax washed over you as your back arched upwards, your breasts meeting with Minjuns chest. A cry of his name along with the clenching of your walls around him was enough to make him come undone inside you, your name falling from his lips over and over as he continued to sloppily work you both through your shared orgasm.

He remained on top of you, your chests flush against one another, in a comfortable silence, feeling each others’ heartbeats for what felt like forever. He turned on to his side, holding you in his strong arms. Feeling at home in his embrace you allow sleep to take you, choosing to forget the small amount of hours you had left together

(WOWOWOWOW THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE SHORT OOF SORRY I GOT CARRIED AWAY I GUESS???? i stg minjun just has this certain...energy y’know? i could write for him forever lol)

[spectre-requisitions-exchange]

1 Post-Deadline Pinch Hit

Assignments are mostly in, and while we have some extentions out, we do have one new pinch hit posted that we need a good come for. The absolute deadline for this is Friday, 15 Mar 2019 06:00PM EDT but ideally the sooner, the better. If you want to take this pinch hit, send the mods an email at specreqs@gmail.com or send our inbox a PM with your Ao3 username. 

Post-Deadline Pinch Hit #1 (keita52):  Greg Adams/Karin Chakwas, Karin Chakwas/Adrien Victus, Karin Chakwas/Steven Hackett, Karin Chakwas/Zaeed Massani,  Karin Chakwas/Septimus Oraka, Miranda Lawson/Garrus Vakarian,  Female Shepard/Ashley Williams, Miranda Lawson/Female Shepard,  Kirrahe/Mordin Solus, Nakmor Drack/Urdnot Wrex,  Liam Kosta/Female Ryder | Sara, Nakmor Kesh/Vorn, Suvi Anwar/Peebee, Vetra Nyx/Peebee,  Jaal Ama Darav/Peebee, Jaal Ama Darav/Peebee/Female Ryder | Sar (Fanart, Fanfiction)

EDIT:CLAIMED!

Request 1 by keita52

Mass Effect - All Media Types Greg Adams/Karin Chakwas, Karin Chakwas/Adrien Victus, Fanart, Fanfiction

Adams/Chakwas: That scene in 3 where Chakwas confesses to Adams that she’s not okay with what happened on the Collector Base… right in the feels! That clearly shows that Chakwas trusts him enough to tell him the truth. Does Adams feel guilty for not having been there to help her? Were they an item before or does that only start when he returns to the Normandy?

Chakwas/Victus: I'd love to see a developing relationship between the two of them while Victus is on the Normandy. He's lost his son and been thrust into a position of power he wasn't prepared for -- what drives him to seek Chakwas' company? What does she see in him that sparks her interest? How do they handle the inevitable separation? What happens after the Reaper War? I can see this one being a bit bittersweet, where they have a good time together but have to content themselves with less after Victus leaves the Normandy.

DNWs: Watersports/Scat / Humiliation / A/B/O dynamics and other non-traditional reproductive biology (mpreg, etc) / Modern/Mundane AUs / Incest / Necrophilia / Infidelity/cheating / Daddy/mommy kink

Request 2 by keita52 Mass Effect - All Media Types Karin Chakwas/Steven Hackett, Karin Chakwas/Zaeed Massani, Fanart, Fanfiction

Chakwas/Hackett: I'd imagine they have a long relationship, with them both being old hands in the Alliance. I'm up for them being an on-and-off thing throughout the years, or it's only when Chakwas comes on the Normandy and Hackett starts taking a serious interest in Shepard that things spark between them. Again, how do they balance their relationship with their competing duties? Show me what it looks like when they're able to steal a moment together.

Chakwas/Zaeed: Zaeed respects Chakwas for not treating him with kid gloves. Chakwas find herself charmed despite his coarse manners. Yeah, it might be a bit of a cliche, but opposites attract and it leads to something pretty hot -- and maybe sweet, too. (In other words, I'll really take just about anything here :D)

DNWs: Watersports/Scat / Humiliation / A/B/O dynamics and other non-traditional reproductive biology (mpreg, etc) / Modern/Mundane AUs / Incest / Necrophilia / Infidelity/cheating / Daddy/mommy kink

Request 3 by keita52 Mass Effect - All Media Types Karin Chakwas/Septimus Oraka, Miranda Lawson/Garrus Vakarian, Fanart, Fanfiction

Chakwas/Oraka: I love Oraka, so I'm game for pretty much anything here. Perhaps Shepard is too busy in ME1 and delegates Chakwas to shake some sense into Oraka, and he realizes that the Consort isn't the only one who has captured his attention. I'd love to see some kind of long-distance wooing, with Chakwas being exasperated at first and eventually warming to the idea, so they start stealing time together when they're both on the Citadel.

Miranda/Garrus: Miranda’s trying to set herself up as Shepard’s right hand, but Garrus kind of already had that position in 1. They’re at each other’s throats until the anger spills over into angry sex. Then it turns out they have more in common than they thought, with their fathers pushing them to be something they aren’t. How long can they keep up the pretense that they really can’t stand one another before the truth comes out?

DNWs: Watersports/Scat / Humiliation / A/B/O dynamics and other non-traditional reproductive biology (mpreg, etc) / Modern/Mundane AUs / Incest / Necrophilia / Infidelity/cheating / Daddy/mommy kink

Request 4 by keita52 Mass Effect - All Media Types Female Shepard/Ashley Williams, Miranda Lawson/Female Shepard, Fanart, Fanfiction

Honestly? For both of these, I’m not coming up with anything much besides “just make them femslash instead of het”. FShep challenges both of them to break out of their “humans first” attitudes, but also accepts them for who they are instead of pressuring them to meet impossible standards. Perhaps Ash and FShep only get together for the first time during 3; if that’s the case, how have they both changed in the time they’ve been apart and how do those changes make them work as a couple now?

DNWs: Watersports/Scat / Humiliation / A/B/O dynamics and other non-traditional reproductive biology (mpreg, etc) / Modern/Mundane AUs / Incest / Necrophilia / Infidelity/cheating / Daddy/mommy kink

Request 5 by keita52 Mass Effect - All Media Types Kirrahe/Mordin Solus, Nakmor Drack/Urdnot Wrex, Fanart, Fanfiction

Kirrahe/Mordin: For this one, you can either go strictly platonic or tweak canon to make their relationship include sex. Working together during their STG days – butting heads and then eventually coming to respect each other. Maybe they keep in touch afterwards, steal moments together whenever they can. A reunion during ME3, after Sur’Kesh – maybe Kirrahe comes on the Normandy for a time and sees Mordin there. They bury whatever hatchets lay between them because the Reapers make everything uncertain. Maybe that’s their first time together? Mordin lives or dies during ME3, your choice.

Drack/Wrex: Cranky old krogans unite! Both of them have Seen Some Shit. They get smashed together before Clan Nakmor leaves with the Initiative, trade stories, try to top one another as far as who did the most outrageous thing. Or maybe they fought/worked together at one point. Drack gives Wrex a hand in the 2183-2185 period as Wrex works to unite the clans.

DNWs: Watersports/Scat / Humiliation / A/B/O dynamics and other non-traditional reproductive biology (mpreg, etc) / Modern/Mundane AUs / Incest / Necrophilia / Infidelity/cheating / Daddy/mommy kink

Request 6 by keita52 Mass Effect - All Media Types Liam Kosta/Female Ryder | Sara, Nakmor Kesh/Vorn, Fanart, Fanfiction

Liam/F!Ryder: Liam has such ups and downs in Andromeda, I'd love to see Ryder being there for him and giving him a dose of reality or a pick-me-up, as required by the situation. A steady Ryder could be an interesting contrast to Liam's personality, or they could be two peas in a pod and everyone else groans as they see what they get up to.

Kesh/Vorn: What did Drack miss while he was running around with Ryder? Why did Kesh choose Vorn, and how does Vorn feel about being so chosen? I love that he has kind of non-krogan job/interests. I'd also love a slice-of-life with these two, either before or after Kesh has her babies.

DNWs: Watersports/Scat / Humiliation / A/B/O dynamics and other non-traditional reproductive biology (mpreg, etc) / Modern/Mundane AUs / Incest / Necrophilia / Infidelity/cheating / Daddy/mommy kink

Request 7 by keita52 Mass Effect - All Media Types Suvi Anwar/Peebee, Vetra Nyx/Peebee, Fanart, Fanfiction

Suvi/Peebee: Anything! Suvi and Peebee teaming up to run wacky scientific experiments or explore new areas on Andromeda, and it brings them closer together. One of their experiments goes wrong and they have to team up to figure it out. Suvi and Peebee tweak other members of the Tempest crew for a laugh.

Vetra/Peebee: Vetra might start off being annoyed by Peebee, but eventually comes to respect her unorthodox manners and her boundless creative energy. How does Vetra communicate her interest? Perhaps Peebee figures it out before she lets her feelings show to Vetra, having a little bit of fun with Vetra before putting her out of her misery.

DNWs: Watersports/Scat / Humiliation / A/B/O dynamics and other non-traditional reproductive biology (mpreg, etc) / Modern/Mundane AUs / Incest / Necrophilia / Infidelity/cheating / Daddy/mommy kink

Request 8 by keita52 Mass Effect - All Media Types Jaal Ama Darav/Peebee, Jaal Ama Darav/Peebee/Female Ryder | Sara, Fanart, Fanfiction

Jaal/Peebee: Jaal gets tired of Peebee's constant teasing and dares her to actually go through with it. Does she, or is she taken aback and needs more time to consider? Bickering/teasing to UST to hot hot sex ... or anything else you come up with ;)

Jaal/Peebee/F!Ryder: So many great ways this could go! Duo to triad (either duo to start with), or Jaal and Peebee have been rivals for FemRyder’s attention and decide they’re okay with sharing. I’d especially love Peebee continuing to tease Jaal about possibly being able to mate with him. Shameless three-way smut, or Jaal bringing both of them home to his mothers.

DNWs: Watersports/Scat / Humiliation / A/B/O dynamics and other non-traditional reproductive biology (mpreg, etc) / Modern/Mundane AUs / Incest / Necrophilia / Infidelity/cheating / Daddy/mommy kink

Request 9 by keita52 Mass Effect - All Media Types Vetra Nyx/Female Ryder | Sara, Nakmor Kesh/Vetra Nyx, Fanart, Fanfiction

Vetra/F!Ryder: Not going to lie, I’ll take pretty much anything here. Vetra’s so confident and dashing, but she’d do anything for her little sister. Maybe F!Ryder feels the same way about her brother (even if he’s not littler than she is). Vetra can be herself around Ryder, something she finds herself greatly attracted to. Perhaps they’ve both got a little daredevil/adventurer streak in them – or more than a little.

Vetra/Kesh: KESH. Such a great character, very good, very no-nonsense. She and Vetra make such a great team. I’d love to see that respect spilling over into something more (slow burn would be great). Please don’t bash Vorn; you can leave him out or work Kesh’s decision to pair up with him into the story as long as Vetra/Kesh is still the focus.

DNWs: Watersports/Scat / Humiliation / A/B/O dynamics and other non-traditional reproductive biology (mpreg, etc) / Modern/Mundane AUs / Incest / Necrophilia / Infidelity/cheating / Daddy/mommy kink

Request 10 by keita52 Mass Effect - All Media Types Kallo Jath/Zevin Raeka, Avela Kjar/Jaal Ama Darav, Fanart, Fanfiction

Kallo/Raeka: I’m a sucker for arranged marriage tropes, so what if the Jath and Raeka families somehow decide that these two need to pair up? Raeka being a bit put out that her family expects her to start producing eggs when there’s so much work to do. Kallo having a strong attachment to the human Pathfinder and not wanting to shirk his duties. And then the two of them overcoming their doubts and finding some kind of happiness with one another…

Avela/Jaal: Another "arranged marriage special"! You get to hear gossip on Aya about Jaal’s relationship status (mainly, the lack thereof). Maybe there’s arranged marriage traditions among angara, and Jaal is fed up with his mothers’ attempts to set him up with a “nice young woman” so he chooses Avela instead, because she’s attached to her work and is also feeling the pressure of being matched up. Nice, uncomplicated, no feelings … until feelings start to creep in.

Or the more straightforward approach: Jaal gets to know Avela because of Ryder’s visits to the Repository of History, and (once again) feelings ensue.

DNWs: Watersports/Scat / Humiliation / A/B/O dynamics and other non-traditional reproductive biology (mpreg, etc) / Modern/Mundane AUs / Incest / Necrophilia / Infidelity/cheating / Daddy/mommy kink

[vixenfur]

Tag at least 5 people you love and give a few words on why!

OH MY GOODNESS!!!

Since there was so much BS in the fandom today, time to share some love! :)

- @zeta-jane is an absolute godsend of a friend. They are sassy, funny, talkative, energetic and so full of amazing ideas!!! Zeta is always there for me when I need someone to lean on. They’re such a kind friend and they will not hesitate, baitch to fight people who hurt me- probably because they know I’d do the same for them! They’re such good company both online and IRL, and I am blessed to have met them! I am even more blessed to be writing City of Dust and Shadows with them, which has become the longest fic either of us has ever written! We may or may not surpass it with our future collabs, however ;) They are just the coolest person ever and they deserve all the love in the world. I adore them so much!!! TUT 

- @mikayu-chan is such a got damn SWEETHEART. They are trying to see the positive side of things, especially after so much fandom drama in the past, and I’m so so proud of them for trying their hardest to live their best life. They have it way too hard and I want to give them a big ole hug and many days of fun!!! They always make me laugh and we have a great time on calls! I’m glad that we see eye-to-eye on so many things and that we continue to teach each other new things all the time!! They are really an irreplaceable friend and such a joy to talk with, to write with, and to laugh with. I love you Chan

- @crazyloststar deserves the entire world and more!!!! oMg I cannot express how much I love Alex!!!!! Alex is just a big bundle of happiness and fun and she makes me so so so so so so so happy. I love calling with her and talking, I love writing with her and everything else!! We always have so much fun, I swear I can’t talk to her without laughing my ass off at least once XD we’re always DJDJDHDHDHDJD’ing at each other because we just can’t find the right words to express how hard we’re agreeing with each other/laughing omfg. I adore her and I cant WAIT to cosplay KimiYoi and RyuuTenn with her hopefully at next year’s Yaoi Con WOOT WOOT :D!!!!

- @yuudefensesquad is sUCH A GOOD BEAN who deals with SO MUCH and she just needs a big ole hug and lots of Yuuchan i stg. Caydence is such a funny funky lil nugget and I protecc her with my life okay. Her art? Flawless. Her shitposts? FUCKIN HILARIOUS. Her meta? Super engaging and intriguing! Her bravery? ABOVE US ALL LOL. She is just awesome and I’m glad I forcefully adopted her into my lil family of mikayuu nerds bc it just wouldn’t be the same without her. Caydence ily never stop being you. A lot of shit challenges her irl and everywhere else, but she still keeps her head up and man I really respect her.

- @mikaisatop is MY FRICKIN RIGHT HAND MAN. My SOULMATE. SARAHHH I ADORE YOU. You might be busy rn but I love you so much girl ;__; even though she’s busy I always bother her bc I want her to know I wouldn’t ever forget about her!! I’m so happy we got to collab so much and will continue doing so!! Winter’s Waltz is so much fun to write and I’m so happy she is writing it with me anyways despite such a busy schedule. If it weren’t for Sarah we wouldn’t have so much good MikaYuu content and I applaud her for it!!

- @6lilystrings9 IS JUST THE BOMB DOT FUCKIN COM. Lily and I didn’t super duper connect until more recently but omg talking with her is just a freakin BLAST. We always get so hype with each other, even over each other’s fandoms that we aren’t even in!!! Something about the energy in her pulls out the energy in me and we just get GOING lmao. She is so very talented and amazing and a fascinating person all around! I’m so glad we got to hang a bit at KatsuCon in 2017 but I hope we can do that again in the future! I miss her all the time!

- @weirdfairytales is the MAN. THE MYTH. THE LEGEND. Anna is just the biggest definition of a meme I can think of and I LOVE her for it. I’m so glad that we met way back when MikaYuuHell Skype existed and that she thought of the masterpiece that is Cherry Boy one wild night. I’m so glad we continued to be great friends and talk about so many things. I love when our messages get super long cause we just have so many things to say XD Cosplaying Victuuri with her at Katsu was so lit, and I can’t express how much I love her Victuuri fic too!!!

- @hannaadi88 is such. a. sweetheart. I can’t say it enough. Hanna does so much and gets so little I stfg yall need to APPRECIATE HER MORE. Her writing is STUNNING and the projects she makes for this fandom are just outstanding!!! From gift exchanges (I SAID ONS REMIX BEFORE IM SORRY i was wrong XD) to 365 Days of Mika and Yuu, she has put in so much for us constantly! She has also granted us with the lovely fic Scented, and not to mention one of my favorite fics of ALL TIME, Eye of Horus- the Ancient Egypt take on Unwritten!!! And she named it that without knowing my first tattoo is literally the eye of horus! XD I was shook lmfao and I still am. Meeting Hanna was amazing and the day I spent with her and @ihavetobenkyou (who is also a-freaking-MAZING and a big bundle of goodness!!!!!!) is one I’ll never forget. She’s so chill and just gives off this ‘wise’ aura idk why but I just look up to Hanna so much. No matter what she writes I will always support her and you all should too!!!

- @just-another-dream-about-yuu is ONE OF MY FAVORITE HUMANS TO EVER HUMAN. Julia omfg I cannot express how much I love you. TwT Julia is not only one of the most talented artists I have ever seen, but she is so sweet and fun and so full of energy and excitement!! She’s super busy with adulting so she’s not around in the fandom a whole lot but I always make sure to include her bc I won’t let her leave XD JULIA YOU CANNOT ESCAPE…. lmfao I will always drag you back… I won’t ever forget the day I got a twitter notification that someone drew me Unwritten fanart and the croaking sound I made was insane LMAO my friend who was with me was like WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED XD I was so excited!!! I still adore every piece of fanart she’s given me and I always will. Thank you, Julia, for bringing my imagination to life so many times, for showing me what you saw when you read my writing. It means more than I can say.

- @coleglend is the most underappreciated person in this fandom I swear. Or, who was in this fandom- Cole is off doing other things besides OnS, but regardless, she is so very amazing and beyond talented. I can’t even express how beautiful her art is and the emotions each piece sparks in me. Even her new Marvel artworks are just breathtaking and I truly admire them!!! I don’t know anyone who can make such detailed, visually engaging art- everything she creates belongs in a museum I swear. I want to print them and frame them for my walls!!! I look at her art all the time!!! Now that I’ve established how gorgeous her art is, talk about Cole as a person! She’s so sweet and kind and I love seeing her little posts on Instagram and such, even though I can’t understand most of them, I like seeing that she’s with friends and having a good time.

- @linnpuzzle is one of the coolest most amazing people in this fandom!!! Her art is STUNNING and as she knows, I will drop everything to commission her and buy her merch because I just am addicted to her gorgeous art!!! I am so honored to have some of her art as part of my collection of OnS things and I am forever going to treasure the commissions I’ve purchased from her!! Besides being a great artist, I love talking with Linn, too! I’m so glad we have things in common outside of MikaYuu, like Voltron and Kyo Kara Maoh :D Linn is truly too good for this world and she deserves everything okokok.

- @zilleniose-chu is truly an ICON of this fandom. We don’t talk alot outside of business stuff lolol but they are just freakin amazing!!! I adore their art so much- I always have, ever since I first saw their page!!- and I LOVE their AU’s and headcanons!! They are full of such great ideas and humor and they can share those ideas through really stunning and captivating artwork

- @absolute-exclusivity IS AN AMAZIN. ABSOLUTELY AMAZING BEAN OH MY GOODNESS i cANT TELL YOU ENOUGH HOW MUCH I LOVE LYSIA. AAAAAAAAHHHH THIS GIRL IS GONNA SPEND MY BIRTHDAY WITH ME OUT IN LONDON LESSGO GIRL!!! I’m so excited you have NO IDEA. Lysia is so so so energetic and cute and overall such an amazing friend!! She’s so caring and always willing to listen even when things are busy for her!! She’s full of hilarious, tragic, and heart-pounding ideas and AU’s. We always get lit together talking about fics and headcanons and I wouldn’t trade those moments for the world. I can’t wait to meet her and I can’t wait to collab with her and Zeta soon, too!!

- @rindartist is absolutely one of my favorite artists of ALL TIME no doubt about it. Rin is so amazing, always making so many beautiful artworks of MikaYuu, and now of other lovely series aswelll! I may not be into GBF but her art of it is just lovely and I suggest everyone to commission Rin if they have the means!!

- @p0isonpez is someone I’ve only seen from afar but I absolutely love her art and posts!! I am so happy to see someone new in the fandom sharing such lovely things and interacting with the rest of us!! you seem so friendly and kind and I hope we can talk more sometime! :D

- @temesasu is such a sweetheart!! We’re just starting to talk a little more, but I am soso happy!! They are such an amazing cosplayer and their ONS cosplayers bring such a big smile to my face. They are beautiful and able to make themselves look like so many different characters!!! They are so talented with makeup, I am in awe!! :D And they are so kind and fun to talk to, and I hope we talk more! Thank you for sharing your cosplays with us, you are amazing! Don’t stop!

- @seraph-star is such a good precious person who makes endless good content!! Omg, their edits are just so awesome!! they always have me bouncing my head along, or completely enraptured and breathless, or laughing!! They are so good at evoking different emotions through video editing and as a very casual video editor myself, I am so impressed with their work!! I also love their memes and art and everything else that they share!!!

- @angeru-artist is a precious PRECIOUS ANGEL who deserves the entire world!!!! Omg, Angeru makes such amazing art, with such expressive characters and cute little attributes!!! I love it when I see their art and I’m so glad that we share a few fandoms together rather than just one. Angeru is really bighearted and she goes through way too much hard times, and I wish I could just take her away to somewhere better!!! One day my friend we will forget about the world and just have fun!!

- @maqui-chan iS ONE OF THE BEST ARTISTS I’VE EVER KNOWN OMFG. her art is iconic and unforgettable!!!! Maqui’s art has always been one of my favorites of all time and I can’t even count the amount of times I’ve commissioned her LOL!! I JUST LOVE HER ART SO MUCH OKAY!?? ITS SO GOOD GO LOOK AT ALL OF HER GLORIOUS CREATIONS! she is so talented and she can create anything, from angst to smut to humor, leave it to Maqui to create amazing things!! And omg Maqui ignited the fire in all of our ShuuNaru hearts amiright!??? GOD her art inspired me so much to the point to where I wrote a ShuuNaru fic and it was so much fun!!! Maqui, thank you for drawing so many awesome things and creating so much for the fandom!! Even if you’ve mostly fallen out of it, your creations are always going to be treasured by me and many other people- you’ve impacted people way more than you know! Thank you for always making me laugh on twitter aswell XD you’re amazing and ily!!! 

OK OK I;M OUT OF STEAM I’VE BEEN TYPING THIS FOREVER OK i could go ON AND ON about even MORE people in this fandom but that would take me literal ages LMAO

TO EVERYONE ELSE, WHO I DIDN’T MENTION BC MY BRAIN IS JUMBLED AND I AM EXHAUSTED: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. DONT STOP CREATING. THE FANDOM IS A FLAMING GARBAGE HEAP SOMETIMES LIKE IT WAS TODAY. But DON’T LET THAT STOP YOU from having a good time, doing what you love, and creating things that you are proud to share!!! And if your heart leads you elsewhere, to a different brand new fandom, I hope you always remember the people you inspired with your work!! I hope you forget the bad memories and always treasure the good ones. I hope that we can be friends and/or that I can continue supporting you no matter where we all end up in the years to come. And if you decide to support me too, I give you my biggest, most heartfelt thanks.

No matter how ridiculous this fandom can get and how much stupid discourse can dampen the mood and disappoint me, I will never let it stop me from loving MikaYuu and OnS and what I do. I will never let it stop me from writing all that my crazy little heart wants. I will continue to write until my passion dies, and when that day comes I will probably cry as I say goodbye and resort to watching from the sidelines as everyone else carries on. I will never forget the fun I had here. These past 3 years have been so impactful already, and I know the future ones will continue to be- with the old friends, with the new friends, and with friends to be made!!

Let’s spread love more often rather than hate. I encourage anyone who feels inclined to make posts (maybe not as long as mine if you dont want XDD) talking about your favorite creators and friends in the fandom, too! Or, if that seems too corny to you, just continue to draw, write, edit, and cosplay! Continue to make people laugh and smile and cry and swoon! Continue to support creators by leaving comments and kudos, by liking and reblogging, by following and commissioning, and sharing and crediting their work wherever you can! Continue to make a difference!

I love you all so much!

[surveysonfleek]

774.

A How artistic are you? slightly. i have an eye for creativity but haven’t done anything in forever.

Do you want to go to Africa? i’ve technically been. just ot mauritius. i’d go back after i tick off other places on my list.

AC/DC or Aerosmith? neither.

Do you know what Armenia is? yes.

B What’s your beer of choice (if any)?  pear cider if i had to.

Do you know the title of Buffalo Springfield’s one-hit wonder? nope.

Do you have a brother? (Do you like it that way?) no. and yeah, i like it that way. i always remembered wanting a sister when i was younger and eventually got it haha.

Which bank do you use? stg.

C Which comedian do you most enjoy? i don’t have one fave.

Would you ever live in California? if i could afford it, hell yes.

Is it possible/likely that you’ll become a cat lady? no, i hate cats.

How many different countries have visited? around 20 maybe.

D Do you believe there’s a devil? possibly.

Does eating dessert often make you feel guilty? sometimes! it depends what it is.

Can you legally drive? yes.

What have you been diagnosed with (if you don’t mind sharing)? nothing.

E How often do you drink energy drinks? never. only if i’m crazy tired.

Where did you live when you were 11 years old? here.

Do you like the actor who played Edward Scissorhands in that movie? johnny depp? idk i’m indifferent about him. don’t really care.

Have you ever felt an earthquake? i feel like i have but wasn’t confirmed.

F When was the last time you saw your father one-on-one? a week and bit ago.

Do you think French is the most beautiful language? no, i’m actually not a fan of how it sounds.

Is Friday your favorite day of the week? not always.

Have you listened to Jimi’s song ‘Fire?’ nope.

G Do you have real gold jewelry? yes.

How often do you watch ‘Gossip Girl’? i followed it while it was on and finished it. never watched it again lol.

Is Google your homepage? yes.

Do you like Geico’s commercials? never seen one.

H When did you last feel happy? last night.

Do you prefer Hollister, Hot Topic, or H&M? h&m.

Did you dress up last Halloween? nope.

Would you voluntarily watch the History Channel? it depends what documentary was on. 

I Have you ever been on an island? yes.

Would you be able to locate Indonesia on a globe? yes.

Do you know if Iceland or Greenland has more ice? greenland does.

Did you watch the last presidential inauguration? nope.

J Do you enjoy jogging? no, i hate it.

On which instrument could you most easily play ‘Jingle Bells’? piano.

How much do you know about John Lennon? that he was shot.

Do you know how Jell-O is made? hmm not really? like from scratch that is.

K Have you tried Krispy Kreme doughnuts? (Was it love at first bite?) yes, i love it!!! i feel like they’ve progressively gotten smaller throughout the years though.

Are you very afraid of North Korea? not very afraid or anything. just mindful that they could fuck shit up.

How many pairs of khaki pants do you own? none.

Have you ever been a fan of the Killers? nope.

L Does it bother you when couples are lovey-dovey in public? no. unless there’s inappropriate groping i guess. 

Do you have your own lighter (why or why not)? yes. i smoke.

In how many languages (besides English) can you count to 100? none lol.

What’s your favorite lollipop flavor? choc banana.

M Do you believe in miracles (why or why not)? i mean, it’s possible. it just depends on one’s definition of miracle.

What do you think of shows like Maury and Jerry Springer? trash tv that i’d only watch if there was nothing else on lol.

Do you care that Mars (the candy co.) uses deadly animal testing? had no idea.

How did you form your opinion of marijuana? idk. i was taught about it, was super against it then i was around it. still not a fan.

N How often do you sleep naked? never.

Do you actually check the Nutrition Facts before eating something? sometimes.

Who is your favorite musical artist/band beginning with ‘N’? no one i can think of.

How nerdy are you (in what ways)? hmm i like reading, playing board games and watching documentaries i guess.

O What do you think about olives? i haaaate olives! it’s probably the only vegetable i hate.

Are you much of an outdoorsy person? not at all.

How big of an Oprah fan are you? i like her but i never really watched her show.

How often do you shop online? weekly.

P Are you looking forward to your prom? If you already went, how was it? it was okay. the after party was better.

How are your local policemen? i don’t see them around much tbh.

What is your ideal PB&J sandwich like? i don’t like pb&j.

What do you think of the movie ‘Pineapple Express’? i never finished it.

Q How true is the saying, ‘quitters never win and winners never quit’? eh, it’s true to an extent. but if i quit smoking does that mean i won’t win?

Do you prefer Quiznos or Subway and why? subway, never had quiznos.

Have you learned the quadratic formula yet? (Do you remember it?) yes but i don’t remember it. What is the one question you most want to ask someone and who? eh, nothing.

R How many rooms are in your home? too lazy to count.

Do you like raspberries? they’re okay, a bit too sour for me.

What’s one of your best memories from during a rain storm? umm nothing lol.

Have you actually read Shakespeare’s ‘Romeo & Juliet’? yes.

S Do you know any Sign Language? nope. What is your sleeping schedule generally like? i sleep around 4am and wake up before midday. i work nights, so yeah.

How well do you sing? not well. i wish i was good at singing :(

How often do you listen to 60-70’s music? never.

T What do you think of Twitter? it’s okay. something to read in the mornings.

How much do you value the Ten Commandments? not that much. i can’t even name half of them.

Are there many trees where you live? a couple.

How much taller/shorter do you wish to be? maybe a little taller but i’m fine with my height.

U Where do you usually buy your underwear? bonds.

How do you define ‘ugly’? someone arrogant and rude.

Do you like to shop at Urban Outfitters? i like looking through it but don’t always shop there.

V Would you like being described as ‘voluptuous’? haha it depends if it’s positive or negative.

For listening to music, do you like to crank up the volume or keep it calm? crank it up.

Do you ever watch the annual Victoria’s Secret fashion show? nah.

Would you agree that ‘variety is the spice of life’? yes! it’s nice to have variety, i’d hate to do the same shit everyday.

W Are you currently on wireless Internet? yes.

Can you recall memories of learning how to whistle? not really.

Do you go to White Castle or just vicariously through ‘Harold & Kumar’? nope.

Have you gone to Washington, DC? Did you like it? (OR do you want to go?) yes. i love it! it’s really pretty there.

X Why did you need your most recent x-ray and what were the results? there was a lump on my wrist. it was fine, it went away on its own.

When it comes to ‘xoxo’, do you interpret ‘x’ as the hug or the kiss? kiss.

What does X stand for in Roman numerals? Can you write the previous number? 10.

Why do you think xylophones are only popular with young children? because they’re pleasant sounding and you can just smack it.

Y Can you explain the meaning of the yin-yang symbol? i think i know what it means but i’m not sure if it’s correct.

Do people more often mistake you as being younger or older than you are? younger. sick of getting carded.

Did you know that yawning is contagious?  everyone knows this lol.

Would you like a bottle of Yoo-Hoo or it’s not really your thing? idk what that is.

Z How many places’ zip codes do you know by heart? not many.

What comes to mind when I say ‘Zero to Hero’? hercules!