#i said i'm being indulgent

[ihatedangling]

^ is but mad north by northwest. When the wind is southerly, Ed knows a hawk from a handsaw.

[reksink]

Requested Works from a Humble Swan 💚

[fisheito]

collab #2 with @xenole i was given a chibi yakumo and i.. i...... turned it into thiS

[hermitshell]

Would I be a #hater if I wrote an essay about why 'only the winners remember' is the most antithetical headcanon for the life series

[volivolition]

wiggles my fingers at you ouuuu… you want to tell me about solace so bad…

HKJGG wiggles my fingers back lovingly!!! i really do, i fuckin LOVE solace :3 hey did you know i really like making fake skill descriptions?

SOLACE

Follow the north star. Find light in even the darkest places. Cool for: Optimists, Recovering lost souls, Sweet summer children

Solace is the skill you tucked away long ago, at the bottom of Pandora's box. The little one that tells you: despite it all, there is still hope. It needs a lot of nurturing -- and it's far from being the most helpful for police work -- but taking care of it is basically self-care. It enables you to find the glow in yourself that you often ascribe to gold lungs or brilliant halos in others. It encourages you to wake up and watch the sunrise, to play board games with someone you love, to forgive yourself and let yourself be a gentler kind of animal. Constantly looking forward to a brighter future, it also helps shield your morale from damage.

At high levels, Solace gives you a heightened sense of childlike optimism - which isn't always the sense to lead with in this precariously harsh world. Always looking for the bright side will blindside you with naivety. At low levels, however, you may just extinguish whatever keeps your soul alight. You've already lost her once. You may not survive the desolation if you let her disappear again.

[deiaiko]

#20.10 Chat

It was almost midnight when Khun was finally able to lie down on his futon. Rak was already snoring, his limbs sprawled out and touching the floor. Ran was on the other side of the room, still playing with his game console. Khun paid him no mind, he was not in the place to lecture people about their sleeping habits when he went to bed just as late.

Instead, Khun called out his pocket, noticing there was a new message. His heart did a flip upon noticing that it was from Bam.

'Sorry for only replying now, I had a lot on my mind yesterday ;-; I went to Mr. Grace's place today, so I feel a lot better now.'

Khun mulled over the message for a while, debating what he should reply with. Though before he could even type a word, Bam sent him another text.

'It was fun :3 Hyung's teammates are very nice to me :D'

Khun smiled to himself and typed back, 'That's good.'

'Did you know that they have fishes? :O they're so cute!'

Khun imagined how Bam's eyes sparkled whenever he learned something new, and Khun's smile grew wider. 'I have seen his electric eel, though I didn't know he had more.'

"Creepy."

Khun turned his head around and his eyes met with Ran's. His previous smile instantly turned into a scowl.

"It's so weird to see you smile like that," Ran commented. "Who is that? Your crush or something?"

Khun clicked his tongue in annoyance, "None of your business."

Ran shrugged and pulled his blanket to cover himself more, seemingly done with his game and ready to sleep.

Khun checked his pocket again for new messages from Bam. 'Hyung said he will prepare a room at his place for me, so I can come by and stay anytime I want. Ah, and Mr. Agni said he will arrange a game with yours and his team, did you know?'

Khun raised his eyebrow. 'No.'

'Oh.'

And that was it from Bam. Khun tapped his fingers nervously, 'Will you be there?'

There was an icon that let him know that Bam was typing. But for a yes or no question, Bam sure took his time, and it made Khun nervous.

'I don't know.' Was what Bam sent, followed by 'But I want to, if I were given the chance. It'd be nice to be able to see everyone again.'

'One day, we'll get you out of there.' Khun promised.

'It's okay :) Hyung said that you guys will be safer with us staying under FUG. They can back us up if anything happens, since they have lots of assets.'

Khun pursed his lips. 'Are you sure? I thought you hated it there.'

'I just hate Mr Hansung. That guy is such a pain in the ass.'

Khun suppressed a snort. Where did Bam learn such a phrase? Though he had to agree that that coffee addict was really getting on his nerves.

'Ms Hwaryun is fine. I know she cares about me. It's just hard to read her. Master was a little distant, but he has been nice to me lately. Plus now that I can talk to you, and have Hyung with me, it's been more or less okay. I can live with it :)'

Still, I want us to be together again. Khun's fingers hovered over the text that he typed, but then decided to erase it. It felt so selfish and emotional, which he might regret in the morning if he were to send it. 'If you say so,' He sent instead, and yawned. 'I think we should sleep, it's getting late.'

'Alright. Good night, Mr Khun :3'

'I told you, just Khun is fine.'

'Good night, just Khun ;3'

'Very funny. Good Bam, Bam.'

'Haha XD.'

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[nervocat]

Actually.. what if. What I make a whole other side blog for self-indulgent fics a whatnot......

[sysig]

Everything falls into place so nicely when they’re together (Patreon)

[zazikels]

ESO - MISC CHARACTERS

→ Calista (Vampire / Necromancer / Daggerfall Covenant) 

→ Cuarendil (Templar / Aldmeri Dominion)

→ Viryn (Warden / Ebonheart Pact)

→ Celenwe (Warden / Aldmeri Dominion)

[arcane-vagabond]

me looking at my own blog: god i wish this bitch would stfu

[atherix]

Most people: Let’s add Cub to the poly ship!

Me: But how about the angst potential of that instead?

Like, just imagine Cub looking over them years after everything settled or in a little gap of peace, happy for Scar for finding happiness and love, but sad that he can’t be part of it.

I like to think that Cub and Scar had that “There is nothing worse than meeting the perfect person at the wrong time”

The unintentional betrayal Cub had done to Scar, can’t earn back the time Scar lived in fear of betrayal and abandonment.

They could obviously still have feelings for one another, but what is love without trust?

Belle has you locked in their crosshairs, Anon <3

Everyone knows I love a good angst mmm but I love a good happy ending even more. That being said, if Cub ever does join the polycule, it would be WAY into the future, beyond the end of the series, when they've had time to reconcile everything. So Midnight won't ever be explicitly Mumconvexian (unless I write some self indulgent future fics) and as far as the main series goes I'll probably leave it open ended to how Mumscarian's relationship with Cub can go, but I'm a bit of a romantic when it comes to fictional men and, as someone who had a bit of a "childhood romance" (as much as literal children can have, anyway), the idea of two people who were "right person, wrong time" coming together again, finally at the right time, is just so... mmm.

Now there are absolutely YEARS of this, Cub being the "family friend" who is so so so happy that Scar has finally found a place that he's happy, finally has that family he always wanted and just wishing he could be part of it, so you're definitely right at least for a WHILE.

More thoughts below the cut thank you~

So the thing with Scar and Cub is that... things will never be the way they were before, but that doesn't mean they can't find forgiveness and rebuild trust, rebuild some kind of relationship again. It would take years to do (on Scar's side) but I'm a sucker for stories of forgiveness and moving on. And at its core, that's what Midnight is; it's a story about moving on from the past, about forgiving (others and your self), it's about breaking cycles and confronting the darkest parts of yourself- and of others- and finding it in you to love anyway. It's about not erasing the past but learning from it, growing and looking to tomorrow instead of living in yesterday. It's a story of grief and loss and hope and dreams and love.

And yes, there are things that can't be forgiven, but everyone gets to make their own choices on that.

As far as Cub's unintentional betrayal- there is time for Cub to prove to Scar that the way he thought things were, wasn't how they were. There's time for him to prove that he was Scar's friend because he wanted to be, time to show him that what they had wasn't fake, to prove that he really did love Scar as much as any fourteen year old could love another. And life's too short to linger in the past. It's been more than fifteen years by now, and really... Scar is so tired of being afraid and alone, and now he isn't alone anymore and he's not afraid anymore, and nothing will ever erase those years but god, he just wants to move on from it already. And despite it all, Scar misses Cub.

They haven't had time to talk about it. They haven't had time to even begin trying to come back from it- but that doesn't mean they never will.

And honestly, after what I'm about to put Cub through, I think Cub deserves to be loved hjgfdjkkjfsd-

[asukiess]

🐑 #ladywalker #hanahaki disease #hurt/comfort

After Chat Noir cites a health fit that has begun to interfere with his ability to support Ladybug, they both come to the conclusion that he take a break--only for the time being. (and it couldn't have come at a better time for Ladybug, if she's being honest.) Only when Cat Walker fills in the gap does she feel she's made a major mistake for the both of them: the same day she coughs up a bluebell petal is the day her new partner chokes out a whole marigold. At the rate she's tending to him, he'll have a bouquet for her in no time.

[boyfridged]

it's so interesting that the version of robin jay that actually argued with bruce about the nature of his work and was outspoken about it was pre-crisis jay. the fact that he openly challenged the no killing rule and subtly taunted bruce over the fact that he [bruce] once killed someone in self-defence... it might seem surprising to some given his background but i think it makes so much sense that he was so openly critical. a part of it was definitely that the authors liked to use him for the sake of certain moral lessons, but what's interesting, it wasn't always merely instrumental; the readers were supposed to consider what jase said a challenge to bruce's reasoning. and for it to come from jase also made sense – there was always that shadow of doubt that (pre-crisis) jason had regarding vigilantism; he was never very religious about it. and he was a character who, unlike post-crisis jay, was given (by both the narrative and in-universe, because of his upbringing and natural self-confidence) so much freedom in exploring the meaning of the world around him. he was the "fresh" eyes when it comes to the mythos and the legacy and because of that, his pov was actually valued. and this tendency to be contrarian wasn't ever written as an ominous sign of his dark fate either...

[skrunksthatwunk]

"i'm not disabled" followed immediately by "i've got bad knees and a bad back" is certainly something to read 🤨 you know it doesn't have to be cripling for it to count, right...? it's not normal to be in pain after 15 minutes of standing. ableds can stand for, like, an hour at a time before they need to sit.

i know! i appreciate the concern, but i uh. dunno lol. genuinely i don't know. but i included the afaik ("i'm not disabled afaik" was the original phrase, though i'm not like mad at you for excluding it or anything) because i'm well aware that it's a possibility. it's hard to explain but there's a lot of little things that don't add up to much but are like. noticeable. like i would prefer to do most things sitting, if i could, as a matter of comfort. it would be easier for me. and walking isn't as bad as just standing. i've never been great at taking care of my body, and this has only gotten worse with time. it's hard for me to know what i should read as necessity and what i should read as preference, and how much weight to put on said preferences. like you said, i know it doesn't need to be "if i don't sit down i'm going to collapse" or anything, but where to draw that line between Definitely A Medical Thing That Affects Me More Than Other People and.. not that, i'm not sure. i kinda just thought i was a persistently slightly tired and low energy person, but it doesn't seem bad enough to be chronic fatigue, so...? is it related to the half-diagnosed. idk it's complicated depression (and yes in hindsight i probably should've counted that as disabling but whatever)? idk it's not a rabbit hole i've explored much at all is my point. but i know it's there and uh i guess this was sort of validating in a way anon so.. yeah? yeah👍

[yuanzhous]

I'm so tired of "he would not fucking say that" I'm so tired of blahblah therapy speech I'm so tired of "they wouldn't have communication skills that good" I'm so tired of endless debates on whether it's ok to let your characters tell each other I love you. and man yeah I get it there's ooc fic out there and I understand every one of those complaints individually and no two people's opinions on what is in character will ever align or we'd all be writing the same fics verbatim but I am so tired. of pretending the only imaginative and worthwhile way to write a character is to withhold from them the ability to express any emotion or affection or kindness because don't you know that nice is boring, and either you're writing the character wrong or you're into the wrong character, I'm tired of having to question character motives every time you write them doing or saying something nice but the moment you write them being assholes you are under no obligation to justify it I am tired

[slippery-minghus]

ebery time i let myself doze off on the couch then wake up gasping, i tell myself i need to stop doing it.

but, reliably, every night, i get too sleepy and too comfy and can only convince myself to get up after i've dozed a little. i need a little sleep to give me the strength to get up. but then. i wake up. panicked and out of breath. i'm so fucking sick of it.