#i rlly dont wanna get judged

[sketchi23]

guys just out of curiosity how do ya'll feel bout oc x canon

[pup-pee]

bart hair kinda acts like horse blinders 4 him

[v4nnyzzz]

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[strangersynth]

bc you have things to say doesn't always mean you needa say them let alone it also doesn't always mean it's your place to say them kwim

[froggi-nixxlol]

erm, I wanna do another notes post because I say so-

10 notes- I WILL CLEAN MY ROOM😭😭

20 notes- I'll cut off all contact with my fake irl friends

35 notes- I'll practice regular hygiene instead of hopping in the shower, only using water, and calling it a day

40 notes- I'll change my clothes everyday (this is something I rlly struggle with, please dont judge me)

50 notes- I'll start reminding irl friends TO NOT call me my dead name and to call me Nixx (or xan if they're a close friend)

60 notes- I'll ask my mum to take my to get an autism test (something that I might have along with my DIAGNOSED adhd)

85 notes- I'll go on walks more often, maybe even take my mum or my grandpa's dog with me and just enhoy nature ig

100 notes- I'll stop vaping

110 notes- I'll start opening up about my feelings more (even though a few people in my life will disregard/disrespect said feelings)

200 notes- I'll tell the person that I have a crush on how I feel (even though he likes someone else, and Im scared)

250 notes- (last one, and kinda important for me) I'll set alarms for my medication and sleep at a regular time so that I can take my meds at a regular time

BONUS:

1000 notes- I'll start eating regularly instead of binging/not eating at all (I do both interchangeably)

[the-moon-files]

I was actually thinking about this a lot but like as an add on to your humans are hylian space orcs thing. I am in ✨need✨ of reader trying potions. Like;

"This potion will restore your stamina and boost your strength"

"Buddy that's just coffee"

"Qué?"

Even worse if when the reader tries it it's just like the most not strong coffee they've ever drank. Makes the guys wonder wtf makes humans need so much energy through out the day.

this is such a cute idea, i love how diet diffs/energy diffs in humans are space orcs aus, so genius to apply to hylians

the stamnia boost potion tastes just like instant coffee with powdered creamer (the kind at like car dealerships/shitty offices where its not even a little liquid creamer)

and u spit that shit out like wtf is this bs

and Four, poor guy who gave you some after talking a break from walking, is like "oh my goddess r u allergic?? can still breath???"

meanwhile ur like. "yeah this just tastes like shit-"

four: "oh well yeah, all potions do really-"

you: "-ty coffee. this is nowhere near strong enough to get me back on my feet ffs"

four: " 👁️👄👁️"

you: "u got anything stronger? :/ "

four: " w h a t ? "

cue u researching how to make stamnia potions, across the hyrules, and making them 10x stronger so theyre like an actual coffee shop kind of coffee, and the Links are literally lowkey scared

Time forbids you (and the rest of the guys) from letting anyone else try ur "improved" elixir (s)

bc yes, u didnt stop at stamnia

u moved on to healing potions, (u can now regrow limbs and heal broken bones, the hylians can only take like a 1/16th of a sip like once a week, whereas u chug the whole thing, and can do so multiple times a day if needed)

u also moved onto cooking, bc rlly how different is cooking from alchemy?

and goron spice tasted like goddamn dorito chips, so u used essence of literal lava to help make it more spicy,

ur not allowed to introduce this new spice to the gorons, Wild forbid, bc he was adventurous enough (and snuck behind Time and ur backs) to try some spice

(he literally touched the tip of his pinky finger to it, wiped it off, except for 1 like flake of spice too)

and it lowkey nearly killed him 💀

like had to use that 1/16th of ur extra strong healing potion and everything

u felt so bad, but he did do this to himself,

and Wild knew the gorons dont back down from a challenge, esp since it was originally their recipe, so he (and you) didnt wanna kill them on accident

the sleeping potion u found is just like taking a single melatonin gummy, so u ofc make that thing knock even you out after 2 sips,

needless to say, no one is trying that one, not only bc it knocked Rulie unconcious for 12 hours straight (u got him to try it after he exhausted all his magic healing, and so no nightmares)

but bc it knocked u out cold for 9. that was the scarier part to them lmao, was how affected is their human by this?

i like to think thats how they judge unknown foods and liquids too,

like "do you think this tastes unseasoned? ok should be perfect for me then" - every Link

"oh this didnt make u feel sleepy at all/barely tired? great, id love to knock out cold w/no nightmares tonight" - Sky, probably

"this tastes like that thing you call, instant cough? ko-fee? Cool, give me some i need to run up this mountain" - Wild, for the 3rd time this month probably

"this barely healed ur papercut? sweet, give me some my wrists are killing me" - poor Legend, he uses ur extra strength healing potion as a way to treat his arthritis regularly once a month, but the more chill potions for any leftover aches and pains, esp after long fights being hard on his arms

Chain is simultaneously still lowkey terrified u need that much extra oomf, esp when u run out of stronger stuff and have to down like 5 health potions to heal a cut that needed stitches,

and also worried u need that much and also Wild/Wars/Rulie tend to work overtime to make sure they have extra potions for you

and theyre also kind of impressed, bc hey, youre unlikely to get magically poisoned/potion poisoned like them

☆

sorry i couldnt think of as much as i hoped, i think its bc i rlly just need to play/watch more loz games besides botw/totk

i like know the vague plot of ss/oot/mm/tp/ww/hw and og loz games, but havent gotten into details/lets play or anything yet

i hope this was at least a half decent idea to think about/expand on urs, have a great rest of ur week, and thanks so much for the ask!! <33

Peace out,

🌙

[elliscousland]

additionally, i think it's important to note that the emotional & moral complications only matter to him bcs they actively affect him. once he's played his part in any context he beats himself up relentlessly abt the things he did but if anyone were to approach him w the same concerns he would Hypocrite Up & just be like YOU WEREN'T FUCKING THERE!!! like there just being this automatic defense that comes with being perceived bcs he can't always remember the details bcs of a mix of mental illness & trauma so he's never sure what perceptions are & aren't valid.

like he KNOWS he made bad decisions!!! he wont forgive himself for that!!! but he unfairly expects others to because they weren't the ones who had to make them.

this of course changes on a personal level when he is being perceived by someone he gives half a fuck about. but his instinct with strangers is to revert to being defensive. it's more complicated than i have the brainpower to talk about here but ellis isn't a great guy. he's not a bad guy either. he sucks & he's beautiful & he's awful & he did his best. his best just wasn't all that great.

also thinking about how ellis pursues The Horrors in the moment of any crisis because he sees them as an effective means to an end where he or his loved ones might live. he doesn't think about the moral or emotional implications until his actions have already passed & he is actively experiencing them

[pumpkinsy0]

there was an anon who asked for spiderman and deadpool pony and curly but i accidentally deleted the ask w my headcanons so second times the charm

•curly uses his ability to heal wayyyy to freely, like seriously, he gets his arm chopped off and he doesnt care at all, if anything he shows it off to pony cause he thinks its funny how disgusted pony acts, pony always has his mask on and curly likes imagining the face ponys making under it

•curlys not the biggest fan of his looks, HES STILL VERY CONFIDENT and genuinely very egotistical, but he thinks he could look way better and prefers not to have ppl get THAT look in their eyes when they see it. he was a bit hesitant to let pony see his face but pony says he has no room to judge, he got his powers from sleeping in the lot and some spider biting him, at least curly got his in a cool way, so what if he got scars, pony took his chances and coulda got killed from a poisonous spider or somethin, no powers no nothin just a stupid death😭

•pony will probably hang onto curly like hes a parrot, just chilling on curlys shoulder. i’ll bet 4 dollars that i don’t have that he also crawls on curly like a spider, too. curly gets very ticklish at that but EVERYONE else thinks it’s creepy, totally off putting they never wanna see that bs ever again

•when curlys limbs get chopped off or whatever he can just pop em back in place and that’s wayyyyy easier than just waiting to grow a limb back, but of course pony and curly make it a joke, they like calling it “pin the limb on the shepard”❤️ if ponys upset he swaps which limb should b where and leaves curly to fix it on his own

•ponys spidey senses save curlys ass a LOT!!! curly says he doesnt have to do that, but pony would prefer not having curlys blood on his suit, actually. ponys usually on top of curly to protect him from debree and curlys idea of a thank u is saying “so uhhhh dinner n drinks later???😏😏”

•curly will call pony at 2:45am talking about a new move they can do together, but the move curly wants to do is something he doesnt even know the BASICS of, so now pony has to teach curly how to do a backflip without breaking something, JUST so he can look cool shooting a gun

•pony has organic webs and if u press down on a certain spot on his wrist, the webs come out!! as soon as curly learned this ponys had to fight him off before curly sprays the webbing on someone he doesnt like’s hair or on some poor fool he wants to prank.

•let curly break the fourth wall!!!! i have nothing to add on about this other than when curly does it, pony looks around confused asking who in the hellll he’s talking too. this also means curly knows hes not “thee” curly and hes read all the fanfics of him and pony out there

•the public BOTH dont like these guy but they especially dont like deadpool/curly, they say hes the way more destructive if the two which isnt wrong tbh. curly says their hatred for him is y they always take the worst pics of him compared to pony who always gets the cooler looking pics in newspapers

•guys wouldnt it b so cool if ponys canon even was supposed to b curly dying but bc curlys practically immortal everytime the universe tried ts just didnt work and so it went over to johnny and dally was just a plus one accident

•ponys spidey senses also means he doesnt rlly fall for curlys pranks anymore, he just lets curly think so for the sake of curly having a good time, sometimes tho he is NOT granting him that satisfaction

•they both ask each other RLLY invasive questions, i will not elaborate but i will tell u curly is more open to answering them than pony is

[jesuistrestriste]

Also lmk of this is too personal but what was ur first time like... ive never done anything bcs i grew up ugly and awkward

ok reall bc i def had a bit of an ugly duckling phase in middle school/junior high but i feel bad talking abt my younger self like that ;-; it wasn’t her fault she was just growing into her face

but anyways ill be so candid, i didn’t do anything inherently sexual with anyone until i was 19 (which isnt even a big deal bc virginity is a construct and you can never begin having sex “too late”.. like u do whats best for u and ur life ! and dont EVER feel pressured to do something bc you feel like u have to catch up !)

ironically, that^ is kinda exactly what i did lmao. my freshman yr of college was when covid was happening so everyone was off campus and doing online classes, so when sophomore yr hit i reallyy locked in to the whole ‘uni experience’. i didn’t do anything sexual in high school and then i felt like i was in this whole new environment and was ready to do that sort of stuff, so i did what a lot of ppl were doing at my university: i went on tinder.

my first time doing stuff was with a guy i had talked to for a week or so, and it was a less than savory experience to say the least.. he was just kinda all over the place, a bit overzealous and whatnot, but he was also pretty kind and respectful when i told him something was too much or whatever. i’ve had partners since then that i’ve had much better times with ! it’s all about communicating and finding people you trust and finding those who truly respect you and your body (and for the love of god don’t find people thru apps if you’re looking to hook up with someone. maybe it was just my city but 80% of the people were just such unpleasant individuals. i also blame myself a bit bc i think i could have done a better job at judging their characters beforehand but life goes on. i was young and dumb. zero dating apps on my phone now.)

!! i did also find out that i have (had?) vaginismus back then, which basically makes penetration rlly difficult, impossible, and/or painful bc your muscles involuntarily tighten (gripped a little tooo good..) but i’ve worked through that now and im a-ok. but that rlly pushed me to get comfortable stating my boundaries when i was getting intimate w people bc i had to tell them that i didn’t wanna have penetrative sex !

i personally feel like sex—penetrative or not—is a pretty intimate thing and porn culture is really working to minimize the importance of being in the moment and being in your body. instead, it’s placing a huge emphasis on the ‘need to perform’ (esp for women/femme presenting people). idk if that makes sense eek. but basically it’s ok to be yourself, it’s ok to take ur time, it’s ok to go slow (in more ways than one), it’s ok to have sex with people you’re not in a relationship with, and it’s ok to have sex with people you are in a relationship with.

at the end of the day: just protect ur own boundaries and body, communicate, and never go to bed with someone you wouldn’t let your dearest friend/sibling go to bed with. you deserve kindness and respect ! and if the other person gives it to you, it’s only fair to give it right back !

[autistic-katara]

ok i might get blocked by a couple ppl for saying this but the Jackson’s Diary fandom is seriously making me wanna become a proshipper out of spite (read the post before blocking me or whatever please)

like idk if u guys have checked the fandom tag on ao3 recently but theres been a bit of drama surrounding the fact that someone posted a smut-fic of Exer (an 18yo) and David (an almost 18yo, who was aged up A FEW MONTHS for the fic) and they were harassed into taking it down and making a fucking apology post ON AO3, THE PROBLEMATIC FANWORKS WEBSITE.

and this fic was tagged 100% correctly like it was very explicitly tagged as smut n stuff yet there were still a bunch of comments being like “uhm what did i just read 🤨” and when i made a comment defending the authors right to yk, not be harassed for making not even rlly problematic content someone who clearly would suffer withdrawal symptoms if they turned twitter off for too long started arguing with me abt how “erm ackhtually we should be allowed to comment harassment under ppls harmless and explicitly tagged fics cause theres no smut in this fandom and it shocked us” and u could just rlly tell they felt they were more righteous than God in their opinions and yeah so cut to tonight when i’m scrolling through the tag and i see a post titled “i’m so sorry” in which the author made a post basically being like “i’m so sorry for posting that ik it was disgusting it has been permanently deleted” which in the comments a few ppl were telling them that what happened sucked n stuff (myself included // judging by their reply they only did this to stop the harassment which yk, completely fair) and i went back to scrolling since i wanted an actual fic not fandom drama but like 2 posts down there was another post titled “please stop” or smthn like that where someone else made a post basically being like “guyssss can we please not write smut of these characters this fandom is so wholesome i dont wanna ruin it 🥺 anyways sorry this isnt a fic this just needed to be said lol” and like dude, my guy, WHAT THE FUCK?!

this is AO3, this is a fanwork archive that as far as i know was created (at least partially) due to the fact that ppl kept getting their “problematic” works taken down from other sites and the creators wanted to yk archive all fanworks. this is NOT a social media site where u can make callout posts abt how what someone else posted disturbed ur pure wholesome chaste scrolling by daring to uploaded something with *gasp* consensual sex between 2 consenting adults?! (or canonically 1 consenting adult and 1 consenting gonna-be-an-adult-in-a-few-months-but-isnt-much-younger-than-the-first-guy but u get the idea)

like guys, ao3 is not twitter. it is not tiktok, it is not tumblr, its not youtube, its not even wattpad. it is not a social media platform, it is a fanwork archive, specifically one that lets u post whatever kinda content u want (yes, even smthn depicting 2 consenting adult/almost adult participates that are in no way related having sex, ik its crazy what they allow online these days).

and look honestly the callout post wouldn’tve annoyed me this much if it was posted on yk an actual social media. like if it was posted on twitter or tiktok or on youtube as a video essay or even on here, like sure if i saw it id be annoyed that this fandom cant handle the tiniest bit of non-puritanicalism and fuck, maybe if it was on here id even drag myself into a pointless days-long argument that causes me suicidal levels of stress but on archive of our fucking own itself?! for the millionth time, IT IS NOT A SOCIAL MEDIA! u dont make posts like that that u want the rest of the fandom to read or whatever on there because its not that kinda website!

anyways yeah i hope i explained the situation ok, u might be able to check it out urself if u feel like it and yeah idk this whole thing just kinda felt like a wake-up call for me like yes i find incest and pedophilia disgusting OBVIOUSLY and i dont like ppl romanticising it in fiction but idk i’ve seen ppl talk abt toxic antis before and show screenshots of conversations where theyve acted super shitty but idk seeing this all unfold in person and having to argue with these hardcore antis just- i dont wanna be associated with these ppl, if these are what alotta antis r like i dont want anyone to assume i agree with them like at all, whether its other antis, proshippers, or ppl like me who have a super complicated opinion on it. like they harassed a person into taking down their smut and made call-out posts on ARCHIVE OF OUR OWN abt how they dont want their wholesome pure fandom corrupted by gross dirty irredeemable sex. and just yeah hope no mutuals i seriously care abt unmoot or even block me over this since ik a few of u r antis but yeah srry for this i just kinda seriously hate this fandom right now :)

also incase anyone is typing out a “kill yourself pedo” reply/rb rn; i turn 15 on Friday, i am 2+ years younger than ur innocent bb minor boy David and his definitely not already a legal adult boyfriend Exer so yk

[night-error]

MAP CALL!!!! 4/21

I've been working on this for AGES (ever since Ep 2 of tpc s2 came out)

Parts!!

Intro-

Pt1- Thewolferclan087 (yt)

Pt2- Thewolferclan087 (yt)

Pt3- me- (I rlly wanna help with the map even tho im the host)

Pt4-

Pt5-

Pt6-

Pt7-

Pt8-

Pt9-

Pt10-

Pt11-

Pt12- astronic-fr

Pt13-

Pt14-

Pt15-

Pt16-

Pt17-

Pt18-

Pt19-

Outro-

Rule 1- When posting your part here do not use a watermark or greenscreen, but if you're posting it on your social media then you are allowed

Rule 2- just for safety please make your parts 3-5 frames larger than it is incase it is accidentally make just too short.

Rule 3- You are allowed to collab with someone just tell me who it is so you both get credited!

Rule 4- the length of the part must be 1920×1080. If you mess up with the size then it's absolutely fine just try to make it around that size! ^^ (I actually broke this rule myself while making the reference/Storyboard)

Rule 5- Dont judge others parts, we are all at different levels of skill. You will get 3 warnings before your part and role will get taken away

Rule 6- do not be afraid to ask for anything!

Rule 7- try to make the characters look as cannon as possible!

Rule 8- don't rush the you'll have 2 months to complete this map so please use it. If you are still working on it past the 2 months and have provided with a wip and another wip to show your process so far you'll have an extension of about 3-4.

Rule 9- You can use any type of animating, although I'd like to keep it 2D and Gacha will not be allowed.

Rule 10- do not trace others work. I also would discourage tracing the storyboard but if you are very struggling use it to help you!

Rule 11- Have fun, it can be stressful at times to create a map part up to your own expectations but do not stress yourself on it.

Rules may be added on if I haven't made things clear enough! The map may seem strict but I assure you im trying not to make it strict!

Script!

Heads up-

WITHIN THE FIRST HALF CIRCUSIC IS NOT TO LOOK BACK AT IRIS WITH ANY SORT OF SADDNESS OR REGRET. IRIS IS ALLOWED TO DO THAT BUT NOT TOO STRONG OF EMOTIONS

Intro- The intro will have 'Evelyn Evelyn' on it for a good few seconds before it fades. The closed boom beside the text is the picture book from 'iris's discovery'. It opens slowly revealing 3 pictures, 1 of the right and 2 on the left (is optional for what you put in the ones on the left, but keeping it iris and circusic themed is good).  there should be a few second pause before the camera zooms into a picture of past iris and circubit. Making it full screened.

Part 1: young iris and cirusic are standing within a forest. Circusic doesn't seem sure about where they are and is of course nervous. Iris lightens the mood by pulling a funny face which they both laugh at. After the laughing brings a slight tear of joy to cirusics eye which he wipes will iris moves forward. Their chestplates glow when iris's hand reaches forward, trying to take circubits. Circubit also steps(/skates) forward but the screen will turn white just when they are about to touch.

Pt.2- iris and circubit walk (/skate) in different directions from eachother, stopping when they are satisfied with the distance. Iris looks down at the floor while this actors.

Pt.3- the camera focuses on Circusic who doesn't seem impressed. Circusic calls iris a parasite but the camera switches to Iris after the sound 'Para-' is said. After that iris is supposedly hurt by that and a tear forms in his eye. It is quickly replaced with rage as iris turns his head around yelling.

Pt.4- iris does a full body turn, facing circusics back. He stomps his foot with rage of what circusic thinks of him. This annoys circubit.

Pt.5.- The camera faces cirusics back. As he slowly gets more and more annoyed as he speaks. Eventually yelling and moving his hand before regaining his composure slightly.

Pt.6- there's a side view of iris, his eyes are closed and his hand is at his chest. He then opens his eyes and ever so slowly and gently reaching his hand out to grab circusics shoulder. The camera slowly turns somwe can see out off iris's POV. Before iris can touch circusic the screen turns white.

Pt.7- the scene starts with a flash. Showing a much more brighter time with many flowers blooming. The ghosty past circusic slowly turns around to iris, who pulls his hand back a little. Iris then hesitantly reaches forward, wanting to touch his chestplate since the memory he is experiencing feels real. The screen turns white again.

Pt.8- the white fads and circusic has a harsh grip on iris's hand, his face is filled with rage. He then forcefully shoves iris's hand away, using great force.

Pt.9- the camera focuses on a side angle of circubit. Cirusics head slowly faces down as his eys glare at iris. The camera slowly moves over to iris as he pulls his hand back to his side. Annoyed of what circusic just did.

Pt.10- iris raises his head slightly when talking to circubit to make him seem more bigger. he then closes his eyes tightly.

Pt.11- the camera is quite a bit away from iris as he talks, his eyes are still closed and his hands are behind his back. The more iris talks the more the dark side of him covers his face. Eventually half of his face is covered when that happens a red flash appears and iris opens his eyes. The red silhouette of the King appears in front of him, slowly fading.

Pt.12- Circusic starts to walk backwards but tries to keep up a brave face to iris.

Iris is still walking forward, he swings his arm in a one side motion to show his anger.

Pt.13-  Circusic is still moving backwards although not as fast as he previously was as he does hands gestures to iris showing him both rage and confusion.  Iris, also slows down at his face, angrly pointing at circusic.

Pt.14: circusic is frustrated and brings his arms up to his shoulders, he then clenching his face and glares at the camera (aka iris). Iris has folded his arms as he stops walking. He gets frustrated and he tenses his arms up.

Pt.15- another flashback occurs of iris and circusic having a laugh. The camera zooms out and it shows the scene of iris and circusic appearing in iris eye. The pupil of it softening up remembering it. The scene cuts to iris chest, where he reaches to his chest place and grabs the clothing surrounding it.

Pt.16- the screen spilts, having iris on the right and circusic on the left. Iris pulls his hand away from his chest closes his eyes small tears can be seen forming. Circusic pulls his hands from behind his back to his sides. Moving his head downwards in a glare. The background around them gets darker and duller as they also seem to get a bit darker. Their chestplates light up with a black glow

(The camera slowly zooms in the entire scene)

Pt.17- both their chestplates are glowing, although unlike when they were kids they glow back. The camera continues to zoom until it slows down. Iris opens his eyes and leans forward, tears dripping down his face. Circusics eyes go smaller and tears are forming but nothing comes out. They both stop yelling and glare at eachother with tears. Before the screen turns to black.

Pt. 18- the screen is still quite dark. But the shilluette of past iris and circusic can be seen sitting on grass. The reaper can be seen for a few seconds, before it tuns back to iris and circusic.

Pt:19:  the reaper flashes in once again raising its scythe. This time, iris and circusic look back with fear in their eyes. The reaper flashes in again, this time its scythe is fully raised and it can be seen swinging down just for a second.

Outro- The carma goes back to iris and circusic except they aren't there. In their place are 2 flowers. The one is circusics place is drying and has pink at the top of it. The other flowers petals slowly fall to the floor, leaving it with just the pollen. The camera switches and shows the book from 'iris's discovery' laying down, its closed and is in a dark area.

Please reply to the blog so I am be to tell you if a part is free or not!!!

Discord if you are thinking of getting a part!!!

https://discord.com/invite/nak553wg

The map should be completed by 8th August!!

Goodluck for those who are participating!

[proshipconfessions]

i have a big gay crush on this girl in my class whos just as chronically online as me like we're both autistic and i connect with her mega well and i think she may be proship but the problem is i was talking abt proship discourse and bcus like proshipping isnt at all accepted i was pretending i was an anti but like she had this weird look on her face and idk she seemed a lil off???? like did i just make this girl i have a major crush on think im an anti out of not wanting to get judged??? and she may be proship herself???? so i just fucked things tf up???? god i am so STUPIDDDD bro what do i do how do i figure out if shes proship or not cus i dont wanna fuck up again, i only made my tumblr account recently and i mentioned making a tumblr account since i knew she had one and like yeah and she asked for my tumblr account but since i have fucking 'proship' in my bio and plan to use it to post abt fanfic (which will be having problematic themes) and etc i made some rlly stupid excuse to why i couldnt give it to her and i feel like i made her uncomfortable and made myself look STUPID god i have 0 rizz im just gay and brainless atp turn me into mush WHY DID I NOT THINK THAT SHE'D ASK ME FOR MY TUMBLR BRO LIKE??? and idk how to make an alt account without it being connected to my main (the proship account) and like AGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH kill me now

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[usagiarchive]

angel of the codeine scene — afterword

masterlist.

HI SO UM aotcs is finally over wow.

idk i know i shouldnt make a rlly big deal out of this hut hey im really just proud of myself for writing a whole fic and actually finishing it...

i have so much to say but idk where to start, i feel like this will be a very messy afterword, so id like to start by thanking everyone who read AOTCS.

it was so heartwarming and motivating to see your reblogs, your comments, your asks, some people even messaged me like omg guys 😭😭😭 im just so happy that people liked my work.

ANYWAY I WANNA SHOW U GUYS THESE HEHE

this is what the plot is, like my starter plot, where it al began chuchu HAHA, i thought of this around oct 2024 and it was actually supposed to be a gore kind of plot, where in order to heal Xiao, he has to like eat the reader..........

ITS WEIRD I KNOW, BUT AT THE TIME I WAS VERY INTO CANNIBALISM AS METAPHOR FOR LOVE PLS DONT JUDGE DJCBISNAKSJDOJAKS

no but seriously that trope is really good i love and aspire to be like the writers who write legit literature things u study abt in college type of writing.

READER WAS SUPPOSED TO HAVE A VISION TOO !! it was supposed to be hydro bcs like why not i love hydro and i love healers (hello furina n kokomi ily two)

and i also really liked the healers need protectors trope, that's so cute, but i kinda discarded the vision thing cuz it would help w the plot hehe.

LUMINE WAS ORIGINALLY NOT SUPPOSED TO BE IN THE STORYLINE !!! it was supposed to be Ganyu that they would get jealous of and had like a whole crying scene written out too of you and Xiao fighting over trust and him not letting you in but talking to Ganyu all the time.

But then I was like nah, let's use Lumi, she's always so spicy when it comes to that.

Also idk if u guys noticed but the reader doesn't rlly know what jealousy is, hence why she thought she was coming down w something (jalosi cough jalosi).

IN THE LAST CHAPTER... Xiao has 5 things he's felt sick to the stomach with, I hope u noticed how the fourth one is you dying, which is a choice because of the symbolism of the number 4 in eastern asian countries !!

Now that I think abt it i actually have no idea what to explain next, ill probably add more in the reblogs, but if u guys did notice smth or a part of smth was not clear to u guys, please do feel free to ask or dm me !! ily all bye!!

[i-need-some-advice-on]

i wanna talk abt some serious stuff regarding abt how i feel or just how im going recently but my friend never takes me seriously. like i dont wanna vent i just wanna discuss some random topics abt myself in a non-joking way if that makes sense? my friend never takes me srsly cus they always view me as dumb and im now uncertain of my abilities as a whole and if i can even share the things ive done without being judged. its not rlly their fault tho cus i can be actually stupid sometimes lol. pls dont consider them as toxic i dont have any other friends therefore i dont wanna leave them cus then ill be alone how can i ''open up'' without being judged/ignored? do i have to increase my vocabulary skills and speak more eloquently to get their attention? or do i have to become a full on nerd and study useless things to do so? all i want is to be taken seriously for once

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MODERN NARUTO HCS!!

I dont wanna make too many, so heres a few!! None of these personalities are canon, these are all just made up. If you dont like when people put totally different personalities on characters, I recommend you dont read this! 🫶

-Sasukes family is full of police, and they run a police station

-The Uchiha family is also some kind of mafia shit

-Yes they abuse their police power

-The Hyuugas are also mafia, and are rivals to the Uchihas!

-Sasuke and Neji were forced ‘rivals’, because they were the same age

-Sasuke almost killed Neji

-Later became friends, now repeatedly visits Neji in the hospital because he got in a coma

-Naruto is Sasukes real rival, but only in academics, girls and strenght (from Naruto’s pov)

-Sasuke sees Naruto as a rival, somehow

-Minato and Kushina are alive, very chaotic but happy couple

-Minato is the mayor, and Kushina is a judge

-This is how Sasuke sees a rival in Naruto, because Naruto is on the ‘good’ side and hes on ‘bad’ side

-They were rlly good friends in childhood tho

-They made out as practise hehe

-Knew they weren’t attracted to men after that

-Naruto wasn’t exactly hated when growing up, but he accidentally murdered someone in his teens so lots of people hated him after that

-Wasn’t actually the murderer

-He got away with it anyway because of his parents :)

-Seen as ‘weird kid’ in school

-Trained his body from a very young age, and does martial arts!!

-Really powerful

-He had a crush on Sakura until he found out from his parents that she was included in some sketchy shit

-Sakura is very smart

-Like very

-She knows the Uchiha are mafia, because of a certain happening

-Popular in school

-Became really strong after she started dating Sasuke, because Sasuke trained her really well so she’d be able to protect herself!

-Hinata is a shy cutie, but when you get to know her shes kind manipulative with her shyness, and clingyness

-Didn’t know she was manipulative though, because she just picked up behaviours from her mom

-The hyuugas are not a happy family/household

-Didn’t wanna be involved with mafia, since it included being more ‘close’ to her family

-She only likes Neji and Hanabi in her family

-Became stronger so she could protect Hanabi

-Dislikes Sasuke for what he did to Neji.

-Ino is a whore

-That sounded bad mb

-She doesn’t like it, but her family is poor so she sells herself

-Is trying to use Sakura for money

-Thats why theyre friends

-Shikamaru is smart, but ignorant

-He ignores everything that goes on around him, because its too ‘bothersome’

-Choji follows what Shikamaru does, not hesitant. Theyre best friends, right? Shikamaru wouldn’t do anything to hurt him, right?

-Kiba has a fake personality, and is only himself around his dog

-He doesn’t wanna be involved in anything, but ends up being involved anyway

-Nobody notices Shino. He does that want to be noticed, anyway. Or?

-TenTen clings on to Sakura and Ino like a leech, she just wants friends.

-Lee is super sporty! Too bad he got a really bad injury that made him unable to do what he loves.. Hope this doesn’t make him *too* depressed!

-Does Gaara spare his siblings? We dont know. Will Naruto be able to save Gaara in this timeline? We dont know.

-‘Sensei’s like Kakashi are teachers or workers in shops

-Itachi does his best to keep Sasuke out of the spotlight. He likes when the attention is on him.

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hehe i put some images that i found that fit this!! 😽

[fake-ascension]

ok im done wuthering my waves for the night

so far my thoughts are leaning towards positive since i was having fun the whole time:

the game does not feel polished at all and ran into a couple of weird visual/audio glitches.

the eng voice acting is hit or miss.

im not gonna judge the story at all because it would be like judging genshin halfway thru mondstadt, but after meeting scar i'm a lot more intrigued about the whatever themes the story is trying to say, because that fucked up fairy tale he told was sick as fuck. other than that im kinda ehhh at this point

im not a gamer, hyv games that got me REALLY playing video games besides a few select few so i dont consider myself 'good' at video games but the combat is fun and satisfying

the open world doesnt feel empty at all like i feared it would there have been plenty of shinnies to get distracted at and its a fun time

the echo system is a bit confusing and i still dont rlly understand how sets & stats work. but making 'artifacts' be pokemon you can run around and capture is SUCH a cool ass, but unsure how well it'll be in the later game statages

ended up with calcharo as my 5* and i'm glad because hes pretty straight forward and easy to use so its helpful during the learning process

i like how when you get new characters a little tutorial is unlocked and it walks you through the characters kit real time and its SO helpful in understanding what they do and if you like a character play style enough to level up a bit

i've been running around with calcharo and mortefi. switching around w danjin/aalto. i think sanhua is pretty and will probably use her when i DO get her, and i think i wanna go for changli when she comes out because boy is she PRETTY

silly thoughts:

the rave turtle echo is fuckin hilarious i love it

the world's fucked up problem being called 'lament' just makes me cackle and think of mr zy0x

i was expecting scar to be the edgy teehee so random im crazy xD type character but im pleasantly surprised by his introduction and im v curious about him

aalto is silly

mortefi is hot i like him, i had to pick a dude in this game it would probably be him (so far)

alright i think those are all my thoughts for now