#i really want that fucking bird

[velveteen-vampire]

a comic spawned from @our-song-of-hope and i considering final fantasy weddings

[fiendishartist2]

guy who doesnt dance x guy who will drag you onto the dance floor

[untitledgoosegay]

re last reblog I do see fanfic culture pushing/replicating a certain model of "what trauma looks like," "how trauma works"

this is a problem across all areas of society obviously, but transformative works are, well, transformative. they're about crafting and modifying narratives where the fan-creator sees a flaw or a lack -- often for the better! don't get me wrong, I've done my fair share of "I take a hammer and I fix the canon," it's the main thing that gets my creative gears spinning -- but what happens when that "flaw" is simply a narrative not conforming to popular expectations?

some people just don't get PTSD from events that sound obviously traumatic. they're not masking, and they're not coping; they just straight-up didn't get the permanently-locked stress-response that defines PTSD. they walk away from a horrible experience going "well, that sucked, but it's over now." some people do get PTSD from events most people wouldn't find traumatic. we don't really know why some people get PTSD and others don't. but fandom has an idea of events that must be traumatizing, of a "correct" way to portray trauma. you see the problems with this lack of understanding in e.g. fans pressuring the devs of Baldur's Gate 3 to add dialogue where the player character badgers Halsin about his own feelings on his abuse -- because he must be traumatized, and his trauma must fit a certain mold and presentation of sexual trauma, under the mistaken impression that anything outside that narrow window is somehow "wrong" and disrespectful or even harmful to survivors.

take, for another example, the very common trope of a traumatized character who hates touch or sex "learning" to like touch or sex as a part of their healing process. certainly that can be healing for some people; other people will never like, or want, touch or sex, because of trauma or because they just don't. the assumption that someone who doesn't want sex or doesn't like to be touched must be traumatized, must be suffering from this perceived lack, is seriously harmful -- to asexual people, to people with sensory issues around touch, and to people for whom healing from trauma means freedom to refuse sex or touch.

and there's a secondary trope, one that's slightly more thoughtful but ultimately repeats the problem -- that once someone has learned that their boundaries will be respected, they'll feel it's safe to soften those boundaries. once they feel safe refusing touch or sex, they'll feel comfortable allowing it on their own terms. but many people don't, and many people won't! many people will simply never want to be touched, and never want sex, and they are not suffering or broken or lacking because of it. the idea that proving you'll respect someone's boundaries entitles you to test those boundaries -- the paradox is obvious, and yet this is something i've seen hurt (re-traumatize) people i care for.

people are imperfect victims. people don't heal in the ways you expect. many people have positive memories of their abuse, of their abusers. many people hurt others in the course of their trauma, in ways that can't easily be unpacked in a 5k oneshot. very few narratives of trauma and recovery actually fit the ones put forward by popular children's media and romance novels -- which are the ones I most see replicated in fandom spaces, because they provide the clearest narrative and easiest catharsis, and so they're easy and soothing to reach for.

that's not necessarily a bad thing! i am not immune to goopy romance tropes. i am not immune to teary catharsis. not every fic has to grapple with ugly realities. but there's a problem when these narratives become predominant, when people think they're accurate and realistic depictions of trauma, when the truth of trauma is unpleasant and uncomfortable, and doesn't fit any single narrative, let alone one of comforting catharsis

[moldy-flowers]

Why are... why are they so mad at the onigiri??

[spadefish]

i haven't posted anything in a while, so here, hold this. one of my commissioners wants me to draw dragon seteth + flayn, so here's my first stab at their designs.

[mochinomnoms]

I cannot for the life of me remember where I found the original meme but I knew I had to make a Jade version and that you'd probably appreciate it

THATS SIDON FROM THE BREATH OF THE WILD AND HE IS A SHARKMAN THAT I'D LIKE TO FUCK

but also this applies to jade as well ty a;sjdlnceilwnpwkb

[cozylittleartblog]

baby's first polymer clay creation

her name is Annette

[fairyofshampgyu]

he’s literally so beautiful and handsome

[puppppppppy]

Tell me about a song you like right now, maybe an animation you just watched that made you think thoughts and feel things

Only Acting by Kero Kero Bonito!! I want to make an animatic for Macaque using this song and some parts of Shadow Play and the s4 special.. although im still mapping it and deciding whether I want to use the radio edit or not lol

[ace-and-ranty]

Here's a thing that really stood out to me about Nessarose in Part 1. Don't remember if that was in the musical, but.

She tells Elphaba: "No, you shouldn't have."

And it really startled me, because. Let's rewind. Here's what happened: Elphaba walked out ahead of her father and sister, not sure why, startled the heck out of everyone by... being there... did her little "Let's get this out of the way" speech. And was slightly snide to Galinda who was being an absolute git to her.

Her father catches up, and snaps at Elphaba to "Stop making a spectacle of yourself".

Elphaba tells Nessa, "I shouldn't have popped off like that". And at this point, I was fully expecting Nessarose to say some inane soothing shit, like, "It's all right, let's forget it", or whatever, except no. She agrees. She agrees with their father that Elphaba:

A) Existing B) Defending herself by being kinda prickly

is Elphaba making an spectacle out of herself.

And this is immediately following her getting the shoes, in front of Elphaba, and immediately before she starts gushing on how this is her second chance, with no thought whatsoever that her sister is still stuck at home, alone with a father that hates her, and, I imagine, incredibly dull prospects for life.

It's like. Elphaba has been thought to make herself small and responsible for Nessa. But Nessa has also been taught to expect it. She expects Elphaba should put her well-being first. There is not a single moment of asking Elphie if she will be okay at home. There is never an attempt to step up to help her. Nessa has been brought up with the unspoken familial dynamic that it's Elphaba's fault she's in that wheelchair, and thus Elphaba's responsibility to atone for it, forever.

Which I imagine could make for a very juicy fall out between them in part two. Because how dare Elphaba put the well-being of Animals before Nessa's?.

[cybertron-smash-or-pass]

Knightverse Airazor

[non-un-topo]

A 19 thousand word chapter when the other chapters are like 2-7 thousand? This is fine!!!

[buttercupshands]

wait a minute

stop.

stop it.

[evidently-endless]

fellas is it gay to feel hope again when the sun shines

[akuma-tenshi]

got back into dislyte recently. idk how much i'm gonna be screaming about it on here but please know i have to start from scratch bc i lost my old account and i am VERY unhappy that they still won't give me falken back

[gutterclan]

🌙 Heavy or light sleeper, what are their dreams like? and 🙀What do they fear the most? for Gutterrat and Longpaw please?

ty for the ask anon! someone get gutterrat a redbull.