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helloooooooooooo fren i have le question so your bingo n moon drawing banner ? 👉👈 with credit ofc ofc
yes ofc!! mwa* /p
#ask#u are the inspo behind it after all#u are also just a very cool moot and person#lovely moots#<333#its 3am#i am eepy….#but yes feel free to!!#my tags are all over the place#i should really put my phone down#marcys shenanigans <3#doodles
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What is one conspiracy theory that you wholeheartedly believe?
I’ll go first:
That clothing companies conspire with handbag companies to take away women’s pockets or give us really sucky ones to make sure that we are forced to buy bags so that we can actually carry all our shit.
#seriously this is something i think about way more than i probably should#what do you mean my phone won’t fit in my front pocket?#or even the back one sometimes?#what do you mean that putting my phone in my pocket will drag my shorts down?#what do you mean men get all the good pockets?#what do you mean sometimes i can’t even fit my freaking fingertips into my front pocket?#what do you mean sometimes it looks like something has pockets but they’re fake?#my family calls them fockets#fake + pockets = fockets#you have to be really careful when you say it though#cause otherwise it just sounds like you’re cursing#why do men get all the pockets#where are our pockets#conspiracy theories#conspiracies#pockets#women’s pockets suck#clothing#handbag#handbags for women#ladies purses and handbags#purse#bags & purses#this post came to me while i was trying to fall asleep#and i literally jumped out of bed to type it out so that i wouldn’t forget it#what does that say about me?
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im over it but if she messaged me now i would respond in a heartbeat
#THIS IS WHY IM NOT FUCKIGN ALLOWED TO READ THROUGH OUR OLD CHATS#WHY DID I ?? DO THAT ??? ?#MY FRIEND WAS LITERALLY TELLING ME TO STAPWPOPPPPPP#she was literally in vc going “kaden put that phone DOWN! stop reading”#and i still read.#WHATS WRONG WITH ME#the worst part is i. should NOT. contact her again BC of this. i wouldn't know how to feel and it'd be that situationship all over again#BEING ARO IN A SITUATIONSHIP COMPLICATES THINGS SO FUCKING BADDDDDDDDDDDDD#truly the lloyd garmadon experience#was it casual when you told me i was “that person” for you and you wanted to be that for me too#was it casual when you asked me if i would let you in like a courting proposal#was it casual when you confessed through truth or dare and i didnt fuckkng react#was it casual when you told me months later that you used to like me again. and i said Me too#was it casual when you apologised because i said i couldnt believe anyone (you. especially you) would like me#was it casual when you asked for my number and the first thing you sent me was “im not sure why but i really like you”#“was it casual?” i ask. knowing full well it was not#GUYS IM FUCKING LOSING IT#this was years ago i have to get over it#I AM#IM OVER IT#i literally ammmm but sometimes it comes back up and i#and i lose my mind a little.#blabberpar#guys you need to MUTE THIS TAg#not even my first real relationship has this effect on me. what the fuck
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favorite thing ever in the whole wide world has to be when i see some body that i was friends with back in the day that i do not talk to any more but we are still mutuals pop up in my notifications . like we reposted the same tik tok video or they liked my post . its like a little 'hello i know we dont talk these nowadays but i still know you exist' and i just think it is so very great
#i wish i kept contact with my old online friends#i dont even really have close online friends any more . idk in 2022 i got real life friends and put the phone down and didnt pick it up aga#zodi and noah and veve and bagel and adrian and scorp and quil i miss you all guys .. come back to me ....#i always tell myself i should make online friends but i am too scared#rave rambles
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Tired enough to lose my filter and want to overshare on tumblr dot com. Not tired enough to actually sleep.
#kill me. lol.#ash.txt#I am putting my phone down. if you see me posting. no you don't#if I really can't sleep I WILL be uninstalling this app lol I already treat this blog too much like a diary#some stuff should really stay locked in my head it has no place elsewhere lmao
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my sleep aid is not working
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I know it's an unrealistic goal
To see the glass always half full
I'm no stranger to succumbing
To the hopelessness spiral
I just want to remind myself
How much is wonderful
And how motherfucking lame it is to always be
Hating stuff
Focused on the way life sucks
There's an awful lot to love
Think I've had enough
Hating stuff
#I like eating applesauce and cheese#like drinking different types of tea#like when I get recommendations of young adult books I should read#like having good meaningful sex#like having good meaningless sex#like getting told by pretty people that they like the way I dress#really into making stupid jokes#really into putting down my phone#really into British tv shows#really into yoga practice flows#really proud that I can touch my toes#really proud of how much I’ve grown#Spotify#ian mcconnell
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i want love so bad, it's all i can think about.
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bagged a trial shift at a new pub just for my manager to immediately put on facebook if anyone wants an extra shift on wednesday. he knows what im doing
#he said GET YOUR ASS BACK HERE RN#lmfaoooo the notif came through literally as i put the phone down i was like 😳😳😳#like that 'CONNOR' tiktok audio like no king im not doing anythinggg haha wdym#anyway im a bit annoyed that the first place to get back to me from my applications was this one#bc im pretty sure their pay is still minimum wage and also my cousin worked a trial shift there once#and not only did they not pay him but they also never called him back or even emailed to politely turn him down#literally just used him for free labour and that was that#word of warning from a very tired waitress if ur thinking about starting: always take trial shifts with a pinch of salt#if the trial shift is longer than 2 hours they really really should be paying you and if they dont the odds are you got mugged off#also the woman on the phone after i said i worked at the place i currently work at was like 'and do you still work there?' SHE KNOWS#and when i said yes she was like 'would you be willing to leave?' HOW CAN I BE TWO-TIMING BOTH OF YOU RN#LYING TO ONE JOB ABOUT SEEKING ANOTHER JOB LYING TO THE NEW JOB ABOUT LEAVING THE OLD ONE COME ON NOW#IM NOT BUILT FOR THESE LAYERS#but yeah summary here is i have a shift at my actual place on wednesday (thank god i havent had work in over a fucking WEEK)#and i have a trial shift at a new place where i'll most likely be offered a job. life is picking up#ALSO i have enough money to change my america flights bc basically something came up with that and i need to change my return flight#and i was originally rlly worried bc the change cost was £161 and that piled onto my current no-shifts stress was Not Fun#but ive been working a lot for my mum and i got paid for the shifts i HAVE done and it all kinda fell together anyway#the way everything is sorting itself today within the same HOUR yet ive been stressing about these things for days now#hella goes home#hella slaves to capitalism
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For the 2 people who voted in my poll and were both unaware of Ruby's existence
Ruby was my hedgehog :) I got her in January 2016 when I was 12 and she was my best little buddy :) she got cancer in 2019 and had to be put down that September. I kept a few of her quills in a little vial charm on a necklace and wore it everyday for years, I just recently stopped wearing it everyday bc I got a different everyday necklace for my best friend. Here are pics of my beautiful baby girl
#first one is from the first few days that i had her 🥲#second is the first time she was comfortable enough to let me hold her with my bare hands#third one isn't particularly special its just cute teefies#last one is the last pic i took of her the morning before we went to the vet for her to be put down :(#also fun fact about pre ruby: i was OBSESSED with hedgehogs for YEARS#and begged my parents and did so much research and everything until they finally let me bc they knew i was prepared#and when i started looking at available babies. i didn't have a preference between a boy or a girl#and i didn't have any dream name in mind#but her litter were all named after gemstones#and the first time i saw her pic i was like omg. thats my baby#and i knew i had to keep her name bc it was so perfect#bc ruby = red which is my favorite color#AND ruby is my birthstone#also i should have more pics of her than i do but i think they're somewhere on my computer#and im too nervous that they're lost to look for them bc i dont wanna find out that they actually are lost#ahaha#most of the pics of her on my phone are from when she was sick i really want the older ones#also. those years of research on hedgehogs. they hold up#im an expert. im so serious about that. ask me anything about owning a hedgehog#im educated.#ruby#my hedgehog
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#uhrjdhdhrh sorry venting again#one of my goals (well my number 1 goal) this year is to have a better sleeping schedule#i feel like im disappointing myself coz its only been 6 days since i last slept at this hour and i promised myself that i NEED to get better#i literally cant sleep its almost 7am#and im trying sooooo hard to sleep on time but i have insomnia and it rlly rlly sucks#i have somewhere to be in at 1pm and i just wanna go to sleep for a bit#i should really log off n put my phone down but if i do that means im gonna be alone w my thoughts#and its 10x worse#im being so dependent and its not good#sorry to delete i just ughrhhhghr i gotta start a bedtime routine for real
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friendly reminder that if you wanna draw you should draw because I wanna see it and reblog it and eat it so it'll be with me forever
you MADE something!!! that straight up DIDNT exist before??? that's so incredibly metal and amazing and sick as fuck im so proud of you
#i dont care you 'skill level' or whatever nonsense#YOU DID THAT!!!#and my god you should be so proud because I am#i should get magnets to print out ppls art and put on my mini mini fridge that only holds like 4 cans of soda#but like esp if youre in you're 20s??? LATE 20'S???? PAST YOUR 20s???? HOLY SHIT IM SOO SO PROUD OF YOU#cuz its so so hard to get yourself to make and create after youre a kid or a teen#esp if you never really fostered that creativity as a young person#like you DID that you mADE that youre so so amazing#this also applies to writing and crafts and anything where you made something#like ive struggled for a long long time to like my art let alone want to make art but listen listen listen#everytime you make something it gets easier to make it again#you dont have to compare yourself you dont have to strive to draw like whoever#the secret is everyone wants their arts to look better or be better or easier even the really really talented professionals#we are learning creatures no one is perfect and its so so beautiful that that is a thing cuz like#i dont want to see beautiful rendered sistene chapel paintings everyday!!!#like theyre great and im in awe but i could be in awe and enjoying art jim bob down the street doodled on a bench#i see my partner doodle in my notebooks when they make phone calls and are on hold and i think its so beautiful#its just shapes but like they were there and they did that and I didnt? its beautiful and fun and reminds me they were there#you are here and im so glad you are because we get to enjoy things and create and love and just exist#life is hard and we created a society that can be so cynical and were so busy all the time#but i love us i love people i want so badly to love us all because we are different and dont always agree but we create and we exist#and i think thats enough at the end of the day. to just exist.#so you made a lil doodle? i want to see it because ive never seen it before and i think its so awesome genuinely that you did that#sucktacular sucks
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I feel so weird today like i should be at school but i skipped bc im really tired and i've had this feeling the whole day that something huge is gonna happen. And im sitting at the kitchen table now and looking into the living room and everything looks so vivid and real?? I might be going insane idk my brain is also foggy and i havent eaten anything since 9am . Peace and love
#i really dont know whats going on lmao#im eating lunch after this im gonna start working on my essay#salisha speaks#ive also been hyperfocusing on the last of this week 🫣 its put me in this weird mental state it is uhhhh something#i need to put my phone down but its hard . maybe i should take a walk or something
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my parents really are never going to change. theyre a team and im on my own. in the most literal sense
#i see it every time i express how i feel about something and they dont incorporate that in their beliefs for next time#and use it as something to help us navigate our interactions better#its alwaysssss right back to square one. same exact repetitive auto responses and nonchalant attitude toward my feelings#i try to reach some understanding but man its fucking impossible when the other person doesnt hear u at all#everything is so miserable#i dont have it in me to try and make somethinh out of myself because theyve completely destroyed any self image i have#but i also need to make something of myself so i can afford to get the Fuck out of here and cut off any contact#for the rest of my life#i feel trapped in the most hopeless way possible#today my father told me im going to die alone and unloved and no one will ever care about me#just because i told him to be mindful of the things he says rven indirectly#because ive gotten mad over it before so to avoid any future situations again#its best to avoid expressing the thought he expressed#for a guy who hasnt asked me a single personal question he really said all that like he knew me even a little bit#with so much demonic confidence#never wouldve thought id hear those words from a family member but it seems like he festered them for a while#and my mom stayed silent the entire time scrolling on her phone#clearly im not wanted around here and if i were petty id think 'ill distance myself to teach them a lesson'#but i know theyd prefer that#whenever i do isolate its only for my own sake. which is funny because when that happens they STILL blame me for isolating#nothing good ever comes from trying to insert some common sense into them#im always the demon child i ask for too much im ungrateful i should tolerate their mistreatmant#i should boil down and kill any feelings i have that are a reaction to their behavior etc#but all this is going to make me do is kill all of us#its reaching to that point i think#so if i ever go missing from tumblr thats probably what happened#if i lived away from them i wouldnt put them on my mind at all but i have to see them during the day#it adds and adds and adds and adds onto my mental state and one day ill snap#im a rat in a cage thats being constantly negatively stimulated#living in this type of environment is only possible if the other people are puttibg some effort into trying to coexist in peace
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Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley, who from the moment he laid eyes on you, has only ever referred to you as his wife
You, this sweet little thing, running through the halls on base one day when you turn a corner and nearly run headfirst into the Lieutenant, who’s walking alongside Soap
“Oh! Sorry about that, sir.” You told him, never slowing down in your hurried pace as you snuck around his large frame and continued down towards whatever you were evidently late for
The only reason his gaze had followed your retreating form, was that unlike everyone else, you had met in his eyes when you spoke, even smiled warmly up at him
That one smile and he was done for
“Who was tha’?” The sergeant had questioned, seeing Ghost’s attention still fixated on you.
“Think that was my wife.”
“Yer what?!”
Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley, who makes it a point to let everyone know that you are in fact his wife
Well, everyone apart from you apparently
He would certainly never abuse his position as a Lieutenant, but some new recruit had the audacity to whistle at you as you walked by? Well 100 laps around the base don’t exactly run themselves
Another soldier saved you a seat next to him in a briefing? He can enjoy scrubbing toilet seats for the next week in that case
Someone actually had the bollocks to ask you for your phone number? Perfect, he needed a volunteer for demonstrating hand to hand combat to the recruits, medics on standby of course
By the time he properly introduces himself to you for the first time, it’s understood by everyone else around that you are, for all intents and purposes, Mrs Riley
Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley, who listens to you tell him your name in a voice that resembles music to his ears, hardly bothering to remember your last name, seeing as it’ll be changing soon enough anyway
“You can call me anythin’ you want, love.” His deep, gravelly voice had sent shivers down your spine, cheeky smirk widening beneath his mask. “So long as you call me, that is.”
By the end of your first date, (you were sitting alone in the dining hall and he wordlessly joined you what do you mean this isn’t a date) he’s wondering if you’ll insist on a ceremony or if he can sweep you away to the nearest courthouse and make this official, slipping a ring onto you finger and his cock into you
You had laughed when he put his number into your phone and named himself ‘Husband’, certain that the man was only messing with you, some kind of hazing that you apparently weren’t aware Lieutenants played on the new communications hire, but it was only fair seeing as he’d saved your contact under ‘Wife’
Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley, who is over the moon every time you play along, even if he knows you believe you’re only playing
“Ach, thanks Lt. Just what I needed.” Soap said, seeing Ghost’s approaching form enter the common room, holding a steaming cup of tea in each hand
“S’for my wife. Get your own.” The older man gruffly replied, sliding the mug onto the side table next to where you’re curled up on the couch, reading a book
“Aw, thank you honey.” You giggled, smiling up as him with an expression he thinks would taste even sweeter than honey if he were to run his tongue across your upturned lips
“Happy wife, happy life, sergeant.” Ghost shrugged, ignoring the other man’s pout, landing next to you and reaching an arm behind you across the back of the couch
“God, maybe I really should keep you.” You’d laughed, reaching a leg out to dig your socked toes into his muscled thigh, teasing him
Grasping your foot into his large, strong hands, he began massaging it, uncaring that you were only two of the many people in the common room, not when you looked at him like that, smiling together as though you truly were nothing more than a married couple
Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley, who surprised you one day, insisting he needed your help with something crucial off base, and drove you to a local shopping outlet to look at none other than dresses
“Is there some sort of party happening?” You’d questioned, confused out of your mind
“Suppose you could consider it a party.” He’d answered, leading you through the many racks of dresses, you noticed were all, very conveniently, white
“Now while you’re lookin’ through dress sizes,” he’d added, taking your left hand in both of his. “You know your ring size? Got my own shoppin’ to do ‘round here.”
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Desperately holding myself back from cutting my own hair by putting it in a ponytail (again) or just buzzing it all off (again) in a fit of desperation and hysteria because ideally I'd really like to get a cool haircut that I'd actually like. But also. I am losing my fucking mind. And every day I am forced to reckon with the fact that I'm probably not gonna get a chance to go outside and get it cut professionally any time soon and especially not before I seriously just can't take this anymore. Woe, I guess. As all things seem to be.
#fae irl#had to go sit myself down at my desk because one second i was just sitting there and the next i was putting my hair up in a ponytail#and getting ready to lop it off once again#stared at myself in the mirror with shaking hands in the pink lights and had to remind myself how stupid it looks whenever i do this lolol#i am clenching my phone so tightly and biting the inside of my mouth with churning guts while i type this#i hate hate hate hate when my hair gets this long but i havent been able to get it cut and i want to get it cut because this is driving me#up the fucking wall but i cant leave and the hair cutting place is so far away and i cant get anywhere i cant leave and i dont want to be a#bother pleading to go get it cut when were tight on money and dont jave transportation of our own and he needs to sleep for work and he#barely gets time to do what he wants to do either so i should really be able to just suck it up and deal with it right?????????????????????#but i cant look in the mirror and its impacting me its impacting me so bad#im almost crying rn lolol#better stop gotta stop being such a fucking crybaby#ohhhhh how horrible your hair is getting loooong ohhh like thats the worst thing in the fucking world fucking whiny bothersome little baby#hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#im. losing my fucking marbles.
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