#i should reread outsiders

[l3m0nflavoredst1mz]

Haiiii!!!! Can I req a brown border collie Johnny Cade stimboard? >_<

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[starrysharks]

would a person on hiatus do THIS?!?!?!?@?@?@?@

[aliusfrater]

sam as a character that breaks the 'us vs them' dichotomy of hunting with the conditions of his monstrosity is not only something that is deeply inherent to the narrative's exploration of the familial dynamics that sam disrupts, both metaphorically (in terms of hunting as a metaphor for the cycle of abuse) and literally but it's also something that is deeply internalised by every character that bears witness to the same conditions of sam's monstrosity that the audience does but most importantly both dean and sam himself.

there are a lot of aspects to the way that dean approaches sam's involvement within his own agency/independence as well as The Family Business that mirror or directly correlate with sam's monstrosity and when it's worth condemnation vs not but by far the most interesting aspect of this to me is the fact that there is an inherent separation between the idea of sam, sammy, that is not monstrous but is capable of becoming so and the sam that is unknowably monstrous and is capable of corrupting/encroaching on/preying on the sammy isn't/is not yet monstrous. like this idea is mostly explored within dean's idea of sam and monstrosity, either separately or together, but there are a few moments within which sam demonstrates a subconscious awareness of this separation, and subjects himself to it as well, and most of them are within 4.21 and explored as the fact that the Sam—corrupted and monstrous—that Sammy—othered regardless—is to be protected from is ultimately someone that sammy cannot escape. it is in him and evil ('them') and giving into it means freedom or an entire 'acceptance' (the usage of his monstrosity—"maybe there's no escape. after all, how can you run from what's inside you?" / "don't let anyone or anything get in your way."—something he's explicitly expressed since 4.04) of himself.

there will always be an 'us vs them'. it is vital to supernatural. and regardless of the fact that sam exists to break the dichotomy, the dynamic of the structure is one that demands you fit into it and ultimately, i think this manifests within the ideas of sam's monstrosity, more than it does around it, while he perpetually struggles to fit into his role under 'us' so much so that his struggle becomes a vital part of his role. it becomes a non-role that's present in examples of the dynamics of his and dean's relationship as well as the patriarchal structure that i've talked about previously

[wassupmygays]

thinking about Ace. thinkin about her a lot

[sircantus]

Hi! Do you have a beta for your fics? Or do you just release them into the wild without outside feedback first?

Oh yeahh no i just straight up post my chapters with only myself as my own proofreader. No beta i die like cwilbur. A while back i think?? I used to ask for people to look over my writing? Like as i was still making the chapters i would tweet “would anyone like to look over this i cant tell if its good” and if they said yet i instantly sent them a google doc. But im really impatient and i have to usually post my things the second they are done so thats why i didnt always bother with the feedback as i made it

Technically im now on a posting schedule so i could theoretically get a proper beta reader now but like. I fear being perceived in the proximity of my google doc

[retiredficwriter]

you know what my problem with blood promise is? the reveal at the end that strigitri is alive.

and no, it's not just because i don't like romitri.

it's because it undoes rose's healing journey from the grooming dimitri inflicted on her.

i finished my dark vanessa recently (a fantastic and difficult read) and the mc's journey is eerily similar to what rose goes through in shadow kiss and blood promise.

at the end of shadow kiss, rose is grieving. yes, i know it’s for dimitri, but i can't help but think this grief is also her subconscious way of coping with her being groomed. dimitri turned into a strigoi, a "monster," right after he commits statutory rape. i don't think that's a coincidence.

after the attack and learning about dimitri's fate, the way rose acts is similar to the behavior changes grooming has on its victims - isolating herself from her friends and family, not feeling like she belongs, withdrawing from the academy and risking herself in dangerous activities like, you know, going after dimitri to kill him. lissa tries to prevent rose from doing that but rose is not ready to move on and heal. this is the only way for her cope and regain control.

also now that im thinking about it, mdv has the mc have a failing out with her best friend in the beginning (that could be read with queer lens) and that same ex best friend is the one who tries to help the mc with realizing that what she had with her teacher was wrong…

the book shows the magnitude of the grooming through the romitri flashbacks throughout blood promise. i never liked them because it never fit the timeline of the series and i just didn't care. but now i wonder if they can be read as rose reliving the times dimitri was grooming her and her brain trying to re-contextualize it as romantic and consensual to cope. the way they appear throughout the book and fragmented is similar to intrusive thoughts caused by the trauma. it also plays into the fandom's argument on how rose is an unreliable narrator, which happens in mdv too.

and then we have the strigitri section, which is one big metaphor for abusive relationship. dimitri wants to turn rose into a strigoi but makes it clear it's "her" choice on the matter. he manipulates her with her feelings for him and when it's obvious that is not enough for her to accept the transformation, he bites her so the endorphins can cloud her judgement. like in mdv, rose is given the illusion of choice but it's dimitri who is in charge, and uses other means (drugs) to assert control over her. another interesting point i found was how rose kept reassuring the reader how dimitri never had sex with her while she was under the effects of the bite, and yet the first time he bit her was without her consent. again, i think this is dimitri painting himself as ‘not that bad’ to manipulate rose (and the audience).

but without the endorphins and knowing lissa is danger, rose fights back. it's also when she asks dimitri why he wants to turn her that makes her realize his reason is not out of love. he wants her to own her. and with that, she finally stakes him and let’s go of him (figuratively and metaphorically).

when rose goes back to the academy, it's clear she's ready to go to the path of recovery. i mean look at all these passages when she meets with lissa again:

honestly i was quite happy for rose. it's such a beautiful conclusion to this book and a great development for her.

and then you have the audacity to slap me in the face with "oh! he's is still alive :) and rose will save him!"

what was the point of this book then? why make rose go this beautiful and heartbreaking growth if you're going to make her restore her teacher who groomed her?? i don't care that this is paranormal romance. by giving a solution to strigitri you are allowing rose to be stuck in this cycle of abuse. i mean, no wonder her narration in book 5 - 6 is so heavily focused on dimitri and it’s in those books where her more problematic actions (see: everything with adrian) happen. that’s why i feel like rose barely grew in va: because dimitri manipulated her into resuming their relationship and thus, unable to heal from the grooming.

[alpinelogy]

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[dallaswinstons]

9 BOOKS I PLAN ON READING IN 2024

thank you to all my beloveds: @delilahsbard, @newyearsyet, @acotars, @moirainesedai for tagging me!! i love seeing all your lists <33

i'm tagging @selwynkane @parisakamali @tbosas, @jeanmoreaux, @singularities, @cervelli, @dlndjarin, @deadpoets, @kadygrants

[heylena]

just read The Darkness Outside Us and oh god. oh god. I feel like I'm gonna go crazy over this book

[rosesradio]

daily writing update

lukercy one shot: 1,222

wip total: 3,972

[gibbearish]

are we really back to "oh you support (blank)? name ten people who (do/are) that right now or else youre lying for allyship points and everything you have to say should be disregarded". i thought we left that back in like. 2012 misogynist nerdbro culture

[xivvins]

That time of year again.

Getting hyperfixated on books I read in middle school.

[chiropteracupola]

from tgarnsl

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< This Hornblower — he is your war-prince, then? > It was an odd way of putting it, but Bush found that it could not be termed entirely incorrect. “Captain is the more commonly used word, Mr. Isthill.” The long eyestalks flicked first to him, and then to Hornblower, who was conferring with the other members of that strange party. [He] cocked his head to one side, birdlike in his curiosity, but appeared to determine assent.

WOE! HORNBLOWER ANIMORPHS CROSSOVER!

[cyatzura]

he's just a babyyyy

[witch-of-aiaia]

thoughts I'd like you to consider. I'm sure you'll have something to add and expand on this as always hella would love that

YOU NEIL PERRIED RIN????? STOP IT. LOG OFF

[akkivee]

the arb brand surprise for the 1️⃣🐴💉event was an unexploded bomb going off and helping ichiro’s senpai’s business out in the process, which truly is just ✨arb things✨ lol, but it reinforces the impact the war had on japan, as we see from jakurai’s homecoming conversation in the fpmtr➕ manga