#i really needed this today ngl

[cosmicdreamgrl]

oh! the pinned post 🥺💗 it really suits with your theme huh?! haha but anyway... HI STEPH! i'm here because i've read it a post of yours that really messed up with my own feelings and decided to came here to easy that impostor feeling you're having about yourself and your creations. so i'm going to tell a little thing about my own experience: when i first started this 14 years ago i constanly compared my things with another ones, when tumblr got really viral in 2010/11 with all the harry potter's content i was in the middle of it feeling mediocre because i couldn't make a proper coloring and didn't even know how to put sharpen and etc. like the great ccs alreayd was doing at that time. i saw every big network birth and huge other creators receiving that great attention after me and constanly made the same questions that you made on your post. the worst one was: i will never be as talented or creative as this person will i? and that is the WORST feeling to have as a creator. because you started to doubt yourself, your talent, your colors... and we shouldn't do it because every person has his own colors, his own style. we shouldn't doubt about the encouraging comments people left on our posts or our work in general. every single one of us has his own way to see beauty, so we must believe in that. i took so long to make my bangtan blog because i was so afraid!!! afraid of the people but mostly afraid of myself. i talked about it not long ago on my blog. anyway, honey please don't let this feeling be more than you are! you're talented, there's no "oh you like that person's posts more because she/he is more talented than me" it's your brain trying to confused you. tumblr creators has often this feeling as my personal experience can tell 😖 i particularly am very glad that you started giffing, i really am. because you make things that you like, with your own personal way to make it, your comps are majestic, the choreo gifs, everything and would never be able to do that and it's all fine... i love to see the improvement on your things... but you don't have to be so HARD to yourself. let things be as they are. if you wanna make diff things, so make it, if you wanna keep as you are, so keep it. everything is fine as long as you're comfortable with it. i hope i could make sense, i hate english, but it's the only language i can talk with my friends so... 😔 sorry if i interpreted your vent post differently tho. wishing nothing but the best, sweet. if you need anything, i'm on a message away 🌷

before i begin answering this, thank you for checking in in general pat, it means a lot to know that at least one person cared enough to. also yes, i pinned your post (which i'm very much in love with wbk) and realized it matches my theme perfectly. go figure lol.

as for said vent post? i wish i could say it was a byproduct of the time of the month but as someone who works in a creative field for a living & is now a part time content creator for this site, i think the imposter syndrome is an unfortunate but inevitable side effect. am i aware that it's my own brain playing tricks on me? yes. does it stop it from happening? no. deep down, i know i'm good at what i do; in fact, there's so much i've gotten better at and i'm proud of myself for it but when you see other creators getting more attention and love for their work? yeah, it can be easy to spiral and doubt not only your abilities but your worth and what you actually contribute to this site.

i'm doing my best to undo this mentality, it's a work in progress to be sure. i know you and so many others appreciate my creations, that's what keeps me going on some days because if not, i think i would've quit ages ago. truth be told, sometimes i still feel like it but i do enjoy the process of making gifs and trying out new things, so don't worry i'm not going anywhere in that sense. but i was serious about taking a break from posting for a bit, i'm feeling the emotional drainage and i need some time to recover before i get back into the swing of things.

i digress, thank you for taking the time to reassure me and honestly just being one of the sweetest & most supportive people here. i couldn't be more grateful to have you in my life, i hope you take care and i hope you get better soon (i saw your post about having an infection, ooft). all my love as always 💞💗

[ar-mage-ddon]

to put it lightly i was possessed

[chrisbangs]

Bang Chan .:. My Pace MCountdown [180823]

[paintingskyblutf2]

[myokk]

Sebastian had a few days leave from duty so he visited Eloise😇😇

[galaxythreads]

time to start query round #5 (active torture, geneva convention violation, i need a forehead kiss)

[seventh-district]

“Why’s he call you Darlin’?”

on my knees begging my brain to stop trying to associate this song with Sam

[xxplastic-cubexx]

what is your favorite thing about charles and your favorite thing about erik? separately, as in what you like most about their characters :]

a devious question this one is, my friend!!! it's hard enough for me to explain my thoughts cohesively, but having to pick ONE thing i particularly love is difficult. with characters like charles and erik, theres been so much done with their characters over the decades and so they have so many components to them that make them so interesting and fun to observe. BUT I TRY FOR YOU TODAY. under the cut i kinda ramble and the size of this text box makin me anxious

i think if i were to be simple and broad, what i enjoy most about charles is his determination to help others, even if he isn't really thanked and/or if people don't even like him. ofc, this isn't to say he hasn't done wrong- to be honest, the fact he does wrong/questionable things at times is another aspect of him i really enjoy, maybe because- broadly speaking- he's meant to be altruistic (intent vs outcome and all that). i don't know if that's super exciting to most people, but it is for me

as for erik, my reason for liking him is easier to explain tbh. To Be Simple And Broad, his progression from villain to antihero over the decades has been fun to observe (as much as i have so far anyhow) and analyze. i think to be a bit more specific, him using his rage and pain as justifications for his villainous actions is definitely what compels me the most: hurt people hurt and the sort, an idea i've always found interesting (something something vicious cycles and the like). yet now, he recognizes this wasn't really. A Just Thing To Do and is beginning to change that, which i enjoy

[jade-len]

nothing says family bonding time like binge watching a kdrama for over 5 hours straight with your mom till 5 am when you were supposed to be studying and both asleep at least 3 hours ago ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[greyedian]

uh oh besties, it might be time for my (almost) annual Dishonored replay again

[psychicbluebirdmiracle]

hiiiiii <3

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(thanks for having fun lil conversations with me)

Awwwwww yall just keep finding ways to make my day better 😭

[juicezone]

lays down. chews on sippy cup straw. i am so bad at setting boundaries with friends and standing up for myself and my time. sigh

[xxplastic-cubexx]

was asked an important question today would i rather purchase the onslaught mpreg saga in all its glory or the entire textbook this-could-be-used-as-a-murder-weapon edition of whatever the hell was happening in house of m and the answer i gave was walking away too broke for either

[mikodrawnnarratives]

Thinking thoughts that may or may not make sense but whatever I'm throwing this out, may draw art later

Maggie "Ive drifted at sea for years, alone, why did you never pull me to shore?" Adrian "I tossed you the rope secured to the dock, I gave you an anchor" Maggie "I remain wet and cold, for you never pulled me back to land" Adrian "You wouldn't have wanted that, you'd have fought me, snapped and clawed to return to sea" Maggie "Because your land will flood soon, you are too foolish to see that and acclimate to the sea" Adrian "Nothing has flooded yet, it is dry and warm here" Maggie "it won't be for long. It will flood, you will drown, and leave me alone again, to drift at sea"

And.

Adrian "You wouldn't have wanted that, you'd have fought me, snapped and clawed to return to sea" Maggie "I wouldn't have when I was small. where were you? why didn't you pull me to shore" Adrian "I was small too, unaware I should have kept watch the sea" Maggie "No one was"

[kanene-yaaay]

Heya heya!

I am passing by to open another ask game! It's not anything specific, most just to interact and get some determination because I have this super important project I need to work on but can't get myself to truly sit down and write! So each ask I receive I will like write for half hour on it. You can ask anything!

🌹 Send this and I will share a snippet of that Ler! Lan Xichen fic I am writing

🌈 Send this and I will share a smol tickle headcanon or scneario in my head. It can be from any of my previous or current fandoms (Sanders Sides, BNHA, FMAB, PJO, MP100, MDZS, TGCF...)

🌱 + fic name and I will share some fun information or anything about this fic, other scenarios I wanted to write but didn't make to the fic etc etc

🍃 + fandom or character and I will drop some fics I recommend for it! Feel free to specify if you want tickle or non tickle ones, although I must warn that I will have recs only for BNHA, Sanders Sides and MDZS for this one :")

Besides that, feel free to send a random question or personal hc or a comment or any other thing you feel like, I will be happy anyway :DD

[000png]

survived new employee orientation day 👍