#i rant therefore I am

[hologramcowboy]

Warning: Unpopular opinion coming up:

I don't get why Jensen or any other actor, for that matter, chooses to make a convention that should be about his fans about himself and his home life. You're an actor, be professional. It's pedestrian to talk about your wife or family and it is also inconsiderate towards the fans that pay big amounts to get to spend time with you. Give them more than what they can get at every street corner. If I want a conversation with some guy about how he moves furniture like a slave for his wife I can have that with a neighbour. If I'm paying to go see a concert or a convention, etc. I want a unique experience not a pedestrian one. Give me art, give me connection, give me craft, show you are a professional and position yourself casting wise by displaying all the qualities that make you You rather than speaking about mundane, frankly super boring things that shouldn't even be my business anyway. Entertain like a real artist!

I know this post makes me sound like a snob but being an actor is all about a game of seduction with your audience(in a good way, a way that creates attraction+empathy). People tune in to actors because they want to see extraordinary people overcome extraordinary circumstances, they want to see themselves in you, they crave deep connection and emotions. Act like a star not married dude number 38574.

Ok, rant done. Sorry, I just had to let all of that out.

*bumper sticker uhhhh

[hologramcowboy]

Busting some myths here:

Contrary to popular belief, most drama schools/academies do not effectively prepare actors for the business of acting and for the set. "Drama school" a prepared working actor does not make. In fact, most people who graduate have no clue how to even navigate the acting business or the set and thus never book much if anything at all. The select few who do are those who spend time studying way beyond their drama school's curriculum and especially key things about the inner workings of their business. They align with the expectations of CDs and other Buyers by creating a compelling acting package (marketing) and showing people how to cast them. Acting is a business and merely knowing how to act or having raw talent is but a small part of what being an actor entails. So actors who go to drama schools need to ensure they pick one that also trains them on the business of acting and on set acting effectively.

As far as I know, Misha did not attend "drama school". He attended an acting class, just like most actors in L.A., prior to this, he graduated from a University that had zero to do with acting.

Casting directors do not care you went to Tisch if your are unable to act. They want people who train with those who perfectly prepare them for the set and the business: for example, Amy Lyndon or Ivana Chubbuck hold more weight on an acting resume than any drama school. Why? Because these two coaches have a proven record of training highly effective actors who are not only great at performing but also master the other aspects of their business. In other words, they create actors that can be fully relied upon on and off set, actors that will deliver every time.

You should never ever compare performances, each actor is unique and may make different choices within the same scene. Example: a bold beautiful woman doing the same scene as Sam might choose to play it seductively while someone else might choose sarcasm, etc. depending on the choices they make as the character and their inner work as an actor. So comparing Jared to a female actress' reaction shot is pointless. Jared doesn't have to fulfill the scene like she would have and the same goes viceversa. An actor needs to display organic behavior.

Contrary to another popular belief, crying during scenes can be an extremely weak choice unless the inner work behind it stems from empowering choices. Audiences don't tune in to see people emotionally masturbate with their pain and other emotions, they tune in to see real people make dynamic choices to overcome obstacles and reach their objectives. In fact, the worst kind of actor you can be is one that emotionally masturbates instead of taking those emotions and using them as fuel, as a catalyst.

Acting on camera is a completely different world compared to acting on stage. Movement is much more restrained and behavior needs to be organic not histrionic.

Jared Padalecki is currently at leading man tier in his career. Which means he has consistently proven to industry professionals that he is a reliable, credible, professional, dedicated actor and he achieved this through his credible performances. Just like any actor, he has his off moments but, overall, he has fully earned his tier level through his work.

Jared made plenty of choices for Sam, the only difference between him and Jensen/Misha is that his choices were made seamlessly, organically and thus they won't stick out in the mind of someone who sees acting through the theatre lens because Jared was not acting histrionically, he was making choices for his character based on his character's core psychology which is what all effective actors do on a film set. Also, want to add that over acting and histrionic choices as opposed to organic behavior should not be praised as standards when it comes to tv and film acting. Example: Jensen copying JDM's voice and doing so in a way that made it very obvious Dean's voice was a fake, adopted one is not considered top tier acting and neither are a lot of choices Jensen made for Dean. Same goes for Misha, can't say this enough but playing the idea of what you think or imagine an angel is is not top tier acting. This is not to say that Jensen or Misha didn't have things that worked perfectly, they did but I am just pointing out there's a huge difference between stage and tv/film acting, they are entirely different universes and must be approached as such, making histrionic choices will never land anyone in the A list. (To see an example of an actor evolving from mediocre to A list have a look at Ryan Gosling's performance as Hercules compared to any A list role he performed)

Supernatural never was the top tier of acting, the entire series, except for key brilliant moments of some actors during certain scenes, was mediocre acting wise. No highly trained actor or professional could ever say otherwise. What made the show work despite low budget, plot holes, etc was the family centered bond theme and the very realistic chemistry between the leads. Those two things overpowered the poor CGI and all the other issues that made SPN mediocre and it allowed it to develop into something iconic. Jared and Jensen played a key part in this and none of them could have carried the show to the same success on their own.

Over time, Jared evolved to the point of being able to carry a show on his own and that, I would say, is the culmination of dedicated inner work and professionalism. 🧡

To make this short, unless you are a working actor with receipts of your work or are training with the people in the industry who form working actors, be careful about disseminating misleading information about acting and, more specifically, performances. I love reading different perspectives but let's ensure we're not disseminating outdated paradigms about acting, especially at the expense of actors who have more then proven themselves as booking machines. This isn't to say one can't review a performance if so they desire, that is always beautiful, I merely mean to point out that when it comes to core industry concepts that apply to working actors, there's a lot to consider and, if you're going to express an opinion about professional acting and frame it as a professional opinion, you need to truly be in touch with all the aspects of the acting industry.

Please feel free to ignore my post, I just felt like sharing key things that most people online miss precisely because they are not trained/informed enough. It makes me sad to notice people get stuck on superficial concepts instead of truly exploring the depth of an actor's work.

Jared's weird acting in Supernatural

I saw, some time ago, someone mention that Jared Padalecky acting isn't great, and that thought hasn't left my mind ever since. I looked around the internet and a lot of people had very different opinions. I myself am a drama student and I actually worked on stage before, so I thought I'll add my thoughts as I'm rewatching SPN right now.

Do I think “Jared is such a bad actor”? Absolutely no. I think he is a mediocre actor, and in some places even a good actor. Bad is a strong word. He is surrounded by other good actors, so it's easy to just say based on one bad acting choice. To me, it's not like he can't act, but rather doesn't want to. Like he gave up after season 5, and it confused the hell out of all of us.

Ironically enough, what people praised him for in the posts I saw were the exact problems I have with his acting, and what they said was bad in any of the actors' performances weren't their choices. It really made me wonder if the people who talked about it knows anything about acting and being a main character. And like, obviously they don't, they are just random Tumblr and Twitter users, why would they have any experience with professional acting.

So here is what I think about Jared's acting:

He is so stiff, it's like I'm looking at a not fully alive Pinokio. His body is stiff, his head is stiff, his face is stiff. His expressions are limited. And I'm talking about moments where there is absolutely no reason for his character to be so stiff. It doesn't make him look more uptight or on edge, just constantly very awkward and annoyed at everything. There are many moments where Sam would stay frozen while Dean was talking with him or someone else on a crime scene, then robotically move after Dean out of frame making big steps and kind of flexing his entire body. Why???? Like I said, it just makes him look like he's super awkward and annoyed all the time, which does not make sense for Sam.

He barely reacts to what's happening on screen. I was just editing S04E20 “Rapture” where we meet Jimmy Novak, Castiel vessel, and when Jimmy was talking to his wife Amelia, played by Wynn Everett, I was just wowed. Misha gave such an amazing performance, with his voice, with his body, his face. And that's when it cuts to Amelia, silent for almost the entire time, cheeks wet with drying, silent tears, face full of so many unspoken emotions. I stopped and checked the actress. Both she and Collins finished drama school, and you can see that. And then I remember Sam's reaction to Dean talking about Hell. LOOK AT IT! LOOK. AT. IT.

I just can't. If that was the only moment like this, I wouldn't mention it, but this happens constantly. “He listens so well” YEAH, AND? He just listens, nothing more. You can both emotionally react and listen silently. Just to be fair, here is the scene with Amelia I was talking about, for comparison.

His character doesn't feel very real. This isn't fully his fault, but he didn't help much either. Dean cleaned blood on the knife on a demon's coat. He has stolen money from the vamp he killed. He wore samlet and a unique leather jacket (both were written off because of problems with them IRL) and had a room that screamed “Dean's room”. Cas wore a trench coat and incorrectly tied tie backwards. He tilted his head when thinking or confused in a specific way. He would not sit, usually just stand. He would put his hand on a specific shoulder of Dean. That's all from memory. With Sam, I can't really think of any small things that were specific to him. Costume and set design were not his choice. He could suggest something, but that doesn't mean anyone had to listen to it. However, little gestures like Dean and Cass did were something he had a big say in. I don't see them much with him, but there are some.

I could say more, but that were the main points, there's no need to nick pick it. I originally planned to also defend him (and other actors, btw), because he often wasn't given much to work with and both him and Misha had to play Lucifer differently than the good OG Lucy. That's how the director wanted it, and the director's word is sacred.

[dragon-ashes1485]

TROP s2 ep7. A rant.

Firstly, this episode has been such a joy to watch, secondly, my heart rate is concerning.

Galadriel:

I loved the scene where she was in the cage, completely ready to die, because she wants to make things right. The scene with Celebrimbor was fantastic, at any moment I expected it to actually be Sauron, but the gentle way she talks to him and held his face like a child broke my heart. Phenomenal acting on both sides and the music was also amazing. Her kindness towards Arondir broke me. Her advising him against seeking out Adar was pure irony given her hunt against Sauron.

Galadriel sneaking around in that orc cloak was so stressful, even though we know she lives.

She seems kinder than in previous episodes, perhaps a result of no longer being around the ring? Or maybe she's just realising everything is going wrong. Either way, can't wait to see where her character goes next.

Elrond:

This guy. I loved how at first he looked ready for battle, but that he was also terribly afraid. But something seemed to switch in his character when his horse was killed and his pure anger there really shocked me. Also absolute savage for sending that orc flying.

I would like to take a moment to admire that he pauses to briefly mourn his horse.

The stunts that he performed are insane in this episode, and I love how Arondir keeps him safe throughout the later part of the battle.

"Durin will come" was such an important part to me, Elrond really looks like a young boy, as if he were sat on the beach during the third kinslaying again. I think the way that was portrayed was breathtaking.

And how he sits, looking up at Adar, completely ready to give in, broke me, he is utterly defeated. He has been abandoned once more (I know there were reasons but that's probably how Elrond feels). He then tries to stab Adar, but it is clear from where he aims for that he doesn't want to kill Adar, he wants to hurt him. His sigh when Adar got the ring kind of made me laugh, he's so done with all this crap.

I can't wait to see the aftermath of this.

Minor characters:

Camnir: so glad he was not in this episode or I would have cried.

Vorohil: please let this guy live. I will be sad.

Rian: I am sad. But absolute props to her for that savage arrow in her final moments.

Narvi: he just watched his kin be killed by his own king...let Narvi be ok.

Celebrimbor:

Ow. I hurt. Charles Edwards is an absolute gem, no he may not "look right" for Celebrimbor, but his potrayal of Celebrimbors descent was amazing.

Also, props to the set team for the scene where the forge transforms into its true state.

He tries so hard to fight against Sauron, he literally cuts his own thumb off. His own. Thumb. And when he's caught by the guards, he tries so hard to explain. I was so scared they'd just hand him back to Sauron until Galadriel showed her face.

I feel like I need to mention Mirdania. She was another product of Sauron's deception. Her death was horrifying and...I just can't even. Her naivety to believe "Annatar" about Celebrimbor, a man she greatly admired, was so sad, and then for her to spend her last moments believing that Celebrimbor had killed her? Ouch.

Celebrimbor tried so hard to escape, only to do what a true lord of Eregion would do, return to the only place he could protect it from, and the place he had just escaped. His bravery really shines through, and in the end it is he who comforts Galadriel.

ps: shot on the left is fantastic.

Sauron:

Still a bitch. But now with Darth Vader powers for some reason. Probably about to destroy Alderaan. I have no more to say.

Adar:

Yea I'm expecting a full orc rebellion next episode. He doesn't care as much as he did about his children which is why they were loyal to him in the first place. Glûg stayed behind when the others went to fight so I think that says a lot. It'll be interesting to see where that goes. I also hate him now because Arondir.

Durin:

Durin's speech was so middle-earthy I loved it. And then it goes to shit. I love that he got Narvi on side. The scene where he sees Elrond again means so much to me, there has not been enough of these two in this series and I really hope ep8 rectifies that, particularly after what happened (or rather, didn't happen) on the battlefield.

I love that Durin admires Elrond's new hair, as he should, it is fabulous. ALSO WHERE IS DISA. I swear if Disa dies, then I do too.

Look at this dwarf in his element. Also eff his dad, his dad is a prick.

He's really starting to come into his own, fighting against the evil. And you can see later how much his father's actions hurt him because not only does it mean he can't aid Eregion, but his father has killed dwarves. His own kind.

Amazon, please be kind to Durin next episode.

Gil-Galad:

Not much to say except from look at this boi in all his regalia. Love it when you see a monarch actually in the fighting, makes you like them. Especially as Gil-Galad has not been the most likeable chap this series.

Arondir:

Anyone needs me, I will be crying. That's all I have to say.

Overall thoughts on episode:

Battle sequence was 10/10. The effort put into this show amazes me. Fantastic acting from everyone, namely Charles Edwards, Charlie Vickers, Robert Aramayo and Morfydd Clark (ok fine, everyone). Well done to all the stunt horses as well, such good horses. Bear McCreary's soudntrack shone this episode, including so many characters themes. Also the last ballad of Damrod in the credits!

I am both anticipating and dreading next episode. What will happen with Celebrimbor? And what of Khazad-Dum? How will Adar use the ring? And will we need a box of tissues?

[sophiasrant]

i think that damijon 'pick your ship' poll is so funny bc the tags are just this

damijon.shipper: #im so proud of us! look how far we've made it!

other-person: #i dont even like the other ship #i just want damijon to lose #anyone who ships damijon should be cancelled

[marblerose-rue]

wyll (as a warrior cat)

[surlynotaperson]

Its kinda funny people use Allied MasterComputer as AM’s “full name” usually, when its actually Cogito Ergo Sum by all things considered

[crystallizsch]

hi ian i come bearing angst fuel for the yuusha as twsted elsa (maybe an idea for her possible overblot idk she kinda reads to me as someone whod preemptively isolate in the case she feels...blotty)

(also seeing that art of her playing violin totally didnt fuck me up im still nursing my bruised heart 🥴🥴💕💕)

https://youtu.be/NDldNaEZTt8?si=Wm71pgTltuJLjFvk

^^this is from the frozen musical where they gave a song to elsa to explore her emotional turmoil and it just fleshed out her character so much more than the orig movie (ok i havent seen frozen 2 oops) but just this section here:

Is everyone in danger as long as I'm alive?

Was I a monster from the start?

How did I end up with this frozen heart?

Bringing destruction to the stage

Caught in a war that I was never meant to wage

anyways lmao i jus think the song is neat i think yuushas neat (i wanna see more of her ahehehe i love seeing infodumps abt ur yuus)

-diodellet

(throwback to this “what if yuu had magic” ask where i had a ✨realization✨ and this more recent yuusha lore drop that i gave zero elaboration on 🙃)

very rough ob yuu design??? idk i came up with it on the spot ;;; and it’s kinda based on disney’s concept art of elsa when she was supposed to be the villain.

evil ice queen vibes :3

also i know the ob monster is supposed to be based on the villain— which is elsa in this case— but lowkey. an ice monster is way cooler.

also also i just realized after i drew this i couldve done a grim/yuu tandem overblot ough 🤧🤧 (next time I'll do that instead if i ever go back to this concept)

(read more below because it got SO long)

AAH anyways hi hi dio!!! when i saw your ask i went —

— with this entire post

AAGH HOW MANY MORE UNINTENTIONAL CONNECTIONS ARE GOING TO BE BETWEEN FROZEN AND YUUSHA

i guess watching the movie everyday when it came out when you’re like 9 does something to your brain chemistry (and still haunts you at least a decade later) 💀

but anyways the angst ;;; overblot yuu ;;;;; my brain is rotting and the worms have taken over

also i didn’t even know that there was a frozen broadway musical so im gonna have to check it out later 🏃💨💨💨

(also dont worry frozen 2 is a nice watch for the most part but the way they concluded the characters did not feel 100% satisfying to me 😭 BUT i love some of the songs tho ;;; kristoff’s goofy 80s ballad song is one of them specifically, i need everyone to listen to it)

hfgnnfhfgv anyways thank you so much i’m chugging that angst fuel as i expand more on a possible ob yuusha with another infodump 💪💪💪

⚠️⚠️⚠️ ALSO IM SORRY BUT mentions of taking one’s own life so please proceed with caution ⚠️⚠️⚠️

i had to reread what my initial thoughts about it bc it was months ago??? and after rereading im just like, huh what was i on— (just that feeling when you just cringe at your old posts ;; but idk i think the insanity/cringe sometimes can loop back into being a genius and the cycle just continues)

anyways i’ve been on and off writing yuusha’s bio and overblot yuu was just at the back of my mind chilling but i didn’t really do anything with it.

but now that i have the opportunity,,,, im gonna go on the magicless route this time bc i feel like I've said all what i thought if it was an overblot due to her own magic.

so uh from what i gather overblots are a mix of overuse of magic + intense negative emotion.

since it’s magicless yuu, i guess the one of the general headcanons around the fandom is that they’ve been too exposed to overblots and then intense negative emotions suddenly just triggered their overblot.

uh anyways onto the elsa parts

Is everyone in danger as long as I'm alive? Was I a monster from the start? How did I end up with this frozen heart? Bringing destruction to the stage Caught in a war that I was never meant to wage

THE LYRICS ARE SO GOOD ;;; i really love how some broadway interpretations expand on the source material

and yeah you're right 🤧🤧🤧— yuusha would try to hide and escape, especially as she overblots bc she would try to avoid hurting people (and like elsa, it'd only hurt others more trying to escape bc of probably how she leaves destruction in her wake trying to make others stay away from her 😔)

(this is a small tangent but i remember thinking about an overblot kalim and i imagine him to be similar, like he would not hurt anyone intentionally in his overblot.)

anyways so the way it would go is that i imagine her friends got fatally injured either because a) she feels that she’s too “useless” without magic to help and wasn’t able to do anything OR b) her attempts at helping to try and prove that she can help without magic made everything worse.

and then she just goes into a guilty spiral then boom — overblot.

ALSO in the song, the way elsa briefly contemplated taking her own life but then realizing there’s no guarantee that would solve anything hnghgh (<- another unintentional parallel to my yuusha lore because that’s actually how she ended up in twst except she did NOT have the latter realization)

there’s this “yuu is dead” theory i’m just using and that the black carriage actually just caught yuusha’s soul after she took her own life from all the burden.

also some bonus angst context for that violin post :3

yuusha back in her homeworld is raised and known to be a gifted musician. people can feel the life and soul in her music but when people interact with her, they are usually met with an ice-cold (heh) personality.

the dead family member was the one who taught her music and the only one who was kind to her.

there’s always an expectation from her family to perform well and to keep up appearances as to not be a humiliation since anything she does can reflect on her entire family. (also hi, slight yuusha/jamil parallels maybe???)

the way she presents herself also stemmed from an incident as a child when she went apeshit on another kid bc she was defending a friend.

so from then on she was taught taught to conceal don’t feel those emotions — which just unfortunately extended to any positive ones, not just negative ones like rage.

so when she is brought to twst, there’s no memory of her being forced to hold back her emotions so she’s just unapologetically affectionate and open with everyone bc that’s how she really is.

but every now and then, memories of her breaking down haunt her in her dreams or as subtle reminders in the waking world.

then yuusha just goes on her day like she just wasn't reminded of her past.

(unnecessarily tragic lore my beloved, but anyway—)

another extremely brief tangent and bonus -> the two songs i had on loop while drawing pre-twst yuusha

lindsey stirling my beloved i love her music

the songs are such a vibe

her instrumentals in “lose you now” especially makes me feel some sort of way 😖

[blackbirdffxiv]

I've been playing FFXIV for a while. I've been a healer main in the game for a while. I am also a notoriously salty healer. And all I'm gonna say is this;

If you, a tank/DPS/co-healer/whatever, bully sprouts/first-timers because you're impatient and "this run is going too slow"

I will gladly let you die (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠)

As many times necessary until you stop being a twat.

You help a sprout grow with water and care, not salt and impatience. You want to do a run as fast as possible without worry of wipes? Queue with friends next time.

[triglycercule]

alright!!!! kitchen CLEANED ‼️ carry on PACKED ‼️ now i just need to do my homework and then maybe take a really really really quick (4 hour long) nap before dinner/online class. then i will grind on the silly silly why did i decide to do this animation meme/animatic until 3 am hits and i've gotta hit the port. the AIRport :3

in exchange for my incredible unprecedented productiveness i made this little doodle just now. i'm actually a liar i did this in school but still

[hologramcowboy]

Elta stans, I tag all of my content appropriately so that whoever disagrees with me may miss me entirely if so they choose. So, the question is, why are you still coming to this blog? Purposefully seeking out drama? In the hopes of what? Your leader is a plastic, no talent, brainless bimbo who is known for going on psychotic rampages towards whoever even remotely disagrees with the idea of her. Why do you follow in such footsteps? Do you really not see the lack of balance in having a one sided view of anyone or anything? Can you really not be better than Danneel? I think you can, you just have to want to. I’m not here to argue with anyone, I have a strong personality, I get that, I’m not everyone’s cup of tea, I get that too, just like I get that the world is diverse and diverse views are what make it truly beautiful. I don’t have to agree with you just as you don’t have to agree with me. Reality is subjective to the perceiver. The difference is I don’t go around bullying you on your blogs through anonymous asks, in fact, I don’t go on your blogs at all. I sometimes receive screenshots and that’s the extend of my exposure to you. What saddens me the most is you truly don’t realize how you are letting Danneel turn you into a mindless, heartless bunch of bullies with no perception of diversity, no ability to comprehend nuance. Stanning someone blindly is toxic, especially when that someone could care less about her “fans” (most are full on stalkers). I hope you focus more on Your life, your goals, your beauty instead of getting caught up in worshiping a woman that is a terrible rolemodel. I say this kindly, you deserve better in life.

[stargirlfeyre]

Family abuse/violence is so normalized that it’s really mind blowing, specially between siblings. If your partner threatened to slit your throat if you just talked to someone, many people would see that as abuse. If your partner repeatedly verbally assaulted you, many people would consider that abuse. If your partner told you that no one would care/remember if you die, many would say that they’re abusive. But if your sibling does these things, it’s considered normal sibling rivalry. Where’s the line? Apparently, someone can stab you, mock you every day, destroy your self esteem, threaten you, but if they’re your family - especially if they’re your sibling - it’s okay.

Yup. It’s also a lack of respect. People think they can treat their family any kind of way because “well that’s my family they’re always going to love me at the end of the day”.

You can say you love your family all you want but that love means nothing if you don’t respect them. That’s why so many people think it’s okay to threaten your siblings or to be vile to them. That’s why they think it’s okay to cross boundaries in arguments and give a half assed apology and excuse with “that’s just how siblings fight”. Not that’s how siblings who don’t respect one another fight.

You can love your family yes. You can care if they’re hurt however the way you treat them in their day to day life is what matters. And it’s funny how so many people get on here to flex their toxic relationship with their family to defend the Archerons when all they’re yelling to everyone is “I come from a toxic household and I’ve normalized not holding any respect for my siblings”.

And look I’m no stranger to sibling fights. I have four of them (2 little sisters, 1 older sister, 1 older brother), I know all about the screaming matches that you get into with your siblings however I can confidently sit here and say not once have I ever crossed a boundary that has done serious damage to my relationships with them.

I’ve never threatened physical harm on them, I’ve never called them sluts or used their personal issues against them, and I have never fucking stabbed them😭. And that’s not something I should be given a pat on the back for because it’s literally normal. Respecting your siblings enough to not want to hurt them (even when you’re arguing) should be the standard but because toxicity in households is normalized, people now call you too sensitive if you go “hey maybe that’s too harsh to say to someone who you literally share blood with”.

[5-htagonist]

i am genuinely so crazyyyy about lbruuuuu.... like Genuinely Genuinely. its pretty bad guise

[dollsome-does-tumblr]

rewatched small potatoes, and jesus christ, what a premise for your lighthearted comedy episode 😡

[theragamuffininitiative]

Ah, for the people who have blocked me bc I am simply (and reasonably) asking for proof of the validity of wildly circulated misinformation based on nothing but hearsay that is actively damaging hurricane relief efforts, and stirring even greater division among our fellow citizens:

I sincerely hope you have done so for reasons of not discoursing on the internet with a stranger in a way that for you is detrimental to your mental health, and not bc you refuse to acknowledge and discuss the possibility that you might be wrong.

One thing is very healthy, the other is very dangerous and sad.

[ayakashibackstreet]

Anyways, worked on the conference paper today, I'll make like four more slides for the presentation and I think we'll be dandy

[bombshellsandbluebells]

oh feeling really low right now

feeling the hopelessness and the depression, feeling all sorts of ways about not really having a purpose or putting anything of value in the world, had a weird train of thought about how I can't really be helping the world because I'm not gifted in the STEM fields and what's art really going to do, huh?

so trying really really hard to remember how important art is, a thing I preach about literally all the time and suddenly can't believe