#i simply dont know anything else

[findafight]

Accidentally making characters aspec is just reliving adolescence thinking everyone is good friends out to have a fun time and then realizing no...actually at least a third of these people are flirting and or fucking or at least trying to.

Sometimes it's conscious!! Sometimes I see a blorbo and go yes. You! You shall be aspec my child... And other times I write and then reread and go ah. Wait. How do allo people act? Do allo people think like this?? And don't have an answer but it's usually no.

[isnt-that-wizardd]

there is just something about the difference between edwin's love interests and having the cat king's reaction to edwin in hell being "i'll be waiting when he gets back" vs charles "no version of this where i don't come get you" rowland convincing a powerful trans-dimensional being to open a door to hell just so he could get him back

i am insane

[sketchy-tour]

The more I sit here and think of the update and Poppy's isolation, as a person who has suffered with diagnosed severe anxiety, I've been feeling such a deep sense of dread at how okay everyone was with simply...shutting her out. Literally. Sure, they did it with loving smiles and reassuring words.

But in the end, Poppy was simply walled off and forgotten about. Because of her nervousness and fears.

And man have I...felt that before.

[sunfyredefender77]

as alicent defender and alicole fan i really didn’t like this scene

[abimee]

deeply appreciate everyones support over the years but with the recent thing i want to remind whoever may have been here for a while that no matter how long youve been following me and no matter what you may think, you ultimately dont know me. If you relate to my art/posts thats wonderful and im very happy for that!!!! But just because you relate to my struggles/thoughts/art does not mean you know me intimately, and you dont know who i am or what i have.

I dont say this to alienate people but to remind you that theres always going to be a barrier between us and that we will never truly know each other, and to remember that before you approach me about anything or with the idea that we're friends/you know things about me. For all you know i can be straight up lying to you about anything, and again, i DO NOT say this to create some sort of doubt around me or to alienate people --- i say this to mean that you should not think of me as a friend, or that you know ''me'', purely through some tumblr posts. If you want to be my friend, you have to actually strike up conversation, send a letter to me or something, play ff14 with me, something that's not just staring at my text posts and claiming you've been around since my X days and have sent me Y amount of anon asks so of course we're besties. I have a small group of friends, and I know who they are, and they know who they are, and nobody else.

I will not name or identify this person, and if you go out of your way to look for them I will openly announce you as a harasser for forgoing my explicit confirmation that this person needs to be left alone --- but this past week, I had a confusing but ultimately harmless interaction with an indivitual tumblr follower, that when taken into privacy turned into a deeply invasive conversation, where a document was revealed to me having been written by this person about me, with an illustration of me inside, declaring multiple things about me that were not true, were not appropriate, and made me incredibly uncomfortable and stressed out. What this document was is nobody's business, but it was obviously written during some sort of mental health situation, and included the person invading my privacy regarding my ''alters''/personalities and believing many things about me, including marking me as a ''big brother'' to their ''little brother'', inadvertently implying I will become an ''introverted fascist'', and when I attempted to communicate with them my discomfort and that I wished to end the conversation they had continued to press me and send me strange messages. This was after being privately and publicly threatened as well. They eventually let the conversation end, but without any apology, and continued to @ me publicly as well.

This was, overall, an incredibly uncomfortable experience, and while I wish all the best for this person and what ever mental state they are in that made them do this, I am also allowed to be incredibly mad about it. Being threatened and then claimed to be the person's ''blood nephew'' in the same sentence is not the way to talk to someone, in an altered mental state or not.

But I do not want anything to come of this. I am airing out my discomfort and to show that people are way too comfortable treating me like shit, but if anybody goes out of their way to dig up who this person is and harasses/bothers them about this you are a piece of shit. Leave them alone, just like I asked them to do and have been doing in return. Let them deal with it on their own!

this is not an uncommon occurence, either. Back when I was discovering and dealing with what I now (and have known for years) was a case of delusional multiple personalities, I had complete strangers attempt to ''talk'' to these sides of myself or to ''get them out'' to talk. I, me, Rylan, have personally been pushed aside for these personalities, alongside people feeding into my delusions (with good intentions, but still,) purely because they got too comfortable with the idea of ''knowing'' me. I had been invited into a private discord server between me and two people, where the person (a mutual's) boyfriend broke down before me and started crying about how ''they'll never be as good as an artist'' as me, and I was made to be the target of this this self-destructive breakdown that was this person seeing me as ''above'' them and treating me on a pedestool. I have multiple times had people personally claim me as their friend and then never treat me with any respect, have had someone send me a death threat and harass me because they were a long-time follower who saw me as a friend until I made an off-hand harmless joke about their comfort character, and many more situations where I was placed into an uncomfortable situation purely because someone invaded my space/parasocialized a friendship between us as complete strangers, and then either made it my problem to deal with their low self esteem, or took it out on me when I did not act 100% to their liking.

I have been open with my Bipolar and my other mental disorders in the past because people wanted to know my experience, possibly help themselves consider something, but if being open creates situations like this then I won't do it anymore.

All I ask is some respect. I have been treated like shit since I was a teenager in highschool by complete strangers, and it's not healthy for me nor is it fun to feel like I'm constantly on the verge of having someone use their enjoyment of my art to treat me like some sort of bacteria on a petri dish, or the shit under their boots. I ask you leave me alone, dear god, just let me live and treat me with respect! I know who I am, and I want my privacy! If you want to be friends, you'll have to put actual work into it instead of just reblogging my art. Do not ever think you know anything about me unless I explictly confirm it. And please, dear god, let me rest! I'm tired of always having my privacy invaded! Please just act normal around me!

[onyourstageleft]

I'm going to be a certified library professional in a few short weeks, I have a solid understanding of the need to read broadly and should have a strong personal commitment to doing so, but more often than not, I end up reading fanfic for the one relatively obscure YA universe that has engrained itself into my very being rather than reading literally anything else and I don't know how to feel about it

[neverlearnedtoread]

Spinning Silver

⭐⭐⭐⭐; the staryk king and mirnatius with the word 'wife' on the board: there's only one thing more horrible than a wife.... *rips off paper* MY wife

Oh?? 👌😉😏

women are fucking amazing and wonderful and terrifying and unequivocal badasses. especially to their husbands. it's about the fantasy of a marriage you have no control over being perfectly suited to you in ways you didn't even know it could

inhuman fae creatures that actually have a separate culture and set of rules they are governed by. they're much more powerful than humans, of course, but they are bound to their laws, and if you're smart you can work with that

fairytale-esque magic system that relies heavily on (1) trickery (2) Having Audacity and (3) the rule of threes 😉. we love a soft magic system that rewards big swings and BDE!

not one, but TWO separate arranged marriages engaged in HEATED pvp AKA two people bound in hostile matrimony trying to kill each other while having 'wait, are they hot? fuck!' moments

you can be cold and practical and still be a good person. you can be strong enough to protect yourself without sacrificing others. with a good enough grasp of contracts you can force a demon to leave your kingdom AND husband unharmed in a 2-for-1 deal

No.. ❌🤢🤮

multiple POVs with no names for chapter titles so you have to figure out who it is from context clues - if you're like me and love a little puzzle to go with your reading time, you'll really enjoy it (Novik does it VERY well) but if you get confused easily or don't wanna put in the brainpower its annoying and overly complicated

if you don't like enemies-to-lovers where they actually argue and are ideologically opposed, you're not gonna enjoy the romance subplots. this is not a 'forbidden-lovers' kinda enemies-to-lovers. this is firmly in the 'my husband misses me a lot - but his aim is getting better!' zone

really quick wrap up - it gets tied up a little too fast after the final confrontation with the Big Bad. i wouldve liked at least to have irina POV at the end because her side of things just. gets left hanging

Summary: Miryem is a daughter and granddaughter of moneylenders, and though her father doesn't have the hardheartedness to be a good one, she'd rather be despised for what she's owed than starve. Her knack for the trade, coupled with her sharp tongue, draws the ire of her village, and even more alarmingly, the Staryk's attentions; faerie creatures who only covet gold, they take her offhanded boast that she can turn silver into gold quite literally, and show up at her door to hold her true to her careless words - which, honestly, kind of backfires on them when she rises to the challenge and upends their realm into complete disarray, so maybe there's a lesson there for the next group of nonhumans to learn: don't bet the house against a human girl whose Had Enough Of All This Bullshit. She might win.

Concept: 💭💭💭 I don't know Rumpelstiltskin's story very well, and Ice Kingdom aesthetics aren't my favourite (you can blame it on my residual dislike of Frozen), but I DID read Uprooted before this. I wasn't as into the book blurb as I was with Uprooted, but I'm an experienced (and opinionated) enough reader to know when to trust my gut - if I find an author's writing style easy to read, and I enjoy how they handle their themes, I'm not afraid of diving into deep waters. If it's that bad, I can always DNF

Execution: 💥💥💥💥 As I've come to expect with Novik's writing, a wonderfully easy read; the storytelling voice flows smoothly and makes me want to keep on reading. No slogging through difficult to understand passages and too slow pacing for me! I instantly wanted to collect every POV character like puppies in a basket, no matter how brief their sections were. I will say the ending does forget what it wants to say and simply ends on a happy note, instead of a complete thought. It doesn't tie in the POV characters together strongly enough - I would've loved to see an epilogue scenes with the 3 main female characters supporting each other, or at least being three distinct Bad Bitches!

Personal Enjoyment: ❤❤❤❤❤ Mostly because of Irina and Miryem (and Wanda)'s absolute BDE. They truly brought their stories to life and felt very dynamic, constantly driving the story forward through their actions, especially because their personalities and characteristics were so well-suited to the challenges they faced (Miryem rules-lawyering the Staryk, Irina taking to politics, Wanda keeping faith despite all the shit she's been through). Honorary shoutout to the complete hilarity of Mirnatius's POV (though ultimately it IS more indulgence than necessity, I respect Novik for it) - may he spend the rest of his life desperately drawing his wife in vain search of her bad angles!

Favourite Moment: the running gag of mirnatius losing his fucking mind trying to prove irina isn't hot. you know that post that's like 'find a blorbo to draw and your art skills will start improving so much faster'? irina is his blorbo. special mention of the scene he gets jealous realizing a random guard has a crush on his behated wife and immediately jumps to the conclusion that irina would want to fuck the guard for the sake of the kingdom. babygirl the hoops you are jumping........where is this gymnastics routine even going 😭 this man is not beating the meow meow allegations..

Favourite Character: It's really a tie between Miryem and Irina, who are both so similar yet different at the same time. Miryem's BDE was enjoyably explosive - she throws it in everyone's face, which is perfect to play off of the Staryk's otherworldly impassiveness. Irina's BDE was a lot more...steely. Quietly coming into her own as she realized how adept she was at politics, and how perfectly well-suited that made her to being tsarina - and when they finally met each other? it was so funny when were like 'hey...why dont we kill our husbands via pokemon battle??'

[red-mountain-flower]

guys how tf do you draw clothing

im fr about to make this girl nude

[liuisi]

every day me and my friends singlehandedly try to keep the kids in this church from getting more whitewashed

[redrosydiaz]

i keep seeing people saying that they killed izzy for shock value a la game of thrones and i just— not every character death is there for shock value?? just because you don't expect it doesn't mean it's specific purpose is to garner shock value.

izzy very clearly represented piracy. he was steadfast and staunch in his ways and he held onto the traditions of piracy with a TIGHT fist throughout the first season and the start of the second. not to mention, s2 was ALWAYS leading to this theme of "the end of piracy". the clues were there the whole season!!! and by that logic, if izzy = piracy, then end of piracy = end of izzy.

im not happy about his death!! im disappointed hes gone!! i loved him, he was probably my favorite character this season!! BUT i do understand why djenks did it. and it was NOT a "for shock value" kind of thing.

some people are reeeeal quick to like get super defensive and jump onto this "omg it was for shock value! there was no other purpose! what bad writing! what a bad writer!" bandwagon when things they don't personally like or agree with happen on their favorite shows, but honestly not everything you don't like is "bad writing" or "just there for shock value" or "purposeless". maybe take a couple minutes to think critically about it and to like analyze the choice within the frame of the whole season and the whole show and its themes before making those kinds of (oftentimes baseless) accusations?

it's one thing to be upset with something that happened and to not like it, and it's another thing entirely to then blame it on bad writing or a clueless, vicious writer who doesn't care about their characters or their story or their audience.

[rigginsstreet]

the whole like "cool excuse, still murder" mindset has really rotted peoples brains like obviously there are certain situations that are just inexcusable and cant be reasoned but when you look at the wide spectrum of humanity like.... many things do in fact have not necessarily excuses but certainly explanations. but yall are so focused on everything being definitively right or wrong that you wont even allow yourself to consider the grey areas and the fact yall cant even do this with fictional characters.... appalling behavior quite frankly

[skyburger]

why did dio even do all that

[presidentcircles-assistant]

Parallia/Renata Character Intro:

i apologize ahead of time, for this is very long.

Childhood best friend of R. Line, known as Renata at that time. Both around 11-12 years old. The two had quite different personalities. Parallia was always the more daring and ambitious of the two, determined to change the horrible conditions the Rural Villages were forced into and create a better life for her and Renata. She detested being deprived of resources and autonomy, and the way she saw it, she would push and shove with brute force until the world had no choice but to accept her. Parallia had come to accept that if she was forced to, she would be willing to die for her beliefs. But she was still just a kid, and was afraid of death all the same. Renata trailed along in her footsteps, afraid of going against authority, but also unwillingly to let go of the friend whose strength and ambition reassured her that they would make it out of here someday. They were practically inseparable.

There is always constant surveillance from Soldiers in their villages, but they are usually avoidable, lingering around predictable areas in the streets or buildings. No use spending more valuable resources than needed on Isosceles. When Inspection days draw closer, many more Soldiers are sent and are much more vigilant to make sure nobody attempts escape. It is an agreed upon rule that talk of the Third Dimension is forbidden during these times. Parallia resented having to hide her religion and beliefs just because somebody higher up said it was so. She viewed the entire village as being comprised of cowards, willingly silencing themselves instead of standing up for what the believed in.

When they went to one of the makeshift schools still open but run under tight restrictions, Parallia began to continuously talk of the Third Dimension and refused to stop after being told to keep quiet several times by the Teacher. After dismissing early, Parallia walked out with Renata, but was held back by the Teacher, saying she had to discuss something with her. Renata watched her walk into the school building. In a moment of panicked desperation to keep their village alive, the Teacher murders Parallia in order to silence her.

Renata is the only one who knows the truth of what happens, and is forced to watch the rest of the village dismiss it as an accident and quickly move on. She feels heavy guilt, thinking that she was responsible for Parallia's death. She had the feeling something was wrong, and could have led Parallia away before she could go with the Teacher. But she didn't. She was too afraid.

She attempts to tell her mother, but she gets chastised for trying to ruin a trusted community member with a horrible, unfounded accusation. The loss of Parallia wounds Renata in a way that she never recovers from, and she lives out her childhood reliving trauma that nobody will support her through. She spirals into a mindset of suspicion and animosity towards everyone around her, and becomes fueled by the ambition of finding a way out of her situation, not by taking steps to improve the world she lives in now, but by endlessly praying towards a place far away from this where she can leave all her issues behind without a second thought. Who cares what happens to the others? She loses sight of the original intention behind Parallia's actions, done to try to make a better world for her people to live in, and takes certain aspects of Parallia's beliefs and amplifies them until she is focused on exacting revenge without remorse. She adopts the truth the world has taught her, that brute force and cruel measures are the solution to any issues that arise.

The moment her cruelty begins to be engrained into her is with the Teacher. The Teacher's guilt for what happened only arises when she is forced to interact with Renata in her daily life and be held accountable for what she did. Renata pulls Parallia's murder up from the depths, forcing the Teacher to stare what she's done in the face and accept that this is the horrible thing she chose to do and that she must live with it forever. They are stuck in this village together, and Renata torments her every chance she gets. It's Renata's first real taste of the satisfaction contained in the ability to force suffering onto those you feel deserve it.

Renata takes on the name R. Line to separate herself from what happened. Renata let the one person that would ever be loyal to her die because of her own hesitancy and weak will. R. Line will not falter. Renata was ignorant about the true workings of the world and thought that one young line from a poor village could change anything. R. Line knows that there is nobody she can rely upon in this world except the steady truth that the Sphere will give her salvation after death. She puts all her faith into an idealized future in order to distract herself from the bleakness of her life in the village.

Parallia's death teaches R. Line she has two options in this world: to speak out and die, or to silently endure and live. She chose life.

[maximusboltaqon]

the absolute worse ppl in this kamala situation are the ppl acting like it's "okay" to like kamala now that she's not an inhuman (or at least not FULLY inhuman)

like is that really all it is?? it's not even disliking specific characters, it's the fact that they're inhumans at all?? stallior and naja and inferno and falcona and iridia would all be deemed Acceptable characters if they simply weren't inhuman?? bc they certainly didnt do any of the shit ppl hate the inhumans for!!

and i know that these obviously are not REAL races, but the inhumans, much like the mutants, are very often used as an allegory for racism. to have people claim its Okay to like a character, but only if theyre This Race and not That One is,,,,, obviously pretty shitty.

[itsays]

a friend just posted on cf about how she chose the wrong career (marketing) and it's so funny bc ive been saying this since i was in college lol

[oysterie]

switch to history major yes/no