#i really like this car and i want it lol

[knifegremliin]

managed to avoid the phone call and still do what i needed to do B)

[inkskinned]

one of the things about having an unstable parent is that it can so easily ruin your future. you want to get out, but getting out takes having agency. it takes the resume and the grades and the stellar community service history.

but you have to choose your battles. you know if you sign up for an after-school activity, it'll be okay for a while, so long as the activity is parent-approved and god-fearing. over time, like all things, it will become an argument (i can't keep carting your ass to these things) or a weapon (talk to me like that again, see if you get to go to practice). sometimes, if you love the thing, it's worth it. but you also know better than to love something: that's how they get you. if you ever actually want something, it will always be the center of their attention. they will never stop threatening you with it. telling you of course i'm a good parent, i came to all of those stupid events.

you learn to balance yourself perfectly. you can either have a social life or you can have hobbies. both of these things will be under constant scrutiny. you spend too much time with her, you should be at home with family is equally paired with you're acting like this because you're addicted to what's on that goddamn screen. you cannot ever actually win, so everything falls within a barter system that you calculate before entering: do you want to learn how to drive? if so, you'll need to give up asking for a new laptop, even though yours died. maybe you can work on a computer at the library. of course, that would mean you'd be allowed to go to the library, which would mean something else has to bleed. nothing ever actually comes free.

and that bitter, horrible irony: you could be literally following their orders and it still isn't pretty. they tell you to get a job; they hate that your job keeps you late and gives you access to actual money. they tell you to do better in school; they say no child of mine needs a tutor. they want you to stop being so morose, don't you know there are people who are really suffering - but they revile the idea you might actually need therapy.

you didn't survive that fall the way other people would. you've seen other people scramble and get their way out, however they could. maybe you were made too-soft: the answer didn't come to you easily. it wasn't quick. it was brutal and nasty. some people even asked you why didn't you just work hard and escape during school? and you felt your head spinning. why didn't you? (they control your financial aid. they control your loan status. they love having that kind of thing). maybe in another life you got diagnosed sooner and got the meds you needed to actually focus and got attention from the right teachers who helped you clear hurdles to get up out of here - but for now? here?

the effort of trying. the effort of not-dying. that kind of effort was absolutely agonizing.

[dilfmobius]

i took a break from suits because the only reason i was there in the first place was for how absolutely batshit insane harvey specter is when it comes to mike ross and once mike went to prison i kinda went okay i think the shows run its course for me byeeee

anyway i just started s6 and i'm happy to see harvey specter is still batshit insane for mike ross

[maythray]

Ever Near, Travel Through Time.

[lightningmcqueeniloveyou]

Rewatch Cars 2 and wow Francesco has a big crush on Lightning, huh?

I mean, he watches Lightning race before going to sleep?

Make a custom bumber sticker, just for Lightning (which is the equivalent of those word booty shorts, as I've seen many people depict it lol, sure taunt your "competitor" by having his name on your ass, very intimidating, Francie)

He gives off major bratty guy having a crush and does not know what to do with it, so he stick to acting mean to catch the crush's attention.

He's the "I hate Lightning McQueen" then hang up pictures of him in his bedroom meme

Tbh it's ok, Francesco. I have a crush in Lightning too, i mean look at him!

If he looks at me like this, I'd trip over my own feet

[sysig]

is this where u take the requests? if not, apologies lol still learning tumblr, I WAS WONDERING IF MY VARGAS RELATED REQUESTOBER REQUEST COULD BE JAKE/NNY? i feel like jake/nny is SO looked past like its actually so cute, they could be doing anything THANK U IF THIS WAS THE WRONG PLACE SORRY MWAH MWAH X

Day 12 - Once you had one hole in your skin, you've had 'em all

[moregraceful]

max and i are closing in on launching [redacted sports rpf charity fest] and i am once again pondering how do i write "experience with writing form emails and manipulating google forms in ways no one has dreamed of" in a cover letter without saying "i did it for the rpf grind"...like there's no way unless everyone in this microsoft teams meeting gets really cool about a bunch of stuff really quickly. you know

[existencebringsonlypain]

thought you guys could appreciate this

[dawnthefluffyduck]

New game interest unlocked

(crow in bottom right belongs to @patchwork-crow-writes)

[mgu-h]

i’m a fan of both max and lando and i think the reason i’m able to celebrate lando winning without feeling too much angst about max getting second is that max is a fucking legend in the sport. he’s earned so many records, won multiple championships, he has a full page spread in will buxton’s new book lmao, he’s ascended to a tier of greatest of all time. he has nothing to prove to anyone except himself. lando had only won once before today and has literally everything to prove to everyone!! now is the moment for him to prove himself, prove that he belongs on top and has the steely nerves it takes to shrug off the pressure and perform, instead of being insecure and underperforming over and over. i want nothing more than for him to show his worth and it fills me with so much pride and satisfaction to see him finally getting wins, it’s been years in the making to get him here, it’s his time and he’s doing ittt

[coquelicoq]

was telling a friend about the double today and got to the part where jiang li stops xue fangfei from killing herself by saying she has to live because she can't get revenge if she's dead. and my friend was like wait what french novel does this remind me of? and i was like babe. it reminds you of the count of monte cristo. the double is better though.

[monkee-mobile]

may or may not have combined mike nesmith with chappell roan…

[m0e-ru]

P4G Anime Adachi’s car - Lexus/Altezza IS200

P4 Dojima’s car - Land Rover (idk the exact model really it's a standard japanese right hand drive with a left side tailgate tire apparently)

P4G Anime Marie's guitar - G&L Telecaster Blueburst

P4 Visualive Attendant's shoes - Bapesta Nigo era Orange-Black Halloween limited edition 👍

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[icewindandboringhorror]

It's always interesting to hear about people's weird/unexpected "alternate life paths". Like, something that you could have done with your life, a job you almost took, a school you almost went to, etc - that was still actually realistic enough that it could have happened, but NOW it seems to not suit your current personality.

Like for example, I currently hate advertising (how manipulative it is, brands trying to be 'relatable', social media amplifying it to an obnoxious extreme, etc.) so much that even seeing a little ad before a youtube video is grating to even witness, but there was a point in time where I was genuinely seriously considering going into marketing/making commercials as a career lol. Or like, I have a relative who was very inclined to be a pastor when they were younger, even though today they're a super strong atheist, etc. etc.