#i remember that one time i ran away

[mochinon-yah]

I will always admire people who can talk to a large audience confidently or at least someone who can mask their nervousness... like aventurine lol. But anyway, it's not a lie 😭 guys, i can't talk to many people without anxiety and nervousness creeping behind me. It's not even the day of the presentation, but i'm already feeling stressed??? Oh gosh, this is just so bad. I can't do this 😭🙏 i think i'll just push somebody else to do the presentation-

[hood-ex]

Soda stroking Pony's hair and calling him "honey" is something that can be so personal actually.

[gingermintpepper]

Absolutely the funniest thing about my current corner of tumblr is that pretty much everyone I've recently followed for Apollo-Appreciating Purposes are either genuinely Hellenist or just rather very into Rick Riordan's Trials of Apollo series which is wild because I know a net zero about both of those things.

[irregodless]

oh yeah? could a mentally unstable person make this?

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

probably the most constant thing of my life has been the social isolation and loneliness i experience

since i was a young child, i’ve always struggled to make and find friends, and often was left alone

for a long time, nothing could defeat my spirits and will to make friends, and even the loneliness wasn’t enough to make me stop

nowadays, it gets to me, the loneliness, and i often wonder if i’ll have all the friends i’ve deserved all along

[brittlebutch]

it's actually so fascinating to me that Brennan has created a character that maintains a pretty relaxed and mild-mannered demeanor and has said multiple times that the absolute Core of her is "FEAR" and how often we see this Fear manifest specifically in Avoidance; it really nails a relationship to that mentality where your brain fully Stops recognizing the emotion properly out of like, sheer self-defense from the stress of having to carry it all the time

I think this is also perfectly showcased in the way we tend to see Tula swing so suddenly from 'level and steady' to 'snarling Panic' and then back again - Just because your brain has detached itself from the Conscious Recognition of the emotion doesn't mean it can Actually stop itself from experiencing it. So the Fear is always there and always acting as a stressor, but because of that inability to Identify it there's no way to recognize or address it before that final straw hits and your bodymind jumps Straight into Full Meltdown Mode; but then once again, once you drop even a Little bit below that Peak Terror your brain ceases to process the emotion; it's like the most exhausting form of Poor Object Permanence in the world

And even if Tula is aware of this happening to her, that doesn't really make it any easier to deal with / address. Even if you're able to spot the symptoms Around the emotion -- chest pain, irritation, nausea, whatever -- because the Emotion Itself is basically impossible to find, you can't really Successfully Pin Down what the problem is OR a way to cope with it. If you can't figure out That You Are Anxious, then figuring out What Is Making You Anxious is impossible, which makes Find A Way To Make Peace With That incomprehensible. That's where the Avoidance comes in: you can no longer identify what might be a Dangerous Situation, which means that Anything New has a big potential to be Really Bad in a variety of ways (ranging "I don't Feel Good" to "Fully Lashing Out bc you've entered Fight/Flight and can't get out of it" to "Actual Outside Danger This Time") and that means the Only Way you know how to be Safe is to just Avoid Doing Anything New and Only stick to Familiar Situations, because anything unfamiliar is a monster of a gamble you don't know how to prepare for or cope with

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Applying to an apartment with little income and terrible credit score, in hopes that they'll be desperate enough to take me

[sysig]

Special Counseling (Patreon)

[10hourshift]

Sometimes I kinda regret the storyline I gave Spring bc it separates him a lot from the other characters he used to hang out with

[the-meme-monarch]

Wait the cats name is Rusty? And its orange? Do you own a real life Firestar? (Assuming you know what warrior cats is if you dont ignore this lol)

was wondering if someone was going to say this ! it always happens when i bring him up ! anyway i do know warriors but i only read two books, and also my dad named him. his mom’s name is tawny and that one Was my doing. not even necessarily after the character tawnypelt i just learned what the word tawny was Because of that book and thought it was a neat word. she is Also a tortoiseshell though

[damnprecious]

one day I won't accidentally trigger a touch activated faucet and get soaked at work but it is not this day

[pa-pa-plasma]

i keep forgetting to make this post but i wanted to remind everyone that Kitty Softpaws is literally disabled

[tamagotchikgs]

i had such a cool dream i want to remember so bad but it's already so distant im aa,, REMEMBER!!!!!!!!!

[theradicalace]

idk who decided "soft lozenges" was an acceptable form for edibles but i'd very much like to smite them with lightning

[rosicheeks]

i do not know if i ever sent this to you. i have posted it. i hope you like it Princess.

[makkie-is-screaming]

ohh my god wait is my shoulder fucked up bc that time it got pulled out of place at school waittt