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its so funny when people tell me stuff like "wow youre so good at drawing clothes" or "how do you come up with different outfits for your ocs i could never" because the truth is that there's a very limited pool of aesthetics/styles/elements that i like to draw and i just mix and match them as needed. if i had to draw anything outside of that i would wither away and die
#💌 personal#its mostly regency/victorian/edwardian fashion#and also anything inspired by it#like lolita/ouji stuff#i dumped all of that into lysander's design#at józia's a bit too tho lots of her casual outfits take more inspo from the 1920s#honestly any clothes pre ww2 ill have fun#and any fantasy variants of those#also hanfu#i LOVE drawing hanfu#but ask me to draw an outfit in a more modern style and ill DIE#i simply cant do it sorry </3
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you can always tell when someone doesn't have maga men in their life and god it makes me angry.. "if you're nice and compassionate you can be the one woman that makes them realize women aren't mean!" my mom bent over backwards for my dad for 25 fucking years he has plenty of other women kissing his ass and it never changed anything. do you really think that before being radicalized they never knew a single kind woman? they were never friends with a nice girl? alt-right men's problem with women isn't just that they've experienced too many mean women and they need to be shown that women can be nice, it's that they think women are inferior and don't deserve rights and don't understand anything so you can do what you want with them. and it takes a lot more than being nice to show someone that you aren't inferior. this isn't a case of being nice even when it's hard for the sake of deradicalization, it's about spending every fucking interaction with someone trying to get them to see you as a human being with value and a functioning intellect while they just laugh and show you that's never going to happen.
i cannot stress this enough: random women are not just going out and Being Mean to men. ur average guy interacts with plenty of women throughout his life- close women amongst their friends and family, casual interactions etc. most people don't start out being shunned by women, they start out being treated as NORMAL. & when they show their disrespect in normal society, it isn't tolerated, but when they go to alt-right spaces (which they're pushed towards online) they're told they're allowed to be as horrible as they want with no consequences because they're entitled to everything. it isn't "women aren't welcoming and the alt-right is so friendly so i'll become alt-right," it's "women don't let me disrespect them and the alt-right tells me fuck them, do whatever you want, you're entitled to it all" and why would you choose the group where you have to be a normal accountable person when there's a group that will reward you for being a shithead who gives no fucks?
the alt-right can afford to be more friendly and welcoming because they can allow bigotry. this can't work the same way for progressive spaces because we can be as kind & welcoming as possible but at the end of the day we have lines where we have to say "this behavior/speech isn't allowed in this space," and for certain people, that just can't win against a space where you can be as nasty as you want. these posts always end with a disclaimer saying "of course being kind doesnt mean you need to tolerate their bigotries" but what they don't realize and what drives me crazy is that women not tolerating bigotry IS the "women are mean" that radicalized them in the first place. they perceive you pushing back on any bigotry or bullshit as you being a meanie and treating them like they're ontologically evil. the 'kindness' they need to be deradicalized is you letting them walk all over you.
idk what the answer is to deradicalizing them and im sure relationships are part of it but you can be as kind as you want and all it will do is destroy you ime. i cant stand to see people (who have never even successfully deradicalized any man by being nice btw they always speak in hypotheticals and not from experience) double down on telling women to do things that will see no results and only hurt them, especially when any woman who has tried can tell you exactly how it went
#being as nasty as possible & shitting on everyone while giving no fucks makes you popular in certain spaces. that's tempting no matter what#to immature ppl. part of growing up is learning that you cant do that and real relationships need you to not do that#but that sucks. you could just ignore it and join the alt-right to be a manchild forever#if ur an asshole who wld u wanna hang out with: ur wife who says please dont be an asshole to me or ur bros who say she's a hysterical bitc#& u did nothing wrong?#if u had a maga dad/brother/uncle & u heard the way they talk about women its never abt being mean lol#it's abt how women are hysterical & sensitive & get upset at everything they do#im so sorry but a normal guy (i know & am friends with many) doesnt simply become an MRA because his girl friends made 1 men suck joke#if a guy truly has no fulfilling friendships with women or girls to the point where some feminist group 'being too mean' can radicalize him#bc he doesnt have any kind women in his life to prove that wrong. he already had issues.#you reach a certain point in your friendship with these guys where youve been SO kind and so supportive and welcoming and played therapist#for ages and then they turn around and say 'im voting trump cuz i like his personality better lol i dont care about rights and that bs'#even if you can deradicalize someone by being kind thats years of insane unreciprocated energy for ONE guy#who will end up being the person who never posts abt feminism except to say i became alt right because women were mean so be nice girls!#nobody tells anyone else to accept full blown bigots in their spaces either much less BEFRIEND them#bc nobody is expected to do this kind of service except women. <3#eat ass.
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one thing about me w/ creative freedom is that in all of my Personal Lore i will make dragons so People. they are a People. yeah yeah animalistic dragons dragons that are beasts we've all seen it. what about the very intelligent dragons. dragons with their own cultures and societies and languages. dragons who belong to a higher form of existence too. what about them
#i simply Cannot do the 'dragons are tameable animals' thing i cant#its fun to Observe and Enjoy in other medias#but my own headworlds? My lore? nahhhhhh fuck that they are People <3#like i have an offshoot that is basically 'animal dragons EXCEPT! theyre not actually dragons at all <3 humans just call em dragons-#-cause its the closest word they have for what the big rideable winged critters look like'#ough sorry headworld posting on main. kinda. vaguely#vague headworld posting....#balancing the various facets of Dragon is so so fun#my headworld docs are full to bursting and i aint done yet babeyyyyyy#absolutely unprompted#as an apology for this i will be posting some misc. laughingstock in a bit#BUT this is still this tags and i have a reputation for rambling#anyway i just. im feeling indulgent affection for my dragons tonight. their lore. their history. how it ties into others'#theyre out there making music and art and Mistakes#dragons: we'll do better than the humans. we will be better. we Are better.#narrator: they are not. in fact. better.#dragons and humans being more similar than either would ever admit. except for a select few <3#and then My Boy coming in clutch and irreversibly tying the two together#ough. thoughts thoughts Thoughts#i need to come up with more casual lore. games and common phrases and stories and how their learning system works#veran dragons my beloved <3<3<3<3<3#ah i love posting about things that only make sense to Me
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Val Serano, the man that you are-
(Using Fuse's Leon Armor and Hayd's Val Replacer for reference !)
#Hayd's replacer is a curse i think because hes simply too pretty#i cant help but take photos of him#I cannot help but just grin when I travel with him and find new things with him#TAKE HIM TO DO REPENTANCE IN THE RIFT AT DARKLIGHT TOWER#ITS SO GOOD!!#im taking this fucker to the Chaurus Infested Lighthouse next <3#look im sorry to torture you honey but i wanna hear you say fuck lmao#Val Serano#Skyrim Custom Followers#Skyrim#Skyrim CVF#Skyrim Mods#Skyrim Screenshots
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Persona romance routes are all pretty bad but damn they really hit rock bottom with p3p femc route like the misogyny is very blatant and it’s almost hilarious like look at the Shinjiro romance. When you do his social link he’s like very clearly respectful of Kotone as a leader and explicitly says stuff like "oh yeah you’re clearly the best fighter we have, I don’t really know much about fighting like you do, I hope I’m not dragging you down, you’re doing a good job as leader just remember to take care of yourself, everyone looks up to you I know you can rely on them" etc. like he has faith in her leading abilities. But then when you romance him he’s like got dialogue like "bwah bluh i gotta look after you because you’re a GIRL and you need to stick by me, a big strong MAN so you don’t get hurt" and "don’t wear that revealing outfit in front of other guys 👺" and it’s like. Does he respect her or not and also like it doesn’t make sense for him to look down on her for being a girl cuz he literally has never not been led by a girl leader during his time in sees and Mitsuru in particular really has her shit together when it comes to being responsible and a good fighter and she’s always known the most about Tartarus
It’s also like. Idk maybe its just me I’m not a girl so FUCK IF I KNOW but to me the appeal of romancing Shinji is the fact that he’s sweet and sensitive and gentle and has respect for you despite the fact that he acts all scary. That’s like, what made me like this character in the first place. But the writers seem to think what women want is for a BIG STRONG MAN to protect them because they are just DELICATE WOMEN who are inferior in every way it’s like. Shut upppp thanks
#persona#persona 3#shinjiro aragaki#this is soooooooo obviously not the only romance route that sucks in this game yall know which one im referring to 🤨#and i actually tend to think of the shinji romance as the best one in the series cuz at least his confession scene is the only unique one#that really highlights who he is as a character and goes with the story#but ughh just idk its so annoying how the writers cant decide if hes sexist or not its really weird and its like#really shows how poorly the writers think of women playing their game its like all the romance options are trash and then your boyfriend is#sexist to you and its so clearly done in a way thats supposed to be romantic which is. ew#like idk if my partner was like talking about how i need to stay close to them because im a weak girl and they are strong man#especially when im literally the leader of the team and have been doing perfectly fine thus far and am clearly the strongest here#id simply run him over with a bulldozer#and its like this will all the guys in this game its like girl shut up and eat glass#meanwhile when youre a male protagonist your gf will kiss your ass to the point its infuriating#and their character arcs can never be too grand cuz then they might not wanna fuck you if they realize they have worth#uh sorry my brain is all over the place basically i hate persona romances lol and i hate how they wrote shinji in his#like dammit i dont want him cuz hes gonna protect me like a man i want him cuz he isnt great at fighting and prefers cooking and puppy dogs#and has respect for me and trusts my judgement and asks me to talk about my life and interests and smiles sweetly#but god forbid a woman in this series be respected i guess
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guy trapped in a hell of his own creation: haha ive never done anything wrong in my entire life. and im always right:] anyway. why did my little brother move out:(
its so funny to me that at first glance tashi seems like hed be the most 'normal' out of all the clones but at least all the others are slowly healing n shit while hes just getting more and more insane each day and one day hell snap and explode and maim someone
#my art#my funky guys#HES SO FUCKING STUPID.#tashi im sorry ily but youre literally the dumbes fucking motherfucker ive ever seen. and a cringe loser. never change king<3#like. this guy realised he was a clone when he was a month old and decided to base his new personality entirely#on the idealised version of the original he made up in his head.#like he did this to himself!!! he chose to revolve his entire personality around being a 'perfect flawless mom friend'!!!!!!!#in his head hes like the most selfless & altruistic person to ever walk the earth but in reality hes a sad selfish mess who just wants to#be loved.#he started out as a pretty nice and level headed guy who wanted to help ppl but then it just spiraled when he made that his entire#personality bc of his inability to move on from a lie he really wanted to be true.#he percieves shiro as this perfect flawless leader figure and he wants DESPERATELY to imitate that. deep down its not enough for him to#simply coparent and share responsibility w the others. no no no he has to be The Leader and do everything himself!#this mindset results in him later on starting to dismiss and undervalue his familys work and commitment to keeping them all alive-#esp soup. like sHE WAS THERE W HIM FROM THE VERY BEGINNING THEY ARE EQUALS THEY ARE BOTH EQUALLY IMPORTRANT#AND HES SO FAR UP HIS ASS HE FORGOT. somewhere along the line he forgot. he missed the point. he spiraled too deep.#and he knows. he knows but hes so terrified of change and growth and admitting he CANT do this alone.#he wants to be a cool epic capable solo leader AND he craves family and connection soooo badly he cant live w/o his loved ones.#so yeah. hes an angry little pathetic freak<3 i love him#despite all that hes not a bad person. just a flawed guy thrown into a situation so stressful and traumatising that he clinged to the only#coping mechanism he had at the time and just sorta. ran with it.#dw he gets better tho! it takes a lot and his and sticks relationship is strained for a LONG time but he slowly gets better. good for him
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everyone is pitying me and i dont know how to feel about that
#i mean i pity myself its bad for me right now and i need help and support because i simply can not do this without it but also#i deeply wish i was not doing just so extremely bad and i wish i didnt need to be pitied#i think im doing worse than when my parents got divorced and i didnt see my dad for 3 months like its. probably the worst time of my life#which is such a nice stopper on the past four years probably having been the best years of my life! and i only have a couple weeks of that#time left and all i can do is feel just. bad. all the time#but then im also affraid people think i’m just overreacting or complaining or whining or whatever and like. rationally i know i cant#help how i feel and what is happening to me but also it just makes me feel weak. this shouldnt be so hard. this wouldnt be so hard for a#normal person. and im having difficulty coming to terms with like. this is just who i am. i cant do everything other people might be able to#im sensitive in a lot more ways and yk its good to realise im not unique in that way but im also not average.#ugh sorry im trying not to vent Online but bluehg
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rewatched the first three episodes of s3 and im never going to recover
#i love season 3#and s3 is a great season it’s just that. THEY BARELY EVER MENTION THE TSUNAMI AGAIN EVEN THOUGH IT CHANGED EVERYTHING FOR#SO MANY CHARACTERS#so whenever i watch past 3x03 i miss the tsunami arc because i do think it’s one of the greatest arcs they did#i think these eps were when i fell in love with may too <3#911 lb#SPEAKING OF WHICH#it still startles me every time that the lawsuit comes right after the tsunami eps because it’s like#you’d think that that arc (in which buck acts as a firefighter despite not being able to be one atm) would lead to everyone including him#realising that he can help people without being on active duty because that’s. what he does.#he literally saves himself christopher and a dozen others by finding shelter on top of. A FIRE TRUCK.#the symbolism does not get more meaningful than that like#i’m not even talking about the lawsuit because i think that in itself is an interesting multifaceted arc etc#what i mean is. why does no one including buck. mention that. he was behaving exactly as a firefighter would in that situation despite#being on blood thinners and all that. it literally feels like the perfect way to have that moment of ok this is who i am even when i cant#work the job that defines who i am to me#instead they move on and there’s like 1 ep where christopher has trauma over it and everyone else’s trauma over it well they simply#do not speak about that. beyond a few lines which i latch on to#sorry for the insane tags. half my brainpower is reserved for this now
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watching the Todd in the shadows top 10 worst hit songs of 2023 video you know todd and it reminded me that is to say ive come on here and started typing because i want to talk about how 2023 was actually a ridiculously good year for music like better than it had any reason to be. I'm going to make a list of my favorite albums that came out this year now:
PARANOÏA, ANGLES, TRUE LOVE - Christine and the Queens
My 21st Century Blues - RAYE
The Rise and Fall of a Midwest Princess - Chappell Roan
Did you know there's a tunnel under Ocean Blvd - Lana Del Rey
The Land Is Inhospitable and So Are We - Mitski
Rituals On The Bank Of A Familiar River - Kiki Rockwell
Jaguar II - Victoria Monét
and these are just the ones i remember off the top of my head and also know all the words to. i liked the new hozier i like guts i liked but did not find the time to submerge myself into like a mudbath sufjan's javelin and in all honesty i did listen mostly to the same 3 playlists last year and then a handful of albums that all came out in 2022 because holy shit was THAT a year in music whew
let us all listen to good music in the new year G-d knows we need it
#i love pop music<3#actually i have more to say about 2022#some very famous musicians released some very bad albums last year and the year before and theres simply no excuse#cant blame the pandemic. we got laurel hell and dance fever in 2022#we got you cant kill me#renaissance dirt femme SAHAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#oh my god and in the darkness hearts aglow#The Shark in Your Waterrrrrrrrrrr#and dont even get me STARTED on SQUEEZE#i cant believe people actually listened to harry's house much less liked it#anyway sorry for invoking his name#everybody listen to paranoia angels true love do it now!!!!!!!!!!!#what were YOU GUYSES favorite albums and songs from 2023??????????
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ngl i dont really care about ships anymore but whenever i hear someone say they dislike davejade i physically feel this in my soul
#IM SORRY#i try not to take things like this too seriously but genuinely. genuinely i cant help it#they were literally my childhood if u dont like them then you probably will not like me as a person#no one understands them like i do…#if u dont ship davejade im sure ure a completely fine and dandy person n i dont hold any genuine malice toward you#after all its just fictional characters lol#but i am simply very petty and overly attached to this ship </3#chum pesters
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Oooooooo you wanna find me great incredible Undyne centric content that I haven't seen before and will be consumed by ooooooooooo
#i say this because you genuinely cannot understand just how insane over her i am that i have legitimately seen almost all the interesting-#-content about her#i am not fucking kidding#if its on like the first 3 pages of anywhere ive searched for her ever. i have seen it. tumblr youtube ao3 google i HAVE SEEN!!!!!!!#ok well not as much with ao3. simply because im always searching for something specific on there. so like. there probably will be some-#-really good things on there i havent seen yet#but still. i have very high standards if there is anything I don't like ill spontaneously combust#and im legitimately like 94% i know literally every single thing about her mentioned in the game. so you wont be able to surprise me with-#-anything there either. but also you never really know so#i mean yeah just feel free to talk to me about her at any time. I wont be able to start the conversation. because like i just cant#but if you mention something interesting enough in the first sentence ill probably be able to keep the conversation going for a good while#sorry i probably sound really rude and snobbish rn cause im all like ''ugh i already know everything im so smart'“#''whatever show me will be beneath me'' BUT I SWEAR THAT IS NOT HOW IM TRYING TO COME OFF#IM REALLY REALLY SORRY I JUST GENUINELY DO NOT KNOW HOW TO GET ACROSS HOW I N E E D IT TO BE SOMETHING NEW AND SOMETHING THAT ILL REALLY-#REALLY WANT TO SEE#IM SO SO SORRY I HATE THAT I SOUND SO RUDE HERE I JUST. like guys i just really want to see something new‚ something thatll make me happy.#sigh#okokok.#all good guys#uhm. yeah. maybe if you find something maybe tell me but also idk because what if i already know about it then dont know what to say. i just#i j . i dont even know man#ok im done#undyne
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honestly everything thats going on in the world is insanely overwhelming and im always so confused trying to figure out what i can do because i feel so helpless
but then i remember what my king, V, from v is for vendetta, said: "people should not be scared of their governments, governments should be scared of their people" and i realize that even by simply not abiding by laws and not allowing the government this power over me and change who i am is an act of rebellion and making a difference.
sometimes i cant donate to charities and causes bc i have about $15 in my bank account and sometimes i cant go to protests bc i don't have a car but i can speak out against injustice and i can actively go against an unfair and terrible government and changes come from every small act you do.
its a bit like that one textpost that was like "if god sends me to hell, i simply wont go. whats he gonna do, send me to hell? already not going" like truthfully if we don't bow down and idolize whoever is in power and just not accept a stupid hierarchy put in place to force us to submit to a terrible system, things will inevitable change, because the government and people in power don't have the divine right to rule or some supernatural abilities that make them so much better than everyone else.
change takes place in many forms and sometimes its a BIG step but its also many many many small steps and its easy to start feeling useless but sometimes the simple act of not supporting and openly disagreeing and going against the government is your small step that helps push every other step so don't feel helpless because there are some things you're unable to do. there is no one single person who will tear down everything bad singlehandedly, we are all part of the effort and the smallest contribution is still incredibly important to the final product
#anarchy#tehe <3#anyways sorry this is a lot but also not sorry#i just sometimes forget how helpful it actually is to simply not support terrible things even if you cant do big acts of rebellion#hope yall understand
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Not me giggling by interacting w my younger cousins on snapchat like i send them streaks bc they love it like they’re in india and i don’t do streaks really. and they just sent the gc snaps and the other two older brother cousins (but im still older by months) ignored it but i just sent my bitmoji flying a kiss and now im giggling because for once i feel like an older sister though i’m an only child who has been very disconnected from her family since the age of 11 ‼️ my friends have always treated me in a way where i feel like a younger sister but for once i now feel like an older sister and it’s kinda sweet. kinda wholesome and fulfilling
#giggling#i love it i feel so <3#now i know its harder than this to be the eldest sibling let alone eldest daughter#especially south asian#but let me have this small win please and thank you ❤️#bc while i will not understand the exact pain neither will they understand mine#and yes i’ve gotten hate by simply saying im an only child and i wouldn’t understand south asian eldest daughter pain#like … can u imagine#like … I’m so sorry i do not have siblings ???#damn. YAYYYYY giggling. sm wins today :-)#and when i went to india in march i felt so older sister in a silent way like i cant word it UGHHHRRRR ❤️❤️❤️
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Low resolution borb chilling on the curb
#tag wall#i sat and watched this little fella#it found a bug! so awesome#broski was nibbling away#my dad made biscuits and gravy this morning and omg they were heavenly#im convinced the closer the gravy looks to actual prison slop the better it is#bc omg#i was nibbling away too#food ramble sorry; its just been a while since i had them and i cant seem to make a rue w/o messing it up so im super grateful#anyway ive been drawing tiny things here and there#i've decided i wont post them still#half of the problem was i just too busy trying to draw 'for fun' so i could post something on my main#so when i sat down to draw for myself i just couldn't do it#the hiatus seems to have helped with that because im actually making small stuff again#*but*#the other half of the issue i was having was checking my activity page too much#it was a bit obsessive if im being honest and it still kind of is#so while that issue needs to be corrected still#for now it's going under the rug; if i post doodles on my alt like i said i might#I'll still be checking for notes and i simply dont have the time or headspace for that#<<<none of that is in a negative tone btw! im doing much better than i was a few weeks ago! not 100% still but baby steps :3#I'm putting the drawings i make in my drafts and marking the date on each post#whenever finals are over I'll load them up in a queue and start posting them!#that way i can still get my thoughts out of my system without defeating the purpise of the hiatus#**purpose i am not fixing that#ok that's all bye bye 🦆🦆#not rb
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i love them so much. how do i never bother them ever
#ive already told tyem all my sadnesses i cant keep doing it and i xant keep crying around them and never seeking comfort bc its never been#freely given to me in childhood i was simply jusf ignored if i was cry>#idkidkidk i dont know how to be a good partner when the partners i have are also ppl who have chosen me and i personally have been taking#dmg every time i lean on them bc of the past 3 partners so i think im a little conditioned to no longer seek romantic comfort when im sad#idk guys. i love u i just cant keep crying in front of u bc of atlas lmfao. sorry/damn him etc#vent#original
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it's a persistent trend in kpop that Pisses me off like why it it Always the worst song that seems to get the most attention
#i like war cry even if it is their weakest title this is more of a general comment#bc i think Literally every group i have listened to has this problem and NONE more so than en see tee i actually will never forgive#the citizens for that i simply cant. also skiz... don't look at me guys and i don't mean 2020 i mean 2021. if you know what i mean#downhill from there. that being said i do like god's menu it Is iconic but i do think it's partially responsible sorry. love you queen#hate your impact on the future </3#and like i Know i am an outlier in a lot of songs i think are The Best from groups bc i like Singing and Singers and... non-aggressive song#but i'm right actually <3 like idc you will never convince me i'm wrong about that! i'll hear nothing else about it#it's such a negative feedback loop like group gets bigger bc of cb --> next song sounds nothing like it and is worse --> company thinks the#success is Bc of that sound --> more songs with that sound get made --> repeat like we can't have anything#i hold out hope nonetheless. maybe i'm setting myself up for disappointment but all i have in these trying times is hope 😭
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